#complicated fan fic

[fistfuloflightning]

OH MY GOD I COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT BINGFAN

If you can draw it, please I beg of you 🙏

Pleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

The rot is coming back 😓

ANOTHER BINGFAN FAN!! Well of course I’d love some angst-ridden enemies-to-lovers it’s-complicated tsundere content 😊

No one deserved to die like this, Ming Fan thought viciously. Not even him. Luo Binghe’s eyes were wide with terror and confusion, at odds with the damning, demonic seal glowing on his forehead. But there was something like gratitude there as well, out of place and so painfully frail. “Shixiong—“ With a cry, he was wrenched from Ming Fan’s grip and into the Abyss below.

#art prompt #svsss #bingfan #luo binghe #ming fan #svsss art #my art #all while SQQ is prob just…standing off to the side lmao #or maybe he’s already left thinking LBH fell already #but anyway #i HAD to draw this #it’ll be interesting once binghe gets back from his roadtrip to hell #SQQ is still his abuser but he has…complicated feelings about ming fan now #the only one to actively reach out to him at his worst/most vulnerable #so he doesn’t immediately want to raze cqms to the ground #hmmm #fic ideas

[jedi-starbird]

Disaster Lineage Timeline and Ages

Here is a Disaster Lineage timeline that actually makes sense and includes all members, plus their relative ages for each event. For all my fic writers who also get a headache trying to figure them out.

I tried my best to keep the relative ages the same as what Canon or Legends gives us with 2 exceptions (Xanatos and Komari). So while the dates may not be canon accurate for becoming a padawan or Knighting, their ages are. The grey cells mark how old the person was when they died.

I've given permission for this to be on the SW Reference wiki. Here!

Enjoy and hope you have fun with it! Detailed explanations for birth-date changes below the cut!

Buckle in Folks.

OK, so Dooku must be aged up minimum 5 years in order to train Rael before Qui-Gon and so Qui-Gon can train Feemor and Xanatos before Obi-Wan. Rael has to be at least 10 years older than Qui-Gon so that he can be knighted when Qui-Gon is padawan age. Canon has Dooku take on Rael at 22 so I kept that cause it's funny and that means Dooku has to be older than his canon birthday of 102BBY to fit both in.

Neither of Qui-Gon's birthdays work if you want to fit the other lineage members in. This is not at all annoying. 80BBY(canon) has him too young to train both Feemor and Xanatos before Obi-Wan and 92BBY(legends) has him being 17 when he becomes a padawan if Dooku trains Rael before him. 86BBY is my magical average that just barely works. I use fanon that Qui-Gon takes over Feemor's training cause it's the only way to fit him in without making Qui-Gon too old, thus domino-affecting Rael and Dooku.

Does this mean the 4 of them are all knighted between ages 21-23? Yes? Is that insane? Yes, but alas it's the only way I could make the timeline work.

Komari is the only birth-date I've moved for non-math reasons, her actual birthday is 62BBY, same as Nim, but that makes her 18 at Galidraan and I felt that was too young personally. (She kills 20 Mandos singlehandedly there. yeah. wtf)

Xanatos's birthday and death date are the same but I made him older when he fell because Legends has him as 16 and that really feels too young, especially since he was considered for the goddamn Knight Trials when he fell and we know Anakin was considered exceptionally young when he was knighted at 19. It makes for some nice parallels between them. Plus all the shit Xanatos gets up to after he runs off, he should be a little older to pull it off.

#god this took so much math. and I flunked high school maths. my brain is burning. #the main takeaway from this is that Dooku and Qui-Gon are insane people with empty nest syndrome and Rael is somehow the reasonable one #Rael takes on his first padawan at the sensible age of 47 meanwhile Dooku and Qui-Gon are bonkers with their first padawans at 22 and 23 #I tried to solve a fic planning headache and gave myself an even more complicated headache diving into all this #*grits teeth* i love being a star wars fan #disaster lineage #star wars #star wars reference #dooku #qui gon jinn #rael averross #feemor #xanatos du crion #komari vosa #obi wan kenobi #nim pianna #anakin skywalker

[shawnxstyles]

after not reading complicity for FOUR MONTHS i’m finally reading it again. omg this shit has me in a chokehold

#harry styles #harry styles smut #harry styles fan fic #harry styles wattpad #wattpad #duplicity #complicity

[childlikegoblinqueen]

Re: Chapter 81…

Listen… is it really a holiday dinner if you are not holed up in an empty room at your SIL’s childhood mansion telling your former cult colleague/ would be mentor who held you to the standard or his dead mentor and then avoided you for 9 years after trying to make it up to you to 🖕🏻 off?

