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heyclickadee · 1 year

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Some Tipping Point Thoughts about Crosshair (mostly):

1. There is a small part of me that is a little suspicious that Crosshair was allowed to partially escape on purpose, buuuuuut Emerie wasn’t the one who put that blaster within Crosshair’s reach, and she looked genuinely frightened when she realized that Crosshair really was going to stun her. It was one of the stormtroopers who put that blaster there, and, yes, it was a stupid move, but no one ever accused stormtroopers of being smart.

2. “Pushed to the limits of his extreme in the most heartbreaking way,” didn’t just apply to “The Outpost,” I see.

3. Speaking of blasters, these early stormtrooper blasters are the cheapest looking blasters I’ve ever seen in a star war—and I mean that as a compliment to the show. Those things look and feel like something that would be mass produced without much concern for quality or durability, which is exactly the Empire’s approach to the stormtroopers themselves.

4. Sooooo…this might sound counterintuitive, but this episode really put the final kibosh in any lingering worries I had that they’re killing Crosshair this season. You don’t do something like this (gestures broadly at Crosshair’s whole thing) and then kill them off. Especially not in some kind of redemptive self-sacrificial death. Especially when what we watched him do in this episode is so pointedly self-sacrificial. Crosshair might try to die for his family in the next two episodes, but there’s no way the narrative is going to let that happen. There’s no way to kill him off right now that isn’t empty, no way to have him die for anyone that doesn’t make the other person look careless by comparison (if only because viewers react to stories emotionally as much as they do otherwise), and no way to end his story in a way that isn’t just an ocean of untouched possibilities. The writers are sitting on a narrative gold mine with this character and I think they know that, otherwise they could have just let him die on that platform. And I’m stoked, because this means that we’re going to get to watch these characters deal with the difficult mess that’s going to be rebuilding their relationships.

5. Crosshair loves his family SO DAMN MUCH.

6. Evil thought: What if the batch gets to him, and he doesn’t realize they’re really there at first? I mean…he’s going to live, and he’s not getting brainwashed, but he is almost definitely going to be in a lot of pain and potentially pretty disoriented. I could see him taking a few minutes to realize that they’re really there and they finally came for him (but OH NO they weren’t supposed to come for him this time WHAT ARE THEY DOING THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO HIDE).

7. Eviler thought: Man, I really hope Dr. Hemlock doesn’t clock the fact that Crosshair will take any and all abuse that’s thrown at him without complaint but will absolutely lose his shit if that same abuse is thrown at another clone.

8. The look on Crosshair’s face when Omega says, “You’re still their brother, Crosshair. You’re my brother too,” back in Kamino Lost is going to kill me ten times over after this episode.

9. I’m looking forward to the absolute murder we’ll get to see in Echo’s eyes once he sees what Hemlock’s been doing.

10. You know…I’m not sure Crosshair couldn’t have made it outside if he hadn’t stopped to send that warning—if sending the warning wasn’t his only goal in the first place. He could barely stand up straight and he still went through about eight people like they were tissue paper.

11. I don’t know what is up with Emerie besides definitely something, but I sort of like the idea that Crosshair stunned her instead of killing her because he maybe got the sense that she’s a prisoner, too.

12. You know, there sure are a lot of clones in Mount Tantiss. In the cells, being commandos. Sure would be a shame for Hemlock if they all revolted at the same time somehow (I feel like this is wishful thinking, but I can dream).

#the bad batch #tbb spoilers #tbbspoilers #the bad batch spoilers #crosshair bad batch #I have more thoughts but these are the only coherent ones

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arcplaysgames · 1 year

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Actually, no. lemme recap now because I bet once I meet the Big Bad and beat them it'll be like 2 hours of cutscenes and dialogue.

Where did I leave off-- REALLY? THAT LONG AGO? FUCK ME.

Okay SOMEONE remind me LATER to sum up Empress, because I completed it. Note to self, it's around 12/2 in your screencaps.

So Shido wins the elections because it turns out that no one saw the Thieves' big calling card for him, and those who did didn't remember it. There is obviously Some Shit going on with people's mass apathy syndrome.

Because Persona only has one theme and it's "people will be too lazy to pay attention to the truth, fucking sheeple," I guess.

/clucks tongue. I'm not really impressed by this turn of the story, I'm kinda Over the slow increase in apathy that winds up being the undoing of the world until we beat up a god and save everyone. This is the third time, I would have shaken shit up by having the Hidden Big Bad send the Thieves a calling card, demanding they come protect their Treasure, and then you meet the Big Bad and just gimme a villain with a motive, goddamn. It's a supernatural story, the sky's the limit!

I shouldn't kvetch too much yet. Anyway, Shido admits to his crimes, but the populace doesn't seem to care and still supports him.

Shido's lackeys basically go "okay Shido had a major meltdown buuuuuut we can still carry his agenda forward bc if we don't, we're all going down with the ship here."

Excellent question. In P4G I had a pretty strong idea what was doing that and here I do not, can y'all drop some hints?

Morgana points out that the general public has a Palace and has a Treasure. It's Mementos. So if the crew wants to force a mass shift in the world's perception, they can do that. But like all other Palaces, when the Treasure is taken, Mementos will collapse, to be replaced with new, corrected cognition.

In the process, the crew will lose their powers. Oh and Morgana is gonna die.

The game hasn't said that part yet but if they didn't kill Ryuji, they're gonna kill Morgana, fucking bet.

I love you, Morgana Notacat.

This was actually where I got my idea of what Morgana is. Morgana's upgraded Persona is Mercurius/Hermes. Yanno, the god of messages, of thieves, of swiftness, and well-known classic psychopomp.

Morgana keeps remembering himself being born in Mementos. He's without a doubt some manifestation of humanity's rebellion against systems, the literally cognitive patron saint of Phantom Thieves. He's a mascot in the most literal sense, an emblem of good luck for the Thieves' work.

Even the fact he's a cat kind of fits in nicely. Cats are free spirits who opt-into being it other people. They are creatures of choice.

I'm gonna be big sad when Morgana fucking dies lemme tell you. I'm pretty sure he's, like, sustained by Mementos and the plan is to collapse it? Yeah, Morgana is fucked.

Goddamn HERMES, that's so cool. Morgana, our psychopomp into the bowels of the collective unconsciousness.

GODDAMIT NOTIGOR WHAT DO YOU WANT, IT IS CHRISTMAS FUCKING EVE, YOU BETTER GIMME PRESENTS.

I know that you know that we all know that this isn't Igor but sometimes it fucking floors me how much he isn't Igor, jesus fucking christ. Who tf is this guy. I hope he's the Big Bad somehow bc there ain't anyone else at this point.

Please don't pull another It Was The Gas Station Attendant, Persona, I'm fucking on my knees begging you.

lmao i love the game poking the player to ensure they noticed Morgana is acting odd

Deep in Mementos is... this..... uh..... thing. A bunch of otherworldly veins flowing down into the core.

/looks nervously around

so uh. is it a hot take to say that, uh, the last segment of this game here, the Mementos Depths, is the ugliest place in the game? Just wondering because wow working through this place, I was struck by how completely aesthetically unappealing all of this is. It should be mysterious and eerie but mostly I am finding it.... blurgh. I thought Kaneshiro's Palace was pretty unappealing too, but this is bad enough I feel the need to remark on it.

/gestures at screen. What is all this????? oh god it reminds me of the Collector Base in Mass Effect 2. Except that game came out in 2010 for the previous generation console. /winces

Anyway.

The Depths of Mementos is a prison of complacency.

All of the Shadows the Thieves defeated are in the prison cells. They are relieved to be there, where they don't have to think. Everything is taken care of for them.

Man, remember back in Persona 3 when it turned out that defeating all the Full Moon shadows was actually the thing that doomed the world? Wouldn't it be hilarious is the Thieves fucked all this up the whole time? l m a o.

