#I’m just. really nostalgic and emotional and weird

[saturnsquest757]

Astrology Observations 1.

This is my first time please don’t judge.

I’ve noticed Pisces usually are the self proclaimed, “different and special beings” instead of Aquarius. Pisces Sun and or Venus will openly state how different they are.

A Sagittarius is the easiest zodiac sign for me to spot. It’s just so… obvious??? Even when they’re not the usual extroverted type there’s always this energy of a free spirit.

Scorpio risings are secretive but only for a period of time. Once you get to know them they usually open up. Scorpio moons however… are usually always private/secretive no matter the time frame of knowing each other.

I’ve experienced Virgos being so hypercritical they become hypocritical. Virgos have high expectations of others and themselves, but usually others cannot reach them. They also cannot reach their own standards. Considering, their a mutable sign this is why they can be critical but not back it up with constant action. Their expectations and perception is consistently changing, but still manages to remain high.

Ok… Cancer rising/moon/mars usually moody asf. No chill vibes. Very strict on comfortability and not like fixed signs comfortable. More so a nostalgic feeling or certain things needed to fulfill an emotional need. If those things (people,places,objects) change drastically there is a difficulty to move forward. If anything goes outside of a routine they get very upset.

I wish I could say one sign seems more emotionally mature than the other. I’ve met so many people with all different types of placements and most were emotionally stunted in some form and there were no similarities. So I think being toxic and or unhealthy can happen no matter the natal chart.

I have Neptune 1° degree away from my ascendent🥲. Neptune in the first house/conjunct ascendent is not an easy placement. Very creative. Very unrealistic. A strong and growing imagination. Head in the clouds. Projections. Projections. Even the movements I make with my body or face usually get misinterpreted. Can have a distorted perception of physical form. When Saturn was transiting my 1st house I lost a lot of weight, but I didn’t seem to notice how skinny I looked. People would make commentary and I thought I looked fine. Looking back at photos I realize how malnourished and skinny I was. Neptune in the 1st can also cause a tendency to be addicted to anything. Most would say drugs, but for me it’s usually any hobby that can allow an obsessive escape from reality. Low self esteem can be present considering the elusive nature of the self.

Saturn in the 2nd house folks struggle with making a higher income or a comfortable salary throughout their life. However, Saturn in the 2nd is good with being frugal and budgeting. Usually can save really easily with this placement unless Saturn is severely debilitated.

Venus/Mars in Pisces and being attracted to someone weird, eccentric. They don’t have a consistent type and can date all different types of people.

Mars conjunct Venus aspect I’m so jealous and I want. People with mars conjunct Venus can be very attractive and flirty. Usually a chick/guy magnet. People fall in love with them easily. Attract a lot of attention in some form.

Chiron is very important in the solar return chart. Whatever house it is in will be healed but also broken down and injured in some way. Or there could be a discovery of a wound depending on what house will change the description. Ex:Chiron in 7th, struggle in partnership, may break up with current partner, attract difficult/emotionally stunted individuals. Chiron in the 1st can struggle with intense amount of doubt and low self esteem concerning the body and how they show up in the world. I do believe in a solar return chart the house Chiron resides in either heals in some form or the individual learns a pivotal lesson by the end of the year.

8th house synastry is emotionally taxing. I have this with my mom and other friends and it’s a lot. 8th house synastry usually there’s a obvious power dynamic. Or one person is more obsessed/attached than the other. 12th house synastry can also have unequal dynamics however I do think both individuals will feel a pull towards each other(whether they admit it or not). 12th house synastry although elusive has the potential to make you feel great comfortability and unconditional love.

Venus conjunct mars in synastry wasn’t all that for me. It felt superficial and we mainly connected on a sexual level.

Why does NO one talk about moon conjunct moon in synastry. I love it and it’s nice!! Depending on the moon I guess opinions can differ. However both people’s emotional waves will be similar and easily understood by the other. Allowing an easy process of being seen and heard. I connected deeply with men and women that I had this aspect with. It is sad and painful when the relationship ends because there’s a mutual understanding of each other.

9th house synastry is dope and I wish I experienced it more. There’s an opportunity to learn something or you are more open to learning new things from the other person. Depending on what planet/zodiac sign/ degree it can show what topics tend to expand in the presence of a 9th house intruder. Also morals can be similar or the same on politics, social issues, etc.

Mars in the 4th house synastry is hell. I don’t like it usually the mars person brings disruption or change in the home in some way. They can without trying cause emotional distress or upheavals in the 4th house person. Obviously if mars is strongly and comfortably placed I think this can lessen the effects. Such as if it’s in its domicile or exaltation. However if mars is struggling on it’s own in the natal chart I do think it’s a red flag 🚩. Considering the 4th house is the most sensitive and hidden house.Technically your ancestral background and emotional well being resides in the 4th house which can trigger a whole lot of things.

Usually people see 4th house as good because it’s home and family. However if your family lineage has generational trauma this area can be a trigger landmark. This is the house of your deepest, habitual characteristics that only come out when comfortable. It’s also traditions your family upheld which can be any… kind not just the standard example. Such as tendencies of toxicity or unhealthy habits that linger from previous generations.

#astrology observations #astrology

[nostalgicninjas]

2012 Leorai Rant

there’s so much discourse about whether 2012 leorai is considered incest or not and i kinda wanted to throw my two cents in ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i grew up with the 2012 series, and as a kid, i was a hardcore leorai fan. now as an adult, i’ve become neutral to the ship (though it will always hold a special place in my heart for nostalgic purposes). overall my thoughts/perspective on leorai have changed a lot over the years. i’ve grown to ship them more with other people (‼️ aprinardo and shinirai supremacy ‼️) while still loving and appreciating their canon dynamic. personally, i don’t view their relationship as entirely platonic or romantic. on one hand, i believe leo and karai do love each other like family (the same way all the turtles love april and casey like family) but they also connect on a deeper level that’s too intimate to call them “siblings”. it’s not as black and white as them being either brother/sister or boyfriend/girlfriend. to me, their relationship has so many layers it’s too complex for labels. which is fine because labels are overrated anyway. but that’s just my opinion.

i completely get why some people (especially those with adopted family members) think the relationship is weird, and i also get why some people see no problem with it. at the end of the day, it all depends on an individual’s life experiences or personal preferences.

note: if two people are biologically blood relatives, then an intimate/sexual relationship between them is 100% incest and i do not support or condone such behavior.

in this particular case however, i believe there is a difference between real incest and what society views to be incest. imagine two people have been dating for a while and then their parents fall in love and decide to get married. are they supposed to just turn their feelings off for each other and break up because they are now “technically siblings”? i’m sorry to break it to you but that’s not how emotions work. emotions are complicated. and frankly it seems wrong to try to force two people to think/feel a certain way about each other just because it’s what society excepts. i have always been a firm believer that people should be free to follow their hearts and love who they love. if there is no blood or biological connection involved (or any other illegal factors), then i see no reason why people can’t be free to choose how they get to view a person or how they wish for those relationships to develop. because in this case, love is not a crime.

