#i am inside again

[pearl-kite]

I made a pillow!

It took four months of non-stop cross-stitching, but I finally finished a pattern I bought from @8pxl a little bit ago, and tonight in a bizarre burst of productivity I finally sewed a back to it and stuffed it into a cute little pillow! It ended up being pretty much perfectly sized for a neck pillow, but I'm a bit worried about it getting dirty that way.

I highly recommend the patterns from 8xpl's shop, there are SO many gorgeous ones to choose from. I might end up getting another one soon o3o

#cross stitch #embroidery #fiber art #fiber crafts #cross stitching #xstitch #needlepoint #needlecraft #I went so long without drawing because I KNEW if I put this aside for anything I'd nver pick it up again #because that's how I usually am with cross stitch #but I finished it about a month ago and todday for some reason was just the day that I spontaneously finished the rest of thee project #I would have liked to do a nicer pillow #like with that piping kindd of stuff along the edge? #but if I actually waited to get some of that it'd never happen #so super basic straight lines around the edges flip insid out stuff an stitch down the opening #no zippeer #it will NOT be easy to clean so I need to be careful with it #but it is absolutely a perfect neck pillow on the back of my couch right now

[egophiliac]

hiii im sure you’ve answered this before but in regards to your twst x Pokémon, how do you choose which Pokémon go give to the cast?? really curious since your choices are unique :O

unique in a good way, I hope? 😅 (jk jk I haven't come across too many pokemon AUs, so I was going in without preconceptions, I guess!) I was sorta aiming somewhere between doing, like, a full AU with internal consistency and everything, and just picking entirely based on theme/character, so maybe that's why! basically I just set some arbitrary rules (no legendaries/no repeats/evo stages based on year) and then went on ~vibes~. a couple were also suggestions (thank you guys!) and last-minute decisions, so it was a bit of a delightful mess of ideas!

my one regret is that I should have given Riddle a Togedemaru after all. ...you know what, he can have one now, why not

#art #twisted wonderland #pokemon #poketwst #okay i have one other correction to make #which is that i think vil should also have a garbodor #NO LISTEN #i have thought about it a lot but i just do not want to give him a milotic #and this is because -- now hear me out #neige would actually be the one with a milotic #(it fits his personality more and it's even in his colors!) #when they were kids vil had a trubbish and neige had a feebas and vil felt superior until the whole milotic thing happened #and he's secretly kind of bitter about it #but he also secretly loves his garbodor a lot and gets mad when people make fun of it #IS HE NOT BEAUTIFUL ENOUGH FOR BOTH OF THEM #also garbodor ferments poison inside of it! it would be the perfect alchemy assistant! #I'M RIGHT OKAY #(i am also a big fan of trubbish/garbodor and i don't personally think they're ugly anyway) #anyway enjoy this drawing because it completely exploded my computer #(it was not the drawing's fault it was just unfortunate timing) #i've mostly got things working again but oof. it's been. a day. 🙃

[writhe]

really fighting to accept & make peace with the ways i will never find the things i lost, or never again have them in the same way. also trying to be liberated by this

#THE TOWER #i wish i could crawl back inside memories and be held by everyone #& laugh with everyone again #& play the role i played as the person i was #but now it’s like. okay i am without all of this #i am without these people these places etc #we are not friends anymore #some people i loved do not know me anymore #i do not have to drag their dead weight forward i do not have to drag their dead weight forward #i do not have to hold onto the warmth i once felt it is no longer mine #WHAT NOW WHAT NOW WHAT NOW #I WANT TO LIVE AS FULL AS I DID BEFORE I KNEW HOW EASY IT WAS TO LOSE EVERYONE!

[eroticcannibal]

Honestly tho I think the most frustrating thing about leftist spaces is the refusal to tackle the hard questions, the refusal to say "I dont know", accusing anyone of asking a difficult question of not being genuine and also outright lying about how things currently work to justify their fantasy about how they want the world to work.

#yes this is mostly me complaining about prison abolition discourse again but it applies to other things too #obligatory 'i am a leftist' #the call is coming from inside the house #word of god

[evol-astraea]

"Insufferable." *[REDACTED]*

#evolarts #ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #v1 ultrakill #gabv1el #low effort doodle #I have no idea about how V1's wings work #again emphasis on low effort #these two gay idiots (affectionate) summed up in a nutshell #alternatively Gabe is 100% done and dying inside from the sheer embarassment/awkwardness #from ALL the many and failed P-Rank runs #but stubborn machine is STUBBORN XD #but V1 is also a Big Mood(TM) because I am pretty sure we all flipped a couple or moreof birds at the guy

