#I might reblog this later to tag it properly. I don't want this showing up in the tags lmao

[imsorryithurts]

im torn between writing essays on what the symbolism on disco elysium means to me and writing fics in which i shake the shit out of those middle aged men in a jar until they threw up. i can not choose both im swamped with work and other junk 😭

anyway, glad to see another DE whump enjoyers, if you had any fic recs please please please tell me (esp if its kim centric, i really like the caretaking reversal trope)

I FEEL YOU. DE is such a deep and beautiful game but also. I want Kim's picture framed on my wall like that one person in the news.

I remember thinking "I'm not going to fandom-fy this. I will enjoy this like a normal adult person". Which is pretty good, but then you have the writers posting stuff like "yeah, I think Jean and Harry fucked", and fan artists posting the characters as c.alico critters, and fanfiction writers writing literal novels as fan sequels, how can I resist??

But then someone comes and does a deep analysis of themes, characters and motifs and I'm like "damn. should I be poor meow meowing these men?"

Anyway, I guess the conclusion I came to was:

DE is such an amazing game and it leaves space for both brain rot and intellectual reading. It's not often I get this involved with media that tackles complex and real issues and criticisms, with characters that are not really great people but they are so incredibly charismatic you forget, and at the same time makes silly jokes, has an idle animation of them cracking each other's backs and makes you want to pet these greasy/balding middle aged men. So I'm managing to balance both Fandom Brain and Enjoyer of the Actual Game and it's Brilliance Brain so far. I guess what I'm trying to say is that most fandoms I'm in I don't take the media so seriously, but I absolutely would submerge myself in a pool of DE source material and be serious about it.

I don't know. I'm not rusty with words. All I know is DE good, and I want to see them hurt.

I'll rec some fics under the cut so this doesn't get too long!

So, you might have already filtered AO3 by "whump" and "hurt/comfort" and found these. But here are some I really enjoyed and have saved:

Tenth of a Second by SupposedtobeWriting

AU where Kim gets shot after the tribunal and Harry is the one that takes care of him. One of the first fics I came across when I first searched the fandom tag. One of my favorites, I remember having to pace myself while reading it to make it last longer!

Small Light in a Dark City by SupposedToBeWriting

Kim has a nightmare after the case. More psychological whump.

An Impression of Smoke by nicpic

I'm just going to copy the tags: kim is sick, jean is soft, That's it, that's the fic

Also really like this one :) The Day After comes before in the series, and it's also fun, just short and lighter on the whump.

nicpic also has Blood on Snow, it's a bit more heavy on the hurt, and Jean is the hurt one. Plus, they seem to have some really cool fics I havent gotten around to reading yet.

In sync by DistressPlop

Tribunal aftermath, Harry whump, with some Kim psychological whump. I remember reading this, but I must have read it in bed before sleeping because I don't remember much about it lol. Guess I'll get to enjoy it fresh one more time.

sans sommeil by narramin

Kim, who was undercover until then, shows up hurt at Jean's door. Now that I think about it, this one might have been one of the first fics I read. I was finishing up this list and my brain went "wait what about that undercover Kim one?" and I had to search for it, because I read it before making my ao3 account. I don't remember much about it, except that I really liked the whump in it.

Ace's (All-Time) Low by new_career_in_business

Kim shows up hurt at Harry's door. TW for homophobia

I believe Ace's (All-Time) Low was the last one I read before deciding to not pick up new ones because I really need to focus on studying for the admittance test of the master's program I want to get in. So now I only have a bunch marked for later, both whump and non-whump. Maybe I'll do an updated list in the future, I'd like to have a neat little list so I can revisit them easily :).

Happy reading, and feel free to rec back! Here's to more DE whump in our lives! *raises glass*

#de #I might reblog this later to tag it properly. I don't want this showing up in the tags lmao #ask

[tenpintsof-sundrop]

Did you know that you can reblog fics with tags in order to bookmark them?

Okay the replies on this post are kind of sending me to space, so I figured I needed to make a new post.

I know a lot of people are new to tumblr and might not know how to use tumblr properly, and it does just make me go ??? whenever I look on someone's account and they have 0 reblogs and just have a giant wall of fanfiction in their likes. Because I cannot imagine scrolling through endless fanfiction posts in my likes looking for one fic when organizing things with tags is so much better.

First of all, for new people - reposting and reblogging are two very different things. If a writer has "do not repost" as a disclaimer, they are not talking about reblogging.

Reposting is when you copy and paste someone's entire work, make a brand new post, and then post their work under the implication that it is your own.

Reblogging is a function that is built into the website (and app) that comes up in a creator's notifications, showing that you appreciate their work because you interacted with it. Reblogs always have links back to the original poster so people can find them and follow them.

So - when you hit the reblog button (the one next to the like button that is shaped like a recycling symbol) - you are giving the author credit and encouraging them.

Also, you can use tags on your reblog to organize fanfiction for your own use later!

You can tag by genre -> #smut #angst #hurt and comfort

You can tag by a character's name -> #Spencer Reid #Emily Prentiss #Jennifer Jareau

You can tag by a pairing -> #Spencer Reid x Reader #Emily Prentiss x Reader

If you read fanfic from a lot of different fandoms, you can even structure your tags to include multiple elements -> #Spencer Reid x Reader Smut

A lot of people even reblog fanfics and tag them as #TBR or #to be read - in order to bookmark a fic that they are interested in and want to come back to later.

And you can edit the tags on posts you have reblogged at any time, so if you want to edit something that you have already read and update the tags, you can do that.

I think it's a shame that people aren't taking advantage of this websites very useful features (while supporting fanfic writers at the same time). You don't need to keep links to Tumblr fanfiction somewhere else in order to organize them - if you use Tumblr right, you can keep everything organized within Tumblr and it works perfectly.

#sundrop speaks #fanficton #spencer reid x reader #emily prentiss x reader #eddie munson x reader #steve harrington x reader #ellie williams x reader #joel miller x reader

[halfagone]

...I have such complicated feelings about the Anger Management ship. This isn't to say that I don't like the ship (I do, I actually adore it) but I happen to be very nit-picky about the execution and dynamics that I'm always super hesitant to read new fics with these two as the main pairing.

(If you plan on reblogging this, please do not put the crossover fandoms or the ship name in the tags. This is a rambling essay, not a purposefully antagonistic vent about other people's writing style or preferences. I KNOW not everyone likes or dislikes the same things that I do, and just as they are due their own opinion, so am I.)

To be completely transparent, I don't think Jazz would like Red Hood. Oh, I think she'd absolutely adore Jason, but I don't think she would like Red Hood. I honestly believe that if she found out Jason was Red Hood sometime later into their relationship, she would want to take a step back and think things through. This isn't to say that she would break up with him because of it, or hate him suddenly now that the truth is out, but it's one thing to find out your boyfriend is secretly an anti-hero vigilante, and it's another thing to find out your boyfriend is secretly a crime-lord who beheaded EIGHT PEOPLE and stuffed their severed heads into DUFFEL BAGS to send a message to Batman. It's one thing to find out your boyfriend doesn't get along with his family, and it's a whole other thing to learn your boyfriend beat his adopted brother brutally and PAINTED THE WALLS WITH HIS BLOOD without ever meeting him first and based on information he hadn't even found out firsthand but was given to him by a woman that was purposefully stoking the flames of his anger and hatred to make things easier for her son.

She knows Jason a little more personally now, so she's aware of the layers to his character and history so she has a better understanding of what his motivations might/could be, but that doesn't lessen how HUGE of a shift in perspective this could be for her. It'd be worse if Jason hasn't expressed any regret for what he did to Tim, especially considering Red Hood supposedly protects kids but went along and beat Tim so viciously anyways. You can't even use the excuse that Tim is a 'child soldier', when Jason is just as willing and ready to use that same excuse when he gripes about how terribly Bruce treated him or Bruce's supposed lack of grief and regret over losing Jason. It doesn't mean what he went through was any less terrible, but it does make him a hypocrite.

I feel like they would have to steadily overcome this obstacle, and I do honestly believe that Jazz would implore him to get therapy to help him, and if he didn't agree, she would be seriously concerned about their relationship. Seeing as Jason has also inherited Bruce's miscommunication (or general lack of communication) and poor coping mechanisms.

Of course a lot of this could be outright avoided or fixed in the background, but I don't find that it happens a lot? Or, if it does, it's never properly explained? I can understand if it's a short fic and all that background plot points can't be properly addressed in the short amount of time, but when it's a longer fic I always feel like it's a missed opportunity NOT to have and/or show more growth in Jason as he learns what a civilian relationship (hell, a healthy relationship in general) is actually LIKE after losing so much of his life to his need for revenge.

Which kind of leads up to my next point... I'm very nit-picky when Jazz is shown to be super BAMF and always ready to throw down. Jazz has always been badass to me, but I always felt like her type of strength always relied more on her intelligence, sharp wit, and most of all her compassion. She's a good shot, and she's always willing to step in physically if she feels like it's necessary, but violence has never been her first choice. She wants to be a psychologist/psychiatrist - for her to constantly be willing to roll up her sleeves and punch someone out is not conductive to a working and trusting relationship between a doctor and their patient. Or between most people, in general.

(Another thing! I feel like Jazz would believe that people deserve second chances. While she might agree that someone like the Joker might be beyond saving (something she might agree to with great hesitancy and reluctance), she wants to believe so badly that people can change for the better. This could be caused and/or linked to her childhood, and how her parents never spent time on her and Danny but she was desperate to fix their family. Which could be the reason she got into psychology in the first place. For her to admit that some people can never change, would be like Jazz admitting that she wasted the early formative years of life trying to fix a broken home all for nothing. This, however, would cause more contention between her and the Red Hood. Can you tell I don't think they'd get along?)

However, this sort of personality and behavior is very reminiscent of someone else. That person of course being Danny himself. Danny is the one that's often throwing himself into fights and roughing it up before thinking twice. When he grows up, he might learn to rein it back in and think things through more, but I find it strange that the exact opposite it applied to Jazz's character when she has already succeeded with a balance of careful forethought and affirmative action. I like when there are differences between their characters, I like how they differentiate and balance each other out. I like how it shows their opposing thought processes and principles.

This does lead me to my next point... Liminal!Jazz is very hit and miss for me. Giving her ghostly qualities not only takes away some of the things that make her unique to Danny (it sucks too because I adore how Jazz is so sympathetic and tries so hard to understand what Danny is struggling through, it really shows how supportive Jazz is and has always tried her best to be). It particularly irks me when it's explained that this is caused by ectocontamination when Danny supposedly never had those same ectocontamination effects BEFORE his Accident? When he was similarly contaminated for all of his life as well. Technically speaking, their parents should be contaminated too in order to make the reasoning consistent. But most of all it... and I hate to say this, but I feel like it cheapens Danny's tragic death. Danny went through SO MUCH and suffered excruciating pain and now whenever he looks in the mirror he will never see the same human kid he'd once been, while Jazz didn't have to suffer the same thing or even CLOSE TO IT and still got those same physical characteristics. ESPECIALLY when the reasoning feels hollow. And even I hate how I can't get into the concept because I've seen the headcanon utilized in some pretty inventive ways! Nonetheless it still bothers me and I see it so much that I find that I have to outright avoid so many fics to get away from it. The premise of the fic itself might interest me but the concept bothers me THAT MUCH that I just can't.

And a lot of this is connected to how Jazz is so often characterized or shown in conjunction to Danny. De-Aged!Danny fics where Jazz takes care of him are really cute- god knows I love a good baby!Danny story- but I feel like these fic concepts don't give Jazz the opportunity to shine on her own. When I heard people complained about where Danny was in Elizabehta_Beilschmidt's Friendly neighborhood vigilante (and yes I know what her @ is, but I am PURPOSEFULLY not tagging her), I was honestly SHOCKED. I loved that Danny wasn't really around. That might sound harsh, but I came for a Jazz/Jason fic where these two were the main characters. And who we, naturally, should spend the most time with.

Most of all, Jazz's whole personality and life should not be based on babysitting/caring for her little brother. Especially in a lot of these fics when Danny is an adult of his own. Danny has been shown to take care of himself even at fourteen, if he's eighteen or even in his twenties, that shouldn't have suddenly changed. Jazz should not have been forced to take care of her younger sibling to begin with, for her to be forced or feel obligated to continue and spend more of her life unnecessarily worrying and fussing over her brother is not fair to her. I hate to separate them, but their lives take them in different directions and it's not healthy or fair for them to curb their wants and dreams to satisfy their desire (and perhaps even codependency) to stick together. It's both adorable and heartbreaking in kid!Danny fics to see how she continues to hold strong and try to do her best for him, but she already spent so much of her life doing that. Let her have time for herself and her interests and her cute boyfriend GODDAMMIT!