in a way, the same can be said for leo and karai. first impressions count for something, and leo had already developed feelings for karai long before he found out she was splinter’s daughter. i know most people would disagree, but just because they view the same man as a father figure does not make them obligated to view each other as siblings. just because mikey CHOOSES to view karai as a sister does not mean leo is obligated to view her the same way. same goes for raph and donnie. from what was shown in the series, those two (especially raph) hardly considered karai to be a part of their immediate family, much less considered her a sister. and that’s their right. as much as i’m sure we all wanted to see the turtles and karai come together (and trust me i did too), donnie and raph had valid reasons to dislike/distrust karai and they shouldn’t be forced to brush their justified feelings aside and immediately accept her as a “sister” if they don’t want to. they may view her as an ally/asset to the team, but if they don’t want to view her as family, then they shouldn’t have to (though i’m sure they would eventually accept her in the future; whether or not as a sister or just a distant family member, we’ll never know).

i even once saw someone say that if shipping leorai isn’t incest because they aren’t blood related, then it shouldn’t be considered incest when shipping the turtles with splinter since they also aren’t blood related. that’s a really gross comparison for multiple reasons but mainly;

1.) the turtles are all MINORS and splinter is a grown ass man which is reason enough because W T F

and

2.) splinter has always viewed the turtles as his children and the turtles have always viewed him as their father. for him to suddenly take any kind of sexual interest in them is downright predatory, blood or no blood.

as for the whole “whether or not they share dna” debate, that’s honestly up to interpretation. splinter was never actually seen touching the turtles, so it’s not a canon fact that they actually absorbed any of his human dna when they mutated. and even if they had, the notion that this automatically makes them biological relatives to splinter is actually quite comical. that’s like saying the radioactive spider that gave peter parker superpowers is suddenly his new father. sounds silly, doesn’t it?

overall, i hate it when careless leorai fans make insensitive statements about adopted families, and i also hate it when anti shippers treat leorai fans like freaks just for having a different perspective on their relationship. if you prefer to think of them as brother and sister, then that’s cool. we’re all entitled to our opinions. what’s not cool is constantly harassing fans of the ship and shoving your “sibling” agenda down their throats (and vice versa).

to borrow a paragraph from @orokukarai’s rant:

If the ship makes you uncomfortable, whether it's for personal reasons or you're just not vibing, that's OK. If you personally see it as incestual, that's valid. But going around saying Leorai shippers all like or support incest is not true and there are many valid readings where they're not incestual even if you disagree with them. Some shippers probably do like incest, but then so do many non-Leorai shippers.

in conclusion, respect other people’s opinions. if you stumble across content you don’t like, block or ignore it. no need to comment hate or fill up the ship hashtags with negativity (and that goes for ALL fandoms).

just stay in your lane and keep scrolling ✌️

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[tojivu]

PLEASE CALL ME [01]

a/n part 1 out of idk.. anyways this was so heavily inspired by phoebe bridger’s songs.. i’m so obsessed with her (=´∀｀) oh and also by a book i finished a long time ago but haven’t gotten over lol. i tried writing this in 3rd person pov but tbh it’s hard for me to display emotion in my writing if it’s 3rd person cus it’s like giving u instructions on how to feel 😭. I KNOW ITS 2023 OKAY I KNOW WE DONT LIKE 1ST PERSON ANYMORE BUT PLS LET ME HAVE MY MOMENT

warnings/tags barely proofread (i tried), if yall don’t like tis i’ll probably discontinue it LOL, childe x implied f!reader, sfw.

listen to chinese satellite by phoebe bridgers.

“Good morning.” Ajax is speaking to you, voice low. “It's a hot day.”

You were shivering, actually. Mornings were always cold no matter what the temperature was. Nevertheless, you nod and agree with him anyway. “Yup, isn’t it?”

You two were standing outside your house, waiting for the other to initiate the walking, to which you end up doing it. He follows behind, the path too narrow to fit the two of you—this was a familiar sound. Heavy footsteps you could only recognise to be Ajax’s only two metres behind you. You don’t need to turn around to know he’s staring at the back of your head.

Such a nostalgic feeling, you think. You and him have been passing by the same trees and the same brown-cream coloured houses for 5 years now.

“Can you believe that we’re graduating in two months?”

He doesn’t answer.

You repeat the question again and he finally responds. You turn around, curious as to what had gotten him so distracted; his phone is in his hand, he’s looking into it and it’s pointing at you—his bright yellow phone case pales in comparison to the smile he has on his face.

“Not even going to let me pose?”

“You don’t need to do that. Your morning face is enough.”

“What does that even mean?”

“You’re pretty when you wake up.”

It’s 6 in the morning. Ajax was never one to think before he speaks, especially when the sun had just risen 5 minutes prior. You ignore what he says, assuming he just couldn’t tell that isn’t something you say to friends.

“Sure.”

—

It’s 8:27 am. You’ve been sitting through an hour of English, and you swear you thought the subject couldn’t get any more boring than when it was in middle school. You’re spinning your blue MUJI 0.5 tip pen between your middle and index finger, ultimately failing after 5 seconds and letting it drop to the floor. It rolls away, farther than you could bend and reach for—a soft metal clinking sound is heard when you realise it’s hit someone’s chair.

The red and black coloured backpack on the floor next to the chair made it obvious where your pen had gone and who’s chair it hit.

You whisper-yell, “Hey, can you pick that up?”

Ajax turns around and looks at you and then the floor. You’re thankful as he picks up the pen, but then quickly confused as to why he just turns forward again—keeping your pen at his desk.

—

YOU: It feels as though the evening has been stretched, like time is in slow motion and not in a good way; because I’m looking at Ajax sitting across from me and we have not spoken. I have a cup of coffee in my right hand, much too sweet for my own taste; a cat drawn from the latte art I don’t remember requesting. I’m very sure I asked for a bunny. I’m very sure. I think I left my Math textbook in class. The trees look really lively or something like that, I don’t really know, I am making sure to look away from Ajax because I know he’s staring.

“What?”

“What what?” He acts like he wasn’t just staring at me for the past 5 minutes. “Is there a problem?”

“My problem is that you’re being weird today.”

His mouth is agape, too dramatic to be genuine. “That’s rude.”

I don’t know what to reply to him now, knowing that he’ll just continue acting stupid. My shoes squeak against the wooden flooring as I lean back in my chair, it’s evening now and I’m so exhausted. People from the high school three streets away from ours are filling the tiny place up, passing by our table and some stare at Ajax as they do. The oak tables that were empty just a half hour ago are now full of teenagers, this whole place is infested with us; behind, left and right.

It’s not weird for people to stare at Ajax when we’re out together. It’s not like he’s a celebrity or anything, but somehow every girl I know has heard of him or has heard of him from someone who has heard of him. It’s a big chain of people I find impossible to keep track of. If you mentioned his name anywhere, someone would definitely go “you know him too?”.

I’m drinking my tea slowly and quietly. A group of girls are laughing so loud my eardrums could burst. Another group of girls walk in and the familiar bell sound of the café entrance rings, and it’s no surprise they know Ajax too; he smiles at them, I can’t tell if out of politeness, when they walk by. They’re giggling to themselves and I can’t help but feel a bit lost.

“What’s wrong with you today?” He’s asking me as if multiple things aren’t wrong with him. Suddenly, I’m the one with the problems.

I don’t bother anymore, I think about that moment minutes ago over and over again and I have no idea what to make of it. That giggle wasn’t a “what a coincidence” giggle, more like a teasing sort, the kind your friends do when your crush talks to you.

“Nothing is wrong with me.” I’m lying. “I’m gonna go home.”

