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#how do i find people who share the same views? everyone i meet and interact with has different views from me
autisticlee · 11 months
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no one I know or meet seems to sees things the way i do. others either see everything as a competition or a thing they're bad at and/or too embarrassed to try....
i see it as an opportunity to have fun with friends, laugh together and at ourselves, and form good memories. working together, not against each other by making everything competitive. despite being bad at something or looking silly. and in spite of what other people might think about that!
I honestly can't stand trying to hang out with people who want to make everything a competition. I do not want to compete with you or anyone else! that is not fun for me at all. stop it. you don't need to win at something all the time. learn how to relax for once.
I also can't stand people who spend more time thinking about what other people around us might think about them and refuse to do things and miss fun opportunities because of those thoughts. they won't try new things or things they aren't perfect at because they're afraid to look silly or weird or whatever. so they hold back and miss out on things. or refuse to do them at all and miss out on everything. and that make me miss out on them too, because it's not fun or possible to do it alone and defeats the whole purpose!
#if you care more about winning or mkre about what other people think about you then i dont really want to be friends tbh lmao#im tired of people like that. that's the only type of people that i ever get a chance to talk to and i never have fun 😭#autistic#actually autistic#neurodivergent#adhd#audhd#lee rambles#dont know if those things have to do with this actually but maybe someone will find this and can relate? idk...#some people are so good at casually enjoying things while not caring what anyone thinks and i wanna be around that energy!#i want to absorb the big fun confident energy. i absord the energy of whoever im with#so i need people who are positive and fun and confident#im tired of being sad and depressed and afraid and whatever other negative energies most people feed me 😭#im a little gremlin that feeds off auras and have a perperual tummy ache becuase they all taste bad#how do i find people who share the same views? everyone i meet and interact with has different views from me#i know its good to experience people with different views from your own and whatever#but it gets so boring and lonely to have no one who views things the same way and can join you! 😭#always having to bend backwards to appease others and never get things “my way” even once sucks#i used to always immediately let others decide everything and do it their way because i was told im selfish if i ask even ONCE#for things to be my way. so i stopped asking at all. until i got too tired and now im always trying. but people whine and cry#until it's their way. or they won't do it at all with me there. so i have to give in anyway!#I JUST WANT SOMEONE ON THE SAME WAVELENGTH AS ME SO THINGS GO SMOOTHLY HOW WE BOTH WANT BECAUSE WE MATCH PERFECTLY#WHY IS THAT IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME!!!!!!! WHY DOES THIS PERSON NOT EXIST IN THIS WORLD#must be nice to just be able to do things easily and not have to compromise every single thing just to get someone to hang out/be friends
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madneurologist · 6 months
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What’s your take on the family dynamic of Hugo meeting Varian’s aunt, uncles, his pseudo-adopted sister and her husband.
I apologize for every single typo you're going to find on this post
in regards of his family on the earth kingdom,
his heart would ache with pure envy wishing he had the same. varian has a huge extensive family while he has nothing, he doesn't even have a proper home nor family, he was abandoned in an orphanage and later he was left out to wander in the streets until donella found him, and even though he knows she loves him she still exploits him for her own advantage but he's too scared of being abandoned again so he never calls her out for it
at that point i don't think hugo knows about varian's past yet, therefore he still has this "wealthy spoiled boy" narrow view of him, so he grows resentful towards varian around that time. because, varian's so lucky in life, he has the tremendous advantage of growing up in a much more loving environment, advantage hugo did not recieve. he'd wonder that if he had grown up in better conditions he would now be doing great things, maybe he could've grown to be the royal engenieer from ingvarr, maybe doing great inventions to help other people instead of being an awful person to everyone
it goes like that for the first days they're staying with varian's family, he is more distant than usual and has been isolating himself due to the shame he feels for being envious over that. varian really doesn't notice it until much later because he hasn't been paying attention to hugo rather than his family members for the most part, so hugo can't help but feel left out, because everyone else in the team is having fun with varian's family but him
at some point varian tries to talk with him once he feels something is off- but hugo just pushes him away until varian gets rightfully frustated and gives up. it's not the first time hugo has done this with him to avoid showing vulnerability, but it still makes varian upset
now, hugo meeting eugene and rapunzel!
as for eugene, i'm one of those people who think it would be hilarious when they see each other at the castle, because of the criminal history they share with one another, like the whole deal about hugo dropping a piano on eugene years ago and eugene still being pissed about it?? that never gets old.
HOWEVER, i think their relationship goes deeper than that, not only because they met when hugo was still a kid but also because now that hugo has started to live with varian it's obvious this is new for him. finally having a home, proper food, and in general luxuries he always dreamed about as a kid, is overwhelming for hugo, and eugene gets it because he's been there too.
even if he's VERY skeptical, he can't help but feel empathy, specially when he sees hugo is really trying to make up for varian, so he shows his care in very subtle ways, sometimes more direct-like even if hugo maks fun of him or gets snappy thinking eugene is trying to ridiculize him when he says certain things that speak through his soul, making him feel vulnerable as ever-
as slowly as he realizes eugene is genuinely trying to be nice, he starts being nice too (in his own way)
finally as for raps *panting for breath*,
i have doubts about my take on this one, i'll just say whatever comes to my mind, sincere apologies
his first interaction with rapunzel gives him a bad feeling because of how kind she's being the whole time, even though he became good friends with princess nuru, he still couldn't help not distrusting royalty as a whole. and with rapunzel being queen, he feels a bit intimidated because of this, *yes* he does loosen up eventually when he gets to know her better, however even if he were to throw a snarky comment or two towards her, he's surprisingly respectful, not out of fear, but out of pure admiration
apart from this i believe that at the beggining he would get kind of spooked when realizing how good she is at reading people and being a positive influence on them, he finds it as annoying as it is amazing, esp when they have mushy talks about not having emotional barriers and opening your heart to the affection of others— in which he just wants to curl up and die
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Inside the mind of a genius; an analysis of Inanimate Insanity's Test Tube
Abstract:
Test Tube, the resident brainiac of her seasons. Immediately showing up and showing off in her first episode of season 2, this scientist is much more than meets the eye - with the creation of Bot to her infamous line “everyone sees me as a brainiac, but it looks like I still have a lot to learn,” Test Tube could very well be one of the most dynamic characters of Inanimate Insanity!
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Who is this character?
At her core, Test Tube is a scientist. She devotes everything to her field, and has been constantly shown to mix science with real-world situations, giving her the title of ‘The Nerd.’ Her first interaction with anyone on-screen was a sentence only the stereotypical scientist character can say: “Well, this seems rather peculiar. I’ve never been on a competition before!” (S2E1: Breaking The Ice). The very next time she speaks, it's to share a definition of ‘ice breakers’ - “Guys, ice breakers is a relative term for a way of bonding for two people that have never met.” (S2E1: Breaking The Ice). This gives her the ideal role in the competition, someone people can rely on for a definition and a potential helping hand. This, of course, doesn't last long, as her enthusiasm in her field isn't exactly infectious. She's called annoying by her fellow contestants, and some have gone as far as to downright ignore her if she starts talking. Her prominent social anxiety makes itself known when talking to people that don’t share her interests; she adapts to this and consequently calls her own social inability her ‘specialty’. Beyond that, she's shown on many occasions to get annoyed or even reach a literal breaking point if she's wrong or if something doesn't go as planned, making her not only a nerd, but a perfectionist. (Is it obvious why she's my first? We're basically the same!)
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What is this character’s role?
To many of her fellow contestants, Test Tube is viewed as obnoxious and irritating due to her strange behaviours - muttering to herself, edging away from situations she finds undesirable, and even slipping away at random times to her “secret” lab under a Dr. Fizz machine. However, her role in season 2 specifically goes farther than it seems. In “Marsh on Mars,” she's able to construct a usable rocket in a matter of minutes, and in “Hatching the Plan,” she builds another one with the help of the other contestants. While she was shown to be helpful here, it's clear that with her other creations, she's quite secretive and possessive. (Hence the very secret lab.)
In “Alternate Reality Show,” Test Tube’s personality is more dynamic and shown more than other episodes. Her perfectionist behaviours specifically are almost amplified around Lightbulb, as she often takes out anger and frustration on the other throughout the episode. Even near the very beginning, there's annoyance shown when she scribbles out the ‘secret’ in her sign. Her mood quickly changes, though, when Microphone puts down her time machine. Once again showing her dynamic expressions, once Lightbulb enters, she rips up her board and glares frustratedly at the rest of the people in the room. (Sidenote, very unrelated: Lightbulb coughing up Baxter. That is all.) Once Test Tube, Lightbulb and Baxter are on the other side of the portal, Test Tube immediately seems fascinated by her own doing; her creation worked exactly how it was meant to, and her excitement is very obvious. Throughout the episode, she's shown to be excited about different things in between her spontaneous bursts of anger. At a point in the episode, as Test Tube is being cornered by Salt and Pepper in II Infinity, what was at one point anger seemed to dissolve into a fear when she spoke, saying that “when I hear that phrase, it's almost like I'm home! ...Which I'm not. This isn't my home.” (S2E12 Alternate Reality Show).
After that episode, she's shown to be more open about her interests and talking with others, expressing in the Invitationals that “there's only so many problems that have simple equations, but there's so many more that have impossible, unspeakable solutions. But... I want to solve them anyway.” (S3E7 Best Served Cold). Over the course of her seasons, Test Tube is shown to not only have a large development, but new bonds and an enthusiasm not only in her field but her friends as well. (How nice!)
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What are these characters’ principles?
Test Tube's principles show often through her actions and how she interacts with people, a main one being that (especially after S2E12 Alternate Reality Show) she believes every person is an individual. She's admitted to her own faults within this, especially with the creation of Bot. This is another one of her moments that's shown in S3E7, when she explains to Cabby that it isn't right to expect people to act how she writes them to be, to then apologise to Bot for expecting them to act like Bow.
Along with that, she also has a strong conviction in decisions that she believes are right, almost to a fault. In her elimination episode, S3E10 I Am Chocolate, she's dead set on eliminating Cabby no matter what, even going as far as to comment on her ego where it doesn't make much sense; “She can’t be serious over there, giving up her immunity to SILVER? The EGO on that one! Ugh…she’s gone next” (S3E10). After Balloon argues with her over it, she shuts down, merely saying that it's “her fault.”
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Overall, as a character, Test Tube is intelligent beyond comparison. Not only that, but she's analytical, strong in her beliefs, and loyal to what and who she knows to be right. Her bonds with her fellow contestants left an ever-present mark on the competition, and the way she changed during it is unforgettable.
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How do you find community in Tumblr? I'm new to fandom and want to join in, but it feels kind of intimidating😬
Hi anon!
Don't feel intimidated at all! I know, easier said than done. I can't say that I really have an answer for this though. I literally just showed up here one day and started posting😅
I think the biggest thing is to curate your experience here. Follow people who share your same interests. You'll start to get to know people the longer you're here and notice others who share your viewpoints.
Some people will interact with you, some people won't, and that's okay! The goal (IMO) isn't to be friends with everyone, but to surround yourself with those who share your interests and points of view and connect with you. Having said that, there are plenty of friendships to be had here and lots of wonderful people you'll meet☺️
I'm not sure if you're specifically new to The Rookie fandom, but if you are, I've found everyone here to be extremely kind and welcoming. Even when people don't agree with my views on things, they approach it in a way that isn't hateful, but rather, allows me to see things from their perspective.
All this to say, open an account and jump on in! If I can offer one single piece of advice, it's to surround yourself with people who make you enjoy your experience here.
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quohotos · 9 months
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Thoughts about bonds/bonding
This was something I was already planning to write up but then the latest return to regalia episode opened the flood gates and filled in some missing pieces for me. What follows is my own educated guesses and headcannon, very little of this is explicitly in the text of the books. Understand that much of this is my own headcannon, though I'll try my best to justify it with the text.
(also note that since I was an audio book kid I don't actually know if it's spelled flyer or flier and I'm going to get it wrong more than once and you're just going to have to live with that)
Luxa says that it wasn't normal for her to bond with Aurora so early, but that an exception was made as almost a form of therapy after the death of her parents. The same exception was made for Hazard and Thalia. We aren't explicitly told how old Henry was when he bonded with Ares, but I'm assuming it was before adulthood given how all four of them (Luxa, Henry, Ares, and Arora) have a storied history before the events of the first book. Henry had to be younger than 16 when they bonded (16 being the age of legal maturity in the underland, will amend if I'm misremembering), which isn't surprising given that he's Henry and he's never played by the rules. This raises the question of the bats' ages... we aren't ever told that. I would assume that the bats are of similar ages to their bonds, but I have no evidence to back that up.
