#so it's hard to keep up sometimes;;

[coffeecatcraze]

I would just like to say how hard it hits me in the chest to see Charlie masking every time she's onscreen the day before the fight (including what we see on Vox's spy screens of course), except when no one is with her but Vaggie. Even during her emotional speech she tries so damn hard to keep that confidence up and smile on. But we do see her stop masking twice, when the only person watching her is Vaggie.

First:

No one's really paying attention to her, and she's not smiling; she's worried. When Vaggie approaches her, she doesn't put on a happy face. She talks about her mom with the same smile as in the first episode (during a very emotionally vulnerable moment with Vaggie, might I add). It's not happy or confident. It's nostalgic, wistful, and sad, because her mom's absence is something very personal and painful for her. When Vaggie asks if they're ready, Charlie doesn't instantly start to smile or answer with confidence even though she usually would (even within that short beat of time), because her mask is off. She's not confident or optimistic. She's scared. She's not ready.

Then Pentious comes out and she's all smiles again! The mask comes back on when someone other than Vaggie is there.

Second:

Of course, one of our favorite scenes. Charlie's alone when she breaks down, but when Vaggie shows up, she keeps the mask off. She admits how scared she is. When she does smile, it's not the big smile she's been throwing on throughout the day, and it's not strained either. It's soft, gentle, and real. She's not masking. Vaggie is genuinely making her feel better when she's finally letting herself fall apart, just by being there and reminding her that no matter what happens, she's already accomplished so much, and she's so loved.

Charlie is under a lot of stress and pressure. She's scared. She's not as optimistic as she's making herself out to be. She's giving everything she's got out there being a strong, confident, inspirational leader and friend in front of everyone, and it's only with Vaggie that she lets it go. She doesn't have to try to be strong. She doesn't pretend. She lets down her guard, because for her, Vaggie is that one infinitely special person who gets to see every part of her; the one person she can always be her honest self with.

There were plenty of times in other episodes when Charlie didn't mask her negative emotions around people, but that was when she didn't have anyone looking to her as a leader. She's running on adrenaline and the weight of people's expectations as Extermination Day gets closer, and she can't let the mask she's put on slip in public. She has to seem like she's totally ready for what's coming. But Vaggie is different.

The amount of trust and love Charlie has for her is staggering. She's under an insane amount of stress and pressure, and having Vaggie by her side is probably the only thing keeping her from completely falling to pieces. Seeing a relationship so full of deep trust and love is absolutely beautiful. <3

#hazbin hotel #chaggie #charlie morningstar #vaggie #no i am not saying her usual attitude is always a mask #just that when you're known to be a certain kind of person it becomes an automatic mask sometimes #and from these two moments and the situation as a whole it looks like that's what was happening here #she's probably spent the last month trying increasingly hard to keep up a face of confidence and fearlessness #except with the one person who's by her side and not following her #they are PARTNERS and that word means so much

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

thinkin' about Bardaby and his illusion smoke...

#went on yet another bardaby bender. these are only part of it lmao #i am often seized by the fatal need to Draw Barnaby In Some Shape Or Form #but yes. thinking very hard about the illusion smoke #i feel like sometimes he uses it recreationally... mixed with other stuff to dilute it ofc #but it keeps the color! #im imagining that it can act sort of like a Mood Ring! #the core color that he exhales yk yk! #but using it full strength for proper illusions and such #he's gotta be careful about it! it'll fuck him up! #he's built up Quite The Resistance to illusions and illusion magic over his life #but everyone has their limits... #scribble salad #wh fantasy au #IM NOT USED TO DRAWING SMOKE. IT LOOKS BAD LMAO #i'll have to work on that! look up tutorials! Practice! #anyhow i think the other scribbles need their own post #its mainly bardaby and our little warlock... #there are three ways i love drawing barnaby #i love scribbling him angry. i love scribbling him with howdy. and i love scribbling him being soft w/ wally #side note i realized earlier that part of the reason why i love characters who are just so much bigger than everyone else #ex: poppy & barnaby #is bc then its like. they're the smaller guys' personal jungle gym lmao #free bed! free climbing wall! free bean bag! free Getting Tossed Around!!!! #all wrapped up with the wonderful bow of Friend!!!! #...my touch starvedness is showing isnt it. away with ye demons!!!

