#Autistic Rambling

[masked-loser]

Rick and morty is so funny for revealing Rick found a battle to be absolutely horrifying and awful because him and bird person broke up.

Memory Rick "Oh cool we have our own Vietnam!"

Rick's gayass "no.... it was serious...."

Rick is the man!! I love him <3

#rick and morty #autistic rambling

[blueseraphim]

I noticed something in the new FF7 Rebirth trailer

Sephiroth reveals the nature of Jenova and her ability but why?

Sephiroth never even revealed Jenova like this in the OG as a part of his plan, so why is he doing this? Isn't revealing her nature the last thing Sephiroth wanted to do?

Here's what I think is happening, Sephiroth is being forced to work against Cloud. He traveled back in time, still tethered to Jenova, hoping to stop her and save the planet from whatever destiny it's tethered to (yet it also has consequences as we see in the alternative timeline)

Sephiroth is doing this of his own will

Yet he's still shackled to Jenova, so he needs Cloud's help in order to break free from her, but Jenova is taking advantage of Cloud's shattered mental state and false persona, so it's like a godly game of tug a war.

I think the Sephiroth who's manipulating Cloud and trying to convince him that Tifa isn't real is the past version of him from the OG, while the real Sephiroth, the one who we've been following all along, is trying to break free from destiny's grasp, stop Jenova and save the planet.

I could be wrong, and this is just a retelling of the OG, but I don't buy that one bit, especially when both the developers and part of the story say otherwise. Anyways, that's what I grabbed from this scene.

#autistic rambling #ff7 #ff7r #final fantasy 7 #ffvii #cloud strife #Sephiroth #sefikura #jenova #ff7 rebirth #my theories #my analysis

[theoraekensnotsosecretlover]

Also can we agree that actually the whole 'savant syndrome' thing is kinda fucked? Like yes, it's a real thing, but its linked with autism so much to the point where not being a genius makes people feel like they're 'not autistic enough'? I've already seemingly failed at being a normal person, the last thing I need is to fail at being autistic too.

#i feel like im going insane #its like if im not an automatic expert in my area of hyperfixation i feel like i dont have a right to call it my hyperfixation #savant #savant syndrome #autistic adult #autism #actually autistic #autistic things #autistic community #autistic special interest #autistic spectrum #autistic experiences #autistic life #autistic problems #autistic representation #autistic rambling #autistic vent #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #neurodiverse stuff #neurospicy #hyperfixation

[dianadeadwing]

Bobtober Day 23 - Celestial

Text is a quote from Teddy from season 13 episode 4 of Bob’s Burgers and reads „Maybe I dunk myself in the ocean and purify me, right?“

Teddy’s feelings and perspectives in this episode are relatable I think although to a much less drastic scale. I think it’s pretty common as pattern seeking humans we see one bad thing after another happen in our lives and think there has to be a reason. It can be easier to blame it on something external like bad luck or a curse. The alternative, either looking at your own actions or just accepting the oftentimes cruel randomness of the universe can be hard.

I picked this quote because I felt something similar once when I was maybe 14 or so looking at a lake all lit up in twilight. Like that’s where all the magic in the world was and if I could just get to it I would find what was missing in me that everyone else seemed to have.

I didn’t end up jumping into any lakes and I think I was just feeling so separate from everyone else because of the undiagnosed autism.

#quotes #bobs burgers #bob's burgers #inktober #inktober2023 #autism #fanart #artists on tumblr #digital art #procreate #illustration #teddy bobs burgers #wow i have a lot of words today #i don’t always but when I do I have a lot #txt #autistic rambling #today is tomorrow’s yesterday #my art tag

[justanothertiredstudent]

Spoilers for Catching fire of the Hunger games series, if u havent watched it dont read.

Rewatching the 2nd hunger games film, Catching Fire for the first time in a years here r my thoughts chronologically, & I've got a lot to say about this one:

- They actually show Katniss's PTSD, flashbacks and nightmares.

- Gale being a "nice guy", christ hes a an sh*tty

- watching them back to back, they recast the cat!!!

- Snow is a fabulous villain.

- CINNA 🥰

- Caeser Flickerman's banger theme tune!

