#searching for meaning

[somebody-crying-on-the-phone]

I don't know who I am, or where I should be in my life... but I have a feeling it's not here.

#belonging #lost #depression #depressing shit #sorry for being depressing #emotionally drained #emotions #searching for meaning #tw sucidal ideation #tw depressing stuff #tired of living #suidical

[leukagbl]

I like the way it feels in my blood. I like it when I make it pierce through my skin, the flesh splitting open. Then it enters. And when it’s in, the pressure in my veins becomes pleasurable. A soft and warm feeling, like a timid damp breath and nothing matters anymore. The static finally ceases. It is like a fuel which makes the world distort and only in that moment the world looks happy. And then I am happy.

But of course happiness does not stay. The relief does not last. So I scratch and hit myself because there is nothing else I can do. The suffering is back. Worse than before, it generalized. And I want to crawl out of my body with my bare hands but I know the only solution has always been to put it back in one more time. With it, I feel less alone.

#tw drugs #thoughts #poetry #spilled thoughts #q #writing #spilled ink #searching for meaning

[theunspokenvoid]

We get so caught up searching for the meaning to life, and in the process we lost the meaning to live.

#poetry #sad poem #writerscorner #so tired of it #depressing quotes #sad qutoes #stuck in a loop #depressing shit #life quotes #searching for meaning

[tom4jc]

Hosea 3:5 What Are You Searching For?

Afterward the children of Israel shall return and seek the Lord their God and David their king. They shall fear the Lord and His goodness in the latter days. Hosea 3:5 People are often searching for something. It is common for people to lose their keys or phone and have to take time to search for them. Or they are searching for some information on the internet to help them out in some situation…

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#Finding God #finding purpose in God #Hosea 3:5 #Israel #Returning #Searching #Searching For God #searching for lost things #searching for meaning #searching for purpose #Seeking

[callisteios]

Hi, feel free to take my new uquiz to discover what kind of vampire you are!

#NO IM NOT TALKING ABOUT CHESS THE MUSICAL I DONT KNOW WHAT THAT IS. I AM TALKING ABOUT THE ANCIENT BOARD GAME:CHESS #uquiz #vampires #twilight #because let's be honest there are a fair few references #and maybe this is my twilight quiz which has been in my drafts for nearly a year! #and i was tired of it sitting there #maybe! #quiz #werewolves #mention #you can get human in this im really sorry #it's a bit of a mean result #oh if anyone has an actual picture of the vampire that killed dean winchester please send it along #i could not find it with a cursory google search but i rememeber he wore a clown mask #so maybe one of those guys is the guy?

[nermcandy]

Shannon's world revolves around her books and college classes, like a never-ending cycle of solitude. 🎓🌌 She wonders if this is all life has in store for her. 🤔💔 Lost in the pages of her textbooks, she longs for something more. 📖✨

#Shannon #Life on Repeat #Searching for Meaning #Lost in Thoughts #anime women #anime babes #nermcandy #nerm candy #anime redhead #anime aesthetic #anime style

[endlesslycoffee]

barely but we did it

#ao3 #i have a new perspective on life now #im going to love more #to enjoy more #to say how much things mean to me more #i love yall #we did it fellas #back to reading now #byler #cause thats the fics i was searching for

[pillowspace]

messy doodles of a time travel Cassidy who doesn't remember the deaths from this post

#pillowspace art #five nights at freddy's #fnaf #cassidy fnaf #fnaf cassidy #evan afton #crying child #cc afton #chris afton #fnaf cc #cc fnaf #golden duo #i have to search real quick if golden duo means what i think it means #okay yeah it does

[curiouszen]

misplaced loyalty —

His pride has not yet fully tipped into dreadful sin, I remember thinking

This is what it’s like to truly love this man - flaws and all.

Today I’m balking at this flaw and that flaw. Hm…

I redefine terms based on emotions I’m feeling

Emotions self-generated or from the outside directly focused on me

What does this tell me of my integrity?

Speak only Truth, I say, Woman of my Word, I speak

Until no longer convenient.

I look so normal, yet am so unoriginal manipulable

Like a marionette with a few cut strings,

Some parts inert, others jerky over-active.

Complicated and lost,

I’d exposed my heart to fools, and given my trust and loyalty to bullies

I’d been wrong for too long

Now find myself an echoing vessel.

Give me clarity and gold or give me nothing, I say to him

Easy or hard I will remain loyal still to you

I seek your better stability

I lean into you for you’ll not break

And maybe I am assured, maybe not

And maybe my loyalty’s misplaced, or maybe not.