I honestly don't know if that's what's happening here yet, I haven't reached, like, the Explanation, but it does feel a bit like alllllllll the way back at the start of the liveblog when I was contending with the ethics of the entire idea of stealing someone's heart and what it does. The game went out of its way to justify doing it with Shido's attempted suicide, but the bridge to far for me (and thankfully for Ann too) was killing these people.

But now what happens seems to be akin to ego death instead, and.... I dunno, man, is that much different than murder?

SIGHS LOUDLY

okay is that true or is this another fucking situation where Izanami is like "WELL REALLY when you THINK ABOUT IT all I'm doing is giving humanity what they really want soooooooooo it makes you think huh, doesn't it make you think"

MAYBE THE GAME WILL PROVE ME WRONG, I DUNNO YET.

oh my god. oh my god.

IGOR!!!!!!!! IGOR IS IN THERE!!!!

LEMME IN!!!!!! LEMME IIIIIIIIN I NEED TO SEE HIMMMMM I NEED TO TALK TO HIM I MISS HIM sobs

yeah no, bet, it's igor's cell. which means Notigor locked him up? maybe Notigor is the final boss, that'd be great, it'd slot in perfectly with this place being a prison and Reverie having been stuck in the shitty Velvet Prison this whole time.

please igor help me, i'm so tired of the edgelord execution shit.

PSYCHOPOMP MORGANA!!!!!!!!!!

me pressing my face against the bars whispering I'll be back for you igor i love you

lol what if it isn't even igor in there can you imagine

#p5 #persona liveblog

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twstandsh0ut · 2 years

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Octavinelle Kink Headcannons

Soooo I'm finally posting this after leaving it perpetually in drafts. No idea when I'll get around to posting Scarabia, but I *should* have some new character analysis posts coming in the near future that are about how different characters would be in a relationship. I love reading twst fics, buuuuuut I do feel certain characters are a bit mischaracterized by the fandom (not that there's anything wrong with headcannons, I mean that's literally what this blog is filled with) so I wanted to post my personal take on them. Anyways, on to what you're here for~

Azul Ashengrotto

A bit of an exhibitionist. I know he's often portrayed as being shy, buuuuuuut I believe he would be the opposite (see post on Azul and shyness). He wants to show off his partner and make others jealous that he has what they do not. Expect him to suddenly pull you into a kiss, doing his best to make you moan or blush in public, all while having that one smirk on his face.

Azul gets off on control, so expect him to be telling you what to do a lot (though not as much as a certain Scarabia student...). I can definitely see this getting out of hand, so brace yourself and be ready to knock him down a few pegs if needed.

100% into degradation. He can't help it, when he sees you desperately begging for him it just starts to come out. But you like that, don't you, you poor unfortunate soul?

I can definitely see him using toys and rope, but for him he can take or leave it/it depends on his mood.

Sadist. I mean, look at literally any interaction with the students under contract with him.

Dom, but could switch with the right person. He's spent a lot of time fighting to get to the top, I don't think he'll give up control so easily. The right person could persuade him to though, but I imagine it wouldn't be 100% of the time since sometimes he just needs to feel on top of the world.

Rather than preferring a sub/switch/Dom, he'd prefer someone that he could show off/would bring him higher social status or an advantage in the world of some sort. He wants someone that others will be jealous of. Bonus points if that person wields a lot of power but is completely submissive to him... although that kind of person would likely straight up get taken advantage of. Sorry, but Azul is not as nice as he claims to be.

Jade Leech

Well everyone, meet the #1 kinkiest person on campus. While there are a few others who come close, Jade is easily one of the kinkiest on campus. If you're with him, you'd better brace himself, cause there's very few limits here and he's always interested in trying something "for science."

He really enjoys observing you. He will know all your weaknesses, and will try things out on you to see how you react. He'll of course remember his favorite reactions and do his best to get them out of you all the time. Also on the same lines, I see him as wanting to do things to you more than you do things to him. He's definitely into shibari as well.

Overstimulation. He is 100% into it. Honestly, he'd probably tie you up, add a vibrator, then just.... hang out and do homework or tend to his terrariums. While observing you from the corner of his eye. Or, you know. Straight up sitting in front of you with that shit eating grin of his asking if you're enjoying yourself, maybe you need his help while full well knowing you can't take much more, but you'll try for him right?

Honestly, if you're with Jade chances are Floyd is joining in too. They may take turns with you, but they're definitely going to share you at some point. They have a lot more in common than meets the eye, so chances are if you've attracted the attention of one you've attracted the attention of both. Not to mention male moray eels apparently share a female mate

Sadist... I feel this needs no explanation. Like.... all of his interactions, no matter how polite he seems, he's just exuding sadist.

Dom. Is this even a question? He'd be specifically looking for an interesting partner who reacts a lot. The more you react and the more interesting your reactions the better. Doesn't matter to him if you're a Dom/switch/sub... you'll be a sub for him.

Floyd Leech

I hope you're into being covered in bruises and bite marks! While Jade and Floyd have similar tendencies, Jade is more deliberate and Floyd will start off being deliberate before going with the flow. Any partner of his had better have a high pain tolerance and either be really good at concealer/have a ton of turtlenecks and long sleeve outfits.... or just straight up not care about the whispers and comments. Bright side... Floyd will probably chase off anyone that harasses you about the marks. You know, after smirking and bragging.

He's not opposed to toys, but he may decide he's done using them partway through cause he got bored. The least likely of the Octatrio to tie up a partner due to it taking so long. Well... he'll do the basic ones. You could convince him to do more complex bondage if you make it interesting however. Honestly, make it interesting for him and he'll have the same kind of patience as Jade.

Like stated with Jade, Floyd will most likely share you with his twin. Just be ready if you're in the middle of something with Jade for Floyd to snag you over to him saying it's his turn. Still, he won't be entirely selfish. After all, Jade always makes things more fun and comes up with the best ideas... and he can't wait to see you starring in Jade's latest one.

Sadist. Like with Jade I feel this needs no explanation.

Dom. In terms of a partner I feel he'd be similar to Jade in that you'd have to catch and keep his attention. I do feel playing hard to get will go a long with with him as well... but be careful not to take it too far with him. Unless you enjoy being chased down by a pair of eels, then carry on~

#twst #twisted wonderland #twst x reader #twst headcanons #nsfwwarning #azul ashengrotto #jade leech #floyd leech #twst octavinelle

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pedrito-friskito · 2 years

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✨kay’s ultimate pedro ranking✨

ok ok ok ok @mandosmistress did this a while back (like a few days lmao what is time) and tagged me and I HAVE BEEN T H I N K I N G let me tell you.

so without further ado, under the cut is my (not so definitive) pedro pascal character ranking…..! (based mainly on attraction/how much I enjoy writing them)

FRANKIE MORALES. frankie. frankie frankie frankie. my man. sunshine of my life (haha see what I did there). there is just something about this character that really crawled into my chest, wrapped himself around my heart and said ”hi I live here now” and I’m cool with it. handsome in that rugged way, a little bit damaged, and good with his hands? done. hook, line, and sinker.

DIN DJARIN. oh the sweet soft-spoken tin can space man. in all honesty, him and Frankie fight for the top spot on a daily basis and sometimes the beskar-covered bounty hunter wins, and he truly was my pedro gateway drug so he’s gotta be high on my list.

JAVIER PEÑA. ohhhhhh mama I love me some Javi. (do I mainly blame my gargantuan crush on @the-ginger-hedge-witch and her brilliant Crush series YES AS A MATTER OF FACT I DO) something about those tight fuckin’ jeans and the stache and the aviators like yep honey take me I’m yours

JAVIER GUTIERREZ. sunshine baby angel too good for this world I just wanna give him a little kiss and carry him around in my pocket and make sure no harm every comes to him (no I haven’t written anything for him yet but I been thinkin’ thots okay)

DIETER BRAVO. ✨the trash man✨ another one I just wanna carry around in my pocket, also the hair does things for me (same with Javi G) like just let me run my fingers through it and I’ll die a happy gal. questionable life choices maybe, but we’ve all been there, right?