He is so clueless, so oblivious to everything it is paining me. Oblivious to the amount of girls that are looking his way in this very establishment, at this very moment in time. It makes me almost angry, somewhat, that he doesn’t know.

—

AJAX: It is 7 P.M. and dark out. I think she’s angry but she’s just slouching over, but I get some sort of sensing that she will explode if I try to talk to her.

“Helllooo.” I’m next to her now, and she doesn’t want to reply to me; her eyes are on mine, eyebrows furrowed and clearly sending a message: Don’t even say anything.

I feel myself smiling because she looks very adorable. She is much shorter than I am. When she’s angry, I’m never able to take her seriously. I don’t think I ever have. Oftentimes in her fits of anger I am caught admiring her, smiling because I think she is so dramatic. When we were 15 she once yelled at me for using her charger, and apparently ‘making her phone charge slower’. She is one of the angriest and most short tempered people I know, yet I think she pulls off the frustrated pout and narrowed eyes very well. It doesn’t matter much to me.

“I’m not gonna ask what’s up with you because you got mad when I did.”

She looks forward again and we are still walking. Her house is still a few blocks down. I think she’s getting tired, too. I shouldn’t have dragged her to get milk tea with me. This path is too narrow to fit the two of us.

I walk in front of her and I can hear her tongue clicking out of annoyance. I bend down and stretch my arms, “Get on my back”.

I feel weight shifting onto my upper back, her long hair is tickling my neck but I don’t mind. Her arms are tired, slow in their movements as they wrap around me too, her head on my right shoulder and she does not say a word in all of it.

“Thank you.” she is whispering to me a few minutes later, and I think I am getting tired too. My legs want to give out. They don’t because I don’t let them.

It’s another 10 minutes and I’m at her front door, unlocking it using the key in her wallet; her parents are on the couch and watching TV and I start to wonder what this would look like to them.

“Ajax?” Her mother turns her head around and is surprised to see me, considering I wasn’t calling to say I was coming over. I haven’t done that in months.

“Is she okay?”

“She’s just tired, that’s all.” I tell her and I try my best not to speak too loud in case the girl on my back wakes up. I can feel her breaths on my back, slow and controlled. I bring her upstairs to her room and I lay her on her bed. Her room has changed quite a bit since I had last been in it, her desk is much more organised than it was a few months ago.

I found myself rejecting her invitations to hang out in her room over the summer break.

I think if I were to be alone in a room with her for too long I would end up blurting it out. I would tell her I’ve loved her since we started being friends, and she’d kick me out of her house and never talk to me again. But now she’s sleeping and I think I’m okay, so I pull her blankets over her and whisper; “Goodnight, I love you”.

—

YOU: I have no idea what day it is. I feel sticky. I look around and after a few seconds I sigh out of relief, realising this is my house, and these are my bedsheets. I don’t remember how I got here, though, my uniform is still on and the last thing I can recall is me on Ajax’s back.

I reach for my phone but realise it’s dead. A post-it note is next to my nightstand, ‘You’re welcome for the ride back. Call me when you wake up You owe me’, and on the bottom right corner there is an ugly and disproportionate cat drawn.

He didn’t even have the courtesy to remove my socks for me, but I guess that’s fair because I don’t think I’d go anywhere near his feet either.

I plug my phone into my charger and wait. I don’t know if he wants me to call him, but I think I should, I want to.

28 days later and i’m back with this shitty fic — 130423

#genshin x reader #genshin impact #childe fluff #childe x reader #childe angst #childe x reader fluff #childe x reader angst #genshin angst #genshin fluff #genshin x reader fluff #genshin x reader angst #tartaglia x reader #tartaglia fluff #tartaglia angst

[multiplicity-positivity]

I can relate a lot to everything in the infographic about depersonalization and most (not sure of some) of derealization, but I don't feel anything when I'm talking about my past... It's just weird, sometimes it seems so far away that it is almost like a game I once played or like reading a story in a book.

My memory is so fuzzy that it feels like my brain has filled in MANY gaps in my brain with imagination, leaving only what logically happened.

And memories are hard to tell if they affect me or not... I don't really know what it's like to feel emotionally connected to a memory, really. This is weird, right? ^^'

I don't know why I feel this way, but I would be happy if y'all could explain a little bit about what it's like to feel "emotionally connected" and "emotionally disconnected" from a memory. It's ok if y'all don't, I just needed to tell :)

Sure.

So we used to have this dog. She passed away a few years ago, but she was my very best friend. When I look back on memories we shared together, I feel emotional. I miss her, I feel nostalgic, I feel joy recalling fond moments, and pain when I recall how she passed. In this way, I am emotionally connected to the memories I have of her. I can remember the emotions I felt in the past when I was with her, and I feel emotional simply thinking about our lives together.

Conversely, I have tons of other memories I feel completely disconnected from. I’m cocon often, so I can remember a lot of what happens in our daily life, but those memories don’t ever feel like mine.

A few weeks ago, Margo had to deescalate a situation with a customer at work. The guy had his hand on his gun and was shouting because a different store had messed up his order. She was able to effectively get him to calm down, no one was shot, and he got his order and left. I guess in the moment we were scared… but when I look back at that memory, it doesn’t feel scary to me. I don’t feel anything at all. It’s like I can watch a memory that belongs to someone else, without feeling anything that was felt at the time, and without having any sort of emotional reaction to it.

When dealing with symptoms of depersonalization and derealization, it’s common to have a fuzzy memory. It’s common to think of your memories as something you’ve heard from someone else, read in a story, watched in a movie, or played in a video game, rather than something that actually happened to you.

My memory is incredibly spotty, and like you, I also have huge gaps that are filled in by my imagination or what I believe logically could have happened. I don’t feel emotionally connected to many of my memories at all, but there are a select few that I cherish or can’t escape from, which I’m extremely connected to.

If you deal with DPDR, it’s not weird to be unable to tell whether or not you feel connected to your memories. I feel like many of us in the system encounter that when thinking about our past. I have a strong emotional connection to memories of our dog that passed, but that’s not shared with many of my alters - even those who interacted with her daily and loved her when she was alive.

I wish there was more I could say or another example I could provide, but it’s weird for us too and I’m struggling to think of another memory I’m connected to in order to share 😅 most of my memories feel like they belong to someone else.

But maybe this could help you somehow? Idk sorry if it can’t. We’re not a professional at all and I may be doing a bad job of explaining. It’s really confusing for me too, and I’m honestly still struggling to understand my own memory and how it works. I’m sorry.

