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hopelesslyromanticshark · 2 months

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⋆ ˚｡⋆౨ৎ˚ We Made It, Huh?

content: leo valdez x daughter of poseidon! reader fic warning: fluffy af with minor mentions of nightmares, cuteness overload, painfully non-canon but also like i make canon myself yall stfu author's note: okay okay im a sucker for a soft family. could be seen as a part ii to coloring pages and baby fever and that's how im gonna put it on the masterlist, but honestly could be read as a stand alone. also, i need to know if you guys like the name i picked for sweet babygirl and if you don't do NOT say anything i will cry okay gg bye bye

many years later, after prophecies were fulfilled and many quests were completed, a pile of camp half-blood shirts lay dormant in the back of a closet, only to be brought out every now and then to reminisce but nothing more. y/n would have fulfilled her duty of the great prophecy on her twentieth birthday. two years later, she became an editor for a surfing magazine. leo would lay his life down to complete the prophecy of seven, though he came back a few months later to y/n a complete mess, which he made sure to fix. four years after that, he got a masters degree in engineering and opened his own firm. in the midst of those years, leo would propose and y/n would obviously say ‘yes.’ they would move out of camp half-blood into a house of their own - y/n shared a soul-crushing goodbye with chiron, someone she’s known and been raised by since she was seven. and, they’d have a little girl, amara esperanza valdez. which is why leo was currently standing outside a ballet studio, twisting and contorting a piece of metal into a little flower without even looking. the doors swung open and leo brought his attention to it, a smile settling over his lips at the little girl that ran towards him. he kneeled down, holding his arms open before scooping her up into them, her giggles contagious.

“daddy!” the girl giggled into his shoulder, clinging onto him. leo held onto her tightly, pulling back to fully take her in. she was still in her little tutu and leotard, her wild curls that she got from him slicked back into a bun that y/n had done earlier in the day.

“hey, princesa,” leo mused back, pressing a kiss to the top of her head before blowing a raspberry against her cheek. the girl squealed, trying to get out of his grasp.

“ah! daddy!” she screamed, wiggling in his arms. leo stopped, partially because he was concerned she was gonna fall and also because they had to start heading home.

“okay, okay. come on, girly, we gotta get home to mama,” he cut in, carefully opening the back doors to the truck and beginning to strap her into her car seat, amara all but a passive character in all of this. she was practically buzzing in her seat, something leo and y/n both worried were early signs of adhd. some nights, y/n would be unable to stop crying at the thought of their daughter going through what they did, her chest heaving with sobs. leo always tried his best to comfort her through these episodes, but he’d be lying if he said that the thought didn’t cause his blood to freeze up.

“how was ballet, amara?” asked leo once they were on the road, glancing in the rear view mirror at her before swiftly returning his eyes to the road, his fingers rapping against the wheel like always.

“good. we learned about pointe shoes today. and- and ms. hart brought in her own tutu from when she was a ballerina! it was sooo pink!” the girl squealed excitedly in the backseat, searching for her dad’s eyes in the mirror.

“really, amorito? super cool,” he replied, nodding his head enthusiastically. they were only a few lights away from home now and leo could feel the stress of work and life ease away from his bones at the thought of seeing y/n, like it always did.

“amanda tried to do an advanced move that ms. hart explained and her mommy thinks she sprained her ankle,” amara added, her eyes going to the views out the window, trying to wiggle in her seat to see better. leo frowned slightly at this news and what she was doing.

“amara,” he warned, lightly, as he flicked his directionals on. the girl stopped her movements and slumped into her seat before realizing they were home, at which point she started buzzing again.

“daddy, daddy, daddy! i gotta get out! come on,” the girl whined, fighting against the seatbelts. leo laughed, moving quickly to free her.

“you’ve got time, babygirl, breathe,” he told her as he lifted her out of the seat and set her down on the ground, reaching back into the car for her pink backpack as she bounced up to the front door. amara reached up with her tiny hand and managed to open the door, swinging it wide open. leo managed to jump forwards and save it from smashing against the wall, knowing y/n would not have been happy.

“mommy!” amara shouted as she ran into the house, almost falling as she tugged her shoes off. y/n leaned around the corner that led to the kitchen, a grin covering her face. her hair was pulled back with a braid and she had an apron wrapped around her waist, clearly making dinner.

“my baby!” y/n shouted back, scooping the girl up into her own arms. leo closed the door, feeling his heart melt at the sight of his little family. he felt like he’d earned it; for every single tragedy he lived through, he got his dues with his girls.

“mommy, mommy, amanda sprained her ankle today,” amara told y/n, excitedly laying her hands on her mothers cheeks. leo noted the small panic flare in her eyes.

“What were you guys doing in ballet today?” she asked, holding the girl against her hip as she stirred something in a pot.

“amanda was doing something she wasn’t supposed to,” clarified leo as he made his way into the kitchen, calming his wife’s nerves. he watched her release a small breath at the information before smiling warmly at her husband. she reached up with her free hand, setting it against his cheek and pulling him down for a kiss.

“eww!” amara squealed, wiggling in her mothers grasp as she tried to escape. y/n rolled her eyes as she set the girl down, wrinkling her nose at her daughter.

“one day, you’re not gonna find it so gross,” y/n stated, in a sing-songy voice, bopping the little girl’s nose.

“a day that is very, very, very far away,” leo insisted, nearly growing pale at the thought of his daughter having her first kiss.

“yeah, keep telling yourself that, hot stuff,” y/n mused, turning as she chopped up some carrots. leo came up behind her, setting his hands flat against her stomach like he used to when they were teenagers, his lips finding home on her neck.

“how was your day, y/n?” he asked, swaying them back and forth to an unknown rhythm.

“perfectly bland,” she smiled at him, the kind of day they grew to appreciate after their teens, “jason called. Wants to stop by sometime this week. he’s traveling about to see everyone right now since the airlines are giving him a pretty long vacation.”

“hmm. i’ll call him back later, pick a day,” leo replied, smiling at the thought of one of his best friends.

“uncle jace is coming over?” amara questioned, peeking her head into the kitchen. y/n hummed in response, giving her daughter a warm smile.

“you need a bath before dinner, little girl,” y/n added, pointing a wooden point at amara, who squealed and ran out of the kitchen. leo pressed his lips to her cheek before patting her hips.

“i can finish dinner. go rangle the beast,” he told her, tilting his head with a bright smile.

“just like old days, huh?” y/n mused with a smile, walking backwards. leo rolled his eyes, pointing the spoon at her now.

“don’t even start with me. you would have ran out of shields and swords years ago had it not been for me. how’d you win then, bubble brain?” he mocked back and y/n laughed, waving him off before managing to grab amara as she tried to run past.

“What’s daddy talking about?” amara managed to get out between her squeals. y/n shared a small look with leo before pressing her lips to amara’s head.

“dumb grown up stuff, babygirl. i’ll tell you when you’re older,” y/n hummed, swinging the girl around in her arms as she made her way up the stairs towards the bathroom. it was hard, keeping so much of their lives secret from amara but she was just too young to understand. she wouldn’t understand why family trees were hard. she wouldn’t understand why her parent’s were littered with scars, both visible and invisible. she wouldn’t understand why all of photos of her parents as teens had weird horses in the background and only orange shirts as far as the eye could see.

leo finished the soup, quite proud of himself for doing so without a recipe. he was on the phone with jason, leaning back against the counter as he portioned out the correct stuff onto amara’s sectioned plate. her bowl of soup was in the fridge, cooling down. as much as leo insisted amara had some kinda heat resistance, y/n was always too scared to test anything yet.

“i’m telling you, she’s growing like a weed. you’re gonna see her and not recognize her,” leo spoke into the phone, a wide smile on his face as jason laughed.

“i doubt that. those curls are hard to miss,” jason replied and leo could just hear the smirk on his face.

“hey! she got those from her daddy i’ll have you know!”

“yeah, she’s definitely your kid, no mistaking that,” jason laughed on his end, before there was a minor pause, leo having a feeling he knew where this was going.

“did you…did you hear about travis?” jason whispered into the phone, gently. this type of conversation is becoming more common these days. leo sighed, leaning back and looking to make sure y/n was still occupied with amara.

“yeah. connor called me. i haven’t told y/n yet,” he muttered back, running a hand through his hair. connor called him earlier in the day, telling him travis had been nearly killed by a couple of fury’s that caught him off guard at his job.

“i just- i thought we were done with this shit, you know what i mean?” leo continued with a huff.

“i’m just worried that one day, i’m gonna get that call from you and y/n, or piper, or reyna, or percy and annabeth,” jason replied, his voice heavy, and leo could feel his tension through the phone.

“i know, trust me, i know. the amount of sleep y/n and i have lost over guardianship of amara is crazy. she’s in danger with every person that we love,” leo breathed out and jason hummed on the other end.

“i’d take her in a heartbeat,” jason joked, trying to lighten the mood.

