#i am getting so many followers

[mysicklove]

i am sorry for the lack of fics everyone 😔😔😔

#🔪 - mello talks too much #i feel litterally so bad about it #like #i am getting so many followers #(thank u thank u thank u!!) #and i am #just not #writing #well i am #i am writing like 5 things #but very slowly #very very very slowly #and it just makes me feel so shitty #bc ik u guys followed me for fics #but also #it’s my blog #i can do whatever #but like also #idk i feel like im scamming u guys #which is such a stupid way to think #idk #i just feel bad for not posting anything #and i just am struggling to write a lot #so idk #i’m sorry #i’ll prob delete this later #BUT I AM SORRY

[theonewhowails]

silly stuff i drew while reading Feel No Evil by @payasita , in which the Lamb does not know how to propose, Narinder does not know how to be alive, and neither of them knows what an obligate carnivore is

bonus? lmao

#my art #cotl #i am looking into your soul with my huge autistic eyes. read this fic right now. blease #hksfdjghdfghldkfg im sorry it just fucking kills me that for the first 4ish chapters narinder is just. so nasty #like all the followers are like There He Is. The Leader's Favorite Guy. and its this filthy half-dead cat that hasnt bathed in 10+ years #like he has hardly eaten the entire time he's been mortal and he looks like absolute dogshit #and their unbeatable normally serene and gracious leadergod is hovering around his stinky ass like omg nari hiiiiii #its fucking hilarious to me. and also heartwrenching bc this fic does also get into how hard it is to be alive when uve never learned how #gonna draw the twins desperately bringing him soap later i just had so many things i wanted to draw for this

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Creative Hubris takes another unsuspecting victim.

#non mdzs #It's not even that many pages and I'm getting my ass kicked! #As much as I have been clawing at the walls - I have learned so much! This project pushed me more than I thought it would #I am so excited to share what I've made. I think its actually some of the best work I've ever done. #but I really do feel like I've stumbled back into the room covered in blood and holding a smoothie. #The issue being: at some point the sunken cost fallacy kicks in and you go: #'well I might as well put in extra polish since I've spent so much time on this already' #That's your EVIL BRAIN talking to you who wants you to live in EVIL COMICS LIMBO. #Sorry to my followers who miss the mdzs comics. I went mad at sea for a month and all I brought back was a short comic. #Posting my silly side doodles to bide me time as I continue to drink the sea water. #Set me free into the plains where the horses roam and I will be able to heal <3

[legendoftherisingtide]

[intro]

Bakugou is a prideful, arrogant person. He holds himself to the highest standard; he is the best and everyone else is simply below him. Everything he has ever done was in pursuit of being number one, shining above the rest. He has to have a perfect victory, he has to be a perfect student, he has to win to save.

He pushes and pushes and won’t let anyone see his weaknesses or his insecurities. He can never lose, he can never fail, he can never show that he regrets or hesitates or that he hasn’t thought everything through. He must never be vulnerable in every sense of the word.

Then why is he standing in the rain.

To apologize shouldn’t be a sacrifice, but it is for Bakugou. To pour his feelings, to admit his wrong, to let down all of the walls he has built and be vulnerable. And in front of his whole class.

He is willing to sacrifice his pride, to fully sacrifice any superiority he could have, to bare his soul and even risk rejection. Because he knows Midoriya is more important. Because he wants him to come home, he wants him to know his true feelings, because he wants things to change. 

Because Midoriya has changed him. Midoriya has opened his eyes; by showing him he’s allowed to be open, that his feelings should be expressed, that he has so much to learn, and so much of that was learned through Midoriya just existing.

He isn’t sacrificing his safety frivolously because he’s expected to as a hero; he is doing it because he has grown. He is doing it because he has finally admitted to himself that he wants Midoriya to be with him and safe.

