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farfromstrange · 3 months

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Lizzi’s Valentine’s Special & Follower Celebration

Dear Everyone,

Valentine’s Day is just around the corner, and I thought, since this silly little blog hit over 1.1k followers yesterday, I want to give you something special.

First of all, though, I want to thank you. I’ve been on here since (and I checked with the archive) July 19, 2022. I can't believe that it has been almost two years. I started watching Daredevil after watching Spider-Man: No Way Home in December of 2021 and hearing Matt Murdock say, "I'm a really good lawyer," after catching a brick. So, I started watching the show, and that was during a time I was really miserable. Mentally and physically, I wasn't in a good place, but after watching Daredevil for the first time and falling in love with Charlie Cox as a genuine person and an actor, it felt like I found a reason to keep going.

I started writing fanfiction again, which I kind of neglected because I felt like this hobby of mine wasn't going anywhere. I wasn't inspired at all until I watched the show. If I hadn't, I probably would not have gotten back into writing and using it as an outlet for my feelings, and I probably wouldn't be where I am today. Thanks to Charlie's portrayal of Matt Murdock, and watching his interviews, I felt like I could do the things that I love again and follow my dreams. He's the reason I chose to major in English. And while I owe him that much, I owe you guys here on Tumblr and AO3 even more.

When I first posted here, I didn't think people would even be interested in what I had to say and write. But then more and more people started visiting my profile, you guys started following me, and it kept me motivated to keep writing, even when I'm miserable, and I sometimes only post once every blue moon.

I feel so honored that you guys chose to follow a silly little blog run by a silly little 20-something-year-old whose first language isn't even English (but made it her entire personality), and who chose to write about traumatized dark-haired characters portrayed by Charlie Cox. I'm overwhelmed by the love you continue to show me, and every time one of you chooses to reblog or comment on one of my works, saying that it resonated with you, I feel like I'm doing something right. I'm sharing my ideas, my own experiences, my wishes, and even my deepest, darkest dreams through my writing like it's a fucking diary, and you eat it up every single time.

I'm just so glad that this community exists, as chaotic as it sometimes is, and that you chose to stick around, even when I suck at keeping promises sometimes. You keep teaching me new things about who I am, my writing, and how important it is to put myself first. I don't know if you've heard it lately, but you guys are incredible and I appreciate the hell out of every single one of you.

Thanks to Tumblr, I made lifelong friends (especially looking at you, @blackshadowswriter) and found like-minded people that made me feel less alone. That alone was worth making this account and continuing to post on here.

You may think that I'm being dramatic, but for someone who has never really experienced the kind of validation this community gives me, I want to celebrate this milestone. It means more to me than I can even put into words. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. I love you all so much! Please, don't ever forget how amazing you are.

That being said, I've got some exciting things planned.

The other day, I found a folder in my Docs titled "the vault". I completely forgot about it because I usually keep my WIPs in a different folder. As it turns out, I made that folder for fics that I originally never planned to post, or ones that I'd finished but wasn't happy with. It’s many, but it’s a few. Some are deeper than others. I also jotted down rough ideas and outlines last year that I stuffed in there, some of which I've actually shared with you but never started working on. Until now. And the contents of that vault are what I want to give to you now.

INTRODUCING: The Vault

6 stories from the vault. 1 bonus fic. 7 days.

I went through a myriad of emotions while I wrote these. For some, I actually bled my soul onto paper. For others, it was merely a brain fart that led to their existence. They're sad, horny, and at times angry, but some of those were originally written for me, and only me. Those that weren't started as a few sentences in a folder before I forgot they existed. Either way, I don't want them to catch dust. And I wouldn't want to share them with anyone else.

Starting February 14th, I will be posting one fic every day until February 20th. My “The Vault” works are Matt Murdock x Reader works, but I've made an exception for the bonus fic. I won't tell you what they are about, but I will give you a list of installments and what kind of fic they are so you know what to be excited about (and maybe which ones are not your cup of tea).

-> The number at the end tells you the date I will be posting it on, but I put it in chronological order as well.

INSTALLMENTS:

1. If You Need To Be Mean (angst, hurt/comfort) 14.

2. Mismatched Bridesmaid (fluff, smut) 15.

3. Weed Cookies (humor, fluff, cw: accidental drug use) 16.

4. the grudge (songfic, angst, hurt/comfort, cw: death of a parent) 17.

5. Halloween (Smut) 18.

6. I Want To Fuck A Priest (Smut, cw: priest!Matt) 19.

BONUS:

7. Now That We Don’t Talk (Part 2 of Is It Over Now?) -> Frank Castle x Reader (smut, angst) 20.

A few more words: You are free to send me an ask if you want to know more, but be prepared that I won't be answering in much detail. I don't want to spoil the fun. I would, however, not mind talking about them as vaguely as possible (if you’re interested).