[panthermouthh]

And I said, “Hello, Satan

I believe it’s time to go.”

#my art #southern gothic #been too depressed to create anything but I’ve made this today #the little rhyme has been in my head for a few weeks #spilled ink #I guess do people still use that tag for poetry or am I old lol #I’ve been writing in my journal pretty much daily and sometimes spitting out little poems like this #not much energy for art #so I’m not gonna pressure myself to keep it up #I’m just gonna enjoy the fact that I made this #I hope ur all well <33 #the devil #by the way this isn’t meant to be fan art of Robert Johnson #but it’s inspired by him and the stories of musicians who sell their souls to the devil #I am still thinking very hard and have mostly drafted a cornstalk fiddle comic #god knows how long it’ll stay in a notebook haha #my comic #comics

[skitskatdacat63]

Okay now where's the Seb teddy bear so I can make them kiss each other!?

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#okay btw you can credit the last frame to suzuki #bcs she brought up the pig stuffed animal that seb kept as a good luck charm when he was karting #and suggested the same with fernando's bear :DDD #also feeling weirdly sappy abt the fact that theres pics of fernando in the ferrari garage w an almost identical pig like ?????? #anyways please yes have this random vettonso comic 🥰🥰 #im working on a bigger vettonso drawing rn so i made this quick in the meantime! #icl i saw the fernando teddy bear. and i made the eyebrow post and whatever #but there was also just this image in the back haunting me of him gifting one to seb #I AM DELUSIONAL!!! #its just so cute to imagine it as like 'heres a memento of me to keep you company' 🥺🥺🥺🥺 #funny tho cause i had the same exact imagine for my ocs and i never drew a comic version for them yet drew this real quick #the power of vettonso takes hold of me sometimes..... #tfw you take a break from your vettonso painting youve been working on for a wk+ to go draw a vettonso comic #i have a problem. #ANYWAYS THIS IS SO CUTE WAAAHHHH #drew it as cope bcs in trying to restrain myself from buying the fernando teddy bear #if i cant have it ill make seb have it yknow 🤭🤭🤭 #wah this reminded i should draw more little comics theyre not too hard tbh #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #vettonso #catie.art

[inkskinned]

it is all love.

sometimes you will see something saying what if it is all worth it or it gets better, doesn't it and in the little heart of you - you feel a darkness.

was it love, the way i was hurt? some things don't have a lesson in them. no silver lining. they were bad things, and they shouldn't have happened. i'm sorry they did. i am sorry they warp the space they hold in you. we tightrope walk around an ever-present grave. we carry that ache for so long it becomes smooth, overworn. i worry that i'll bore my therapist - despite all of my attempts, the pain persists the same, as sharp as it always was.

but it was all love.

every ugly moment after. every bad night. every time you drank too much and cried on the bathroom floor. every time you threw up from anxiety, every time you panicked in the grocery store. everything you ruined, and everything you walked away from.

some small part of you loved you enough. made you get up. made you wash your face and clean your teeth and call home. made you try again, even from the bottom. even when you were so tired of it; of restarting, of having to do-it-all-again. some part of you reached out. some part of you reached up. even there, in the bad spot - you somehow got up.

love will so rarely be big. it will so rarely be a moment like a dawn. love is shy, i think. she keeps her hands in front of her cheeks. she waits to peek out. and if you're not looking, she will look - normal.

but it will all be love. the way you pour yourself a glass of water. the little rabbit outside your window. your friend pushing your hair behind your ear. the way your dog greets you at the door. "put on a seatbelt". "text me when you get home safe". "oh, i started watching that show you love." "have you been okay?" "let's go for a walk" "whatcha doin?" "what should i make for dinner?"

oh, my life is so different these days. i don't have a partner. i call my friends a lot. i keep falling in love with the little tender moments; the glittering ones. you know, the bird in a puddle and the shush of a newly-lit candle. the movie-moments.

i am also learning to love the ugly. every moment i spent belly-flat to the floor, anxious and panting. every hour i stared at nothing, losing time to my adhd. every missed opportunity and bad memory. i am not doing well. i am spiralling.

