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Love Again | PJM (Ten)

Summary: A friend of yours is eager to introduce you to her new man but what happens when Park Jimin, the man who broke your heart 5 years ago walks in through the door?

Pairing: Jimin x Female reader

Genre: exes au, exes to ???, fluff, angst, smut

Word Count: 14k

Warnings: swearing, alcohol consumption, sexual tension (????!!!!!????!!!!), lots of making out, getting naked, slight breast play, oral (fem rec.) slight overstimulation, boner, aftercare, mention of oral (male rec) lots of crying, mention of multiple orgasms, mention of throwing up

Notes: hehe hope you like this chapter and what’s to come. I hope you continue to enjoy this story. Love hearing from you guys<3 Send an ask if you want to be added to a tag list or just want to chat:)

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There’s really not a moment where you aren’t thankful that it is Friday. You could be having the shittiest day of your life but when you suddenly remember it is Friday therefore the weekend is here you are like, wait, I am feeling a moment of gratitude. That’s kind of what you are experiencing right now actually. Today sucked—work wise—and you’re so happy it is ending.

You’re finally wrapping things up on your computer before you’re finally turning it off and cleaning up around you so you can head home and get ready for your date with Namjoon tonight.

“So,” You hear Hoseok’s voice from beside you, “Tonight’s the night, huh?”

“Huh?” You glance over at him and he’s already wiggling his brows at you like you need to get his hint.

“Tonight’s the night.” He repeats.

Your eyes stay on him before you release a long breath and nod at him.

“You know, I’d actually believe you were excited if you would at least smile.” He tells you, rolling his eyes before closing down his own computer.

“Right.” You sigh, your mind going back to a couple days ago when you two shared a conversation similar to this.

“Ugh, it smells like you.” You tell Hoseok, the purple hoodie pulled up into your nose, giving it a big whiff.

“Don’t act like that’s not like your favorite scent! You guys are always talking about how great I smell and suddenly it’s a problem?!”

“Hm.” You sniff the hoodie again. “Fine, top 3 favorite.”

“Who the hell is the other 2?” Hoseok gasps at you, “Okay, maybe your mom is one…and…hmm, I’ll keep my other guess to myself.”

You lower the hoodie from your nose and narrow your eyes at him.

“Anyway,” Hoseok leans back on his sofa, “Speaking of Jimin—”

“—Who mentioned Jimi—”

“—I’m sure he told you all about how drunk we got last night.” Hoseok shakes his head while chuckling. “And—”

“Wait, huh?” You blink at your best friend and he blinks back. Once. Twice.

“Wait, huh, what?”

“Wait, huh, what? What?”

“That’s what I’m asking you!” He yells.

“No, I’m asking you that! I said, wait, huh!”

“And I said wait, huh, what?”

“Yeah, but I’m saying what to your what for my wait huh—”

“Just tell me what the hell you are asking!” “You guys hung out last night?” You mumble, “You and Jimin?”

“He didn’t tell you?” Hoseok questions, his eyebrows rising. “Surprised. But yeah.”

“You guys hung out without me?!”

“Do…do we need you there?” Hoseok asks innocently, eyes wide as he seems genuinely curious. “Anyway, yeah. He came over last night when he and Taehyung came by so Taehyung could pick up Dae so they could leave. Jimin ended up staying for a while—the night actually—we decided to drink and got drunk. His idea. Good dude, good dude.” Hoseok nods in approval.

You grab your phone from your pocket, unlocking the screen until you’re in your messages and then you pout. Like a baby. “He still hasn’t even texted me back…” You admit. “I sent a text yesterday asking how he’s doing and stuff…but nothing.”

“Maybe…” Hoseok’s head rolls back into the cushion, staring up at the ceiling with his bottom lip stuck between his teeth. “…maybe he’s just embarrassed about getting so mad yesterday…about the whole Lucy thing.”

“Maybe…” You nod hesitantly, “But speaking of Lucy—”

“Unfortunately she actually was mentioned, huh?”

“Hoseok!”

“Kidding, kidding…I guess.”

“So, have you tried reaching out to her?” You ask, suddenly bringing the hoodie back to your nose.

“Nope. Have you?”

“No…”

It’s quiet for a moment longer than you’d like, you know you should say something but the whole situation feels strange…like there’s too many pieces and people involved. Hoseok, your best friend, being one of them.

“How are you feeling? About yesterday?” You finally ask.

“Good.” He tells you simply, his eyes still on the ceiling. “I wasn’t lying yesterday. I really am okay. I would rather have answers than to be confused and wondering every second of the day where I stand…it’s better like this.”

“I get that.” Your voice is slightly muffled thanks to the hoodie, “But…I’m a little confused.”

“About?” Hoseok lowers his head to meet your eye.

“I’m not fully convinced that she doesn’t have feelings for you, I guess. I was so sure…”

“Doesn’t matter. Even if she does…look at everything, y/n. She’s not my fated one, don’t you think?” Hoseok laughs a little and you can’t help but drop the hoodie from your face and show him a cracked smile.

“Okay.”

Hoseok leans his head back on the sofa cushion again, “Oh! So, Friday!”

“Friday?”

“Date with Namjoon?” His eyes close but he smiles. “Excited?”

“Yeah.” You lean back as well, “It’s been a while it feels like. After this week we’ve had, I need his energy!” You chuckle and Hoseok joins you, agreeing right away.

“And Emiko promises she won’t need him for anything. No interruptions.” You grin to yourself, “I think it might be the night we…”

“You…?”

“You know.” You bring the hoodie over your nose again and do a cute little villain laugh.

“Wow, the night is finally coming! And hopefully so will y—”

“Hoseok!”

“I’m just a little nervous!” You tell Hoseok as he gathers some things from his desk, “It’s just…it’s been a while…” You whisper that last part.

“Now that I think about it…” Hoseok whips his head up to look at you, “It has been a while…and the last time sucked, right? You didn’t…you know.”

“Unfortunately that is a fact. I did not…you know.”

“Wow…and also, according to Taehyung your sex drive is crazy. Apparently you and Jimin didn’t understand you guys could just watch a movie without it—”

“How about we stop getting information from Taehyung?” You blink at him with a straight face.

“Oh my god…you’re probably so deprived…dick deprivation…that can’t be good…”

“Shut up!” You groan and he starts laughing to himself. “So annoying.”

“Ah, but you know, don’t be nervous. Things will happen the way they’re meant to.” Hoseok grabs his phone from his desk and stuffs it into his pocket, his head nodding towards the exit so you two can leave. “Just relax. Don’t overthink and I promise things will occur naturally.”

“Yeah, yeah.”

Is a dress too much? Well, it is easy access and you are trying to seduce…wait, no. Naturally, naturally…things will happen naturally. But you’ll still stick with the dress since it is very cute and you look great, you would have to admit.

Namjoon should be here any minute to pick you up. You make your way into your living room and take a seat while scrolling on your phone, nothing interesting going on but you’re bored. Maybe a few more minutes pass by when there’s some very soft knocking on your front door, your head lifting up towards the door and away from your phone. He must be here, you think. Small butterflies that flutter lightly in excitement go flying in your stomach, you rise from the couch and make your way to the door.

Looking through the peep hole, you confirm it is Namjoon standing outside and you’re already drooling over how handsome he looks even though it barely counts as a view. You open the door and when your eyes meet his he quite literally gasps.

“You…” His eyes dance across your form before he smiles softly. “You look so beautiful.”

“Hi.” You squeak out and he chuckles.

“Hi.” He responds quickly, leaning forward and planting a kiss on your forehead. He starts leaning away from you when you pull him in closer and your lips land on his for a kiss. You keep his mouth connected to yours, hands on his chest when you move your lips to deepen it and he follows, his own lips moving over yours.

Namjoon looks a little surprised when you two pull away but when his lips finally pull up into his dimpled smile you can’t help but feel like you’re wanting to pull him in for another.

“Let’s go.” He grabs your hand, “We have like 15 minutes to make our reservation. Kind of wishing I got here a lot earlier though.” He teases with a smile, his hand pulling your hand to his mouth when he kisses it.

The restaurant you two are at is the same place he took you for your first date, something you’re happy about since the food was good and they have someone playing the piano again. You two chatted about your days after you ordered, catching him up on how hectic work was this week and also…the entire Lucy situation.

“I can understand why Jimin was angry though.” Namjoon nods, taking a bite of his pasta and swallowing before continuing. “Even though nothing is going on with you guys…being told that you can’t do something when that person really has no right…well, of course, he was upset.”

“I guess.” You poke the vegetables on your plate with your utensil. “I get it too. I just don’t really know why he would be embarrassed and not talk to me about it.”

“Oh.” Namjoon stops chewing for a second, “I thought you weren’t understanding why he was upset. Not because of his embarrassment.” He swallow again and smiles at you. “Well, think of it this way…being angry is like…showing someone your ugly side, right? Maybe he’s just wishing you—any of you—didn’t see that because it’s not how he wants you guys to view him.”

You continue playing with the food on your plate, “Yeah. That does make sense.”

“Don’t be sad, y/n.” Namjoon chuckles, reaching his hand to grab yours across the table. “He’s going to talk to you.”

“I’m not sad!” You defend right away, eyes finally lifting to meet his. “I just don’t get it! That’s all.”

“He’s an important person to you so of course it feels sad when someone like that isn’t able to talk to you, right?” Namjoon squeezes your hand. “Your feelings are normal.”

“But…”

“Normal.” Namjoon emphasizes with a grin, “I promise you. The best example I can give you is how Hoseok felt when you didn’t tell him about Jimin? He felt like you couldn’t talk to him and it hurt. I think that’s how you’re feeling. Hurt that Jimin isn’t talking to you about how he’s feeling since the situation.”

“Maybe.” You grumble. “Of course, Hoseok felt this feeling but like tenfold.” You go back to playing with your food, “Now I am sad because I am remembering that.”

Namjoon shakes his head with another laugh, “I didn’t mean to remind you of that and make you sad.” You finally look at him and give him a teasing smile.

“I know.” You tell him, “Don’t worry, that’s all resolved so I won’t be sad.”

“Good.”

“Although work was crazy busy this week I am kind of glad it was. Good distraction to all this real life stuff.” You laugh, “How about you?”

“I was also very busy! Feels like meeting after meeting and trying to set this up or that up. So many things going on.” Namjoon finally lets go of your hand to grab his wine glass and takes a sip. “Ah, but I feel more bad for Emiko.” He sets the glass back down, “If I’m busy that poor soul is ten times busier” Then he’s laughing when he remembers something. “Actually, she texted me while you were in the bathroom and she sent me this picture and you have to see it.” Namjoon pulls his phone out and pulls up his messages and shows you his screen.

Emiko 7:27pm

I know youre out with y/n but this isn’t work related!!!!🥲 Look at this cat we found! HE IS SO FAT!!!! CHUNKY!!!!!🥺 Anyway your mom says his name is Chunk the Hunk and I really feel like it is his name so!

[image]

“Oh my god.” You start giggling, “He’s huge! He is Chunk the Hunk for sure!”

“My mom has a real talent for naming things.” Namjoon shakes his head, smiling before putting his phone away again.

“But wait. Emiko is close with your mom?” You tilt your head, “Wow, they even hang out on Friday nights.”

Namjoon can’t help but chuckle when he realizes you don’t really have any context. “Ah, right. Emiko knows mom well. Her parents and my parents are the best of friends, neighbors and all. I’ve known Emiko since we were like…I want to say around 5?”

“Oh!” You smile, impressed. “Childhood friends! That’s so cool!”

“Yeah, we grew up together.” He nods, “I was mean to her at the end of elementary! Girls are gross and all of that. But by the end of middle school we were cool again and all of high school too!”

“That’s amazing. I wish I had someone like that!” You whine, “I’m always jealous of people who have that.”

“Time isn’t everything, you know?” Namjoon teases, “But we actually fell off after high school. We went to different universities so I hardly saw her anymore.”

“Then what?”

“But sometime after university I ran into her. We always had similar interests and stuff so finding out she had worked her way into becoming a book agent I wasn’t too surprised,” Namjoon smiles, reaching for his wine again. “And there I was…wanting to write a book. So, it made sense to me that we work together. So, here we are.”

“Wow.” You look at him starry eyed, “It’s like the universe put you guys on the same path again!”

“Funny how it does that.” His smile is as cute and genuine as him. “Some people are just meant to be in your life time and time again. Some, of course, are only meant for certain times rather than others or sometimes it’s only for a moment that they’re there but even one moment can have an impact…amazing, right?”

“Yeah.” You nod, small smile that feels hard to hide starts forming. “I do agree with that.”

After dinner you and Namjoon hold hands while you walk to his car in the parking lot, his grip on you is just firm enough that feels safe and warm.

“So, I was thinking.” Namjoon stops when you two approach his car, his body turning towards yours.

“You usually have great thoughts. What ones are going through your mind right now?” You ask, eyes on his.

He laughs a little before coming closer to you, “I was thinking you come to my place?” His voice is lower, but not quite a whisper. “I’d love to have you over.”

“Would you?” You step closer as well.

“Of course.” His hand finds your chin, tilting your head up before he leans in for a kiss. When he pulls back you nod enthusiastically and he chuckles. “So, is that a yes?”

“It’s a yes.”

Namjoon’s apartment is a place you have never been before, it is your first time and you feel a little nervous since you’ve already made up your mind about tonight. You are getting fucked. Namjoon shows you around his place, a lot of plants and paintings and the entire atmosphere feels warm and welcoming.

“How about some wine?” He goes into his kitchen, bringing two glasses down from a cabinet. “I have one we’ve had before. I remember you like it.”

“I’d love some wine.” You take a seat on his cream sofa, “Love it, love it, love it.” You say more to yourself. Of course you would love a little liquid courage.

“Are you warm? Cold? I can adjust the air.” Namjoon tells you when he sits next to you, handing you your glass.