__🪶

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Day 5. November Series

#connecting #loyalty #forever seeking #searching for meaning #self awareness #daily musings #daily writing #discipline #day 5 #week 45 #november #zengenevievetoo #curiouszen

[sonoda-oomers]

realizing thistle never actually reached the maturation point for an elf is so. eye opening. especially bc he actually witnessed both delgal's birth and the birth of delgal's son (AND HIS GRANDSON!!). as a human reader it's so easy to be lulled into thinking he's so old and marcille's remark of him being a child came so fast it's so easily forgotten

like i definitely think the golden kingdom and delgal himself never knew let alone be able to perceive thistle as an immature person. bc in their years he's just so old. and i think growing up surrounded with all tallmen also gave thistle false perceptions of how mature he was and it played a part in him taking on the responsibility of rejecting death for the whole kingdom. it's a brilliant and raw display of what age discrepancy actually means in the world of dungeon meshi

#spud.txt #dungeon meshi #(tagging so it's easy to filter but i also want. search attention. sowwy) #i also don't really agree with takes that delgal didn't see thistle as a brother when he grew up. they're really interesting i just #don't want to add it to my repertoir bc their bond means so much 2 me #i also don't want to believe it's a hollow vessel of delgal that thistle's dancing with in the op #look at them doing the spinnies he deserves that much

[bamsara]

was anyone going to tell me there are fanlore pages about me and my works or did i have to find that out by myself when i tried searching for one of my tumblr posts in a google search bar

edit: i just read through the solar lunacy one and some of the details on there are just kind of....wrong. lmao

edit: there's one for my iz fics??

#im not really sure how to feel about that! #sara shush #for context i was looking for an old solar lunacy art post i made but tumblr search function is god awful #edit: the fanlore page states that sl dca are considered one person when ive stated thats up to interpretation to the readers #and also that moon doesnt regret his killing?? im-sdghklskdhg #i gen miss solar lunacy but man the pressure feels like weights #edit2: fellas i dont really think im comfortable with this sort of perception lmao #IT SAYS IM A MHA ARTIST? #HUH? #you mean the fandom i was in for like. 2 months i think #apologies but i dont care about mha that much huh #edit3: why does the iz page say stitch is my self insert

[time-woods]

I WAS TRYING TO ASK HOW WOULD HIS EXOSKELETON UNDER HIS 'EXOSKELETON' LOOK BUT I PHRASED IT TERRIBLY AND MY PFP ISNT MAKING IT ANY BETTER

#prismos search history^ #not for nefarious reasons but just cause hes curious and has no clue how bugs work/cant ask him directly cause that would be real awkward #this is terrible #im sharing this here as well because i must admit it is a bit funny #BUT I DIDNT MEAN IT LIKE THAT ! ! IM JUST AWFUL AT WORDS #my ass got lampooned over this so fast #im just trying to design him a proper exoskeleton #ALSO MY FRIEND ASKED FOR A IMAGE TO LIKE MAKE SENSE OF HIS EXOSKELETON BUT I SENT THE WRONG ONE AND IT JUST MAKES IT LOOK WORSE 4 ME #this is how i die #adventure time #fionna and cake #scarab the god auditor

[leukagbl]

Why do we seek knowledge in space (James Webb telescope) ?

Humans have a certain need to feel a greater purpose, to feel a sense of belonging; thus by learning about the universe we subconsciously seek for a reason to exist, to feel whole. Perhaps if we would discover other life forms we would feel a sense of belonging (it is a human tendency to anthropomorphize other life forms because we are used to relating to another person, we want to understand their motives, reasons and meaning).

If you look at the history of scientific discoveries and philosophical knowledge in general, we come to see that the more we learn the less rational the universe appears— as well as our existence. It is the paradoxical human nature; we are conscious creatures in an unconscious universe. So when we consider the universe as greater than us (therefore being meaningless in it), we alienate ourselves with the concept of othering. The concept of othering is related to ouf self-awareness and consciousness. We are becoming alienated from the universe, or from other humans even, as we try to find something similar to us (creating god, science, philosophy and many other fields to understand ourselves in the process).

However, ultimately, everything is part of the universe. In my opinion, this dichotomy results from the fact that maybe we are the universe becoming self aware of itself. Again, we are seeking knowledge with the James-Webb satellite to understand ourselves and were we belong.

#meaning #thoughts #litterature #spilled ink #q #spilled thoughts #searching for meaning #this is depressing #meaning of life #space science #outer space #astronomy #satellite #james webb space telescope

[hamletthedane]

I love you mean girls in literature, I love you manipulative and scheming elder sisters of the protagonists, I love you ambitious women washing damned spots from bloody hands, I love you “she was always the perfect/favorite child,” I love you Emma Woodhouses and Caroline Bingleys, I love you mean girls with complex and morally questionable but ultimately understandable motivations, I love you mean girls they called evil and never bothered to explain at all, I love you mean girls who are not even girls, I love you queen bees, bullies, cheerleading captains, and heads of the school play in teen flicks, I love you weapons of war and calculating politicians and manipulators of royal court, I love you sirens and succubi and vampiresses, I love you changed by the end, I love you still the same bitch as before-