So yeah. I have Complicated TM feelings about Anger Management. Thanks for coming to my Ted Talk.

#halfagone rambles #don't take this personally if you disagree #you do you my friend

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#5

Kim is the most terrifying brother and nobody can convince me otherwise. The way Jeff's eyes emote such violence and vicious danger??? I'm obsessed.

297 notes - Posted June 25, 2022

#4

Okay, now that I've had some time to rewatch and mull over all the information we have so far, I'm going to try and lay out my thoughts. It's gonna get long, I'd meant to do a strictly novel analysis of the scene before it aired, but life got in the way as usual. But I'm kind of glad, 'cause now I can compare the two.

There will be discussion of both the show and the novel below the cut, so if you're not interested in the novel or spoilers please pass this post by.

I'm going to start this off by saying that I am truly happy with the changes they've made in the show when it comes to the consensual aspect of the story between Kinn and Porsche. Also, as a warning, I'm going to be pulling personal experiences out to try and get my thoughts across properly. And, I don't do posts like this, like ever, so sorry if I make zero sense or talk way too much. I just have a lot of thoughts, and on the rare occasion my brain allows me to comprehensively share those thoughts, I need to take advantage.

Let's start this off from the beginning of episode 4. Porsche wakes up in Pete's bed, knows he kissed someone, can't remember, and spends the rest of the first half of the episode trying to piece things together. I know we like to joke about Porsche having a single braincell (and honestly sometimes boy... lol) but he's not an idiot and he does know how to read people. You can't be a good bartender or survive taking care of your family, young and alone, without having a decent grasp on human nature.

I think when Kinn called him up to the balcony and started asking him questions he left that conversation with a flickering of oh, I remember something happened and now Kinn is acting strangely (a theme he vocalizes later in the sauna). I think he's thinking, what did I do this time to make Kinn act so strangely (soft and flirtatious and joking around) towards me?

After he sees Kinn with his escort, realizes Kinn is gay, remembers what happened on the pier, and that what happened wasn't something he did but Kinn kissing him, he asks Pete if you should kiss someone you don't like (and the subtitles changed so don't at me...) , or aren't in a relationship with (or perhaps intentionally pursuing because you like them). Now, obviously, you can kiss people you don't like, but perhaps are just physically attracted to, and I'm sure something is lost in the translation. That or I'm just reading too much into it and Pete saying you only kiss people you like, 'cause baby boy, that ain't true. Side note, I have a feeling Pete might come to realize it isn't true when we get to the point of him with Vegas, but that's an entirely different egg to crack open. (I have also not read that far.)

Now, here, is where I want to point out just how differently Porsche reacts to what happened and how fucking ecstatic I am that they changed it completely. In the novel, Porsche struggles with a lot of internalized homophobia, though he's okay with Yok, who is trans, he mentions it took him some time to be okay with her, but he still recoils at people he thinks might be gay or someone of the same gender expressing interest in him. He frequently compliments men's looks, not just in a friendly way, and thinks about how attractive some men are, Kinn especially. In the novel, once he really realizes he's physically and sexually attracted to Kinn, Porsche has a fucking meltdown of an internal crisis over it. He even goes as far as hitting on all his guy friends trying to reason out why Kinn would be behaving the way he is towards him, and why he kind of likes it (but doesn't, but does, but doesn't etc.). The boy is a mess and in complete denial.

I'm assuming a lot here, and reading between the lines, but how I interpreted it was, Porsche had, at some point in his youth, like a lot of queer youth, gotten a lot of negative feedback about same sex attraction that really dug into his bones, and so whenever he feels anything more than friendship towards another man he freaks out and tries to bury it, all the while wanting it so badly he can't stop himself. i.e. kissing Kinn back and allowing Kinn to essentially do whatever he pleases while being vocally grumpy about it. In the novel, he doesn't know who he is when it comes to his sexuality, he's deep in denial about being bi, and actively fights against it.

The show ripped that all away and gave us the true chaotic bi king we love and adore, and who he should have been in the novel imo. Show Porsche is open, honest to a fault, accepting, understanding. Now, we haven't gotten verbal confirmation that Porsche is bi in the show, but from everything I've witnessed so far I feel safe in saying he's bi, pan, or just plainly doesn't give a fuck as long as he's getting pleasure from his encounters. He seems open to Kinn's attraction as well as his own, though to say for certain we will have to wait until episode 5, where I'm hoping they touch on this subject some more, and I hope it's on the good side in line with the changes from novel Porsche we've gotten so far. (I'm down for some turmoil about him having sex with his boss, but please keep the biphobia out please please).

As much as I'd like to get more into the lead up to the real juicy stuff, I just don't have the energy. So, let's get into the gritty of it, shall we? The drugging scene. We finally made it here. A lot faster than I was expecting? Absolutely. Does it still feel organic after the previous three episodes? If Kinn hadn't said Porsche had been at the compound for a month, yes, but since he did, no.

Porsche has been with Kinn, Khun, the other bodyguards, for a whole month. He's been learning, adjusting, actively trying to become a better bodyguard. The reasons behind his change of heart seem to be him finally coming to the realization of what a serious situation he's landed himself in. It's life or death, his life isn't the only one on the line here, it's everyone around him as well. He's clearly beginning to really care about the well-being of his fellow bodyguards (mainly Pete, Arm, Pol) and Khun and Kinn.

Also, after episode 3, it was clear to me that Porsche finds Kinn physically attractive, and I do believe wanting some kind of approval from Kinn was another motivator. He's curious about Kinn, he's attracted to him, he's leaning into it.

Kinn, poor baby, is having a beautiful emotional crisis, and a lot of that I think is thanks to Mile really pouring his entire being into fleshing Kinn out and turning him into a "well" rounded person rather than the power hungry, totally domineering, bastard asshole, very surface, no depth, Kinn we have in the novel. The changes they've made to Kinn are fucking delightful, and I'm adoring the added depth and emotional vulnerability they've given him.

In the novel, Vegas sexually assaults Porsche. Without penetration, but Kinn does find him in his underwear with marks all over his body. This was one of the parts I was most worried about them adapting in the show. (I will note here, I have not read past the official translation of 1/4 of the novel--which ends with my favorite spicy scene so far and god I hope they give it to us!--the rest I have sought out from fans so it's not a complete picture). The change they made was nice (as nice as beginning to assault someone can be...), and I'm glad we didn't have to go that far. They've clearly changed Vegas a bit, though how much is yet to be seen. I'm holding my judgment for now.

Kinn's internal monologue during the drugging scene is, well, rough to say the least. But that can be said for the novel as a whole. Reading it felt like reading a fic written by a teenager from the early 00's, and not in the good way. Kinn seems like a consent King, but after telling Porsche he'd stop if Porsche told him to, he doesn't. He fucks Porsche all night long, to the point of needing to take him to the hospital the next day because he's bleeding heavily and in a lot of pain. It has its hot moments, but it's rough and gross, and I'm so glad it's been changed in the show.

What the show gave us is stunning in comparison. What the show gave us is fucking beautiful imo. Porsche, after remembering Kinn kissed him, after witnessing him with his escort, after listening to Pete, Porsche takes all of that information and once again, leans into it. He goads Kinn, he flirts with him, he asks him questions not any normal bodyguard would ask. "If your brother didn't give me up, would you even think to take me back?" Any other guard wouldn't give a shit, but Porsche needs to know. There are so many reasons this could be, but I think the main factors are a need for approval, his newfound desire to protect this family, his attraction and curiosity for Kinn, and a need to prove himself as a competent man, which he is in all rights when he puts his mind to something.

There's also something to be said about an unspoken and underlying desire to be cared for, something Porsche has never really had for most of his life. He's always been the caretaker, for Che, for his uncle even. I know y'all noticed how good he is at taking care of Tankhun? It's because he's in a familiar roll, he knows how to do this with ease. Kinn on the other hand? Someone who doesn't need coddling and caring for? He doesn't know how to handle that, but after his initial rebellion, after seeing some different sides of Kinn, he wants back in. I think, subconsciously at this point, he sees how Kinn would take care of him and he wants it.

Yes, Porsche is drugged. Yes, being under the influence makes consent iffy, but it does not mean Porsche did not give his consent or wasn't able to. Porsche may not have given verbal consent, what he did do is give consent in every other possible way, and that is what Kinn responded to. Porsche joked with Kinn about wanting to see him naked, playfully slapped his hands away, and each time Kinn respectfully pulled back. Those examples are a clear lack of consent, and Kinn responded appropriately to them. But as soon as Porsche changed gears so did Kinn, still yet with reluctance because of Porsche's state and also his brewing feelings. It wasn't one-sided, it was a push and pull on both ends.

I know there will be some who disagree with me, and that's fine. I'm pulling from my own experiences here, and what I saw in episode 4 was consensual and not rape in the slightest. I've done a lot of things in my 30+ years that I'm not proud of, certainly, but even fall-over drunk, even sky-high on drugs, I was able to give and deny consent. Was it a good idea? Of course not. Do I have regrets? Some. But being young and reckless, well, me and Porsche seem to have that in common. I mean, Porsche is in his early twenties, and my early twenties were quite literally a blur of alcohol, drugs, parties, and bad (but fun) decisions.

Porsche was high as a kite, but he was also coherent. Porsche was the one pulling Kinn in. Porsche was the one verbally and non-verbally saying yes, please, I know you want this, I want it too can't you see? Let me show you. Not to mention, no sugarcoating, having sex when you're high is fucking awesome and, frankly, I don't think this is a first for Porsche. Also, I want to mention, and this is really important, if you throw up while you're high it does sober you up a bit. It dampens the experience and brings you back into your mind. I can say this with absolute certainty, I've done it several times.

Another thing I want to point out in regard to consent is Porsche never once told Kinn no. Never once did he tell him to stop. Porsche was smiling constantly, he was taking initiative, he was undressing Kinn himself, he wanted all of what happened. Will he regret it the next day? Probably. We will have to wait and see. But bottom line, the show changed this scene for the better, a lot better.

Anyway, this was less of an analysis and more of a thought word vomit 'cause I've been wanting to talk about this scene for weeks now, and I'm also sick and tired of people saying it was rape in the tags. Kinn did not rape Porsche. Porsche gave non-verbal consent, and yes it is possible to give consent when under the influence, even if it's not a good idea. This is not the hill we need to be dying on. Let's wait for VegasPete for that, shall we?

Please, do not fucking come for me. I'm down to discuss, but I will not respond to bullshit. Thanks. ❤️

305 notes - Posted May 2, 2022

#3

So, how long was Pete in Vegas' torture dungeon before they moved to the safehouse? How long was Pete tied to that pillar? When was the last time Pete took a shower? Mans has been sweating profusely for a day or two at least and Vegas just... licks him? Sir, ya nasty. Good for you.

346 notes - Posted June 24, 2022

#2

I have watched this an unhealthy amount I 🥵🥵🥵

366 notes - Posted April 28, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

I just can't get this particular moment out of my head. It just keeps replaying again and again, and I lose my mind a little bit more each time because Pete is taller than Vegas but that moment after he first kisses him and Vegas kisses him back he drops down like his knees gave out on him. He kissed Vegas and it made him weak in the knees. He kissed Vegas and his knees gave out. He kissed Vegas and his knees gave out. He kissed he he knees he kissed Vegas and knees he gave out he

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#5

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#4

uh oh besties. i might come back. with pokemon fanfic.

