#I don't care WHO has to die

[hootybal-lecter]

Hannibal and Will: *gets the other locked up*

Hannibal and Will seeing the other locked up: Get him out get hIM OUUUT!!!!

#They both got each other locked up #directly or indirectly #but after seeing the other they're like 'I will absolutely NOT stand for this!' #I don't care WHO has to die #I'm getting my babygirl OUT #hannibal #hannibal lecter #nbc hannibal #will graham #hannibal will #will graham hannibal #hannigram

[harbingersecho]

they had to pause their morning workout to drive wash to the ER at 7 am bc he somehow got hit by a car while getting mail. there's traffic. maine fiddles with the radio and carolina is imagining herself parkouring over the other cars

#rvb #red vs blue #maine #wash #carolina #agent washington #agent maine #agent carolina #mine #*24 #i just saw that image again and wanted to redraw it and this concept just manifested itself #i lost the og ref photo but its the one w/ the big beefy guy and the blonde woman + they both got tits. if u don't know it dw lol #also in a modern au carolina has like a subaru or a honda civic and it's teal. she's the only one of the blues who even has a car #tex had a motorbike. no one else in blue team even has a license except wash but he doesn't actually have a car he just needed a license #but the blues are like 'we never even fucking go anywhere why would we pay all the car insurance shit + parking' #if they rly need to they can just bum a ride from someone or wash can rent a car or whatever #carolina will only drive them (she doesn't trust wash not to crash) in an absolute emergency bc they made fun of her car saying #it's a PTA mom car and she's petty. if youre not gonna die she doesn't care

[creative-hanyou-girl]

You guys know on how InuYasha, the few times he talks about it, badmouths his father and says he doesn't care to avenge his death when he battles Ryukoltsei?

I wonder if InuYasha starts to regret his mindset towards his father once he himself becomes a father. Or at the very least, he starts to understand his father better. Especially if you want to go by the Movie 2 canon where part of Toga's death was from protecting InuYasha and his mom.

Just makes me wonder if InuYasha looks at Moroha or any of his other children and has the thought that it'd break his heart if any of his kids felt resentment towards him like he felt for his own father, especially when everything he ever does is to protect them. And I wonder if it makes InuYasha start to look at his father's memory differently, now that he's a parent himself and would do anything and everything to protect his kids, even if it meant dying and leaving them without a father.

Not that he'd go and try to get himself killed, as he wants to actually be alive so they don't have to grow up like he did, but you know he'd sacrifice himself if it meant his children could live, just like his father did for him (according to movie 2).

I don't know, I just wonder if InuYasha starts to ever regret the way he looked at his father's memory back when he was a teen once he becomes a father to Moroha and starts to understand his father's actions as a parent now that he himself is a parent. Ya know what I mean?

#not that Inuyasha will ever have to worry about missing his daughter's life because nothing bad ever happens to break any of them apart #and the same for any other potential children he and Kagome has #its just a hypothetical #Yashahime? i don't know her #all I know is Teenage InuYasha vs. Papayasha #and how differently the 2 must have thought on the same topics #like their father. and how InuYasha felt so bitter or angry at his dad for leaving him in the name of protecting him #while simultaneously secretly yearning and missing the opportunity to know him #versus Papayasha who looks at Moroha & any other potential kids with the overwhelming understanding that they are his whole world #and he'd do anything to protect them. including laying down his life if it came down to it #& how he realizes that his father felt the same way for him & in that way Inu starts to understand his father in ways he didn't before #but he also understands how hard it is to survive without a parent esp. as a hanyou & refuses to let himself get killed battle- #-leaving Moroha and his other kids at the mercy of struggling in the world without his protection #so he resolves himself that. while he is willing to die for his kids. he must work even harder to STAY ALIVE for them above all else #so that they never have to grow up without him and wonder if he even cared or why he wasn't with them #the way he did with his own father #inuyasha #inukag #moroha #moroha higurashi #inukag child #inukag baby #inukag family #inu no taisho #inuyasha family #inuyasha movie 2 #inuyasha headcanons #inuyasha theory #post canon

[tumblingascending]

I do not keep up with the Jujutsu Kaisen Manga anymore because Jesus CHRIST Sukuna is still fighting in that bitch? How long has it been? 50 or something chapters? Who the hell are these side characters and where are they coming from??

