#and my body is asleep

[daffodil-screaming]

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#it’s that time of night #where my eyes won’t open #and my body is asleep #but my mind is awake #and I just wish I wasn’t so alone #I wish I wasn’t so broken #I wish I could do something with my life #I’m a failure #and I always will be

[teaboot]

the little lord is home

#He was really quiet for a while but I talked at him and eventually he started chirping back #I have formula and a bottle and he's due for lunch soon #He's so small guys #His whole body is smaller than my hand #He put his little foot on my finger and fell asleep #Oh my god my son is so tiny #Cat

[buckttommy]

this isn't a horny post but. has buck even... seen a hard penis before that was not his own? like yeah yeah porn but. that's not really the same is it. not when you're not even looking. not when you don't even know that you want to look. like for all intents and purposes buck is completely virginal here and that's. ummm. that's a lot.

#like. oh. oh he's such a baby. he really is a BABY gay like sweet boy. you know nothing #you are about to get your entire perception of life and your body and your inner being absolutely fucking rearranged #especially the perception of his life like. for 30+ years he has lived in one world and it only took one kiss. one handful of seconds to no #just *change* that world but transport him to a completely different one. #everything is going to be different. from the way he approaches his politics (because it means something different when you're actually #fighting for your OWN rights) and the way he approaches his body like. and that's the real kicker for me is like #buck knows his body. he knows what he likes and this that and the other #but he doesn't actually KNOW his body because he doesn't know ALL the ways that it can feel #and all the ways that it can make HIM feel #he has not yet tasted the way his body can electrify him and render him undone and it's like #it truly is like he's becoming another person #and i know that's cheesy to say but this really is like being born again. #oh my god. i'm actively falling asleep. i don't know if this makes sense. you guys get the picture

[charlottelerose]

#that time of year again #daylight savings #dst #working class #i once got so tired from waking up too early i almost drove off the road after falling asleep at the wheel at what my body said was 3am

[nanaba]

the search for peace

#attack on titan #shingeki no kyojin #aot #snk #armin arlert #mikasa ackerman #happy birthday to my stinky #aot spoilers #snk spoilers #might as well tag eren since that's his grave #eren yeager #eren jaeger #eremin #falling asleep while visiting your bro's grave is gay i've decided #also the title is like that bc of his ambassador work (lol) doing damage control for eren 🙄 and his body finding a place to rest (tired) #it is a double meaning. i insist #this isnt ar/umika 😭😭😭 #edited the post bc it might be showing up in the tag idk #*\

[glitchedmagic]

@theminecraftbee ‘s ficlets about Decked Out eating Tango have been living in my head rent free so here’s a little post-do thing of my own.

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“The server resets tonight.”

It’s been just over two months since Decked Out finished. Just over two months since anyone has seen or heard from Tango.

Zed knows what happened. Not the details. And he certainly couldn’t explain it to anyone else. But he knows.

And the gnawing feeling of guilt has kept him coming back to the dungeon. Every day.

Decked Out is asleep. Zed can walk through the citadel without a desperate need to throw himself to the ravengers. He can even wander below, into the redstone, without being electrocuted to death. Maybe it’s dead, but Zed doubts it. He knows it’s just sleeping. Eventually, it will wake up. It will be hungry and will lure whoever enters this world into its depths.

Maybe that’s when Tango will wake up too.

Zed won’t be here to see it.

“Who knows when you’ll be able to eat again?”

His voice is quiet but he knows the whole dungeon can hear him. He plays with the clasp on his gas mask. Tango’s storage room, where he lays on the dusty floor, has enough oxygen flowing through it still to allow him to breathe without the mask, though he’s already getting a bit of a headache. He’ll put the mask back on soon. Eventually.

“One last snack?”

He’s offered the dungeon himself hundreds of times these past few months. As a player, when it was live, hoping to spark a bit of his friend’s life back into him. Then after. Hoping for something. For a glimpse of flickering blue flame and wide eyes that had long since given up pretending to see.

There’s quiet.

There’s so much guilt in the quiet.

Don’t worry, Zed. Just a few months. Not too big of a project.

