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whump-about-it · 29 days
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Healing Isn't Linear
@whumpril Day 2: Sweat No Appetite
CW: angst, trauma recovery, trauma from recovery, set backs in recovery, disordered eating, possible eating disorder? (no body dysmorphia), referenced panic attacks, referenced nausea.
The clock on Whumpee's laptop read 8:45 p.m.. They'd been staring at it since 8:41, watching the minutes pass and trying to remember if they had adjusted the time for day light savings. Did their computer do that automatically? When did daylight's savings start anyway? Was it an hour later? Or an hour earlier?
It didn't really matter. The whole mental exercise was only a way for Whumpee to distract themselves from the fact that it was well past time that they should have eaten dinner. As well as the fact that they really should have noticed that earlier.
Whumpee had missed lunch too. And all they'd had for breakfast was half a slice of toast. Whumpee should have been hungry. They should have been starving. But they felt nothing.
It had been the same the day before. And the day before that too. In fact it had been several days since Whumpee had had any sort of appetite to speak of. They'd been able to ignore it up to this point, but the realization that things were getting bad again was beginning to sink in.
It had been a few years since Whumpee had escaped Whumper. The first year after had been rough. Their physical wounds had healed quickly, but the mental recovery was almost worse than anything Whumper had done to them.
When the initial relief of rescue had faded, fear had begun to set in. What if Whumper came back? What if Whumpee couldn't acclimate to the outside world? What if no one believed what had happened to them? The anxiety and desperation had begun to wear on Whumpee in as many physical ways as mental. They couldn't sleep. When they did they had horrible nightmares. Panic attacks were a near daily occurrence and the times between them were so fraught with anxiety that Whumpee could barely leave the house.
Everything came to a head with their appetite. The anxiety is what had started it. Even at their calmest, the tightness in Whumpee's chest was so constricting that they constantly felt on the verge of being out of breathe. Having to actually hold their breathe for any reason such as drinking or chewing felt so suffocating that Whumpee began to avoid such actions as much as possible. Soon enough, the feeling of hunger began to become synonymous with impending panic attacks, and then began to be replaced by them. Before long Whumpee had no appetite to speak of, and could only manage a few bites of food before panic would set in. Even the smell of food began to make Whumpee nauseous from the anxiety of knowing that eating it was going to make them suffer.
Even as their other symptoms began to improve, Whumpee's appetite stubbornly refused to return. They had wasted away to less than they had been when they were with Whumper. A pale, shivering, bag of bones, sinking into corners and shadows anytime food was brought up. Caretaker had had to apply some very tough love, before Whumpee eventually began to improve. Threatening to check them into impatient care if they didn't agree to getting treatment. The whole idea felt too much like being locked up again. So despite giving Caretaker the silent treatment for a month afterwards, Whumpee agreed.
It had been years since that had been an issue. Other problems would resurface occasionally. Insomnia, nightmares, panic attacks. And Caretaker was always quick to check on Whumpee's eating habits when they divulged to them that things were getting harder. But until now, Whumpee's appetite, and diet, had at least remained stabled.
It was thinking about Caretaker that finally compelled Whumpee to close their laptop and stand up. They would notice something was off soon if Whumpee didn't get a handle on the situation. The only reason they hadn't yet was because work was busy for them right now and they hadn't been over to Whumpee's house since before things started up. Their work wasn't slated to die down again anytime soon either, and Whumpee didn't want to give them anything else to worry about. So they made their way to the kitchen and pulled some leftovers out of the fridge.
You're going to be fine.
Whumpee told themselves as they watched their left overs spin lazily around the microwave.
You won't have a panic attack if you eat.
You'll still be able to breathe if you eat.
The microwave beeped its completion and Whumpee took the now steaming food out to set on the counter. They were hit with the warm, delicious smell of noodles and pasta sauce which they basked in for a split second before a wave of nausea washed over them so intense they doubled over.
Oh this isn't good.
Whumpee's chest tightened. Their throat felt like it was closing. The room began to wobble around them and their heart rate spiked.
You have to eat!
Even the thought of it made bile rise in Whumpee's throat. With one last mournful look at their dinner, Whumpee tossed it in the trash where the smell couldn't nauseate them anymore.
Maybe some crackers will do better.
