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creepzkilla · 1 year

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No because those EJ headcannons 😳 are so good aldhworjeoejekr you wrote him so perfectly 😫

If it's ok, can I request some NSFW Creepypasta Toby headcannons? You can make them as dark as you like, but DAMN I have to admit the way you write characters is so gooooodddd 💖💖💖

↳˳⸙;; ❝ TICCI TOBY KINK HC'S! + BONUS ᵕ̈ ೫˚∗

[A/N]--tyty i always enjoy slasher creepypasta-- the more realistic version of the fandom. its always been more entertaining for me... the mansion kinda HC never really stuck with me unless portrayed really good? its so hard to find fics that are like that... but anyways wtf my first ask this deserves a bonus smut at the end?!?!?! sry for the delay too i’ve had writers block wtf… the second half is shit ngl

NSFW. warning— NOT PROOF READ fem! anatomy, dub-con, somnophilia, toby being a perv, sadist, bondage,breeding, exhibition

TOBY IS A CLOSET PERVERT--

he remembers when he first started stalking you. when he first snuck into your house while you were fast asleep as he kept a watchful eye over your sleeping form. you were ethereal, he couldn't help himself following you home- or going through your panty drawer. you couldn't blame him, really, you couldn't. you look so cute in your satin pink thongs that he just had to steal one. or three.

sadist-- toby just adores watching you contort underneath his touch as you squirm away from him. he won't hesitate to leave harsh slaps across the meat of your ass or dark bruises made from his belt into makeshift handcuffs

bondage-- he loves tying you up in all sorts of different lewd positions. toby takes pride watching you whimper under his calloused hands begging for your hands and/or legs. he knows that those whimpers are only for him.

breeding-- toby has family issues... at first, he wouldn't want kids. he would dismiss the thought of ever having any kids in the first place... not wanting to turn into his dad. he was terrified. that was until he came in your pussy the first time. it was fucking life-changing. he loves the feeling of spilling his seed into your pretty pussy... he just can't go back after that. why buy condoms when he could watch his cum seep out of your pussy? he wouldn't mind having a kid or two.

mutual masturbation-- he goes wild watching your hands disappear into your heat as your mouth lets out a barrage of whimpers and moans. toby can't help but join in. whether you know if he's watching or not.

exhibitism-- this man just dont give af. if he wants you, he wants you. anytime, anyplace.

oral(fem receiving)-- this could be considered a kink because toby could probably cum buy just eating your pussy. he just cant get enough of it. he gets so painfully hard when he goes down on you. so you cant blame him when he paints his pants white.

corruption— this is a big one..you were a virgin, with little to no experience before you bet toby. something about that innocence he just had to protect… something he just had to corrupt. toby remembers when he first taught you how to give a blowjob. he could just cum by the perverted memory.

TOBY DEFINITELY JERKS OFF WITH YOUR PANTIES—

there’s no way he doesn’t. he fucking obsessed with the taste and smell of your pussy. the nights where he can’t come and visit you bet you can find a pair of your satin panties wrapped around his cock. toby just can’t help himself. he loves feeling the feeling of your juices rubbing up against his cock as he imagines runtting against you. it’s his dirty little secret… well it’s not much of a secret when your prairies start showing up stained with a white excrete.

HES SURPRISINGLY KINDA BIG—

now don’t get me wrong… toby isn’t a petite guy, he’s rather tall standing at 5’11 or 6’0. he’s a pretty built guy—he kinda has to be. so when i say surprisingly i mean you wouldn’t really except him to be a whopping 6’0 inches. his girth is on the skinny size but he makes up for it when hes hitting places you never knew existed. his tip is a dark pink, and the prettiest dick you’ve ever seen. you never thought that you’d be saying that about a dick or specifically a serial killers dick; but here you are… your not exactly complaining.

—-ˋˏ [‘Ill give you everything’] ˎˊ

—(Toby couldn’t help himself. He really couldnt. You just looked so gorgeous in your pink satin panties— which are your favorite pair— he couldn’t help but rub against the cotton material. It’s not like you’d mind anyways…you’ve always asked him to fuck you awake before, why not take you up on that offer?

He carefully moves the comforter from your shoulders, peeling it back allowing him to slip into your bed behind you . Toby sinks into the bed, spooning your relaxed body as the curve of your ass pressed into him.Almost instinctively your body pressed into the slasher completely, being enraptured by his warmth. You were oblivious to what you were doing to him.

His aching boner stretched against his pants, and fuck it was painful (from aching not actual pain) as he rubs up against your panties. It was almost like you wanted him to do this. Sleeping in only your underwear? It was like you’re asking him to move your panties to the side and fuck you.

His cold finger tips brush against your damp panties, hooking his finger on the seam of fabric, slowly and carefully pulling them down. toby was careful not to wake you—-not yet. He wants to savor this.

It was so unbelievably hot in your bedroom, almost like a sauna. If anything he was helping you cool down. You should appreciate his kind and just actions by taking of your clothes before you got too hot. He chuckled at that thought, ghosting his finger tips over your exposed shoulder, leaving goosebumps in his wake.

His lips hovered above your exposed neck, sending chills down your spine. Dark bruises soon began to litter your neck, ruining its once pristine image as Toby sunk his lips deeper in your skin, all while his other hand disappeared into your cunt.

You were so incredibly wet, so incredibly tight. His calloused hands slid in and out with ease, your walls sucking him in ever time. Toby was enraptured with your beauty, your flushed cheeks, your rosy lips, the soft whimpers that left your mouth; utterly gorgeous.

“Toby?” You awoke to nothing but darkness with an uncomfortable feeling in your stomach, an all too familiar one. A warmth spread throughout your body like wildfire as the prevalent feelings grew. The sensation— that you couldn’t put a finger on—- just felt so good, you couldn’t help but melt into it.

Toby hummed in response, too busy on concentrating on the task at hand; fingering your tight cunt. The lewd sounds that gushed around his hands was deafening; almost forgetting that you were awake.

“Are you e-enjoying yours-self?” He laughed, curling his fingers inside of you, rubbing up against a patch of sensitive nerves.

You yelped, now being fully awake, clearly aware of the sensation— that is being full. You could only moan in response as his fingers continuously plunged in and out of sopping cunt as your core tightened.

Toby’s lips attached to the crook of your neck once again, tracing over the dark bruises that began to form— biting ever so slightly on your sweet spot (that only he knows of). His unoccupied hand, cupped the meat of your thigh, lifting it up to gain better access for his other hand that was moving at an insatiable speed.

“P…Please, I need you…I want all of you.” A barrage of moans left your lips, as your hand curled behind you to grip the man’s hair that assaulted your skin. Your sharp nails dug into his scalp, tugging on tuffs of his unkept brown hair—signaling your desperation.

Suddenly, he was on top of you. Straddling your exposed bottom half with his thighs, a lustful glint ever so present in his eyes. His lips were a cherry red, presumably from his attack on your neck as well as his hands that were slick with your cunt. You take immediate notice of the large tent swelling in his blue jeans, you could only guess at how painful it was.

“A-are you sure?” Toby hummed, his scarred hands tracing over your waist, “I’m not g-gonna go easy on you.” His voice came out as a whisper, as if it was some horrible secret—a taboo. To which it was, not like you knew or anything— but toby has a secret, commmited horrible sins that can never be reversed— you shouldn’t be doing this with him… He feels guilty almost— yet it’s so enticing… His hands devouring your body as if his hands weren’t covered in blood merely hours before.

But you’ll never know, right?

“I want all of you, Toby.” He looks down at your delicate form, such innocence. Your skin was practically glowing in the moonlight that shone threw the raked blinds, making you look almost angelic. He was scared to touch you, like you would crumble under his touch. Like you would see him for the monster— the pyschopath he truly is, a devil.

Yet, that’s what makes it so exciting, so enticing to see your angelic body beneath him. The danger, the corruption. It only added fuel to the fire, and soon it would become a wild fire.

Your body; merely heaven and earth wrapped into one.

He; the virus, a plague that never stops— pollution your body and everything in between.

Is it really worth it? If he really loved you— he would let you go— right?

“I’ll give you ev-verything. Anything you w-want.” Toby whispers, his hands on your waist crawling towards your chest—drawing secret messages that only you would know. His usual ice cold hands, were anything but cold. They were warm. His hands roamed your body, and spread throughout your body like a flame— he devoured everything in his path.