OBERYN MARTELL. oh my HEART. *cue adele* we could have had it AAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLL. I would say spoilers but it was legitimately 8 years ago but he was so CLOSE and then so SQUISHED. tbh oberyn is the most intimidating to me to even think of writing but maybe someday….

MARCUS PIKE. I do really like Marcus. cheesy as hell? check. bit overboard sometimes? double check. BUT I really like the history of the character we got in limited scenes AND I have a fic idea for him I’ve been sitting on FOREVER and I def have to use it soon!

PERO TOVAR. okay I love me a grungy fantasy man okay like that’s my bread and butter. add in the grouchiness and the obvious way to his heart through his stomach? it’s go time, baby, I got plans for him too!

JACK DANIELS. oh darlin’, he hits the middle of my list for the sole reason that pedro and that whip awoken something in me that hasn’t shut up since I watched that movie and if you don’t think I’ve watched that clip where he pushes his jacket back and it’s a crystal-clear shot of his ass you are WRONG

EZRA PROSPECT. fits the grungy, violent thing pedro seems to work with half the time, and honestly, the linguistics of this man make my head spin (the main reason I haven’t written much for him because it’s a looooot of effort to try and think up dialogue for him!!!) BUT I do love that little moon-touched spot and the scar and the smile and just ugh yum

THE THIEF. full disclosure: I haven’t read a lot of fics about the thief (if anyone has recs let me at ‘em) buuuuuut I really like the whole vibe he has and the outfit? spectacular.

MARCUS MORENO. the glasses definitely do it for me but idk something about him I just…meh. have definitely read some fab fics about daddy moreno (maybe I’ll revisit him at some point). still hot, still delicious, just not my number one fav.

MAX PHILLIPS. maybe not the biggest asshole pedro’s played but definitely up there? I sat through the movie just for him, honestly the scene of him on the couch made it worth it and the smarminess is something else, but idk if I could ever write him! (kudos to all that do!)

DAVE YORK. ok ok ok ok OKAYYYYYYY. listen. he’s the baddie (and like a really bad baddie) so I gotta put him low on my list as far as attraction goes (plus I have mixed emotions about P without facial hair but I digress…) BUT I do have ideas. they are on the horizon. keep your eyes OPEN.

MAX LORD. I haven’t even watched wonder woman 1984 and I know he needs to be down here. maybe I’ll get some form of intoxicated this weekend and power through it, just for shits and giggles!

well KUDOS if you made it this far, this was actually so fun to do!

tagging a few pals just because, no pressure 😇

@prolix-yuy @pedropascalsx @mandoblowmybackout @mindidjarin @allfoolsinluv @iamskyereads and obvi anyone else who wants to play!!!

#pedro pascal #kay talks to people #mutual bbys #the ULTIMATE SHOWDOWN #pedro pascal characters

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blackhakumen · 3 years

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Mini Fanfic #835: A New Me (Super Smash Bros Ultimate)

9:45 p.m. at Smash Mansion's Living Room........

Tifa: (Smiles Brightly While Getting her Hair Trim and Cut by Daisy) Thanks again for doing this for me, Daisy. I had no idea you know a thing or two about doing someone's hair.

Daisy: (Smiles Back at Tifa) It's no problem, Tif. I've learned about all of this since I was a kid.

Tifa: You don't say.

Daisy: Yep. I accidentally signed myself up for hair stylist class instead of football.

Tifa: What makes you wanna signed up for football classes in first place?

Daisy: Thought it was cool at the time. I also thought the whole hair stylist gig was boring at first, but I'd actually had a good time there. I learned a lot about too: did you know that the growth rate for humans' hair is just under a 1/2 inch per month which is equal to about 5 inches per year?

Tifa: Huh. I.... actually didn't know that until now. Interesting.

Daisy: I know, right? There's a crap ton of facts about hair that I didn't even know about until now, but I'll tell you about all of that later....Are you sure you're okay with me cutting your hair like this, Tif? I can tell you had it for a really long time now.

Tifa: Yep. I've always had it this long ever since I was a little girl. (Smiles Fondly of the Memories She Has in the Past) We've been through a lot together: Good times, bad times, in betweens. But nowadays, the longer I keep having it around, the more it got me to think and realize that....the long hair itself, represent my past a lot more thoroughly than I thought it would and that maybe....it might be time for me to start moving on from it entirely.

Daisy: So what you're basically saying here is that getting your hair cut down would help you feel more new to yourself in the present going forward.

Tifa: (Happily Nodded a Little) Exactly!......That.... doesn't seem too ambitious, does it?

Daisy: (Smiles Brightly) Of course it doesn't, girlfriend. I totally get what you're coming from in all of this.

Tifa: You do?

Daisy: Yeah. Back in my younger days, when my hair used to be dark and long-

Tifa: Wait. Was it during that time Mario saved you from an evil alien?

Daisy: (Simply Nodded) Correctamundo. I think his name was Tango or something like?.... (Sighs While Shrugging her Shoulders) I don't really remember. But anyways, I was so convinced that beauty and royalty was everything and that it was the only thing that matters to being a princess. (Starts Rolling her Eyes at the Past Memories) So much so that became an actual phase.....

Tifa: (Starts Snickering) A phase?

Daisy: ('Sigh') Yeah. A phase. Hated it every time I think about it...... Buuuuuut eventually, I realized all of that was complete bogus, left it all behind me .....(Smiles Proudly) and became the woman I am right now. Or....rather back when I was a kid. But....you get where I'm coming from in all of this right?

Tifa: (Happily Nodded) I do. And if you ask me, I prefer the current you over the past anyday.

Daisy: (Heart Begins to Melt in Happiness by Tifa's Words) Awww~ Thanks, Tifa~

Tifa: (Giggles Softly) You're welcome, girlfriend. If anything, I should be thanking you for sharing this with me.

Daisy: Eh. It's no problem. (Does One More Trim Before Stopping and Taking a Deep Breath) Okay. I think I'm finish now. (Gives Tifa a Handheld Mirror) What do you think?

Tifa: (Gasps Lightly as She Sees a Reflection of Herself Having a Perfectly Cutted Short Hair) Oh my gosh.....(Smiles Brightly and Excitedly) This looks amazing on me!~

Daisy: You really think so?

Tifa: (Got Up From her Seat and Gives Daisy a Hug) I know so, Daisy. Thank you soooo much~

Daisy: (Giggles Softly as She Hugs Tifa Back) It's no problem at all, Tif. I mean, damn. I never expected it to turn out THIS good.....

'Door Open'

Cloud: (Walking into the Mansion with Luigi and Dedede) ('Sigh') This is the last we'll ever let you talk to the police, De.

Dedede: (Glares at Cloud) Oh come on now! How was I suppose to know she would go ahead and give me another ticket?

Luigi: Your majesty, you can't just going along and flirt with a police officer like that. Even if she was, and I quote, "Prettier than a Strawberry Ice-Cream Sundae".

Dedede: Hey, you can't blame an old man for trying at least. I really thought it would work that time....

Cloud: We can and will. And no, it didn't work.

Daisy: WEEGIEEE!~ (Makes her Way to Luigi and Hugs Him Before Pouting at Him and the Others) What is this we hear about you three getting stopped by the police tonight?

Luigi: (Chuckles a Bit Awkwardly) Sorry about worrying you guys, Daisy. We kinda drove our motorcycles pass the speeding limits on the empty roads.

Cloud: (Starts Rolling his Eyes While Pointing at Dedede) It gets worse when casanova over here thought that flirting with an officer would actually get her to give us a warning instead.

Daisy: (Starts Snickering) Casanova and flirting?.... I'm sorry. But are we REALLY talking about the same Dedede here?

Dedede: (Glares at the Laughing Princess) Oh hush up, girl! I can be a well-balanced ladies man anytime I want!!!

Daisy: Yeah right!~ (Already Has a Teasing Smirk on her Face) And how was that flirting tactic with the police lady went again?~

Cloud: Terribly.

Dedede: (Starts Growling Angrily) I'm warning y'all!!....

