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royalconfetti · 11 months

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No one is ever going to love you more than I did. I gave you the world and all you did was break me before leaving. So it doesn’t matter if it feels like I’ve lost something. You can’t lose something you never had. But that’s the thing you see… this is YOUR loss. And me? I deserve better.

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konigceo · 3 months

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"why would you want to be with me you know i'm nothing special" SINCE WHEN WAS EYEDRESS SO RELATABLE???

#lala ⊹˚. ♡.𖥔 ݁ ˖#yes i know i'm insecure #boo hoo #i think i've said that exact thing #like multiple times #to my ex #lol #i love being insecure #jealous by eyedress

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p1nk13p13f4n · 2 months

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#kamen rider #kamen rider gotchard #cartoon hot dog husband #to my ex #shitpost

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etherealsign282 · 1 year

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I feel I should be more thankful

I have gained the strength to live,

Despite having to live with the truth

And you,

You have to turn it all into lies, just to live with yourself at all

That sounds like a horribly shaky, delicate mind prison that you'll have to thread your needle through for the rest of your life.

- thank you for showing me what desperation looks like

#emotional abuse #trauma #mental abuse #emotional #true words #abuse survivor #trauma survivor #abuse survival #surviving abuse #healing #healingjourney #delusion #delusional #to my abuser #to my ex #fake ass #fake apology #fake martyr #fake people

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unhinged-ill-thoughts · 1 year

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"You knew I needed help and you left"

You didn't want the help though, and in the end I both needed and wanted to help myself.

You could've helped me too, by treating me like a person.

But you were too busy expecting to be saved from yourself, while you were killing me.

Was I supposed to still pick trying to save someone who wanted to drown us both?

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awwsushie · 9 days

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To him.

loving you was never easy for me or so i thought. every night i would overthink about how to treat you better. i truly dont know what you wanted in this relationship but im certain that it wasn't me. it was her.

you gave me the right amount of attention at the wrong time and that was terrible. when i met you i was not over my first ex, i was miserable. you treated me right and gave me the love i wanted, healed me the way i needed to be healed and i fell for you not knowing the real you.

i would've never imagined that we would be best friends and one day, more than friends but it all happened so quickly that i wasnt able to live through it. now when i look back, all that is left are memories of you.

to be honest, i never thought you would cheat. you reassured me a thousand times and i believed in you like a fool. it was too hard to accept and handle everything because by that time you were already my everything. by that time, you were already the person i married in my head.

yes we dated for a very short period but the love i had for you was real. and honestly i dont know what happened, you just changed. i tried really, i tried hard to understand you but i failed. and you failed to understand me.

but do you ever miss me ? my efforts ? i used to be awake till 4-5 am, reassuring you. i used to do your work and assignment so that you won't get yelled at. i used to lie to my parents to meet you. flunked my classes for you. ruined my most important academic year on you. i left parties in the middle because you had anxiety attacks. i did everything i could to keep you. but all these were never enough. they all were useless.

i never imagined you will leave me for her. and it still hurts but i can't help it, right? after all it's your life. but i miss you; because a part of me was with you.

do you remember our last conversation ? where all i wanted to know was why did you do that, i was crying terribly, begging you to stay; begging you to tell the truth. i was shaking, my whole body was shaking and my heart broke trillion times. i get shivers whenever i try to remember that conversation. i hated you so much at that very moment; it hurt.

i never thought you'd hurt me.

honestly, i never thought these things would happen between us. i never knew you would make me regret loving u. i never imagined that you would make me question us.

it's hard to move on; and tbh there are some parts of me that still want to hold onto you. even though you made it sound so clear that she's the one you love and she's the important person for you, it's still hard accepting that truth.

& i still think you love me. haha, im a fool i know.

no matter how hard i try, it feels like im stuck on you. and i can never get out. it's hard accepting things, it's really hard to let you go; i know i have to, but i really dont have the courage to do so.

knowing that you dont love me anymore hurts.

#heartbreak #to him #to my ex #him #breakup #hurt

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silentsadness17 · 1 month

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Dear, $100

How am I still broken from someone that left 6 years ago! I swear I don’t want you back! I promise I’m over you! BUT WHY HAVE I NOT LOVED SOMEONE ELSE!?!!

I still have dreams of us actually lasting forever… Why are you still haunting my subconscious? I wake up sad and angry at myself.

Why did you make so many plans with me that will forever linger in my head? I hate when someone tries to plan the future with me.

Why make so many of the things I enjoy alone “ours”? I don’t enjoy those things anymore.

Why did you have to be my first love? You never truly chose me. You said you asked me to be yours because you’ve never had someone like you. You learned to like me when you didn’t have to.

Why didn’t you just spare me? I don’t even remember the girl I was before you.

