#because she tries so hard to be happy... ;_;

[critterbitter]

Introducing! ELESA, the new kid on the block! She's a tiny bedraggled child from Sinnoh and not all that familiar with Galarian, the spoken language in Unova. (One day she'll be amazing. Right now though, she just wants to go play in the mud. And maybe get a better set of hearing aids.)

When not bitterly lonely, she’s scheming to run back to her old home. Or chasing the local patrat. Or watching nervously from the sidelines as other children play on the swings. Oh elesa. (loosely inspired by @/noxstrages' incredible comics about elesa's origins! Ty for the food.)

Masterpost to my submas comics!

#art #pokemon #sketchbook #submas #myart #fanart #gym leader elesa #blitzle #nimbasa trio #elesa #character design #baby elesa is a nightmare to work with but im happy with this draft! #her clothes are supposed to be more sinnoh fashioned #and with time she slowly integrates more and more unovan clothing inspiration into her work #one day she's going to realize everything she works on is entirely unovan. and it's gonna hurt. #(i feel like part of her modeling and costume designing stuff in the future would be her trying to reclaim some of that history) #((but also the inherent tragedy of forgetting kantonese because she tries so hard to integrate into unova makes me feel things)) #(((only projecting on elesa a bit. i promise)))

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Izutsumi character study

#dungeon meshi #izutsumi #One of my goals for this year was to spend more time doing art studies. #What better way to start than with my favourite danmeshi character (not seen: a whole page of figuring out her features) #I feel like she is by far one of the most poorly understood characters in the series. Partially due to her 'late party member' status. #'She's abrasive and mean' - 'she's a picky eater' - 'she's a catgirl who acts like an asshole cat ' YES and that is the point! #Everyone in dungeon meshi is traumatized and messy about it but izutsumi is just less polite in how she tries to cope. #Izutsumi is a extremely traumatized teenager who has utterly lacked autonomy her entire life. #She is the epitome of a “If I can just have X thing then all my problems will be solved!” character. And the X is 'Freedom'. #Her epilogue was one of the best and wrapped up her character so wonderfully (WARNING: I WILL NOW SPOIL PART OF THE ENDING) #Because she finally gets her freedom! She can go where she wants to and she doesn't need anybody! Yet...it doesn't fix her. #She is so focused on doing only what she wants that she forgets her own needs. Sometimes you have to eat the things you don't want. #And sometimes you have to face the hard truths that you need more than just one thing to make you happy. #Life is not all about only seeking pleasures and avoiding pain. You need to be balanced in order to grow. #Eat your vegetables (including the metaphorical ones: I am eating more art veggies this year by doing art studies!!!)

[tibby]

SHAWNEE SMITH as AMANDA YOUNG SAW III (2006) dir Darren Lynn Bousman

#filmedit #filmgifs #horroredit #horrorgifs #amanda young #* #mine: gif #mine: misc #m: saw iii #happy mandy monday everyone #today i am thinking about how amanda desperately wants to believe that people are good #that they're capable of forgiveness and change #but she's so traumatised and so lost in john's cruelty that she can no longer see the good in humanity #no matter how hard she tries and how much she wants to #because she is just. surrounded by cruelty all the time that it drowns out the good. #and she hates herself so much that she thinks SHE'S incapable of change. and therefore thinks everyone is. #if people can save others and love others and forgive others then why will no one save her or love her or forgive her #why can't she save herself or love herself or forgive herself #she's not good enough. so nobody is good enough. #because isn't that what amanda's games are at the end of the day? a projection of her self harm? #hurting others the way she hurts herself so they don't have to be confronted with the things she believes to be true? #amanda kills because hurting and being hurt is all she knows. #but also because. in some ways. #she believes she is doing people a kindness. #it is better to be dead than to live with the knowledge that everyone is inherently bad and nobody can change #oh mandy. oh mandy.

[ra-vio]

10H I started in January before a logic virus got the drop on me

#nier #nier automata #nier reincarnation #10H #10h nier #I don’t remember my tags or if i have any #ive been trying to draw 10h since 2021 but she didn’t have a clear design out until the end of last year #or at least a design that i could find that wasn’t from the novels #it made me so happy because just from that one story i loved pod006 and 10H #im sad that reincarnation is ending. happy i wont have to log on anymore but sad i won’t be able to log on again #i also drew this when i was delirious so. I thought it was a waste if i didnt color the lineart i tried so hard to make #when my brain was slow cooking into mush

[musubiki]

potential clarinette design?