Thank you all. For everything. And I hope you stick around to read these little gems.

With love from yours truly,

Lizzi <3

#lizzi writes #follower celebration #valentine’s day #matt murdock x reader #matt murdock #daredevil #matt murdock x f!reader #matt murdock x you #frank castle x reader #matt murdock smut #matt murdock fluff #matt murdock angst #charlie cox

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eusuntgratie · 2 months

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Jesus my beloved! For the truth/dare ask: 🍓 🔪 🐝

HI VOX 😘😘😘

🍓 ⇢ how did you get into writing fanfiction?

oooh great question. i had an idea that wouldn't leave me alone and despite feeling like i wasn't a writer and couldn't do it, a beloved friend encouraged me to write my idea out. That fic was Captain America and the Winter Soldier Read Thirst Tweets, which I still love dearly. I didn't think I would write anything else, but I got sucked into Teen Wolf fandom shortly after that and started having so many fic ideas I couldn't keep up with them.

🔪 ⇢ what's the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project?

hmm... i have to be careful with research bc i want to do enough to make the story authentic but it is REALLY easy for me to get stuck in resarch phase and end up doing no writing.

nothing too weird is coming to mind, although i def feel like i'm forgetting something.

i did a LOT of research on saints and brushing up on catholic rites and iconography for forgive me, father which was both fascinating and low-key traumatizing. that shit never leaves you man.

🐝 ⇢ tag your biggest supporter(s) and say one nice thing about them

ooooh this is gonna make me emo but okay.

i can't give @bigassbowlingballhead enough love for everything he's done to support me and my big huge ginormous wip disaster. it started as a horny little idea and with his ideas and encouragement it's ballooned into the longest fic i've ever written. it's sitting at 40k and i'm not done writing the last chapter.

jon, you are so sweet and supportive and hilarious and SUCH A TALENTED WRITER i am so grateful for you. also you have great taste in men and i never get tired of thirsting with you 😏

@lostcol has been suffering with me as i drag her into new fandoms and shenanigans for a long time and she always always always supports my crazy ideas and encourages me to keep writing. her patience for my disastrously incorrect grip on english grammar seems to be infinite.

col you've made my writing so much better. you are so kind and funny and smart. i have so much fun screaming with you about new shows and new ideas. you are a great writer and an amazing beta and i appreciate you so so so much <3

@puckingfabulous has helped my writing more than i can say and has pushed me to try things i didn't think i could tackle, or didn't think i could write well. i feel like i've turned a corner with my writing in the last year and she gets a lot of the credit for helping me get there.

de you are so sweet and so supportive. i love talking ideas with you and nerding out about hockey or anything. your support means a lot - i appreciate you so so much <3

vox you've had my back for so long it's silly. we haven't overlapped a fandom in years but you've never let that stop you from encouraging me. if i haven't run you off by now i think you might just be stuck with me. love you man 😘

writer truth or dare asks

#writer asks #ask grace #voxofthevoid #ITS TOO EARLY TO BE THIS EMOTIONAL

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yuri-is-online · 2 months

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Love how we're both back on our ace shit at the same time <3. Also, I'm getting back into writing (just working on short stories before I get into fanfiction, and am very quickly realizing my flaws T-T) and I'm thinking about working on an 80s aduecyuu au. Yuu and deuce are punk because I'm punk 😗 but for a wider audience I'm thinking of making yuu grunge or hardcore? Something a bit more neutral. Don't know what Ace will be yet. He might get to be generic the 80s asshole jock 😍. Somebody gotta do it ace <3. But Grimm will be a weird ass cat who seems to have way too much of an attitude and seems a little too human?

But yeah. The au is just 3 idoit doing stupid shit, sharing a braincell, trying to figure out where the line between friendship and queer throuple is while trying to ignore the impending scene of dread because a lot of weird shit™ keeps happening in the background.

Also cater will show up at sometime. Don't know when. Don't know where. But by God I will make it happen, and he will be the skaterboy we all know he is.

Idk if lolitas existed in the 80s but if they did I'll make riddle ouji lolita for you ❤ or atleast ouji lolita adjacent

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! GO YOU! MAKE SURE TO TAG ME WHEN YOU DO!! I promise to be only a little unhinged in your comments.

That's the thing about writing. The more you do it the more you realize what you're bad at but that's not always a bad thing. You can't improve on what you don't know needs improving.