“percy’d kill you for her,” leo laughed.

“he’s got his hands full with their kids. i’ve got the high ground here!” jason argued his case and leo just laughed harder. amara then came running into the kitchen, her curls free from the bun and bouncing and lightly dripping water.

“daddy, daddy, daddy, is it uncle jase?” amara excitedly asked, tugging on his pant leg and looking up at him with excitement.

“uncle jase? no, no, this is just the weather man i know,” leo mused into the phone a flabbergasted noise coming from jason as leo put the phone on speaker.

“don’t listen to him, mara!” jason called, causing amara to squeal excitedly and made grabby hands for the phone.

“be careful, baby, i’m serious,” leo told her before handing his phone off, excitedly blubbering to jason as she walked towards the living room. y/n walked into the kitchen with a different shirt on and some suds on her face still. leo laughed lightly as he raised his hand, softly rubbing the bubbles away.

“is she on the phone with jason?” y/n questioned, peeking into the living room. leo hummed in response, pouring her a bowl of soup. y/n took it from him with a kiss before setting it on the dining table, something she was adamant about. leo followed, also setting up amara’s seat as y/n grabbed the little girl and phone.

“say goodbye to uncle jase, baby, you gotta have dinner so you grow big and strong like him,” y/n mused into the phone, earning a chuckle from jason, before amara cried her goodbyes. jason called back similarly before y/n took him off speaker and held the phone up to her ear.

“did leo pick a day for you to come over?” she asked as she moved around the kitchen, pouring drinks and grabbing the little girl a napkin.

“yeah. thursday. he said something about amara having the day off,” jason replied.

“perfect! We love having you over, jason, you know that,” stated y/n, smiling widely.

“i love being over. Well, i’ll leave you guys to your night,” he added and y/n nodded even though he couldn’t see it.

“yeah, of course. see you soon. love you, sparky.”

“love you too, y/n.”

y/n hung up, passing the phone off to leo before pressing a kiss to his cheek as she took her seat next to him. they ate their dinner, amara excitedly talking about her day. she told leo about how mommy made waves with the water of her bath, causing leo to shoot her a pointed look. y/n was quick to explain it away as ‘mommy magic,’ wiggling her hands at the little girl, who couldn’t stop the giggles from coming out of her mouth. y/n cleaned up dinner as leo took amara to the living room, allowing some kiddy show to play while she curled up on the couch next to him. once she was asleep and drooling all over leo, they gently picked her up and took her into her room. y/n tucked her in, pressing a long kiss to her forehead before getting up, allowing leo to do the same before they left, leaving the door open just a crack. the couple then made their way downstairs, laying back down on the couch, y/n’s legs draped over leo’s lap, her head resting against his arm, which was slung on the back of the couch.

“connor called today,” leo whispered out, easily gaining y/n’s attention, her brows furrowing.

“during my lunch. travis, he- he got hurt pretty bad today,” leo continued, trying to ease into the conversation, rubbing his hand over y/n’s, “While he was at work, a couple of fury’s managed to get the jump on him.”

“oh, gods…is he okay?” y/n breathed out and leo could feel her hands start to shake.

“he’s okay. just a little banged up,” leo instantly soothed, giving her hand a squeeze and giving her a comforting look. y/n instantly moved closer to him, wrapping her arms around his torso as leo replied in a similar fashion.

“...will it ever end?” y/n asked in a small voice, which shook, “haven’t we given enough? i’ve spent my whole entire life on this crap and it still won’t leave us alone.”

“it’s gonna be okay, sweetheart. nothing’s happened yet and if something does happen, we’re prepared,” leo muttered against her shoulder, pressing a kiss there once he was done.

“i know, i know…i just- i worry about her,” replied y/n, both of them knowing exactly who they were talking about.

“she’s a lot like you. she’ll be okay,” leo stated, smiling softly at his wife who rolled her eyes at him.

“please, she’s your mini-me. don’t patronize me,” she joked, shoving him off her as she got up off the couch, subtly wiping away her tears, hoping leo wouldn’t notice. he did, but knew better than to point it out.

“fine. but she looks just like you!” leo argued and y/n gave him a look, causing him to laugh.

“liar! you’re just trying to make me feel better that i carried her inside of me for nine months just for you to steal all of her genetic code,” y/n huffed, locking the front door while leo locked the back door, the pair turning off most of the lights in the house, leaving little ones on for amara if she woke up to get water or use the bathroom.

“no, no, no. she’s got your nose and your hair color! and when she wrinkles her nose, it’s got you written all over it,” leo raved and y/n laughed, shaking her head at him as they moved up the stairs towards their room.

“she may have my hair color but she’s got your curls. and your ears and she’s got your stupidly cute thinking face,” y/n insisted, flipping the light on in their room and heading towards their shared bathroom.

“so, what i’m hearing is that our daughter is a perfect mix of us?” leo questioned with a wide smirk as he followed after her, tugging off his shirt.

“yup. sounds about right to me,” y/n mused, turning around and throwing her arms around his neck as she looked him up and down, a wide smile on her face, “hmm. what were we even arguing about again?”

“can’t seem to remember,” leo added with a laugh, both of them quickly undressing before hopping into the shower together.

it wasn’t anything crazy intimate; at least, not in the sense you're thinking. they talked about their days, adding details they couldn’t exactly say in front of their five year old. y/n liked to wash leo’s hair, always huffing about how he didn’t take care of his curls. though he'd never admit it, he did notice his hair was better once he moved in with y/n and started this ritual. leo did make a comment about trying to make another kid that looks more like y/n while running his hand up her thigh but she gave him a kiss before shoving him off with a light laugh. she reminded him of their agreement to wait until amara was in school, to which leo pouted and cuddled up on y/n with an exaggerated sigh. the two moved under the covers of their bed, cuddling up to each other before losing their fight against trying to stay awake.

“mommy?” y/n heard, instantly forcing her eyes to open and focus as she looked at the edge of her bed, being met with her daughter’s blonde curls and bloodshot eyes. the girl hiccupped a cry and y/n was instantly awake, reaching over and pulling amara into bed with her, setting the girl in her lap. she cupped amara’s tear-stained face, her heartstrings pulling as she continued to cry.

“What’s wrong, baby?” y/n whispered, leo starting to stir awake next to her. he sat up on his elbows, looking over and taking in the scene before waking up more at the sight of his daughter crying. amara just continued to blubber, unable to get words out through her tears.

“baby, princesa, you’ve got to breathe,” leo muttered, reaching over and running a hand over her back, calming her down like he would y/n. amara started to take big breaths, trying to calm herself down.

“good girl. tell mommy what happened, amara,” y/n begged, pushing back the girl’s curls so she could see her face better.

“t-there’s monsters in my room,” amara hiccupped out, y/n’s face falling and her blood running cold. leo just stared, feeling his heart and mind working overtime.

“what?” she gasped out, her normally soft voice she’d use with amara lost.

“i saw- i saw monsters in my room, mommy, they- they- they were out to get me!” amara continued, her breathing turning heavy again. y/n hugged amara to her body, shushing her and trying to calm her breathing again. she looked over at leo, who was already getting up and reaching into his bedside table, pulling out a knife that he quickly hid from amara’s view.

“leo,” y/n begged, shooting a hand forwards to grasp his. he pressed a kiss to her head.

“i’ll be back. stay here, y/n, stay with amara,” he whispered against her head. y/n squeezed her eyes shut and let go, even though everything in her body was telling her not to. she let him leave, waiting with bated breath while she tried to occupy amara and get her to stop crying.

“baby, what did they look like, these monsters?” y/n whispered, rocking the two of them back and forth, the girl snuggly held against her chest.

“like the ones from uncle nico’s books,” she replied and y/n’s heart clenched, partially because now they were running real risks and leo was taking his damn sweet time and because she was going to kill nico for showing her daughter those drawings. finally, the door swung open and leo came back, shaking his head at y/n, who let out a breath and managed to just barely keep her tears at bay.

“i just scared them all off, amorito. no more monsters,” leo told her, pressing a kiss to her head with a shaky breath. amara and y/n both seemed to sag in relief, for two different reasons. leo slid back into bed next to them, wrapping his arms around his little family in hopes of keeping them this safe forever.

“you wanna stay here with daddy and i?” y/n offered, though her tight hold on her daughter indicated that she wasn’t letting go anytime soon.

“yes, please,” amara whimpered, snuggling into the space between the two.

“always, babygirl, always,” leo replied, pulling the blankets up to her chin and tucking her in. they both stayed up, waiting for amara to fall asleep. she was a lot like percy, a deep sleeper that was constantly drooling all over their pillows. it never failed to bring a smile to y/n’s face, seeing her little brother in her daughter.

“i didn’t see anything out of place. i think it was just a nightmare. though, i have no idea where she got this idea of monsters from,” leo whispered to y/n, running his fingers through amara’s hair.