So I will sacrifice this for you. Not because it will change anything, as much as I want that I know that I can’t just fix all the wrong with just this. And I am willing to do as much as it takes to earn your forgiveness. But I don’t need that from you, not now and not ever if you don’t want that, I just need you to rest. I did so much wrong. And I am sorry for everything. You don’t have to do this alone. Lean on us. You are so strong and being supported doesn’t discount that. You’ve taught me that. 

I hate the rain. But I will brave it for you. 

He would do everything in his power, admit so many things, just to get Midoriya to take care of himself. We see him being the most vulnerable he has ever been in front of people that aren’t Midoriya. He does so much completely out of character, all in pursuit of being there for Midoriya. 

For Izuku.

He finally gets over himself and finally tells Midoriya the feelings he has felt for so long.

He lets go of this idea he is inherently better and finally acknowledges that his hatred for Midoriya has always been about his own shortcomings and insecurities. But he still wants to be better, they are still rivals. He isn’t going to sacrifice that part of him because that is just who he is; he is still going to push to number one.

But now it’s different.

There is verbal and vocal acceptance and respect. Before it was unspoken; their relationship had changed ever since Ground Beta. They were proper rivals, with mutual respect and care, they were actively making each other better.

But Bakugo finally verbalizes it and tells Midoriya, not only is he sorry, but he wants to actually have a proper friendship; he wants to continue to become better and earn his forgiveness. He wants them to push each other to be better, he wants to continue to fight for the top spot, he still wants to be the best.

But when did it become something else? 

When was the turning point when it started to shift from wanting to surpass Midoriya and be the best, to wanting to keep up with Midoriya and stay by his side?

Bakugou has already sacrificed himself for Midoriya before. His body moved on its own; with no hesitation, he would save Midoriya. He has already risked his life for him. But there is a layer to it that I don’t think people talk about. 

He tells Midoriya he shouldn’t try to win this on his own. 

He disguises his concern with an insistence that he’s in it to fight for himself when he initially joins the battle. But it is to fight by Midoriya’s side and support him.

But taking the hit for Midoriya, jumping in the way isn’t just support. This is sacrifice. This is giving yourself to ensure the safety of someone. And it was second nature. 

There are two reasons and both are a sacrifice of something in the moment.

It is knowing someone is so valuable, so great, in all senses of the word, that they must be protected. Bakugou is sacrificing his body and admitting that Midoriya needs to stay alive, for personal reasons and/or for the world. He needs Midoriya to be okay, Midoriya can’t fight alone and Bakugou will do anything to make sure he will be okay. 

But the sacrifice of ideology. 

With every development, he has relinquished parts of himself. When he sacrifices himself he is not only sacrificing his body but is admitting that he can’t do this on his own; he needs Midoriya too. This isn’t him wanting to be better than Midoriya, it’s him wanting to do it together.

Midoriya changed him.

He doesn’t die for Midoriya. He wakes up and just as his last thought was Midoriya, so was his first as he woke up. He runs to his side. People are dragging him back, trying to have him rest, knowing before he even said anything that he would lose his mind over Midoriya’s situation. 

Everyone sees how Bakugou feels about Midoriya.

He sacrifices himself because Midoriya can not die on him. Midoriya has to stay alive. Midoriya has to keep fighting. 

There can not be a world that doesn’t have him in it.

This is the culmination of what has been developing ever since the final exam where Bakugou finally works with Midoriya; the day that win to save, save to win was noticed. Then furthered after Ground Beta where they finally talked to each other and something changed within them both.

But the final sacrifice is the culmination of Bakugou’s character.

He knows what this decision will mean. Everyone screams for him not to. He knows that he is going to die. He knows he will not win this fight.

This isn’t dying for the cause. This isn’t just a hero complex. This is because he can help Midoriya and he will. This is for Izuku.

I will sacrifice myself for you. To give you more time, to give you even the slightest chance of winning. I will sacrifice myself for you because you are who can win. I am going to die. I am going to die and in my final thoughts, I will ask if I will still be able to be by your side.