- The camera's interview is so awkward

- Effie deserved Katniss snapping at her on the train

- Peeta acknowledging that he cant hold her to wot they did to survive in the games! Peeta's already way above Gale. Peeta king 👑 of communication.

- just asking each other their favourite colour is adorable

- The Mockingjay!

- Peeta offering to talk to make it easier for Katniss

- Peeta giving Thresh & Rue's families some of their winnings. Katniss's speech about Rue is beautiful, I'm sobbing

- I love district 11, f*ck the peace keepers!! That poor old man! Haymitch: Who's going to protect them!?

- Haymitch knows better than anyone that you never escape the games.

- Jennifer Lawrence is fabulous

- Haymitch cares about them so much, we love him.

- Katniss barely holding it together on the victory tour. She looked so horrified at the little girl saying she would volunteer just like Katniss did.

- Caeser Flickerman has no right to be so iconic.

- Peeta is amazing! I love him and Katniss

- Does Effie have to say Mahogany in every film?

- Peetas disgust at the Capitol compared to what people in the districts are going through.

- I love the politics of catching fire

- Seneca decided to stop breathing - Plutarch

- F*CK GALE!!!! SHE DOESNT HAVE TO LOVE U ROMANTICALLY FOR BOTH OF U TO SAVE UR FAMILIES!!!!! Gale's right about rebelling, but he isnt even trying to understand her trauma.

- I love the anti corporal punishment, pro riots/rebellion, f*ck the police message of catching fire

- Peeta without question helping to save Gale cos he's not selfish

- Prim being a great nurse!

- I don't think Katniss has ever had any romantic feeling for Gale, he's just her best friend at most, a lot of the time he's barely that, she would've thrown herself in front of that whip if it was anyone she remotely cared about.

- The trauma of all the victors. Haymitcch is right they're not winners, they're survivors. Nobody ever wins.

- Effie actually kinda realizing the games arent the honour shes been indoctrinated to think they are.

- Katniss didnt ghetto say goodbye to Prim 😭

- Finnick & Maggs!!! We love them.

- Finnick Odair 🥰

- The Capitol is even more perfect in this one

- Johanna Mason is iconic and fabulous

- Wiress & Beetie r great

- Maggs is the sweetest

- Transition from Seneca Cranes hanging body to Caeser Flickerman's banging theme song!

- The Victor's interviews are very persuasive & interesting, they each show a lot about the characters

- Slay Johnnana!!! Make him pay for it

- The costumes in this one is a step up from the first.

- the fact she knows that Cinna is in danger for the Mockingjay dress

- Peter "We actually got married" Mellark, Peter "If it werent for the baby" Mellark

- All the Victor's holding hands in a show of unity

- CINNA 😭 (Jennifer Lawrence was amazing in this scene)

- The arena is beautiful

- finnick: oh Sh*t Katniss might actually love Peeta.

- THE FOG ,, MAGGS!! 😭😭

- Tick Tock The arenas a clock

- PEETA! JOHNANNA!

- bye bye district 12

I love this film, for me, it's my favourite in the series.

#catching fire #hungers games films #hunger games #75th hunger games #quarter quell #district 12 #katniss and peeta #thg katniss #katniss everdeen #the hunger games katniss #everlark #peeta mellark #primrose everdeen #3rd quarter quell #thg finnick #finnick odair #thg incorrect quotes #thg catching fire #autism #autistic rambling #autistic rant #the hunger games #the hunger games peeta #thg katniss everdeen #the capitol #president snow #fuck gale #thg politics #the hunger games catching fire #johanna mason

[dxndxrxvxbe]

i know my autism and adhd is "normal" and "nothing to be ashamed of" because theres literally nothing i can do about it but recently ive been feeling so ashamed of myself.

i get frustrated so easily with noise / talking and i have to quickly leave the room. it makes me wonder what people who dont know me think.

i cant focus on homework i never do it. ever. and you would expect me to get expelled but no they just give me a sympathetic look and a pat on the head like im a dog. why do i get Bs when i do NOTHING?.

and what about my hyper fixations? do people think its annoying when i wanna talk about the same episodes of a show that came out in 2016?.