Your body reacted to him like a magnetic. His name fell off of your lips along with whispered promises and wonton moans. You were meant for him— maybe poisoning you isn’t so bad. Maybe—just maybe, it was meant to happen.

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weebsinstash · 10 months

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Ok so tmi (on the tmi blog lol) but the first day of my Cycle I had a dream that I had just given birth and I was holding my baby and I was goddamn euphoric even though the logical part of me was like “???? I am 22 and broke i CANNOT have a baby rn” and I woke up crying and called my friends like I WANNA HAVE A BAAAAAABYYYYY I WANT A BAAAAAAABYYYYYYYY so basically. Imagine. Miguel catches you in a moment of weakness. And he NEVER. FUCKING. FORGETS IT.

Oh wow girlie those period hormones grabbed you by the uterus and absolutely REFUSED to let go

NO BUT FOR REAL don't look at me but I've been thinking of a concerning number of ideas where it's like, "Reader suddenly realizes they may want a baby and is actually putting serious thought into it and Miguel finds out (bet your ass Peter B tells him, i can see him as a "well intentioned" platonic guardian/mentor figure who sells you out to Miguel the second he thinks you're doing something risky or he thinks it's for your own good) and Miguel starts making all these plans and preparations behind your back to have a baby with you" and obviously I like the extra juicy option of "he found out you got extremely depressed and tied your tubes or something because you either see no point in you having a kid/think it's too late, OR, Miguel was the only person you were looking at as a potential father and you either decide it wouldn't work out or he does something to hurt you and you lose trust in him" so like, the double whammy combo of him being hit with the news you basically walled off your fertility that he's kinda fantasizing about AND you blame him for it

You see him chokeslam Miles on the train and having all these serious anger and stress issues and you're like "hmmmm don't like that" and basically make the tubal ligation appointment that week (but, you know, he'll either interfere before you can actually get it or even reverse it later on)

Like. Ugh I'm not sure if I should go super into detail bc I feel like I want to put this scene in the YouTwo fic or in a different idea i have thats more centered around motherhood, but, picture he catches you in his monitor room one day after you've lost your home dimension, you're having a little more than just a small identity crisis, and he catches you having Lyla show you the model for your life, or what the algorithm had predicted your life was supposed to be like before your universe just magically poofed away. You're just staring at these holograms with tears running down your face and he occasionally catches you starting to reach out like you want to touch what you see. He comes to stop you because he already knows all too well where this could lead, you can't become tempted to break canon and go somewhere else, but you beg him to let you watch just a little longer

"I was supposed to get MARRIED! I was supposed to have a BABY! I was supposed to have a family!! It's not fair!!"

And he's in total agreement with you because, who even fucking knows why your universe suddenly destabilized and vanished. He sees you as this person who has so much promise and potential who had their destiny and future literally snatched away from them and now you're lost and confused on what you're supposed to do, like really he totally understands why you feel so aimless. But watching these holograms is like torturing yourself, and he goes to stop you when you just keep crying because this is basically sending you into a critical mental health episode

"Someone was supposed to fall in love with me... we were supposed to have a baby... would I have been a good mom? Would I have had a boy or a girl? Cant you at least let me find out what my daughter's name would have been?"

And it's like NOOOO you can't hit him with the daughter card, don't you see what you've DONE!!! Gets him right in the heart. Now he's got this massive soft spot for you, bigger than it already was anyways, and he can tell over time you're just really starting to, grieve the future you were supposed to have, falling into a depression. Peter B is hanging around with Mayday like he usually does as both men can tell you're really staring at his baby today and he offers to teach you how to hold her. you're standing there misty eyed twirling one of her little curls around your finger as her dad starts volunteering information to you, "you know she's about XYZ months old now, they aren't really talking yet at this age but they're really curious about their surroundings and--"

Miguel watches as you start talking about children and suddenly get this really really tortured expression and just say "it's not meant to happen" and or some combination of "it's too late for me" and gives him his baby back a little too quickly in typical "I am clearly leaving the room to go cry" fashion. Meanwhile Peter B is like 38 wondering why you think you're out of time or it's not supposed to happen

Miguel's working one day and Peter is trying to shove his phone in his face, "you know I think this is one of the BEST photos of Mayday I've ever taken, she's looking so cute here, you just GOTTA see it" and Pete just won't let up and Miguel finally looks just to humor him because the man is being unusually annoying and, it's a photo of Mayday, duh, but being held by you, and you're clearly looking down at her with watering eyes and the smallest little smile that says "I'll die for you" and Peter is just all 😏 as Miguel is 'suddenly' interested in the photo. "That's a really good photo of MAYDAY, right? 😏 I figured you would like it, that photo of MAYDAY 😏" and Miguel is just grumbling and grouchy bc he sees what this guy is tryna do, but he's still like ".... send it to me later, I'm trying to work right now"

It's even worse if you're a member of his strike force because you're constantly around him, Peter B, and Jess. Miguel just, idly wondering where you are and deciding to walk around a little bit and eventually finds that you're having some sort of conversation with Peter B and Jess and he can tell you look really weepy as the other woman invites you to feel her baby kicking, like, you could not more obviously be developing baby fever, and you ARE around that age, and ESPECIALLY if you live in Nueva York because it's like, YEAH you're still a Spider and YEAH you help the Society with stuff but. Your home universe is gone, your canon is gone, you're kind of. Free as a bird really? But you're also scared because, if someone was destined to love you, does that mean it technically isn't meant to be to fall for anyone else? You can't exactly hook up with people at the Spider Society because of canon or them already having relationships, and you don't exactly have identifying documents if you wanted to try and adopt

I think it'd really reach a stressful breaking point if you and the strike force go to another universe to fight an anomaly and Miguel catches you staring out into the crowd of people you just saved and he sees what youre looking at instantly and his heart sinks. Another you, another normal you, never bitten by a Spider, is standing there with her husband and her little sputtering baby, and he has to all but drag you away as you cry "it's not fair, it's not fair, why does SHE get a normal life!!"

Sidebar for a moment, I think that's probably also one thing that would be so INFURIATING about the doppelganger stealing your life story because THEY have a home universe and YOU don't. They take your life, they take literally everything you have left, your friends, your sense of community, your literal purpose. I've already decided on YTs motivations but could you imagine you finding out YouTwo actually has a decent life and maybe even a husband and kid of their own and you're just furious because they're basically abandoning their duties back home not only as a Spider but as a parent/spouse to steal what YOU have? You can't kill them because it would break their canon and kill like countless people but Miguel and the others would def let you beat the shit out of your evil double and get some of your anger out. Like. Jesus could you imagine Miguel kicks you out thinking you're the fake and after you're gone, YouTwo breaks canon and that's what exposes them, or theyre exposed when they eventually take a trip back home and get caught. The Society's regret, the guilt, the anger, just marinate me with the drama

But anyways back to Being Sad and Babycrazy, you go missing one day and Miguel has to decide what to do when he finally tracks your bracelet and you're back in THAT dimension again. He has to physically track you down using your bracelet's signal because you refuse to answer his messages and you're, in the home of the other you while she takes a brief nap, in the nursery, holding her baby. Miguel quietly climbs through the window and you're in a rocking chair and you've got her hugged to your chest and your eyes are closed and you sense him and, obviously cry because you know you have to leave. Unlike with the holograms he doesn't give you any leeway on this, putting his foot down that this has to end here, this cant go on, this is already so dangerous. And, you're good for him and understand, leaving the baby back in its crib as you and Miguel warp away. You're heartbroken but ultimately understanding when he has to disable your watch's ability to visit that specific dimension again, and you're obviously extremely depressed for a while, having multiple Spiders coming to check in on you as word spreads around that you aren't doing well

I can just see Reader becoming kind of desperate because the only options for a baby you really have left is to either 1. get a serious relationship, which you're scared of because you have to trust that person and who can you even pick, you're nervous about breaking canon or something, or 2. Get some random person to impregnate you so you can run off with the baby

Miguel gets a call from Peter B that you went to a bar and you're EXTREMELY wasted as you try to pick someone, ANYONE up and like, you have admirers for sure but there's enough decent people around to keep the creeps in line, clearly you are in a vulnerable state of mind right now, and Miguel gets to tote your drunken ass back home as you drunkenly word vomit all your feelings to him because, unfortunately for you, he has your trust, and you need comfort right now, and you even ask him about what being a parent was like for him. You encouragingly tell him he shouldn't give up if he still wants kids, you trying to be genuinely nice and not trying to imply anything, blubbering about how he deserves to still be happy and he's still got time, and here's Miguel who's practically tracking your cycles at this point, TOTALLY not going to use anything you say to him while you're piss-drunk against you