All good here. With level one done, the rest will go a lot quicker.

Yeah, level three got away from me a bit. Level four will be smaller, don’t worry.

Audio needed to be reworked, you know how it is. Soon.

Just tired, lost track of time last night.

Not too much longer now.

Don’t worry, I’ll be back to normal when the game’s done. Promise.

Did Tango know he was lying?

Zed is well aware that what he’s doing isn’t good for him. It’s ironic, how Tango pulled away from everyone, to eventually disappear in this cave. And now Zed’s doing the same thing.

It was always Tango pulling Zed out. Into the sun for a stupid game or a ridiculous project.  So it makes sense that without him, Zed can’t bring himself to leave the hole.

“I could break more redstone.” Zed offers the dungeon. “Really get you mad.”

He’d done that. About two weeks after Decked Out went dormant. He hadn’t gotten a reaction at the time. But the next day, everything was repaired.

That had spurred Zed into doing a stakeout. Break some stuff, sit and wait until the dungeon brought Tango out to fix it.

Zed had died down in the redstone, waiting. It hadn’t been a pleasant death.

That’s when Impulse had stepped in, staging his own intervention. But all it had done is make Zed feel more guilty.

An intervention for the guy who failed to do an intervention when Tango needed it most.

See? Ironic.

His head is starting to pound. He puts his mask back on.

“I want my friend back, you stupid castle,” He says through the mask. The dungeon understands him anyways.

He won’t be getting Tango back. He’s known that for much longer than he can admit.

Time passes. His phone dings a few times. It’s just the others. Making preparations. The server resets in just a few hours.

“Was it worth it?” Zed asks. “Not you, dumb dungeon. I’m asking Tango. Was it worth it? Did you make this choice? Did you know the consequences?”

Silence.

“Did you ever consider saying goodbye?”

The thing is? Tango was saying goodbye. In the only way he could. It was in the heartfelt artifacts crafted for each hermit. It was in his own voice, echoing words throughout the dungeon long after his own voice left him. It was in every ounce of the game.

None of them saw it until it was too late.

Zed stands. He has to be at spawn soon. He has stuff to pack. He has his own hole in the ground to say goodbye to.

He takes the long way out. Up into the main room of the citadel.

There’s a small part of him that hopes to see a glint of Tango. That’s what’s supposed to happen, right? A little wisp of blue fire. A soft voice. A gust of wind blowing a loose piece of paper across the floor. Something he can look at and be comforted by.

Nothing happens.

Zed knows that Tango’s gone.

He stands at the door. It’s open just a crack, just like he left it.

The night is clear.

“Goodbye, Tango.”

#second: its a horror story about losing yourself and being forced to accept it #me: a tragedy about not being able to say goodbye got it #also like????? in a world where death is meaningless??? THIS? THAT TYPE OF GRIEF??? HOW WOULD YOU DEAL #my 'tango is eaten by his base' hcs are a bit different from theirs but idc the vibe is very much the same #for a bit of horror that i couldn't squeeze in #i imagine that tango (as in like his physical body) is asleep somewhere in the redstone #its just impossible for anyone to find #yes the dungeon did that on purpose so none of those other stupid hermits can try and 'save him' #also idk how it would work in-world but everyone who will be playing decked out on the world download? #food for the dungeon #glitch talks #hermitcraft #tangotek #hermitfic

[lyrashifts]

i just wanted to share this in case anyone else wanted to give it a try, but last night i tried out this unknowing meditation and when i got into the groove of it well enough my heart rate sped up and i stopped feeling almost all of my body. and i just sort of felt weightless. i also felt a tingly sensation over my body that was definitely noticeable. it was barely a guided meditation either, and all of this just happened in the silence.

i think i got too convinced on going to the void all of a sudden (not that it would stop me necessarily) and my thoughts started spiralling, but i'm definitely giving it another try!

but if anyone has shifted or gone to the void i am curious if they've felt similar??

