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goldentsum · 4 years

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━ jealousy

REQUESTS: (seperately) bokuto, hinata, and akaashi x jealous s/o. say that she isn’t a very jealous person to begin with but there’s another girl who seemed to have taken a liking to the boys and she doesn’t like it. add some angst if you will :) hopefully ends with some fluff.

🎕 asked by: nonnie 🎕

CHARACTERS: bokuto koutarou, hinata shouyou, and akaashi keiji

GENRE: angst, fluff

AUTHOR’S NOTE: i don’t know if i did it right but D: i’m rlly active rn cus im excited idk why-- also hinata has a lot of dialogue in this one

━ bokuto ♡

bokuto is a jealous baby owl and you know it,, know it too well... he gets pouty if your attention is elsewhere even for a minute!

you, on the other hand, is as cool as a cucumber. well, that what it looks like anyway.

you get jealous quite a lot, to be honest, but your pride won’t live if you show it so you just try to shrug it off every time

but when kou gets a little too much attention it pisses you the fuck off

you get snappy and your mood is down for the day but kou is always on his way to make it better~

the baby owl may be oblivious but when the topic is about you, he pays attention to your every movement and to what makes you tick

so when someone!! a person you hate because of their flirty attitude and rude remarks gets a little too close to your baby--

oh, it's about to go down!

you’re in the cafeteria sitting on one of the free tables, waiting for your hyperactive baby owl, when you see a certain someone clinging to Bokuto and pressing their chest against his arm

aND WHAT PISSES YOU OFF MORE IS THE OBLIVIOUS SMILE ON BOKUTO’S FACE

you turned around and looked at the juice box you bought for bokuto and grabbed it roughly, stabbing the straw to drink it yourself

you knew how popular bokuto was and how ‘plain’ you were but it still hurt when people never respecting bo’s personal space and your relationship as you two were publicly open with your relationship

akaashi, who was lagging behind bokuto, saw this and quickly rescued the dense captain making a certain someone whines about it but akaashi paid no mind and dragged bo away and towards your table

“hey, babe!”

you looked at him and rolled your eyes, scoffing a little with the straw still on your mouth as you proceed to ignore him

bokuto’s eyes widen at that and sat closer to you, leaning closer and putting his head on your shoulder, nuzzling at you.

this usually makes you break but nope, your pride said nope and you ate lunch with bo pouting and whining to you. akaashi who watched the whole scene sighed.

the next time you saw bokuto was at dismissal with him racing to your classroom the moment the bell rang. he went inside when your teacher dismissed you and waited on the side for you even though you were ignoring him. but what slightly shocked you was the serious face he has on.

when everyone else was gone and you were about to go to, bokuto grabbed your hand and made you stay

“what’s wrong? please talk to me...” He whispered, hugging you close to his body.

you pouted at that, the gesture cracking your cold demeanor quickly. you sighed and hugged back the sweet boy.

“i’m sorry for ignoring you, kou...”

you felt his smile on your skin making you smile too

“It’s okay but please explain...”

his innocent words and eyes made you shy. maybe you overreacted a little bit but your ego is too big sometimes

you averted your eyes and looked at your shoes, bokuto’s arms still around you.

“cus... you let (h/n) touch you and you were smiling too!”

you whined a bit, looking up at him. his surprised expression then turned into relief and he started laughing

“who knew you were the jealous type too, (Y/n)!”

you pouted and hid your face on his chest,

“shut up... i’m human too, ya know... and you’re not one to talk, you’re the one who always gets jealous..”

“That’s cus my girlfriend is too pretty and too many guys have their eyes on you!”

you scoffed playfully at that, not having the energy to remind bokuto that those guys were just asking for some notes or something to you, knowing well that it would brew into bokuto pulling up his ‘facts’ and arguments on you again that those guys were unto something...

“shut up, you owl”

“your owl~”

━ hinata ♡

this small bean is also one of the easily jealous type and he creates a safe and danger distance around you in his mind

there’s only a certain distance a guy can come close to you and if that line gets crossed, he goes pROTECTIVE MODE

tanaka and noya are proud of their pupil as they watch him circle around you like a rabid dog or crow?

he is always with you! ALWAYS! And he always buys you some cold drink or if you don’t bring lunch, he lets you share his bento with the courtesy of his mother as he asks her to make a bigger lunch for him when he knew that you don’t really bring your own lunch.

so when it was lunchtime and hinata was nowhere in sight, that worries you a LOT

you run to the courtyard where you two usually hangs out with kageyama but was surprised to only see Kageyama and his milk box

jogging up to the tall male and you asked him about shoyou and you heard an answer you were not expecting to hear

“some fancy pink letter asked him to go to the rooftop, it said that they wanted to say something to that tangerine”

(y/n).exe has stopped working

kageyama looked at you with a quirked brow, still sipping on the milk box, he poked you with a curious look

“why did you let him go, you idiot!” you said, surprising kageyama who pouted and glared at you

“why the hell are you yelling? he’s just meeting someone!”

“you dense blueberry!” you shouted and hit kageyama on the shoulder with a light scowl

kageyama was about to retort when a familiar childish growling caught his attention as you both looked at the side and saw a glaring hinata racing towards you two at a fast rate

“why you kageyama--! don’t get too close to my girlfriends!”

hinata slotted himself between you two and started bickering with the tol blueberry

you sighed at the scene in front of you and a light pink object caught your attention. there it was, a pink chocolate bar in hinata’s hand as he waved it around, trying to punch kageyama.

you frowned at it and started walking away, leaving kageyama and hinata at the courtyard. hiding from hinata, you ate lunch in the bathroom stall as icky feelings start to grow.

after lunch, you quickly run to your classroom wanting to avoid seeing hinata at the moment

but luck wasn’t at your side when Hinata dragged you off and got inside the janitor’s closet with you.

“hinata, what are you doing! lunch is already finished, i’m gonna be late for class!”

you tried to leave the small room but hinata closed the door when you tried to open it

“no! you left me with kageyama all lunch break!”

“i-i had a stomach ache and went to the nurse’s office--”

“i went there too, you weren’t in there”

an awkward silence filled the small room while you looked at hinata with surprise

“i-it doesn’t matter--”

“It does matter! If you feel the need to lie to me then it’s a big matter!” hinata said, frowning at you

you sighed and let hinata hold your hand

“please tell me what’s wrong”

“i heard you got confessed to”

hinata blew a fuse at that and started waving his hands furiously, “h-how’d you know?! i didn’t accept it, i promise--!”

“you didn’t?”

hinata stopped for a moment and looked at you, eyebrows furrowing

“yeah, i got myself the best girlfriend... why would i wanna change that?”

you went closer to Hinata, letting your body hit his and hugged him

“i-i’m sorry... it’s just that, i thought you would find someone better and leave me...”

“I WOULD NEVER! You’re the best girlfriend in the whole wide world, (Y/n)!”

“You’re the best boyfriend too, little tangerine”

━━ akaashi ♡

let’s be real here, you’re definitely the jealous one in the relationship. I mean having a boyfriend who’s too pretty to comprehend and easily attracts a lot of attention can make you like that. but you hide it pretty well, well most of the time anyway...

akaashi always ALWAYS pays attention to you and knows everything that can trigger you to become sad, angry, jealous, and happy

he always makes sure that you’re always fine and happy, that you’re comfortable and content

we stan the perfect boyfie 🥺

bUT he can be quite dense sometimes when it’s not about you or volleyball.. fUKURODANI PPL ARE DENSE

girls would always flock his classroom before you can get there, snacks and treats in their hands to give it to akaashi and being the petty little gremlin that you are, you were pouty

akaashi sighed because it’s always either you were pouty or bokuto is and sometimes the worst-case scenario happened where both of you are pouty at the sAME TIME!

akaashi= Mom Daddy

you reached our final form of pouty when you saw a certain someone a bitch dragged akaashi to talk to him or whatever and being the curious thing you are, you followed them and hid behind the vending machine, listening to their convo

“you know, your girlfriend is cheating on you, right?”

wHY THAT BITCH! She just lied like it’s her common language wtf!

you prayed that your baby boo won’t believe her cus YOU ARE NOT CHEATING ON HIM! why tf would you cheat on him when you hit the jackpot? tf

“and you must know that spreading rumors and lies about a person can take you off the first string in the track team right?”

oOF--! YOUR BOYFIE REALLY POPPED OFF HUH

you snickered behind your hands, listening to the lying snake stutter a complain but akaashi cut her off

“if this is all then I’m going now but if i hear any rumor circling around (y/n), i won’t hesitate to take action myself.”

the snake scoffed at that and walked away, stomping

there was silence for a moment but then keiji called out, surprising you

“i know you’re here, (y/n)”

you stiffened at that and moved away from your hiding spot while coming up with excuses

“i-i wasn’t doing anything! she just dragged you off so i followed--!”

akaashi smiled softly at you, walking closer and patted your head gently making you feel flustered.

“i know, let’s go? you must be hungry”

“you won’t leave me for her, right, keiji?”

akaashi shook his head at your question, a small smile on his face and looked at you, letting his hand fall and held your smaller hand in his

“it’s not like you’ll let me leave”

“HEY! you make it seem like i’m holding you as a hostage or something!”