Especially if you add ABO into the mix and you have a Miguel who's either Alpha/Omega and is already babycrazy af and he sees you literally fucking YEARNING for it, like. You've got a 6'9" Alpha basically looking at you, his poor lil Omega crush, with the big yandere goo goo eyes and how you need all this love and support and stability and how you're in need of a proper husband and of course he's all too willing to volunteer himself for the job. Even if he's too awkward to come right out to you and say it, he'll be thinking in his head and planning behind your back ways to take care of you, keep you away from any drugs/alcohol (no more smoking weed with metro boomin Spiderman, you've gotta detox your body to have a baby! Also, different concept but, Miguel basically keeping you in a bubble to control all your meals and recreational activities and all of that so he can make sure you're perfectly healthy for a baby)

Don't let this man catch you slipping up! Throw you to the Spider Society and you'll come back pregnant 😭 he sees you so depressed and wanting a baby and it's like well, if your life needs new meaning, he can help literally make one for you 😏 he's been feeling protective and nurturing of you anyways, so, it's an extra benefit for him to think of getting to have both you AND a little baby of your very own ❤️

#yandere miguel o'hara #miguel o'hara x reader #yandere spidereverse #sinprompts #yandere stuff #godddd listening to light the city up reallt gets me hyped

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factual-fantasy · 3 months

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23 ASKS! THANK YOU! :DD 🐟

@timestorm04

1: Captain Barnacles! :DD

2: One of the reasons why I redrew them suddenly was because I was thinking of re-writing my Octonauts Sea dwellers AU :0 But I'm going back on that now tbh.. :///

They didn't figure it out and they did end up booking it. I mean,, can you really blame them?

We know Papyrus, and all of us would absolutely give him the benefit of the doubt and assume he was innocent. But Seam and Jevil don't know the Papyrus we know.

All Seam sees is an absolute mountain of bodies and an state of utter decay all around him.. with suspiciously the last man standing being a very clearly mentally unstable skeleton.. would you assume he was innocent?

Add onto that all the stress Seam was under, how unstable he was as well. Seam couldn't see the situation any other way and he was not taking any chances.

AAA THANK YOU!! IM SO GLAD TO HEAR THAT YOU LIKE THEM!! :DDDD

@foxythefox711

I don't watch Adventure time currently and I don't know all the nitty gritty of the shows lore.. but my favorite characters from what I've seen is Simon! With Jake as a close second. :} Also Prismo is 3rd I think-

f...fank youu!!

(Also the protons joke got a laugh outa me XDD )

:DD Thank you so much! I'm glad you like how I draw them!! :}}

@couchwow

oh ok

Wait are the characters from the game actually baked in an oven to be "born"?? I didn't know that--

@taizarack

:DD I'm glad you like them! And although I don't have either game, I hope to learn a little more about the games lore :0

@chickenheadguy (Link in question)

Oh! Thank you! Lemme just take a look an--

170 VIDEOS??

GORL THEY WEREN'T LYING THOSE COOKIES GOT LORE-

(Also thank you for the compliments and the link! :DD )

@luna-purple454

NO HE DOESN'T GET KILLED-- Seam and Jevil just jump to another AU as soon as Jevil had the strength to. Leaving Papyrus behind in the process..

(Also thank you!! :DD )

@torriderrelic44

I don't have any plans to draw any art like that, no.. sorry! <:/

YES. YES IT DOES. But its not the people who go "ohmygosh I LOVE this (AU/thing) you made! Its wonderful! Do you have any plans to continue it someday.? If not that's ok! Just wondering!" Those guys are fine and I take it as a compliment actually!

Its the people who say things like "When are you gonna finish this" "Why did you stop drawing this" "How long until you draw this again" "I don't like what you're drawing, now go back to this it was better" comments like THOSE, suck. And its always about the same comics/subjects that I stopped drawing months ago. Looking at you Octonauts crab comic

As for my AUs, its not too hard for me to remember all of them. I never have more than 5-6 per fandom. I can usually list them off by memory! :0

Tbh the animatronics would probably just register that as a mess/hazard and would notify an employee about the issue. In which the employee would dispatch a mop bot to go clean it up. I imagine it unfortunately happens often enough that the bots aren't really fazed. Kids amirite-

I have drawn her at least twice from recent memory! Once in this horror post, and she makes an appearance in part 1 of my FNAF AU recap/repair! :00

The reason why I rarely draw her is becuase of the plans I have for her in my AU. She is meant to be very mysterious and I want the changes I made to her in my re-write to be a surprise-

Also thank you! I'm glad you like my cookie run creatures! :}}}

WAAAA THAK YOU SO MUCH!!!😭😭💖😭

I'm not sure actually.. idk if the characters from the games are aware that they are "cookies" in the sense that they are meant to be eaten- So I'm not sure how my characters would react either-

Its related to the names of the drivers, I cant share anything else! :x

@mumble-jumble-gallery (Post in question)

Magic candy..? Huh- well I'm glad it isn't world shattering at least-- <XDD

@ravenslog

THANK YIU!! :DDD

:DD Thank you so much! I'll be sure to draw them again sometime XD

@beryl-shade

Sorry for the late reply! This ask got buried-

If you look to this post for reference, I was thinking that Fredbear would be as tall as Bonnie. Maybe a little taller.? And Spring Bonnie would be about as tall as Foxy :00

#my response #fnaf security breach #octonauts #undertale #deltarune #seam deltarune #cookie run #cookie run kingdom #cookie run ocs #my ocs

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majjiktricks · 6 days

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Can you explain why you think Ocelot likes Kaz? I was always under the impression that they fought like cat and dog (sorry I couldn't resist).

this took a while to answer because i wanted to go back through some of the mgsv tapes with ocelot and kaz but. mainly, what you thought is entirely untrue. whatever antagonism exists in their relationship, it feels like the fandom has blown WAYYY out of proportion.

the ONLY point of contention i can think of off the top of my head is kaz being jealous of ocelot for knowing bb longer. in the tape where kaz is talking to zero about where bb is during his coma, zero mentions an agent who has known bb 10 years longer than kaz has, and kaz SCOFFS, like he cant believe someone would know bb better than him. but also, this tape is set almost immediately after ground zeroes, so who knows how his feelings might have changed over the years.

the only time ocelot seems to get genuinely angry at kaz is when hes accusing quiet of. well. anything he accuses her of. kaz tends to do so without any evidence, and he doesnt trust her (for justified reasons), but he also blames her for a lot of things. ocelot is the only person on mother base willing to defend her. and he never yells, he just logically rebukes and kaz is the one who fights back.

any time ocelot speaks about kaz without him present, he really only praises him. he obviously is impressed at what he and bb accomplished in founding MSF.

thats just what i can remember. going for evidence now, grabbed some of the tapes that have ocelot AND kaz in them:

Bionic arm tape Ocelot: "I couldn't get [a bionic arm] for you at the time, but y'know, now…" ocelot offers to get bionics for kaz, he wants to make kaz's life easier. kaz refuses i think out of a self-punishing sentiment, not out of resentment or denial of ocelot's help. that because all of his men died, hes not allowed to have it. and he gets heated and angry about it, nearly yelling. but then he apologizes, realizing he wasnt actually angry at ocelot, just venting.

Yellow cake and the Shinkolobe Mine tapes ocelot and kaz theorizing about why the shinkolobwe mine was reopened/being mined for uranium. the conversation honestly sounds like they could be on a lunch break just chilling.

The Children Escape tapes in [2] they disagree over who should interrogate eli. ocelot doesnt think kaz can responsibly question the kids, so he steps up to do it instead. kaz dismisses him and his expertise at interrogation because he thinks ocelot will enjoy it too much. ocelot is definitely offended, and they do argue here, but i think this is because of the topic at hand and not indicative of their other conversations.

