#i forgot the title of the book since its a very old book

[bonegrove]

Love to see how more people finding out that Lemuria is based on real life world's myth from that one tiktok. I found out about it through a book I bought years ago when internet was just in very early stages makes my little world mythology and lost civillization nerd heart is so happy and giggling in the know now.

#no pun intended- #bonemurmurs #love and deepspace #lnd rafayel #love and deepspace rafayel #otome games #otome game #mobile game #scifi games #romance games #lemuria #lemurian #mythology #rafayel my beloved fish boy #rafayel #the fact its also located near my country is even better #its like unearthing lemuria through sea of my memories #i forgot the title of the book since its a very old book

[makelemonade]

𝐆𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐧 𝐌𝐞𝐧 𝐱 F!𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐬 𝐃𝐢𝐬𝐧𝐞𝐲 𝐌𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐞𝐬

Summary: I think the title speaks for itself but basically what movie you and the Genshin men are in

Characters/Relations; Diluc, Childe, Cyno, Kazuha, Alhaitham x F!Reader

Warnings: SWEARING, LOTS OF IT, mentions of blood, rude moms, death, swords, fights, creepy men, gaslighting, guilt tripping, manipulation, tighnari is literally all the animal sidekicks in these, these are not fully sccurate to the movies more like 97% is accurate but wtv

under the cut!!

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❥Diluc: Beauty and the Beast (Live Version)

♫“𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞’𝐬 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐥𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐝. 𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐜𝐨𝐚𝐫𝐬𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐮𝐧𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐝. 𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐡𝐞’𝐬 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐨 𝐮𝐧𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞, 𝐈 𝐰𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐡𝐲 𝐈 𝐝𝐢𝐝𝐧’𝐭 𝐬𝐞𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞.”

- cmon he radiates major beast vibes

- so I had the live version in mind for this but its hardly any different from the og other than the songs and extra characters

- the casting would be

-Alice as the enchantress who cursed Diluc

-Lumière as Venti

-Cogsworth as Aether

-Mrs. Potts as Jean

-Chip as Klee

-Kaeya as Gaston

-LeFou as Rosaria

-it’s kinda like dawn winery is the ‘castle’ so imagine it as that just larger and mondstadt is the town that forgot all abt the castle in the woods

-so we all know how the story goes; The Prince aka Diluc is cursed with shit by an enchantress (Alice) for being selfish and is turned into a beast while everyone else is turned into random stuff you’d find in a home and then there’s a rose and if sm1 falls in love with Diluc before the last petal falls then everyone is set free.

-Gaston, or Kaeya in this, wants to marry Belle aka you, but you don’t like him despite how hot he is and then one day your father leaves for the market but gets lost and finds the castle, the beast captures him for staying in the dawn winery and then you switch places with him yeah yeah and fall in love

-Diluc genuinely radiates beast vibes especially given the fact how cold he is at first towards you

-like Diluc is not a nice person at all at the start. He’s rude, has no feelings, is cold hearted.

-it’s only when he realizes that the rose only has like 7 petals left he decided he needs to do something.

-but at the same time who could ever love him? He was a selfish monster.

-however when you escaped the castle and attacked by wolves, he knew leaving you out there to die was horrible so he saved you; getting hurt during it.

-you were contemplating on escaping and leaving him here to die, but you weren’t a monster like him and got him to stand up, taking him back to the castle and treating him

-from then on he was forever in your thanks

-it’s one day when he’s in bed, healing, he hears you reciting something familiar.

“Romeo and Juliet?” He asks with a scoff, turning to look at you.

“You know Shakespeare?” You ask, eyes lighting up a bit as you refused to believe someone like him actually reads.

When he nods, you scoff in shock with a laugh. “Do you like it? Do you have any favourite works?”

“None. Most of his works revolve around yucky smucky romance. I have way better books to read.”

“Oh really? Like what?”

- he has a whole fucking library in the dawn winery and when he takes you to it your shocked.

-in your town you’ve ready every single book but not one from his library.

-when he asks if you like it you scoff, claiming you “love it!”

-so he gives you the whole library.