“apparently, nico showed her some pictures last time he babysat,” y/n muttered back, sniffling as she tried to stop herself from crying.

“i’m gonna kill him,” leo groaned, half tempted to hunt the goth down now.

“i think it was an accident. you know he wouldn’t do that on purpose,” y/n reasoned and leo huffed, glancing over at his wife, realizing the state she was in.

“oh, y/n.”

“i- i honestly thought you’d find something. i don’t want to live like this, leo, constantly scared something is just gonna swoop down and take her away from us,” reasoned y/n, the tears slowly trailing down her face she kept her eyes on her precious daughter.

“I know, honey, me neither. but, we’ll be okay,” hummed leo, reaching over their child and setting a hand against her damp cheek, forcing her eyes to him.

“how can you know that?”

“because i’ve got you. and you have me. nothing will ever be too bad that we can’t face it,” leo insisted, giving her a small tilted smile.

“together?” y/n offered, returning his smile with one of her own

“together,” leo confirmed, nodding his head in a way that couldn’t be argued with.

#postcards from covey ౨ৎ #all my love ౨ৎ #pjo #pjo fandom #heroes of olympus x reader #hoo #leo valdez x reader #leo valdez

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quodekash · 7 months

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fifteen minutes left of the episode. how long will it take me to watch 15 minutes? let's find out

shake of friendshipppp

VERY different to the shake of PURE sexual tension we got from guynava in ep5

this one is FRIENDSHIP

and I LOVE FRIENDSHIP

(altho I do also love sexual tension)

you can't stop staring at him

well frick

either he's really clumsy, or that absolutely SHOULD be a foul and yellow team SUCKS

YES

FRIENDSHIP

PLATONIC HAPPINESS COMING RIGHT UP

THEY DID THE DUDEBRO HANDCLAP BACK PAT THING

I PERSONALLY LOVE THIS

the commentator is so valid and so is the guy recording him lmao

I am both of them

(but not in the context of sport, I never know what's going on in sport)

BSHDBFHJVSADVBG

AGAIN????

IM LOSING IT

THIS IS LIKE EXACTLY THE SAME AS LAST EPISODE

how funny would it be if he misses

LMAO

sorry I care so little about sport that this is downright hilarious to me

he MISSED

ITS SO FUNNY

I love him and hes gonna be so disappointed in himself for ages and stuff. buT LIKE. HE MISSED. I MEAN CMON YOU GOTTA ADMIT ITS FUNNY

HERE COMES THE SCENE HERE COMES THE SCENE HERE COMES THE SCENE GHEKRBGJREBAAAAAAAA

(here comes the scene, doo-doo-do-do)

PFFFFT

GEU4KJRWLGNOREL

HES RIGHT YOU KNOW

oH MY-

I SAID THE SAME THING

AGES AGO I SAID THE SAME THING

AND IT REMINDS ME OF SOUNDWIN

AND THEY FULLY JUST PULLED THE SOUNDWIN LINE RIGHT THERE

CMON MAN IM GONNA LOSE MY MIND EVEN MORE THAN IVE ALREADY LOST IT

BUT YEAH

BASICALLY IM AWESOME

I love him

also I love how short auto is

it makes me feel represented

(even though im pretty sure he's still taller than me. bUT LIKE BY 2 CENTIMETRES I MEAN COME ON)

KICKING MY FEET SHOUTING SCREAMING

THISSCENETHISSCENETHISSCENEAAAAAGOIEGOPIJBE4RIOGJB4OEIB

here it is. prepare for me to explode bc when soundwin did this it killed me and I know its gonna do the same thing when they do it

EIOJGHVNOWIEPLSJDGVNIOERJLDSKGHVNOEIDS

THEIR SMILESSSSSS

GJIKERBGJREB IM SOBBING

HE FOOLED HIM A G A I N

KANG YOU IDIOT I LOVE YOU

bitches be stimming so hard rn

(its me. im bitches)

THEY MEAN SO MUCH TO ME

IM SO TOTALLY NORMAL ABOUT THEM

IM LOSING IT

AAAAAAAAYUTKFUGUYUIGYDTUYE56RDTYCGUHIBHYTRF87YGUIHTTFUYGTGYIFUYIGUYHVIUHJGIUGFTYUR4E56URFTYUKVG

idk bout you, but I happen to be an avid lover of all things cheesy and corny, so im having a SPECTACULAR time rn

PLS I LOVE HIM

several days later????

ITS STILL GOING??????

oml I ran out of images. again. but there's like one minute left so you're just gonna have to imagine the screenshots

[grandma in the car]

SHES BACK!!!

[kang's shoes]

oml kang's platforms I love them

[grandma saying 'and I also have a new caretaker']

ah frick it better not be who I think it is

[saifah's evil little grin]

YUP

AH FRICK

MR THIEF ROBBERY MAN IS HERE TO ROB SOME RICH PEOPLE AND GET ARRESTED AND MAYBE SHOOT KANG'S DAD

I mean fair enough. but also cmon man

[grandma saying 'he'll be taking care of me at this house from now on']

come on man

now saifah's gonna be annoying when sailom and kang want to be gay and in love

cos im guessing saifah and grandma aren't leaving the house much

I guess kangsailom will have to go to sailom's house or just not be in the mansion or smth

its so convenient having a mansion thooooo

come on saifah, youre ruining all the gay little plans I had made up in my head

YEEEE SO MUCH HAPPY FLUFFY COMFORT COMING OUR WAY NEXT WEEK IM SO EXCITED

as for today: comfort episode, unlocked

and for those who were curious, it took me 45 minutes to watch the last 15 minutes of this episode

its 2:30am. the episode came out 3 hours ago. what the hell is wrong with me.

#quodekash disregards sleep because of dangerous romance #<- theres a REASON that's the tag name #dangerous romance #dangerous romance series #dangerous romance the series #sailomkang #kangsailom #kanghansailom #sailomkanghan #perthchimon #chimonperth #perth tanapon #chimon wachirawit

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marilysugarcoated · 6 months

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I have no words to describe how I feel right now

All i can really make out of this huge messy ball of unidentifiable emotion, is my unwavering gratitude.

Thank you. so much.

objectively, it sounds dumb and stupid that I’m getting so worked up over the ending of a “silly minecraft series”, but it is so much more than that. To me, this represents something so much bigger, -a hard truth i refused to confront.

Growth is inevitable, and childhood does not last forever. I knew that- I’ve always known that. and still, a part of me had always rejected the idea of change. I’d always described myself as an optimist who was open to change; someone who embraced and relished in it. I held a firm philosophy in not mulling over outcomes you couldn’t control, and i did whatever I could to keep myself in that ‘healthy’ positive mindset. I knew that if I’d done anything differently, the girl from my childhood would wander farther from my reach.

Eventually, the favourite foods id once adored as a kid began to lose its flavour, (I’d briefly wondered if they’d changed the recipe) I began to notice the slight changes in my behaviour and body language; more tentative- almost insecure. The results from personality quizzes did not match with those I’d taken in previous years, I never really realized exactly how withdrawn I’d become.

Reality was rearing it’s ugly head, and we couldn’t have that, could we? -so, I desperately clung to anything and everything that was reminiscent of the little girl I’d grown to know so well. Subconsciously, i started regressing- I found myself helplessly depending on others, unable to go out anywhere without a stuffed animal, frequently putting my hair in pigtails, and engaging in more child-like activities, (at least, more than usual.)

These past few years, I’d felt as though I had lost my sense of self. I would force myself to feel and act accordingly to this perceived version of me. ‘Turns out that this ‘version of myself’ was just the girl I was before. Before the pandemic, before high-school, before I’d learned that the world was not all cotton candy and sugar cookies.- before; where my worries consisted only of stardew and genshin- before; where being happy was my default.

Watching the final episode snapped me out of my delusional reverie, and it felt as though Stampy had allowed me a sense of closure. I was beguiled when his video popped up in my youtube recommendations, not to mention the fact that it was his FINAL episode.

In truth, I didn’t expect it to hit me as much as it did. I mean, I hadn’t exactly planned on spending my saturday night sobbing to a minecraft let’s play vid lmao. Sure, in retrospect this really isn’t as big of a deal as I’m making it seem. And to that I say; yea. lol im even cringing myself out a bit, but hey, i’ve always been one for theatrics. ;)

But really; as I scrolled through the comments (still crying btw), I’d finally allowed myself to mourn, and confront the fact that I have grown up. I could no longer consider myself a little kid,, and that’s okay. it will be okay.

This is the end of an era. further more, it is the start of something new. The real world awaits, and i have Stampy (and others) to thank for the person I am today:)

It has been such a privilege to be part of this community of others raised alongside me, and to have had the pleasure of little-me experiencing the elation she’d felt when Stampy posted a new video.