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incorrectbatfam · 2 years
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What is each of the batfam’s secret phobia
Dick: Liam Payne holding him down and giving him a tattoo of his own face
Jason: accidentally snorting a centipede
Tim: Damian discovering the secret photo of him sleeping
Damian: Tim discovering his Red Robin kids meal toy
Duke: getting lost in the woods wearing only his underwear
Cullen: sewer clowns
Stephanie: the children of all the waffles she's eaten seeking revenge
Cassandra: something being moist when it shouldn't be
Barbara: scissors falling apart when she's using them and accidentally stabbing someone
Harper: rats falling from the ceiling
Carrie: getting stuck in a bucket and having to live out the rest of her days as a hermit crab
Kate: geese
Alfred: spelling things the American way
Selina: swallowing apple seeds
Bruce: angering the K-pop stans
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onlytiktoks · 21 days
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zukkacore · 8 months
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Tw for eating disorders seriously, but I really wish there was more sympathetic portrayals of the binge style of disordered eating that don’t make it a fucking joke or use it as another way to shit on fat people, paint us as ugly and gross or portray eating as like a moral failing bc like I used to think I had a healthy relationship with food bc I’ve (mostly) stopped restricting but I realized that bc I was used to other people trying to restrict what I ate when I had the money to buy my own food I just would buy junk food all the time & I would over-order & eat it in my car in secret & feel this obligation to stuff myself & while a fraction of the impulse was to satisfy a craving and that’s fine so much more my motivation felt like pure spite & it made me realize what people mean when they say EDs are so much abt exercising control. It’s so hard to uncouple my frustration with myself with the shame I feel around weight gain but I do believe that my frustration is not even mainly about that it’s that I can feel myself binging on foods I don’t even like that much, like mid-meal I can feel myself getting bored or overwhelmed with what im eating, I overstuff myself out of stubbornness bc I resent being told to restrict, and then I feel awful afterwards bc I ate too much & nutrition wise, it’s not the best. All food is worth something, eating is better than not, but yeah, probably not the best & it reflects in how my body feels. Like, I wanna emphasize too the fast food is affordable and there’s no prep required and also people are allowed to eat things that are fried and taste good, god forbid, there are any myriad of reasons people wanna eat it so this isn’t me saying anything about anyone but myself & I feel like the shame we (especially as fat people) sometimes feel for indulging in food is societally imposed and not necessary. We are allowed to eat food just bc we enjoy it. But I feel like I’ve done every little to actually enjoy my food lately, it all just feels fueled by spite and resentment
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fairiencarnate · 11 months
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I'm itching to bake something but I'm trying so hard to release myself from the grips of sugar again :(((( why must my first genuine hobby in years conflict with my chronic illness? Why does it seem to be a pattern in life that people can never do the things that make them happy?
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feelslikegold · 2 years
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izzy-b-hands · 2 years
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Sure wish my brain would let me eat or sleep tonight. Both would be nice, but I'm not gonna get too demandy abt it. Either or would be cool tho
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baileyboo2016 · 14 days
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fun fact about me: i literally HATE ants SO much
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sad-fool-i-guess · 5 months
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My dad gave me a whole talk about why I need to eat more even though I've been nauseous
I have no idea of how I survived without crying from frustration
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quillandrapier · 9 months
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You could be having the most harrowing mental health episode and you just have to clean and be present.
#Tw for gender dsyphoria#Internalised fat phobia#And suicidal ideation#Anyway#So my brain is telling me I should detransition#Not because Im not a man#Is just the misgendering is too much#Im so heavy these days I'm medically obese and that's really fucking my brain up#My body doesn't move how I want and it's killing me#But im so depressed i cant bring myself to move my body enough#I dont even like food but I eat like an entire box of ice creams because I just do#Im £2000 in my overdraft and I can't control my spending to the point I cannot get out of it#Im too scared to even apply for any benefits because I almost got prosecuted for not filling in forms in time#Even with a world of leniency#People around me are telling me “oh but it's been so hard” but I've just been lazy#I cant find the motivation to do anything at all.#My sister is moving home in two weeks and we'd have to share a room#But i almost threw a glass at my mum the other day while I was fucking up trying to make food#So at this point I genuinely think i cant get out of these issues#I dont believe I can do anything but kill myself at this point#Im not even worth trying for anymore#I cant take testorone correctly so im just getting the negative effects#I cant take medience correctly#I really don't think I'll be alive in three weeks time#I hate myself for posting this because i hate being this person#But i dont have anyone I can talk to about this as depression has left me almost entirely alien#I've destroyed most my friendships with my procrastination#My ex was right to leave me#Im not someone who can be helped
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senxitive · 1 year
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Who knew dreams about raw meat could be significant to your life
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deerspherestudios · 3 months
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🔍QNA MASTERLIST (PT.2)🔎
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This masterlist covers Mychael's anatomy and general lore.
For part 1, it's [HERE].
Regarding Mychael's anatomy...❔
Are his horns and tail fragile?