My Babygirl has been fighting NONSTOP he needs to die PLEASE. Bring Gojo back at this point, I don't care, Just so that my baby girl could fucking die. I loved Sukuna during the Shibuya Arc, I do not claim this one, Please take him. PLEASE.

Gege what is happening to your writing? Sukuna having a Twin should've been revealed AGES ago, At least you could've revealed it during Gojo or Yuta’s fight or something (I am not a writer in the slightest) but God Almighty this Fight has been dragged on long enough.

#sukuna #ryomen sukuna #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk spoilers #PLEASE DIE SUKUNA😭 (lovingly) -Said by a once Sukuna fan #please just let my babygirl die #this has been dragged on long enough I beg you Gege #at this point I don't care about my satisfaction about the plot and how things turn out or who wins #I just want Sukuna to fucking die already #If you aren't going to give him a satisfactory death then at least give him some form of rest #Sukuna’s long overdue backstory finally being unraveled #Woo Hoo trauma! #It doesn't feel earned at all #rant #personal rant

[arctic-hands]

I've had more than one anarchist I associate with be surprised to learn I'm actually not an anarchist. But like. I'm a huge proponent of the Welfare State, and you kind of need a state for that

#welfare #welfare state #food stamps #Medicaid #medicare for all #universal healthcare #ubi #ssi #if a government isn't going to take care of its people then the government has no use to the people at all #so like I'm down for dismantling a system that only exists to rule and oppress and watch us die #and i don't mean 'fascists are okay if they make the trains run on time' type shit bc I'm staunchly antifascist #but like i do think a government can take care of even the most vulnerable of its populace if it really wants to. it just doesn't want to #undesirables who can't turn the cogs of capitalism are to be disposed of in most governments. esp the United States via #passive eugenics #anyway #revolution or not if the medical infrastructure goes down for any reason then me and a fuckton of other undesirables are dead #also this next statement is less towards anarchists specifically and more for like utopic commune people but anyway #if your utopia is based on 'work to live/earn your place' you are not a leftist you are a capitalist with a woke vocabulary #and i hate you

[uncanny-tranny]

Please, if you have nothing else to do, please look at what is on the Golden Records, alongside the Soundcloud uploaded by NASA of the greetings recorded on the record. There is such a quiet vulnerability to knowing that these records have been created and are at the mercy of whomever finds them. I hope they love us as much as I love them.

I hope we can send more out - we deserve to be remembered, alongside this entire world. There is truly no place more special to me than this world💛

#positivity #i hope we all eat well #i hope we are all remembered by people we will never be able to fathom #the records were made by NERDS and i adore all of them #i love how much they thought about what they should include and how they thought through how to convey information #you don't get it you don't GET it every DAY i pray that SOMEBODY out there has sent out their own golden record do you GET it....... #i yearn to know every little thing about every type of people in the universe. i would kill and die just to have the chance to know #even IF the life out there is 'simple single-celled organisms' i don't CARE!!!! i need to know they exist #i need to know WHAT they are or WHO they are. i want to know every tiny microscopic thing about them #this applies to my fellow human of course but it applies to everything. i need to know it ALL #i feel like a caged tiger if you're wondering

[coockie8]

i once had an anti tell me to stop sexualizing their trauma on a story i wrote that was a word for word retelling of my own actual trauma but with names changed and its been 2 years and i still cant stop thinking about that

Ah, yeah... Unfortunately a non-insignificant number of antishippers seem to genuinely believe they own the concept of trauma, so any story they read that they believe to be portrayed in a romanticized or sexualized light therefore must be romanticizing/sexualizing their trauma specifically.