Huey's Interrogation Tapes i think their good(ish) cop bad cop routine with huey is very funny. theyre working together to get as much information out of him as possible. and it works.

overall i think they actually work really well together. after all, they spent the time bb and v were unconscious recreating MSF from scratch. also, i think kaz trusts ocelot to some extent, going as far as to put his life on the line to distract from the hospital attack. he depended upon ocelot to get bb (venom. but. you know.) out of the hospital and to afghanistan in time to rescue him.

at the very least, they are working toward the same goals (during mgsv) and have no ideological reason to hate one another. when they DO work together, it gets results.

i cant imagine you can work with someone for years doing all that and still not have any positive association with them. kaz definitely is the type to hold a grudge, but if anything, i think thats a personal one. and im not even certain on whether or not he does hold anything against ocelot once they start working together (during mgsv at least. after the game. well. anything goes.)

was sent some additional thoughts that cover the cutscenes as well as the tapes: all good stuff here

#this is kind of a mess but. have my word vomit.#jazz noises #inbox #anonymous #revolver ocelot #kazuhira miller

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kingcunny · 8 months

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I think rhaenyra and criston cole relationship is meant to be like lolita. Rhaenyra and Dolores are both victims of these men's fantasies, in the minds of Criston cole and Humbert, the girls are the seducers.

What do you think?

i know basically about lolita but i havent read it myself so i cant really make any comparisons between them. but i do think criston blames rhaenyra for *whatever* (depending on whos versions of events you believe) happened between them

ill admit this is kinda a hard question for me to answer. so much of my thoughts about rhaenyras sexual abuse is based on my own experiences, which i dont necessarily mind talking about, but im not sure if i should be trauma dumping on a fandom blog lol.

criston had become rhaenyras sworn protector when she was 7, (hes 23) she had an obvious crush on him, literally calling him her “white knight”. this is fine. kids do this. the problem is it seems criston indulges this crush. to the point that even alicent brings it up - “ser criston protects the princess from her enemies, but who protects the princess from ser criston?”.

(like sure devils advocate you could read this as alicent slutshaming rhaenyra or -as i do- as criston having an inappropriately close relationship with rhaenyra)

i imagine rhaenyra was very sexualized as a child, as girls often are. especially being a princess. “the realms delight” the constant mentioning of her beauty and marriage proposals. being groomed by her uncle*. one way to cope with this sexualization is to ‘own’ it. for rhaenyra to start acting out sexually herself.

(*devils advocate again, ‘daemon was just being a good uncle spoiling his neice!’ he eventually gets married to her making all his interactions with her as a child suspicious)

children exploring their sexuality is normal and healthy, the problem arises when there are adults around taking advantage of that curiosity. which is exactly what daemon and criston did.

rhaenyra wouldve been around 14 when that first *something* happened. (16 when something happens again between criston and rhaenyra, causing him to turn on her) my own belief being that daemon molested her and criston statutory rapes her. i think rhaenyra even initiated these things. no one involved thinks they did anything wrong. rhaenyra *wanted* this. but shes still a child, and doesnt understand the consequences of what shes asking for. but her *sworn protector* should have.

criston blames rhaenyra for ‘seducing’ him and ‘making’ him break his vows, and then resents her for rejecting him.

#criston voice: its YOUR fault i ate the chicken!!!!#this was a rough one to write up #alicent is so sick for saying that abt criston and then taking him on as her protector #asoiaf #my posts #asks #rhaenyra targaryen #criston cole #daemon targaryen

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gayspock · 1 year

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ok yj

literally everyone peacing the fuck out like i cant doooo this shittttttt, coach ben like "um... byeeee" (walks away) and misty having a panic attack bc she lowkey killed someone 2 secs ago, and then the others starting to do rituals in the corner whilst shaunas giving birth......... AND THEN the flashforwards with shauna being . kind of a terrible person... 😭 like i cant even blame her sometimes shauna you have protect #1 here come on woman

LIKE WHAT SHE SAID TO CALLIE CHRIST ALIVE and callie just sorta looking at her like um. as she realises yeah moms kinda cazzzyyyyyyyN BUT LITERALLY . IF I WAS SHAUNA I'D BE MORE THAN FUCKING CRAZY . EVERYTHING SHE WENT THROUGH. FUCKING HELL.

ok im still watching and im about to vom about coach ben just literally playing music in his head and having fantasies about playing party games with his boyfriend hes literally so dead whilst shauna fucking gives birth

UM.......

I THINK IM GOING TO HAVE A MELT DOWN WATCHING THIS

OH GOD THE NOISES OHJHHH MY GODDDD AHHHHHHHRHGHGHGHGHGHGHHG NNONOOOOO IM WATCHING IT ALL GUSH AND MUSH OUT FUCKINGGGG HELLLLLLLLLLLL JESUS CHRISTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

im also so crazy for lottie as well right now god shes so..........

can i also say. van is fucking living the life im so crazy for her little piece of the world i know what tai is saying its all a fantasy but her fucking shop i feel like my eyes are watering can you even imagine bro.......

okay wait sorry i got distracted

but fucking hell okay what i was gonna say about lottie idk okay fucking hell i hope they never confirm whether there is anything supernatural or NOT supernatural in this show i know thats a contentious topic with this right now with ppl saying either or but literally i dont think it MATTERSSS .... its about faith.......... isnt it...

oh god- OH GOD THE SECODS AFTER WHEN EVERYONE WAS LIKE "i knew you could do it" i had a gutwrenching meltdown like fuck the parallels between that and jackie when she was passing over. the everyone surrounding her with happy faces. i thought there was going to be a fucking HORRIFIC MOMENT where that baby was so dead but also now god what the fuck bc that baby is SO HERE so now uhm. where is it. yeah.

maybe they dont eat the baby but even if it dies or if they leave it in the wilderness my god thats so fucked up but ALSO ALSO ugh my #1 WORST. FEAR. ARE The ocuntless conspiracy theorists saying that it's, like, lisa or something because i hate that on so many levels .... i dont want the baby to be anyone weve seen in the future rn bc i just. uhhhhg. i hate stupid twists like that im sorry.

anyway god back to that thing i was saying... of faith... like fuck man the ambiguity the not knowing if its real, if its not real... of whether there IS something out there. thats what makes it so powerful and what has such fucking grip on these girls because ultimately its their faith and what they put into it thats really got the chokehold ... it doesnt matterrrr if theres something supernatural or not .... imo .... and i dont think thts wishy washy - i know it COULD be, if the writing doesnt bring it back but....

like ugh idk i hatebeing a snotty guy but its so annoying when ppl are all about THE ANSWERRSS THE DEFINITE ANSWERSSSS sorry i have to listen to my coworker try to talk about this show and im like just kinda wracking my brain like who cares what the absolutes are can we enjoy the journey of these girls and their characters puh leaseeeee sniff sniff

im also so fucking crazy for jeff. i am SORRY.

"HI VAN?" (HANGS UP) YA COULDNT MAKE IT UP!

also oh god im watching shauna with this baby and my heart is breaking watchin her try to fucking handle it i cant imagineeeee and again the juxtaposition of that and her in the fucking future with callie in the police station jesus fucking CHRIST man "YOUR KID DOESNT LIKE YOU TOO MUCH DOES SHE" HELLOOOOOO

"YOU REALLY DID A NUMBER ON HER" oh my godddd

something something mothers always being these nurturing figures in fiction of being the faceless somethings in the background. osmething something shauna being fucking insane by comparison get me OUT OF HOW I ENDED UP HERE something something trapped in the wilderness being a mother cant get out something something trapped in the marriage cant get out . hey shauna are you okay

i never even wanted to be a mom i neverrrrrrrr wanted this I DID NOT START OUT A BAD PERSONNNNNNNNNNNN. SHAUNA GIRLIE leave my kid out of it leave my kid out of it COME ON MAN

kevyn with a y is a grade Y yucky loser

callie is kind of eating here btw. "that groomer cop. hes nasty." THEY KNOW THEY WERE FUCKING FREAKS

also oh my god shaunas little meltdowns cut to lottie f- hi fucking hello. HI FUCKING HELLO. LOTTIE. LOTTIE GIRL.

IS EVERYONE FUCKING NORMAL RIGHT NOW

HE NEEDS TO FEED ...

