#today i just like. suddenly got really sad about how my mom went out and got one of my brothers works FRAMED

[hyukasluvr]

Bye, angel

✧ pairing - Taehyun x reader

✧ genre - angst, hurt/comfort, fluff

✧ warning - talking about the death of a dog and a mild argument, and i think that’s it if there’s anything else let me know please!

✧ summary - in the middle of the day you get a call which you think could be one of the worst calls you’ve got in your whole life… you receive the worst news and it gets you really upset but you don’t want to let taehyun know about this… he’ll just think you’re stupid, right?

✧ a/n - this is very self indulgent since i recently had a situation like that.. only i didn’t have a taehyun to help me through but anyways, i’m sorry if i misspelled anything, whatever thoughts u guys want to share with me please do, and now enjoy!

that was one of the worst calls you could ever receive. if not the worst one.

your mom has just called you to give you one of the worst news ever… it was your dog, your dog that had spent his whole life with you was now gone.

you were in utter shock. it was just a week ago that she had called you to tell you that your dog was at the vet and now he’s gone?

this just all seemed like a cruel joke, it didn’t feel right to think that your small ball of fur which you had spent your entire childhood with was now completely gone

you wondered if calling taehyun to come home and be with you would be a good idea… but it wasn’t, was it? wouldn’t taehyun just think you’re being dramatic? it’s just a dog isn’t? wouldn’t he be embarrassed of you bothering him at work just cause you were sad over a dog?

your head kept running around these thoughts. and now you were left there all alone holding back tears, cause even tho you were home alone. if you cried, your eyes would get puffy and taehyun would notice right away.

taehyun was out for practice and wasn’t coming back home until very late, and you were glad he wasn’t here he didn’t have to know this happened and everything would be normal, right?…

you decided to keep your mind busy by watching tv, although you knew your mind was never gonna focus on the show you put.

hours later taehyun arrived home, tired but giddy cause he’s finally seeing you after a long day of practice

"hey love! i brought some takeout” he said when he spotted your figure in the couch

"mhm” was all you answered. still lost in your own thoughts, just looking up at him once you saw him approach the sofa

"are you okay y/n? you look kind of lost” he asked while sitting down next you on the couch

"i’m great. why would i not be?” you said, regretting it a second later cause come on. what was that type of answer. ugh.

he chuckled and just pulled you up from the couch "okay then, let’s go eat before it gets cold”

you followed along sitting down in front of him.

"so um… how was your day?" you asked him.

"well it was quite stressful im not gonna lie, today we had to run over the same choreography for so long i feel like the song is still on playing in my mind right now” he chuckled and looked up at you smiling.

you smiled back at him but your eyes didn’t match your smile. your eyes looked empty and sad.

taehyun knew something was up but you didn’t want to tell him so he had to find out someway

"and how was your day, honey?” he asked before taking a bite out of his food.

"it was okay. i just did some laundry and went out to the convenience store to buy a drink" you said while poking at your food plate.

"oh! and how’s your doggie doing?” he asked looking at you expectantly

suddenly you stopped poking your food and just stared at the plate without saying a single thing. you kept your head low cause you did not want to risk looking at taehyun and immediately breaking down.

him on the other hand. he watched you intently waiting for an answer but growing more worried by the minute because you seemed to be frozen.

"love? is everything okay?” concern was evident in his voice but you refused to look at him, but you just couldn’t react and give him reassurance that everything was fine, cuz for you it really wasn’t.

"y/n! hello?” he got up from his chair and walked around the table to sit down at the chair beside yours.

he moved the plate away from you and he took the fork out of your hand so he could grab your shoulders to face him.

you felt how he moved you but you still decided not to look at him, you were not going to break down so easily. let him think you’re stupid and childish for crying over a dog? you refused to let that happen.

"love, i need you to tell me what’s wrong so i can help you” damn it! he made it so hard for you not to comply, his sweet talk got you weak to the point you almost fell… but you didn’t.

instead what you said really shocked him.

"it’s none of your business.. why do you care?”…

as those words left your mouth you felt instant regret for hurting him. he only wanted to help you but this was the only way to avoid the situation. you pulled your hands away from him and stood up to leave the table, but taehyun stopped you by grabbing your hand and standing up in front of you.

"what has gotten into you y/n? when have i not cared for you??” he was getting a bit irritated and you noticed it in his tone.

"nothing has gotten in me, why can’t i be serious for once? do you think life is all rainbows and unicorns? WELL ITS NOT!” you yell out.

you once again pulled your hand away from his and started to make your way to your shared bedroom. leaving taehyun utterly shocked at your behavior but he was definitely not gonna go after you until he heard a loud thud from your direction.

you were so mentally and physically tired from hiding your pain and your tears that as soon as your foot touched the first step of the stairs, your whole body gave up on you and you fell to the floor finally letting out that painful sob you had been holding in for what felt like an eternity.

taehyun didn’t hesitate to run to you and help you up, but your body was too weak so instead he positioned himself at the floor of the staircase and put you on his lap hugging you so tight that you felt like you could finally let it out.

minutes and minutes passed by and u couldn’t calm down, taehyun didn’t hurry you to say a single thing… he was just there telling you "it’s okay, love, let it out don’t hold back with me, i’ll be right here” which just made you more sad and mad at yourself for trying to shut him out when he’s so sweet to you.

after what felt like hours, you finally felt calm enough to tell him the truth. you looked up at him and he swore he could feel his heart break at your tired and sad eyes looking all red and puffy from crying so hard, he hated seeing you sad but this time it was different… he had never seen you in such a state that he felt totally broken but he was always gonna be strong for you if that’s what you needed.

"taehyun… my dog, my angel, my baby… she’s… she’s gone. forever.” you said trying to hold your sobs in, of course failing miserably.

he heard that and immediately hugged you tight as ever and said "oh my god… i am so sorry baby, i know how much you loved her… i truly can’t imagine the pain you must feel right now, angel. i really wish i could take it away from you”.

you separated from him for a minute to look at him to keep talking, he never let you go tho, still holding you in his arms but always ready to listen to you.

"i’m so sorry for the way i acted towards you right now-“ you saw him open his mouth to protest but you quickly told him "stop, im not finished” he closed his mouth almost immediately which made you chuckle.

"i acted that way cause… i don’t know why i felt like you would find me to be a bit childish for crying over a dogs death like if it was a person, i know you said you’d never judge me… but i felt a lot of things today after getting the news, so i really am sorry, tyun. you didn’t deserve that” you finished looking up at his eyes after trying to avoid eye contact for a while but his eyes never left yours… he was looking at you so fondly that you could honestly melt.

"sweetheart, don’t apologize! i can totally understand that when you’re upset you sometimes don’t even know what to do with all of these feelings you get and sometimes they get the best of you. but believe me. id never ever think you’re stupid for crying over a dog… especially a dog that meant so much to you and that was your partner in crime for almost your whole life” he chuckled lightly and so did you but still feeling a couple of stray tears run down your face. taehyun brought his hands up to your face and wiped underneath your eyes to take away every tear he could before continuing.

"i think you’re such a strong person for putting up with such rough paths life gives you, i am really really proud of you, love” he hugged you once again and whispered a quiet 'i love you' against your ear and you said it back before giving him a sweet little peck on the lips. "alright how about we finish eating our dinner while watching a movie, do you like the idea?” he said, now standing up and helping you stand up.

"i actually love that idea, mr. kang” you tell him teasingly. "well miss l/n, why don’t you pick a movie while i go reheat our food since i’m pretty sure it’s cold by now”.

"that sound great" you tell him before going to the couch to pick a movie to watch together.

both of you ate dinner together while laughing at a stupid comedy movie you found there, feeling so much better after everything that happened, and feeling like you’ve learned a lesson that after that you’d never hide such things from him, cause he’ll always be there for you.

#kang taehyun #taehyun fluff #taehyun x reader #taehyun angst #txt #txt comfort #txt angst #txt fluff #txt x reader #txt scenarios

[blue-jisungs]

Hihi!! so I liked ur post enha reaction to u crying after watching a k-drama and I was wondering if u could make like a small oneshot typa thing on ni-ki’s part? speficially the “long story short, they thought HE made you cry and they yelled at him - causing you to cheer up a bit” idkk i thought it was kinda cute 😭😭

p.s ur blog is sooo good i love ur writing ⭐️💛☀️

y/n’s protection squad

a/n. awww thank you anon, it means a lot <33 i’m glad you liked my works as well >:D thank you for requesting and i hope you enjoy it!! it’s a bit short but i hope you don’t mind >.<

it’s not a continuation but it’s heavily inspired by this lil thing i wrote <3

it was a bad idea.

horrible, actually.

niki was in mood for mischief today and you - as unfortunately - per usual were the victim.

it was supposed to be a lovely day off with your boyfriend, just the two of you since it was weekend. just gaming, napping and probably movie watching.

but no.

firstly, he messed with you while baking so the kitchen was covered with flour.

then he started tickling you.

and now he played a movie, reassuring you it’s a romantic comedy.

you were exhausted because of today’s events that you accepted niki’s weird choice and stayed glued to him like a panda.

while he dozed off, you actually got involved into the movie. and by every passing moment the movie did not seem like a romantic comedy.

when it was nearly the end of the movie, you already felt tears prickling the corners of your eyes.

the movie was about mom and her daughter. they got lost and separated due to some natural catastrophe. after some unfortunate events like getting hurt and robbed, they seemed to get closer.

niki stirred in his sleep and frowned when he didn’t feel your arms wrapped around him. niki lazily opened one one and then another just to see you sitting on your lap, leaning forward and being totally invested in the movie.

right, the movie.

he forgot about it.

niki knew what was coming next so he stood up and excused himself, going to the bathroom. just to hide.

niki didn’t have to wait a long.

"what?" you whispered when the girl took a wrong turn. she was about to meet her mom but she went the wrong way! "no–?!"

niki peeked from the bathroom, analysing the situation.

"no, come back!" you yelled, snatching a pillow and hugging it tightly to your waist "turn around! it’s the wrong way–!"

guilt started washing over the teen. he remembered how the movie really shattered his heart and how many tears were streaming down his cheeks the night he watched it.

"no, no, no–" you mumbled to yourself. even from his safe hiding place niki could see the tears threatening to spill in your eyes. "no!"

niki felt bad.

"what?! this is the end–?" you whined when the ending subtitles suddenly appeared. "NIKI!"

your eyes met his and niki knew he was in trouble. but your features softened and you bursted into tears, hiding your face in your hands.

he didn’t know if he should be relieved that you didn’t threw yourself to claw his eyes out or if he should be… sad. he did not wanted to make you cry. because, god, it was heartbreaking.

"y/n?" he asked quietly, posture composed as if he was approaching a wild creature.

"niki… they didn’t…" you sniffled, looking up. your teary eyes made his heart ache. what have he done…

"i know, y/n." niki whispered, letting his silly facade down. he came up to you, sitting down.

"why they didn’t…?" you continued to cry, leaning on his shoulder. niki wrapped his arm around you, soothingly rubbing your back. "why… why would you EVEN RECOMMEND THIS MOVE TO ME?!"

here it is.

niki yelled, jumping back as you started smacking his arms.

"I’M SORRY I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE FUNNY!" he laughed, trying to loosen up the tension but if looks could kill, he’d be dead.

"WHAT?! FUNNY?! YOU… YOU…–" you hit his arm with a fist.

