#but very slowly

[mysicklove]

i am sorry for the lack of fics everyone 😔😔😔

#🔪 - mello talks too much #i feel litterally so bad about it #like #i am getting so many followers #(thank u thank u thank u!!) #and i am #just not #writing #well i am #i am writing like 5 things #but very slowly #very very very slowly #and it just makes me feel so shitty #bc ik u guys followed me for fics #but also #it’s my blog #i can do whatever #but like also #idk i feel like im scamming u guys #which is such a stupid way to think #idk #i just feel bad for not posting anything #and i just am struggling to write a lot #so idk #i’m sorry #i’ll prob delete this later #BUT I AM SORRY

[pokedex-holder-pink]

[PREVIEW] Undercover in Love Chapter 13

I'm alive, you guys. And I love you.

Whi-Two sits across Colonel Rikhard, a confused look on her face as she slowly looks up from the document in front of her.

“I… Don’t understand.”

The blonde colonel smiles good-naturedly, peering at the slightly dumbfounded girl through his round, thin-rimmed glasses.

“Well, I'm not sure what more is there to explain that’s not covered by the document, dear, but I will be more than happy to try.” 

He then leans forward and taps his pen on the document, the butt of his pen hitting on the bold letters that seemed to jump out of the pages and dance around the table, not letting Whi-Two comprehend.

“This is the document that makes your acceptance as an inspector of the UPD, Aspertia Division, official!” Colonel Rikhard cheers. He tries to gauge if there was any form of understanding to be surmised from the girl’s eyes. But as they were before, her eyes were still dumbfounded.

Horror-stricken, even. The colonel chooses to ignore it in hope that he may have just imagined it.

“Of course, the logistical concerns like your uniform and your new office are still in the works, and they usually take a while, especially for sudden promotions such as this, but... The paperwork is already here!”

His kind smile grows into a beam. 

“Congratulations, Officer Rosa Bilden, for being the youngest officer to be granted inspector rank in the entire history of the Aspertia Division.”

Rikhard looks at Whi-Two expectantly, even reaching out his hand slightly to see if she has shaken her shock away, But Whi-Two does not move, and performs a short back-and-forth of her gaze from the document to the already-celebrating colonel, and then back.

Then she lets out a nervous giggle.

“S-Sir, this is an honor, but... It's all happening so fast.” Her smile fades too quickly. 

“I just got back here.”

Rikhard returns to his initial demeanor, but his good-natured smile remains intact as he lowers himself back to his chair.

“Well, yes, I do admit, there was something... atypical with the speed of the processing, but I guess that's only expected when a proposal has the endorsement of a well-respected name in the UPD.”

The girl’s eyes immediately darted forward at the realization. Rikhard does not notice.

“You know, I spoke with Inspector Lack-Two over the phone--charming young man, that he is--and he gave such wonderful reviews of your performance back at Main that it was almost impossible for the higher-ups to deny our claims to have you jump all the way to level-3 inspector. Isn’t that great?” Colonel Rikhard then sighs.

“It's just too bad things are the way they are right now. Otherwise…” The old man whistles as he looks up wistfully. 

“To be a high-ranking officer in Main... Officer Harold Biden would have been so proud of his little girl.”

Whi-Two feels her heart break a little at the mention of her father’s name. In all the chaos brought about by the past few months, she hadn’t found herself a spare minute to think about him up until now.

With all that she’s caused, what would he have made of her? Would he really have been proud?

The young officer notices that her colonel was still watching her expectantly.

She smiles ruefully at him before looking down again.

“That's incredibly nice of you, Sir, but... I'm afraid I can't share in that pride.”

Rikhard’s smile completely fades as understanding dawns on him.

Perhaps he did have to acknowledge the massive elephant in the room.

“Look, my dear. I don't know exactly what went on back in Main, and I am not the one to pry for information I am clearly in no position to know. But I am a good enough detective to know that there is more to it than what knowledge is readily available for us, and something tells me there's a lot you can say to confirm or deny that.”