Sincerely, thank you. Thank you soso much Stampy, for bringing so much joy and laughter to us many young kids— turned young adults

It’s been an unforgettable ride:)

Now, all we can do is move forward.- Take life as it is, and carefully construct our own worlds so that maybe, (just maybe,) they can become as lovely as yours has. ❤️‍🩹🐈

#stampylonghead #stampy's lovely world #stampy cat #stampy #nostalgia #childhood #vent #vent post #mental health #dealing with change #silly little minecraft series coming to an end makes a 16 year old cob uncontrollably at 2am #mcyt #minecraft #adjustment disorder #marilysugarcoated #stampylongnose

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iviarellereads · 6 months

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The Murderbot Diaries - Compulsory(1) (Wired Magazine)

(Curious what I'm doing here? Read this post! For the link index and a primer on The Murderbot Diaries, read this one!)

In which we go back in ti-i-ime.

First published in Wired in 2018, shortly after Exit Strategy, this prequel story is still free to read as it once was... with a note. Today, we cover the original version, and tomorrow, we'll be reading the expanded one that just came out through Subterranean Press for something like $1 as of time of writing, to compare and contrast, and if I remember after part 2 goes up, this text will be edited to a direct link. All aboard!

Murderbot's thought about killing humans since it hacked its governor module, but then it found the entertainment feeds. So, what's the hurry? It can kill them after this series ends.

And honestly, even the humans here think about killing each other. MB hates mines, everything to do with them,(2) but the humans hate mines even more. It predicts a 53% chance of a human-initiated massacre before the contract ends, then witnesses some name calling, and tracks that up a bit.

It's watching episode 44 of Sanctuary Moon while the humans talk about flow rates. One of them, Sekai, says SecUnits creep her out. MB can't argue that: even it doesn't like SecUnits. It doesn't react, though. Nearly all its attention is on its show, to the point that it misses the humans' actions until it hears a yell.

Running its recordings back, Asa knocked Sekai off the platform, seemingly accidentally. It tracks Sekai's fall, which looks painful. Because of where she lands, she's about 90 seconds away from dropping her in the collectors on the way to the incinerator.

You might think that rescuing her would be its job, but no. MB's job is to prevent workers from stealing company property, prevent workers from injuring or killing management, and prevent workers from harming one another. Rescue is up to safety bots.

HubSystem's alert tells it to stay in position. The nearest safety bot for rescue is 200 meters out, and will arrive just in time to retrieve a smoldering lump. Asa is horrified, Elane is sobbing. MB could ignore them, but it likes the human in peril on the show in this episode and doesn't want to watch her die yet, while Sekai is a human it's technically responsible for, and will be really dead sooner.

Having free will after so long under strict controls sometimes make MB do things it doesn't understand.(3) Before it thinks too hard about it, it jumps off the platform, landing next to Sekai. HubSystem tries to fry it via its governor module, but joke's on HubSystem.

MB tells Sekai to clip her harness to it, and as it climbs, it works on hacking HubSystem to show that the rescue was its idea. The supervisors are confused, but it all worked out. Better a fine for almost clogging the collectors than dead.

Elane makes to pull Sekai away, but she comes back and thanks MB. MB worries for a moment that she can see through its visor, and its performance drops 3% at the thought. Asa tells her SecUnits can't talk, but she says no, she heard it.

Back at my guard station, I started the episode again. Maybe somebody would save the colony solicitor’s bodyguard too.(4)

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(1) How do we think the title relates to the content? The novellas, so far, have been fairly straightforward. All Systems Red, like a classic red alert, everything is not good. Artificial Condition, a state that is made up and thus conditional and dependent on perception rather than reality, like the fear Tapan felt. Rogue Protocol, going rogue, or seeming to. Exit Strategy, needing to find the exit with Mensah. Compulsory, I think, is a fascinating turnabout on that, because it's not an obvious one to me. I think it calls back to the perceived dichotomy between its assigned behaviour (stay in place) and what it feels driven to do (save the human). It feels compelled to move, even though not-helping is literally the compulsory/assigned action. (2) How much do you think it remembered about the incident, when this is set? (3) I think it's only just starting to understand its impulses to help during the novellas, myself. (4) Do you think this was the first time Murderbot wanted to save a human consciously? Or, perhaps, the first time it started processing and learning good behaviour from its serials? Or, do you think this is just an ordinary day for it?

#the murderbot diaries #murderbot diaries #compulsory (murderbot)#murderbot #secunit

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cherrylite17 · 1 year

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Between us episode 12

posting this earlier than i normally do so some minor spoilers ahead i suppose :)

honestly, I didn’t write much down as I wanted to actually watch this episode without pausing (another reason for me posting this today so i don’t forget my thoughts (of which i have few))

I am so happy that Team got to talk to his aunt. That conversation was much needed. I mean, last time they saw eachother, she didn't say much to him which really just lead him to believe that she still was mad with him. I can't believe they had me nearly crying like 5 minutes in because of it as well :3

all the couples got a happy ending! though i will admit there were things that didn't happen in this episode that i wish they did (like team telling his parents that they were together even though they already knew because listen i love me a good emotional coming out to parents scene so i can live vicariously through that and pretend their parents comforting them are my parents accepting me as well even though i'd never come out to my parents)

like literally, all the couples got a happy ending. i dont just mean with eachother but like, manow got a role, prince's manager was more accepting, waan and tul... waan and tul... waan and tul... :3 they are all happy.

not a note on the show or the episode but the OST. around the 42-ish minute mark, when they were on the beach, there was piano playing in the background. and my mind, like so quickly, was like "holy shit, this is luckiest boy. i know that song when i hear it i love this song i cant believe they're using it here omgomgomgomg" but still i was like ehhh maybe i just like the song so much that im projecting and its not actually luckiest boy and they just had piano and then... it was luckiest boy (actually sobbing i love that song)

final note: i initially didn't understand why Team was like "hey win im gonna challenge you to swimming".. i was like.,,,, really?? all this for that??? and then i realized holy shit this is fucking so emotional. Last time Team challenged someone he loved to swimming competition, that person died... like literally they died. this part (him challenging win) while at first kinda confusing, is i think among the most emotional parts of the show. like this is where all the growth leads. he finally forgave himself, he finally trusts himself and the person he loves. like he is idk it just hit a little different once i realized that it was meant to be symbolic of all this growth

but yeah... Between us is finally over. any final thoughts? no absolutely not. As much as i loved the show i do feel that the rewatch value is kinda low (though tbf i did just finish it so of course im not going to want to rewatch it)

not that anyone really cares but i dont think there will be a series for a while where i am posting my thoughts as i watch it (though i may occasionally comment on my school president or never let me go as i watch them and other shows i already watched if i decide to rewatch or completely non-bl related shows (i still havent watched the last episode of show me the money 11 and i already know im going to have too many thoughts on that )) but for now, thats been me and my thoughts >:) thanks to all who read them lol

#Between Us #between us the series #between us ep 12 #winteam #premboun #bounprem #thai bl #thai drama #uwma the series

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thefandom-casserole · 4 months

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Episode 48 Notes-

THE BEETLES MY BELOVED <3333333333333333333

This makes me so happy

I’m in science listening to this

The shade witch my beloved

TeenFact: Taylor has once constructed for himself a bow and arrow. So he used a red wood tree instead (which was illegal) and then it snapped immediately. He’s an ecoterrorist (JUST LIKE THE REAL ONE). He found the oldest tree in the world

The kattttttt

“You can’t just throw things and just expect the cat to find it!!”

TeenFact: Lincoln added laxatives to the other kids that joined the homeschooling group with Marco.

TeenFact: Normal has no recollection of his small arms training he apparently learned at daddies hq. BUT he’s always had a very very good trigger discipline

Basically he should just come live near me I genuinely don’t think I know a single person who hasn’t shot a gun

THEY CHEERED FKR SCARYYYYY INSTEAD OF GASPED AHHHH

TeenFact: Hermie’s funeral was the first funeral she’s ever been to, unless you count some AI robots funeral thing

If Beth writes a scifi novela I will absolutely read it and I hate almost every scifi

Anthony Fact: if you live in Canada he was in a charity show called the takeback

Fuckable Henry Oak Garcia

I fucking love how many things are now ranger things now he’s a rouge

Mae Hailes mention!!!!!!

Ewwwwwwwwwwww this is such a good description holy shit

I fucking hate time shenanigans

SPARROW’S DOING CODE PURPLE HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT ITS SPARROW

The whale 😭

LEGO LINC :D !!!!!!!

Nat one noooooooooo Beth!!!!!!!!

He can’t play soccer without knees :ccccc

Nat twenty yayyyyyyyy Beth!!!!!!

SCARY HOLY SHIT THAT WOILD BE SO GOOD FOR YOUUUU

A notnat one noooooooo Will!!!!!!