but somewhere in there, while i am reduced to ashes. some part of me is an ever-burning ember. her little thankless job, her shy and croaking voice. she holds me to my body. she doesn't let me go. stay, she whispers. out of love. my love. wherever it goes.

some of the bad things that happened to me will always be bad. they did not make me a better person. they made me worse. i only learned what i can endure. and i did endure it. and love wasn't just the perfumed moments. love was just ... staying. while it's ugly and hard and horrible. love was just saying:

okay. i will keep trying. keep going. i owe it to the version of myself who brought me here. i owe it to my future. i owe it to the small loves i have found since - the music and the new recipes and the new books and the new hobbies. i owe it to myself to wait for the next best thing. this wall we have hit - love says keep walking. maybe one day we will find a door.

always, always: just one try more.

#spilled ink #poetry #warm up #does this make sense #like i think it's like.... #sometimes loving urself isn't being like ''i love myself'' #but instead. .. #''i am here. and im keeping myself here.'' #and i kind of feel like #i owe it to the past version of myself #who has tried SO hard #who loved me SO hard she kept going #so i can keep going for HER #who was so much closer to the Bad Things #who really had NOTHING #... if she made it #if I MADE IT #out of that #i can love a future version of myself loud enough #that i stay for HER #and for who we will be #someday! eventually!

[kathaynesart]

OK, serious faces back on. Working on next Replica update, so here's a WIP. I really should use reference for Krang 1, but F it, we ballin'. Wanna get out of these recorded flashbacks. Got places to go and plot to see. The next update should be the conclusion of the recording and I'm excited that we'll finally get to see more of the Resistance HQ after this. (I'll be honest I hate doing backgrounds but I feel like we're in sore need of some better establishing shots.)

I'm sorry there's been so much time between the updates as of late. Been a lot of distractions and projects going on, but hopefully we'll get back up to a regular schedule in a few months. Hopefully people have not lost all interest. My brain is always buzzing with this story so it drives me nuts that I can't update faster.

#also like... it's so hard trying to draw both of his faces in a shot sometimes #the krang is like a muppet #you keep wanting to look at the large head with the big eye #but the puppeteer is down below #I feel like Donnie is smart enough to look at the puppeteer #but I keep wanting to look at that big old smile up top #replica #rottmnt replica #wip #kathaynesart #future bootyyy shaker 9000 #krang 1 #krang #save rottmnt

[mokutone]

i tried to document the process of making the watercolor piece, + i figured i'd share it bc i love talking about process :D

#my art #naruto #kakayama #kakashi #yamato tenzo #yamato #tenzō #i got caught up in the art tho and forgot to document my progress LMFAOOOO #thats why theres only four pictures #id do more of the video recordings of my work but my phone is kind of on its last legs #she's got a crack on her back and not just like a tasteful little spiderweb #but like. i can see some little mechanisms from inside the phone in there and she gets real hot sometimes. #she can keep going a bit longer tho. and so she shall! #ive never actually managed to crack a phone before i'm usually very lucky #besides its hard to find a good setup for recording video even just in terms of lighting

[poisonousquinzel]

"harley quinn's never had a good design in the last deca-!" WRONG dropkicks you through a brick wall

#dw i do plan to make an actual entire post about her best looks cause i stg #none of these people have ever picked up something with harley in the past 20 years #i love her jester suit sm but fuck do some of these people make it hard cause theyre just so stupid #and wrong #cant be me tho<3333 #harley quinn #harleen quinzel #dc comics #''omg but her hair“ SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP #let her be goofy and have fun colored hair ffs 🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪 #sometimes the hair color you want isn't really gonna go with most of your outfits #but having colorful hair is fun!! so who cares! #she could dye all her hair crystal blue with orange highlights and damnit ill still support her #everyone understands the Post Breakup Messing With Your Hair phase but get so bent outta shape that she wants to keep her hair #how it is and how she decided to have it dyed after fully ending things with him. #genuinely #some of yall just haven't had the experience of dying your hair unnatural colors multiple times over the years. #cause yea sometimes your hair is just not gonna be a perfectly crafted match unless you like solely wear a single color #like if someone dyes their hair blue are they just not allowed to wear stuff that doesnt directly go with the hair color? cause thats stupid

[black-and-yellow]

How much would it cost to see post lov Loudspeaker with all of his scars? I have shiny rocks and seashells

Doesn't take much to convince me to draw Loudspeaker. But give me your coolest rock.