His scleras are black.
His skin texture is eerily smooth and thicker than a human's.
He smells like fresh cut grass with a hint of bonfire.
His lower eyes has tear ducts, and he can see in the dark.
His blood is blue. + neat facts about blue blood!
His tail isn't poisonous.
His tail has nerve endings and can bleed. It also grows back.
What happens when he's 'sick'.
His top and bottom eyes have 'blind spots'.
He's not fae, so he wouldn't get hurt from metal.
He doesn't have a belly button.
He was a kid, but he didn't start as a baby.
He can't have kids.
He doesn't have fangs. ::-)
His tail length.
His tail length, part 2 (TW: maths).
His horns and tail are a little squishy and can bruise.
His body shape can be whatever you like!
His mushroom horns and tail are flesh.
He wouldn't be affected by substances like humans.
Random Mychael lore❕
He has a different name in his own language, but goes by Mychael.
He doesn't have a last name.
When did he start knitting and why?
Where did the nickname 'firefly' come from?
What music would he like?
His favorite smells are old books, honey and gasoline.
He's super ticklish.
How did he carry MC to his home?
His favorite thing to knit are beanies.
He'd love bringing you outdoors.
He's a quiet sleeper.
He sleeps in a fetal position.
He'd love cheek kisses.
(Minor) loredump!
His knowledge on marriage.
He's overworked himself when fixing up the cabin.
Would he like stargazing?
You're not the first human he's found unconscious.
He'd be okay wearing a dress.
What's his wardrobe like?
He has a fear/phobia of snowstorms, thunder/lightning, trains/train whistles and water wells.
We can't get sick from him.
Does he have a religion/beliefs?
He would love the Shrek series.
The chickens' name origins (they're all flowers).
He's never considered humans as 'food'.
How did Mychael get his hens?
His favorite candies would be marshmallows and cotton candy.
If he had internet, he'd mostly look up arts-and-crafts and recipes. He'd also love DIY candy kits.
He prefers being warm.
He kinda celebrates New Years' and loves fireworks.
He doesn't need skincare but would enjoy face masks.
His first experience with bees.
He's never played UNO (but would love board and card games).
How does Mychael view the animals/people he meets in the forest?
He's ambidextrous.
His MBTI is INFJ-T.
But can I eat--❔
STILL NO.
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melsrants · 2 years
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why is restricting so addicting, it’s awful mentally and physically. Plus it’s ironic because I LITERALLY have hypochondriac- (Obsession with the idea of having a serious but undiagnosed medical condition) which causes my anxiety to spiral for days… geez and I have a phobia of death 🫶 but I have a fear of gaining weight.. we can’t always have what we want 😂😂😂 so I can’t win at life LOL
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animeyanderelover · 4 months
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@lucyrose9820 asked: Kyojuro, Mitsuri, Sanemi, Kaneki, Touka and Sebastian with a darling who has a siamese cat who is a bit aggressive except with the s/o?
Tw: Yandere themes, jealousy, protective behavior,delusional mindset, paranoia, abduction
Tags: @lovley-valentine7 @chxxz @leveyani @flaming-vulpix @naeho @kanaosprotector
S/o owns an aggressive Siamese cat
Sebastian Michaelis
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🐈‍⬛We all know how Sebastian feels about your little companion who lives in your house. He adores the cat with their gorgeous blue eyes, soft fur and cute paws. The aggression the cat occasionally shows towards him doesn't even face him in the least bit as he annoys your little friend by picking them up, cuddling them and petting their body. He uses your cat as a little excuse to spend more time in your own house and for once he isn't completely deceiving you. Of course he uses your feline as an excuse to spend more time with you by offering to look after them when you have work to do or by helping you when it comes to buying food. The fact remains that Sebastian has a soft spot for cats though so the fact that you own one makes everything even better. He definitely brings cat toys over for your cat and tries to play with your cat they are in the mood for it. He always has a calm smile on his face even when the little one uses their claws on him as seemingly nothing about your cat can anger him. He's even proud about the fact that your cat is never aggressive around you. You really are a natural with cats, aren't you~?
Ken Kaneki
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🔲​You've been worried sick for your cat the moment Kaneki abducted you and begged and shouted at him to let them stay with you. Your angry words instantly trigger his paranoia as he hastily apologizes before he scurries away to retrieve your cat for you. When he returns, your cat is busily clawing at him, clearly unhappy as they hiss at the stranger who just took them. With your cat now at least present in your life, you seem to be a bit happier which is better for Kaneki's mental health. Even whilst you are abducted he wants to make you happy and if he can be useful for you by buying all things you need for your gorgeous cat and can additionally make you happy, he definitely latches onto this chance. It's obvious that the cat doesn't like him though as if clearly knowing what he did as he tries to get them to like him at least a bit. You'd like him if your cat would like him after all. So he wastes hours getting scratched before his minor wounds heal all whilst attempting to get your cat to like him. Sometimes he is jealous though when he watches you being all affectionate with your cat. Please give him some pets too.