Because that’s how awkward holiday dinner’s usually go.

Right?

#sweet child o mine #hunter noceda #toh hunter #toh fanfic #the owl house #spotify #toh darius #darius deamonne #the owl house hunter #ao3 fanfiction #ao3 writer #darius and hunter have a complicated relationship #darius and hunter have more baggage than hunter had under his eyes as a child #hunter angst #toh fan fiction #toh fan fic #ao3 fanfic #hunter and darius #darius angst

[ehay]

Art Brain insisted I draw a scene from the newly-updated fic by galeaspida.

#fic rec #fan art #yennefer of vengerberg #tissaia de vries #the witcher #galeaspida #unicorn-related #but too complicated to explain in a simple tag set #atmosphere #candles #and architectural skulls

[simcardiac-arrested]

Go go go cutscene cutscene cutscene!!!

been thinking about one of my favorite undertale fics lately, it’s like. the best undertale fic to me if not the best fic on ao3 period. i liek it so much. it’s the scientist series by talkingsoup and i will Never stop talking about like i Know i have mentioned it before but i am physically incapable of shutting up about it. it’s so good. i once tried to get my best friend to read it even though she doesn’t know english but i tried to convince her to read it with google translate (it didn’t last long but it was worth the effort). it’s So Good. i discovered it in like 2018 or 2019 and have reread it at least two times since it’s just like AUEHGGHHH. gaster’s downfall and then him haunting the narrative … the exploration of sans’ backstory …… the characterizations ………. it’s all very well written and also very dark and traumatic. They make Shit happen to these characters. but it gets better. i think ? i have never finished the series because iirc it only finished around a year ago and i haven’t reread it since. but i am Thinking about it. it’ll probably take me months because 1. i have to come to terms with the fact that one of my favorite stories will be Finished(tm) 2. i have to hype myself up to reread it because it’s a very long series with like 400k words or something AND the second installment is verrrry dark and heavy considering it explores the whole reset bullshit and flowey is putting sans through 29263937 meatgrinders

#so yeah. i need to finally finish reading it sometime but i dont know if i’m strong enough #but i like it so much. very good story. definitely recommend if u are interested in undertale and the skelebros specifically #but also you should absolutely heed the warnings and i’m so serious when i say it’s super dark. Lots of bad shit happens #i thiiiink it gets better though? like i’m pretty sure the series has a happy ending. so that’s good. probably #also another one of my favorite undertale fic series is And Whither Then I Cannot Say which is also skelebros centered but mostly #frisk centered (love u frisk) and the plot of it is about the undertale aus. which i at first was . scared of #because if you were a ut fan in 2016 like i was then you definitely have some sort of trauma from all the au shit. i really found the fic #mostly by chance. but i was bored so i said Fuck it and then i read it. and it was super good ?!?!?!?!? #it has an interesting plot and complicated characters and interesting character dynamics #it also made me laugh several times even though i don’t often react that strongly to fics #but yeah i havent reread it or caught up on it in. a long while. which i should do #umm. someday. someday …. #cramswering #undertale fic ramble for today

[911-on-abc]

POV: You're me, writing an AU about a sport you know nothing about

#the NFL au was not supposed to be a fic!!! #it was a silly little post #and somehow we got here #thank you to everyone who has helped me understand it so far #I want to be as accurate as possible #and make sure I honor the sport/people who are fans of it #even though it's weird as fuck #chess has nothing on how complicated football is #Sarah speaks #(also I hate reading AUs about something I DO know a lot about and it just being wrong) #(*cough cough* political AUs *cough cough* music industry AUs) #(I cannot read secret service AUs! I have tried!!) #(the only exception is astolat's Let Toretto Be Toretto #but astolat literally created the archive so it gets a pass) #my post

