#lots of rambles

[her-midas-touch]

So I just kinda want to put this out there, I love jegulus and how we’ve created it from literal scraps of characters that have never interacted, built up into a popular ship by amazing fanfic writers and we’re pretty much free to hc it however we like.

But like, I personally feel like the whole “James’s reaction to Reg being a death eater” thing needs to be talked about a bit more. If it were to happen I don’t think James would completely be on board with it initially. I get it, he loves Reg, but he is his own character independent of their relationship too.

Like realistically, even if we do hc him as a bit of a sunshine character, if you consider his upbringing and moral compass, he would, at the very least, feel betrayed and conflicted. At war with his feelings for Regulus and the side Regulus appears to stand for.

And especially since he’s so fierce about the people he loves it’s even more of a blow, not only because Regulus is a death-eater but also because there’s nothing James could really do to stop it or save him this time if Regulus had made his choice and doesn’t let him, which, considering his feelings about what he deserves and other factors, he probably wouldn’t.

My point being, let’s not undermine character complexity here. That’s kind of what jegulus is all about to me. It’s not just simply a love against odds, it’s quite literally how far would you go to keep the person you love?

Knowing what the stakes are, knowing what choices they’ve made, and finding out about it and not being able to stop it.

It’s about staying as long as they let you, and loving with your whole heart even after you’ve seen everything, every ugly and beautiful part and even everything that goes against your beliefs and acknowledging that but still knowing there’s good, and believing in that good and not choosing.

Really all you can do is love. When everything inevitably falls apart, love is the only remaining legacy, hidden but very much still real while it lasted.

Not choosing a side but having that fleeting, temporary safe place in the middle where you steal moments of pure happiness, probably some of Reg’s happiest, knowing it might not last but indulging in it anyway. A great love that could go so differently if circumstances were better.

Being forced to choose between sides except it’s never that simple, because to James, Regulus is good and beautiful and absolutely lovely and he sees that, can’t really think different of it, despite everything and I think as much as this would probably have him be conflicted, he’d want answers. He’d want explanations But deep down it probably stems from being concerned for Regulus and want to do something to protect him, save him.

Not letting go for as long as they can and loving what they have forever and against all odds.

And that’s kind of the beauty of it.

#canon jegulus #james x regulus #regulus x james #jegulus #starchaser #sunseeker #lots of rambles

[manonamora-if]

i dont know if u feel up for it to answer but like... how do u handle negative comments and ratings and just people being negative about ur stuff? bc i have someone just being rude in comments or like notes and game folders on itch and its making me want to just delete everything and never show anyone anything anymore. or even have an acocunt on itch either.

Hi Anon,

I'm sorry you've been dealing with this, and that it took me so long to answer. I've been thinking about this for a while honestly. I've been writing a bunch of drafts for this one, because my answer seems to change with the day or my mood. Some of my stuff have had some strange interactions lately that's made me question whether I should stay on itch myself. I mean, I don't think I'll ever leave... there are too many fun jams I want to participate and, you know, to force people to play my weird stuff. But I've been more anxious about new stuff or updates I share recently.

I don't blame you for wanting an out. Some users will poison one's experience of a platform, that even opening the site would give them anxiety. It doesn't take much to have events or projects soured. Often, just a few rude words is enough to make accounts disappear without a word. And many platform don't have good safety nets (blocking, moderation, reports) to temper or avoid these situations. Many will have half-ass solutions that, at the end of the day, still allows interactions from blocked users. It's easy to wonder if all of this is worth it...

Anyway, the very boring and short answer to your question: it depends.

The probably as boring and long one is a bit of a ramble:

It depends on the day, or the mood I have. It's easier to deal with comments when I'm confident and things are going find; but I'd feel more hurt or have a harder time dealing with them when I'm a bit more morose (I think most people feel this way). I'll disregard any (even barely) negative points some days, only to take it into consideration a few days later. <- this especially during jam/comps time, just need time to digest criticism of any kind.

It also depends on the content of the comment, their tone, and intent of the commenter. Not all negative comments are on the same level. I've had negative comments in the past where the commenter was genuine, and really gave my stuff a shot, bringing interesting points or important concerns. And though it hurt a bit, because being told you made a mistake sucks, those helped me grow. But those are the good kinds of comments...

On the other hand, I try to disregard the trolls, and the abusive comments (towards my work or me), the ones where the engagement was clearly not done in good faith... you know, the ones who will literally tell me I've made the world worse by uploading my games on itch. Doesn't mean that it doesn't affect me at all*. Some of them really hurt or made me angry and frustrated, some have lingered for hours or days in my mind, a few made me close to delete stuff as well. Words are not just empty things without meaning... *I've had to block a few people both here and other places recently because of it, they had become so insistent on wanting to engage with me while bashing most of my work, my values or the few aspects of my identity that I've shared online.

