#because I’m not anxious

[fictional-worlds-are-exquisite]

I’m not anxious [lie I am clinging to]

#i am not #that’s ridiculous #i am not at all #i am going to go to sleep right now and sleep all night and be good in the morning #because I’m not anxious #so there

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i just wanna be protected and cared for like i'm a tiny kitty with abandonment issues

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #bpd shitposting #actually borderline #bpd favorite person #bpd problems #bpd #bpd vent #bpd mood #i lost electricity for two days and my fp said i could stay with him and his sister.. i love him so much #tho i can’t fall asleep because it’s a new space #so i might go see if i can sleep in his room in like a half an hour if i’m still awake #because i always get anxious when im in new spaces that someone is gonna break in and id be the first victim

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Happy Year of the Dragon!

#non mdzs #lunar new year #digital art #Still struggling with figuring out digital art stuff but I’m getting there #The year of the rabbit really was a special and lucky one for me. Maybe because sometimes it is also the year of the cat. #The energy of the rabbit might not be with me but I hope to have the wisdom of the dragon leading my days #This week is going to be filled with a lot of sappiness so I won't go into yet. #But thank you to everyone for making me feel less anxious and afraid with all the kindness you have shown me. #I have become somewhat domesticated now. I will sniff your hand if there is a treat in it. Maybe blink slowly at you from a distance. #HAVE A WONDERFUL LUNAR NEW YEAR EVERONE! We are all gonna do great B*)

[nerdy-hyperfixations]

I just want to remind everyone that Wallace is canonically the worse one to sleep in the same bed with.

Scott can be a bad roommate in every other aspect but GUYS Wallace is the one that canonically snores and kicks in his sleep.

Scott sleeps like a princess with his back against the sheet lying perfectly straight (and also taking all the covers) and Wallace sleeps semi-on-his-side and apparently just fucking punting Scott in the leg every so often (not to mention he talked in his sleep too) and I don’t know why this is important to me but it is.

Because when people draw them cuddling in their sleep it’s always Wallace being normal and Scott turning and snoring and shit but you’re missing out on sleepy-cuddly Wallace turning and snoring on Scott. Let that cringe-fail 25 year old be annoying. Istg.

I’m talking to the Mobillace people too btw. Not that I’ve seen anyone draw them cuddling in bed (which is a CRIME btw. Draw that. For me.) but like imagine how funny it would be: Mobile stays the night for the first time and the hot-weirdo is a bed-menace, snoring and kicking and tossing and turning and suction cupping for warmth and Mobile is like “I want him to be my boyfriend” THATS FUNNY! LIKE-

#scott pilgrim #scott pilgrim vs the world #scollace #scott x wallace #scott pilgrim takes off #wallace wells #mobillace #mobile x wallace #mobile scott pilgrim #I’m sick of the cringe-fail erasure of Wallace #he might be more mature than Scott but that fucker ain’t mature #(however yes generally he is the voice of reason for Scott but anyone can be a voice of reason to Scott. Scott has no internal reasoning /h #I made an analysis post at one point about how I believe the primary reason Wallace manages to do half the shit he does #is because it’s easier to get the motivation to do them if he’s telling off Scott for not doing them #we know DAMN WELL that he is scared of their landlord #considering he got plastered the night before they had to go #(he seems to drink when he’s anxious) #and because of how uncharacteristically timid he was in his office #(and can I mention he said the line ‘it’s not our fault we can’t afford rent’ and like. I don’t know it feels important to point out lol) #but he tells Scott that they *have* to go and there landlord is all bark and no bite #despite being visibly nervous around him #so. the reason he dragged Scott to see him with him is because it would make him feel less nervous to see their landlord #if he focused on dragging Scott to see him instead of his own worries #but I never posted that analysis lol #but all this to say #um #i don’t know #but I’m saying something for sure!

[justbreakonme]

Most people find listening to the sound of falling rain relaxing.

Most people.

Not him.

He had spent too many nights huddled under awnings and tucked under bridges, unable to avoid the water that soaked him and what little he had to the skin.

Wet shoes and socks meant being barefoot, too numb with cold to notice he was stepping on broken beer bottles along the road. Wet clothes meant that he had only hours to find somewhere, anywhere to get warm or dry before he would get sick, really sick.

He wasn’t there, anymore.

He was safe.

He was home.

But that didn’t mean the sound of falling rain didn’t fill him with a bone deep sense of dread.

She didn’t understand exactly; she knew she’d been lucky enough to never associate the sound of rain with anything other than staying indoors. But she understood enough.

Warm blankets and dry socks found their way into his lap while the whistle of the kettle drowned out at least a little of the noise.

She’d close the curtains and put a movie on, loud enough that he could almost forget until the next crack of thunder would make him jump.

He didn’t hide under storefront umbrellas or overpasses anymore, but he did tuck himself further under her arm, as if out of habit, even now.