💫 Parker

#dpdr #depersonalization #derealization #memory #emotional connection #emotional amnesia

[cosmicbrowniefan]

the losers club as teachers

i just graduated yesterday (ah!) and i’m feeling weird and nostalgic so i’m gonna write this for the losers and picture some of my teachers in their places. hopefully someone in your life comes to mind when you read the descriptions, too!

bill: i think bill is an english teacher, but you could make the argument for him being an art teacher for sure. i think everyone likes bill as a teacher most of the time, he just unfortunately is a fan of homework and that’s the only way he really makes any enemies with his students. bill tries to stick to business and doesn’t get off topic much (unless it’s something else english-related). he also is not really a teacher you’d want to cross, but he’s for sure a teacher you’d want on your side to defend you. he always talks about slacking off in school himself, and he wants his students to do better and value their education more than he did. again, super great guy, his only enemies are because of the work he assigns them.

bev: bev could either be the eccentric art teacher or the eccentric science teacher. i’m not going to definitively pick one, but no matter the subject she’s teaching, she is absolutely the ms. frizzle of the school. bev is great with engaging her students, and i think she’d probably be more prone to wanting to teach middle schoolers rather than high schoolers. she comes up with a ton of fun projects and incentives for her students and loves getting involved in all the school activities she can. bev is 110% the emotional support teacher, and everyone always requests to follow her on instagram, even though they know they can’t until after they graduate.

ben: DEFINITELY the cool history teacher. ben is absolutely the laid back and super approachable and kind teacher that all the kids attach themselves to and can relate to, no matter what kind of social group they come from. he’s not the history teacher stereotype of the guy that doesn’t care and doesn’t teach, he just has cory matthews vibes and knows how to relate his lessons to kids’ lives and help them learn without it being a miserable experience. he will definitely always put his students first and is a friend and mentor to all.

stan: stan is mainly a math teacher but also teaches one or two business/computer classes. kids are definitely intimated of him before they have him, because there’s always rumors going around about how tough he is on students and how much work he assigns and everything. however, once kids actually have stan as a teacher, they LOVE him. he has high expectations for his students, but not necessarily in achievements, just in efforts. if stan seeing that a student is working hard, no matter how much trouble they’re having, they’ll do just fine in his class. he also is a REALLY great teacher one on one, and is there for any student that needs a little extra help. point being, he’s very intelligent, but genuinely wants the best for every kid and is willing to help to get them there.

mike: mike is a gym and health teacher in my opinion, but far from your stereotypical jacked and angry gym teacher that only likes the jocks and ignores everyone else. he is actually definitely more prone to connecting with the outcasts. mike is a HUGE advocate for mental health, and doesn’t put up with anyone’s bullshit. he will call out anyone and everyone when he sees any problems with bullying, and people know not to mess with him. he also has a whole unit in his health classes about mental health, and starts each class with short discussion just to ease everyone in. he does these conversations in his gym classes too. mike is a softie and wants everyone to feel comfortable. as long as a kid doesn’t mess with him or anyone else, they’ll do great.

eddie: he’s totally the drama teacher!! richie could absolutely do this too, but i think eddie just has such a knack for the fine arts that this is where he’d really shine. besides, he and richie are married, so richie helps out anyway. the school eddie works out has a reputation for the best drama program in the area because of how professional and hard-working eddie is. his students genuinely improve every single time they have a rehearsal with him, and it’s all enjoyable for them. he pushes them hard, but his students have no trouble cooperating because they know that, in the end, they’re going to get a fantastic show.

richie: richie is. a kindergarten teacher. i know that sounds like an absolute DISASTER because i’m sure we’re all picturing him riling up the kids, but he’s actually amazing with them. he knows how to have fun and be interactive and awesome with the kids, but he also knows how to get his lessons across. he’s able to draw out the best in every kid and connects with each of them on a personal level. his teaching is so much fun that half the time the kids don’t even realize they’ve learned something. in conclusion, richie is the best fucking kindergarten teacher in existence and every single one of his students comes and visits him again and again.

#it #it 2017 #it 2019 #pennywise #losers club #losers club headcanons #teacher au #losers club au #reddie #stenbrough #richie tozier #eddie kaspbrak #stanley uris #stan uris #bill denbrough #beverly marsh #ben hanscom #mike hanlon #benverly

[tookishcombeferre]

Happy 8th Birthday Undertale!

It’s hard to believe Undertale turns 8 today!!

I’m going to be posting more of my fic (2 chapters) today in celebration, but I wanted to post something a little more personal on my blog.

In Summer 2022, I gave birth to a squish. Bean is incredible. I adore them.

One day in late Fall/Winter of 2022/2023 we were going on an Amma/Bean outing to just see some more of the world. I decided to play the Undertale soundtrack because I was feeling nostalgic and it was a style of music Bean hadn’t heard yet.

When I say Bean imprinted on “Death by Glamour” I mean they imprinted on that song to the point that I was allowed listen to nothing else for 72+ hours straight. If I changed the song, they would straight up banshee scream until I put it back on.

Eventually, I showed Bean MTT’s boss battle and we listened to the Man on the Internet cover of the song as well. (This was the only variation I got in listening to the same song for almost a month.)

For Bean’s six month well check, Dada and I decided to get them a plush of Mettaton mostly as a joke. We figured we’d put it in a keepsake box to give to them after they graduated high school.

Nope. They imprinted on it! Ton-ton had to go everywhere. This was to the point we felt the need to get them a second one for their birthday in case Ton-ton the original got lost or came unstuffed.

I’ve found my Bean’s bond with MTT to be kind of interesting. I’m the primary “stay at home” caregiver to Bean, but I’m an actor and writer on the side. I’m also a relatively femme-looking transmasc person. So, sometimes, seeing them holding, cuddling, and just now starting to talk to MTT like a best friend makes me kind of emotional. I see their empathy for people who are different. I see the kind of love that I’m fostering in them for my community. I have hope for the way Bean will accept me in their easy acceptance of the “KISS Doll” as my parents call him.

I’ve just moved back about 5-10 minutes away from my family after a long time running all over the country and state. That, and I just came out to all of my family this year. There’s been some good moments in that and some very painful ones.

Dada (my spouse) and I started playing Undertale around Spring of 2023. My spouse hasn’t really played the game in any significant way, but we started with True Pacifist because life is too sad to do anything else. We’re only just getting into Waterfall because, as new parents, we don’t have a lot of free time.

But, I’m looking forward to meeting Mettaton again. Because, as weird as it sounds, I feel like I owe him an apology.

When I first played the game, I wanted to kill Mettaton … so badly. I hated him because, in a way, he reminded me of me. So, I figured killing him would feel like killing the part of me that I hated. I knew I couldn’t really do anything to myself without hurting the people I loved in ways I didn’t want to - I might have been self-centered at times, but I couldn’t do that. I couldn’t just leave. But, I was playing with my friend at the time and she was very adamant about playing True Pacifist and nothing else. (I also managed to get a spoiler about what happens to Alphys if you kill Mettaton and that really put me off it because Alphys was my favorite.)

But, in many ways, I hated Mettaton in the ways I hated myself. He was merely a stand in for me.

I “ran away” from home and changed my identity.

I upset my family.

I could be over dramatic.

I had my manic moments.

I wanted fame in my writing and my performance, and I wasn’t shy (or all that humble) about sharing my big dreams (or my talents there in).

So, I look forward to meeting him again because I owe that trans masc robot an apology for hating him so much.

For, through the eyes of my child, (through no expectation or conscious thought of Bean’s own) I’ve learned to love myself all because of a silly techno song and an Etsy plush.

But, it all started with a lovely little game 8 years ago. So, thanks Toby Fox. Happy Birthday Undertale.

#undertale #8th anniversary #mettaton #trans pride #transmasc #nonbinary #pip does life #pip parents a bean #parenting #kids are great

[autisticempathydaemon]

hey hey! idk if this is where I submit for the match up! but I would love to see who you think I'd fit in with! I'm a creative soul who tends to try to develop deep friendships with people above everything. I have a bit of a savior complex as well lol I work hard and play harder, trying to find new adventures to go on with those i care about. I tend to support others before supporting myself, and while im happy to let others open up to me its hard for me to open up in return. the best way i can feel close to someone is deep conversations and being creative with them!