It would be easy to say I just don't give them the time of day or any of my energy, or that I pretend they don't exist, because, if I do, then the trolls win. But that would be lying. Obviously.

Screaming to the void/a pillow or ranting to friends have helped get rid of my anger and frustration. I've laughed with others about some comments I got (usually the bad faith ones, some of them are funny in how sad/bad they were). I think what worked best for me was just turn off the computer and go outside for a bit. Or turned off the internet and play silly games on my phone. Or picked up a book. Or watch a movie. Essentially, any activity that would distract me from it and force me to take a break. And when none of this worked, because some trolls are just that insistent, blocking/deleting stuff*. *unfortunately, it's not always possible, see second paragraph again.

It does suck that you're kinda forced to grow a thicker skin to enjoy or even exist in those spaces, and I wish those would be friendlier... but I don't think social platforms/the internet is going in that direction anytime soon.

Maybe not super helpful to your decision, but borogove.io hosts IF games (without ratings or comments, though people can download the files), so does the IFDB through the IFArchive (but there are ratings/reviews there, also can be downloadable). I've seen other peeps host their stuff on neocities (no ratings/comments). None of those platforms are like itch, in the positives or the negative. Or just be old school, and email stuff.

#ask box #gosh I wish I had more concrete stuff to help #or a more positive mindset on things #but yea #I hope things get better for you anon #and that you find what's best for you! #lots of rambles #sorry

[ricawcaw]

1 and 13 for Jack!

We love our little Jackie uwu 1.What was your muse's personality like as a kid? How has it changed since then? As a kid she was pretty happy and kept herself busy, that hasn't changed. She had responsibilities instilled in her early on, the benefits of being a part of a community. As a kid she was much more brash and bold, she had less finesse socially so she often put her foot in her mouth and said things without thinking even far past the age where that was 'cute'. She eventually learned better, sick of hurting feelings and making the people around her feel bad. Particularly Felicity. She learned to use tact, learned when to keep her mouth shut, how to use words with intent rather than saying things how it makes sense to her, to be less impulsive and think more before she acted. Due to the circumstances surrounding why she left home, she just shut it all down even further. So she's charming but almost painfully affable, hiding so much of herself behind a mask and sometimes not taking the steps to act when she needs to.

13. What did your muse want to be when they grew up? Did they have any childhood dreams, and have they achieved them? When Jack was a kid-kid, pre-Felicity, she wanted to do everything. She thought she'd live her life ranching Longhorns, defending her home from raiders or going out to scavenge and deal with threats, and settling down with a wife or spouse or more. She'd long since internalized polyamory as an option for herself. When she met Felicity all that honed into specifically marrying her, even if it was only her. She was smitten with her from the moment they met and had no real way to communicating it until she learned how to communicate better. Depending on the canon she may ultimately achieve something similar. Of course she doesn't get the opportunity to marry Felicity, that pretty much always ends in tragedy. But circumstances has lead her to starting her own ranch, caring for farm animals and becoming a home, even adopting stray kids and anyone who looks like they need a place to call home. She might have a hard time seeing herself as a parent, but she tries to do right by anyone that calls her place home anyway. Or she finds a different path, but still something that tries to make people's lives better for her presence in it. The one important thing is Jack isn't left alone. Romantic or otherwise her connections and love for the people around her is what she craves. And she seeks it out.

#answer #krokaxe #lots of rambles #i love jack so much #thank you krok #you know me so well #ocs #fallout oc #courier oc #listen jack needs people #she's not meant to be alone

[cadaverkeys]

You guys rlly don't realise how much knowledge is still not committed to the internet. I find books all the time with stuff that is impossible to find through a search engine- most people do not put their magnum opus research online for free and the more niche a skill is the less likely you are to have people who will leak those books online. (Nevermind all the books written prior to the internet that have knowledge that is not considered "relevant" enough to digitise).

Whenever people say that we r growing up with all the world's knowledge at our fingertips...it's not necessarily true. Is the amount of knowledge online potentially infinite? Yes. Is it all knowledge? No. You will be surprised at the niche things you can discover at a local archive or library.