“I’m comfortable, thanks.” You take the glass happily, your lips already on it, wine already sliding down your throat.

“By the way, I am sorry I’ve been so busy lately.” Namjoon drinks some of his own wine, “You’re worth giving all my time and attention to but well, we do live in a society that requires making money.” He smiles at you, “But I wish I could give you all my time and attention.”

You snort at his words, grinning at him. “Unfortunately, I also live in a society.”

“Seriously, y/n. I hope tonight makes up for it.”

“I’m hoping it does.” You tease and this makes Namjoon quirk a brow in question.

“Did you have something in mind?” He asks, throwing back the rest of his drink. “Something you want?”

“…Hmm.” You finish your wine quickly as well. “Maybe.”

“You can have whatever you want.”

“I want…” You start looking around, feeling shy suddenly. “Things.”

“What kind of things?”

“Things from you.” Your eyes still go around. Wow, it really must have been a while because you are usually way better at being straight forward. “Things like you kissing me.” You finally find the courage to say, eyes locking on his again.

“I thought it could be something like that.” Namjoon gazes at you, his dimples threatening to show itself when he smiles at you. “Give me that.” He requests softly, referring to your empty glass.

He takes it from you and stands from his sofa and leaves for his kitchen to put the glasses in his sink and when he returns to you, he only offers you his hand.

“Would you like to come with me to my bedroom?” His voice is more husky than you’re used to but this only encourages you to place your hand in his palm and stand from his couch.

“Yes.” You breathe out.

Namjoon leads you down a hall until he stops at one of the doors, opens it and guides you through. His hands on your waist, until they’re on your hips, sliding down until one hand gently squeezes your ass. Your own hands gripping his arms, his chest, finally until your fingers are in his hair. Your back is against his now closed bedroom door, it would feel cold against your skin but Namjoon’s lips exploring your neck makes you feel all too warm.

You are wearing a dress, you think. Namjoon could easily fuck you against this door if he truly wanted. And you’re thinking maybe he does when he curls his fingers beneath your thighs and has you jump, your legs wrapping around his middle. Your mind is melting when you feel his clothed cock against your core, oh how easy it would be if you just pulled it out of his pants and have him enter you.

Namjoon’s lips on yours, his tongue meeting yours in the middle for a kiss deeper and messier, hips grinding uncontrollably for the other. You need this, you think. You want this. Moaning into Namjoon’s mouth is enough for him to carry you to the bed, dropping you gently on his pillows before he’s diving back in to kiss you hotly.

“Joon…” You whine, his teeth nipping at your throat. “I want you.” You admit to him, feeling breathless.

His fingers feel rough and hot against your skin, they even feel desperate as he tugs on your dress in every direction trying to take it off of you. You sit up quickly, helping him slip off the damn thing and his eyes devour you when he gets a look at you in just a bra and panties.

“So beautiful.” He whispers, leaning forward between your legs to kiss you. When his tongue meets yours again, you can feel his fingers at your back, unclipping your bra. When it falls from your body he leans away again to eye your bare chest.

“Take this off.” You poke his chest. “I want to see you too.”

He wastes no time in getting his shirt off, his bare skin on display for you and you love how soft his skin feels beneath your fingertips.

“Lay back down for me.” He rasps out, “Please.”

You slowly fall back, head landing on his pillow when Namjoon’s body is towering over your own. He gazes at you, drinking you in. He lowers himself, lips on yours when he kisses you slowly this time. Hands all over you, gripping your waist, your hips, your breasts but the cherry on top is when he fingers graze over your underwear.

“T-Touch me.” You sigh, his tongue rolling over your nipple and his fingers just barely touching over your underwear again. “J-Joon.”

Namjoon keeps kissing over your chest until he’s kissing over your stomach, kissing each hip and finally lowering himself until he’s kissing at your thighs. You spread them for him, giving him access for his lips to trail to your inner thigh. He looks up at you, face contorting, a look of want—a look of need—as his fingers finally grab the band of your panties and he starts dragging them down.

“Lift up for me.” He groans when you lift your ass and he has it easy, sliding your panties down each leg. “Oh fuck.” He releases a few long breaths, his eyes boring into your exposed pussy. He isn’t touching you but you’re squirming. You need to be touched.

You look down at him, lips parting when you feel his fingers spreading your lower lips apart and he’s gliding his digits around your clit, gathering your wetness on them. He’s moving his fingers so slowly, just testing how sensitive you are and he feels satisfied when he realizes it is very. You are very sensitive.

“I’m okay to taste you?” His voice has never sounded this low or deep and it goes straight to vagina—there’s no turning back on how horny you are. You tell him yes over and over and you finally shut up when his warm tongue finds your most sensitive spot, your mouth shutting but your squirming only continuing. His lips are wrapping around your clit when his tongue circles it, exploring every nerve in the place that can take you to a whole new world.

The moan you let out when he quickens how he licks at you only makes it that much harder for Namjoon to not just fuck you. His cock is hard and ready to dip inside you, ready to get soaked in your juices, your wet pussy hugging him until he comes but he tries to focus on you and your pleasure.

“F-Fingers.” You beg him, your whining making him rut against his mattress. He listens though, one finger adventuring around your entrance, then two before he’s pushing them both inside you and you stiffen at the sudden intrusion but when he curls them and fucks them into your hole, you are back to crying out in pleasure.

You aren’t entirely sure how long this continues for…can’t be more than 10 minutes though. No, it’s got to be less than that. You are trying for this to last longer but a particular suck on your bundle of nerves has you gripping the sheets and warning Namjoon that you’re going to come. His entire head quickly bobs when he laps at your pussy, fingers never stopping and the sudden relief you feel over your entire body starts happening. You come and you come and he just doesn’t stop. His tongue and fingers working inside you like they’ve moved in and he doesn’t pull away until you’re wincing visibly from the overstimulation.

“Good god.” You throw your arm over your eyes, smiling from how good this all felt and pleasantly satisfied how amazing it feels to receive an orgasm from someone who isn’t you for once.

“I really enjoy the way you sound when you come.” Namjoon tells you, his body moving up yours when he kisses you. Tongues tangling lazily and you can taste yourself, something Namjoon wanted you to experience. “You taste good, don’t you?” He asks, pulling away to look at you. Your eyes are heavy with your dopey smile and his heart squeezes at the sight.

“You’re amazing.” You breathe out, “Really.”

Namjoon continues to gaze at you and how obviously tired you are and he strokes your cheek. “I’ll get something to clean you.”

“Wait!” You grab his arm, sitting up, “I should…we can…” you glance down towards the very obvious boner in his pants and he chuckles, pushing you gently back towards the bed.

“Tonight was about you. Let’s sleep.” He kisses you one more time before disappearing into the bathroom. When you hear the sound of running water it almost feels like a gentle waterfall is lulling you to sleep, your eyes closing until you feel a warm wash cloth at your core. You close them again, letting Namjoon clean you and the last thing you feel for the night is Namjoon’s warm chest against your back.

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“Mmmmmm.” You roll over groggily, your hands going to cover your ears. Your phone is going off and you just want to keep sleeping. “Who the hell is calling me…” you mumble lowly to yourself, eyes not opening. The phone finally stops going off and you smile to yourself, ready to sleep again when the phone starts vibrating loudly once more. “Seriously…?” You roll back over and open your eyes now until they widen. This room…? Right. You’re in Namjoon’s room.

The phone continues to buzz and you realize it is on the floor next to the bed, you glance around and see Namjoon isn’t in here before you reach down and pick up the phone. Jimin. Jimin? Jimin?! You blink at the screen rapidly and notice it’s only like 10am…why is he calling? Well, at least he’s finally calling…

“Hello?” you answer before it stops. “Jimin?”

“Oh, you’re sleeping. I should have guessed that.” Jimin laughs a bit awkwardly. “I knocked on your door a few times but…”

“Oh.” You rub your eyes a few times with your free hand. “I’m…I’m actual—”

“I brought you breakfast.” He tells you, his tone is soft. “Want to eat together?”

“Jimin.” He can’t see you but he knows you smiled with the way you said his name. “I…actually I’m not home but I’ll be there in half an hour. Is that okay?”

“Sure, I can wait for you.”

“See you then.” And then you are hanging up. You get up from Namjoon’s bed and find your dress and things before slipping everything on, stopping in the bathroom to get a look at yourself. Great, a hickey on your neck and mascara beneath your eyes. You try to clean your face a bit before going out into Namjoon’s living room. You spot the man eating a bowl of cereal on his sofa, his eyes widening when he sees you and he tries to smile while swallowing his food at the same time.

“Hi.” You tell him, “I uh, I’m going to head home…but thank you for a great date and uh, last night. Yes, last night was very um, very nice.”

“You’re leaving?” Namjoon sets his bowl down on a side table. “You don’t want to eat?”

“No, no!” You smile, “I’m okay. I should head home. Honestly, Jimin is there and he hasn’t talked to me so I…” Namjoon nods, understanding you. “But I’ll text you.”

“Will you at least come here and kiss me?” He teases you and you blink at him, hand going to your mouth.

“But…but I haven’t brushed my teeth…”

Namjoon can’t help but laugh. Cute, he thinks. “Come here.”

And you do, and you accidentally make out for like 15 minutes before you finally do leave.

You get a ride home despite Namjoon making a huge deal about how he should drive you but you tell him a ride is fine. Jimin has been waiting over half an hour by now but you finally pull into your apartment complex and when you spot Jimin sitting outside your front door with a bag of food you cannot help but grin. You rush up towards him and when he sees you he stands to his feet and offers a small smile in return.

“Hey.” You greet him quietly, going to unlock your front door, letting him in behind you.

“Hi.” He tells you quietly as well. You both slip your shoes off and make your way into your home. “Where were you?” He asks, setting the bag of food down on your kitchen island. You stare at him, cheeks getting warm and he sees right through you before he’s lightly smirking. “I guess your date went well with Namjoon, huh? Hoseok said there might be a sleep over involved.” He’s nonchalant as he starts taking food containers out of the bags.

“W-We didn’t! Well, we kind of? But not all the way! I—Hoseok? He told you?”

“Yeah,” Jimin nods, eyes still focused on the food. “He told me last night.”

“Did you…did you guys hang out last night?”

“Yeah, after dinner with my parents. I went over to his place and we chilled.”

“You guys…you guys hung out without me?!” You say in a whine and Jimin looks at you now, eyes all innocent.

“Do…do we need you there?” He tilts his head and you groan internally, Hoseok gave that same response.

“Anyway,” You roll your eyes with a pout on your lips. “I’m going to go change and wash up real quick. Be right back.” Jimin hums in response, eyes back at the food.

After you freshen up, you and Jimin sit at your kitchen island and munch away on breakfast that he brought.

“So,” Jimin turns his head to see you, his eyes on yours, something light about them. “You haven’t seen me since Tuesday. And it’s Saturday. Just like last week. Does this mean you’ve missed me?”

You gape at Jimin before narrowing your eyes at him, “I understand last week. But this time you ignored me. So, no.”

“I…I wasn’t ignoring you.” Jimin’s smile starts fading and you look at him incredulously.

“But you did!” You scold, “I texted you and nothing.”

Jimin frowns a bit before nodding his head. “Okay, you’re right.”

“Of course I’m right…” You pause before glancing his way again, “So why?”

“I…I think I just felt weird about things.”

“Hm.” You look back down at your breakfast, “But you were able to talk to Hoseok? Why is it just me that—”

“If I had an answer to that, I promise you, y/n, I would give it to you. But even I don’t know.”

Your eyes catch his, an odd vulnerability lingers in them and you think you believe that. “Well…I’m happy you and Hoseok seem to be getting closer.” The corner of your lip curves up, “He’s my best friend and you’re my—uh, my other…uh, well, you’re both important to me…so, I’m glad.” You give Jimin an awkward smile before your expression changes into something more threatening. “But please invite me next time!” You raise your fist, pretending like you’re going to hit him and he snickers.

“Fine, fine. I suppose you can crash our hang outs—oh! But not next weekend. Sorry, no girls allowed.”

“Huh?”

“Taehyung is coming next weekend and we have plans.”

“Who?”

“Well, Taehyung created a group chat with me, him, Hoseok and Jeremy. It’s called…uh,” Jimin slides his phone out of his pocket and takes a look at his message threads. “It’s called ‘Ladies want us and men—”

“—And men want to be us?” You finish for him, snorting.

“Actually no.” Jimin shakes his head, “Uh,” He starts reading again, “Ladies want us and men…also want us.”

You go from laughing to a straight face when you nod in understanding, “I—yeah, that actually sounds more accurate for something Taehyung would say.”

Jimin nods with you, understanding that it is true.

“So what? What’s next weekend?”

“He planned a whole boys day and a boys night out. It’s for Saturday.”

“A boys night out?” You question, taking a sip of your water.

“Yeah. According to Taehyung and Jeremy we’re all too hot to be single.” Jimin just shrugs, smirk on his face when he sees how you shake your head.

“Taehyung and Jeremy are going to become a dangerous pair…I can feel it.” You continue to shake your head, “So what? The plan is you all find girls and get laid?”

“Something like that.” Jimin laughs, “Something like that.”

“Well,” you pick at your leftover breakfast, “If you can’t find anyone that night, you can always just hit up the girl from your super market.”

“How would I do that?” Jimin gazes at you, but you don’t meet his eye.

“Well—”

“I never gave her my number.” He tells you, eyes still on you while a smirk still plays at his lips.

You finally turn your head, eyes finding his. You gaze for a moment or two or eight before you finally speak up. “Why not?”

“Hmm.” Jimin hums noncommittally, eyes still boring into yours but it’s not in an intimidating way…it’s more like his eyes are trying to communicate with you but neither of you speak the same language. You gaze back, eyes darting down to his lips when you see how his tongue pokes out to lick them. “I—”

But he’s cut off when your phone starts buzzing loudly on the counter, you tear your eyes away from Jimin to glance down at your screen to see Naomi calling.

