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flowerbloom-arts · 3 years

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Welp, since two people asked (@xanzusx and @ratdaduniverse ) I suppose I have an excuse to do an unnecessarily deep dive into a character literally nobody cared about that much or bothers to draw before I came along with my thing for all too unpopular characters!

Let's start with a quick tl;dr :

Aunt Jane is (probably, this is more speculative than anything) a victim of capitalism and misogyny working together to create a damaged woman with anger issues and a toxic relationship with money.

How, you may ask? Well, let's take a close look at her titular, starring, and only episode of the 90s series;

episode 27: Aunt Jane

In the beginning of the episode, Moominpappa receives a letter from an aunt from his father's side and it's made immediately clear that he is not a fan of his aunt or the reason she sent the letter to him, it's also stated that Aunt Jane had no one else to turn to besides her nephew to "discuss money matters" as the episode puts it. Moominpappa says that he isn't really scared of Aunt Jane herself (though she is quite scary and a not-great person as MP himself describes, being bossy and not letting people have a moment of peace) but it's the money he's afraid of, he's afraid of having to discuss something he knows nothing about with someone he dislikes, so he takes it upon himself to leave before she arrives. (sidenote: this may tie into some fear Moominpappa has of looking dumb and ruining his ego, aswell as generally not being able to put up with people he finds unpleasant for very long)

Then Aunt Jane arrives on a rowboat down the Moomin Valley river with someone else rowing for her (cool detail: her boat actually matches her umbrella! We can assume she owns the boat based on this and the rower is either an employee or some guy she paid [his mustache is delightful by the way, I love the round little fella]) and she just has this... Very odd blank stare as our very first shot of her? It's an odd first impression for the viewer to be sure.

Jane gets off the boat and the rower simply continues down stream without her, Jane notices Snufkin fishing and asks for directions to Moominhouse, Snufkin gives her the tip and then Jane asks Snufkin if he could carry her suitcase of gold coins for her. Snufkin politely declines, saying he's busy, and then Jane attempts to bribe Snufkin by offering a "handsome reward" in a very confident manner, almost as if that trick has always worked before. Snufkin still declines, saying he just wants to fish. Aunt Jane is legitimately shocked at Snufkin not wanting money, now a first-time viewer might interpret this as Jane being vain with her wealth but it actually ties into how everyone in her life would simply be interested in her money (which is something that'll be elaborated further on) so Snufkin is perhaps the first person in a long while to not be interested.

Jane has little time to let that sink in as Sniff (the ultimate capitalist of the show) runs in, introduces himself as simply someone to help take her to Moominhouse and goes to help Jane carry her suitcase, to which Jane simply acts like a more poised individual and bimbles behind Sniff.

They arrive at Moominhouse right after Moominpappa had already left in the previous scene, Aunt Jane adjusts her glasses and says "A round house? How stupi- typical of my nephew." which establishes that Jane... doesn't like her nephew (and considers round shaped houses as being dumb [which I think a couple architects/engineers would agree but correct me if I'm wrong])

Jane gets welcomed by Moominmamma and after Moomintroll introduces himself Jane's attention immediately goes to Little My, assuming that My is a child of the family, she says that My's too small for a daughter (her expression says that she's bothered by it more than anything), then Moominmamma explains that Little My's not related but lives with them and My says she won't get any bigger, to which Jane simply squints at the small creature in a strange but I guess concerned manner? It's easy to assume that there were some strange beliefs about daughters that she was raised on.

Jane then asks where her "worthless nephew" is (again, she doesn't think highly of him), Moominmamma barely manages to not tell her the truth and Moomintroll saves her by saying Pappa's away to find inspiration for his work. Jane says "When has he ever worked? I'm here to see him!" (Score 3 for putting down her nephew) and Moomintroll suggests she should talk to him instead, Sniff butts in saying Moomintroll knows nothing about money and Aunt Jane simply says "In that case it's about high time he learned! As for his father, I may still disinherit him." (Score 4), Sniff says he's a member of the family and she can talk to him about money, Moomintroll says he's a great friend of his, and Jane adjusts her glasses then says "But hardly a member of the family" (we can see here she only really cares about relations more than anything when it comes to others taking care of her money, perhaps the money was passed down through generations and she wants to uphold that tradition, which is only one major reason she wants to get rid of it)

Snork and Snorkmaiden walk in, Snork introduces himself and explains how his sister is a "special friend" to Moomintroll and basically that they might get married someday, thus merging the Snork and Moomin family together, thus making them practically family already (Which I find just so utterly hilarious, he can be such a weasel I love him). Jane doesn't accept that as an argument (OBVIOUSLY) so Snork explains that he needs money to fund his flying ship project, and then Mr. Hemulen walks in with a very happy confidence (that chaotic metallic theme [you know the one if you pay attention to the soundtrack] cues but then stops shortly, I got so hyped and it just ended like that :( ) and he tells Aunt Jane about himself and asks her to fund his scientific research (assuming Sniff had already told her about it) and Sniff tries to save it by explaining that they could grow a greenhouse of orchids and roses and sell them to make money, he corrects himself by saying "I mean you'll make alot of money!" instead of "we'll" which he thinks might make her more lenient to the idea, but Jane shuts it down by saying she already has plenty of money (showing that she really isn't interested in hoarding wealth, she's satisfied with what she has especially since the whole point of going to the Valley was to shove her money-related issues onto her nephew)

The three guys try to talk over eachother trying to explain themselves, Jane is overwhelmed and confused so she stops them and asks Snork to clarify that he's Snorkmaiden and it goes downhill from there, Snork asks if he's explained his connection to the moomins well enough, Sniff says he's a friend of Moomin's, Mr. Hemulen asks Sniff if he could explain his research to her for him, and they all talk over eachother, Aunt Jane looks back in forth in a confused and overwhelmed manner and then gets angry, then she yells "BE QUIET EVERYONE!" with an overhead shot of Moominhouse (this sort of sets up Jane's anger issues which builds and builds until the climax of the episode)

Moominmamma escorts Jane to her room and tells her that she can call if she needs anything before leaving Jane alone, Jane more or less just observes her surroundings (it's clear she wasn't used to such a simple environment but she isn't opposed to it either) and then sits down on her bed with her eyes closed, looking peaceful for literally less than two seconds before Sniff knocks and she stands up instantly with her hands held in front of her like a "proper woman" sort of pose. Sniff stumbles in the room with the suitcase of gold and sets it on the floor, Jane thanks him and then Sniff stands there and looks around as if he's looking for something and goes "Ehem". Jane sees this and unenthusiastically asks "What is it? Want a reward?" (This is like the most telling scene of the episode and shows that this kind of thing is something that she's used to) Sniff lies at first but then admits it after a second thought, he hesitates and looks around if anyone would eavesdrop on them, Jane tells him to make up his mind and then Sniff gets close to her and whispers that he knows where Moominpappa is, Jane dismisses it saying she knows that he's on a trip (atleast she's willing to believe it? Doesn't revert any of her put-down points tho), Sniff corrects her by saying he's actually nearby and Jane is immediately interested and asks Sniff where he is, Sniff says Pappa said not to tell her where he is since it's a secret and after teasing it with her Sniff says he'll be taking a risk if he tells her so Jane asks "Oh, how much do you want?" knowing full well Sniff wanted to get paid for this without him even saying it, Sniff plays it safe and says she can decide how much she'll give him.

Sniff leads her on the beach, Snufkin notices this and runs to the cave to warn Moominpappa before she arrives (what a champ, that Snufkin) and then Sniff and Jane enter the cave with it's watery floor, Jane thanks him with a singular silver coin, Sniff asks if that's it and then Jane replies (with a very angry tone) that yes that's it until she actually sees her nephew, the two enter the cave with no Moominpappa in sight, Sniff is bewildered by this and Jane is very angrily disappointed that her "worthless nephew" (Score 5, though it's just a repeated insult, it still counts) isn't there, Sniff says "this is very strange!" while desperately looking for Moominpappa and Jane assumes Sniff had tricked her and takes away Sniff's one coin as punishment and simply leaves despite Sniff's desperate cries that he has to be there somewhere.