“hmm”

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mbrinnon35 · 2 years

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Whole new meaning

Strange war going on

Chemical commercial substance

Anyways when should There be a draft day and release the multiples of content on this account

Damn after shuffling cutting, somehow deleting self nomifiers has jumped on the bandwagon in a different shape but more than than different before I can’t say just noticeable

Another app

Draws me like a long time lovers gaze

Enpty

Change is atom splitting speed

Maverick racing laps in the slick track

When nylon grips rock

Heavy bodies timber

Leaning tower of pizza

I am in this video game

I knew it would fall out and back

Sigh

And again

Bloodcurdling screams in the empty corridor

How is nobody scared

Singing will swap

But how is the action supposed to be morally done

I lose my mind I can’t continue playing

And the pain are the samë

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Curse with a cross

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Run from speed guy

Feline

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Life is a fucking medieval story line

The dragon

The girl

Yeah

The fire

The gamble

The love

The jester

The jousting

The poison

The armour

Everything seems so meaningless because it’s like it’s going to happen again

Do you c what I mean

I guess I can keep traveling a bit further

Holding a cyclops hand

Error guy was tryna write cucumber lmao

Or cup

Or cut

Idk

Look over the horizon and (helz) why doesn’t my phone just output both stories at the same time

The one it’s changing and the one and the one

I guess there’s so many don’t know where’d it end or begin

So 1

Whatever I mean compared to

Fuck it

I give up

Or in

Or out

It a rest

But didn’t

I mean it a chance

I mean over

I mean next

Yeah

U diamon

Damn ima lose so hard

Still don’t wanna be here

The substance through it all (not though when you split dimensions)

At Epworth we all committed suicide 1 time per day

They let us

Even set it up for us

To fall

Just like what we were doing

The cover up story is ill

Damn

Got to use it

Trigger

Light in the dark

We shine

Drying in the fire

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No fun

No love

My lungs

Need drugs

Rubber blunts

Fucking hunt

Rolled the stone

Cromasome

Where did the beauty go

How did it get so ugly

There’s gold flowing through my melting furnace structure

Where are you

I can’t handle all these heart flaps

Jumping through Mario looking pipes

It is on a hundred few trains all going up to the clouds

A roller coaster just to save an s

Even though output

Leaks

I’m so deep soepte feet

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I can’t let you go

But you gon always be here

How can you become an idol

Such a subtle transition

I never noticed until after

Bad morals

So fatally flawed

Disentefratin my muscles and ideas

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expression-in-its-essence · 4 years

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The Goldfinch movie.

7 min 26 secs in : Why the fuck did they start the movie like that. Why didn't the explosion take place? Theo's mom's apartment? His anxiety? Also.. why do they keep cutting the scenes abruptly? They ain't tweets... No limit.. then??

8 min 2 sec in : Okay they went to the apartment. Audrey's sweater deserved more screen time. The lipstain on the mug in focus *chef's kiss* poetic cinema!

9 min 19 sec in : Do you see what I see? Tom Cable's face has a stark resemblance to Boris's face. Did Theo have a crush on him?

9 min 54 sec in : Mr Barbour's hand is shaking. I like that they put it in there. He was sick. Nice. (I'd imagined Audrey's apartment building entrance like they showed the Barbour's apartment building entrance. Wild.)

11 min 8 sec in : Don't shove it into his face that y'all are fancy okay? He's not used to that life style. He didn't have maids making his bed. ARE YOU GIVING HIM DRUGS, MRS BARBOUR? But you just glared at your husband for offering him the same sort of thing?? Oh God. Poor child. "it's perfectly understandable" my ass. You gave him meds just because your sleep was getting affected.

14 min 39 sec : Woah woah woah Theo wtf you're so smol how'd you do that? Also... Again. The frame of Theo and Tom standing close and Theo and Boris standing close when they kissed, Theo is wearing the same damn sweater.

16 min 58 sec in : Ayyyy Jeffery Wright!

20 min 33 sec in : "He drank a lot", Theo about his dad. Honey just wait up, you will too. (The grilled sandwich and the cute lil smile 😍 also this is the first time since the movie started that Oakes' voice isn't deep.)

23 min 54 sec in : Wizard of Oz poster, I see you!

24 min 19 sec in : I love how Oakes is expressing being caught off guard. Theo knows he did something bad and every time he's dealing with something he didn't expect to deal with, he's like OMG THEY KNOW ABOUT THE PAINTING AND IM FUCKED even if no one knows.

25 min 1 sec in : The glasses made a difference. He went from mature to cute. Angry bird to angry birb.

25 min 44 sec in : Another sweater? Or was this THE sweater of Audrey? (Off topic but Oakes is hella cute. I could murder anyone who hurts him.)

29 min 9 sec in : Pippa doesn't remember or doesn't wanna remember? There was something in her eyes that was hard to read. Also, why doesn't anyone say 'I'm sorry about your mom' to Theo? Do Americans not care? It's weird to see no response when he tells people that Audrey is dead.

31 min 17 sec in : "The Goldfinch, destroyed"? Then why is Theo upset. Good riddance. Oh yeah. I know why. It's Donna Tartt we're talking about.

32 min 39 sec in : Hobie just casually predicting the future. "It's only fake if you pass it on as an original". Theo's like, "noted, gonna do exactly that".

34 min 16 sec in : Why does Theo write like a five year old child? That's toddler handwriting! And omg all the Andy-prom-dress memes are making sense now. (Also did I mention that Mrs Barbour seems more selfish in the film than she does in the book. Like hey I'm putting up with this kid because he helps my kid. He's serving a purpose for me. What the hell.) (How old is Andy anyway? He looks younger than Theo. I think he's different. Didn't grow up like other kids. That was mentioned in the book right?)

35 min 20 sec in : Ayyy Hobie's earring!

35 min 49 sec in : He shopped for himself? Nice! Didn't know kids could shop without adult supervision in the West. (Because they can't in the East.)

35 min 50 sec in : Ayyyy Sarah Paulson! Damn she's hot. How can you dislike her? *heart eyes*

37 min 30 sec in : I can't bring myself to hate Luke Wilson since Skeleton Twins but SHUT THE FUCK UP LARRY! AUDREY DESERVED BETTER. Look at how Larry and Xandra are looking at the place like they're vultures.

39 min 34 sec : They got the airport scene right. STOP GIVING HIM DRUGS WTH IS WRONG WITH THE ADULTS IN THIS MOVIE!

41 min 12 sec in : Ayyy Popper!!!!!

43 min 27 sec in : It just dawned on Theo that he's alone. Oh god. My poor baby.

45 min 12 sec in : Let me take this moment to say that Ashleigh Cummings is pretty. And I finally get why y'all were pissed at the non linear storyline and the weird voiceovers. Guess I'd been prepared for that so it didn't really suck that much.

49 min 30 sec in : I'd imagined Boreo reunion like the Platt Theo reunion. In the day. Dang it. Also... Adult Platt Barbour was not supposed to be good looking? In the book?

55 min 34 sec in : Without context, none of it could make sense. Apologies to whoever didn't read the book beforehand. Crowley fucked this up.

58 min in : Ayyyy Finn Wolfhard! BORIS IS HERE AND IM SO EXCITED IDK WHY

1 hour in : It's such a Boris thing to leave the bag unzipped.

1 hour 3 min 20 sec in : Slumdog Millionaire's Jai Ho (2008) is playing in the background. The only song that I've recognized so far. Wow. Lets me know about the time setting. Nice.

1 hr 3 min in : Someone gif " That cost twenty dollars!" *Stare* "That would have cost twenty dollars!"

1 hr 8 min in : So Boris's room is exactly like I had imagined but Theo's room isn't. Boris just mentioned Kotku though.

1 hr 9 min 14 sec in : Isn't it hella hot in Vegas? Why are they wearing sweaters? Or does drug intake make you more vulnerable to the environment?

1 hr 10 min 15 sec in : Xandra Theo argument : gold. "Cocktail sausages that you like." I wanna laugh in Crowley's face. What was he thinking?? Omg I'm dying.

1 hr 11 min 17 sec in : The slap sound didn't work??

1 hr 13 min 53 sec in : I like serious Boris better.

1 hr 14 min in : The slum house Audrey dream thing was not in the book. That's an entirely new addition.

1 hr 18 min 26 sec in : The Welty Theo scene is awesome. The sound effects work. I feel suffocated. The ambulance noise fiasco is also nicely pulled off. (also Theo's Yellow bag was dirty af then how did it get all clean when he didn't even do anything to it?)

1 hr 20 min 57 sec in : Shhhh Potter.

1 hr 22 min in : Holy shit he got slapped twice!! Ouch! And Larry's audacity to tell Theo to stop with the crying?? Good thing he died. Asshole.

1 hr 25 min in : "You don't tell me a lot of things but that's okay". I see what you did there, Boris. Which was of course, I love you.

1 hr 26 min in : "Act normal" - Theo knows his way around drugs pretty well, doesn't he?

1 hr 30 min in : "No family No friends" line punched me in the face. (Also awww popchik's excuse was the last resort for Boris to make Theo stay.)

1 hr 31 min 17 sec in : That pause after "What do you have to tell me?". You can clearly see Boris struggling to hold something back. Which was of course, I love you.

1 hr 31 min 34 sec in : What the fuck is that music? Oh heyyyyyy they kissed!-- he fucking runs away?? Also what kind of a kangaroo runs like that? (Yes, the taxi driver watched. I don't have to wonder anymore.) (They didn't address why he took the bus instead of flying?)

1 hr 33 min in : I didn't imagine Welty's room like that at all. Also why doesn't Hobie seem happy to see Theo again?

1 hr 35 min in : Longer stretches of one storyline are kinda bearable. From drugs in storage unit to waking up beside Kitsey. We got Vegas and Young Theo. Nice. (Also, who the heck puts jewelry in shoes? Is Theo that dumb? And now I can't think of anything else than Boris piercing his ear for the emerald earring. Tumblr has fucked it up bad.)

1 hr 43 min in : They nailed the Kitsey Theo confrontation.

1 hr 44 min in : Ayyy Ozma of Oz!

1 hr 48 min in : I noticed it before but I wasn't sure... Now I am. Pippa has Welty's ring. On her finger. At all times. (also, is NYC always that noisy? Must suck to walk on the roads.)

1 hr 52 min 23 sec in : They nailed the Theo Pippa date. What's that song playing in the background? I want the name. It's almost like two hours and I still haven't seen Aneurin Barnard once. Why! (Jerome's mentioned in the movie btw.)

1 hr 52 min 51 sec in : Complained too soon. Boris is sat in the dark doing god knows what. My man Aneurin is here!