(the girl lime dated for a short time during the timeskip to try and get over mochi. shes currently trying to get him to go out with her again)

#the cat witchs guild #the misc adventures of mochi and lime #tcwg #tmaomal #clarinette #art #ocs #original #beta #i know i want her to have short-ish hair #she actually is quite sweet personality wise #and a bit silly and light hearted #the happy type #but made the unfortunate mistake of not being born as mochi #and is actually a bit too persistant which annoys lime post breakup #he didnt think she was bad he just still loved mochi and thought it wasnt fair to her (was his original break-up reason) #and then she started being too persistant which was the official turn-off #tries to hate mochi but has a hard time because mochi is wonderful #clarinette to herself (so this is her huh....i hate her) #mochi: we have some leftover muffins...do you want them? #clarinette: (shit!! its delicious!!!! damn you mochi for being so nice!!!)

[recurring-polynya]

what is the best attack in bleach and why is it la muerte

#chad yasutora #king shit #iconic #if anyone tries to fight with me i will block you #nothing is cooler than punching someone so hard a skull appears in the wall behind them. nothing. #ngl i think the karakura kids busting up these hollows is my fave fight of the tybw anime #remember when little p didn't like chad when she first met him because she didn't like his cheekbones? #anyway she's been a chad stan for about 140 episodes now #but last night (the debut of la muerte) she rated him a '30 out of 10' #'10 for the right arm. 10 for the left arm. 10 for being CHAD' #she also insists he has never lost a fight ever and will shush you if you try to argue with her (i would never) #imagine being nine years old and having such correct anime opinions #she was not happy about nnoitra showing up at the end we are not talking about nnoitra #ichigo 🤝my daughter 🤝chad could never lose

[strangerwheelerthings]

I don't know if it's because it's been too long since I last watched Stranger Things, but I genuinely don't remember a happy Nancy scene post Barb...

This is such an interesting thing to think about because it's not as if Nancy looks miserable in most scenes of the show. In fact, she often looks determined and occasionally excited even. She has smiled before, but excitement about progress in a case, something she's passionate about because of Barb, isn't necessarily happiness. So this is something you have to look beyond face value for.

Nancy suffers quite plainly with survivors guilt and with a lot of trauma. She isn't healed from what happened in Season One, and I don't think she even let herself really start until after season three. Not with so much unresolved. She also hasn't had the help she really needs either. However, Nancy has experienced happiness since Barb's death. There are moments she forgets. It’s only healthy that she's not so obessively mired in her misery that she can't have moments to breathe.

It's been a while since I've watched the show, too, so I can't say if there's a Jancy scene where she's just happy. Their get-together scene was very in the middle of Barb trauma, the wake up together scene is very stressed and rushed. Jonathan has been good to her, but all their scenes are a very mixed bag of emotions with happiness not really being the predominant one.

There are three small scenes from season four that come to mind. The first is Lucas's game. Nancy is quite genuinely proud and happy for Lucas in that moment of success. It's such a small shot, but it's one of a few scenes that show us that Nancy cares a whole lot more about Mike’s friends than she ever says.

The second is the scene with the dog, right before the plot plummets Nancy right back into her guilt complex. She's starting to live, and she lets herself be, for just a second, when she steps away from a murder investigation to just play with a dog. This is the first real evidence that her passion for her work is not just about Barb anymore.

The last scene is the officially friends scene with Robin. It's simply a moment of establishing connection, and both girls are just so warm in that moment. It's another sign of Nancy starting to actually heal. She's happy to have a new girl friend, not scared or guilty like she would have been before.

#yeah I gotta be honest I dont know if she had any really happy scenes in season 3 #i know season 2 is sorely lacking #as much as I love exploring Nancy’s trauma she is so much more complex than that #she does see the good in her life even if it's sometimes hard for her to accept #you're right though in that the show doesn't really let her be happy the way i wish she could be #thinking of some scenes took a second as i tried to determine when she even could have been during the seasons #the source of Nancy’s worst pain is also the source of her moments of joy #care for other people #Nancy sees the good in the world and she wants to protect it but she doesn't always feel worthy of taking it for herself #she experiences genuine happiness when other people are happy #and she has moments of pride and determination in season three #but season four really feels like the start of her taking some of that for herself #in the form of keeping robin close by #of stopping to talk to a dog #Robin is especially significant because she keeps her grounded in a moment where she very easily could have been pulled under with - #- reimerging trauma because of Fred and Vecna #nancy wheeler #robin buckley #jancy #ronance #stranger things

[dustteller]

Esen is clingy, and Ouyang WILL complain about it (very loudly!), but he's half-laughing and not pulling away, so Esen will count it as a win.