[boxwinebaddie]

WIAT UNCLE NINA WHYD YOU DELETE THE PETE DAVIDSON ASK IT WAS MINE AND I DIDNT HAVE TIME TO READ IT LMFSOFJFJ

aaaaaah! *hides* you caught me!

there she is officer, the repeat offense tweet/ask deleter!

that crook!

i know, i know, i know. :( i'm sorry, nonnie. it's a bad habit of mine.

please know it had NOTHING to do with your ask ( which i thought was so funny and accurate, which is why i answered it so quickly )

i just...haven't felt very good about the things i have written lately? i feel like my answers have been badly written/characterized, chaotic, uninspired and not saying...the things i want them to say? which stresses me out, starts a spiral and reckless anon/tweet deleting.

if it means anything, i had your ask message copied, was going to resend it to my blog and answer it Better, but to hold myself accountable, i'm gonna answer it now in hopefully a less messy and weird way. ( i also stress-deleted the kyle ask about him getting compliments because i didn't like my answer -- i'll reanswer it too )

but yes, RM!kenny aka mcwhoremick aka skeleKen is the ncu rem(ember) universe pete davidson.

or...has slept w/ him at least.

lowkey, this ask is making me rethink short kenny because i feel like a lot of pete davidsons energy rests on him being tall and having BDE. however, you can probably still be short and have bde. answer later.

but, like i said in the former ask, i kind of wanted to go into it a lot later because rm is supposed to reveal it slowly, but you're all smart, i'm sure you can pick up what i've been trying to put down about cd.

plus, i've been feeling so bad about my writing ( 6 in particular :/ i don't like the structure ) that i fear its gonna take us to get to the places i want to go with the characterization so

looks can be deceiving and cd is punkrockstar boyband proof of that.

they all kind of have Shitcks they're supposed to follow and kenny's is that they are the ~mysterious~ offputting entity in the back, wears the skeleton face that leaves everyone wondering what lies beneath it, doesn't talk very much, is secretive/shadowy, has elusive energy.

( i am leaning towards the concept that no one in public has seen kenny without the Skeleton Mask on...not sure yet but...hmmm... )

but...of course, kenny is kenny. kenny is playful, loud and rowdy and promiscuous, so out of pocket and the life of the gd party. so the second they are off stage, the mask comes off and kenny says 8000 curse words, starts gyratin & is back to being on their worst behavior.

speaking of their worst behavior, kenny is always doing some fuckshit. theyre constantly on a coke on someones yatcht, in some celebrity, in some music execs pants, in someone's daugther, usually college fangirls, like...every cd intern they've ever had. all quit. bc of kenny. not b/c they scared them, but bc they fell in love with them...

and kenny does NOT do commitments. kenny is like a revolving door. the tabloids reflect this. kenny is in there a lot with different celebs. its a whole mess, tbh. also no one knows how to describe them. ooh~

as a result of being messy, kenny gets into a lot of predicaments, or misses meetings/gets into trouble and raven covers for them...ALOT.

tldr: management is pretty sick of kennys shit and is This Close to getting them kicked out of the band ( like they were doin really sloppy shit ) and ravenstan...as the lead singer/face of the band is pretty much untouchable...so he can get away with a lot more so a lot of the time...raven just Covers kenny to save their ass from gettin kicked/in trouble and says that a lot of the fucked up shit kenny does is...Him.

raven is indisposible, but everyone else can be replaced is the gist.

which is :((( because you know it makes sense for chapter 2-5 Raven of Crimson Dawn to be a coke-fiend, party boy, bad influence, live wire, fight-starting, devil may care celebrity a-hole...but as rm readers and stan stans, know: ravenstan is Gods Sweet Angel who cries 24/7, picks up plants from the farmers market, is very kind to his fans, has hit someone once/broke his hand FOR KENNY, and spends his time otherwise watching anime and not...Lotharioing.