#rambles #if you are a person who is into delicate skills #like lacemaking or printing or sewing #you will know fair well just how non expansive the knowledge online is in comparison to written guides from like the 50s #there was a time where at least one person in the household had to know a constructive skill #but in the modern day there is just less ans less demands for comprehensive guides #library propaganda #im stuck doing an essay rn but bc i have covid i cant go to the library and its totally fucked me #i want to source a lot of the stuff i read irl but i just cant go and get it and theres no online ver

[exoflash]

a concerning amount of witchblr will be like "um actually new years was stolen by europeans from the ancient god scroobus mcdoobus" and then you actually try to research scroobus mcdoobus and it turns out he was invented in the 1940s by a conspiracy theorist who powdered every meal with ketamine and thinks that queer people are reincarnated fish

#brightts ramblings #BEFORE I GET ATTACKED: THIS IS NOT AN ANTI-WITCH OR ANTI-PAGAN POST #im just literally begging witchblr and paganblr(?) to study history from proper sources #so you don't accidentally end up repeating misinfo or even outright bigoted info without realizing #you are not immune to propaganda! #this post is specifically ab new agey stuff like starseeds #but a lot of other stuff fits into this as well ie 'blessed be' #for further context i am not a witch or pagan myself but i DO study the occult/occult history #religion #spirituality #history

[humming-fly]

Every now and then I'm reminded Real People with Actual Jobs use tumblr and I've always been legitimately curious what all you weird adults are up to when you're not on this site and with tumblr's New Poll Feature I can finally get an answer! (or the closest approximation of an answer possible with only 10 available options h a)

#tumblr /really/ shortened the character limit on these posts huh #could've sworn it was longer when i made the wizard one #anyways no shit i have always been curious #tragically 10 options limits things a lot but I tried to be broad XD #i'll start i'm an academic researcher studying civil engineering :V #humming-rambles #poll

[bloggingboutburgers]

Quick reminder since apparently it bears reminding in both directions: if bigoted people, closed-minded people overall, or your own internalized insecurities misinterpret a queer person’s message in a way that hurts/endangers you, yeah, it sucks, but it’s not the fault of the queer person in question, nor should it be a reason for them to silence themselves. They’re probably as hurt/pissed as you are that someone misinterpreted and misused their message to do harm.

Of course sadly there’ll still be queer people that actually DO mean harm and dismissal to other queer people – I ain’t speaking for those and it’s not the best way to ensure their and others’ wellbeing imo. I’m just saying – not all people will be like that. That’s what I want to believe. So hopefully let’s not put everyone in the same bag, keep supporting each other, WHILE allowing each other to advocate for our own visibility, without having to self-erase or self-censor to accomodate to what haters might say.

It’ll be tougher this way, maybe, because humans seem to like to draw extreme conclusions very quick, but I don’t believe there’s any better way for us all to be alright and stay alright on the long run.

#no one can know i don't like sex #queer solidarity #asexual #kink at pride #tw queerphobia #bleh i'm rambling but i hope this'll come across OK #this has been on my mind a lot lately #my art #nonburger

[tariah23]

#yuhhhh #rambling #everyone and their mama had a lot to say about the slap but these same ppl have either come out being full blown Zionists or they’ve just #been completely silent #all together #not that we should expect much from celebs but you get it #also it’s been completely normalized to demonize black people doing literally anything so #you literally would’ve thought will smith killed this ass on national tv the way they were crying about this shit

[unforth]

Gentle reminder that very little fandom labor is automated, because I think people forget that a lot.

That blog with a tagging system you love? A person curates those tags by hand.

That rec blog with a great organization scheme and pretty graphics? Someone designed and implemented that organization scheme and made those graphics.

That network that posts a cool variety of stuff? People track down all that variety and queue it by hand, and other people made all the individual pieces.

That post with umpteen links to helpful resources, and information about them? Someone gathered those links, researched the sources, wrote up the information about them.

That graphic about fandom statistics? Someone compiled those statistics, analyzed them, organized them, figured out a useful way to convey the information to others, and made the post.

That event that you think looks neat? Someone wrote the rules, created the blogs and Discords, designed the graphics, did their best to promo the event so it'd succeed.

None of this was done automatically. None of it just appears whole out of the internet ether.

I think everyone realizes that fic writing and fanart creation are work, and at least some folks have got it through their heads that gif creation and graphics and moodboards take effort, and meta is usually respected for the effort that goes into it, at least as far as I've seen, but I feel like a lot of people don't really get how much labor goes into curation, too.

If people are creating resources, curating content, organizing the creations of others, gathering information, and doing other fandom activities that aren't necessarily the direct action of creation, they're doing a lot of fandom labor, and it's often largely unrecognized.

Celebrate fan work!

To folks doing this kind of labor: I see you, and I thank you. You are the backbones of our fandoms and I love you.