1 hr 53 min 37 sec in : BOREO REUNIONNNNNN - no don't look at me like that I only watched it thrice.

1 hr 56 min in : Boris saying "it's someone else" with a knowing look and Theo looking at him. The frickin yearning.

1 hr 57 min in : Boris is like you're unhappy, I'm here, we're both rich, let's f*ck. "We could"... What are you suggesting dude he's repressed!

1 hr 58 min in : "you unwrapped it and showed it to me." So many meanings. The heart, the love the soul... Wow. Good for you, screen play writers! ( It's kinda hilarious how Boris got mad at Theo for never quote unquote fucking opening it.)

2 hr 1 min in : I'm calling it. They're going to fuck up the Theo Hobie confrontation. They put it on the wrong time. And they also fucked up the text from the book.

2 hr 5 min 48 sec in : Even Platt is saving his sister's face. Also where did Todd go? Did he never grow up? I wish Mrs Barbour didn't use Theo like she did.

2 hr 7 min in : The frame where Boris is between Kitsey and Theo. Chef's kiss.

2 hr 10 min 54 sec in : *intense music playing* Boris put his leg up on the table and I burst into laughter THOSE ARE THE FAMOUS FUCK ME PUMPS.

2 hr 11 min in : AAAAA THE FOREHEAD TOUCH AAAAAAA (Theo just knows without looking that Boris is close enough to touch? Theo are you sure you don't feel feelings for him?)

2 hr 12 min in : Theo is so worried that I'm not sure if it's for Boris or for losing the painting again. Omg he just murdered a man. Oh god.

2 hr 14 min in : Theo is spiralling. In the movie they imply that Hobie played a part in him attempting suicide. So wrong. Poor Hobie. In the book that wasn't the case.

2 hr 15 min in : The transition of the Goldfinch into Audrey, wow. Also, is it the first time we're seeing her? The movie started so long ago that I've forgotten if I saw Theo and Audrey in the museum. Boris following right after Audrey? That's a subliminal message. Boris is here to rescue y'all.

2 hr 16 min in : No shit Boris is freaking out right now.

2 hr 17 min in : The diner scene. They're both crying. "Happy Christmas, Potter" - which was of course, I love you.

2 hr 18 min in : No don't you dare compare Audrey and Mrs Barbour. Audrey would never drug her child or use him for her benefit.

2 hr 20 min in : Poor kid bumps into his mom lol. I found it funny.

On the whole

The movie was nice if you'd read the book beforehand. The first hour was steak, The second hour was Korean BBQ and the rest of the twenty minutes were minced beef. If you get what I mean. Weird analogy. It could have been much better. But it was really very nice in some places. Most places I'd say.

I didn't like how the pop songs ruined the mood of certain moments. I didn't like how you couldn't hear the conversation over the music playing. For example in the engagement party when Platt and Theo talked. Or in the diner scene.

Both Borises killed the accent thing. They tried their best. Cut them some slack.

Oakes deserves an Oscar for holding up this movie on his smol shoulders. I was shook at how a kid could act that well.

Popchik deserved more screen time. I'm still pissed they didn't add the Popchik Boris reunion. But then they couldn't make it chronological, what were we supposed to expect anyway.

Ansel Elgort y'all. Theo sure improved his handwriting lol. Ansel's writing is nice. He was actually good in this movie. Better than he was in The Fault In Our Stars. The internet is just mean. The critics too. I will never understand the hate.

All in all, it could have been a better adaptation but it didn't suck as bad as everyone made it out to be. John Clownery should be punished nonetheless. Special shout-out to Roger Deakins for making it work.

#donna tartt #theo decker #boris pavlikovsky #finn wolfhard #oakes fegley #ansel elgort #aneurin barnard #the goldfinch #boreo

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utopianvoices · 5 years

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limerence | h.hyunjin

↭ genre: friends to lovers au; fluff

↭ word count: 1.9k

↭ a/n: uh, so this isn’t my best? but idk i felt like i needed to give y’all, my babies, something T^T hope y’all still like it xx (p.s also not proofread)

↭ prompts: “I want my best friend back.” - “Kevin is over there.”

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“For the well-being of my ears, stop honking so many damn times. I heard you the first time,” you shouted, as you rushed down the steps of your house to get to the black Mazda parked in front of your house. Just as those words left your mouth, another blare rang in your ears, signifying your best friend’s defiance to your words.

That little piece of shit.

"I swear, Grandma moves faster than you,” Hyunjin called out, rolling his eyes at your disorganised self.

“Okay, Grandma is in a whole different league. That woman still goes for marathons, for God’s sake. I can’t even run a mile without wanting to cough a lung out,” you defend yourself, as an image of Hyunjin’s grandmother flashed through your head.

“Pig,” the boy beside you scoffed, as he pushed down on the accelerator after making sure your seat belt was on — a habit he had formed over the many years of friendship with you.

This was your normal morning routine; your best friend screaming at you to hurry up as you both drive to school, taking turns to play your favourite songs. No words exchanged during this ride, unless one of you had to absolutely insult the other’s choice of songs. It was a time of peace and quiet for the both of you before school hits you full force — and it was your favourite part of the day.

Even on the weekends, when you are free from the horror of slamming lockers and sweaty jocks, Hyunjin is almost over at your house all time. So much so, that it’s weird if you don’t see him every waking minute of your life.

"Oh yea, you know there’s a new transfer student joining us today. Apparently, he’s going to be in your class,” Hyunjin broke the silence, as he turned into the school’s carpark.

“Oh? How’d you know?” you asked, curious. This wasn’t just some information that would be pinned up on the notice board for the whole school to see. But his answer explained everything to you.

“Minho.”

“Ah,” you say, disbelief filling your voice. Lee Minho was captain of your school’s dance team, the one Hyunjin was one. Although being a senior, Minho was really close to Hyunjin, therefore growing close to you as well. That boy was the epitome of a gossip girl, just that he wasn’t a girl. He was the first one to obtain any kind of information that he deemed interesting. Always managed to charm anyone into spilling any kind of information, that boy.

“Anyway, I’ll meet you by your locker after school. We can go get ice cream. My treat,” the boy beside you states, not expecting a ‘no’ as an answer. Not that you were going to deny his invitation for free food. You would never deny free food.

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“Class, today we’ve got a new student joining us. His name is Kevin Lee, and he’ll be part of this class from now on. Let’s welcome him,” your teacher drawls out, soullessly, as you look at the boy standing in front of the class smiling awkwardly. Hmm, cute.

Once the sound of half-hearted claps died down, your teacher instructed the boy to take an empty seat anywhere, causing his eyes to scan the classroom for potential seat candidates. Front seat? Nope, too intimidating. That empty seat on the third row? An ideal place, but the boy sitting next to that empty seat didn’t look like someone who had much patience. The only available empty seat was next to you, and you looked kind enough to throw him a smile as you made eye contact, so his legs carried him towards you, causing your smile to grow wider.

As he took a seat next to you, you lean over and whisper a “Welcome to hell” to him, causing him to let out a soft chuckle and shake his head.

Over the next few periods, you opened up more and more to Kevin, and him to you, and you would be lying if you said that you weren’t enjoying yourself. As the school day came to an end, and everybody was rushing out of the classrooms, your new friend and you were having the time of your lives, laughing at each other’s lame jokes and puns.

“Wow, you’re seriously one of a kind, Y/n. Wanna go get some coffee?” he asked, wiping any stray tears that had escaped his eyes from laughing too hard.

“Sure!” you replied, as you took your phone out to contact your poor best friend who was waiting by your locker, after denying Minho and Jisung’s invitation to play Mario Kart over at Minho’s place.

lil shit: yoO jin, can we get ice cream another day? the new guy’s in my class and he’s super hilarious i’m about to go get coffee with him! tol shit: wtf bro, it’s friday and it’s always ice cream day! ლಠ益ಠ)ლ lil shit: aww c’mon jinnie, it’s just one friday!! i’ll definitely spend more time with you tomorrow! tol shit: you better

A sigh escapes Hyunjin’s lips as he slips his phone into his pocket, and turns to walk towards the exit when he hears a distinct laugh coming from the end of the hallway. Looking up, he sees you and your new friend, laughing and seemingly having the time of your lives. A new feeling he had never felt before filled his body, making him feel a hundred times warmer, and he had no idea why.

All he knew is that he didn’t like that boy.

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lil shit: hyunjin!! sorry dude but i can’t make it today! kevin wants to go see that new horror movie that’s coming out! i know you don’t like horror movies so i’ll just see ya tmrw at school! love you x

It was the fifth time. The fifth time that you had ditched Hyunjin to go spend time with Kevin. It was simple, really. All Hyunjin had to do was open his mouth and tell you what he had been feeling the past few weeks, but it was an impossible feat for him, for fear that things would go really wrong and he’d lose his precious friendship with you. So he turned to Minho for help.

“Man, you really got to speak with her about this. It’s gonna end really bad if you keep hiding everything within you,” Minho says, chewing on a piece of french fry as he sees Hyunjin tugging at the ends of his hair in frustration.

“I know I do, I know. But it’s not as easy as you say it is! Every time I see them together, my blood just boils and I don’t even know why. It’s like I wanna punch something,” Hyunjin despaired, as words — describing what he didn’t even know he was feeling — spilled out of his mouth.

“Do you like her?”

Hyunjin froze, his hand hanging in the air as his fingers hovered inches away from the nugget he was just about to pick up. Confusion grew in him, as his heart started hammering against his chest, each beat resounding clearly in his ears.

Did he like you?

The possibility that he had a crush on someone he had known for the majority of his life never crossed his mind; all he knew was that he clearly didn’t enjoy seeing you with some guy that he knew almost nothing about. He also knew that he loved seeing you smile, and he hated seeing you cry, doing anything he had to see your beautiful smile again. He knew that you were the first one he would reach out to, even if it was the simplest most trivial thing bothering him, and you that you would never judge him. Maybe he did like you, after all.

With a resigned sigh, he left out a soft “maybe”, causing a smirk to blossom on his friend’s face.