I couldn't tell you the amount of times I've gotten the "stop sexualizing my trauma!!!!!!" or adjacent comments from antishippers that universally garner a response that basically boils down to

Like, bitch! I'm talking about my trauma! I literally did not even know you existed until you fucking commented!

#proship #proshipper #anti bs #just anti things #glad to know antis assuming every story about trauma must be about them specifically seems to be a universal proshipper experience lol #like *how* am I sexualizing *your* trauma when I literally do not even know who you are? #like if you hadn't commented I would've gone my entire life not knowing you even exist #if I had omnipotence like that I certainly would not be using that power to sexualize the trauma of some random fucking stranger! lol #you think my petty ass would be doing *that* instead of the infinitely more infuriating thing of spoiling every show you love at any chance #jokes aside though like seriously get fucking real #I hate to burst your main character syndrome bubble but nobody fucking cares about you #not in the ''nobody loves you and you'll die alone'' sense #but in the ''you are just Some Guy™ and the 8 billion other people on the planet have their own problems to worry about'' sense #if someone is writing about trauma maybe take your self-centred goggles off for 5 fucking seconds #and maybe you'll realise that it is 1000000% more likely this random stranger is writing about *their* trauma #and *not* the trauma of a person whose entire existence they are not even aware of #I do believe the tiktok trend of referring to strangers as ''NPCs'' has at least contributed to this epidemic of main character syndrome #people you don't know are *not* ''NPCs'' you fucking robot! #they are human beings just like you with lives and dreams and loved ones #you just don't know them #sorry but I genuinely think I'd go to jail for murder if I ever heard someone refer to me as an ''NPC'' out in public #'cause genuinely who the fuck do you think you are!?

[rabarbarzcukrem]

"Noé" being the name of the biblical savior of all life.

"Vanitas" meaning vanity, futility, something that is ultimately meaningless and doesn't last. I am unwell.

#there is also this interesting thing going on where their dynamic clearly represents the conflict between selfishness and selflessness #but vanitas ends up being the successful savior despite doing it for his own benefit #while noé fails to save the people he actually cares about time and time again #I'm very curious about how they're gonna handle the theme of salvation and what it really means #I think it's implied that killing vanitas would be an act of salvation for him #when his formula gets rewritten to the point he's no longer himself #but chloe d'apchier's storyline seems to kind of contradict the notion that death is the answer and a perfect escape #and with how vanitas views himself as a lost cause already... wouldn't it be nice if they kind of turned it around #like no. you don't get to die. you need to life and that's harder #because I think showing a character who doesn't see a future for themselves and has given up on hope #be forced to confront the fact that that's not the case at all. that there is in fact hope for them #would be more interesting that simply proving them right #<<me delusional about a character that's clearly doomed by the narrative #vnc #the case study of vanitas #moje

[sluttylittlewaste]

As a person who was more of a Riz/Adaine type academically, the specific sting of loving your studies and being really good at school and dreaming of going to college just to have fukcing FINANCES be the biggest limiting factor is So Painful? You're a child and you're financially beholden to adults who are either working against you (Abernants) or are working so hard but can't seem to win (my queen Sklonda, baby boy Jawbone) and your options become work yourself to death or just don't follow your dreams and I JUST AHHHHHHH

#riz gukgak #adaine abernant #adaine o'shaughnessey #meanwhile people around you who DON'T CARE don't even have to think about money #the feeling of doing everything right #everything people said you need to do to succeed #and still having to fucking flounder because you aren't fucking rolling in cash #maybe I'm a little triggered lol #spending the last few years not getting to further my career/education because i just can't afford grad school has made me sensitive #thoughts #d20 fhjy #rant #i guess #fhjy #let me die

[v7n5]