Tifa: (Sighs While Making her Way to the Gang) Well, regardless, we're glad you three came back home safely.

Cloud: Thanks, Ti-(Eyes Widened in Genuine Surprise at Tifa's New Looks) fa?.....

Luigi: (Eyes Widened at Tifa as Well) Tifa.....Is that really you?

Dedede: Dayuum, girl. That haircut looks great on you.

Tifa: (Giggles Softly) Thanks, your majesty. Daisy got it cut for me a few minutes ago.

Luigi: (Turns to his Girlfriend) You did?

Daisy: (Proudly Nodded) Yep!~ You might not know this about me, Weeg, but I've made a pretty decent name for myself as a hair stylist growing up....I mean, it has been years since I've done this. So I'm not entirely sure if I did a good enough of the cut or....

Luigi: (Smiles Softly) You did a great job, Daisy.

Cloud: (Nodded in Agreement) I agree. It looks amazing on her.

Tifa: (Eyes Widened at Cloud a Little in Genuine Surprise) You really think so? I mean, aren't you gonna miss the long hair I always had ever since we were kids?

Cloud: I will, but I'm always up for a change every once and while. Plus, I'll always think you're beautiful no matter how different you look.

Tifa: (Heart Begins to Melt in Pure Happiness as She Hugs Cloud Lovingly) Has anyone told you how much of a sweetheart you really are?~

Cloud: (Shrugs) Eh. Doesn't really fit my style. Luigi's more of a sweetheart than I'll ever be really.

Daisy: FACTS!

Tifa: (Giggles Softly) I mean, yeah. But you'll always be my sweetheart~ (Kiss Cloud on the Cheek)

Daisy: Hey, Cloud!~ If you want, I can give your spiky hair a fresh new look-

Cloud: I'll pass.

Daisy: You sure?

Cloud: Yep.

Daisy: Positive.

Cloud: Positive.

Daisy: ..........I mean, if you're absolutely su-

Cloud: I'm sure, Daisy.

Daisy: ('Groans a Little') Fiiiiine..... (Turns to Luigi) You want me to do your hair too, sweetie?

Luigi: (Smiles Sheepishly at his Girlfriend) Maybe some other time, dear.....

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#super smash ultimate #tifa lockhart #daisy #cloud strife #luigi #king dedede #takes place after the boys went out for a motorcycle ride #pure friendship #reflecting on the past #remember the picture of tifa with short hair that blew up the internet not too long ago?#cloud x tifa #daisy loves luigi #lots and lots of fluff here #edited

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tianaluxart · 3 years

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I didn’t start Groove with a vision...

It was more so me just in a really bad space and trying to make something of it. It wasn’t even a finished piece before the thought to put it on a t-shirt even came about. All unplanned & unfinished just like many of my projects (story of an artist like me) but the difference between Groove & any other project I’ve started lately is, this gave me so much purpose once I completed it for my first customer. The type of purpose that had me jumping out the bed to get orders together, being in random places like on the beach just to send invoices or complete transactions. It made me feel like I can offer the world something more. I had a product and something that eye created myself that people wanted! I wanted to go further with this...

However, after I had a burst of sales over the holidays and into the new year, I was out of commission mentally so that also meant my business had to slow down because I just couldn’t. I felt like I failed myself because while people were asking me to do this and do that, I just needed to do me and put everything on pause. We’re in April now & I just got my mind back feeling “normal” but I haven’t just been sitting on my hands. This time away gave me the space to think, think, and think hard about what direction I wanted to go into. How far can I take this? Well the sky is the limit! I’ve had people wanting to partner with me and also people wanting to do events..so many different opportunities, but guess what?

I’m in no rush to prove to anybody anything! I’ve realized through the first few batches that I put out that I have something special, therefore, I know its worth and value much more now. That time also gave me the space to think about a mission and vision for Groove. SoOoOoo, I say all this to say, it was fun while it lasted, but I no longer just want to see my art on a t-shirt as I once aspired to do..I now have other dreams and ideas for Groove, which is the reason for this tumblr page. I aim to foreshadow what’s to come and inspiration for what Groove would be in the future.

Again, this time away was perfect for me. Divine even. I’ve heard so many things about what I should do from the grapevine, but like I said, this is my ish and I found out that it’s special so I’ma make it special for y’all...just gotta be patient with an artist like me. If you liked it before, you’ll love it even better once I’ve remastered it. I don’t wanna spill the beans and tell y’all what all I have in mind, but just know that I’m slowing down the t-shirts for now and going in a different direction with Groove moving forward.

BUUUUUUT, if you just so happen to want a shirt, I can get it done for y’all no problem, but just know there’s more to come.

Thanks for reading my rant. Okaaaay bye.

#tianaluxart #groove

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peapod20001 · 4 years

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Shit heres some more. WHAT CHANGED SHIRLEY. Has there ever been a moment of brother bonding/solidarity where they helped one another? Id like to see more of their dynamic! Do Belle or Ben have any friends? DOES CHARLIE??? I ASK YOU, WERE IS EVERYONE'S SUPPORT NETWORKS. Tell me more about the big brother!!! Harley! What's his story? Why did he leave? Was it the dad? Whats his personality like? Does he regret leaving his brothers? Whats going on in his life now?

Oh boy what hasn’t jacked up Shirley in all honesty (I rewrote it under the pic btw)

Tw for this (death and abuse I suppose?)

“WHAT CHANGED ME? Maybe it was feeling like I was never good enough or watching Father push around my mother?? Maybe it was being forced to push my body to it’s limit almost everyday?? How about when my brother left me, Mother, and Charlie alone with Father?? My father taking me out of school?? Father calling my friend racial slurs?? Finding out my friends I viewed as family died in a car accident?? Finding my Mother dead in the bathroom?? Being blamed for her suicide by my father?? My brothers hating me because I didn’t care about them enough anymore?? Finding my Father’s drugs and deciding to *Experiment a little* and promptly getting my A$$ beat?? Or what about my Father flinging my baby son around like he was some sort of rag doll?? I guess we will never know...”

Yeah he has........i s s u e s

On a lighter note •_•

While most of the time they are at each other’s throats, they can have the rare sibling bonding moment ❤️❤️❤️(I should really draw some more cute ideas out lol my bois need happy times)

Ben and Belle actually DO have friends lol

Sébastien hangs out with them too but he’s about a decade younger than them all and they keep trying to get him to date again lololol

They don’t really talk,,,,,to people,unless they have to.

NOW FOR HARLEY

He was the ONLY brother to go through every school grade (Shirley got pulled out at 2nd grade and the other brothers never went)

His Father was trying to get him to take over the family circus and he was having NONE OF IT. He felt pressured in school and wanted to go off and do his own thing with his girlfriend (that his father didn’t approve of) so the moment he graduated high school, he packed his bags and left.

Unlike the other brothers, he’s a lot more chill. He’s very sweet and protective and looks like a deer caught in headlights when you call his name. He has this aura around him that gives you good feels❤️

He is pretty split on that. On one hand, leaving was the best for HIM and his life. Buuuuuut there was the chance that if he stayed, he might have been able to prevent his brothers from being AS jacked up.

Unlike his brothers He is living a great life. Got a great job as a school counselor, raising his two boys, loving his wife, and doing his own thing and loving it!!!

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nerdpiggy · 3 years

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1, 2, 7, 8, 9, 14, 16, 19, 22, 23, 27, and 30 for all three?

Robbie

1. Do they sleep with a stuffed animal? They used to! They have specifically this alien plushie but they didn't bring it with them to the Palisades because they didn't really have a chance to pack or anything. If they knew they were going earlier, then they probably would have brought him. They've really been missing him recently because robbie's a real cuddler in their sleep and they've not really had anything to hold on to.

2. Can they take care of a plant? What about a pet? What about a child? They have a very green thumb! They're also good with pets! They get along well with children but they don't think they'd ever be able to raise one.

7. Describe them in three words. Now let them describe themself in three words. How I'd describe them: anxious, determined, adaptable. How they'd describe themself: weak, doomed, invisible.