Don't pressure yourself to make Yuu grunge or hard-core for wider appeal. I think all twst writers put a little bit of themselves into their povs, so if you know punk the story will probably be a lot easier to write since that's you! (If you wanted them to be different than Deuce and Ace I'd vote trad goth. That style goes so fucking hard and so does their music bauhaus my beloved. Also i guess kind of fits with Ramshackle?) Is this meant to be a sort of classic horror vibes? Because I dig it. I think Stranger Things did us all a disservice by sucking ass and making people think 80s horror should die because it became too mainstream :/

I'm going to put my unhinged rambling about lolita under the cut but oh my God you don't have to do that I'm so grateful you thought to though I've got such a big smile on my face rn cccc;

OK so to make a very long thing short, yes lolita did exist in the 1980s but it didn't really look like anything it does today. It was pretty much all handmade, and though the first brands were around we have no idea what their peices looked like since the fashion wasn't really widely worn or photographed until the 1990s. It didn't even have its name until the 90s. Lolita as it exists today is very much a 90s/early 2000s fashion which is honestly wild to me. As for ouji, it pretty much grew alongside Lolita so that would also be a no go.

Given Riddle's backstory I can't really see him as an 80s lolita. He doesn't seem like the sewing type to me... but there is this one brand that helped influence Lolita fashion called PINK HOUSE that was stupid popular in Japan in the 80s. I'll link you to this blogspot article which is both about the brand and the misconception in English speaking spaces about the term "natural kei" but I think it suits Riddle if you wanted to give him a lolita like vibe. The tl;dr of the article is that it PINK HOUSE and it's original designer Kaneko was a staple in 80s fashion in Japan, and is referred to as just PINK HOUSE or Kaneko fashion. As it lacks the community or aesthetic of kei fashions or lolita it is not considered a part of those groups... which does sort of fit Riddle in a way as his mother isolates him from both 💀

#<3 asks #twisted wonderland #when i first got into lolita i remeber seeing people argue?#about the term ouji vs the term boystyle #because most people in english speaking places called it boystyle? but i dont fully remember why #hmmm if i had to point to anyone in the cast who would be an 80s lolita I'm almost tempted to say rook #i can see him making his own clothes #i once wrote a male yandere who wore skirts specifically so he could keep more knives on him and i can see rook sharing that logic #gl with your writing friend i hope you have fun with it!!!

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wiverly · 7 months

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Hi if you are a fanfic writer can you make one where shanks centtic where he is gatps nephew rouger brother ace uncle dragon cousin and what ive said before on my other account on the post with boa and shanks uhm idk i just need a shanks centtic fic may it be on rogership or redhaired pirates he just needs to be loved and apreciated

Heck you can even write a female shanks because there are only two and i love woman okay uhm all in all a one-shots with in each chapter shanks gets loved bc I love him

And uf you are not a writer and a rtidt instead can you maybe draw female shankd for the fanfic im writing I imagining that female shanks wears her hair in traditional viking braids since i think its canon shanks is scandanavian so maybe some viking tattood and ear silver piercing smokey eye and dresses like elisabeth swann like that but with a hint of viking armot or sum

Oh, thank you so much for all the comments here in the question box and under the various posts, as well as the various kudos. I'm really pleased that you like what I post. ❤️

I'll answer everything here, hope it's not a problem for you.

I'm honestly not a fanfiction writer but I was thinking of starting. I already have some work in progress and others planned but it is very complicated for me since english is not my first language. Not only do I have to have the ideas and implement them, but I also have to translate everything. The times are practically biblical and this is also one of the reasons why a lot of time passes between one post and another, ahahahah. I still intend to produce Shanks-centric content, both relating to the Monkey D. family, Rocks D. Xebec, and other characters, even if it's not fanfiction. Also here on my blog you may find image sets and aesthetic moodboards but no drawings, at least not in the near future, sorry. So I hope my follow-up posts go some way to satisfying your desire for more Shanks content, even if I'm not what you asked for.

Thanks again and if you or others would like to write to me again here in the question box I would be really happy, it's always nice to be able to share your passions with others.

P.S. I hope my english didn't suck too much, hahahahah. 😂

#oh my god #internally sobbing #so happy #I love it #it made my day better #ask #sorry for my bad english #really really sorry

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the---hermit · 1 year

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i’d love to know more about how you learn languages!

Hello anon! This is a great question, things have changed a lot ever since I started learning languages, so get ready for me to tell you about my language learning jouney even though you didn't ask for it.

I started to actually caring about learning languages in middle school, when I don't really know how I self studied English. Of couse we had classes, but I would lie if I told you I learned how to speak English fully from them. They were of course very useful to get a constant practice and to learn grammar rules, but the actually speaking and all happened with me starting to force myself in consuming English content. I started with copying the English lyrics and Italian translations of my favourite album (I still have those somewhere I think), and then I slowly got to more music, to youtube, to fanfiction, and then tv series and basically I learned English in this very chaotic way, but hey it worked, and very well. Especially because English is the foreign language I am the most comfortable with to this day.