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#3

"i like your president!"

thanks i stole it from the shoelaces

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4 notes - Posted May 5, 2022

#2

i feel like an important context to me as a person is that like.

so i used to watch a lot of steven universe comic compilations back when i was like... 11, i would say

and like obviously there were comic DUB compilations but what i mean is comic compilations, which were just the comics passing through the screen with music in the background

and i remember the main channel that i watched would change the music up like, once every like 10 to 15 episodes right, of the comic compilations series

and one of the songs they picked, for, again, 10 to 15 episodes of a steven universe comic compilation series, was a mountain goats song

and keep in mind i was like 11, at most 12 right? like i had never heard of the mountain goats before this, i BARELY spoke english, and i wouldn't Truly Care about the mountain goats until i was 16, so at least 4 years later

and um, the way i PROPERLY got into the mountain goats was like, a friend of mine recommended me this year and i spent an afternoon listening to it and cleaning my bedside desk on january 2nd, 2021

but like, me and that friend would sometimes get on voice chat and listen to tmg albums like he'd show them to me and my now partner

and anyways imagine the whiplash when i realized that someone out there set 10 to 15 episodes of a steven universe comic compilation series to no children by the mountain goats

anyways if you've ever wondered why i can't take no children seriously, that is why

4 notes - Posted March 2, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

--☆ Basics ☆--

hi!! my name's icarus, amongst other names, which you can find here!!

i'm 17, and i use the following pronouns:

he/him/his/his/himself

they/them/their/theirs/themselves

it/it/its/its/itself

fae/faer/faers/faers/faerself

voi/void/voids/voids/voidself

end/end/ends/ends/endself

prince/prince/princes/princes/princeself

and any other neos!! those are just my favourites

i like tons of things, but my main special interest that i will actually post about is pokémon. i have autism and adhd, so hyperfixations come and go as they please, so i can't promise any consistency in what i post, but i can promise i'll try to be at least mildly entertaining while on my bullshit

--☆ Disclaimers ☆--

while i forget to tag things very often, i am always open to being told i have to tag them!! please tell me if you need anything tagged, i can't promise it'll be consistent but i'll do my best

while i don't have the patience nor do i pay enough attention to enforce a dni, i want it to be very clear that i am pro black lives matter, pro queer people (including trans people, neopronoun users and xenogender users) and most things that people find "weird" or "cringy", and anti ableism, anti terfs, anti transabled, anti transage, anti transrace, and generally anti things that actually hurt people. proceed at your own discretion, and be aware that i might block you at any point if i find you interacting with me makes me uncomfortable in any way, shape, or form

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PFP Credit

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Ask Memes (tag i use so people (including me) can find the latest ask meme i reblogged)

Icarus Answers (tag i use so people can see all my asks)

Icarus Rambles (tag i use so people can see all my original posts that aren't writing)

--☆Userboxes☆--

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6 notes - Posted August 15, 2022

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[littlelovingmouse]

i will say this about getting shadowbanned: it has in fact led me to engage a lot more with posts than i used to, i.e. i talk a lot more in the tags than before

knowing that no one but the people who follow me, and who are active on tumblr at the same time as me, can see my tags, it's been freeing, actually

like, i reblogged a post a few days ago, that i'm still thinking about; it said that the wonderful thing about tags is that it's impermanent commentary that only your followers will see, so it doesn't bother the op like a direct addition to the post might

but in my experience, that has never been true, even before staff added the feature that lets you see what tags people add to your posts and to the posts you share when they reblog from you

i got yelled at a few times in my asks by people who disagreed with my tags or just didn't like them, so while i used to tag things properly, i have since stopped using tags almost entirely, and most things on my blog are untagged and impossible to search nowadays

like yes, don't make original posts about how you hate a thing, only to tag them with the thing it's about, so that users who do enjoy it don't have to suffer your negativity, that's just basic courtesy

but it used to be that, as long as you didn't name the thing in the first five tags, no one would see it, and reblogs don't show up in main tags either

and now everyone can go on their activity page and see what tags people added to a post when they reblogged from you, and all the tags people add to your original posts, too

and even before that, people would often check tags!

but like

if i use tags to keep track of things, and be able to find them again later, i should be able to use whatever tags i want

and if i want to add commentary that will only show in the tags, i should be able to do so; i should be able to give my opinion on things on my own damn blog

and truth be told if poll votes weren't anonymous, or if i knew people could see my tags, i wouldn't add any at all, and i wouldn't touch polls with a ten foot poll pole

sorry for the rambling, but i'd been wondering why it was taking me so long to poke staff again about un-shadow-banning me (de-shadow-banning me? shadow-un-banning me? shadow-de-banning me?), and i think that's why

i've often felt like i wasn't actually welcome to interact with the fandoms i'd joined, which is why i'm almost always a lurker, who only likes things, but does not reblog them

and then i always feel bad when i see posts complaining about this, but like, idk, i'm not sure what i'm trying to say here, i do understand that artists and writers can find it upsetting when people tag their work with triggering or squicky things, or when their original content gets tagged with character names and ships and stuff they don't like

... anyway, my conclusion here is that i've always chosen wrong on those super power quizzes, my ideal power isn't telekinesis or flight, it's clearly invisibility

i just don't want to be invisible all the time, otherwise it's kind of lonely

#personal #long post #i guess #i'll message support again about this eventually #my blog has existed for twelve years now i don't really wanna start over

[mejomonster]

An fyi to new tumblr users (or anyone): you can lurk and still reblog.

Ur tags can be used purely for your own categorization purposes (Iike tagging a photo "photo" so you can search and find it on your own blog later if you want to look over all the photos you rebogged). Or you can not tag at all, i often don't tag when I'm tired, or when I like someone's art and I like it so later I can properly tag it (so I can find it later) and just reblog immediately too so it gets more exposure. You can also just never tag. What I'm saying is, you don't have to put commentary in your tags or interact with other blogs if you don't want. You can reblog just so its easier to find what you like (since it's hard to search your own likes) and/or to help support the content you enjoy.

You can lurk and not interact with others and still reblog. I have a blog where no one follows me and I just reblog pretty things that make me happy, since it's easier for me to find that stuff than just in my likes mixed in with every single post I've ever liked. If you like a lot of "cringe" stuff make a fandom blog just for saving that stuff, it doesn't have to be your main blog if you're worried about putting it on there. Although also, if you're aiming just to be on here and not to make some super perfect curated blog, then honestly people are not gonna care if you post anime and marvel and sewing and writing and anything else all in one single blog.

I saw a post once that reminded me this site works by reblogging. How you reblog artists, and thats how other people find those artists. You reblog dumb fandom posts, and that's how another person ultimately sees the funny post. That's how you saw the post - someone reblogged it until it landed within the sphere u see, and then because you became aware thanks to that you could follow the original poster if say you love all their posts. Tags on tumblr are one way to go find new blogs and creations. But tumblr tags break extremely often (I'm grateful they're finally somewhat useful at least on android). Tumblr recommends blogs but that's still not always going to find you the kinds of blogs you want. The more you reblog, the more people who post what you like get into your sphere, end up on your dash and your followers dashes (so they can find what they like). I don't know how Twitter tags work cause I'm not on there, but like Twitter dash if you want to see things easily they're the things on your dash. That you follow. And the people who follow you will only see the same stuff you've enjoyed so they can enjoy it, if you reblog (yes I realize stuff you like dash is trying to bridge that gap but again tumblr is not anywhere near ideal on what it's actually showing ppl on that dash yet). So if you like content, even dumb meme content, it's nice to reblog it so it's seen by others. If its art or photography or a reference post you could be helping by sharing it. And if it's just silly fandom stuff well your reblog might help people into the same stuff find friends etc (or yourself if you feel like making friends).

And again. If you feel like having zero followers, only lurking, there are some benefits to reblogging to your own blog so you can search through posts you like by tag labels. I do that on my zero follower blog just because it's way easier for me to look up posts i wanted to find again. And I use it on my main blog a lot to find reference posts on various things. It's easy to lose stuff in your likes since there's no way to search them.

#rant #feel free to ignore #also yeah. we are lucky tumblr tag searching works way better than it used to #you now have a chance of finding posts to like even if you never create a dash of ppl u follow #or if u post with few followers maybe someone will still find ur content #but tumblr has a history of breaking tag searching often so im not super reliant on it

[bakugohoex]

I'm sorry about that! Its okay don't worry, if you don't mind I'd wanna ask for the same requests but with kenma and koganegawa?

“you’re so cute, bunny”

pairing: kanji koganegawa x female reader

cw: fluff, language

word count: 1600+

a/n: hi, i decided to do just the koganegawa one due to having never written for him and i thought a cute little headcanon would be cute to do

summary: in which you’re the personification of a bunny and koganegawa falls in love with you

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Love at first sight, this man would see you walk past the gym and fall in love.

He’d run, I don't mean like a creepy run though, like he’d sprint and do that little jog at the end and just peak his head out of the gym doors, staring at you walk away.

Definitely shout something to you, on sight you flinch from his shouting, refusing to turn around.

Sad boy, he will get all sad at how you didn't even turn around.

He won't see you again until a week later when you’re coming out from the library, he just watches you, making sure that you’re okay. That's when he hears the lightning and watches how you jump in fright. He sees a fear run through you before you run back into the library.

He fell in love just watching your interactions with loud noises, a drop of books that would pass you, you’d twitch. He made sure your flinching wasn't due to abuse asking your friends about it, who told him how you just hated loud noises since you were kid, and you were walking past a concert. 

Heart warms, he just had to talk to you again, this time he’s quieter. 

You obviously knew the first-year setter, having been to a couple of their games with your friends. Volleyball was interesting and you couldn't lie, you could tolerate the loud shouting and join in with the cheers. 

Baby walks up to you, a smile on his face and you give him a look of such admiration. Your eyes in a wonder just staring at his lips as he spoke to you, the only thing you’d hear is numbers. 

You’d instantly give it and in a matter of weeks you both had planned on a date. 

Adorable little picnic date, away from others and loud noises. Just the two of you in your happy place, and when it starts raining, he’d pick you up and run with the basket and you through the rain and into the shop.

Would definitely kiss you on the first date, he just already knows you’re the one. 

Start of the sweetest relationship possible, he will always hold your hand and show you off. 

Whenever it starts raining, he will stay inside until it stops and walk you home. 

I swear being in a relationship would be the cutest thing possible, every time you both have to part, he’d give you the softest kiss and the biggest hug.

You’d definitely shout at games just for him, even if you hated loud noises, you’d be the loudest one there, just shouting his name. 

He’d give you the brightest smile and set just for you. It would actually be a good set as well that Aone wouldn't miss. 

Would call you bunny, you just remind him of one with your jump scares and just how adorable you are.

After every game, he’d watch you run up to him, his arms out for you and praise you for your support, he’d definitely be like “you’re so cute, bunny” with the widest grin possible.

All in all, a relationship between you two is just two adorable babies loving and being with each other. 

You waited patiently outside the park that Koganegawa had sent you, it looked peaceful, cute even. The white skirt encased your thighs and the pastel shirt you wore helping to ease the summer breeze, you stood with your phone in your hand. Stomach churning, at a loss, you had admired him ever since he first spoke to him, the way he sauntered towards you with a confession at hand. Now here you are a couple weeks later, waiting for a date he had asked for a week ago. 

“Hey Y/n, you weren't waiting long right?” You turned around to meet his eyes, he stared, looking at every intricate detail of your body and clothes. You were perfect and he was a mess on sight, your voice making him think again. 

“Ugh, not that long.” You smiled walking closer to him. 

He scratched the back of his head, hiding the blush that was forming from just seeing you, “you look really n...nice.”

“Thanks, so what’s the plan?” He gave a gleam from having prepared everything the prior night, he pulled out the basket from behind his back. 

“I thought of a picnic, because it's...summer.” You nod at him, he stared at your hands softly putting his own out. You look down to see his much longer fingers than your own, taking it as he tried to suppress the pure joy, he was getting from holding your hand. 

He took you to the far back, talking about how he used to come here when he was a kid. You listened intrigued with how he could easily talk about anything, the way he spoke about a section that was hidden away from everybody else. Where the two of you could be away from others without their disturbance. 

You looked around, the flowers blooming out around the land. It was perfect, better than any of the other dates you’d been on, the consideration and care that the boy had put into it. To make you feel secure and safe, melted your heart. “I love it.” The grin on your face was all Koganegawa needed to grab your hand and sit you down on the blanket. 

A conversation flowing, your head leaning against his thighs as you lie facing upwards. He had let you play with hind fingers, you asked about his hair, how he got into volleyball, his past and childhood. He spoke enthusiastically about it all, speaking highly of how he wanted may not think properly he’d always support his team. It melted your heart, his sheer passion to be there for his team made you just want to kiss him. 

His fingers rested within your own, each vein across his hand being skimmed across with your own smaller fingers. He loved the sensation, you’d answer his questions, speaking about your own passions. But he watched as you’d get easily distracted, seeing the bees and butterflies fly through the wildlife or just his own hand would distract you.

He had loved when your head had moved to his lap, his other hand stroking your hair. If anybody had seen the sight, it would look like lovers who had been dating for years. He loved that feeling though, how at ease you both were with each other. 

You both spent the rest of the afternoon together, what hadn't dawned on the boy was the mixed message of the weather. When a downpour of rain had occurred, “fuck, let me just grab everything.” He muttered, you helped him, you might hate lightning, but the rain was okay, and when with Koganegawa you almost fell in love with it. 

He smiled at how you looked with the basket in your hands, “come here.” He whispered, you came with the basket in your hand, the rain drenching through your clothes and hair. His own hair getting flat, you could see through his white shirt, but he didn’t care. Instead of grabbing your waist and bringing you up to his body, your arms wrapped around his neck as he carried you through the rain. 

It was a sight to say the least, the basket between the two of you, allowing it to be risky, but Koganegawa just wanted you to not get ill. He ran through the rain trying to find the nearest store for you both to wait in. He hadn't realised how you looked at him, with so much comfort, even with the cold rain hitting you. Blurring both your visions, he felt warmth from you, the way your eyes brought so much love intoxicated him. 