#horikoshi give mic scars challenge #make him cooler >:( #if i had the rights to mha I'd make the Loudspeaker au canon I reckon it'd really add some excitement #I don't keep up with the show any more I only pay attention when Mic is doing something #If he dies I'm going mental because there is no reason in the plot for him to die. I think Horikoshi kills off characters #just for shock value sometimes #like Midnight #done being annoyed. chill again now #his burns were originally supposed to be hand shaped but that was really hard to draw #did anyone notice in the showdown comic that his hair gradually flattened so it wasn't in the Loudspeaker style anymore #to show his return to the light #or did i illustrate that for nothing #i feel like it's not as effective if I just tell you I did it but whatever #imagine if you were in class and your teacher made you analyse the Loudspeaker au #bnha #hizashi yamada #present mic #villain!mic #loudspeaker au #im going to dekaianime do you guys want anything

[sorrelpaws]

is it really an authentic r&m dynamic if it doesn't involve (at least mildly) morally questionable preservation tactics

#rick and morty #rick sanchez #morty smith #v37 #y4441 #rick and morty ocs #anytime morty asks about his jacked up arm or his face scar rick tries to change the subject #but ermmm sometimes it doesnt work. and sometimes it escalates. and sometimes rick thinks he has to use the mindblower #(in general y4441 is sentimental and keeps trinkets and shit. these memories are like the only exception. he immediatelly clears the device #rick loves morty a lot but hes terrified of retraumatizing him so his solution is to just... avoid any and all discussion of the topic. #morty likes rick. but well its kinda hard to trust him when he keeps dodging questions about his past #also.... y4441s tech is like. Not That Good... so while yes technically mortys memories do get wiped they're not like... Gone Forever #they exist more like a dream/deja vu situation #THEYRE KINDA FUCKED UPPPPP GUYS

[abandonedpie]

I'm in the process of developing my style for drawing these guys. Started with a small change in my approach to their eyes and liking the improvement so far! :>

#osomatsu-san #osomatsu san #osomatsu #karamatsu #choromatsu #ichimatsu #jyushimatsu #todomatsu #matsubros #piedraws #doodles #I was having trouble drawing Kara so I ended up with more of him due to making more attempts #sometimes I feel like the less I try the better they turn out?? #not always but #trying too hard probably stifles the process #gotta keep working on letting my art be bad #improving your skills is good but above all have fun #experiment with different things and see what sticks #i.e. what makes drawing more fun and brings your art closer to the image in your head or whatever your art goals are

[svtskneecaps]

the fact that it is basically impossible to debate at this debate makes it feel to me like yeah, the federation doesn't give a shit about the process. they're like fuck your debates all of this is a farce good luck <3

#qsmp #i'm trying super hard not to be annoyed bc to be fair it's funny #but i keep getting excited for people to actually make good points and disagree intellectually #and then they get interrupted. #like etoiles gearing up to discuss the codes and then he's interrupted and can't finish #it kills me inside #at least i'm watching antoine so periodically he starts shittalking or soundboarding with max #sometimes i hear baghera giggle at them too (like when antoine was like 'foreverrrr pleaseeee buy a microphone') #and when he glances back to check in on leo and pomme #the only saving grace #anyway yea thank god bad isn't here i feel like he would Not be having a fun time #shut up vic #block game brainrot

[fleouriarts]

feeling bad about my art lately. will probably not post for a while. but i wanted to at least dump some stuff here before i retreat into my hidey hole

