#fuck 2021

[saturns7moon]

funny thing again actually 😭

i always described 2021 as “the year i kept dying” and, because i wanted to see if there was any correlation, i look back to see that my 2020-2021 solar return chart had a scorpio stellium sitting in my natal 1H 😭

#astro observations #astro notes #astrology observations #just lola :) #2021 was the worst year ever btw #fuck 2021

[theblasianwitch]

Being the light skinned one of the family has its perks in society, but it also comes with a lot of anxiety.

Before interacting with me quiet a lot of people mistook me for Spanish. No one thought I was Black until I wore my braids. The only people that know I'm Asian in any way are my family and close friends. Not once growing up did I ever have Asian friends. Not because I didn't want any, but because of the prejudice that exists within the community. Even in my own family. Asians interact, befriend and date other Asians is a thing instilled into our thinking from our parents. The only reason I am mixed and my mom is quick to support this, is because her mother died before even meeting my father and after her mother's death her father went completely silent. My father was Black Jamaican.

Those that stayed in Jamaica have mixed children themselves, but what I've noticed in America is that mixing, while rare in all races and backgrounds, the families never truly recover or accept it. There is still prejudice to fight within your own family. And if you happen to be a single mother now with a mixed baby (my mother and my mother in law) you don't get much support from your family, and if you do you grow up in an environment where it seems a lot of blame and hatred is on you, the mixed child. The product of what they deem shouldn't be. Meaning you shouldn't exist.

How does this tie to my light skin? Well I managed to be able to hide amongst my Hispanic group of friends just by my looks alone and if I grow close to some they eventually find out the truth. Thankfully some stayed my friends but others showed their true colors and those who are the more aggressive type and accepted me tended to stand up for me. I had to battle with myself and my identity my whole life and mask my racial identity amongst people who were suppose to be my friends. Now for the last couple years I have been chipping away at the mask and being more accepting of myself, my culture and the upbringing I have experienced.

Why am I saying all this now? Because since 2020 too many things have been colliding. Especially for my now family. What appeared to be a height in the Black Lives Matter Movement had me fearing for my darker siblings, my son and my spouse. The Asian hate attacks had me fearing for my mom. The presence of both at once had me fearing for my life and even getting victimized myself at my job. I was a teacher. Parents had it out for me and my job and even convinced some of their kids to join the attack. Despite the few kids that stood up for me and I enjoyed teaching, in the end I did have to leave for my own safety and sanity... And now this whole thing with abortion laws possibly being overturned has gotten me. In the midst of a time where we cannot afford to have a child and before the news even happened my spouse and I discusses abortion as an option if I were to get pregnant again. Not only for my health (I lost an ovary with my first pregnancy) and my spouse's health (their mental health has been spiralling down alongside their physical health) but our financial situation as well (we live with my mom and currently still can't find a job in a red state as a Black and Asian and a Black trans person).

I don't know what purpose my story serves but I was compelled to share it. Maybe there's a lesson to be learnt here. Maybe hope to inspire or to show the type of people who are impacted by everything going on. Either way, we are here. We exists. We are human. No one should have a right to our bodies. No human should be treated as less than. This world is more than just cis gendered straight white conservative christian men and it's about time they notice that. I am tired. After everything thats been going on. Everything I've been through. I am tired of not being heard and this mama panda sure as hell will not sit quietly anymore if faced with this shit again. And before anyone dares say "go back to where you came from" unless you are a Native Indigenous person you have no right to say it. Humans are a migratory species. We keep moving and striving for better. And right now "the greatest country on earth" is a fucking joke and could burn for all I care. Sometimes I wonder if thats what the virus was really for. Darwanism trying to take out the old right thinking non progressing ideals of a ruling generation that has accumulated too much power and has overstepped their boundaries. Fuck off.

✨💛 The Blasian Witch 💛✨

#my stupid life #my story #black lives fucking matter #black lives are human lives #black lives matter #stop asian hate #stop asian violence #politics #roe v wade #abortion #blasian #the blasian witch #i’m tired #fuck america #fuck 2020 #fuck 2022 #fuck 2021 #long reads

[coulsons-band]

pedro pascal doesn’t owe you shit.

it is absolutely fine to be disappointed by his absence at cannes. i am too. but he does not have to be there.

for whatever reason he’s pulling away from the attention. the esquire article talked about how guarded he is and his socials have really slowed down. maybe he’s unprepared or overwhelmed by all the tlou hype. i mean his follower count went up by the tens of thousands the day after the premiere. that’s insane.

but some of you have lost the plot. the ones wearing d*ddy’s little girl shirts in fucking public and yelling d*ddy at him at events and trying to convince everyone whether he’s queer or not and complaining there isn’t an explicit scene of him fucking in the strange way of life. it’s not a gay porn made for your fetish. ‘oh but narcos!!’ that’s called characterization. read literally any article from almodovar and understand why sex isn’t the point.

interacting with paparazzi content and making cute little edits - jfc. that’s creating demand and supply and paparazzi know no fucking boundaries. man’s got anxiety and no doubt the paps and fans watching his every move are probably making that worse.

let him make movies and rotate through his four shirts in peace. pedro pascal doesn’t owe anyone shit.

