#self worth? more like

[linnie-loves]

why, when I am on my knees and begging for you to hear me, do you tell me it is below me to do so?

I am scratching and screaming and clawing for every crumb of affection and it is exhausting. I am too tired to stand on my own and demand anymore. and no one will stay, to sit with me. no one will get me a chair, or a pillow, or anything at all so that I might feel something like loved or cared for.

I beg and I beg and I beg and I tell myself if I am not heard then there is no point in sitting here to rot. but I am sitting here. rotting.

why won't anyone pick me up off of the ground, just to hold me?

am I really so horrible?

#self worth? more like #crippling anxiety #and validation issues #I am struggling #very much so recently

[theoldkyokodied]

If you follow my main you had to know this was coming… anyway. Enjoy these bloodweave doodles :)

#bloodweave #gale x astarion #astarion x gale #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #baldurs gate more like baldurs gay amirite folks? #yeah sorry the themes of hunger abuse and power got to me. I’m not immune to thematically mirrors #I have so many thoughts about the it’s not even funny anymore #oh you mean to tell me that canonically gale would offer up his blood if asked and that astarion can’t even do that bc of the orb ?? #tasteful irony that the guy who would want to help can’t do that bc of a mistake he made for love. #especially devastating for someone who measures his self worth in usefulness #oh they are so fucked up and they could understand each other in ways hardly reachable to others #once I start an origin run it’s over for you guys I will be so insufferable. even more than usual

[golyadkin]

I cannot express enough that if your reaction, as a hobby artist, to not getting that many notes on your art is to say "maybe I should just stop doing art altogether" you need to stop posting art to tumblr

not necessarily forever, not even for long, but just stop putting your art on here and start doing it for you again, remember why you enjoyed doing art in the first place and stop relying on the attention of faceless people on the internet for your enjoyment of your hard work

believe me, I get it, nothing crushes the artistic soul quite like labouring for hours on a piece only for it to get like 10 notes, so you need to find your own source of joy in the act of creation and a lot of the time that means making art and not showing it to anybody

#not art #listen #for real #this is not about any one person because i've seen posts about it from a bunch of people #you think i post everything here? buddy i dont even post half my stuff here #every drawing you see is preceded by five more just like it #that never see my cursor close to the save button #i have a sketchbook i draw in regularly that i do'nt show to a single goddam person #i make cutout art from gels i steal from work and stick them to my windows and do paintings in my living room just for me #because that it the only way you are ever going to be able to retain your original love of art #is by doing it for the sake of doing it #not for the sake of seeing how many people stop and stare #anyways i'm sorry if this sounds terse #but i'm so sick of seeing artists put all their self-esteem and happiness in the hands of a blogging website #stop selling yourself short by measuring your self worth by how many reblogs you get and what people say in the tags #your artistry and your happiness are worth more than that #if you're an artist for a living that's another story #but even then #even then #anyways sorry i'm done ranting

[bizarrelittlemew]

calling it right now that season 3 starts like this

#so confused about people saying the season finale feels like the end because to me it didn't at all #there's like 5-10 issues immediately set up for another season #they're in a happy place at this point because they've both realized their love is bigger than anything else #and makes it worth working on their problems together #the problems are still very much there #both of them have deep self esteem/self loathing issues that haven't been resolved in the week since ed woke up #ed doesn't know about stede's trauma #they haven't talked through anything #and they'll be shit at starting/running an inn lmao it's not gonna go well #and those are just some of the internal issues #then there's prince ricky and all the authorities that would very much like to get their hands on both blackbeard and stede bonnet #because stede just full-on kept using his government name after faking his death. nice one #the crew are not “gone” they're more like off to college for a bit but will probably run into trouble immediately #again because while they escaped to the ship they didn't eliminate the threat (the british empire) #it's not a forever goodbye #ok this got super long already anyway i have a whole fic marinading in my brain until i've finished these 4 wips i'm in the middle of ✌️ #hope we get a renewal soon because i want to see the rest of their story!! #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd s2 #ofmd #our flag means death

[leupagus]

Ted Lasso, the character, is one of the only representations of 'sometimes getting better with your mental health issues means that you are less visibly happy, and that is okay, because you are not required to be happy in order to be loved' out there and I am really discouraged that so much of the audience is angry at that.

