#( bUT I COULDN'T HELP MYSELF )

[ehemrawr]

Brucie Baby

Based on this post and another one that i couldn't find that said bruce should wear one of those shirts with a bat boobwindow for halloween

https://www.tumblr.com/vodrae/736368075627200512/bruce-giving-it-all-to-get-the-brucie-batman

#brucie wayne #batman #dc #bruce's halloween costumes are always gonna be poorly done 'batman' dress up #my art #batfam #bat family #would battinson actually wear this? #no the man is a wet cat at best #but i couldn't help myself #the boys did not expect to find the polaroid in an old album alfred stashed away #oliver queen definitely took the picture #oliver queen was also dressed up as a slutty slutty green arrow right there with him

[little-pup-pip]

Hi may I please haz a luna moth agere board for a girl with no paci. Please feature coloring and soft things, too. Thanks.

Definitely!!

#luna moth #!!! #I'd never heard of them before this #they're so pretty #i think i may have gone overboard on the green #but i couldn't help myself #i know some of the things on there are butterflies but shhhh they're luna moths now #anyway i hope you like it #moodboard #sfw interaction only #sfw agere #age regression #agere #sfw littlespace #agere moodboard #tw bugs #tw moths #moths #moth moodboard #green moodboard

[hooked-on-elvis]

#elvis presley #circa 1956 #elvis #elvis the king #elvis fans #elvis fandom #elvis history #50s elvis #unfortunately i know no info -- shit #but i couldn't help myself #i needed to share this #new to me

[chawarin-panich]

Ray's mother, music and the barriers to his heart that Sand must overcome

TW: discussion of suicide This is building upon the shorter meta I wrote here about the Micro song that plays during Ray's suicide scene. The parallels between Ray's arc in falling for Sand and Mew are so overt that I was completely overlooking the person that Sand is really up against in Ray's wounded heart and who, I believe Mew is ultimately a proxy for - his dead mother. I go into a little bit about how Sand's affection for Ray can sometimes read as familial here and I think it's quite readily noticeable how Ray acts very childlike around Sand with his puppy dog eyes and constant wheedling. One thing I do want to note is that Ray doesn't particularly come off as childlike in any of his other interactions either with his friends or in his conversation with P'Yo except for perhaps that first night when he got drunk and told his friends how much he loved them and during the suicide scene when he cries wrapped up in Mew's arms, distraught by how his mother never loved him. I think Ray is the epitome of someone with a deeply wounded inner child and the only way he can ask for love is as a child, somewhat helplessly and appealing to people's caretaker/protective nature. The parent child relationship between Sand and Ray comes up a few times through the episodes. The earliest explicit acknowledgement as far as I can tell is here at the end of episode 2:

There's another explicit nod as to how their dynamic is set up within Sand performing acts of service for Ray in Ep 3:

Sand says he has been Ray's driver, drinking buddy, shrink and chef. Three of those things - driving him around, cooking for him and providing him emotional support are not just familial activities but activities you would normally do for a young child. Sand pointedly leaves out that they've had sex from this list of services. And yes, that's because Sand doesn't view sex as a service and if it was just this then it would be hard to make the point that I'm trying to make which is that Sand needs to fulfill that parental attachment need that Ray craves; give him that type of no strings, unselfish kind of love before he will ever be able to gain Ray's trust enough to be able to build a romantic relationship with him. So how is the show making this point? That Sand is replacing not just Mew but Ray's dead mother in his heart? Well, let's start with the two things that Ray's mother has left him with: 1) music and 2) her alcoholism. Ray's friends were all very surprised when Ray volunteers to arrange the music for the party. While that was more about Ray's lack of interest in taking responsibility (His now in restrospect gut wrenching 'I'm only good for spending money' line from Ep1 like ouch) but it also indicates that none of them really know or connect with Ray over his music. How can they?

Music is such a deeply personal part of him, that's where he keeps the love he holds for his mother; the love that is entirely grief - painful in its vastness, beautiful in its consistency. And the first thing Sand tells him to do is be grateful for it - her good taste in music. The second thing? Is to show him how to enjoy it:

The fact that he's taking his hand and Ray is half resisting it, the silliness of the gesture more than the touch itself but he's undeniably enjoying himself - It reads to me like the awkward, stilted movements of a childperson who doesn't know how to move their limbs when they're first being taught how to do something. And when you realize that the song that Ray plays for Sand in ep2 is the same one that is playing when he's taken the pills - the positive associations that Sand is making with Micro in Ray's life suddenly becomes monumental. This happens twice more in the show. Once, in the car when Sand ditches his date to drive them to Ray's house where they engage in a delightful flirtation around it, Ray singing badly while Sand eats it up complains about it

And again, at the night of the party when Ray tells Sand to play Micro for him and Sand like the simp that he is serenades him with it:

But their connection over music doesn't stop at teaching Ray to cherish and honor his past - and unknowingly the pains that are attached to it. No, Sand goes further to expand it, help Ray find a space for himself in music, carve a corner of it that isn't only pain, isn't only that moment of seeing his mother laid flat on that floor with a whiskey glass inches from her fingers.