He reaches forward and lands a reassuring hand on the girl’s shoulder. 

“But, frankly, my dear, none of that matters here. What matters for me, along with the colleagues you have grown with here, is that you came home a hero.”

Whi-Two feels a lump in her throat, making a small whimper escape her defenses. 

Hero.

The word made her feel sick.

Rikhard immediately stands up and goes to her, panicking at the sight of tears.

“Oh, but you really are, dear!” he claims, landing both his hands on her chair’s backrest. 

“You made such remarkable progress in the short time you were there! I couldn't be prouder. You really are our reliable rookie.”

Whi-Two takes a long, deep breath to stop herself from further losing herself. Then, with a sad smile through her already fallen tears, she looks up at him.

“With all due respect, Colonel, I am no hero. Let alone reliable. I don't deserve any of these phrases, nor do I deserve to be in a position where I lead others into a path I myself am not sure I can still see from where I stand.”

Rikhard’s smile completely fades.

“I took this job years ago because I believed in what the UPD could do for its country. My father believed in what UPD can do for its country. I wanted to be part of that effort that pulls us all from this miserable state we are in, but somehow, I made it worse.”

She feels a choke escape her, and once again, she fights it away with a sigh.

A technique she’s begun to master due to unfortunate need.

“You know, Colonel, I never got to tell you: On my way here in the subway, I chanced upon two young troopers in their uniform sitting quietly in a corner, and I could sense the tension their uniforms cause the other civilians.” 

She coughs a bit, lowering her gaze from her now worried colonel, and focuses it at the empty chair across the table from her. 

“The UPD should be a symbol of safety. Of assurance. Telling the world that as long as we're here, nothing bad can ever happen to anyone. After all, we made a vow to serve and protect--words we recite to ourselves every Monday morning. Heck, words I recite to myself every morning.” 

Tears begin to flow down her cheeks as she struggles to keep the small smile in her trembling lips.

"But today, what I saw in those civilians was fear. Dissent. Doubt. Rage. And I can't for the life of me stand here and be praised knowing full well I was a huge cause of everything that has happened that brought us to where we are.”

“Rosa, my dear…”

Rikhard attempts to reach out to her, but is stopped when Whi-Two immediately rises from her seat.

The sound of her chair screeching as it was pushed back filled the silent office for a brief moment, and was immediately replaced by the soft noises Whi-Two produces as she fishes through her purse.

To the old man’s chagrin, the young officer pulls out her badge.

“As a matter of fact, sir, I am not here to accept a new position in Aspertia. I'm actually here to return this.”

She gently puts the badge down on the table, her whole body still faced forward, her eyes refusing to meet the colonel’s pained look.

Whi-Two just focused her gaze forward. To the empty seat across the table from her.

She stared at it so intently that it was almost as if she was trying to draw in a figure.

A familiar figure.

Whi-Two could already picture his dark brown eyes looking at her in the piercing way that they did, everything else about him stiff and frozen save for his quite unruly set of brown hair, gently swaying along with him as he breathed.

She could only smile at the thought.

“It has been an honor and a pleasure working with the UPD, Sir,” she mouths gently, feeling a new set of warm tears rolling down her cheeks. 

“Thank you for everything.”

Rikhard takes a deep breath as she follows her gaze for a bit. Then he looks down in defeat.

“...I understand, dear,” he whispers, walking back to his place at his desk. He sits on the empty seat Whi-Two was focusing on, effectively waking her from her slight trance.

She feels her knees slightly buckle, making her fall softly back to her seat.

“It is a shame though. Really, it is. You don't just come across such fine police officers with your passion and skills. You will be dearly missed, Rosa.”

Then his face becomes serious.

“If you don't mind me asking…”

Whi-Two looks up at him.

“What will you be doing now?”

