#sorry being sad on main

[srldesigns6277]

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#personal #sometimes i wish i knew what it was like to be someone people want to talk to #or at least had students who could listen to what i say for just five minutes #god i hate yelling then they say thats all i do when if i talked normally no one fucking listens #then i take it way too hard when they say they dont like me when at least i stepped up to take their class #a class that had already ran off one teacher #but no im too useless because i actually make them do work and tried to have rules #last year was hard but at least i felt fulfilled by the end of the year with all my classes #i have never craved the end of the year so much or as much as i have this year #its not even both classes either its just this one that makes me dread working with them as much as they apparently hate me #sadly i can understand why their teacher left #and i know im not the best replacement since im learning how to teach them as they learn from me #but im just tired #its only a month left but i am so ready to never see any of them again #but depression does as it does and makes me question if im even good enough to get another job #one actually teaching my correct subject that i love #i hope like hell that i get a job and one i really want because i dont want to have to come back to this school #*it has the most substitute jobs #i dont like being loud even if no one believes me i dont like being mean though i know when i have too i just dont feel good enough #if i was i think i would have a job by now i mean im 28 and its been 5 schools in 5 years #sorry being sad on main #if you read this #thanks

[lifewaster-imdanger98]

My longing for human intimacy is immeasurable right now

#mentally exhausted #i hate it here #sorry for being depressing #i cant do this #sad thoughts #i’m tired #tw depressing thoughts #tw self loathing #self destruction #tw self destructive behavior #h*rny posting #h*rny on main #intimacy

[ionlytalktodogs]

This is the fifth overall time I’ve come out as a lesbian (to myself among others) and I keep asking myself… why do we need to keep having this conversation? Why do I keep hoping, PLEADING, that I could make it work with a man only to come back here again?

Accepting I like women was so easy. I was five years old. My best friend’s older sister was the love of my life. From then on I knew I liked girls.

Accepting I DON’T like men is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. Through so many broken relationships with men where I’ve kept thinking, “if I just keep trying eventually I’ll be attracted to him,” “if I pretend he’s a woman then I can kiss him,” “he likes me so much I should at least give him a chance,” the concept of being a lesbian has been this terrifying thing. It’s like…if I’m a lesbian then I’ll never have that perfect little life that I’m supposed to have with the husband, 2.5 kids, picket fence, whatever.

Do I even want that life? I’m not sure. I want to work. I want to travel. Writing is my life. But it’s been so drilled into my head that, because I’m a woman, my worth is DEFINED by being the object of a man’s affection. A woman is worthless unless she can serve a man…

I don’t know. I’m trying to break out of the patriarchal mold of linking my selfhood and worth to a man’s approval but it’s so hard.

#my ramblings #sorry for being sad on main I just needed to get this out #every time I rediscover that I am in fact a lesbian I feel like that SpongeBob episode #HOW MANY TIMES DO WE GOTTA TEACH YOU THIS LESSON OLD MAN #sigh… #c’est la guerre #lesbian #lesbian pride #lesbianism #sapphic #wlw #wlw post #sapphism #sapphic pride

[fear-no-mort]

im so insane about this little movement between these two here like the way morty notices rick kinda start to slip through the door and almost like instinctively leans toward him and when he then falls over onto the bottles morty just falls over himself to stay close to rick with his arms stretched out toward him . theyre like magnets to eachother have you noticed that how they’re like always moving based off where the other is and what he’s doing and they never go for more than like 10 seconds tops without glancing at the other trying to figure out what he’s thinking and acting accordingly

#SORRY sometimes you’ll get somewhat analytical only semi-bullshit posts and then there’s just #like dude yeah… people move and interact with other people… what a discovery odie #i look at them and my brain just leaks out of my ears. excited for the episode #im sad there probably will only be like 1 r&m interaction seeing as that one article described rickess #rick as* barely being in the episode but also that’s really good. itd be the first one in a while to not have rick as the main focus!! #that does make me extremely happy. it balances out #odiespeak

[suffarustuffaru]

hello everyone i made a quick summary of main route ottosuba. hope this helps.