#sad thoughts #sadcore #sadgirl #sad aesthetic #break up #heartbreaking 💔#heartbroken #to my ex #ex

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merylsly · 9 months

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I’m a horror girly now.

not because I missed you

but because I needed to desensitize myself.

I needed to be able to look at a slasher

without you appearing in my mind.

scary movies used to be a source of anxiety

now they’re just background noise.

lately I’ve been hanging out with Jason, Freddy, Michael…

Ghostface.

horror has given me a sense of control;

something you will never have over me.

I admit that I adored what we had,

sometimes I even miss it.

you once said that you would always choose me, and that’s not true, but if it had been…

it would have been an honor.

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riversrawblog · 3 months

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Thought Of You

I caught myself thinking of you. I’ll admit I talk about you often still, it’s hard not to. You are the one I spent my teenage years with, the one I got my first place with, the one who taught me to drive, we were engaged and had a dog, and my family loved you like their own. You are my ultimate lure. However, you also taught me pain and grief and a lot of my thoughts about you are about the bad times. But tonight I wish I could reach out and tell you how fucking proud I am of you. How I am happy you are alive. Because even though we haven’t spoken in years you deserve to know that I’m so glad you were able to overcome your addiction I’m glad you were able to become a better person even if that better person wasn’t for me. I’m glad your life didn’t end the way so many of our friends did.

-River

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imfullofworms · 1 year

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#5 - My Ex

You were right.

I confess that I was so afraid of losing you that I became stifling; strangling your fire.

I confess that though we weren't right for each other, there was once love there.

I confess that I hope you get everything you've ever dreamed of.

#i confess #confession #honesty #me #mine #myself #to my ex

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amjcpvr · 5 months

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It’s been months.

It’s been months and yet I can’t forget you.

I can’t forget the way you looked at me, the way you made me feel, your kind words, gentle caresses, warm heat.

I can’t forget you.

The crazy thing is, I’m 99% sure that if you had asked me to marry you, I would’ve said yes. I would’ve said absolutely, I can’t picture myself with anyone else. I can’t imagine being in anyone else’s arms. I can’t imagine another father to my kids.

And I’m insane.

I don’t know if you’ve found someone new. I blocked you everywhere so you wouldn’t tempt me. And now I’m dying of curiosity and delusions.

Im insane for thinking that you still think of me. Because the truth is, if you wanted to come back to Me, you already would’ve. You would’ve fought for me like hell, and I would’ve let you back in my life in a heartbeat. I would’ve hugged you and kissed you and made love to you everyday.

I would tell you how afraid I was that I had lost you forever and how happy I am that I didn’t.

I would make sure you felt like the happiest man alive. And I’d try my best to never lose you again.

Instead I am here. Afraid, delusional, and lonely. Afraid because I lost you forever. Delusional, still picturing us together and wondering if you’ll ever come back. And lonely because without you, no matter how many people are around me, I feel all alone.

I just want closure. Whether that is seeing you holding someone else tomorrow, or meeting up for coffee to catch up 10 years from now. Or maybe i just want to see you.

Or maybe I’m just insane. I truly do not know anymore.

#to my ex

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a-b-erracja · 5 months

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for his bday i wish him to have everything that he’d ever wanted

and that it still won’t be enough

#to my ex #human trash #breakup #bpd #love #emotional #situationships #modern relationships

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you-4ia · 7 months

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“You’ve said all your goodbyes but I’m just starting mine.. Your love was one of a kind but not of sound mind. I finally have courage to face you after you broke me down. Like shattered glass you picked at each piece. Build me back up again so I can be free. Paint me your true colors so I can see. If my glass turns into sand, would you give me a hand? Would you build me back up like we had planned? Months without you, and im here like a fool. But I am an artist, I can use any tool. So I advise you, carefully place my pieces down where they were found and cover me in lies of plaster to help me heal faster, But whatever you do please don’t let me erode and let me turn cold. So build me back up again and I will be free and paint me your true colors so I can finally see.”

A poem to my ex // Titled “Fuck you, I can write poems too” 7/29/2023 4:07pm

#poetry #original poem #my poetry #my art #to my ex #my writing #writers on tumblr

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brittbratt215 · 8 months

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So it’s been a minute since I’ve wrote a poem..

A poem to his baby Girl. We couldn’t be because he needed to align with another soul to make you 🩷 a beautiful reality 🩷🥺

#poemsbyme #poetscommunity #poets on tumblr #poetry #short poem #to my ex #healingjourney

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etherealsign282 · 1 year

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You can't just call yourself a piece of shit whenever you want, and acknowledge you're an asshole or hurting people or being a bad friend/partner/family member; while in the same breath, instead of acknowledging any real toxic points or things people have brought to your attention, resorting to superficialities and victimizing.