#i've had relatively similar sensations before but this was CRAZYYY #mind you i listened to the ALIVE sub by slade on youtube as well #BUT THIS WAS SO COOL #i don't personally think it's necessarily the symptoms of my body falling asleep because nothing has felt quite this potent before #shiftblr #reality shifting #shifting realities #reality shift #shifting #marauders shifting #desired reality #shifters #shifting community #shifting motivation #void #the void state #void state #loa #loassumption #loa tumblr #loa blog #loablr #law of assumption #law of assumption blog #the void #void state method #shifting methods

[aimseytv]

i have been trying to fix my sleep schedule since 2015 and every single time i fail drastically

#why is it so difficult to just rest #my body will have zero issue falling asleep to nap at 6pm when i have a thousand different things to do #but trying to sleep at anytime before 2am is an actual problem #it is 7am

[canisalbus]

Vasco and Machete are absolutely adorable, your style is so lovely and you draw the softest beds I’ve ever seen in any art ever

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#thank you! #softest beds is a whole new compliment that's so sweet #let me go off on a weird and personal tangent for a minute #I've always found the concept of sleeping very touching somehow #it's this mandatory resting period literally everyone has to plan their life around no one has the power to avoid sleeping #if you neglect it your mind and body start to break down very quickly #sleep is such a neutral state of being no one is particularly sad or happy or evil or good while they're asleep they're just logged off #sleeping feels nice it's rejuvenating it's one of the few universal pleasures every single person has an access to #and I find it terribly cute how people have different little bedtime rituals #socks on socks off various pillow and blanket arrangements certain sounds that make them sleepy etc #and sleeping next to someone is such an act of trust #it's extremely intimate as is sex doesn't necessarily have to factor into it #getting comfortable and going unconscious with someone at the same place at the same time that just touches my heart #especially if you're invited into their bed which is a very private space a person's own little nest where the world can't reach them #even if you fall asleep in public transport there's this vulnerability to it and for the most part people respect the sanctity of sleep #and tend to leave sleeping people alone at least in my limited experience #I like drawing my characters sleeping because it feels like I'm doing them a favor granting them a little respite #anonymous #answered

[lavenoon]

I got a new tattoo!!

@naffeclipse so he can't come to the appointment, but he can look at the result <3

*self insert Aster is not a girl (he/ she)

og detective au by sunnys-aesthetic!

(tat pic under cut, warning for my bare, complaining about being shaved leg lmao)

I'll now go back to not including my tattoos in my doodles unless they suit me, because man that's a lot of lines lmao

#post let luce #dcamv #bloodstain fool #naffeclipse #menace4menace #my art #it looks best when the leg is straight which is. hard to photograph lmao #cant wait for this to be healed so i can color it in with my glitter tattoo pens <3 #really went in like “hi ur gonna have to trace two straight; parallel lines with a tattoo needle” n the madlad did it #we also dissed german grammar together while speaking english which was honestly a highlight #i was propped up on my arm the entire time #by the end i was like “my hand fell asleep ):” n he was like “and your leg??” “that's fine you kept it busy” FGHDJSK #but yes new tattoo and i am now so so eepy #“you were stabbed many many times now your body wants to heal” #yes but i would like to opt out. will my way out of tired #at least i got the fool doodles out hehe

[jaarijani]

This is how it happened right? 🍑🍑

#käärijä #häärijä #khaarija calendar #khaarija onlyfans #khaarija of art #oh you thought i was asleep? no no #i was drawing more khaarija ass #look man when inspiration strikes you gotta draw #and sometimes inspiration is just 🍑 #my art #mine #this isnt perfect but im slowly getting better at drawing their bodies #(im a storyboard artist usually i dont get much further than thumbnails be glad im not posting those)

[hoofpeet]

Zingo being scary moments (on accident)(sometimes on purpose)

#hoof draws #replacement ingo au #<--like sugar getting the spice face shadow when she's having a malicious moment #i like imagining that she inherited his evilness a little bit and occasionally sates her natural zoroark urge to torment people #on a random plasma guy or smthn #body horror / #sugar voice (watching emmet sleep) my human. i love my human guy. my favorite human. i am looking directly at my trainer. please know this #emmet‚ trying to pretend he's asleep: this thing's going to kill me #i miss when sugar was just evil and fucked up and legit tried to kill emmet for real. good era #but also i'm attached to sugar i like that she's cool now<3 she's still a bit fucked up and evil but she likes emmet a lot

