#love is confusing

[robotredhead]

are you sure you arent crushing on bel a little bit. or solace. are you confused by stuff. its ok me too im always confused.

(Ask from Anon enjoy the ask because Red is DYING IN THERE XD)

#bomb rush cyberfunk #red #bel #tryce #ask #anon #love is confusing #look at him the gooby boi uwu #solace x red #bel x red

[kafkamybeloved]

what no one ever talks about in college is how you could see all your friends fall in love, experience heartbreak, have hookups, relationships, everything.. and you just, sat there. And you were so damn angry. Cause you saw those young souls you love so much make all those stupid, really stupid mistakes, because what else can they do when they're nineteen and in love, and you just thought to yourself: if only this happened to me. If only this happened to me. You knew, you just knew you could do better. You knew how to love, you knew who to love, when and how to show it, but... you had no chance to, right? maybe you were a bit too different, not that cool, not that outgoing, but if only, right? if only it happened to you. and maybe after a while you start to realize that love is not for you, right? it's something that doesn't occur to people like you, in this day and age. so you decide to give the love you have stored to the world around you. you paint a pretty picture and you pet a few cats, you walk around the block and you give a compliment to your barista. but the feeling never goes away, right? the world never lets you forget, not when you look at your "twenty-five years and still in love" parents, or the two middle schoolers holding hands as they walk outside your window. it's always there, this ghost that reminds of Sylvia Plath, "it's not for you" it whispers. It's not for you. It's the thing you want most in your life, it's all around you, everyone has it, but it's just not for you.

#idk #im just angry #love is confusing #love #thoughts on love

[solarwoniii]

uni went better today !! thankfully i survived the entire day and didnt end up running away (like i did yesterday) i hung out with my friends (THE ONES WHO KNOW WHAT AN INSENSITIVE ASSHOLE JOKE IS WHEN THEY HEAR IT COUGH COUGH OTHER FRIENDS COUGH COUGH) uni boy is still trying to apologise. but he was less annoying today 🥰🥰 he approached me when i was with my friends and was like 'lynn can we talk?' SO I PULLED THE 'do u guys hear something? because i dont.' AND I FELT SO BOSS IN THE MOMENT 10/10 WLD DO AGAIN WAS SO MUICH FUN

#💌; lynn rambles ! #uni boy #i think hes gna give up now #is it bad that i dont want him to give up.. #idk if its because i like the attention or bc i still like him #love is confusing #this is why i mostly crush on girls istg #girls r so much more simple #men r stupid

[secretmellowblog]

People who try to analyze what happened on Tumblr on November 5th, 2020, often really overstate how much it was actually “about” Supernatural. As someone who has never been in the supernatural fandom ever but dID join in on the hysterical destielposting—it was really more about the stress of the pandemic and the 2020 presidential election.

The two biggest Youtubers I’ve seen try to dissect “what happened that November 5th” in video essays both weren’t American—- and I think that explains why they both tried to explain the hysteria primarily via analyzing the Supernatural fandom/the original show, rather than through the lens of the election. And while those videos are cool, valid, informational, and make lots of really well-considered interesting points— I can tell you that me and almost all my mutuals had literally no knowledge or interest in the fact that “oh supernatural had made nods at the ship in the past but the creators were adamant that I wouldn’t be canon” or etc etc etc etc. the first time I learned about any of that context was way later, watching videos where people claimed that fandom history context (that I did not know anything about) was the actual reason for the hysteria.

But the reality is that people latched on to the Destiel stuff because it was a piece of big useless inane zero-stakes fandom news in a time when we were desperately waiting for serious high stakes election news. We were latching onto a “positive “ piece of inane stupid fandom news in a time of great stress, with all the desperation of a drowning man who latches onto whatever piece of wood will keep him afloat.

The core of the hysteria was that Americans (who make up a huge chunk of tumblr’s userbase) were currently glued to their laptops watching the live presidential election vote counts come in. These vote counts were taking an extended amount of time due to the pandemic causing high numbers of mail-in ballots, resulting in a constant state of Election Day Stress for multiple days straight.