YO COACH BEN YOU NEED TO START RUNNING MAN WE NEED TO GIVE YOU A HEADSTART

CUT TO JEFF IN THE FUCKING CAR. VOM.

also my god lottie being the centre of it all like i did have my . sigh i dont know i wish lottie was MORE present in the first season in a sense like i wish there was more of her . but her being the centre and the one theyre both all "against" but also like they all have such a deep connection with her and

NATALIE WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO THE FISH

NATALIE THE FISH DIDNT FUCKING DO SHIT

COME ON NATALIE MAN

BROOOOOOOOOO

EXACTLY NATALIE HELL

natalie being so survivor and the one whos a hunter but being the one who cant fucking kill a fish and is always the oje barely surviving i love natalie

"ITS YOU AND ME KID AGAINST THE WHOLE WORLD" SHAUNA ARE YOU FUCKING ALRIGHT IN ANY CAPACITY .

oh my god that made me so- so- so-

wait

th baby isnt

okay

...

dot dot dot

umm

okay i thik im going to puke im going to cry ........

NO . NO THATS SICK WHAT I WAS SAYING WITH THE PARALLELS BEFORE AND JACKIE AND THEN HER VISIO OF THEM ALL EATING AND TH... THIS IS FUCKING HORRIBLE SO MUCH MORE HORRIBLE EVERYTHING

IHATE MY LIFE

#Egg.txt #yellowjackets liveblog #under a read more bc the ep just dropped and this is rambly anyway #WELL NEVERMIND I WROTE THAT WHEN I WROTE THE FIRST THING THEN I STARYTED LIVEBLOGGING

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ok but now bc of my tags on this post i cant stop thinking about the kids somehow telling him in person that the headmaster ld curtain is identical to him like. forget the context of how this happens there are just so many layers of potential and implications here. like.

i mean it starts with him as cheerful as ever, hands waving and like clapping them together like ah!! ah hello children!! your first check-in!! and they just exchange looks because they know what they have to say and he doesn't. and then like more specifically.

the kids doubted him: theories like cloning or multiple personalities/some jekyll and hyde thing, or suggesting they're the same person, that he's tricked them, or even the implication afterwards that sticky (understandably, but without full context) wonders how brothers could possibly have not stuck together, etc., so like. reynie earnestly is clearly like believing in him and waiting for an explanation with faithful eyes, kate's eyeing him suspiciously, sticky seems extremely uneasy, constance is unreadable and just crossing her arms and like. mr benedict's heart hurts a little because he completely understands why they might not trust him, and he doesn't blame them a bit, but it hurts a little still

and then like. of course. he just gets this fucking. mind blowing revelation that it's nathaniel, of course it's nathaniel, and like. he was already trying to hold himself back in the canon scene with the adults and still lost it a little (raising his voice, generally looking like he was about to have a breakdown, being all tight/tense and talking about how one can never escape the past, etc) can you fucking imagine how hard he'd be repressing everything if there are actual children there? he's just like. tightly slamming that shit down trying not to vibrate with how tense he is because it hurts, god, this revelation hurts, but what else can he do?

(he might even literally be like. okay. i. i. have to go. process this for a second. i apologize. and go excuse himself to just sort of try not to cry and scream into a pillow for a sec. and like the kids--they're not stupid. they're brilliant kids. they can tell they've given this grown man news that's got him on the verge of a breakdown, and they're just like "hmmm". on the bright side it does make him immediately less suspicious because the genuine distraught expression/general distress does not seem like something easily faked.)

and then like. i mean. this couldn't exactly be explained over morse code but does he then have to explain? how much does he tell them? is he more likely to give them the full story--thinking they deserve the truth and trusting they can handle it, sticky or one of the others pushing on the idea they got separated/asking why--or less likely, in an attempt not to burden them with his problems?

the latter might be more realistic but also the idea of him telling them does hurt me. especially because like. a) how would he tell it? can he stop himself from crying? b) what would they think? would sticky still be wondering was that enough, would kate think about how her dad promised to come back and never did (not knowing he was right there across the campsite watching with sad eyes, or right at mr benedict's back with a hand on his shoulder, a silent comfort), would constance--who can feel his anguish and guilt--react outwardly at all? and reynie. dear reynie. this sweet, empathetic child. would he say what i'm still deeply mad no one else said and tell him that it wasn't his fault? is it really his place to have to say that, or is it wisdom from the mouths of babes? like. fuck.

and mr benedict just trying not to show how incredibly upset and distraught he is, trying to hold himself together until they leave, and once they do all but collapsing like a puppet with cut strings, hands shaking and like. just a moment of weakness before he tries to force himself together again, for the others' sake--they don't need as much protection as the kids, but he still doesn't want to burden them, doesn't want to start weeping like a child--but like. also because i desperately want him to be able to cry in someone's arms so like also. bc it's kind of much worse and he knows his brother is just on the island not even far away (OH GOD SOMETHING ELSE JUST OCCURRED TO ME HANG ON) and he had to relive that whole story much sooner while also being even more tightly controlling his emotions about it so like they leave and he just. nearly immediately crumples. like. just. he's shaking, trying to keep it in but he just can't he's on the verge of an actual panic attack and by the time they get him to calm down even marginally he just. can't stop himself from weeping anymore. god fuck im in so much pain

but also hey okay it occurs to me that if they are literally on the island because shenanigans reasons he doesn't need to demand a boat he might literally try and just walk off to curtain's office ldkgjfghh WHICH i mean. they'd probably stop him, and it would still be dangerous to just walk onto campus willy nilly but like also. the image of mr benedict, distraught, eyes red-rimmed, clearly on the verge of a panic attack, just marching onto campus literally minutes after finding out the truth and kicking in curtain's door like WE NEED TO TALK NATHANIEL is both deeply distressing and also very very funny.

curtain realizing his brother was hiding in the woods and literally just now like two minutes ago found he was the sender: hm. you know. this dramatically undercuts the monologue i had planned. there there? listen, please calm down so i can monologue at you. look, i'm patting your back, that fixes "feelings" right? mr benedict sobbing into his hands: ive told you like a million times that isn't how feelings work nathaniel

but also just like. not to undercut the comedy but the genuine like. amount of distress this image causes me. like. he's just distraught, literally about to have a panic attack, on the verge of tears and not thinking straight and just bursting into his office (on one hand the others in tow trying to stop him on the other hand if that's what happened they could probably simply put him over milligan's shoulder (or number two's for that matter) and carry him away + emotional impact of it being just them) like you. it's been you this whole time. you tried to kidnap me, you started the emergency, you hurt my friends and invaded my home, you stole milligan's memories, you hurt children. it's been you the whole time. you never tried to find me, you never tried to reach out, and you've been hurting people. not to mention like how does curtain even respond to this shit he's just minding his own business doing evil headmaster shit when his twin bursts in disheveled on the verge of a mental breakdown guards on his heels

anyway my point is the kids telling mr benedict about the sender's identity in person is. mmmmmmmm ouch<3

#and then catapulting back into shenanigans mr benedict just regularly going onto campus impersonating his brother #they got kate to steal one of his suits and some bad hair gel #he confuses everyone #at some point just. accidentally runs into real curtain. spiderman point of pure shock. then mr benedict books it.#everyone else : HEY WHAT TEH FUCK #curtain running screaming after his double.#the mysterious benedict society #mbs #tmbs #mbs disney #in the woods au

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The saddest thing about the quarry not getting a proper ending is that we’ll never get to see Ryan and Caleb talk about All That because they’re supposed to be close friends, almost family, and yet not once does Ryan show any reaction to finding out he’s a werewolf and (albeit unintentionally) caused the most traumatic event of his life. This should feel like the upmost betrayal but we get absolutely nothing for these two and it makes me want to bite someone. Like, the fact Chris trusts Ryan enough to keep everyone inside the lodge but Caleb doesn’t even say bye?? Does he not trust him enough to keep a secret? Is he afraid he won’t take it seriously and get himself killed? *grabbing the devs by the throat and shaking them like a rag doll* What is their relationship like?

i've never really thought about the potential of their relationship tbh, especially the potential of it after ALL THAT happening... and i mainly blame the devs for that. for like, throwing in ryan's relationship with the hackett kids seemingly last second. and because we actually dont get to SEE how close ryan is with them, it's hard for the viewer to care? if that makes sense? and that's something i feel the game really struggles with....... they LOVE telling but not showing and it really affects how i view relationships within game

and speaking of, it SUUUCKS so bad that kaylee is killed no matter what you do within the story. and this is coming from someone who doesn't care a whole lot about the hackett family. out of them all i absolutely feel the worst for caleb and kaylee, so it's sad that only one of them has the opportunity to live depending on yr choices

youre absolutely right about it being a disappointment though... in regards to ryan not reacting more, i mean. because there's no way he never like. reflected on past experiences and finally pieced together just what on earth was going on with both him and kaylee in the past. dylan describes them as strange and reclusive kids (iirc) and its safe to assume now that their demeanor were heavily influenced by them being werewolves. which makes me wonder. how long has ryan known chris? was it before they got infected? was it after? when did ryan first arrive as a camper anyway?

