#meth addiction

[the-drug-addicts-diary]

For a past few weeks, or maybe months, i had this nostalgic desire to repeat my past. It was annoying.

A few days ago, I found pictures of me in active addiction. And I looked at the old me, without any resentment, thanking her for keeping me alive long enough for me to start living again.

I felt genuine love for the part of me i always thought was completely unlovable. I felt pure love for everything that made me who i am.

I felt the love i always deserved.

That feeling made me understand, that being soft and kind is always much braver, than being hard and cold. I think i smiled. And just like that, i felt complete.

Just like that, i knew that i am worth staying for.

17 months

#addiction #drugs #drug addiction #recovery #sobriety #drug addict #sober living #sober life #drug addicts #drug addiction recovery #recovering addict #addictions #addiction recovery #meth addiction #self worth #self growth #self love

[relapse-rise-recover]

August 12th 2023

Really struggling with relapse.

Can’t post on my main socials.

This is my outlet instead that’s safe at 120am on a Friday night/ Saturday morning.

Keeping some pretty dark secrets here.

As they say you can’t save your face and your ass at the same time. I’m sure it will come to the top soon.

Trying really hard to manage this disease. When I know it’s unmanageable and will only get worse if I don’t surrender.

But I said I’d never go back to recovery if I relapsed again. I know it’s my pride and my ego. And I gotta get honest with everybody about it if I want a chance.

Please pray for me- that I find the willingness to surrender again and for good, that I get the chance to before it gets worse, that I make it through this alive.

#drug addiction #meth addiction #drug relapse #addiction recovery #sobriety #alcoholics anonymous #narcotics anonymous

[alexs-addiction]

Explaining Addiction - A semi-vent post?

Addiction.

Addiction is the wild, unstable beast that ravages my mind and body.

Addiction is tiny cute rabbit who turns into the tall, scary monster the second you pick it up and pet it, sinking its sharp claws into the very essence of my being. All while filling my brain with these happy chemicals that make you feel that everything is fine more than fine!

Addiction is a quiet war that I am fighting every second of every minute of every hour of every day. All while I think nothing has changed about my appearance. The dilated pupils, thinned hair, sunken eyes and slimmed figure say differently.

Physical injury pain can be treated at the hospital with some stiches, some medicine, and some rest. Bam! a few weeks later, good as new.

This pain, this is something entirely different. People turn to substances because the pain becomes so much, becomes unbearable. A lot of us have tried to take our own lives at one point or another, sometimes more than once. But once we accept the fact that we are stuck on this planet to suffer with our pain, we search for other ways to cope and hide the pain.

So, we turn to substances. Some of us for hidden physical pain like Fibromyalgia, or Endometriosis, or Complex Regional Pain Syndrome, but for a lot of us, its the mental pain.

It's the years of abuse, the generational trauma, the abusive relationships, the sexual assaults, the bullying, the self hatred, the cycle of familial addiction.

The pain that comes along with that is hard to avoid. Especially when combined with PTSD.

To think of how much someone has to be suffering to turn to substances.

Personally, my depression was so fucking bad that I had to turn to crystal fucking meth to get through regular work days. To be able to find any enjoyment in my days.

CRYSTAL FUCKING METHAMPHETAMINE!!

I had survived what my brother did to me, leaving that with an alcohol problem. Then got sober. Then my abusive ex and abusive friends that I had left me with a pain pill problem after hurting my back.

Then being disowned by one of the only family members I looked up to. And losing the other one. And being left with no family that I really cared about. The pain of that was so bad that I smoked Crystal Meth just to function.

Losing my grandfather has nearly killed me. He passed on the morning of August 26th, 2023. The date now is March 1st 2024. I have officially lost over 170 lbs. All thanks to Crystal Meth.

Fuck Addiction.

#addiction #vent post #rant #meth addiction

[therealvinelle]

Looking at your post about Tom Riddle being hot as an adult, what actor do you think would best resemble how you imagine adult Tom to look?

The post being referred to (which Muffin wrote)

"Being hot as an adult", you do know that even JKR agrees Tom kept his looks for several years after Hogwarts, it's just that she insists that he got hooked on the dark arts after leaving Britain and... well, to hear her and Dumbledore describe what happened to Tom's face it brings Hank Schraeder pointing at meth addicts to mind.

Some serious moralizing going on in these books with bad people being ugly (or, if they're attractive, it's an evil seductive attractiveness. I fondly look back on Dumbledore describing Tom the orphan as having a sense of "dark glamour" about him. Just... keep talking about your students that way, old man).