In the Marks of Secret Ripred explains that rats grow up incredibly fast and reach full maturity in about a year, and that humans are uncommon in how long they take to grow up. It's not clear how long the bats take to grow up. Would Thalia have become an adult while Hazard was still a little kid, or would they have grown up concurrently? I can't say either way. One thing I can say with more confidence is that regardless of their ages, Aurora and Ares probably see their respective bonds like younger siblings. Obviously, being bonded to someone is a completely different relationship that we can't exactly map onto what we have in the overland, but I think that's a close approximation.
So Why and How do regular people get bonded?
The most surefire way to get bonded would be to join the military (something you can do from a very young age... I mean they have armor on hand for 12 year olds and we see seven year olds doing military drills in the Prophecy of Bane... yaaaaay). In the military you will be assigned to mixed species units and it's just sort of assumed that they'll all end up pairing up and bonding.
For civilians there are likely special yearly festivals that the two kingdoms share with the express purpose of giving people a chance to find bonds. My guess would be right around the time of the harvest when there's plentiful food to go around. After a hard year a bunch of flyers come to regalia and everyone has a big party to celebrate. There are probably specially organized games of whatever sport Gregor walked in on back in the first book. While specific flyers are probably scouted for sports and more importantly the military there's still plenty of opportunities for common Regalian and flyers to interact and meet.
What does bonding do for a flyer?
We see so much of the Underland Chronicles from the point of view of royal humans. To them, the benefits are obvious. Humans can't fly, bonding gives them access to someone who can. But why would a flier seek out a human bond? That just sounds like an obligation, right?
The Regalians have incredibly advanced medical technology. I've roasted them before for their metalworking, but their chemistry/biotech is unparalleled. They're able to produce antibiotics, as well as synthesize plagues and their cures. They have ways of treating illnesses that the overland doctors (allegedly) cannot. We also see that they have incredibly reliable and safe oral administered sedatives. Anesthesiology is such and advanced and risky field, and they seem to have cracked it to the point where people can safely be sedated for trivial maters without anyone batting an eye.
The arrival of humans (as permanent residents, native people made limited journeys to there before the arrival of Sandwich) in the Underland definitely raised everyone's average life expectancy by decades... before lowering it immediately afterwards through endless wars. In Curse of the Warmbloods someone steals the pain killers and Gregor realizes that the rats couldn't even use it if they wanted to because they don't have hands to open the bottle. Much of the Regalian's medical technology still requires a human to administer it. You need humans to carve splints and set them, you need humans to administer injections, you need humans to cut hair and perform surgery. Spinners can do some things to stop bleeding, but any significantly complex medical procedure is going to need human hands involved. Think about things like glasses and prosthetics, things we don't normally associate as medicine but would still kinda are. Humans probably manufacture and prescribe bat-glasses.
For a flyer, traveling long distances without a human bond is incredibly risky. If something bad happens, even if you have other flyers with you, you could die from what would otherwise be preventable causes. Bitten by mites? Who's going to apply the the ointment? Wing dislocated, who's going to pop it back into place (this one literally happened to Aurora). There are also probably some foods that can't safely be eaten raw, but a human could prepare. Heck, a human can boil water to purify it, or place traps that catch pray that otherwise wouldn't be hunt-able. Humans can catch fish that live too deep in the water for a flyer to peruse. Humans are adaptable. Your bond is your Swiss army knife, adaptable and versatile even if sometimes fragile.
Any flier trying to pursue and education needs to be bonded. You wanna go to bat-college? You gotta bring a human. You'll need one to transcribe all your essays and help you read books. The fliers definitely have a rich oral history that they all maintain, but there are some things that you just need a human to access. The average flier probably doesn't have a bond, but the higher in status definitely do for the educational purposes alone. While the queen herself doesn't have a bond, in fact it seems almost frowned upon in the royal family (Nike doesn't have one despite getting very close to a human who would like to bond with her in the later books), you bet your ass that every middle manager and local bat official has a bond who takes care of paperwork and accounting.
It's a funny parallel how flyers of low status like Ares can suddenly be whisked into royalty by being bonded to Henry, the same thing probably happens to humans. You could be Joe Shmo nobody (or I guess this is the underland so Joeth Shmavetus) who would probably live out their whole life carving stone jars, but you do numbers good so the bat-secretary of bat-state bonds with you and now you're really important.
That means that there are probably lots of places within the flyers lands that are built specifically to house humans long term. We see a little bit of that in the first book, but there's probably a lot more out of sight. Special areas where an important fliers' bonds can live and do their taxes and whatnot.
Bonding is usually an egalitarian process. It seems like both sides and both factions have to consent to it. When Gregor insinuates that one side owns the other he gets massive push-back. With that being said, I'm almost certain that Ares had little control in the matter over bonding with Henry. I think there's kind of an unstated rule that the royal families are going to bond with whoever they please, and that turning down a bond of high status would be a massive faux pas. Ares probably didn't feel like saying no was even on the table.
What about non-flyer bonds?
Oh yeah, code of claw spoilers beyond this point. Now that everyone's doing the reread and we're probably bringing a few first time readers into the fold I'm going to spoiler mark this part just in case since I'll be discussing things that happen in the last installment
Luxa and Ripred bond to usher in peace. This is treated as something that has never happened before but that the rules don't explicitly forbid. Henry jokes about people bonding to the crawlers, but in a way that portrays it as stupid and pathetic rather than impossible. In doing so she also symbolically brings the Gnawer into the spiritual fold that the flyers and humans already share.
Humans and Gnawers would then be allowed to bond with each-other. It might take generations for that to happen in earnest, sicne both sides have so much trauma and resentment built up, but maybe decades in the future the younger generations will find it in themselves to do so.
The fact that Luxa bonding with Ripred doesn't break her bond with Aurora sets the precident that you can bond with as many people as you want so long as you never have two of one species. I do not think Aurora is that happy about that, and I doubt she sees Ripred as her own bond. It's possible though, that in the future you could have big groups of underlanders who are all united by one bond. A whole bad batch rogues gallery of a flyer, a gnawer, a human, and a nibbler who each bring something special to the group.
Though never explicitly stated, I think it probably goes without saying that Hamnet and Frill were bonds. It definitely wasn't done the proper way, probably just informally in the jungle with nobody else observing, but still. A bond is a bond.
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starrook · 7 months
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PLOTTER / SHIPPER
taken from: my claude and lukas blogs :) which were taken from a jcink pokemon rp’s shipper section
tagging: the person reading this
1. CONNECTIONS
write about how our muses could connect with each other! ex. what does your muse like to do that other people would be involved in? do they have interests that other people might share?
He is a Knight of Seiros and doesn’t advertise his prince-status, he wants to be treated like a normal person that doesn't need any special treatment.
It might be a surprise to other muses that he is a prince of Brodia and Diamant’s brother. Not sure if it's enough for a full thread but might be fun for a short interaction. I mean Alcryst won't have fun but it's okay.
Consistently tries to push himself to try new things, willing to go out of his comfort zone and do something he’s never done before. In between Engage’s end and arrival in Fódlan, he finished his formal education, but still takes seminars on topics that he's interested in.
The problem is that he doesn’t have much in the way of hobbies. Trying to fish more but it’s not usually something he does by himself. He's the kind of guy that will want to try something new but only if there's a friend by his side.
Loves learning about new places! I think if the school had cultural festivals he’d be all in. 
2. PLATONIC
Write about your muse and their concept of friendship. Ex. how is your muse like with friends? Do they make friends easily or do they find it difficult to connect with others?
Alcryst's biggest barrier to making friends is, unfortunately, himself. He's pretty shy and awkward due to low self-esteem, so it's rare for him to make a good first impression with people. In spite of that, "other people" are specifically listed as one of his likes and he wants to make meaningful connections with everyone.
So here is my bold take: Alcryst is a (shy) extrovert. He's uncomfortable being in the center of attention, he struggles at intense parties... but at the same time he enjoys the company of others, he goes out of his way to meet new people and wants to connect with them. Yes he calls himself a bit of an introvert in his Seadall support but I've decided that he's wrong so there 😂
It takes a while for Alcryst to get comfortable with a new person, but once he is, he's really a different person from how he usually is. He's a lot more relaxed and comfortable, and he's less prone to self-deprecation if he's shooting the shit with his friends. Mainly because Alcryst tends to keep the focus more on others than himself. He's the kind of guy that goes out of his way for the people he cares about, observant of their emotions and desires and always trying to lift their spirits, make them happy. For better or worse, he's a people pleaser and cares about what other people think.
3. ANTAGONISTIC
Write about your muse and the conflicts they have with other people. Ex: who are they on bad terms with, what kind of people do they not get along well with, how do they act around people they don’t like
Alcryst is NOT conflict-averse and very much willing to start fights if he believes the other person is in the wrong. See: him about to throw hands with Ivy post Chapter 10, still being hostile in her C support like "you know what you've done", treating Alear and Hortensia as enemies when he believes them to be a threat (to the point of almost shooting the Divine Dragon's head off, whoopsies!). It comes from a place of wanting to protect the people he cares about, the kingdom of Brodia as well as his family. From his Camilla Bond A convo:
Camilla: I feel like we’re quite similar. Like how we’re both kind, but can be cruel on the battlefield… Alcryst: Me? Similar to you?! I’m completely unworthy! Though…we do work well together in battle. Alcryst: Perhaps because we give our all to defend our allies and show no mercy to the enemy.
I think Alcryst starts out as having a black-and-white view of things, like a very Us-vs-Them mentality that he grew up with. Elusians are a threat because they worship the Fell Dragon (bad), and Brodia keeps them in check by conquering their territory and undermining the kingdom (good!). If you're not with us, will that make you a threat in the future? That sort of thing. I imagine he'd still be wary of people who are unable to commit to a cause or switch sides as it pleases them. They would be considered unpredictable, not someone to trust. It's absolutely not something Alcryst is proud of, he gives himself a lot of grief about it and is trying to "be more like Diamant" in that regard.
4. ROMANTIC
Write about your muse and their relationship with romance. Ex. are they searching for love or not interested in it in the slightest, what’s their dating history like, how do they act around crushes, how would they treat their partner if they were in a relationship.
As Citrinne puts it, he's not that clever 😂😂😂
Alcryst is kind of oblivious. He doesn't think anyone would like him, so if someone tried to flirt with him he would think that they're either joking or he's misunderstanding the situation. Unfortunately you'd need to drop very loud and obvious hint for him to get it, and even then he'll second-guess himself and wonder if he's reading too much into it. "Diamant, xyz said that I'm hot, that they would date me given the chance, they give me lots of gifts and say that they love every part of me. I'm not sure if this means that they're actually interested in me, help."
His dating history is nonexistent: when your brother is the most eligible bachelor in Brodia you don't tend to get a bunch of marriage proposals your way. Why aim for silver when you can potentially win gold?
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As a prince of Brodia, Alcryst has pretty much accepted that he's likely going to get married for political purposes rather than "true love". However he still has reservations about it, as he does not want some poor girl to end up miserable with him just to make a power move. Whether there is romantic attraction in the marriage or not, Alcryst would still prioritize having a happy and harmonious relationship with his partner. If Diamant ordered him to marry someone he did not choose, Alcryst would do so: duty commands it, and it's expected of him to follow through.
Because of that, Alcryst tries not to act upon his crushes. I like to think that he's the kind of guy that gets all kind of crushes easily, mainly because he wants to get to know them better. He'll just as easily try to talk himself out of them and convince himself that it'll never happen, though. Alcryst is much of the same around his crushes, maybe more nervous (but he's always nervous).
While I was writing this, I ended up asking myself this fun question question: Does Alcryst think he deserves love and romance?
I don’t play him as thinking himself as abominable scum of the earth that deserves nothing, ever, he has some self-respect. Maybe doesn’t see fairy-tale romance as something that would ever happen for him. 
Is he worthy of being loved? Struggling with that. Maybe that’s why he’s not totally opposed to political marriage, he doesn’t think he deserves love so he tries not to yearn for it? Or really place that much focus on finding it. His existence in the Brodian royal family is a mistake so it’s fine if they use him as a political pawn.