It is no longer can I beat you. It is no longer can I surpass you. It is can I still catch up to you. It is can I still even be equal to you. He has already sacrificed the idea that he could beat Midoriya, that isn’t what he wants anymore. What he wants is to stay here with him.

I will sacrifice everything I am. I have wanted to be the best. All my life I have wanted to surpass you and everyone around me. But you. I will let that go for you. I let it go in my mind for so long now and I have never wanted to admit it. Is it even possible? Is it even possible for me to catch up to you? Is it even possible for me to stay by your side. I can’t be that anymore. I am sacrificing even that now. I will never be number one now. I will never become the person I always dreamed to be. I will never surpass you. I am forever sacrificing that now. I will die here.  

But can I still be with you?

The sacrifice of his life is him fully relinquishing everything he is, admitting that he can’t keep up, losing all of the progress he has made, letting go of everything that made up his character.

And the last thing on his mind is if he can still be able to be by Midoriya’s side.

He won’t let him go again. 

#EDITED BC I REALIZED I DIDNT PUT A READ MORE SO IT MUST BE SO OBNOXIOUS #so I finally finished putting in the images and mustered up the courage to post it #I’m always so nervous about posting opinions or anything long bc I get super passionate and I’m scared it’s wrong— #i added pictures as evidence but in reality is was bc i was super insecure that no one would want to read all that-- #the intro was so long and was also made to apply to both togachako and bakudeku so i just made it a masterpost instead #this is still very long i am sorry but i have so many thoughts #but like yeah this is just my little essay about sacrifice and love and how they’re intertwined #and it goes both ways #but that’s for another day and another essay #togachako follow the sacrifice and love perfectly #so I will probably write one for them as well… maybe #bkdk #bakudeku #bnha meta #bakudeku meta #bnha analysis #mha analysis #bnha spoilers #<- for the whole manga but cmon if ur reading this you know it all #bakugou katsuki #midoriya izuku

[wiseatom]

do the stranger writers know i am in the trenches fighting for s2 every day. do they know that i am one of s2’s strongest soldiers. do they know i watch s2e2 “trick or treat, freak” during all of my girl dinners. do they even care. am i silent or am i being silenced.

#i have complained so many times on here abt picking will byers as my fave character in s1 #and my friends taking that info - me picking a fave based on 11 minutes of screen time - and saying ‘s2 is a drag to get through’ #i have complained so many times bc i am constsntly in awe that someone would say that to me. #stranger writers please follow my blog. here on tumblr dot com. please follow me and See The Work i am doing. #for YOU. it’s all for YOU. (it’s actually for him) (will byers)

[arohuacheng]

imagining the story from pei ming's perspective is rlly funny i think. this god from all that time ago ascends again (you were there for the first two times) and immediately waltzes into a situation that fucks something up for your descendant (putting both of your reputations on the line, messing up how hard your descendant worked to become a god and how hard you worked to ensure that he would have that chance) and then refuses to let you smooth the situation out and on TOP of that your friend's little sister (who hates you and who you are trying to look out for by request of your friend) is on your case about it too. so you've gotta work all that out and then like. you chill for a little bit (still kind of upset about your descendant) until your friend undergoes a heavenly calamity. and then in the space of like A Day the god from earlier shows up again with a fucking ghost king, your friend dies, the little sister you're supposed to be looking out for disappears, and everything just kinda goes to shit. so you're like. grieving. trying to process everything. until your OTHER close friend goes off the fucking rails with the spirit of that guy she murdered, and then you get called out to the spooky ghost mountain where you're confronted with the girl whose death YOU were essentially responsible for and have never really come to terms with, and then like. you just kind of hang out with these gay people until everything resolves itself. fight some ghosts. fight the heavenly emperor. get your friend to stop being evil for a little while so she can fix the filing systems. and then you just have to keep being the god of love i guess