All that being said, my go to casting for Tom Riddle would be Peter o'Toole as he looked in Lawrence of Arabia. He is easily the most charismatic and compelling man in any room, incredibly intense, yet also deeply eccentric.

And of course, very good-looking with striking features.

#tom riddle #harry potter fancast #lord voldemort #meth addiction

[lost-ash-es]

addiction and travelling too far from home

you can get so far from earth that you start to forget about it completely, and eventually you forget that there was ever anything beyond the stars at all. then you're just forever drifting through space, surrounded solely by stars, with no chance of returning home, or anywhere, ever again.

-ash

#drug addiction #addiction #methamaphine #meth #meth addiction #tina #speed #tweek tweak #meth spun #recovering #drug recovery #recovering addict #dangers of addiction #lost in space #drifting amongst the stars #drifting #lost #narcotics drugs #drugs #drug abuse #poetry #prose poetry #metaphor

[buzzbcuzz]

media dump because this stupid motherfucker is finally fully borned

#puppet #puppets #puppetry #ugly ass motherfucking dog #clown #clowns #jester #meth #meth addiction #oc #ugly ass motherfucker #fucking god fuckin damn #fucking meth #🐫camle in yhe tags

[ecstasizedwanderer]

Relapsed few weeks ago. I became a m3th addict few months ago, I'm just 16. One night I went outside and an older guy took me to his place and drugged me, then sexually assaulted me. After that night I became an addict but soon my fam found out about it and I got clean for 2 months. Few weeks ago I had a relapse on molly. Came back home in peak of my bad trip and aunt noticed me. I'm so sick of myself because I wanna relapse again and everything feels so pointless again. Damn it.

#meth addiction #molly #xtc trip #druggie #addiction #sa

[sporadicphilosophercupcake]

Bottom left are active addiction to IV heroin and meth, the rest are from 5 years of hard work and recovery on my sobriety journey. I don't give myself props often, but I'm really fucking proud of me, I over came alot of terrible trauma not just in addiction, but in my teen years as well, il be , 30 this year and I'm so happy il be enjoying those years sober.

#we do recover #recovering drug addict #heroin addiction #meth addiction #5 years sober #fuck meth #fuck heroin #fuck the drugs #fuck the needles #worth every painful moment #soberAF #im fucking sober! #sobriety #NA #but i still love weed #weed isnt a drug #its a plant #fuck IV drug addiction

[lleessaahhh]

Got wrecked on ketamine today. Just to have a little fun after an awful day. And it was awful. In the middle of an ugly and drawn out break up with meth and with my ex boyfriend I guess I should call him now. I’ve sobered up and tomorrow I’ll be sober and sad. What a great day to look forward to. Guess I’ll sleep more. Zzzzz

#addiction #meth addiction #sober #day one #breakup #parole #parole life

[morlibertarianism]

The Falsehood of the "Meth-Caused Homelessness" Claim: A Libertarian Response

Homelessness is a complex and multifaceted issue, and it is simplistic and reductionist to suggest that it is caused by a single factor such as meth addiction. While meth addiction may be a factor for some homeless individuals, it is important to recognize that it is not the sole cause and that a one-size-fits-all approach to addressing homelessness will not be effective.

Homelessness has multiple root causes, including lack of affordable housing, job insecurity, mental illness, and the failure of social safety net programs. Additionally, excessive zoning regulations can limit the availability of affordable housing, contributing to the homelessness problem.

So what can be done to address homelessness? Rather than relying on targeted government intervention, we should focus on strategies that lower time prices and make resources more affordable. This can include policies that reduce the cost of living, such as lowering taxes and regulatory burdens, and that increase access to credit and capital, making it easier for individuals to help themselves and others. By empowering individuals to take control of their own lives and overcome homelessness, we can create a more prosperous and self-sufficient society.

It is important to recognize the complexity of homelessness and to approach it with a nuanced and multifaceted approach. Only by understanding the root causes and implementing targeted solutions can we hope to make a lasting impact and reduce homelessness in our communities. This means moving beyond simplistic explanations that pin the blame on a single factor such as meth addiction, and instead considering the multiple root causes of homelessness. It also means focusing on strategies that lower time prices and make resources more affordable, rather than relying solely on targeted government intervention that may function more as a jobs program for those who claim to help the homeless rather than actually helping the homeless. By empowering individuals to take control of their own lives and overcome homelessness, we can create a more prosperous and self-sufficient society.