Doesn’t need to be in love with them, but doesn’t want to be miserable with them either. He puts his all into what he does, wants to be committed.
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notanotherinfjblog · 1 year
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Bias ramblings
I think it’s fascinating how we all have biases for or against certain cognitive functions in other people that we are not even aware of. When I take a look at my bookshelves, about 80% of the books in there were written by ESTPs and ENTPs, while only two(!!) books in there were written by FPs. The rest were written by ESFJs, some TJs and INTPs, but the INTP stories always feel like there’s something missing. I love how I can always very quickly tell if a story was written by an FP just by the way that the characters interact because viewing them through the lens of Fi feels so foreign that the story might as well have been created by aliens. And it’s interesting how that correlates with the disconnect I experience between me and most FPs, especially ISFPs, in real life. It’s nothing personal, it’s not like we dislike each other. We are just aliens to one another. I love a lot of FP musicians, but the ones that can make me cry are the ESTP ones, when yet another one of them writes a song that is created from Se and Fe and they sing about how this life was meant to be experienced together and that we are all one and that whenever something’s wrong, we are all going to be there for you, you are always going to find a home in us. This is love, this is safety. I’m a sucker for the word “we”, I’m an FJ after all. And my ESFJ mother has this same bias. Every FP she meets, there’s going to be a clash. I remember a time, when we were in a group of an ESFJ, ISTP, INTJ, ENFP and me as an INFJ, but it didn’t feel like a group because ENFP kept pulling someone aside to talk to them privately, thus creating a boundary between her and the rest of us, making us all feel like individuals surrounded by people. And my ESFJ mother lost it, and the only ones who could understand it were ISTP and me, the two other Fe users. This same ISTP is one of the chillest people you can imagine, but whenever he meets a TJ, he wants nothing to do with them, preferably never see them again. But this is his personal bias. I also know an ISTP who is married to an ESTJ. Likewise, my ISFP stepmother has a great dislike against FJs, meanwhile my ISFP and ESFJ friends are the most perfect couple you could meet. So these biases are not the same for everyone sharing the same MBTI type. We form these biases on our own, though I don’t really know how. My bias against Fi makes no sense when you consider that my best and oldest friend is an ESFP and I’ve known her for as long as I can remember, though I do remember us mutually hating each other when we met when we were three. One of my other closest friends is an INFP, yet 90% of FPs I meet feel like aliens that drain my energy, while the other 10% (typically ENFPs) are the ones that decide to adopt me 0.5 seconds after meeting me. Why are we always drawn to the same group of MBTI types and why is it not always mutual? NFPs gravitate much more toward me than I to them. I’ve been asked out by a couple of ENTPs, but in the end they always tell me that we are too different people, even when I don’t think so. TJs like me and I like them, but a proper mutual fondness only develops with the NTJs. When I first met my ENTJ friend, we were in a group with an ESFP and an ISFP, and the only one that got on fine with each of us was ESFP, but it was ENTJ and I that stared at each other and both of us immediately went “oh! I choose this one, this one is friend-shaped.” A lot of ESTPs tend to be quite fond of me and I like them, but the fondness usually isn’t mutual. ESFJs and I are never a problem, but somehow we never end up being close friends, despite getting on very well. Which reminds me of my ESFP friend who is very attracted to Se in other people and frequently crushes on other SFPs, but it never amounts to anything more than one or two dates. There’s simply not enough of a difference between them. Being too similar to each other doesn’t work for relationships. Humans need diversity, which is why you will never find the same MBTI type within the same nuclear family, not even in identical twins. Literally all STJs I know absolutely hate meeting other STJs. It’s a blind hatred toward one another from the very beginning for absolutely no reason other than recognising a piece of them selves in the other. And even in movies, where a couple of (casting) directors artificially orchestrate family/friend/relationship dynamics, it’s incredibly rare to find a movie couple that’s played by two actors of the same type. But there are biases in casting choices, too. There are so many ENTP writers/showrunners/directors that will almost always cast ENTPs as their lead actors. Some tv shows are completely overrun by FJ actors or SP actors etc. that it simply cannot be a coincidence. Whenever there’s more than two intuitives on a cast, the project is usually run by an intuitive themselves. 
What I’m trying to say is: we are all biased in our relationships with other people in a very systematic way, and I personally believe that we tend to be drawn to those types and cognitive functions that provide a good balance to us. Why has my ESFJ mother married two Ti-doms? Because her own Ti is garbage and she needs someone to talk sense into her when she’s jumping to conclusions again. Why has my ESTJ friend befriended at least 8 intuitives that I know of (which is crazy)? Because she likes using Ne and they unlock the more fun part of her. Why does my ESTP friend have a whole collection of FJ friends? Because all these typical Fe behaviours, as she once said, make her feel warm and safe. Why do I get on so well with TJs? Because I’m an absolute loser at navigating the real world and don’t know how any of this works. It’s about balance. 
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I have a question about jikkok and taekook. Feel free not to answer of it bothers you.
I am jikooker and have been following your theories about taekook. Some looks interesting, some does not. That's okay. As you said it's a personal opinion.
Assuming, taekook are real and jikook is a marketing ship with jimin and jk sharing great bond. My question is why taehyung is the one who keeps initiating things on and off cam. While I wouldn't go as far as to say jk is uncomfortable he seems concious and tries to break the moment. On the other hand, if jimin is bringing jk into everything so does jk. His body language is so open and initiative with jimin. I am not talking about the fan service.
From the perspective that everyone has changed their contract and taekook are allowed to be more friendly on cam. Why do you think only one partybis loud and other subtle and before someone tells me jk is shy. Yes he is but he is quite bold too. Not responding and lack of initiation cannot always be attributed to shyness. If he is so shy with taehyung then why not with jimin?
Any couple who got permission to be on cam a little will take chance to be more open. It's all about balance. What jk does is more of a response rather than being proactive. Like yes he engages very happily but rarely initiates but with jimin he would find ways to be pro active.
I feel he greatly admires taehyung, no doubt about it, but as to real relationship. I don't know.
Imagining myself in the situation, could be wrong, if I show love to my partner and if they cannot reciprocate due to any reason but is busy in promoting other ship, i may not be too upset but would also reserve my affection for private. It's not about being extrovert also, it's about validation and also not leaving crumbs for people to nit pick about it.
I am open to view point and would like to know your stance.
Hello and welcome!  Thank you for sending such a respectful ask.  My broad strokes answer to your general question is basically that I think you’re right that Jungkook is more conscious with Taehyung, or at least he seems that way to me too.  I’ve talked before about how I feel that Taehyung is possibly initiating more interactions/contact with JK out of a newfound sense of freedom, but that Jungkook is more reserved, naturally, about that kind of thing.
Their interactions lately seem to me like JK doesn’t have the same drive to be open that Tae has, but that it doesn’t bother him either, because he doesn’t pull away or do anything to try to make it stop.  I do agree, though, that he seems more conscious of those moments, he is more reserved during them, which could be true for a number of reasons, including -- as you say -- that they aren’t actually in a relationship at all.  If that were the case, for me, Taehyung’s clinginess would seem a little out of place, but as I’ve said before, we’re all watching the same content, making our own observations, and then forming our own interpretations and opinions on them.
The rest under a cut because this is pretty long and I know not all of my followers will necessarily be interested in reading it.
You bring up an interesting point about validation, which is something I’ve wondered about too.  No matter what their relationship is, platonic or otherwise, at least lately Jungkook hasn’t really been meeting Taehyung where he’s at in terms of demonstrating affection publicly, and that could be painful between any two people -- and yet, there don’t seem to be any problems.  It just reminds me again that we see an incredibly small part of these people’s lives.  Who knows what they’re like in private, in their own space?  Maybe off cam, JK is the one who makes sure Taehyung knows that he’s valued and appreciated (again, this could be true if their relationship is platonic too), so Taehyung doesn’t have an issue when JK is more reserved on cam.  We just don’t know.  Also, though, as I’ve mentioned before, Jungkook is less inclined to these casual, frequent displays, but more inclined to more subtle and personal displays, as well as big but less frequent gestures (the cuddling moment at GDA 2020, for example).
The one area of your ask where I don’t really see things the same way is where you talk about Jungkook’s actions/reactions to Jimin in comparison to Taehyung.  You say that his body language is open with Jimin, and that he’s more initiative and proactive with Jimin than he is with Taehyung (you make a note that you’re excluding fanservice in this assessment, so I will too).
I’m really trying to think of interactions that substantiate this, but I’m struggling.  I’ve talked before about how Jungkook is generally less demonstrative and affectionate than either Taehyung or Jimin, and you’re right that a lot of my observations sort of rely on that understanding, at least partially.  So if you’re right about this point, I guess I would have some things to contend with lol, but I’m failing to see Jungkook as being more open/initiating/proactive with Jimin than he is with Taehyung, personally.
I think all three of them demonstrate a pretty clear lack of physical boundaries between each other, but there are still specific interactions that stand out to me.  For example, I can think of two instances off the top of my head where JK initiated fully sitting on Taehyung’s lap: while playing Jenga during ITS1, and again on stage in Vegas (I would argue that this isn’t really fanservice, since most people couldn’t see it happening in the moment and attention was focused elsewhere at the time).
Similarly, I can think of two instances (actually a third just popped into my head) where Jimin got really close to Jungkook and JK pulled away, looking neutral at best, if not downright uncomfortable.  One was the moment during dance practice where it looks like Jungkook is pretending to hold a mic in front of his mouth or something, and Jimin gets right up in his face and JK jerks back away from him.  Again during the moment where they’re cooking together in a live and Jimin gets closer and closer in JK’s face while Jungkook is clearly trying to move away from him and focus on his task.  And then there’s the iconic “almost kiss” from Memories 2020, where Jungkook seems to express less discomfort with his body, but is very tense, doesn’t express anything in his face that looks like he’s into it or even thinks it’s funny, and still pulls back looking, in my opinion, really uncomfortable.
I just want to clarify here that I don’t think Jungkook is uncomfortable with Jimin in any way really.  I think that Jimin might intentionally push his buttons sometimes, for whatever reason, but I think it’s obvious that JK is comfortable with Jimin and I agree that he does initiate touching with Jimin -- I just don’t see it more with Jimin than I have with Taehyung, and I haven’t seen Jungkook act physically uncomfortable in interactions with Tae the way I’ve seen him act with Jimin (and other members).
I know that there are examples of openness and Jungkook initiating contact and interactions with Jimin too -- I’m not trying to claim that there aren’t, just that I’ve seen more discomfort between them than I have between Jungkook and Tae, and that while I agree that Jungkook is sometimes proactive with Jimin, I disagree that he’s more so with Jimin than with Taehyung.
These are also just a few examples on both sides, though, because this post is already long.  You didn’t include specific examples in your ask, so if you wanted to do that, I could maybe respond more fully to those.
For me, though, when it comes down to it, I see an openness in body language between Taekook that I don’t personally see between Jikook.  Again, not to say that they don’t touch and have affection for each other, but to me it just seems more platonic, even familial, than romantic or intimate.  Even Vmin, I think, have a sense of sweetness and softness to their interactions that I don’t see as much between Jikook.
All of this is, of course, based on my own interpretations and opinions and I could be wrong.  At the end of the day, I’m here because I love Taekook’s interactions and their relationship, whether it’s romantic or not, and because I think these discussions are interesting.  So thank you again for sharing your thoughts and presenting your arguments gracefully.  I’d be happy to hear more from you if you’re interested.
Here’s some Vminkook as a thank you to anyone who read to the bottom:
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socialmediapsych · 8 months
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Social Media Risks
Think, Explore, Meet
As we discussed last week, social media can be a great place for us to connect with other individuals who share the same interests. This can be searching for a love connection, great recipes, support groups, or inspiration, everyone uses social media in some aspect. Please see last week's post on social media where I expanded on this topic as well as the idea of homophily in social media. 
Algorithms and Cognitive Biases
In the discussion from last week, we talked about the algorithms in social media and how they work. The purpose of the algorithm is to pinpoint our individual interests and send us ads on more things we like, and to make suggestions towards things we may like. The more you interact, the more the algorithm learns about you. On the surface, this seems great. Not one person wants to continue scrolling down to something they may never have an interest in, just to find the ONE topic they like. There are a ton of racism, homophobia, and religious and political views out there right now that others do not care to see. Once you click on one ad, multiples will continue to keep popping up for you. And now we have it as getting out of this algorithm we have created for ourselves. Your negative bias has taken over, leaving little to no room for critical thinking.