#i think this is the first actual painting I post on this account in a very long time #it's been a while since I worked on something properly #she who became the sun #the radiant emperor #general ouyang #esen temur #anyways on to thoughts! #i imagine that in a modern AU Esen is kinda clingy and sappy #and Ouyang is desperately trying to avoid PDA because he's uncomfortable with people knowing they're a couple #but also its Esen so despite his best efforts to stay mad he's actually quite happy to be given affection #they're both very whipped for each other and sappy and it would be sweet except for the fact they're just way too intense all the time. #i also imagine they're both way too loud in public and Ouyang's love language is being a contrarian asshole #so they also manage to piss off everyone else that way too. #they're both completely oblivious to this #Ouyang only notices it bc friend group photographer Xu Da keeps sending him pictures of them clinging to each other in public. #ouyang also thinks xu da is doing it passive aggressively so he never mentions it to Esen bc he's embarrassed #xu da is just trying to be supportive tho. he genuinely thinks they're cute pictures and that Ouyang would appreciate them. #zhu tried to gently dissuade him bc they knew Ouyang would take it the wrong way but also annoying Ouyang is fun so she doesn't try too hard #my art

[finniestoncrane]

said to my counsellor that i wasnt built for friendship because everyone always eventually just. stops speaking to me and she went “ok why do you think that is?” and then when i finished my dumb sad list she went “ok so maybe you aren’t good at friendship” and i. have never regretted spending £50 more in my life lol

#A RANT IN THE TAGS MY GOD I DIDNT EVEN REALISE I AM WRITING THIS WARNING RETROSPECTIVELY #£50 to feel like never trying to speak to anyone again or forge any connections THANKS RUTH #Ruth remember when I said that every friendship I’ve had I’ve never truly known if it’s a friendship or if it’s one sided #remember when I told you that my friend groups always had people who had a favourite and I was never the favourite #remember when I told you that several friend groups have disbanded but not really they actually just made new spaces without me? #remember that? remember my trauma? remember? #because I DO!!! #I was not born to have friends I don’t think #I can’t even make friends with other autistic people or other weird people or other queer people #I don’t even think I could make friends with a clone of myself #this is so guy wrenchingly isolating lol #like girl what do you want from me? keep everyone at arms length like I used to? #try not to let myself get attached to people in case they decide they don’t want to be close to me anymore? #please it is not great advice Ruth #THE WORAT PART is that I literally was like ‘I don’t message too much because I’m overbearing’ #and she asked where the proof was #and all I had was the complete dissolving of any relationship where I tried or tried too hard #so now I’m left in this confusing space of do I message too much or not enough because I have no happy medium #and she knows SHE KNOWS I also have energy issues and executive dysfunction stuff going on #and I know she is just trying to help and get me to think about this stuff #but it was just not the time lmao #finnie shouts into the void

[sysig]

