#walking contradiction

[cruciomione]

headcanon/meta (???) since i’ve been thinking a lot about this writing my fic

But i just love the idea of Sydney being the type of person everyone had a crush on but she’s so in her head, emotional walls higher than the Eiffel Tower, awkward and a workaholic, that she can never tell if anyone does have romantic interest in her unless explicitly stated.

Sydney gives me Golden girl, Girl Next Door vibes. Just a kind hearted beautiful girl, funny, works hard and that’s attractive for most people.

In s2 she was the object of desire for not one but two handsome, young men. that’s insane! she inspires ppl to be better and do better.

Marcus: You push me

Carmy : You make me better at this, Calms down at the thought of sydney (*sighs*)

like i can just imagine sydney in HS, college, past jobs being blissfully unaware of all the people who flirted w her, tried to subtly ask her out but she declined (im busy; she doesn’t realize it’s a date).

While also simultaneously being a person who secretly desires a storybook romance but think it’s not in the cards for her bc no body’s interested or thinking people she likes don’t like her back or simply not letting herself be open to relationships bc she’s focused on her goals.

incredibly magnetic person while also repelling every chance at love bc she’s too in her head

idk while i’m writing this fic it’s hard bc sometimes i want to shake her shoulders and be like WAKE UP he likes you back.

#the bear #sydcarmy #the bear fx #sydney adamu #walking contradiction

[letthenightingalessingagain]

Anybody out there with ADHD who also feels like a walking contradiction? Like I love my apartment clean but I hate cleaning. I can't force myself going into the shower but then I can spend hours showering. I need my routine unless I'm bored, then I need a change unless it's too much, then I need my routine back. I like going out and meet people but sometimes not at all so I don't leave my place for days. I'd like to do everything at once and then I end up doing nothing at all.

#adhd #adhd things #why am i like this #walking contradiction #neurodiversity #the struggle of my life

[worldbuildingwanderlust]

We are formless

Trapped in forms

Purposefully paradoxical

To understand both

Sides of the coin

#my writing #poetry #poem #conscious awareness #consciousness #paradox #walking contradiction #existence #existentialism #creative writing #spilled ink #poets on tumblr #writers on tumblr #writers and poets #quick write

[luvelyylee]

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#green day #green day band #lyrics #walking contradiction #Spotify

[alionnamedcobra]

On one hand, Scooby Doo trending at any point is always welcome as a lifelong SD fan but on the other hand, I also (mostly) run away at the slightest trending of SD

#scooby doo #scooby gang #scooby movies #scooby dooby doo #shaggy Rogers #velma dinkley #daphne blake #fred jones #walking contradiction

[rivvyelf]

Results from this element writer personality quiz. This sums me up. You can’t have comedy without tragedy.

Frostbite Writer:

The impossible writer. A walking contradiction, so beautiful, with pain wrapped all around you.

Your characters taste the best and worst of this world, just like you did. And they get hurt, covered in scars and with their heart in pieces, but they keep walking, pain in their eyes and in their every step.

But just like your characters, you don't give up.

Everything hurts, but you still go on.

Your stories are deep, sometimes the reader needs to read through the lines, sometimes not, but the feelings you describe linger in your reader's hearts for long. You're able to leave a print.

Usually you write stories that carry with them the burden you had to carry, but when you write about a pure love, your readers will find the comfort of a hug from a loved one.

You're passionate, love hard and forever. Frostbite Writers tasted the bitter of life, and know how to keep immortal a feeling. Your stories will make your reader lose themselves in another universe, and when they come back, something will be changed forever

#mhm yup #walking contradiction

[violet-yimlat]

It’s ok to be a walking paradox

You can dress like Aziraphale and still listen to death metal ( my favourite band is Black Veiled Brides)

You can listen to true crime podcasts all day and be emotionally triggered by The Early Purges by Seamus Heaney (it’s a poem about animal abuse)

You can have a high IQ and still fail your English exam (35%)

You can be unnecessarily violent and still care about others (and the environment, I throw pens at people who put things in the wrong bin)