“Hello? Huh? Oh. Umm…what are the options? This is obvious dude are you serious? Tell Jeremy I can hear him and that I think his taste in everything is actually garbage…okay, fine…yeah, his taste in dumplings is pretty solid. Other than that though. Just watch Toy Story. Tell Jeremy I can still hear him.” Jimin watches as you playfully roll your eyes, you catch his eyes on you before you mouth ‘sorry’ he just waves you off with a smile. “I’m hanging up now but next time you guys fight over what movie to watch, please just flip a coin. Bye bye, love you.”

“They needed your help to decide on a movie?” Jimin teases, “Sounds like them.”

“Yeah.” You giggle, “Anyway, uh, what were you saying?” “Nothing.” He sighs, smiling.

“Oh! Auditions are this next week, right?”

“Yeah.” He closes his food container and pushes it away from him, “I go in on Thursday.”

“Exciting. You’re going to kill it.”

“You think so?”

“Jimin, I know so. You are someone who…well, there isn’t anyone like you.” You say, “You already know this though.”

“I have my doubts sometimes.” He says, eyes lowering to the counter, shy smile on his lips and you can’t help yourself when you scoff, your own smile on your face.

“Well, I guess like usual, you can just count on me to believe in you more than you do yourself.”

“Hm.” Jimin’s eyes find yours again, “If you let me count on something like that then I will.”

You and Jimin continue to talk, the conversation going from one thing to another and the day is just passing you by. You see how the sun moves through the sky, different colors painting your living room walls because of the sun through the windows. The walls were white and light but now they’re glowing in something like a soft orange.

You and Jimin are relaxing on your couch, he’s tapping away on his screen as you two order a late dinner.

“Are you sure I’m not overstaying my welcome?” Jimin asks, eyes still on his phone. “I’ve been here all day.” He reminds you like you aren’t totally aware.

“Overstaying your? Jimin, we haven’t even watched our show yet!” You lightly swat his arm, “Which by the way, can you believe next week is the finale?!”

“I know—”

“Wait!” You swat his arm again and he chuckles, “I just realized…I’m going to…I’m going to have to…WAIT? Be—Because of you! Because you’re busy next Saturday! Because of stupid boys—”

“Relax, relax.” Jimin rubs his arm, smirking at you. “I will be here bright and early on Sunday if that’s what you want. I swear.”

“Yeah, you better be here when the sun is literally rising! I won’t wait another second.”

Jimin puts a hand to his temple, saluting you. “Yes mam! I promise we will be together when the sun is rising!” He lowers his hand when he finishes the salute and grins at you. “But…” He starts chewing on his lip, “What are we going to do if the two leads don’t get together at the end? We’ve been rooting for them for so long.”

“I swear…if they don’t get together then I give up. Love isn’t real.” You throw your hands up, leaning back on your couch.

“Oh, please.” Jimin chuckles, clicking his phone off after he finished the order. “I know you know love is real.”

“Eh.” Your head relaxes on the cushion, “I question its existence sometimes.” You laugh a bit awkwardly. Jimin’s smile starts to fade as he stares at you.

“Well.” He swallows, “What we shared? What we shared in the past…that was real love…?”

“I mean, was it?” You laugh again, “How real could it have been if you moved on that fast?”

And then there is silence. Silence on both ends. You can’t even hear his breaths and you can’t even hear your heart. You’re realizing what you said, your head snapping in Jimin’s direction, eyeing him over and you aren’t even sure how to describe his expression.

He’s parting his lips, maybe he’s about to say something but you beat him to it.

“S-Sorry! I don’t know why I—I’m s—”

“No, it’s okay.” He shakes his head. “Don’t be sorry. It’s okay…I—”

“No. I-I shouldn’t try throwing that in your…I just…I told you there were no hard feelings so…I wasn’t bitter…I—”

“Mm.” He looks at you, his eyes the softest you’ve seen in a while. “I…I think I would rather have some hard feelings from you.”

You look at him with a confused expression and he smiles awkwardly.

“That sounded weird…I just mean, I would rather hear all of your thoughts and feelings than you trying to bury things.”

“What-What do you want me to say, Jimin?” You return his expression, something soft.

Jimin’s eyes are communicating with you again and this time you understand. But he says it for you as well. “Just say…’You hurt me, Jimin.’”

Your gaze is locked in on him, you are trying to read his eyes, his expression and you see that he’s serious. You know this isn’t just for him but for you. You know he’s right. And that sucks. Burying your feelings on everything and having to admit something that…something that does fucking hurt.

“Jimin.” You gulp, eyes still focused on him. His brows start coming together, waiting patiently for you. “You… hurt me.” You finally say, your words said with nothing but your own vulnerability. “Yeah.” You give a slight nod, feeling a little burning in your throat but you feel the need to say it again. “You hurt me.”

“I know.” He whispers. His ‘I know’ are just enough words for you to get that he understands. He understands you. He understands you’ve been in pain. He understands that despite over five years passing, something as amazing and precious as the love you two shared is something that will leave an impact on you. Something hard to get over quickly and let go. He understands. The pain he has caused…that hurts. He sees how it hurts just by the way your eyes look, they give you away and it is something he finds so amazing about you.

“So,” Jimin speaks softly, “I should take full responsibility, right?”

“How?” You can’t help the small laugh that leaves your mouth.

“How many moments of happiness do you think it would take to make up for the pain I caused?”

“How many?” You chuckle quietly.

“Yes? What do you think? 10? 50? 100?” When you say nothing Jimin’s eyes widen, “1000? A WHOLE MILLION??”

“Jimin…” You laugh a little more. “I—”

“Come on, how many?”

“Hmm.” You stare at him, blinking at him slowly before you smirk. “Maybe a lifetime’s worth?” You tease him and his lips stretch into a wonderful smile.

“A lifetime’s worth?” He questions before growing more serious. “Okay. Deal. I will give that to you.”

“Jimin,” You break eye contact, smiling but shaking your head. “You shouldn’t say things like that.”

“And why not?”

“It makes me happy.” You admit, eyes still roaming around.

“Then I’m off to a good start, right?” He asks and you snort, finally looking at him and he laughs too. You both bask in this small moment before his smile drops and he looks at you more seriously, almost carefully. “y/n…”

“Hm?”

“I’m sorry.” He says, “I really thought…we wouldn’t ever see each other or speak again. It’s…it’s what you wanted.” He pauses, waits for you to respond but he sees you’re waiting for him to continue. “Emma…I did love her. She is…was…she was a good person.” He pauses again, but this time for his own sake. He feels his eyes sting just the slightest and he knows that won’t change for some time. “Ah, sorry.” He blinks back tears that are begging to form. “But um, just because she was a good person…and she was…” His voice cracks, “It doesn’t mean she was good for me.”

You know this isn’t easy. Jimin says it’s easier but easier doesn’t mean easy. He struggles, you can tell. But you can also tell he wants this. He wants to speak about these things openly.

“Together,” He continues, “We were…ah, well, when you have to force so much…for things to even just appear good…well, I didn’t want to see it. I refused to see it for so long. She didn’t see it either though…but I don’t think it’s because she knew and didn’t want to accept it, like me.” He points at himself, “She didn’t see it…because I don’t think she was even looking.” He releases a puff of air as a sorry excuse for a laugh. “But near the end I think she finally saw things. There was love between us. But it’s not the kind of love I had envisioned at the beginning.”

You watch as Jimin takes a breath, swallowing hard at his own admission. Your heart starts breaking in your chest as you watch him get choked up.

“Sorry.” He sighs out, “Admitting that was kind of hard…because…I felt so guilty.” And finally, his first tears start falling. “I felt so guilty after…after the…after everything.”

You reach for his hand and he takes it without a thought.

“I didn’t want anyone to think I didn’t love her…after…” He gets more choked up and you squeeze his hand, stopping yourself from feeling emotional over his heartache.

“Sorry…” He whispers. “I don’t even know what I am trying to explain to you. Maybe it’s more guilt. Guilt for you. For what you saw with me and Emma on opening night…guilty for that because now I can’t even confidently tell you I was in love the way I thought I was going to be.”

“Jimin…” Your brows pinch together, your breaking heart only continuing to crack.

“I think I wish I could tell her I am sorry. So, I won’t hesitate to tell you sorry. You’re here. You’re in front of me. I can tell you. And I will, all the time if I have to. Because I am sorry, y/n. My heart fucking hurts knowing you were in pain because of me. So please…” He cries to you, “Tell me. Really tell me…empty yourself to me…I know how busy your mind gets.” He cracks a smile despite the tears falling. “Don’t hold back. You…you need this.”

You gaze at Jimin in wonder…maybe it’s him who needs this. He needs to hear everything so it can be out in the open and you both can just move past it. Maybe he does need this.

“Okay.” You nod, feeling a bit hesitant. “For so many years…” You begin, “All I knew was who I was with you. You were such a big part of me. You and I…I had never felt more secure as a person than who I was with you.” Your eyes fall to your joined hands. “I wanted you to chase your dreams but…I couldn’t do this without you. This world…life…I didn’t want to be apart from you anymore, I couldn’t.” you whisper that last part out, afraid your voice might crack.

“I get that.” Jimin tells you.

“I loved you so much. I don’t think there is anything in this world I loved more than you.” You smile softly, still staring at your hands. “But…” You feel the sudden rush of emotion hit your body and you want to keep it at bay, you do, but why is it trying to climb over every wall you have put up.

“But?”

“But…” You gulp, your breathing getting heavier as you try to find the words. “But imagine…I…” You have to pause to breath, your eyes burning. “I go to you. Wanting to find you, the l-love of my life. And I find you. But you’re there. With someone who isn’t me.” You keep your eyes on your hands, the view blurry now. “You, who I didn’t know who you were without me. You’re there with someone who isn’t the person I know you with.” You pause before whispering, “Me.”

“y/n…”

You finally lift your eyes, your face scrunching up when you finally blink and several tears run warm on your cheeks. “You…weren’t in love with me anymore. I saw how I didn’t even exist in your mind.” You struggle to continue. “You were someone I couldn’t function without but you…you…”

Jimin feels his heart break for a third time in his life now. Your emotions finally breaking down your walls and spilling free. He sees how your thoughts are being tasted on your tongue for the first time…he sees how you are feeling this like it is five years ago.

“I was so fucking sad, Jimin.” You admit, choking on your own words as more tears fall. “I was—I was so-so fucking sad.” You cry harder, almost silently as each sob breaks you. “You b-broke my heart, Jimin.” You pull your hand away from his, both of your hands balling into fists when you lightly hit his chest with them over and over. “My heart is broken be-because of y-you.”

Jimin stares at you wide eyed even though he expected this. You continue to lightly hit his chest, fists still balled up. He’s not even sure he has anything he can say to you that will help…he knows the only thing that can help is if you release it all. Release your years of pain on him. He can take it. He will take it. Because you’re you. And that’s enough reason.

“I w-wanted to hate you but how could-could I?” You cry, “You didn’t actually do anything wrong. You didn’t but why did it feel like it? Why did it feel like the world was-was against me? I kept thinking for so long that I—I love you, I love you, I love you.” Your words are all broken now, “I kept thinking that even though you hurt me.” You continue banging his chest when he finally grabs your wrists, stopping you. You look at him, expression pained and confused.

Jimin lets go of your wrists, his fingers reaching towards your face before he’s stroking your cheeks and wiping away your tears.

“You know, back then…even now,” He whispers, “And all the time in between. I think you are the most precious person I’ll ever know.”

Your brows come together again, genuine confusion and realization all at once before you’re breaking down all over. Tears and more tears and Jimin pulls you into his chest and hugs you so tightly, so tightly that you think he’s squeezing all the pain from your body. You cry into his chest for longer than you care to admit. Maybe five years’ worth of tears. And he lets you. Because you’re you and there will never be more enough of a reason.

If you weren’t crying so much you might actually laugh. Because of course, after all of this time Jimin still knows you better than you know yourself—it is you who needed this. You’re the one who needed this so badly and Jimin knew. This…this is true freedom. You’re finally freeing yourself from the emotions you’ve buried so deep. You thought you’d die with this on your back but Jimin is here, taking away each burdensome piece with his own hands and you are feeling the weight get lighter and lighter. You might questions love existence but in this moment you know it’s real.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Monday is here again—of course it is. Work always shows up on Monday’s to ruin the weekend you were just enjoying. You sit at your desk, mind on many things. Of course, no surprise that Jimin is one of those things. You two spent all Sunday together as well. It feels lighter, it feels softer, maybe more intimate—in a vulnerable way—and somehow you feel even closer to him than before. It’s good. It’s a good thing. He…he thinks you’re a precious person and you think…well, you think the same of him.

But it’s Monday now, work day winding down and you actually have more on your mind than just Jimin.

“Want to come over today?” Hoseok asks, feeling bored as he doodles on a notepad.

“Uh, can’t.” You purse your lips, “Me and Naomi are busy.” You and Naomi share a look across the office and she smirks.

“Wow, fine. I’ll ask Jer and Jimin. You down dude?” He says, throwing his question over at Jeremy.

“Yeah, I’ll text the group to see what Jimin says.”

The…the group. ‘Ladies want us and men also want us.’ Oh yeah, you think, that thing.

“Taehyung just texted back saying we aren’t allowed to hang out without him.” Hoseok snorts and you follow in his laughter. Classic, Taehyung.

“Oh! y/n!” Hoseok suddenly stands, phone in his hand when he starts walking over to you. “Dae told me she found some photos and videos from dance camp!”

“Fucking nerd.” You say.

“What’s that?”

“Nothing.”

“Anyway, hater, you’re about to see how good your very best friend was at this place, okay?” Hoseok grins at you, clearly excited as he waits on Dae’s message thread. “She said she’s about to send them!”