Feel like pure shit, just want a smutty multi-chapter Howard Hamlin fanfic that recounts the many secret sexual affairs that he has had with different people throughout the course of his life, most of which he sought out to recompense for the lack of intimacy in his marriage because both him and Cheryl were iron-closeted and only got married out of familial pressures (things took a turn for the worse after the fight that ended with Howard moving into the guest house). Ultimately, none of them could fulfill his wants and needs because they're all cold and distant in their own ways: there were the handsome strangers he met at some gay bar like Nacho who were emotionally unavailable and only wanted to dick and dash like they're in denial themselves; Jimmy whom he was smitten with and trusted to be able to keep a secret, but it didn't take him long to realize that Jimmy being selfish and cruel and rougher than Howard had liked and not paying any mind to Howard's own pleasure in bed was his way of getting back at him for being a jackass of a boss; Chuck whom he'd got especially close with ever since he was still studying pre-law, so close that he would make up any excuse to be alone with him and suck him off in his office from time to time to seduce his mentor because the daddy issues that had been developing throughout his father-absent youth came to fruition the moment a wiser and older man gave him a sliver of attention, Chuck allowed him to live out his fantasy but never reciprocated in that sense but they remained really good friends, hence Howard's desperation for his approval and affection and the idea of "I still have a chance" kept brewing in his mind even when he could see Rebecca out of the corner of his eye (the incident at the end of ss3 scarred him for life and talking about the intimate details of their relationship before it in therapy did not help). The latter half of 607 didn't happen because he decided that he was in fact the bigger person and the right thing to do was to drink himself into reflecting back on his life choices and wallowing in his own self-pity. Though he didn't storm Mcwexler's condo, the whole ordeal was still his Joker moment, so he put his foot down, got a divorce and resigned from his CEO position because fuck you, he deserves to do that. And maybe after a year or so, he met a certain Salamanca who got out of a certain shoot-out unscathed (haven't determined if Howard happened to stumbled into El Michoacáno or he went back to the gay bar), their chemistry was through the roof, they bonded over the loss of families/ lovers and "being a nepo baby is oh so hard", their romance blossomed because Lalo was textbook definition of charming and exactly Howard's type. One date led to another, and Howard ended up getting the best pipe he'd ever had while trying to hold back the tears stemmed from indescribable emotions. Would Howard find out who Lalo actually was? Would it matter? Would they last? Those are problems for future them.

Like literally that's all I want tbh.

#howard hamlin #He's my girl. My fucking princess. #Idc like he's still rightfully owed a soft dom who's gonna take good care of him and appreciate him #(as much as I feen for power bottom Howard) #The slutification of this middle-aged man HAS to be riddled with angst or else I'll die #1 of the worst things that could ever happen to me is getting ideas that I think are good but cannot for the life of me do anything about it #That and becoming a **** ****** but we're not trauma dumping today #Being a bilingual with an English-leaning brain is not the W that people made it out to be #Honestly Nacho came into the picture when I was deadass half unconscious. I was like 'Ariana what are you doing here???' #But it's hot. And I kinda wanted Nachoward to win a bit #I also wanted to squeeze Gus in there too but in my head it'd be an 'admirer from afar' type of deal. Like Howard would have a crush on him- #-but decided against making a move cuz he would think Gus is out of his league or sth #This is essentially a Howard x everyone who I think could be compatible with him fanfic #For clarification. Cheryl and Howard don't hate each other. if anything they're each other's emotional support system #But I feel like there's only so much pretense you can put up you know #And yes. Lalo and Nacho were in love there. #Ok I've got it all out there now. Time for me to go marinate in shame #nacho varga #jimmy mcgill #chuck mcgill #lalo salamanca #better call saul

[crystalleoi]