“Well, it’s time you told Y/n about it,” Minho said. “What? No, I can’t. She might end up hating me,” was what Hyunjin countered with, causing Minho to roll his eyes.

“What does this look like? A sappy romance movie? Get yourself together, Hwang Hyunjin. She hasn’t run away even after seeing you in the morning, she definitely isn’t going to run away now.” Minho retorted, earning him a hard smack on his arm.

“I’ll see about it,” is what Hyunjin says, before gathering his things and leaving Minho alone in the booth.

Walking home alone, eyes darting here and there to distract himself from the thought of you, he spots two familiar figures sitting at his and your favourite diner, seemingly having the time of their lives as they laughed at a joke. Subconsciously clenching his fist, he marched home, all thoughts of confessing to you erased from his head as jealousy took over him.

Let’s see how she’ll take this silent treatment she’s going to get.

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A few days later, the fact that you hadn’t been spending as much time hit you, as you made your way over to his locker to finally see your handsome best friend.

“Hyuuuuunjin, it’s been so long! I missed you,” you said, throwing your arms around the boy in front of you, expecting him to return your hug. But all you received was silence.

“Hyunjin? What’s wrong?” you asked, concerned, because Hyunjin never ignored you.

Silence.

“A-are you ignoring me?”

More silence. But it didn’t last long.

“You are the one who started ignoring me first,” he finally replied softly, hurt evident in his voice. Your heart painfully ached at his tone, as it finally dawned on you that you had, in fact, been ignoring your best friend.

“I... I don’t know what to say, Hyunjin. I’m sorry. I really didn’t mean to ignore you? It’s just that Kevin had been helping me with something that I was worried about and you know-”

“Yeah, I get it. Don’t worry about it. You can go back to him now,” Hyunjin replied curtly, going back to organising his locker.

You let out a sigh as you wrapped a hand around his wrist. “But I want my best friend back.”

“Kevin’s over there,” is what you got as a reply.

Although caught in an upsetting situation, you couldn’t help but roll your eyes at his pettiness.

“Do you want to know why I was talking to Kevin? It’s because I had feelings for my best friend and I didn’t know what to do about it,” you stated, finally letting go off his wrist.

“Yeah yeah, I get it, you love spending time with- wait what?” Hyunjin questioned, as he spun around, surprised by this news.

“You like... me?” he asked, pointing to himself for extra confirmation.

“No, I like that locker behind you. Of course it’s you, dipshit.” You said, rolling your eyes once again at his stupidity.

Without any control, the words spilled out of Hyunjin’s mouth. “I don’t know, it could’ve always been Kevin,”

You stared at him, irritation growing in you as you give up and turn away, spitting out a “You know what? Forget it. I don’t know why I even trie-”

But you were cut off by your favourite boy pulling you into his arms, wrapping himself around you as you automatically melted into his arms, almost by instinct.

“Well, your best friend wants you to know that he likes you too,” he said, leaving a soft kiss on the top of your head and pulling you even closer to him.

“Who? Kevin?”

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Dan Watches: Star Wars: Episode III - Revenge Of The Sith

Alright so I did this for Episode I which you can find here and then Episode II which you can find here. So here’s my weird live reaction/note taking/whatever this is.. to Episode llI.

War! Huh Yeah! What is it good for?

There are heroes on both sides? We’ll see about that..

General Greivous first mention.. provided you’ve not seen the clone wars cartoon.

So much shit goes down in these opening crawls, like Palpatine being kidnapped.

Jedi fighters are coooooooool

Vulture droids are kinda cool too

R4 NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Getting the I have a bad feeling about this out of the way early is wise because i feel like if you’re super aware of it, it might take you out of the moment. It’s used well here though.

This gives me old StarWars Battlefront vibes.

Ohhh nooooo My boy Savage is dead now... nooooooo.

Why does that guy sound like a surfer dude?

Oh look it’s the Captain America elevator scene but with Jedi.

R2 is a weapon of mass destruction.

Anakin seems mature already

Was that flip really needed Dooku?

Do it.

Palpatine manipulating Ani is goooooood.

He straight up tries to let Obiwan die and Ani’s not suspiscious?

Palpatine is like “I swear to god if i die in this crash.. my plans.. all my plans.. fucked.”

“Another Happy Landind” Obiwan has Bob Ross vibes.

Yeaaaah Organa

Padme: Yaaay im a mom. Anakin: Well fuck... I mean yay.

“The happiest moment of my life” actually pretty sad knowing whats to come.

Cal’s just a baby on a starfighter right now doing some training on The Albedo Brave.. poor baby.

Awwwh hun you aint having them babies.. not alive anyway.

Love has blinded him, he’s a dark sider now.

That dream could just be a normal child birth.. those things are intense.

You know what, if they went to Obi-Wan he’d be like “FFs Anakin” but then he’d help because Obi is the best boy.

Yoda as cool as he is.. could do a bit more.

Obiwan knows Palpatines no good.

This is just me stanning Obi now.

I wonder if Ewan McGregor has seen the Clone Wars cartoon.

Anakin you gotta earn your place, don’t be Episode 2 whiney bitch Ani again.

I wonder if we ever get any High Republic stuff will it go into Yoda and the Wookies.

Even the council are like.. Hmm.. Palpatines shady.

“The chancellor is not a bad man” errrr...

Yoda knows somethings up

Even Padme is like “Palpatine’s a bit of a cunt.”

Palpatines a good story teller tbf, even if he’s telling the story of killing his own master

Anakin apologising and like.. that look of Proud dad on Obi’s face.. awh hun.

Eveyrones getting into Positions for Order 66... Wounds still fresh for me since playing Fallen Order.

Scary alien man not so scary.. he’s alright. Don’t judge a book by it’s cover kids.

Yaaay cool mounts.

“Hello There.” We stan.

The fact Obiwan doesnt managed to take a second lightsaber and use it in this fight is a missed opportunity for some duel weild coolness.

Greivous skittering away is creepy af.

I like both these mounts.

“The dark side surrounds the chancellor” you know theres a sith lord somewhere... maybe like.. go get him?

This is it, this is Ani’s decision time, they’re circling like tigers gonna fight

Ani realises he’s the Sith and still is like “Hmm.. but maybe he’s right tho”

Rip Grievous.

Mace Windu should really tell a bunch of other people about Palpatine being a Sith like Ani just said.

Oh he did, nevermind.

...That long distance stare off is strange though.

WTF is that noise when Palpatine does his spin.. gonna have fucking nightmares about that noise.

KIT FISTO NOOOO YOU HAD A BEAUTIFUL SMILE!

Mace could have killed Palpatine and saved us all a lot of hassle if he was just faster.

Those no’s are grim.

Palpatines acting is pretty good..pathetic but good.

POWER!!! UNLIMITED POOOWWEEEERRRR!!!

You know what.. I’m with Samuel L Jackson, Mace Windu could have survived that.

Where’d he pull the name Darth Vader out of? Is there a naming convention for Sith or is he just like... Vader is a cool sounding thing.

You know what.. Anakin falls to servitude sooo fast. He’s such a bottom.

How come the clones don’t attack Anakin, how’d they know hes alright?

This movie really just.. makes it seem like the Clones just betray the Jedi when we all know it’s the chip.

Long head guy whos name i never remember NOOOOOOOO

Aayla Sekura.. i remember your name because damn ;) .. Noooooooo!

ANAKIN YOU LEAVE THAT YOUNGLING ALONE

You know what would be good.. if Anakin just got beat the shit out of by the younglings and thats how he died.

Damn that young padawans a bad ass.

and he’s dead :(

Awwh Tarfful and Chewie.

Hey fuck you Anakin you whore.

Going back to the temple is a gooood scene.

Anakin you dick... i mean kill these assholes but the poor babies :c

Sith eyes kick in real quick.

I suppose killing all those kids that he rly didnt need to because they could have just become Inquisitors did help/hinder?

So this is how liberty dies.. good line Padme, nice.

Love Obi warning other Jedi to gtfo, We stan.

Some dodgy acting in this scene but i’ll overlook it

Obiwan just taking a shit on the way to kill his boy.

Darth Maul has a more intimidating hologram.. good thing you’re gonna get cooked and become more intimidating.

In a way Darth Vader did kill Anakin so Obiwan isn’t exactly lying to Luke about it.

Anakin never loved Padme. Controversial Opinion but i think he just had a childhood crush on her and never got over it. He wouldn’t have force choked her so quickly otherwise. He gets jealous like instantly, basically if you’re looking for an example of a toxic relationship.. here we go.

Nice touch with the light being behind Obi and darkness behind Vader.

Noooo Yoda.

Euurghhh nails on chalkboard sound.

“There’s no sign of his body” “Then he’s not dead” I’m sorry I thought Jedi faded to nothingness?

This fights pretty epic tho

“From my point of view the jedi are evil” alright.. ya lil bitch

I think the I have the high ground thing is just an attempt to get Anakin to stop, a last desperate attempt.

“You underestimate my-” Cut in half.

Obi fucks up by not finishing him off tbf.

Luke’s first apperace chronologically!

aand Leia. .. So Luke’s older... idk why i felt the need to state that but heyo

Yo is Vader’s vision always red?

“There’s good in him, i know” dies. .. Thats not something that someone whos lost the will to live would say.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Oooooh in the Disney+ Obi show will we get him learning to communicate with Qui Gon.. pls.

C3P0′s mind gets wiped.. a bunch.. but not R2.

The funeral scene is nice.

Damn they started work on the first death star like right away.

TBF they also started work on Starkiller base pretty quick too so.. naa fair this checks out.

Alderaan is gorgeous.

Yo, Luke’s aunt is hot.

You know what, Owen and Beru don’t get enough credit.

Well that’s that.. I think I like this the most out of the prequels followed by Ep 1 then Ep 2.