When music is such an integral part of Ray's personality how else does one interpret this scene other than Sand telling Ray to move on, when Sand plays Selina and Sirinya for him because finding new music he likes is Sand's happiness how else do I interpret it as anything other than Sand teaching Ray how to be happy? What am I supposed to do but pull out my own hair when they're connecting over music, looking at each other like this:

And Sand will do it AGAIN - as the ep5 preview suggests - take Ray's hand and teach him how to enjoy contemporary music while Ray makes his awkward, adorable face where he's having fun in spite of himself. And the sheer amount of joy that Sand gets in seeing Ray like this is just - they're so insufferable:

But perhaps the most surprising (and delightful!) of all is this:

Ray taking his headphone off, interrupting this magical moment of being with Sand and the music, telling him he wants to be close to nature and drink beer - for the very first time Ray desires alcohol not as a means to destroy himself but as a vehicle of peace and of connection and I haven't been well since seeing it and understanding what it means. In many ways, Ray's mother is such a tragic character. I know nothing of this woman other than the three seconds I have seen of her dead and the frightful way she has driven her son to follow in her footsteps, to feel so unloved and unwanted. And yet she named him Ray Pakorn (pakorn meaning sun) - a ray of sunshine. Perhaps even, her ray of sunshine.

How can I truly believe that she never loved him?

I know Ray tells Mew that she never held him but he loves her so dearly, wants to be with her so desperately, she permeates every moment of his life so thoroughly that the loneliness she left behind isn't a gaping emptiness but the festering carcass of a love so profound and full to bursting that Ray keeps trying to give it away, keeps trying to love his friends, keeps trying to save them and aches in the way that he finds no recipient for it.

People wonder what Sand sees in Ray, why he would fall for him. But Ray is a creature made entirely of love, soft still in the way he lets it rule his life, innocent in the way that he asks for it, precious in the way that he gives it away - How can Sand be anything but desperately in love with him?

#ofts meta #sandray meta #only friends meta #ofts #sandray #only friends the series #ofts ray #ofts sand #nani's hot takes #i spent so long on it please don't let it flop #but also its so long so i dont blame you #but i couldn't help myself #ray is an open wound in my heart #i do nothing but think about him #long post

[quietparanoiac]

— I do love nothing in the world so well as you! Is not that strange? — As strange as the thing I know not. It were as possible for me to say I loved nothing so well as you. But believe me not. And yet I lie not.

Much Ado About Nothing (2011)

#Much Ado About Nothing #Much Ado About Nothing 2011 #William Shakespeare #Benedick x Beatrice #Catherine Tate #David Tennant #my gifs #can you hear me howling #yes I suppose this dialogue has been giffed a thousand times #but I couldn't help myself #Benedick you fool what exactly have you done in precanon I wonder

[heldenherzchen]

"why are you dressed like a police officer?" — "because i am one?"

#hot fuzz #danny butterman #my art #i finally got to finish danny!!!!! #🙏🏻 #i might have put too much on it lmao #but i couldn't help myself #i love him so much #😭💖 #i also wanted to include the monkey but i couldn't for the life of me draw one that didn't look like crap lmao #so yeah #i kinda wanna do skinner next??? #idk what do we think??? #hmm 🤔

[waterphoenix21]

"save Cole from the goblin"

Screw that. Let my boy Cole date whoever he wants

#ninjago #cole ninjago #lostshipping #geo x cole #I know Geo isn't actually a goblin #but i couldn't help myself #lego should really make a Geo minifigure #and their kids

[kissatoru]

hellooo have this sneak peak while i lament over how fucking long this fic is turning out to be

#god this fic has me in a chokehold #i feel like i'm cheating on armin with how much of my writerussy is going into this #(armin bbg i swear i'll get your oneshots done too<3) #but i couldn't help myself #i discovered a concept and not only ran with it i did the whole fucking marathon and then some #like dear lord let me rest but also i will not know peace until i finish this #sub eren #eren x reader #eren smut #( ★ ) blah blah blah.