5C

#inanimate insanity #ii mephone5 #ii mephone5c #my art #listen man. these two (+ 5S) are like inherently connected in my mind. even though they've never met canonically #created by a man who does not truly care about them or their well-being and only values them bc they are still new and useful to him #& died trying to kill their predecessor. but their efforts wouldn't have mattered anyway because they would've been replaced in like a year #did they know they would be replaced? did they just have to live with the knowledge that they would one day no longer matter to cobs? #these tags r only tangentially related to the artwork. i'm losing it i fear #anyway a headcanon that's actually kinda related to this art: #i imagine that cobs gave more preferential treatment to 5S because he had more advanced tech nd stuff #and 5C developed like a weird relationship w her self-esteem where she (like the other mephones) kind of has an inflated ego #she readily compliments herself (literally called herself “the most colorful beauty in existence”) #(partially bc she's kinda compensating for not getting as much praise from cobs as 5S) #(i also think she tends to seek validation from others (e.g. “i'm made of plastic. neat huh?”) because of that) #but she doesn't talk up how advanced her tech is because it's from Last Year #you don't understand how long this headcanon has been microwaving in my mind. it's been YEARS. i've never unleashed it until now #it's probably stupid but WHATEVER MAN. i'll overanalyze these phones as much as i want #this is what happens when your favorite characters show up in like 1 episode and die. you go insane

[naomiknight-17]

I watch OutsideXbox vids pretty often to unwind but today's video was about games where getting a bad ending was actually more work than a good ending

And it featured fucking Tales of Xillia 2

Which, no joke, upset me so thoroughly when I played and completed it that I have spent years denying its existence and trying to forget about it

So when this funtimes goofy youtube vid started and showed scenes from Xillia 2 without warning I literally yelled at the TV and started crying and Jon had to come check on me because I worried him. I was laughing through my tears like "This is stupid!! I shouldn't be having a fucking trauma response over a JRPG!!"

That's just how hard that game fucked me up

#it made me care about all the characters and then 1. one fucking betrayed me and 2. several die and you CANNOT save them all #you can't #it's like the first time you play ff7 and aeris dies but times like 50 #you've spent like 60 game hours getting to know and love the main character and his brother! now make one kill the other 🙃 #oh you don't want to do that? ok well guess u have to kill all your friends instead #ok you did the right thing and got to the end of the game and it's time to save the world! now choose who dies to make it happen #someone has to die. you've spent all these hours honing these characters and bonding with them. now kill one. now another #it fucking broke me man #i could go in but i need to go to bed #tales of xillia #tales of xillia 2 #i'm gonna go back to pretending this game never happened #mod post #video games

[randomnameless]

Something that really bothers me about the rose coloured glasses vis a vis tellius and fe fans (ESPECIALLY from 3h fans who learned about tellius later) is that many like soren purely because of his main ship (i mean i like ikesoren too but come the fuck on) and jokingly characterise soren as a stereotypical nasty mean limp wristed sarcastic gay man instead of a deeply flawed branded angry at the world and definitely trauma bonded to ike, but micaiah is still absolutely getting raked over the coals over the blood pact and not being ike’s fangirl

Well,

Jokes often involve flanderisation, so Soren being flanderised to oblivion when people joke about him isn't something I really care about, but maybe that's because I'm not really fond of Soren to begin with lol

What annoys me more is when some people try to rationalise Soren's anger and backstory by either pointing at Almedha or Deghinsea being responsible for everything, and I'm like, what.the.fuck?

Almedha's just, idk, I won't call it sexism, but damn - that woman loves her son who is the only reason why she hasn't completely lost her mind over 1/losing her powers 2/being casted away like trash by her "BF" 3/being rejected by her dad 4/thinking her brother was tortured and abused to death because of her actions 5/being separated from her beloved child.

Deghinsea being "uwu bad bcs he's the reason why brandeds are rejected by both beorcs and laguz" is another take I really am not fond of, and iirc I wrote a post earlier this year about it? But to some people who buy the "Crusts BaD" as the reason why Fodlan sucks, I guess they need to have someone to name and pill all of the world's nonsense rather than, well, in Tellius' case, realise that the worldbulding and the lore really sucks, to the point where the duology touted as the most "against racism" of the franchise, is pretty much way more racist than anything Tru Piss can throw us (yes, because in Tru Piss we have characters rejecting coexistence, in Tellius, it's the world mechanics - whenever a Beorc and a Laguz coexist too much, the Laguz dies...).

