#my heart just hurts

[ruewrites]

Sometimes the sads just hit over something I want to be over and I wish it would STAAAAAHP.

#feelings suck #heartbreak sucks #it's been over a month and I want to be over it already #i know you just gotta roll with it until the feelings stop #going into my Asmo era #just gonnatry to connect with new people #I also want people to stop saying they want to be friends when they don't mean it or to say something when they change their mind #rue is juat feeling thinga hours #and I need to put it somewhere #my heart just hurts #I hate thinking that I'm over it only to not be #I wish I could just be angry or not care #it sucks #rue speaks #rue rants

[morning-meltdown]

Universe: You’re ready.

Me: No, I’m not. Please, plea—

Universe: *makes the thing happen I’ve been the most afraid of for the last 2 years*

Me: It hurts.

Universe: Of course it does.

Me: I wasn’t ready.

Universe: You weren’t ever going to be.

#nothing bad happened Per se #my heart just hurts #29

[adeaddragon]

I found seven little Opossum babies today and they unfortunately had to be ethically euthanized as they were just too little to be successfully raised. I’ve done little baby rescues before (a 4 week kitten, and about 10 rats over the last few years).

My heart is hurting though, I get way too attached and I really really love possums. I’m glad I saved them from a worse death but I’m also sorry I couldn’t save their little lives.

#ajschatter #ajsvents #euthanasia #animal death #this is probably gonna bother me for a while #my hands are still shaking but I don’t feel like crying?? #my heart just hurts

[cherrytomato-shutdown]

I can't go back to the nightly crying in the bathroom floor, struggling to be quiet.

I just don't have the strength...

#I'm so tired #my heart just hurts #k dumbass

[sentient-forest]

#cecilsweep and Welcome to Night Vale trending #1 in 2023

#welcome to night vale #wtnv #ive said it before but people not knowing wtnv makes me feel old #i remember the days before cecil had a canonical last name #so tumblr just gave him the jonathan sims treatment #aka called him cecil baldwin (the voice actor's name) #wtnv will always have a special place in my heart as my first fiction podcast #cecil palmer #cecilsweep #oh to be young and queer and stumble upon a funky little gay podcast about a horiffic and absurd little town #yes i am just reusing my tags from my last post #added a description #glad yall are enjoying my shitty meme #i made it while half-awake and unable to sleep because my tummy hurt :( #follow me for more shitty podcast memes #im currently going feral for malevolent #important note: girlies is gender neutral #tumblr sexyman poll

[hinamie]

just looking at these hand poses was enough to give me carpal tunnel and that's how u know they're prime megu material

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #megumi fushiguro #yuuji itadori #megumi #yuuji #fanart #jjk fanart #itafushi #sometimes u gotta take a break from drawing megumi to draw different megumi and thats on self care #smiling megu for the soul he said heart emoji i said :D #i tried to do the poses myself and . u kno. im not convinced hands are meant to contort that way guys :( it hurt :( #so yuuji can share my pain i think tht bit is cute #tried smth a bit different w the skin rendering and i rly rly like it holy #very early era vacuumchan inspired :'> lov them SM sighs #also ripped megus jacket directly from a pinterest fit bc one of us deserves nice things :(((( #if sukuna wont stop wearing megumi in canon ill just play dress up to cope

[starrylevi]

Levi doesn’t get how you find The Sims entertaining.

 “It’s a virtual dollhouse.” He tells you. “That’s what so great about it!” You retort. “Whatever floats your boat…” He mutters to himself. He says this but he makes sure you have all the sims 4 packs (there are A LOT of them). And when one is coming out, He’ll listen to you passionately explain the premise of the pack. “When it comes out, just let me know.” He’ll give you his credit card info so you can charge it as he doesn’t want you to spend any of your money.

“I made us in the Sims!” You excitedly sit in Levi’s lap with your laptop in hand.

“Hm?” Levi places his chin on the crook of your neck as his hands gently graze the sides of your thighs.

“The Sims!” You exclaim again. “Look, there’s you and there’s me…” Your finger points out each of your sims on the screen. “Oh, and we have a child together!” Levi’s eyes follow your finger as you point at the child sim. “Her name is Kuchel.”

You feel Levi tense up behind you for a moment. “Wait…what’s her name?”

“Kuchel.” You repeat, quieter this time. “Sorry, I can change her name if you don’t feel comfortable with it.” You add quickly.

Levi’s expression softens; he stays silent for a moment before speaking again. “...Can you make her?” He asks you quietly, his voice barely above a whisper.

“Your mom?” You turn slightly so you can see his face.

He nods to confirm.

 “Of course, I'll do my best.” You tell him with a soft smile.