do peoole wonder why i cant look them in the eye? or why im always on my phone?.

these are questions that are literally haunting me. i cant be stuck in this brain for the rest of my life. its torture.

im trying so hard to be normal but i think the stress is making it worse. i lock myself in my bathroom so i can jump up and down and talk to the mirror because thats how my embarrassing self stims

#autism #actually autistic #diagnosed autistic #autistic things #autistic teen #autistic community #audhd things #audhd #audhd problems #actually audhd #autistic thoughts #autistic rambling #sad autistic kid #neurodivergent #neurodiverse stuff #actually neurodiverse #autism stuff #autism meltdown #autistic meltdown #meltdown #teen problems #sad autistic girl #dxndxrxRambles #adora rants

[r0ttente3th]

yknow, i dont see this talked about a lot within the tism community

if someone youre with stims, whether youre neurotypical or not, at least for me, dont point it out.

i grew up in a world where those sudden bursts of movements, those little actions, the stimming, the anything, gets you strange looks. thinking outside of the box gets you punished. i have learned to be ashamed, and have learned its against public norms (which if you violate those, from what ive been taught, youre a freak)!

im trying to break free from the mindset of “stimming is abnormal and you shouldnt do it in public” (only applied towards myself), and frankly its hard!

so even when a fellow autistic person or maybe a neurotypical points out “hey wow, youre stimming!” “hey you seem awfully happy!” “youre talking a lot today!” “you seem really fidgety!” i immediately get this horrible and burning sense of shame, even if it was meant positively!

i feel like its important to talk about not only normalizing things like these, but talking about the effects this culture has had on neurodivergent people! i feel like we need to hear from people who are still actively struggling to re-learn that its okay to be their own normal, even if it isnt societies normal.

not to trauma dump, but everything i mostly described up there was things that happened to me in the 7th grade! im a freshman in college currently, and frankly ive made very little progress in healing, which is okay! but people should learn and understand that simple things like those effect people for a LIFETIME.

you don’t automatically gotta learn to accept yourself, and that its okay to be ‘weird’ in public! it takes time and a lot of hard work, especially if its been chiseled into the deepest parts of your brain. dont bash yourself for being too shy to stim or too embarrassed in public by it, take it bit by bit!

this isnt really a complaint post because i love seeing all the positivity in these communities as of lately! but do try and be considerate of people who are still fighting their way out of that mindset! maybe take a little second to ask yourself if pointing out someones ND behavior is needed! theres still a lot of shame in a lot of people, including me, and thats an okay thing to have.

be aware of others shame and help them realize its normal to do all those things by not pointing it out! the less you point it out, at least for me, the more normal it makes it

#autistic problems #autism #actually autistic #audhd #rambling #autistic rambling #little rant #autistic support #adhd support #actually adhd #damien rambles

[ajarorworms]

LOOK AT HOW HE LOOKS AT HIS CONTESTANTS BEING HAPPY AND HAVING FUN, LOOK ME IN THE EYES AND TELL ME HE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT THEM, LOOK ME IN THE FUCJING EYES AND TELL ME HE WOULD NOT SACRIFICE HIS LIFE AGAIN TO SAVE THEM, YOU CANT, YOU CANT LOOK AT HIS FACE HERE AND THEN PROCEED TO LIE AND SAY HE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT THEM, THIS SHOW AND THESE CONTESTANTS ARE HIS FUCKING WORLD AND AFTER SEEING THEM ALL SO SAD, WATCHING THEM ALL GET ALONG FOR ONCE PROBABLY MAKES HIM SO DAMN HAPPY AAAAAA

HE JOKES ABOUT HATING THEM AND HE JOKES ABOUT HAVING FAVOURITES BUT HE LOVES ALL THESE GUYS!!!! HE HAS BEEN ISOLATED HIS WHOLE CHILDHOOD IMAGINE HOW EMOTIONALLY ATTACHED HE IS TO THESE FELLAS???? THE LOOK IN HIS EYES AND THE SWEET SMILE AND THE WAY HE HAS HIS HANDS ON HIS HIPS AND HES LEANING A LITTLE BIT TO THE SIDE?? HE LOOKS SO RELAXED?? CALM??? HAPPY!!! HE LOOKS LIKE HE FINALLY FEELS SAFE!!!! THE WAY HE WATCHES FROM A DISTANCE TOO MY FUCKING HEART- AAAAAAA HES SO BLORBO