"ow?! y/n!" niki scoffed dramatically

"IDIOT!" you huffed answer turned around to grab a pillow and load it onto his head.

but as you turned back to face him, you saw the rest of enhypen in the hallway.

"UGH!" you groaned and took advance of confused niki, launching the pillow at this head.

"y/n, come on–!" niki turned around, pouting.

"why is y/n crying?" sunoo asked, rushing towards you.

"because he… he…" you started, the images of heart shattering movie flashing before your eyes. and a bright perspective of niki getting scolded.

"did niki hurt you?" heeseung sent the younger one a dangerous glare and crossed his eyes.

"they broke up, you fools" sunghoon gasped dramatically, shaking his head

"WHAT–!" niki yelped as they all rushed to you, to close you in a tight hug. as you were sobbing, jungwon turned around.

"niki, i’m disappointed in you. y/n is a perfect girl, she’s so patient with you and your little pranks and yet you broke up with her? i’m speechless, really" the leader said, coldness in his eyes making niki shiver.

"i couldn’t agree more. she’s our little sister, you know?" jake furrowed his brows and hugged you closer, patting your head. niki could see a mischievous smile forming on your lips.

"but we– she’s– that’s not…?!" he was out of words.

"im gonna beat you up" jay suddenly said, pointing his finger at niki.

suddenly you snorted with laughter. quickly realising your mistake, you hid your face in jake’s hoodie.

jay smiled softly when he noticed how niki’s expression relaxed. the teen was trying so hard to look like he doesn’t care about you but… he’s whipped, he can’t hide that.

"what?" jungwon asked, crossing his arms.

"i’m trying to tell you that we didn’t break up. i just recommend y/n a sad movie and she was mad at me for doing that" niki huffed. the faces of his older members turned into relieved ones (but jay did not hesitate to smack his arm). "ow?"

"i don’t know what would i do if you broke up, honestly. as much as i love you, niki, y/n is just my best friend. well, sister" sunoo cooed, nodding his head. you finally showed your face, mischievous glint in your eyes.

"she literally has the devil horns right now, look how happy she is he got scolded" heeseung laughed, ruffling your hair.

"look, i’d be happy too. we’re y/n’s protection squad" jake grinned and you poked your tongue at niki.

fine, you won this one.

but he couldn’t help but feel relieved that you weren’t no longer crying. and he took a mental note not to make you cry again (not only because it breaks his heart but also for his own good)…

[ masterlist <3 ]

taglist: @geniejunn ,, @luvhyun3 ,, @starlostseungmin ,, @elviransworld ,, @jnks6r ,, @sieunsgf ,, @lhsng ,, @ethereallino

#niki fluff #enha niki #niki imagines #ni ki enhypen #niki #niki x reader #nishimura riki #enhypen reactions #enhypen x reader #enhypen imagines #enhypen fluff #enhypen scenarios #enhypen soft hours

[axl-rose-lover-1987]

Title: THAT ONE TIME ON TOUR

“mom what’s wrong?” I asked we had been having money problems and I was worried about her “Nothing sweetie it’s just I have sort of a surprise for you” she said. “Oh ok” I said beginning to eat my cereal when suddenly there was a loud knock on the door. “Oh it’s them” my mom said. “Who?” I said very confused as my mom went to go answer our front door we weren’t expecting any guests today as far as I knew

“Hello gentlemen please come in” I heard my mom say. “She’s over there” my mom said her voice breaking a little bit. A man with long red hair and a man hiding his face face behind a mop of curly hair and sunglasses entered my kitchen behind my mom. My mom began wiping tears away from her face the two men smiled at me. I stopped eating my bowl of Reese Puffs very confused. “Mom what’s going on?” I asked. “Don’t be scared sugar will explain everything.” The red headed man said his deep voice booming through my kitchen. “Sweetie I’m so sorry-“ my mom said crying. “I know this is a lot to take in.” The red headed man said to me walking over to me. My mom then hugged me and whispered “it’s better this way honey.” Then the red head man picked my up bridal style and carried me into his broken down van with the man with curly hair. “I-I don’t understand…where are you taking me? Who are you?”

“Well,” the man with fiery hair started, “I’m Axl. This is Slash” he pointed to the man with the curls. “This,” He then pointed to another man in the van, he had poofy blonde hair and a glowing smile. “well, this is Steven. If you’re scared you should probably talk to him, I’m not the best at this stuff.” He laughed nervously.

Should I be scared? I was starting to think so…

“We’re gonna go home and then we’ll explain everything. You’ll just be staying with us for a while.” The blondie spoke in a gentle tone. Maybe I should talk to him.

“Oh, uhm, okay.” I whispered. i had to admit I was a little fearful, though I didn’t understand why. Sure my mom hadn’t given me an explanation, but I was 18. I’m an entire woman, no need to be scared without my mommy.

The curly haired man eyed me curiously, “Ax,” he whispered, clearly intending for only the red head to hear. “How old did you say she was again?”

“Slash,” he hit the man’s arm. “She’s 18. BUT,” he whispered sternly, “be respectful. She’s probably much too scared to think of anything like that. Besides, I had first dibs”

“The fuck you do.” The poodle haired man yelled in a normal voice, startling the blondie next to me.

They obviously hadn’t noticed that I listened in on the entire conversation.

“Sorry, erm, what did you say your name was again?” The red head going by “axl” questioned.

They really knew nothing about me.

“My named y/n and I’m really confused what’s going on” I asked. They all got a sad look on there face and Axl sighed “Well sugar I’m afraid that your mom has fallen on hard times money wise and sold you to us” Axl said. “SHE WHAT!” I yelled.

I buried my face in my legs beginning to sob.

Another blond man peered from behind the back seat of the van “ah it’ll be ok sweet heart we aren’t that bad I promise” the man said rubbing my shoulder. His words were nice but I was still terrified and so confused. The van stopped in front of a very broken down looking apartment complex.

***time skip***

well this is your room I hope u like it Axl said showing me to one of the bedrooms. “Yeah I guess it’ll do” I said wiping away tears Axl left the room. Then a man with long black hair appeared.

“Are you ok?” The man asked. “WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU!” I yelled. “Oh my bad my bad.” The man said “I’m Izzy I’m rhythm guitarist for the band. “Oh” I said “I’m y/n”

“Nice to meet you y/n you’re very pretty.” Izzy said I blushed. “Why don’t you come out to the living room and get to know us better” Izzy suggested. “Ok” I said.

When I entered the living room all the guys were sitting in a circle and it looked like a fucking AA meeting. “Why don’t you sit down y/n” Axl said. I sat down into between Slash and Steven. “Sooo you like jack Daniels?” Slash asked. “Um sorry no I’m only 18” I said. “Oh my bad didn’t realize you were a pussy” Slash said.

“Slash shut up” Steven said slapping him on the back of the head Slash grimaced. “I think that’s respectable y/n we aren’t the most respectable guys maybe you’ll be a good influence on us” Steven said with a smile.

“Influence? How old is this bitch like- ten?” Izzy asked, sipping something from a red solo cup.

“Izzy!” Axl yelled, obviously upset “She just said she’s 18! Come on man can’t you guys be a little bit more serious about this?” He rubbed his temples. “We bought a fucking human being for gods sake.” He mumbled.

“Axl…” the other blonde man said. I believed they called him Duff. “She’s right here…”

“You know what guys, I can just go to my room and chill for a bit.” I said, getting up to leave. As I turned the corner for my room, I stopped to listen in on their conversation.

“What are we gonna do?” Duff asked.

“What do you mean?” Axl questioned, “we bought a fucking human being duff. And all of you fuckers,” he pointed to everyone in the room. “Are looking at her like eye candy. It’s disgusting!”

Slash laughed, his jack Daniels gurgling in his throat.

“What’s so funny Slash? Please share with the class.” Axl said in a smart ass tone.

“Well it’s obvious she’s into me.” He said, “didn’t you see the way she looked at me in the van? She was practically all over me in her mind.”

He wasn’t wrong.

“Okay, you guys are all gross. Have you thought about what she wants? She’s probably scared and crying in her room right now. She doesn’t know any of us and she’s only 18 she’s new to the sex world.” Steven spoke sweetly.

“I say we all share her-“ Izzy butted in.

I was in complete shock. Share me? What the hell was this, a parent custody match?

“I vote on that.” Slash slurred.

“I guess I wouldn’t mind…” Axl whispered, ashamed. “That is, after she’s comfortable, of course.” He rubbed the back of his neck nervously.

“What the fuck you guys?” The two blondies yelled in unison.

“I’m going to check on her,” a very drunk slash declared.

I quickly ran to my room, laying on my bed in an attempt to look casual.

“Hey sweetheart,” the guitarist whispered, leaning against the door frame and knocking.

“Oh, hey” I said, standing to meet his eyes.

“I hope this isn’t too awful for you. I know it must be hard but still, I hope you’re settling in okay.”

I couldn’t help but feel nice when I heard the sincereness in his voice.

“It’s not too awful” I ran my finger tip down the length of his chest, I had game too.

“Oh fuck” Slash said biting his lips. His lips then crashed onto mine they were soft like a pillow and my hand began to get tangled in his curly hair. Our tongues danced in each other’s mouths when Slash abruptly pulled away. “Did I do something wrong?” I asked sheepishly. “Nah you’re just not much of a pussy after all” Slash said smirking. Just then Axl barged in seeing me on Slashes lap. “SLASH WHAT THE FUCK” Axl yelled. “Hey man she came on to me” Slash said throwing his hands up in the air.

I blushed. Axl rolled his eyes and then walked over to me and pulled me off Slashes legs and laid me down and began to slide my legs apart I was only wearing little booty shorts that were my pajamas. Axl looked up at me with pleading eyes he was very sexy I had to admit and contrary to what the boys thought this wasn’t my first time around the block.

“May I?” Axl said seductively. I nodded feeling my pussy grow wetter by the minute. Axl smirked and began to slowly pull down my shorts and panties. It was so wonderfully torturous. Slash watched the whole thing smiling looking at my agony. That’s when Axls tongue found my clit and began to lick his tongue all over

Damn did that man know how to use his tongue. Slight moans escaped my lips. “Slash can you shut her up” Axl spat. “Sure thing” Slash said as he began to straddle me and soon again me and Slash were making out. Between Slash making out with me and Axl eating me out I was hot mess.

That’s when Duff entered. “YOUR FUCKING THE HOT GIRL WE BOUGHT WITHOUT ME!” The giraffe looking man yelled. Slash pulled away “just shut up and get over here Duff geez”

Duff then began to undress himself. My god three men at once? I didn’t know how much more of this I could take.

“Erm, guys?” I whispered, clearly intimidated.

“Oh shut up you pretty little slut” slash whispered before crashing his lips to mine.

By this time, Duff was completely naked in the corner of the room, his cock clearly red and hard from watching the two men on me.

“Guys what the sigma?” I’m the one that convinced you to buy the bitch in the first place, you could at least let me tap it first.” The dark haired man entered the doorway.

His eyes slowly lit up as he looked over, seeing duffs exposed length. “Shit Duff” he sighed.

“Izzy we can’t do this again. The one time on tour…” he whispered. “That was a one time deal kitten We agreed We were both drunk and horny. It meant nothing.”

Just then, slash and Axl stopped working on me and turned to look at Duff and Izzy.

“You guys FUCKED??!!???” Axl and slash screamed, shocked.