“You’re so pretty.” You whispered leaning your head against his chest, he felt his ears grow redder. His face flustered, stumbling for his own words.

He didn't speak only trying to stop the blushing which you barely saw, your eyes fixated on his tight grip against you. He finally let go just as you both arrived inside a shop where a lot of people had congregated to get away from the rain. 

He grabbed your hand taking the basket with his other, “we’re going to be stuck here for a while.” You mutter out.

“You don’t want to spend more time with me.” He pouts playfully.

You chuckle at his action, taking him to the back away from the people, you both looked through the chocolate section. He watched as you tried to choose between two flavours, “i think the nuts one would taste better.”

He couldn't even speak at your comment, just admiring you. He watched you put the two down giving a confused look at his blank stare, “Koganegawa, you okay?” 

“Yeah, just…” He didn't finish his sentence, only taking your hand, he brought you past the others, a confused expression staying firm on you before you both were back in the rain. Even if it had settled down a bit, there was still a light pour occurring.

“Where are we going?” You question, he doesn't answer until you both are away from people, his lips instead smashing into your own.

You were in shock but the way his hands had moved to cup your face, your hands tugging at his hair. It was a kiss you had wanted prior, a kiss he had been craving from you. He felt like a boy who had just one first place. He was content with it all, the way a soft whine would come from your throat when he’d take a breath of air before kissing you again. The way you let his tongue slide in so easily, the way you were accepting of him, how you admired him even when he was what others would call simple minded. He had fallen in love in a matter of minutes, your first date together was the day he knew he was never letting you go. 

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[rpbetter]

"writes dubcon therefore is a freak who should be bullied off the site" ho boy i'm fed up with people acting as if consenting adults writing [insert "problematic" fictional thing here] is the worst thing in the world. seen way too many people justifying harrassment of REAL PEOPLE by "they write thing that triggers me". ok, and? mute the tags or don't follow! "it triggers someone" is not a valid reason to ban a topic. piano music triggers me yet i don't go around demanding everyone stop playing the piano.

Anon, not only is everything you said absolutely valid, but also, thank you for demonstrating that triggers are incredibly varied and as such, we cannot predict everyone's triggers. Making the entire "point" of banning for possible triggers invalidated as hell.

We should be aware of things like the most commonly occurring phobias (things like arachnophobia and coulrophobia that are, additionally, easily triggered by imagery) and tag them. We should be aware of very obvious triggers, that are, again, easily set off by imagery, like blood, eye trauma, and depictions of domestic violence. And we should always read and be aware of our writing partners' stated triggers so that we can tag them appropriately or even decide that it isn't going to work because our muse, canon story, or interests are going to present an unfair situation in this partnership.

But triggers can be highly unusual, as well as activated differently (even at different times) for everyone. I'm not triggered by seeing hotel rooms in pictures or movies, I'm not triggered by writing scenes that take place in them, but I'm triggered to some degree by being in one. It's outrageous oversimplification to act like all triggers are the same, they all display the same way, they're all going to trigger someone on the same basis, everyone's going to react the same to their triggers. There is absolutely no way to prevent 100% of possible triggers for 100% of the population, 100% of the time.

Add to this that way too many people trivialize triggers by throwing around that term to justify the banning of something that makes them uncomfortable or that they take a personal, moral issue with. "I don't like this" and "I'm grossed out by this" and "this makes me feel uncomfortable" is not being triggered. It's just a good way to weaponize the better nature of other people so that they comply.

Most people legitimately do not want to trigger someone, especially if they have triggers and know what it's like. Just like no one wants to be accused of cruelty towards trauma survivors in general, or be designated a pedo, rape apologist, or fascist. They're all things to weaponize in order to isolate, shame, and control. And that's really fucking gross. These are serious, real things that have no business being trivialized to police content, win internet arguments, or garner popularity.

The potential for someone to be triggered isn't a reason to ban anything; we have tags, we have blacklist.

While I'll be the first to say that tumblr's blacklisting can be as shitty as everything else on the site, the primary issue with running into content you don't want to see comes down to two factors: no one tagging/tagging correctly and actively exposing yourself to that content. Going through people's properly done tags and blog warnings about their content in order to "call it out" is actively exposing yourself by choice. You actual walnuts.

Calling people on on their "problematic" content is bringing those topics to the attention of other people. That's the whole point of this gross behavior: look at the freak pedo abuse apologist I found, they write dubcon!! Don't look if you'll be triggered uwu

Buddy, pal, my guy...you just put that on blast for anyone to run across. Maybe their blacklist catches those words in your callout post, maybe it doesn't. Maybe they think you're a safe space because you promote yourself that way, so they click it anyway. Point is, you just willfully and irresponsibly exposed people because it's more important to you to demonize a rando on tumblr RPing something you take issue with. Good job!

Furthermore, dubcon itself is such a hilarious issue to take. Do they realize that isn't always sexual, or? Not? I'm thinking not. Funnily enough, one of the oldest posts I've been working on for this blog is about exactly this topic, the myriad situations that are dubious consent. That doesn't have to be sexual, and neither does it have to be intentionally predatory. You can come up with some amazing character development with a lot of muses in the RPC with dubcon because almost everyone's muse has some manner of trauma that might negate their perception of their own consent...and what do you do then? Is it removing more agency from that muse to shut them down, or is that always the better option? Can you separate your opinion as the mun from your muse's natural reactions? How does this impact the muses involved not just that moment but the next year?

Point is, dubcon isn't always some rapey situation. Even if it was, even if someone is writing it that way, it's literally not your business or your problem.

There's one mutual-in-law on my RP blog that really bothers me. They write things that I find fetishizing, incredibly rapey, all around shit that bothers me. I don't want to see it, some of the things they write makes my damn skin crawl. This person doesn't know it, we certainly don't speak and I don't think they like me very much, but I've repeatedly defended their right, specifically their right as a person with some long-term callouts on them, to write what they want to. I have them blocked and their urls blacklisted so I never have to see my mutual reblogging their threads. It's not a problem because I don't click "show anyway." Why would I, if it genuinely bothers me so much?

That's how you handle things that bother you; you use the tools available to not interact even by accident. Not by launching a morality crusade.

If any of us want to write what we enjoy, we have to allow others that same freedom. It's always a matter of time before this policing grows to include more and more topics, it's been used multiple times to get well-meaning people who don't fall into the general demographics to police queer, BIPOC, and other marginalized groups off of platforms. We've been fortunate in most of the RPC that it implodes on itself before it gets all the way there, but even so, you can see it.

It starts with things that produce a visceral reaction in the great majority of people, positions this with a repeatedly condemned idea presented as solid fact that fiction is reality, and you've got the start of something awful. Today it's something you don't like, maybe even something that triggers you, so you either support it or you quietly allow it to happen. Who needs to write that "freak shit" anyway, can't they just be gross privately? Six months from now, it's something "problematic" that you enjoy like violence that's canon-typical for your muse, or your OTP because they're gay and that's fetishizing, they're cis male and female but one or both is bi and that's bad representation, or they canonically have a rocky relationship so that's romanticizing toxic/abusive relationships.

If you can't care for any other reason, you really should care about how it is going to impact you sooner or later. In an environment like this, you can stay in your space, put warnings on your blog, and tag properly and you're still going to get a callout if the wrong person finds your blog. Just takes a single person with more time, energy, and skewed ideas of justice than they have reading comprehension or common sense.

Again, I cannot encourage people enough to give warnings, but it's difficult to ignore why those warnings are slipping; they're a way to be found, designated as a Problem, and called out. Look, it's another reason why callouts actually make things worse, not better! People put that shit in their rules so you can avoid content, they're being responsible and interested in promoting a safe RPC. Let them do it, damn.

You can't tag everything, and if you've never experienced what a giant series of repetitive tags is like on a screenreader you probably should before you tag seven paragraphs of possible issues. You can tag for visuals, you can tag for the obvious things, and you can tag for what's in the rules you agreed to when you followed/followed back. But you should also warn people that you write "dark topics" on the tin, and expand on that in your rules for specific things like graphic violence, toxic relationships, dubon, and addiction.

That's how responsible adults, not over-aged children, make better decisions about their mental health and general comfort. Not by appointing themselves the watchdogs of the damn RPC, here to protect you whether you want to be or not, find that incredibly insulting or not when you're in one of their categories of people who must be protected, by forcibly banning Problematic Everything. Problematic, of course, being entirely in the eye of the content police.

It's fiction. No one and nothing real was harmed. It's great that you are so invested in the fictional world and people that make you happy, but take a fucking big step back into reality. The real people you're harming with your bullshit had every right to peaceably exist. If what they're writing is triggering to you, stay. away. from. it.

Without any coincidence whatsoever, that's how you get from the base-point of Problematic Material to Problematic Mun. Yeah, it's just fiction, it's just RP, but I also took something out of context OOC or was upset by their tone on their own blog or couldn't exercise the minimal adult logic to remove myself from their presence OOC as well. So, now, you've got OOC behavior being added to the callout, if it wasn't already. Everyone is now ableist, transphobic, racist, and a misogynist because it lends that visceral reaction to the callout and ups the game from just being "y'all so gross you aged up a cartoon character to ship" to "this is REAL and it won't be tolerated! OP is actually a pedophile, they told a sexual joke in a discord server with a minor present and I have the receipts!"

What are the most storied callouts in the entire RPC? I'm absolutely certain the same names came to mind no matter what fandoms you're in, and one of them was "Matt." Another was probably "Ares/Snow". They're all successful and keep being brought up out of the closet anytime people are bored enough because their primary punch is the mun themselves being a predatory threat to the community. The mun is verified to be a bad person. Well, of course, that's got to be repeated, it worked. (Even if it did not, at all, work and only made it harder for people to avoid any of these muns.)

Are there people in the RPC who are legitimately a problem? Absolutely, yes. We're all supposed to be adults, however. Part of being an adult is having and acting upon one's agency. If someone is coercing you into things you are not comfortable with, shut it down. If you have difficulties being certain of those situations, run it by a trusted, honest friend or available, impartial source in the RPC for a second opinion. If you can't handle any manner of confrontation, there really are situations in which it's perfectly alright to block someone without any discussion. It's just the internet, you're in control of your space. Own it.

Minors are a whole other can of fucked up worms I'm not even getting into right now except to say that because a minor exists in a space they were told to stay out of does not mean we ban all topics inappropriate for their consumption.

tl;dr: banning shit doesn't work anyway, the whole idea is predicated upon some incredibly problematic takes IRL, and no, there's no justification for it outside of intense personal problems with one's own importance. That energy would be infinitely better spent volunteering one's time to help real people in crisis or after surviving one, or even oneself in developing some healthier approaches and thought patterns.

#hey what if we all start saying we're triggered by callout culture is that bannable then lmao #vespertine #drama cw #bsnf #callout culture #tumblr rpc #rp problems #also thank you again anon I hope you're having a great day!

[lovelytarou]

you make me go uwu

pairing: midoriya izuku x reader

genre: fluff, angst

tags: inspired by the song uwu by chevy

a/n: i'm just projecting my izuku feels and me literally going soft whenever i see his chubby face in the manga ang going uwu over it, also i still have a christmas hangover so sorry if you don't celebrate that or not fond of it! hearts, reblogs & feedbacks are greatly appreciated 💗

midoriya izuku is a lot of things.

he's one of the best students at UA and was quite known to be a reckless person who never thinks twice about helping someone. his knack for breaking his bones was a testament to that fact.

he's no doubt going to be one of the best pro heroes out there soon, with a big heart, a kind soul, and a courageous spirit.

midoriya izuku is a lot of things and possessing such cute, squishable cheeks is one of them. or more likely, being cute is one of them.

this thought occured to you when he offered to help you in one of the classes you're having trouble with. being at such close proximity made you aware of just how green his eyes are and when the sunlight hits them just right, they look like beautiful gems. or how he always seem to mutter under his breath when he's thinking too hard, or how his right leg would unconsciously shift to you like he wanted to get closer.

but one of the things you noticed the most, is his cheeks while he puffs them out of frustration.

he's gonna give me a heart attack one of these days with how cute he is

incident #1

you were currently at the cafeteria, sitting at a table with the dekusquad (kaminari came up with it, izuku claimed their little group don't have a name) which consists of ochaco, shouto, tenya, and izuku.

everything is going well, the group had already bought their food and are now digging in after a collective, “itadakimasu!”

you just had the most fortunate opportunity to sit in front if izuku, of all people, who is too busy eating.

he paused for a moment to answer iida's question who's beside him and it made his cheeks bloated with the food inside.

you choked on your drink because you just felt your heart swell with how cute he looks. it almost reminded you of a hamster.

shouto who is sitting on your left, gave you a concerned look and offered you his water.

“are you okay, l/n-san?” his question made izuku turn to you both, you felt your cheeks heat up when he looked at you while looking like that.