#pedro pascal #sex being the whole point is what fanfic’s for #i’m not getting into an argument over ‘he loves it!! he calls himself daddy!!’ #that was a joke you all took way too fucking far #what’s he going to say?? ‘stop i hate it’ #you’d all turn on him in a second #and make it worse being like ‘idc i’ll still do it’ #this is exhausting #this is why i backed off in 2021 #when that livestream with his friend was just inundated with people asking about pedro #he could have lost a friend over that bullshit #she speaks #well rants but eh

[notacatyet]

Tommy this, Eddie that. You Fools. I want to see JOSH’S reaction to Buck being into men.

#Josh: That should have been me! #I’ve been wanting Josh and Buck to fuck since 2021 #this is My Time #911 #911 abc #bi evan buckley

[autismmydearwatson]

Every time I watch Dune I forget about it but I'm foaming at the mouth over how Paul has a vision of himself as a powerful, respected, divine figure with millions worshipping him and he just says "Somebody help me"

#AND NO ONE!!!!!!!! DOES!!!!!!!! #HE LIES DOWN IN THE GRAVE OF HIS OWN LEGEND AND HIS OWN FRIENDS AND WORSHIPPERS ADD DIRT TO HIS PIT #HIS OWN MOTHER SINGS HIS PRAISES AND BUILDS HIS PEDESTAL WHILE HE LOSES PARTS OF HIMSELF #EVEN CHANI CAN ONLY WATCH #eternally fucked up how Jessicas response to his “thousands worshipping at the shrine of my fathers skull” is essentially just #“yes you are my son! you are Duke Paul Atreides! this is your birthright #“i am so proud of you!” NO YOU EUGENIST FREAK YOUR SON IS FUCKING DOOMED #dune #dune 2021 #paul atreides #dune part 1

[palossssssand]

Osmosis jones doodles that I’ve been hoarding for literal years for no reason

#FINALLY. ICON APPEARANCE #my art #osmosis jones #legitimately since like 2021 or something #osmosis jones thrax #thrax #drix #drixenol #silly movie. silly guys #AND SILLY SHOW #no exaggeration when he like. transformed into the germ disguise I gasped out loud. never seen him like that in my life. anyways #doodles #fanart #I lied the reason I held these doodles off was because I really wanted to draw the show characters and never got around to it #wanted to keep 'em in the same post but after a few rewatches I was like #fuck there's too many characters I want to draw. maybe they deserve their own post #anyways!

[tringstarruuu]

✦🌹 Wild Rose 🌹✦ ============ PRINTS

#Jujutsu Kaisen #jjk #呪術廻戦 #Nobara kugisaki #nobara #I STARTED DRAWING THIS 2021 BRUH #i got inspired by so many trigun artists on twt that motivated me to draw #and guess what i finished it for fucking 2 days ..... #now im thinking if i'll draw the other characters? #gojo and geto i think suit this style #anyway im back on my art nouveau esque shenanigans #digital art #Illustration #Fanart #artists on tumblr #my art

[anyataylorjoys]

LAST NIGHT IN SOHO (2021) dir. Edgar Wright

#last night in soho #last night in soho 2021 #anya taylor joy #movieedit #filmedit #filmreel #cinemapix #tuserdana #usertj #tusercourtney #userrobin #filmgifs #filmtvdaily #usergif #fyeahmovies #userladiesofcinema #femalegifsource #gifs* #eye strain #flashing #as sapphic as this movie is on the surface the underlying message screams about self-love and feels like a lesson #a ghost story with an alive girl + the concept that from a broken spirit emerged a haunting is SO fucking good #I am clearly still obsessed with this movie but man is this jackieshauna coded af

[pastart]

Sifis Farantakis by Joey Leo (2021)

#Fucking Young! #Sifis Farantakis #Joey Leo #2021

[qifrei]

HOWL’S MOVING CASTLE (2004)

#ghibligifs #ghibliedit #ghiblifilm #ghiblisdaily #ghiblicentral #animationsdaily #howl's moving castle #animationsource #dailyanimatedgifs #filmgifs #moviegifs #fyeahmovies #nondisneyedit #studioghibliedit #studioghibligifs #dailystudioghib #anisource #animangahive #whatever the fuck is going w his idc #also from 2021-22? #999gif

[yutaan]

Papercraft Ed! I had the sketch for this one finished a while ago, but for whatever reason didn’t feel quite happy with it. Eventually I tried flipping it to face the opposite way - meaning his automail arm was now facing the viewer and could be shown via rips in his clothes and gloves - and then BAM, I liked how it looked after all! Sometimes it’s the simplest things that make all the difference.