This was also during the height of the Pandemic. People had predicted Trump’s presidency would be bad; no one had predicted it would be this apocalyptically bad. No one had predicted pandemics and lockdowns and hospitals overflowing with bodybags. remember Trump spreading Covid lies and conspiracies?? There were so many Qanon conspiracies about democrats being Satanic child traffickers who had to be put to death, and coup threats were mounting from the right wing side. It seemed like this election was a choice between ‘centrist democrat’ and “apocalyptic right wing conspiracy theory authoritarianism,” in the midst of pandemic conditions that people feared would never ever improve— and it seemed like a close election.

Another major point was that Trump voters were more likely to be antimaskers/Covid deniers, while Biden voters were more likely to take the pandemic seriously— so Biden voters were more likely to send in mail-in ballots instead of risking the in-person voting crowds, which meant their ballots would take much longer to count. And so, in many state electoral vote counts, it would initially seem like Trump was very far in the lead— only for Biden to slooooowly build up an agonizingly small lead as the mail in ballots came in, and then defeat Trump at the very end.

So you’re just watching these news sites giving live election updates, refreshing the page every 2 minutes to see if you’re going to live under a spineless centrist democrat or a literal Qanon Dictatorship. And then you go on tumblr to distract yourself, and there’s more election posting, and more agonizing over the votes, and more stress and despair—-

And then it’s been days and we’re right at the crucial tipping point where it’s anyone’s game and the next few hours will determine whether Trump will win, so you need to keep your eye on the vote count, because the next hours will determine the future of the pandemic and your country and your plans for your entire life—

And then stupid Destiel becomes canon! And it becomes canon in the silliest way possible!

If Destiel had become canon at any other time, it would have been a big goofy tumblr celebration? But we wouldn’t have gotten the insane explosion of hysterical interaction.

The entire core of it was the contrast between the inane meaningless stupidity of fandom news vs the actual stressful election news you wanted to hear! It really is best conveyed in that meme where Castiel says “I love you” and Dean indifferently responds with a piece of important election news.

It’s about the contrast between the low-stakes inanity of fandom and the massive life-destroying stakes of a terrifying election. There really was no reason it had be Supernatural specifically, except that Supernatural was a thing everyone knew basic things about from dashboard osmosis— it could’ve been any other equally huge silly fandom ship news about a ship everyone *knew of* but might not necessarily be invested in (ex. Stucky becoming canon, Johnlock becoming canon, Kirk/Spock becoming more canon somehow, etc etc etc.)

I think it’s true that people who weren’t paying agonizingly close attention to the American election news got swept up in it, and that non American Supernatural fans also were extremely excited for purely fandom reasons — but the entire reason it blew up to an unprecedented degree was because of that core of stressed out terrified Americans glued to their computers watching election results and suddenly receiving stupid fandom news instead, and deciding to just hysterically parodically hyper-celebrate this absurd useless zero-stakes news.

I think it was also all elevated by the fact that, as I said before, this happened at the crucial “tipping point” of the election where the next few hours would determine the winner. The fact that Biden began to slowly develop a lead in the hours after made it feel, hysterically, as if the hours after Destiel became canon was somehow the turning point where he began to win; so celebrating Destiel felt like celebrating that slow turn towards victory.

The tl,dr is that it’s so important to Remember the Fifth of November …..in preparation the inevitable hysteria that will happen in the presidential election on November 5th of next year. XD. Personally I’m rooting for Johnlock or Frodo/Sam to somehow become canon in the eleventh hour right before the democrats win

#November 5th #november 5 2020 #the fifth of november #just a random ramble #November 5th 2020 is such an important day to me #it really is a holiday #but it does confuse me when I see people analyzing it primarily as a supernatural thing #instead of a ‘hysteria over an election reaches a breaking point when inane zero stakes fandom news comes out and we all latch onto it’thing #but yeah!! #this is my personal essay out of love for the holiday

[randomprose]

the "tumblr community invents a whole mafia movie apparently directed by martin scorsese with an official soundtrack, movie posters, screen caps, and all enough to make one question if that movie really did exist at all like a mandela effect" was not part of my 2022 bingo card

#goncharov #this website is on a whole new level of unhinge jfc #love how this turned out tho #and the commitment to the bit #it's like one big inside joke that everyone is in on #oh god imagine how confused the digital archivist in the future will be #like #was there or was there not a movie called goncharov??? #did martin scorsese direct it really?? where is it then?? #and they'll never find it #text

[i-wordwizard-i]

Here's some poems about love

Prejection

Just say it, walk up and say the words, that's what people do.