Touka Kirishima
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🟪​As long as your pet isn't a bird because this lady has a confirmed phobia of birds, Touka can accept the fact that you have a cat as your companion. She's never had any pet before in her life so as much as she probably doesn't want to admit it, she has besides some very basic knowledge not much of a clue what a cat probably needs. Honestly, initially she is a bit warily around your Siamese cat because of their more aggressive behavior at times because she is worried that you might get hurt. Touka is a bit overprotective after all despite her not willing to admit this so easily so she'd be pretty pissed if your cat were to hurt you due to their slightly more aggressive personality. She slowly drops her more cautious behavior when she realises that your cat is a ball of fur and sweetness around you though. She doesn't mind if the cat stays in her apartment for a short amount of time but she isn't willing to keep your little friend for longer periods of time with her just yet because she doesn't want them to scratch at her furniture. Also, your cat should ever be brought to Anteiku she will keep a close eye on them so that they don't accidentally find the unofficial pet of her workplace, the bird Hetare.
Rengoku Kyojuro
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🔥​His reaction is all benign when he gets to hear that you are raising a pretty feline within your home. As your lover he obviously sees it as his duties to also look after your pet too and he stomps into this new duty he assigned to himself with unmatched enthusiasm. Sometimes it is honestly a bit painful to watch Rengoku because he is so set on getting the cat to like him that he tends to ignore the signs of the animal that they are uncomfortable and feel threatened yet he keeps that smile on his face even if your little friends swats after him with their claws. Honestly, his straightforward actions when it comes to your cat really remind you of how he went on about courting you. You're always feeling a bit guilty though when your cat gets aggressive ans scratches him but he laughs it off and reassures you that it isn't bad. You have a fierce, little friend with you. Now, obviously it would be different if it wouldn't be him getting all scratched up but you in which case Kyojuro would be very set on removing the cat from your home. He wouldn't allow you to keep someone close who hurts you in any way after all.
Kanroji Mitsuri
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💓​She is squealing the first time you bring her home and she sees your pet. They're so cute! Can she cuddle with them? Mitsuri adores your cat because they are so adorable and fluffy and she just wants to pet them all day. Mitsuri isn't really scared of your Siamese cat and their slightly more aggressive behavior but she definitely feels sadder over time. Your cat seems to be quite attached to you but her attempts to pet your cat or get closer to them don't really seem to work. Is she doing something wrong? She just wants your cat to like her too because they are precious to you yet nothing she does helps her. She's acting sillily sad, especially when your cat hisses at her and tells her clearly that they don't appreciate Mitsuri gushing over them and trying to touch them. She never hates your cat for their behavior though because she can see how much you love your pet and how much they appreciate you in return too. The only thing she is a tad bit worried about is their occasional aggressive personality. She wouldn't want others or you to get hurt because of this slight aggression your cat sometimes shows.
Shinazugawa Sanemi
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🌪️​Is it silly to get in constant fights with your cat? Because if it is, prepare for the pettiest scene you could have in your house as the Wind Hashira constantly bickers with your pet. Sanemi is already a pretty aggressive individual to the people around you yet this apparently even extends to your freaking cat! They don't like him and they make that pretty obvious and Sanemi in return dislikes them equally as much. He could swear that this thing is giving him some attitude and he does not appreciate it as it constantly claws at him or meows loudly if he tries to be affectionate in front of you. Sometimes he seems to realise how ridiculous he is behaving by cussing and insulting an animal who just gives him a bored look in return before it walks over to you for cuddles. Worst is that sometimes you refer to Sanemi as your cat in human form since both share some aggressive traits. Not only is he worried about you mentioning your cat's aggressive traits but also somewhat humiliated that you actually compare him to your cat. He tries his best to not lash out with your cat when you're around as he just gives them a silent death stare as they hiss at him and show their teeth.
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davenweenie · 1 year
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Lab Rats HCs!!!
-Chase has nicknames for all of his teammates as well as his siblings. He even had some for some of his students.
-he calls Bree ‘bee’ and it started when they were only just little kids and were called Subject A, B and C. B is bee to him. He also calls her breezy or speedy because that’s what Mr Davenport used to call her before they had names.