#characters who are so related and yet so unrelated to the story my beloveds #is he really necessary to the story. no! he's so essential to me though #nobody talks about the tragedy of the three tumors... i know it's cause they're awful but c'mon guys... #these three people who only have each other... pei ming losing both of them one after another in their own way... #i think he's probably pretty chill about ling wen being evil. i don't remember how he responds but i don't think he's that worried. #but still. that's two for two on the 'people i care about getting fucked up somehow' list #and then the kid that you're supposed to be emergency older brother to fucking DISAPPEARS. #so you can't even follow through on your promise to your dead friend... #shaking my computer. do you all understand how i feel #pei ming posting tonight. so many thoughts but so little expressed in the pei ming posting #too sleempy... will return to thoughts later #i am going to become the pei ming poster of all time. just watch me #talking #tgcf #pei ming #tian guan ci fu

[gumidonut]

assorted robloxs :P

reblogs appreciated!!!!

#my art #roblox #gasa4 #get a snack at 4 am #regretevator #gasa4 player #gasa4 cashier #gasa4 dummy #gasa4 halloween herson #pest regretevator #regretevator pest #me tag #TJATS SO MANY TAGS.????????????? I . dies of natural causes on the spot? #normally id put all of this on my art blog but i think a lot of people here know me becuz of my roblox stuff #so. anyways if u wanna see my other work follow me on sketchers united :3 im theheartacoustic

[stuckinapril]

One day I’ll go through med school and then I’ll go through residency and then I’ll go through a fellowship and then I’ll be the most crybaby neurosurgeon you could think of. Bursting into tears if I so much as graze ur hypothalamus with my forceps

#Yesterday I shadowed a neurologist for the first time and basically we got done seeing a patient who’s also a heart surgeon #And I turned to the doctor and was like Ok what do we do #The thing is this patient has dementia and we don’t really have a cure for that yet so the study he’s enrolling in is largely observational #Still I expected her to follow up on him in much more frequent increments #Instead this woman goes “we’ll see him in 6-9 months but… not even sure if he’ll be here by then sooo” #Basically implying he might be dead in a year #AND I WAS LIKE. Blown away by how blase she was #And ever since then a fiendish sort of melancholy followed me everywhere I went . #Bc I haven’t stopped thinking about the heart surgeon #I don’t get how she can stop thinking about him #I don’t understand people who can stop thinking about something like that #I know neurologists like her have seen patients come and go many a time but I was disturbed #So I made a pact w myself never to lose my humanity. Half of why I’m so into medicine is bc of its humane aspects #And in 10 years I’ll look back at this and hopefully still be just as annoyingly sensitive as I am today #I think I’m just overall disillusioned w how little humanity some people seem to have but that doesn’t mean I have to be that way too #p

[litrallytyrus]

their dynamic (homosexual relationship) means everything 2 me

#can we talk about them forever please .?? 😇 #bc they’ve been in love since the amsterdam episode and barely anybody talks about it …. #luckily i am brave and courageous and i will carry the burden of being the one to shove them down everybody’s throats : ) #teehee fr tho #how many times do i have to say they’re in love before the producers of ted lasso get on here and tell me i’m RIGHT! #this was fun to make i should do it again #i love scrolling thru insta and seeing a picture that makes me think of them it’s so FUN!!! #sorry to my followers who don’t care about them . You will . #jan maas #richard montlaur #janchard #jan x richard #ted lasso #also is the last picture clear or am i overthinking it … #it had the caption ‘me and my bf were fighting’ or something but i got rid of it to fit the text message aesthetic #whatever YKU GET IT!!!

[poisondionaea-art]

Please remember that most aspec discourse is from TERFs who are looking to divide and destroy us from the community and out of existence because they hope it will be their gateway to do the same to trans people.

They've admitted this themselves, they've been doing this since our terms started existing, they purposely went out of their way and still continue to tear apart any sort of peace of safe spaces that we have using discourse and traditional homophobia scare tactics targeted towards the aspecs.