It's so simple! Yet you can no longer walk.

Your knees wobble, sitting feels just fine.

If only you could walk, but you can?

You're halfway up, now stuck in motion, unable to commit.

You stand up, now you have to move.

Falling into each step, like a toddler hobbling.

You see them, standing so high, or maybe nigh.

Whoever may stand, caught by your eye.

You step and step, reaching so close.

You reach them, and tell them those words.

You sit back down, from that in motion position.

Now you see you have not moved at all.

Hopeless Romantic

The courage is building, it's getting close.

You want to say it to them, now at its most.

Closer and closer the words rise, getting caught in your throat.

From friend to relation, it's time to switch boats.

But in passing you hear that they're taken.

Their heart is full while yours remains vacant.

You backpedal, desperately trying to find sometime that was safe.

While swiftly dodging feelings of malcontent and hate.

It's like you want to forget them, but their glimmer is so bright.

Who could put out this burning light?

The hopeless romantic, a repeating story.

A one that seldom ends in glory.

This story came quick, and love moves fast.

For this was the story of a lover's past.

#haha #gotta love it #love and all that nice stuff #feelings #suck #love is confusing #relationships #poetry #poet #aromantic #aroace #I wish #buh bye #aaaahhhh

[faeymouse]

That cursed cat Alastor thing going around is too good, it has me posting messy meme pseudoWIPs like I’m not a chronic perfectionist

Anyway, I’m desperate to know if cursed cat Alastor still owns Husk’s soul and if so, how he holds his cane? A close second was gonna be the microphone dangling from around his neck like a cowbell, but readable silhouettes won out

#faey draws #hazbin hotel #cursed cat alastor #husk (hazbin hotel) #alastor (hazbin hotel) #if you’re not on twitter i can’t describe to you what a chokehold this cat has on that site right now #it’s something you just gotta log on and experience in a confused but delighted haze #love the idea that people who have no clue about hazbin hotel are gonna be introduced to it via a cat version of character that’s a deer

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

why aren't there more mysteries that take place in nursing homes & retirement communities. i want to watch a group of deranged retirees-cum-amateur-detectives combine their powers of:

decades of life experience

boredom-fueled busybody shamelessness

access to the most gossipy next-door-neighbors in existence

"I am too old to be arrested and/or give a shit" attitude

and solve crimes. this should be an enormous subgenre.

#their sidekick/Watson/pet hacker is a 15 year old grandkid who hangs out with gram gram on the weekends #her only power is that she has above average search engine skills and flexible knees #which is completely sufficient to round out the group's skill set #they involve her in heist style operations #on the rare occasion she gets caught housebreaking she explains her grandma locked herself out of the condo and asked for help getting in #then this sweet slightly addled old lady shows up and explains she got the address mixed up #it's so confusing when you're old & all the houses look alike and oh she's so sorry to have caused so much trouble #and meanwhile the teenager is rolling her eyes bc she's aware gram gram was a career criminal & con artist for 50 years #anyway gimme a 80-year-old con artist turned amateur sleuth who loves getting older because people are less suspicious of little old ladies #this all takes place in florida naturally

[deer-butch]

hey instead of bullying or scaring you into switching to firefox, let me tell you why i LOVE firefox and how my online life has improved significantly since installing it

- the setup process is easy, and even fun! if you’re using tumblr rn, you can handle it, and if you’re the kind of tumblr user who likes customizing your blog or tinkering with xkit, you can have a lot of fun personalizing really granular settings and picking themes and extensions and everything, it’s very customizable and i happily spent like 2 hours getting everything perfect.