it's definitely sad but youre right in ryan probably feeling betrayed. of course, caleb and the hacketts in general really had no other choice i suppose but. as you said, ryan saw hacketts quarry as a second home, he absolutely saw them as family. so to now know just how much he DIDNT actually know about his second family, it must be so. man. i cant even imagine what ryan will eventually go through

i think as the hacketts dove deeper and deeper into shit, they sort of couldnt tell anyone outside their immediate family about the situation they were in. even someone as close as ryan. due to how.... legally messy and whatnot it all has become. i don't think it's not that caleb didn't trust ryan, i think it's just that, at this point at least, he physically couldn't tell him anything without there being huge repercussions. which is unfortunate, because we know how much they probably wanted to tell ryan

and in relation to chris, i think it was a bit dumb of him to relay something as heavy and important as THAT to ryan. it of course shows how much trust he actually has in him, but at the same time, the chances of the rest of the group actually listening to ryan is slim. and that's like. that's what we see happen. at the least, chris himself telling everyone would've (hopefully) increased the urgency of the situation. not that they wouldve listened to him either though, i just think there probably wouldve been more second thoughts hearing it from chris than ryan. aka. someone else their age / someone they view as an equal

a bit off topic from the previous thought but. can you imagine how ryan would react to finding out that kaitlyn was the one to kill caleb? sure it was caleb in his werewolf form and in the moment, kaitlyn and dylan really had no other choice, but. there's no way that doesn't eat away at him. knowing that 2 of his friends were basically the cause of another close friend's death

long story short. now that you mention it, it is dumb how we never got more of ryan w/ caleb and kaylee, considering the amount of focus they put on his relationship w/ the hacketts in chapter 1

#ryan erzahler #caleb hackett #the quarry #mine #asks #text #jeyfeather1234 #def talked a lot more than originally thought jgndg #thank you again for sending stuff in! im having so much fun talking abt TQ w/ you #my TQ tag #my ryan tag #TQ #my thoughts

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xxgothchatonxx · 1 year

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8 days until the new year & I’m finally moving on. The last time I did this was in MAY! Okay, I’m scared but let’s do this! WE’RE BACK, BABEYYYYY

And the Beast from the Sea:

* HE MONCHHHHHH

* “He ATE IT?” “He ate it up.” God, I love this show.

* Ohhhh Alana looks yummyyyyyyyyy

* “Jack Crawford, fisher of men, watching my cork move against the current. You got me again.” This shows writing is so dramatic & we just hit the first minute.

* I’ve missed therapy. & this session is great! So explorative, evocative!

* REBA, MY LOOOOOOVE!

* I love the idea that the dragon & Francis are now disconnected after Reba. She’s his coil to humanity, & the Dragon craves her. Amazingggg

* YOU CAN TOSS THE DRAGON TO SOMEONE ELSE??

* God, Richard Armitage, I love how you move! Such a clear shift. So instant.

* HANNIBAL, LEAVE THEM ALL ALONE!!! DONT PLANT ANYTHING!!! HOW DARE YOU???

* WHY THE HELL DID THE “Kill them all?” SHOT HAVE YOU STARE INTO MY SOLE, MADS?? WHY??

* I’m sorry, what is with this season 2 score?

* OKAY IVE MISSED THIS BUILDUP! Ohhh, wings and the tail! Fun!

* Reba & Francis!!! MY FAVS!!!

* Cue my plotting to murder family #3 home video

* NOT THE DOGGIESSSS!

* “I’m not fortunes fool—I’m yours.” YALL

* HANNI IS JUST IN HIS LITTLE SEXY GLASS TWIRLING HIS HAIR WHEN WILL SHOWS UP & PLAYING HIS LITTLE IRL D&D STRATEGY GAME & I can’t blame him. But he should stick to his dusty books,

* OH HE’S SO SASSY!!!

* “There’s a family out there who don’t know who’s coming.” Yeah, William, & I hate to say it, but it’s YOURS!💔

* DONT PSYCHOANALYZE HIM, HANNIBAL!

* “Social media, I imagine. Cant be too careful with privacy settings.” STFUUUUU HE’S SUCH A BITCHY LITTLE MAN!

* LE GASP! I REALLY GOTTA FINISH THESE THINGS. “And I’m not letting them die, Will. You are.” SHUT THE FUCK UPPPPPPP, YOU BASTARD MAN!

* WAKE UP BABE, THE MURDER TEETH JUST DROPPED!

* OH I AM LOVING THISSSSSSSSSSSS

* HE IS REALLY STALKING IN HIS FUCKING LEATHER STRAIGHTJACKET!

* I LOVE THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

* OH FUCK FUCIN FUCK FFUCJ NO NO NO

* WILLIAMMMMMMM😭😭😭😭

* “You gonna kill him?” “No.” WILLIAM, YOU COULD NOT BE MORE WRONG

* THIS POOR KID OMGGGGGG

* “I had to justify myself to an 11 year old.” Damn, William, sorry.

* MOLLYYYYYYYYYY (totally forgot her name so I’m happy Will said it a few second ago)

* HANNIBAL BASTARD MAN LECTER WITH YOUR LITTLE FUCKING BOOK

* OH ALANAAAAAAAAA, MY MYYYYYYY

* “Would you have told me the truth?” “I’m my own way, I always have.” YEAH, LIKE A FUCKING BASTARD, YOU BASTARD MAN!

* Oh, a surprise guest in Jack!

* Hannibal “Trans Rights” Lecter part 2

* I am laughing way to hard at Sexy Glass Cell Hannibal. “You have hubbed hell, Dr. Lecter.” “I often do.” I LOVE THIS BASTARDDDDD

* OHHH THE TAILLLLLLLL

* Oh they are not the best of friends anymore!!!

* Francis, PLEASE STOP

* OH THE WINGSSSSS WHERE ARE WE??

* OHHHHH OF COURSE, QUEEN REBA!

* OHH I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!!! THEY ARE SO GOOD TOGETHER!!!!

* DAMN, GET YOUR FUCKING HAT, FRANCIS!!!! This is why we can’t have nice things! YOU MADE HER CRY!!!!!😭😭😭😭

* Stupid fucking dragonnnnnn

* Oh, this aught to be a very educational moment.

* “(SOBBING OVER THE LINE??)”

* OH THAT VOCAL SHIFT IS MAGNIFICENT

* A sweet man💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

* HANNIBAL NO YOU MOTHERFUCKERBHRHSHIRHRHRBFB OH MY FUCKING GOD

* I LOVE THIS JACKKKKKK

* & yummy Alana OH & INDIGNANT HANNIBAL

* I never would have thought that quick shot of Hannibal turning his head with that mask would be when HIS TOILET WAS BEING TAKEN OH MY GOOOOOD IT’S WHAT YOU DESERVE, BUDDY

* Heyyyy, Molly’s awakeeeee

* Molly, this is NOT the self-blame game! Piling on Jack doesn’t count! Negative points!

* OH WILLIAM Bby nooo STOP CRYING PEOPLE, IM GONNA CRYYYY

* OH WILLIAM’S GOT HIS REVENGE EYES ON OH FUCK WE GOT A MIRROR (mirroring movements, not a mirror for the trick, that was just the fade) WALK TO HANNIBAL OHHH THAT WAS NICE

* STOP BEING SO HIGH BROW, BASTARDDDDD

* “Save yourself. Kill them all. Then I gave him your home address.” FUCKING HELL, NOT CRYPTIC BUT VERY BITCHY BASTARD OF YOU, BASTARD

* REVENGE EYES TO “I’m bored, let’s have some fun” ASSHOLE

* I don’t know if I like that this mirror isn’t directly equal. I get the ✨symbolism✨ of Hannibal finally being caught & pushed into the corner of indignity & Will inching closer to rip him to shreds, but it’s Not Equallll

* All thanks to you, Hanni.

* We have crave change, Hannibal, but not in a “let’s go murder our neighbors” kind of change

* SIIIIIIIIIIIGH FUCK THIS FELT LIKE IT TOOK FOREVER BUT GOD HAVE I MISSED IT!!! Want to keep watching, but I have a movie date with the twin

(Video reaction will be turned into a 40 second audio & I’ll send it over to you!)