8. Do complex puzzles intrigue or frustrate them? Frustrate them. They're not great at figuring out puzzles and trying to solve one doesn't really intrigue them much.

9. Do they empathize with non-sentient things? YES, especially with their rocks, as well as objects that they use often like their cooking utensils and their notebook.

14. Would they agree with the term "guilty pleasure?" Do they have any? Yeah they'd agree with the term guilty pleasure. They consider their love for horror movies (especially the bad ones) to be a guilty pleasure for them because it's embarrassing how scared they get and how much they have to look away because of gore/blood. They would almost NEVER watch horror movies with other people because of how much of a baby they are. They honestly have no idea why they like horror movies so much when it makes them suffer so bad

16. If money wasn't a limit, what would they wear? Man you've really asked the wrong person because even though I'm CERTAIN Robbie would have an answer, I'm just really shit with fashion so i have no fucking idea

19. Do they study before tests? Practice before job interviews? They try to, but they're not great at it. They get distracted and frustrated with themself too easily.

22. Already answered

23. Stability or novelty? Stability.

27. Forgiveness or vengeance? Forgiveness.

30. What would they do if they knew it would be forgiven? Probably just like........ show affection to people

Emile

1. He got a giant stuffed bunny recently so he's been sleeping with/on that.

2. Emile doesn't have much experience taking care of plants or animals. He tries to get along with kids but it's a toss up whether they like him or hate him. He doesn't know if he'd want to raise a child in the future but he's certainly not fit to take care of one now.

7. Already answered

8. Depends. If it's a good ass puzzle then it intrigues him. If the solution requires visual components then it frustrates him.

9. Yes he does, especially with dolls/plushies. When he's alone he talks to his giant stuffed bunny

14. I don't think he'd agree with the term, no. He's not really ashamed of what he enjoys.

16. I can actually answer this one for him: just anything texturally nice/interesting. Fluffy, sequined, feathery, dangly, anything cool to touch like that.

19. He's never had to do either of those things really!! He probably wouldn't anyways.

22. Do they like being called pet names? Do they call other people pet names? Usually when people use pet names for him it's with the intent to demean/infantilize, so no he doesn't really enjoy being called pet names bc nobody who uses pet names for him has ever had good, genuine intentions. He likes to give nicknames to people but he doesn't really use pet names for anyone.

23. Stability.

27. Depends on the person and what they did. If somebody hurts him, usually forgiveness. If somebody hurts one of his friends, his first instinct is vengeance.

30. ARSON

Avery

1. They might own a stuffed animal or two, but they tend not to sleep with them.

2. Avery doesn't have any plants to take care of but they know how to take care of them pretty well and they have a fairly green thumb when it comes to gardening. They probably wouldn't mind taking care of a pet (except dogs) and they'd be pretty good at that too. They had NO experience with kids when they took in Emile, but they're really proud of who he's become so they guess they must've done something right.

7. How I'd describe them: powerful, cursed, dutiful. How they'd describe themself: goofy, helpful, flawed.

8. Intrigue.

9. Not usually, but they do with their instrument(s). Their bass, Mbali, is their favorite.

14. They'd like to think they don't agree with the term buuuuuut they very much do. Their guilty pleasure is monster hunting shows that get monster hunting SO wrong but have interesting stories anyways. it always starts out with them hatewatching it because of how unrealistic the monster hunting is, but then they get sucked into the narrative and start to enjoy it.

16. once again, i have no fashion sense so i cannot answer this

19. The last time they had to do either of those things was a looong time ago but they did them!

22. They had a friend that called them pet names because she was That Kind Of Person, and it grew on them enough that they started saying them back. just friendly stuff like babe, hon, snookums, etc.

23. Already answered

27. Aready answered

30. If "they would be forgiven" means that there will be no consequences, they would tell Emile everything that they haven't been able to tell him.

#oc robbie fuller #oc emile azarel #oc avery azarel #🥰#sorry this took so long i spent an hour thinking of a name for Avery's bass #and finding a name for avery's bass meant solidifying where exactly they were raised #and in the meantime i also just gave the rest of their family members names. oops

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Your home is the beautiful hidden city of Leira a haven for the wood elves to hide away from the cruelty of the outside world, each house was made from the wood of a different tree and the city was warded away from the rest of the world by a magical forest that never let anyone through its majestic depths, life in Leira was peaceful as it had been for a thousand years

you fucking hate it

ok maybe not the peace, the peace was nice everyone can agree that peace was if a little boring generally a good thing but.... well.... ok first of all that magical forest thing works two way no one can leave. ever. this didnt stop you trying when you were little you used to take off into the forest determined to see what was at the other side but no matter how hard you tried or how you navigated or how long you were walking or anything you always ended up back in Leira it was always the same you would end up right back at home and your mother would brush the twigs out of your hair and say how “silly” you were to get lost in the forest it made you indescribably angry but you didnt even understand why

growing up in this place was a nightmare, Leira was created by melora the goddess of nature so as you can imagine the culture of leira was pretty heavily dedicated to sucking her metaphysical dick, everyone’s a vegetarian and natures roams free throughout the city which is nice and all but when your late for school and you get stuck behind a 20 ton bear it easy to loose your fucking patience and it not like you want to kill an animal or anything but your desperately curious to know what meat tastes like. one night there was a big wild fire and a bunch of birds got roasted in the flames and yeah it was sad and all that but my god the SMELL! it was amazing and theres no way you can ever get any kind of meat since theres no privacy anywhere in the god damn city, you live with your family and streets are ALWAYS busy with people and even in the rare moment when theres no other elves around theres always some kind of nature around and since most of the elves if the city can speak to animals your pretty sure if you did anything too sacrilegious it would be reported before you could say “barbecue”. and the people ugh the FUCKING PEOPLE you mother keeps nagging you and telling you off for regecting all your sutiors but in fairness your not really regecting 8 or 9 suitors your regecting one because EVERYONE HERE IS THE FUCKING SAME THEYVE GOT LONG FLOWING HAIR THEYRE SLIM AND DELICATE LOOKING THEY WRITE POTRY ABOUT NATURE AND THEY PROBABLY PLAY THE FUCKING PAN FLUTE.

ok what the fuck is up with pan flutes theyre anoying to play and they dont even sound good why cant we just bang some fucking sticks together and make some real noise!

and the worst thing about it is that everyone you have ever met god damn loves it here if you go to a town elder to ask about if people can get through the forest he just pats you on the head and says some shit like “dont worry little one no outsiders will ever get in” and you have to fight back the urge to scream beacause NO LORENCE YOU DONT GET IT but you just nod and smile because if you say anything than you get branded as even more of a fucking outsider than when you decided to tie up your hair for the first time.I mean by the GODS what is wrong with tying up your hair? ugh you know whats wrong with it in Leria elves belive that hair should flow out beautifuly and naturally its common for full adults to have hair that reaches the floor and some elders employ neighbourhood kids to pick up their hair after them when they walk so it doesn't trail behind them on the ground but whoever decided that elvish hair was contantly elegant never seemed to be able to get your hair to obey. your hair constantly got caught on buttons and jackets and even door handles! your hair is only down to your waist and its already the biggest nuisance in your life you cant imagine it reaching the floor and always getting stepped on so one day you had had enough, you got some twine and tied up your hair you thought it looked pretty good but when your mother saw it for the first time my god it was like you were dying she asked what was wrong if you needed some kind of help and after she hear that your hair was getting in the way she decided to spend three hour THREE FUCKING HOURS brushing it which is not only fucking painfull but its the kind of stupid bullshit you were trying to avoid when you tied it up in the fucking first place. eventually people got a little more used to you tying up your hair there was always a limit there was always a “oh honey grannies coming round for dinner so dont you think you should take down your hair?” and its like ..... why? but becuase theyre your family you dont question it and let your hair down but secretly you think that maybe granny wouldnt mind it if you could eat without accidentally getting stray hairs in your mouth every....single...time you took a bite to eat.