You’re gonna die if you keep that up (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Kayako #And Teisel's there technically #*Die again - he's sticking with his track record lol at least he's consistent #Ghost/Curse GF arc!! I enjoy seeing ZEX happy but I am Concerned for him lol #ZEX be attracted to something/one that won't brutally murder him challenge - difficulty impossible #His affection for the grotesque and monstrous - I mean while it's admirable he does regularly put himself in dangerous situations! #Runs solely on the Suspension Bridge Effect lol - attraction and fear so conflated in his mind <3 #I keep thinking of his human instincts as specifically Max's instincts since it's his body - Max's self-preservation and fear and hunger #Which ZEX dutifully ignores lol Max's body tells him to bolt and privately replies like ''Yes yes in a moment'' haha #His fascination wins out! To his own detriment haha #Although I say all that as though I don't relate in my own way - I have maybe just a few too many notes relating to ZEX lol #It's always been hard for me to get into horror in the way it's intended to spook and scare because I tend to get sad :') #So many monsters and ghosts and creatures are victims of circumstance! Like Kayako! As she is here she's not even malicious just dangerous #I've never seen the Grudge so it's only speculation but it seems very sad that she was tethered as a Curse rather than a malignant spirit #Like a battery moreso than an individual - what a terrible after-existence! It makes me sad to consider! #ZEX reaching out to her in his own way is very sweet <3 He's so biased towards his darlings hehe #In a way being human does suit him - we'll packbond with anything that Might have even the slightest inclination to not maim us lol #And the way he personifies her! (VUXonifies her?) Reading intention or emotion into her actions with no proof and no understanding! #The way he ''tries to read her face'' as if he hasn't been struggling with that this entire time - with other humans who can tell him so ♪ #His pride is so delicious <3 He is so easily blinded to his own shortcomings in the face of pleasure and the potential for connection! #It's no wonder DAX worries about him so much hehe ♥ #It also always makes me so happy to have something fit together so perfectly like those last two hehe <3 #That vine didn't exist when this happened! But there it is!! I love newer memes on older media hehehe ♪♫

[anemoflower]

It's Maeve in the official artstyle!

Inspired by this post by @/jils-things hope that's ok!

#trainersona #pokemon oc #pokemon self insert #pokemon trainer #I tried to draw her in megumi mizutanis artstyle #and I'm SO HAPPY with this <3 #It took me forever to decide on a style for the eyes xD #also to decide on the name... It was hard to find a name that's different from mine but still feels like... me #there are more than 6 pkmn because she switches them sometimes :> #(Now I want to draw Amelia also in the official artstyle... Why haven't I done that before) #;s/i: maeve #;my art #BONUS: since every pkmn character also has a japanese name I think hers would be Michiko #Piers/Maeve or Nezu/Michiko yes I like that <3

[queen0fm0nsterz]

Mono being held by Six, the good and the horrbile.

#little nightmares #little nightmares 2 #my art #six #ln six #mono #ln mono #little nightmares mono #little nightmares six #tw death #tw gore #< slighty... just to make sure ppl with the tag blocked dont see it #uhh #tw blood #these are two wips from two different things but i like them individually so i thought i'd share!!! <3 #i tried my hand at something a bit angstier with the second... six pushed him too hard by accident in the hospital and he fell from one of #the beds. it did not end well. #the first one is a reimagining of six beimg rescued by the bullies #where she hugs mono this time because i too deserve happiness

[peachjooce]

she already says this around ~5 LP, but she only says the last part when you're married

#nikki plays rf4 #txt #i love how subtle her depression is touched upon #like a blink and youll miss it #because she tries so hard to be happy... ;_; #like the difference between her dialogue between not marriage and marriage just punched me in the gut #MAN... #maybe i should hold off marrying her for a few months so i can forget 30% of her event and have a good cry about it again

[mementoasts]

jonathan sims head archivist of the magnus institute london

#IM JUST POSTING HIM RANDOMLY BECAUSE I CANNOOOOOT FOR THE LIFE OF ME DRAW ANYONE ELSE. I HAVE APHANTASIA MAN IT'S HARD OUT HERE #i just started season 3 and heard him mention the graying hair i was like hm.. what if i tried drawring some characters. #i'm actually super happy with how he looks... i had some prior inspiration bc i followed one artist who's posted fanart b4-- #(which is how i first heard of the series) and so i already kinda had a picture of him in my head bc of that (i love their art sdfghgfdjh) #so i was jus sketchin and i was like.... yeah this looks ok. i wanted his hair to be kinda just pokin up every which way in front-- #--because i imagine him constantly running a hand through it. otherwise it'd look nice n tidy. i just sketched til it looked good enough #the eyes were easy because i wanted sharp and tired. the color was just me testin shit out and being like oooo that looks pretty #the outfit..... i just googled some like business casual stuff LOL. i thought it looked nice #bag and flashlight because he's dungeon crawling #he's also filipino for no reason other than i said so #OHHH YEAH freckles. freckles are cute. also worm scars. #i gotta say i didn't wanna put glasses on him but i thought he looked nakey without em.. but also it might be bc i was strugglin w lineart #the glasses make him look younger i think. which is bad!! he needs to look at least 35!!! #i dunno if i have it in me to draw the others;;;;;;;;;; martin i can't figure out a color scheme for-- and tim & sasha.... waauugghhh.... #it's hhhhaaardd because when i'm like reading anything i cannot *picture* characters.... i just get like..... a feeling yknow..... #again i already had some vague images for jon (and martin) bc i saw fanart before lol so that's what showed up in my head #i have a good *feeling* of what sasha should look like but i cannot for the life of me draw it.... #i keep sketching and going “noo this doesn't look like her” <- i DON'T know what she looks like #i've somehow instead ended up with a sketch that really feels like melanie tho lmao #if you're somehow at the bottom of this long ramble i will send you $500. #the void given form