( it is also why kenny more than owed raven the favor of covering him so he could go on his #hate with kyle...which they Did ofc... tbh i wish you guys could have heard the other half of that phone call bc kenny was being so fucking funny and being so unhinged/moaning on the phone to freak ravenstan out...but the griefing, while light hearted, also came from a place of overprotectiveness, kenny was Concerned abt that whole Thing...more on that later...their rela is...interestin. )

buuuut that's what happens when you're the lead singer of the band. You're That Guy. so because stenny is soulbonded kenny protects stan bc he is sweet/fragile and stan protects kenny because theyre abrasive and constanly starting shit. and because stan frontmans the band anything anyone in crimson dawn does kind of falls on his shoulders and he carries it like its air but sigh...tell me atlas, whats heavier the world or people's hearts? i hate it here :((( my baby. </3

TLDR kenny is constantly pulling ppl. skeet davidson, bde energy. their list of trysts is a mile long like their...

you know. ;)

-uncle nina, kenny skeet davidson enthusiat and apologist

p.s. i feel like kenny basically has what kathryn in cruel intentions for her blow -- except it might be an upside cross ( or its still right side up and ironic ) and it looks like a rosary but its FULL of coke omg rip

p.s.s. i do think this is interesting because kenny has the coke necklace, ravenstan has the red heart vial and jimmy...also has a necklace...if you ask me very nicely i'll give you a little gossip on it ;)

#ok this is maybe too much i might have said too much #but god knows when im gonna finish this fic u guys and i have so much to say abt it but its so hard to write #but im sure u kinda got the gist #kenny is so pete davidson the fans are so curious and obsessed w them they have ENERGY #WHAT IS UNDER THE MASK HELLO #they ask other celebrities theyve been with abt it and all their answers are different its their mysterion moment #ALSO AHHH BC THE RAVEN COVERED FOR KENNY WHEN THEY HAD THIS MAJOR COKE SCANDAL #SO EVERY MEDIA OUTLET ITS WRITING ABT RAVEN DOING COKE WHICH SUCKS ACTUALLY SO BAD #like raven drinks a lot and def has had some public intoxication things and britney breakdowns #but idk i think that was pretty bad and kenny would have gotten in a lot of trouble and shit for it it was like the last strike #so raven just took the Blame for it and ahhhh....i hate it here #stan and kennys relationship in rm is like one of my fav ones its also so complicated theres a lot of layers #as u guys saw in ch3 when kyles name came up kenny got...weird...like very weird...if we rem(ember) that... #lots to unpack i hope i can get there #if i cant in like 2-3 months im just leaving an entire rm expose and going on live and telling u guys the whole thing like a bedtime story #SORRY I DELETED YOUR ASK I HOPE THIS MAKES SENSE SORRY IT WASNT FUNNY #raven do be covering for kenny and crying and throwing up the whole time too like kENNY THAT WAS SO SCARY THEY YELLED AT ME ;-; </3 #kenny bribes him w taco bell tho & it works every single time #they are like codependent its so bad omg #mcwhoremick skeleken please just one chance

[artofalyksandr]

✨ A Forgotten Place ✨

Here’s my piece to go with the fic by @jostenlovesminyard for the 2022 AFTG Big Bang! I loved working on this this and I’m so glad to finally be able to post this! Also be sure to check out the piece @estavs did for this fic bc it’s amazing!

#my art #digital art #fan art #digital fanart #aftg #all for the game #andreil #andrew minyard #aftg andrew #neil josten #peter pan au #I spent so much time on this piece my god #but it was 100% worth it #turning Neil into Peter Pan from the 2003 movie #bc that movie was so important to me and my childhood #I haven’t done a piece this complicated in a hot minute #if I remember right this piece had close to 75 layers #all the fucking leaf and vine textures #so many #anyway please check out estas piece and the fic #esta and I were accidentally pretty much the exact same wavelength with our pieces