-it’s then on all his old workers and friends notice how close you two have gotten. They’d find you reading a book to him as he’d try to sleep

-there would be snow fights out in the garden, him winning since his larger hands could make a very much larger snowball than yours

-I think we all get the point; then Gaston or Kaeya comes blah blah he dies

-the last petal falls and you’re like fuck but then you kiss him and OH EM GEE ALICE IS THERE AND TURNS HIM BACK TO A MAN

-he’s hot asf you realize with his red hair andnwjdnjwdnkwdjiwnekwke

-BALLROOM DANCING.

-he’s such a good dancer even as a beast oh my god

-other than that we know the story, but you’ve changed him for the better and freed everyone of the castle and have everyone their memories back.

-most importantly, you saved him and now he could marry you.

Childe; Anastasia

“Now shoulders back and stand up tall and do not walk, but try to float!”

“I feel a little foolish am I floating?”

“Like a sinking boat.”

-He and dimitri both have red hair okay it matches

-well Dimitri had chestnut brown hair but CHESTNUT ID CLOSE TO GINGER

-totally not because snezhnaya is based off of Russia too

-idk even without his snezhnayan background or the chestnut hair he still gives me major Dimitri vibes

-so the story of Anastasia is ur a lil princess living with ur amazing family in snezhnya (russia). Childe is one of the kitchen boys and helpers, and admired Princess Y/N from afar constantly. However, one day during a ball, your castle and homeland is attacked by a wizard, killing your parents in the process. All that’s left of the Royal family is you and your grandma, Childe helping the both of you escape but is attacked in the process.

-running to a train to escape, your grandma makes it on first but you can’t catch up and grandma leaves without you blah blah she cries she misses you

-you gain a concussion or wtv and amnesia takes its place to you, now living In Liyue. after like a decade, Dimitri (Childe) and Vladmir (Pantalone) find out the grandmother is tryna find you and will reward whoever finds you. The two con men hold auditions to pretend to be princess Y/N, and then they see you, someone who looks JUST like princess Y/N and decide that you would pretend to be her.

-THE THING IS YOU ARE PRINCESS Y/N AND THEY DONT EBEN MNOW AND NOR DO YOU

-on the travel to paris, you get closer with Dimitri and on the travel, the wizard that called your family is trying to kill YOU so now your falling in love while someone is trying to kill you all while realizing who you are

-anyway so the casting

-dimitri as Childe obv

-Pantalone as Vladmir (his best bud)

-it makes sense because the both of them care abt money a lot so

-anyway I can just imagine you and Childe with that enemies to lovers and slow pining

-yk how he betrays the traveller in the game

-in the movie Dimitri SORTA betrays Anastasia cuz he wants the money for the reward

-but in this case, CHILDE, decides he jo longer wants the money and just wants YOU.

-Just ugh imagine you walking down the stairs in a gown and Childe can’t stop looking at you ajdnjendiejf

-like he acc has JAWS DROP

-literal drool running down his chin

-it’s not an official ballroom dance hut you two practice your dancing skills on a boat and your constantly stepping on his toes but he can’t get mad and he smiles at your giggles

-Pantalone notices and gives the idea to Childe that maybe instead of the money, he should just have you

-but Childe isn’t worthy of love, he’s a con man, and he needs the money.

-that is until he sees you walk in with that gown and LO AND BEHOLD HE IS IN LOVE LADIES

-you’re at an opera waiting for the chance to speak with ur grandmama and when Childe notices how nervous you are he just

“Everything’s gonna be fine.” He whispered, taking ahold of your fidgeting hand, his lips barely glazing over the knuckles covered by your white glove. he doesn’t make any move to let go through the whole opera.

- however once you realized he was only using you for the money, you get into a large fight with him and end up slapping him

-in the next few days once ur finally home and found your grandma, she invited Childe to table the money

-HOWEVER

“No money is worth of my love for her.”

so he doesn’t acc say that in the movie but I’m adding it here because he NEVER TOOK THE MONEY.

-a few days later at a ball in celebration for having you back,

-ur grandma tells you that Childe never took the money despite your thoughts and he realized he was speaking the truth; that at first he did this for the money, but then he wanted to do it for you.

-you leave to find Childe but of FUCKING COURSE THE WIZARD THAT KILLED YOUR FAMILY IS HERE

-Childe is there and honestly I’m not even gonna explain the fight but the wizard drowns and dies yayayayyaa

-he checks to make sure you’re okay and you’re not hurt after his ass saved u from the wizard multiple times and once he realizes that you’re okay and it’s over, he just smashes his lips against yours, so happy he finally has you.