#this character type is so compelling #for the record this is not limited to actual female gender characters - mean girl is a state of mind #tagging to find later on my own blog bc tumblr search feature sucks: #writing #tropes #mean girls #literature

[inkskinned]

"it's so embarrassing you like that popular thing" "oh ew that geeky/strange thing is so cringe lol" "oh it's kind of weird you get excited about that harmless shit"

dude i love how ironic and jaded you are and that's so cool and sexy of you. and i am so so glad to tell you - you won!! we all had a meeting and we decided that you won, and we are writing your name on the inside of a burger king crown. the marker smeared, sorry, but we knew any form of real effort is ugly to you. but anyway. congrats! you are officially the coolest, most ironic, most jaded person in-the-world-right-now. we would throw you a party but you would think it was totally boring - and besides, we're weird so we wouldn't have been coming. we would have brought our love of beetles and of baking and of little canapes. we would have brought our artsy videogames and pages of writing. we would have written a poem with you, our hands covered in ink, and spread out a canvas to dance on, the night so lurid and pink.

but do not worry. we will not throw the party. we will just get you a ringlight and that crown i mentioned. it is a nice crown, except for where one of us dropped it.

the vote was a really hard one because we had so many cool ironic people to pick off the shelves. all of you have hands that rot fruit, how strange is that - you can't look at something without destroying it for other people. you like it when you can squeeze a person into a pinpoint - all us small ones scampering our little feet around our ugly joys. the vote was also a hard one because we kept our voices down because you don't like it when we talk too loud. you were on your phone at the time, talking to people other than us. you are a ghoul of every moment - half in, half out, you resent us for being here without shame or embarrassment.

so good news! we have invented an island for people like you. you get to go there and speak into the air things like if you still like watching harmless twitch streamers in 2023 you're fucking boring. you will say things like liveplay podcasts are fucking ugly and it's kind of awkward they try to make everything gay. on the island we made you, all of your words will have weight. they will form in the air like icicles, large white behemoth letters that will crumple in anvils around your feet. maybe we will send someone there once in a while to sweep, but honestly you might be there for a while, alone, waiting. we are busy being outside looking for mushrooms and flapping our hands and humming. we are busy kicking our little heels while we watch cringey tv. we are busy - sorry! as an apology, we have pre-filled the island with every bland, mediocre, unscented thing we could find. the island has the texture of american cheese. the island has an ocean that never gets angry. the island is perfect for you, trust me. you will be so happy there - as happy as you can be, ironically.

we want to say we are sorry for doing harmless things that you find annoying, childish, or unappealing - but we are not sorry. we thought we could help you, because we don't mind laughing at ourselves, but it turns out you are allergic to color and noise and atmosphere, so this is the best that we can do for now. we are all making a big shirt that says i voted in the ironic monarchy. we got you one that is just a fast fashion buttondown. i am so excited for you and this island and the big life you have won. you have a cool jaded grey life and miles of irony to roam. i love you! be well.

now leave us alone.

#spilled ink #writeblr #slam poetry #i started this as a joke and ended up taking after #the poem about all the women in the world meeting in the bathroom #i can't find it to link it directly i've been googling for like 15 minutes if someone can remember #turns out frantically googling the only lines like ''women meeting in the bathroom'' #''secret womens meeting you always believed happened" is not useful for . to search??? help :( #also the reason this says harmless so many times is bc like #this is 100% about like #yeah man when ppl are mean about ppl enjoying things like. fuckin lady gaga #like this is so obviously about ppl who steal ur joy for no reason (i WILL steal ur joy if ur a bigot btw) #also yes it's bc someone was like ''liking the mcelroys in 2023 is cringe'' #and im like. dude what the fuck literally just let people like things it's LITERALLY not that deep. #like i dont like centipedes theyre one of like the 2 bugs im squicked out by ... but like. #if u really like centipedes. im like so happy for you. i hope you can put socks on ur centipedes #so they can speedclean ur floors. that would be fun and cool!!! #i love u i hope all of you have a weird passion i love you i hope that passion fills your life like soap bubbles

[iffasart]

Sebastian "i kill people and use unforgivable curses on my friends but is all to cure mi sis so is ok" sallow

#now #i think he is a really complex character #there is a lot to unpack there #but he isnt my favourite #i mean mc must be a bit scared of sebastian after the crucio and avada kedavra #because after the crucio curse he just says are u ok and leaves to search #while ominis tries to get him to leave #then the way he treated ominis #and how the dark arts consumed him #im just saying he could've had a better development #sebastian sallow #anne sallow #solomon sallow #hogwarts legacy mc #hogwarts legacy #hphl #harry potter hogwarts legacy #hogwarts legacy fanart #fanart #ifosart