The question throws her a bit off. For the past few weeks or so, she had been doing a good job of dodging the question, and up until now, she was lucky enough to not have anyone--from her colleagues, her very few friends who actually know what’s going on, to even her own family--ask her about the thing she so dreads to think about.

What will she do from now?

Living your entire life following a carefully crafted plan does not really prepare you for questions like this, she realizes. 

She looks up again, and finds Colonel Rikhard still watching her expectantly, and with apparent worry.

Afraid to cause even more distress to her superiors, she churns out the first thing her head was able to give her.

“... I'd actually want to go home now, Sir.”

#I promise I'm writing #But very slowly #But I am writing!!! #uil #undercover in love #corruptedshipping #lack two #whi two #blake #whitley #rakutsu #faitsu

[gargelyfloof118]

Planting Fraser Firs today. 10 teeny tiny babies for the ground!

These fellas need more moisture than the maple trees, so they get a bit of coconut coir in the bottom of their hole to help hold it for longer.

3 down, 7 to go.

#homestead #farm #gardening #trees #fraser fir #i cant wait to have a tiny forest down at the bottom of the hill #these guys will be harvested for christmas trees over the years #but very slowly

[reikasart]

I think that maybe, just maybe Aliexpress knows who I ship...

#rivamika #welcome to my shitposts #should I tag this as rm merch? #coming back to rm fandom #but very slowly #reika's

[morwensteelsheen]

A Little Ink

Chapter 8: The quiet hunger of a malnourished heart

She departs in a heavy swish of starched linen and faded perfumes. Faramir looks down at his drafted pamphlet, its word count unchanged for nearly half an hour. He wonders at the sadness in her eyes, at her slavish commitment to a life vastly more terrible than the one she deserves. He remembers the feeling of electric life in the air in Paris, the dusty rose blushes that graced her cheeks, the easy repartee, and he wonders what has gone amiss that those things are now only memory to him.

⚜️On Ao3⚜️

Fandom: The Lord of the Rings - J. R. R. Tolkien

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Relationships: Éowyn/Faramir (son of Denethor)

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - French Revolution

#ruthlessly committed to the irony fleur de lis #farawyn #Faramir #Éowyn #e writes #but very slowly #lotr

[redgoldblue]

WIP, uh, *puts hand over large writing reading MONDAY on calendar next to me* Wednesday

tagged by @itwoodbeprefect - and thank you for choosing that wip to post bc i would have wavered for ages over which of my 11 (i counted the other day. unwise.) wips to use BUT instead of doing that I’m going to match you on ‘Starsky & Hutch’s bio family unexpectedly disrupt their life’. only in this case the family in question is Hutch’s parents and they disrupt it by dying.

Tagging @faorism annnd @thomtrebond you have any final OC snippets you wanna share while you’re still marinating in the existential crisis of it almost being finished?

~

“I got an idea why you hate this place, but what’s up with you and your sister?” Starsky asked. “She seems decent, but you…” he let it trail off, leaving it up to Hutch whether the end of that sentence was ‘never talk about her’ or ‘are clearly uncomfortable around her’ or something else entirely. Hutch shrugged. “We’re just not- close.” “Why’s that?” Raising his eyebrows, Hutch lobbed back, “You should know about problematic sibling relationships.” When Starsky let the ball drop to the floor rather than taking the serve, he sighed. “I don’t know. Nothing in particular, I guess. We never were.” He slouched back into the couch, stretching long legs out before him. “It’s not like she didn’t cop it from our parents too, but she didn’t seem to care. She was a girl, so she was supposed to be… demure and sweet and obedient. And skinny, which she couldn’t even fake. But you’ve met her, she isn’t any of that, and she didn’t ever bother pretending to be. And I… I don’t know. Probably if she had, they’d just have found something else to punish her for, but maybe not. And I was trying so hard to follow rules that I never could, not properly, and she wasn’t even trying to follow the ones she might’ve been able to.” He shrugged again. “In the end, I guess her way was probably healthier, but I resented that it seemed possible for her, and hated that she seemed like she was inviting punishment she could have avoided because, well, I loved her. I didn’t want to see her hurt. I was jealous, too, I guess, that she seemed able to not care. And then as soon as we could leave, I went west and she went north. Not a lot of chance for reunion trips between California and Vancouver.” There was a moment of silence as Starsky processed all that. Then he swallowed and asked, “If she was supposed to be meek, what were you supposed to be? Strong and manly?” Hutch barked out a laugh. “No. Least, not specifically. I was the golden boy. I was just supposed to be perfect. So nothing I did was ever good enough, because it was all supposed to be- perfect.”