IM SO FUCKING NORMAL ABOUT THIS SCENE!!!! IM NOT SHAKING AND GIGGLING AND SMILING AT MY SCREEN AS I LOOK AT THAT IMAGE, IM SO DAMM NORMAL ABOUT THESE 7 SECONDS OF THE SHOW-

#IM NOT PROJECTING YOU ARE #inanimate insanity #mephone4 #mephone4 ii #inanimate insanity invitational #autistic rambling #that autism grind dont stop 💯💪😼

[belpheg0r-luna]

I know this is the autism speaking but why must everyone lie all the time?!? Why does every single person insist on being this difficult?? Is it too much to ask of at least one person to be honest for a minute so i can breath freely???!!!?!

#autistic things #autistic shit #autistic stuff #autistic struggles #autism #actually autistic #autistic brain #autistic vent #autistic community #autistic culture #autistic communication #autistic life #autistic adult #autistic problems #autistic thoughts #autistic rambling #autistic rant #autistic experiences #belphegor luna

[pjo-fan-2200]

PJO Godly DNA Theory:

So as far as I know, in the books its never really explained past "gods dont have DNA" and I mean with some "godly magic" handwaving I guess you could make that make sense but I have a better theory.

First the other theories:

The gods have no DNA and demigods only have half their DNA

Problems: relies entirely on hand-wavy "godly magic" for everything to work, doesn't really explain anything. Also how does legacies work then? since the demigods don't have any godly DNA, they just pass down their human DNA.

2. The gods do have DNA just like humans do

Problems: Incest/Inbreeding makes this one pretty controversial, but beyond the obvious inbreeding issues it makes more sense scientifically.

3. My theory: When gods assume human form they create a fully human form which includes DNA, but since they assume human form independent of other gods, there are no inbreeding/incest worries beyond half-siblings

Explanation: We know that the human form most of the gods are seen in is not the base/natural form of the gods, instead they take the human form because witnessing the gods' true forms will kill any mortal or semimortals (unless you have a badass "talk your soul back from the dead girlfriend). Since the these forms are their true forms instead of the mortal ones, the mortal forms don't necessarily have any DNA relations between gods. The gods form the same or at least similar forms everytime they look mortal which leads to a similarity between their demigod children, that does not necessarily apply to their godly children. Which is why demigod children of Zeus may all look similar but they won't have the same similarities with hermes.

What does this mean: What it means is that unless you share a godly parent (or are related on the mortal side of things) you don't have to worry about dating because you are no more (biologically) related than with a random human off the street. It provides a better explanation than simply "Have no DNA" since DNA is such a vital part of every living thing, and substituting it with handwaving "godly magic" is boring.

What do yall think?

#pjo headcanon #pjo #hoo #toa #theories #pjo theory #godly dna #pjo gods #percy jackson and the olympians #percy jackson #apologies for the rant #autistic rambling

[72blankspaces]

Autism Problems 2

I hate the fact that when I ask a question because I am curious, neurotypicals see it as I’m an idiot, being rude, or offending them. Yesterday I asked my mother if she had put the proper amount of ingredients into the food, because it seemed like such a small amount, and she got pissed and automatically assumed I think she’s stupid. I didn’t call her stupid, and it wasn’t my intention to make her feel that way either. The worst part was when my father came over and asked me why I had asked her that. Am I seriously not allowed to ask questions or be curious? If something doesn’t seem right, shouldn’t I make sure it was correct? She always perceives my questions as rude or offensive, when in turn I’m just trying to understand things. I haven’t told anyone I’m autistic, so she doesn’t know, but that shouldn’t be an excuse. I just want to understand things properly, and to be understood, but with the way people react to my behaviors and traits and just me in general, it’s highly unlikely that it will ever happen.

#autistic #autism #autistic rant #autism rant #autistic things #autism things #autistic rambling #autism ramblings #problems of a closeted autistic

[masked-loser]

When Eddie comes out I don't want Eddie to get with Buck right away I need him and buck to be homoerrotic friends who flirt with each other and it takes ages to realise they actually have feelings for each other. They need that gayass experience.