After middle school came the time for me to pick my high school, and since my last year and a half-ish of middle school had been so focused on self-studying English I picked languages, although my teachers told me not to. (My maths teacher really wanted me to go to a scientific high school, so one more focused on maths, and my English teacher told me that it would have been better to wait until uni to study languages because after five years of high school I would lose my interest. Spoiler: I did. My ubris failed me and my belif that my love for languages would last died quicker than expected). In my high school I studied English, French and German. I had already studied French in middle school and despised its grammar so it was a nightmare to continue until we stopped with the grammar lessons and started with litterature. I fell in love with French litterature, it was amazing, and my French got so much better thanks to it. With German things were very complicated because in five years I change three teachers and some of them were questionable. Again when we got to litterature it was a bit better for me, but not so much. So I can say I am one of those people who learns languages much better when I actually experiece them through reading and more practical things than through lessons and lessons of grammar to memorize, because guess what my memory sucks. As I said my love for languages decline during my high school years, because my path there was disastrous in all senses, so for a while after that learning languages to me was just a reminder of how awful some of my high school years were, and I only used English online and to consume content but nothing more.

And then fast forward to December 2021 when for some reason I downloaded Duolingo. My initial idea was to get back into French and German (which is still something I want to do, especially with French because I forgot almost everything about German). Then I had the genius idea to check the languages available and I saw Irish and something in me clicked. I got back the interest and enthusism of learning a language I knew nothing about and that I had zero connections with from a language point of view (like when I first started to learn English). It became a little challenge for me to keep my brain active and I never stopped. I actually recently got a proper grammar book for Irish so that I can learn it a bit more precisely, but duolingo is a great starting point because of the way it is stuctured (I did prefer it before the last update, but it still works, at least for the way my brain works). I do this in my free time, but I'd like to get a bit of Irish grammar learning in my weekly routine to be more consistent with it. I memorize things with writing so I have a notebook in which I write down the grammar rules and stuff. My goal is to get to a base point of knowledge in which I will be able to access things like children's books. I think it's a very simple but effective way of learning a language, to progress with the litterature written for kids, because at the end of the day both you and the kids are slowly learning how the language works. Then hopefully I'll be able to read on to more written things, as well as access spoken content to train my listening.

As I said I would like to make language learning a more consistent thing in my routine but I am not there yet. Anyway this is a small version of my language learning journey. I would recommend firstly figuring out what kind of learner you are, there's people with great memory that learn very well with a grammar book only, whereas I am more logical than memory based so I need actual application of the rules to learn. This is why duolingo works so well for me at the moment because I firstly learn a bit about how things work, then I study the grammar rule on my own, and then I get back and practice it. As mentioned my top ways of learning have been related to entertainment, so reading, listening to music, watching movies and videos, and writing. As long as you make it fun for yourself your motivation will stay high, and usually contexts of a tv show or other media help with learning. As I said to think of yourself as a kid learning their mother tongue is a great way to focus your attention to tools that you are actually able to understand and learn from, without losing hope because you expect yourself to understand what an adult speaker of your target language understands.

So here you go an unnecessarily long answer to a pretty simple question, I hope it was at learst interesting, or helpful in some ways.

#ask #asked #asks #answered #anon #language learning #my language learning history #langblr #studyblr #cris speaks #mine #the---hermit

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lino-nyangi · 1 year

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tips on writing ffs?

my dear lovely anon you're asking someone who comes here to shitpost the garbage smut/fluff they're currently spiraling about and leave. that being said, i'll do my best to wring the most tips i can from my last operating braincell. i'll leave it under the cut to not hog the dash x

i would say the most important thing for me is to basically word vomit everything in my head first. doesn't matter if it sucks ass or doesn't make sense *whispers* nobody's gonna know it's between you and whatever writing app you use.

it's just to get a general idea of the storyline, the main scenes and their order (or actions within one scene if it's a short thing) and dialogue

most of the time my drafts just look like a bunch of dialogue and actions done by the characters summed up in short sentences, kinda like a movie script lol

i always say this but my biggest struggle is describing the subtle gestures/sounds that are so simple and spontaneous irl but really hard to put into words and not make it sound too weird or too literal etc (.mp4 to .docx)

i usually just zone out to picture the scene (mostly dialogue, for it to sound more realistic than robotic?) and as words start flooding my brain and i furiously type them down before they fly away (spoiler: a lot of the time they do. it's okay. don't flip the table)

speaking of words, if you're multilingual like me (as in English isn't your first language) you'll be paying a lot of visits to dictionaries and translation websites lmao, not to mention googling "___ synonym (to avoid repetition)" or "word for *insert weirdly specific description" or "___ meaning (for words you could swear you know what they mean but need to make sure they work in this context to not sound stupid)" the struggle™ is real i tell you.