“IT WAS A ONE TIME THING I SWEAR!” Duff yelled.

“What’s all the commotion?” Steve questioned, walking into the room.

“Izzy and duff fucked!” Slash yelled.

Though, Steven seemed unfazed. “Yeah, so? You and Axl fucked a couple times- oh and remember that three sum we had on tour? It’s normal isn’t it-“

Axl cut Steven off, grasping his hand over his mouth. “Stevie shut up we swore never to talk about that.”

“Fuck senpai” slash moaned just in time for us all to look over. The sight we saw was indescribable.

Duff was inches deep in Slashs ass hole, slash bent over with his ass on display. Slashs ass hole was being ripped to shreds by Duffs mega cock

“I can’t take this anymore.” Izzy moaned, falling to the floor and ripping his pants off. He began jerking his dick in a senseless attempt to release some tension.

“Well fuck Izzy, you don’t have to go at this alone.” Steven sighed, falling to the floor and wrapping his lips around stevens cock.

I looked at Axl, total shock running over me. “What the fuck?” I mouthed, clearly crazed.

“I’m sorry doll…” Axl trailed off before bending down in front of Izzy. “May I?” He questioned.

“Yes papi” Izzy moaned airily and nodded his head quickly

Axl then slid behind Izzy, holding the skinny man’s waist and slowly thrusting in and out of his ass.

I watched in horror as the orgy took place. Fuck.

#guns n roses #rockstar #axl rose #duff mckagan #izzy stradlin #slash #steven adler #guns n roses x reader #axl rose x reader #slash x reader #duff mckagan x reader #izzy stradlin x reader #steven adler x reader

[toastywatchesstevenuniverse]

S1 E45

Rose's Scabbard

Okay so I've learned a lot today.

Also this episode much like the fireworks one made me..

Very uncomfortable. But even more so than that one did.

This episode was just......really fucking sad man.

First off:

None of the gems seemed to like Greg so far (Except Amethyst) but Pearl especially seemed particularly not very fond of him. I kinda didn't think much about that. I just assumed it was because "Greg is a slob & Pearl doesn't like that he's a slob." And honestly given his current state in the show rn, I ain't exactly too fond of the man either. Though the winter episode definitely made me like him more.

But uh....now I'm starting to think Pearl's distaste for him isn't as simple as that. Because Pearl....

This whole episode Pearl was being like....

Okay look we can't word this in any other way: PEARL WAS BEING A MASSIVE HOMO™ THE ENTIRE TIME LIKE GOD DAMN SHE WAS GAY™ AS FUCK ABOUT ROSE THIS EPISODE LIKE WOAH OKAY NOW I GET WHATS GOING ON HERE. PEARL IS A MASSIVE FUCKING LESBIAN™ FOR ROSE & NOW THAT THIS REVEAL HAS HIT. Well to be honest that actually explains a lot. Like, huh, yeah actually this makes sense & explains a lot about why she's like this.

Guys when I called her a Gay™ Disaster™ all the way back in the start I wasn't expecting to actually be correct. I was like half joking when I said that????

I WAS TRYING TO BE FUNNY I WASNT TRYING TO BE A PROPHET HERE WHAT THE FUCK WHY WAS I ACTUALLY CORRECT¿???????¿¿¿¿¿???

I WAS JUST BEING A GOOF WHY DID I END UP HAVING THE GIFT OF PROPHECY???? FUCK OFF APOLLO.

PEARL & ROSE WERE APPARENTLY 'VERY CLOSE FRIENDS'. ROOMMATES OR WHATNOT. SHE EVEN FUCKING BLUSHED & HAD THE QUEER™ EYELASHES. DAMN PEARL I THINK YOU MIGHT BE SUFFERING FROM A CASE OF BEING A FUCKING SIMP, YOU FUCKING LESBIAN™.

MY GAYDAR™ IS OFF THE CHARTS RIGHT NOW. THIS MF IS GAY™ AS FUCK. 💀 THIS IS BEYOND NORMAL GAY™. THIS IS ADVANCED GAY™.

So idk what happened that led to Rose vetting with Greg but yeah, suddenly I'm realizing Pearl disliking Greg is definitely a case of her being....

Well. And excuse me for the vulgar metaphor here but I can't resist.

Pearl is bitter because Greg was the one who got to put the sword in Rose's Scabbard when she wanted to put her sword in there in the first place.

And honestly if I lost out to someone like Greg who....let's face it is kind of a pretty shit dad so far. Yeah I'd be bitter too. It actually makes the fact she's the one trying the hardest to be Steven's mother make more sense & honeslty it makes her even more sympathetic. He's the closest thing she has left of Rose & the fact she's so caring & all just....if Rose had to sacrifice herself for Steven to exist, the fact Pearl isn't resentful towards Steven at all for that is so nice. Because it'd be so easy for the writers to just have her be like that for cheap drama but no, they don't. Thank you for that writers. That's so wise to avoid that bullshit bc I'd hate this episode if they went that direction....look idk how to word this rn but damn Pearl has some serious emotional issues. And Amethyst had some trauma reveal a few episodes ago too....

So if this pattern continues....

Guys I don't even know if I want to find out what fucked up shit Garnet is going through because I feel like hers is probably gonna be the most fucked up of the lot. Like I don't even think I WANT to find out what shit she's carrying in her head. I mean....like, fuck all of these people need therapy & a hug.

Anyways Pearl was definitely being shitty by the halfway mark (I mean what she said to Steven was legit fucked up I ain't gonna lie, like, damn, you said that to a CHILD, Pearl. Holy shit. I get that you're upset about the wife thing but he's literally a child I think he's probably upset about his mom being gone just as much as you are.) but y'know-

Okay quick side note: Amethyst I get that Pearl was being shitty but you have no right to be talking shit about her like you didn't just do some pretty fucked up shit just a couple episodes ago. Neither of y'all are in ANY position to be acting all high & mighty. Pearl just SAID something but you straight up fucking used your transformation magic to torment a man about his dead wife. You don't have any fucking high ground here girl. Garnet is the only one of you that has any room to be acting above it. She hasn't done anything like that so far so she's the only one that gets to talk shit. Sit tf down ma'am.

ahem, anyways Amethyst was being shitty too just a bit ago. And like I said then: when you're that mentally fucked it leads to that kinda behavior. It's not an excuse but it does mean you know there's a legit reason for why they'd act out like this. And it's not entirely their fault that they have a tendency to be that irrational. But Pearl, like Amethyst, you can tell she felt remorse.

Again, the way they resolve it without a drawn out argument...but instead it's just Pearl openly showing her vulnerability & Steven just showing her a sign of affection. No argument. No yelling. Just a genuine moment of sincere emotion. Steven understood. While what she said was horrible, he gets why she said it. They both miss her. But they have eahcother. I am going to fucking sob typing this oh my god.

Yeah this episode made me cry a lot. Absolutely stellar episode. And the ending was just beautiful.

Further cementing the fact that Pearl is my favorite. I can't wait to see how much the show uses her emotional baggage to rip my heart in half & stomp on it mercilessly.

Second best episode of the entire show so far. Only just slightly behind 'On The Run'. (That one just hit me on a more personal level so it still has my heart by the throat.)

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[arisewanekosuki]

In another’s shoes | Chapter 1

(Genshin School AU x Fem! Reader)

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-“Wake up!” I heard someone yell at me, “Is that boy voice?” -“No, I want sleep more” I muttered. - “We are going to be late! Get up! Your breakfast is going to be cold!” “My breakfast?” I opened my eyes and saw a young boy in front of me. Is that….angel? He sighed and looked at me with worried expression. My vision got cleaner and I realized that ‘angel’ is no one other than Aether. Why is Aether here? Is that some weird dream? Why would I dream about Aether waking me up? -“Lumine, are you really alright? Maybe we should have gone to hospital yesterday, after all Itto hit you in the head with the ball…” Wait, did he just called me ‘Lumine’? -“What are you talking about?” He looked at me surprised. -“Don’t tell me you forgot about yesterday? You were playing with Itto and Childe-“ -“I didn’t, I’m not Lumine” I interrupted him, if this is a dream, then it’s annoying one. Yeah Lumine is cool but I don’t really want to be her. -“…Alright, I’m calling mom and I'm going to tell her that I need to take you to the hospital.” He took his phone from pocket, I got up and took it, this whole thing starting to be ridiculous. Aether didn’t said anything, he just look at me deep in the thought. I put phone on the desk and then I looked around realizing that this is not my room. My blood went cold when I saw my reflection that was in front of me in the mirror. That's Lumine, no, I am Lumine. I'm in Lumine body. I approached mirror, touching ‘my’ cheeks, ‘my’ hair. It’s impossible. This feel to realistic to be a dream. Aether put hand on my shoulder, telling me -“You know this isn’t funny, I’m really worried about you.” He looked sad, but how I should respond? -“S-sorry, that was a bad joke, I’m fine! I just wanted to see your reaction! Haha!”  I laughed awkwardly, he doesn’t seem to buy it. After a moment he sighed. -„Alright, Get down when you get ready, we are going to hospital!” he said, he took his phone from desk and then started walking towards door. -“No, wait!” I caught his arm, stopping him. This situation is crazy and it felt like some weird dream but going to hospital when I still don’t have any idea what’s going on would be a bad thing, at least I feel like it. -“I..I think you’re overreacting! I’m really fine!” I tried to convince Aether but it seems he’s still doesn’t believe me. -“Ok! It would be bad if both of us would miss school today, so how about it: I’ll go see doctor and you just go to school?” well it’s not like he’ll know that I DIDN’T go to hospital and it would be good to have time for myself to think about everything. Aether looked at me skeptical. I tried to make some kind of puppy eyes saying ‘please’. -“Alright, alright, let’s do that, just stop making this face, you look weird.” He said turning around and leaving ‘my’ room. I sighed and sit on the bed. “This is terrible…” Suddenly the door opened scaring me and Aether was looking at me. -“But promise me you’ll go see a doctor ok?” he said with serious tone. -“Of course!” I smiled at him. He closed the door and I heard him going downstairs. I lied down, looking at the ceiling. “So now what…” I muttered to myself.

After getting dressed and eating now a cold breakfast that Aether prepared for me, I went back to Lumine’s room. After confirming that in fact today is Wednesday, I tried to recollect what happened yesterday. “So I went to school like always, nothing interesting happened yesterday… hmmm I was cleaning class with Kazuha and I … “ I put ‘my’ hands on ‘my’ face “let’s not think about it…next, what happened when I get out of school…” it struck me “when I was coming back home I saw a car almost hitting the girl and it didn’t hit her cause I pushed her off… wait, does that mean that…that I died?” I started to feel sick, I remembered the pain I felt for the moment and then nothing. How I was scared when I was losing my conscious. “Wait… but why am I in Lumine’s body? Aether said something that she was hit in her head yesterday…I hope this doesn’t mean that she died from that, right? No, no, no, don’t think like that (y/n), if I’m in her body then she should be in mine right?”  My head started to spin, after all how this is possible? -“Ugh I think I’m going to puke.” I said to no one.