"Idk, people are just always leaving me because they just know deep down no matter how funny or smart or friendly I am that I'm fucked up on a deeper level". First of all, what a way to both stroke your ego and also feign patheticness over it.

"I've always let my pain taint who I am and make me distrustful of the world around me, everyone's always using or hating me so I must be fvcked up". Actually we hate you because you are xyz, it isn't a mystery. You're not a cryptid people just don't understand. Just because people don't agree with your selfish behavior doesn't mean you aren't understood. You don't understand yourself at this stage.

"Everyone would be better off if I was gone because I exist which means I take up space and if I didn't, maybe you'd have room to be happier". That doesn't even make sense.

Nonsense. It's all nonsense and filler.

You're an asshole because you dismiss people's feelings. Because you find yourself acting superior to everyone at all times. Making a competition out of everything. Making people cry then treating them like they're burdens. Mistreating people for YOU being jealous/having inferior issues hidden inside. Trying to ruin someone's life for no reason. Hiding shit behind their back. Being two faced. Abusing them in some way. Rejecting and pushing them away, giving them mixed signals, making them feel unsafe. Etc etc.

You cannot keep playing the victim in situations where you're supposed to be "woke" and acknowledge you've done shitty things or been a shitty person.

It's fucking embarrassing to be, at this stage, a grown adult and still go around acting like being emo/alt/dark and "deep" is what got you into the situation where nobody likes you except other fake people whom you despise (and they despise you, according to you, which I don't blame them at this point despite you wanting to be a victim over it). When it was YOUR behavior, and general hatred toward humans.

You can't flicker through life reaching for the low hanging fruit of reasons why the world hates you, you hate you, other people hate you. Sometimes we've even handed you the fruit from the higher branches but you just refuse to acknowledge them?

You aren't woke. You are not experiencing growth. You're not going through a change, you're not becoming enlightened. You either feel bad for being shitty, feel bad for hurting people, feel bad for shitting on people; or you feel bad for yourself because you think you've been mislabeled as shitty. But you can't speak like it's the second one and pretend it's the first.

There's no acknowledgment going on. There's no flaws you actually admitted to. Not only is there nothing actually running through your head that puts you on a lower pedestal (unless it's to look weak and small and pathetic for validation) but most of the time you have the audacity to still hate the people you've harmed. While calling yourself a piece of shit as though you know the problem, even though you're simultaneously hyping yourself up as a victim, and mad at THEM like they are the problem instead; and then chalk it up to their reactions rather than your initial actions that makes you unlikable.

Bruh it is YOU. it is your behavior causing people to dislike you. It is YOU that makes people react in uninviting ways. You are a shitty person because of what you have done, not because people just "randomly" dislike you. If you firmly believe every single person on earth has hated you at one point or another, you need to look at what you've DONE instead of chalk it up to some weird victimizing "I'm the bad guy for being so cool and different and also in pain 24/7 and having so many deep emotional problems blah blah blah" Shut up. You're the bad guy because you do bad things and then don't take responsibility.

Your existence, your redemption arc, is just you whining that somehow, some way, the world has just decided you are evil on the inside and you've chosen to embrace that as a pathetic, pitiful, whiny, victimizing person. Because you'd rather make a fool out of yourself and act embarrassing by treating it like like you are a misunderstood fallen angel when most can see right through it, than to just be humbled for two seconds and learn from mistakes.

Because to be humbled means to deflate the huge ego that believes it to be superior and godlike compared to all other people.

You can't keep acting like the victim when you're trying to pretend you're humble.

Simultaneously, you can't act like you're not like this when you've got nothing to show for shit. What, you spend a while by yourself brooding and being depressed, passive aggressively posting stuff or acting super hype about yourself during really inappropriate moments as an "I don't need to be forgiven because I love myself" statement (or again, hyping yourself up as being a problem for superficial reasons, like how you look or your weight)? Then expect me to believe the years of you growing into a person who thinks of themself as a victim even in dire situations when being told to their face what's wrong with them- including unforgivable irredeemable actions that even someone like you can't feign ignorance on- is just gone and some wholesome, humble person has taken its place?

You can either be a victim to society or a savior to your own story while STILL having the victim complex, but either way you will never acknowledge your actual flaws, and that's more embarrassing than anything else you've done.

#Victim #Victim complex #mental health #mental illness #problems #To my ex #To my abuser #Manipulate #Manipulative #mental problems #Emotional abuse #Emotional #Abuse

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unhinged-ill-thoughts · 1 year

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"I wish you would actually choke on the blood you've pretended for so long to spill."

#Fake #Martyr #let me choke you #choke and die #Blood #abusers #To my ex #hatred #i hate them #spilled words #quote #emo

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