ANYWAY. once you've got the pattern laid out you're gonna go back and little by little edit every paragraph to start making sense, fill up between the dialogue where necessary, especially if actions are done simultaneously with talking. to avoid words that are inevitable like "___ said" try to keep in mind the character's tone and volume of their voice. it could be replaced by muttered/whispered/yelled/etc, or skip that all together for the the action that comes with it, i.e scoffed/spit/sighed/etc

if it's just a quick blurb i honestly don't think of it much more than this and just read it from start to finish one last time to make sure it flows smoothly and makes sense. if it's something longer i do take the time to proofread multiple times and even come back to it several hours later when i'm in a different state of mind. it helps me notice things i didn't the first time. either passages i hated it how i wrote and now they sound alright, or the opposite, something sounds too corny after i thought it was not bad. so i try to fix that.

as for ideas/prompts and how i get them in the first place, i am one incredibly delusional self indulgent fucker so they just flow <3

i hope you find this helpful in anyway! i suck at explaining but i did my best :)

however i do want to point out that if it's something you're not familiar with, it's very advisable to do a fair amount of research on it! specific vocabulary, process of an activity, visual description of a specific place and all that jazz

lat thing i'd say is try making the characters as accurate as they can get to the idol you're writing about? this has a lot of gray area since 1. we obviously don't know them on a personal level so take the word "accurate" with a big pinch of salt. and 2. it's fanfiction at the end of the day so -especially with smut- a lot of writers allow themselves a margin of liberty. but yeah i think that does make a whole lot of difference especially if you write for multiple members.

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anniefelis · 6 months

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20 Questions for Fic Writers

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

Five, but it ought to be more by now. I've run into a wall with my work, and since I tend to write big longfic, it's taking a while to pick up the pace again.

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

1,413,641

3. What fandoms do you write for?

The Legend of Zelda and Metroid, and at one point I wrote Final Fantasy, Skies of Arcadia and Chrono Trigger. I've been writing fanfiction for about 25 years now.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Wither with 239 kudos (this is a Breath of the Wild fic, hence the higher amount of kudos)

Into the Twilight with 93 kudos

Midna's Lament with 87 kudos

Blood, Spirit and Hatred with 62 kudos

Soul with 19 kudos

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try to on my lesser-hit fics, but I didn't bother much with Wither because it's both a story I did not enjoy writing, and one I am not proud of. I don't know what to say to the people who enjoyed something I did not like myself, even if they're very kind and supportive.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I guess the closest I can come is Wither, because the whole story is full of angst.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Blood, Spirit and Hatred. They beat Ganondorf, yay!

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I've had one guy tell me that I need to make my protagonist unemotional and stoic, to which I replied "ok, tell me how you'd act in these situations if you were 17 years old". Unsurprisingly, I got no response. That's about as close as I've gotten to hate.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind.

No. There are a million erotica writers on Ao3, and I'd rather write something for the people who aren't looking for them.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

No. I do not like crossovers.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Yes, somebody reposted a Final Fantasy fic of mine in its entirety on a forum. The guy who did it got banned for being spammy because the thing was something like 80k words.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No, and since I'm mostly doing novelizations I don't think I need any translations.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes, there was a group writing project on Icy Brian's page called Cold Fusion, where all the writers were assigned chapters and stayed anonymous until the end. It was fun.

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

Terra x Edgar from FF6. I'm niche. But I also ship some kinds of Zelink now, too.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I had a Chrono Trigger fic about Frog I wanted to finish, but I didn't outline it at all. I pantsed the entire thing and I had no idea where to go with it. If I ever did anything with it, it would need a rewrite.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Realistic emotional responses, believable characters and action/fight scenes. Gimme them action scenes.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I suck at being succinct. Please, tell me how to write less words for the thing.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I'm a dumb American who only speaks english so I am not the person to be asking this.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Pinky and the Brain, in a notebook that was lost long ago. My first fic online was a FF6 story back in 1998 or so.

20. Favorite fic you've ever written?

The entire Twilight Princess novelization would be it, although that's multiple books...so if I had to pick one of those, I'd have to say Midna's Lament.

#not tagging anyone just do this thing if you want to #the legend of zelda #zelda fic

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folkwhorerain · 2 years

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Life Sucks.