#ooc #dan watches #dan reacts

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i just had a dream and i can't believe it happened yet, i swear it was so real and detailed and, i mean, i was there but also i was like an omnipresent viewer and everything was so cinematic and oh fuck let me tell you. it is long, so prepare yourself for a motherfucking ride. also feel free to ignore my massive asks if you wanna, it's chill. ok. so it was about that time namjoon ran away from some children because he panicked when he got recognized. (1/?)

the dream pretty much followed how namjoon ran desperately away from a bookstore and one girl and two boys chased after him giggling and screaming, and namjoon was not screaming but having a mental debate like “i should stop. stop and say hi. but that would be so awkward at this point. i’m too late for that. for why did i even start fucking running? lord, i’m so dumb” but the kids gave no fucks whatsoever, they were just happy to play along. (2/?)

but namjoon was starting to feel his muscles ache and was way too convinced he was socially inadequate to speak like a decent civil, so he tried to pull off that old trick when he enters an alley and the chasers don’t notice and go straight past him, and it worked but this town he was in was a very rural one so he ended up colliding spectacularly with someone, very close to the edge of a river, and they rolled but it didn’t hurt because of the grass. (3/?)

he vaguely thought while falling “who tf spends time in a alley for fun?” and guess who was that dumbass? yes, me. because all those fanfiction i consume on daily basis had to pay off somehow. and i was confused, and a bit overwhelmed to have someone on top of me at 3 in the afternoon, so i looked up and, i think in this dream i was a respectable member of society, so the timeline was before i knew bangtan, so i just, awed. (4/?)

i looked at him as if i could see god smiling on his eyes and hear angels giggling on his eyelashes. and y'know this mole he has under his lip? i couldn’t resist the urge to touch it. so i did, kinda expecting it to be fake and to see it fade under my finger but it was real and that made me say “cute”. at this point he was looking at me as if i was a dirty angry dog in front of his apartment door. he looked so scared. but i continued “i never saw someone with a mole under his lips.” (5/?)

Lol! This was such a wild ride to read! I read more of it in your mention (I’m guessing that was you, but I had to stop reading because I had class and now I can’t find it so forgive me if i remember incorrectly!) and even though I know the frog surgery was very serious, I couldn’t help but laugh! It’s so sweet how concerned you were about the poor frog! I need to know how it ends though!! I read up to where you’d just given it water with a leaf and were concerned because you didn’t know how much to feed it because of the surgery?

While on the subject, I had a dream with BTS in it a while ago, and it was soooo trippy like idek where it came from. It left me feeling weird for like a week and I honesty still have no idea what it meant.

I was in the middle of a different dream in a city when suddenly I was in a forest with trees so tall, but the ground was weirdly flat and soft. The forest went on for as far as I could see in any direction, and there were these little firefly-type things floating way up around the top of the trees. It was bright, but I couldn’t find the sun, or any other indicator of what direction I was walking. It was eerie, but in a beautiful sort of way. After walking a bit, I realized I was dreaming and was like “Oh. It’s one of those nights. Cool.”

So because I knew I was dreaming, I made it so I was barefoot (idk why, I just felt like it) and figured I might as well just sort of chill until I woke up. The forest was so peaceful, and sometime’s I’d hear music that I couldn’t quite place somewhere in the distance. So I walked for a while until I got to a clearing, which was really weird because there were people in it? And I was thinking “I didn’t put that there, wtf” but went to investigate. So I get closer and realize I recognize some of the people standing there as BTS. I’m not sure what they were doing, they were in a circle and had drawn stuff in the dirt?? Idk, it was weird.

I got closer to get a better idea of what they were doing, and Namjoon turned around and gave me the weirdest look and said “Who the hell are you?”

And I was like “Wow, uh, I’ve been watching way too many videos of you, apparently… I’m not sure why you’re here, but I’m gonna get back to enjoying the forest…”

And you know what he said? “Get out of my head!”

So then I thought for a second, trying to figure out what the hell my subconscious brain might be trying to tell me, and finally I said; “Dude. You’re the one in my head, not the other way around. This is getting weird, so you need to leave me alone now.”

You know when you have a lucid dream how you can just sort of change things at will? That’s what I tried to do–to make him and the others go away so I could go on with my night, except I couldn’t. It just sort of made me dizzy to try.

He was still looking at me like I’d just invaded his personal space and was like “Seriously, how did you get here?” And he started getting sort of mad?

Someone else–I’m not sure who, I thought it was maybe Jungkook?– then was like “How’d she get in without a key, anyway?” So I tried to tell him it was a forest, I didn’t need a key.

Namjoon was talking at the same time, though, saying that this was his dream and that I was being very rude?? And I just started ignoring him and asked what it was they were doing while getting closer–which was a mistake because then Namjoon said “Oh no! You suddenly can’t see anymore!” Really sarcastically, but then I actually couldn’t see.

So I was like “Cut it out, you’re making this dream way less fun than it should be.”

And he was like “Oh? Then maybe next time you’ll stay in your own head.”

I tried to walk away but I ended up tripping over something and hurt my knee. Whoever else had spoken–possibly Jungkook or maybe Jimin? They were really muffled, almost subdued–said; “Oh, go easy on her. Clearly there’s been a mistake and she didn’t mean to be here.”

By this point I was getting pretty annoyed because this was supposed to be a fun lucid dream, and said, “Oh, shove it. This is my head, my dream, and you’re no longer welcome here.”

Then I heard Namjoon turn, walk toward me, and say; “For the last time, this isn’t your head and you’re not supposed to be here. Now get. Out.”

And then I woke up. Idk what my brain was doing that night, but it left me feeling really out of place and odd the rest of the day. I also had a dream with only Jungkook in it after that, but I’ve gone on too long already lol! Thank you for sending this and telling me about your dream!!

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What is love? Pt 3

friend didn’t wanna walk home alone which I can understand totally this neighborhood sucks cops step around dead bodies like the mafucker isn’t even dead on the ground lol but morel of that story is i thought i was giving her some much needed space and freedom girl time and time alone my damn self but I guess she only saw it as her way to escape terrible me.. she used every tiny thing I let her in on in my life to tear me down our last call ever and I swear I wish somehow I could not have had to hear all that from the person I think of more highly then anyone I’ve ever known in my life and now I hate myself totally like I’m seriously the weirdo in every situation I’m just weird and you know what ? I can’t change I’ll never be a person people like I’ll never fit in I’ll never have friends ill never be “normal” so I’ve been slowly killing myself not showering not eating not doing anything ever I can’t sleep right at all now I have neural brain damage I lost my left testical got sepsis which is still trying to kill me as we speak and I just don’t care they say I need a family doctor ASAP at ER I say fuck it idc what’s wrong I’m not a good guy im not any addition to my family im not shit like shit has more importance than me shit gives people jobs cleaning up shit ya know 😃 lol I’m sick of living here I’m sick of having no money not being able to do anything fun cuz I have barely enough money to get high so I can cope with life like nothing is gonna get better she didn’t love me clearly like nobody ever does people just use me as there very last resort like she said wouldn’t even do that lol if I was the last human on earth she says she’d kill herself just to not have to talk to me again or see me again like ill tell you what lol when your chest feels like its caving in every second of every day because you can’t breathe without them thats what love is I never knew it could be so real until it was to damn late like I always would ask her to leave me when we argued but Why? Because I direly needed it to end civilly like of course not though she shows up with him at my house (without cops) and they tried to walk into my house! I would have brutally murdered him and for what because you wanted to hurt me EVEN FUCKIN MORE showing up with him! Why couldn’t your dad bring you? I just woulda brought all your stuff out to him real damn peacefully fr and been like thank you sir afterwards like damn you raised some awesome ass kids period your a fuckin God and I envy tf outta you for doing that shit all alone like I couldn’t probably I don’t know though I was never really given a fair shot at being a dad my kids have always been used as a tool for hurting me and nothing else I prayed for her death for years before I woke up and realized that’s very wrong to prey for and not to mention they need her because I’ve been an alcoholic mess for idk how long lol how’d that happen? She took my little angel fRom me because she was bored of me cheated on me and Would openly leave her evidence out so I’d find it and flip out and beat her it was HIGHLY MANIPULATIVE I couldnt see it then I was a child but now I see she learned my triggers and Used them very carefully to break up with me like why not say your bored and Wanna see other people? Empty box of condoms in your car on the floor? And I was supposed to believe your sister left them lol you would plant shit like that knowing I would snap! Why not like actually fully move in to right ? Nope. Boo hoo I miss my grandma and grandpa I’m gonna go sleep there tonight like WTF? Shit is whack I never loved you I just would say it so I could see my baby girl every day I tolerated you for so damn long I don’t know how I didn’t kill you or myself lol sorry but if I was so damn abusive why not just take me out while I’m sleep? Lol! Coulda saved many many girls a lot of trouble seriously but I now realize lol Ryan, realize, lol, man we coulda been famous af 😭 anyways I realize that YOU are what made me so angry and violent not Tom abusing me and my mom not some chemical imbalance fuck that you treated me