buuuuuut theres some hope theres a legend of a warrior with a great connection to nature who must leave the safty of the city and defeat a great evil in the outside world and your determined that that person will be you you got to the libary at noght and read books on the outside world and FUCK it sounds so fucking interesting so different so god damn DIFFERENT you read about beings who live between dimensions and every single member of there race is completly different to each other every single one is entirly unique some are good some are evil some have physical forms some are made of gas and some of them are just a mad pile of limbs I mean can you imagine? the very idea of beings like that sets you mind ablaze and your determined to meet one but the fucking problem with that is the the legendary hero is suppose to be able to connect with nature and you... struggle with that. you call out to the trees to obey your commands you try to connect with the animals and you appeal to the elements but nothing ever works its so fucking frustrating this is your only chance of leaving the city and you can even begin to make progress everyone in the city at least has SOME connection to nature there are toddlers that can make flowers bloom and you cant even bend a branch. everyone teacher youve ever had tells you not to give up and to keep trying and that you just need to look deep down withing yourslef and find the connection you dont know is there but that just bullshit the reason you can connect with the trees is because deep down you dont WANT to connect with the trees you know it and the trees know it why cant anyone see?everyone in the world from your teacher to your parents tyo the town elders to the fucking animals seemed to think that your just one attitude adjustment away from being a perfect happy elf “keep trying” they say “you’ll get it eventually” all your fucking life youve been hearing that but you know what? you dont want to be a perfect elf with long hair and a dozy smile you dont want to be the hero who connects with nature and is celebrated as the perfect figure you dont want to be here anymore! you want to eat meat and wear clothes that dont make me look like a plant obsessed ballet dancer and fight people with your bare hands and play the drums and do whatever you want with my hair and be FUCKING FREE

you sneak into the library the books your looking for is old and worn but within it is the ritual that you need. The great one Uthuctarr is surprised to be contacted by an elf but you get along like a house on fire. soon the terms of the pact are agreed you have the pentagram scrawled onto the library floor in chalk all you need to seal the pact is a part of your self, most people use blood but you have a better idea, you take out the dagger you stole, its carved out of bone it was used by ancient elves to hunt in the days when the world was new, functionally the bone dagger is everything the elves of Leira stand against but they couldnt destroy it without discrediting their precious history. its perfect, you undo the twine holding your hair and let the blond mass fall forward over your face. with your left and you grab a clump of long blond hair near the base and with your right you take the blunt bone dagger and cut. you hand is not steady and your hair is thick but that doesnt stop you and soon a huge chunk of blond mess falls away into the centre of the pentagram. you pause for a moment thinking about what youve just dont and you realise you can feel the night hair against your ears and in all you life youve never felt anything more divine you begin to laugh, truly laugh. not at a joke or out of politeness but out of pure unfiltered joy. quickly you grab another clump and get back to work. after a few more minutes of frenzied cutting your finally free of you long messy STUPID hair, you gather the hair into the centre of the pentagram and step back. suddenly all on its own the hair bursts into dark blue flames, the small is awful, you love it, from the fire a tiny thread of blue flame pushes out of the flame and begins to weave its way out of the library though the city and into the forest the locals are mystified but you know whats happening after all these years you are finally being shown the path out of Leira.

#pact ideas #eldritch #pact #elf #elves #dnd #dnd 5e #character idea #wow this was long #warlock #anger #family #long post #loooooong post #im sorry for the people who have to scroll through this #lovecraft #lovecrafian #rebelion

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scenarihoes · 5 years

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idk where you stand on the “can Tokoyami kiss/do oral” but could we please get some Tokoyami nsfw where he’s feeling a little guilty cause he can’t properly kiss his girlfriend or go down on her so he tries to make up for it in ~other ways~??? he’s so cute and emo he can get it

yes he CAN get it!!! i did some headcanons because i just had so many ideas for this!

Tokoyami and his oral alternatives!

Tokoyami, growing up, never really played with the idea of having a partner. Naturally he wrote his poetry and found muses within lonliness when he was feeling particularly isolated, but it was only for that: poetry. Lines on paper or spoken into darkness on a dark and stormy night. He’s always craved love of a partner but there was never time for it and to be frank, he’s always believed that he’s far too jaded for anything more than just friends. As he grows up he get’s better but even after graduating from U.A and climbing his way up the ladder, he’s still got yet to tack the idea of a relatiosnhip to his internal walls.

It’s a tough life. A lover not a fighter at his core and yet no outlet for all that affection. A shame, really.

Buuuuuut then you come along. The light in his darkness, the air in his lungs. You know the drill.

Sex is even more foreign to him than intimacy is. It takes a long, long time before he comes around to spending time with you between the sheets and even then he’s offput from the very start and you, of course, know exactly why. He doesn’t even need to say it out loud for you to know he feels discouraged due to his limitations. Without lips, oral and even kissing are off the table. Hickies are a no-go unless you want them to be surrounded with the harsh scrapes of his beak.

His lack of lips drives him crazy! It blows he can’t kiss you under the moonlight or even passionately on a sunday morning. It upsets him even further considering he’s got a thing for lips, especially your lips, and he can’t even kiss them. Ugh. It frustrates him beyond belief. Plus, he feels bad that you have to miss out receiving oral. It’s persicely why when he learns that he can pleasure you in ‘alternate’ ways, he runs with the idea with it. Sprints for the hills, really, and hoo boy can he really make up for what he lacks.

Maybe it’s because of his natural ability to lament poetry on command, but he’s such a good dirty talker. Something about the phrasing, the absolute brooding darkness yet smothering affection he let’s fall from his throat would drive anyone crazy. He’s a king at setting the mood and he knows it. The thing is, his dirty talk isn’t even demeaning. He doesn’t mock or even really use his words to dominate you, he just drips such raw observant emotion that it’s hard to not flush and crave more. Often times he finds himself able to get you going before the fun’s even begun just by saying the perfect things. You can’t believe that these thoughts are really running through his head while he’s looking at you, feeling, experiencing you. It’s on another level entirely.

Tokoyami excels in fingering. He’s gotta- it’s his lifeboat, and damn is it a good one. Sure he can’t eat you out, but you know what he can do? Rub you just right until you’re a squirming mess clutching at the bedsheets or even better, his shoulders and back. He’s got no qualms with bringing you to edge after edge, casting you off every single time with just his fingers alone. Because fingering is really his best alternative, he’s relentless with it. He won’t stop until you’re inching away just for a moment to catch your heaving breath and that’s even before he’s started fucking you.

Stroke game is off the charts. Legendary- it even surprises himself sometimes. Tokoyami’s mastered the arts of staving off his own orgasms for the soul purpose of ensuring you’re a shaking mess by the time he’s spent. He’s not rough, he doesn’t toss you around and grab and pull, but he is thorough. Very, very thorough. He’ll cum for the first time that night while you’re brinking on your fourth or fifth. His partner reaching their resolve is such a huge motivator for him, and the noises you make have him wishing that the moment would last forever.

And yes, he does tell you that. He’ll make sure you know sure and well that he wishes he could have you like that for eternity, entangled limbs and red-hot love, love, love.

#tokoyami fumikage #bnha #mha #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #imagine #headcanons #i dont wanna tag this as not sayfe for werk so #lemon #it is #UGH

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chwafl · 4 years

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90% chance I’m moving next year

I’ve posted about this here and there online, but since the start of August I’ve been going through a long job application process that, if accepted, will have me moved out of the country by February 2021 (give or take the state of the world with the pandemic still among us.) I haven’t been specific about what the job is since I’m afraid of if I put too much information out there, if anyone DOESN’T want me to be successful with this all, I don’t want their negative vibes or energy (no matter how far away lol) to mess up my chances!

So why 90% and not 100% certain I’m moving? What’s the 10% for? Well, there’s still paperwork that needs to be done and I still need an official placement. I’ve already gone through the initial screening, interview process, and mailed over all my u.s. documents needed for the job like a copy of my passport, federal background check, apostilled copy of my college diploma, etc. From there, the job coordinators send out documents out to the actual people that will hire us. If hired, we have to go through some more paperwork for visas. Once THAT is secure is only when I can safely announce I’m 100% moving and what I’ll be doing.