-eventually you leave with Pantalone and Childe, going to travel the world once it was realized the princess life wasn’t suit for you.

-maybe it will soon, but now, you wanted to have all the time with Childe.

Cyno; Aladdin

“𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝. 𝐒𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐬𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐝. 𝐓𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐬𝐬, 𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐝𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐞?”

-guys

-HEAR ME OUT

-no shirt,

-both have some sort of animal love (Aladdin’s monkey and how cyno is lowkey in love with tighnari ANYWAY)

-he’s a respectful man

- he may be the general mahamatra but in another life he’s Aladdin, the hot thief. Completely opposite of what he actually is (except the hot part)

-so I’ll be worried if some of y’all don’t know the movie but I’m explaining it either way

-so aladdin aka Cyno is our lil village thief and you are the princess with a overprotective father who never lets you leave the castle.

-one day Cyno is up to his thieving yet on this same day you decide to escape the castle woohoo!

“Morning ladies!”

“Getting into trouble a little early today, aren’t we Cyno?” Nilou chuckled, her and Dehya looking at Cyno with a horrible disguise on.

“It’s only trouble if you’re caught!”

ur not rlly street smart since you’ve been cooped up in the castle so you take an apple to give to a kid who was eyeing it and you don’t even realize it’s sm1 selling it

“You better have a way of paying for that.” The man said, voice rough. “No one steals from my shop.”

“I’m sorry sir I don’t have any money-“

“THIEF!”

“I’m really sorry! I had no idea! I promise I’ll go to the king and get money!” You pleaded, trying to squirm away from the seller who had a harsh grip on your wrist.

“Do you know what the penalty is for stealing?!.” He yelled, his hand on your wrist pushing it down onto a surface and his free hand pulling out his sword that somehow came out of nowhere.

Just as you were about to scream, a random young man grabbed his hand. “Thank you kind sir I’m so glad you found her!” He smiled at the man before turning to you with a glare. “I’ve been looking all over for you!”

“What are you doing?” You whispered as he slowly pushed you away.

“Play along.” He whispered back

“You know her?” The man asked, forcing the two of you to stop inching away.

Cyno frowned and turned to the man. “Sadly, yes.” He let out an exaggerated sad sigh. “She is my sister. She’s a little crazy!”

The man didn’t take his words for the truth and grabbed him by the shoulders. “She said she knew the king!”

Cyno only chuckled, pushing the man’s hands off of him. “She thinks the king is the fox.”

He pointed down to a small fox- his pet fox.

Your eyes widened, quickly catching the idea as you bowed down to his fox friend. “Oh wise king!”

The fox was confused asf but he took the pride.

-you run together and you thank him but then GUARDS CHASE CYNO AND HE GETS ARRESTED WHATTTT but with your authority as princess you command to let him go and he’s free!

-he meets jafar (casting will be seen soon) and jafar takes him to some temple claiming he’ll pay him or some shit if he goes In and takes a certain bottle or wtv

-guys I’m iffy on this part of the story so dont bully me if I’m off

-right when cyno is about to take the bottle his stuoid PET TOUCHES SMTH AND THE WHOLE TEMPLE GOES ON LOCKDOWN WHILE HES IN THERE AND JAFAR THINKS HES DEAD SO HE TAKES THE BOTTLE FROM CYNO WHILE HE TRIES TO ESCAPE

-BUT

-cyno tricked him and NEVER GRABBED THE BOTTLE

-it takes cyno a while to realize while trapped in the temple that the bottle is acc a wish bottle

-he just randomly rubs it and POOF genie pops out and he wishes to get out the temple yayyy

-then he wishes to become a prince for all the money and also does it because he’s like in love with you despite seeing u once but you can only marry a prince

-what is this…JAFAR IS THE KINGS BSF AND HELPER?!?!?!

-jafar tries to frame cyno of corrupting the king blah blah jafar is evil then there’s a fight save the day smooch yeah

-okay onto casting

-the genie as KAVEHHHH

-they’re so similar if you think about it

-abu or the monkey friend as tighnari but he’s a little fox in this

-jafar as Azar (IT RHYMES)

-okay so cyno comes on a whole ass elephant claiming to be a prince and you can’t deny that he’s a lil fine

-you somehow don’t recognize the prince is the very man who saved you

-however ever since your first interaction with cyno In thé kingdom he has NOT STOPPD THINKNG AHT YOU

-before he wished to become a prince he was telling kaveh all about you

“There’s this girl. She’s smart and fun and-“

“And pretty?”