They both silently hoped that one day, the rain would be just rain. But until then, they’d wait out the storm together, in dry socks.

#it’s been raining a lot today #and though I’ve never been through anything nearly this bad #I was reminded that up until the last few months #the sound of rain would make me so anxious #because I had been living in a trailer that leaked #and when it rained that meant everything I had would get damp #my bed and my clothes and anything not tucked up in a sealed cabinet #I’m safer now and slowly the anxiety went away #but I figured I’d write this out so it could escape my brain #it’s fine to reblog without the tags and for whump reasons #whump #whumpee #caretaker #whump prompts #whump prompt #whump scenario #rescue #pet whump #environmental whump #pet whumpee #tw homelessness #just in case

[thrustin-timberlake]

there better be some kind of s1 jonathan sims “i’m pretending to not take this seriously because i believe in all of it” type bullshit or a sibling who was eaten by a spider or two gay dads who really like to point out good cows or something because the alternative is that sam is just LIKE THIS.

#he doesn’t have to worry about the horrors because i’m crawling into the podcast and killing him myself #i love him so much but he is making me SO ANXIOUS #GIRL WHAT ARE YOU DOING #tma #tmagp #the magnus archives #the magnus protocol #samama khalid #spoilers #<- kinda? not really

[saturnvs]

equine therapy starts again today for the first time since … october? nervous 🫠

#debating whether or not i want to continue because so far it’s only given me more anxiety #and i’m not sure the therapist and i … match #i need something softer and she’s not always very soft in her approach #+ she thinks i’m ‘too young’ to occasionally have debilitating back pain #and she also did not believe when i told her i was diagnosed with autism because i ‘don’t look like it’ #🙃 #many parts of the therapy Have been good but i’m not always sure if she even likes me that much? she gets frustrated when i get anxious #i’ll just see how i feel about it today although i’m shaking with anxiety lol #let’s just say it wasn’t entirely what i dreamed of when it began #and i’m still hoping for my old riding school to get back to me #i might need to resend that email..

[sekaitransparents]

This is weird and specific but could you do the nightcord plushies in mizukis "solitus utopia"? You could also throw in mizuki themselves if you want to !

not weird at all, anon, this was actually quite a nice break. we ended up just doing the plushies, but we may do the whole card at some point.

#(asks) #(requests) #I’m not queuing this lmao you get this at 5am #we are uh #too anxious to sleep because we have a counselling appointment tomorrow #dw about it

[enluv]

GUESS WHO JUST TOOK HER LAST FINAL EXAM

#AND NOW IM GOING TO SLEEP LIKE A BABY #(I don’t get any sleep last night because I was so anxious) #BUT WE ARE DONE #AND WE ARE HAPPY ABOUT IT #all I have left is an essay I’m going to knock out later and then I’m DONE!! #chit chat with coco <3

[britcision]

Manifesting Marcille holding Izutsumi by the scruff while Pattadol holds Mithrun by the scruff and both levels are just vibing with each other

#delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi #izutsumi #mithrun #marcille #pattadol #izutsumi dungeon meshi #mithrun dungeon meshi #marcille dungeon meshi #pattadol dungeon meshi #just two anxious elves and their pets #manifesting because i do not have time to learn to art good #i’m far too busy being possessed by fics that need writing #ugh they’re all getting too long no short for me

[polyamorouspunk]

Okay so singer of semi popular band that I’ve been talking to I didn’t check my DMs yesterday because I needed a break but I just looked and he sent me a 4 MINUTE AUDIO FILE WHY BRUH I’M SO ANXIOUS OMG

#because like #it’s easy to kind of separate the fact I’m talking to this really hot guy because DMs are so informal #no voice no face just words on a screen #and that has been HELPFUL for me #I mean we were talking about vocal stuff #I genuinely think I might be too anxious to listen to it

[nuppu-nuppu]

Ignore if you don’t want to read about me being stupid once again

#pls dont read if you cant handle venting and whining #once again i am here to say that i am the loneliest person alive and i feel like i can’t grasp the basic consept of friendship and do it lol #like idk how to be friends #i feel like i will forever be sad and lonely #and i know everyone will say you can talk to me and i know that but i’ve just been by myself for so long that i don’t remember how to have #actual conversations with people i feel like i am disconnected from reality #i feel like i am an extremely unlikeable person and that’s why i was all alone in highschool and idk i am oversharing on the internet again #because it’s the only place i kind of feel safe doing it #pls take care of yourselves first before comfoting me or anything im sorry i sound very pathetic #how do i start living again #how does one live anyway #im just in my head all the time #this was supposed to be hot girl summer but it’s once again summertime sadness #im so stupid!!! #im so anxious and depressed that i dont know what to do with myself #im so sorry for oversharing i have a therapist dont worry im kind of taking care of myself #but the eternal loneliness just wont let me go #idk how to be a person anymore #i’m just sad #thinking of going to a church and pretend to be a believer so i could have a community again lol