If you let them take us away from the community you're going to let them take (or at least severely harass worse than they currently are) trans community.

#like they went out of their way to get our spaces taken off the internet or too unsafe for us to exist in them #I am so tired of this happening can't we just exist #also i know I don't have many followers but im aroace and if you dislike aspecs please unfollow me #aromantic #asexual #aspec #this discourse is stupid and i hate that half the time it's targeted towards aspec men specifically

[mumblesplash]

do you ever end up accidentally getting super attached to a trope so specific and rare you don't even know how to look for it? 'space aliens failing to understand that a human showing teeth usually isn't a threat display' isn't even an ao3 tag. finding that shit in published fiction or tv shows is next to impossible

#<- guy who searches ao3 by the 'misunderstandings' tag without even specifying a fandom #mumbling #if you've been following me for a while you may remember my introduction to mcyt was when i started scraping the bottom of the barrel #looking for 'humans are space orcs' stories #but what you may not know is that was already a ways down a rabbit hole that began with *avatar the last airbender* #it basically went #'holy shit salvage is a good story' -> read every existing version of hakoda being a good dad to zuko -> #'shinsou hitoshi getting adopted by aizawa has the same vibes fuck it i'll read that too' -> 'why are they aliens in so many of these' -> #get addicted to the 'humans are space orcs' trope -> find a whole collection of fics about that exact thing -> #for some reason the collection is 80% dsmp fics -> i am not picky -> 'oh no they've got a crow-coded father figure' -> #still not rly interested in the dsmp source material -> minecraft kinda interesting tho -> wait what's hermitcraft -> and now here we are #all bc 3 years ago i wanted zuko to have a decent father figure #firelord ozai made me draw pinup art of goodtimeswithscar: the true and harrowing tale of my descent into madness #flameo hotguy or whatever the kids are saying these days

[cinnamon-bunni]

hey so ummmmm everyone go read Moonlight (every single night) by @heleentje right now. like, its a botw fic with timeloops, what more do i have to say

#okay i may not have finished it yet bc i dont read fics like i used to but god dammit is this fic GOOD #listen time loops are my JAM and weakpoint like if a fic is a timeloop its already an 8/10 #but moonlight is so well written?? with good characterization??and SUCH an interesting plot and mystery to it??? #AND (again) GOOD WRITING???? #i am biting it and chewing it like a chew toy (pos) #idk how many botw mutuals/followers i have but. *shoves into your hands* read. read it now #anyways imma get back into reading this and heleentje i PROMISE you im gonna rant SO much in the comments section of the last chap lmao #bunni mumbles #also the fic is like a 25/10. to me

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Baldness is holiness <3

#Poorly drawn MDZS #MDZS #jin ling #jin zixuan #ask #Yeah we irritating. Yeah we balding #I am so happy for the love and support these simplified designs get #though I will take a bit of fun out of it and say that when I drawn them in more serious style I *do* give them proper hair #The comments about what the ponytail reminds people of are too funny for me to break the spell #Let's make it canon now that everyone with the Jin guangshan blood has The Strand #MXY has it tucked into his ponytail. JGY has it stored under his cap #Its how they identify each other <3 #except not really. we know how the 'guy with too many kids to follow up on' story ends #Maybe if someone wasn't so SEXY (bald) we wouldn't have so much jin sibling angst #This is my warning that JGS is Bald (sexy) in this comic #Had to make him even more slappable somehow

[cementcornfield]

good morning, ok time for me to be a little insane upon first waking up a little hungover on a sunday

we all know joe is in arizona for his friend's bach party/the little autograph signing thing yesterday. (i don't know exactly where that was but i know he was definitely partying in scottsdale because he is a basic bitch <3 <3)

and then last night ja'marr posts the most random blurry picture on his story

the only point of which seems to be establishing that he is now also in arizona. (in phoenix which is like 20 minutes from scottsdale). it's not a picture of ANYTHING!!! like it's just some blurry shot from the back of an uber. truly the only point of this is to say he's there.