Jane goes back to Moominhouse and enters the kitchen to ask Moominmamma where Moominpappa is hiding, Moominmamma gasps and tries to reiterate the lie Moomintroll said, but Jane says she wants to know the TRUTH, so Moominmamma stutters and Jane tells her to hurry up, Mamma sadly admits that Moominpappa is hiding in the cave but Jane says she's already been there and didn't find him. Mamma is suddenly hopeful and is like "Oh so he really must have gone on a trip!", Jane proceeds to ask why Moominpappa would want to hide from her anyway, Moominmamma "suggests" that maybe Moominpappa is afraid of her, and Jane gets legitimately surprised and furious over this and asks "But why!?", Mamma says that he's mostly afraid of money matters, Jane exclaims "Incredible!" and contemplates "Afraid of me because of money matters...?" and then storms out of the kitchen saying "He must be utterly mad!" (Score 6)

Jane sits down on the table in her room and talks to herself about how this family is so confusing and only Sniff seems to know anything about money, Little My enters smuggly and shits the behind her, saying she knows where Moominpappa is at that moment, Jane assumes Little My wants gold from her and My says she couldn't care less about her silly gold, Jane strangely enough seems to try and defend the thing by saying "My 'silly gold' indeed! With my 'silly gold' I can assure you you could do just about anything you want!" and My claps back with how it isn't helping her find Moominpappa, this arouses Jane and My continues saying she should forget about her money. Jane responds by turning around in her chair to look at Little My directly and says "Young lady, money isn't something you could just forget about! It needs constant looking after- that's why I must talk to Moominpappa at once! Now take me to that rascal nephew you of mine if you really know where he is, you hear me!?"

My and Jane walk down the dirt path and see Moomintroll and Snorkmaiden being all lovey-dovey with eachother on a tree stump, saying how they love eachother and such, Jane scoffs "Oh, how frivolous!" and My smugky responds with "Not really, if I could find a small enough boyfriend, I'd be frivolous just like them too!" and starts to walk away, Aunt Jane turns to her and says with a very strong sense of longing "Ah well, Fredrick and I were frivolous once..." (With an inexplicable voice change by the way) and My just teasingly says "Really? If you says so! Suppose I'll have to believe you!" while still walking away, and Jane gets so mad at this dismissal/mockery that she almost snaps her umbrella but stops herself and stomps forward to follow Little My. The marshmallow couple notices the two and follow them.

Little My interrupts a game of chess between Snufkin and Moominpappa in Snufkin's tent, she introduces them to Jane as a "special guest" and Snufkin is shocked by her presence, he says Moominpappa's name and he looks up to look at his very angry aunt, Moominpappa runs out of the tent and Jane chases him with her umbrella around a tree and stomps on the ground with enough force to make Moominpappa, Moomintroll and Snorkmaiden hop off the ground (OKAY I'M NOT GONNA GET INTO THIS PART SINCE IT DOESN'T REALLY TIE INTO THE THESIS THAT MUCH AND WOULD BE TOO SPECULATIVE BUT HOLY CRAP??? HOW??? WHY DOES SHE HAVE THAT KIND OF STRENGTH??? IS IT SUPERNATURAL??? HELP????), this causes Moominpappa to fall over on the ground and Snufkin intervenes by saying Moominpappa was just coming back from his trip and stopping by to play chess with him, Moominpappa tries to go along with this but Little My says it's no use since Moominmamma already told her the truth, Moominpappa gets all defeated and Jane asks him why he's afraid of her, Moominpappa says it's not that he's afraid of her, he's afraid of her money. Jane gets enraged by this and stomps of the ground again to send everyone hopping, she then tries to "reason" with Moominpappa on this by saying "It's perfectly good money and all in gold coins! Listen nephew, I'm depending on you as my only relative!" (For some reason her voice gradually gets higher pitched in this line? But anyway this just confirms Moominpappa is literally the only family she has left), Moominpappa echoes "Yes, yes, depend." and Jane continues with "When I get too old to do it, you must look after my gold for me! I'm relying on you!", Moominpappa gets spooked by this and desperately suggests they should just give it away to people who need it, Jane blurts out "HOW UNGRATEFUL!" and turns red from rage but then is subsides, the red fades away and Jane, probably after having a thought, breaks into actual sobbing and falls to the ground to cry even more, Moominpappa tries to comfort her and suggests that maybe they should put it in a bank, Jane retorts through her sobbing that her money would hate being in a bank and it's a terrible idea (which is the start of her talking about it like it's a person/entity which follows to the very end of the episode), Moominpappa reassures her by saying banks are so nice these days and Jane looks up asking "They are...?", Moominpappa continues by describing how they have "Flowers and shiny little piggy banks and paintings on the wall!" and Jane lifts herself up asking "Is that really true...?", then Moominpappa tells everyone they should go home and fix a welcoming party for Aunt Jane, the scene ends with a shot of a sad Aunt Jane looking around everyone, possibly confused or even sorry.

We cut to the dinner party when Mamma is putting the cake on the table saying it's her grandma's best recipe (I have to note that Aunt Jane's face here is just... So sad and guilty-looking), Moominpappa gets up and says to drink a toast to the only millionaire in their small circle and how he hopes she'll live a long and happy life. Everyone drinks except for Jane who simply looks around and then looks down at her glass to sigh, Moominmamma asks what's wrong and Jane says "Never in my life have I and my money felt ourselves so welcomed before, I'm so happy I could cry" (jeez woman that is actually sad to hear considering just earlier that day 3 complete strangers went to her asking for money and her nephew literally tried to hide from her before she even arrived, that must've been one heck of a welcoming party) and then she genuinely starts crying saying "And once you start crying- you just wanna go on and on-" and proceeds to sob a bit and says "Oh dear- oh deAr- Moominmamma-" and looks up "Moominpappa-?" Moominpappa answers and she says "I'll put some of my gold in a bag, but you must look after the rest when I'm too old!", Moominpappa hesitates and then Jane snaps into anger mode by asking "Why not?" and slamming her fists against the table, Moominpappa sheepishly describes how they'll take care of it and Jane says it's not what she had in mind though it does sound nice and sufficient, but then she says how the money will miss her. She decides then and there that she'll leave the suitcase of gold to Moominpappa so they can "get sorta used to eachother" and use it as they please, even complimenting the flying ship and botanical research funding as rather splendid. Everyone is happy except Sniff who laments he should've gotten a better idea than flowers, and the episode ends with Jane smiling and a pan out of the house as the narrator closes off the episode.

Alright so already we have quite alot to unpack here and it's all gonna get a bit rambly and jumbled if I don't segment it into specific parts so let's do that. We're gonna put allllll of that baggage into 5 parts

1. Moominpappa and the lack of a family

2. Money is not a good partner

3. A woman millionaire

4. A bitter, lonely maiden

5. Conclusion

1. Moominpappa and the lack of a family

It's been stated twice that Moominpappa is Aunt Jane's only relative, and it's said that they relate through Moominpappa's father.

(Side note: We'll be going by the 90s cartoon canon because Aunt Jane is a moomin comic strip character and in the comic strip Moominpappa wasn't left at an orphanage I don't think, so it's logical to assume they just met eachother because they're family. But we're talking about the 90s canon where Moominpappa WAS left at an orphanage like in Moominpappa's Memoirs/Exploits of Moominpappa)

It's really unclear on the backstory of their relationship. It's unclear how these two met, it's unclear when they've met, and it's unclear how they knew they were related. Moominpappa clearly met her atleast without anyone in his current family (esp. Moominmamma) and hasn't talked about her ever since (given how literally nobody INCLUDING MOOMINMAMMA knew who she was) which to me signifies that their encounter was both somewhat isolated and unpleasant given how he describes her as bossy and not letting people have a moment of peace (which only brings images of some kind of business setting when they met in my mind, and knowing how Moomin stories operate Moominpappa probably found himself as one of her employees somehow). Whatever happened between them has certainly put a sour taste in eachother's mouths, making Moominpappa believe Aunt Jane to be unpleasant enough to avoid at all cost (he probably also witnessed the horrors of wealth which is why he's scared of her money) and Jane believing Moominpappa to be incompetent, worthless and idiotic.

Pulling back from whatever encounter they had... Was Aunt Jane aware of her nephew's existence before then? We don't know the circumstances which lead to Moominpappa's parents leaving him at an orphanage in a paper grocery bag (if the person/people who left him ever WERE his parents), and since him and Aunt Jane are the last members of their family, it's easy assume something tragic most likely happened to the parents. And not only that, the rest of Jane's family would've been gone aswell, leaving Jane as the sole heir and possibly not knowing about her orphaned nephew. Can you imagine being in such a position? Your whole family is gone for whatever reason, you're the only one left to your knowledge, and you have all the money you could ever want in the early 20th century. You are responsible for millions of [money unit] in gold coins. Jane is responsible of that kind of money. And what is that to her?