[montymollusk]

“kids are so stupid these days, the ipad babies are ruining the world, ten year olds skip school and goes to sephora—“ do you have any idea what it’s been like to go to american public school within the last 15 years? can you blame a child for not wanting to spend 8 hours a day in a place where their safety and autonomy aren’t just not considered, but are blatantly denied?

mass shootings every day. funding being cut. school lunches— which were already the bare minimum in terms of nutrition— being removed. those alone would give anyone trauma, but even without those things the power structures inside of the average public school are designed to wring the individuality out of a child. (and that’s not even mentioning the way that neurodivergent kids are left out to dry by the school system, or how any marginalized kid can be tortured by their peers with no repercussions!) it’s designed to be miserable, and yet somehow people are surprised that kids don’t want to be there.

sandy hook happened in 2012, and nothing changed. uvalde ten years later, and still nothing. kids were forced back into overcrowded, unsanitary classrooms while covid was still killing thousands every day— most after having missed critical social development during lockdown, which there was no support for recovering from. children are being forced to see politicians debate the “ethics” of feeding them, letting them express their gender identity, allowing them to access accurate information about history as if their futures are just hypothetical. along with that is the social media boom, where marginalized people can create communities like never before, and those same kids are realizing that the systems they’ve been shoved into are broken. they’re being showed how awful the situation really is, and still completely powerless to change anything.

can you imagine having to go through all that and still pass your standardized fucking tests? my god, it’s a wonder that schools aren’t completely empty by now. we’re getting there though— i can’t count how many stories i’ve heard of kids dealing with truancy charges because of how many days of school they’ve “skipped” due to extreme anxiety or burnout. i’m one of them! i barely graduated in 2018, and the conditions were leagues better then!

people bitch about the “decline in intelligence” between generations, as if it’s the kids fault for the state of the world, as if this isn’t the inevitable conclusion for the public school system in this country. it feels deliberately ignorant— have you not watched the news recently? does it not evoke any empathy, does it not fill you with rage? how in the world could you pin the blame on kids here?

everyone says protect the children, and yet. fuckin sickening.

#mm says stuff #sorry for the rant i’m pissy about something i saw on twitter #people bitching about kids ‘skipping school’ because they were too anxious or depressed #like be fr right now #i BARELY graduated bcos of school shooting anxiety & bullying making me burn out so hard in high school #i can’t imagine how bad my sisters have it now. christ #have empathy for kids these days ™️ #they have it worse than you can fuckin imagine #school shooting mention

[lovingdabeessss]

Yang doodles

Yangs record with having a good relationship with parents is TERRIBLE and she had THREE CHANCES

Like 2 left her 1 neglected her there’s NO way she’s gonna be chill about meeting Blake’s parents

I’m 100% a “nobody told Blake about Raven believer” as well as a “Yang has never so much as come out to her family just expected them to know and wont directly tell any one that she’s dating Blake till she’s handing out wedding invites and even then they won’t talk about it” believer

#yang xiao long #rwby #blake belladonna #bumbleby #ruby rose #weiss schnee #rwby bumbleby #tai and Yang just don’t have a talk about your feelings relationship #plus tai would definitely project his relationship issues onto yang #which would be super awkward because blake did leave her that one time but that’s different #because Blake’s awesome and great and loves Yang with her whole heart #blake would be really excited to have Yang meet her parents Yang would be SO anxious about it #blake: well they didn’t like sun so they’ll love you- #Yang who loves sun: THEY DIDNT LIKE SUN!?!?!? I’m doomed #blake and sun are endless teasing besties #Yang and sun are endlessly supportive gym bro besties it’s different

[teeth--king]

My mom got me this pretty gem but didn’t check what it was, I think it a a quartz because yah know they’re so common, but if anyone know please inform me. The little crystal peaks are iridescent and change in lighting if that helps at all.

#asking because I’m always anxious touching unknown rocks but that’s my panic disorder talking #rock #gem #crystal

[nerdy-hyperfixations]

I think I’m just finding any excuse to draw Donnie instead of being a functioning human and doing functioning human things… like eating. Also perspective is not my forte, I apologize.

@trubblegumm love your AU 💜 idk why I saw your dtiys and decided I was going to synthwave the shit outta Donnie, but that’s what I did lol.

#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt #trubblegumm3k #bloodbath au #rottmnt donnatello #rottmnt donnie #rise donatello #rise donnie #I’m for some reason anxious that because Donnie’s mask is more pink than purple people will argue with me about whether it’s truly Donnie- #like ‘no this is Raph clearly’ #as if there aren’t… other distinct factors #side note that sleeve bugs me please don’t mention it #ughh my anxiety is high rn bleh #does anyone even read these tags?