You ask Levi to describe her to you, his eyes filled with fondness as he recalls her features and her personality. You spend hours on the Kuchel sim, wanting her to look and be as accurate as possible.

After a few days, you show Levi the finished product in the game as you have the Kuchel sim interact with the Levi sim. You look at Levi for a brief moment while the Sims are speaking to each other. The expression on his face is hard to read. It’s a mix of pleasant surprise, awe, and sadness.

“Is it okay, is there anything I should change?” You ask him, worried you didn’t capture her likeness as you watch him study her.

He silently shakes his head. “No…she’s perfect.” 

You tell Levi he’s more than welcome to play whenever he wants. You’re surprised when he does take you up on that offer. He picks up on the mechanics quickly and soon he has the whole family (Your sim, Levi’s sim, your daughter, and Kuchel) traveling all over the world, going on adventures, and trying new things together. At one point you suggest the Levi sim and the Kuchel sim spend some time alone together and Levi does just that, taking them to coffee and tea shops, having them take walks in the park, and going to the library. As you and Levi continue to play together, you learn more about Kuchel as some of the actions in the game trigger different memories of his mother.

Levi doesn’t say it but he’s thankful for this silly little game you introduced him to because he can now have a cup of tea with his mother, even if it’s only pretend.

#I was thinking about playing the sims since I haven't played in the world with the Levi sim and I just thought about how Levi would react #I didn't mean for it to turn into this now I'm crying in the club #My actual heart #levi #levi ackerman #levi aot #levi x reader #levi x you #levi ackerman x reader #levi ackerman x you #levi x y/n #levi drabble #levi fluff #levi hurt/comfort #manda writes

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i saw them in the cookbook pages and Immediately thought of this meme:

#barnaby: this is so nice. just me and my buddy whipping up a tasty treat #wally: *having six simultaneous crises* #anyway. huh? #this was a pain to scribble and i Dont Know Why #i had to redraw barnaby's face literally five times #but im trying to Expand my skillset by attempting more backgrounds #or background adjacent things... Props! #im very proud of the counter & flower vase off to the side! #and uh. Filters! those as well. i wanted to make this look somewhat like its aged... #scribble garnish #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #man. these two. squeezes them #halloween update made me love them all the more #name a better pair of best friendsssss you canttttttt #they are Top Tier and i hope they get torn apart one way or another #you see i live for the drama the pain the agony the devastation #i see my favorites and i want them to Hurt. #anyway thinking about them baking together melts my stony heart #theyre bonding 🥺 #oh man why is that emoji So Fucking Detailed on my laptop. its scaring me. kill it kill it kill it

[ladykeyleth]

#criticalroleedit #critteredit #critical role #imodna #laudna #imogen temult #marisha ray #laura bailey #c3e74 47m30s #c3e84 2h44m30s on twitch #mgifs #marisha giggling in the second one when she hears laura #be still my hEART #anyway I love them so much it hurts #cr spoilers #though not really but just in case

[citadelofmythoughts]

#rwby #This is just hurting my heart #Kerry you have no idea how much I hope you get the chance

[turtleblogatlast]

Imagine little Turtle Tot Leo practicing his best Lou Jitsu grin in the mirror during the nights he can’t sleep. He’s gotta be just like his idol, after all! So he masters the art of the cocky grin, slowly perfecting his imitation.

Eventually that confident grin becomes his default one, and the quiet, happy smile that he’s born with, the one that he first greets his father with, that one is the rarity.

Until the invasion happens. Until he throws himself into the Prison Dimension. Until he’s beaten within an inch of his life and he’s holding onto his last remnant of his family through sheer willpower alone.

In that moment, looking at the photo of the ones he loves, that quiet smile comes back.

#rottmnt #rottmnt leo #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise leo #rottmnt headcanons #Leo makes my heart hurt #he’s most himself when no one’s looking #violence mention / #high key considering drawing this lmao #oh time why dost thou forsake me #anyway I’m obsessed with Leo deliberately practicing his smile as a kid #bc even in the turtle tot short he wasn’t quite at that cocky level yet #but he starts to get there when he gets the bandana #so I like to think it REALLY starts around then #a tiny boy just wanting to endear himself to his father #not knowing that he’s had his dad’s love from the start

[yashley]

"Yeah, but we talked about it and I didn’t want it." "Why not?" "Because it scared me."