“Okay, okay, we’re waiting, I guess.”

“My moves were amazing. I hope she has video of our competition and then you can tell me how I obviously should have won.”

“Right, right. Oh the bubbles are up, she’s probably sending them now.” You point at his screen, your eyes on him when you notice his face paling immediately. “What?” You question before you glance back down at his screen but he’s bringing his phone to his chest as quick as he can.

“I hate her. I hate her. I hate her.” He starts mumbling, “She’s…”

“What??” You try grabbing his phone but he steps away as fast as possible. “What is it? What did she send?”

“Trust me.” He shudders, “You do not want to see these pictures and videos.”

“What? Why?”

“Trust me.”

You blink at him repeatedly before it clicks and you express your disgust before laughing and muttering out a few ‘nice, nice’.

“She’s…she’s crazy…” Hoseok mumbles, “Crazy…”

“I bet you’ll look at them later though and you aren’t going to hate her then.” You say, not able to hold in your laughter.

“Shut up!” He chuckles, bringing his phone down before he takes a peak at the screen, “Well…I got to admit…we look good.”

“Ew, you shut up!” You laugh even harder now, “There’s video too?”

“Two.” He shows you with his fingers, “And they’re both several minutes long.”

“Oh my god.” You shake your head, “Enough! Enough! God, I feel like Taehyung right now.”

“Ready to go?” You hear Naomi’s voice cut in, “it’s almost 6. We stayed here way too long, I don’t want to look at another computer screen for the rest of the day.”

“Sure. Let me just wrap it up.” You tell her, saving your files before shutting down your own work space.

“What are you guys doing anyway?” Hoseok questions, eyeing you both suspiciously.

“Yeah, I want to know too.” Jeremy says, walking towards you guys. “Naomi won’t tell me either.”

“It’s just girl time.” You say nonchalantly.

“Mhm.” Hoseok rolls his eyes, “Whatever you say.”

“Alright, let’s go.” You face Naomi after gathering your things. “For girl time.”

“Yes, girl time.” She nods and you both link arms and make your exit.

“Should we follow them?” Jeremy whispers towards Hoseok and he just laughs before the get ready to leave as well.

“It’s almost 9 and still nothing.” Naomi sulks while sitting on her bar stool. “What if they aren’t coming?”

“Well, we knew that was a chance.” You mumble, playing with the drink in front of you.

You and Naomi are at the bar you all came to last Monday…you’re both…well, you’re on a mission. A mission to find that Jin guy. And he was here with his friends last week so maybe…

“I just wish he would magically show up by now.” Naomi tells you, “I’m so curious about everything and he probably has answers.”

“Exactly. I know Hoseok would think we’re weird for this.”

“We probably are…”

“…Probably.”

“But I agree with you,” Naomi brings her drink to her mouth, “It’s worth it if it means we can get some answers about Lucy. She is our friend…despite…”

“Yeah.” You nod. “There’s just so much we don’t actually know. She said so much without even saying anything at all. And call me crazy but I did not think things with Jimin were that deep and I do think she has feelings for Hoseok…but…”

“Yeah. I totally agree. Something’s weird.”

“Anyway, thanks for staking out with me. Operation: TTJ is in full motion but so far we are not successful.”

“…TTJ?”

“Yeah, Talk To Jin.” You tell her and she giggles. “If we can find him and just talk to him maybe he can help…”