You can be chaotic lawful or lawful chaotic ( I tend to stick to school dress code but I’m also the person who shouted “Sexism!” When we talked about it in assembly)

You can be called “a weird, retarded reincarnation of Satan” (true story) and still be a good person

Just be yourself and please don’t kill anyone

#shitpost #self care #self love #anarchy #walking paradox #walking contradiction #black veil brides #be your best you #chaos #good omens #death metal #seamus heaney #don’t murder people #I failed English

[p0ssywhippedcream]

hot girls get their sleep i say as i scroll mindlessly on tumblr for just the right smut to rub my puffy clit to at midnight when i have class tmr at 6

#walking contradiction #donut hole #oph.posts

[b-etter]

I have no belief

But I believe I'm a walking contradiction

And I ain't got no right

#personal #music #spotify #fav #walking contradiction #green day

[dayasinspiration]

I’m hopeless and cynical about love finding me. Yet a hopeless romantic down to the bone.

#paradox #my thinking #walking contradiction

[shutupbrain]

12.16.2022 - Part 5

We walk back to the car in mostly silence. I have a sense of urgency he notices. He asks if I'm okay and I smile, "yes, I'm just tired and ready to be home." I use the cold to account for my stiffness. We get in and start the drive home,I turn up the music to fill the silence. I try to get my vibes in check but he again asks what's up. I fill him in on all the above after he doesn't believe my efforts to reassure him I'm fine. He tells me that he just thought more about it and realizes that there's nothing wrong with weed and wanted to partake. Okay that's fair and I am relieved he's come around on that front. At the conversation around C's ass, he responds with loud, belly laughter. Huh okay. Don't know how to take that. He tells me I have "absolutely nothing to worry about, he loves my fat, juicy ass." That the girls are always talking about her ass at the office too. I love to see women hyping up other women. They seem like a fun group. It's just me, I'm obviously jealous and want to be the only woman he has eyes for. He says I am but I'm not dumb, I know it's natural to look at other people even when you're in a relationship and that it doesn't equal cheating at all. But apparently she is funny, nice, cool to talk to (easier to talk to than me probably)... AND she's thick. I need to get it together. I tell him I'm in my head and know I'm being unreasonable,"it's not you, it's me. I'm sorry." He then says he actually didn't want to leave. Great!! Now I seem like the bitchy wife (who's not a wife mind you) who made you leave the party early. I mean I kind of am but don't want them to know that. "No no, we're only 10 minutes away, let's go back. I'm good!" He backpedals and says to keep on, he does "wanna go home too, really." We do this back and forth but ultimately continue home. I feel immediately relief once I walk in the door, my safe place. The weight lifts. I hug and kiss my daughter goodnight and change into comfy clothes. "Are you sure you're okay?" "Yes, I'm fine! Don't worry." I get in bed, he has the munchies and dry mouth. Cute, funny. I look at him in the eyes, he responds with he's not horny actually. Oh. That's an extreme rarity. Okay, that's totally okay I'm tired anyways. I turn over. He changes his mind and says if I want to, he can get there. "No no no it's alright, I'm tired too. Let's go to sleep." It works. I close my eyes and try to silence my thoughts. He builds a barrier of pillows between us and I breathe thru the threat of building tears and let the darkness envelope me. I surrender to the peace that only sleep can bring.

#diary #stream of consciousness #walking contradiction

[forgottenbones]

#twitter #walking contradiction

[mimipunk]

I tried to understand and analyse some unreasonable feelings/triggers i get from the world but i ended up more confused... Because maybe my feelings don't make sense...maybe i am what i am and there's not a reason behind that... I sometimes am disgusted by things that other times make me feel good ... I've always been a walking contradiction and i cannot explain it .... I also feel the need to be a contrarian.... I tried to analyse me so i can find out why......but it's impossible... Maybe that's just who i am .... Sometimes i hide it from others if i don't want to hurt their feelings but then i feel like I'm fighting with myself...cause i want to argue about everything and I don't. It's like when you're mad and you keep your anger inside... Not so good.. Although i try not to make conversations that i know they'll make me disagree with other people...cause I don't like arguing...i hate it ... So I'll do anything in order to prevent that .. but then again when I'm alone i think way too much about possible arguments that it makes me crazy lol being so different from the whole world is hard .... Sometimes i wouldn't change it for anything..other times I'd give everything to change that lol (the walking contradiction i was talking about)