#Relentless As The Rain #(<-- fic title) #Starsky and Hutch #Starsky & Hutch #Ken Hutchinson #this fic is going to take a very long time to eventuate as an actual finished work bc it is. so. heavy #and that is just. not my natural working space but it demanded to be written anyway so it's getting written #but very slowly #my writing #mine #beautiful and sad #sdkfjh that looks like i'm talking about the fic now it's just Parsley's tag

[suiheisen]

quick question: when will she ravish me.

also... the music. the little wet noises... so good...

#this reveal was so sexy. blood dripping. hands padding slowly unf. want her to hold me in a claw like king kong on the empire state building #i do think they could have gone harder with the Monstrousness but. still very delicious to me. #and when That Scene drops next week (???) i will be completely normal. so normal. #blood tw #falin touden #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #spoilers #dungeon meshi spoilers #anime #manga

[invasive]

#marcille donato #falin touden #farcille #dungeon meshi #my art #Tumblr caved my head in as I tried posting this #As I slowly work through more ship pieces it's becoming very clear to me how #dearly I hold their dynamic in particular... Or at least how I hc them #I want to make more silly pieces though. Soon

[obsob]

to be loved is to be held!!! print

#mine #cats #i made into. a5 print!! #i will still stock th larger one for now....i lov a5 tho its so nice. so compact #i had a good day today! went into the city and got notebooks and sticker and a poetry book i am going to hvae to read very very slowly #i can beat dyslexia . i can win #it is very cold also. perhaps will hve a bath tomorrow! and do some drawing :3 #i hope everyone has a nice evening #if u are wondering how cat is doing he is settling in good ! he keeps clawing at the furniture but hey. thats a cat

[artofalassa]

Say goodnight Say goodnight to the life and the world you knew I'm gonna follow you And I will never sing again...

#vash the stampede #trigun #trigun maximum #vashwood #wow #didn't expect my art to get this angsty these holidays #but alas here we are #hahah #alas #dat me #las!art #i'm slowly getting very obsessed with nico's rosary

[its-elioo]

Okay, since my last post UNEXPECTEDLY blew up, I'm gifting you all with more random doodles of this AU.

I really have to think of a name for this squad, hm hm.

#look at these sweet toys being the best supportive and encouraging friends ever #also dogday being a clingy pup <33 #I'm 100% sure this doggo is very strong but doesn't realize it #like- he will grab you and YOINK you right on his shoulder with ease #very slowly I'm getting the hang of drawing him #my artstyle is always changing FFS- #dogday #poppy playtime oc #poppy playtime chapter 3 #poppy playtime #poppy #poppy playtime dogday #poppy playtime fanart #fanart #sketches #art #digitalart #doodles #kissy missy #dogday poppy playtime #poppy doll #poppy playtime poppy #poppy playtime kissy missy #original character #poppy playtime au #poppy playtime 3 #au #alternate universe

[andsylphy]

Bloodless? 🩸

#baldur's gate 3 #astarion #bg3 #astarion x tav #iven art #tavstarion #inspired by how many times he's told me he'll come after bed to feed like... good luck I'm under 5 burritoed blankets #i've seen so many messy hair astarion posts I wanted to draw it and the comic came after #i am very slowly learning how to panel comics thanks for watching

[soranker]

some guy i saw at the funky bar...........