2. Money is not a good partner

Aunt Jane's relationship with money is extremely weird but clearly somewhat toxic in a sense. We know she has it in the millions and she's not interested in making more of it (though we do have to ask if she runs a business or if all of it is inheritance and nothing more, does she turn in a profit? What business does she work in? How big is her paycheck? Does she work with employees? Why is it all in gold coins? Where does she even live? Nobody knows! It's all vague and unspecified and there really is no point in speculating something like this because there's literally no evidence to speculate about)

Anyway, money is 3 things to her: it's something people use to get what they want, it's a burden and it's something that needs to be taken great care of. It's both a commodity and a child to her, she doesn't particularly "like" having it yet she thinks it's in need of care by someone she knows she could trust, it's a pet she doesn't want since it attracts so many people who want to pet it. By the end of the episode she treats her money like it has feelings, it "hates being in a bank" (presumably because it's "uncomfortable" since Aunt Jane is swayed as Moominpappa describes how nice they are), it "has never felt so welcomed", it "will miss [Jane]" and it "needs to get used to Moominpappa", the thing is she hasn't treated it like an entity with feelings until her breakdown near the end of the episode. Moominpappa's "ungratefulness" broke her so much that she resorted to characterizing her money, and it's unclear if she ever has done this before in her life. It's odd to me, but her life does revolve around the thing, for all we know she's gone for extended periods of time talking to her money when she feels particularly unsafe/alone, but I digress.

Aunt Jane has presumably spent alot of her life taking care of her money and fears growing too old to do so anymore, so she turns to the only person she believes she could trust to continue that legacy. She has enough wealth to do whatever her heart desires, And what is her social reward for having such wealth to look after?

3. A woman millionaire

Misogyny exists. Yes, even in the moominverse, it sucks but it's true even if it isn't explicit sexism. Jane is presumably single, she had someone by the name of Fredrick who she was "frivolous" with but clearly that didn't work out as implied with the tone of her voice when she drops that information, Jane is alone in her wealth and that leaves her open to many people who believe they can get themselves some cash for whatever venture they want to pursue. It has happened plenty of times before in her life and it has happened within the episode when 3 males come up to her asking for funds, of course they didn't seem to care that she is a woman, not a word of it was even mentioned, but it's an issue that may be less present if she wasn't. Nobody is intimidated by her aside from Moominpappa who has met her, Snork and Sniff think they can weasel a family inheritance if they just do enough logical leaps, Mr. Hemulen just assumes she'd be interested from his botany credentials alone, and none of them really listen to her, they just talk over eachother trying to convince her to give them money until she bursts out yelling at them to shut up.

And she has to have some traditional feminity instilled in her, given the way she stands when Sniff knocks and gets in her room, how she arrived to Moomin Valley under a pink shade with curtains, having someone else carry her suitcase for her, being bothered at how small Little My is, her whole outfit among other small things, she seems to have been raised on traditional values, and those values, well, they don't lend well to someone of her status. She can be bossy and terrifying (and surprisingly powerful) but she's not respected by anyone that we know of, nobody's explicitly treated her kindly besides Moominmamma and maybe everyone at the welcome party if you count that, everyone only cares about her because of her money. Moominpappa is scared of her money and every other male only cares to get it from her for their own gain, she just can't win as a millionairess because any care directed towards her is actually care directed towards her money. And what does that treatment leave her as?

4. A bitter, lonely maiden

Jane is very, very alone. Nobody likes her as a person and the fact nobody likes her as a person only makes her more bitter and unlikable, it's a feedback loop. She doesn't seem to have anyone, and I mean, literally ANYONE. We have her rower but he's just a random guy she pays for all we know, she just sits there and stares blankly at the pink curtains until the guy rings the bell and she gets out, she just has no personal connection with anyone even by the end of the episode. Speaking of the end of the episode; she literally cries because she hasn't felt so welcomed by anyone IN HER LIFE (side note: I know I'm not supposed to bring up the comics but she actually cries when Moominpappa uses the word fond on her and it makes me so upset because she's treated even worse there too)

She's angry and alone because people use her for her money and don't care about her, everybody cares only about her money including herself, the only times she'd pay mind to her own self as a person is when she's flabbergasted at Moominpappa "BEING AFRAID OF HIS OWN AUNT!?" or when she feels disrespected by My teasing her about how she used to be frivolous with someone, Little My doesn't really care about her, she just takes her to Moominpappa to view the chaos that would ensue at such a meeting of two worlds. Moominpappa says she doesn't let people have a moment of peace yet it looks like she doesn't have a moment's peace herself, there's literally one moment and it's the one second she sits on her bed before Sniff knocks on the door.

Aunt Jane is both pitiful and somewhat sympathetic, she's an antagonist who's clearly not a good person but she has her own very understandable reasons as to why she's the way that she is. And what do we take from this?

5. Conclusion

I don't know if you know this but uhm, capitalism is bad, folks. It really just brings out the worst in people wether it's the scummy ways they gain money or the problems money causes for your mental health, and in Jane's case it's the latter. It's unclear how she got the money to begin with, I assume it's inherited but I could be wrong obviously, though I don't think that question could truly be answered. Aunt Jane is insistent on keeping her wealth and only giving her wealth away to her own family even if it's the root of her problems, but also Snork and Mr. Hemulen only ask for her money so they can continue with their hopes and dreams, Sniff is well, Sniff, but I'm pretty sure he's traumatized into believing he's only worth the wealth he has so that's another capitalistic problem.

Moominpappa is happy the way he is without the money, the Moomin family is decidedly non-capitalistic and Moominpappa knows nothing about how it works, so he chooses to simply not have it. They simply don't need it with the way things are.

And I suppose that was the appeal of the Moomins franchise that got people hooked into the fantasy of living there, it's pure freedom from an oppressive system that doesn't even give people what they're worth, it's being able to be yourself with a small, loving and accepting community.

But Aunt Jane never had that, which makes her feel out of place in this valley more than other outsider characters do in the show. And like the weirdly smooth and good animation that was clearly outsourced to a different studio for this one specific episode, being rich looks nice, but the cutthroat system of how it's made probably doesn't make it worth it.

#moomins #moominvalley #aunt jane #character analysis #character essay #long post #the moomins #tanoshii muumin ikka #screenshots #this is literally 16 words away from being 5 thousand words #what's a life and where do I get one? /j

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makeste · 4 years

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this is pretty random and you don't need to answer it, haha, but could you share your personal hcs regarding platonic todobaku with me??? 🥺🥺🥺 i'm in need, LOL, and your takes on characterization and relationships on bnha are always so spot on, so... i hope you're having a good day/night!!!!!!!💖💖💖

thank you so much! sorry it took a while to gather all of these; my TodoBaku headcanons weren’t as immediately forthcoming as my general Baku headcanons were. but here goes. the first half of these ended up being more just my general thoughts about their relationship than actual headcanons, but I eventually steered myself back on track.

first of all, this is important to note: when Katsuki says in ch. 241 that “there’s no correlation between time spent [together] and friendship”, it’s not purely out of denial. this is something he genuinely believes, having learned it the hard way growing up. for someone who seemingly led a pretty charmed life for most of his childhood, Katsuki hasn’t actually had a particularly sunshiny experience when it comes to his friendships. all of his closest childhood friends eventually left him (Tsubasa), turned on him (Deku -- from his perspective lol. obviously this wasn’t actually the case at all, but it’s how he interpreted it, and it definitely had a big impact on him emotionally), or abandoned him (that long-fingered kid, who notably fled and never looked back when the sludge monster tried to eat Katsuki back in chapter one. like, thanks for nothing, my dude).

so it’s not surprising that all of these experiences would have a profound impact on Katsuki’s ability to trust other people and accept them as real, genuine friends. in its own way his childhood was almost as isolating as Deku and Shouto’s. it’s only since coming to U.A. that he’s started to make real friends again for the first time since kindergarten. and even then, in the case of Kirishima and Kaminari and Sero, even though I think he does consider them friends, he still isn’t very open with them. because he’s learned the hard way that that can lead to hurt, and I think he’s very hesitant to ever let himself be vulnerable to that again.

but having said all that, Shouto is still absolutely correct when he says that they’re friends. and the thing is Katsuki knows it too, but he’s just reluctant to admit it. partly because the part of his brain that processes everything as rivalry isn’t sure whether Being Friends With Shouto = Losing To Shouto (IS THIS A TRAP??), and partly because of everything else I just explained above. even though by this point he knows Shouto pretty well, well enough to be reasonably sure he’s not just gonna be another fakeass groupie who turns tail at the first sign of trouble, there’s still a part of him that’s hesitant to admit that connection is there, because doing so opens him up to potentially being hurt again at some point. goddammit. why is this shit so complicated.