[solilakoi]

We were talking in stream about all the Edgar Allan Poe stories that could make for cool Monster High doll designs... And I got Inspired~

Her name is Stella Tayle-Hart! She's a sleepwalking narcoleptic ghost who always sleeps with one eye open. Her dress is inspired by victorian nightgowns and is covered in beaded blood embroidery, and her heart glows and pulses beneath her floorboard inspired corset uwu

#solilakoi draws #my art #artists on tumblr #monster high #my ocs #monster high oc #edgar allan poe #the telltale heart #telltale heart #this is a concept sketch btw! im working on a full illustration in my streams at twitch.tv/solilakoi ;3c #the actual telltale heart story doesnt involve MUCH blood TECHNICALLY #but that dead body was cut up to be put under the floorboards so. implicitly very bloody #also in case the design notes are hard to read: #shed have a skelita torso and spectra limbs but with the transparent parts being red #the corset would open at the front to reveal the ribcage and glowing heart below #a switch at the back of her neck toggles the glowing #she's albino and has a lazy eye #i think her eyesight might also be Not Great #she talks really cryptically when shes asleep but when awake shes laidback and chill #and thats the only way to know if she's actually awake or not #I have more thoughts but these tags are long enough fdjklas

[uncanny-tranny]

It's really freeing when you learn that rationality isn't going to be feasible in the long run, not because rationality is this thing that only Truly Enlightened people get the privilege to experience, but because humans are just irrational.

You can know when you're being irrational, and sometimes, it is in big ways. But pretending like that irrationality doesn't exist or can only exist if you're "stupid" only sets you back from growing. Irrationality is part of the human condition - it is impossible to actually be this enlightened person people like to project themselves onto.

#positivity #gentle reminders #inspired because i started feeling disgusted about my HEART BEATING #but irrationality sets us apart from many other species of animals. the contradiction of the human condition is woven into us #what you do about that is recognize it and then seek to expand your world #like... it is irrational as hell to be disgusted about your own damn body and the way it functions without your dorect input but here we ar #i used to feel this pressure to never be contradictory in Any Way and to Always Be Intelligent... #...but that intelligence didn't come from a genuine understanding of the world. it came from what was just a façade... #...what did i have if not Intelligence (but not true intelligence; just the bullshit people THINK is intelligence) #in my quest to be a Better Person i ended up only dehumanizing myself and partitioning myself off into tiny little boxes #it's weird to experience that - to experience your own self being dehumanized BY YOU because you buy into what is essentially propaganda #if this doesn't make sense consider that it's Way Too Late right now and i should have been asleep over seven hours ago

[odinsblog]

R.I.P. Astrud Gilberto, March 29, 1940 - June 5, 2023. Seen here, performing "The Girl from Ipanema" in 1964 with Stan Getz on tenor sax, Gary Burton on vibraphone, Gene Cherico on bass, and Joe Hunt on drums.

#astrud gilberto #r.i.p. #the girl from ipanema #music #bossa nova #stan getz #childhood memories #damn - hearing this song after so long literally unlocked #childhood memories from kindergarten? of music they played at nap time #not the school or the teachers but someone who lived nearby #close enough that we could hear it gently playing in the background #at ​12 noon sharp every day for an hour #and i can remember that whenever it wasnt playing #all of us kids had trouble falling asleep #whenever i do hear it now (which isnt at all often) #it immediately relaxes my brain and my entire body #lol - they pavlove’d a conditioned response into us #hopefully there isnt another song ive forgotten that automatically turns on a murderous rage #anyway - the point here is that im almost 39 #and (my fault) but this is the 1st time ive ever even seen what she looked like

[dimorphodon-x]

A creep

#was trying to fall asleep a few days ago and then he just showed up and ruined everything 💀 #my art #not transformers #horror #? #pterosaur #body horror #i guess