“Beautiful! She’s got the eyes and this hair- and her smile!”

-so yeah he’s vv much in love despite a one time interaction

-but love at first sight is real to him OKAY

-so to try and marry you he wishes to be a prince yet you don’t know the prince tryna marry you that you currently dislike is the MAN WHO SAVED YOU FORM THAT STREET VENDOR

-it’s not until one day when cyno has some RANDOM MAGIC CARPET flying while he’s on your balcony and he invites to take you around the world

-however on your balcony he notices your…pet

“You have a pet….tiger?”

-YOU GO ON THE CARPET WIRH HIM AND HE FLYS AROUND AND BRO WAS SERIOUS CUZ HE SHOWS YOU THE STARS AND EVERYTHING

-you realized once you finally got a good look at him and his hat was off that it was the same man who saved you in the streets.

-this is the one of first times you actually get to be away from the castle and it’s perfect because you’re FLYING on something and because it’s with him.

-let me tell you he gets jealous easily tho

-like he HATES the fact you had other suitors eyeing you up and shit like your his but not officially smh

-so final battle everhone is captured yeah yeah and azar wants to be king but to do so you must agree to marry him and ofc ur like hell no

-the thing is jafar is now in possession of the wish thing or wtv so now kaveh our lovely genie must grant all his wishes

-he’s about to wish for you to fall in love with him but Kaveh says he can’t do that then they get into an argument yeah yeah

-it’s not until you see cyno is free and tryna save you but you need to distract azar.

-so your idiotic self decides to seduce azar.

-yeah.

“I never realized how…incredibly handsome you are.”

-kaveh’s jaw LITERALLY DROPPED and azar shut it for him

“Oh really? Go on.”

absolutely disgusting cuz he’s just ew

“You’re tall…dark, well dressed…”

-kaveh is like genuinely disgusted at the scene in front of him

-but then he hears a sound and turns and ITS CYNO

-he almost screamed his name but cyno had to cover his mouth

-when Kaveh tells cyno he’s under Azar’s command he tries to get the wish bottle or wtv

-so you have to keep TALKING and lil sexy moves to distract azar

-cyno was also disgusted and he hated it sm but to save you he had to deal with it

“And what about that street rat?” Azar asked with a smirk.

You smirked back, walking closer to him and wrapping your arms around his neck. “What street rat?”

-cyno knew u weren’t serious but UGH he hated this

-however azars lil evil sidekick pet or wtv sees cyno and is abt to scream but then FOX TIGHNARI TO THE RESCUE

-however he did make a nose and just when azar was turning his head, you immediately put your hand at the back, forcing him to look at you and you smashed your lips against his

-NAH WHY U GOTTA DO THAY TO CYNO

-he forgot abt his whole plan for a second when he watched it all

-he lowk wished he was azar

-even tighnari stopped fighting and just stared shocked and kaveh’s jaw dropped

-BUR AZAR SEES CYNO IN THE REFLECTION OF UR CROWN AND THEN BATTLE STArts

-once it’s over cyno uses his final wish to free kaveh and Azar takes his place and now Azar is LONG GONEEEE

-however since kaveh is no longer the genie, all of cyno’s wishes are gone and he is no longer a prince and can’t marry you

-but YOUR DAD TO THE RESCUE!!

-he changes the law so you can marry cyno and he’s so happy he SPINS YOU AROUND AND KISSES YOU AJENFJEJJFS

-anyways you guys get married blah blah you’re finally free to make your own choices and both so so happy

Kazuha; Tangled.

“𝐍𝐨𝐰 𝐬𝐡𝐞’𝐬 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭. 𝐍𝐨𝐰 𝐬𝐡𝐞'𝐬 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞, 𝐬𝐮𝐝𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰. 𝐈𝐟 𝐬𝐡𝐞’𝐬 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞, 𝐢𝐭’𝐬 𝐜𝐫𝐲𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐥 𝐜𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐫, 𝐈'𝐦 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐈'𝐦 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐨.“

-HE IS SO FIT AS FLYNN

-cmon they’re both wanted and hot as fuck

-both have some amazing way with words

-so to explain the tangled story since I’m a lil scared some of y’all don’t know.