meanwhile on Shouto’s side of things, this poor lil bubba never had any friends growing up to begin with, so he’s not nearly as paranoid or prickly as Katsuki is. instead, he’s still discovering for himself just what friendship is all about. the interesting thing about Shouto is that since he never had any childhood friendships, in a way, the friendships that he’s making now at U.A. are his childhood friendships. and so they tend to be straightforward and uncomplicated in much the same way that very young children’s friendships are uncomplicated. “I like this person; I am going to make them my friend.” boom. done. friendship is mad easy yo.

and he does like Katsuki! sure, his personality is a bit unconventional, but there’s a lot to admire about him even so, and they actually have a lot in common! they’re both rather introverted. they’re both very serious, and I think this is something that Shouto particularly appreciates, because jokes and idioms and playful insincerity sometimes fly over his head just because he doesn’t have a lot of experience dealing with other people. but Katsuki NEVER jokes around, and he is never insincere. he says what he means, with the exception of insults, which are 90% more bark than bite. and so once Shouto figured that out, it became very easy to figure out how to interact with him. aside from that, they’re both close with Shouto’s Other Best Friend Midoriya, they both have incendiary quirks, and they both tend towards the quiet side (yes, even Katsuki) with the occasional burst of hotheadedness (maybe a bit more than “occasional” when it comes to Katsuki’s end).

and like I said, there’s a lot that Shouto admires about Katsuki as well. he really respects how determined Katsuki is, because he himself lacked any sort of clear goals for quite a while growing up. all he knew was that he didn’t want to end up being like his dad. but Katsuki is someone who has always known what he wants, and he goes after it with a singlemindedness that Shouto is almost envious of. he’s also very intelligent and quick-thinking, and Shouto knows he can rely on him in a tight spot. he’s also honest, and surprisingly principled, and while he’s definitely not the nicest guy around, I think Shouto can recognize to some degree those same types of walls that he once spent so much time building up around himself. and so he knows that to a certain extent, Katsuki’s hostility is just a front. and I think he’s both intrigued by that, and drawn to it. because every so often when Katsuki’s guard does drop and his better self briefly shines through, Shouto can see that he’s someone worth getting to know.

anyways, but enough of my rambling about their relationship, and on to the actual headcanons. first of all, I firmly believe in my heart of hearts that at some point during all of those mentally and physically taxing weekends spent training for their provisional exam, they have each fallen asleep on the other’s shoulder during the ride home. Katsuki was actually the first to do it, and it was only for a couple of minutes, but when he woke up he was absolutely mortified. but much to his relief, Shouto never said another word about it. (and if Shouto still remembers the warm, cozy feeling in his chest during those few brief minutes when Katsuki was dead to the world, with his face smoothed out and completely trusting and his breathing strangely in rhythm with the movement of the car, and if doing so brings him a sense of calm that’s hard to describe, well then, that’s no one’s business but his own.)

anyway, so because life is Just Like That, eventually of course the reverse happened. and with anyone else, Katsuki would have violently shoved them aside without a second thought, and he was almost gonna do the same here, but then he remembered he owed him (because he really did keep his mouth shut about the earlier incident, thank fuck), and so he didn’t. for almost two whole minutes, anyway. whatever. that’s more than generous, really. meanwhile no one else knows about this except for Aizawa, who was chaperoning them that day, and took mild notice at first on account of it being unusual behavior on Katsuki’s part, but then immediately forgot about it afterwards. he was proud of them both for upping their napping game, though. he respects naps.

both Shouto and Katsuki were actually scared shitless during the test of courage at the forest training camp, and if Katsuki hadn’t been kidnapped and everything had instead gone on as normal, they would have both had trouble getting to sleep that night. Katsuki actually can’t stand scary movies or ghost stories (fyi this is canon according to the third light novel, and EXCUSE HIM FOR HAVING A HEALTHY RESPECT FOR THE SUPERNATURAL. you wanna go and get your own dumb ass cursed or dragged to hell or whatever, BE HIS GUEST). whereas Shouto has next to no experience with them and doesn’t really see what’s so scary about ghosts because GHOSTS AREN’T REAL DUH, but even he feels a little unsettled when an undead swamp girl suddenly rises from the depths and crabwalks towards them in the middle of the woods.

Katsuki has on rare occasions been so drained by provisional lessons that he goes into autopilot and forgets to pretend not to be friends with Shouto, which can result in them having completely normal conversations for minutes at a time before he eventually regains enough of his senses to realize he’s fraternizing with the enemy. this is how Shouto learned about things like Katsuki’s favorite foods, and his love of hiking. the latter is actually one subject that Katsuki can go on and on about if you get him started, and Shouto very much enjoys hearing about it and never tries to stop him.

by contrast, Katsuki never intentionally seeks to gain any new knowledge about Shouto because he feels like he already knows way more than he ever wanted to. however, this doesn’t stop him from absorbing knowledge against his will by simple osmosis, and then discovering to his dismay that he’s retained the information afterward. this is why he also knows Shouto’s favorite food in return (although to be fair, I think everyone in Japan knows Shouto’s favorite food), as well as other tidbits like the fact that he likes strawberry-flavored things (because he always gets the same brand of strawberry milk from the vending machine during their lunch breaks). he hates himself a little for both noticing and remembering these stupid little details, and would rather be kidnapped again than ever admit to Shouto that he does.

Katsuki thinks of Shouto as “Todoroki” in his head rather than “IcyHot” or “Half n’ Half”, and has to make a conscious effort to use the nicknames whenever he addresses him out loud. more and more often he finds himself forgetting to do so nowadays, much to his dismay. Shouto was pleasantly surprised the first few times it happened, but quickly stopped taking notice of it, as he’s come to realize that the way Katsuki addresses people carries very little meaning regardless, since something like 75% of his actual feelings are conveyed through his actions rather than his words.

Katsuki does wish that Shouto had had the decency to choose his surname as his hero alias rather than his given name, though. he lives in fear that one of these days he’ll be required to call him “Shouto” while on duty. number one hero or not, there’s a good chance he would resign from his internship at the Endeavor Hero Agency before he ever willingly agreed to that.

and last but not least, the number one thing that Katsuki would rather jump in a freezing lake than admit to Shouto or even himself is that he actually cares about him too. and has even mostly forgiven him for wussing out at the last minute during the sports festival. he still doesn’t fully understand why he did it, but he gets that Shouto was Going Through Some Stuff, and okay yeah, he can admit that his family situation is pretty fucked up, so whatever. there’s an uncomfortable feeling he gets whenever he’s reminded of this; sort of a weird, squirmy feeling in the pit of his stomach whenever the subject of Endeavor comes up, or whenever he sees Shouto talking to the man himself. it makes him feel restless and on edge, and he never knows what to say or do afterwards, especially if Shouto goes all quiet and sullen and reflective. he wants to scream at him, or slap him on the back of the head, or grab him by the shoulders and shake him; whatever it takes to snap him out of it and ease the tension. but he knows that’s not the right way to handle it. and more to the point, he knows that he’s not the right person to handle it. and sometimes, if he’s not quick enough to squash the feeling when he senses it coming, he wonders how Shouto would react if he ever found out what Katsuki used to be like back in elementary and middle school. and he wonders whether Shouto would still be so dead-set insistent on calling them friends. and then he does squash out the thought, as viciously as he possibly can.

anyway so that turned weirdly angsty towards the end whoops. not even sure what happened there, since this is supposed to be my cute and funny ship, while BakuDeku greedily hogs all the angst for itself! lol my bad. but don’t worry, they still love each other, and Shouto is still fond and soft and equipped with bullshit-radar, and Katsuki is still rabid and in denial and a dumbass.

#bakugou katsuki #todoroki shouto #todobaku #bnha headcanons #bnha meta #bakugou meta #bnha #boku no hero academia #bnha spoilers #mha spoilers #makeste reads bnha #asks

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For the Ghosts Ask Game!! 2, 8, 15, 23, 28 [Julian], 41 & 44 [Thomas] <3 <3 <3

2. If you could see the ghosts like Alison, which one do you think would come the closest to making you want to leave the house?

I'm so sorry but it would be Thomas and Kitty. The ghosts are all clingy in their own way but these two are clingy in a way that would genuinely make me go insane. I need my SPACE and I despise anyone forming a romantic attachment to me.