and now i woke up and thank god i screenshotted it because HE DELETED IT!!!!!

i invite you all to draw your own (insane) conclusions

#am i saying that ja'marr went to arizona for joe??? #yes. #i am crazy though #but i mean #we get all these miserable shots of joe #he's flipping people off in the club #he's reached his breaking point!!! #does he call ja'marr and beg him to come and make the weekend better?? #does ja'marr see all this and take the initiative on his own?? #and why oh why did he delete the story????? #did he even tell joe he was coming #or was he too shy about it so he just posted a story hoping joe would notice #and either joe did notice and so he could get rid of the story #or joe didn't and he was embarrassed and removed it #MANY THOUGHTS #👀👀👀👀👀👀 #is all i'm saying #hi hello if you've made it this far i love you #you're following a crazy person

[ijusthavesomanyblorbos]

i think one of my favorite things about rottmnt is how exaggerated it is

like the animators just have SO much fun with taking the characters and making them look as ridiculous as physically possible

so here's a (very) small compilation of some of my favorite weird ass turtle faces >>>>

anyways please feel free to submit more photos if you have them this isn't even CLOSE to all of them <3

#okay and am i wrong but is there definitely some meme inspiration here #like that last picture kinda reminds me of the burger guy from undertale #i dunno #there's just so many of these it's amazing #they always make me giggle #AND it literally took me like 20 minutes to find all of these so i cant imagine how many id find if i actually looked #anyways #hbrambles #rottmnt #rise donnie #rise raph #rise mikey #tmnt 2018 #also sorry everyone who followed me for transformers content :( #i PROMISE i will get back to it soon #as soon as i get all the turtle stuff out my system lol

[corpsentry]

at the asian american studies sponsored movie screening i run out of my seat to press a button for the presenter and you look away, not in shame, but in anger

go make your own movie.

One where you’re the star

and everything’s my fault

the way you want it to be. I know, it’s easy

to let someone else hold this grief

and sit in the bathtub,

all dressed up to go to the party.

Maybe in this movie it’s your party

and I the party crasher,

holding cymbals and a baseball bat, et cetera.

But we don’t stop getting older when we’re angry

and you’re only twenty,

can’t listen to lullabies at night,

can’t sleep without a blanket

over your head like you’re scared

of your own shadow. God, go

write your own movie.

You could do it,

you’re still

pretty. Angry? Me too.

The bathtub’s overflowing,

the bathroom’s flooding

with whatever you couldn’t say

to the poet with their palms glued shut

in a cheap simulacrum of prayer.

Didn’t you say you were tired? Angry? Me too.

Upset? Unhappy? Me too. Hungry? Lonely? Me too. Me too.

Standing barefoot in the grass

I remembered the month of bad weather.

How I parted the fog with broken hands each night,

looking for your voice.

Oh, I will not forgive you.

Not like this.

With your fingers splayed

against the brute February sky,

lips cracked open like windows,

waiting, like you always are, for me to say the first word.

#my writing #my words #there are many reasons i like tumblr. for example the number of people who keep getting older is very impressive #but also it is nice because unlike my goddamn poetry account (self inflicted damage) half my friends irl do not follow me here #so i can put this poem down. it’s not public grief here it’s anonymous grief! woo #anyway i have just survived possibly the most brutal four weeks of my life and this is including getting dumped a week #before the dance concert in which my ex and i were in more than half the items together. this is including that #but i am OUT #and this poem was written while i was still in but i am O U T #lord being hurt and hurt and being mature and brave and smart makes your HR voice get really good #not by choice #for survival purposes #i am wondering if i should get this laptop. as my water bottle exploded and destroyed my old laptop #i think i will do it #yes. i think so #it is time to start taking care of myself. and so on #so here’s this poem. i wanted to share it because it’s raw and unedited and it has some lines that i think are neat #if it makes you feel some stuff that would make me very happy