May Parker x fem!reader

(The lack of aunt May's fanfictions is embarrassing so here I am)

This is the second fanfiction I've ever wrote so I'm sorry if it's lame, but I don't write much. Plus, I wrote it just because I needed some comfort and right now my life sucks, lmao. And if being a loser wasn't enough, English is not even my first language so I'm sorry for grammar mistakes.😩

Summary: you've always been a victim of your parents arguments and things got even worse when you moved to Queens with them, but what will happen when your neighbors decide to help you with it?

Warnings: age gap, reader is in her 20s (minors, do not interact!) angst, abuse, language (?), self-harm, sexual tension, light smut at the end. (Feel free to tell me if I should add more)

Your life sucks. I mean, everyone's life sucks in a way or another, but yours was particularly challenging.

Your parents have the tendency to fight a lot and they always put you in the middle of the fights, like you could fix things between them.

Since you were born, the days where you and your parents had good moments together were rare and being a only child was even worse. You don't have someone who relate to you and who understands what you are going through, you were alone. At least that was what you thought until you moved to Queens.

At first you didn't like the city at all. Your parents left Los Angeles to go to an expensive and dangerous city just because they thought they could work things out with a new start with their child?

Bullshit.

They kept fighting like nothing changed, like they didn't force you to leave all your friends behind just for their marriage. And you couldn't complain about it. Absolutely not, they would scream at you how ungrateful you are because "we did this for you and for the sake of this family".

Yeah, right.

All you wanted to do was run away, find a new job and start over.

But, despite being in your 20s, you still couldn't move out on your own because the apartments in Queens are not cheap and your salary wasn't the best, therefore you are in a foreign city stuck with abusive parents and you have no friends.

But something changed one day when you were done with your parents arguments.

"Isn't she acting like crazy?!" your father asked you, pointing at your mother.

Oh, here we are again.

“Oh, now I'm crazy?!” She yelled back. “Yes, you are! You're ruining this family! Look at our child- she's crying again because of you!” Your father accused your mother just like he did a hundred times before. This was not new at all. You came to the point were you didn't even care about what they fight about anymore.

“STOP, I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE!" You screamed at them before taking your jacket and headed to the door, being careful of slamming it before rushing away of the apartment.

You were now crying on the corridor of the building, a few doors away from yours.

Your neighbors were well aware of the situation in your apartment but they never did anything to help you, not even when you would stand in the corridor shaking and crying, so you preferred crying in silence now, it wouldn't make a big difference.

But something happened this time and the door near you opened.

“Uhm, hey? What are you doing here?” You hear a voice asking you.

You suddenly got up and started apologizing to a young boy, probably a little bit younger than you with messy, brown hair and a "I survived my trip to New York" shirt.

“Are you okay?” He asked you, concern evident in his voice.

“Y-yeah, sorry. My parents... They were-”

“Fighting?” He interrupted you with a sad smile, knowing he was unfortunately right.

“Yes... How do you...?” You asked him furrowing your eyebrows and wiping away some tears.

“I heard them before, they're pretty loud.” He joked, trying to make you feel better. “I never did anything because I didn't know what to do. I mean, you moved here just a couple of weeks ago, I don't know who you are and I know this means nothing but-”

“No, no. It's okay.” You interrupted him. “We're new here and we are strangers, we could be serial killers or something.”

He simply chuckled, still a little uncomfortable. “I'm Peter, by the way…Parker.” He stretched out a hand to you which you gladly shook.

“Hi, Peter. I'm Y/N Y/L/N.”

“Nice to meet you. Uhm, do you wanna come in?” He asked pointing to the apartment behind his back. “It's just me and my aunt.”

“Oh, I should prob-”

Before you could answer his question a new figure behind Peter made its way in the corridor.

She was beautiful, no... She was beyond that. She was stunning.

She had long, straight, brown hair and brown eyes. She was a little bit taller than you and she was wearing gray pants and a yellow low-necked shirt; not too much revealing but enough to make your mouth go dry.

“Peter, what are you doing here?” the woman asked and holy shit, she even more beautiful up close. When Peter pointed at you, she turned her attentions to your not good looking self.

“Hi, I'm May Parker.” She introduced herself with a big smile, hand stretched out for you.

“Oh, ehm, I'm Y/N Y/L/N. Nice to meet you, Miss Parker.” You shook her hand looking deeply in her eyes and, if Peter didn't interrupt you two, you would probably still be holding her hand.

“May, she's the daughter of our new neighbors... You know...” He informed the woman, giving her a knowing look.

Great, everyone is gossiping about your parents fights.

The woman widened her eyes. “Ooh! Honey... Welcome, I guess? Would you like to come over?”