-really cliche but he calls Leo 'Lion' because he thinks it’s funny when Leo gets all flustered when he does it. Leo gets embarrassed because he knows he’s not really anything like a lion. He also calls him ‘butter fingers’ and ‘handy man’ and he thinks he’s funny with that one since Leo’s bionic in one arm.
-he calls Adam ‘Atom’ and I love this nickname for Adam. I think I saw it in a fic about how the kids got their names and it was because Mr Davenport called him atom bomb (I think, I might have just imagined it) in the fic. Chase pick up on stuff really easily, that includes nicknames for people. He also calls Adam ‘hulk’ which everyone loves.
-Kaz has many nicknames from Chase, his favourite one is ‘fire boy’ and this one’s actually canon. He also calls him ‘Azzy’ which I have definitely stolen from a Chaz fic. Chase also calls him ‘button’ and nobody is sure why it started.
-he calls Oliver ‘drink dispenser’ and ‘refrigerator’ which he thinks is absolutely hilarious. Everyone calls Oliver ‘Oli’ or ‘Oli-pop’ which Chase has picked up on. He also has take to calling him ‘liver’ which Oliver hates.
-Skylar’s nicknames are ‘E.T’ ‘alien’ and other alien references. Chase also started calling her ‘toes’ after he found out about her weird alien feet. He also makes a lot of Star Wars jokes around her.
-Mr Davenport is ‘Donnie Darko’ or ‘weird man’ which Chase has absolutely no idea why he started.
-Douglas is ‘trash man’ or ‘rat man’ which stems from him being previously homeless.
-Chase has emetophobia (phobia of vomit) and refuses to eat anything sugary after he had hurled after eating loads of cake when he wasn’t used to real food yet.
-Bree can somehow always whip out bars of chocolate or random packaged food whenever people need it. Like she always has food stashed away somewhere on her.
-Chase mothers People a lot. He’s the one that carries around plasters and hydration for people on outings, he for some reason always has a snack on hand like Bree does. His are usually healthy and nobody wants them though.
-Kaz and Oliver are the only ones on the team that know how to human properly. Skylar is an alien, Bree and Chase grew up in a basement so they struggle to function like normal humans in society. They don’t understand certain aspects of being people. They didn’t know what Easter was until Kaz and Oliver came along. They still didn’t understand what Santa was and what his purpose is supposed to be. They don’t understand things that are normally natural to do for humans. Chase couldn’t understand the concept of homophobia because it was so normalised in the basement.
- (TW for homophobia and hate crimes) Chase and Kaz were almost hate crimed coming home from a date once. Six guys had started following them and yelling at them. They (Kaz and Chase) didn’t say anything and carried on walking. One of them grabbed Chase and Kaz went ballistic. He got so mad that even his hair lit on fire.
-adding to that, Kaz’s hair can ignite like a match if he’s mad enough. So far he hasn’t figured out how to do it on command.
-they have meals together almost every night. Kaz almost always cooks and man can cook really good food. Having 11(?) siblings means he taught himself to cook so that he could feed his siblings when their parents couldn’t be bothered to.
And to finish off I want to say how happy I am to see all the likes and reblogs on my posts. A couple have had hashtags talking about how much they love these HCs and how they imagine the same things as me and it makes me so incredibly happy. Thanks to everyone who actually likes these!
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nyashykyunnie · 8 months
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AU where Sung Jinwoo is a snek Brainrot!!!
[tw: snek imagery pls do not read if u have extreme phobia of snakes tyvm
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I recently finished a manhwa titled 'Cold-Blooded beast' and I immediately thought of Jinwoo as a lil black snakey. ik the fandom eatablished him as a black kitty but **slaps u** i make the rules here hMPH/jk
He's this gentle lil critter you came across in the petshop and bought him home cuz ynot livelaughlove
and then suprise he turns into human, very hawt daddy human beeg daddy abs and battle scars hahahahahahahahah.
Jinwoo is embarrassed of himself and therefore yeets back into lil smol snakey
He likes crawling around you and doing snakey things His usual size is a normal hand held snek but he's actually way bigger than what he is. He beeg boi
Ofc, as a snek he is quite the princess attitude if hes not always snobbing u. He will physically recoil if u dare feed him actual snek food(new trauma unlocked for the shadow monarch: bugs)
hes also more touchier as a snek. Like cuddles and all and using his lil tongue to kith ur lips and u shrug it off as platonic chuchus.
But slowly the relationship became more and more romantic because wooohooo ynot
Little did u know, the shadow monarch Jinwoo has travelled through many universes just to find you, his beloved that he had lost.
but anyway livelaughlove lil snek woowoo now
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