#critical role #ygifs #cr3 #fearne #she got me fucked up #her leaving her treasured cherished postcards at the altar of the raven queen where so many memories are left #leaving the one thing that had been her lifeline and her hope. the most important thing to her and she leaves them behind #because they weren't what she thought they were. #her innocence growing into sadness and that's the reason why she feared the dark versions of herself #because she was sad and angry and alone #this faun wearing her heart on her sleeve and running from what hurts her and it's just. ms johnson i'm #''do you think it’s the world changing you or do you think it’s you changing in the world?'' ''yes.'' girl i'm on my knees #I couldn't be more grateful fearne continued from exu this growth hurts so so so good I'd die for her #fearne angry? delicious. fearne sad? delicious. fearne tits? del- #fearne this episode you can really taste the If I'm Not Pleasing People It's My Fault When They Leave and it bit me

[doctorsiren]

thinking about anime child miles 😭

#doctorsiren #ace attorney #miles edgeworth #missile the dog #ace attorney fanart #art #digital art #my art #fanart #procreate #sketch page #ignore my ramblings in galactic #I was passing the time #kinda surprised I’m still ‘fluent’ in galactic haha #anyways yeah he’s just…very tragic and it makes my heart hurt #autistic miles edgeworth

[phobiacoms]

I just... love them a lot.

#qsmp #qsmp fanart #qsmp dapper #qsmp richarlyson #qsmp bbh #qsmp cellbit #qsmp tazercraft #qsmp quackity #qsmp felps #qsmp brasil #fanart #mine #digital art #brasil #I just realized I forgot to add alt text!! now its all good! #also i love love them so much !! please someone come and talk to me abt qsmp #BRart #brazilian artists #2024 me here: this hurts!! but the brazilians entrance on QSMP was something that i will treasure forever in my heart! #i was going through my worst depressive episode so far and these guys helped me SO MUCH #even if i was on the fandom for only a couple of months

[naswoop]

So how about that friendship conversation, huh

Inspired by this post

#art #isat #in stars and time #sasasa #start again start again start again #Sif isn't at the top of my list of who in the group would make friendship bracelets #But for the sake of drawing a parallel between the post and the friends->family conversation it worked enough #isat act 3 spoilers #isat spoilers #just in case #But poor Sif taking Odile's joking with Isa to heart #Haha them and Mira have that in common--sometimes hurt by the playful jabs #I think it was in act 3??? #siffrin isat #odile isat #isabeau isat

[guqin-and-flute]

Something about the fact that these shots are all grouped together, one after another, visually giving them equal weight just gets me. The narrative knows what's going to happen between JGY and Huaisang at this point, knows how it's going to treat JGY at the end of everything. And it still takes time to show Meng Yao instinctively and immediately going in front of Huaisang and Huaisang instinctively and immediately hiding behind him. It takes the time--literally, showed it in the background and focused on it with the same general amount of time as the other shots--to show that this act of protection and trust are just as real and true as Jiang Cheng defending his sister, as Wen Qing defending her younger brother.

Like, I dunno! There are other Nie juniors there! They have swords and shit! Huaisang could have gone and hid behind the wall, but he hid behind Meng Yao! And Meng Yao could have moved back with Huaisang, but he steps directly in front of him!

There's a lot CQL did to JGY's character and narrative that I don't like and that flatten or just straight up erase his full complexity. But I really appreciate the lengths that it went to in Episode 4 to explicitly tell us that he does not hesitate to protect Huaisang, even though at this point he does not have a sword and definitely does not have anywhere near the same cultivation power (if any) as any of the rest of the people in the room.

Right now, after being publicly humiliated, unarmed and definitely outclassed, he is brave. Along with the rest of the characters, he's allowed to be uncomplicatedly young and loyal and just as innocent as any of the other students there.

#Besides Wen Chao fuck u bud #Honestly I think that along with Xichen Huaisang is the other person he legitimately never considered hurting #(In the same way that he didn't consider killing Mingjue hurting them but I digress) #With Xichen I think there were plenty of times were he came to the conclusion that fucking him over or overtly manipulating him #in a disadvantageous way would benefit himself and he actively decided that he would not do that #Whereas with Huaisang I just get the impression that it never occurred to him to do that #And I'm not saying that was ALWAYS out of the goodness of his heart #I think he genuinely didn't think he would get anything out of taking advantage of Huaisang personally or politically #Which is not the most ringing of endorsement next to 'I knew I could and chose not to' #But it wasn't ALWAYS that #for a man who has to constantly be on guard and look for leverage in every single interaction and aspect of his life #I think it's pretty significant that he let Huaisang in so close that he was shocked when he found a metaphorical sword in his chest #along with the physical one #Because in never trying to hurt him he never felt he had to defend against him #He loved him. They both loved each other :( #Also him finding Huaisang's bird antics so genuinely amusing in the background of this ep is just 😭 #jgy #nhs #my stuff #jgy meta #nhs meta #text