- you can use a command line entry tool to change specific settings right from the search bar! i did this to make firefox stop auto filling my email information since i use a different password locker (which you should too! try bitwarden!), and it was easier than digging through a bunch of submenus for a setting i wasn’t sure existed. you can just turn shit off!

- there’s a preset theme called aurora that’s purple and VERY pretty

- once you get ublock origin and as many other blockers as you’d like set up, no ads, anywhere, ever! streaming sites, youtube, all the basics, totally no stress and no compatibility issues for me

- in browser screenshot and picture in picture functions!! holy shit i use these every day, the PiP is especially helpful, it replaced an extension i used to use on chrome and it’s leagues better and works on all video content pretty much

- overall better downloads management imo, it’s a lot easier to get to your downloads and find them later

- better bookmark system, with the ability to organize your bookmarks with searchable tags and assign them a shortcut you can type into the search bar to go to

- containers! you can have two accounts to the same website open in two different tabs and switch between them without having to switch accounts. also gives firefox the ability to contain facebook and their trackers, so you can click that party invite link without feeling like you just let mark zuckerberg into your house

these were just off the top of my head, i love firefox a lot and actively enjoy using it, which i never felt with chrome! please download firefox!! you will not regret it!!! where’s your fucking rage!!!!!! go!!!!!!!!!

#buck speaks #firefox #i’m also going to make an extensions starter pack post because with like #10 extensions firefox becomes the best browser ever #i constantly just forget that ads exist #and get confused and annoyed when i have to look at them on other peoples computers #HALF OF YOUTUBES HOMEPAGE IS ADS? #crazy #anyway i’d get the firefox logo tatted i love her sm

[sbeana]

everyone remembers adaine's classic scooter

#fantasy high #fhjy #the random return of the scooter and the confusion around it nearly killed me #i love adaine so much #shes so unserious sometimes #adaine abernant #the bad kids #d20 #d20 art #fhjy art

[astrhae]

"I'm very good at forgiveness. It's one of my favorite things."

#michael sheen had absolutely NO RIGHT to go that hard #and break me like this #it's all the emotions aziraphale goes through #like he's not even done processing the kiss #it's the anger and the love and the confusion and the disappointment and the heartbreak #and also the guilt at the end #and him covering it all up #i'm really really never going to recover from this #good omens #good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #good omens 2 spoilers #goodomensedit #my edits #ineffable husbands

[minnobyy]

My redesigns of the princesses minus Twilight lol. This was traced over a coloring page of the princesses but with my own flare!

I'm really happy with how they turned out! Celestia actually took the longest to redesign cuz I was struggling with her hair color. I really wanted to capture the "mother nature"-ness with the greens. Blue and gold is literally designed for Luna! Also she gotta have bat features cuz its cool😤And for Cadance I went for more warmer pinks while still keeping her recognizable. Look at the hearts in her horn!! 🥺🥺 Anyways hope yall enjoy these redesigns :D

#minnobyy art #mlp art #mlp #mlp fim #my little pony #mlp fanart #mlp redesign #mlp cadance #mlp luna #mlp celestia #mlp princesses #i literally wanna eat cadence's hair #wait is her name spelled cadence or cadance?? i'm so confused #i love the glitter in luna's hair. like its literally my fav thing of her design #green celestia heals my soul🥺

[asexualaromanticautistic]

I love I love I loveeee the "walkability" of Joel's HC10 base. I love that at first glance it looks like a simple town with just 2 main roads. I love that if you take a deeper look you can explore between the buildings and take back alley routes. I love that backdoors have a purpose. I love that it feels cramped because it feels alive and feels alive beacause it feels cramped.

Overall, I love Joel's HC10 base.