[oldmisfortune]

The General on a well-deserved break✨

Clothing design by @willows-arts please check them out!!

#my art #jing yuan #hsr #fanart #this was supposed to just be a sketch #but I couldn't help myself #i am still haunted by this design #🤡🤡🤡 #artists on tumblr

[dathomirdumpsterfire]

#this is terrible #but i couldn't help myself #maul's got fashion sense #granted it's like 'void of black robes #with enough pleats to make a tailor cry #but it's fine #who's going to tell him no? #also feral is smooth talker #change my mind #and savage is a bitch sometimes #re: rolling his eyes at spidermaul crying in the cargo hold #brothers are like that tho #savage opress #darth maul #star wars #feral opress #nightbrothers #dathomir #zabrak #sith #sw memes #dumpsterfire memes #dumpsterfire content

[klysanderelias]

It's always funny to me when a big-name youtuber argues vociferously that souls-like games DO have a difficulty setting, it's Playing The Game Right (leveling, build, using summons, etc), and then later on in the same video will have a fifteen minute long section complaining about how certain boss fights completely invalidate certain builds or require you to drastically alter your style of play, and i'm like... I thought you were in FAVOR of this.

And of course they're not, they just don't understand what a difficulty setting IS anymore, and that's completely fair because I think that most DEVELOPERS don't either, but it means that the criticism they make is always couched in a fundamental misunderstanding of the thing they're trying to criticise (and also usually a complete misunderstanding of where the criticism comes from).

And I want to be clear, I've beaten basically every single Dark Souls game, I beat bloodborne, I played shitloads of elden ring and the reason I didn't beat it was because I got bored, and I've done speedruns and soul level 1 runs of dark souls 3. I'm pretty much the dark souls power player that everyone expects would argue AGAINST having difficulty options.

But.

I've been playing thousands of hours of battletech, and the battletech difficulty screen has been the singlehandedly biggest argument I've had change my mind.

In the game, Battletech modifies difficulty per mission by changing the total health of enemies, changing their skills and experience levels, the usual fare of difficulty curves (although damage is never affected, thank god). But having all these granular options can dramatically change the way the game is played without simply affecting health values or hit percentages.

Toggling mech destruction and lethality means that losing a mech in a mission or having a pilot be knocked unconscious removes them permanently. They're killed, destroyed, you need to go get a new one. That's a HUGE change from the base difficulty where having a mech be completely destroyed in combat just removes the weapon components and costs a ton to repair. Likewise, changing the number of parts required to buy or salvage in order to complete a mech DRAMATICALLY changes the game - the maximum amount of parts you can get from a single mech is 3, and usually you only get 1. Needing 3 parts means that if you're lucky, you could see a brand new mech in a mission, blow its head off, and get one for free. Moving that scale up both means that rare or expensive mechs take much much longer to earn, but also that replacing mechs takes much longer (meaning that losses are even more painful).

Like, every single one of these options can dramatically affect how you play the game or change the feel of it to something much more interesting to you as a player - do you want to play a rogue-like game where you have to save and scrounge to get new mechs, and each mech and pilot is a precious resource you have to protect? or do you want to powerscale fast and constantly get new mechs and rare weapons?

And like, having extremely granular options for gameplay isn't for everyone, but then again, there are the owlcat pathfinder CRPGs that do this same thing, but have a base 'easy-normal-hard' sort of slider that automatically selects certain options, and you can adjust them if you want. If you're not interested in going through each slider you can just say 'I'd like normal please' and the game automatically makes all the selections, but you can also stop and say 'hey actually let me turn on permadeath too' and you can do that.

And I think that when people think about difficulty, they think about the most basic 'health and damage adjustments' sliders, and not ANYTHING else that actually have much more of an impact. I will hit this point to my grave that dark souls would massively benefit from difficulty options like turning off instakill effects (like curse or petrification) or removing the harsh penalty of dying when you can't get back to your bloodstain because a) that's often what drive new players off the most, and b) it doesn't fuckin' matter anyway, all you're losing is souls, the only thing it does is make you have to go grind more to make up for it.

And of course, there are always EXTRA challenge runs people come up with - nuzlocke runs of pokemon, soul level 1 runs of dark souls, hell, when I do Battletech I often add additional challenges like 'no intentional destruction of civilian buildings' or 'each mech must be assigned to a pilot and if one of them is sidelined, so is the other'

But challenge runs aren't difficulty settings, and more importantly there's no way to unchallenge run a game. You can decide to make the game harder for yourself, but you can't make the game EASIER. And when people say that you can, they're lying to you. Like yeah, there builds that are very strong in dark souls, and leveling optimally will make the game easier, but if you don't know what optimal leveling looks like, it's pointless. If you have a deep and thorough understanding of the game, and you check the messageboards, and delve through the wiki, and use a couple of exploits, the game will be easy! And if it's still too hard for you after that? Well, go fuck yourself, you just spent hours of your life doing research only to give up on the game anyway.