“i-i'm fine, thanks.” you took the water from him and gulped it down to clear your throat, and cool your nerves.

“you should chew your food properly when eating or else you'll choke!” iida scolded, waving his hands in a chopping motion you all grew to be familiar with.

“s-sorry...” you can't help but scratch at your nape in embarrassment.

incident #2

“midoriya, you're up.” aizawa called one afternoon on another day of training.

the rest of class 1-a stood back while izuku stepped in front. this was another one of aizawa's endurance training and one of the challenges was to beat a bunch of the robots from the entrance exam once again. how he can call this endurance training, you don't know.

“SMAAAAASH!” you heard izuku yell, tearing through what was once a robot and turning it into scraps of metal.

he did this to the other robots and he landed on his feet with a very serious look that instead of making him look intimidating, it actually made him look more adorable.

“he's like an angry bunny–” you cut yourself off with a hand on your mouth as you laughed quietly, another flush blossoming on your cheeks.

“i know right?! look how cute he is, but he's scary when he shows how strong he is like that.” mina added, looking at izuku who's walking towards the both of you now.

you immediately composed yourself when his eyes landed on you.

“y/n! are you okay? your face is all red! are you sick? do you need to go to recovery girl? shall i take you to her? what if you're overheating?! it's so hot out and your hero costume's probably too heavy–” he began to ramble and you can only stare at him with wide eyes as he continued with his wild thoughts.

quickly dismissing him with a hand on his mouth as everyone started to look at the two of you, izuku stared down at it and felt flustered at how soft your hand felt on his lips.

he's practially kissing your palm, do you even register what you're doing to him?!

“shh! i'm fine! it's just...you're so–” you were about to tell him that he's just so damn cute but you were called by aizawa.

“uh, i gotta go! see ya later!” you scrambled away from him, heart beating fast inside your chest.

that was close.

incident #3

“hey, y/n? can i ask you a favor?” you looked up from your phone when izuku approached you on the dorm's common room.

worry is written all over his face as he fumbled with his fingers, thinking about you being too busy even though you're literally on your phone all day.

there he goes again.

before he can overthink more, you smiled at him warmly and stood up from your seat.

“sure, what's up?”

izuku gulped, “well, uh, i was thinking of a gift to give to someone but i, um, don't know if they'll like it? i kinda, um, need your opinion on it, if that's okay?”

he stared at you with big doe eyes and you can't help but swoon when he looks at you like that. of course, how can you say no to that face? he looks like he'd cry any moment if you denied him.

“alright! what gift did you get for this particular someone?” you teased, nudging his side.

he led the two of you to his room, which isn't the first time since it became a usual thing for the two of you to study together there or simply hang out and talk about your problems, about what you did that day, rambling about your favorite heroes...basically this has became your second room. and your's his.

“um, i got them this,” he opened his bedside drawer and pulled out a small box. inside it, he revealed a beautiful necklace with a letter D as a pendant.

“it's for ‘deku’ which sounds kind of cheesy since it's my hero name, but i just thought that if i gave it to them then that means i'm with them wherever they are,” he reached for something inside his shirt, showing you an identical looking necklace with a familiar letter on it.

you don't want to assume things, but whoever is this particular someone that izuku is going to give the necklace to, they sure are one lucky person. not only is he kind, thoughtful, caring, and not to mention cute, but they'd be lucky to have someone like izuku fall for them.

ignoring the sudden pang of hurt in your chest, you forced a smile on your mouth and cooed at him.

“aww, that is so cute, izu! i'm sure they would love that very much. i know i would! if they don't, you can just always give it to me,” you joked, laughing to mask your hurt.

“r-really? you think so?” when you nodded in response, izuku heaved a big sigh of relief, “well, i trust you, y/n. i'm sure they would love this.”

after that, you excused yourself out of his room and proceeded to go to yours. sleep didn't come to you easily that night, thinking about the special someone that izuku was talking about and how much it would hurt once you saw them together.

over the years you spent being his friend, you never thought you would harbor such deep, intense feelings for the green-haired boy. you don't doubt he has great things ahead of him, and because of that, you started to like him for how strong he is and how he continues to be a better hero, and an overall a great person. that awe soon turn to adoration. and before you knew it, you're falling hard for izuku.

last incident

it's christmas, and the day before, aizawa had made all of you draw lots for your secret santas. your heart stopped when you saw izuku's name on the paper you pulled from the bowl.

you didn't think too much of it and decided to give him something all might-related and called it a day, still a little sour over izuku falling for someone else.

when the dreaded day came, everybody was so chaotic and high on their holiday spirits. even bakugou, which they convinced to wear a santa hat and haul the gifts in a bag. although, he still had a big scowl on his face and basically threw the gifts to their designated owners.

“shitty hair!” bakugou barked, pulling out a gift from the bag. kirishima hopped over to where bakugou was sitting and accepted the gift with a big smile on his face.

“whoa, bakugou! you're my secret santa?!” he asked in shock, eyes shining.

“it does says my name there, doesn't it, idiot? now hurry up and open your gift already,” kirishima did just that and bursted into tears when his gift was a crimson riot themed crocs. he thanked bakugou over and over while the latter hid his smile poorly with a cough.

“whatever. dunce face! you're next!” he practically threw kaminari's gift to him which the boy almost failed to catch, earning him a snigger from the explosive boy.

“man, why do you gotta be the santa for christmas? you're cruel!” kaminari pouted, turning around to go back to where he was squished in between sero and mineta.

“you got a problem with that, dunce face?!” he growled, his palms crackling with his quirk. kirishima tried to diffuse his anger.

when everything is calm, bakugou proceeded to dig into the bag for gifts.

“here, you shitty nerd.” he tossed your gift to izuku, you almost yelped a ‘be careful!’ but izuku had great reflexes and caught your gift swiftly. his eyes widened when he read who his secret santa was. your eyes met each other but was abruptly cut off when bakugou called your name.

“y/n! here's yours,” he was oddly calm when handing you your gift, albeit a little bored.

that received a lot of complaints from your other classmates and you can only shake your head while chuckling at their antics.

deciding to get some time for yourself, you went to the balcony for some air and sat down on one of the steps at the entrance.

placing the gift on your lap, you read the tag attached to it. it was wrapped in a simple green wrapper with red ribbon that finished the look.

to: y/n

happy holidays!

from: D

the name made you curious and even if you hated yourself for it, lit a sparkle of hope inside yourself. what if it was him who gave you the gift?

you had no time to dwell much on the thought and opened the gift instead. your breath hitched in your throat as you recognized the familiar box. lifting the lid with shaky hands, you felt your eyes sting as you looked down at your gift.

it was the necklace that izuku showed you before. you were such an idiot for thinking it was for someone special and did not think it was for the secret santa.

you carefully lifted it in your fingers and the light from the inside catched the D attached to it. it was beautiful. izuku's words echoed inside your head.

“i just thought that if i gave it to them then that means i'm with them wherever they are,”

“did you...not like it?” the boy in question appeared beside you and upon noticing your tears on your face, he immediately thought it gave a negative effect.

gasping, you quickly wiped away your tears and shook your head wildly at him.

“izu, no! i-i love it! actually, it's kinda funny...”

“funny?” he tilted his head in confusion, concern still etched onto his face.

“i was sad that you care a lot about someone else to give them this wonderful gift. i didn't realize that you would give something like this...to me,” you laughed through your tears, sniffling a bit.

“why would you think that?” his voice is so soft and genuinely confused that you can't help but feel your heart beat even more, and fall for him harder than you should.

“because,” you think of a way to word your feelings better but instead what came out was, “you're you and i'm...me,”

it was stupid, but with the overflowing emotions you're feeling right now, it's hard to voice your emotions.

izuku huffed, his cheeks puffing up once again because of the action.

“what do you mean by that? i mean, you're the most amazing person i've ever met! and you're always there for me when i'm sad, and happy and-and...whenever i'm with you, i always feel this...this...warmth! it's like, when you come home after a long day and you just felt safe and comforted. or-or when my mom cooks my favorite food it just makes me feel fuzzy inside! it's like when i watch my favorite video of all might over and over again and i never get tired of it,” he sighed after his long speech, eyebrows furrowing into a frown as he stared at you with determination.

“what i'm getting at is...i care a lot about you, y/n.” he let out in one breath. he stared up at you with big eyes, those damn eyes that never failed to make your heart jump and stomach do flips.

chuckling at yourself, you raised both of your hands and squeezed his cheeks with all your might making him yelp in pain.

“ow! y/n...” he whined.

“sorry, sorry! i've always wanted to do that!” you snorted.

“i care a lot about you, too, izu–” he suddenly kissed the corner of your mouth, making you shut up in shock. he had a smirk on his lips, amused by your reaction.

“i've always wanted to do that,” he threw your words back at you. feeling your whole face heat up, you turned your back towards him and held out your hand holding the necklace.

“whatever! just help me put this on, will you?” you felt his hands take the necklace from your grasp. you shivered when you felt the cold metal touch your skin but it was quickly replaced by his warm hands.

“there.” he mumbled, voice far too close to your ear. before you can thank him, you felt his lips brush your nape where the lock was and squealed from the contact.

the idiot only laughed at this and ushered you to stand up, helping you to your feet.

“let's go back inside, i heard they prepared a lot of food today.”

without thinking, izuku grabbed your hand and led you inside the dorm. you could only let him drag you as you stared at your joined hands, playing with the necklace hanging on your neck before staring back up at izuku who's smiling at you.

he's the best gift that you could ever ask for.

#💫.izuku midoriya #bnha fanfiction #bnha fluff #bnha izuku #izuku midoriya x reader #izuku midoriya x y/n #izuku midoriya #my hero academia fanfiction #my hero academia #tarou writes 🌹

[silver-wield]

Okay, as requested a few days ago, a Cloud and Aerith analysis. I feel like I've spent a lot of time in chapter 8/9 today lol 

Ok, spoiler warning for ppl who haven’t played – do I still need to do this? Eh ok, (I tag FF7R spoilers as final fantasy 7 remake spoilers) and it’s gonna be reasonably long.

Also, this is one person’s interpretation of the scene, so if you disagree that’s cool and we’ll agree to disagree.

You’re also gonna have to excuse the janky quality on some of the screens, I’m grabbing them from Youtube and it’s frustrating af trying to get the exact moment I want.

Other analyses if anyone’s interested.

Shinra HQ vision scene (Cloti/plot analysis) 

Chapter 3 (Cloti reblog) 

Tifa character analysis 

Aerith Resolution (plot analysis/theory – I should probably update this since I’ve had other ideas since then) 

Train graveyard (not really an analysis, but I got some sweet screenshots of Cloti) 

Clotiscrew tunnel analysis 

Cloti reunion analysis 

The Promise Analysis 

Andrea’s approval (Cloti ask response) 

Leslie analysis (not mine, but a good read) 

Cloti action touching 

Aerti friendship analysis 

Cloti body language chapter 3 

Cloti healthy disagreement 

Cloti post heliboss battle (chapter 15) 

Clerith playground scene 

Cloti body language plate fall 

Cloud and Barret friendship 

Resolution scene analysis (A) 

Barret character analysis (chapter 13) 

Cloud character analysis (Honey Bee Inn) 

Cloud character analysis (Barret's death) 

Now, strap in and enjoy the ride.

Recap time!

Okay, our delightful heroine (I will rein in the sarcasm, but Aerith aggs me when Cloud says no and she ignores him. No means no.) and our moody af hero have finally got done with the flowery side quests, kiddos, Rude and the giant hands of crash crash boom oops there's an invisible wall there minigame trip through sector 6 to reach sector 7.

Aerith says “let's take a break.”

Cloud says, “No.”

They take a break anyway.

(I've already done the slide analysis, link above)

Back down from the slide and it's time to go. Aerith opens up the underground link into sector 7 and we're venturing into awkward goodbyes.

So, we're starting with Aerith being chipper and cute with the quips. Standard stuff. It's possible she's feeling regretful they're parting, but I've said plenty of times that of everyone in this, Aerith has the best poker face. There's very few times she lets that mask slip and lets us see what she's really feeling and it's usually in times of intense stress. This isn't stressful, although she was feeling down a few moments ago while talking about Zack, so maybe that'll make her a little easier to read. For now, though, she's fronting like a boss.

Hmm interesting. He's definitely thoughtful here. So, I'm gonna have to put together some possibilities.

He's clearly mellowed his attitude towards her – he was proper stroppy at her house the day before, shouting and so on – so this isn't negative. We could say he started feeling more positive towards her through their interactions over the day or maybe when he saw the whole Rude bit and realised she's not quite what he first thought. Or it might have been when he saw her looking downcast about not high fiving or it could've been their chat on the slide that finally thawed him out towards her.