A part of you wanted to accept but the other was still a little bit uncomfortable knowing they were doing it just for pity, so you refused.

“Thanks, but I should go.” You said pointing at your door with your head, May and Peter simply nodded in agreement. “I have to check those two didn't kill each other.” You joked to lighten up the mood (and because that was your coping mechanism), but May and Peter looked at you with furrowed eyebrows and a concerned look.

“Uhm, maybe we could hang out together tomorrow, Peter. What do you think?” You suggested.

“Yeah, sure. You can come over tomorrow. That would be perfect, Y/N. Absolutely, no problem.” This boy talks too much but that's not necessarily a bad thing.

With a last goodbye, you head to your apartment with a little smile on your face.

As you promised, the next day you were at Peter's apartment and after that you became really good friends, and after a year you were practically part of the family.

May invited you to dinner often, to the point where she knew your favorite meals and you had your personal seat.

The feelings for her grew pretty strong and you could admit that you're in love with her. But she's was your best friend's aunt and you were in your 20s so this was not gonna happen. Plus it would be too awkward for Peter.

You and Pete do everything together, you don't understand much about math but he's glad to teach you just for fun, even though you said you don't need it since you graduated from high school a few years ago, but he says “math is always useful in life”, so you agreed just so you could teach him how to skateboard and he was surprisingly coordinated, much more than you.

You even started hanging out with his friends Ned and MJ and, despite the fact they are still teenagers, you didn't feel the pressure of the age gap at all. You have a lot in common with all three, but Peter was special. It was like he could sense when your parents were gonna fight. He always sends you a message asking you to come over just right before your parents would start yelling at each other and you honestly didn't know how he could do that.

One time you could hear them scream from May's apartment and you knew things were getting really bad. You were watching movies on the couch with the two of them and Peter immediately sensed you were going to panic.

“I- I should go.” You sighed, but before you could stand up, May's hands were on your shoulders, and she was looking at you with concern. That wasn't helping your nervous status.

“Sweetie, that shouldn't concern you. You can't always try to fix things, specially these things.”

Now her hands where on both of your cheeks and you could swear you were blushing.

“May is right, Y/N/N. You should stay, plus she made your favorite meal. You can't say no.” Peter said with a big smile on his face, trying to assure you.

You simply nodded, keeping your eyes on May since she was still holding you in place. She smirked and walked towards the kitchen, you immediately missed her touch.

You sighed and straightened up your posture, looking at your best friend who was smirking at you with his eyes half closed.

“What?” You asked confused.

“Uh? Nothing.” His smirk only grew wider.

A few days later your parents were fighting, again. And they involved you, as always.

“Y/N, am I wrong for hanging out with my friends and having some fun?” Your mother asked you with both of her hands on her hips.

“That doesn't give you the right to come home late and not making me dinner!” Your father yelled before hitting the table with his fist, making you jump.

“W-well. You could always cook something yourself.” You suggested quietly, not wanting to upset him.

How you wish you never spoke. Your mother gave you a grateful look, but your father... He immediately gave you the look he does when he wants to slap you. The look that terrifies you every, single time.

He started walking towards you and you immediately got up, some tears were trying to escape but you couldn't let them, he would've killed you.

“Stop acting like this and give me respect!” He was a few inches away from your face and that was it, that was the breaking point. You couldn't take it anymore so you did what you always do in situations like this and got out of the apartment. You hear your father scream “Go and never come back!” but you don't care anymore.

With shaky hands you knock frantically on Peter's door and a few moments later a confused May opens the door for you.

As soon as she sees you she understands and gives you a big hug, whispering sweet nothings in your ear. You couldn't take it anymore so you collapsed on the apartment floor, crying and shaking.

“Oh, sweetie... Baby, what happened?” May kneeled in front of you, rubbing your back. If you weren't so shocked (and this was a normal situation) you would've been happy for the interaction you two were having but right now nothing felt real.

You tried to talk but nothing came out of your mouth, your were dizzy, numb, you wanted to scream but you couldn't.

“Hey, it's okay.” The older woman assured you with her hands on your cheeks, as she always does when you're sad. “Come here. Sit on the couch with me, love.”

You and May sit on the couch, and she gives you a glass of water. Your hands didn't want to collaborate and started shaking even more.

“Wait, let me help you, sweetie.” May placed a hand on the back of your head, stroking your hair and the other one on the glass, helping you drink.

God, I'm pathetic.

You muttered a thank you, not knowing what to say. You didn't know if it was for the fight with your parents or for the beautiful woman sitting next to you who was know stroking your knee comfortably. Now you didn't know if deciding to wear a skirt was a good thing or a bad thing.

“Where- Where's Pete?” You suddenly ask, totally forgetting about your best friend.