After calming myself down I started to think about what should I do in this situation. “ Well, first, I probably should avoid telling anyone that I’m in Lumine’s body, they will think Lumine went crazy and it’s better to not get locked up in some kind of madhouse. Second, I should try to find what happened with my body, if I’m a ‘Lumine’ then maybe Lumine is in my body? At least I hope so, it would be easier to find solution to this situation, if I could talk with another person…” I started to look around, it seems Lumine doesn’t have that much stuff, that could tell me more about her. Just some books for school, a desk with PC and there are cute whale and cat plushes next to the monitor, on her wall there is board with many photos, some people I recognize from school like Yoimiya and some not. I took one photo that stood out for me. -“Oh, is this one from that karaoke place that Yoimiya was telling about? Now I regret not going there with her when she invited me… “ I felt sad, I really wanted to go with her back then but I got a bit overwhelmed when I heard how many people would go with us and knowing that I would feel uncomfortable with so many unfamiliar people in cramped place I had to refuse. -“But also … if I went there maybe I could know Lumine better and at least it would be easier to pretend to be her. Now I’m stuck in her body, not even knowing how Lumine talk with others ugh” I put photo back, I started looking around the room again, to see if I missed something. “Maybe I should go to hospital, if I had car accident then maybe I’ll be able to learn what happened to me and see if I can talk with Lumine. And of course hope that I didn't died!” I couldn’t came up with anything else at the moment, so maybe this walk will pay off in the end. After getting ready, finding keys and locking the house I rushed towards one hospital that’s close to school. “Let’s hope I was taken here…” after like half an hour I reached the medical building. The automatic door opened letting me in, I looked around feeling suddenly lost. “What I should do? Should I just go to nurse and ask if there is a high school girl from yesterday’s accident? Wouldn’t it be suspicious?” I started to wondering if it’s really alright to ask something like that “Agh whatever! It’s better to ask than just stand here!” I went to the nurse on reception, finally gathering courage, I nervously asked -“E-Excuse me, I just heard from a classmate that yesterday my friend had car accident and I was wondering what is her situation, her name is (y/n) (l/n)” The nurse looked at me and then smiled -“Ah yes, we received patient with that name, so you’re her friend?” -“Um yes.” -“ Well her condition is stable, she was really lucky that she didn't end up with any serious injuries but… it seems she fell into a coma, I’m sorry for that.” she gave me a weak smile. “Coma?! Well at least I’m ALIVE but COMA?!” I felt like my legs are going to give up. -“Miss, are you alright? You went pale, would you like me to call a doctor to check on you?” -“Ah no! I-I’m fine! It’s just-!” I took a breath and tried to calm my fast beating heart “I… I will be honest, it’s a bit scary to hear that my friend is in coma… Is there a chance she will wake up soon?” I asked, still having a hope that everything will be fine. -“Hm, like I said, her condition is stable but we can’t tell when she’ll wake up, it can take some days or maybe even months…” the nurse said looking at monitor. -“I see… thank you… can… can I see her?” I asked but I’m not even sure how I’ll react seeing my own body unmoving. -“Yes, her parents already gave permission, so her classmates can visit her, right now her mother should be still in her room. Just go on the third floor, room 312.” I thanked nurse again and went to elevator “I wonder if this means someone already visited me? But who? Yoimiya? Well, I don't think anyone else than her would visit me.” This made me happy, to think there is someone, who’s not my family, that cares about me and I started to smile to myself. After getting from elevator I noticed how silent is this floor. “Is there no other patients? Or maybe this is floor for people who fell into coma?” I found room 312 and stood in front the door. I took breath and knocked. I heard footsteps, the door opened revealing my mom. I smiled to her introducing ‘myself’ -“Good morning, I’m Lumine, one of (y/n)’s friends, I heard today what happened and I…”  I didn’t know what to say more, just seeing my mom looking so sad and tired. I can tell she didn’t slept last night. -“Good morning, Lumine. Thank you for coming to see her, please come in.” My mom said, walking into room. I followed her, looking around room that seem to be more extravagant that it should, we are not some rich family so this room really surprised me. When I finally looked where bed is, I stopped moving. In the end, I wasn’t prepared to see myself laying on the hospital bed, some cables connected to me. It was so weird and scary at the same time. My mom sat next to my bed and said -“I thought my heart was going to stop when the police man called me and told me what happened” she grabbed my hand - “I was told that she saved a child” there were tears in her eyes “I’m proud of her but at the same time I’m so frustrated… why… why did she-” my mom started to sob. I felt tears gathering in ‘my’ eyes, “I’m sorry mom, please don’t be sad” I wish I could tell her. I wish I could hug her but I can’t, I can only look at her, not really knowing what should I say, because right now I’m ‘Lumine’. She took tissues and she wiped away her tears -“I’m grateful she got such a nice friends” she looked at me and smiled “I'm sorry, if this sound improper to ask but are you from a wealthy family as well? Now I’m wondering if she was ashamed to bring her friends to our home because they come from wealthy families...” I was confused and my mom noticed it and quickly added -“Ah, that girl… Kamisato Ayaka, together with her brother and their father came here and they paid the costs of this room and for the treatment. I tried to tell them, that they don’t have to do that, after all it wasn’t their fault but they insisted.” Now I was feeling even more perplexed, Kamisato Ayaka? The same Ayaka from my class? Why would she and her family do that? We weren’t any best friends, we didn’t even spoke too much with each other, so why? -“I’m sorry but… why would they do that?” I asked -“Oh? I thought you know about this from her, after all she was in the car that-“ my mom didn’t finish the sentence but I understood what she wanted to say. -“I see, I didn't know about that part” she didn't said anything more, she started stroking my head, I could see new tears gathering in her eyes. -“Thank you for letting me see her, I hope she will wake up soon” I smiled and after saying goodbye, I left the room. “So Ayaka was in that car that hit me… she probably feel guilty,  but it wasn’t her fault, it wasn’t anyone’s fault”. I was thinking about heading back to Lumine’s home but I decided to see doctor “Maybe it will be better to be checked by doctor, she was hit by ball in the head and yet she ended in my body. At least I think she is my body…”

After seeing doctor, who said that everything is alright, (but now I can't forget about this awkward moment when he asked where I was hit and I couldn't tell because I didn't know), I started heading back to Lumine’s home. There was nothing more I could do, I was feeling a bit empty “What I should do now?  And what about school and her friends? I’m sure we have different characters, they will notice that! And not only that, I don’t even know the names of her friends! What if she has a boyfriend and I will be cold to him?! What if I ruin her social life?! What about my school work?!?! If I won’t wake up soon I may end up repeating the year!!!“ I started overthinking and feeling sick again. I feel so lonely and scared, there were so many problems with that ‘body swap’, now I wished I could stay in my body and just being unconscious than worrying about everything right now. When I got into home, I immediately went to Lumine’s room and got into bed, hiding under blanket. I wanted to cry, this was too much for me. I shouldn’t care if I mess up Lumine life but I knew deep down in my heart that she, like me, didn’t do anything wrong and this situation should never took place. I was startled by sudden noise coming from bedside table, it was phone. I reached for it and checked, there was a message from ‘Ajax’ ‘Hey princess! You didn’t came to school today, are you alright?  I’m worried about you :(’ “Who is Ajax? He called her ‘princess’, maybe he’s her boyfriend? I probably should reply…” and then I realized that I can’t even unlock her phone to reply. “No, wait, if I unlock it, I could check her messages with other people and maybe I'll get to know what kind of person Lumine really is, but what kind of password she has?” -“4 numbers… maybe her birthday? No, that’s too easy… and I don’t know her birthday anyway…” I stared at phone in ‘my’ hand, hoping that solution will somehow get in my head. Then there was another message ‘Princessss!! Don’t ignore meeeeee! I know I should have listen to you!! but you know how much I ha-‘ and the rest is cut off, without password I can’t even check his full message. “Wait a moment, what about PC? Let’s hope she doesn’t have password to log in, maybe from her computer I’ll get some info!” I got up from bed and walk towards desk, turning PC on, hoping that I won’t need password to use it. ---- Thank you so much for reading untill end. Sorry for any mistakes. The next chapter will be posted in this week.

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Only Dreams

Ship: Dante Hicks & Bear (platonic), Jay x Bear x Silent Bob

Word Count: 936

Summary: Processing the grief of canon: The Fic. Bear has a bad dream about Dante dying and he comforts them about it.

Tag List: @canongf @futurewife

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Bear gasped as they jolted awake to their alarm- they had set up their radio to turn on two hours before they needed to be at Mooby’s, and even though Mr. Blue Sky was now softly floating in the air, they felt horrible. Reaching up to rub their eyes, they found their cheeks were wet with tears. Behind them, Jay stirred, waking up just enough to kiss their shoulder and neck. When they didn’t murmur a “good morning” in response, Jay stretched and attempted to be more present.

“Hey, pookie, what’s up??” He asked, his voice low and drowsy.

“I had a bad dream,” they whispered back. In front of them, Silent Bob was waking, too.

“Shit, that’s no good…. you’re supposed to wake up all refreshed and shit…. do you wanna talk about it??”

They shook their head before burying their face in Silent Bob’s hairy chest, briefly making him open his eyes before sighing contently and shutting them again. Jay began to rub their back.

“That’s okay. You’re sure you wanna go to work at fuckin’ Mooby’s today, feelin’ like this?”

They suddenly sat up, nodding vigorously and startling Silent Bob. “I have to see Dante.”

“Shit, alright,” Jay yawned as Bear wriggled their way off the bed, rushing to get ready. Jay and Silent Bob ambled along behind them, content to take things at their own pace.

“What do you think they dreamt about?” Jay asked Silent Bob while Bear was in the shower. “I mean, they were all upset ‘n shit one moment, now they’ve got their fuckin’ boxers in a knot about gettin’ to fuckin’ work on time, I don’t get it.”

Silent Bob shrugged.

“I also don’t fuckin’ get how him and Dante are still close after breaking up, aren’t exes supposed to be all bitter and shit??”

Silent Bob opened his mouth to respond before being cut off by Bear entering the room in his uniform.

“You boys ready?”

“As we’ll ever be.”

They went out to catch Bear’s bus, then did their usual routine outside of Mooby’s, a quick round of kisses before the boys went about their loitering and Bear entered the restaurant. He was glad to see Dante was at the counter and rushed over to hug him from the other side of the counter.

“Good morning Bear-- woah! Okay. What’s this for??” He was briefly surprised but slowly relaxed into the gesture.

“‘M sorry….” Bear mumbled, “I just…. I had a stupid dream, that you died, and I was really scared and sad….”

Dante held them at arm's length. “Hey, hey, I’m not going anywhere. Your brain’s just being a jerk.”

“Hey, I thought you two broke up,” Randal interrupted as he entered the scene.

“And I thought I told you that we’re still friends,” Dante reminded him with an annoyed tone.

“Psh, yeah, like friends grip on each other like that. And why does gummy bear over here look so constipated??”

Both of them rolled their eyes as Dante’s hands fell away from Bear’s shoulders.

“Not constipated, just dealing with my rampant emotions, unlike you,” Bear quipped as he glided around the counter.

“Yeah, well, emotions are for pussies, of which you still have yours.”

Dante held Bear back from elbowing him in the stomach. “Dick….”

“Can’t we all get along for one morning???” Dante asked exasperatedly. He then turned to Bear, who still seemed a bit anxious about his dream, lowering his voice. “If you want to talk about how you’re feeling, we can pop into Becky’s office real quick.”

Bear nodded and Dante squeezed their hand encouragingly. “Randal, do your job.”

“Yes, mom,” Randal responded sarcastically as Dante took them away. They sat down in Becky’s office, a small but cosy space with dim, comfortable lighting.

“So, what happened in the dream, if you don’t mind my asking?”