[wizardnuke]

what's funnier for a meet-ugly fic. if it's a meet-ugly from the start ("we first met each other in a holding cell") or if it starts cute ("my grocery bag tore open on the street and they helped me pick everything up, also I got their number") and then gets ugly ("I didn't call them because I was busy and five days later we met again, in a holding cell")

#warning. long tags that got wildly off topic real fast. there's caleb meta in here #I think it's the difference between them being like 'huh. who's this guy' and the spiderman pointing meme #fic im writing doesn't have this thru a ship lens but it has a similar thing except like. it's a meet ugly where they don't exactly meet #but they see each other #smash cut four years later spiderman pointing meme in a holding cell YOU. WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE #pov you're trying to convince everyone you're interacting with (while in the holding cell) (well. a dungeon) that you're an assassin from #another country but your mother in law is in the next cell over and she CLEARLY recognizes you and does NOT believe the show you're #putting on because context from the prev time you were around each other states you are not loyal to that country and that you are also a #lying liar who lies shamelessly at the first chance you get if you think it'll get you what you want. and it's making shit complicated #because she visibly wants to ask questions about why the hell you're here but you're under surveillance so she's just staring holes into #ur skull and she doesn't know she's your mother in law. this is the funniest thing I've ever written #it's a HARROWING experience for caleb in the fic. he is terrified out of his mind. but also. it's so so funny. my guy why did u do that #'caleb is a master manipulator' common misconception! he is a conman and scammer! he wishes he could operate on pure unfeeling logic and #intellect but sometimes and even oftentimes he is made of 80% panic minimum and then he commits to the bit #it's a very nuanced complicated situation etc etc but honestly a large part of it is also deirta being like what the fuck is this guy's #plan. why the fuck is he even here. and caleb's internal monologue is 'do NOT accidentally call her mother. do not do fucking not' which #is if anything making it more difficult to not call her mother. big fan of the way he refers to elders with titles I 100% think he would #call her that if he and essek were officially together. 'caleb has good social skills and awareness' common fucking misconception he is a #conman and scammer and knows vaguely what to say to get what he wants or more often how to direct attention away from what he's doing but #when he's just Being Caleb he gets to the fuckin point and that lady is his mother in law and he would refer to her as such even if #that's. a fascinating choice to make given everything about essek and also the lingering political situation between the empire and dynasty #I love caleb sooooo much I think he makes a good few snap decisions that are objectively DEEPLY unhinged and I think abt that a lot #calebs not a stable guy! I think it's rlly interesting how not stable he is even when he's doing well he has a few screws loose up there! #this is coming from someone who can relate to the irrational thinking that mental illness does I think he just sees point A to point B and #Does Shit. that's why he fireballs people when he knows it's going to trigger him. it's why he told essek to get it together instead of #killing him- he saw an ally. his morality and his decision making skills are removed from normal logic bc fuck normal logic he's caleb #widogast (sometimes- he goes by a fake name and considers himself entirely seperate from bren while he also holds himself accountable for #the crimes that bren was manipulated into committing) and its why he's Like That and I think he's neat. #I'm done now. what is this.

[supercantaloupe]

i kinda think that any portrayal of don giovanni and leporello’s relationship is incomplete if it doesn’t acknowledge that there is both genuine friendship/affection between them AS WELL AS abuse and hatred. they contain fucked up multitudes

#especially if you're taking it out of the fundamental/essential context of like. #16-18th century servitude and class dynamics #like esp if you're 'modernizing' it (which i do think is fine if you Do Something with that concept) #there's like. gotta be a reason they do all this shit together #ESPECIALLY if you're moving away from the literal patron/servant roles of the time period in which it was written #if leporello isn't like. legally and financially Required to do everything the don says then i think it's kind of lazy if you don't #acknowledge another facet of the relationship that makes it plausible #that could be gay love. if that's you bag. whatever #but personally i think there's both an element of leporello looking up to the don as an impossibly charismatic figure #and actual genuine friendship. like if they spend that much time together they have to enjoy each other's presence A Little right. #why wouldn't the don just fire him and get a new servant then if not right #(i also think leporello gay but i don't think that plays as much of a role as some fics out there seem to) #and i think the don has some real affection for leporello. that's his little buddy that's his partner in crime that's his roomie #but they are not equals. there is not mutual respect there #and yeah i'm always a fan of making relationships more fucked up and complicated and even codependent/abusive for fun #(see again whatever the hell is going on between curly and jud in dan fish oklahoma. my beloved) #but in the case of don giovanni i think it's not just making shit up for fanfic fun but like. there's textual basis here #and i think productions and fics and analyses and whatever else tend to swing in one direction or the other #but i think both elements are present in their relationship and both are important #sasha speaks