And the truth is, most people who argue that dark souls shouldn't have a difficulty slider are doing it out of bad faith, because they have a certain amount of ego riding on 'being good at hard game' as a character trait, and making these games more accessible frightens them because what if being good at dark souls isn't actually getting them into heaven

but also because they're somehow afraid that having extra difficulty options in the game will tempt them into choosing them? And then they won't get the 'true experience'?

Gamers are some of the most fragile people in existence that the mere option of reducing difficulty sends them into hysterics.

#dark souls #battletech #elden ring #i'm swinging at the hornet's nest I know #but I couldn't help myself #i had joseph anderson's video on elden ring in the background and I had to stop it when he said that shit #because it's so prevalent among game youtubers now #and it's the most vocal and highlighted members of the community saying it #so it's going to keep being treated like a maxim of gaming #that making games easier is terrible #and I'm just like. I'm too old for this shit. I can't spend a hundred hours on this game. #I'm not interested in having to redo this fight again #which is why I stopped playing elden ring honestly #because I kind of like spending an hour or two learning a fight #but then if the boss is reused FIVE MORE TIMES

[toffeebrew]

i also find ink sans perception of others sooo interesting. cause I don't see it as like evil or anything. he views others in a very similar way we creators do. Its not like impassionate or uncaring. He gets giddy and excited like we do. I think an "au fangirl" is the best way to describe it. (i swore comyet described him as that once but I can't remember). hes like... a interdimensional cheerleader.

He just connects with others like you would your favorite character. Sure, you like them, maybe you like them alot! but you probably don't see them as like...as human as you right? I don't think he gets enjoyment or likes their suffering. But them their suffering is the equivalent of what we see on tv show. So yeah he probably will care more for the fact that he literally ceases to have a personality without them. he doesn't like... care about them on the deep level or sees them as human (or skeletons? in this case).

I mean, why would he it view if differently? if you knew there's hundreds of versions of pretty much the same guy existed, would you? If you knew they were just a bunch of code, would you? That's not evil, its understandable im my opinion. How are you supposed to connect with others when you literally have always been an outcode? He's about as evil as we are, in that regard.

this is not to say other sanes perspectives are bad, just ink's is just as understandable as others? understandable doesn't mean good, im just saying it's a reasonable thought process given his life experiences.

honestly this yappage is sorta for me to understand his character as well. they say write what you know right?

#this may be something thats been talked about before #idk #toffeesbabbles #and im not saying it's evil what we do either #but no actually just saying our perspectives are similar #so i think its unfair to call him evil #ig #🤷 #its also like...super late #so my brain is mush low-key #hopefully this makes sense #this was meant to only be a paragraph #but i couldn't help myself #also i always have to edit out the “i thinks” #eugh #ink sans

[koorinokujira]

Transformers thoughts that wouldn't leave me alone - Forgotten melodies of eld

I have a bit of a tendency to overthink my favorite media and make strange associations with other things, and Transformers is no different right now. Those robots are spinning in my head like leftover pasta in a microwave. Anyhow, last night I was thinking about Cybertronian music.

(Ramble incoming! Also I might get stuff wrong, I am still fairly new in the fandom, after all. So please, forgive my potential ignorance.)

Now, there usually isn't that much lore on it from what I've seen, which absolutely sucks and I need more. What I've also noticed is that there often seems to be more of a focus on the musical instruments (which I also definitely need more lore on), rather than vocals. And hoo boy do I have thoughts about that specificallly.

Cybertronians have voice boxes, right? And considering their mechanical anatomy, it's pretty safe to say that they can hold on for way longer than our vocal cords. After all, it's not like a computer or its speakers start breaking down after a few hours of music being played continuously. Of course, such a voice box would be more complex, and there are definitely some more unique ways for it to break or damage, but... I generally like to think they are pretty durable when they are used for speech or song. Which brings me to the concept which I decided to call "mechanical elves", or something to that effect.

Now, what does that even mean? It's simple; I was inspired by the portrayal of elven music in various fantasy media, like J. R. R. Tolkien's works. Songs that reach the deepest parts of your soul in an ancient, ellegant language, voices that sing heartwrenching ballads for hours on end about tragedies that happened millennia ago. And I thought... wouldn't that work for Cybertron? Or at least, Cybertron in its beginnings?