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my mums on the phone complaining about me (I walked past and she stopped talking until I went upstairs) and talking about the therapy thing to one of her friends so 🙄🙄🙄🙄 but like after that session ended I was thinking they’d all go to separate rooms n not speak to each other - I was right ofc, n I went downstairs to talk to my mum to ask her about how she thought the session went n she seemed rly annoyed about me n my sister n basically I was saying I think as a family we don’t rly communicate w each other (and we don’t its like we’re not a fucking family like we don’t even know each other, but its also that neglect towards each other) and my mum was like ‘oh but u never talk to us anyways‘ n its like but we try to and u don’t listen n then u try n start an argument, invalidate us and shut us down for everything bc everything we do feel is ‘wrong’ and I was like yh but listening is also part of it, and she was annoyed about it bc she was like ‘u act like we don’t care and don’t listen to u n I find it rly insulting’ and I'm like thinking??? but u don’t care??? u never listen??? like a month or so ago I was trying to tell u how I felt n u just basically said I was like those ppl who fake illnesses for attention n she was basically making up assumptions about me and lying to my face about how I said I wasn’t depressed n I'm like I have never said that ever in my fucking life like wtf all I go on about is me being depressed and my pd - which they don’t accept the bpd diagnosis anyways n think I'm lying about having it n I'm like yh I've been lying for 4 years everyday since my diagnosis?????????? 🙄🙄🙄 I mean I went to fucking group therapy for it and I'm on the waiting list currently for help for it (for over a year now but tbh I don’t think I'm actually gon get any help so lmao) but clearly this is all just a big fucking act but w/e

like I try to actually start a conversation, communicate in some way and its like she doesn’t wanna know, like all she can do is complain at me about shit I do or say and then makes it out like I'm a bad person for calling her out and is so in denial about herself being like that - like rather then say ‘oh I'm sorry if I've ever made u feel like we don’t listen or care, what has made u feel like that?’ but instead she gets all defensive and acts like I'm in the wrong for even thinking that, and how fucking dare I. You can fucking not call out that woman for her behaviour bc she just doesn’t give a shit, and she's not willing to look at herself and her own behaviour and be like, maybe I have done something wrong? maybe I have been treating them unfairly, and not been emotionally supportive as much as I could’ve been. (I mean she's never been supportive, or anything so lmao, she just insults me, mocks me, invalidates me constantly, if smth bad happens to me or if something upsets me its either - get over it, or somehow its my fault and stands there blaming me, like she blamed me for my friends ghosting me and abandoning me and made it out bc I am ‘intense’ that thats why they left, even tho they ignored me, left me alone all day in my friends house in Spain (while they all went out for the day - I woke up and they were all gone we had an argument before they were basically making fun of one of my online friends and I got upset about it so they all went out the next day leaving me alone in a house in another country, and when they came back it was like 11.30pm or smth //they went out at like between 8-9am or w/e, so I was alone all day// cuz I woke up later - no note left or anything, and they never spoke to me when they came back I just heard my friend say ‘is she in there’ and my other friend put her face in through the door as I was watching tv and was like ‘yeah’ and left and then they all went outside and ignored me) and they purposely left me out of things/didn’t invite me places and used to flake out of ‘meet-ups/plans’ and never answer the phone and this one friend would basically be hanging out w her bf which is fine but when we’ve planned smth and then u basically ‘disappear’ and ignore my calls and texts n I find out later u’ve chosen yr bf over me w/o even just saying ‘oh I can’t go out today I want to spend time w my bf’ or w/e - which I'd still be annoyed at but atleast I'd fucking know (she did that all the fucking time tbh - she’d just never show up or ignore my calls/texts) and then my mum makes it out like I'm the fucking bad person??? (also plus this friend told their parents about me self harming, I had her little sister (who was like 10 or 12 at the time) ask me about it and I was like ???????? wtf how’d u even know about that??) but clearly I'm the bad person here like wtf 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

and when he therapist also during this session said ‘oh I think its rly gd that u all listen to each other and show respect towards each other’ and I'm like sat there trying to not laugh bc that is not what's going on - the only reason why no one is talking over each other is bc my dad doesn’t rly know what to say in ‘emotional’ situations so opts to stay quiet, my sister is too anxious atm (like she was breathing rly heavily during and kept leaving to go outside for abit) and if my mum says anything she fears she’ll be judged and the truth of her possibly being the cause of my sister and I being like this by the way she responds, would come out and the therapists would be like ‘ohhhh’ I mean, when I was talking about my bpd diagnosis I then looked at my mum and said ‘which I don’t think u’ve ever accepted’ and she just couldn’t even look at me and pulled a face like she wanted to say smth or snap at me for that but couldn’t in front of ‘strangers’ so she was trying to hold herself back was ripping my face off, my mum has to appear as the ‘caring’ mother, who is supportive and considerate and thinks about their kids, and doesn’t yell when they say anything about how they feel, and is awkwardly/fake affectionate towards their kids - if that doesn’t give it away that she has to appear as that in front of strangers and her friends - idk what does - bc she's the complete fucking opposite of that.

#personal//#Vent//#self harm mention tw #actually bpd #bpd tag #family therapy

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cupcakeshakesnake · 7 years

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Watching The Husbands of River Song for the first time

(When I started writing the post I messed up my typing and the title said “Watchgin the Husnabds of REierv Sogn for the fitrst time”)

-Oh dear, one episode closer to catching up to the show, and one step clser to a yet unknown source of heartbreak.

tf is this flying dish

Wait, they’re celebrating Christmas in 5343?

-Wow Jesus looks like you’ve really outdone yourself

-TARDIS

-TARDEEEEHS

Why is the music all doom-y and scary like this is something bad That is the best note ever

-HEEEEyyyyy it’s the bald guy from the Series 10 trailer!!

-He looks like he’d be a mouse or a hamster if he was an animal

“Is there anything on my head?”

-YES THERE IS

-OH GOSH

IT’S CONTAGIOUS

-I MUST RUN BEFORE RED CHRISTMAS RUDOLPH ANTLERS SPROUT UP ON MY HEAD

-well hello alien santa under the hood

-RIVEEEEEEER

-WTF

-WHAT THE FAAAAAAAAQ

-wait why is she so pissed-- OHHHHHH

-IT’S BEFORE SHE wait hold on a minute

-This is the first time she’s seeing his twelfth incarnation in-show, yes? No?

-*checks Wikipedia* Yes I’m right but...

-I think I’ll have to watch more before jumping to conclusions

-By the way, this.

A time travelling alien as old as time and also a fluffy grinning cat.

-”My husband is dying.” Doctor: wtf is going on am i about to cross my own timestream or what

-”wtf river”

-Ah yes, flurry snow in the middle of a bajillion cogwheels, brilliant intro.

-Oh shit it’s Moffat

-Poor Twelve must be confused so much.

-River looks like she’s faking though. She’s not the kind of person who coos at people like that.

(unfortunately I could not find a stock photo of a cat looking exactly like this. pity.)

-No, seriously. Look at this cate.

-Anyway who the fuck is that guy in that disproportionately large armor, like, where in the actual sarlacc butthole did he come from

-River Song’s Drama has increased by 100!

-uhhh lemme see I think that’s a mix of Megaman, the old Transformers cartoon and ahh what’s that one videogame I swear there are videogames with people wearing hulky armor like that

-DAMN TWELVE DROPPIN IT

-I don’t even

-I don’t even know what I’m watching

-And yet there’s this lingering fear in the back of my mind that’s still scared of the text “Written by Steven Moffat”

-Wait, if she’s talking to the people in the little screens and they react accordingly to her gestures, then it means they’re watching her too, but where’s the camera?

-Doctor: “the fuck”

-”Do you recognize me?” “No” So the Doctor said no because of something unrelated but I swear a part of him just wanted to get back at River

-HE’S WHITE DIAMOND, GEMS HAVE GENDER, WHITE DIAMOND CONFIR-- nevermind wrong show

-”You’re talking about murdering someone!” “No I’m not, I’m actually murdering someone.”

-”Do you know who you remind me of?” “Yes, probably of a chap with a big-” (he means big chin, don’t get any ideas) “My second wife!”

-The dialogue is top notch in this episode

-Oh no, it’s the robot king who doesn’t look like he can eat his enemies very efficiently and his legion of...

...sword-wielding Jawas.

-Heck, they even sound like Jawas.

-what the effing head

-”I wondered why we didn’t share a bathroom”

-Well for me it explains the nonsense body proportions

-”Decision overruled. Recommendation: Chill.”

-I love how the robot suit says “Chill”, it’s just so.. chill. It’s actually chilling out. It’s the chillest robot in robot history.

I have paused at just the right moment

They’re nerding out together

-Aw the Doctor’s laughing

-He’s having so much fun

-”I haven’t laughed in a long, long time.” There. All the more merrier because of that.

-Oh god

-Okay how many people are River Song gonna hang around with in this episode

-”He only has twelve faces” OHHHHH BECAUSE RIVER DOESN’T KNOW THAT THE TIMELORDS GAVE HIM A NEW REGENERATION CYCLE DOES SHE

‘Little do they know the BBC wanted to continue the show for another fifty years.’

-noooo not the bald guy nuuuuu

-What a cynical robot

-DOCTOR JUST TELL HER THAT IT’S YOUR TARDIS

-Poor Doc

-”Oh yeah I’m SURE I’ll get SOOOO surprised”

-”It’s my girl.”

-The sarcasm is strong with this one.

-”Oh it’s BIGGER on the INSIDE how SURPRISING because I’ve NEVER seen one beFORE”

I’M DYING ASDGSDJSA;;

-”Wait, my Tardis had a fridge?”

-Sooooo when River was with Eleven she was the better driver (in terms of comfort; no offense to Eleven’s Timelording skills in general) but now Twelve is probably the calmest drver so far and River’s, well... not so much.

-”Of course I’m NOT getting frustrated by you doing everything wrong and trying to give you instructions because it’s CLEARLY not my Tardis how can you even SUGGEST such a thing”

-”Yes thank you I am a quick learner and NOTHING else, NOTHING like I’ve flown this Tardis countless times before”

-So if the Tardis can’t take off while someone’s both in and out, then this wouldn’t work, huh.

(From one of the Bunny Suicides books)

-”What sort of medical school did you go to?”

-A king does not unnecessarily endanger the lives of his people... Unless he is cross.

-LOGIC

-OH SHIT THAT GUY’S HEAD GOT CHOPPED OFF TOO

-”Death initiated.”

-The fuck kind of Star Wars cantina did they walk into

-”They’re still digesting their mother.”

-”--I will rip you open and devour you--” “It’s my stomach.”

-Even the guy whose wife got eaten by his kids is going ‘wtf’

-The fuck kind of CGI was that

-”This is where genocide comes to kick back and relax.” Oh boy, that’s gonna get on the Doctor’s nerves.

-”Why are you frowning?” “How’d you know?” “It’s audible.”