As for Miccy,

Just like, imo, Soren gains some "new" attention and "uwu excuses for why he's being a snarky jerk at times", Miccy used to be bashed when FE10 was released (with all the Mary Sue accusation being thrown around!) because she was written to be a sort of foil/antagonist to Ike, and when the party reunited, she was demoted to a "soul-jar" role, let it be regarding the greater plot, or, even, her own backstory!

TBH, for people who didn't play FE10, if Ike is the bestest thing since melted cheese, Miccy, who opposes him, must be BaD and so you can pile everything you don't like on her, hoping to see it stick.

Or even worse, I've seen posts here and there comparing Miccy to Supreme Leader and how misunderstood uwu she is, which is the worst insult poor Miccy ever received since FE10 came out rofl

#2goldensnitches #do you want to kill me friend lol #once upon a time discussions about soren and miccy were very animated lol #anyways i still don't like how some part of the fandom tries to uwu him #he is a character with flaws that sure are never called out in the game and by the main character but #they exist #and to uwu them away is imo a disservice and not a good reading on him #'but his backstory sad uwus' Sephiran also has a crapton of sad uwus for his backstory #and yet the game chews him out about his plans to destroy the world because hey fuck off #it's not fair to condemn the world and everyone who lives in it for your suffering #It's sort of hilarious because sometimes I wonder if Miccy wasn't also written as a Soren foil #Miccy is the one who doesn't like when Beorc call Laguz names #she lives in racist land and knows she has to hide else she'll die too #but she still came to care about the people who live here #she gets to talk to Vika who feels weirded out by her being a branded and yet they agree to continue talking/being friends despite it #Miccy never insults Rafiel calling him a half beast #Soren follows Ike and his lead but Miccy has to take the lead despite wanting to follow Pelleas at first #tfw we know more about Soren's backstory even after being kicked away from Daein than Miccy's lol #granted I loved what FE10 with Almedha when you see that some of his worst traits/flaws are actually shared by his mom lol #tl;dr : a Soren raised by his mom would have been even more of a jerk than the one we got #i have a lot of feelings about how Miccy was treated in FE10 which in turn sort of explains the vitriol she received from the fandom #but that's for another post lol else it'll be too long #basically FE10 is more Ike v.2 than a game where Miccy is the Lord

[gavin-reed-is-gay]

Every time I come across Gavin hate, old or new, I always think of that meme in Trolls:

Someone: Why do you hate Gavin?

Gavin haters: BECAUSE GAVIN KILLED MY GRANDMA, OKAY?

#detroit: become human #dbh #gavin reed #I don't know #most Gavin haters just sound so stupid to me #like you can tell that their only reasons for hating Gavin is 'he hurt my fave' or 'character did bad thing so I want him to die' #I've mostly encountered adults in this fandom but most of them sound like little children #and those same people who hate him will stan some character into another fandom who has actually committed crimes #yeah I’ll say it #Gavin isn’t the nicest guy #but he's not the worst #he's fine or just eh if you don't care for his character too much #but him existing is definitely not worth people in this fandom making hating him their entire personality #mine #mine: texts #mine: dbh

[sskk-manifesto]

(´･ᴗ･ ` )