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Steps to Prevent Risks
With social media and its algorithms, it’s easy to get sucked into this dark web of lies, deceit and sorrow at times. To avoid this, it is important that we consume content outside of our beliefs. How can you unbiasedly look at a situation if you are only viewing one side of the argument? For tons of people, it is impossible for us to look at something from a different perspective or point of view. Critical thinking is very important when on social media or the internet in general. Always confirm this information and see where the resources are coming from. We should always be open to other viewpoints and perceptions, as this is how we learn and grow as an individual. 
Close, S. A. (Ed.). (2017). The dark side of social media : A consumer psychology perspective. Taylor & Francis Group.
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why don't people like me? why do people lose interest in me? i try really hard to make friends, be a good friend, invite people, and everything you're supposed to do? but nothing works, ive tried to have friends all my life.
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that makes me very sad but yeah i guess i will prepare for the end, and focus on forming other relationships with other people. it makes me sad bc im bad at finding people i click with and we were pretty close, i always lose close friends at the year mark unless we are very casual. my heart hurts a lot :( our last phone call i talked a bit about politics which i guess she didn't like but the call ended happily so i guess she changed her mind.
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when i meet people or call them they just don't like me anymore and stop wanting to be my friends.
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she told me i was her good friend and told me a lot of deep stuff and we were close and talked a lot and then last time i told her about my redheaded friend who wasnt friends anymore and everytime i tell someone about this they leave and this time we were close so idk why and i dont know what when wrong everyone leaves me at 1 year. i can never make friends and i can never make friends last unless i tell them im bad at socializing and then they just pity friend me
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no one wants to be my friend i try really hard now and ppl just dont like me very much and i try so hard and i am nice and polite and itnerested and no one liekd in school high school no one liked me why no one wants to be my friend
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Im having a hard time when I socialize with people, whenever it ends and I go home I always think "did I fail at that social interaction and make them like.me less?" Like I will keep track of how often they laugh or if they seem to have less energy than usual and I always assume they might like me less and not want to hang out with me again if I'm too quiet or unsure what to say. I feel like I'm not stimulating enough and it makes me worried I will lose people in my life because of it.
I think all of these are the same person. My apologies if I've grouped in some that aren't, but they're all kind of talking about a similar topic, so I wanted to answer them together.
Making and maintaining friendships can be really hard, and I think it's gotten even harder in the past few years since people were so isolated for so long. Without knowing any of you, I can't really guess as to why these friendships aren't working out. Sometimes, it's just that the people a person is trying to be friends with aren't the right people for them, whether that's because they don't share common interests or values, whether that's because they have trouble communicating, or whether that's just because they don't "click". That's not the problem of either party- it's just something that happens sometimes. Other times, people grow apart from one another or become closer to other people. That really sucks, too, but again, it's not something that any one person did wrong. It's just what happens sometimes.
Sometimes, a person makes the people around them feel awkward or uncomfortable, usually because they have trouble "reading the room". They might violate the expectations other people had for how a social interaction would go, accidentally cross personal boundaries, fixate on a specific topic of conversation, ask questions that are too personal for the relationship they have with the person they're talking to, have trouble empathizing with other people's points of view, have difficulty reading nonverbal social cues, just have trouble maintaining a conversation, or a thousand other things. That doesn't mean that that person will never have friends or that they can't have positive social interactions with other people. But it does mean that sometimes, those skills need to be learned or practiced, or that the person does best with friends who don't mind those quirks.
Other times, people have patterns in their friendships and relationships that they don't recognize, but that push people away from them. Needing constant reassurance about social interactions, being too clingy or smothering (in the context of whatever that means for the person), ignoring boundaries, being critical, controlling, dishonest, or selfish, gossiping or spreading rumors about a person, being inconsistent or flaky, making insensitive remarks, or a thousand other things can contribute to a person feeling like a friendship isn't for them, even if it seemed like it would be a great match at the start. Again, this doesn't mean that someone who struggles with these patterns will never have friends or that they can't have lasting friendships with other people. But it does mean that they may need to become aware of these patterns and work to change them so that the friendship can continue to grow.
It's also important to remember that it's okay not to be everyone's cup of tea. Our self-worth isn't dependent on the number of friends we have or what other people think of us; it's dependent on how much we like ourselves and can recognize our good qualities. And, somewhat paradoxically, I think that liking ourselves makes other people like us more, too. It sounds cliche, but one of the best things you can to do make friends is to be a friend to yourself first. And as long as you can find a few good friends who like you for who you are and care about you, it's not so important what other people think.
I hope this is at least a little bit helpful. Without knowing you or what your friendships are like, it's hard to guess at what's going wrong or what could be going better. But those are some common factors in why people may have difficulty making and maintaining friendships, even when they are really great people.
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seooptimizacija · 1 year
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SEO basics
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What having a website really means
SEO basics - web developers and SEO consultants work with many existing website owners who want to modify or improve their website. They also deal with many people who want to start their web presence with a new website. There is often a common theme throughout both of these interactions; misunderstanding or attitude. I call this a false perception of reality. Because often the reality of what the Internet can actually do for people's businesses and what they think it can do are vastly different. It is often assumed that thousands of people will magically find a website, visit it and buy their products. And that by simply owning a domain and a website built and published on the Internet. "If you build it, they will come" should be removed from the vocabulary as soon as possible if you want to adapt attitudes to underlying search technology. As a real-world businessman, it's obvious that this wouldn't happen outside of the internet ether. So what's so different online? Perhaps the technology boom years ago caused a rift in understanding. Or maybe the noise caused a meteoric rise in the share prices of technology companies. I can hear the thoughts of the small business owner, "surely this can be applied to my business" – in response I would say, "well, unlikely, but you should get some results over time".Website optimization for search engines The most important thing when taking on a project like website search engine optimization is to know that it's important to be committed for the long haul. It is not a small job and it is necessary to allocate enough funds for the project. Delivery times must be correctly distributed according to the necessary changes, in order to meet the expectations of the clients. The key points of responsibility for an SEO project are knowing that there are big changes near the beginning and during setup. But the changes don't stop after deployment. There are continuous improvements to the design and system over time. In this regard, I consider it important to manage expectations and set realistic long-term goals. About what the website can be expected to achieve and in what timeframes we hope these goals will be met. So what should your goal be when doing SEO for your website? Well, everyone's goal is exactly the same; improve page ranking, improve page views and visits and finally increase website sales. "White hat" principles When it comes to SEO and achieving these goals, you have to have principles, and my main principle is, "Good sites get good ratings, and bad sites get bad or no ratings at all." As time goes on with the improvement of search engine technology and the refinement of search engine results, this statement becomes truer and truer. I believe in results through "white hat" (read; "gray hat") principles and methodology. What are "white hat" principles? I guess I would liken it to doing things the honest way and the right way without risk. So develop a good website, promote good linking, have good informative content and keep working on it. And then you are on your way to a good ranking through "White Hat" principles. So why should you do things the "white hat" way? Well, search engines do have some kind of understanding, artificial intelligence. They quickly catch sites that send spam or link to irrelevant sites or have poor cross-linking. It's about being smart, looking long term and wanting your business to grow organically, naturally. So how do I improve my website and make it naturally search engine optimized? Well, that's why you're here! So let's go through a few things you should be doing on your websites from a basic level.Domain names - SEO basics When choosing a domain name, choose one that is relevant to the product or service you will be offering and that is as simple as possible. There are considerations about the brand and the product/service provided that should go into this choice. Involvement of marketing, personal and product understanding is required, but consulting with your SEO expert is also an advantage. At this step I would say take your time and choose wisely. Keep it simple and easy to remember, saying it out loud often will tell if it can be understood by the common man. Many SEO professionals firmly believe that buying a domain that is older and has been around for a while means that Google will not shut it down. What is the sandbox effect? Well, it refers to what Google does with a website or domain that is new or relatively unknown to Google. In many cases, Google's Sandbox effect delegates the new domain to suboptimal inclusion in search results. Regardless of website optimization, it reduces the relevance and ranking of the website for the search term. If you can use your old business domain name, consider it very important. However, if you are buying a new domain name, make it relevant to the product or service being sold or offered on the website. Keep it close, relevant and simple. Relevance is primary. A location-specific domain or an international domain (.com or com.hr)? Personally, I think dot coms are better, mainly because they have international appeal. But if you want it to be specific to your location and region, then consider buying all similar top-level domains, yourdomain.com and yourdomain.com.hr, if you can.Choosing a host - SEO basics Fast, reliable and provides you with everything you need and want. When choosing your host, ensure that the plan you are on is scalable so that any new traffic increases can be adjusted accordingly.Site design - SEO basics There are a few fundamental things to consider when modifying or designing a website.Layout of pages According to research, Googlebot searches websites from left to right and top to bottom. So, given this bit of information, it's clear that you should put our most valuable keywords and information on the left and near the top. Of course, this is a general statement and does not take into account the principles of design and beautification. Keep this in mind when designing the page layout. Place relevant keywords on the left and at the top of the page.Overall page size and loading The overall size of the page is an important factor. The page should load quickly and be easy to browse - SEO basics.Colors and themes One important aspect of marketing - selling - is the use of colors. Meanings are attached to colors in the same way that meanings are attached to words. - Gold is the color of wealth and prosperity. - White is the color of pure innocence and purity. - Pink is the color of femininity and tenderness. - Green is the color of natural things and freshness. - Red is the color of danger and stress. - Blue is the color of calm, intelligence. Most of the world chooses blue as their favorite color. Often represents "trust" The use of color to establish an image or brand is common in the marketing community, but when you visit the websites of many search engine optimization experts, it is obvious that the significance of color plays no part in their web optimization. Although color selection is not an SEO topic, I would consider it a very important factor in what SEO is trying to achieve. Ultimately, for your website – selling more products, building loyalty to your brand and influencing customers. Color research is something you should seriously consider. In the summary of color choices, I suggest you study and learn more about your clients. Explore color choices and their relevance to your core products. If in doubt, I suggest sticking with safe and reliable colors within a safe eye-pleasing design.Browser It is vital to ensure that your website works in all major browsers: Google, Firefox, Opera, Safari, Microsoft Edge. Testing other browsers is also an advantage, but these are the main ones used today. I think providing browser parsing statistics is irrelevant as it needs to work in all browsers.There are many things to consider when designing a website or modifying a website to make it more SEO friendly. These SEO basics will help you do just that. Read the full article
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crazybigredlove · 1 year
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10th November 2013
Dear Pete, 
Coffee. Because Saturday coffee is only beaten by one thing: Sunday coffee. 
Holly and I met at that cute little cafe down the river - the one your mother loves and that you and I like to make fun of. All those people whose lives are shinier than ours like to meet there to discuss how fabulous they all are. They pull-up in their expensive cars; they walk like the world is their oyster; tossing immaculately groomed hair and laughing loudly because society never views them as an inconvenience. Life works out for those people. Made a concerted effort to blend in and it paid off because Holly greeted me rather enthusiastically. 
"Liv! You look amazing! Look at you with your hair all done!" Nearby latte drinkers looked amused; likely noticing that I was still a touch below their standard and probably garnering from Holly's excitement that my sub-par aesthetic was actually an improvement. 
"Well, no need to fuss. Shall we sit down?" As we sat it was hard not to admire the view. It was even harder to ignore the overly animated way in which Holly was enquiring about my love-life. Or lack thereof. "So who is the latest guy?" "Holly..." My eyes rolled so far back that for a second I wondered if they would get stuck there, or worse do a full lap. Wait, is that possible? "Oh you know I don't mean anything by it, but you're husband- ready and I want you to find someone." 