You both enjoy another drink, by 10pm you’re losing hope and by 11:30pm you’re calling it a night.

~~~~

It’s Wednesday evening when you’re pulling into the parking lot of Jimin’s apartment, you quite literally just put your car into park when your car alerts you that you’re getting call. You see it is Namjoon and you accept the call, his voice booming on the car speaker.

“Hey.” He sounds happy to be on the phone with you, “I know it’s last minute but want to have dinner together? Or just hang out if you’ve already eaten.”

“Oh.” You bite your bottom lip, looking around. “I’m actually…I actually just go to Jimin’s place. He has his audition tomorrow and he apparently changed something and wants to run it by me.”

“Ah, no worries.” Namjoon tells you, you know he’s probably smiling. “I understand.” But he does sound a little disappointed.

“But hey, what about after? If it isn’t too late? If you still want to see me?”

“You know I won’t say no to that.”

You hang up with Namjoon, and head up to Jimin’s apartment. He greets you with a hug when you arrive at his door. He lets you in and gets straight to business. He shows you his new and approved audition maybe 5 times before you’re teasing him and telling him it’s perfect.

You and Jimin chill for a little while, sitting on his living room floor with some snacks between you both.

“So, Lucy.” You say with your mouth full, chips getting loudly chewed.

“Hm.” Jimin glances at you, smiling when he sees your messy lips with chip crumbs.

“You think you’ll see her tomorrow?” You ask.

“Yeah, I think so.” Jimin confirms, reaching for his own handful of chips. “But she will probably stay in the back and we probably won’t interact.”

“Oh.” You nod slowly. “Okay, so don’t think I am crazy.” You blurt suddenly.

“O…kay?”

“On Monday I went to that karaoke bar with Naomi so we could try to run into that Jin guy that Lucy was friends with so we could ask him about her.” You say really quickly, in one breath.

“You…you what now?” Jimin blinks at you. “Don’t tell me you really…”

“She’s…still my friend, Jimin. She’s obviously…well, I don’t know. If something’s going on with her shouldn’t I try to help her instead of just forget everything? I want to help…if I can.” Jimin sighs after you finish explaining. You’re you, he thinks.

“Anyway, I got to head out. I have plans with Namjoon after this.” You inform Jimin and he nods before he’s smirking.

“Are you going to go all the way tonight?” He teases.

“Huh?”

“Last time you said it wasn’t all the—”

“Okay! Shut up!” You reach forward and cover his mouth with your hand and he starts laughing, “Stop!” You whine but he doesn’t.

“Three times?!” Naomi basically yells out despite this being hush hush. “Three times?! In a row?!”

“I whispered that for a reason.” You deadpan.

Hoseok and Jeremy glance up and both look at you knowingly.

“Is this about what I think this is about?!” Hoseok’s eyes expand when he sees how flustered you look. “It IS!”

“Wow, finally.” Jeremy claps.

You were just catching Naomi up on last night—your little hang out with Namjoon. He made you come three times, just from fingering and eating you out. Still no sex. But you did go down on him this time too!

“I’m glad you finally found a man who can make you, how to say…curls your toes and shit.” Hoseok says, glancing at you before winking. “But is he making your heart have orgasms too?”

“Ew, why would you word it like that?!”

“Come on, you know what I mean!” He teases you. “How are things like, you know. Is your heart also…uh, gripping the sheets and shit?”

“Hoseok.” You wave him off, “Please stop.” You can’t help but laugh even though you know he is serious.

“Oh!” You look at your phone. “Jimin says his audition went really well!”

Jimin 3:04pm

Yeah it went really well! Its thanks to you though…I just pictured you in a seat in the auditorium and idk I just knew I could do it confidently. Hmm I hope you think about me like that too…anything in your life I am sitting there in the audience and you know you can do whatever. Anyway thanks again y/n ☺️

“Heh,” Hoseok looks at you as you read whatever is on your phone, eyes lighting up and smile spreading across your face. Something warm and fuzzy about you. “Well, that’s a heart orgasm if I ever saw one.”

It’s Friday and you’re happy the weekend is back, baby. You just got home not too long ago, relaxing on your couch with music playing in the background while you scroll on your phone.

Jimin 5:22pm

Taehyung just got here and he’s already pouring shots…pls hELP

y/n 5:31pm

cheers 😜

Jimin 5:32pm

Come over?

y/n 5:32om

I thought it was boys only or whatever

Jimin 5:35pm

That’s tmrw!

y/n 5:40pm

fine ill come for a bit

When you get to Jimin’s place, Taehyung wastes no time in scooping you up and hugging you until you can’t breathe. He also wastes no time in telling you how much he missed you guys and how life is so much better with you both in it. He also wastes no time in telling you although he loves you dearly, he does not want to even see your name pop up anywhere tomorrow because you’re apparently banned for boys day/night.

“I’m…I’m banned?” You sit across from the boys.

“Yes.” Taehyung states simply. “You’re an unavailable girl so therefore you are nothing to us tomorrow.”

“Wow…” You say with a straight face. “I’ll pretend you didn’t go there. Anyway, what’s the plan anyway? What are you guys even doing?”

“I don’t know.” Jimin shrugs. “They discussed it in the group chat but—“

“Don’t worry. I know every detail.” Taehyung jumps in proudly, “First, we enjoy boys day. Or should I say men’s day.” He grins, wiggling his brows. “We are going to go out and do manly things.”

“Man…manly things?” You ask, trying your best to keep a straight face.

“Hell yeah.” Taehyung nods, “Day time is the manly stuff. I’m talking about axe throwing, rock climbing, working out, becoming one with nature. Yeah, you heard that right. We’re going to go day time camping.”

“Day time…what?”

“Yeah, we’re going to camp during the day. Manly shit.”

“How is that…?”

“Catch lunch with our bare hands! Drink from the river!” Taehyung exclaims excitedly, you glance at Jimin who just shrugs. “Push ups in the middle of the woods! We might even fight each other, like fist fight. Because we’re men.”

“Why though…?” You say, still struggling to keep a straight face because dear lord, Taehyung is serious.

“We got to like, do some testosterone building, you know? So, when we go out for boys night, ladies will literally see the testosterone leaking from our bodies and want to like, mate with us.”

“What the fuck…how…” You cover your mouth, knowing you can’t hold in your laughter any longer.

“Yeah, yeah. Laugh now but this is real!” Taehyung defends, “Anyway I also got us matching shirts for boys day.”

Now you really can’t hold it in, “Matching shirts?”

“He’s serious.” Jimin tells you, his eyes begging you to feel bad for him.

“Of course I am serious. You guys know I don’t joke around when it comes to shirts I make.”

“Wow.” You nod, “Okay, well, have fun tomorrow I guess.”

“Oh, we will! But damn this soup really went through me…bathroom break…might take a while but please don’t talk about anything interesting without me.” Taehyung stands from the floor and heads to the bathroom.

“So what are your plans tomorrow?” Jimin asks you, “Anything as cool as what my day is apparently going to be?”

“Afraid it might not beat testosterone building,” You joke, laughing. “But I’m hanging out with Naomi during the day and Namjoon in the night.”

“Ah, cool.” Jimin smiles. “Oh by the way, Taehyung wasn’t joking. You really are banned tomorrow so I apologize in advance when you don’t hear from me.”

“Yeah, yeah.” You wave him off, “Have fun.”

àJimin and the boys in the middle of the woodsß

It’s Saturday and Jimin has never seen Taehyung look more excited.

“Okay, men. Are we ready for this day? Are we ready to become the most manliest versions of ourselves for boys day? And don’t even get me started on boys night out! This is just the beginning! Let’s set up this tent like men! Let’s open this bottle of rum and drink…like men!”

“Boys day! Boys day!” Jeremy starts chanting, Taehyung quickly joins and Jimin and Hoseok laugh but end up chanting as well.

“BOYS DAY! BOYS DAY! BOYS DAY!”

*you and Naomi back at your place *

“I wonder what the guys are doing?” You wonder out loud, you and Naomi sitting at your kitchen island, eating some lunch. “It’s probably something ridiculous. They’re probably googling manly things to do…I bet they’re trying to catch fish right now with just their hands.”

“They’re probably setting traps around the woods to catch a bear.” Naomi laughs as she adds in her own ridiculous scenario.

*The guys inside the tent they just built*

Taehyung passes the bottle to Jimin, wrapping his blanket tighter around him, “Maybe it started when my parents were always fighting,”

“Yeah, it was bad back then.” Jimin agrees, chugging back some rum.

“Dude I feel that. My parents got divorced when I was 15 and that shit hurts, you know?” Jeremy reaches for the bottle from Jimin. “Like, that stuff has an effect! How we view love and shit.”

*You and Naomi on your sofa*

“Look at this meme!” Naomi giggles, passing you her phone. “By the way, what do you think the guys are up to now?”

“Axe throwing, for sure.” You respond.

*the guys in their tent*

“I don’t know, maybe it’s me? Maybe I’m the one with commitment issues?” Hoseok mumbles, passing Taehyung the bottle.

“Nah bro.” Jeremy slurs, “You just know what you want and what you’re looking for.”

“Exactly!” Taehyung nods.

*You and Naomi *

“This show is boring. We’ve watched like 5 episodes and nothings happened. By the way, what do you think? Guys are probably doing pushups or some shit right now.” You chuckle, and Naomi agrees.

“Yeah, building their testosterone or whatever.” She cackles.

*the boys in their tent *

“I just don’t get it.” Jeremy sniffles. “I am so romantic! Don’t girls like that?!”

“Bro…the right girl will.” Taehyung tells Jeremy and Jimin and Hoseok nod their heads encouragingly with thumbs up.

“The right girl dude…” Hoseok slurs, “She will be lucky to read your weird poems and shit.”

“Yeah bro.” Jimin nods, “The right one is out there.”

“You’re so right.” Jeremy sniffles again.

*You and Naomi *

“What about now? Arm wrestling?”

“For sure.”

*The boys in their tent*

“Bro…I’m just ready to find the one, you know?” Hoseok grips the bottle of rum, “Isn’t she out there??”

“She’s out there man. Someone as…” Jeremy stops to hiccup. “…As amazing as you will find a girl who is perfect for you.”

“And maybe you’ve even met her!” Taehyung cheers with a grin, “You never know!”

“True, like maybe you met her at a dance camp or something.” Jimin slurs with his own grin.

“A dance? Camp?” Hoseok tilts his head in genuine confusion. Then it hits him and Taehyung at the same time when they both start shouting how wrong Jimin is.

“You’re crazy!”

“Yeah right!”

*You and Naomi*

“Maybe they’re climbing rocks now or whatever.”

“Very possible.”

*The boys in their tent*

“You guys are my brothers! My fucking brothers!” Taehyung cries out. All the boys start nodding along, their own tears in their eyes.

“Brothers for life!” Jeremy shouts, snot running down his nose.

*You and Naomi*

“It’s like what after 5 now? What do you think they’re doing?” You ask Naomi as you two decide on something for dinner. “You think they’re fist fighting?”

“That would build their testosterone levels for sure.”

*The boys in their tent *

“Guys…” Taehyung’s glossy eyes finds his friends eyes. He grabs the bottle of rum to take a swig when he sees it’s empty. Throwing it to the side, he forgets about it completely. “I just..” He slurs, “I just had this thought…”

“What?” Jimin asks, intrigued, “Tell us.” “What if…in this world…” Taehyung pauses, his hand going over his heart. “What if I’m the one I should love?”

“Bro….” Hoseok puts a hand over his mouth, “That’s fucking beautiful.”

“…bro.” Jeremy clutches his own heart.

“I love that, dude.” Jimin nods, tears in his eyes as he smiles. “You should love…you.”

“I do…I think the one I’ll love is…me…” Taehyung nods, but then he pauses. “I still want some pussy though.”

“Oh yeah, for sure.” The rest of the guys agree quickly.

*You and Naomi *

“It’s almost 6:30 what do you think they’re doing?” You ask Naomi as you munch on your dinner.

“Something manly obviously.”

* The boys in their tent *

All four guys are passed the fuck out, snoring loudly and all cuddled up together.

It’s around 7 when Naomi leaves and you decide to get ready to head over to Namjoon’s. When you get there he hugs you and kisses you and cuddles with you in his bed as you two watch a movie on his laptop. It’s nice, it really is. Maybe tonight…you know.

It’s almost 9 when you can’t help but wonder what the guys are up to…you’re wondering if boys night outhas started yet.

“Oh shit…” Taehyung grumbles, groggily reaching for his phone when he sees the time. “Guys!” He quickly sits up. “Wake up!”

The rest of the guys start waking up one by one, eyes barely opening as they try to sit up as well.

“What?” Jimin sighs out, rubbing his eyes.

“It’s like 9.” Taehyung informs them, “We got to go! We need to go to Hoseok’s place and get ready for the night!”

“Why is it always my place…” Hoseok mumbles sleepily.

“Men.” Taehyung says, voice way more serious. Catching everyone’s attention. “Boys night is about to commence…”

“It’s true…” Jeremy starts getting up as well. “Remember guys…my brothers…” He glances around the tent. “We are hot, we are sexy, we are cool, we are smart, we are special, damnit. Any girl would be lucky to have us!”

“Yeah!” Hoseok starts nodding, getting into the zone. “Hell yeah!”

“That’s the spirit!” Taehyung shakes all the guys hands, “Remember my brothers, ladies want us and men—”

“ALSO WANT US!” they all scream out.

“Boys night…boys night! Boys night!” Jeremy starts chanting and the boys start joining in, their voice getting louder and louder. “BOYS NIGHT! BOYS NIGHT! BOYS NIGHT!”

You and Namjoon are relaxing in his bed, it’s got to be nearing 1am by now. Also, by relaxing you definitely mean making out. His hands are roaming your body so freely, he’s enjoying getting familiar with you and you have to say, you are also enjoying it.

Your own hands start exploring the expanse of his chest before they’re sliding down and you’re about to reach for his dick, you really are but your phone starts going off. You’re just going to check who it is and ignore it, obviously.

“Hold on.” You pull away from Namjoon, turning to face the other side of the bed where your phone is when you see Jimin’s name across you screen. “It’s Jimin.” You say out loud and Namjoon just goes “…Okay?”

“Sorry,” You take the phone, “I should answer it. He’s actually banned from me today so it might be impor—”

“Banned?”

“…Nothing, never mind, I’ll explain after.” You chuckle. “Just give me one second, please.” You say before leaning in and kissing him.

When you lean away from him, you answer Jimin’s call, bringing the phone to your ear.

“Hello? Jimin?”

“Hi.” He drags the word out for way too many seconds. He’s drunk.

“Hi.” You say, “Is everything okay?”

“You need to come to Diablos.” Jimin tells you, “That-that guy.”

“Huh? Diablos? You guys ended up at Diablos? …was it Hoseok’s idea?”

“What? Well, yeah. He said there was a deal—”

“Of course he did.” You snort. “Anyway, why?”

“That guy.” Jimin slurs, “The guy from karaoke bar…he’s here.”

“Wait, Jin?”

“That’s the one!”

“He’s there? At Diablos?”

“Yeah, come here.”

“I thought you—”

“It’s important to you.” Jimin tells you, “Because of your friend or whatever. Anyway, don’t tell the guys I called you.” He starts giggling. “Hurry though. Bye, bye.” And then he hangs up.

“Everything okay?” Namjoon asks. “Jimin’s okay?”

“Huh? Oh, yeah. No, he’s fine. He’s fine.” You lower your phone, bad habit of chewing on your lips starting up. “I uh, I need to go…”

“Go? It’s almost one in the morning—”

“There’s someone there I need to talk to. It’s about the Lucy thing.” You give him a short explanation. “Sorry, I’ll call you later. I’ll explain more later!”

When you get to Diablos, it is everything you feared it would be on a Saturday night. You’re barely able to walk through thanks to how crowded it is. The aroma of drunk, drunk party goes fills the air. You weave through the crowd, trying to find any familiar face at this point. And then you find one you are so happy to see. Your best friend.

“y/n???” Hoseok slurs your name, his eyes wide like he can’t really believe he is seeing you. And then you see Taehyung who is looking at you with wide eyes as well before he’s pointing at you.

“No!” He shouts dramatically. “It’s boys night!!!!!” suddenly Jeremy appears and he’s shouting about boys night as well.

“Relax.” You roll your eyes, “Where’s Jimin?”

“Jimin?” Taehyung questions. “Wait…are you and Jimin going to…?” He wiggles his brows and you swat his chest.

“No! So, where is he?” You ask again.

“Uh,” Taehyung’s eyes go around the place until he spots Jimin. “Over there.” He points behind you and you turn to look.

He’s drunk. Jimin, that is. He’s so drunk, you can tell. His cheeks and nose so rosy from the alcohol. He’s laughing so hard at something this girl said to him, her body leaning into his and he’s laughs.

“Oh.” You say.

“She’s hot, right?” Hoseok grins. “She had been eyeing Jimin all night and she finally talked to him!”

“As long as one of us gets some tonight.” Jeremy says, “That’s what matters.”

The three boys connect their fists in solidarity and you just look at them, not really understanding what the hell is going on.

“True brotherhood.” Taehyung says.

“What the fuck is happening…” You blink at them before you turn your attention back to Jimin.

“Nothing you’d understand.” Hoseok mumbles and the other boys start shaking his hand in agreeance.