And Aerith's the same. Her smile falters just a bit and she can't meet his eye. Maybe she knows they have no reason to meet again or that her mother told him not to see her. We don't know for sure, but it's possible, otherwise why is she disappointed? She could expect to see him again. They could make plans. It could be meta!Aerith knowing that Cloud is probably better off not getting to know her.

Eugh dammit. Does anyone know how hard it is to analyse people's motives when you can't see their faces clearly? I bet this was on purpose, thanks Square.

I mean, having to go by the above data I've mentioned, they could both be feeling the same lingering regret intuitively. You know like how you just get the sense how someone's feeling? That.

Their poses are identical, and coupled with the slightly awkward intonation on “so” I'd look at this and say this comes across like a couple of teenagers who kinda like each other and don't know how to take the next step. You know, that kind of immature I have no idea what I'm doing with my life kinda deal. That's not to say it's romantic, especially not from Cloud. He's an awkward introvert. Aerith has no social skills. They're not friends and up until five minutes ago Cloud was annoyed af at her. That'd make for an awkward goodbye.

Aerith laughs, Cloud doesn't, and she moves aside so he can leave. Looks like the moment’s over.

Before going, Cloud turns back to ask if Aerith can get home ok. This looks like polite concern, which I'd expect considering they just came through an area full of monsters, mech and bandits. If Cloud wasn't concerned, I'd call him a douchebag. His eyes widen a little as he speaks, but it's not that same kind of expression he pulls whenever we're suspecting a visit from real!Cloud. This is SOLDIER!Cloud asking. 

(I've said that typically Cloud's eyes go very wide as a hint that his real self is reacting to things, but widening eyes on their own do not indicate real!Cloud. It's something about the way he does it that shows it's not quite right for the SOLDIER persona we usually see. I can't explain it properly, but it's likely something the devs have done to his microexpressions on purpose to differentiate between the two and without knowing exactly what I can't put a pin in it. All I can say is when it looks like real!Cloud is expressing himself and when it isn't because there’s a difference that I’ve picked up on.)

This is flirting. Plain and simple. Head tilted, little smile, crinkling eyes. She's amused and teasing him in a flirtatious manner and her dialogue backs that up, although at the same time the tone she puts it in also sounds quite matter of fact, like she's genuinely asking what if she wasn't ok? That likely does appeal to the protective SOLDIER side of Cloud. He wants to be known as the hero. Still not romantic.

That's what I like to call a shit-fuck-bollocks moment. The realisation he should take her back home and make sure she's safe, but then he's also got to get back to sector 7, and this is all SOLDIER!Cloud's debate. There's no sign of real!Cloud and there's a quick decisive result that he should do the right thing, which is why he says he’ll take her home.

This is nothing like in the honey bee inn later when you see the clear back and forth of his eyes darting around as he argues with real!Cloud about dancing to get Andrea's approval.

And Aerith laughs again because I think she's aware how ridiculous it is that he'll walk her back when he needs to get home. She was teasing the entire time, but it looks like it went over Cloud's head – colour me unsurprised.

I mean, there's no romantic undertone to her expression here. It's genuine amusement and I'd definitely say friendship towards Cloud.

Ah the image that certain people hang their hat on. Let's get this one done.

Aerith says she has a backup route for emergencies that's safer than the one they used. You can hear Cloud start to speak—- ask a question because the sound is a “W” -- then cuts himself off and smiles. That smile is a mix of bemused and amused. 

For anyone who doesn't have a stupidly large vocabulary and thinks those two are the same thing:

Bemused

adjective: puzzled, confused, or bewildered.

Amused

adjective: finding something funny or entertaining.

Cloud's bemused because back at the start of the collapsed expressway he literally asked if there was a better way and she avoided answering. So, he's caught her in a lie and what can he do about it? Nothing. That's why he's all "of course there's a safer route".

And then we're back in control and moving onto the next part of the game.

Conclusion:

Well, they're awkward. Both of them. Cloud is an introvert with mental issues and Aerith has no social skills and a terrible personality flaw in which she bosses everyone around and doesn't listen.

I wouldn't say they're friends, more like comrades. Cloud's still very resistant to her company even after she helps him save Tifa.

#final fantasy 7 remake spoilers #final fantasy 7 remake analysis #Cloud Strife #Aerith Gainsborough #Character analysis

[mauvemorn]

If is ok to ask, how do you make money of cc? If you don't use annoying shorter links and add fly. Maybe other creators can learn from you 🤔

Hi. I monetize my traffic by placing Google Adsense ads on my blog. Those do not pop-up, are safe and based on the visitor’s search history and location. This is how most websites make money these days. In the past they would give out accs to just about anyone, but these days they are more strict about it. Most cc creators might have to put a bit of money (optionally, around 6-9$) and time to get approved. The requirements are the following:

Very long post ahead

1). Top-level domain (com, net, org, etc, so mauvemorn.net, not mauvemorn.tumblr.com).

Alternatively, you can get an acc on Blogger without having to buy a domain, it is owned by Google. It’s best to have a SSL certificate, too (additional security measure that turns http into https, Google is said to prioritize websites that have it, Tumblr does not allow to edit themes that have links that start with http). If you’re buying your domain for Tumbr, there’s no need to buy SSL. Tumblr offers their own. You just need to wait for a day or so for it to change. If you’re buying it for another website that does not offer this feature, it’s best to buy it in the process of buying a domain. I remember Namecheap offering me it for 2$, but after I bought a domain, SSL started to cost 8$. Make sure to google for a discount!! I saved 3$ this way lmao.

2). Unique written content.

This will be the most important and challenging thing to get for a cc creator, i will give suggestions in the end. The exact number of words and text posts is not voiced anywhere in google documentation, but people say you should have at least 10-12 text posts that have at least 800 words each. When I applied, I had around 50 posts, 14 (if I’m not mistaken) of which were text posts with the word count above 1200. Almost all of them were posted in a row, like, not scattered across my blog. You should also check the grammar, it does not have to be perfect, just no random typos.

And by “unique” I mean it should not be copy-pasted from anywhere, should be written by you. The software will scan everything available to it to check if your written content is not plagiarized. Do not use copyright protected images either.

3). Privacy policy, About, Contact us, Disclaimer.

Privacy policy basically warns your visitors that the website is collecting some of their data. You can rephrase mine, just make sure to do it more-or-less thoroughly so that google does not count it as copy-pasted.

Disclaimer is the same thing but shorter. You know the window that pops-up when you enter a new website telling you something about cookies? That’s it. It does not have to pop-up though. Just make a new page and put it somewhere.

About is, well, put whatever you want there.

Contact us is pretty self-explanatory.

Things that may or may not be important, depending on who you ask

1). The blog must be active. Post something after you apply.

Once you apply, the window will tell you you’ll get a reply after 24 hours. I received it on 18th day, coincidently or not right after I posted something. The long wait may also be a matter of the platform I chose (Tumblr is not a SEO friendly website, but it is the best for this type of content since it has large the sims fandom).

2). Traffic.

Some people say it matters, other say it does not. Before applying, I didn’t post any cc in months, so my traffic was very low, around 200-300 page views per day. If your website is new and you get no traffic at all, you can install vpn and just open all of your pages from each country available until you get at least 200 pageviews. I think it does not matter though, but, again, I do not know for a fact.

3). SEO

So as I mentioned, Tumblr is a very bad choice of the platform SEO-wise, does not work well with search engines, but most people do not actually look for cc this way. Most of my traffic is direct (from simsdom and similar websites). However, you can improve your tumblr performance (…i think) by tying it to Google search console and submitting site maps. I don’t know much about it tbh, but you can do it just in case.

4). Website appearance

You want your website to be simple, no red text on a yellow background or something as dramatic, no micro font, no pop-ups or effects, no music that can be copyrighted, etc.

5). Your blog’s age

In some countries ( India, China) a blog must be older than 6 months to get approved. However, I’ve seen people from India say they got it for 2 weeks old blogs, so just…try and see it for yourself.

Once you get approved:

1). Tie your website to Google analytics.

It can help you understand where your traffic comes from, what posts get the most of it, etc.

2). PUT DOWNLOAD LINKS UNDER THE CUT ( like, Read more thing ) LIKE I DO. Not only does it drive traffic to your page instead of someone who reblogged it, BUT ALSO ENSURES PEOPLE DOWNLOAD THE LATEST VERSION OF THE PACKAGE. There’s always a possibility of you missing something and having to update the file.

3). Be considerate.

Do not use link-shortening websites. They give people viruses. Many would just not download from you if they know you’re using it. MAKE SURE TO SPECIFY THE LINK IS DIRECT OR HAS NO ADF.LY. These websites bring very little money, so you won’t lose much.

Upload you cc on google drive and generate direct links this way. Websites like Mediafire with their pop-up windows can be annoying.

Do not make content that is very high-poly. I do not go past 10k unless I absolutely have to (and when I do, I mention it in the description). If your 60k item will crush someone’s game, they will not download from you again.

Do not half-ass your cc. If there is a problem, post it in Creator’s help and someone will assist you. If your cc does not morph, people would not want to use it. If your cc distorts, people would not want to use it. If your mesh greatly slows down game or crushes it, people would not want to use it.

Do not make content that is very simple or very complex. No one needs 5653467 simple white t-shirts or CK bras in their CAS. Not many people would need some avant-garde shoes in theirs either. For example, my simple Zoe pumps have 25k page views, while the last DVN sandals have 207k. That’s ~40$ against ~345$. Clearly the last took longer to make but it was worth it.

3). Some say that the post shows up only in the first 5 tags used. I think Tumblr fixed it but just in case put the most commonly used tags first.

4). If you started a completely new Tumblr, your posts will not appear in the tags (anti-bot measure). So the best way to be noticed is to contact some cc finds type of blogs. Once simsdom starts to post your cc, you will no longer need to worry about search results or your following, as I said, most of my traffic comes from them.

5). The more ads you have per page, the more money they will bring you. However, when you put a lot of them, it affects the page loading speed, usually by seconds, but if a person has a very slow internet, it can be much longer. So I suggest you to not use these whatever they are that make people wait for a minute to access a download link because they use an adblock. Most people do not use them and you will make a lot of money regardless so long your cc is decent.

6). Ad size will affect your revenue, too. Choose the most popular ones not locally, but in general. Most of your traffic will come from USA, UK, South Korea, Brazil, Russia, so, again, better not to choose ad size by region.

7). Preview. If you do not know how to make previews in the 3d software of your choice, I strongly advise you to learn. Not only will it be much easier, but you will also give a better idea of what textures really look like without graphic card coming into play. However, do not overdo it. Do not play too much with lights or specular, this will give people the wrong impression of what your cc is really like. As for picture editing, you can change the skin, background, anything, but NEVER EDIT THE OUTFIT/SHOES/ACCESSORIES/WHATEVER YOU’VE MADE ITSELF. THIS IS FALSE ADVERTISING. When I download something that looks good in previews but significantly worse in-game, I do not download from that creator anymore and neither will many people.

8). Specify if previews are made with HQ textures or not.

Just a warning. Once your earning surpass 10$, google will send you a pin code. It can take 2-4 weeks for it to be delivered to your address by post. You need it to be able to withdraw money. Your earning must surpass 100$ per month for you to actually withdraw them. But you will actually receive them 22 days later. So, say, by the 1 of November I know how much I will receive for October, but I actually receive this sum on the 22nd of November….yeah.

As for how much money to expect. 60k pageviews bring me around 100$. The click on ads is what actually brings the most money, but for the love of everything, do not click on them yourself or ask people to do it, do not buy traffic, you will be banned.

About text post suggestions:

1). In my case they were tutorials, but PLEASE if you’re new or do not understand why certain things need to be done, DO NOT MAKE TUTORIALS. When I began making cc, I was happy with anything, but as I started to moderate Creators help, I also started to wish some people would just not make them. Newbies keep making the same mistakes, keep having no idea why they are doing what they’re doing, keep being discouraged and confused. The more tutorials with no explanation there is, the less chances a person will find the right one. I understand that one cannot know everything and there is very little official info on these matters, but please, if you are not confident in your knowledge, if you only know how but not why, if you do not have time to properly explain something, do not make tutorials before educating yourself or making time for it.

2). If you have been around for a while now, you can groups all of your asks into new text posts by topics. Make sure to copy-paste the questions, check for typos, hide it under the cut to not make your followers scroll endlessly, and delete or hide the original asks. I DO NOT PROMISE IT WILL WORK but it should.

3). If you started a new blog I THINK BUT I DO NOT GUARANTEE you can make those 10+ about anything, post them one or two per day, apply, get approved, then just delete or hide them and start posting your cc. Again, I do not guarantee this will work, but logically it should and nothing of it goes against the rules.  Simsdom, simfileshare and many websites without any text posts continue to have these accounts, so nothing should happen to yours.