Obviously Julian is awful but I've known/lived with people who are awful in a similar way and I think I could cope. Just give him something to do and leave him be. and it's like. yeah he's got terrible political opinions, but he's dead, so it's not like he can fucking do anything with them. I think Robin might be the third most annoying to live with because I do not appreciate being jump scared, he'd probably give me a full on panic attack or something :| but then again, if it REALLY upset me, he'd probably stop, whereas some of the others are not quite as empathetic. hmm

8. Which ghost do you think you'd get along with the best?

Patrick!!!! I think his eternal chipperness might grate on me but not too much. I also think he'd be quite fun to wind up good-naturedly, y'know. I know I just said Robin for the other answer but also Robin for this answer? he's a sweet boy

15. If you could go back in time and live in the house/on the property at the same time as one of the ghosts when they were alive, who would you pick?

this is so tough because I LOVE history but all of the ghosts' encounters with the house are a bit unpleasant. like I would love to go back to the 90s, but Julian's specific 90s?! Nein, danke. Regency, tempting, if only for the poets, but if I'm stuck at Button House I won't get to meet any of them. I think it'd probably weirdly be Fanny because mid to late 1800s is just very inchresting to me. I'd probably end up being one of her bloody maids or something, though, which would not be very fun. I'm changing my answer to Robin because I'm very curious about when he's from and what it was like :)

23. What is something you're hoping to see in a future series, but know we probably WON'T get to see?

I honestly can't think of much, I feel like they'll show us everything we should see, and not show us everything we shouldn't see. Obviously Cap's death is very interesting to me. I would also very much like to see Robin's life and Mary's life? We don't know anything about their partners/children/etc.!

28. Top 5 headcanons for Julian?

Erm. oh boy. y'know this is tough because there's a version of him that lives in my head who is so divorced from the real Julian that it's not really headcanons it's just complete fabrication. and yet it's also all correct and true so here goes :)

- If, IF -- he's not, but if -- he were remotely not straight, he'd be more repressed about it than the Captain, I think. I do buy it when people write him as being so sexually liberated that he's not embarrassed about having had gay experiences or whatever, but also... if he's from a very conservative background, he's going to have Issues there. I have known gay tories and they are a little fucked up.

- He and Margot were swingers and if it weren't for having a baby their marriage might have survived?

- He and Cap are close because they have a sort of public school boy camaraderie, Julian very much has the vibe of leading the very well-behaved boy astray which I think he enjoys a LOT.

- Rich but not like old money rich, y'know. Very new money, very flashy, very ostentatious. Very tacky.

- Has absolutely done everything he professes to have done, but also the laziest person in the world when it comes to sex, so he's never done anything that required much effort on his part.

41. Let's settle this once and for all. Who's the real leader, the Captain or Pat?

Neither, there is no leader, there's just Alison herding ghosts like cats and before that they were all just semi-feral cats

44. Tell me a song you think Thomas would like, or a song that reminds you of them!

This is cheating but I do have a Thomas playlist that's 80% Smiths songs. This one by Moz is especially Thomas-y, but also Half a Person and Cemetery Gates and The More You Ignore Me... Thomas is MUCH more a Smiths person than he is Cure person but I imagine they could not get the rights to a Smiths song for the show lmao.

#thank you Emma!!!#sorry the Julian ones suck it's just too mortifying to post hcs for such a garbage man (in public)#asks #bbc ghosts #I just found out how to do small text which is exciting

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Hey there! I hope you're doing well. So silly ask but your reblog about "there are two types of trainers" with Charizard and Leon bonding/Raihan and Duraludon screaming at the top of their lungs got me wondering. Of your OCs and their Pokemon who would act like Leon and Charizard who would act like Raihan and Duraludon?

Hello, hello! I'm doing fine, thank you for asking!

If we're speaking on a technical level, all of my oc's are Leon and Charizard bonding, cause duh. But this ask is too fun for a simple answer like that, is it? I'm going the extra mile with a quick explanation, cause why not.

Leon and Charizard bonding gang:

Naomi: in battle she becomes more stoic, and besides. It's Naomi. The only time Naomi would scream is for singing. Neptune, her Inteleon, likes to rap around her for cuddles.

Kiran: Too tired for yelling. Has a research paper to do. Bodhi

Jewel: Especially with Suicune and Kuro( Espeon). Both an act real bratty, but it's ultimately a good bonding time.

Aiko: She was trained to battle with grace and beauty, as well as to remain calm as much as possible. Now, Aiko in her nature is an excitable gal. A real go getter, right? So she would sometimes have her Raihan moments. But most of the time, she's just babying her pokemon a whole bunch. She loves them a lot.

Jude: CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT. She wasn't entirely big on the bonding when she started out, but grew to love it as she continued. Sometimes she would just have her pokemon surround her in a cuddle pile( Jude 🤝 Naomi: pokemon cuddle pile)

Dante: Has always valued the time with his pokemon, even when he was not in the correct headspace. Afterwards he felt the need to owe it up to them, so he often is giving them a lot of attention which makes Jude a lil jealous lol

Wayne: Still don't know if he can talk to Pokemon or have some sort of telepathic powers, but either way, he LOVES to bond with pokemon, his own, wild ones strangers...

Danica: Danica is hard cause her whole thing is that no one can really get a good read on her, both in and out if battle. But some of her pokemon would ( mainly the excitable Kit). And Giratina is Giratina. Creepy as hell, but matches Danica perfectly. But other than that, it's just her and her pokemon chilling, making pastries. Probably scaring people of the side, who knows.

Alexis: Leon and Charizard is Alexis and Kai everyday ( more reason to ship them). Kai, being Alexis' therapy mon as well as partner, will always be there for Alexis. The same goes for Alexis. Alexis' whole team would are absolute sweethearts, and as much as I want to ramble about them I haven't touched the Raihan trainers.

Raihan and Duraludon

Carol: Duh. Massive Raihan fan. Likes to rile people up so they can find out their weaknesses ( think Blue). But like. MASSIVE Raihan fan.

Kenji: Okay, I need to go one a tangent cause casual Kenji and Champion Kenji has different vibes that I never talked about. Casual Kenji is a sweet boy, very cheery and optimistic. A good boi. He wears a mix between 80-90's inspired clothing and just anything that looks soft( thanks Danica). Champion Kenji is just Itto from Genshin Impact( visually) except has the colors of Ho-Oh and like one sleeve on. He also has a cool fan, cause why not, he looks pretty. His has a playful smirk on his face, his eyes look sharper than the were( plus red eye shadow), and he acts a bit more confident than he usually is. Then you realize that Kenji has always been like this and the only reason your noticing is because he's in a hot outfit. Champion Kenji is a little bastard and I love him for that. Go off king. Ahem. Also he has a Feraligatr and Dragonite, yes he will be screaming at the top of his lungs. Don't get to distracted boys 😉

Aster: Girl can't really tell all the time, so she has Rotom do it for them. Will kick kneecaps if it's needed. Castillo( her Decidueye) is very chill but is also the type to cheer her on, so yeah. Chaotic grimlins.

Yarrow: Used to be part of Team Skull. Got granted, he was always pretty chill, but if you want a bear down, you'll get a beat down. Not to mention he has an Incinaroar and we all know how they are.

Kohaku and Jin I'm going to but here away from the rest cause their funny. Young Jin is definitely a Raihan and Duraludon, especially with their little temper. Kohaku was a bit more withdrawn in her youth, so she would rather focus on Pokemon research than pokemon battles. But as adults they flipped the script. Kohaku is often bonding with her pokemon via constantly running around and doing random research shit, and just being more chaotic than she used to be. The same can be applied to her pokemon. Jin's pokemon has always been more calm, especially Vivian their Sceptile. So as they gets older and mellows out it's less about the battle, and more about the experience. You would often find them chilling with tea in their hand, watching their pokemon do their thing like a tired parent, lol. They also kinda have to be like that or else Kohaku would die out her own curiosity. Don't be fooled though. Jin is still very much a chaotic gremlin. You should hear them do heavy metal.

I hope this answers suffice @epicspheal ! Also sorry if I got a little off topic, haha. ( Or I didn't answer the question completely well).

#pokemon oc #thanks for the ask!