#one piece #roronoa zoro #OOPS WAIT surprise this is not trigun or wolfwood LMAOO #I DREW THIS AFTER WATCHING OPLA which i loved <3 that was my first foray into OP #and then afterwards i started getting a ton of anime zoro clips on my ig feed and found out HE IS ACTUALLY SOOOO FUNNY AND GOOFY???????? #LIKE HELLO??????? WHATS UP WITH THE COOL GUY ACT IN OPLA LMAOOO its wolfwood all over again #anyways im slowly (very slowly) chugging thru the anime ^_^ he's def my fav so far #im actually dressing up as him for halloween this year LOLOLL

[goblins-riddles-or-frocks]

forever obsessed with dynamics between vampires, specifically that of a maker and fledgling, as a way to explore abuse. the creation of a vampire itself can so easily be a literalization of the lasting impacts of trauma and also much more simply the ways a perpetrator might shape their victim’s very identity. the extremes of isolation in the way that the new vampire, in most narratives, must cut all ties to their mortal life, or else go through an elaborate charade to maintain the facade of humanity, while forever still being removed from it. and the sheer dependence and vulnerability of being in an entirely new state of being, wholly uncertain of what it entails, and relying on another person to define… everything.

#or just the moral dilemmas #rewatching amc interview is kind of making me insane #that moment in episode two when louis is looking for a sort of assurance in the fact that lestat may actually have some good in him #look at how he cares about music look at the simple wondrous things that can bring him joy #and then the immediate dread when the opera performance turns out to be imperfect because he knows how lestat will react to *that* #I think there’s also something really interesting in the highlighting of lestat upbraids the less skilled singer before killing him #(slowly) #but also I will wait to watch more before I articulate my thoughts #vampires #interview with the vampire #amc interview with the vampire #i ramble sometimes #I do still find the lestat and claudia film and novel dynamic by far the most compelling for how she tries to usurp him but almost to be him #but I’m enjoying this #I’m very curious if I will like show claudia more on rewatch #the movie always resonated most with me (sue me lol) because there seemed to be more simultaneous fondness and attachment even at the end

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

(volume warning)

this was surprisingly fun to make so i'll probably do another

#especially now this one is slightly outdated in terms of my personal style lmao #but its fun!! #i have a list of more vines to do!! #will probably go about making it in a different way tho!!! #gotta fuck around with brush settings and stuff #i fucked up a couple times w this one and its Evident once you Notice #but i learned a few things. i am... Improving. very slowly. #i think the thumbnails had more Personality to them. theyre funnier lmao #maybe one day ill even do animatics bc hoo Boy do i have ideas for those #but in order to do that i'll actually have to learn backgrounds and environments #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #also im posting this early bc im a coward <3

[vaxxman]

"STOP TAKING THE HEALTH KITS"

He ubered the scout after this.

Additional sketches and some ramblings under the cut.

This is based on an encounter I had the other day, when a demoman took a medkit before my medigun connected with him. When he saw my health was down to 21, he would force me to stand at the spawn point and guarded me until I was healed. Wherever you are now, if you read this, you were a good lad and I love you.

Sometimes I think about how medic is emotionally very invested in the missions (which shows in his voice when he shouts at his team), but off-duty and during friendly taunts he seems to be among the most giggly, and fun-loving mercenaries in the team. I like to think he can get agitated very fast, but cools down just as quickly.

#team fortress 2 #tf2 #tf2 medic #tf2 scout #I used to dislike Scout a lot (also because I keep getting flanked ingame) but I'm slowly learning to like him just as much as everyone els #I'm still doing the evil art challenge it's just this comic came to me in a vision this morning #Initially I wanted to put more emphasis on Medic's height difference to Scout because. I think it's easily forgotten that #he's among the taller guys in the team and he sounds very angry on the battlefield #If that isn't kinda intimidating I don't know what is #I like to think he shouts at his team mates a lot but after missions when he patches everyone up #everyone gets a lollipop #old habit of keeping candy at his office