“We were back at the Quick Stop, funnily enough…. you, er….” He felt his mouth going dry. “Had a heart attack. They couldn’t save you.”

Dante frowned, holding onto their hands. “I can see why that’d shake you up. Oh, Bear…. like I said, I’m here, and I’m not going anywhere, I promise you.”

Bear nodded. “It was just so…. real. You’ve got so much more life left to live, I-I can’t bear to think about not doing this every day, with you….”

“Yeah, but this isn’t really living, is it?” Dante smiled slightly. “I really need to travel more….”

“We should plan a trip to Coney Island, all this time living in approximation to New York and I’ve never been.”

“That would be fun. Though, Randal will likely want to go, too….”

Bear sighed lightly. “Bring him along. Jay and SB would be tagging along, anyway, can’t leave them alone for too long or they do shit like sell fireworks to unaccompanied minors.”

Dante made a sound somewhere between shock and amusement. “Wow.”

“Yeah…. honestly, I don’t know how they got along before me. Like chickens with their heads cut off, I guess.”

“You know, if you don’t mind my saying, I was completely flabbergasted when you turned up after that year in San Francisco, hanging out with them. But it’s nice to know even guys like that can find their slice of happiness.”

Bear beamed. “I didn’t have it in the forecast, either, but sometimes…. you just find your people. Thank you, Dante, I’m…. feeling better, now.”

“Good.” He stood and offered his hand. “Let’s get to work?”

He took it. “Don’t you mean let’s mooove out?” He snickered. Dante laughed sarcastically, though he was smiling as they got to their feet.

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[cosplayinamerica]

So my cosplay origin story started back when I was in fifth grade. I was 10 and my mom told me she couldn't afford to get me a Halloween costume that year. So I stayed up all night being really sad about it and then suddenly I had an idea.

So I ran around my house and found a bunch of different pieces of clothing and put them together. I found a white shirt I found the blue vest I found the baseball cap, and at the time I was obsessed with Digimon so everywhere I went with me I had a little demiveemon with me. So I actually even made him a mask and I put the mask on him and I had a pokeball from Burger King when they were doing those gold Pokemon cards and I put him in the pokeball and I went to school the next day as Ash. That was when I first got started I didn't know that it was called cosplay.

That was around the time [high school]that we had learned about Anime Vegas so I grabbed my cousin and then we of course did our little closet cosplays cuz of course there were no wig stores or cosplay shops or places to get costume pieces like there are today.

And we took the bus down to Vegas. I think we were 15 at the time and we were so excited when we got there and there was a whole line of people also in there closet cosplays that they put together waiting to get in. That's when I really got into cosplay when I first went to Anime Vegas cuz I knew there was a name for it and I knew I wasn't the only person that liked dressing up like anime characters.

My current cosplay: so right now at the School of Cosplay I am working on my Crow cosplay. He is from a show called show by Rock and he is a rockstar hedgehog LOL. He has a lot of spikes a lot of studs leather pants leather jacket a tail the whole nine yards. He is what I am working on for an upcoming competition at LVL UP Expo for this upcoming February and then after him I'm actually going to work on a pretty exciting and ambitious cosplay for Crunchyroll expo.

It's going to be a remake of Lelouch from Code Geass. And it's a remake because I made him a long long time ago way before the school even existed and looking back on it I hated how it turned out LOL and I want to take it up like a million notches

[School of Cosplay] It's just a nice safe space to work and it's very spacious and of course having an instructor there to answer any questions you may have is always helpful. I've always wanted to improve any time I've done a masquerade and I go to feedback I would always be told you have to take your costume up some more your performances are great but you got to improve on your costume work. And I would never know how to do that.

A lot of people can go on YouTube and watch videos or some people went to college for it. I'm more of an in-person learner so the school has really helped me in teaching me everything I need to know when helping me improve.

My number one [favorite cosplay I've done] would have to be Anthy from Utena. And there's just something about that costume that I just love. I think it has to do with the fact that growing up besides being a black cosplayer it was hard to find female cosplays that I thought looked good on me.

The first time I made Anthy, I thought she looked really cute on me and so once I started going to the School of Cosplay I wanted to remake her because I had learned so many skills there and so I made her a second time and she came out better but there was still something that I needed to perfect on her.

So that's what I made her a third time and that's the one you saw in the studio I'm really proud of how she came out. Ahe is perfection and she looks extremely good on me which always surprises me.

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So my number three would have to be Motoyasu from the Reprise of Superhero. So me and my friends had done a shield hero group at Anime Los Angeles right before the pandemic. And my friend was going to be Naofumi, who I love but the next character in line that I was going to be Motoyasu. But I hated his personality so when I was making his first costume I was looking for any reason I could find to not hate him. That's when I found out that he had a side manga series called the reprise of spear hero where he actually redeemed himself and I actually started to really really like him. So after I did his first costume I did his second costume from the side manga and it came out so nice it was one of my most difficult cosplays to make. 

My second favorite Tokiya from uta no prince sama. I adore idol anime especially if it's male idol anime. And I have an obsession with a Japanese voice actor named miyano mamoru. So I like the cosplay characters he voices. 

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Advice I would give to my younger self would probably be more along the lines of masquerade because my younger self did not understand masquerade. I didn't know how it worked assume that you going and getting up on stage is an automatic award. I would tell my younger self to make sure to always continue putting your best foot forward to not be afraid to cosplay outside their comfort zone and that of course anyone can cosplay do not let how you feel about yourself getting the way of what you love. Because there have been times where I have not done a cosplay because I was worried about how I would look to this day there is still a costly that I've wanted to do since I was a teenager that I have not done yet but I will soon.

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Jeff the killer x FEM! Reader

~A blinkless gaze~

Part two

(Song: Chop Suey by System Of A Down)

"Cmon y/n Chop suey!" I faintly heard as I was waking up. Suddenly I was being shaken "whaaa whattt?" I blurted as I popped up groggily. "Today is the first day of summer!!" Mom said in a sickeningly cheery tone. Dammit. "Nooooooooooooooooooooooo" I said putting the blanket over my eyes. "Yes." Mom said pulling them off of me. "Ok fine!" I said getting up and getting in my drawers looking for an outfit. "Don't wear too much jewelry, might get ruined." "Ok mom" I polled on my mcr t shirt and brushed my hair, after I did that I put on my favorite shoes. Then I brushed my teeth and ate. "Ok I'm ready" I said sighing.

Time skip

I held my breath as we walked into the dreaded walls of heavensport mental hospital. I tried to look happy instead of pissed but, I don't know how well it was working. We walked up to the desk. "Hi Jan!" Mom exclaimed to the lady at the desk. "Hi M/n!! How're you doin'??" "I'm doing great, I brought my little crumbsnatcher." She said gesturing to me. I looked at her with a grim face not daring to say a word about her calling me that in puplic. "Hi." I said. "Aren't you a doll." Jan exclaimed. "Thank you" I said quietly. "Welp I'm sure you know the drill, I'm clocking in!" "Alright don't get murdered!" Jan said jokingly. "Ha ha." Mom replied. We were finally making our way down the hall after what felt like forever. "Crumbsnatcher??" I said looking at mom. She smiled at me. We walked in silence as we made our way to the rec room. "Okay, y/n here's the rules, don't get too close to him he's still pretty aggressive, I've seen him try to bite, scratch, head butt, and even punch, don't disagree with him he will cuss you out, and do as I do. OK?"

"If he's that dangerous why do you want me here?" I tried to reason again. "Because I want you to be strong" she said smiling. I rolled my eyes. We walked in and walked all the way to the end of the courtyard thingy and then I saw him, Jeff the killer. He looked absolutely pissed. As we got closer my mom said hello to the guard and Jeff was just staring at me. We locked eyes. My e/c ones with his bright frosty blues. It made me nervous, I couldn't read his facial expressions as he had no eyelids. Then I did something really dumb. "Hi." I sad quietly as I waved. He looked shocked for a second. "Hi." He responded in a tenor sounding voice. Mom was still chatting it up with the guard. That woman just doesn't hush sometimes. Jeff cocked his head to the side. "You're pretty what's your name?" I was taken aback by how straightforward he was. Uhhhm. I thought as I looked over at mom. For some reason I don't want her to know that I'm making small talk. "I'm y/n" I said. "What's your name?" I asked just because. He started laughing. "I think you know it already. "Yeah" I nodded. He started thrashing about for a second. what the fuck??? I stepped back a bit. "Are you ok?" "I've got an itchhh." "Where?" " On my neck" I walked over at scratched the back of his neck. "Here?" "No up more." I went higher "ohhh yep that's the spot" I heard mom stop talking. I quickly removed my hand from his neck. "This is my daughter." She said to the guard. "Hi." I said "hi, I'm hal." He responded. I sat on the bench next to Jeff. Mom gave me a warning look. Jeff's head swiveled around from looking at the guard to staring at me. I would've stared back but for some reason I couldn't. I tried to, but every time I'd just get flustered. The day went on and despite what mom told me he didn't do anything too terrible all day. At lunch I sat across from him we ate and then the day went pretty fast

Time skip to being in the car.

"Y/n." Mom said in the familiar dangerous tone. Uh oh. "Yes?" "I told you not to get close to him." "He had an itch" she raised her eyebrow. "So?" "He didn't try anything." "Yet." Mom said. When we got home I changed my clothes and collapsed on my bed. And I couldn't stop thinking about Jeff. I was kinda excited to see him again. Ok stop that's enough. Don't be stupid he's a serial killer wtf. And. Then I fell asleep

#creepypasta smut #jeff the killer smut #jeff the killer #creepypasta x reader #x female reader #just for fun #cringe warning #dont like dont read #sillyposting

[royalwritersoftheuniverses]

I Will Never Forget. He Never Did Either

TRIGGER Warnings: death of a parent mentioned grieving sadness other than that angst and fluff and cake.

Pick your Chris (pay attention to the cutie above)

COMMENTS &REBLOGS WELCOME do not post or republish or translate anywhere

It seemed like everyone forgot, including my dad who ignored the day ...everyone...everyone except Chris

Sure I never marked it on Facebook or social anymore (I dont care about social barely on it) but still... to have my dad pretend like it wasn't anything was heartbreaking seeing everyone forget wondering if that always how or if sometimes its not. But it didnt change the fact that like I said everyone seemed to forget....everyone except Chris

He didn't say anything to me or text when he was away on this take hed never call or text about it but he was extra sweet. Extra careing. To be honest I thought he forgot just like everyone else does a year so after someone looses someone. Thier birth stories are forgotten thier births are forgotten. But today Chris was extra sweet we both knew new why he was so cuddly in between shooting scene pulling me in his arms.

"Thank you." I muttered one time in between shoots.

He shook his head.

"You never have to thank me."

He was done shooting at a decent time. We got some takeout and went back to his place. I dont know how that man could be so sneaky but he could. He had a cake and we, well he cut two slices one for him and one for me I assumed, but we only took one out of the cake that we were sharing playing war with with our forks and I dont know how he did it or when but I suddenly saw the candle was lit. He silently got up and opened the window in the room. It was on the otberside, but still.n I was a nice night still and not really any breeze with a perfect light coolness. In the air but no breeze at all.

Do you like the cake? Mhm I said putting some in my mouth.

I was told sure what to get.

To be honest I wouldn't either. I think my mom always got whatever she thought I'd like. She always put me first for everything.

"Well she raised an amazing daughter."