You watch Jimin for a moment, his eyes leaving the girl to look around the bar when he sees you. His drunken smile grows so wide you think he might break his face. He quickly says some parting words to the girl before he’s coming to you. When he gets closer, his arms are already reaching for you and when he’s just close enough he is bringing you in for a hug so tight.

“Hi.” He tells you, his face falling into the crook of your neck. “You’re here.”

“I’m here and you’re drunk.”

“So drunk.” He leans away, nodding his head with a crooked smile. “There’s kind of two of you and this is quickly becoming my dream threesome.” He slurs out and your eyes almost pop out of your head.

“Oh my god. So drunk, so drunk.” You chant under your breath. “Anyway, where’s Jin?”

“Jin?” Jimin tilts his head innocently before he remembers. “Oh! The guy. He left already, like just recently.”

“What?” You slump your shoulders. “Seriously?”

“Don’t frown, pretty girl.” Jimin reaches for your lips, his fingers trying their best to quite literally turn your frown upside down. “I got his number for you before he left.”

“Wait, what?! Really!” You jump excitedly. “You got his number for me?”

“What?” Hoseok joins your conversation. “y/n, you got a guys number?”

“y/n got a guys number!” Taehyung starts cheering.

“Nice!” Jeremy cheers as well, “One of us! One of us! One of us!”

“Anyway, I think that’s my cue to go home.” You give a small bow.

“What?! No!” Jimin wraps his arms around you, hugging you close to him. “Don’t leave.”

“Yeah! Let’s call Naomi too!” Jeremy sings. “How much you guys want to bet she’s going to send me to voicemail because it’s so late?” He smiles, taking out his phone and giving Naomi a call. And he’s right. It goes to voicemail after two rings. “Wow, I know her well.” Jeremy smiles at his screen fondly.

“Let’s sit.” Jimin slurs, still hugging you to him and you roll your eyes, giving in right away.

When you guys find a spot at a random table, Jimin passes you Jin’s number and you send a text to him right away. You wonder if he’ll reply tonight or tomorrow…or even at all. Jimin keeps you company while the other guys mingle on the dance floor.

“You know,” You turn to face Jimin who is already gazing at you. “You can go and chat with that girl. She’s pretty.”

Jimin eyes trail across the crowd when he spots the girl from earlier and he nods. “Yeah, she is pretty.”

“Then go.”

“But I don’t feel anything.” He hiccups.

“Who’s asking you guys to fall in love?” You snort, “I thought tonight was about hooking up?”

Jimin laughs at your response, “Well, who knows.” He shrugs, eyes on you again and he smiles that smile you know. The smile that could charm just about anyone.

It’s around 4 am when you guys are making your way inside Hoseok’s house…you’re walking in just fine but the guys are stumbling and struggling. You imagine they are going to regret this much drinking when they struggle to wake up tomorrow. You drove them in your car and you had to tell Jeremy around 8 times to not throw up.

“Is it just me…but was today the best day….mmmhmfnnf,,…bnest…best day…our…of our…lives.” Hoseok says…tries to say, at least.

“Bro.” Taehyung puts an arm around Hoseok’s shoulder. “Bro.” He repeats. You realize that’s all he is currently capable of saying.

“y/n…?” Hoseok squints at you, as if realizing you are here for the first time tonight. His eyes immediately begin to water as he points at you. “My-My best….my best….” Now he’s just full on crying. “I love you so much!!!!!”

Jeremy notices what’s happening and starts crying as well, “I love all of you!!! You’re my family!!! I love all of you!!!!!!”

“And I…” Taehyung points to himself, his own tears bubbling over. “And I love myself!”

You glance around, not really sure what to do…is this a real, sincere moment…? You look at Jimin and even he is tearing up before he starts chanting…and now all the boys are.

“BOYS NIGHT! BOYS NIGHT! BOYS NIGHT!”

The guys do some weird group hug while you just watch from the sidelines…well, this night just keeps on surprising you, you think. Taehyung, Jeremy and Hoseok disappear into the rooms one by one while you and Jimin chill in the kitchen while you force him to drink some water.

After an hour of hanging in the kitchen and he’s drank quite a bit of water, you tell him he should get some sleep but he only smiles at you, his soft lips looking so full and pretty.

“Let’s go to the backyard.” He tells you, his hand finding yours when he tries to lead you out.

“It’s after 5am Jimin.” You chuckle, “Let’s sleep.”

“Mm, no.” He sings, “Let’s see the moon. You said it was pretty like me.”

Your cheeks go warm at his comment and you try to look annoyed with an eye roll but Jimin sees right through you. You like his comments.

You give in, following him out to the backyard, sitting on the concrete pavement, your bodies as close as close gets—you blame it on being chilly.

Jimin snuggles closer to you and you let him. He’s warm and there’s nothing in your mind telling you this is wrong. There’s nothing saying that having Jimin close to you is bad. No alarms are being set off.

“It’s because you’re warm.” Jimin tells you, less slur to his words. “So I have to sit close.”

“That was my excuse too.” You laugh, swaying into his body. “Warmth.”

“You mean reason.” He teases you.

You guys sit in comfortable silence for a while…eyes on the sky and it’s nice to see how the colors begin to change. A radiant black sky to a soft dark blue. Birds are starting to chirp and the dark blue starts to change as well…the sun beginning to make it’s day debut.

“Didn’t I promise you that we would be together for the sunrise?” Jimin sways into you, whispering his words slowly before you snort.

“Well, I didn’t expect it to happen like this.” You say.

“Still, I keep my promises to you.” He says, lifting a finger and bopping your nose. “Does it make you feel special?”

“Should it?” You tease and he smiles at you, as tender as you’ve seen.

“Mm.” Jimin hums. “I always want you to feel special.”

“Did you have fun today?” You change the subject.

“Yeah.” Jimin nods, eyes on the sky. “Taehyung is amazing. I feel lucky to have him. I wish I didn’t…I didn’t ignore him for so long.”

“He is.” You agree. “Any particular reason though?”

“Yeah.” Jimin starts squinting at the sky when the sun really starts peaking over. “To be honest…today—well, technically yesterday. April 16. It was Emma’s birthday.”

“O-Oh—“

“I think Taehyung was worried I would think too much about it and get sad or something.” Jimin laughs quietly. “So he planned a trip here this weekend…created this whole…” Jimin starts gesturing with his hands, “Well, it was a good day.”

“He is amazing…but wait, if he just wanted you to have a good day then what’s up with the whole ‘single guy’ thing and him wanting to get laid??”

“Well,” Jimin turns to you, straight face. “He’s only human after all.”

“Ah.” You nod. “No one’s perfect.”

“Anyway,” Jimin chuckles, “It was a good day and I’m okay.” He says, eyes going back to the sky. “And now the sun is rising and it’s a new day. And you’re next to me.”

You gaze at Jimin’s side profile and you feel an overwhelming…something…feeling, whatever. It’s overwhelming. Just looking at him and you feel yourself feel so unbelievably soft. So soft for him. So soft you’re basically something that is just melting because you’re next to him. You’ll use his warmth as an excuse again.

“Having you next to me on a new day, I like that.” He says, still staring at the sky.

You continue to gaze, your eyes getting a little glossed over before you clear your throat, your own eyes going to the sky. “Of course I’m next to you.” You breathe out, “You promised we would be watching the sunrise together.”

“Yeah.” Jimin’s lips curve into a soft smile, he glances at you for a moment and there is a feeling he’s remembering. Something deep within him, something familiar. His smile starts to drop and then he looks away. What a dangerous time to recall this feeling. What a dangerous thought to have, Jimin thinks.

Suddenly your phone buzzes, catching your attention. You pull it out to see a text.

Jin Lucy friend 6:56am

Sure, we can meet.

You stuff the phone back in your pocket and look at the sky again. There’s so many things you don’t know right now. And hopefully you’ll know them soon. Jin wants to meet and that’s a start. You turn your head to face Jimin and you see how he’s concentrating on the sky. The dawn that you are experiencing isn’t just about the sky. Maybe it is about much more. Jimin turns his head to face you as well, your eyes meeting and neither of you look away. Moments after moments, eyes that can communicate. You aren’t sure but maybe here…between you two…there is also a new dawn. Ha, what a dangerous thought to have, you think.

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wingedcatgirl · 3 months

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ai content farms on youtube can only succeed because of viewers. they're not watching because it's good, they're watching it because it's there.

a lot of people's first reaction to that might be "ugh, those lowest-common-denominator enjoyers, not like me, someone who enjoys good content" but... well, that's just the thing. a lot of people feel like that. a majority, even. but then who are we actually complaining about? it's the lowest common denominator, not the shittiest boring denominator.

i think probably most people are fine with content-mill stuff by default, and only start caring about quality when it's a medium and/or subject they actually have passion for. and everyone has passion for something! that's why none of us think of ourself as lowest-common-denominator enjoyers - because we can all think of some form of art we actually care about

but because most people are okay with content-mill stuff by default, there will always be an audience for it. and because there will always be an audience, it's going to keep being produced and promoted by the various algorithms, and that raises the question: how do we, when we step away from default and want something real... reliably find it in the sea of grist?

the thought that sparked this post was "i think people should get in the habit of recommending creators and works they enjoy more often, especially smaller creators". which is great advice for once you've already found the thing. but how do you find it in the first place? you can rely on recommendations from real people, but that just kicks the can down the road - how do we expect them to have found it so that you can follow their recommendation?

... i was hoping for my rambling to lead me to a conclusion, somehow, but nope. i've got nothing rn. maybe it'll come to me in a dream someday.

#words from me a kity #i mean to some extent the answer is 'we already live in a society and most people already have things they like'

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myckicade · 10 months

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*deep, heavy breathing*

TAAAAAAAAAZAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!

*screeching, squeeing, and panting*

OMFG, I didn't think we'd get that!! AT ALL!!!!!! Not a return, and certainly not him talking to Bishop, and EXTRA-CERTAINLY not them talking about making it PERMANENT?!?!?

Now, I just have to worry about LOSING THE BASTARD, AGAIN.

Sorry. I love Taza. Y'all know that.

*ahems* ANYWHO.

DO I HAVE TO BE RIGHT ABOUT SO MANY THINGS?! I fucking KNEW that it would be Bottles that would come up on the destruction of the Broken Saints. UGH. If his Amigo-... 😢🤧

Nope. Can't think about it. I just can't.

I'm also having trouble with the Hope fiasco. This has all, in a certain fashion, been for nothing for Letty, and that makes me very sad. This is just... Wow. That may have been the shittiest part of the whole episode.

Well, that, and, YOU EXPECT ME TO BELIEVE CREEPER NEVER TOLD ANYBODY HE WAS OOPSIE-BANGING A COP?! WHAT DID THEY THINK HE WENT AWAY FOR?! FREE COVER-ALLS AND SOME MALE BONDING?!

*ahems, anew*

Jeez, Guero's not too bright a motherfucker, is he? He was rather endearing through his scenes, especially in the van with Bottles, but he's... Well. Let's just say that his youth was showing. 🤣.

I was Sofia would have just had out with it, by the way. Seriously. EZ's plenty dumb a motherfucker, too. Just, nowhere near as endearing as anyone else.

Also, GOOD ON MARCUS. Y'know, I often find myself yelling at characters, "Don't do it, dude! You're a young man!" Tonight, I instead found myself yelling, "Don't do it, Marcus!! You're NOT a young man!!" I hope he's out. I hope he's out, and safe, and away from all this shit for GOOD.

I also have a new pet unicorn flying in from the Virgin Islands at eleven. Stay tuned for further updates.

Ugh. UGH.

Oh, yeah. As much as I like Felipe, I'm glad Miguel got to say his peace. He's clearly covering for what he seems to know he missed out on, but I feel that cover is quite genuine. Sure, he's trying to hurt Felipe, but I think it comes from a place of his own hurt, and that's completely understandable.

I know a thing or two about family dysfunction, a'ight?

Speaking of. Poor Angel. CAN I GET A GROUP HUG FOR ANGEL??

As long as he doesn't end up with Letty. I give the fuck up on them ALL, it comes to that.

Until next week, y'all!

- MC

P.S. Hey!! EZ was finally honest, for once!!

And, because I almost forgot...

Fuck you, EZ. 🖕🖕

#Mayans #Mayans MC #Mayans M.C.#Mayans M.C. Spoilers #Mayans MC Spoilers #Mayans Spoilers

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s1mpa1 · 1 year

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I just wanna talk about Anime!

1. Naruto

After watching Naruto, Naruto Shippuden, and episodes here and there of Baruto, I just wanted to express my feelings towards this anime.

Some things to note before I start :

Opinions vary for everyone. When it comes to Anime, I feel like many are already drawing out their weapons, the moment someone says “Well I think ( insert any anime) is…” So please! Let’s be respectful! Let’s not be rude! Sharing your personal opinion and thoughts is perfectly fine, but let’s not insult others for their opinions, if they differ from ours!

I might curse a bit here and there. If you’re uncomfortable with that…uh…just imagine hearing a loud BEEEP, whenever you read it.

I finished watching all of the Naruto series! So! SPOILERS! WILL! BE! AHEAD!

What was Naruto to me before?

So, I’ve been watching anime since 2006. And even if Naruto never caught my interest at the time, I still knew about the Ninja Anime. Naruto in the Anime community, was and still is, very much considered an Anime classic. And little me at the time, was like “Eh. Sure”. I respected it, but never really bothered to look too much into it. One of the main reasons I had no interest in Naruto, was because of like…three reasons.

I was DEEP into Shojo Anime/ Manga. If it didn’t look cute and girly, I wouldn’t watch it. ( Ugh, I know! I’m sorry, and I have changed my ways! I’ve grown up! (T＿T) )

“ Why watch this long anime…when I can watch over 5 others? ” To younger me, it was about watching the most anime. Quantity is what mattered! Not stay stuck with just one, for what felt like decades.

The more I was told “ OMG! You should watch Naruto! ” the more I was set on NOT watching it. ( Idk what’s wrong with me（・□・；） )

So what changed my mind?

This might sound cliche, to the point where you will roll your eyes all the way to Asia, but the answer to that is…

✨ Friendship ✨

A bestie of mine just started to one day tell me, and tell me, and tell me, and tell me, and tell me about Naruto. Until I finally texted her :

Me :

Since I have nothing better to do, on Tuesday, I…GUESS I can watch some episodes with you.

Friend

AJAJDHXJSNDJJDJDNSS bet.

And that was the beginning of…a long…LONG journey.

So what happened? How did I go from “ I’m just gonna watch some episodes TODAY. See what the hype is all about. ” to “It’s New Years, and I’m about to finish Naruto…idk how to feel about this. I don’t want it to end…”

I’ll tell you what happened!

The world of the Ninjas

From the cool hand signs, to the many types of clans, I found myself amazed ( and a little slow to process it all ) by all of the depth that this world has. I really found the hand signs fun, and can see why so many Naruto Fans know them by heart. ( It’s so cool!!!! ) I really like the design of Konoha, and while 99% of the population were a bunch of ASSHOLES to little Naruto, Konoha is still cool.

Once we were introduced to the other villages, I’m gonna be honest, I really like The Land Of Lightning. The village hidden in the clouds, is SO cool to me! I love it!

Look at it! It looks like a cool blue spinning top!

….

But we also know why we stay for an Anime. And that’s it’s characters. Let’s get to the good stuff, okay? (ﾉ≧∀≦)ﾉ

Characters that made me stay

*coughcoughfavoritecharacterscoughcough* top 3.

- Kakashi Hatake -

Okay, okay. Let’s just get it out of the way here, guys.

Kakashi is hot.

Yeah. Yeah, you heard me. You’re probably rolling your eyes, or saying “of course” either in your head, or out loud. But it’s true, and now that I’ve said it, let’s move on. I’ll fangirl about him another day.

He’s proof that you could have the shittiest life, been in the darkest place within yourself, and still grow to be a good person. Because that’s what he did. He was so broken, and empty. Yet he managed to find meaning to life. Showing and teaching others on how to improve themselves. He became the Sensei of some of the strongest ninjas of the Leaf Village.

Okay but seriously. The man lost his dad to suicide, and his mom is gone…idk what happened to his mom. Does anyone know? He lost his friends. Obito died in front of his eyes, causing some major trauma. Karin died by his own hands ( even though he had no fault on that ) but yet, guess what? MORE TRAUMA! He then lost his Sensei, and himself. His past was just so sad…and then he had to fight Obito after thinking he was deeeaad!?😭

