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When La Dispute said "And if I do not miss a part of you, a part of me is dead" I felt that.

#mental health #mental illness #bpd #vent #actually bpd #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline #bpd thoughts #la dispute #music #la dispute andria

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This is the life

(ignore how crusty my laptop is I'm BEGGING YOU.)

#mental health #mental illness #vent #stardew valley #stardew farmer #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #stardew memes #stardew valley memes

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having bpd is actual hell on earth cause no one tries to fucking understand you and they write you off as being difficult and too much and they leave and we’re left with this fucking personality disorder that consumes my entire fucking existence and they act like its THEIR inconvenience that IM ill.

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Having BPD is wishing the people who hurt you miss you like you miss them.

#mental health #mental illness #bpd #vent #actually bpd #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline #borderline culture is #bpd thoughts #bpd culture is #bpd problems

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Freedom Grey clouds above your head like angels wishing you peace, The shaking of the car feels new, You're getting home soon, boy. Grey clouds that open up like flowers for the sun, You can feel the heat of the sun inside your body, Are you scared to go home, boy? But still. You yearn for your home. Yearn for the walls that don't grip around your wrists and keep you in. Yearn for your neighbours you've never seen the faces of.  Yearn for your dusty room that keeps your secrets. The bland taste of your everyday home. A taste that keeps you real. A taste that is free. You're free, sweet boy.

(photo taken on my nintendo 3DS)

#mental illness #vent #mental health #poetry #poems #poems on tumblr #poems and poetry #writers on tumblr #writing #poetic #words words words #original poems #poetry on tumblr #poetry on life #poetry vent #vent poem

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Morbid's Intro ੈ✩‧₊˚

Hello! I'm Morbid, I'm currently 15 and also romanian. This blog is mostly just me oversharing and being depressed online lolz. But I'll probably post other things as well :3

✮ Interests

-Fandoms: Danganronpa, Sally face, Homestuck -Other: Writing/Poetry, Music, Art, Cosplay, Gaming, Toy collecting

✮ Diagnoses

-BPD (soon to be diagnosed) -Depression -EDNOS -Sensory issues -Tics

✮ DNI

Homophobes/Transphobes/Racists/etc, Pr0shippers (any kind please go away), NSFW blogs, Anti-recovery, cluster B demonizers + if I think you're weird I'll just block you

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Thank you for reading! Please reply if you want to be moots :3

#bpd #mental health #mental illness #actually bpd #emo #scene #vent #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #psychology #danganronpa #sally face #homestuck #poetry #writing #music #emo 2000s #moots #looking for moots #looking for mutuals #vent blog #vent tw #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline #tics and tourettes #sensory issues

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When you get overstimulated and suddenly death sounds like a good ideea!!!

#mental health #mental illness #vent #sensory issues #autism #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #autistic #autistic things #autistic experiences #actually bpd #bpd

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I don't overshare for attention. I overshare because I have no impulse control and poor boundaries ♡

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Nobody apologized for how they treated me they just blamed me for how I reacted

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Just a note about psychiatric hospital stays.

I think people who haven’t ever been before often misunderstand the purpose of a psychiatric hospital stay. I think people tend to think it is a place to go to get treatment, but it isn’t. 

Psychiatric hospital stays have one purpose–stabilization. They are not meant to provide long term treatment. They are meant for people in an acute crisis situation who cannot be safe on their own. They will keep you there only long enough to get you out of that crisis.

If you are looking for long term treatment and think you need a higher level of care than individual or group outpatient therapy, what you want to look for is Residential treatment. 

Inpatient (psych hospital) stays are usually between 3 and 14 days long at most. Residential stays are usually months long. Inpatient may or may not offer group therapy sessions. Residential will give you group therapy, process groups, individual therapy, psychiatry, and maybe more (like equine or art therapy). 

There are also other levels of care, such as partial hospitalization (PHP–think day program) and intensive outpatient (IOP–think lots of group therapy). 

Psych hospitals serve a very specific purpose and (although your milage may vary) are somewhat good at that one thing–keeping you physically safe in a time of crisis. But if you want actual treatment, you are probably not going to get it there. 

If you are in crisis and cannot keep yourself safe, by all means go to the ER! But if you are just desperate for longer term treatment that will help you get your life together and feel better long term, look into residential, PHP, or IOP. 

Good luck! Stay safe!

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How true

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"I love you more than anything" I love you more than I hate myself. The love I feel for you is so intense my body can't contain it. It makes me want to rip my organs out so that I can free the feeling. I love you so much I can feel my insides burn from the scorching happiness I get when i think of you.

#bpd #actually bpd #bpd vent #bpd thoughts #bpd fp #vent #mental health #mental illness #borderline #borderline personality disorder #favourite person #bpd feels

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Me when the thoughts emerge

#meme #vent meme #bpd #silly #real #dumb emoji #mental health #mental illness #mental health meme #i cant do this #i cant sleep

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suspected bpd culture is your fp effecting your mood constantly. fp says he isnt feeling good? now im not feeling good. fp says hes doing good? suddenly life is great and i feel amazing

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borderline personality disorder is known for making it hard for people to manage their emotional reactions. most of us with bpd were punished or shamed as a child for being emotional. our feelings & thoughts were never valid & we never learned how to control our emotions. since we never know what emotions or reactions are correct, we just end up with too much all at once & boil over. we were never able to understand if our feelings were correct in certain situations, which makes things much, MUCH harder.