#rezero #otto suwen #natsuki subaru #YES THIS IS YET ANOTHER POST ABOUT HOW OTTO IS A LITTLE OBSESSED WITH SUBARU. people forget this fact sometimes while shipping him with peo #le other than subaru and its like. if he gets involved with other people now THEYRE gonna deal with his subaru obsession too and the image #of this happening is HILARIOUS to me. why must we ignore ottos subaru obsession when we can include it always for comedic effect. #ottosuba at arc 3-5 is mostly like “awww theyre kinda cute and funny together lol” and then ottosuba at arc 7-8 is like. #subaru beating up vincent and fondly thinking of it as pulling an otto while also being sad at the idea of otto dying while otto is going #feral bc “natsuki san i would let your terrorist daughter and 50 million other people die to save you <3 why wont you let me do that." #i. yeah this is an otto blog now im so sorry arc 8 has destroyed all my brain cells #arc 8 spoilers #gotta give props to main route ottosuba for still being insane IN MAIN ROUTE while kind of going under the radar about it

[coconut530]

Some derps for the past three Malevolent episodes ~ 🕷️👩🏻🎄

#Malevolent #Malevolent Podcast #Sorry the first two are like sosososo late I just like… forgot to make them #But those episodes were like sososososo much so can’t blame me #But today was BENEVOLENT DAY #WHICH WAS THE MAIN ATTRACTION #GOD ALL OF IT WAS SO SO SO SO SO FUNNY #THE SITCOM AESTHETIC THE APRON THE MAILMAN THE TELEGRAM ALL HIS FRIENDS AND FAMILY AND THE SAD TRUMPETS #AND THEN THEM TRYING TO GET THEIR SPIRITS UP AND PLAYING BABY IT’S COLD OUTSIDE #“IF WE HOLD HANDS THE FANS WOULD DIE” IS JUST HILARIOUS I TELL YOU #BC WE WOULD #AAAAANYWAY AND THE -ARTHUR’S FAMOUS IDEAS!!!1!!1!1- that go horribly sometimes but uhhhhhhLET’S NOT MENTION THAT #😂 OSCAR BLESS UR HEART AND AT LEAST YOU HAVE AN ARM IN THIS EP #EDDIE HI I BARELY REMEMBER YOU BUT HI #KRISTIAN NOEL PEDERSON HELLO SIR I LOVED YOUR MUSIC AND IT’S SO WEIRD TO SEE SOMEONE ELSE IN MALEVOLENT BUT YEAHHHHHHHHH #AND KAYNE! BEING MISCHIEVOUS AND STRANGE AGAIN! THREE HOURS IS NOT ENOUGH SIR JSYK #THEM AFTER LIKE ACTUALLY READING THEIR LINES THE DELIVERY I CAN’T— #AND DINNER! I KINDA WISH LIKE LARSON OR BUTCHER SHOWED UP BUT OH WELL VERY GOOD HOLIDAY SPECIAL MADE ME LAUGH A LOT YAYYYY MERRY CRIMES

[genericpuff]

fp spoilers ahead and a content warning for violence:

hades normally:

hades when he's possessed by his dead dad and threatening to rip his wife's head off:

i rest my case, make murder hobo hades president, rip her head off you beautiful sick fuck-

#sorry i'm being edgy on main but MAN does hades look so much better here #seriously why is hades only drawn this attractive when he's threatening to rip his wife's head off #this is sad #i for one welcome our new evil overlord #at least he knows he's fucked in the head and doesn't pretend like he's nice #murder hobo hades for president 2023 #i'm just so desperate to see persephone lose at this point she's such a boring karen #lore olympus spoilers #lo spoilers #fast pass spoilers #trigger warning violence #tw violence #tw strangling #lore olympus critical #lo critical #antiloreolympus #anti lore olympus

[tomathy-inside-of-the-it]

IM SO EXCITED TO SEE THE SHOW TOMORROW AHHHH

#tommyinnit #To anyone who’s already seen it: #what was it like #did u love it #i’ve seen so many good reviews #do I need to bring my own weapon for the brawl or are they provided by jack manifold #He seems like he gets such a happy rush from being on stage #our theatre kid is all grown up and being cringe on main (in public) <333333 #Im sad about the sorry boys hiatus but it makes sense #Im glad it existed for the time that it did #fuck wilbur

[lovebugism]

me when i wanna go home but i am already home

#realizing i don’t feel comfortable anywhere is. a humbling feeling. #sorry for being sad on main again but it’s rough out here #shut up bug

[nguyenfinity]

Every time I draw Mamagi it does AoE damage (I am also in the area of effect)

Lighthearted bonus:

#enstars #hiiro amagi #rinne amagi #i don't know if this is a bad time to be amagi-posting given that hiiro's fs2 just dropped but. oh well #also this might be the last thing i draw for a bit because i am in the final stretch of this semester #if you sent in a request. i will get to it and thank you for your patience #anyways i know i'm kinda being like 'haha rinne mama's boy' which like. yeah but also sometimes-- #--sometimes you're an adult in their 20s and like. yeah sure you're technically an adult or whatever but you still feel like a kid yeah? #and sometimes you just maybe want your mom to help you when you're lost or confused or when you need someone to tell you it'll be okay #but you won't get that for whatever reason #sincerely: an adult in their 20s #....can you tell why rinne is like. a vibe to me now #anyways i'm not saying mamagi dying was a necessary evil but if hiiro and rinne had an adult who actually loved them at home they probably- #-wouldn't have left and we wouldn't have the main story #if she was alive today tho she'd be going to their lives sorry i don't make the rules (yes i do) #if she ends up being exactly like the rest of their village in some future lore i'm gonna be so sad. #she'd throw hands with niki's parents #imagine leaving your sons behind because you straight up died (couldn't really do anything about that) #meanwhile your son's boyfriend's parents just. up and left him because they could #also posts with her will be tagged mamagi #if you read all that <3 #mamagi #she'd adopt all the bees and alkaloid too #imagine if they got their singing skills from her #also mamagi 1 rinniki shipper (also does not care it's not legal) #rinniki

[un-pearable]

krypton is a gaping hole in kal-el.

clark kent is, according to his driver’s license and his about me blurb that prints increasingly smaller on his corner of the new dailyplanet.com, a classic sweetheart from western kansas with a bachelors in journalism and a one bedroom half bath three streets and a bus ride away from the daily planet in the heart of downtown metropolis. clark kent is celebrating his recent win - getting the printer to work without the hinge suffering a sheer fracture - with an extra sugar packet in his second cup of joe for the day and humoring his next desk neighbor’s heckling over it.

kal-el — superman — is the man receiving the mayor’s accolades with the world and the laser focused glare of the police chief weighing on his shoulders. according to, kal-el is,

clark kent is the well-meaning dork who never quite grew into his size and was bullied in high school, when asked he recounts being too sickly to join the football team and too unpopular to get over it. clark kent arrives early and works late to work off his four and a half years of student loan debt. clark kent has childhood friends, and an ex-girlfriend, and a budding romance with the abrasive, dyslexic, isn’t-she-just-lovely lois lane at the desk next to him who’s recently recruited him as her partner-in-foiling-crime.

superman — kal-el — has a baby blanket wrapped around his shoulders, a hunk of metal in a barn a couple thousand miles away, and a name with syllables even his mother can’t pronounce. a logo on his chest that he does not know and a dedication to love and truth and saving that is deeply, entirely human.

krypton is an aching absence in kal-el. krypton is the word he carries in his mind for when he fumbles his keys and almost breaks the doorknob, for when he hunches and smears his glasses. krypton is the lack of an explanation. krypton is, simply put, not. krypton is to kal-el not what kansas is to clark kent. kansas excuses the overfriendliness and the impromptu vacation days “to care for his ailing mother” and the handiness with a tractor. krypton is the torch they carry alongside their pitchforks when the bludgeoning begins. krypton is the response when the tragedy is unpreventable, when the wariness pitches into fear.

krypton is the world he holds in his heart when he can’t help but wonder. krypton is the sword his enemies hold over his head — a condemnation, a promise, a hope — and lord over him. the world is trapped in memories not his own, preserved in the perverted motives of those who would trade lives for tradition.

krypton is, later, eventually, a bridge. kal-el, an ambassador from a culture he’s borrowed to the one he was fated. clark kent, a haven. krypton is a girl in a spaceship of her own, fleeing from a krypton that was.

#text✨ #capes cowls and crimefighting #superman #dc comics #technically fic????? i guess #fic✨ #sorry was pissed off about man of steel and pondering the take on krypton as this thing he *knows* he should know about #this aching hole in his knowledge about himself #that he’s been using for so long as a crutch to support the superman identity that it hardly even has meaning anymore #bc even HE didn’t know what it meant #and then a take on zod as lording this over him. the only connection to a living kryptonian culture being . that #and then finally kara as his gateway to actually learning it #no actual canon here just me being 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥and emotional #fuck the fortress of solitude i know jack shit about it . maybe it’s here maybe it’s not. whatevs #my superfam main is kon sorry folks i just had major sad clark moments for a bit #also i’m an anthro student it’s practically in the job description to be #angsty and sad about culture and world building #wrote this at 4am while Mad. humor me.