He was not only a Sensei to Team 7. He was a FATHER figure, and no one can change my mind. While he could have checked up on Naruto before ( knowing that Naruto is Minato’s son, and that everyone in the village hated Naruto with a PASSION ) , he soon took it upon himself to care for Naruto. Bringing him vegetables, feeding him when he was hurt, teaching him about himself, and what it is to be a Ninja. Teaching him life lessons, and how to overcome them. He also believed in Naruto’s dream of becoming Hokage. Believed in HIM. With Sakura, while I didn’t see that much, cause Tsunade later on took Sakura under her wing, I know he cared for her too. He was there to comfort her, whenever Naruto and Sasuke had another one of their fights. He was thankful that at-least she wasn’t the one causing trouble. When it comes to Sasuke, I’ve seen some comments here and there, that Sasuke was Kakashi’s favorite student, but I honestly don’t really agree. Sasuke is clearly a student ahead of everyone else. He can’t be taught like the others! It’s just the truth. And who else would teach Sasuke about his Sharingan, if his whole clan was wiped out??? At least Kakashi had ONE! Surely he could teach him something! He was the only one!

- Rock Lee -

Surprise? Not surprise? At first I didn’t think people liked Lee, but my friend told me that he’s actually a quite popular character. That made me very happy!💚 (*＾ワ＾*)

Apparently, and correct me if I’m wrong, but apparently Lee was designed to symbolize human strength. And there is so much in that. Lee is a Ninja that cannot do Ninjutsu, nor Genjutsu. The only thing he can do, is Taijutsu. And boy, does he hold on to that. I am a SUCKER, for characters like him. The whole “I may not have what everyone else has, but I can still prove myself”. It makes him feel more human, and for me (personally) more relatable. Knowing that you lack, compared to everyone else, and holding on to what you’re somewhat good at. Going above and beyond to continue to keep that special to you, and working nonstop to be the best at it, cause that’s the only thing you think you have a grasp on- ugh! I’ll stop before I start crying. I just relate to that, and find him a very inspirational character. I love him, he’s like my son.

I also like his rivalries were mainly healthy. He never really hated on his rivals. In fact, he was friends with all of them! With Naruto? They comrades. With Neji? Sure, their relationship was a bit bumpy at first, but they eventually came to respect each other, as they grew up. Shira? They became BFFLS! Had me in tears! 😭 And don’t even get me started with Gaara! Even after all…THAT ( amazing fight by the way ) the two ended up being the best of friends! Like- would you be friends with the person who not only broke your arm and leg, but had you go through a risky operation, having you question your existence, and tried to kill you when you were asleep? Naaaaah! Nah! Lee is an Angel!

Oh! I also watched the Lee Spin Off series! Pure. Perfection. Highly recommend. My favorite parts, are when we get to see Lee just create random scenarios, and drags everyone around him into them. 😂

- Obito Uchiha -

Guys.

This boy…

My god.

There was no rest for him, ever since he was born.

I like to have this thought that everyone has their Uchiha. Many choose Sasuke, Itachi, Madara, Shisui, etc. For me, it’s him. Obito Uchiha. I find it hilarious, and again- SPOILER ALERT that when we were introduced to TOBI, I loved him so much. When he said he was “Madara” I was in disbelief, but very much enjoying the supposed twist. But then- surprise! It’s Obito! I was having the time of my life. I was an Obito fan, without even knowing it. He’s my favorite Uchiha, even though…yeah…yeah he did a bit of big oopsies.

I enjoyed seeing who he was, before life decided to be a bitch to him. Helping the elderly, his rivalry with Kakashi, his wish of also being Hokage, and being a bit of a softie (which I found endearing ). He lost all of himself, and like many comments I’ve seen “He was the Naruto that gave up”. And I see that. And it saddens me every time. To see that man, if Naruto would have given up…this could have been him. When Obito was ready to die, I was actually understanding of it. Unlike prior deaths in Naruto, with Obito’s death, I…accepted it. I understood why he preferred to die. He did too much harm, that he couldn’t possibly see himself being anywhere. He was going to die, while bringing the others back to life. But…that didn’t end up happening, and he was given some more time. Just seeing the contrast of who he was before, and who he currently was, was very bitter. Him pushing his old self away, and just being blinded by so much hatred and sadness.

Man, I just really his character. I like what he represents, and how without knowing, he in some way, influenced Kakashi, and Naruto. I also really like his design with the goggles, and all. So cute! (*＾ワ＾*)

The Fights That Had Me SCREAMING

They’re Ninjas! Of course they’re gonna fight! Good action, good execution, good choreography- Naruto Fights are one of a kind, and I always found myself at the edge of my seat with them.

Rock Lee Versus Gaara of the Sand.

THE LEE VERSUS GAARA FIGHT. Okay okay I won’t comment much about this fight-just go watch it. PLEASE! No amount of words can describe this fight! Not only do we see Lee UNLEASHED, but the animation, the music, the moves, EVERYTHING. It’s so iconic, and at the time, I bet it had the world in awe. My boi Leeeee!!!😭

Obito Uchiha Versus Kakashi Hatake

This frikin fight hurt me guys. While it’s so badass, and nicely animated, the addition of the past them and present them fighting HIT. HARD. Again, that moment when Obito pushes his old self back, is so painful to watch. It has my heart shattering into pieces every time I see it. There’s this part, that I’m obsessed with.

THIS! Idk why! I just find myself repeating that part, over and over. Is it just me!?

Madara Uchiha Versus The Shinobi Alliance

Yeah, Yeah this isn’t surprising…BUT YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND WHY! YOU MUST! All that hype that Madara kept getting, was about to be proved with this moment! And MY GOD!!!! The tension, the raw screaming of the Ninjas running towards him, knowing of who he was. And Madara just nonchalantly killing everyone he laid his eyes on! Did you see his eyes!? The immediate read! I- The METEOR-No- THE TWO METEORS. You cannot top this. This introduction to Madara Uchiha, will be forever engraved in my brain. Loved it. Just seeing the Meteor slowly falling, and seeing the scale of it. Everyone running-OH! And how Flying Grandpa (The Tsuchikage) and Gaara stopped it- had me jumping on the couch. Amazing, simply amazing. GO WATCH IT. Cause my rambling on it, does it no justice!!! 😭😭😭

Okay listen, one thing we can all agree on, when it comes to Anime, is that Anime Intros, and Outros, are a BIG part of it all. Especially the Intros. If Intro isn’t good, would you still watch this anime? What makes a good Intro song? Is it the animation? The lyrics? The artist? All of these come in to play, to create a masterpiece. An aid for an anime.

Naruto, has a lot of intros. BUT MY GOD- does it have triple the outros.

I’ve listened to all of them, and I’d just like to share my personal favorites!

Intro’s that hit ( From Naruto to Shippuden )

Far Away -Asian Kung Fu Generation

( Second OG Intro )

So before even watching Naruto, I came upon this song on Spotify. And there was just something about this song, that hit. I am a big fan of Japanese Rock ( J-Rock ) , and Asian Kung Fu Generation brought it all out with this song.

I feel like it really catches the aesthetic, and the overall vibe of the Original Naruto Series. Hype, full of energy, and hypes you up for the new episode. I really love it, and even if I didn’t watch Naruto back in the day, hearing this, causes me major nostalgia. A mystery, I know.

Wind and Waves Satellite - Snowkel

( Seventh OG Intro )

It’s the start that does it for me. Seeing everyone get ready to leave on their next adventure, fills me with some type of emotion. I don’t know how to describe it. I wouldn’t necessarily say it’s nostalgia, but it fills me with this kind of sad/good feeling in my chest? Something like that. It’s great!

Blue Bird - Ikimono Gakari

( Third Shippuden Intro )

Perhaps one of the top favorite songs out there, in the Shippuden Intro List. And I can see why. Or well- HEAR why.

It’s a bop. The vocals, the instrumental, oh-THe HARMONICA! That person goes OFF! 👏🏼

Diver - Nico Touches The Walls

( Eight Shippuden Intro )

At first, I didn’t really feel much for this song. It was alright…UNTIL IT WASN’T.

I found myself sudden listening to it, back and forth, and…I love it now? Yeah, it just happened, I don’t know how.

What I love about this one, isn’t only the song. But the animation of it. What we see, is Naruto falling, and simply sinking down deep and deeper into the water. This obviously referring to his current depressive state. He’s lost, and is beginning to give up. Then, one by one, the hands of all of the friends he’s made along the way, slowly but surely push him up. Naruto is finally out of the water, and when he looks down, he sees that Sasuke is also sinking, similar to how he was before. Seeing that he has no one, Naruto prepares himself to dive down for him. Remembering his goal again. Save Sasuke from the dark path he’s chosen, and bring him back to the village.

It’s beautiful really.

Lovers - 7!! Seven Oops

( Ninth Shippuden Intro )

I didn’t know how to feel for this song. But after a while, I started bopping my head to it- and then poof! Loved it. It’s good!

I like the part where there’s that explosion behind Killer Bee, and that glimpse of Sasuke’s smile. That unsettling smile, letting us know that he’s waaaay gone. It gave me goosebumps the first moment I saw it.

Silhouette - Kana-Boon

( 16th Shippuden opening )

I’ll admit, I knew about Kana-Boon before listening to Silhouette. I love this band, with my life.

It’s such a good song! Great! A masterpiece! That’s right! And it left its mark on Shippuden, as it SHOULD have!

It’s just so good guys. Highly recommend! ❤️

Honorable Mentions ( yes ) :

Sign - Flow

Moshimo - Daisuke

Niwaka Ame Ni Mo Makezu - Nico Touches The Walls

Blood Circulator - Asian Kung Fu Generation

Outros that punched ( From Shippuden )

I honestly don’t recall any song that stuck to me from the Naruto series…I’ll probably go back to give them a second listen.

Broken Youth - Nico Touches The Walls

( Sixth Shippuden Ending )

I quickly became a NTTW fan, and this was no exception. The guitar at the start, the vocals! *chefs kiss*

I also like the cute story of seeing both Sasuke and Naruto as both wanted people.

U can do it ! - Domino

( 15th Shippuden Ending )

I just love the story being told here, the animation guys! The animation of Naruto practicing with Team Guy and Konohamaru! It’s soooo good!

The song is a bop. I’m totally not being biased cause Lee is there. I swear-

Sayonara Memory - 7!! Seven Oops

( 24th Shippuden ending )

I honestly think this deserved to be an opening- but either way, this is a great song.

Black Night Town - Akihasa Kondo

( 27th Shippuden ending )

It took me by surprise. It’s just very different, and I think that’s what caught my attention at first.

I don’t see many talk about it, but it really is

Niji No Sora (Rainbow’s Sky) - Flow

( 34th Shippuden ending )

It’s one of the cutest stories out there, that is told. Just the beginning of little Naruto’s love for Ichiraku Ramen. Watching him grow, and just how many people go in and out…it’s so cute and made me teary eyed.

I mainly liked it because of the story telling-but it’s also a cute song!

Honorable Mentions :

YOU CAN DO IT!!! - Dev Parade

I can hear - DISH//

Never Change - SHUN

Kotoba Ni Naranai Yakusoku (A promise that doesn’t need words) - Sana

So!

This is all I wanted to talk for the time being. I’ll probably talk about ships some day! Hope you enjoyed reading my…I don’t even know what this is. I just wanted to share my thoughts on Naruto.

Have a lovely day/afternoon/night! 🧡

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pcril · 2 months

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status: closed — @bclletragedie

To be one with his emotions can be seen as a somewhat coveted skill. No inhibitions, nothing to stave the roller coaster ride of rawness that comes with feeling what strikes true at any given moment. Truly, it's a blessing to know steps can be taken to soothe the soul. And.. secretly a bane — specifically upon his wallet.

Retail therapy has always had a vice grip on his life. Never mattered if he barely had enough to scrape by day to day. A little treat can be obtained without monetary means, but now that he has expendable money.. Well, let's just say there's been a hole burning in all of his pockets. Which is why he's scurried his way here. Again.

"You won't believe the shittiest dream I've been cursed with last night. Been thinking about it ever since. Image having an endless spread of your fav meal— which is naturally the Nacho Crunch Grilled Stuft Burrito combo with a Chalupa Deluxe, crunchiest taco, cinnamon knots, and Baja Blast.. Only to wake up with the ghost of that heavenly taste not in your mouth. Even worse is the exact moment you remember that Taco Bell discontinued the Nacho Crunch Grilled Stuft Burrito!" An overexaggerated, dramatic intake of air is sucked in with a trembling lip.

"Ugh, it's almost too much to bear. Gonna cry all over again." And he does, a little bit. An overdone mistiness comes to his eyes before he rubs both hands over his face. "I.. need a pick me up. Something that'll come across as an uplifting message like, 'chin up, king— just 'cause your fav meal in existence doesn't exist anymore.. doesn't mean you can't still thrive."

#closed .#coen hummel — dialogue .

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hypmicdaydreams · 1 year

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May I request prompt 25. for the Love Epiphany list with Kuko?

super cute! i think kuko having a love epiphany would be the strangest thing for him, and i love it. hope you enjoy 💜

love epiphany prompts : unable to tackle life's tasks because they're lost in their feelings

cleaning the temple was perhaps the shittiest job in kuko’s mind.

it was massive, hella dusty, and took wayy too long to clean. in short: a pain in the ass. and of course, it was the one chore that his old man pushed onto him with the almost-broken broom and dirty looking rags. he had no other option than to do it, reluctantly that is.

and it was taking longer than usual today to clean as well, which was an even bigger pain. he had plans today (well, perhaps not, but chilling out in nagoya with the cats surely counted as being busy), and he most certainly wasn’t going to get them done at this rate.

kuko was usually efficient, cleaning it from top to bottom in perhaps a few hours max. but not today. his mind was wandering, more so than usual, and he couldn’t focus on anything but it.

well, to be more precise, he couldn’t focus on anything but one thing: you.

an all too ordinary citizen of nagoya, yet he’s run into you one too many times. one too many that it had turned weird. the conversations you’d have never left his mind. kuko could remember every single detail you’ve mentioned. you liked that one café just a little off to the corner from the temple, and the float was your favorite. you fed the cats sometimes when they came by where you worked, and they liked you just as much as they liked him.

and he’s stopped sweeping by now, the more your voice resonated within his mind. it’s all he could think of, his mind going back to yesterday’s encounter each time he tried to sweep.

but then his heart would beat so strangely that kuko can’t help but wonder if he’s sick in some way. his chest feels weird, and he’s all too warm all over, as if he was running a fever in the middle of a cool spring. he has got to toughen up, kuko perhaps tells himself, overcome this obstacle and stop being so fucking strange. dammit.

he tries to sweep again, but to no avail. his hands are all too sweaty and gross, and the handle of the broom is too weird feeling against his hands.

then your pretty little stupid face pops into his thoughts once more, uninvited.

“ugh, damMITT!!” he throws the broom away, off to the side, in a bit of rage. cleaning is no use right now, he can tell. it’s not as if he can get anything done; you won’t leave his mind, at all, and his feelings were all conflicting. his head hurts the more he tried to understand, and his chest is all weird and strange that kuko just wants to punch himself for even being in such a predicament.

he didn’t know why or how or even when it happened for him to be so fucking in love with you.

#asks #requests #kuko harai #kuko x reader #fluff #gender neutral reader #love epiphany prompts #hypmic

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V9C8

I cannot believe I’m awake when the episode drops holy shit. I’m also drunk af bc it’s my weekend off so I might not be as sharp as I’m usually am (not) but guess we’ll see lol. Also the devil works hard but pirates work harder. Bless them yardee hars yo ho

Post Ep: uhh I genuintely dunno what to say here :/ MKEK fucked over literally the only aspect of v9 i liked so i guess imma rot or smth idk