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alright y'all, a little story time cause I need to get this shit out my system. it's gonna be under the cut cause it's a rant. and it's not long, I think, but it is me ranting. and y'all probably won't care, but Imma update it after tomorrow cause we gonna see what happened with the thing that I talked about.

so twitter oomf's birthday is tomorrow, monday, right?? I asked one of our favourite wrestlers to wish her a happy birthday because said wrestler follows me. I asked her to wish one of my other friends a happy birthday back in july and she did it, but she never confirmed that she would, but regardless she did it. anyway, she replied because that wasn't the whole premise of my message to her, I was actually congratulating her on something, but she said she'd wish my friend a happy birthday. and she was like, just remind me on monday because I travel for work that day. I'm like okay, thank you so much! and I add a p.s. to the message cause it was important, but it wasn't about my friend's birthday.

it was about the spelling of my name. now, I'm not one to get all over someone for spelling my name wrong, I laugh it off 90% of the time cause I've gotten some crazy ass spellings that just broke me into cackles.

now, this lady, and I love her so much, but she has spelled my name wrong THREE fucking times. and I never corrected her cause I was like it's probably her autocorrect. also, I'm a scared little bitch and I don't like standing up for myself cause I don't want to upset people. anyway, I say something about the spelling. and I was like "hey! not to sound rude, but my name is spelled jacquelyn not jacqueline! and I know it's probably your autocorrect, but I'd like it if you checked the spelling first before replying if it's not too much trouble for you! thanks!" you see where I said "if it's not too much trouble for you"?? like who the fuck says that about the way YOUR name is being spelled like no it shouldn't fucking be too much trouble cause it's your name you dumb bitch! anyway, she NEVER looked at the reply. and I'm supposed to message her TOMORROW to remind her to wish my friend a happy birthday. and I am just....

y'all, if she replies to me and my name is spelled wrong, Imma snap on her. I love that lady so much, I'm telling y'all, I love her. but it's not gonna fly if I'm telling you how to spell my name, you don't look at it, and then you completely ignore what I told you about the spelling of my name. now, this shit hasn't even happened, but I have such a high feeling that she's gonna spell my name wrong tomorrow. and Imma be pissed if it happens and I might get unfollowed, blocked, blacklisted by this woman. I don't fucking care, MY FUCKING NAME IS SPELLED IN MY DISPLAY NAME WHEN YOU SEE IT IN YOUR FUCKING DM'S, PUT YOUR DAMN GLASSES ON THAT MAKE YOU LOOK HOT AS FUCK AND SPELL IT RIGHT, LADY!!

my fucking god, I don't wanna have to repeat myself to her but I will if I have to, I fucking will. anyway, tomorrow is my friend's day. Imma upload something for her, fic wise, cause she loves the dimitrescu's as much as I do. it'll probably be the halloween one-shot. anyway, for my sanity, Imma update on how the name thing goes tomorrow. and if I'm in bad mood tomorrow then no fic. cause this woman gets me mad 0-1000000 in like 2 nanoseconds. alright, I'm done now. bye.

EDIT: if you made it this far. I'd like to point out that she KNOWS how to spell my name, she's spelled it right before. but lately when she replies, which isn't often cause I don't be sliding in her dm's like that, it's been spelled wrong. and I have some qualms about it, but I let it go cause ✨autocorrect✨ but not friday, I jumped down her throat about it, POLITELY, and she had the audacity to not even read the reply. and now I'm done with the rant. bye. again.

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find it here on Spotify!

lyric explanations below the cut! (click images for better quality)

1. The 1 by Taylor Swift

“But it would've been fun

If you would've been the one”

As we start the playlist, Luke and Alex are taking a wistful look back on their relationship in the 90s now that they’ve moved on to other people.

2. Coming Clean by Green Day

“Seventeen and strung out on confusion

Trapped inside a roll of disillusion

I found out what it takes to be a man

Now mom and dad will never understand”

Back in the 90s, both Luke and Alex are coming to terms with their sexualities.

3. Smells Like Teen Spirit

“With the lights out, it's less dangerous

Here we are now, entertain us”

Sunset Curve were working towards popularity right at the height of the grunge scene, and I would assume that both Luke and Alex heard quite a bit of this song as teenagers.

4. Now or Never by Sunset Curve

“Keep dreaming like we'll live forever

But live it like it's now or never”

How could I not include Sunset Curve’s own song? They like living in the moment, and that includes their love lives.

5. Everlong by the Foo Fighters

“And I wonder

If everything could ever feel this real forever

If anything could ever be this good again

The only thing I'll ever ask of you

You've got to promise not to stop when I say when”

When you go through adolescence, you crave intimacy with other people. This song exemplifies what Luke and Alex want from each other- to be able to feel, and to be able to experience those feelings on a deeper level.

6. Ocean Size by Jane’s Addiction

“Wish I was ocean size

They cannot move you, man

No one tries

No one pulls you

Out from your hole

Like a tooth aching a jawbone”

Jane’s Addiction was another LA rock band of this time period, and these lyrics about wanting to be powerful like the ocean and having to leave your home really remind me of Luke.

7. All Apologies by Nirvana

“What else should I be?

All apologies

What else should I say?

Everyone is gay”

This song is Kurt Cobain ironically apologizing for his cynical attitude, including the line “everyone is gay” to mock homophobes. It reminds me of Alex- he doesn’t want to be “married and buried”; he is rebelling against his parents’ definition of a correct lifestyle.

8. Freaking Out The Neighborhood by Max DeMarco

“And I know it's no fun

When your first son

Gets up to no good

Starts freaking out the neighborhood”

Emily Patterson and Alex’s mom were probably both pretty appalled by their sons effectively joining the counterculture. At this point, both Luke and Alex are starting to express themselves more, comfortable in who they are and what they want.

9. Hangout With You by Diners

“All I want

Is to talk with you now

And I know that you've got time

You are constantly on my mind

Yes I know that you've got time

To hang out with me

Tonight”

Luke has begun to realize that he likes Alex, and in true Luke fashion, can’t stop thinking about it.

10. Affection by Between Friends

“I'm laying on the floor

We're drinking 'cause we're bored

Oh, I'm looking for affection in all the wrong places

And we'll keep falling on each other to fill the empty spaces”

One night, it all comes out- their feelings and desires- and they decide to begin some kind of friends with benefits type of situation. This song feels like it’s from Luke’s perspective to me.

11. gold rush by Taylor Swift

“What must it be like

To grow up that beautiful?

With your hair falling into place like dominos

I see me padding 'cross your wooden floors

With my Eagles t-shirt hanging from the door

At dinner parties

I call you out on your contrarian shit

And the coastal town

We wandered 'round had never

Seen a love as pure as it

And then it fades into the gray of my day old tea

'Cause you know it could never be”

Luke is a magnetic person, attracting everyone, and Alex finds him beautiful. He is in awe of him, but he’s also scared about having feelings he doesn’t know how to handle. This song kind of shows Alex’s internal monologue.

12. Can We Kiss Forever? by Kina

“I tried to reach you, I can't hide

How strong's the feeling when we dive

I crossed the ocean of my mind

My wounds are healing with the salt

All my senses intensified

Whenever you and I, we dive”

This song describes their first kiss, obscured from the world, in my mind. Plus, there’s ocean metaphors. You can’t go wrong with that.

13. 18 by Anarbor

“So if you wanna piss off your parents

Date me to scare them

Show them you're all grown up

If long hair and tattoos are what attract you

Baby, then you're in luck

And I know it's just a phase

You're not in love with me

You wanna piss off your parents, baby

That's alright with me”

Luke knows Alex isn’t in love with him, but they both want to try new things. Bonus points for this song having references to frayed parent-child relationships.

14. Boys Will Be Boys by Miles McKenna

“That graduation day, it never came for you and me

Couple drop-out kids, a shotgun wedding's all we need

Sorry, Mom, Sorry, Dad

Better luck next time

A couple packs a day, pierced nose and tattoos on our legs

No strangers to pretend, we've always been too proud to beg

Sorry, Mom, Sorry, Dad

Better luck next time

Boys will be boys”

This song referencing a “couple of drop out kids” just going with the flow made me think of how Sunset Curve probably never would have finished high school.

15. Just Like You by Three Days Grace

“You thought you were there to guide me, you were only in my way

You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you

I could be mean

I could be angry

You know I could be just like you.”

Both Luke and Alex have tons of resentment for their parents, obviously.

16. Sunstroke by Less Than Jake

“We've all been living proof

That time won't wait or choose

We know it ticks on without me and you

And I can't have both sides

Letting go or holding tight

I'm burning bright tonight”

This song about being stubborn and time not waiting really reminded me of Luke, plus the foreshadowing of them becoming ghosts and adapting to a whole new world.