#ted lasso #the guy we meet in season one is so so so much sadder and is suffering so much more #than the guy we say goodbye to in season three #but the guy in season three doesn't crack as many jokes and doesn't grin and laugh at every opportunity #I really didn't expect the fandom to interpret that as 'he's even worse off than before!' #when the fact is that when you're able to have an inherent sense of self-worth rather than relying on Doing Everything Right #that you become less manic about making sure everyone likes you all the time #which is what ted did for the first two seasons #I dunno I just wish there was more room for this kind of character #and... for this kind of person #believe mothereffers #theodore lasso

[rawrsatthetree]

I’ve seen people compare Julian Devorak to Astarion, and honestly I think you’re all embarrassing wrong.

Gale Dekarios is Julian Devorak.

Astarion is Count Lucio

#I could write a 10 page mla cited paper about this #you either don’t get Jules #or more likely you’re woobifying Astarion #i said what i said #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate #astarion #bg3 astarion #baldurs gate astarion #bg3 gale #gale dekarios #the arcana game #the arcana #julian devorak #count lucio #the fact that Lucio can either become better and become an adventure or he can become the literal devil that takes over the city #he’s need to discard his old self and grab for power by making deals with devils #Gale is a genuine that loves wine his cat and his mom #julian is a genious that loves salty bitters his old dog and his sister #both Gale and Julians need to self sacrifice to prove their worth

[p4nishers]

there's something i need to say and yall can boo me for it but deep in my heart i'll always know i'm correct: crowley already forgave aziraphale. like already would take him back at one flutter of his eyelashes. that's all.

#do i wish he wouldn't forgive so easily (tho i don't actually think aziraphale needs forgiveness since he didn't do anything wrong and #actually without his decision their love story would've been stuck as it was for more than 6000 years and also heaven would never change #without someone dismantling it and making it new) #yes i do wish that and i also wish he'd learn self worth but we gotta be realistic here he never once been able to stay mad at aziraphale #all those times they had fights where aziraphale was (mostly) in the wrong and rejected crowley what did crowley do? immediately come #CRAWLING and BEGGING back like pls yall this is why i don't read post s2 fics bc everyone suddenly seems to forget their whole canon #personalities and history w each other and it's annoying me so much like i get that we all are hoping crowley learns from his mistakes and #stops being so easy for aziraphale (not me tho) but realistically speaking it's just not gonna happen and once again aziraphale DIDN'T. DO. #ANYTHING. WRONG. yes he hurt crowley with his decision but CROWLEY HURT HIM WITH HIS TOO so if yall wants an apology dance it's gonna turn #into a waltz cause they'd both need to do it #good omens #good omens s2 #azicrow #crowley #aziraphale #aziracrow #ineffable spouses #good omens season 2 #ineffable husbands #go s2

[feelingbatty]

idk if this is going to make sense to anyone except me but this is the easiest way to describe the difference between jason and tim’s characters

#like i'm specifically thinking of reverse robins red hood vs canon red hood but i think it holds more generally #batman #batfam #jason todd #tim drake #robin #red hood #red robin #and all the other things tim has gone by but i'm not tagging those #they're peak millennial vs get z energy except in regards to self worth/expectations of love you know what i mean #mine #1k #2k #5k

[turtleblogatlast]

I still think about how Leo’s ideal day out for the fam’s venture into the Hidden City was basically just an effort to get some rest and relaxation because boy does he never get that ever.