My current fav song has been Maybe IDK by John Bellion, specifically the lyric "i guess if i knew tomorrow i guess i wouldnt need faith"  just the idea of living today to the best you can just because you don't know what will happen tomorrow. the worries of the future should keep you down today

My current fav Redacted audio has to be the Helping your Werewolf bf shift again. Specifically the acting is just so good to me. Erik did an amazing job of portraying Milo's anguish and pain at not being able to shift. Plus the relieved sobs at the end is so satisfying and emotional. 

The one boy i cant get the hype around is Ivan. like sure the yandere thing is somewhat attractive to some, but i just don't like the idea of an actual psychopath being obsessed with me.

my favorite movie is definitely the Secret Life of Walter Mitty by Ben Stiller. its less of a quotable movie and more of i remember every scene very distinctly. its a movie that envelops my own escapism. its beautifully shot, wonderfully acted, and a wholesome story on a rainy day.

my platonic redacted crush has to be Damien. he seems like a blast to interact with and tease. he's a hard worker and is tied close to his goals which i can admire. i would love to body double with him if i had some tasks to get done

space is also 100% my ramble subject when im sleepy, that and greek mythology

My guilty pleasure media is currently the animated shows Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and Lego Monkie Kid. despite being kids shows, both of these are beautifully animated and shockingly well written!

I hope that gives you an idea of me! I look forward to who you think i match with!

Hmm, lots of good tidbits of information to consider. You strike me as really thoughtful, really caring, and I think Lasko could really benefit from a partner like that.

A savior complex, from what I understand, is just wanting to help people and make their lives better, and Lasko’s a guidance counselor, so y’all would have that in common. What’s good about pairing two people like that is y’all could keep each other in line, so to speak. Something that’s important when you’re always looking out for other people is to make sure someone is always looking out for you and vice versa. You and Lasko together would always make sure you’re taking care of others, each other, and yourselves.

Another reason I like the two of you together is that you like being creative with one another as a bonding activity. You know what’s the ultimate way to be creative together? Tabletop role playing games! If you don’t already play, Lasko would be so excited to help you with a character sheet, to help you craft a backstory, paint some mini figurines, go out and buy the perfect game dice and notebooks- the greatest combination of nerdy and cute in a couple.

Song:

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go/ Will you won't you, be the one I always know?/ When I'm losing my control, the city spins around/ You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

One, the whole vibe of “you slow me down, I’ll look after you, we’re here for each other” vibes are exactly what I’m picturing for y’all. Also, Lasko and I are around the same age, and I heard this song a lot growing up. I have some weird, like, emotional resonance with it from childhood, and I think Lasko does too. Like, it makes him nostalgic and longing; maybe he always wanted someone to look after and to look after him, and now he’s finally found that in you.

Runner-Ups:

A very reasonable runner-up for you would be Camelopardalis because he would do a great job making sure you balance work and your personal life and that you don’t put others before yourself too much. A more fun runner-up would be Guy because I love sticking that beautiful Creative Writing major with other beautiful, creative people!

note: thank you for waiting, dear, and I hope you like your match-up! 💕

Read this post and send me an ask if you’d like a match-up of your own! 💌

#redactedasmr #redactedverse #redacted asmr #redactedaudio #redacted audio #busybee matches #redacted

[lilcatdraws]

For the ask game: orchid, abelia, mahonia, camellia, ivy, and aloe vera ☺️💜

orchid ⇢ what’s a song you consider to be perfect?

Oh wow I don’t know if I can answer this 😅 There are lots of songs I consider to be really good but perfect? I don’t know. If it was done perfectly it would have to be sung by either Layne Staley or Chris Cornell. I’m sorry. Maybe I’m biased but those men were absolute legends.

abelia ⇢ do you have a particular piece of jewelry you always wear or can’t part with?

I don’t wear jewelry often but one piece I can’t part with is a bracelet I bought at a summer camp when I was seven. I love how it’s made and it’s very nostalgic for me. I’m surprised it’s lasted this long. Another piece I can’t part with was my great grandmother’s red heart necklace that she wore all the time. It has a few jewels missing but that’s okay.

mahonia ⇢ what place, thing, activity inspires you most and how do you express yourself when it does?

I’d say music and other people’s art. It gives me a lot of inspiration. You guys have no idea how many animatics are playing in my head when I listen to music 💀

When ideas come to me, I either make a mental note or if it’s really good I’ll write it down so I don’t forget.

camellia ⇢ what were you like when you were younger? do you think you’ve changed a lot?

When I was a little kid, I was kinda loud, a lot less shy, and spoke my mind. I still do but not as openly. I didn’t start becoming introverted and shy until i was around 11 or 12. I’ve always had anxiety but it didn’t really start getting bad until that time period. And it’s just snowballed from there 🫠

I had a huge imagination back then and I was very creative. I came up with my own stories and made paper “books”. Way before I knew about OCs or fanfiction. Should’ve been a sign I guess.

From the time I was like 9-13 I was so cringe and annoying. I probably got on a lot of people’s nerves lmao. I was a weird kid. I’m still weird but’s a different weird. Idk how to explain it.

I have changed a lot but I still have some of the same interests and hobbies. My personality is definitely different though.

ivy ⇢ what are your ‘tells’ for your emotions and moods? how can someone tell you’re happy, annoyed, upset or tired?

My face is definitely a dead giveaway. Like if I’m upset or mad at a situation you can definitely tell. When I’m happy, I get excited and my voice gets higher. When I get embarrassed or flustered, I blush and turn really red, sweat, or stutter. I hate it 😭 When I’m tired, my eyes are droopy and I’ll prop my head up on my arm. I’m usually not in a good mood at all when I’m tired.

I also have a resting bitch face so people usually just assume I’m either mad or sad all the time. Like one time I was just sitting peacefully minding my own business and this random old lady came up to me and said “you don’t have to look so sad all the time” I wanted to deck her 😀 

aloe vera ⇢ what’s something (mundane) you really want to experience in life?

Cleaning and taking care of my own place.

Thank you for the ask! ☺️ Sorry it took so long. I had fun answering!

#ask game #lilcat’s rambles

[dreamsclock]

parallel lines

dereality, angst, emotional distress / spoilers for c!wilbur ending lore

“what’s it like where you’re from, wil?” tommy asks him earnestly one day, and wilbur pauses.

“where i’m from?” he repeats, standing up from where he’d hunched himself over his desk. “like— before the server?”

tommy prances into the office, slouches into a chair, and nods. he looks ridiculously out of place, a grubby teenager slumped amongst presidential papers and campaign leaflets, but wilbur feels a rush of warmth flood his chest for his pseudo-brother.

“i don’t really remember,” he lies, adding his signature with a flourish and pushing the document away from him, “it was— pfft, it was a long time ago, tommy.” he snorts, seeing that dusty old desert in his mind. “a very long time ago.”

“don’t be like that,” tommy complains, “you’re always being all old and shit. what was it called? the server?”

wilbur pauses. “the server,” he repeats after the younger, blanking, “that i was brought up on.”

“the server you were born.” tommy pulls a face of disgust. “i don’t wanna think about how you were born. that’s weird. baby wilbur. you’d be a shit baby, wil.”