#sometimes I get confused with the layout and I LOVE IT #He just pops in a alley and then he's out somewhere completely different #smallishbeans #joel smallishbeans #hermitcraft #hermitcraft season 10 #a³ post

[haunted-xander]

Well, I guess you didn't have much of a choice either

#sooooo fucked up being a teenage boy just messing around with friends one day #and the next weird monsters are after you #and suspicious guys youve never met before start telling you you shouldnt even exist #and even the gentle girl who seems to know SO much that you met #says you have to disappear #all for the sake of this one boy youve never heard of #who apparently everyone loves and wants back #even if it means essentially killing someone else(you) #and youre expected to just. follow along and sacrifice yourself for him #even though you are also a real perosn with real friends (or so you believe) #and at the end you do it #because youre tired and confused #and part of you feels like it should do it #that its the right thing to do #even though you still dont know anything bc no one will tell you #except for the girl but everyone always goes out of their way to stop her #anyway im rambling the kh2 prolouge is so fucked up when u think about it #roxas #sora #kingdom hearts #kingdom hearts 2 #kh #kh2 #art #my art #xanders art #digital art #fan art

[chaos-bringer-13]

I've seen a lot of people writing Danny as a space ancient and Dan and Dani as ghosts with moon and sun cores, being sort of parts, versions of Danny and therefore weaker. Now, consider: Dan and Dani are both powerful ghosts with really cool cores and stuff but Danny is just some guy™

Dan, who came from an alternate timeline and is kind of from the future but also not, is Clockwork's apprentice and will eventually become an ancient of time. He probably only agreed to have some lessons with Clockwork to understand better what happened to him, but he enjoys his apprenticeship now.

Dani, with her love of travelling, loves seeing all the different places the world offers to her, and that includes space and different planets and maybe even parallel universes, and she accidentally ends up being an apprentice of the space ancient. For now she's probably a baby ancient of freedom or something like that, but she might become an ancient of space in the future.

We can also have something like Dan having a core of destruction or Dani being the Speed Force if you want it to be dcxdp, or any headcanon of yours about their cool powers.

And then there's Danny. And yeah, everyone knows that he's super powerful, but also he's just some guy.

It can go different routes. Does everyone know that Danny is just Danny? Or do they think that with siblings (well, technically a clone and an alternate version, but whatever) so powerful, he must be even stronger? Is Danny actually something terrifyingly eldritch and ancient and strong, almost a god, but he just doesn't know himself? Or is he just really some guy?

Now, because it's obvious that I have a dcxdp brainrot, have a regular "JL summons/meets a powerful ghost" but its Dan and Dani, and they keep mentioning their original/brother who won a fight against them at some point. The JL is very concerned about Dan and Dani's godlike powers, and they can't imagine what Danny is like. And then they meet him (in his human form), and it's just a young adult in casual clothes, very friendly and helpful, with no evident powers. Imagine the confusion. Imagine Dan and Dani, radiating power, in their eldritch ghost forms, admitting that fighting Danny for real is the dumbest thing to do and not even they would succeed... And then there's Danny is jeans and silly t-shirt, waving shyly.

#DO YOU SEE MY VISION #please #I'm not getting enough sleep #my brain is obsessed with weird stuff #I want Sam who barely looks human because she's one with nature #I want Tucker who looks regal and dangerous in his pharaoh clothes #I want Dan look like he can destruct the Earth with a wave of his hand #I want Dani who is everything there is in the world and you feel it in your bones #I want Jazz who sees your soul and your mind and you know it and there's nowhere to run #I want JL to meet all of them before meeting Danny #I want all of them to admit in their different ways that Danny is the greatest of them #I want JL to be VERY worried about meeting Danny #and then I want Danny to be as normal and friendly as possible #and I want him to treat all those eldritch creatures (his family and friends) as they're regular humans and nothing is weird about them #just hugs and love and praises #because it would cause so much confusion #this is NOT ghost king Danny #unless it is but he doesn't know (and either no one knows or no one told him because it's funnier this way and he's super oblivious) #dpxdc #dcxdp #dp x dc #dc x dp #DPxDC #DCxDP #danny phantom #isn't a crossover if you don't want it to be #could be any crossover if you do want it to be

[goldengirl-daisy]

Of course. Tom did not have a good time at the party at all, complaining about whatever it is he dislikes. I wish I could have gone alone. Insulting Gatsby with names and impoliteness, completely unnecessary. Oh, and how Gatsby is kind and sweet with his words…

#love is confusing