#unforth rambles #this wasn't really prompted by anything #I'm just sick and tired and distractable #or i should say it wasn't prompted by anything recent or that happened now #like no one has disrespected me #but as i hit the point that it's regularly taking me an hour plus every single day to queue things for the danmei art blogs #i just think of all the times people go WAIT YOU RUN ALL OF THOSE??? BY YOURSELF??? #like i just don't think a lot of people realize how much work it is to really do background fandom labor long term #and i appreciate places like rec blogs and networks and events and just everyone #y'all are awesome #thank you so much

[halemerry]

Hey everyone what's your favorite mug look like?

#i feel like you can tell a lot about a person by their mug preferences #mines yellow and says 'go get em' with a picture of a tiger underneath it #critically its handle has enough space for my whole hand inside of it #rambles

[oobbbear]

Please understand that when I say I grab you, I don’t mean grabbing your face or arm thats rude and creepy please don’t do that to anyone

When I say I grab you I’m saying it like I’m grabbing you like a potato. It’s my way of saying hey I appreciate and respect you let’s be friends

#bearz rambling tag #shit post #but no seriously #I really do mean potato when I say I grab you #I say grabbing ppl a lot #I don’t want ppl to misunderstand my intention #you’re a precious potato to me #I’m grabbing you as a sign of respect

[the-phantom-peach]

skyward sword… yeah <3

Crimson Loftwing

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#exploding the entire Skyward Sword ost with my mind #thinking a lot about SS lately #I could fill your dash with how much art I make of this game I’m so so obsessed with it #I did some character design stuff and misc doodles for funsies so I post here #feels so nice to make art for a game I loved so much as a kid #still top 3 loz games idc #I hope younger me is happy haha #okay please stop rambling #the legend of zelda #legend of zelda #skyward sword #tloz #loz #loz ss #skord #ss link #ss zelda #ss zelink #link #zelda #zelink #groose #fi #fledge #pipit #zelda art #nintendo #art #artists on tumblr #my art

[bonetrousledbones]

IM GOING TO THROW UP !!!!!!!!!!!

#EVEN AFTER EVERYTHING HE'S STILL THEIR KID!!!!!!!!!!!!AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #trousled rambles #undertale #flowey #i dont usually get a whole lot of Feelings around flowey when im not playing the game but when i do they hit SO FUCKING HARD

[fox-guardian]

I've seen a few "Tim and Alice would be besties" posts and I love it so much cuz like. Tim's sense of humor canonically is mostly pop culture references to movies and stuff, there's no real indication that he's particularly online. Meanwhile Alice speaks like she's been Very active on tumblr for longer than she's been at OIAR CONSTANTLY, she just says the strangest shit all the time. So I just keep imagining a conversation between Tim and Alice constantly having to stop because Tim keeps cracking up unable to breathe over the Shit Alice Keeps Saying and he's never heard any of that kind of shit before, especially not with such a casual, nonchalant delivery. And Alice is laughing because its hilarious how offline Tim is. Hearing the phrase "none pizza with left beef" would incapacitate him.

#ramblings with major #the magnus archives #the magnus protocol #tma #tmagp #tim stoker #alice dyer #cursing #i likies them a lot <3

[violetsandshrikes]

this poor woman ended up in hospital because she ate cayenne + cinnamon coated orange (unpeeled) because there’s a health and wellness influencer with millions of views who recommends it for digestion - she burned her oesophagus

i always saw a few really good other additions of similar things on the comments

please be so, so careful taking advice from these people online, as many of them are not formally trained or educated, brand ambassadors, deep in pseudoscientific rabbit holes and unfortunately, there are many out there who struggle with disordered eating habits

(not mentioned here but another one worth noting: i have personally known people who have burned their oesophagus with viral apple cider vinegar shots and drinks. don’t do that. a burned oesophagus is not fun)

#also tbh I’ve had this before this previous posts: please don’t make fun of people who fall victim to these kinds of things #lots of them have chronic health conditions and feel unlistened to and are desperate for remedies for their conditions #and nobody is ever fully immune to the effects of social media #katie rambles #ask 2 tag #wellness culture #<- tag for this kinda shit

[inafallsaway]

Drawing time!

#one piece #monkey d luffy #luffy #nico robin #nami #I think they draw together a lot #both can’t draw tho lol #I tried to base robins style after the couple eps she we do see her drawing #she has lots of sharp lines lol #also wanted to include a ton of tiny cute things on the fridge #I wanted to add more but i think I went a wee bit overboard #the things in the corner if you can’t tell are magnets that represent all of them #ok no more rambling I hope you like I worked hard on it hehe #my art