#rottmnt #rottmnt leo #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #Leo is that one kid who’s like yeah dude I’m chill I’m laidback #and on the inside he’s just in a constant fetal position rocking back and forth #at least the others got a good amount of time spent in Tahiti but Leo’s out here like please god just one spa day 🙏🙏🙏 #no but tbh? it’s genuinely a great look at Leo’s character that he wants to go to a spa to basically just sleep in the sun #it’s not bombastic or flashy or anything he legit just wants a good place to get proper rest and care #that hair spa can catch these hands LET MY BOY HAVE HIS SPA DAY 🔪 #HONESTLY EACH PERSON’S CHOICE OF WHERE THEY WENT FOR THEIR DAY OUT SAYS A LOT #like raph wants to emulate who he perceives as those in justice in a desire to become more like the hero he so desperately wants to be #leo goes off on his own in order to let his guard down and actually rest for more than a lackadaisical facade #donnie goes with april not only to salvage his pride and condemn magic but also to hold onto his self worth and genuinely help out #and mikey thrives in family and specifically the harmony within family and how that is portrayed through the act of simply being together #in this essay I will-

[beanghostprincess]

Luffy not knowing about Zoro promising Sanji to kill him if he ever ends up losing himself makes me go feral because that's something they can only know about. Because Zoro's respect for life and death goes beyond anything, and Sanji knows he understands. Sanji knows that if somebody has to kill him, it's him.

And I don't even think it's because Sanji assumes Zoro's opinion of him is hatred and it would hurt less for him to do this, but because Sanji knows only Zoro would be able to treat the promise as it is. Because he would put Sanji's wishes before any feelings he has for him. It's not that Zoro doesn't care, but I think he respects people's ideals and decisions to the extent of being able to kill Sanji if he so desires.

That being said, he'd do it if there's no other way to fix it. If it's either dying or living as an emotionless machine, which is the same as dying for Sanji, Zoro would fulfill his promise. And there is just... Something about Luffy not knowing. Their captain. The man they're devoted to the most as if he were their God. Luffy doesn't know. It's something only the captain's wings are aware of and the thought of these two keeping this from Luffy until the end is just insane. Not even trying to make it romantic here, but the bond and respect these two have for each other is crazy.

Maybe it's the poetry of it all, too. Somebody like Zoro, who has looked at Death in her face multiple times and said "no", ending Sanji's life, who wants to give in to death to not experience a fate worse than death for him.

#bean posting zosan this is so rare and weird don't get used to it sweeties #kind of tired of people jumping to extremes with these two btw like- #they don't hate each others but they're also not best friends-- respect is something they value even more than those things #they're not good for my mental health they make me go insane #this wasn't meant to be in a shippy way but idk if you wanna see it as romantic you do you bc it could def be #it depends on my mood #i consider myself a zosan shippers on random days #you could also say sanji thinks zoro doesn't give a fuck about him and that's why he tells him bc we know this guy's self-worth is awful #but i also like to think it's because zoro's views on life and death are exactly what sanji needs #luffy would try to look for a way to fix this and they others wouldn't be able to do it tbh #i mean if it ever got too serious i think luffy could do it but do you really think sanji's gonna make him go through that #if zoro has to die he wants to die by luffy's hand but if sanji has to die he wants to die without involving their captain #idk if that makes sense okay i haven't slept at all tbf #one piece #black leg sanji #roronoa zoro #zosan

[cacaocheri]

low key having a self insert oc helped boost my confidence a lot. like hell yeah I'm sexy and get all the bitches and everyone wants to be my friend all the time always

#anyway this IS self insert oc propaganda. people should make them more #this post is about charlie daydreamers #when i made them like a year ago they helped me with a lot of self esteem issues #mainly insecurity in not dating #because i always hear about other people getting into relationships and people finding them romantically attractive #and i just thought something was inherently wrong with me #but i made charlie and people really liked them! but not romantically #made me realize my self worth doesnt revolve around romantic relationships #love you charlie mwah #cherry rambles

[rexscanonwife]

Happy May 4th! (don't...don't check your calendar just trust me bro) I've had this painting on the backburner for a while now and it turned out SO nice! 🥺💖💖

I'm actually so so pleased with it, it feels so nice to see me and my hubby in such a romantic style and I'm really proud I was able to make it happen! OG painting and taglist under the cut as always, pls lemme know if you wanna be added or removed!