:cccc poor Normal the ring 😭

The bracelet reminds me of the bracelets on the dragon (I can’t think of his name 😭)

He’s mid. I love that

Stepping on Legos really does suck 😭

PUMP UP THE JAM

Sparrow is such a liarrrrrr omg

NO JEZZ BALL 😭

IVE BEEN PLAYING JEZZ BALL SO MUCH LATELY

I fucking love jezz ball

TAYLORS FUCKING EX IM DYING HOLY SHIT

The body pillow 💀

Sparrow omg

TEL THAT TO WALTER

I SCREAMED I GENUKNELY SCREAMED AHAHJAJAJSJAJAJSJSKSJDNSKJAHAJSNS

HES THE REASON ALL OF THIS HAPPENED

(If we don’t go meta and blame Matt)

WALTER THEY FUCKING DOOMED WALTER BECAUSE OF A GRUDGE THAT WAS ABOUT PROTECTINV HIM

“I love you son but I will never forgive you for this”

“I know you did the best that you could but you needed to be much better”

Sobbing

Dang the guilt given to normal from this mannnnnn

Poor dood omg

LINC IS STILL A LEGO GUY I LOVE THIS

The disassociation from Linc is so sad

I love him so much

Scary in this episode is immaculate. Beth May my beloved

NORMAL NOOOOOO DONT LEAVE HIS FRIENDSSSS

“that’s all my family ever does”

Sobbing

“WE’RE ALL JUST KIDS!”

Scary this is amazing

Scary you better fucking listen to your own advice

This reminds me of a rp I did a while ago with Scary and Taylor hmmmm

“Two world for me. And he doesn’t even like me”

Normal is so fucking Adaine coded it’s insane

The firefighters!!! I forgot about them

“And that’s why I don’t even like myself that much”

Normallll

“That sounds like a him problem”

“I didn’t grow up into someone he can be proud of”

Some banger lines today

“Norm we’re proud of you”

“You’re the glue norm” !!!!!!!!!

“Your dad still hasn’t grown up into someone you should be proud of”

Damnnnn Linc that’s good

“At least you feel things”

LINC ARE UOU GOING DOWN GRANTS OATH NO NO NO

Scary is so Fig Faeth coded I adore herrrrrrrrrrrr

I love how protective they are of Norm ahhhhh

The love wolf is bad at talking about feeling :c

HOLY SHOT

HOLY SHIT

THE MUSIC

CHANGED

AHHHH

IM SO SCATED

WILLY

THE COLAR

ON DOOD

SHIT

OMG

This music is banger though

Wow Willy’s dc is low

GET HIS ASS LINC

69 nice

Cause why not

I fucking love Taylor and Freddie

Where was sparrow this whole time!!????? Shitttttttt

“Normal thanks, this was all you”

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

Vibing to the music

HELLO ESTER THIS IS NEW

Huhhhh that does make sense about the elevators

That was certainly an episode

Surprisingly didn’t make me sad 🤷

#Dndads #dndads Spoilers #dndads s2 #dungeons and daddies

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hypocriticaltypwriter · 1 year

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Because I’m in a good mood today 😈 TW// mentions of suicidal thoughts :(

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Donnie had ran up to the rooftop, it had been at least 30 minutes before he heard the puttering of small paws against the concrete. Runa came up behind him, still wearing the sparkly purple dress and holding Donnie’s blazer over her shoulders.

“Donnie?” She asked, “You up here?”

Donnie hesitated for a moment, “Yeah, I’m here.”

He was smoking. He didn’t even try to hide it this time.

“What are you doing up here? The party’s just getting good,” Runa smiled at him.

“Ah, you know how I am during public meetings,” He said formally.

Runa looked at the ground, the wind blowing her hair back and forth, “Yeah, I-I get that.”

“Heh, yeah.” Donnie took a drag on his cigarette and blew, trying to discreetly wipe away his tears and snot.

“Where you….” Runa started, coming closer, “Where you crying?”

“No,” Donnie flicked the cigarette away, huffing the smoke out of his nose, “it’s windy up here, making my eyes dry, so they teared up.”

Runa gave that light, innocent and caring smile she always gave him, rest a hand lightly on his shoulder, almost asking if he wanted to be touched in that moment.

Donnie nodded as Runa gave him a tight side hug. She tried to give Donnie back his blazer, “Ah, keep it. You look better in it anyway,”

She’d noticed that pattern. He was giving her all his stuff. All of it. Tech, Bo staff, blueprints, old clothes, new clothes and even small gifts from Mikey.

Runa chuckled, her face morphing into one of confusion and amusement.

“Donnie,” Runa spoke firmly, “I don’t want your stuff, I want you.”

The words struck him like a pole to the face. He could’ve sworn he would have slipped off the balcony and splattered to the ground if Runa hadn’t captured him in a loving hug again.

She wanted him. No, not wanted, needed. Needed him. Him.

He had been planning to jump for the past few months, no, years. And now, after everything had been planned so perfectly, he was starting to reconsider.

No, it wasn’t fair! How could she do this to him? How could she tell him now that she needed him? How could she just… make him feel loved like that?

After everything? After all this time of chasing each other around a bush? After he had been told time and time again how much he messes up, how back everything went because he wasn’t good enough?! After every little thing?

He felt so conflicted. He wanted to yell at her so bad, tell her to back off and let him do this! Let him commit himself to something in his life, though it would end him! He wanted to kiss her breathless for making him feel loved. He wanted to just cry into her arms and sob all his problems away.

Instead, he huffed out a small chuckle and pondered for a good 30 minutes. In that time, Runa said nothing.

Maybe, perhaps…there was a lot more to this life then death.

Donnie hugged Runa back, squishing her in his arms, never wanting to let go. Then, he started to freely sob, into her neck and onto his blazer she was still wearing.

Instead of being shocked, Runa just kissed the tears away and whispered affirming words into his ear.

They didn’t go back to the party. They just sat on the rooftop and talked.

It was a nice night.

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I was having an episode of something when I wrote this so as my bestie you have to suffer with me!! //^u^// aren’t I fun?

YOU

HOW D A R E LEAVE AFTER BREAKING MY KNEES AND LEAVING ME IN THE FLOOR FACE DOWN SOBBING AND INHALING MY TEARS AND REPEATING THE PROCESS LIKE THAT SPONGEBOB SCENE/pos

Im so proud of you 🙏🤧

#rottmnt #rottmnt x oc #rottmnt oc #rottmnt donnie #cherry answers #rottmnt future #rottmnt donnie x oc #donnie x runa #fregart

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renjibozo · 1 year

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episode 8 has finally dropped (1/3)

its time !!!! ill be referencing this post quite a lot since it's my prediction post

(part 2 for things that weren't mentioned here) (part 3 for more things that weren't mentioned)

everything under the cut for spoiler avoiders!

THE TIME HAS COME. and i'm extremely giddy despite sobbing my eyes out for today's episode

let's debunk or confirm the things that i said/predicted when the trailer dropped

kazuki and miri are preparing but i'm still not sure if they're preparing for rei's birthday because putting kazurei's conversation aside, it should be related to the episode still like the previous trailer for episode 7

since miri's zoo trip is over and the rainy season was shown in episode 7, and kazurei talked about the summer weather, i can only guess that it really is gonna be a rei birthday thing because no way is it miri's birthday bc hers is in november, and her acquisition was in christmas eve

rei bday might be somewhere between june to september

i will cry if i get this correct

I WAS CORRECT. I CALLED IT!!!! the episode is set in the summer, august (specific date is august 10th)

you can hear extremely loud cicadas, and this ties in pretty well with kazurei's conversation about summer during the trailer!

not only that, today (in the anime) is rei's birthday and that IS what miri and kazuki are preparing for

now we have all of their birthdays........... wow

the suwa manor i assume??

yes it's the suwa manor. we could see similar architecture on the outside compared to episode 3's flashback scene

a little bit of benefit of the doubt for those windows because it has been some time since episode 3's flashback to current timeline

this implies that despite kyutaro once looking at rei saying he knows the consequences of betraying the organization the most, he is in contact with his boss (father)

unfortunately, despite that line, he didn't betray the organization. he also wasn't in contact with his boss the entire time he was gone

did he have an escape attempt once? is this episode going to elaborate on that? this seems more of a rei backstory episode after kazuki's backstory episode

the episode does end up elaborating! though he never had an escape attempt. his boss was fully aware of him leaving the manor for elsewhere and made an oath to return

if kazuki's wife died five years ago and rei left the suwa manor (and by extension, the organization) three years ago, that means there's a two year gap between them meeting... curious as to what happened during then

im willing to bet kazuki's the one who did her hairstyle because i feel like rei would just accidentally tug on her hair every few seconds but i might be proven wrong or they never show us

THEY DIDNT SHOW !!! but it's definitely kazuki because rei's outside of the house, small win

favorite child and unfavorite child face off? they have similar facial structures and hair strand placement the color contrasts is screeching into my face as well

absolutely nothing like that !!!! a little sad to report that,

this man wasn't rei's sibling, but rather, rei's mentor who taught him how to use weaponry for assassination

now why is this man here

he's here as rei's uber driver and someone who shares things without being asked for it /LH

he also asked for kaji's last words but we'll get into that a bit later or maybe in a part 2

i really do wonder what sort of conversation they're having in the midst of a gunfight inside a ship maybe the organization found out about miri and them taking in miri?