#fullmetal alchemist #edward elric #papercraft #papercutting #paper art #my art #I didn't actually read or watch FMA until 2021 and somehow never had any idea whatsoever what it was actually about #just that it was Good and beloved by many #and like! I was looking forward to it! But buying the whole manga would be pretty expensive #so I kept putting it off #UNTIL! #USED BOOKSTORE TO THE RESCUE ONCE AGAIN!!! #they had the ENTIRE SERIES for a STEAL and I straight-up gasped aloud in the manga aisle #carried everything up to the counter at once like I was weightlifting because WHAT IF I left a volume behind and someone else snagged it #TOO RISKY #and then read the whole series in two days #and. Dear readers you were ALL correct #fma fucking SLAPS

[the-gom-jabbar]

#This is dumb but Jessica I get you #I'd ruin a millenia worth of genetic matches for Oscar Isaac too #Isn't this what happened? #Bene Gesserit: birth only females #Jessica: but this hot man want a boy tho #bene gesserit #lady jessica #lady jessica atreides #paul fucking atreides #Paul Atriedes #The kwisatz haderach #Kwisatz haderach #dune #dune 2021 #paul atreides #dune memes #frank herbert #children of dune #dune messiah #chapterhouse: dune #duncan idaho #god emperor of dune

[brunosaderogatory]

Listen to me.

Listen to me.

#i know they served different purposes but these parallels. the fucking parallels #also shut up about the funky colors on nimona’s. it’s cause I pirated it #luca 2021 #pixar luca #nimona #nimona 2023 #100 #500 #Luca

[rotomicity]

TGCF art from 2021 which were very experimental and very much something out of my comfort zone but am still so satisfied with

(gonna ramble more under the cut 👉 )

My main inspiration for these were definitely classic storybook illustration styles and the watercolor-like illustrations included inside the tgcf books which depict hualian's daily slice of life routines as seen below

I wanted to capture that feeling of warmth i got from reading but i also went with the storybook look because their relationship (and by extension broad strokes of the entire plot) really did feel like something out of actual myth or legend; i'm chinese indonesian and was raised surrounded by chinese culture + values so tgcf felt VERY familiar to me, it threw me back to my childhood reading or listening to tales about chinese deities, i'd say the storybook image definitely came into my mind pretty quickly bc of this

I find this style somewhat hard to replicate now but if i could or have the time to, i really want to continue the 'companion pieces to chapter titles ' concept i did with the last 2 pieces (which are of the same chapter title but i was just indecisive 😭😭), i even had 3 more planned based on my favorite titles before burning out back then

#tgcf #tian guan ci fu #heaven official's blessing #hualian #hua cheng #xie lian #mxtx #danmei #rotomic does artz #IF YOU READ THROUGH ALL OF MY RAMBLING THANK YOU VERY MUCH #as you can see i am Very Normal about this book :) #(said like a liar) #what was 2021 me cooking....like why did they go so hard on these #also bonus hozier in there bc i associate hualian with like real people do a lot #tbh a lot of hozier songs would work for them #i REALLY want to do a companion piece for chapter 243's title bc wowee #it still gets me to this day. i remember it n suddenly im like what the fuck (fond and sad)

[rudeboimonster]

~help your local rat get stable housing~

edit post nov 2023: I GOT THE HELP I NEEDED THANK YOU SOSOOSO MUCH

dramatically sprawled out on the floor

so i gotta move for the third time in that many years. unfortunately between health problems and the General State of The Economy, I have been unable to find work to be able to save any money. i have no choice but to leave the entire state. i thankfully have somewhere to go, however I need help getting there. i've been trying to do the math to get what I need to its lowest amount possible, but even that is still at least $2.5k.

after this move, i should be able to get things more stable and I might even have a couple job prospects lined up in that area, but right now I'm really scraping the bottom of the barrel funds wise and desperately need help.

if you're able to spare anything, i've set up a goal through kofi so i can track it publicly. i have trouble asking for help but i really need what help i can get. thank you, so so so much.

#mutual aid #fundraiser #help #god i dont know what to tag this im just kinda ripping off the bandage bc ive been anxious about posting about this since i got asked to #leave. head in hands. please help by spreading the word if you cant spare any cash i completely understand. #i dont know what i can offer. my ability to do art has been really really low and with my sleeping/living arrangements my wrists shoulders #back have been in fucking wretches states so its hard for me to do much #if youre wonder about the other fundraiser i did a few years ago #the person i replaced in a renting situation ended up fucking me over and got basically evicted into the 2nd week of college and i had 3 da #to leave that situation or more people wouldve gotten fucked over. and ive been basically couch surfing since trying to find work #anyways i havent slept in a bed for more than a weekend since october 2021 my back is turbo fucked please help

[rakkuntoast]

pinkza and tallulah pinkza and tallulah pinkza and tallulah pinkza and tallu-

#qsmp #qsmp tallulah #qsmp philza #philza #colorzas #pinkza #me in my most delusional moment pinkza would love tallulah #i am exposing more people to the colorzas cuz they were so fucking popular back in my mcyt days (circa 2020-2021) #and apparently people dont know about them i am gonna drip feed them to you like i was 3 years ago #my art