Since I’m still in that floating period, I wanted to at least express my thoughts right now in this current moment. I know I have the chance to be there, but it’s still up in the air, so I think it’s an important point to reflect.

First of all, I never imagined I would try moving to this country LOL. But when I saw the job opportunity come across, all signs seemed to point to yes. I think the timing of this all was really good for me. Not only that, but I was hitting an all time low at my current job. Thankfully, I’ve switched over to a seasonal thing we do every year which is far less stressful, but after December, I would go back to the place was before that felt like it was ruining my life. That’s only if I don’t get another job though!

I don’t know how many people can understand how much a bad job can ruin your day-to-day. When I’m on the clock, I’m miserable, when I’m off the clock, I feel sort of better, but have the dread of returning sitting in the back of my mind. I have looked into all sorts of things: law of attraction, changing my mindset, all this that and the other, but nothing could truly help me enjoy the job. I could go on and on about what the job was, why I stayed there so long, and why I hated it, but that’ll be for another very long blog post that will be really annoying to write cuz I don’t wanna think about how much I hated that!!

And there is that fear that I could return there if things don’t work out.

So I really hope that move can happen for real and I never have to look back!

I think everyone has that very low point in their life, and that was mine. I guess I’m fortunate enough that it wasn’t as low as it could be, but boy it was low. I at least think that by being at such a low point, it made me realize more of who I am as a person, what I wanna do with my life, and how much more I should just take chances.

I had always had the thought of living abroad and the idea of settling down in a country that isn’t the U.S. doesn’t even scare me.

I think it stems from how I never felt like I belonged anywhere. I don’t wanna sound like a brat, but screw it, I hate where I live! I hate my hometown! I never enjoyed living here, ever!

Okay, it’s not THAT bad, but compared to places where I could thrive, oh yeah it sux.

And so with never feeling like I fit in where I grew up, that made me curious to explore to see if there’s a place somewhere out there where I feel like I can belong. That’s why traveling, going to unknown places, driving around to cities for hours doesn’t intimidate me. Well, I don’t think I’ll ever fully “belong” anywhere, no place can be that perfect, but I can find a place where when I’m there I can say “Yeah, this place has flaws, but I’m loving my life regardless!”

I feel like I’m having a late start to everything. I turn 27 in December so I’m almost 30. But I feel like when I move, it’s like I’m approaching my 18th birthday all over again LOL. What I mean by that is, it will feel like I’m finally reaching a new level of independence that allows me to bloom even more, and I so desperately need that right now. I’ve felt stuck, and trapped. A large part of the reason why I couldn’t move was because my mom was financially depending on me, and with her needing money from me every month, it made the idea of saving up to move out or even afford to live on my own really hard. I had a lot of resentment towards her that I never expressed, because I felt like she was holding me back. The only way I could afford to give her money while also take care of my own rent, car payments, insurance, phone bill, etc is if my job is just, a job that paid enough for all of that, and that’s hard to come by. I could probably have, all this time, been studying more or doing this or that more to make myself qualified for a job like that, but also, the time frame of my mom being financially depending on me wasn’t going to be forever, so I decided to just endure. Thankfully the financial burden will be lifted soon, and so that’s why I can finally be working towards this change. But I can’t help but feel jealous of others who had parents who are better off. I would be thriving so much more career wise if I didn’t feel like I had to be a step behind. If I had just been in a better situation where, let’s say in college, I could have had my own car, I would have been able to have access to more internships and attending network events. But at that time, uber and lyft was brand new and I used it a few times, but I couldn’t fully trust it. So after college, I had to work on getting a car, but the jobs I could get were so limited bc I had to share a car with my mom, meaning I could only work night shifts. After a year, I had enough saved for a down payment for a car, so in 2018, I could finally drive around to a full-time job, drive around to events, cons, friends, or drive around just for the heck of it.

But in 2018 that was when I got that full-time job that made me hate life lol. And 2018 was when changes in my family happened where my mom had to be financially dependent on me. I would apply for jobs AT the job I was at, so desperate to get myself out of there, but I had to stick through it. Of course, NO ONE was hiring me. It was a blow to mu confidence getting rejections or just being ghosted. If I just quit and worked at in retail or serving, nothing I’d make there would be enough to give my mom money, pay my car, insurance, etc AND afford all the costs for my idol stuff and going to events. Hey, I had to keep myself happy somehow right?!

Months and months pass by and now we’re in 2020. The pandemic happens and we all work from home. At first I liked it, but then I was reminded about how much I hated that job. I also had got into a car accident that totaled my car.

Realizing that no matter what, I hated that job, and now I don’t have a car again, do I really wanna keep doing this?! So with the money I had been scraping by and by to save up to move out, instead of using that for a down-payment for a car, I’m just gonna use that for a plane ticket across the globe! And then, I’ll just keep saving up for all of the extra costs and expenses to get me by with the move.

Part of me is afraid that this job could be worse than the one that made me hate life lol. I’m afraid to get excited because, what if I’m also miserable?! Or, what if the job itself is fine, but living in that country is more difficult than expected? I don’t know.

But I’m at least happy that I’m taking that chance!

And considering the job only accepts candidates with a bachelor’s degree, has hundreds and hundreds and HUNDREDS of applicants, and the application process has multiple stages where you could be rejected at any point, the fact that I’ve made it this far, so far, my confidence is coming back for real!

Buuuuuut, as mentioned at the very beginning of this post, we can’t get TOO excited.

So I will get a little bit excited for now, for the first time in a very long time :)

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Iteration, iteration, iteration...

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Hey there, this is Mike. I've been wanting to do a blog post for a while buuut I get distracted and things come up constantly from numerous different sources.

Being a generalist on a game makes things really tough, it's one of the hardest things I've ever had to try and manage in my life. I've invested time into learning to draw, paint, model, (horribly) rig and animate, compose and play music, arrange video clips, design a 3D UI, learn basic physics, learn basic linear algebra and programming, the scripting kind as well as the lower level/messier kind.

I've learned so many different software packages that it drives me nuts how I can't ever become accustomed to any single one any more like I used to. Back in the good ol' days when things were so much simpler being content with just having to improve my drawing and painting ability. I had the luxury of developing a sweet set of custom hotkeys for photoshop that I could just memorize nearly every operation I would ever have to EVER operate, and I would just play with those hotkeys switching them around every few months trying to figure out the perfect combination.

NO LONGER!!!

Sounds like a fantasy land nowadays.It's hard for me to imagine the feeling of how I used to live, practicing one thing over and over and over and over and over and over and over again every day. Ironically I don't really do much drawing any more, but I always remember the fundamental lessons it has taught me, and that is.

You never. get. it. perfect.

ITERATION!!!!!!!!

Key ingredient to anything sweet and savory in the games business and most component parts that make up great games. It takes time, oof, it takes effort, owieee, and most of all it takes persistence!

So, what is this post really about? Well let's talk about it.

Part 1, we've already completed, I wanted to create a little intro about myself so I can never talk about it again on here.

Part 2, the meat and potatoes, I want to provide some value to anyone who might do the same stupid things that I did over and over and over when I was initially learning how to program games!

so, on to part 2!!!(... of part 1 of the article series.... don't worry about it)

************************************************************************************************ !!!PART 2!!!D: ************************************************************************************************ This post is primarily geared towards programmers using the Unity game engine. If you are not a programmer, or you are an experienced one, I do not think you will get much out of this post. This is all about me going from a total noob to a somewhat less of a noob. BUT if my assertion is incorrect and you do in fact find something of use, then GREAT, i'd love to hear about it.

So, what do I mean about iteration anyways?

Such a broad topic, applies to everything, so lets narrow it down.