You have a race of giant, mechanical beings, many of which have lived for millions of years. And they do love their music, even if we often have no idea what it's like and get only snippets from their culture. You have people like Blaster, who is literally nicknamed "The Voice" in the IDW1 comics and uses his voice to inspire his fellow Autobots, among other things. Just their voice boxes alone have so much potential, and that just makes me feel stuff, honestly.

Why wouldn't they sing for incredible amounts of time without stopping, at least when the times weren't so complicated just yet?

Did the first Cybertronian who ever hummed a melody feel so much joy that he simply kept going and couldn't stop, before excitedly teaching others? When a friendship started to feel more than it already was, did the night start with a passionate serenade sung by a singular voice, which, as the hours went by, turned into a duet full of affectionate words to one another? When a Cybertronian died for the first time, did his brothers sing for his memory, and to survive the sorrow as they had no tears to weep?

Mechanical voices crying out in raw emotion to let the world know they're there, only for others to answer. Languages and dialects no longer spoken, beautifully haunting melodies long forgotten. And as the time went on, the world started to get more and more quiet, before the old compositions finally gave way to the new ones. Perhaps the Titans who yet live still remember a few notes or words once sung.

All that's left of the beginnings now is a requiem doubling as an ode to hope.

Its words?

"'Til all are one."

#alright alright this turned from a headcanon to a story real quick #but i couldn't help myself #i value music as a form of expression quite a bit #and the idea of ancient forgotten music just GETS me okay #let the robots make art and tell us more about it #i would literally pay to have a mini-series dedicated to pre-war cybertron and its culture #transformers #transformers hc #transformers headcanon #maccadam #transformers analysis #kinda(?)

[mrs-monaghan]

Y’all, the level of jikook this year.. we might be starving for weeks and months on end but then one of them drops a bomb and leaves us speechless 😳🤯 i’m not ready for what they could share after MS i swear this glass closet is going to be even more transparent dayuuum good for them!!

I hear u anon. But I'm over here giggling at the Jikook karma. 🤭

I vaguely seem to remember something about JK appearing in V's album?

You-know-who just couldn't shut up about tkk promoting together.

Something about Bon voyage Taekook?

Then there was another thing about JK reacting and hyping all of Layover?

And let's not even get started on how much they gloated that Jkk weren't seeing eo only for that narrative to be thrown out the window 😂 And boy was it thrown out!

I feel like this list is longer but that would just make me hella petty.

Anygays, there's that Jikook what?

#bahahahahahahahaha! #jikook karma #i tried #but i couldn't help myself #ask shaz #bts ask #the shade #Taekook is not real #jikook #kookmin #minkook #jimin and jungkook #bts #jimin #jungkook

[luimagines]

It is I, the Wizard!

I have an idea I'd like to share!

A Link reader who unfortunately had to give up their life to stop Ganon, and their spirit lingers on because they feel like they've failed those around them, their grandpa/parental figure, Zelda, the whole kingdom of Hyrule. They may have taken down Ganon, but at what cost?

Imagine the chain entering their Hyrule, realizing that this place isn't any of their Hyrules and earning from townsfolk that the ghost of the hero walks the earth at night in the ruins of castle town and its forest, in pain and suffering because of what Ganon had done. The chain meeting the grieving grandpa/parental figure who makes a comment about how much the boys look like the child they had raised.

Imagine them exploring the ruins of castle town and the palace and hearing the weeping echos of someone and getting a glance at a ghostly figure, clad in green, weeping at their failed before vanishing.

I- Hello!?!??!?!

Making Link a cryptid?!?! Or an urban legend??

Well- I take that back. I guess a little more time would of had to have passed for it to be considered urban legend.

Like- "Oh sure, my Grandpa told me himself that he knew the hero." "And they say that the hero's spirit still lingers to this day, protecting travelers and the innocent from the dangers of the fields."

....Hold on, wouldn't that like... give Link a god like status?

Think about it, if more time passed with lines/stories like that isn't that just as much to a deity as any other?

#pinky replies #anon headcanons #not at all what you had in mind #but i couldn't help myself

[heretherebedork]

He named his duckling Baby Duck, is autistic, loves croissants, has a habit of speaking in the third person, and a protection squad at the fucked up boarding school he's been sent to that he definitely deserves. He is Pennhung and he is love. Protect this boy at all costs and please let him come out the best in the end.

#home school #home school series #home school the series #thai drama #thai series #gmmtv #pennhung #actually autistic character #i love him so much #iguessitsjustme made the same meme #but i couldn't help myself #this boy is my baby