[mdverse]

My dad passed away unexpectedly just over a month ago. Last summer, he talked about wanting to commission me to draw a self portrait so that he'd have art of (and by) me. I was so distracted at the time that I kept forgetting to sort out the details with him, and then I started uni classes and I never got around to working on it. I've spent the last month kicking myself for not having done it as soon as he brought it up. I was so sure I'd have more time.

I used to think that he was disappointed that I was so set on pursuing art as a career, but I've realised lately that even if he was disappointed at first, he did so much to support my decision. He helped me through the process of dropping out of college so that I could start over with a different degree. He always showed interest in my art, asking about how my wips were going and if he could see the drawings and paintings I'd been working on for school. He wanted to commission me even though I would've happily drawn things for him for free. I wish I hadn't doubted that he was always proud of me.

I don't know what comes after death. I don't know if I really believe that he is watching over me, but I'd like to think he'll see this drawing somehow.

#my art #digital art #original art #art #self portrait #personal #perhaps too personal? i don't like being open and vulnerable on main but this is really important to me #i'm so sorry guys i hate to kick off this year with a sad post #or yknow. making sad personal posts at all. it feels weird #i'll go back to fun silly fanart soon hopefully #things are just hard rn and i haven't been drawing much lately

[desiringparadise]

I just want to save him

#this is one of my bad traits btw but i can't help it i feel so bad for him #also james casually saying the most fucked up thing is the reason why he's the main lyricist #'you're here instead of cliff so here's what you get' #my dude are you even listening to yourself. you're the ones who hired this guy how can you hate him for doing what he's supposed to be doing #jason never had a chance #also kinda sad that jason even then and even more so now thinks that the band was testing him or sth #when the bandmembers himself have never said that. #and instead have said that they resented the fact that cliff wasn't there and jason was #like i'm sorry to say jason but there was no higher purpose to you being mistreated #it was just cruelty born out of hurt #metallica #jason newsted #james hetfield #bully antics

[dollypopup]

so many people out here mad af that Colin isn't in love w/ Penelope from jump and completely ignoring that the single sexiest thing a man can do is be friends w/ a woman wholeheartedly and without having any romantic or sexual expectation from her

#polin #colin bridgerton #penelope featherington #bridgerton s3 #sorry i reposted it because it didn't show up in the tags for some reason? #but i feel strongly about it soooooo #anyway colin is fantastic and peeps need to build their bridge and get over it #IT'S FRIENDS TO LOVERS Y'ALL #FRIENDS #TO LOVERS #THE FRIENDS PART IS FIRST!!!!! #all these 'oh my god just admit you're in love w/ her' #pen out here in every conversation basically going 'hey do you think i'm dateable yet?' #whilst Colin is like 'Penelope is so smart and I love talking to her' #and colin being vulnerable as hell on main talking about how he's working on himself and asking about her dreams #y'all out here like 'KISS ALREADY' and i'm going heart eyes over how he always asks her what she means or complimenting her for being funny #bit more of a serious take: Penelope needs to start seeing Colin as a person #he's just a fantasy to her instead of a friend and it's really sad #rewatched all their scenes in S2 and i'm not kidding that most of the early convos are her prodding him for information about his love life #if he's met someone if he likes her if he's ready to date/marry #like girl??? maybe just??? be happy that you have a deep and insightful friendship with a good dude???? who never pressures you? #who stuck his neck ALL the way out for you #just because he values you as a person and your presence in his life #I LOVE HOW HE IS WITH HER #IT'S BEAUTIFUL #anyway colin is the goodest bton boi no one can change my mind

[anxiously-sidequesting]

So I don't know if it was ever revealed how Duncan felt when we killed Malistaire all three times but I'm wondering if maybe some part of him could hate us for that too. Like you hear that and you go "but why. Malistaire was terrible and even Duncan knew that(?). Why would he hate you for getting rid of him."