Taglist♡: @me-myself-and-my-fos @tiny-cloud-of-flowers @sunstar-of-the-north @dearly-beeloved @adoredbyalatus @changeling-selfship @crushes-georg @miutonium @cherry-bomb-ships @rosieaurora @rejaytionships @sunflawyer @in-true-blue-love @tropicalgothships

#artfarts #self insert #self ship #self shipping community #self insert x canon #fictional other #star wars #star wars the clone wars #tcw rex #captain rex #💙 oh captain my captain 💙 #UGGHH PAINTING STUFF LIKE THIS IS SOOOO SATISFYING 😭😭💖🫶💖🫶💖🫶💖🫶💖🫶💖🫶💖🫶💖 #i wanna just keep doing more and more of them but...it takes so much time ajfkf #idk its worth it i just wish i had more time to DEDICATE to it #but still if i can punch out one once in a while I'll be happy tbh 😊😊 #AND THIS ONE TURNED OUT SO NICE AAAAAAA #the tenderness is so perfect for us i miss him soooo much 😭😭😭

[tsunosagun]

thinking about if plants had rings like trees

thinking about rings as a promise, a shackle, a cycle

#trigun #trigun stampede #vash the stampede #tw body horror #tsunosagun art #thinking abt how much u can learn abt vash by how he's been cut open #edit i have more to say abt this actually cuz god could u imagine. 150 yrs worth of rings 150 yrs worth of devotion and self torture #imagine u cut him open and he could tell u which ring was a new friend a new scar #meanwhile externally he has a handcuff he Chooses to wear #even tho the ppl who first put it on him now treat him like family and are the closest thing he has to parents #kinda reminds me of another parental figure he made a promise to hm #this guy makes me insane

[galaxicnerd]

fears of inadequacy

#dirk strider #jake english #dirkjake #angst #hurt but not quite sure about the comfort #im just saying that as much as these two work on themselves they do not know how to handle intense emotions #its not a bad thing its just something they deal with #growing up completely alone with no one to physically comfort you would kinda emotionally stunt anyone you know #UGH damn it theyre so important to me #they both struggle with self worth like crazy #i love them being disasters together #i want to see them grow but more importantly i want to see them suffer

[fluffydice]

Lol I wonder if Kusuo lost that final little bit of self worth once he stopped the volcano. Like that was his whole life goal all those years. He didn’t even give himself time to think of a future beyond that. And once he stopped it, what was there left for him to do? He’d served his purpose.

I genuinely think losing his powers at his young age wasn’t really a good idea. All of his worth is conflated with his powers, both in his own mind and in others. Think of how excited Toritsuka and Kusuke were that he was getting them back, regardless of how anxious it made Kusuo. Accepting them as part of himself was a good step in the right direction, but he needs to learn how to acknowledge that he is a person who has value beyond what his powers can do. It’s something I think that can only come with age for him. He needs time to unlearn everything he’s grown up believing.

#the rest of his self worth comes from that almost defensive ego he has whenever he’s trying to distance himself #his god complex is so fucked up because he hates himself for it #god he should be more like teruhashi…not the way she literally runs herself into the ground trying to perform #but the way she is so confident that she IS all that and that it’s a good thing #it reminds me less of two sides of the same coin and more of the tragedy comedy masks #idk just thinking #saiki k #fluffy writes an essay

[vigilskeep]

lots of people reacting with surprise to the “zevran is 25” post. to be clear iirc this is world of thedas canon so a) i would not expect it to be obvious to anyone who hasnt read WOT vol2 or obsessively googled things and b) i still consider WOT kind of wishy washy canon where like it’s basically fine if you made a different assumption and prefer that. that being said i think being 25 only adds to zevran’s character and that people would write more accurate zevrans if they kept that number in mind

#i think people see this impression zevran puts out of being you know worldly and experienced #and they often end up with a zev who is much more emotionally aware and especially self-aware than i find particularly believable #if zevran is the guy in the relationship who is really easily recognising emotional problems and leading his partner through solving them #hes probably not quite right #like you dont want to overshoot it on the other side and have zevran be #essentially babied by the wise warden who never gets anything wrong because they take their lines directly from a therapy textbook #which i also see but like. there’s a balance #i just think its worth remembering he’s the ‘you dont want the earring you dont get the earring very simple!!’ guy #and is 25 #i think that makes for more zevvy zevs