"Well, there was someone for half a second, but it seems he's happy to leave it at friendship and honestly, so am I." It felt good to admit it. "What? Who? Spill!" Leaning in so close parts of our body were almost touching, it was the first chance I'd had to really talk to Holly in months so with excruciating attention to detail I relayed every second of the history I'd shared with Big Red, Will, and Dylan. For the most part she stayed silent and let me speak. As you can imagine, it should've been a short tale but I managed to drag it out for close to an hour. "So what's his deal?" She said as my account of our interactions drew to a close. "Which one?" "The Czech. Forget Big Red. Whether you like him or whether he likes you is completely irrelevant. He has a girlfriend. You don't want a man that would do that to his girlfriend. You want a man who knows what he wants. That isn't Big Red. He's a mess. Leave him. They'll fall apart soon enough and then hopefully he'll sort himself. Then once he has his act together you can decide whether or not he would be worth the stress and heartache. Tell me about Will though. What's his game?" "I guess he wants to be friends. With benefits," I hurriedly add. "But only friends." "It's still early days." "It's been two years." "It's early days for you realising you like him." "He hasn't called." "You keep telling him not to." "Still..." Holly softened. "Liv, give the man a chance. Tell him how you feel. Find out if he does feel the same or not. He hung in there for a long while." "Holly." The empathy in her eyes was too much and I found myself blinking back tears. "Don't give me that look." "Can I give you some advice? Liv, you don't need the uncertainty crap. You need a man who is ready to commit. You surround yourself with all these guys who only want friendship or who don't know what they want. I mean, I love Christopher, you know that, but even he was trouble till you set some ground rules. How are you supposed to know what it looks like when someone comes along who wants the real thing when you have so many people doing it by halves or faking it? Maybe Will only wants friendship, and maybe that's because he's not looking for more, or maybe it's because all anyone knows about you is that you're the girl with all the guy friends. When we worked together your phone would go off constantly with all these men ringing who weren't yours. You let yourself be everyone’s girlfriend and no ones commitment. Where did that get you? You ended up alone. You deserve more. You need to demand more." 
The words hung as their full weight rested on us. All those guy friends... 
"I know. Big Red is done though and at the moment there is really only two guy friends. Christopher and Dylan. I'm happy with friendship from both of them. With Will... I don't even know what I want there. I like him, but I don't know what that means. That's the only thing I know beyond a doubt." 
"That's okay," she said, reaching out and patting my hand. "It's okay to be at a different point in time to someone so long as you aren't making excuses for them, or trying desperately to hang onto something that isn't there, or drag them to where you are." "But I'm always at the wrong point in time." This was where I struggled to contain it and I hadn't even known that it was building inside me. 
All those months of back-to-back disappointments had piled up and now it felt there was no more room inside me to contain it. The sadness wanted to explode out from within me and spill itself all over the table; coating it black and thick like tar it would cover it in a hot, sticky mess. 
Ruining Holly's dress and staining the furniture wasn't he most productive way to cheer myself up though, so it seemed best to compress it and push it down like all feelings that needed to remain hidden. 
"It doesn't matter. There will be another one, right?" I faked a smile. "Liv, don't get disheartened. You know what will happen once you find him? You won't have as much time for things like this. 
For travel, for you time, and for making the most of every second because your priorities will change and coffee dates will move down the list to somewhere below attending swimming carnivals and sports days." I must've grimaced because she laughed. "It won't be that bad, but make the most of this. Find out what it is you want. Who it is you want. If you and Will or you and Big Red are meant to be, then give whichever one it is time to get to you. He might not be all that far away. It's not completely unheard of for it to take a man more than a week to get his shit together. They don't all fall in an instant. If they did, you would hate that. You wouldn't want to hand over your independence in an instant, would you?" "Of course not." "Anyway, would it really be fair for someone to fall in love with you when everyone knows you're still hoping that Will or the Big Red guy will come back and declare their undying love for you?" 
And I thought I hid it so well. 
Holly talked some more: the inspirational spiel of proud singles everywhere (despite her being engaged. WTF?!), reminding me that with so many men hanging around there was no chance I could give my all to one guy anyway. When I finally left I had a renewed motivation and positivity. There was almost a spring in my step. Almost. Optimism that had escaped me since well before PT Patrick was rediscovered and I strutted from that snooty cafe ready to tackle the world, and as a first step, to cook myself dinner. 
It is now 8pm on a Sunday night. Dinner was delicious and the dishes are washed, dried and put away. Joshua Radin is playing on my iPod. I'm writing you a letter. 
This life really isn't so bad. 
Liv x 
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pairing: teacher!tom x teacher!reader
summary: your colleague is insufferable, really. the way he’s so cocky, so lenient with his students, so nonchalant, so attractive with no effort whatsoever––you hate him, really.  
warnings: smut near the end + this is really long fyi 
notes: this literally came out of nowhere, i thought about it before i fell asleep last night and luckily i remembered it today. i was kinda hesitant to write it out and post it but here we are! 
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so you and tom get your jobs as high school teachers at the same time
you first meet during the training sessions during the summer before the semester started
and you immediately can’t stand him
he just––
he’s too much
with his charming accent
and his smile
and his perfect hair
how does someone look good with both gelled hair and messy hair?
when you had to spend too much time making sure you looked good every morning
it was unfair
some days he shows up in fancy clothes
a button down and pants
maybe even a trench coat
some days a leather jacket and oh how you hate that leather jacket and hoodie combo
it’s not professional in the slightest yet he still manages to pull it off
he even shows up to school in sweats
how? you have no idea
he manages to charm literally everyone 
from the students (including yours, thank you very much), the lunch ladies, even the principal for christ’s sake
all the girls love him, they swoon over him every day
you see how your girls brighten up whenever he strolls into your class to bother you 
he lets his classes watch movies way too often
he hasn’t even done some of the reading for his assignments he’s handed out
he constantly shows up to your classroom for the sole purpose of teasing you
‘looking as beautiful as ever, y/n’
you turn to look at him, a deadpan expression on your face, ‘some of us have actual work to do thomas, so if you would please leave––’
he interrupts you with a gasp, bringing his hand to his chest and he gapes at you, ‘how rude’ but you can tell by the look in his eyes that he’s not actually offended
you constantly have to physically shove him out of the class
and every time he just laughs, obviously enjoying himself, only pissing you off even more
he takes every opportunity he can to bother you
like when he interrupts your class, a cheeky smile on his face as he opens the door
‘sorry to bother you, ms. y/l/n’
you both know he absolutely is not
he turns to the students and waves like he’s a goddamn celebrity and they all swoon, and you roll your eyes
‘mr. holland,’ you see his eyes,, darken? at the sound of you saying his last name but you brush it off, ‘to what do i owe this displeasure?’
his usual smirk is plastered back on his face, ‘well i just needed to borrow a marker, love.’ 
you try not to let the nickname have an effect on you, especially when you hear your students perk up at the name as well
‘you know you could have just asked a student to come over here, right.’
he turns to your class playfully, ‘does she treat you lot like a bunch of servants?’ 
they laugh and you sigh, exasperated but somewhat amused, making him turn back to you
‘you don’t even use the white board in your class.’
he shrugs easily, ‘well today i am.’
and your students are loving the banter between you two
they all ship you and they’ve told you multiple times
tom’s students have done the same to him as well
you roll your eyes for what feels like the fifteenth time and nod your head to the tray under the board where all the markers are and he doesn’t move a muscle, he even dares to lean against the doorframe
‘well how am i supposed to know which one you don’t mind me taking?’
you glare at him and walk over to the board, picking up a random marker and throwing it his way
he catches it easily and slides out of the classroom and you can hear the grin in his voice as he walks off, ‘cheers, love.’
you just go back to teaching your class, ignoring some of the knowing stares your students are throwing your way
after class you go over to his class to see what was so important that he needed to get one of your markers 
you walk right in because of course his door is wide open
...he wrote the date
that’s it.
he looks up from his phone to see you standing there and he straightens up, his eyes widening slightly as he sets his phone down
‘uh’ he scratches the back of his head, ‘i erased it all, obviously’
you narrow your eyes at him, obviously not buying it
‘i can assure you we took the most intensive notes you’ve ever seen’ 
you laugh and walk out of the class, ‘yeah and i’m the pope.’
he smiles, shaking his head slightly as he watches you walk away
sometimes when you’re walking in the hallway, he somehow finds you, easily sliding up next to you
‘you following me?’
‘tom you came up to me.’
‘nonsense, really.’
sometimes during lunch, he’ll stop by your classroom if you’re not in the cafeteria
and you’re too bothered and hungry to kick him out
so you both just eat and “enjoy” each other’s company
he’ll make small talk with you and it’s actually not that bad
you share an office with him and the other teachers in your department 
your desks are right next to each other, because apparently whoever’s in charge of your life just isn’t on your side
he tends to look over at whatever you’re doing
‘geez darling, you really are a harsh grader...’
you look up at him, and back to the sheet, offended
‘no i am not! i’m checking the answer sheet and this is simply not correct––’
you plan on defending yourself further but then you see him trying to hold in his laughter and realize he’s just teasing you
you look back to your paper, hiding your smile, ‘ha ha. very funny tom.’
sometimes he’ll even roll his chair over and lean on your desk
you look over at him hesitantly, ‘do you need something?’
he just smiles lazily, ‘oh don’t mind me, just enjoying the view.’
you brush him off and try to ignore the fluttering feeling you get in your stomach
you’re with your other colleagues one day on lunch break, 
luckily tom hasn’t decided to torture you that day
and they ask
‘so you and holland gone on a date yet?’
and you choke on your food
and the other one goes ‘or have you at least fucked––’
and you properly choke on your drink this time
when you finally calm down, they don’t even try to hide their smiles
‘what are you talking about?’
‘oh come on’
‘you can’t be serious’
when you look at them like they’re crazy their smiles drop
‘oh so you’re either stupid or oblivious’
‘hey!’
‘i mean come on, the way he looks at you––’
‘his teasing’
‘his comments’
‘we don’t like each other, he’s insufferable...’ you say but it really sounds like you’re trying to convince yourself
‘you know we don’t even have any policies on that stuff, sooo...you could if you wanted to.’
when you don’t reply, they go on,
‘so you don’t think he’s attractive at least?’
you roll your eyes, ‘don’t be stupid, i’ve seen him before, and he knows he’s attractive which is the worst part––’
and you get interrupted by a very annoyingly familiar british voice
‘who’s attractive, darling?’ he slides in and takes a seat next to you and your friends can’t help but smile knowingly at each other
you send them warning glares and they ignore you
he sends them a charming smile, ‘hello ladies’
their soft, completely charmed responses make you gag
and tom can’t help but shove your arm playfully, ‘play nice, darling.’
‘can i help you with anything?’
‘just wanted to say hello to my favorite colleague,’ he turns to your friends, ‘and her lovely friends, of course.’ 
you roll your eyes, ‘isn’t harrison your favorite?’ you ask, bringing up the pe teacher he’s always with
he was a nice guy really, you’d talked with him a few times, he was always making jokes
he brings a finger up to his lips, ‘shh’ he winks, ‘don’t tell him.’
eventually he leaves you alone with a promise to stop by your class again before the day’s over  
you respond with a ‘there’s really no need!’ 
and he turns back to face you as walks out, ‘sorry! can’t hear you anymore!’
you look back at your friends and they’re giving you a ‘really, bitch.’ look and you can’t help but shrink in your seat a little bit, lost in thought
‘does he really like me?’
‘do i really like him?’
you try to push it aside and focus on your work for the time being after that––you are at work, after all
when parent teacher conferences come around tom obviously finds a way to sneak into your classroom before they start
you hate to say it but your breath hitches and your gaze lingers a little too long on the way his arms strain in his tight shirt, the part of his collarbone you can see peeking past his slightly unbuttoned top, the shiny watch on his wrist, his hands––
‘well you somehow managed to look even more beautiful than you always do, love. can’t say i’m surprised.’
you look down at the dress and heels you’d changed into after class ended, suddenly feeling undressed under his gaze
‘um thank you. you look good too.’
he seems taken aback for a second, and is he blushing?
‘thanks, love.’ 
he puts his hands in his pockets, a casual smile on his face, ‘so are you ready for the next five hours of forced social interaction?’
‘no but i have to be,’ you sighed. ‘i’m sure you’re fine though, you’re a people person.’
‘what can i say, people love me.’