The first alpha version of super nut ball I thought I had done a pretty decent job. It wasn't the very first thing I had ever programmed, but it was the first real serious attempt at trying to create a piece of software I could feel proud of. It was fun, I enjoyed it, but towards the end of the first cycle I had felt a bit stressed whenever I had tried to tackle any changes to the codebase. It was a total fucking mess and I was delusional. I really believed I had done something pretty good and it was a very good thing I hadn't shown that code to anyone who I'd wanted to impress!

People played the game, gave a positive reaction in general and I was happy, they were happy. Who cares if the code is messy?! The game is fun!!!

WRONG

This is a horrible way to perceive a project as the developer of it, especially one that has no real deadline. Ideally I would like to think that I always do the best I can and give myself credit for trying to do the right thing and make the best possible decisions given what I know at the time. Buuuuuut, for some reason that's just not how things seem to work. So let's look at some code.

(This is making my skin crawl just as I break open the dusty old windows folders)

Here's the link to a tiny github repository I created for this post:

https://github.com/SGMike/SuperNutBallBlog_01 We're going to be taking a gander at the PlayerController.cs script.

I'll take some code snippets and post them here as well.

Please keep in mind that while the newer one is updated and much improved, this is an honest-open look into the development of our game in it's current raw state. I didn't want to clean it up beforehand to give a false impression of, 'look how great and clean and super tight Mike's code is!, what a jerk!' Unfortunately no, even with a lack of tight deadlines there is still way too much to get perfect and I am constantly iterating on this as I go and hopefully one day it will be perfect!

But if I would have waited until I made this script perfect to create this blog post then this post would have never existed, so I had to just commit myself to finally get to it.

So lets start our journey inside of PlayerController_OLD inside of void FixedUpdate() on line 83. This is the gist of what is going on in there....

if (pressThing) { if (thing2Happend || thing4IsHappening && (!thing6MightHappen)) { moving = false; flying = true; } else if (thing5HasYetToHappen) { DoThing32(); turnOffMe = false; if (otherSuperFunThing == !true && playerStunned) { moving = true; flying = false; } CountDownTimer66(); } }

JESUS CHRIST. What kind of squirrel crack was I smoking when I wrote that. I honestly have no idea, it's pretty horrible and a perfect example of what no developer should ever EVER EVER do. It saddens me to still see, to this day, some of my fellow classmates create code that looks similar to this and even worse in some cases.

I would like to think that this is a typical programmer noob mistake so that I am not alone, I feel like I have seen it quite a few times and that is:

Failing to understand the concept of encapsulation. IE. sticking freaking everything into Update.

If you ever can help it, at any place possible, abstract code that is related to one single task into a single function. Ideally the function called Attack() contains every piece of logic necessary to carry out an attack. Now, realistically this is just not feasible, functions are very limited on their own, but utilized in combination with classes they can be extremely powerful and flexible. We will get to that later though, back on topic.

Digging through my memory I believe that I ended up with this because when I had started to create the game I had placed a few items inside of update, you know, general stuff when starting out like. When I press left, move left, when I press right, move right. It's just 4 if statements right? What's so bad about that? I hear this kind of thinking CONSTANTLY it's bad bad bad.

Get in the habit of doing the right thing, even if you think a change will be really quick

If you're more experienced writing code, then this is obvious when it's okay to futz around and do some quick stuff. But in almost every situation, I end up having to rewrite the crap code I put down because I soon get excited at the possibilities and start to chip away again at this growing tangled hairball of logic.

Looking at both scripts, you might notice that in the new version I managed to encapsulate the logic to the point where I do not even need an Update() function. This is me striving for a more event-based approach to the design. Most game logic is event based. You have on key pressed, on key removed, on player stunned, on player jumped, on player landed. You can really break everything down to simple to understand events, everything else is simply a simulation.

I do have a few things inside of FixedUpdate for slightly more efficient updating.

// Update Particles // UpdateParticles();

// Update Movement // MoveHorizontal(m_controlAxes.x);

// Update Recently Stunned Timer // UpdateRecentlyStunnedTimer();

Looking at it now, I probably don't even need the last function in there. I'm sure there was some constraint that led me to use FixedUpdate() instead of a coroutine, which in simple cases is often the right choice for handling timers.

Earlier this year I did a near complete refactor of the entire game, because the game overall is pretty small this took about a week of not doing much else other than rewriting the game. The resulting code is what you see here. Overall things are far more encapsulated, clean, super simple to understand, and the total amount of code is less than it was before(Not in this particular script however). There are a lot of changes and things I'd love to talk about in depth but I am already going much farther than I had originally planned which is why I have broken this post into multiple parts. I'll probably find some images to spice up the article as well.

The code from before was a massive pain to work with, I would literally get anxiety when I would think about making changes to it and feel my heartrate increase. Not a great way to have fun creating a game designed to be fun. Now, the code is awesome, I love working in it because it's so simple and straightforward and iteration is lightning fast compared to how it used to be.

If Sophie tells me something like, You shouldn't be able to dash when you're holding the nut, literally all I have to do is go to this script,

hit Ctrl+F,

type 'dash(' and I am immediately there.

I add a piece of code that says

if (m_nutGrabber.IsHoldingNut()) return;

FREAKING AMAZING!!!

Just take a look at FixedUpdate() from the old script and imagine how much of a huuuuge pain it was trying to sort through that mess, can you imagine why I used to get anxiety from it!?

Now this is all well and good but, what is going on outside of this script?!?! Surely there is an Update() call SOMEWHERE, otherwise how am I getting input?

And you are absolutely correct, the big major difference is that ALL of the update logic is handled in one encapsulated script I have called InputController which handles all of the logic for the player whether that is through a controller or mouse/keyboard. It is important to note that while yes, this does take more setup up front, but once it is set up, you have a nice system in place for handling these things and it makes further iteration a breeze.

Now let's say you actually want to write some test code, just throw it into a private function and call that function from Update. This way you'll get the same instant gratification from doing quick and messy test code but you'll still retain the ability to quickly sort through the test code and the code you still want to actually keep working from before. The danger here is that you end up writing a second private function called from within the first and you start to build up this heap of private functions. If you ever find yourself starting to follow this pattern it means that what you're doing is probably going to actually be implemented to some kind of significant degree and is no longer test code. If this is the case, then it should be designed and encapsulated properly. In this situation I would remove that function call from Update() and stick it into InputController's Update(). Simple, it only took a few seconds and it maintains a consistent and clean architecture that we've built up. Take the time to do things right, you will almost always be thankful you did later. This is especially true when programming a game in pure C++.

Unity shields people from a lot of the real messy work that is involved when rolling your own tech and having to deal with software architecture. They provide a framework with these nice functions like OnTriggerEntered(), Awake(), Update() and FixedUpdate(). Functions like Start() and Awake() in particular can be really nasty traps awaiting nooby programmers who don't plan ahead. Unity also utilizes C# which has Delegates and Events built into the language, as well as garbage collection built into the VM. These tools are massive boons that free you as the developer from having to worry about hardcore and messy architecture design that is undoubtedly contained within Unity's engine code. These things are great but this convenience comes at a cost, and that cost is missing out on understanding how to properly structure code, which can be an extremely difficult skill to cultivate.

The ability to architect a good solid codebase is a fundamental skill of computer science and one that you can refine for the entirety of your lifetime. The issues related to good architecture are extremely difficult to solve, the best option is almost always unclear and fundamentally difficult to figure out because the best solutions are those that are contextual. In almost every single situation you do not know beforehand the best architecture because you haven't attempted to build it yet. It's after you have failed that you realize what the proper approach should have been, and even then it's not always clear.

Well, it's nearly 4AM again and I've been writing for a while, in the future I'm planning on creating more posts that go further in depth on these kinds of topics. I've barely scratched the surface of what I really wanted to talk about and I want to get to some more theory on what I believe makes for a good architecture. This will include a discussion on the kinds of issues that have cropped up while working on Super Nut Ball and how the game's components are architected and composed.

If you made it this far thanks for reading, I hope you got something out of this first messy post and drop us a line to let you know you exist!

-Mike

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