“Oh, he's at Ned's” She informs you with a sweet tone. “We're... alone.”

You swallow hard and nodd with a small smile, not trusting your voice. She looked at you and you saw that she was... nervous. Why would she be nervous about being alone with you? You were part of the family after all.

“So, do you want to talk about what happened?” Her thumb was now tracing circles on your knee while the other was still stroking your hair.

You take a deep breath. “It's always the same shit, May. My parents hate each other, they argue every. fucking. day. Even for the silliest things! It's impossible to live like this and I'm sorry if I always com-”

“What are those?” She abruptly interrupted you, looking down at your thigh.

You followed her gaze and found out that the skirt reveled your cuts.

Damn it.

“Wh- Those...” You start to panic and don't know what excuse to make up. “May, forget it. It's nothing.”

“You did this, didn't you?” She whispered tracing some of your cuts, making you hiss in pain. “Sorry…” She whispered sadly.

“Its okay.” Now the air was heavy. You didn't tell anyone you hurt yourself, not even Peter. It's not something to be proud of but you couldn't stop. The more you hurt yourself the more you wanna do it.

“I'll go take the medical kit.” She swiftly got up and disappeared in the bathroom. You didn't even have the time to tell her she didn't have to. She seemed upset and you couldn't figure out why.

When she came back, she had everything she needed to disinfect the wounds. “May, this is not necessary.” You assured her with gratitude in your voice.

She ignored you and kneeled in front of you, her hands shaking a little bit. “It is. Now raise your skirt so I can take care of this.”

Her tone was firm but shaky at the same time. She was anxious and you could tell by the way she was blushing and biting her lips.

You did as she told, your skirt was now up to the level of your panties and you could feel her gaze following your movements.

She shook her head and placed a hand on your thigh and before you could stop yourself, you sighed.

Her head immediately snapped to you, a little smirk appeared on her lips and her eyes darkened. “Can I try something?” Her voice was above a whisper, but you heard her clearly.

“Yes…” you moaned and immediately widened your eyes. “I mean... Yes.” This time you tried to sound more convincing, but it was evident you were a mess under her touch.

She was a little surprised by your behavior but she didn't say anything about it, instead she lowered her head and started kissing your hips, right where your cuts were.

You were too stunned to speak so you did the only thing you could do and stared at the beauty in front of you.

“Don't. Do. That. Ever. Again.” She said between each kiss as she was getting closer to your inner hip. You closed your eyes for a second and arched your back before taking a deep breath.

“May...” She looked at you with lust in her eyes and she couldn't control herself any longer. She kissed you.

You were a little taken back by the sudden action but immediately kissed her back when you processed what was happening.

You sighed into the kiss as you wrapped your arms around May's neck and you let out a small moan as soon as you felt May's hands grab your waist in a possessive way.

“God, you don't know how long I've been wanting to do this.” She confessed sitting on your lap, letting her mouth trail down your neck in a series of open mouth kisses.

“M-me too.” You let out a gasp when you felt her hand cupping your clothed cunt. The older woman smirked at you when she felt how wet you were. “May, please… touch me.”

She didn't waste any time and tossed your panties to the side before inserting one finger inside of you.

“Yes. Right there.” You moaned. It was pathetic how needy you were.

“You're so wet for me, babygirl.” May started to kiss your collarbone while she inserted another finger, making you moan louder.

“WOAH, HEY!” You and May immediately look at the door where a shocked and disgusted Peter was standing.

May swiftly composed herself and got up from your lap. “Peter, weren't you at Ned's?”

“We finished our project sooner.” His eyes were glued to you while yours where glued to the floor.

“Peter, we're so-”

“No, it's okay.” He interrupted you before he ran a hand through his hair. “I'm just gonna go to my room, but it's fine, really. I was getting tired of you two drooling over each other but never making a move.”

“You knew, Peter?” May crossed her arms and looked at him in disbelief. “How did you-”

“Of course I knew! You're not good at hiding you feelings.” He headed to his room, closing the door behind him. “And next time GET A ROOM.” He yelled on the other side of the door.

You and May looked at each other and started laughing. You got up and walked towards her before giving her a gentle kiss on her lips. As usual she placed both of her hands on your cheeks, but this time you never felt happier.

“Would you like to stay for dinner?” She asked, biting her lips. She stared at you with a hopeful look and touched your lips with her thumb.

You closed your eyes for a second. “Yes, I would love that.”

And with that, she pecked your lips one more time and smiled.

Your life didn't suck after all.

That was it, aunt May simps! I hope you liked it and if you love that woman as much as I do you can check my povs about her on TikTok (loraine.maximoff), I'll drop the link <3

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