#I really like the “We're the bad guys' enemy” line. For someone I generally despise Dazai has all my favourite lines in this show… #Idk I can't really vibe with the unbalance that there is between s/kk. #Like when push comes to shove‚ Dazai has the power to keep Chuuya alive or let him die. #I understand why they make a compelling dynamic in their complexity‚ but it just doesn't do it for me. #I'm a little sad my opinion on them hasn't really changed since I watched the anime for the first time... #Also; I really can't vibe with Chuuya allowing Dazai to kill Q. Yes I know Chuuya cares about his comrades deeply. #Yes I know it can be interpreted as Chuuya seeing himself in Q as a living weapon and being disgusted by it #(though I honestly don't think that was intentional of the author). #Yes I know Chuuya is a mafioso and kills people. No I don't think your personal issues justify you being a dick to other people I'm sorry. #Back to my main annoyance with the episode: I must have already talked about this but I hate hate hate the narrative #“the mafia works for the city” “the mafia deeply loves the city too” it's so so sickening and insulting please stop I'm begging. #Please visit any actual city with a rooted mafia presence for once in your life (signed: someone whose hometown was destroyed by the mafia. #The writers really don't know what they're talking about and‚ politely‚ it's offensive.) #Also b/sd keeping being extremely nationalist with Mori (who's largely depicted unsimphatetically for the first part of the episode)– #bringing up western thinkers and subtly mocking Fukuzawa for not knowing them– #and Fukuzawa (the righteous man. the noble spirit and just soul in this episode and Mori's antithesis)– #stepping forward to say that he knows strategists from the east (because who else would he need?) #I don't know if it's meant to symbolize the conflict with an hostile and invading foreign power (the Guild). #But it does come across as. A very isolationist way of thinking. #I know it's subtle but it's really evident for me. And I didn't want to talk about this any further… #But by bringing actual examples of this I hope I can better explain why I think that b/sd holds nationalist views– #and that I'm not just making it up out of nowhere. Otherwise I fear I'd only come off as pettily hostile to b/sd in everything #That's it. I feel like I've been losing a lot of mutuals over my main recently due to not shutting up (sorry) #so I suppose it's only fair I lose them on here too pffttt. #Tune in next week for more bad takes #random rambles

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

[pericky; a look into ricky's head during their meeting.]

---

"I'm glad you came, I wasn't sure you would." The wine pours, the sound of it drowning out the missing word in that sentence: back.

Of course, is the response, and the part of Ricky that's spent twenty years tearing itself apart to understand why vibrates with relief. It doesn't matter anymore. Of course, of course, he thinks giddily along with the words. He never needed to wonder why Pericles wasn't coming back in the first place; he was always going to.

I'm happy you invited me, and of course he thinks again. A lifetime of pretending he wasn't always going to either falls away. However harsh and lonely the world has been, all's right with it again; and the shy voice of the boy inside him that he's tried so hard to kill says, so quietly, I missed you.

#sdmi #scooby doo: mystery incorporated #pericky #ricky owens #professor pericles #anyway fucking end me actually. lay me down to die #i said i was gonna write more pericky and by fucking god i did #the 'why did you do this to me' to 'oh thank god you didn't actually do this to me' pipeline of abuse folks 🥲 #which like. their last conversation is yet another devastating example of ricky finally standing up to pericles' bullshit Too Late #ricky denounces him in the strongest terms he knows; based on his own feelings and opinions and the way he sees the world #(which: even then he can't bring himself to say 'i don't love you anymore') #(the closest he can get is 'i chose you and i can't take it back; the only way i can imagine not loving you is if i never had at all') #and pericles tries to go 'nyeh nyeh whatever i don't care' (and does a real bad job of pretending he is not obviously hurt lmao) #and ricky doesn't try to understand his logic; he doesn't try to reconcile a world where pericles didn't *really* mean to do anything wrong #his response is MAYBE YOU *SHOULD* CARE. #pericles' view of the world and what's right and acceptable are warped and *wrong* and he's the one who needs to get his shit together #'you shouldn't have abused me you shouldn't have killed cassidy you shouldn't have murdered a child in cold blood' #that is MASSIVE and i think it is really telling that pericles' response is to shut him down with force instead of trying to argue any more #and that in the end is the real true fucking tragedy of it all #ricky is making huge strides one after the other to take back his freedom from pericles emotionally #....and materially it makes no difference to improve his situation in the moment; because pericles doesn't have any less power to abuse him #he never has a triumphant moment where he Overcomes His Abuser and Breaks Out of His Control #there's nothing he can do to fight back until pericles is too Literally Dead to control him anymore #it is one of the rawest depictions of the reality of abuse i've ever seen and just. God. i love it so much #(at the same time i REALLY want to explore a version of events where he got the chance to expand further on that growth) #(the 'all witches are selfish; make all things yours; i have a duty' speech from the wee free men comes to mind) #whosebaby makes things #whosebaby writes #SDMItag #dyn: when i die i want you to die too