Genuinely funny (by which I mean what the absolute fuck) that the warning does not, in fact, warn the viewer of fucking anything. Reminds me of the conversation in Criminal Minds where the unit receives a bomb threat and have to wait for it to explode because sending out a general bomb alert would halt the entirety of the country in a panic. Wasn’t there a tiktok about this exact thing? One that went liek “TRIGGER WARNIGN! TRIGGER WARNING!“ but never told you wh at the warning was? Feels like this shit

Back at it again with this pov shit? With the hentai panting? Why is it always with the hentai panting???

“Why did you shout at everyone like that?” Sometimes it’s hard to remember that Little is supposed to be like... a child? I guess? in the Wonderland spectrum of things, so them not knowing what a mental breakdown looks like is both in character and entirely unhelpful in the narrative, considering how easily Ruby brushes off the inquiry

This is probably the most tolerant Ruby’s voice acting has been in the last many seasons. It’s not high and nasally enough to scrape my skull!

Not gonna lie, having Ruby finally break down against the shittiest of tree textures is so fucking funny I can’t take this seriously. It looks like she’s wailing into a painted wall

“If you’re going to stay with me, you’re going to end up dead, too.” Ruby, the only dead people that you supposedly gave a shit about are Penny and Pyrrha. You don’t know about Clover or Ironwood, you definitely didn’t give a shit about that Forrest guy from V7, and it’s still up in the air if you know about Penny 2.0. You haven’t even mentioned Qrow, your father, or the rest of ORNJ, so what the fuck are you referencing here? Your mother, whom you only started being compromised about 2 seasons ago? Big fuckety whoop, no one cares

Ohhhh noooo not the shithead mouse character being saddddd and left behinddddd whateverr shall we doooooo

Aight what’s with the butterfly thing. If it’s supposed to symbolize Summer Rose in some way, it was never foreshadowed and only the barest of threads (butterflies being pollinators of flowers) would connect this shit. There’s a difference between subtlety and bullshit

Uhhhh did Ruby stumble into a casino house of Neo? Is this Neo backstory we’re getting into? Honestly, that’s way more intriguing than anything our heroes have going on

OH SO NOW RUBY CAN USE HER FUCKING SCYTHE WITHOUT GETTIN TRIGGERED

Why did they have to drag Roman into Maya? Didn’t they do him dirty enough by having him be eaten by a stupid grimm? Is this even the same voice actor? It’s not as... sultry

WHY YOU GOTTA DO PYRRHA DIRTY LIKE THIS WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HER MOUTH THERE’S NO TEXTURE ON HER CLOTHES WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK

Holy shit the animation of Roman jumpin on the table is sending me into the fuckign statosphere fucking hlep

Can’t even have a normal transformation animation between scythe to snipe it’s gotta be a spinny bullshit thing ugh. Take me back to episode 1 I miss that shit

Who is voicing Roman there’s no way this is the original VA Imma strnagle this bithc

“But we all remember how that ended.” Is this based on actual events or what Neo has interpreted? This entire scene has been nothing but bullshit so far, and not even the fun kind that Roman used to produce

“You still blame me for what happened to Torchwick?” Bitch what the absolute fuck makes you think that? What clues could you possibly have that Neo blames you specifically when there are so many random people at this table? It’s not like you’ve ever claimed to be responsible for any of these peoples’ deaths, so why is this the fucking conclusion you make? Other than having writer’s clairvoyance of course

Okay, despite not knowing at the moment what it means, I do like the detail of Roman not stepping on the teacup before but once shit gets real he demolishes it. Still don’t like how ugly he is though. Leave my dead gay son alone

I don’t know if I’ve said it before but I fucking HATE the eyeshadow on the character in Maya. Why is Neo’s fucking mint green? She’s NEO-FUCKING-POLITIAN WHY IS THERE FUCKING GREEN IN HER GODDAMN COLOR PALLETE WHEN IT’S FUCKIN WHITE BROWN AND PINK

“I’m going to enjoy watching you break.” Does Neo not have any sort of contact via her clones or whatever? Did she not see how helpless Ruby was last episode to her Jabber? Because it was very heavily implied she knew when that one turned into her before shattering. Neo didn’t have to do shit to make Ruby break, her so called friends were doing that better than Neo ever could Also, the smiles on everyone’s faces as they say this is 100% me when I write my characters going through some fucked up shit. Neo should’ve gone into theater and literally none of this would have happened lmao

It’s uhhhhhh kinda telling that Yang is the first to stop and bitch about Ruby’s behavior. “How could she jsut run off like that?” damn it’s like your sister knew you ddidn’t give hafl a flying fuck about her and dipped Yang OHMYGOD YANG BEING PISSED THAT RUBY DIDN’T TALK TO THEM I’M FUCKING WHEEZING Girl you were so busy being buried in the pussy you didn’t notice your own sister having a full ass breakdown. I do not feel sorry for you “She could’ve just talked to us” like you talked to her after you lost your arm? Oh, wait, YOU DIDN’T FUCKING DO THAT YANG. You literally told her to LEAVE YOU ALONE. Ain’t that a bitch, huh

“We say things like ‘we believe and you’ and ‘we can count on you’” holy shit this is smth I would expect from the yt exercise gurus I watch after work shifts not from my close personal friends this is so fuckign funny

“It’s not like we’re asking her to be perfect” well mf did you ever, idk, COMMUNICATE THAT. Because, lmee tell you as someone who WAS expected to be perfect at all times, that shit be damaging as fuck. I can’t even let typos happen in funny instances without a voice in my head screaming to fix them

Oh great we get the generic meandering vocals during a pvp platform fight. Do they write these lines knowing they’ll be translated into a game soon? There’s no way “I was the best and brightest Beacon had to offer” comes off naturally otherwise

Ruby literally clambered onto the only structure in the room for defense? Girl at this point you are asking to die lmao

AND HER AURA SHATTERS AT THAT MEASLY DROP I AM FUCKING SOBBING JUST KILL THE BITCH AND BE DONE WITH IT

“Just like you were too late to save me at the Vytal festival.” Bitch that literally didn’t matter shit since you came back in V7. You’re literally wearing your V7/8 outfit. Shut the absolute fuck up you fucking waste of potential and hair space goddamn

“Can you imagine what it’s like to be failed time and time again by someone who meant the world to you” oh like Oz? The guy you demonized for the last few seasons? The guy who was roasted alive by his wife after she butchered their FOUR FUCKIGN CHILDREN?

Also Ruby does not use her FUCKIGN SEMBLANCE BITHC ARE YOU WANTING TO FUDCKIGN DIE THEN DIE ALREADY GODDAMMIT

Okay I can’t put my finger on it, but the animation of Pyrrha going around her staff to kick Ruby is really fucking weird. Maybe because it seems like her spear is merely resting on the ground instead of impaling it? (My current MC had a similar move so this is important to me lmao)

While I do appreciate the line of “have you stopped to consider if you’re doing more harm than good” coming from Ironwood, it’s not really Ironwood saying it, is it? How the absolute FUCK would Neo know this? Was she witness to what was happening, did she figure it out with context clues, or is this another case of writer clairvoyance?

While I guess it is within canon rights to have Neo know that Oscar is Oz’s new host, I’m very much confused about this particular course of action [turning Ozpin into Oscar] from Neo. When it was her vs Cinder, Neo just tried to annihilate her, but with Ruby she wants to be Jigsaw??? MKEK learn character consistency I am BEGGING

Listen... I know Ruby is in an emotionally compromised state, and that in any other scenario this would be intensely heart-breaking, but with how contrived this entire scene is, I cannot give half a flying fuck about Ruby’s mental state because it’s too damn funny how easily she falls into Neo’s lap. You walked into this giant ass casino, can’t you just walk out? We ain’t seen you try yet, so either you (and the writers) are too stupid to think of it, or it was shuffled off screen, neither of which are a good look babe. Especially when that damned mouse is in the wings for SOME goddamn reason. Probably the next fucking deus ex mouse

RUBY’S HICCUPS SOUND EXACTLY LIKE MY PRINTER IM FUCKIGN WHEEZING

Okay, so Neo offering the tea makes it seem like that’s a path to the Ascension that everyone’s so gung-ho about, which makes me question why the paper pleasers needed to have a whole ass suicide dam-break to ascend if all they needed was some leaf-tea. I also think I’m putting more thought into this than the fucking writers, which, honestly, is par for the course

WAIT WHOA HOLD UP that was some geometric shit hitting Neo into the fucking next generation. Everything in Wonderland is ~whimsy and frolic~ not Square (tm) so wtf is going on

Goddammit again with this pov shit? Whoever suggested it in the group orgy should be drug out to the street and shot

CURIOUS!!! THE ONLY BITCH THAT MATTERS TO ME even if he is ugly as sin

“(Ruby) I don’t want to be me anymore” well aint that just more gasoline to my theory that Ruby’s gonna try to sacrifice herself to the tree No joke, if RT (and for any dumbass who needs clarification, CRWBY is 100% RT property) tries to imply in any goddamn way that sacrifice is the only way to achieve happiness (especially when it comes to other people’s happiness) I will come to each of their houses and shred their shoes, their paintings, and dismantle their ovens

Altho, no joke, I would much rather prefer Curious as our MC instead simply because they are curious and would potentially be able to ask questions about the world that our actual mains would take for granted, like idk wtf is dust and where does it come from? (Mainly stemming from my hc that dust is the remains of human souls that grimm devour but can’t actually process. Like... how else are you gonna reconcile the dust that made Adam ((the original biblical man)) with the dust of Remnant?)

Oh wow so we’re actually going for the take that the cat was evil the whole time? Is that what we’re doing? No nuance about a creature merely curious about a world outside its own? We’re going full fucking body snatcher?

I absolutely HATE this take on the Curious Cat. MKEK. Give me your addresses so I can beat your asses in the nearest Dennys parking lot. I think you sorely need some lessons in humility. Suck my entire asshole

Is Little really fucking hurt by being slung .2 feet from a tail whip? Fucking really?

And now Neo and Curious are fighting over Ruby’s fate. Someone bring back the forced love triangle of Hunger Games (which was forced by the publishers NOT the writer btw) instead of this shit before I throw myself into a lava pit because honesty it this is far shittier than HG

Wtf are Ruby’s fingers bloodied from? Wielding Crescent Rose for .2 seconds? Girl you have been handling this weapon for fucking years, but spinning it around a couple of times makes her bleed? Bitch play Paganini’s 24 Caprices then say how your fingers feel (For clarification purposes, I only know this because I’m writing characters who know how to play the violin, not because I know violin myself despite how much I fucking want to. V from DMC5 has me in a fucking chokehold lemme tell you-*dies*)

“I have been trying to wear you down for so long” BITCH FUCKING WHERE. WHERE THE ABSOLUTE FUCK HAVE YOU BEEN WEARING RUBY DOWN MORE THAN HER TEAMMATES OR GENERAL FUCKING LIFE HAS ALREADY BEEN. BITHC FUCKING WEHRE

“I need to know why my makers left me here.” This makes me think that the Wonderland was structured by the shitheel gods of light and dark. Perhaps the cat was one of their compromises, which is why they’re such a wildcard? But that would make so many questions about the purpose of Wonderland itself and we all know that MKEK can’t be bothered with things like worldbuilding or nuance or anything remotely resembling intelligence (also I read once that black scelera ((the white part of the eye)) is a sign of pure truth/desire so honestly this is incredibly intriguing even though I know it won’t end in anything satisfactory)

NEO STEPS ON LITTLE BEST CHARACTER EVER 10/10

The cup sliding into frame after Ruby’s frantic eyes is literally so fucking funny how do they expect to take me seriously when the framing has the subtlety of a drunk elephant?

Ohmygod the way JWBY ran into the room like PS2 characters I’m fucking wheeazing

Ohmygod this is literally the most flaccid way to force a person into your perspective. Like... Ruby got kicked around a little bit after venturing into an OBVIOUSLY NOT GOOD PLACE and then decides to drink the airport jungle juice right as she’s about to be rescued and not ONE FUCKING CHARACTER WITH RANGED ARSENAL SHOOTS THE MUG OUT OF HER HAND

Honestly there are times where it really hits me how RWBY is a show about plot that isn’t plot instead of characters, and it’s moments like these where I’m like “damn, these people are acting to the script instead of their character huh” Like... it would’ve been something profound if the tea drinking had happened moments prior to their arrival instead of “hey watch me drink this fuckin tea while I reflect in your stupid eyeball instead of you doing literally anything about it despite that the supposed fact that you fucking raised me YANG, so watch me drop into this fuckkin hole I guess”

At the very least I guess the writers realized that Neo’s sole purpose was offing Ruby because... Roman was in her vicinity when he died???

OHMYGOD THE FACT THAT THE PERSON WHO REACTS TEH MOST TO RUBY DRINKGING THE FUCKIGN JUICCE IS CURIOUS IS FINEING SENDING ME

SHES A FUCKING CORN COB BSBE IM FUCNG CRYIGN

Okay, Curious fixating on Neo is one BILLION percent more interesting than anything jrwby has going on. Once again, fuck this main storyline bullshit and give Curious their own damn show

Also, nlg, the facct that Curious is Geometric rather than Organic in terms of design (squares vs spirals for the at home group) is super fucking cool and I desperately need an entire goddamn story abt them pronto. I would absolutely love to see how they interact with Remnant and if they’d be able to have their weird ass powers in the dimension of mortals. That is so much more interesting than literally anything our main crew has proposed in literally years, especially since these dumb mfs aint ever talked about whether or not its okay to kill a whole ass human being for their cause (and faunus are human beings. Fuck off if you think that some shtity tail or ears makes you not a whole ass person)

These mfs cannot let the bee train go for a single second can they? These bitches gotta be hit inot the sam efukcin wall while Weiss gets left all alone. Yknow. Like her family let her be for th emost part. Glad to see that RT’s priority is rainbow capitialism instead of genuine storytelling

Well that is a hentai trope I did not expert to see today. Though the fact that it’s Neo does not surprises me at fuckign all. Mmmm love me some fcking body possession. Great job Rt on making on your female characters be absolutely consumed by a foreign entity that surely isn’t a fucking metaphor for antyhign yknow the fucking facehuggers were’nt a metaphor for shit didnt yha know????

May I say to MKEK, absolutely fuck you for makign the cat an undeniable villain. Can you guys not handle even an iota of moral greyness? Can you not conceive of the idea of a situation that is not merely good vs evil? I ask you to look at the world today, and tell me that evil arises merely because it can rather than as a symptom of a society that refuses to care for all its citizens. Can you not idealize a person who, when pressed to their absolute brink, will take upon violence to ensure that the seeds they sow will bring sustenance to those who come later? For fuck’s sake I’ll take a person who idealizes themselves for morally grey reasons other than what the fuck ever these dipshits are trying to sell to me

Wow aint it so spectaculaar that Curious invaded the one person who wasn’t important to the writers plot adn now our heroes can now kill her without any iota of guilt? Aint that fucking nifty? Aint that fuckign grand? And not even a fucking thought extended to teh idea tha Crurius wanted to see the outside world. THat was their main reason for helping the siblings right? Because Alyx promised them that she would bring him to Remnant? But taht whole plotline is gone because it’s jsut TOO SPICY FOLKS. Can’t have anything interesting in our show about FAIRTYTALES whene we’re in a FAIRTYTALE LAND

Honestly, fuck you MKEK, fuck you RT, fuck you any god that ever alloweed existence to happen. THis is fucking bullshit

It was only through looking up the info on the internet that I learned that Roman Torchwick’s og VA died of colon cancer prior to this volume (2022). Mr Kametz, I hope you rest well and know that your expertise was greatly appreciated. May you know peace in the beyond

#rwde #soorry that i'm like suer fuckign drukn for thos shit but works been albsoulte hell this fuckign weeek #i was like half as drunk whe writing the main shit than the tags so hopefully it all makes sense #either way its a shit fucking episdoe #why the fuck would anyone green lite this hit i have no fucking clue #rt must have no fuckign standards bc if my drun k as shti ass can still laught at your 'emotional scenes' then you got a fuckign problem #my dumb as can cry at jsut about antyhging #i cred at that shthead snape findign lily's body in harry terfly pottery #so if i dont cry at your bullshti then you fucked up in ways that not even god can correct

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