-”The man who gave me this was the sort of man who’d know exaclty how a long a diary you’re going to need.” “Oh yeah that’s definitely not me”

-I SAW THAT EYEBROW RAISE, RIVER SONG, YOU CHEEKY LITTLE TIME TRAVELLER

-Annnnd River’s supposed to be paid by a Voldemort with a nose.

-WHAT THE FUCK HIS HEAD OPENS UP

-JEEZ!

-YOU HAVE A JAWBREAKER IN YOUR HEAD??!?

-OH MY FUCKING GOD EVERYONE HAS CRACKED UP HEADS

-For some reason, Credits seems to be the common term for whatever currency is used vaguely in scifi universes. They have Credits in Star Wars too!

-Whoever is playing that pale guy is going to have a royally sore throat by the end of the episode.

-”Hail Hydra”

-You should probably just give him the head...

-To be fair you crackhead guys did creep them out

-The thing.

-Did the head just run away or something, why are the Doctor and River so uneasy, do they really just don’t want to witness a brain surgery or am I missing something here

-Dang it Doctor.

-”The skyyyy shall crrrrrack”

-Well the head is there...

-what. the. fuck. is. happening.

-”At last I am whole again” Well I wouldn’t really call it whole if your body’s a robot but...

-Okay.... that happened.

-*hastily muffled Steven Universy screeching*

-SCREW YOU CATFISH BUG MAN

-Why do his eyebrows make a squeak sound

-”A picnic at Asgard...” MARVEL/DOCTOR WHO CROSSOVER CONFI-- nevermind

-jesus christ why is that guy so intent on reading River’s diary out loud

-’The Angels Take Manhattan’ was three seasons ago. And yes, that episode was written by Moffat too.

-”An infinite number of faces” Well, I wouldn’t say it’s infinite per se...

-Besides, if there’s only the head left, wouldn’t that kind of hinder the regeneration, if not stop it altogether?

-Wait, since when was the robot the king and not the head?

-I don’t like the catfish bug guy with the French mustache. In fact, I am liking him less and less by the second.

-WHOA WAIT THAT ROBOT COULD STORE MULTIPLE HEADS IN IT? I THOUGHT IT JUST TOOK ONE OFF AND PUT ON ANOTHER

-Dammit River why would you want to hurt him like that HE IS RIGHT THERE ;_;

-;_;

-*CRYING EMOJI INTENSIFIES*

-”Two hearts, stupid clothes--” Well the latter changed a bit.

-MOFFAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT

-DAMMIT MOFFAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT

-HE IS RIGHT THERE

-DAMMIT MOFFAT

FUCK YOU MOFFAT

-TAKE MY HEART AND RIP IT APART SOME MORE WHY DON’T YOU

-”I’m an archaeologist from the future. I dug you up.”

-DAMN

-”What do you think of my new body” “I’ll let you know, I’ve only seen the face” Okay it’s either me or Moffat that isn’t aware that this is a family show.

-She caught it in her f-cking boobs

-HER BOOBS

-FAMILY SHOW

-”FAMILY SHOW”

-”So, King Hydroflax?” (idk how tf it’s spelled) “I married the diamond!” (”wE ARE THE CRYSTAL--””SHUT UP!!”) “So you say.” “Elizabeth the First.” “Ramone.” “Marilyn Monroe!” “Stephen Fry!” “Cleopatra!” “Same thing!”

-IF YOU HAVEN’T GUESSED ALREADY, I’M DYING

Glowing cables.

-”Crashing spaceships, that’s my job.” I feel like I should write a sentence that rhymes with this, but unfortunately I can’t.

-OH THE TOP PART OF HIS SCREWDRIVER ROTATES

-”I’ve been doing it longer!” “I do it better!” Like how you drive the Tardis, for example. (I can also see the above dialogue used in a very, very, wrong, scenario, but I’ll just keep quiet and hope that it wasn’t Moffat’s intention.)

-river u ok?

-k

Looks like one of those audio equipment machines.

-Reminds me of the ‘Profit’ memes.

-1. Crash ship 2. Look outside 3. FIRE 4. Nope the fuck outta there and travel forward in time 5. ?? 6. Profit

-1. Visit some yet-to-be tour spot 2. Give money to a random guy and tell him to set up a restaurant 3. Travel forward in time 4. ??? 5. Profit

-River why aren’t you closing the Tardis door

-THE GOD DAMN BOT

-Oh look Nardole’s alive too

-”Now that, my dear, is a suit.” Gotta agree.

HOLE-LEE SHEE-EHT

-THAT’S THE SCREWDRIVER FROM ‘SILENCE IN THE LIBRARY’

-THAT WAS SEASON FOUR

-MOFFAT

-YOU’VE CONSTRUCTED A PLOT STRING THAT SPANS FIVE SEASONS YOU BIG ASSHOLE GENIUS SPIDER

(Screencap of webpage http://www.chakoteya.net/DoctorWho/30-9.htm)

-HOLY FLUKES HOW DARE YOU

-”Are you crying?”

-i-- yes yes i am blame moffat not me

-”There are stories about us, you know.” “Oh, I dread to think.” Been looking around AO3, have you River?

-m o f f a t y o u m o t h e r f u c k e r

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-$^B&C%TB#%*&#BWKUWURH#$VB&*#B*:#V:B&*$&*B#&VBBBEYBYEBYFF

Moffat you deceitful fuck, I won’t trust you until the very end

-But thank you for sparing us from saying goodbye to her face

You forgot to say ‘forever’

-Please just let them stay together happily for those 24 years

HA I spelled it right

-Overall one of the best Christmas specials in my personal opinion, and top-notch acting by Capaldi. Really, top, notch.

#watching for the first time #doctor who #dw series 9 #the husbands of river song #twelfth doctor #river song #peter capaldi #alex kingston #doctor who christmas special #reaction #review #whovian #long post #nardole #moffat #fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck #king hydroflax

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daesungindistress · 7 years

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ABC Tag

I was tagged by @pbj-anonymous! rules: answer the questions and tag some cool people

(For those of you I tagged, you def don’t have to read this but just know you’ve been tagged at the end of the post...!)

a - age: 28

b - biggest fear: It’s a toss-up between losing my independence and dying while leaving behind important, unfinished work (important to me anyway). Okay, that’s a lie. Fear of death wins out. I like this world we live in. I don’t want to leave it anytime soon.

c - current time: 11:07 AM (this post has been queued)

d - drink you last had: Water (gag, I hate drinking plain water)

f - favorite song: How could I ever choose just one?!

g - ghosts, are they real: I don’t believe in the presence of ghosts in the sense that they’re the lingering souls of the departed, or manifestations thereof. I don’t truly believe any part of us remains behind when we leave this world (besides, you know, our decomposing bodies. There’s your gross, vivid imagery for the day, you’re welcome).

I do, however, believe in the existence of the supernatural, and in the presence of spirits we often cannot see all around us and even at times residing and working in us. Specifically, hostile, demonic spirits. It both frightens me and intrigues me. I’ve drifted away from the idea and don’t think about it much these days, but it’s hard not to have at least a fragile belief in it if you were raised in the religious household I was. My father was a minister outside of his 9-5 and his favorite aspect of the ministry was “deliverance,” i.e,. casting demons out of people.

It’s rare that this comes up in conversation (for good reason!), but when it does it’s always fun to see how people react when I casually mention that in my younger years my dad was, for all intents and purposes-- though I hate to use this term-- an exorcist. lol

A, B, C, D, E, F, G... (omg I just realized there’s no E!) Putting the rest behind a Read More.

h - hometown: Lil’ town in Texas that’s not so little anymore.

i - in love with: Things and people that inspire

j - jealous of: People who are able to spend money without a care (as long as they do so within their means of course). It’s not the money I envy, it’s the mindset.

k - killed someone: Wow, what a question. Here’s the deal. I’ve never killed a person, and I hope to God I never do, but I will say I’ve given it a good deal of thought. EXCLUSIVELY FOR SELF DEFENSE PURPOSES, I might add. Let’s be real, simply by virtue of being a woman in this wonderful yet treacherous world of ours, it’s probably not the worst thing to devote some serious consideration to: preserving your own life by being willing to take someone else’s if they are in the act of doing you harm. I cannot express how sincerely I hope I never find myself in a situation where it comes to that. But let’s face it, much as I love this world it ain’t all sunshine and roses. We are vulnerable.

My roomie and I were in a situation last year where I thought it prudent to mentally prepare myself for this, at the time, very real possibility. When you’ve got a strange man coming to your windows late at night repeatedly throughout the summer, you start to wonder at his intentions. And when the local police dept steps up its game and assigns a detective to the case without your asking, citing concerns that it could be a sex crime waiting to happen... you start keeping that handgun of yours within reach. Just in case.