[baconcolacan]

Wierd thought but if blue and red leader fused (ya know fused into Torm) would their wierd need and want to be near eachother be finally fulfilled?

Hm, that’s a complicated answer. I dont know if you’ve ever experienced what its like to love and hate someone at the same time anon, to want them close but as far away as possible, to remember their warmth but also their cold silence, to know their touch can hurt and heal.

Its a different kind of love and pain.

I dont know if fusion will cause more or less heartbreak, to be honest.

Nope, this relationship is entirely secret. Paul knowing doesn’t count cause he actively represses it (lmao).

If the world knew, well, it’d be absolute hell on everyone, especially in Tom’s position.

#asks #anonymous #just-an-eddsworld-fan #Two Kings ao3 #This fic series is…….a VERY complicated one

[shawnxstyles]

i’ve never read a full harry styles fic on wattpad EXCEPT duplicity. i will defend that shit with my life. i have yet to read a story that makes me as choked as that one.

#and complicity is just as fucking good #i’m only on chapter like 12 though #harry styles #harry styles fan fics

[magioftheseas]

When a character is memed and known for just being unhinged, you can't really have sympathy for them. Characters like the Joker or Patrick Bateman are popular for being psychos, but they're not sympathetic. That's what ruined Komaeda and Akechi for me. I can't really see Akechi as someone worth sympathizing with, if the main draw to him is just being unhinged, and his background doesn't matter when the appeal is just "hot psycho tries to kill MC!". Even his fans don't care about the why.

Then that's a you problem, anon. Just because a lot of people have a shallow understanding of the character's writing doesn't mean that has to go for you as well. Hell, Joker HAS been written in a sympathetic light in the occasional story (such as Killing Joke, the Telltale series, or the movie literally titled after him) and you COULD view Bateman sympathetically in the movie at the end with how vapid he recognizes his life to be or even what interpretation of the events you go with. The funny thing is that writing is complicated and characters aren't always so cut and dry as they might appear.

Both Akechi and Komaeda ARE WRITTEN with sympathetic qualities, especially in Akechi's case where the writing could not be clearer that he's a victim lashing out and not just...unhinged as you so crudely put it.

Like, are you sure you're not just ableist, anon? Are you really saying that someone isn't deserving of sympathy because they're unstable, even when you KNOW they've had a shit shake in life? That they're unstable because they clearly have had no sense of stability or support?

I gotta say that I'm tired of your bullshit all the same. You say shit like "the fans don't care" directly to a fan who clearly cares. Do you not have any sense of empathy or respect?

Please don't message me again unless it's to have an actual conversation.

#I've never actually seen American Psycho but I have watched the Kill Count ep on it and it seems like a way more complicated film than just #'here's a psycho' #Seriously though anon's bullshit with the general 'you' in this is just absurd #Do YOU have any idea how many hurt/comfort fics are out there about Akechi and Komaeda? #It's a LOT #bullshit that fans don't have sympathy and only like the character because LMAO CRAZY!1!1 #Let's not get into how fucking STUPID it is to even compare Bateman and Akechi because of the class differences #Sorry these tags are angry but I am tired of messages like this #I think I'll stop answering them because none of them actually seem to be directed AT me despite being messages in MY inbox #Like holy shit some of y'all should just get a diary #Magi answers #anonymous #negativity #critical #ableism

[ficsforeren]

hiii hope ur okay, wondering when you’ll post the chapters like the wedding or the reveal of the sequel of rockstar eren <3

uhh... maybe after i'm finished with Ice & Fire? hold on, let me check how many chapters I still need to work on

ah yeah... so... umm...