“how so?”

“well, you’re old.” ever restless, tommy bounces to his feet, saunters over to wilbur, who wonders at his brother’s energy and grin. “and you’re balding.”

“i am not balding, tommy.”

“are too.” quick as lightning, tommy pushes his fringe back and guffaws. “look at that forehead.”

tommy is infectious. despite his exhaustion and his tension, wilbur feels a smile push its way onto his face. “you’re so annoying today.”

“most people find me annoying at first,” tommy quips, “and then they love me and my incredible good looks and charm.”

the two of them share a look, and then burst into giggles, tommy hauling himself onto wilbur’s desk and sitting there cross-legged. for a moment, it’s just them and the blue sky above them, and the papers and stress and wars fade away, leaving just brothers and laughter.

“seriously, though,” the younger insists, when they’ve lapsed into companionable silence, “where are you from? before smp earth? what came before that?”

wilbur’s amusement disappears as quickly as it had appeared. “same place we all do,” he shrugs, “just a random server.”

“that’s not it.” tommy rolls his eyes. “you’re lying to me.”

“am not.”

“are too.”

“am not.” with a groan, wilbur stands from his seat, back cracking unpleasantly. “leave me alone for a bit, tommy. i’m busy. it’s the election next week, and i need to finish this.”

obedient as ever, tommy drops back from the desk, disappointed and grumbling, but willing to listen. “you used to be fucking great at telling stories, wil,” he accuses, “‘a random server’ is such a shit answer. you’ve fallen off.”

stories. tommy’s facing away from him, so wilbur lets his expression pull into a half smile, nostalgic, sad. he could tell hundreds of stories about his boring little life before the servers. stories about sand and sickness, about sinking, sickly, boredom. about the inability to be anything, anyone, out in the desert of his youth. about a dull ache in his mind, about a dull job, about dull people and a dull state and a dull world, so different from this vibrant, vivacious one he lives in now.

he could tell tommy that this world doesn’t belong to him. or more accurately, that he doesn’t belong to this world. that unlike his pseudo-brother, he isn’t from another server or another SMP. that he’s from the real world, cast here by a fateful storm that had swept him away. that one day he would return home and he’d leave tommy behind, because tommy can’t travel back with him, because earth is a world tommy can never see. that the life he’s built for himself here is a lie. that wilbur soot is a lie. that everything he stands for is a lie.

everything except tommy. and, when tommy turns back round at his long silence, wilbur has long since wiped the sadness from his face, and lets tiredness sink in instead.

“you’ll tell me about it one day,” tommy says, “won’t you?”

wilbur closes his eyes. “i will.”

(“utah,” tommy half-laughs, half-sobs, hair plastered to his face in the rain, “fuckin’— utah.”

it comes out strangled. tommy is old enough now that wilbur knows he understands.

he wishes, for the first time, he could go back in time and keep tommy oblivious. keep him soft.

it’s an impossibility, but grief claws at his throat anyway, because tommy is tommy and he can’t come with him and wilbur is going to hurt, living at home without him.

“utah,” wilbur says with a miserable little chuckle, “yeah.”

it’s not an apology. and that’s the worst part. it’s not an apology, and it should be. it should be ‘sorry for everything i’ve done to you. sorry for the things i never could.’ it should be ‘sorry for coming to your world and pretending we could ever be brothers.’ it should be ‘sorry this is goodbye. sorry for hurting you.’

but tommy throws his arms around him, small, diminished, and wilbur holds him tight, presses his nose to tommy’s wet hair, breathing in sharply. it doesn’t smell of anything. it’s a kick in the stomach, another reminder that tommy isn’t real.

another reminder that wilbur is.

“please don’t forget about me,” tommy mumbles, “you better come visit.”

a promise sticks like mud in wilbur’s throat. lightning strikes the ocean, the same spot he’d appeared in all those years ago.

and just for a moment, his hug tightens, before he lets go of him entirely.

“goodbye, tommy,” he tells his brother, and the boat is cold and damp but oh so real that it takes his breath away, “see you.”

and tommy is sobbing as he watches wilbur row away, but he’s smiling, a brave stubborn little thing that people have tried and failed to destroy.

the portal back home opens in the eye of the storm, a wide gaping mouth that sucks him inside, but wilbur’s last view of the server is of tommy.

his first view had been the same.

and he sees that smile. that stubborn smile.

and he knows tommy will be okay.

they both will be.)

#c!crimeboys #c!tommy #c!wilbur #> wilbur finale lore spoilers #> writing !! #> mr plot armour innit #> narrative writer

[cyberteenager]

For me Christmas begins on November 1st and so does this weird nostalgic feeling, I can’t really figure out what it is, but I feel like crying most of the time.

I’m the most comfortable, stable and safe I’ve ever been in my life, I got a really good job and already graduated college but somehow I feel like something is missing. I thought maybe getting the toys I asked for but never got as a kid would help but no, I feel exactly the same.

I think what I really miss are those nights as a kid playing around the neighborhood with my friends, while all the adults dance and drink the night away. The night of Christmas we will always rush into each other’s houses to peek on their presents. I used to make the longest Christmas list with my twin sister, full with cutouts from those toys brochures that were delivered to everyone at the time, we never got anything from those lists but it was fun nonetheless.The lights used to be brighter and the emotions deeper.

For me Christmas was all about playing outside, by the middle of November I was already out of school, with all the time in the world to be home, my family has never been close so there was never a “family trip” for the holidays, not that it bothers me but I spent too much time at home, it would’ve been nice to go someplace else just for the fun of visiting.

Now I have money to spend but nothing really calls my attention, I’m a huge believer that you loose interest in things once you can actually afford them.

Watching Christmas movies always gets me in the mood, I just watched the Polar Express while eating Oreos with milk, that felt nice, currently watching home alone 2 as I write this.

I hope I find something to do all Christmas besides just working from home, watch movies and play with my phone till I can’t keep my eyes open.

November 12th 2023 - 3:33am

#me

[c0zm1c-r3y]

STICKERMANCY: AN INTRODUCTION

hello everyone! I am excited to introduce a new form of divination that I randomly came up with! I hope you enjoy it!

i will also make a side blog to share my experiences with this, and i’ll link it in my pinned post!

so, what is stickermancy anyway?

well my friend, you are about to find out! This form of divination is based off of charm casting and tarot, and it’s called stickermancy because you use (you guessed it!) stickers! But you don’t have to use just stickers, as i have used paper ephemera from scrapbooking kits and memo pad sheets as well!

that sounds pretty cool! how did you come up with such a great idea?

well to be honest, It’s just charm casting with stickers and paper. I was researching charm casting, and somehow it got me thinking about the near hundreds of sticker sheets that i had laying around… so I thought, hey! Might as well use these somehow! And BAM! Stickermancy was born! (You can also call it sticker casting if you want, because that was its original name. But i think stickermancy is a cooler name, don’t you think?)