‘alright,’ you say getting up, you don’t know what comes over you but you place your hands on his chest gently, ‘we have like’ you glance at the clock ‘two minutes so,’ you look up at him and the look in his eyes knocks you breathless
‘off you go...’ you trail of softly
his hands come up to hold you wrists gently, his thumbs caressing the skin, a soft look in his eyes,
‘if you say so, darling.’
it feels like time stopped but a knock on your door reminds you where you are and what you have to do
your hands hesitantly slide down his chest and back to your side and he sighs at the feeling, unwillingly letting you go
‘looks like my first parent is here.’
he backs away slowly, blinking out of the daze you both seemed to be in, ‘right, i––good luck, love.’
you reply quietly, ‘same to you.’ 
and so you introduce yourself to the first parent and go about your night
when you have a small ten minute window, you go to the bathroom and when you come back you find a small cup of coffee on your desk, just the way you like
there’s a sticky note next to it and you can’t help but smile when you read it
‘thought you might need this. knock em dead, darling. you’ve got this. :)’
when you’ve finally said goodbye to your last pair of parents, many long hours later, you prop your door open and take a seat again
it’s not long before you hear a knock at the door, you turn to see tom strolling in, two bottles of water in his hand
yes one hand, you tried very hard not to think about it too much, especially not about the way his fingers wrapped around the––
‘here you go, love.’ he hands you a bottle and you thank him as he sits down in the seat across from you where the parents were sitting all night
‘so how was that for you? first parent teacher conference done.’ he sips his water and you try not to focus on the way his throat bobs when he swallows the sips
‘i think it went well, they were all really nice, honestly. how was it for you?’
‘great, i mean it was honestly kind of fun, but now i’m exhausted’
you nodded in agreement, ‘oh! thank you for the coffee by the way, i––i really appreciated it.’ you give him a small smile
he returns one back to you, ‘of course, love.’
you can’t help but ask, ‘so do you just do this for everyone?’
he furrows his brows in confusion and you continue, totally disregarding the fact that he looks really cute when he’s confused
‘the coffee, the water, the nicknames...’ you trail off
he lets out a small chuckle, ‘i will admit i am a charmer––’ he looks into your eyes, ‘but i promise it’s just you. you’re...’ he trails off for a bit, ‘different.’ 
he can see you’re unsure about how to take that, ‘in a good way,’ he clarifies, ‘a really good way.’ he smiles
you lick your lips nervously, ‘well that’s...good. i––yeah that’s nice.’
you mentally curse at yourself, really? nice? my god––
luckily he lets it slide and soon enough the both of you get dressed and he’s walking you outside to your car
you both say goodnight and once you’ve driven off, tom gets in his car and heads home too
when the winter formal comes along, everyone is very excited, people are asking each other out, and all that fun stuff
being a teacher, you get to hear all the gossip in your class and in the halls and it’s honestly quite entertaining
‘now you didn’t hear this from me,’ you pause for dramatic effect while tom tries his best but fails to hide his endeared smile. he leans in over his lunch, ‘but apparently sarah lewis, the blonde girl in my class?’ you pause to make sure tom knows who you’re talking about
when he nods you go on 
‘thought that david––’
‘is that the bloke on the football team?’
‘yes, him. she thought he was going to ask her to the formal, right?’
‘yeah i mean i’ve seen them flirting in the hallways, only makes sense.’
you shake your head in sympathy for the poor girl and his mouth drops, ‘no––’
‘yes... he asked her best friend instead.’
tom sits back in his seat, ‘that fucker––’
‘tom!’ you laugh, though you really shouldn’t, these were students for christ’s sake.
‘what? come on, he deserves it, the player.’
you nod, ‘yeah i guess he does.’
you both laugh and when it dies down, he speaks up again,
‘speaking of the formal,’ you perk up and try your best to seem nonchalant as you look up at him.
he’s looking down at his food nervously, as if it’s the most interesting thing in the world. 
he clears his throat and looks up at you, his eyes vulnerable, ‘will you be uh, chaperoning?’
you swallow, weirdly nervous all of a sudden, ‘yeah,’ you tilt your head slightly and tom almost combusts at how cute you look, ‘will you?’
he snaps out of his reverie, ‘yeah! yeah i will.’ god he felt like he was back in high school again, this was ridiculous––
‘i guess i’ll see you there, then.’ you smile shyly.
he smiles back ‘yeah i guess i’ll see you too.’
tom shows up early to the dance, because he’s a nerd––he’d even put on his nice shoes, his extra shiny watch and gelled his hair for an extra ten minutes to make sure he looked good
he was hoping to catch you before everyone started piling in, but unfortunately you were nowhere to be found
nonetheless he helped with last minute decorations and such and stood in the corner when the dance started, to make sure nobody died or anything on the dance floor
he was sipping his punch, totally not judging the students dance moves when he noticed you walk into the gym, a look of awe on your face as you looked at all the decorations and lights
and you––
you looked like a princess 
your dress was long and flowy and there was a slit (a perfectly appropriate one) on the side and when tom noticed that he just about choked on his drink 
you made your way around the room, saying hi to the other chaperones and some of your students as well
a lot of people wanted to talk to you, tom found out rather impatiently
but soon enough, you made your way towards him, near the punch
‘funny seeing you here, holland.’
he smiles, ‘likewise, love.’
you both go off near the side and start small talking
soon enough you’re making jokes, enjoying your time
‘i have to say i really am impressed with how this turned out, it looks great,’ you say, your eyes exploring the room
he hums, ‘not as good as the ones in london though.’
you turn to him, amused and intrigued, ‘oh yeah, why’s that?’
he leans in to whisper in your ear over the music, ‘cause we’re allowed to drink booze at our dances.’
you snort and roll your eyes
and he can’t help but feel his heart flutter in his chest at the way you laugh at him
he wanted you to be his so badly
after a few moments of scanning the crowd and doing your job, tom speaks up again
he holds his hand out and you look at it and back to him ‘may i have this dance?’
you can’t help the smile that makes it’s way to your lips, ‘aren’t we supposed to be working?’
‘we can watch and dance at the same time’ he responds, even though he knows once he has you in his arms he won’t be able to focus on anything else but you
you say fuck it and grab his hand
he grins and leads you to a spot on the dance floor after discarding your cups
his hands gingerly find their way to your waist and it’s cliché, truly
but you feel all tingly when he touches you and honestly it seems like he does too
you slide your hands up to his shoulders and he takes a deep breath
you start swaying slightly to the song
and now that you listen to it, it sounds a bit too sensual for a high school, dance. but anyway––
tom’s eyes are entranced by the way you’re glowing in the light and the way you’re looking up at him
your lips looks so soft and inviting
your eyes are shining
and that dress
meanwhile, he looks dashing as ever
his jawline, his hair looks so perfect––you really wanna pull on it and mess it up...
you slowly inch your way towards each other and soon enough, you’re so close that if you just tilted your head and pushed forward, you’d be kissing
realizing where you are, you both snap out of it slowly
and as a slow song comes on, you lean your head on his chest and he holds you close
you can hear and feel his heartbeat and it makes you smile
you sway together and you can tell there are some students and even staff members who are staring at you two
when the song is over you look up at each other and the tension is unbearable, and oh so thick
‘do you wanna––’
‘let’s––’
you both laugh, still holding each other
‘let’s go, darling’ he grabs your hand and leads you to grab your coats and your purse and then out to his car
before he opens the door he catches a glimpse of the way you’re looking at him with your bottom lip caught between your teeth, your eyes looking him up and he just loses it
he practically lunges towards you and you yelp when he attaches his lips to yours, immediately melting in his touch
one of his hands is cradling your cheek, while the other reclaims it’s spot on your waist, gripping you softly but firmly
without detaching his lips from yours, he turns you around and presses you against the door to his car and you gasp slightly into the kiss, making him smirk
you raise your leg up slowly, trailing your heel up the back of his leg and he groans as he presses himself into you 
you hear a group of teenagers shouting and laughing as they step out for a breath of fresh air and the two of you pull away from each other reluctantly, panting as you stare at each other as if you want to devour the other
and honestly––you do
he opens the door for you and tries to calm himself down when he shuts the door for you before walking over to his side and getting settled in his seat
he looks over at you and notices the way your clenching your thighs together, how your breaths are still heavy and he bites his lip, unable to look away from you
you break the silence
‘are we really about to fuck in your car?’
‘of course not,’ he looks offended, ‘for our first time together? absolutely not, i have more manners than that love.’ he pauses, ‘unless you want that?’
you can’t help but laugh, ‘take me home, tom’
your eyes widen slightly, realizing how domestic that sounded and you go to take it back but he interrupts you, placing his hand on your thigh
‘let’s go home’ a smile on his face as he pulls out of the parking lot
the whole drive to his place, his hand is gripping your thigh teasingly and you’re surprised you didn’t leave a wet spot on his seat when you got up
he opens the door for you and takes you up to his apartment, using all his self control not to take you right there in the elevator
when you get to his door, it takes him way too much effort to put the key through the hole
though he’s not drunk, it feels like he is when he’s around you
you’re absolutely intoxicating
your hands are rubbing all over his body as you hold him from behind, your face nuzzling into his back and he can barely focus
‘christ––’
as soon as you step inside his apartment, he locks the door and his lips are back on yours as you take your shoes off and hastily throw your jackets on the couch as you walk past the living room
once you get into his bedroom, he turns the bedside lamp on the lowest since he doesn’t want you to trip and fall over anything
you both quickly undress and tom stops you before you can take off your undergarments
‘let me,’ a cheeky look in his eyes as he does so
he turns you around and grazes his hands up and down your sides before bringing them behind you and unhooking your bra
he slides it down your arms teasingly slow and the silence in the room is deafening as you hear it drop to the floor
he steps closer to you, pressing his bare chest against your back and you hear him take in a breath as looks at your breasts
he brings his hands to your waist in a silent question
and you lean back in response
he takes the invitation and glides his hands up to grasp your breasts and your back arches, a soft sigh escaping your lips and he basks in the sound, wanting to hear it again
‘so pretty, darling’ he plays with your nipples and you whine, wanting to feel him already
‘tom––’
‘alright,’ you hear the smile in his voice before he turns you around
then he bends down all while keeping eye contact with you, kissing your skin as he makes his way down
then, this cheeky bastard, places his hands on your thighs, while he looks up at you with those innocent eyes and grasps the waistband of your panties with. his. teeth.
he drags them down oh so slowly down your legs and once they reach the bottom you kick them aside
he stands back up and you waste no time, smirking at him before you bend down, ‘my turn’ 
you get on your knees and drag your fingertips down his abs while you do so, relishing in the shivers he tries to contain
you hook your fingers into his briefs and pull them down, biting your lip at the way his cock is standing up proudly
you lick your lips as he steps out of his underwear, ‘is that all for me?’
he bites his lip, bringing a hand down to hold your cheek and you turn your head to kiss his palm
and how you managed to make that hot? he has no idea
‘of course it is, darling. it’s all yours’ he grabs his cock and starts stroking it slowly, hissing at the feeling
you quickly take control and he moans out loud when you lick along his base and put the tip in your mouth
you swirl your tongue around him and he swears he sees stars
‘you’re––christ, you’re making me forget my manners, love. i’m supposed to take care of you first.’
you roll your eyes, taking him out of your mouth while you keep stroking him with one hand and play with his balls in the other
‘you wanna make me happy right tommy?’ you bat your eyelashes and he twitches in your hand at the sight and the nickname
‘y–yeah’
‘then let me do this please? wanna make you feel good’
he nods entranced and you continue, putting your mouth back on him
sucking and bobbing your head as his eyes flutter shut and his head falls back
he gets lost in the pleasure and honestly almost blows his load unwillingly but he pulls you away and leads you to the bed
you climb on and get settled in the middle, enjoying the look in his eyes as he climbs after you like a predator eyeing its prey
his eyes lock in on his target and you close your legs teasingly as you look up at him
he shakes his head slightly at your antics, ‘ah ah, open up, pretty girl. i wanna see you.’ he nudges your thighs open with his hands and the feeling of his fingertips pressing into your skin send tingles all through your body, making your pussy clench around nothing
he looks between your thighs and back at you, ‘can i?’
you nod before he can even finish his sentence and he’s too eager to please you to make a joke about it
he lies down between your legs and wraps his arms around your thighs as he holds you in place and dives in
his tongue is slow and teasing as he licks through your folds
he’s making eye contact because of course he is
and you can’t look away, and neither can he 
you can tell he’s enjoying this and it makes it all the more enjoyable for you
he’s taking his time and savoring you, coaxing you to the edge 
your hands grip his curls, ‘i’ve been wanting to mess these up all night’ you admit
and he growls into your heat, speeding up his movements
he shakes his head and lets you grind into his face as he focuses on your clit
and soon enough your back is arching, your eyes shutting closed and your body tenses around him, your thighs holding him close
he licks you up through your high and when your thighs loosen around him, he kisses your clit and sits up, rubbing your thighs soothingly
you sit up and kiss him slowly, passionately, letting your tongues taste each other as you feel each other up
‘come here,’ he mumbles between kisses while he moves around
he lies down on the bed and you go to straddle him when he stops you
‘just a little bit higher, love.’