[marclef]

guess who's (slowly) comin' back baby

wanted to try making the squishy boy more expressive 🤗

#hello. i am still in pain. i'm slowly getting better though!! #i would really like to not have these tubes inside of me any more though. i do not like the blood tubes. #what do you mean i'm gonna have fluids leaking from me if you take off a bunch of my skin and fat????????? #uhhhh. so anyways. the uhh. the normal tags yeah. #my art #pizza tower #pizza tower fake peppino #pizza tower noise #hopefully i'll be able to draw more now. drawing wasn't too bad and I WANNA DRAW MY SQUISHIES AGAIN DARNIT-

[casualavocados]

Will had begun to turn and call out, to keep them quiet: "Now you must keep the bargain. Look after the wounded people and start repairing the buildings. Then let the boat tie up and refuel." He knew that it would take a minute to translate that and let the message spread out among the watching townsfolk, and he knew, too, that the delay would prevent their relief and anger from bursting out, [...]. The bear watched and saw what he was doing and why, and understood more fully than Will himself did what the boy had achieved.

— The Amber Spyglass; Chapter 8

#hdmedit #his dark materials #hdm #hisdarkmaterialsedit #will parry #iorek byrnison #amir wilson #hdmsource #userzhr #userpegs #userjjessi #usernik #userplatinum #*cajedit #*gif #will on the outside: come on bear king lets fight #will on the inside: i am diffusing the situation. i am distracting the people. i am keeping everyone safe. #and then he makes himself unimportant again and directs all the crowd's energy into something else #like he always does. like hes always done to keep the attention off him and his mother #and iorek sees and understands it and is like #'a SECOND kid with guts and brains that i respect more than any other human on the planet? i would do anything for him' #crying weeping etc.

[allthegothihopgirls]

as much as he wasn't around often for jason's robin era, dick's still the only one that jason thinks really gets what he's been through. part of it's an understanding that they both felt and went through very similar things. i think jason grows to be comforted by the way dick always just seems to *know* when it comes to him.

although i think in the past jason was annoyed and felt belittled at the way dick seemed to know him better than he did himself, without even knowing him on a very personal level. but i think jason would learn to understand that dick's 'all-knowing' doesn't come from being the smartass, better version of him. it comes from the way he relates to him, both trauma-wise and experiences-wise.

of course, i think noticing the lack of individuality even in his flaws would bother jason, especially when it just serves to add another layer of unoriginality to his robin. he feels compared to dick enough, so learning they were meant to be pretty much carbon copies of each other is pretty rough for him, and makes breaking out of dick's shadow borderline impossible

although i think the bonding point that would have won jason over is how bruce always tried to raise them by relating his trauma to theirs. i think jason has a revelation when dick brings this method of bruce's parenting up for the first time, and the fact that it did not work at all. that's also when jason realises that although he's never truly related to bruce when he's tried to level with him about that stuff, him and dick are practically the same people, and it's hard not to get him.

#sorry besties im rambling about the original robins again #don't even pay attention to how incoherent this is #or how wrong i probably am #idk they exist entirely inside my head how am i supposed to differentiate between canon and my canon #dick grayson #jason todd #bruce wayne #batman #robin #nightwing #red hood #batfam #batfamily #dc #dc comics #gothihop speaks

[frodo-with-glasses]

The trees do not like strangers.

#meriadoc brandybuck #merry #frodo baggins #samwise gamgee #peregrin took #pippin #old man willow #lord of the rings #lotr #my art #fig tree au #one nice thing about the posters is that they kinda give me an excuse to get ✨artsy✨ with it #yes i know sam and frodo are the ones who stayed awake the longest #but something about merry being conscious inside the tree *terrifies me* and therefore he gets the spotlight lol #anyway screw leaves i am never drawing leaves ever again

[sixtus66]

MS Paint Sentinel because why not

#sentinel prime #IDW2 #maccadam #didn't want to post him at first and forgot about him #but might as well show that I am still alive #my art #job and news made feel dead inside but trying to draw again

[copias-juicebox]

sorry did anyone say tutti hands?

#i can see through the queue inside you #am i feral again? mhm maybe #bless me with your divine hands please #tobias forge #ghost #tender father #ghost band #papa emeritus #copia #ghost sweden #ghesties #the band ghost #myedit #papa emeritus iv #mr ghost #ghost bc #terzo #cardinal copia #papa copia

[autumn-may]

being a kh mobile fan is so funny because all the kh content i see is going off about motifs and parallels and the development within both the light/dark and interpersonal connection themes and dissecting how it affects the other events within the story… and then i go to the kh main tag and its ‘Top ten reasons sora and riku should make out on kairis grave (and this will make kairi a better character)’