#m-maybe never? #I'M SO SORRY AAAAAHHH #sandra and i are literally writing 3 books rn #i promise i'll go back and work on my eren x reader fics after i'm finished with this #i'm writing as fast as i can #it's just the plot for ice & fire is super complicated with all the politics and the hexagon romance and everything #my brain is literally about to explode lol #but it's so much fun and i can't stop! #so yeah rockstar eren fans you just need to wait a bit longer i'm sorry 😭 #ALSO I KNOW THAT'S A SEX SCENE IN THE SCREENSHOT BUT LET ME ASSURE YOU THAT THEY ONLY HAVE SEX LIKE 5 TIMES #THE REST OF THIS IS JUST PLOTTTT #kana answers stuff #in another life canon

[hua-fei-hua]

hey! i stumbled across you on ao3 through genshin (i think? that was in september i have no idea at this point), went to check out your profile and saw my hero academia works there. i am currently very much into it, so i was like let's gooo sooo I found B♭ and that has been a wild journey.

firstly, i don't have any experience with american school system, so a lot of worldbuilding was new for me. moreover, marching band is something from another universe(aka music lover but never got educated on the matter), so fic constantly challenged me with new details-concepts-vocabulary. stepping outside of your comfort zone while reading? great idea! i think i never learned so much from a fic while enjoying it so much ^^

secondly, i am simply amazed by sheer amount of effort you put into it. i decided to read in publishing order, so non-chronological really impressed me. you're honestly a mastermind being able to pull that off. also, having a song for every chapter with specifically picked out lyrics relevant to the content is so, so cool! the diversity of your playlists should be astonishing, i'm jealous :)

thirdly, the characters are just so real. i love all the canon references, i love the reactions that don't feel exagerrated or too mild. they are acting...exactly as i would expect them to in that circumstances and setting. i just accepted leads' ways of thinking and reflecting so naturally

i also read the extra notes when they were available and just...how much thought is put in is mezmerising. for some reason i never thought pulling directly from your life experiences when writing? but it actually makes a lot of sense and it brought me some ideas to try out so hehe ;)

as i am very smart and hadn't scrolled down on the order post, i didn't see until quite late in the reading that the end of perfect harmony is published as notes, so that was a surprise. i understand your reasons and the fact that you're not even in the fandom anymore, but you mentioned in some extra notes that it's ok to ask for them even if years passed so...here i am three years after, complimenting B♭ :D

anyway, i finished it a couple of days ago, and even the notes are quite detailed. images of described shenanigans popped into my head just like that, and i really appreciate that you published them and i got to know what happened next!!

i actually wondered why were the comments disabled since i really wanted to comment on a few chapters bc your work deserves it so much...but yeah, that's what led me here so i guess congrats, you get my thoughts all nicely packed in one place ^_^

there's probably a lot of specific pieces, details, ideas i liked about B♭, so that is merely a summary of exciting things i remember!

i'll say goodbye using my favourite oneshot title:

thank you for the music ✩°｡⋆⸜(ू｡•ω•｡)

not gonna lie i'm kind of obsessed w/the way you just glossed over the fact that you (probably) found me through my (anonymous) genshin fics, which means you jumped through the (minimum three) hoops required to get here, my (named) fandom blog, and then proceed to gush abt a bnha series i did. like i would assume that if someone put in the effort to find my other fandom fics from my genshin stuff, then there must've been smth really worth looking into w/the genshin stuff lmao

for the sake of my mutuals' dashboards, since this ask is so long i'm just gonna chuck the whole (long) answer under a cut lol

anyway yes Bb!! the amt of effort n planning i put into that series was legitimately insane. i made school schedules for EVERY SINGLE BNHA CHARACTER and PUT IT ON A SPREADSHEET so that i could PLAN WHO COULD WALK WITH WHOM TO THEIR NEXT CLASSES n have PLOT-RELEVANT CONVERSATIONS LIKE THAT. i made little profiles for each of the characters, where i chose their favorite musical key (and why), how many years/instruments they play, and gave them each a funny little quote/catchphrase!!!