your eyes widen, ‘you want me to sit on your face––’
‘been dreaming about it for a while now actually. please darling?’ he gives you those puppy dog eyes of his 
and though you didn’t know if he meant metaphorically or literally, you decided to climb up, you’d figure it out later 
you settle down on top of his mouth and he pulls you down, immediately getting to work as he watches you through hooded eyes
you’re still sensitive from your previous orgasm so you feel yourself get close quickly as he sucks on your clit
you mewl and he hums into your heat, loving the reactions your giving him
when he feels you about to tip over the edge he grabs your ass and helps you grind on his face as he flattens out his tongue
your thighs close around his head for the second time that night and his cock throbs at the sight of you and the feel of you pulsing on his tongue
he licks you clean and leaves soft kisses on your thighs as you come to your senses again
you get off of him and switch places
he licks his lips as he reaches over for a condom and puts it on
he watches you breath deeply, the light coating of sweat on your chest glistening under the soft light, your wet pussy 
he strokes himself and lines up at your entrance, rubbing himself through your folds and teasing your clit
you can’t help but shiver and jolt at the feeling and he bites his lip, hiding his smile
‘you ready, darling?’ he asks, wanting to make sure you still want this
you nod, looking up at him and he slides in, bottoming out slowly
‘god you’re so wet for me––’
you can feel every inch as he enters you and your walls are so tight he’s sure he won’t last––just seeing you come already made him want to
he starts thrusting into you slowly, holding your thighs up as he moves his hips and the both of you let out a string of moans and curses
he hits the right spot inside of you and your eyes roll back as you whimper, your hands gripping his as they hold you open
‘always wanted to see how you roll your eyes while my cock’s inside you––’ he teases
you can’t even be bothered to reply with a witty comeback, he just feels too good
you wrap your arms and legs around him pushing him deeper inside you and he groans, his hands sliding down your body to rest on either side of you as he pounds you harder
‘god you feel so good angel’
your heart properly bursts at the new nickname, your limbs tightening around him as you turn and kiss his neck
he couldn’t help it, just watching you tonight at the dance and just now underneath him, it was the only name that seemed fitting
‘fuck, i’m close––’ he pants 
you perk up and clench around him, wanting to make him feel good
he curses into your neck and keeps pounding you, sliding a hand down to rub at your clit
you jolt underneath him, moaning breathlessly at the feeling of his soft fingers in comparison to his hard thrusts
he reaches his high first, his hand and his hips not stopping until he feels you convulse around him
‘fuck––’
‘oh god tommy––’
he crashes his lips against yours and grinds his hips into you as you settle down from your orgasms
after a few moments of you giving each other soft kisses here and there, tom pulls out of you
he goes to discard the condom and leads you to the bathroom to pee, giving you a kiss on your forehead as he leaves you to do your business
it all feels very mundane and home-like and just warm
when you’re done, tom has a glass of water for the both of you and you take a sip before getting into bed and under the covers with him
he opens his arms and lets you slide in next to him, resting your head on his chest, wrapping your arm around him as he holds you close
after a while of comfortable silence, he speaks up
‘i’ve been wanting to do this for a really long time, you know’ he says absentmindedly as his fingers trace patterns on your waist
you nuzzle into him, ‘yeah?’
he hums, ‘always found you beautiful’
you’re glad he can’t see how flustered his words make you, ‘mm i always found you insufferably hot’
he laughs and his chest vibrates under you
‘insufferably?’
‘you know how you are’ a teasing tone to your voice as you answer
‘fair enough’
after a small pause you speak up hesitantly, ‘so...what now?’
you can hear and feel him take a sharp inhale before he responds, ‘well i was hoping i could take you out soon? i know we’re doing this all backwards but––i’d love to call you mine if that’s alright?’
you smile, delighted by his response, ‘i’d like that a lot.’
you can hear the smile in his voice, ‘yeah?’
you laugh, ‘yeah’ you kiss his chest and he squeezes your waist in response
the two of you talk for a little bit more and soon enough you drift off to sleep
tom drives you back to school on saturday to pick up your car after he made you breakfast, of course
and honestly he wasn’t a bad chef, he’d apparently learned from his younger brother
and if that didn’t make you fall for him more, you don’t know what would
he leaves you with a kiss and makes sure to wait until you’ve pulled off safely to make his way back home
when you come back to school the next week, your friends quickly bombard you in your office and practically drag you into the hallway
‘so we noticed you left with mr. charming on saturday...’
‘and left your car here’ they wiggle their eyebrows suggestively and you can’t help but roll your eyes and laugh
just before you answer tom walks in and winks at you, a grin on his face, before stepping into the office
oh he so knew what you guys were talking about
your friends turn to each other immediately, 
‘oh they totally fucked’
‘definitely’
your eyes widen and you shush them aggressively
‘this is still a school you know??’ but you all fail to hide your laughter
‘so how was it?’ they ask
you turn to make sure no one’s listening and look back at them, biting your lip 
‘pretty fucking amazing’
they shout and cheer and you slap them playfully telling them to calm down
‘i’ll tell you more about it later, now shoo.’
you make your way back into the office, a playful and slightly embarrassed smile on your face as you feel tom’s eyes watching your every move
he scoots over next to you when you’ve settled in your seat and you can feel his minty, tea flavored breath tickling your neck ‘so did you tell them about how you sat on my––’
‘shut up!’ 
he cackles and slides his way back to his desk
you’re walking down the hallway later on when you bump into a familiar face
‘oh hi harrison’
he lights up when he sees you ‘haven’t spoken to you in ages, y/n how are you? heard you and tom finally got together, about time––he’s been moaning about you for months now’ 
you can’t help but smile knowingly at the fact that he’d told his friend all about it just like you did 
and speak of the devil, tom comes strolling in out of nowhere, and walks up to you and haz in the hallway
you can’t help the smirk on your face when you see him and he immediately knows something is up
‘what did this div tell you?’
and your smirk turns into a grin, ‘oh nothing, just how you’ve been obsessing over me for months now,’ the glint in your eyes brightens and tom turns to glare at his friend
‘right,’ harrison speaks up, laughing, ‘well i’ve got things to do, you know sports to coach or whatever so i’ll leave you to it!’ before running off
you get tom’s attention again, a teasing sing-song tone to your voice, ‘you’ve had a crush on me’
he smirks down at you, his hands sliding down to your waist, ‘don’t act like i didn’t see the way you would look at me, darling.’ he grabs your ass subtly, and you gasp as he presses you closer to him ‘we both had it bad.’
‘now be a good girl and get to class.’ he walks off leaving you there gaping like a fish, your cheeks heating up as students start crowding in 
‘thomas!’ 
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outrunningthedark · 2 years
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(I think you're the only blog that I follow that posts about 9-1-1 and ableism and that I feel comfortable interacting with...)
Full disclaimer, I am physically abled and I have a learning disability that was diagnosed in high school.
Reading fanfiction with a*a in them and seeing her described as a "good person" or some other variation always rubbed me the wrong way, since if I had to describe her I would probably call her a bad person. I never figured out why, because I know people who are/were casually ableist, but I wouldn't call them bad people (I don't know whether I would call them good people, either).
I figured it out today. The people I know are ableist mainly due to ignorance, which is not okay, but it does not qualify them as bad people in my mind. A*a, on the other hand, was a teacher at an inclusive school and has a phd in child development (I think), which means that she should be aware of how wrong her view is, which means that, not only is she not a good person, but firmly a bad one.
Hey, love! Discussions about ableism are always welcome here, and I appreciate that you feel comfortable enough to share your feelings with me. <3 I think you've accurately described what was so bothersome about Ana's behavior. When we first MEET her it's as Christopher's teacher, and we already know he attends an inclusive school. (For the newbies: inclusive education, in layman's terms, allows both disabled and non-disabled students to learn side-by-side in the same classrooms, as opposed to placing one group in "regular" classes and one group in "special needs".) And yet, in her VERY FIRST APPEARANCE, she tells her student's father that Christopher's failed attempt at skateboarding is probably a sign that he should try a different activity. Because he has obvious limitations. Listen. Every disabled person struggles with things that cannot do no matter how hard they try. I'll never be able to use forearm crutches because I don't have the proper balance and muscle strength for it. I'll never be able to ride a bicycle. I can't even follow a YouTube exercise routine because the moves are just too complicated for me. But the point is that I learned these things through trial and error. Therefore, Ana's opinion would be ignorant no matter who it came from because outsiders cannot determine our capabilities just by observing us. But the fact that she is written as a teacher at an inclusive school? That's a horrible look. Her occupation means she should always be thinking of ways to help students who are "different" work and play alongside the kids who may not need the extra help and attention. What did she do instead? Suggest Christopher ought to give up and move on after one (1) unfortunate experience because she didn't see how a kid with CP could ride a skateboard like everyone else. Textbook ableism. By an inclusive educator. The writers really did that. And, look. I see all the posts on here that discuss how "it is not the author's responsibility to teach morality" because most people can figure out right from wrong. But when it comes to a character like Ana...this fandom proved time and time again that the lack of follow up to her comments (not just back in 3x12, but when she called Christopher "sensitive" and poked fun at "lazy students" who blame their teachers for bad grades) only made viewers downplay the meaning behind those words because they don't know what ableism actually looks or sounds like beyond, y'no, the r slur or a public space without accessible parking/a ramp/automatic doors. They didn't think anything of her remarks until actually disabled viewers started pointing out how fucked up her perspective is. WE SHOULDN'T HAVE TO DO THAT. The fact that anyone could watch those scenes and find reasons to explain away such behavior because it's "normal" or "understandable" is exactly why leaving interpretations up to the audience is not always the best course of action.
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minteyeddevil · 3 years
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Cute/soft (hopefully) moments in the House of Lamentation (A collection by a certain human)
(contains slight spoilers for season 1)
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- Lucifer cares about his family, that was a universal truth everyone in the Devildom knows but a very select few remember. Unknown to showing his affections for his brothers and friends in a noticable manners in front of others, to many, he was a man that rarely admits to anything that showed weakness.
There was one occasion, however that could've challenged this view greatly.
You were on the way to find Lucifer, perhasp it was a matter that regarded the student council, or it was just a matter of wanting to see him.
Regardless, after a myriad of questions to his brothers on his whereabouts, you found yourself in the Underground Tomb.
From there, you found the eldest in front of the tomb of his sister, as Cerberus lied by his feet as one hand lovingly ran through one of the dog's head, while the other held a brush that gently combed the large creature's fur. You'd hear him recalling stories of the happenings of the House in the past week, and you could almost hear the smile on his face as he added his own commentary of the tales of the human and the brothers that he claimed to give him a headache at times.
It was only when he was concluding the final story did he finally turn to you, a gentle smile on his face, the expression of one who was, at the moment, free of the burdens of life.
An expression that you might recognise, whether in the past or the near future, when he was alone with you.
"You've been standing there for quite awhile haven't you? Come here, there is plenty of space beside me to rest. Besides, I don't think I've properly introduced you to Lilith after all this while."
From there, every week of the same day at the same hour, you would find the embodiment of Pride in the Underground Tomb. Sometimes, he'd have his documents, and other times there would be a cup of tea or coffee by his side, and eventually, there would be two.
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- Being the offical avatar of Greed, and the unoffical avatar of lying about his feelings, to say Mammon is an expert on contradicting his words with his actions would be an understatement. As entertaining these moments are for many, it would be those times when he'd be completely bare with his feelings that made everything all the more sweeter.
It started off with an accident, where certain shiny bottles for a school project, where you were partnered with the Avatar of Greed himself, were stolen from your room. And as you approached your groupmate's room to interrogate him about his role in this theft, you heard a crash and the sound of multiple glasses crashing on the floor.
As you hurriedly reached out your hand to open the door, you heard a resounding "Don't!" from the room inside. "It's a mess in 'ere, and there's glass everywhere, you'll hurt 'erself!" . A lound shuffling could be heard from the room as the the door quickly swung itself open, revealing a drenching, frowning demon.