IF YOU GET REJECTED THE FIRST TIME, FIX THE MISTAKES AND APPLY AGAIN.

#q&a

[darkfairy-tales]

100 Degrees

Chapter One

Description: Two boys with hearts on their sleeves. Summer love, midnight kisses. Pretty smiles.

Pairing: Yunho x Hongjoong

Warning: None, dash of angst, mostly fluff

P.s. Inspired by THEBOYZ Sunwoo's 100 Degree cover

"Yoona thank you so much for agreeing. If we could take him with us we totally would have but sadly we can't." Hongjoong listened to his mother say to her best friend. He was supposed to be home, enjoying his summer vaccation, probably hanging out with his friends. But because of his parent's work, where an emergency came up, they had to go to England soon. And his parents as usual didn't trusted him enough to stay safe alone in the house. After a lot of complaining and talking Hongjoong finally agreed to stay at the house of his mother's bestfriend who lived in the countryside, a little away from the city. So here they were. "Oh no don't start saying thank you. We are best friends. And you son is like my own." His mother's besfriend Jeong Yoona said smiling. "He can be a little clumsy." His mother, Yunhae, snickered making Hongjoong pout. "Don't worry. My son will help him. Reminds me Yunho hasn't came back. Aigoo he could have met you." Yoona says. "I guess I will meet him later. I have to go now Yoona. Thank you again." Mrs.Kim says. After saying 'goodbye' Hongjoong's mother and father went back.

"Hongjoong-ah come on son I will show you to your room." Mr.Jeong says as he holds the suitcase for Hongjoong. Hongjoong follows Mr.Jeong upstairs. The house was not that huge but it was cozy. Mr. Jeong stopped in fronf of a closed room opening it. "We prepared this one as your room. It is not much but I hope you would be comfortable." he says opening the room door walking in with Hongjoong following suit. "It is really great uncle. I like it." Hongjoong smile kindly. "I am glad kid. Here is your suitcase. And there is the closet. The room that comes before yours is Yunho's. Our son. The next room is the bathroom. I will go down. Rest now." Mr.Jeong says patting Hongjoong's head as he walks out.

Hongjoong sighs as he lays down the bed. He really appreciated the fact that the Jeong Family was really trying hard to make him feel at home and welcomed but God he couldn't help that he misses his friends so much he wanted to go back to the city. Just then his phone rang. He looked at the screen and realized his friend Yeosang was calling him. He picked the phone up quickly. "Hello!! How are you doing? Is the countryside nice?" Yeosang asks with a teasing tone. He could hear his other friend Wooyoung and Seonghwa at the back say something but he didn't caught what they were saying. "Yes actually it is really nice. The air is clean. It's really refreshing and the family of my mom's bestfriend is really great too. But I do miss you all." Hongjoong whines. "We miss you here too! But do enjoy there. You might as well have as much fun as you can there." Seonghwa says. Hongjoong was about to say something but there was a knock on the door. "I will call you guys later or so. I gotta go." He said ending the call. "Come in." he said sitting up properly on the bed.

The door slowly opened and a tall guy with beautiful brown eyes walked in. Hongjoong looked in surprised. The boy was handsome. God he looked so casual. Hongjoong's face flushed as his heart started beating fast. 'Is this what people calls first love?' He thought to himself but quickly shook his head. "Hey. I am Jeong Yunho. Do you want to tag along with me? I am going to hangout with my friends. You can join if you want to." Yunho offers. "U-uh yeah I would love to! But are you sure your friends won't mind?" Hongjoong asked. "No they won't mind." Yunho smiles. "Okay just lemme change into something more comfortable." Hongjoong says smiling back, his face still flushed. "I will wait outside the house. Come out when you are ready." Yunho says walking out closing the door behind him leaving the boy to change.

He walked out of the house where his friends were waiting. "How is the boy like? Is he nice? Or is he like those rich city brat?" His friend Jongho asked. "Hongjoong is older than you Jongho. And no he is not like that. He is pretty nice I think." Yunho says. "He is also really cute." He said in a small voice but his friend San had heard him. "Cute??? Does our Yunho have a small crush on the city boy?" He teased making Yunho huff but he didn't deny. "Yunho I am done!" They heard a voice say. They turned around and saw Hongjoong.

Hongjoong closed the door behind him. "Hello. I am Hongjoong. Nice to meet you." He introduces himself with a smile at San and Jongho. "He is San and he is Jongho. They are my friends. One is still not here. Well we will meet him at the river side. His name is Mingi." Yunho says. "Let's go then! Ah I can't wait to have some fun. Play games and all." San says. They all went towards the river side. Hongjoong following Yunho closely.

They reached the river side soon. "Wow there are lots of flowers!" Hongjoong exclaimed as his eyes sparkled looking at the flowers which were growing alongside the river bank. "Hello guys!!" a loud and deep voice greeted. Hongjoong turned around to see another tall boy who he assumed was Mingi. He had a basket in his hand. He walked up towards them. "I am guessing you are the city boy who is staying with our Yunho?" Mingi asked. "Yes. I am Hongjoong. You are Mingi?" Hongjoong says. "Yep! The one and only." Mingi says making the other snort. "By the way my mom made us food. Let's eat you all!' he says. They all sat down on the thick grass. Hongjoong sat beside Yunho as Mingi took out different snacks one by one and they all started eating. "Mingi's mom is so good at cooking. But mingi never learns from her. Last time Mingi cooked he made us eat half cooked food." San says laughing when Mingi whines about how past things should be forgotten and not mentioned again and again.

Hongjoong laughed along them. The guys were fun to be with. They had played various games. Hongjoong didn't even knew these games existed but it was very fun. It was already around 4pm when they were all ready to head back to their homes. "Hongjoong hyung you are so cool! We love hanging out with you. Let's hang out more." Mingi says smiling brightly. "I am glad you think so Mingi." Hongjoong said ruffling the taller's head. Yunho coughed looking at the two a bit jealous. "Let's get going then." He stated. "Yeah. Me and Jongho will go to Mingi's house first to get some things. So we will get going now. Bye!" San says. The three of them walked the opposite side.

"Let's go." Yunho said as he walked to the other side, Hongjoong following him closely. They walked down the small street between the houses. Yunho stopped in front of a small store. "Wanna get ice cream?" He asks Hongjoong excitedly. Hongjoong nods. "Yes. It would be nice to eat something cold." Both of them went inside the small store. "Hello ajhumma! Good evening." Yunho greets the woman who was at the counter. "Hello dear. How have you been?" The woman asks. "I am fine ajhumma. He is Hongjoong! He is staying with us this summer." Yunho introduces the smaller. "Hello." Hongjoong said bowing a bitl. "Aigoo you are so cute. You remind me of my grandson who is at Seoul. Anyway what do you two want?" The woman asks with a friendly smile. "Ice cream! I will choose." Yunho announces as he went towards where the ice creams were kept. He picked out two cookies and cream ice cream handing one to Hongjoong as he paid for it.

"You two are so cute. Are you two perhaps dating?" The woman asked with a raised eyebrow. Hongjoong almost dropped his ice cream at her words. "No! We are.. friends yeah." Yunho says blushing. Hongjoong was red like a strawberry and also speechless due to how flustered he was. "Why is it that there is a tension between you two then?" The woman asked again with a teasing smile. "You are seeing things now ajhumma! We will get going now. I will come again tomorrow. Bye bye." Yunho quickly says as he drags Hongjoong out of the store by his hand escape the teasing.

"I am sorry. She is just... like that." Yunho says scratching his head in a cute manner. "It's fine. I... I wouldn't mind dating you anyway." Hongjoong blurted out his hand quickly coming up to close his mouth. Yunho looks at the smaller smiling shyly, both their cheeks red. "Same." The taller mutters looking down. Hongjoong froze at the words but relaxed. He turned around towards Yunho leaning up and kissing the tall boy on his left cheek. "Let's go back." he said as he smiled in victory on the inside. Yunho giggled as he took hold of the smaller's hand as they walked back to their home hand in hand. Their other hands holding on their ice cream which was sort of long forgotten. In the sweet summer, love started blooming between the two boys who had their hearts on their sleeves.

Next Chapter

Hello!!! Hope you guy will love this! I am a hoe for YunJoong ship! Like tall and short couples gets to me. You remember when they were making choreo and Yunho was at the front with his left hand out doing a pose and Hongjoong walked up holding that hand and doing the same pose and then they both blushed letting go. THAT WAS SO SOFT!!! 😭😭😭😍😍 UWU~

And I am sorry if there is any wrong grammar. English is not my first language so yeah. Please don't forget to drop a like and reblog! I will post the next chapter soon again. Maybe later if I get time. This won't have that many chapter. 4-5 chapters maximum.

Stay tuned for the next chapter!

BUIII~ ♪ ♬ ヾ(´︶`♡)ﾉ ♬ ♪

#ateez hongjoong #ateez yunho #ateez jongho #ateez san #ateez mingi #ateez yeosang #ateez wooyoung #ateez seonghwa #ateez #ateez fluff #ateez angst #ateez boyfriend au #ateez scenarios #summer love

[getallemeralds]

So, I have a character who is a system, and I wanted to know before I develop them further, how does DID work, from a personal account? I really really really don't want to accidentally create yet another TOXIC misinterpretation of a real condition (because I know how horrible that can feel), and I hope I'm not saying anything wrong even now. (P.S. I love your blog, but I'm too shy to come off anon.)

hey anon!! it means a LOT to me that you sent this message :D theres a lot of really messy-bad potrayals of DID in the media so seeing people actually going to the effort of asking systems abt their experiences is really heartwarming for us. (plus the fact that ppl keep asking us in specific abt system stuff omg,,)

im gonna preface this by saying that, in the end, i can only really talk about my own experiences with full confidence. systems can work pretty differently from each other, but this is how we function and also some details ive noticed from system friends + general discussion over the years

so, to start off: Dissociative Identity Disorder is, at its core, your brain trying to respond to trauma in a pretty severe way. that being said there ARE systems that didnt experience severe trauma and still developed, and im not really sure about the mechanics behind that but i find it really cool and it totally exists. im gonna focus on trauma-based systems bc that’s our ~tragic backstory~ and also tends to be what most people opt for when creating system characters anyway, but the only real difference from what i can tell is, uh, a lack of trauma.

I HOPE YOU’RE READY FOR ME TO SAY THE WORD “TRAUMA” A WHOLE LOT JFC

(system friends are welcome to reblog with corrections or added info!!)

anyway. the way your brain responds to things is really weird. if something happens where you’re just, like, completely unable to handle it, like you dissociate yourself so hard because there’s no way you can manage this, your brain has a chance of going “uh… well, fuck, uh” and generating somebody who can manage it. or it might decide to be a dick and take all of the fucky internalized garbage and turn it into a person whose sole existence is to be an asshole. (they have the potential to get better, i think… ours didnt.) honestly theres a bunch of reasons and a bunch of “roles” that could lead to an alter/headmate* forming.