[just-an-enby-lemon]

*One of Riddler 's and Joker's first team ups (and likely one of the last)*

Joker's Henchman: Would you tell me another riddle? An easier one this time?

Riddler: *the biggest attention whore to ever whore for attention* But of course, I will even give you a classic one instead of one of my own creation. So tell me my dear *swinging his hands dramatically* riddle me this (another henchmen in the back mutters he did the thing in awe, for Eddie's absolute delight) what gets wetter as it dries?

Henchmen: Uh... no idea... Wait! I got it!

Riddler: *with a happy expectant smile if a bit patronizing* Hmn?

Henchmen: Is it a songbird?

Riddler: *impressed by the stupidity of the answer* Nope. I'm prettty sure a songbird just gets dry normally. Also why exclusivaly a song bird?

Henchmen: No idea.

Harley: What are you boys doing?

Henchmen: Riddles here asked me a riddle.

Harley: *very excited*Oh! I wanna play as well.*jumping* Can I? *puppy eyes don't wait for confirmation* Is the answer Eddie?

Riddler:*confused* You didn't even heard the riddle?

Harley: But am I wrong?

Riddler: Yes.

Harley: Bummer : ( *muttering* The moment he doesn't talk about himself.

Riddler: *annoyed* Any more guesses?

Joker: *coming from a dark corner like a sleep paralisys demon* I have one! What gets wetter as it dries you say? My hands wet with blood as the life dries out of someone else's eyes. Hahahahaha

Riddler: Jesus fucking Christ!? IT WAS A FUCKING TOWEL! It's an easy well known CHILDREM'S riddle! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?? *looks at who he is talking to* Nevermind.

#riddler speaks with jokers henchies as if they are kids unless they are Joker's right hand guy like Harley Punchline and Gaggy #for some it works particulary well while others find him patronizing arrogant and a brat #on the other hand he is leagues better to them than joker so they tend to at least not dislike him #riddler has a lot of fans on the henchpeople comunity for being a rare if not the only good boss in gotham's underworld #joker always answers the riddles wrong because he finds edward's reactions funny and he is right #joker #harley quinn #riddler #edward nygma #when harley gets promoted to villan riddler gains competion on the being a good boss departament #wich it doesn't matter but it is a popularity context so for a whole month he just tries to be the best boss ever waay to hard #until his henchman decided to do an intervertion because it was getting ridiculous and convince him that they still love him #harley rly doesn't care she is just happy people see her as a good boss #she does uses it as a mini revenge against riddler everytime he is being to much of dick #when she is the first to become anti hero #he throws a psrty that appears to be on her celebration but it's actually about how now he is the best rogue boss again ny default

[moominpopzz]

I wonder if there’s been any times in the PDs friendship where Ashe got really worried she fucked up and, since she probably hasn’t had the ability to keep friends for long at any point since her mom died, she probably assumed the others were gonna leave her and so she started isolating herself again as soon as she thought it to try and not let them be the ones to leave,,,

#I mean… isolations such a hard thing to overcome #she randomly stopped answering everyone’s texts and calls and probably left the groupchat #and everyone else is really confused and concerned #and they don’t understand what’s happening with her so they go over to her place and like basically break in probably #and they find her in her room freaking out and telling herself it’s gonna be ok and that she’s lost friends before #and that she can get herself through it again #ough #hurt myself with that one sorry guys #ofc they clear things up and it all ends happy but like… the amount that when she feels like she’s done wrong #she probably tries to cut them off so often because she’s so horrified of not only ending up alone again #but ending up alone because she messed up aroudn a group she finally felt loved and accepted in #jrwi #jrwi pd #prime defenders #ashe winters #jrwi prime defenders #moomins yapping<3