Cool! So how do i start doing this?

well, to do this, you really only need 2 things: paper for sticking, and stickers to put on it! But you don’t necessarily need stickers! Here are some alternatives you can use, on their own or with other materials:

Paper cutouts (magazines, printed photos, etc)

scrapbook ephemera (you can find cool little sets with loads of items on amazon!)

memo pad pages/cute sticky notes (if you don’t really have anything with interesting designs, and just have plain colored items, you can assign color meanings with your intuition! More on meanings below, and I might make a separate post for meanings too.)

so once you gather your supplies, you can decide whether to make meanings as you go along, or just make a list of meanings beforehand, like charm casters do. I personally think making up meanings as you go along makes it more fun, as you can interpret the stickers according to your question and you don’t need to worry about looking for that one specific sticker that you need answers from… plus I have way too many stickers and scrapbook supplies.

so… I’ve gathered my stickers, now what?

Well, now you can ask a question, or use a spread, (like a charm casting sheet or a tarot spread,) and you can even channel this way! When you start, just try to find the first sticker sheet or paper that really catches your eye, then place your favorite sticker on that sheet on your paper! Then, try to find a meaning for the sticker. For example, i’m a reality shifter, so when I channeled my s/o from my desired reality, he greeted me with an orange heart sticker. So here’s what I gathered:

So in my desired reality, my hair is orange, and it’s my favorite color, so the color orange represents me.

and hearts represent love, so that’s pretty obvious.

so he basically said, “hi, it’s you, and I love you!” (But mostly the I love you part, because that’s what the sticker meant. I just added the “hi” because i had just started talking to him.)

so, when making meanings, here’s some tips!:

Use your intuition, and draw from your own experiences! For example, if you have a sticker of a cartoon character, you can base your meaning off of the character’s personality, and if you want, how you feel about the character! I’m gonna use mickey mouse as an example, if you loved watching mickey mouse as a kid, then you can make the meaning something like “being nostalgic” or “listen to your inner child” since mickey mouse has big ears. (I know, i know, that’s a weird comparison, but it works, right?)

use colors! I personally use the colors to represent emotions or areas of life when I don’t channel, and when I channel people from my desired reality, i use colors to represent certain people in that reality!

if in doubt, place another sticker! Use your intuition and place it where you feel is best on the paper. Then, look at where you placed your stickers, how far away they are, etc, and make up a meaning for your new sticker. (Note: if you have multiple sticker sheets, you can switch things up and use different kinds of stickers! If not, you’ll be fine, just use the next sticker you see!)

so there you have it! Like I said before, I’ll make a side blog for this and record my experiences and add more tips there!

Happy sticker placing!

#Witchcraft #divination #new divination technique #Stickermancy #Reality shifting #channeling

[its-just-a-spark-but-its-enough]

Song of the Day 12/10/2022

The View Between Villages - Noah Kahan

My favorite song of this album. My favorite song this year. One of my top ten favorite songs EVER. Noah Kahan has been an incredibly slept on artist for years. Busyhead, Cynic, and Hurt Somebody are really good, just to name a few. But listening to this album, I can understand why THIS is the one that’s popular. This man’s voice is incredible, the instrumentals in every song are so beautiful, and every song just feels very raw and emotional. The whole album speaks to the small town kids and folk lovers. I could go on and on about every song. I love the slow build up. It starts nostalgic. The beginning feels like a deep breath, like gathering oneself. Then the song intensifies and you feel that mingled relief and anxiety of returning home, of being, to quote the title and song, back between villages. It just gets you right in the chest.

Favorite Lyrics

It’s really hard to choose with this song, because Noah Kahan is a wonderful lyricist

A minute from home but I feel so far from it

The death of my dog, the stretch of my skin

It's all washin' over me, I'm angry again

The things that I lost here, the people I knew

They got me surrounded for a mile or two

This whole part is what got me the most, I think. Going back to my small town after being on campus, this really resonates. Yes I’m seeing family, but you also think about the years behind you and the people you’ve left behind. There are high school and middle school friends I don’t talk to anymore. I wonder where they are. Over the break, I know they’re here too. Fifteen minutes away and yet I may never see their faces. It’s strange. It’s an aching feeling, but not necessarily bad. And there’s this sense of being home—but never being able to go back to what once was.

Final Takeaway

Oops I’m crying. This song leaves this little ache in my chest that I don’t altogether hate. The lyrics resonate as someone not only who grew up in a small town, but also as someone “back between villages” in another sense. As a college kid, you’re not quite an adult, but you’re not a kid anymore either. It’s a weird transition period. I would never want to go back to living at home full time or back to my high school days—but there’s always that lingering bit of nostalgia I can’t shake as I walk forward into the unknown. I fucking love this song.

#Spotify #oops I got a little pretentious about this one #comfort songs #music rec #folk #folk music #noah kahan #stick season #the view between villages by Noah Kahan #favorites #nostalgia #song of the day

[almondcroissantsandink]

Heyo! Original D&DADS anon here. I appreciate your response dude! Its interesting to hear about why you no longer listen and ur not the only person I’ve seen say that.

I’ve only actually just started season 2 this week! Im like 10 episodes in? I put off finishing season 1 for like a year because I couldn’t handle letting it go and just relistened to it a few times instead.

I’m definitely feeling some of the attachment issues you and the other anon mentioned but it is growing on me a little! I think I’m the most won over by Normal bc he reminds me the most of Henry while the other kids are pretty different from their grandparents energy-wise.

I think the age-groups thing is a good point! I’m a teacher so maybe I just like…am able to relate enough to both the “adult childcare giver” issues and the “weird teenager” issues because I handle both of those every day?? Idk. I’m going to keep listening to the season because I love Anthony as a DM but its helpful to hear I’m not the only person who struggled with the adjustment.

(I do recommend relistening to the original season though! I’ve listened to it like 4 times now and it never gets less funny or emotional. Just more nostalgic!)

It's been very interesting to hear various thoughts on this. And I'm glad you're flying through season 2! I can see why as a teacher the transition might've been easier.

I am also definitely going to relisten to the first season, because it really imprinted itself on my creative pysche and I enjoyed listening to it so much :)

#ask #dndads

[daily-rayless]

the games I played in 2022

Time for my roundup of the games I played this year so I can share the things I liked about them. As always, me liking a game doesn't mean I endorse everything about it.

Basically spoiler-free.

Ys IX: Monstrum Nox (Falcom)

A somewhat darker story from Ys 8, dealing with themes of criminality, duality, and supernatural gifts, all set in a gothic French-inspired city.

Stylish character design.

But more importantly, everyone gets monster alter egos with over the top creepy costumes, and many of them (Crimson King, Feral Hawk, Doll) are excellent.

Each monstrum gets their own unique movement pattern, meaning you can run up walls and fly and shoot along from rooftop to rooftop.

One character is a robot.

Interesting secondary characters. While this year was not as generous as last year when it came to non-cishet characters who were just people, not tropes, the standout npc for me was Chante. At first, he just feels like a tired collection of tropes, but dig deep and there's a very compelling character who really deserves more screen time.

While I'm a fan of romance arcs, I was surprised and pleased that Adol doesn't have much shiptease with any of the women for this game. It was just really refreshing.

Horizon Forbidden West (Guerilla Games)

A lot of the stuff I love about the first game carries over – wonderful protagonist, beautiful open world, lovely music, interesting secondary characters.

The new characters, particularly the ones who join Aloy on her main quest, are all very strong and I want to see more of them.

The story centers more on Aloy exploring her own personal conflicts, not simply telling other people they need to change.

There are lots of twists in the story, lots of good drama, and you eventually get the power to fly.

Way more costumes and face paint options.