I couldnt help the tears that came to my eyes.

"And I bet you she always knew," He bumped my shoulder playfully. "I wish I could've met her."

"Me too."

"I'd tell her I'd take the best care of her daughter I possibly could and how much I love you. Did she ever say if she liked my movies or no?"

"You know I dont know. One movie ai thought you were such an ass. She did say that I learn to love chest hair on men."

"Oh yeah is there a verdict."

"I love you how you are."

"What a coincidence I love you too."

He was leaning into kiss me(so was I to be honest) when there was a sudden woosh we looked up both of us confused. Then he put a smile on.

"I guess someone approves of us."

P.O.V. change

Chris wondered if the person or thing that blew out the candle knew about the engagement ring he was hiding on his sock drawer....

Taglist

@nana1000night @sapphire-rogers @hawkeyes-queen @sparklybarbarianninja @patzammit

#chris evans #ari levinson x female reader #ari levinson x reader #ari levinson x you #avengers #andy barber #ari levinson fanfiction #chris evans fanfiction #steve rodgers fluff #kinktober #andy barber fluff #flufftober2022 #flufftober #chris evans characters #chris evans x reader #chris hemsworth #chris pine

[fitheghosty]

okay my brain is filled with angst now for the ghost au so uh have an idea

constance is having a really bad day, well as much as a ghost day can get bad. someone from the choir says one thing to annoy her and suddenly she's teleported out. penny, who doesn't know much about the choir's lives, asks everybody where they think she went. she wants to be the one to be there for her

naturally, it's her family's cafe, so penny makes a run for the comforting, little establishment. she finds anything but that. instead of finding constance crying like she expected, she finds her staring up at the cafe. hands fisted and eyes wide open with shock.

"they're closing." she says.

"..what?" penny turns her head to constance.

"my mom and dad are closing the cafe. I heard them talking about it." she seems to internally flinch while she talks, still currently in shock.

"let's just sit down—" "NO!"

constance ends up yelling at penny, but slowly her hard breathing turns into slow sobs. she takes a seat on the curb, and starts mumbling to herself. penny wishes she could touch her.. she's not the greatest at comforting but at least she would have the option. all she can do is be there for constance as she breaks down. after awhile, constance calms herself down enough to talk to penny. she talks about her family. the way her brother would dance to any pop song if you turned it on, the way her mom would bring in warm comfort food from the cafe if she knew constance had a frustrating day, and how her dad would listen to her patiently as she tried to figure out a math problem that seemed to be a little too hard for her that day

she talked about it all, how she's glad that her family is sorta moving on, but it still hurts to witness. she talked about her confusion on what her family is going to do next if they don't have the cafe, their way of bringing joy to the community. did it remind them too much of her? was constance the reason?

"I guess it's still taking time to mourn my life.. today made me realize that."

penny nodded with a sad smile. she got that, she gets mourning something that will never be the same. now, both of them understand eachother, they're closer than they were before. penny waits there at that little curb for however long constance needs

#DON'T LOOK AT ME I'M SAD OKAY #YOU HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT #I JUST. I'M #LET CONSTANCE BE SAD OKAY?? #i feel like this hits close to home writing this idea bc i too suck at handling change & the choirs whole situation in this au is that #they all mostly love their undead lives with penny but they still have their off days #ride the cyclone #ride the cyclone musical #rtc #musicals #musical theater #off broadway #musical theatre #theater kid #fandoms #off broadway theater #off broadway musicals #rtc ghost au #constance rtc #penny lamb

[compassionatereminders]

I need to vent. Today around 12 I started to feel pain in the upper part of my stomach/beneath solar plexus. I then spread to the rest of my stomach, so I had pain all over. At the beginning it was something I could handle. But it just got worse and worse, so about an hour later I had to lie down and curl into a ball. It felt like my stomach and intestines where cramping and sometimes shooting sharp pain. I staggered in to the kitchen to take a pain killer and went quickly back to lie down. I also started getting very bad pain/cramps in my lower belly, it felt like the kind of period cramps I have had a couple of times when it hurts so bad that I almost pass out or throw up. So I was lying on the sofa not really able to move while both having way felt like the worst period cramps and a stomach ache and cramps that filled my entire body with pain and cramping from under my breasts to my pelvis. I even felt nauseous. I lay there for an hour or so, not being able to do or focus on anything other than managing my pain and breathing, wanting to distract myself with my phone or tv but not being able to focus and being too overwhelmed. Then the pain killer seems to start working very slowly and in waves where I’m for short amount of times are relieved from the acute stabbing pain and “only” feel a mild kind of constant pain, that honestly feels amazing when you contrast it with worse pain. But the painkiller never really works well enough for me to be able to even just sit up. So I have to ask my mom to bring me another pain killer. She does and she shows sympathy towards me and puts a blanked over me. Well I lay there for another hour or two, and slowly the pain gets less and the “period cramping” stops. Now at 17 I’m able to sit up and walk around slowly and carefully, still with a mild stomach pain all over and super scared that I’ll do anything that might trigger the pain to get worse again. And my mom says to me “sometimes the pain get worse when you focus on it so much, maybe try to go for a walk?” And I know she’s just trying to help, but it just makes me feel like my pain isn’t bad enough and that I’m doing it wrong or am too lazy or that I’m too sensitive so that I can’t move for several hours because of a mysterious stomachache. And it makes me angry because I feel like I have to defend myself, and I just know she’ll be annoyed with me soon for not being all normal and happy and pain free again, making me feel like I’m manipulating her by telling her how much it hurts and how little I can do at the moment. I didn’t even want to ask her to help me by giving me another pain killer, it took me at least half an hour to psyk myself up to ask her because I don’t want her to see me like this and I don’t want to have to ask for help when I’ll be meet with fake care and sympathy only used as a means to make me stop being difficult faster. It just makes me so angry and sad, and I feel so alone and like I can never lean on anybody or receive genuine care from anyone. And other than that, I have been soo fucking scared from this random pain! I have no idea where or why it came, it’s probably nothing, and even if I try to go to a doctor they’ll just tell me I’m being overly sensitive and have a low pain tolerance and then they won’t be able to find anything, and I’ll feel like I’m just a crazy hypochondriac. But it scares me so much that such overwhelming pain can just appear about if nowhere so suddenly making me feel like my organs are trying to explode or stab themselves, it’s so scary to feel so much pain and not being able to get away from it and painkillers that only work half good or less and takes at least an hour to set in. but it seems like I’ll just have to live with it.

If you hit a pain level where you can barely move or think, then you should see a doctor. And I am saying this well aware that many doctors aren't particularly helpful. Still, a 9 or a 10 on the pain scale is something you need to see a doctor about if you don't know why it's happening. So please take it seriously if this happens again. Even if your mom isn't as concerned as she should be.

#chat with kat #health risk tw #health anxiety tw #invalidation tw #ableism tw

[aleksa-sims]

My RL Sims-Story (18+)

CW: Grief, loss, addiction

I was back home! Ana welcomed me in the floor and hugged me as if we hadn’t seen each other for weeks! After a short chat, Ana told me something about our Mom! She wanted to warn me not to be frightened, when I see our Mom in the living room with Sonja crying. Ana told me that our grandpa, my Mom’s Dad, died. Actually, this was not such a big shock for us all, because it was to be expected. He was sick. But all this has brought back memories to my Mom. The death of her brother. 

When I saw my Mom in the living room so sad, I didn’t dare to go to her at first. I didn’t know, if she wanted to see me after she found out I was on drugs again. You know? 😔 But when I got closer to her, I knelt down to her because she didn’t notice me. She just sat there with her head down, holding a tissue in her hand, which she held in front of her face. I took her hand and told her that I was very sorry and that everything would be fine. When she saw me, she immediately hugged me and told me how much she loves me and that she is terribly afraid to lose me. Just like her brother died of an overdose, she’s afraid, the same thing could happen to me. 

Well! After that I went to the kitchen to Sonja! I asked her where Alex is? Her little son! Suddenly Sonja started to cry. I just thought, damn it, what’s going on here? 😧 Sonja told me that her boyfriend cheated on her and that she kicked him out. 

She was totally devastated! I got teary eyed myself, when I saw Sonja crying so terribly. So I just took her in my arms. She told me everything! That she saw them together! How they kissed in front of their apartment. He secretly met his ex-girlfriend. Sonja was now totally afraid that she will not make it without him financially, alone with her little son. She thought she was going to lose her apartment. I explained to Sonja that she can request financial support because she is a single mother. But Sonja and her BF got back together later anyway and even got a second son today. Idk how she managed to forgive him? But this was right, I  think?

After that, Sonja and I talked a bit. I told her that Nico texted me and Sonja also said some other things to me, which were nothing new for me and I knew that she was right. But...IDK? I couldn’t help it. 😢

Me: All this is so crazy!... And you don’t have to worry about your apartment! You’re entitled to financial support and also with the rent you will be helped! Believe me! I know this! This is my job! I’ll help you!

Sonja: Somehow I will make it! But what I don’t know, is if I will ever forgive him? I still see them! How they kissed, I’m so angry, A.! 😞

Me: Oh yea, I know exactly what you feel! And you know my opinion about cheating! 😠

Sonja: I know! But you forgave Philip, didn’t you?

Me: Idk? 😔...Yes, but I don’t trust him anymore, besides, it was different with Philip. I also did something, that triggered it.

Sonja: You didn’t do anything wrong, A.! I was at Ana’s B-day too! Or did you forget?

Me: Yeah, but he misunderstood everything. And it looks like he was right, because now, I’m exactly with that person. But....we have clarified this and let’s see, what the future will bring. 🤷‍♀️

Sonja: Exactly! Let’s see what the future will bring!.... What about Sandra? How is she? Does she have anyone?

Me: Sandra is fine! And you won’t believe who she’s dating!... Dominick!🤨

Sonja: No! 😲 Honestly? I really didn’t expect this! Maybe Dominick is into pregnant women. 🤣

Me: Yeah! Who knows? 😄.... But Sandra seemed pretty happy in the last weeks! About Dominick, Idk?? I don’t really talk to him! He’s such a fucking pain! 😠

Sonja: Maybe because you’re with Daniel and not with him? I mean, I don’t know? But are you happy with Daniel?

Me: Um, yeah! 🤷‍♀️ When I’m with him, I forget everything else around me. I just can’t resist him. 😕

Sonja: Hm.🤔 You said something similar about Nico back then.

Me: You know what? He texted me just a few days ago. But that was kind of weird! I mean WHAT he wrote me. It just doesn’t suit him! That’s not how Nico talks and writes....Idk?

Sonja: What did he write?

Me: That he only dreams about me while he’s sleeping with his girlfriend. Maybe he didn’t write this, but his girlfriend? 🤔 Maybe she found my pics? Philip told me, that Nico still has some pics of me. But ok, I also have a pic of us in my phone, I just can’t delete it. 😔

Sonja: Idk, sis? But I wouldn’t trust him, if I were you! He has a new girlfriend! Be careful with what you’re doing! 

Me: Yeah! I’ll just delete his message and stop thinking about it. Or I’ll ask Philip if he knows anything about it.