#Libertarianism #Self-sufficiency #Prosperity #Private charity #Individual responsibility #Credit and capital #moribund institute #Regulatory burden #Taxes #Cost of living #Time prices #Zoning regulations #Mental illness #Job insecurity #Affordable housing #Government intervention #Social safety net #finitude fighters #Poverty #Meth addiction #Homelessness

[transgothmog]

trying to not sound like an asshole but i think everyone has ASD and/or ADHD traits and the society we have built does a fantastic job of drawing those out of people, and the fact that so many people are being medicated for ADHD with meth- pharmaceuticals is maybe indicative that we're demanding far too much from most people?

sincerely, someone diagnosed with ASD and ADHD who has been put on Concerta in order to stay employable

#adhd #asd #autistic spectrum #medication #pharma industry #meth addiction

[stonerdrampa]

You play a twisted little game, but I know in a way you need to complicate.

Believe that though we never eat, we still know how to feed. We still know how to bleed.

Sugar, I've developed a taste for you now

#selfie #me #sleep token #sugar #ice #addict #b&w #b&w selfie #speed #meth #meth addiction

[glycerine1122]

So I been going to NA meetings, and I keep hearing that you have to quit drugs for yourself. You can’t do it for others. I always thought there was an exception to this when it comes to your children though?

I tell myself every day that sobriety is better and that one day, if I stay on the right path, I’ll be able to have be with my daughters, that Kainsley could even live with me… Most days, this is very believable and, while never easy, it seems doable. There are a million positive benefits to my life and the people around me since I quit doing meth and another million reasons why I shouldn’t ever use again. Once in a while though, for whatever reason, my mind can’t believe any of that and all I want to do is get high, get so wrecked that I forget about everything else going on. Forget that my oldest daughter is GONE, and I don’t know her and she doesn’t know me -Forget that Kainsley is almost a teenager and that it’s almost too late to get her back. What if she gets to be an adult and I was never able to get her back? Why did I stay sober at all? I know the answer to that like I know my own name. Even if I don’t get them back, I still need to be sober for them. I can’t support them, even from a far, on drugs. I feel like I have been pretending to be someone I’m not for one purpose. To get another chance at being a mother to my daughters. I need them to see that even if you do something horribly wrong, it’s worth it to try and turn your life around. I always thought to myself, some day they’re going to come to a point in their lives when they have fucked up and have to dig themselves out of a hole, I need them to see there is a reason to dig yourself out. I need them to see me get clean and get them back so they know it’s possible. So they know to try when they are older… But Instead, they end up seeing the opposite. It doesn’t matter that I got clean. I can never get back what I lost. I did this. It doesn’t matter how good I do now, I fucked up and there is no going back.

I think that I can get clean for my children, but I know that I most likely will not be able to stay clean for anyone other than myself… and that absolutely terrifies me..

I built a special kind of hell for myself, didn’t I?

But I do miss how beautiful the sunrise is after four days of not sleeping…

#sobriety #scapegoat #life after meth #addiction #meth addiction #addiction recovery #drug addiction #methaddiction

[kenny-babyy]

Most days I think back to when

I first felt you inside of

My veins

Like everything

Cease to exist

For that high

That bliss

Chasing after something

I know is temporary

But loving

Every minute of it

Feeling you take my breath away

For those first few seconds

To feeling you

Heating me up

From the inside - out

To finding that

State of

Freedom and clearity

Like

A breathe of fresh air

With every dose

You got me hooked

What can I say?

I'm in love with what you can give

Sometimes I forget

What all you can take....

- Not a recovering addict, cuz I still use, just not in the way I used to, I haven't used a point in over a month, and I still think of how much better I enjoy that way than smoking, but idk early morning thoughts ig...

#meth fun #meth addiction #early morning thoughts #thinking back #flashback

[john-kline-artwork]

Jessica Jean Hinchcliff, meth head narcissist.

#modernart #narcissist #covert npd #narc abuse #narcissisticgaslighting #covert narcissism #jessica hinchcliff #methaddict #meth addiction #narcopath #liar #toxic #moron #uglyperson #jessicahinchcliff

[darkredlightyears]

Pretty recent pic. I am unhappy w/ my appearance for the past couple months. All of my clothes were pretty much stolen while I was in jail, and I got fat I jail, and I haven’t gotten a haircuts since May or so, while in jail

I got in better shape but I’m not (and don’t wanna be) as skinny as when I was shooting meth 2-3x a day. Considering throwing myself fully into getting buff AF, need help w that.

#me #selfie #meth addiction #jail #weight loss #personal #gaylife #gay #gayguy