they were talking about rei leaving the organization, a little bit of their history, complete with a debate between someone who follows the organization's rules to the letter and someone who strayed from the path for something they wanted to protect

this definitely resonates with rei because

he never tells ogino the last words he saw kaji mouthing while he fell to his death despite knowing what they are

he also found two someones to protect (i'll never forget this scene where his voice sounded really panicked)

NOW WHAT IS THIS !!!! HELLO !!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT HAPPENED LITTLE CRINGEMAN he's showing too much emotion so i'm convinced that there was a threat made to miri and kazuki by favorite poster suwa child

WE FINALLY GET CONFIRMATION! this face was due to this scene right here

he seemed startled at how accepting his mentor was at dying when his wife? girlfriend? fiance? died

it didn't even look like he wanted to drop the guy off the balcony on purpose because why would he run over to try and catch him somehow

and for the last part of the prediction post that i want to tackle,

hopefully rei does get back home safe and sound even if he gets a wound or two, manifesting!!

he does come back home! thankfully.

he only has one wound on his arm that he hopefully did take care of when he finished eating some of the birthday food laid out on the table for him

now onto things that weren't tackled on my prediction post, but in a part 2 to have some form of organization :DD

#i love this episode so much #time to make a part 2 immediately #buddy daddies spoilers #buddy daddies

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allthegothihopgirls · 2 years

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twd 11x17: my take

!! HEAVY SPOILERS FOR TWD 11x17 !!

alright, you've been warned. WELCOME BACK PEOPLE!!! i am so happy to be doing this again, it's been a long wait for 11c but it's finally here. i cannot begin to explain how excited this release has made me, and i'm really excited to just enjoy these final eight episodes.

EPISODE COMMENTARY TIME!!

i got a solid 30 seconds into the episode and i was already bawling. it might just be finally getting a new episode, but hearing judith's voice and seeing the flashbacks made it all really reminiscent. this really is the end.

"we're here to take out shithead and the dickless brigade" MAN I LOVE NEGAN god so excited for all his lines.

aaron and gabe's friendship is so refreshing, i love watching them interact with each other, it's such an interesting dynamic.

gabriel talking about how hope is almost lost is just, character development. i love the contrast between his religious spew when he was introduced, and now how he keeps mention his hope being gone and lost.

NEGAN GOT AN F-BOMB!!!

man i love negan back in the whisperer mask he's an icon, plus he looks so badass i can't even. OH MYGOD HES GOT DARYL WITH HIM ICONIC DUO ICONIC

GET SHOT LANCE YOU MF. i love how lance has his tiny little gun hes such a coward.

THEYRE ALL LOOKING SO HOT, YUMIKO, CONNIE, KELLY, ROSITA, MAGNA OHHH SHES IN A SUIT I LOVE YUMIKO.

"that's my job" "yet i was sent here anyways" NEGAN KNOWS HIS PLACE MY MAN MY MAN MY MAN WOOOOO

"aunt carol" sobbing so hard

i love the gracie and judith dynamic. judith acts so grown up and is talking to carol close, but gracies making innocent remarks from the table, nice contrast. sad how grown up jude has to act though.

(love this frame)

"what are you doing here man" "well im here to save your asses" will never have enough of negan istg.

"its time to play the quiet game" "we're just gonna have a little adventure today" shes protecting the kids so hard istg i expected jerry to be playing family man but ill take carol any day

FUCK YEAH JERRY SAVE THOSE KIDS

pffft carol looked so disappointed in negan when he told her he got married

GLENN GLENN GLENN "glenn would've wanted me to look after you" "you don't ever have to say sorry, not to me" crying so hard i love daryl. you can just TELL glenn's death lingers on his mind constantly and that he still blames himself. the man deserves some peace.

sewers in this show give me carl flashbacks this is traumatic. literally borderline crying this was on purpose i swear.

"do you know who i am" fuCK OFF SEBASTIAN ISTG "do you know who I am" FUCKING TELL HIMMMMM

"well this one here, she's a goddamn magician, i have seen her pull little bunnies right out of her ass with my very own two eyes" i don't rlly have anything to say about this one i just love negan's lines.

jaw on the floor that sucker just got ripped in half, worse than that whisperer chicks death i reckon.

pamela did not just disrespect my girl carol like that. bitch tf.

oh oh oh oh it's like that one 3 spidermen meme template

overall, solid episode. negan carried imo.

noticed some changes to the intro which i don't have anything to say about but thought they were cool.

that's about it from me ! i'll be back when i watch the next episode

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serpentthecrow · 1 year

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Today's gonna be fun

Edit: omgf Idk if I am stupid but the first episode just might come out in precisely an hour and 1 minute if my math's not wrong. I AM SO NORMAL ABOUT THIS.

Edit ep.1: so. I just finished that. Damnnn okay. I can already tell this will indeed be the best game adaptation of all time. If I didn't see the visuals at the Sarah scene (yk what I mean) I would think I am listening to the cut-scene in the game and not a life-action adaptation of it. The acting is fucking unimaginably great and Ellie is just unbelievably cracking me up. Casting Pedro Pascal as Joel should be rewarded by the Nobel prize for perfection tbh. I love how they kept it true to the game but still added somethin new. Idk how am I supposed to wait till next week, but I will be updating this post after every episode. I it's already obvious to me why this game got so high reviews. And yeah I also cried when I heard the intro soundtrack, almost forgot that.

Ep.2: holy fuck. I love this shit sm. I knew it was gonna happen but Tess stunggg. It was a cute little trick they did there, including her more in the whole episode. The graphics in this show are amazing, so familiar, now just life-action. I am telling you; SHIVERS when I heard the clickers, it was pretty comforting to know what we're afraid of just by hearing it, it was no less scary nonetheless. As always, Ellie's so funny. I always found her personality being so dynamic in the situation she's in. She's both though and humorous. Joel was.. Joel, I think there is nothing to add to that, other than the fact that all of the characters are portrayed amazingly. I have to say, -it sometimes happens that the first episode sets a higher standard and the rest of the show can't keep up- with last of us that didn't happen. It was equally good as the begining. Can't wait for Monday(for the first time in my life)

Ep.3: THIS MF SHOW MAN. the fucking queer joy I felt the whole ass episode, I was smiling sm. Until I wasn't. You see, I like being traumatized the same way, just in a different media. The emotional connection I formed for almost an hour just got smashed. I don't think I even cried more during a show/movie/book. (I cried like that during Crooked kingdom, but I dare say I cried more today). "I am old. I am satisfied. And you were my purpose." I was sobbing. And then when I wiped my face and thought 'okay it's Ellie and Joel again, no more sad shit' it all crumbled with a "-to keep Tess safe". I couldn't fucking breathe. The begining of the episode tho. Ellie fucking slays and so does Joel. When she had her 'dora the explorer' moment I thought 'okay and now there's gonna be a jumpscare and imma shit myself' I DIDN'T EXPECT HER TO GO SO BADASS THO.(to explain, I saw a bigger part of a playthrough of this game years ago, don't remember much and I didn't wanna rewatch for it to feel like the first time). Also, we just saw post-breakout!Joel show some emotions! Hurray! First, he twist his face into a somewhat smile much more than he did before, actually allowing himself to show amusement at Ellie's antics and second, he low-key looks like he's about to actually cry outside the house, but goes to distract himself with something else. That's about it for this ep, just fucking masterpiece. Also YAY SEASON 2! TLOU 2 SPOILER- *idk if to be happy or sad cuz I don't wanna play golf*

Ep.4: so late sorry. Oh my lawd the masters of getting caught in situations of others in action. Can I just say I went "aw that's a cute lady with a very cute voice" and then went "OH OKAY I TAKE IT BACK IM SORRY I DIDNT KNOW WHO U WERE" I got pretty much nothing much to say to this one except the begining!!!! I love the scenes in the forest. First, Ellie finally shows she's afraid and Joel sees it's so unlike her that he lies into her face about being safe then and sacrifices his own sleep to make it a truth, at least for one night. Second of all, the cooking scenes. 20 years old ravioli were gold. And then the coffee sceneeeee. "It smells like burnt shit" and then immediate shot on Joel who's SLURPING the coffee so damn loud on purpose. Also the genuinely surprised "you don't like coffee?" Is so me whenever my friends say it. The end tho. "Did you know diarrhea is hereditary?" I COULDN'T BREATHE. and Joel's lil "Jesus" "this is so stupid" was so great. And the GIGGLES. MELTING.