Sonja: No, A.! Forget about Philip too! Who knows what he & Nico are up to? I’m not saying they wish you anything bad, but I think you should forget them! Just let time decide what will happen. Besides, you broke up with both of them, and between Nico and you, it’s been over for almost 8 months!!! Why do you still have pictures of him in your phone? 😦 You have to finish with it A.! This is not healthy, sis! 😟

Me: Between Nico and me it was never really “healthy”. You know?  Anyway, you’re right! This whole thing has ruined me so much. I mean, this is just SICK! I constantly have Nico in my mind! What he said to me and how this day went, when he left, although I don’t want it anymore! I just want to be alone! 😩 I was feeling better again but now he got in touch, just like it was with Philip a few weeks ago! They drive me crazy! Maybe I should just change my phone number and leave.....Ugh, I’m sorry Sonja! I didn’t want this. 😔     

Sonja: Come on, you don’t have to apologize to me! But I’m worried about you! Actually, you should be alone to heal, A.! But now you’re with Daniel and taking drugs with him. I think you should stay away from Daniel too and listen to your Mom!! 😕

Me: I know that, Sonja! But I just can’t! Not now! But I will somehow get it all done. You’ll see! 😟

Yeah! We’ll see! 🤦‍♀️... As far as my Mom is concerned, she will soon feel better, but unfortunately, I will disappoint and hurt her very much. 😢  And in the next part, I will meet Sofia again. This can’t mean anything good!

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[fractallogic]

Today I cried about my mom for the first time in public so that’s a milestone or whatever

It was my own dumb fault for saying to scone “well we can go to a chain place that won’t have a wait because it’s huge, or we can go to a hole in the wall that looks so good but will also probably make us wait for a while for a table”, because obviously neither of us wanted to wait for dinner, so we go to the old spaghetti factory

Now, the OSF was one of my absolute favorite restaurants when I was little and it has a powerful nostalgia hold on me (and sometimes I fantasize about their browned butter with mizithra cheese). My stepdad and I would go there sometimes when my mom had night classes (alternating with Denny’s, lmfao), I had so many birthday dinners there (including my 6th, which is when my grandparents learned that if you make the waitstaff sing to me, I will be so anxious and embarrassed that I will cry)… like idk, it has a chokehold on my deep childhood memories (but in a good way).

So OBVIOUSLY even at age 32 I am a little sad when we don’t get seated in the trolley car but also very excited when we’re seated right in FRONT of the trolley, and scone perplexedly takes a selfie with me so I can send it to my stepdad, and I think about family things, and old spaghetti factory, and how I have a set of 4 OSF souvenir glasses because my college roommate and I went to the one in riverside twice and both got Italian cream sodas both times, and how the one in Newport Beach was where my dad introduced me to dadwife, and how i always tried to eat around the vanilla in the spumoni ice cream because I’ve never liked vanilla ice cream (but obviously that’s not how ice cream works), etc etc etc

And the other times I was like “oh I should text my mom this photo” plus the realization weren’t quite as strong (except for the pasta e fagiole soup. Christ.), but oh boy, this time, just started weeping and gasping at the table when I realized that my mom was dead and I couldn’t text her the stupid selfie I made scone take with me

All of this is also taking place inside my head, so poor scone just sees me zoning out while he’s on his phone (because the Avs game was also on TV in the bar, so I was also watching that) and then suddenly FUCKING LOSING IT and is like oh my god are you okay what’s wrong what happened

And of course it’s at that exact moment that the waiter shows up with our food, and he’s like “uhhh… who… who had the manager’s favorite?…” clearly thinking that there had just been a breakup that he awkwardly interrupted

It’s been a really rough period of time for me re: mom, and I’m so tired of it. IM BORED, FEELINGS. PLEASE STOP. I GET IT. I MISS MY MOM. GO AWAY.

[slayolay]

Life Goes On

November 24th, 2022

5 years since i’ve forgotten that I have a tumblr acc, I’m back.

I just remember that I have this acc 10 mins ago when I needed to vent about how my mom got mad at me for not lending her money to buy her stuff for when she travel tomorrow, well I do have friends that I can talk to about this but they’re busy and I don’t want to bother them. And my therapist told me to write a journal about my day or how i feel, but as much as i like to write on my book i don’t want people at my house found out about it. So the next best place to do that is tumblr, since no one irl knows me here, and i know that the people that follows me don’t use their acc anymore.

Lets start with how my day started.

I woke up at 8 feeling anxious as usual because i should’ve text my advisor to talk about my thesis but i’m to afraid and very anxious about it. Why? because i really hate doing it, if there’s any way i can do to avoid it then i’ll fucking do it, i don’t know why i hate it so much but i really don’t wanna do it. I know that i should, people in my year have already finished theirs, but i haven’t and i hate myself for that. But i just can’t bring myself to do it. Guess i’ll just do it tomorrow, lets see.

I’ve been having mixed feeling this past month. Anxiety, fear, excitement, numb, sad, confused, all sorts of things. I can’t explain it and it’s been bugging me so much. I wish i still have my meds and could afford to go to therapy again.

The day went buy just like that. Until tonight my mom ask me if she can lend me money to buy some stuff for her travel tomorrow. Money has always been an issue for us and it’s really tight these days. I do have a bit left but i don’t really want to spend it unless it’s emergency. I didn’t give her an answer the first time. Then a few mins later when i’m about to go out to buy dinner she asked again. I don’t really want to lend her some because she rarely pay me back eventhough i needed the money and have never asked her for money if i want to buy something for myself and i’ve been the one that paid the bills this month. But i’m still trying to be a good child so i said i’d lend her half the amount she asked. Then suddenly she got mad. And when i tell her the reason why i can’t give her the full amount she yelled at me to shut up and don’t want to hear me talk. Man  i was baffled, felt mad and upset at the same time. Then i went to out to buy food and cried on the way because i’m that kind of person that cries when something upset me. Then it got me thinking, was i selfish for not lending her money? am i really that weak for crying? is she really mad at me? am i a bad child?. All sorts of thought came into me, and its not the good kind. And now i don’t know what to do. She’s at the kitchen now and i’m here in the bedroom where me and her share a bed. 

With the feelings i’ve been having these days, and the situation i’m having, disappearing into thin air or be dead doesn’t sound too bad right now haha.

Anyway despite what happened, thank you for staying alive. You did great today:)

Song recommendation

Langit Abu-Abu by Tulus

https://open.spotify.com/track/2FaquTc3FYvNm7RuO1gD6O?si=dd2af22eac3f4688

[dippydots]

First chapter of the next Mysfits' adventure :D

Robin tapped their fingers against their desk. He didn't like school too much. Sure, he liked math, Edmund was nice and Edith was cool, but he was frequently bullied. Especially by Bianca Sampton. Robin didn't like her very much. She'd make fun of him and his friends all the time, regardless of what they did to ignore or stop her. Anaïs had said that she only gets away with it because she's rich and her parents helped fund the school. They sighed. There was only two minutes left of school, and then it'd be a week off of school. "Psst. Rob." He looked to his left. It was Edmund. "Wanna come over to my house tomorrow?" he asked while smiling. Robin had been over at his house so much that it felt like he was hardly at his own. "I'll th-think about it," they replied. Edmund gave a thumbs up and went back to messing with his mechanical pencil. The bell rang, and the kids rejoiced, grabbing their bags and rushing out the door. Only Robin walked, as well as Edith. "Have a nice break you two," their teacher, Ms. Green, said. "You too," Robin said quickly while Edith only nodded. As they walked to the exit, Edith cleared her throat. "So what do you think-."

"Huh?"

"Let me finish my sentence. Of Jack and Erik. It's been a year since, well, you know."

"They're cool, I guess." He was happy to be adopted by them, but deep down he missed his birth parents, he wanted nothing more than to see them again. He did care about them a lot, but it always felt like he didn't truly belong in their home. Edith hummed. "I always thought of them as weird, I mean, Uncle Jack's love for Sprite is not normal." He chuckled a little while Edith remained straight-faced. They arrived outside, where Edmund was waiting for them. "Did you think about it?" he asked, "You said you'd think about it." Edith rolled her eyes. "Teddy he doesn't always have to come over to our house, he needs to spend time away from us every now and then," she said with a frown. Edmund frowned defeatedly. A car horn honked. Edmund's dismal expression immediately lit up. "See ya later Robin!" he shouted as he ran over to his mom's car. Edith walked after him. "Take care." Robin waved good bye when suddenly a force wrapped their arms around him and pushed him to the ground. He looked over to see Anaïs. "Hi Robby!" she said with a big smile. "Ani you're hurting me," he said, sitting up. She giggled. "I can't wait to show you my art today! We made pumpkins!"

"Oh cool." She nodded. "I asked Mr. B if I could make mine pink, and he let me, and then everyone else started to ask if they could use different colors!" She continued to ramble on and on about her day, which Robin didn't mind. He enjoyed hearing what she had to say. Eventually, Jack's car pulled up. Robin and Anaïs got into the backseat, and she greeted Jack in the same fashion as she did with Robin. "How was school, kiddo?" he asked while patting her head. She sat in her car seat and went into detail of her whole day. Since he already heard the whole story, Robin stared out the window as they drove home.

Night time arrived sooner than later. Robin got dressed in his oversized pj's, it was a habit he picked up so he'd always be prepared for a transformation, full moon or no full moon. He was settled in bed with a book when there was a knock on the door. "Yeah?" he asked. The door opened to reveal Erik. "I haven't seen you all day, my little songbird," he said, sitting in the chair by Robin's desk. "Well, you have been busy with your latest musical."

"It's not really my musical, I'm just conducting the orchestra," he beamed. His smile faded however as he noticed Robin's unenthused expression. "Is something troubling you?" he asked. They shrugged. "It's the book I've been reading, Peter and Wendy, I don't get why anyone would turn down the idea of never growing up." Erik looked sad, and glanced to the side. "Well, I used to know someone who similarly thought that way for a long time. From what I understand, you'd miss out on a lot of things if you stayed a child forever. Not to mention that you'd miss the ones you love."

"Well, I guess," he sighed, "It's weird. I don't want to get older, but I don't want to stay here forever. I wish that I could be somewhere like that, like here!" They pointed at the book. Erik hummed in thought. "That would be cool I suppose, but Neverland is a fictional place. You could visit it in your dreams tonight," he smiled, pressing his forehead against theirs. "Good night dear."

"Night, Papi."

Robin couldn't sleep very well. He kept tossing and turning in bed. It felt hot in the room, maybe he could crack open the window for a bit. He put his glasses back on and carefully stepped towards the window, and he opened it. The cool, autumn air flowed through the room. He sighed with relief. He looked out at the night sky, at all the twinkling stars in the sky. Maybe he could make a few wishes. He closed his eyes. He wished to go somewhere where he could feel more comfortable, a place that felt fully like home. He opened his eyes, and turned to go back to bed. However, there was a dark shadow on the wall in front of them, one that was not their own. His body started to quiver with fear. He turned around, and his eyes widened. There was a figure standing on the windowsil. His heart started to pound in his chest. The figure, squatted and pulled up the window all the way, and slipped into the room. Robin took a step back. The figure was dressed in earthy greens and browns, and was a bit taller than him, but not like how an adult was taller, more like a middle schooler. The figure had pointed ears and cold looking eyes. The figure grinned and crossed his arms. "You were making a lot of wishes, ya know? Spare some for the rest of us," he laughed. Robin only stared in fear and confusion. "Wh-who are you?" He desperately wanted to run and get Jack and Erik but his body was frozen. "Who else would I be?" Robin studied the figure more carefully before glancing over at the Peter and Wendy book on his side table. No, no it couldn't be, could it?