His normally fluffy white hair was now dishevelled and dripping with a mixture of shimmering pink and green liquid along with his normally white nightshirt and black pants. His eyes narrowed and a frown was deepening on his features, until he came face to face with you.
It took a few seconds too long as the cogs in his brain whirled and recognition of the proximity of the two of you was finally shown on his face by the widening of his eyes and the reddening of his face.
"I-I can explain! Ya see, I saw the instructions on the potions and it was really dangerous if ya did it wrong! So I just wanted to make sure ya didn't get hurt if this thing literally blew up in your fac-"
He quickly clammed his mouth shut, and if it weren't for that outburst you'd think it was impossible for his eyes to grow any wider, or his face any redder, as if horrified by his own honesty.
It took awhile of explaining to his brothers, and even longer of persuading Lucifer to not punish him, but it was finally verified that Mammon was hit by a truth-telling potion because of the little incident, and it would take awhile for it to either completely wear-off, or for the brothers to conjure a potion to cure him.
From there, Mammon started to cling to you even more than before, whether it'd be out of fear for expressing his true affections for his brothers and being teased by them, or it was an apology for messing up the project, it wasn't clear to many.
However, it was during those moments when you two were alone in either of your rooms, that he'd turn red, and refuse to meet your eyes as he buried his head further into the curve of your neck mumbling barely loud enough for you to hear.
One day, however, when he thinks you're asleep beside him, he finally whispers as he stares at you and sleepily ghosts the back of his hand over your cheek.
"I-I'm really glad ya came 'ere ya know? Every second we spend like this makes me wish we could stay like this forever, no need to worry about pesky brothers stealing you away, or about the troubles we'll have outside....I..." He trails off, yawning as his eyes drift to a close as sleep consumes him. "...love...you..."
Maybe one day he'll be brave enough to say it without the help of a potion. Maybe, that day he'll be able to say it when he knows you're awake. Maybe...just maybe...in that moment, he already has.
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- In his karaoke nights alone, Leviathan would sometimes dance with his body pillows or sing to his figurines like a concert, and very rarely, it'd be a combination of both.
He'd pretend he's in the world of his characters and interacting with them, imaging himself as the hero with his companions on all sorts of adventures.
One time he was singing an upbeat song with so much flair, there was dancing and laughter when he realised he messed up a little, but he didn't mind. He was in the midst of a build-up to the chorus when there was a knock on the door.
Unfortunately, he was so sucked into his world that he didn't hear it nor did he see the crack of the opening of the door. It was too late when he spun around to deliver the final note to grand finale, the energy that flowed through him came crashing to a sudden halt when he saw the face of a certain human he'd made a pact with not too long ago.
"U-Uwah!!! H-how long have you been there?! Haven't you heard of knocking?! You have?! Then why didn't you knock harder?!!!!!"
That incident felt such a long time ago, the screams of that night were but a distant memory. With everytime you caught him singing you gradually saw him hiding his red-face less and less. Eventually, he'd be humming melodies as he leaned into you whenever you'd be together, hoping each time that you'd join him.
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A/N: Hi there, so I've been on your blog for awhile, and I wanted to make up some hcs for you :) (Although they became more of short oneshots than anything else jhsdsakjhd-) I know they aren't much, and I'm not the best at comforting people irl, but I really hope that these could help a little. Especially since your headcanons in the past and now have helped me through some tough periods of my life this year, and I wanna try to give back as well.
I wasn't very confident in my ability to use nino or cade for this, so I made this with a more neutral reader in mind. And I hope my writing skills aren't too rusty, it's been a long while since I wrote something that wasn't an essay ^^''.
But enough of me, I really do hope that in the midst of this frustrating and scary period (not in the good way), that everything gets better.
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These were absolutley amazing, I love them so much and I appreciate you sharing them with me!!! Your writing skills are incredibly, I definitely look up to them here! Again thank you for sharing these, they helped so much and made me smile! <3
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Juvenile and Family Law, is it something that a kid dreams of practicing? No, not really. Is that where the big bucks are if you’re not interested in taxes and wills? Yes, it is. College is expensive, and so is law school; gotta pay it off somehow. It takes a while to build your clientele, a lot of it is word of mouth. You work your way up, and slowly but surely, build a good reputation for yourself. And if you’re lucky, you’ll make partner.
Harry Styles is good at his job, and is on the brink of making partner at his firm. Gallagher, Hilson & Associates Family Law is a great place to work. Isaiah Gallagher and Maria Hilson are two incredible lawyers, and the other associates Harry works with aren’t too bad either. He doesn’t always love working nearly sixty hours a week, and some of the cases he handles have caused him to see the bottom of one too many bottles, but other than that, he’s happy.
Family Law means working all kinds of cases. Custody, spousal support, paternity, and divorce. All of those cases are messy, rarely are they clean cut. Harry happens to specialize in divorce, which in turn can lead to all of the other things listed above. What’s worse is that a lot of his clients will often flirt with him, so he’s started to wear a fake wedding band to ward off any and all inappropriate behavior. It doesn’t happen every time, but it was often enough that he decided to find a way to just avoid the unwanted attention.
Due to how many hours he works a week, Harry’s social life is a little lackluster. By the time he gets home work, all he wants to do is kick his shoes off, plop down on the couch with some greasy Chinese food, and catch up on some television. He lives in a nice enough building in the city. His apartment has one bedroom, and one and half baths. On Friday nights, he’ll go out with some of the other associates for a drink, so he gets a bitof social time in. He’s not lonely, he actually quite enjoys the quiet and solitude. He’s got a cat, Gerry, short for Geraldine that he takes care of. He has what he needs, and he’s perfectly content.
Whenever he dates, people always want to talk about his work. The last thing Harry wants to talk about after a long day at work, is more work. So, he sticks to meaningless hookups, and his own hand, when he needs that type of release.
He doesn’t have too much to complain about. He’s thirty, and massively successful. Some of his friends still live at home while working retail jobs, not that he’s judging. He was twenty-six when he moved out, and he’s grateful his parents let him stay rent free so he could save up for his own place. He doesn’t like to compare himself to others, but it makes him feel good to know he’s all set. He works hard, yes, but it’s all worth it.
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With how quiet his personal life is, it’s hard to imagine Harry being a shark in the courtroom, but he is. He’s a master in the art of persuasion and rhetoric. Having been a communication major in his undergrad career, and all. He knows how to read a room, and how to read people. The jury is just an audience waiting to watch a live performance. His theater minor also comes in handy here. Being a lawyer is an act, a role he plays. He knows how to play the part when it’s in a large courtroom, or when it’s just a small meeting in a conference room to divide up assets. It’s not always easy, but he makes it look that way. Harry typically wins most of his cases, and when it’s something small, he’s usually able to get his client the majority of what they asked for. Every customer leaves happy.
These skills can’t all be taught and learned. Some people are born with natural talent, skills they learn to hone in on and perfect. It’s a craft that Harry has worked on for years. Again, he’s only thirty, but because he has such precision and talent, it makes him the hot commodity. The office is constantly getting calls for him. It’s why they want him to become the next partner. Having his name on the plaque as you enter would surely put people at ease. Isaiah and Maria saw potential in Harry from the beginning, and they feel lucky that he’s one of their associates.
There other very qualified associates as well, like Niall – who specializes in custody cases – he’s well on his way up. There’s Candice – who specializes in prenuptial agreements – she got into the lawyer game a little later in life, but she’s as sharp as a whip, and shouldn’t be underestimated. And lastly, there’s Byron – who specializes in paternity cases – he thinks he’s going to be the next partner because he’s a bit full of himself.
Harry and Niall are the closest in age, so they hang out more often. They both really like baseball, and will go to a game or two during the season. Candice is the surrogate mother figure. She has no children of her own, she’s the fun aunt to her nieces and nephews, but she feels oddly maternal towards Harry and Niall. The boys often call her “Ma”, instead of her actual name, and she loves it. She looks out for them, and there when they need someone to listen. She’s fifty-seven, and enjoys baking in her free time. She often brings the boys homemade muffins on Monday mornings, and they adore her for it.
Byron…well…Byron is a forty-year-old womanizer who totally clashes with Harry. Does Harry have one-night stands? Yes. Does he ever lie to his partners? No. Byron enjoys playing the game in all facets, and Harry never takes part in it. Needless to say, Harry hates when he has to partner with him on a case, and avoids it when he can.
Isaiah and Maria each have their own executive assistant, or para: Michele and Kyla. They’re both in their late twenties, and rocking it. Harry only interacts with them over email. He, Candice, Niall, and Byron all share the same administrator: Ronnie. Ronnie is twenty-six, friendly, and organized. She doesn’t have time to help everyone on their briefs, but that’s what interns are for, and there’s an abundance of them circling throughout the office.
Harry has a nice office. Plenty of natural light from the windows, he has a desk riser so he can stand up periodically, and he even has his own mini fridge. (He’s often paranoid about people taking his Bubbly, so he just brought in his own fridge.) He’s got a decent enough view of the city; he likes it best at night when the twinkling lights come through. It reminds him of how lucky he is to be where he is in life. He knows he’s more fortunate than others, so he tries to be grateful. He gives back when he’s able, donate to different scholarship funds and whatnot.
Harry is a good man.
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On a particularly cloudy morning, Ronnie lets Harry know his 10AM consult has arrived. He didn’t know much about his new potential client, but he was always willing to hear someone out. He stands up from his desk, and waits for the woman to enter.
In walks a young woman wearing an expensive, red pantsuit, black heels, and a dark red lipstick. She gives a soft smile to Ronnie before she closes the door. Harry walks over to her, extending his hand.
“Hi, I’m Harry.”
“Mira.” She shakes his hand.
“Please, have a seat.” He gestures to the two seats on the other side of his desk and they both sit. “What brings you to my office today?”
“I heard you’re a pretty good divorce lawyer, and I need a divorce.”
“Is your spouse aware that you’re seeking counsel?”
“No.” She shakes her head and swallows. “I…I’d be putting myself in danger if he knew I wanted to leave him.”
“What kind of danger? If he’s physically abusive, then you need to- “
“He doesn’t put his hands on me like that. It’s…I don’t love him, and I never have. I was essentially…I was sold to him; it was an arranged marriage. I thought maybe I could learn to like him, to love him, but it’s been three years, and I can’t stand him. I need legal help.”
“What do you mean you were sold to him? Were you a child bride? Were you sex trafficked?”
“No.” She chews on her bottom lip. “He made a deal with my father. Thomas got me in exchange for…something. I can’t get into what exactly with you just yet.”
“Does he think you’re happy?”
“Yes.” She nods. “Well, for the most part. I do my thing, and he does his. His job keeps him pretty busy, and I often pretend to be asleep when he gets home. He doesn’t satisfy my needs, so to speak, and I’ve given up on trying. I want to be freed from him.” She pulls out a packet of paper from her purse, and gives it to Harry. “That’s a copy of the contract he and my father signed when they made the deal. I’m not great with legal jargon. I thought maybe if you decide to take me on you could look that over and tell me if there’s any way, I can get out of this.”
“Are you over eighteen?”
“Yes, well over.”
“And were you over eighteen when you were married?”
“Yes.”
“Then how could your father barter you?”
“Where I come from…it can just be like that. The goods we get in exchange for my hand outweighed my happiness.”
“I’m so sorry.” Harry frowns. “My services aren’t exactly cheap.”
“I wouldn’t expect them to be. I can pay top dollar, if that’s what you require. I have money of my own.”
“Alright.” Harry sets the packet of papers onto his desk. “I’ll take a look at that soon, and give you a call.”
“Does that mean you’re taking me on?”
“I hate to see such a nice person be so unhappy.” Harry frowns. “I got into this business to help people, so I’ll help you, Mira.”
“Oh, thank you so much.” She smiles. “There are going to be some things in that contract that may shock you, so please don’t hesitate to call me directly with your questions.” She takes out a business card from her purse. “There’s all of my contact information. If anyone other than myself contacts you regarding all of this, don’t say a word.”
“Don’t worry, I’m good at keeping things confidential.”
“I heard you’re a very trustworthy attorney.” She nods, and stands to her feet. Harry does the same. “Thank you for taking the time to listen.” She extends her hand, and he takes it to shake.
“Of course, it’s what I’m here for.” He smiles and opens the door. He watches her leave, maybe for a little too long.
[DARK SIDED, COMING TO PATREON ON SATURDAY, OCTOBER 2ND @ 8AM EST] [Ask]
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