#autistic rambling #911 abc #sillyposting #evan buckley #eddie diaz #911 #lgbt pride #buck x eddie

[blueseraphim]

Luigi bonding with the Koopalings is my new favorite Bowuigi troupe

Imagine the potential of Luigi and the Koopalings interacting, this can make for some really sweet or funny moments between them. Like I really need to see more of this in Bowuigi fics.

Luigi talking to the Koopalings:So uh, what do you guys like?

Wendy:*smiling* Men

Larry:Video games

Morton:Food, I really love food

Lemmy:THE CIRCUS! Oh, and fun!

Jr:Oh, Art for me!

Roy:The color pink! I think it's a manly color.

Ludwig:Classical music really soothes my soul~ 🎼

Luigi:Wow, I can't believe we have so much in common!

Iggy:*tapping the microphone* I'm autistic

#autistic rambling #super mario brothers #bowuigi #mario bros #luigi #bowser #koopalings #iggy koopa #Hannah's hall of fame #wow 200 likes on my headcanon #thanks

[vic-draws-sometimes]

La messe

Ghost had never been much of a nations man. Sing to the country, hail to the queen. Follow the orders so you can die a hero. It was never for him.  

The fight? Now that was his language. A punch in the jaw could do much more than an hour of reprimanding.  

‘’So what, you just follow every order? What are you, a robot?’’  The words had struck Ghost for many years. A robot? No, just a lowly man who loved getting orders. Now... Well now he got it. As he shrugged off a bullet wound to finish the mission, stepping over bodies of people he used to know... He gets it. He feels the pain. He feels it just as anyone else would. He feels the longing of people he could’ve know, if he tried harder. Could've grieved.   He feels the blood seeping through his clothes and make his skin shiver.   But the order take priority.  He’s a damn good soldier. If he doesn’t do it, someone else will. Someone else will suffer his pain and will do the job right. Might as well be him.   That’s how he got through childhood, torture and so many mission. He came out of it alive because of the mission. The order.  

When the adrenaline wears off and he’s in a bed, wounds patched up and body recovering. That’s when it hits him.  

The pain, the grieving.  

He cries until there are no tears. Scream until he has no voice.  

And then another order comes in and soothes his soul.  

If he just gets through that. If he can just be useful, then maybe next time off he’ll feel alright.  

After years of wondering if it’s worth it, the answer came to him. It wasn't a sentence, like he imagined. Or a medal, like so many suggested.  

No, it was something much simpler and more naïve.  

A damn smile.  

Johnny’s smile.  

Kyle’s smile.  

John’s smile.  

If he can protect them, if he can protect all the people that can smile like them. Then maybe this is the answer to all his hardships.  

It wasn’t, as it turned out. Those smiles disappear for reasons outside of his own doing. He could punch and stab and fire, but he couldn’t smile back. He couldn’t do everything so they could be happy all the time. That was simply impossible.  

He felt helpless. Sitting on that dirt road waiting for death, grilling in the sun. He’d lost so much blood he couldn’t safely give a transfusion.   And in a couple of minutes the enemy would arrive and shoot him for good. They wouldn’t even take his tags. It would take a week for Price to send someone new to discover his corpse, eaten by the animals of the area.  

An entire life, 30+ years of fighting, and for what?  

Usually, the initial order would drive him. He would ignore the pain and weakness and get up, find a weapon. But now...  

He was wondering why.  

Why would he get up only to be sent in another fight? Lose that sunly smile of his Johnny?  

Johnny...  

The thought of him made him want to cry, if only he was hydrated enough. He was tired, so tired, and only wanted to go back around him.  

Wanted... Now that’s new.  

He wants to go back to him, see him again and finally say those words outloud. It would be crazy. Johnny would tell him so, tell him he can’t just quit, can’t just go back to being a civilian. And it’s true. They can’t.  

But what if they tried?  

Wars are endless and soldiers are sent to be killed. If they come back alive, they’re just sent again and again until they’re finally KIA.  