what possessed me to do this for ~20 different characters i honestly could not tell you

i definitely loved working on Bb a lot. i remember sitting down three years ago, practically to the day by this point, n hashing out the events of every single chapter to the epilogue, then reorganizing them into a proper timeline (i also kept a calendar in my notes with the chapters in order), all while occasionally looking out my bedroom window n thinking how wonderfully bright n warm n sunny the world was becoming again. bc really, 2019 was a very struggle year for me, n i didn't take the time to appreciate the sunlight then the way i have every year since. from there, i worked off that very strict outline, and most of the note-chapters that were eventually put up are primarily just copy-pasted straight from there.

i remember being on youtube a lot for music recs when working on perfect harmony too!! a bunch of them changed in the years btwn walking away from the series n actually publishing the notes (which were actually published mid-december last year, then backdated to 2020 a few days later ahaha), with a number of the tour arc alternate chapter title songs coming from songs that didn't even exist at the time of the fic's original planning. my mp3 collection grew a lot during the planning phases of Bb lmao.

i'm glad the characters felt so real!!! while no one character was based entirely off one single person i knew irl, one could say that writing Bb was a bit of a love letter to my time in high school band in some places, both the events i partook in n the people i knew there. it was a very "write what you know" type of fic.

anyway haha yeah the end of my bnha days were not fun, but i still loved Bb enough to hold onto the idea of returning to it Soon(tm) that i put off publishing the chapter notes for almost two years. even then, that was a difficult decision for me to make bc a part of me wasn't ready to close that chapter of my life. i think ultimately it was the best decision to make though, since the fics are p heavily tied up in a much sadder part of my life that i'd just rather not return to.

the main reason comments were turned off of Bb (and indeed, the majority of my bnha fics) is most simply described as "resentment". it's different from how i feel abt my old snk fics (where i turned comments off of them so that i could pretend no one's really reading them anymore), which is more impersonal "oh my god i was so young back then and i give fewer than negative shits abt any mistakes i might've made on them or what anyone thinks of them" bc in bnha it's kind of hard to avoid the fact that i had a Name in the circles i typically traversed for a while. it wasn't that big of a name, but it's certainly more than nothing.

it's not really a feeling i like to dwell on, so i just archive-locked the responsible works n turned off comments for the most heinous culprits (mostly sparklers, but even tho i love Bb as a story, i do not love Bb as a publishing experience, if that makes sense), and for the most part, that keeps the resentment contained.

still, i'm genuinely happy that you enjoyed the au so much!!! i honestly love love love how goddamn SPECIFIC the premises are for this fic. the world was truly built with love, and the music puns for every title were always such a joy to come up with c':

thank you for the ask!!!! :D

#asks #kid-of-yesterday #long post #if you really did come here from my genshin fics last SEPTEMBER then boy howdy do i know Exactly which fic you came from #(if it was in september then it Must have been the saucy xv fic abt the sharp teeth bc pure identity didn't come out til oct) #i have a lot of Feelings abt my time in the bnha fandom that i just don't rlly like to talk abt publicly tbh #mostly bc (most of those Feelings are 'resentment' lmao) i try actively to not be a bitter person anymore #but also i hate admitting that people Knew me bc it feels like vanity or bragging #(bc if my name had ever been ''worth anything'' then why did Bb not garner the attention i'd hoped?) #i know that those thoughts aren't true n all but they're overall very complicated feelings #regarding how fandom at large treats fan creations and creators that ultimately led to my current decision to publish anonymously #ofc my feelings towards fandom n the fan-fan creator relationship have shifted w/time again n i do often consider just de-anoning #but it's... Tricky.... to say the least #haha sorry for unloading a little gloomily onto your lovely ask but i also think you deserve my honest thoughts #and not a saccharine falsehood / partial truth (oh hey that's the main thesis of rhythm lol) #ALSO to have an izch fic as your fave is exemplary taste when combined w/krbk #i am handing you a plaque that says 'certified good taste in ships'