An intense ending that, while not concluding the game on a cliffhanger, comes tantalizingly close.

Trails in the Sky 2 (Falcom)

I first played number one back in 2013, so I finally got my payoff after that game's intense cliffhanger ending.

One thing I love about this one is that Estelle's definitely the main character. Female protags still don't feel common enough, and to see people treating her with respect and admiration, even as some of them are also mentoring her, is beautiful.

Estelle's a funny, energetic character, but she also gets to grow up a lot. She never loses her take-charge, extroverted personality, but she becomes more confident and heroic.

This second half of the story ramps up the stakes, focusing more on the villains.

Also, I did mention I like romance arcs, and this game has a very sweet and emotional one at its center.

As for non-cishet characters, similarly to Chante, Olivier is also a bundle of tropes, and worse ones, yet he rose above them and ended up being one of my favorite characters. There was more to him than I realized, and suspecting it, then realizing it was such a pleasant, intriguing jolt of surprise.

My actual favorite character also took me by surprise, because it was Father Kevin. Was not expecting to like the priest with weird hair so much. (And whenever he’s struck in battle, he does this really funny yelp.)

Trails of Cold Steel (the first one) (Falcom)

This is the first game of four, and you either want a two-hundred-and-eighty-hour epic or you don't, and I decided I wanted to get into a big old story full of characters and politics and some alternate outfits.

Not wanting to get into spoilers, but I love 90s JRPGs, and very late into the first game, a new element of gameplay is introduced and it’s very nostalgic.

Again not wanting to get into spoilers, but this game made me speculate so much about twists and turns in the plot and what was going on behind the scenes. Around halfway through the game, or maybe earlier, I started baking what felt like a very bonkers theory in my head. I loved this theory, I thought it was so funny and intriguing, but I didn't have a lot of hope of it coming true, especially when other outcomes felt more likely. But then – it came true. Writers often worry that audiences will see twists coming. I'm here to tell you that not only did wondering about this plot twist bring me so much fun, I was thrilled when it turned out to be true. There was no sense of “that was so predictable!” at all. It was some good writing.

As for the non-cishet characters... there are number of characters who can easily be read as non-cishet, but nothing's said definitely (as of the first game). And then there's Angelica, who, like Olivier, initially reads as a collection of terrible tropes. But once again, once the writers actually focused on writing her, she became one of my favorites. So the theme this year is that there are some good characters in here, you're just going to have to mentally filter them some.

And on that note, a lot of the main characters are very interesting, intriguing, and I'm excited to see how they develop across the next three games.

Which one was my favorite? You’d think, with these odds, it would be a Falcom game. But I’m going to say Horizon Forbidden West was the winner for me. I know it disappointed some fans, and there were things about it I didn’t love either. But for the most part I had a great time and it left me so excited for more.

#games in 2022 #2022 games #horizon forbidden west #ys 9 #trails in the sky #trails of cold steel #ys ix: monstrum nox #trails fandom please be kind and don't spoil me

[ssreeder]

hii,,, long time no see amarite?

sorry about disappearing ive been through some shit and i think one of the worst things someone could is read LIAB while feeling down so,, yeah

anyways I just finished reading the first chapter of into the fire and god i missed everyone. i feel REALLY sad for both sokka and zuko and you have no idea how much I'm gonna cry when they find each other (they better get together again sreeady!!!!)

again sorry for not being as enthusiastic as always, don't really have the energy but i still stand my world, im your n1 fan and your writing is one of the best things ive ever read and also the angstiest !!!!!!!!! it REALLY hits the spot

oh and i wanted to say that it's been around 11 months since I started reading LIAB and it's starting to get a bit nostalgic, its weird but i like it.

and oh GOD you have no idea how much I want to draw fanart but i just can't bring myself to do anything,,, it just frustrates me so muchhhh

ok now after that kind of vent and just saying a buncha random shit, thanks as always for this beauty of a fic and expect a good review (me screaming, hopefuly) of the second chapter in a couple of days max.

write to you soon ❤️❤️

AHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I’m so happy to see you.

I’m sorry you are feeling upset, if you ever want to talk about it my inbox is always open (I think you have my discord too lol) please feel free to reach out :)

Yeah, Zuko & Sokka are both emotional about being separated I’m sure, but they are very distracted by their current situations! I’m sure there will be tears when they see each other again though,,,

YOU DID CREATE FAN ART IM SO IN LOVE ITS SO BEAUTIFUL THE COLORS THE VIBE THE EVERYYYTTTHHIIIINGGGG!!!

You’re amazing, thanks for stopping by I’m glad you’re still reading & you are feeling at least a little bit better.

#thank you so much for my fanart #I was SO SHOCKED when I realized it was you in the server #I was very much like EEEEEEEE!!! MILK!!!! #I don’t know if you’ve read the second chapter but the third is done #so feel free to wait until you read that if you want #I don’t want anyone to ever feel pressured to review #even though I gobble them up #I love them so much haha. #you’re wonderful #remember my inbox is always open for you #but I do agree if someone can’t handle dark themes #or angsty & dark topics #& emotional depressive thoughts then yeah #stay away from LIAB #it’s not a fluff fic unfortunately #i love you garfieldsmilk art #Garfieldsmilk #liab #ITF #ask

[astudyinfreewill]

not to be earnest on main but it’s so weird and cool to see the vampire chronicles come back into the spotlight… like, this is an old fandom, maybe not quite star trek old, but still pretty venerable when you consider the first book came out in 1976.

i first got into the books and movie when i was 14. it was my first time engaging with predominantly queer media, and it was the first fandom i actually posted fic online for, back when vc fics could still get you sued by anne rice herself. the chronicles were the primary reason i made a livejournal account when i was 16, to post and read fic and engage with the fandom. and already back then, i could tell the fandom had been around for a long time, because while some of the people were my age (and some even younger), a lot of them were adults in their 20s, 30s, 40s, even some in their 50s. and despite the dark themes of the series, by and large these adults were friendly and pretty cool towards teen me, welcoming me into an established space and encouraging me when my writing was, well. not the best.*

now i’m 32 and these books are having a moment again, and it’s so cool to see a lot of “dormant” fans pop back up, and even cooler to see fresh blood (pun fully intended) join the fandom. as a relatively old hand in this space, it’s just really nostalgic to see the same jokes and the same enthusiasm as 16 years ago, the same insightful analysis and meta posts, just with different slang and formats. it’s also heartening to see people are thinking critically about the books, and acknowledging the fucked up parts about them and about anne rice (also everyone being mostly in ageeement that nothing past the third book is worth considering canon, lol).

anyway!! sorry for the emotional rant (geez, who am i, louis?), there’s really no point to it beyond: welcome, new fans, i hope this space is as welcoming to you as it was to baby queer me; and welcome back, old fan(g)s — just like lestat, this fandom can’t seem to quit, and i’m more than fine with that :’)

*[i was lucky to have a good experience as a teen in a mostly adult fandom, and i stand by the fact that people of different age groups can be friends; however, if you’re a minor online, PLEASE be safe and look after your privacy first and foremost. creeps can be everywhere, both online and off, and if an adult is making you feel uncomfortable, run, don’t walk, the other way.]

#ambra.txt #vc #iwtv #sorry guys don’t mean to get ~maudlin on y’all but!! a bitch is not immune to her very first hyperfixation coming back #and i am that very bitch