Pan grinned. "Say, what's your name?" Robin hesitated before mumbling their name. "Nice to meet ya, Robin." He looked him up and down. "You're a big kid, you could be useful around camp." What. "Why don't you come with me, away from this dump? The boys will love you." Robin paused. "Could I br-bring my sister?" Pan wrinkled his nose. "Ew a sister? No, no way. Girls will ruin the vibe of the whole place." Robin glared. "Then I'm not coming with you!" Pan chuckled. "Who said you had a choice?"

Down the hall, Jack heard a scream coming from Robin's room. He immediately jumped out of bed, Erik following suit. He opened the door hastily, seeing only his empty room. The window was wide open. He rushed to it, searching for a sign for them. "Robin!" he shouted, jumping out the window and landing safely on the ground. He ran into the backyard, looking around for his son. Robin's screams could still be heard, but he was no where to be found. He rushed back inside, and went to grab his phone.

Meanwhile Anaïs, who had woken up to the sudden noise, entered Robin's room and looked out the window frantically for him. However something else caught her eye. High up in the sky, rushing towards the stars, were two dark figures. One was flying, the other was thrashing their arms around, crying for help.

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Fix me - Part Seven

Summary: You reach out to the local "freak"/drug dealer for some kind of escape after your mom dies. Turns out he's the escape you needed.

Caution: light submission. Talks of drug use.

📝: I am loving this series so much. I hope you all are too.

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"Y/n, I am so freaking happy for you!" Robin squealed. "Two nights without nightmares, and a tangle up with Eddie!"

"I know, Robin!" I squeal back. "Its insane how good I feel right now!" "When are you seeing him again?" Robin asked with immense curiosity. "I really don't know?" I reply, with a sort of pout, vaguely remembering that he said he would see me again today. "Should I call him?"

"Hell no, y/n!" Robin said firmly. "You cannot be the first one to call, sends out needy signals." I was needy though. I wanted more of him. He made me feel good. He made me not....sad.

Suddenly, thoughts of my mom rushed in. I started to tear up and said trying to hide that I was crying, "Robin, He makes me forget about mom." "Aw, y/n, thats so sweet and amazing for you, but you have to slow down." Robin stated fighting back her own tears. "Don't turn Eddie into a crutch, just because he makes you forget."

Robin new how I ran through guys in the past. I would meet a guy, flirt shamelessly, date him, fuck him, obsess over him, and as soon as I got bored or he did something I didn't like, I would dump them. I was the definition of a slut 6 months ago. Robin was right I would need to slow down and take my time and get to know Eddie. I wanted this to actually be something. "Yeah, Robin you're right." I let out a big sigh and got off the phone with her.

Steve still hadn't woke up, it was almost noon. His date must have went good too. Dad didn't come home, but there was another message on the machine saying he wouldn't be. "Damn, I guess all of us had a good night." I chuckled to myself.

The day rolled on and I still hadn't heard from Eddie. My thoughts were consumed by him and what happened last night.

Steve finally woke up and made his way across the hall to my room. I had found a book to read and was just laying on the floor staring at the pages. Not really reading. He plopped down next to me. "Have a fun night?" I asked as I raised my eyebrows up and down. Obviously, implying I knew what he did.

"Yeah, Meagan is great. Shes super funny, smart, and well not Nancy." He said, being sarcastic at the end. His ex Nancy dumped him a couple months ago for Johnathan Byers and Steve had been trying to replace her ever since. "Well, I am glad you found someone, Steve." I smiled at him and turned back to my book.

"What did you do?" Steve asked. "Uh....not much. Smoked that other joint I had." I said shakily. Lying to him wasn't fun. "No nightmares?" He asked curiously. "No nightmares." I respond with a smile. "Good deal, sis." Steve rubbed the top of my head, completely messing up my hair, then stood up to leave.

"Steve..." I ask, trying to talk myself into asking about Eddie. "Whats up?" He came and sat back down next to me. "I was just wondering, why do you hate Eddie Munson so much?" Shit, I asked him. I looked up at him and saw the anger cross his face.

"Why does it matter?" The sterness in his voice made me put my book down and sut up. "I'm just curious." I really was. "When I told you I got some weed, you automatically assumed it was from him and flipped out."

Steve let out a huge sigh. Here it goes he was fixing to tell me.

"Eddie and I met in kindergarten. They moved into the house across the street, where the Taylor's live now. You were still to young to remember. Anyways, we became best friends within days, and he was so cool to me. His dad had already started teaching him how to play guitar, and we would have sleepovers and pretend we were in a rock band. It was like that until 2nd grade, when his mom died, and his dad had to sell the house and move."

"His mom died, too?" I asked trying to hold back tears. "Yeah, she did. I think cancer too." His head sunk for a second. "Anyway, his dad moved them out of town for a while. Became a drunk and lost custody of Eddie. So Wayne, his Uncle took him in and he's been living over there in the trailer park ever since." Wow his mom died. Why didn't he tell me? "So you hate him now because he left?" I just didn't understand.

"No! When he came back, he was a bully. He picked on me for everything. He knew everything about me so he knew exactly how to fuck me around and make everyone pick on me too. He started getting into that weird fucking game, Dungeons and Dragons, and formed his little cult. We went back and forth with each other and I dubbed him "The Freak". How he dressed, his hair. His music. I played off that. Thats really how I got popular. Picking on "the freak". But that didn't stop him from fucking with me. We fought all through school. I just can't stand him y/n." He finished his story and I was in shock. This is why they didn't like each other? What kind of bullshit is this.

"You think maybe since you're an actual adult now you can get over that?" I said kind of angrily. "Why?" He snapped back. "Whats it to you?" I couldn't lie to him anymore. It was eating me up. "I lied to you, Steve." Oh man he's going to kill me. "I did get that joint from Eddie, I smoked with him that day I didn't come home." Steve's face was red. "We hung out last night too, and he's being really nice to me."

"Are you fucking kidding me, y/n?" He's fuming. "What on earth would possess y....I'm gonna fucking kill him!" Steve threw his hands up in disbelief. "No, Steve, you're not!" I yell in his face. "He makes me feel better, and as long as he does, I'm going to keep hanging out with him!"

Steve stood up from where we were and stomped out of my room, slamming my door. I heard him cross the hall and slam his door too.

Shit. Steve is really mad. This is so stupid. They both need to get over themselves. I decided I was going to talk to Eddie about this.... if I ever see him again that is.

It was 10 pm and still no sign of Eddie. I had no pot, because it was drowned in my water cup, and I was beyond bored. I decided to get ready for bed. I wanted to keep up the routine of taking care of my body, in the off chance Eddie wanted to see it again. I took a shower, washed my face, and brushed my teeth and hair. I threw on a pink satin pajama set I had and climbed into bed. I quickly started to drift off.

*tink* What the fuck? My eyes darted open. *tink* I remained quiet, so I could figure out where the sound was coming from. *tink* It was my window. Someone was throwing rocks at my window. I knew it could only be one person. I looked at the clock. Midnight. It had to be Eddie. I get up, and rush over to my window. I made sure Eddie knew I was there by turning on a small light. I didn't want him to pummel me with a rock. I got his attention, and opened the window.

"Hey, princess!" Eddie whispered. "Eddie, what the fuck!" I whispered back. "Its midnight!" "Come down here, and I'll explain ok?" I rolled my eyes in an "alright, fine" kind of manner. I found a sweater to cover up with and crept downstairs. I saw that dad had made it back. He was in his usual spot, passed out in front of the television.

I made it outside to find Eddie, leaned up against his van. "Sorry, princess." He said as he kissed my forehead. "Hellfire, went a little long." His kiss on my forehead made up for all of it. "Well its to late, Munson." I pout. "Steve's here, and he will freak out." Even though I thought it was ridiculous, I knew that's what Steve would do. "Its okay, hop in." He nudged his perfectly sculpted jawline towards the van. "Lets go for a drive." I took a couple steps back from him and opened my sweater, revealing my skimpy pajamas. "Do I look like I'm dressed for a drive, Munson?" "No, but definitely a ride!" He winked as he opened the passenger door. "Get in the van, princess." Once again, I melted and obeyed him.

We drove around Hawkins for a few hours talking about everything. D&D, music we liked, people at school we didn't. We jammed out to a few songs and by that point we were just driving in circles.

"Wanna go back to my place?" Eddie asked me. I could tell he was starting to get tired. "Sure." I smiled. He hit the gas and headed for his trailer.

Once we got there, his demeanor changed some. "Whats wrong, Munson." I ask stroking his hair. "This isn't the suburbs, princess." He frowned. "Just don't judge me too hard. Okay?" "Eddie, I don't care where you live." I say thoughtfully. "I'm spending time with you, thats all that matters." He smiled at me. "Wait there." Eddie jumped out of the van and ran to my side. Opened the door and carried me out of the van to his front porch. Oh my god, this man is so amazing. "Sorry, I didn't want you to have to walk through the dirt." He said as he unlocked the door. "Come on in, princess." Eddie bowed to me and unfurled his arm into the trailer, like a true gentleman. I giggled and stepped inside.

Once inside, Eddie scurried around to clean up. "Sorry, the place is such a mess." I walk over to him and grab his hand. "Eddie, relax." I gave him a small peck. "Its okay, really." He gave me a huge toothy smile, the swooped me up and threw me over his shoulder and carried me to his room. "Ah, Eddie!" I screamed and laughed.

He sat me down on his bed. I looked around his room. Iron Maiden and Metallica posters plastered his wall, and his guitar hung from a full length mirror he had hanging too. I liked his room. It was messy, but, it was very...Eddie Munson.

"Is your uncle here? Sleeping?" I ask. "Nah, he works nights at the plant." His smile grew, "so...its just us." Eddie excused himself to the bathroom. I noticed his D&D binder on the bed next to me and flipped through it. "Cult of Vecna" caught my eye, but I had no idea what it meant. Before I could look further Eddie came back in the room.

Holy. Fucking. Shit. All Eddie had on was a pair of plaid pajama pants. With his boxers peaking out the top. Of course his guitar pick necklace, rings, and bracelet remained. Nothing else, though. He looked so good. I wanted to devour him. "Slow down, y/n!" I told myself, and smiled at him. I patted the bed next to me, wanting him to sit down.

He started shaking his head no, but grinned at me. I stuck my bottom lip out and whined, "please?" But Eddie didn't move. He dropped his head down, signaling for me to come stand in front of him. Really? He won't come sit by me, but wants me to come to him? How is this fair? I did it anyway.

I got up from the bed and went to him. He put his hands around my waist, kind of rocking me back and forth. "Last night was really fun." He said. "But tonight, I just want to be with you. Okay?" I was shocked. I never had been with anyone that didn't want to just fuck all the time. "What do you mean?" I asked, confused. "I want this to go right, y/n." He said as he grabbed my chin. "Your not just some quick fuck to me. I like you.. a lot." He leaned in and kissed me. My stomach raged with fire. I wanted him so bad, but he was right. I wanted more than just sex from him too. He grabbed my hands and turned me around leading me to the bed. We layed there together and talked some more when I could start to hear the sleep creep into Eddie's voice. "Lets go to sleep, Munson." I reached in and gave him a kiss. He grabbed my face so that I would kiss him longer. When he was done, he let go, so I pulled back. "Good night, princess."

"Good night." I layed back down and listened to him drift off. This felt so right, laying here with him. Feeling him wrapped up in me.

This was perfect.....

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