17. Saint Bernard by Lincoln

“Saint Calvin told me not to worry about you

But he's got his own things to deal with

There's really just one thing that we have in common

Neither of us will be missed”

This song just made me think about Alex and his Catholic guilt.

18. Bedroom Hymns by Florence and the Machine

“This is a good a place to fall as any

We'll build our altar here

Make me your Maria

I'm already on my knees

You had Jesus on your breath

And I caught Him in mine

Sweating out confessions

The undone and the divine

This is his body, this is his love

Such selfish prayers and I can't get enough, oh”

Part 2 of Alex and his Catholic guilt. Their relationship has become more carnal, and this song maybe gives a little of Alex’s perspective into that time.

19. Church by Fall Out Boy

“And if death is the last appointment

Then we're all just sitting in the waiting room

I am just a human trying to avoid my certain doom

If you were church, yeah

I'd get on my knees”

Here ends the trilogy of songs with religious references. This song is heady and sensual and also includes some nice foreshadowing of their deaths.

20. Bros by Wolf Alice

“Shake your hair, have some fun

Forget our mothers and past lovers, forget everyone

Oh, I'm so lucky, you are my best friend

Oh, there's no one, there's no one who knows me like you do

Are your lights still on?

I'll keep you safe

If you keep me strong”

Here’s another song from Luke’s perspective- talking about forgetting mothers, being best friends, and keeping Alex safe, as long as Alex keeps him strong.

21. Slip Away by Perfume Genius

“Don't look back, I want to break free

If you'll never see 'em coming You'll never have to hide

Take my hand, take my everything

If we only got a moment

Give it to me now

They'll never break the shape we take

Baby, let all them voices slip away”

Alex struggles with losing his family over his sexuality, and Luke helps him through it.

22. Make Out In My Car by Sufjan Stevens

“I'm not trying to

Go to bed with you

I just wanna make out in my car

And though I'm dying to

Fall in love with you

I just wanna make out in my car”

Another great song about just wanting to exist with someone, about wanting touch and feel and create. They don’t want to fall in love, they just want to be.

23. I Exist I Exist I Exist by Flatsound

“I remember the way you shook

Its a shame that we're not soul mates

Because if i didn't know better

I'd say this feels pretty good

How could i be scared?

When i stretch and feel that you're there

So shut your mouth

Because these words will speak themselves

I can feel them in these blankets

And they're surrounding your figure

Embraced in the quilts

And i cant help but think

You're my missing puzzle piece”

This song is so beautiful- with references to helping a partner through anxiety, and being just like ones mother... a lot of this dynamic in my mind is Luke and Alex reminding each other that they exist, that life is wide and bright, that they’re alive. This gives a window into Luke’s inner feelings as well.

24. Come on, Mess Me Up by Cub Sport

“I found comfort, I fell in love with avoiding problems

But I want this, you know I want this

So come on, mess me up

And you can break me, if you'll still take me

Ruin me, if you'll let me be one of the ones you say you won't forget”

At some point, they become more reckless about their feelings, a little less level headed about their arrangement. Intimacy is an escape.

25. Please Never Fall In Love Again by Ollie MN

“This is what it's like to be lovers

You and me need never be lonely again

Spin with me endlessly or at least until the end

Please never fall in love again”

As usually happens with these arrangements, feelings are caught. Luke and Alex consider making things more serious.

26. Can I Call You Tonight? by Dayglow

“Batteries drain, I get the memo

I think that I might have to let you go

So can I call you tonight?

I'm trying to make up my mind

Just how I feel

Could you tell me what's real?”

The end of their relationship is near, and Alex is unsure. You can decide if this takes place before or after they die.

27. Wicked Game by Chris Isaak

“I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you

And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you

No, I don't wanna fall in love with you”

Eventually these relationships all start to feel like games, don’t they?

28. Perfect by The Smashing Pumpkins

“So far I still know who you are

But now I wonder who I was

Angel, you know it's not the end

We'll always be good friends”

Another song about the end of a relationship, and finding yourself again. There’s a bit of resentment there, but they are learning to be friends again.

29. Miss Missing You by Fall Out Boy

“Maybe I'll burn a little brighter tonight

Let the fire breathe me back to life

Baby you were my picket fence

I miss missing you, now and then”

They’ve gotten over each other and become friends again, but are still nostalgic for the past. Bonus points for references about coming back to life.

30. Good Riddance (Time of Your Life) by Green Day

“For what it's worth

It was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable

But in the end it's right

I hope you had the time of your life”

Ah yes, the song everyone uses to commemorate bittersweet ends- it’s the perfect clincher for this playlist.

I hope you all enjoy listening!

#julie and the phantoms #lalex #jatp #luke patterson #alex mercer #jatp playlist #luke/alex #playlist #my edit

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coatabyss · 4 years

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Tagged by @lesbiansockhead (I have a fun time doing these pls keep tagging me in them neon🥺🥺)

Rules: Answer 17 questions and tag people you want to get to know better

Zodiac sign: Scorpio

Nickname: I don't really get called anything regularly other than my name ówò

Height: 5'4

Last thing I googled: how to stop red bps.on.legs with hair (Explanation, probably tmi: I get like,, those red bumps on my legs that you'd get when you shave but I don't shave my legs?? So I wanna know how to prevent them. Also don't usually care to correct my spelling in google searches)

Hogwarts house: I've never read a harry potter book in my life and I probably never will but every quiz I've taken has told me I'm a ravenclaw

Followers/Following: I have like 90 followers lol, and I follow a whopping 652 people!!

Amount I sleep: It fluctuates. Last night I fell asleep at 7:30pm and woke up at 12am and I've been up since then (its currently 11:40am). But when I went to school I usually got 5-6 hours of sleep every night.

Song stuck in my head: None atm bc I'm currently listening to music

Dream job: Something in psychology, or maybe gardening. A very unrealistic one I would want is to have a gaming youtube channel.

Favorite songs: aaa I have too many!! But if anyone actually cares that much then here go

Wearing: Black jeans and a cavetown tshirt

Lucky number: 2!

Favorite authors: I dont really have any but this one book I really liked was called The Last Book In The Universe by Rodman Philbrick!!

Favorite animal noises: Puppy awoos

Aesthetic: I usually say its like,, gothy emo shit but I really like all aesthetics!! Bright colors are cool and cottagecore stuff is cool and all that stuffs

tagging @partybirb and @enkiiper bc im too scared to tag anyone else,,

#ask game #tag meme #idk wtf fhis is #anyway ty neon

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itsdelicate · 4 years

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OJO i'm going to go nuts and ask you all the questions that end in 0 (like 10, 20 etc) and also if you want, questions with 7? (that's probably like 30 questions go nuts bby) (if this is Too Nuts then you can choose the ones you want to answer)

shfksjf joyce omg ykw i’ll do all of them unlike leanne i’m so bored LMAO thank you!! 🥰💞

7. Do you have any pets?

i have a cocker spaniel named milo 🐶

10. What shoe size are you?

hmm like a 37 i think??

17. Who would be your ideal partner?

honestly i have no idea i’ve never really thought about this but maybe someone who also loves animals and art?? dhfkd

20. Are you religious?

nope

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?

god no i hate being the centre of attention shfks

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

just one! and a plushie :(

37. Favorite swear word?

answered!

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

if i have then they’re still a secret 👀

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?

i think a dress which was like $120+??

50. Left or right handed?

left!

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?

like 3 hours from when i wake up until i’m ready to head out

60. Do you talk to yourself?

in my head, yes

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?

no shfks

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?

nope! i’m big scared of huge bodies of water

71. What makes you nervous?

,,,,,everything, love having debilitating anxiety 😔✊

72. Are you scared of the dark?

it depends where i am when it’s dark 👀

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

hmmm not if it’s like typos or something during a regular convo but if it’s for professional/official stuff then yeah (also depends what the mistake actually is i’m just thinking of typos rn LMAO)

74. Are you ticklish?

very rip

75. Have you ever started a rumor?

i don’t?? think so unless i did it unknowingly

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?

yeah

77. Have you ever drank underage?

does tasting wine count LOL otherwise no

78. Have you ever done drugs?

nope

79. Who was your first real crush?

my best friend when i was little

80. How many piercings do you have?

answered!

87. Do you keep a journal?

nope, i tried a few times when i was younger but it’s just not for me

90. What makes you angry?

oof people being insensitive/only thinking about themselves/rudeness in general hmm there’s more but i can’t think of anything else rn i’m blanking shfjs

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

i have 0 clue of who my ancestors are

100. Color of your room?

rip i don’t have my own Room room but i used to have very light pink walls with a green accent wall, the room i sleep in now has a really light blue!