Ep.5: this was a ride. I am so glad it came early, with the anticipatory ending they pulled last week. This was so good. "He just sounds like that, he has an asshole voice" lmao slapped so much. Most of it was pretty calm too, but when Henry said "idk what you're waiting for man. I am the bad guy cuz I did a bad guy thing" I almost YELLED at the screen "YA U DID A BAD THING BUT WITH A GOOD INTENTION". the ending thoooo. I can say I gasped and flipped off my phone when that bigass motherfucker showed up, ripping people apart. Loved the slow motion before he climbed out, the anticipation moments are amazing in this series. Seeing Ellie so afraid, was really new, both from the game and the series. I am not used to such expression of emotions at all. Also love the way Joel covers her and she's dependent on that cover,looking over at him to have her back. He goes 'go, I've got you' pulling tunnel vision on solely her and her savety. And when u think everything is gonna be okay, "when you turn into a monster, is it still you inside?" I CRIED. The way Ellie doesn't show her fear, the way she's strong for Sam but the way she tries her best to save him. She's told she's special, told she's the cure so she tries to save him. And it fails. I WANTED TO JUMP THROUGH THE SCREEN AND HUG HER THE WAY SHE CRIED. In the end, Kathleen was low-key right. My babes looked fresher than ever after digging two graves tho. "I'm sorry"- Ellie is feeling useless. Contemplates what is this 'imune' shit for anyway when she can't save the people she wants to save. Joel the master of miscommunication pulls a 🤨🤨🤔 and doesn't say shit. They are both just incredibly emotionally constipated.

#the last of us #the last of us hbo #tlou #tlou spoilers #orie's rants #the last of us spoilers

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quodekash · 1 year

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os2 x eclipse ep2 part 2 of my silly little commentary

oh thats weird, why is the cafe for all worker hosting the competition?

(huzzah i am funnie)

seriously tho, youd think aye would recognise them

YAYYYYYY WAT WONNNN

SANI TAKING PHOTOS GHRDFJBG I LOVE HER

SHES SO PROUD OF HIM

"this is my first short film. sorry- our first. it's a story of what we face in real life. Thank you to all my friends for always supporting me. Thank you to my advisor, Teacher Sani. If you hadn't asked me that day, I wouldn't have made it here today. I also want to thank my family. Even though they don't really approve of me making movies, they secretly transferred me money in the end. Thank you."

EVERY SENTENCE HE SAID WAS ANOTHER REASON TO CRY

HOLY HELL IM NOT OKAY

OMG

hell yes imma add this to the collection

"even though your movie is not very perfect, i could see the power and sincerity in it." "thank you" "keep making films. dont give up." "i wont" HIS LITTLE SHRUG- I CANTTT

BGRHEFJDBS

HES SO HAPPY

ITS MAKING ME HAPPY

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

PROBABLY TOO MUCH

BUT ITS FINE

THIS JUDGE GUY IS SO COOL

IM GONNA CRY

I LOVE THIS GEHIRKBSG

FIEWUKJSBDGFEKJBSDGFOU4EJWBNFIOKNEWDSPIGNVPIERKDSFPIN4EWSDPIGNVPEORIDNSGOPVIENBRPISDGNVEORIJDSBGNPIO34JBWENGPIVE4PRIKGHJBOPEIRNFDOIBJN THE HUG

HES SO HAPPYYYYY

IM SOBBING

SANIS FACE-

NAMO LITERALLY SEES EVERYTHING

HOW DOES HE SEE EVERYTHING

HE ALWAYS KNOWS

the lights went out

finally

here it is

aye's about to be dramatic

and im probably gonna scream and cry (in a good way)

GUITAR CHORD STRUM THINGY GHDRBHT

YUP

YUP YUP YUP YUP YUP YUP YUP YUP

YAYYYY

im giggling and sobbing at the same time

HES CRYING AAAA

im so glad im watching this now instead of last night bc its so much easier to scream out loud

AND AKK'S GONNA START SINGING TOO, RIGHT???

LOOK AT HIS FLIPIN FACE AAAAAA

YES

GIUERKDSBJGREUVJB

IM SCREAMING AND SOBBING AND LAUGHING AND DYING AND GIGGLING ALL AT THE SAME TIME SOMEBODY HELP

GFUIREBGNIUEFRBAAAAAAAAA

im sobbing

hes such a good singer

i love first's voice so much

WAIT I ONLY JUST NOTICED THAT LINE

"if you dont like it, if you're not okay, let me know. ill stop."

the freaking PARALLELS

IM SCREAMING SO LOUD RN

THE FREAKING FLASHBACKS

WHAT THE HELL

IM DYING

GIRHDKBJGFBJTKRDFAAAAAAA

IM NOT OKAY AND THEY ARE THE REASON WHY

ITS THE EXACT SAME SCENE

EPISODE 10, 3/4, IT'S EXACTLY THE SAME AS THAT

AND THAT SCENE HAPPENS TO BE ONE OF MY FAVOURITE SCENES

SO I AM COMPLETELY DYING

BUT ITS LITERALLY THE EXACT SAME SCENE

THEYRE SO SILLY

I LOVE THEM

AAAAAAAAAAAA

WELL NOW ITS EXACTLY THE SAME AS EPISODE 11 WHERE THEYRE LYING IN BED

ITS THE SAME FREAKING THING

THESE FREAKING PARALLELS WILL BE THE END OF ME

oooo graduation blessing

"people say that life is like a journey. i want you to keep going forward to reach each of your destinations or goals." I LOVE HER

"keep going forward without knowing if there's light at the end of the tunnel" SERIOUSLY KAN, WHY DO YOU HAVE TO KEEP VOICING MY FEARS, ITS RUDE

"of course. you guys have done it before. you have walked out of those dark shadows." TY SANI THATS SO SWEET IM CRYING

THUAKAN MOMENT

PLATONIC WATSANI MOMENT

OMG

Y E S

YES YES YES YES

THIS IS LITERALLY EXACTLY WHAT I WAS HOPING FOR

I SCREAMED SO LOUD

THEY HUGGGGGGGG

"thank you for never letting go of my hand" WHAT THE HELL THE PARALLELS- NOW ITS THE SCENE AT THE START OF EPISODE 10 WHERE AYE FAINTS AND THEY GO TO HIS HOUSE AND THEY FALL ASLEEP AND THEY FALL ASLEEP HOLDING HANDS AND AYE SAYS SOMETHING LIKE THAT AND HOLY HELL

THIS IS THE GREATEST FREAKING EPISODE OF ANYTHING EVER OH MY GOODNESS

my face hurts from smiling so much in this episode

SERIOUSLY, THE PARALLELS ARE INSANE

EVEN THEIR EXPRESSIONS ARE EXACTLY THE SAME

"i love you too. shortstop." AAAAAAAAAA

damn, they end with what they cut out of the actual show

i love them so much

oh, look at that, theyre ending with what the actual show had to cut out

anyway WHAT THE HELL THAT WAS INCREDIBLE

EVERYTHING ABOUT THAT WAS PERFECTION

MY NEW FAVOURITE EPISODE OF ANYTHING EVER

AND PUENTALAY NEXT WEEK???? GIUERJKBDG

oh look at that i used up all 30 photos again

how the hell is anything real rn

THEYRE GONNA BE DADS?????? WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL

WELL

THAT WAS SOMETHING

im gonna go cry for the rest of the day, peace out

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chappedlipjournal · 2 years

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wow ok idk whats going on in the brain tonight but im feeling incredibly like i want to burst into tears and slice up my arms in like a totally detached way. I have some emotion and i dont know what it is and its coming out in some weird urge to self harm even though i dont actually want to self harm. Some of it i know has to do with going back to work and i know some of it is the cliff hangers i was left with tonight. I think a third part is that ive haf no human contact in a week bcuz covid. And i think someone of it is also the fact ive latched onto caleb from cr2 and am trying to project but i cant consume any fic without spoilers and im only 12 episodes into the campaign and i also dont know enough about him to make shit up in my head and project that way. If i had known the episodes i watched today were going to be such cliffhangers i probably would have waited. But we are going to project anyway!! So here goes:

I want to see Caleb getting caught cutting or scratching or burning.

Maybe at night before Nott goes to bed and she comes up and catches him.

Or someone else in the group is healing him and sees all the old scars.

Caleb dealing with itchy scabs after a few days and they break, soaking his sleeve in blood.

Caleb not realizing his sleeve rode up in the night and someone sees in the morning.

Its some form of punishment and reward. And its so fucked up he cant even hurt himself right anymore.

The sheer terror of letting someone dress your wounds. The vulnerability of letting someone see you like that. The fear of judgement and ridicule and abandonment.

Caleb begging Nott to stay, to please dont leave, please dont leave me alone. Nott realizing the gravity of calebs issues until that moment.

Caleb trying to stay clean and failing and failing failing even after he gives up his blades. Nott cant take his spells.

The rest of the group is quick to figure it out much to Caleb's dismay and in their own ways they start to help him as well. Jester with her kindness. Fjord with his silent reassurance. Beau with her keen eyes. Molly with his invitations to talk.