* we use the terms interchangeably depending on mood and whos fronting. i think its supposed to be “alter” is DID, “headmate” is implication that theyre non-traumatic? we like using “headmate” because it brings this fun mental image of us being a bunch of roommates constantly starting shit with each other and goofing off which is pretty accurate about 75% of the time

i keep getting distracted bc my cat is here. this is gonna be fun to go back and edit.

whatever the original situation is, you’re suddenly not alone in your own brain. and it’s REALLY WEIRD. communication was VERY hard. Icarus, our system original, used to do a very “cliche” thing of sharing a journal with their early headmates, where theyd write a sentence and then theyd write a reply (although back then they didnt realize that was a system-related thing and just thought they were having a fun conversation with their ocs. which… they were, just. Actually Talking.) they didnt have any inward perception of themself or their headmates either, so that kinda built up over time (with some help) along with the appearance of our headspace so that there was… actually a location for people to interact in. once they had a better awareness of things, mental communication got a bit easier– its sort of like background chatter really, when everybody’s awake. sometimes i get weird out of context things from Mae yelling at somebody, or sometimes ill be talking to a friend and someone’ll butt in.

when talking out loud, this usually leads to us suddenly stopping and then laughing or going “no!!!”. when on discord and around people who know who we are… well.

speaking of Mae, she’s pretty much my sister. not like… biologically? because i don’t think thats possible for me, but shes kinda literally my “other half” which ill get into later. headmates can have strong attachments to other alters! friends, best friends, family, dating, whatever. they can also do that with people outside the system, and itll be different for each headmate. there’s like 4 people dating Jorb but i just see him as one of my best friends. we’re people and we have complex social interactions that can get to be kind of a nightmare when you’re around a bunch of people who don’t know that you’re Not Leo and that youre suddenly not super up to existing around people in general.

plus even if like… so Jorb’s dating 4 of us like i said, but his relationship w/ each of them is different? Ica is very clingy and likes rambling to him, Summer’s pretty much just always happy to hang out, Mae makes fun of him a lot but in a loving way, and Leo is… kinda “all of the above” because that’s his gimmick. plus even tho a few other alters have a sibling-ish relationship with Mae like i do, usually its just me and Mae that do the “chaos siblings” bit.

the basic system.. thing… is that there’s “front”, which is being in control of the body– so, like, i’m currently fronting/in front, because im the one currently active and using our computer and staring at our cat.– and then theres the headspace, where everybody hangs out when theyre not in front. the headspace itself can differ in style & functionality for each system, and i think theres some systems that dont really have a location at all? but for us its like a full on location where we have individual rooms, places to visit if we get bored while away from front, etc.

theres also like, being at/near/away from front? so currently im in front, but Leo is pretty much always lurking nearby if he’s awake (we have individual sleep schedules that dont always sync up to the “irl” one, Trust is almost always sleeping), Ica’s somewhat in the back talking to Rookie so i cant really make out what theyre saying (its probably about either a youtube thing they both like or about a comic they want to do), and everyone else is either asleep (in which case they could be nearby but i cant currently “ping” them, so id have to actually take a sec to ground myself in headspace more) or in a different room. communication is easier if im in front and somebody is nearby, or it can be like with Ica rn where im like “well, theyre talking, but i have no idea what theyre saying and am making a guess based off their usual interactions”, or i could pass off front to go talk to Ica and come back (in which case my memory would be kind of vague and weird because information doesnt always properly translate), oooor i could actually go bug them while still in front. which.. im not gonna do rn bc then id get super distracted.

switching front differs between systems a lot! and even varies from day to day. like there are days where we wake up and we have absolutely no idea who we are bc we went to bed as one person and woke up as another. or we could be talking to somebody and then realize “wait, i stopped being Leo a bit ago, who am i”. or we could pass off front to somebody, like if Summer really wanted to front sie’d run up to me and let me know and we’d swap. or if something critical happens (usually a breakdown), Leo or one of the other headmates that’re more built to handle stressful situations will literally drag somebody out of front to make sure they dont hurt themself. or sometimes we throw front at people unexpectedly, like either mid-breakdown where we go “okay i dont wanna be here anymore, tag youre it” or sometimes because we think its funny because its the metaphysical equivalent of getting clonked in the head with a dodgeball, except the dodgeball is “being in control of our shared physical form”. usually mae’s the one that does that lmao

there’s a couple major categories of how alters come about. there’s “walk-ins”, where they kinda just… appear externally? like they just show up. sometimes we get a feeling of “huh. i think somebody might be here? or somebody might be showing up soon.” and have to rummage around for a while until they approach us or we find them. our walk-ins aren’t like, inherently aware of system stuff at first, so they usually get a crash course before they first front (if they choose to front at all) and it can be kinda entertaining. Rookie’s a walk-in! also Hiro, from a couple years ago. most of our walk-ins are fictives (fictional characters, usually appearing in response to us getting extremely attached to something or somebody) but a couple of our trauma splits are also fictives so that’s not like, a Rule or anything. i think these are mostly associated with non-traumatic systems but we get em fairly often so man idk

theres also… uh, i dunno what theyre actually called? we used to call them “constructs” but that sounds kind of mean. these alters exist to fill a specific role! and we usually dont talk about them on here with the exception of one major one, they just kinda hang out. Dhe exists to keep the system stable and manages the “backend” so to speak. Imp is kind of a mix of our intrusive & impulsive thoughts that came about from us trying to separate ourself from them so that we had an imaginary entity to go “nope!” at, which… stopped being imaginary, and is now a gremlin that lives in my brain. they can show up in response to trauma but arent split off of somebody, they kinda just pop into existence to help manage things.

the more… well-known, i guess? alter origin is “trauma splits”. rather than “just showing up one day with no real connection to the system origins”, trauma splits are formed when somebody in-system, uh, splits. it could be in response to a single situation or something built up over a long time, but somebody just kinda breaks and somebody new that has a bit of the original alter’s identity (if kinda influenced by the situation) shows up.

this can vary. All is a trauma split off of Leo himself, who got saddled with all of our brain hell about our ex and their insystem appearance is influenced more by eir than by leo which is… something they struggle with. Mae has a trauma split from a similar situation that is “Mae but from 2 years ago”, so basically her old identity before she reworked herself after getting put through total hell. and then uh… then there’s me and Mae! Icarus quite literally exploded into several people, with Pat (me) and Mae being the most distinct ones. we’re STILL finding out alters used to originally be a part of them that later evolved into their own people, like Summer and Toby. my identity is shaped pretty heavily not just by who Ica was at time of splitting, but also what they wanted to be jumbled together with trying to rationalize what was happening to them (they’re a pretty big fan of megaman star force, which has a media-typical system in it, so they leaned into hard “its like pat and rey from mmsf! i like pat, i wouldnt mind being like pat, its scary but im like one of my current favourite characters” and so i ended up being like, half-weird shapeshifter, half-green-haired prettyboy. and yeah thats where my name comes from!)

(Ica got put back together w/o anybody needing to integrate, which we were all very scared about, and it’s still kind of surreal to me because… me and Mae used to be able to stick ourself back together and thats how we found out about what happened to Ica in the first place? and we havent tried that since bc we have no idea what would happen. Ica 2: Ica Harder?)

despite their origins, trauma splits can be way more than… being a split. :V;; Toby’s not just a tiny splinter of Ica, he’s a quiet guy that gets stressed out and isn’t totally sure how to interact with people. i’ve existed for like 7 years at minimum and im a totally different person than i was when i thought i was still Ica, ‘cause ive had time to grow and change (and a problem Ica keeps running into now that theyre back is… they kinda Didn’t change because they were MIA for 6 years.) like everything else though this is variable– there can be “temporary” splits that dont develop properly and might get integrated back in, which has only happened to us when we were at the lowest point in our life where we were stuck constantly splitting to try and cope with whatever the hell was going on.

so Ica was gone for 6 years, which meant our system was without an original or main– there wasn’t anybody to be head of the system, basically. for a while i was operating under the assumption that i was Ica, so i filled in that role for a few years before i made the realization. eventually i kinda… stopped being able to, though, bc of stability issues, and then we were back to not really having a proper main anymore. to make up for it, we started going by Leo collectively and kinda… trying to pretend to be a single person? and so that ended up creating a construct to fill the role of “system main and the person we pretend to be when passing as singlet/not a system”: Leo himself! he’s kinda the most prominent traits we all have in common rolled into a single guy, which means that not only is he a pretty good system representative but we can also pretend to be him pretty easily (unless it’s someone like Toby who acts totally different). i dont know how common this situation is, i think normally it’s just “if system original is gone, another alter steps up” like originally happened to us before i had a severe case of problems disorder.

uhhh this is very rambley bc there’s a Lot to cover and now im trying to figure out how much of it i HAVE covered. systems are complicated and weird! OH WAIT okay i have one last bit.

so like, for us, first realizing we were a system was total hell. we fought a lot. as more alters showed up through various means, there were times where Ica felt like they were completely out of control of their own life bc of having to manage everything. there were a lot of panic attacks of people fronting and not being sure they were even REAL, despite… being in front. but we still felt like we were deluding ourself. this was in, like, late 2011, so systems weren’t a THING. they were a very fringe community that everyone hated. we got constantly harassed, which only fed into Ica’s panic hell and our identity issues. interpersonal relationships became a nightmare, especially because we have BPD as well which varies in severity for each of us but… for me it’s pretty bad! there were times early on where every day was another fun new breakdown from us arguing with each other or our friends or not being understood or… etc.

so… how are we holding up ~7 and a half years later? pretty well, actually! we talk to each other. we do things for each other, like buy food or games we know specific headmates like. Ica is back and way happier than they were in 2011, and is thrilled to get to hang out with everybody that’s showed up since. we help each other through problems, because at the end of the day our system ended up being a support network. Ica couldnt function on their own, so we’re like… 10+ people working together to try and be a single functional person. and we feel pretty okay with that! we still fight, and we still start shit, but we’re not in constant crisis anymore. we’re still working through all of our trauma, especially the more “recent” stuff that kinda broke our system for a while until we were able to start rebuilding, but we’re doing it together. :D

so… yeah, it can start out as a stereotypical “nightmare system”, with constant infighting and toxicity and self-sabotage and etc. but we worked through it! it took a while, but we’re overall more stable than we were before. we got out of the bad environment that was fucking us up, we got mental help for our other brain hell (we havent been able to bring up the system to our therapists bc its literally a non-issue now and we focus more on other things like our depression, anxiety, PTSD, etc), we found people that support us for being us, and we were able to like… figure things out. and it was a mess! i still have issues about my own identity because of literally thinking i was someone else for two years. Ica’s still trying to figure out how to adjust to things, especially bc they missed our entire “cringe culture” phase so they came back to find that i’d dismantled a lot of their middle-school settings. and, uh, some of their friendships as well.

systems are fuckin weird

#leo chirps #leos reply #system shit #i dont think i covered EVERYTHING #and im not sure how coherent this is #but i tried! :D #Anonymous #ask #pat.txt

[naruhearts]

hii! So I've been following your awesome blog for awhile but I never saw u get asks about spn eps or anything. I read your tags though and you have so much to say (: you're a huge destiel shipper too so what you say makes sense..I hope u don't mind if I ask u what you thought about 12x11 and the Dean/waitress scene! lots of people are talking about it and i think u talked a bit about it in your tags

Aww thanks, anon!!

Oh yeah, I have a LOT to say about 12x11! To get to the point:

I really don’t think Dean slept with Elke, nor do I think we were queer-baited. It’s a consistent pattern…we technically haven’t seen Dean ‘blow off steam’ with her. We don’t even know what it means. They either made out or she came onto him first (he was slammed/’roofied’ on 4 shots of tequila). This is why she seemingly apologizes for taking advantage of him. 

Scratch that - Elke may have been lying about the entire thing (I should reblog a perfect meta that bluestar86, postmodernmulticolouredcloak and numerous others wrote concerning this scene).

Later on Dean mentions that it’s like it “never happened“. He doesn’t recall if they got jiggy. Reminder, he hasn’t hit on any women in a long time (“first action in I don’t know how long”), which aligns with the longing retcon. 12x11 was a bisexual Dean gift, so I saw what the writers were trying to establish (’He rode on Larry’ jfc). The most important thing is that he basically turned Elke down by not showing up when they were supposed to meet outside the bar. In the past, we could have assumed Dean was landing home run. While it might be true that Dean and Cas aren’t yet romantically official and that he’s still allowed to canoodle with women/men, I don’t believe Dean did anything with the waitress. What Elke said made no sense - she emphasized “how busy she was”. Therefore, how were her and Dean able to properly fool around? Harmless flirting, then her scheduling to meet him after, fits. She seemed jealous that Larry the bull received the action, not her. 

Suppose Dean was eager enough to hook up. Why did he ditch her easily? Riding Larry and catching Gideon became a priority. That was all him lol.

Plus, the bartender instead of Elke saw Dean leave to chase Gideon. Gideon’s a Cas parallel: he’s the one who left the bloody handprint on the tree, which reminded memory loss!Dean of Cas (his excited “Our best friend’s an angel! Whaaat?!?”). How obvious can they get? Gideon told his loved ones to run away and save themselves. Guess who says nearly the exact same lines? *12x12 promo!!* 

We can conclude that Dean has ditched potential hook-ups to chase after Cas, the man he loves. So, the ‘blowing off steam’ comment was most likely Elke testing Dean. Either way, just remember that Dean being attracted to people doesn’t negate his love for Cas (ibelieveinthelittletreetopper). I also think it’s quite obvious Dean never goes through with sleeping around anymore because Cas is the one he ultimately wants. Notice how there’s been a super substantial decrease of one-night stands over the seasons, especially now that him and Cas are approaching a good, healthy place aka we’re so damn close to canon Destiel that a kiss or intimate handholding is all we need

p.s. I just realized that Elke’s comment of “You had the hots for Larry as soon as you walked in” sounded awfully like “omfg you’re gay I assumed you and I could hook up but nope, you rode Larry instead then left me”. Maybe that’s why she slapped Dean at the waffle house - she was mislead! *screams silently*

#ask #my stuff #thankss anon! this was fun to write #ahhhhhhh #I still can't believe 12x11 exists #12x10 12x11 and 12x12 seem to be painting a destiel picture of where they're going and omg I'm both excited and scared #destiel #supernatural #deancas #casdean #spn s12 #12x11 #spn 12x11 #spn 12x12 #12x12 #hunters in love #the writers played us deliberately #the episode wasn't what it seemed #and the 'rough night' comment Sam made in the 12x11 promo made us assume Dean slept with someone! #omg