feel good { hueningkai }
☆ pairing: kai kamal huening x afab! reader
☆minors dni
☆ rating: 18+, nsfw
☆ warnings: dom! reader, sub! hueningkai, oral (receiving), hair tugging, overstim mention, fluffy aftercare
☆ summary: hueningkai brain rot, he's so so so so pretty oh my god and i couldn't stop thinking about his pretty eyes
nsfw thirsts/headcanons!
ღ hueningkai giving you head !!
ღ running your hands through his pretty brown hair, sighing and tugging every time his tongue laps at your clit
ღ he’s so vocal and eager, his moans and his whimpers sending vibrations into your pussy and down your spine
ღ so messy, so so so so messy
ღ cum and saliva dripping down his lips and his chin and he doesn’t care at all, just loves the warmth of your cunt on his mouth and the sight of your chest rising and falling above him
ღ just loves watching you through it all
ღ definitely gets off on the eye contact
ღ looks at you with big watery eyes, just thinks you’re gorgeous on top of him
ღ his favorite is watching you cum, closing his eyes in pleasure and lapping up the treat you’ve given him only after he watches your eyes roll back and your mouth fall open
ღ something about the warmth of your body, definitely loves the feel of your thighs around him
ღ even if you’re crushing his head and he doesn’t think he’s breathing, he just digs his fingertips in the meat of your thigh and nuzzles his nose against your throbbing clit
ღ loves to hear you say he’s doing good, because although hueningkai lacks technique, his enthusiasm definitely makes up for it
ღ “fuck—so good huening, so good just for me,” que his hips stuttering and his mouth falling open against you
ღ for the love of god please give him some stimulation while he eats you out
ღ if you’re on top of him, lean back and palm him through his way-too-tight sweatpants as you grind yourself down into him
ღ if he’s on his knees, nudge his bulge with your foot, he’s such a needy little thing that he’d probably cum twice— one from the stimulation and one from just how good it makes him feel to make you feel good
Ღ i keep saying it but god he’s just so pretty
Ღ doesn’t mind being told he’s pretty either; it’s just a dream come true that you love him as much as he loves you (even if he argues that he loves you more)
Ღ snaps out of his adoration when suddenly the stimulation you’re giving him becomes too much and the loud moan and whimpering he keeps letting out causes you to see stars too
Ღ accidentally overstimulates you while licking up every drop of your orgasm (“come on it cannot taste that good” “it doesn’t but it’s you so it’s super hot”)
Ღ always whines about you wanting to kiss him afterwards
Ღ “nooo it’s gross!”
Ღ as if he wasn’t literally nose deep into your pussy seconds ago
Ღ crumbles easily though, just push his bangs away from his sweaty forehead and start kissing his face starting from there
Ღ aftercare is a must, even when you’re the one receiving
Ღ kiss his forehead, his cheeks, his eyelids, his nose, his eyes, his pretty moles (don’t kiss the one on his neck though, it gets him riled up all over again, unless that’s what you want)
Ღ melts into your touch immediately
Ღ usually up for a bath, but sometimes he just appreciates a rag to wipe his face, a chance to change into his pajamas (and new underwear), and climbing into bed with you right there in his arms
Ღ might be a little controversial but i believe him to be a big spoon
Ღ the boy’s huge, and while he loves you on top and making him feel small, sometimes he just adores the feeling of him being wrapped around you
Ღ enjoys overstimulation even if he’ll cry and tell you “nonono, it hurts, too much-!” so he wouldn’t complain if you suddenly decided that you wanted to have him fall asleep via blowjob/handjob
Ღ but you understand that he needs to rest well cause he has to wake up early for idol work, and he understands that sometimes you just want to fall asleep with him
Ღ he’s just so sweet, just wants to make you happy and love you, and you’re more than happy to reciprocate
Ღ hates leaving you in the mornings but settles for a goodbye forehead kiss while you’re fast asleep and daydreams about your thighs around his head as he goes on with his day
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it wouldn't surprise me that, despite sanji being the literal cook of the crew, he had an eating disorder (ofc trigger warning here for eds, child abuse, starvation and, y'know, sanji's background in general).