Believe me, entertaining the idea of hurting another person at all, let alone in such an irrevocable way... it’s never pleasant. It never should be. But I’m the type who tends toward careful, calculated moves, and the last thing I wanted to risk was freezing up in the heat of the moment should that moment ever arrive, so I fired up my imagination and ran through a medley of gruesome what-if mental scenarios in the hopes that I’d be ready. I mean, I’m sure nothing ever truly prepares you for something like that, but... I do what I can.

l - last time you cried: Honestly can’t remember. Might have been back in January when I was writing Bright Like the Sun and found myself unexpectedly thinking up various scenarios about how the guys’ lives come to that inevitable end (why, brain, why). I’m going to cry again just thinking about it! Wtf why is this post so focused on death?!

m - middle name: Let’s skip this one. ;) I like my middle name, but I recently shared my first, so...

n - number of siblings: 2 brothers. I’m the middle child.

o - one wish: No regrets

p - person you last called/texted: My dear mother

q - question(s) you’re always asked: “So how’d you get into taxidermy?” Every other new customer that comes through the door asks me this, and I still have yet to find a concise way to sum it up. It’s been a long and winding journey.

r - reasons to smile: We live in a world of endless opportunity... Opportunity for learning, creating, sharing, growing...

s - song last played: Daesung’s Utautai no Ballad off his D’scover album, yesterday evening in my car.

t - time you woke up: Around 5:30 AM

u - underwear color: Black

v - vacation destination: My family and I are trying to plan a trip to Ireland? It’s been kind of hectic.

w - worst habit: Keeping people at arm’s length? Being physically and emotionally distant? Compartmentalizing everyone I meet then keeping the lids firmly shut, refusing to let them migrate out of one box and into another? (lol too heavy, I know. This whole post is so inappropriate.)

x - x-rays you’ve had: Dental, one for my foot when I stepped on a roof nail as a kid, and one for my back while in college-- and that’s how I learned I had a healed fracture from when I had fallen off my horse a couple years prior!

y - your favorite food: IDK, but I can eat a lot of sushi and not get tired of it (though it sounds unappetizing, I thought convenience store sushi during my visit to Japan last year was pretty great).

z - zodiac sign: Gemini

Tagging a few peeps in my recent activity feed who when they reblog from me add their own comments, in their tags or otherwise (please ignore if y’all have already done this thing or just plain don’t want to): @bacchikoibae @fangirl-2007 @you-go-seungri-coco @slaveoflunacy @daedae-is-my-baebae

#tagged #personal #spirits... this is where y'all start to think I'm a tad crazy #haha

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void-sufferings · 5 years

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we just adoopted an dwarf hamstar from an petumaco because I’m ALMOST 30 AND MY NEED TO MOTHER IS FERAL and we got a dwarf sunfire hamster and they were like “she’s been here for a while and she’s moody” and GOD she’s so sweet she just needed time and her own space and she’s FINE maybe she’s moody because every chain petstore ever keeps animals in subpar environments and maybe SOLITARY ANIMALS don’t like to be kept in UNFURNISHED, SMALL CAGES with a ton of other SOLITARY ANIMALS with NO ENRICHMENT and CLEAR HIDES so they NEVER FEEL SAFE

but ANYWAY

The cages at the store said like 3 years lifespan and I was like WTF I had two separate dwarf Siberians that lived 5-6 years but then I checked online and it still said 3 years??? so I don’t know WHAT to believe Our noodle doodle is also 12 and she’s supposed to live like 8 years??? Though she does seem... lethargic lately I hope she’s okay. She was fine last month but then she wouldn’t eat so now she ate so we’ll feed her again once she poos and she should hopefully recover but like IDK she sometimes just does that so I hope she gets better like usual.

ALSO????? why do hamster water bottles???? in the store???? all only come with gear???? for those wire tanks????? which are dangerous and unsafe and easy to escape from????? We had to velcro it to the side of the take. The kit with it was for bars (and it’s the nice one with glass and metal and stuff like really safe and easy to clean so it has no excuse) like what the fuck why not sell stuff with hooks for the death cages AND industrial suction cup attachments for regular healthy tanks that they can’t hurt themselves chewing on or escape from? it’s DUMB

anyway every time she goes for a drink, pressie hears the noise and is like IT’S WATCH THE TANK TIME and she’s obsessed for 30minutes to 2 hours and while I hold her she’s like EXCUSE ME LET ME SNIFF IT AND ALSO MAYBE LICK IT (she didn’t try to lick but she definitely went for a taste with some of my other tank friends in the past so I assume it’s coming) so I’m calmly talking to her about boundaries and that she can sniff the friend but she can’t taste the friend or nibble the friend and her eyes are like fully dilated and like “LET ME HAVE THE THING”

Also she’s so freaking tiny SO TINY dwarf siberians, the grey and white ones, are so tiny and they’re twice as big as this little sunfire girl whose like sandy and tan and beautiful blonde wow stunning but she’s so SOFT and TINY I think she’s only slightly larger than a robovoski them litter energizer hamsters than just run like they’re on fire 23/7. She’s not as high-energy as a robo but once we get that wheel we’ll see, but she genuinely enjoys just chilling in her hide and digging. she’s got toys and chews and stuff and she just wants to drink water and chill, probably just needed a break from that petstore life and on friday she’ll need to re-acclimate and stuff but as of today she came out and chilled twice with happy runsies and only 1 tiny nibble each time. And I didn’t fully tame her so 1 nibble is good. I just put my flanneled hand out with a treat and she was into it off the bat, she really isn’t shy she ran around with me for ages. I’ve never had a problem with dwarfs being shy, though poopikins needed taming for sure. I’ve seen shy full-sized hamsters. Maybe I just haven’t seen alot, who knows. I owned all the dwarfs I ever met but never owned any full-sizes, just had friends.

it’s fucking 4 am how’d it get this late what are you doing go to bed you’re tired and you keep forgetting you can take lunesta to sleep despite the pain ya idiot you don’t have to listen to jenna marbles until you can’t keep your eyes open you nerd

CALL ME BACK SLEEP STUDY PEOPLE I NEED THAT SLEEP APNEA TREATMENT MY BODY IS SO TIRED FROM OXYGEN LACKING but also don’t make me return it an hour away during the worst traffic before 9am like some fucking monsters ya hear I want dat nose repairing so I can breathe like a real human person

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zapresshawn-blog · 6 years

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kevo, the one with the fierce red nails.

it’s the day after christmas. i’m off of work but for some reason still decided to wake up early and be productive. i went to alfred’s for my morning iced vanilla latte, spent 2 hours getting ahead on some work projects, and did laundry. after all of this i felt like i deserved a movie break.

as i’m waiting for pitch perfect 3 to begin, which was a horrible and unnecessary film, i received an unexpected instagram message from a guy named tom that i used to be obsessed with years ago in nashville. i haven’t seen the guy in forever but we still flirt via social media here and there. anyways, the conversation went like this:

tom: let me set you up with my friend. he needs dick. lol

me: but like is he cute? in LA? how are you going to do me like that?

tom: do you want a numb? let me get a pic. *he sends a picture of the guy*

me: haha i’m so confused rn.

tom: me too but just trying to be a good friend to both of you.

me: does he live in LA? tell me more.

tom: he’s visiting fam and needs dick lol. here for the week or something. he’s a bottom. idk. he’s cute. he’s a doctor.

me: he is cute. roommate is out of town too. lol

tom: get it girl. i gave him your number. have fun.

i’m not going to lie. i was a little taken aback by this conversation. i mean, thanks for looking out but it’s no secret i wish tom would have been the one coming over later that evening.

his name is kevo and i found out he is in town until january 10th. i had plans to meet up with a guy i started talking to on grindr the day before but i cancelled the plans. i figured, “why not hang with the guy who is visiting? the guy on grindr will still be there after he leaves.” i’m honestly the smartest person i know.

kevo sent me a text, i suggested watching a movie at my place because we all know it’s never just a movie, and he said yes. super easy conversation.

he showed up at my place around 9. i wanted a nap and chipotle before. #priorities

we spent the first 30-45 minutes chatting and watching daria reruns. i found out stuff i already knew from tom like he’s visiting LA, he’s finishing up school to be a doctor, and he lives in iowa. who lives in iowa? i also found out that he is in an open relationship, sexts with tom, and had the prettiest red nails i’ve ever seen (i had nail envy if that’s a thing). i was honestly more upset finding out that he sexts with tom then the fact that he has a boyfriend. open relationships aren’t my thing but if the two of you are cool with it .. who am i to say no? but why hasn’t tom sexted with me? we used to hook up while watching love and hip hop atlanta together. there is literally nothing more romantic then that scenario.

after chatting and scrolling through every movie on HBO GO, we settled for nocturnal animals. yes, the second i hit play i also attacked his mouth but i would like to give us props for watching 75% of the movie with only a few make out moments before taking it to my room.

i figured we would be having protected sex since he is a doctor and has a boyfriend. nothing wrong with that. i personally take prep, when i remember, so that when i “forget” the condom i can still sleep peacefully when the guy leaves my house. condoms are great. you should use them. i just don’t like them. sometimes it affects my boner and i was feeling a little self conscious. i haven’t had sex in 2, maybe 3 months. the last guy i somewhat dated, fernando, had ended things because he “liked” me but “didn’t find me attractive.” hearing shit like that from someone you’ve been fucking for 2 months would hurt anyone. after fernando there were plenty of guys i kissed, cuddled, and jerked off with but never sex. gerardo had wanted to take it slow so we never got past foreplay.

one thing leads to another and ta-da we’re fucking. it was good. at least from my end. this may be too much information but i’m a shooter. i honestly felt bad for kevo because when we were finished he was literally covered in my cum. some people are into it and some people are disgusted. i couldn’t read his reaction. he did ask if it was like that all the time. yes.

i toweled him off, he got dressed, and i threw out the stupid line, “text me when you’re home so i know you made it safely.” he gave me a sarcastic laugh and bounced. no text.

in the morning i received a message from tom.

tom: how’d it go?

me: idk what he thought. he was cute and nice. we watched nocturnal animals and fucked. he left at 12:30 and had to drive like 20 minutes so i was like text me when you get hime but he didn’t. i would hang out with him again. what did he say about me? tell me. #gossip

tom: he said he was drenched in cum. lol. waiting to here more.

me: HA. yeah, my b. tell me moreeeeee.

tom: that’s about it lol. he said it was fun. ps i’m jealous.

me: it was fun?! that’s it?! ugh, i want more. you should be jealous.

tom: lol why should i be jealous? how was da sex?

me: i haven’t used a condom in 5ever so it was different. i felt like i sucked. v self conscious. also he told me that the two of you sext?! like wtf?! you never sext me. #rude

tom: lol you need to ask bb. he said you were a good kisser, have a nice dick, and cum like a super soaker.

honestly the rest of our conversation doesn’t matter because that may be the nicest thing anyone has ever said about me. can i put that on my resume?

i’m always so focused on creating a relationship with guys that i forget how much fun a one night stand can be. kevo doesn’t live in LA and has a boyfriend. there are absolutely no “feels” and that’s nice for once.

yes, we are hanging out again this week and i’m sure we will see each other again before the leaves on the 10th. why not?

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