But like I think it's so....... interesting in a very, very, very sad way how Duncan so easily latches onto anyone who directly feeds into his delusions of grandeur. And that's no fault of his own that he was manipulated by the nasty Schism but when you think about how desperately clung to the idea that Malistaire, easily one of the greatest necromancers any of us had ever heard of (at that time), somehow actually recognized Duncan's talents (even when canon supports that Duncan wasn't all that talented, at least no more than the next necromancer) and then praised him for it so often that Duncan believed that he would be the next Death Professor is. I mean ☹️

So like with that mindset I unfortunately feel like it would be quite easy to twist even Malistaire's death as something that's horrible and awful and all our fault. ESPECIALLY if the Schism was feeding into Duncan's already broken mind and shattered ego and was constantly telling him that everything bad that ever happened to him ever in his life was Our Fault. That's like a realistic conclusion that someone like Duncan could come to

And like, at this point in time, are Malistaire's crimes even a factor in how he thinks????? Was Duncan ever able to separate Malistaire's talent and skills and prowess from the terrible and awful things he did? If Duncan wasn't able to consciously tell that distinction in the first place I can't imagine it would be any better during the years he was being manipulated and isolated and lied to

Like in Duncan's mind it probably isn't, "maybe I shouldn't idolize a national criminal, or idolize anyone at all for that matter, and aspire to be like someone so harmful when I can recognize my own talent and build from there" it's probably more like, "you (the wizard) permanently got rid of a brilliant mind, an innocent person who just made a few mistakes, and someone who believed in me no matter what just so that you could be the better than me and loved by everyone else" and that's! very sad actually!

#this is all speculation btw idk if any of this is canon. how duncan feels about all this #i know i keep saying the exact same shit over and over but.... really not a fan of how the game handled duncan! sorry! #i know wizard101 isnt supposed to be about every single character gets a satisfying ending to their arc- #-meaning not everyone in the story will face consequences and/or find a happy ending and like thats fine they dont need to #but idkkkk its just imo really sad how essentially a kid suffers frrom something he cant control by himself (his ego)- #and then instead of getting help he is instead ignored (ambrose) and then manipulated and brought up by a cult #and then when it becomes super apparent how... TERRIBLE his life really is and we defeat him he just... goes back?????? #we.... we LET him go back???? i mean we're not responsible for other people's bad decisions or mental health but bro.... #and then when we tell ambrose he's just like “oh. too bad. well anyways-” AND IM LIKE WELL THATS THE REASON!!!!! NO WONDER HE'S FUCKED UP #NONE OF THIS IS ADDRESSED. NONE OF IT. WE KICK DUNCAN'S ASS AND THEN HE.... GOES BACK TO THE CABAL #i literally just got so desolate when (wallaru spoilers) because. okay. all that for nothing i guess #this isnt me being mad btw LMAO i know the tone probably reads as angry but im not im just disappointed #and tired. what is it with wizard101 in particular and just people suffering with no end. (me as i make my main suffer with no end) #but anyways yeah duncan has been in my head for a while. he's one of the guys that i love a lot BDKSNSKAJ #he's like a son to me and HE NEEDS A HEALTHY PARENT. HE NEEDS IT #not excusing his actions btw. he still committed crimes JRKDJSIEJ #i just have a soft spot for those villains in media who are doomed from the start yknow. (stares tearfully at morganthe and gf spider) #wizard101 #wiz101 #w101 #text posts #duncan grimwater #im not normal about duncan at all he's probably the wozard oc i feel for the most other than malorn and us

[eyestrain-addict]

Funny how both Sonic and Shadow are "Even if I'm exhausted and broken I'll keep moving forward, and I'll hide it from everyone because they need someone to believe in/ I won't let anyone emotionally close to me" type characters but Shadow is loud about it and Sonic is quiet about it

#shadow puts on a angry facade(or atleast he did in good versions) the same way sonic puts on a happy facade #but at the end of the day both of them are like no one can know im bothered/hurt #main reason i ship sonadow is because i think shadow is the only one who can truly see past sonics facade #best versions of sonic are the ones that acknowledge sonics horrible fear of being letting anyone know stuff gets to him #like in sonic frontiers i wish he had a moment after sage 'dies' where when they look away he has a sad face #cosmos' death was one of his best character moments ever #he wasnt smiling but he was completely blank. not because he wasn't sad but because he knew he was the one who had to be strong #also the reason why i dont like sonamy even when shes well written cus she likes the hero image sonic puts up #sonic has a big sister complex is essentially my point #sorry i put way to many tags here #sonic the hedgehog #sth #shadow the hedgehog #shadow robotnik