he experienced the most traumatic years of his life trapped inside a fucking cell, with a metal helmet around his head and only eating when his father let him. which was 'only when the kid needs it', probably. which leads to judge saying 'i couldn't even kill my son' and it can translate to 'at least i kept you alive'. and not to turn this into irl trauma, but abusive parents constantly use the 'keeping you alive and giving you food' excuse (the bare fucking minimum) to guilt trip you into thinking that they're good and that you're exaggerating how bad they treated you because, well, at least they kept you alive, didn't they?
so here, sanji sees food as a form of loving but in the sense of 'at least my dad didn't kill me. that's something'. so his vision towards food remains positive but only because of his mom. only because his love language is acts of service and his mom took everything he gave her, even if it was horrific, as a way of saying 'i love all of you. you're perfect because you tried and the fact that you brought me your food is enough to make me feel loved. you're not a mistake' despite his brothers and his father saying that he was, indeed, a mistake and weak for wanting to give food to others instead of just taking it for himself.
both ideas of 'someone who loves you wouldn't let you starve' and 'offering food to others is opening up your heart' coexist inside little sanji's brain.
so it wouldn't be crazy to think that, although sanji loves cooking and his best early memories of it are that book that kept him dreaming while he was locked up, and his mom's words, has a hard time eating food.
besides, sanji is used to giving, not taking. he's not selfish, but actually extremely generous to the point of forgetting about his own well-being. i don't think he actually thinks about how hungry he is until it hurts. until he needs it. he only ate whenever his father let him so he wouldn't starve, and the only thing that made him feel well about food was the fact that he could give it to the one he loved and needed it.
sanji doesn't have good experiences eating food, but only cooking it. it's a great representation of his personality as a whole, to be honest.
then the whole zeff thing happens, and he actually almost starves to death and learns what hunger feels like. but once again, zeff saves him and he's the one to be hungry for not letting the kid starve. which might seem similar to what judge did, but 'not letting you starve because i couldn't kill you' isn't the same as 'not letting you starve because i don't want you to die'. sanji learns the difference that day.
he didn't know somebody could be that kind. especially to him, someone who doesn't deserve it (he thinks he doesn't) because, in his house, love only came when you earned it.
and, you know, sanji's like that. sanji's selfless. sanji does everything for others. and so the guilt eats him up first. what zeff did is beautiful and amazing and we love him for it, but we don't know about how that affected sanji at a young age. which only makes him even more selfless and more of a better, kinder, generous person. and that might be bad, considering how little he thinks about himself already-
he learns that throwing away food is awful, and that you have to be grateful for being able to eat. grateful for living. so his don't-waste-food policy is obviously a big part of his personality due to almost dying of starvation and also owing his life to his dad (zeff, the real one, of course. fuck judge).
but that can almost be dangerous because refusing to waste food leads to forcing yourself to eat only because of his concept of what food means.
and then we have luffy in wci saying the whole 'i won't eat anything that you haven't cooked' which is precious and something very beautiful to say to your cook, but that only brings sanji back to 'starving is a form of loving' and 'you can't let someone you love starve'. and no matter how much he wants to force himself to push luffy away, he gives him food because he knows his captain will keep his promise.
sanji feels guilty, once again, but he ends up fixing it.
the thing is, after everything i've said, i don't think it would be weird to think about sanji viewing food as something external. something that isn't for himself. something that he only has control over because it's for others and not for himself, and it's a concept, a form of love, and not a need. because he does not feel hungry. when it comes to food, he feels responsibility and guilt and love... but never hunger.
hunger is, by all means, a form of selfishness sanji isn't used to unless his body is about to give up completely. he can eat out of pleasure and satisfaction and love for food, but he does it to train a selfless skill that may or may not also be selfish in the sense of 'wanting to be loved and useful'.