#hivemind tv #riley savage #graydon weaver #hmfcu #quadeca #jane remover #eden burke #my art #2023 #fanart #doodles #its like. augh. longtime fleouriarts followers are familiar with my eternal tango with posting art online #doing this since i was 11 has like rotted my brain and made me rely wayyyy too much on external validation to motivate myself #and every year or so it gets bad enough that i take a break. but the break usually only lasts a month before i miss the feeling #and come back and then the cycle repeats #its probably worse now bc this is a fandom where getting seen by the creators is not really that hard #so there have been times where im like 'well idk if i wanna draw this. but if i do maybe hivemind will rt it :-)' #NO!!! THATS NOT WHAT ART IS ABOUT!!!!! i cant keep letting myself get addicted to the numbers going up man i gotta get out of here #and i was reading a quad interview from around when idmthy got released. cus hes also brain poisoned like this. but he managed to get out #and now just kinda comes online to release music and then leave #i need to be like that. i need to take a break from art posting thats so long that i come back as a changed man odysseus style #idk. its been so long since i drew stuff that no one gets to see but me. all the art i keep to myself is just out of embarrassment #i need to relearn how to draw stuff just for the love of creation and not “maybe people online will like this one” #or “this new thing came out i need to prove my love of it by drawing it” #sometimes it leads to good art but more often than not it just makes me feel worse #whatever. if any of yall are in the hivemind jane or quadeca discord i MIGHT still post stuff there. but otherwise ill keep to myself and m #friends for a while i think #woooooo this is queued to post while im in orgo lab everyone wish me luck with my thin layer chromatography

[actualbird]

beware cuz tw disordered eating, tw smoking addiction posting ahead but like.....

the thing about smoking vs eating is that. smoking is SO MUCH EASIER TO DO.

eating has so many steps. make food (AUGH), put food on plate, sit down and focus to eat food, food enters mouth, must chew, must swallow, must ignore constant low-level nausea to keep food down, repeat until food on the plate is gone. currently im so low-energy and fatigued that this whole process of eating is exhausting to me, and at the end of it i get a tummy ache anyway and risk vomiting all of it out, so theres always a risk of all that hard work (it is...objectively not hard work, i know, but right now in my Mental State it feels like climbing a mountain every time i have a meal) being all for naught.

meanwhile the steps for smoking are Marginally Much Less. it's: get cigarette, light cigarette, inhale, exhale, repeat until cigarette is done. and usually once im done, i wont feel hungry for another half hour because nicotine does that to me.

but it's short-term benefits vs long-term benefits because obviously after enough cigarettes-instead-of-eating, the effects of Not Having Eaten And Smoking Instead stack up to hit me with one hell of a whammy of acidity and Even More Nausea and like

i am Well Aware im trapping myself in a cycle of self-destruction every time i reach for a cig instead of sitting down and eating but smoking is just. easier. and it relaxes me instead of stressing me out, and eating sometimes does stress me out because of the amount of work and focus it involves

this is all horrible by the way, im not endorsing this behavior im just airing out my thoughts. in fact, i am a case study in all the things you should Not be doing to your body

but addiction is just a really crazy thing lmao. like what the fuck do you mean i prefer killing myself slowly rather than having a filling meal. thats crazy. no sane person would have those priorities in that order

and yet

#tw disordered eating #tw smoking #ive eaten lunch btw. i just had such a dang hard time the entire time #why is eating so hard. i like food. i KNOW i like food so why is getting it into my system so difficult #whenever im in the hospital i actually enjoy having an IV because it means i dont have to eat as much because the act is just #such a dang chore. theres so many steps. sometimes i stop mid-chew because im so tired or because i wanna throw up #dootdootdoot #anyhoo to all those out there who can eat without trouble: i love you. keep on doing that. dont take it for granted. it's a good thingto ea #i wish i could eat normally

[raysdrawlings]

Later next week, the final shipment of ‘Home’ orders will be shipped out! ✨💕

Thanks everyone for being so patient, I’ve had a great time packaging everyone’s orders up, and I can’t wait for all the books to be on their way!!

#truely thank you to everyone! #sorry I forgot to update Tumblr for a hot second 😭 #sometimes with several social media’s it’s hard to keep track of what I posted where #I ended up having way more orders than I planned for #so things have taken awhile between ordering more books fulfilling my other work contracts and other things #I’ve been slowly hacking away at orders around 40 a week #it just takes awhile 😅

[shadewood45]

Singularity! From @kelpo-art

#shady art #chonny jash #c4chatroom #cjverse chatroom #shade's friends' characters #@kelpo-art #cj:whole #you know okay so its francey and qotts au but also keruu is involved? #god sometimes the chat is a mess kdsjhaf hard to keep up