I love that this is the third adaptation of Red Dragon but I was still like "HOLY SHIT WHAT?!" when watching this episode.

Speaking of which, now you're going to be up to hands-down one of the most unintentionally hilarious (or maybe it is funny- knowing Bryan, he probably wanted it to be a bit funny..) episodes I've ever seen of any TV show 😂

#myst is me #hannibal #Myst and Nat presents Hanni & Friends

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dogsliampaynedoesntinstagram · 2 years

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Hey Ralph this is probably a weird thing to ask on here, but do you have any advice on how to “live your own life?” It’s so corny, but I feel like I’ll never be able to break the hold my parents have over me the older I get. I’m in my early 20s, but I still feel like a kid who can just never do anything right in their parents eyes or live up to their standards. They always have something to say about my choice of major, my job and how I’m “not making a lot”. Or about how my cousin is doing this and that and they’re making more than me or doing the same thing I’m doing but on a bigger scale. And I feel like such a kid because I still try to do things to appease them to make up for how much I disappoint them, like wearing clothes they approve of or not getting piercings even though I want to. I hate that I feel like such a child. But even more, I hate that I don’t even trust that I’m making the right decisions and that I don’t believe in my ability to succeed anymore. I cant even imagine myself not caring about what they have to say or doing what I want even though I know they’ll disapprove. And we come from a culture where the kids don’t just move out, so I can’t even imagine moving out although I want to. (I’m also seeking therapy through my college, but there’s a long wait list so I’m trying to find ways to manage this on my own and not feel like I’m drowning all the time). But do you have any advice on this or felt this way at all?

Oh anon - it's not a weird thing to ask at all. I'm so sorry for what you're going through.

Reading this, it sounds to me like the way your parents are behaving is the problem and not you. You seem to blame yourself a lot for responding in the wrong way to people whose controlling criticism bothers you. What if you gave up the idea that there's a way you could respond that what stop the way they were treating hurting you. What if you gave yourself credit for what you are doing (identifying the problem and seeking help)?

I've got three other pieces of advice - I've no idea if they'll resonate with you at all, definitely take what's useful and ignore what's not.

The first is read Captain Awkward. Start with this letter and read the follow-up and explore from there. I think she has really good advice on setting boundaries and making space for yourself in difficult family environments.

My second piece of advice is make space to find out who you are away from your parents. College is a really good place to do this - it's a place with a lot of people and a lot of space. There are lots of different ways to experiment. You could start dressing differently, just while you were on campus. Is there an art form you're interested in? Can you join a group of people who are also doing that? Or take a class. (And if there's not on campus maybe somewhere else where you live). Or join another group - there will be all sorts of groups for politics, hobbies, sports, and just straight up being weird together and enjoying it. Try them out. Leave if you don't like it. One way that people figure out who they are at your age (or any age) is trying to be lots of different people.

The beautiful thing (and the scary thing) about being a person is that there are no right answers into who you are and it's not fixed.

You also asked for my own experience - and this is it: the thing that was most important to forming a good relationship with my parents was living in the same city as them, but not in their house. The first time I had a fight with my Mum after I'd moved out was transformative - I didn't have to go back. I could set boundaries. I had control I'd never had before. It's like the entire dynamic of our relationship twisted on its axis.

I wasn't sure if it was useful to say that - given you say that in your culture people don't move out from your parents. But my third piece of advice is that if you feel an instinct that not living with your parents would be good for your wellbeing - then you're probably right.

I'm obviously in no position to advise you how to navigate that - and my advice isn't 'just do it'. Instead my advice is much smaller - maybe start day dreaming about moving out. Notice when people you know do move out from their parents - what made that possible? What resources might make it possible - even if they seem very far away (would money help? certain sorts of relationships? A job of some type or another?)

It sounds to me that you know what would help, but it seems impossible to get. I have definitely been in that position - terrified of wanting things I can't have. Letting yourself want things that seem impossible can be an important first step.

Good luck anon - and I'd love for you to come back any time with more thoughts, questions or experiences. And more than anything else I want to emphasise that you're really young, growing up is a process that you will figure out and you have a lot of time.

#It's so normal to feel like a kid when you're in your early 20s #(and for decades to come)#don't beat yourself up about that

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etherealskeletons · 1 year

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i have no idea what my cousin sees in peter hes such a fucking asshole all the time theres not a single day that goes by where he istn a fucking dick. hes extremely terrible to my dad and he gets nasty and catty with me and my cousin is like “well idk whats wrong with him lol” and white knights him so HARD. shes always giving excuses and theyre so flimsy, its always “your dad reminds him of his oldest son, and peter gets cranky/stressed out when hes near his kids or ex wife, he has a lot of trauma yknow:((” like??? that doesnt make it okay to be super nasty to everyone else. im full of fucking trauma but im not putting everyone else down and being an energy vampire. i cant imagine being so fucking toxic to literally everyone around me bc i cant get over that my ex wife was abusive to me, i cant imagine essentially becoming my ex wife and terrorizing everyone else the same way i was. but this man does, he does it almost all the fucking time. hes even terrible to his CURRENT WIFE, MY COUSIN. like??? wha t the fuck do you see in himm???? girl im gonna throw you down the stairs i hate this!!!!! i hate how stupid youre getting i hate that you allow yourself to be treated like this what happenED!!!!!! i hate how he treats everyone and how she lets him get away with it, i hate living here its so tense all the fucking time hes always so angry and upset

i hate my uncle i had to go to the house today, hes finally losing my childhood home. hes getting kicked out and the house its going to be renovated for someone else. its hard bc on one hand im glad its gonna get a makeover and will be in better hands bc currently it looks like a crack house bc my uncle is a shitty person who hangs out with skeevy people. going there was so fucking hard it just looks like shit i hate it i hated going there i hated seeing the house get WORSE.. i thought about taking pictures of the place but whats the point i dont wanna remember the hosue looking like this i dont wanna remember it like this at all it looks so awful i jus stood there and i couldnt stop shaking it was so intense being there. we ended up leaving early bc it was too much for both me and my dad but peter had a huge fuckign meltdown over it and HE WASNT EVEN THERE?? he cussed him out over facebook and demanded we go back bc you cant abandon family even though my cousin literally didnt ASK US to help or anything and she felt the exact same way we did??? she aws gonna dip super early after getting some plates like we did he really made a big deal out of fucking nothing it was so stupid??? we ewnt back and i GUESS its good that we did and that she also stuck around bc there was a few good things that came out of it. i have some of my grandmothers jewelry that she never wore, her old kitchenaid, and i found my grandfathers wedding ring (finding that and his glasses made me cry ouffh) but go d i cant go back to that house i just cant its too fucking much its terrible i hate it i hate it i dont care if peter gets mad and tells me how terrible i am i just cant handle it

i hate that my uncle screws ebveryone over i hate hearing from one of the roommates that hes gonna be living in his car bc my uncle screwed him out of his money for his methhead on again off again girlfriend, i hate that my uncle always plays victim and shoves blame on everyone else and bleeds everything dry and ruins everything. he does this all the time i ahte it i hate him i hate that hes been doing this for my entire life, possibly longer, and always gets away with it. he l;ooks awful too i just know hes using i know it and i feel sorry for him but god he caused so much pain and upset in this family i cant help but feel so much anger. (but i tried being an ‘”adult’’” i was being civil and nice. being around peter made me realize i cant BE like that i cant hold grudges and lash out bc someone reminds me of my fucking mom or my ex girlfriend. NOT LIKE I EVER DID BUT LIKE.... just being around that made me realize i cant keep holding onto everything, i HAVE to move on and let go. its over its so fucking over dude you cant keep living likethat its so unhealthy and it literally makes everyone miserable)

but i still hate this fucking.. white trash ass red wing fucking family, i hate them i hate them i hate them i hate that i feel stuck i hate that i spend most of my days rotting and nights crying because everything is too overstimulating and too much