#my thoughts #thoughts #ventin #vent #mentality #psychology #human psychology #mind #text #contrarian #walking contradiction #chaotic mind #chaos #alien

[grimalkinmessor]

Was thinking about Light Yagami—again, help—and thought "If Light Yagami wants something, then he's going to get it" but then I realized. No. No, that's not right. Because Light is also the type of guy to convince himself that he doesn't want things. So like,,,only in surges of destructive behavior does he insist on getting what he wants.

Someone spills wine on Light's shirt? Laugh it off but start up a thirty-two step plan to ruin their life.

Light wants some ice cream? No he doesn't. What are you talking about? He's never wanted any sort of dessert in his life because that would be childish and also selfish of him.

An uncle called him a 'sissy boy' for playing the piano? Uncover the drugs in his car and, if there aren't any, plant some. Make sure they're discovered at the largest family gathering possible in front of plenty of witnesses. He will spend seven years in jail.

Light likes a certain band and wants to listen to their music, go to a concert even? Nope. Never heard of them. Who? He doesn't need CDs and his father just bought him a computer for school so really a music player would be excess. Plus he's not one of those heathens that likes to study to music, obviously.

And thinking about that, I think L breaks him out of that mindset by teasing out Light's pettiness. L turns everything into a challenge, a game to win, so Light's more "foolish" wants are no longer childish—they're a victory. L turns Light's simplest desires into petty revenge, and so he'll chase them.

Light would never ask or even search for an expensive gourmet breakfast food on his own, but handcuff him to L and have him watch his every meal, then Light's damn well going to make sure he enjoys it. Light wants silk pajamas because the sheets are uncomfortable, Ryuzaki, really—it has nothing to do with the fact that you turned the thermostat down when Light said he was cold. Suddenly Light enjoys ice cream again but only when it comes from L's bowl when he's not looking.

#death note #yagami light #me subtly making all my light hcs lawlight coded #lawlight #l lawliet #he is but mentioned briefly but he is here in spirit #to torment light #and also give him freedom from his own rigid mindset of what he thinks he deserves #god light is such a walking contradiction i love him #light likes black seasame ice cream and you will pry that from my cold dead hands

[nana-glass-chillhop-radio-hour]

The core of Carpenter's character is that she's a bit of a nonpracticing misanthropist. Like if you asked her what she thought about human nature she'd be all 'humanity is the virus' and she'd go on a long rant about how you can't trust the system and you also can't fight the system and also you can't trust anyone who says you CAN fight the system but the minute she sees a couple dozen wounded civilians in a tactically dicey situation she springs into action with the zeal and tenacity of the Terminator

#also i think if you drew her attention to this contradiction she would simply glare at you and walk away without speaking. #net zero information. #sister carpenter #the silt verses #Carpenter 🤝 Casper the Great Pyrenees sheepdog on a mission from God Herself to the family farm in Decauter GA of coyotes with bright ideas

[sticks-and-souls]

I really hope Din gets to Sundari and finds the evidence that Bo Katan was a fucking founding member of the resurgence of Death Watch and played a direct role in handing Mandalore over to Darth Maul, and I hope they call the episode The Mandalorian and the Audacity of This Bitch.

#this is not an anti bo katan post #I LOVE her character #but I find her so fascinating literally because of the walking contradiction that she poses #and the hypocrisy she seems to employ to compensate for her shame #NOT by pretending her past didn’t exist #like it keeps feeling like the showrunners are handling her #anyways #bo katan kryze #the mandalorian #the mandalorian s3 #the mandalorian season 3 #din djarin #mandalore