Simon is nothing without Ghost. But Johnny... Johnny has a family to come back to. Simon wants to meet them. He wants to go to Scotland and see the sheep and chickens. He’s never seen a chicken. Not alive at least...  

Before he knows it he’s back on his feet, ignoring the pain for one last time... 

Title : the mess, so like a messy room but also the religious gathering, get it? I'm so clever /j

But yeah this is a mess of thoughts just spiraling in my head. I do believe that Simon is the type to just stop functioning when he's not around people and is driven solely by orders. He's not a robot he's just autistic

And if you're about to say ''you're stereotyping autistic people aren't robots!1!!'' I'm autistic and exactly like that. I'm far from being a robot I feel so much all the time, it's just not showing in ways you folks can understand

And this gets with the thing of ''I like the military for the structure but I hate what they do'' thing

#ghostsoap #autistic simon ghost riley #ghoap #autistic rambling #im not a writer

[dianadeadwing]

Hey it’s wip Wednesday! I’ve been working on the restaurant in case I ever need it for backgrounds and things. Just loose and messy with flat colors right now. I’d love to do some of the other facades on Ocean Avenue as well.

I’m also working on a little map of the shops based on the movie and season 13. Some of the shop names further down the street are a little hard to make out (except for Fresh off the Presses). But everything up from Bob’s and the Petalphile can be pieced together. I’m hoping season fourteen will provide more details as earlier seasons were inconsistent about what buildings are even on Ocean Avenue and many shop names have since been changed (such as Your Bassest Desires).

And also I’m hoping to make a comprehensive drawing of the apartment’s layout at the very least. (I have some sketches I’m just trying to devise some sort of scale) The restaurant and basement are far, far, more confusing spatially.

#bobs burgers #fanart #wip #wip wednesday #digital art #procreate #artists on tumblr #illustration #bob's burgers #flat color #ocean avenue #autistic rambling #I care a lot about spatial things sometimes #my art tag

[snakeautistic]

Thinking about how when horrible acts are committed often our immediate response is to deny the humanity of their perpetrators. How often do you hear that someone who has done something so terrible, so vile that you could never imagine doing it yourself must be less than human?

It’s meant as a source of comfort in some ways, I think. It serves to distance yourself from even the potential to do harm. Surely, only someone who is irreconcilably different from you could do that. Surely they must have been born evil. But, as we in a way mythologize these people, we obscure a fundamental point.

All of us are capable of the worst aspects of humanity. Does that mean we would ever, in our circumstances, our lives, reasonably seek to do them? That we would even humor the idea? No. But that is not an inherent difference in you- that is a difference in context- in circumstances, in choices. I think that’s why we become fixated on the idea of labeling people around us who have done terrible things to us as irreparably broken- that to hurt is their nature as a living thing. But that’s not true. No one is inherently bad.

And that doesn’t at all take away the weight of someone’s actions. In fact, in some ways it places more burden on them. If you argue that a person is born to inflict pain, that they have no other potential- can you reasonably blame them for doing that? You can’t- it wouldn’t be their choice, they would lack any agency over their own actions. (Of course, not all harm is inflicted purposefully and maliciously- but for the sake of keeping our scope a little narrower, as broad as it already is, we are focusing on malicious harm.)

I think recognizing this humanity, even within the worst of people is incredibly important. When we demonize people, they become more representative of abstract concepts than real people. Actions are no longer seen with nuance or intent behind them- they are assumed to be the manifestation of some greater dark force- one with a satisfaction for evil. (To be super clear here- this nuance does not lessen the responsibility of whoever caused harm or its impact- it simply gives us a fuller reason of why something was enacted.)

And then we fail to see how the people around us we don’t immediately recognize as ‘monsters’ (including ourselves) can inflict harm. We say- “I know that guy, he was always nice to me, there’s no way!” We say- “those were just a few bad apples- the system itself is fine.” We say- “bad people will find ways to get their hands on weapons. It doesn’t matter what we do to regulate them- the shooters will always exist”.

#more philosophical than I usually get on here #also not really autism related but #existentialism #human nature #autistic rant #autistic rambling #thoughts #free will #this is by no means a watertight argument #I’ve already spotted potential counters for it