#diary

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hiauntyimissyou · 2 years

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Hi Di Duoc, missing you extra much today. I'm feeling pretty down today, could be the lack of sleep. I got off my game at a decent time, watched a movie w Richard until 1:30 which is still pretty decent, then was on my phone until 3. i felt pretty hungry but decided to go to sleep instead. i usually am tired on mondays though so nothing out of the ordinary. i miss you though, listening to tay du ky soundtrack and just starting thinking about you heavy for whatever reason Mom is getting ready to head back, I miss her. I'm glad she has been with family during this tough time. she needs it. I told them I will be back in 2 years , i am nervous but i must. :( I have been gone for so long, i left for so long you couldn;t wait for me. it's been 17 years and another 2 until i come back. that's like 20 years, it's like being exiled for 20 years. i left for so long you couldnt wait. i wish i wish i could change things, i wish i could go back in time. i wish i did more. i wish i could have made better decisions, you needed me. i know you loved me. Mom said out of everyone you loved us the most, while that's nice to hear, i know you loved all of us equally bc i know you, you are so loving and you cared about all of us.you've always been good to all of us kids. i could never be half the woman you were. I'm a selfish piece of shit that cant stand kids and you had the biggest heart and loved all of us so equally, but you had to die at 60? how am i going to step off that plane and not see your face? things will never be the same I miss you with all of my heart, since you've left I've realized how important family is and i will go back to see them, while they are still here, i didnt do that soon enough and now you're gone. Idk why i imagined me and you sitting on the living room floor watching cars and people go by like we did before, and talking and hanging out, and in my imagination it was me older, and finally finding my calm and being with you. but that's what i get for thinking of "one day we will" "one day i will" i should have sooner instead of thinking you will still be there when i am ready. i now know how limited our time is, you have taught me that, the hard way. i still can't believe youre gone and i'll never see you again. i really thought relationship pain and passion was everything but this is kicking my ass like no other and lets me see how foolish and childish i have been, worried about these bums that don't care about me, planning a life w them and forgetting about everyone back home. putting these strangers first. it's these guys that have kept me away from my family. it's true, abusive relationships will take you away from the people who love you; thats what Aiden's dad did. he gave me a child and mentally abused me for years and i felt i always needed to be here and couldn't imagine for a second going back to VN and leaving my son in his care for even a month away. I have been so foolish. So i said, when he is 18, when I am free, I will come back and now he's almost 16, it was another 2 years but you couldn't wait for me. and I dont blame you, it may be another 2 years but in total is close to 19-20 years and I can see why you couldnt wait. I've made you wait too long, i'm so sorry. I love you and miss you so much.

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largemeowmeow · 3 years

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#lol im venting again can you believe. i vent so much on this blog lol #i got triggered by a song that ive never heard before and now im thinking about my past abuse and crying and writing about it lol #its really hard for me to even try to think about that stuff because i was told throughout all of it that it was my fault #and that i was like. a horrible terrible person who hurts people and so when i was abused i was just getting what i deserve #and i think that I still believe that even though im like. pretty sure i was just a kid.#but idk if I'll ever have closure with that part of my life because i still think it was my fault #it really sucks. and the things i believe about myself suck. and i cant unbelieve them because they're so ingrained into me #my life would be completely different if i hadn't gone through that. i would be a different person. and i would be much happier #i would probably be more extroverted and confident. i would probably not be so afraid of taking up space or making myself known #i would also probably still be in high school. i would probably be on track for college (idk if i want to go to college)#i would probably be less depressed #i would probably have less anxiety #everything would just be different. and i know its probably not my fault that it all happened but. who else can i blame?#i wanna believe that i was just a kid but maybe i WAS just shitty. i cant remember. i dont remember much of my past at all.#i just know that at a certain point i gave up. and i cant remember anything after that #and i still dont know who i really am. maybe i am that person but who am i to decide. i doubt my reality so much now.#thats another thing. i cant never believe that my own thoughts or feelings are real. i never believe that what i am experiencing is true.#idk if that makes sense but thats the only way i know how to say it.#like. i dont think i perceive reality in the way that its happening n i think im imagining things or being irrational or #im like. covering something up. i always feel like im doing something wrong. no matter what. at all times.#im done venting now. im gonna go wallow in my sadness and vague memories of the past

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lynnthefrenchtoast · 2 years

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🌱a zhongchi twitch streamer au

ive had this idea for so long and it was originally supposed to be a text fic but im bad with those so it never came out. until now, i guess ehe -lynn🌱

childe's been streaming for maybe three years??

over the course of that time his fanbase has watched him go from 'kid having fun in his basement' to one of the biggest streamers of all time

he's most known as one of the "faces" of Genshin Impact

manz has 'voice actor🎙️' in his twitch bio but everyone knows the only character hes voiced is Tartaglia (basically a promo character think like aloy)

ok- childes so charismatic and his personality shows through stream PERFECTLY

everytime he talks abt teucer his eyes light up and occassionally he appears on stream and chat squeals

aside from being his incredibly genuine self tho,,,,

his stream reeks of fanservice

its all very intentional.

he has this channel point redeem where chat can get him to do anything they want (with few exceptions)

because of this hes had to say multiple embarrassing things

and also flirt with the camera.

his fandom is iffy but childe is very kind to them

he treats everyone like his little brother and sister even if theyre older than him its so cute

and is also very openly bi.

he has a bunch of channel point redeems bc this man literally has no dignity

one day smn redeems the 'questions' one asking what his type is

"uhh i dont really have one? must be teucer-approved!"

chat starts playfully booing at him for giving a boring answer when someone else redeems;

"can you give an example?"

and now, from chat's peer pressure and the part of him wanting to dote on his lil siblings he goes

"okay okay! uh- god this is embarrassing- zhongli?"

chat: from rex lapis?

childe nods, blushing.

rex lapis is a much smaller streamer than childe- and in a totally different genre- you see-

childe is a gamer. rex lapis is a therapy streamer

I CAN TOTALLY IMAGINE ZHONGLI GIVING FINANCIAL ADVICE OK

his chat is like talking abt money struggles and he shares his past experiences with being a spendthrift and suddenly-

$200 Donation from Childe✔️

"....*ahem* thank you for the dono, you could not have worse timing."

CHILDE WOULD.

also bc childe has a lot of issues in the genshin world but hes generally just a fun chaotic guy -> i feel like that would translate into the streamer au

so him watching therapeutic streams

he also just thinks zhongli is pretty🤷‍♀️ (cant blame him hes right)

I FEEL LIKE AFTER HE SAYS ON STREAM HIS TYPE IS ZHONGLI HIS FANDOM REWATCHES ZHONGLIS CLIPS AND TRIES TO FIND CHILDE IN THE CHAT OR IN THE DONATIONS

and now his whole fandom knows hes a simp

chat: "wow childe so this is where our dono money has been going??" PLS

one day hes streaming at the same time as rex lapis and chat asks him to stream the stream

after a lot of convincing, he does (mostly bc he also wants to watch) but is like "if any of you snitch im ending stream immediately."

its cool for like an hour, childe plays genshin with zhongli in the background- and then

"oh, another streamer is streaming my stream? uh, hello"

CHILDES HEAD SNAPS TO THE CHAT AND IS LIKE "WHO SNITCHED."

the person who snitched donates childe like 100$ and is like 'SPARE ME PLS IM SORRY'

and since childe sees them as his little sibling hes like 'okok but im giving ur dono money to zhongli'

so childe just donates the 100$ to zhongli and hes like

"...should i stream his stream too?"

AND CHILDE PANICS.

afterwards they definitely become friends and play genshin together and zhongli mains childe's promo character

imagine childes streaming and zhongli calls-

"hey, xiansheng? im live right now so if its something private.."

"ah. nevermind then, ill ask later."

"wait no- ill turn of stream if you wanna say something-"

"..i just wanted you to kill the oceanid for me."

and childes like 😀"what do you think chat? genshin stream?"

the poll is 99% in favour of a genshin collab stream with zhongli

THEYRE SO CUTE TOO bc zhonglis like 'sorry im not that strong' and childes like "YOURE ONLY AR 29 OFC YOURE NOT STRONG YOU DONT NEED TO APOLOGIZE WHY ARE YOU SO NICE"

...perhaps im projecting a little

either way theyre adorable. everyone thinks theyre dating before theyre actually dating

then sometimes zhongli accidentally opens the genshin chat while streaming genshin (bc hes not used to the buttons- grandpa moment)

and theres just a msg from childe like 'I'll call you later, ok?'

AND THE CHAT IS LIKE OMG

these two deserve all the love

if you're interested in seeing more of my content; like headcanons, WIPs, etc. ;

#genshin impact #chili #zhongchi #zhongli #childe #streamer au #genshin headcanons #genshin ajax

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