Nott is grateful for the help and so is Caleb.

Caleb refusing healing and help once caught from Nott and Jester the rest of the group. Even when it becomes clear the wounds infected. He gets sick and spikes a fever and it isnt until hes rendered unconscious from it that they can intervene.

Caleb lashing out as he gets clean when the urges hit. Becoming withdrawn. Extreme after extreme. Sobbing at night while Nott holds him because it hurts so bad. He wants and wants wants and thinks its going to kill him. He wants it to kill him.

Is any of this realistic absolutely not. Is any of this healthy. Absolutely not. I am well aware of caregivers burnout etc etc and no one should ever put the onus of their recovery onto some one else. Theres a difference between a support system and whatever the fuck i described above. But this is my brain and my poor coping mechanisms so if i want nott to hold a crying caleb while he tries to stay clean then i will.

#recovered #p #caleb widogast #cr2 #tagging for my own personal use #i dont expect anyone to actually consume whatever the hell i just wrote #self harm #tw self harm #i havent taken a blade to my skin since high school #like 7 years ago #but writing this shit out makes me wonder if im #or if its just some mythical thing #are there people who use to cut who dont ever think about it #am i an outlier or the norm #do i even want to know

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puppyeared · 4 years

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i thought of Mama Higurashi showing Moroha Kagome’s old room like “this was your mom’s room” and i made myself cry

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error707-thatdude · 2 years

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I don't like Love Never Dies (I say, blasting Beneath a Moonless Sky at max volume)

#for real though #even i gotta admit some of the stuff in it is absolute gold #im a raul lover so im biased bUT #its a bit of a guilty pleasure #spoilers ahead #christine's death? gosh that was heart wrenching #ive seen two versions and both of them are PAINFUL #but yk i break just a tad bit more at the sight of gustave curling up in christines skirt #and raul just quietly cradling his dead wife #hHHhhhh sob #but also ramin and sierra? their performance???? excuse me as i cry over that one specifically #do i like lnd and e/c ship? no not really #but i absolutely make an exception for this guilty pleasure of mine 🏃‍♀️#also like no hate to lnd enjoyers and e/c enthusiasts yall are awesome kiss kiss #i am just a very stubborn raul liker who refuses to admit defeat #no matter how many times i listen to beauty underneath #bee buzzes #on todays episode of what is bee screaming about this time #we have me relistening to poto and indulging in some lnd #possibly planning some fanart bc why not #also can i just scream about my wife christines death #like CMON MAN 😭 baby they did u so dirty

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marauder-exe · 3 years

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Self care- p!Tommyinnit x reader

i wish i was bsfriends w tommy :’)

Word count: 1.3k

Warnings:themes of depression, nothing too deep

A/N: Taking Tommy and Wilbur requests!! u cant tell me tommy doesn’t do the classic british X’s on txts to his friends

It had been a rough stream, 8 hours sat in the same chair putting on the same happy face, it was unbelievably exhausting some days. You took of your headset and set it down after pressing ‘end stream’, you ruffled your hair and took in a deep breath, throwing a glance at the clock on your computer. 5am. You tried to throw caution to the wind, maybe it was an off day? But no, you could feel it, deep inside, another episode. You looked directly into the webcam, your face scrunching up as you take note of your appearance, your ruffled hair, your dark eye bags. It felt like hours, just staring at yourself, your famous thousand-yard stare painted across the screen. Suddenly, your phone vibrated from its place on the desk. You lethargically picked it up as the bright screen illuminated your otherwise dark room. It was Tommy.

Big T: ‘bedwars stream tmrw? : ) x’

You really didn't feel up to it in all honesty, but you didn’t want to let Tommy down like that, he loves bedwars. A sad smile made its way to your face as you drafted your text back.

Gremlin: ‘only if were on duos together : ) x’

Big T: ‘5pm? X’ You responded with a simple yeee.

You discarded your phone to the side and stood up for the first time in hours. Your bones ached as you outstretched your limbs. Pain. You walked over to your bed and sat on the edge, eyes scouring the room, even though you weren't sure what you were looking for, an escape maybe? It wasn’t even like you had anything to be upset over, great friends, successful streamer, everything was going great, but alas, depression does not give a shit. You crawled into bed, putting your phone on charge and grabbed all of your covers over your head, a long sigh making its way from your lips.

The next day/

Tommy loaded up minecraft on his computer, reading to slay game at bedwars with you. He got unusually excited when he played minecraft with you, even more excited than normal. There was something about you man, but he just couldn’t figure it out. Youd met in high school, same town and everything, and since then you were like a drug. Not a day had gone by since year 9 that you didn’t talk. He decided to drop you a message as you hadn't texted first. He asked if you were still up for bedwars. Surprisingly though, he didn’t receive a response. He waited. Just 5 minutes he said. And then 10. And then 20. Then 30. He decided to ring you just to check. Plus, he wanted to hear your voice. It rang thrice and nothing. His eyebrows drew together in confusion. You were almost always online. He tried not to overthink, but this is Tommy were talking about. Maybe you were still asleep? He wanted to believe that, but there was an itch, in his brain, that told him not to. Just to make sure, he decided to ask some of your mutual friends on the server. He clicked onto the group discord and noticed Wilbur, philza and Nikki in a vc.

“Hello Hoes and Homies alike” He bellowed when he joined the vc. Wilbur drew a confused look.

“I thought you were doing duo bed wars with (Y/N) today?” Tommy scoffed.

“Well yah, Wilburrrrr, if you let me get a word out” He joked light heartedly “No seriously though has anyone heard from her since her stream last night” They all looked confused and shook their heads. This made him even more concerned than he was. He quickly thanked them before disconnecting. His mind was running rampant. He quickly decided to throw his shoes on, you didn’t live that far, only a bus ride away on the otherside of town. He grabbed his keys and his jacket and rushed down the stairs.

“Going over to (Y/N)s for a bit” He shouted to Motherinnit as he slammed the door shut.

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You were straing at the roof in a pit of self loathing when you heard your phone ring. Ugh. It seemed so much work to pick it up. Your hand made its way from under the mountain of covers and snatched your phonr from the side. Tommy. You felt a sting in the back of your eyes and tossed your phone on the bed, turning over and curling up in the covers. You stared at the inside of your covers for minutes on end. Your doorbell sent a sharp chime through the house as your mother went to answer it.

“Hello Tommy, what a surprise" He threw her a quickly greeted her and got straight to the point.

“Is (Y/N) in?”

“Shes upstairs I think, I havent heard from her all day though. Go on up” She stood to the side and let him pass.

You heard the entire conversation through your open window, and let out a heavy sigh, although you were secretly thanking Tommy in uour head for checking up on you. You heard his converse hit the steps as your door was threw open. Tommy immediately regretted his actions, wondering if you were asleep as he took note of the heap of covers on the bed. He let out a quiet whisper.

“(Y/N)?”

You didn’t really feel like talking, but you let out a quiet ‘yeah’. He rushed over to your side upon hearing your weak response.

“is everything alright? We were meant to be playing bedwars like an hour ago” This prompted you to pull the covers off your head and look at him. He took note of your puffy red eyes, and the dark eye bgs lying underneath. He looked around your room, empty energy drink cand and food containers littered your room. It suddenly clicked to him. You weren't doing okay. He looked back at you deeply, something about that look just caused the floodgates to open. Your eyes were glassy, as Tommy practically melted. He hated seeing you like this. Sure he had the bit of him being a big man with no emotions, but you where his weakness. “Hey, cmon don’t cry” He whispered as he opened his arms, welcoming you into a hug. In an instant you where in his arms, leaving tear stains on his TShirt. He didn’t seem to mind though. After a moment of silence, only broken by your sobs, he piped up. “How about, we forget about the stream for today, and ill go to the corner shop and get us some snacks, and marshmallows and whipped cream, and we can have those killer hot chocolates your mom makes. We can watch a bunch of movies, and ill even let you put one of those stupid facemasks on me, yeah?” This caused a laugh to pierce your sobs, which started to lighten up. You sniffled and pulled back from his hug, a huge smile making its way onto your face, the first genuine smile in a while.

“Thats my girl, that’s what I love to see” He matched your smile. You quickly threw your arms around him and pulled him into a long hug.

“Thank you Tommy” You said sincerely.

“Anything for my favourite girl” He smiled, as he pulled back from the hug. “Maybe while im gone you could try to shower?” He knew how tough some simple things where when you felt like this. You nodded smally and sat up. He leapt from the bed and smiled. “Okay, I wont be long!” And with that, he dashed out of the room.

You lay back on your bed. You werent okay, but that’s okay, because Tommyinnit is your best friend :)

#tommy #tommyinnit #tommyinit #tommyinnitt #tommyinitt #tommyinnit x reader #mcyt #mcyt imagine #mcyt x reader #smp

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