#NO HATE TOWARDS SORIKU BTW I LIKE SORIKU ITS CUTE THERES THEMES AND DRAMA AND ITS FUN AND THEY LOOK NICE AND EVERYTHING #I GOT INTO KH BECAUSE I LIKED SORA AND RIKU OK #But i am also far to aspec to not notice the implications behind the statement “sora cares lots about riku so they are canonically in love” #Like are you kidding me. In the friendship series. Really. #Also a lot of the theories that make kairi ‘better’ are like: “and then kairi will be inside soras heart forever!” #“And not only will sora not really do anything about this but it will make sense for him to not care :)” #“Human bonds being essential for living and powerful and healing? No kh is about leaving your friends behind actually. ” #“Not riku tho” #Sorry uh #Rant #I guess #(again. Not about soriku or shipping in general i am self aware and not a hypocrite. This is about a very hyperspecific genre of kh fan)

[arthurily]

You herd john’s sheep ONCE (1) and he begins to call you sunshine

#arthur morgan #john marston #red dead redemption 2 #arthur actually reflected on that nickname for a while in his head (i live inside his brain) #absolutely no one talk abt me tripping in the beginning i am not doing this quest again to record that #also my beautiful horse has been through stuff its not naturally grey and white.... #john: come on SUNSHINE #arthur: 😳 #john: after you SIR #arthur: 😳😳 #<- that but in his head cause he’d never react that way in front of jawn #not in front of ch2 john at least🧑‍🔬 #🦌🐺 #lol ik its not that big of a deal but he used these one after another whats this sudden nickname urge in him.

[the-judicial-assistants-notebook]

whatever you do, don't think about how lana saw herself in edgeworth, ok? don't think about how she wanted to distance herself from him the moment they met because he could possibly see through the sl-9 plan and ruin everything, but she couldn't because he was kind, if not a little awkward, to her terrified sister in a case where everyone else's only concern was securing a conviction. don't think about how she brought ema to the prosecutor's office (because she damn well wasn't going to let her sister face this alone) with her hackles raised and her defences bolstered because she'd heard about the "demon prosecutor" and his ways just to realise he's nothing but a young man, trying his best to survive under the weight of his mentor's shadow and ensure justice is served by whatever means he can. don't think about how she felt later, when she was under gant's thumb and knew for a fact that all those rumours surrounding von karma's perfect record were, in fact, true and that he was using edgeworth's faith in him to fulfill his own goals. don't think about how she felt when she had to begin doing the same. or what must have gone through her head when she entered her office one morning to find a case approval form waiting for her on her desk: the state v. miles edgeworth. don't think about how she knew, once she saw the name of the prosecutor assigned to his case, that she was signing his death warrant. don't imagine what she rehearsed saying to his sister or her realisation, after his miraculous survival, why he had been so understanding of her own. don't wonder, as she did, ineffectually, if it was his competence or her fondness for him that led to his car and knife being chosen to cover goodman's murder — a second attempt at his permanent removal — and whether it was affection or guilt that made her stand by the corpse, waiting readily to be caught in his stead. don't think about how she finds out, eventually, that he is gone, in a jail cell so far from remorse, gratitude and closure that she can only sit and turn in her head distorted thoughts about luck and fortuitous third chances. don't.

#i am gripping you by the shoulders through the bars of my cage as i say this. and shaking manically. #lana skye #miles edgeworth #rise from the ashes #the lana-edgeworth brainworms have won the battle inside my brain but i refuse to be the only loser. the moment i realised she would have #been the one who signed off on von karma taking edgeworth's trial it was all over #and the edgeworth-gregory to ema-neil parallels were just the final nails in the coffin. #on another note i just realised that edgeworth gets investigated by the pic (or a similar body) in rfta rather than it happening for the #first time in aai2. idk it's probably just that they forgot but i like that justine doesnt bring this up when she's giving edgeworth the #pic's reasoning for suspecting him of misconduct. like yeah let's not bring up the case that made him suicidal. his mentor is fair game but #not that. idk i just think it's nice. rfta would 100% be the stronger justification but she doesnt use it. at least not directly. #back on topic though i've espoused too long on the ills of pushing all character relationships into either romantic or familial boxes #to claim that the skyes and edgeworth are like siblings but. i am gritting my teeth and glaring at that sentiment and making inarticulate #gestures around it. emphatically. #im writing this all past 12 am again can you guys tell

[that-disabled-princess]

Merlin getting his magic back has affected my disabled heart so profoundly that I must write another meta on magic being a disability parallel.

#being forced to hide who you are to appease others #people wanting to force you into hiding themselves #for you to shut up and go away and/or take their bullying #expecting you to let them persecute you and kill you willingly #yeah #i'm crying #like... oh. maybe i AM magic. maybe it WAS inside me all along. maybe i CAN find myself again. #in a different way but... maybe we can all find ourselves again #find our magic again #and learn to embrace it #bbc merlin

[ameamedraws]

You can’t convince me he doesn’t do this

#akechi goro #persona 5 #p5r #ame draws #bored at work and he’ll do this and Sae sees him and asks him what’s wrong with him #to save face he does it again and says ahah it’s pretty fun #inside he wanted to die or kill nothing in between #I relate so bad when I had a fuckass bob I kept doing it