#frozen2s #thank you joyce!! 🥰💞#ask #tw alcohol #tw drugs

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dude, you're young! you have a whole life ahead of you. listen, I know how you feel, I'm 22. and I'm always feeling like I'm running out of time or feeling left out of shit people get to experience but it's okay! You have time, I promise. You don't have to have your entire life lived and figured out by the time you're 25 like a lot of people think. Everyone lives differently, we all experience at different points in our lives. I also feel you on the friends thing, I've been there. (1/2)

it's weird and can make you think that you're the problem but you're not. there's nothing wrong with you Sabrina. everyone says your 20s is the most difficult time in your life, and I'm seeing for myself that that's correct. but you have value, you are a wonderful human being who is going to live an amazing life. there are people in the world who are meant to come into your life, and they will. you have to stop being so hard on yourself darling, you deserve to treat yourself better

i know but i really believe im not worthy of anything i really don’t i feel like such a shit person sometimes and nothing good happens to shitty people everyone tells me im selfish and that i only care about myself when i really don’t.... i give so much of myself and people never appreciate it so when i do one thing for me im automatically selfish for it. i also never expected to figure things out in my 20s but i feel like i haven’t lived life at all cause i worry too much about people who don’t care about me. im scared one day im going to break and im not going to be able to come back from it. like i love saying things happen for a reason but it’s almost like an 90/10 where 90% is the bad and 10% is the good. i just don’t want to be hurt anymore. i don’t want to be sad.

#ask #anonymous

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simplysaiyanlicious · 7 years

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[ I could be an asshole and just make you answer all 100 of them. But I'll be nice and just select like 98 of them. ^^ So, hmm.. let's see. I'm so bad with options. >/ 1-5. And then 7, 12, 13, 15. 16, 17, 22 (DON'T LIE), 23, 28, 36, 37, 38, 41-46, 49 (wtf xD), 50, 52-56, 58-66, 69, 71-74, 78 (DON'T LIE), 84, 85, 89, 90, 94, 95 (go for that Miss Universe title~), 98-100. ]

... NOW YOU LISTEN HERE, VEGETA. YOU MAY BE THE PRINCE OF ALL SAIYANS BUT THAT DOESN’T MEAN YOU CAN JUST COME INTO MY INBOX AND DEMAND-

Yeah okay fine I’ll do it, you dick.

Nuuuuu ilu

1.What is your middle name?Suzanne ^^

2. How old are you?30~

3. When is your birthday?February 21st!

4. What is your zodiac sign?Pisces/Bunny

5. What is your favorite color?Teal, hands down. So much in my house is teal; the curtains, a wall, my towels, my pillows, my decorations, my floor mats, you name it I probably have it in the color teal.

7. Do you have any pets?I doooo. Currently I only have a very old bunny named Bunneh and a handicapped cockatiel named Loki (he can’t fly). I also used to own a bunch of cats, a budgie, two gerbils, a hamster, four chinchillas and a tame hedge sparrow and he was the BEST BIRB EVER! ;__;12. What was your last dream about?... The Nanny. MISS FINE AND MR. SHEFFIELD! I don’t even know why.

13. What talents do you have?... art? XD I also have this very useless talent that lets me memorize dialogue real easily, which allowed me to memorize entire DBZ episodes as a kid and that’s how I taught myself English.15. Favorite song?Les Friction - Torture (listen to it, seriously!)

16. Favorite movie?I dunno, I like way too many movies to just pick one favorite.

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?No I’m a good girl.

23. Have you ever met any celebrities?No but I do have a Belgian actor in the family. Never met him either though.28. What type of music do you like?I mostly prefer game and movie OSTs, and also ‘epic’ songs, the type of music often used in movie trailers.36. Favorite clean word?Keukendeur, which is Dutch for kitchendoor and this is a really long story but basically it’s an old inside joke between me and some friends and it’s not gonna make any sense if I tell you. XD

37. Favorite swear word?I don’t really have a favorite one, but back when I still RPed in Dutch (15 or so years ago) my favorite swear word to use for my character to call other people was ‘opruiige bakvis‘ which... doesn’t really translate into English well, so... yeah XD;;;

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?Close to 30 hours, during a movie night when I was still in high school.41. Are you a good liar?I... don’t know? I think so... I mean, I’m no saint, I’ve lied plenty as a kid and I usually got away with it.

42. Are you a good judge of character?I like to think I am. I tend to trust my gut and it’s usually right (I WAS RIGHT WITH YOU!!

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?I never tried honestly...

44. Do you have a strong accent?YES AND NOTHING YOU CAN SAY WILL EVER MAKE ME THINK DIFFERENTLY! XD

45. What is your favorite accent?Hmm... there’s this youtuber from Sweden (no, not that one) whom I really like listening to because of his accent. It really reminds me of how Zevran from Dragon Age Origins talks. His name is Keralis, look him up, he’s funny.

46. What is your personality type?INFP (mediator)49. Are you an innie or an outie?Innie

50. Left or right handed?Right handed52. Favorite food?Sushi and lasagna, you can always wake me up for either of these!

53. Favorite foreign food?... sushi and lasagna? XD

54. Are you a clean or messy person?I’m not a clean freak and I like to pile things up and cover every available space with stuff instead of putting it neatly away, but my place is not gross or dirty or anything. It’s organized chaos! Gets dusty real quickly though, but that’s what happens when you have pets.

55. Most used phrased?Oh snap!

56. Most used word?‘Lol.’ All the time.

58. Do you have much of an ego?No. When I receive a compliment I get terribly self-aware and start getting all awkward and shy.

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?I suck ‘m!

60. Do you talk to yourself?All the time, it’s a terrible habit XD

61. Do you sing to yourself?I only sing along, never without actual music.

62. Are you a good singer?I’m average at it.

63. Biggest Fear?Drowning.

64. Are you a gossip?... maybe a little. XD

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?Hmm... I honestly don’t know.

66. Do you like long or short hair?Looooong hair all the way, on the ladies AND on the men!

69. Extrovert or Introvert?Very introvert.71. What makes you nervous?Everything. Not even joking, almost everything makes me nervous or gives me stress and anxiety. The joys of having a severe anxiety disorder. >

72. Are you scared of the dark?Depends. I don’t like being outside while it’s dark, and I’m seriously afraid of being in a forest in the dark. But at home? No problem.

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?Only when I feel it’s actually important, like when the mistake they’re about to make will have actual consequences. In all other cases, learn from them.

74. Are you ticklish?WHY DO YOU WANT TO KNOW? I’M VERY SUSPICIOUS OF YOUR MOTIVES RIGHT NOW (yes I am).

78. Have you ever done drugs?No, unless you count actual medicine like anti depressants and such. I was in the hospital once and they gave me oxazepam and I was so fucking high when they wheeled me off to surgery, I was grinning the whole way. I had a blast, lol.84. What color is your hair?Boring brown. I used to dye it, I’ve had it black for a while, and various shades of red, but I’m honestly too lazy to keep it up.

85. What color is your eyes?Greyish green with amber flecks. My eyes are purdy :D89. Do you like your age?Eh, my real age doesn’t reflect my mental age anyway, so whatever. XD

90. What makes you angry?When I see people hurting animals. I’m a huuuuuge animal lover. I’m really super shy but if I see you hurt an animal I will go fucking bananas on you! >C94. What are you strengths?I dunno. People say I’m a good listener so there’s that I guess. This is kind of difficult to answer.

95. What are your weaknesses?I’m what I like to call a ‘doom thinker’. I always immediately think of the worst case scenario when something happens. A friend doesn’t show up on skype for a day? They probably got into an accident and I’ll never know. A small pang of pain in my chest? Yep I’m having a heart attack. My 98 year old grandpa doesn’t answer the door after ringing twice? Something happened to him and he’s probably dead.

Stuff like that. It sucks.98. Do you have any scars?Smalls scars here and there but the most noticable one is on my left wrist. Derpy kid!me was trying to feed a pony and I accidentally cut myself open on rusty barbed wire. Oops.

99. Color of your bedspread?... teal. Don’t even bother acting surprised. XD

100. Color of your room?Which one? XD My bedroom has white and grey walls, and my living room has white and teal walls.

#saiyanlicious replies #WELL THAT WAS A LONG THING #<3 #reikoku-vegeta

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