so here we have:
seeing food as a form of love because at least his dad wouldn't let him die, but he probably learned to push away the concept of hunger
seeing cooking as the most beautiful way of showing your feelings and efforts and taking care of people
not knowing the concept of hunger due to his own selflessness
scratch the first one, actually starving for others is a form of loving. he will never let the people he loves starve even if it means he dies in the process.
he can't waste food because that would be insulting and disrespectful. no matter the context.
and i'm just saying (and this whole thing is extremely self-indulgent and me projecting again and again) that it wouldn't be surprising to me if he had some issues when it comes to eating and making food for himself.
it's not that he thinks he doesn't deserve food, it's just the thought that he doesn't need it. going back to his past it could be seeing hunger as a form of weakness (not when it comes to others. never when it comes to others), both because of what his family taught him men should be like, and the fact that the manliest man he knows used starvation as a form of love.
so it's seeing hunger as something that makes you weak, but only when it comes to himself because of course, he wouldn't apply the same rules for him as for everyone else. he's just like that.
he thinks about others first, and himself second. always second. and the thought of eating and needing it only comes when it's too much. and when that time comes, the voices in his head tell him that he's weak. and again, i don't think he sees himself as undeserving of food because he has this whole thing about everybody deserving to eat. but he has never played with the same rules as the rest, always a few steps behind, so if he can't fight the thoughts in his head contradicting his morals, that's just how he is.
not to mention the 'don't waste food' part which also would make him feel guilty about not being able to eat if the thoughts of not deserving food and being weak for needing to eat become too much. he can't eat because he doesn't deserve it and because he's weak. and he can't starve, because that would mean wasting food.
so, you know, sanji is out of options here.
if some days sanji just casually decides not to eat- forgets to prepare himself a meal while his crew enjoys his food... that's just the way he is, isn't it? and if he lies about it, it's just another form of love, keeping them away from his problems.
besides, controlling hunger and controlling food is the only way he has to take control of his messy life. when something is out of reach, the unstoppable thing called life he has never been able to control, at least he can choose not to eat. he can choose to starve, this time, with the comfort of knowing he won't. he can choose not to eat this time, not like all of those times when food was controlling him instead.
at least the strawhats will never, ever, starve if he's around. but of course, nobody thinks about asking the cook if he wants to eat. that would be absurd. and it's impossible to think sanji would have some sort of issue with it! sanji, the cook, who keeps telling them not to waste food, not eating? that would be absurd and too selfless to make sense.
that's just the way he is.
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More Rockstar BF Louis (part 1 here)
Absolutely HATES the modern invention of the selfie. He didn’t so much mind the cameras in the 80′s, but the camera phone just pisses him off so much. If you try to get a selfie with Lestat, Louis WILL break your phone, that is not a threat but a promise.
Sits down every night and patiently paints Lestat’s nails for him <3
Once (accidentally) broke Lestat’s wrist for trying to kiss him on the lips in front of paparazzi. For a while there were some Unsavory Rumors surrounding the whole event.
Once spent 6 hours straight staring up at a massive billboard with Lestat’s face on it. The only reason Lestat didn’t grab him sooner was because it reminded him of Louis’ fledgling years when he’d get lost staring at the moonlight.
Doesn’t care much for meeting other celebrities— he’s banned from any Rolling Stones shows after making some rather haughty comments about certain band members. Though he did once use his status as The Vampire Lestat’s Boyfriend to get tickets to a poetry reading by Maya Angelou.
All of the other band members are totally freaked out by him lmfao even though he’s civil and courteous most of the time, they all know not to look offstage left during the show because Louis is always standing in the shadows watching with the most unsettling stoic expression on his pale face.
Sometimes people do the whole “are you REALLY Lestat? No way! No you’re not. Are you?” back and forth charade, at which point Louis will always intervene and say “No he is not” before grabbing Lestat’s hand and walking away.
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