-if you guys have never watched tangled go watch it pls

-so for quick summary your born a princess obv but some crazy lady steals you as a baby and takes you far far away because apparently the mom ate a magic flower and the magic in the flower came to YOU

-so for the crazy lady who took you, she only did because she needs the magic to continue living

-so because you were literally 1 year old you think crazy lady is your mother as she takes you to a far far away tower and traps you there for almost 2 decades

-you’re hair is like 30 metres long somehow

-oh yeah the magic is in your hair and if you cut it the magic is gone so!!

-anyway one day ur mom is out blah blah and it’s your birthday blah blah and on your birthday there are these floating lanterns at the palace and you REALLY WANNA GO but ofc crazy mama says no

-but then some random hot guy comes through the tower window and because he’s a stranger and you’ve never seen anyone besides your mom you hit him with a pan and he goes unconscious

-he wakes up tied to a chair by YOUR HAIR.

“Uh, I’m sorry, is this hair?”

-you ask him what he wants and tbh I don’t remember the story but you make him take you to the lanterns or lights or wtv and he’s like yk what? Sure

-OH NOW I REMMEBER

-okay so he stole a crown from the palace

-and he found your tower to hide in it and when he went unconscious you stole the bag that had the crown

-so you say if he wants it back he has to take you and he’s like bet

-the dude can only stare as you go through a whole episode of feeling grass for the first time in your life but also regretting leaving your tower because your mom will be so mad when you get back but at the same time you’re finally free yet-

-this happens for an hour.

-eventually he has to reassure you he’ll bring you back

-uhm thing is he tried to steal the crown from you though so he was gonna send you to a tavern filled with scary men and lowk leave you there

-ofc though since you’re so cute all the scary men in the tavern start doing karaoke with you

-I got a dream she’s got a dream dududududuudd

-BUT

-CASTLE GUARDS COME

-Kazuha grabs your hand and goes into this like hidden tunnel under the tavern and there’s like this whole fight scene thing

-you guys get trapped in a cave that’s blocked and there’s water coming in

-Kazuha CANT find a way out cuz it’s too dark

-BUT WAIT

-U HAVE MAGIC HAIR!!!

-that also glows…

-Kazuha is the definition of WTF when u just start singing a lullaby or wtv and ur hair starts GLOWING?

-nevertheless he’s able to see and he finds a way out of the cave

-however that night you didn’t know your mama was currently looking for you…

-and there were 2 people Kazuha pissed off (two random men I don’t have names) who he actually stole the crown with and then ran away from them

-you also forgot you left the crown

-in the tower

-with your mom

-yeah

-she suggests revenge on Kazuha and boy did the two men smile at that

-that night Kazuha had a large gash in his palm from getting you guys out the cave and you ofc have to use your hair to heal it

“You’re being strangely cryptic as you wrap your…magic hair around my injured hand.”

He winces when you grip onto his wrist too tight snd you grimace. “Sorry! Just…don’t freak out please?”

-for you he didn’t

-however…

-once u sing ur lullaby he tries his best not to freak out he stares at his now completely healed hand with large eyes and thinks that something is gonna happen to him

-btw you’re both in a forest around a fire cuz it’s obv ur not gonna make it to the kingdom that day and have nowhere to sleep but you’re ofc gonna go tomorrow

-you guys open up to each other last night and Kazuha was shocked that he felt so relieved to open up to someone he met just 18 hours ago

-when he leaves to get firewood though…

-MAMA IS HERE!!

“How did you find me?!” You ask, sputtering as your mom pulls you into a hug.

“I just listened to the sound of complete and utter betrayal and followed it! We’re going home, now.” Her soft and sarcastic voice turned into a harsh one as she gripped your wrist, trying to make you follow her.

You fought back. “What? Mom, you don’t understand- I’ve been on this Incredible journey and I’ve seen and learned so much! I even met someone…” you whispered the last sentence with a smile.

She scoffed before the sarcastic voice came back. “Yes, the wanted man. I’m so proud! Now come on.” It quickly turned harsh again and she pulled your wrist but you kept your ground.

“I think…I think he likes me!”

“Likes you? Please Y/N that’s demented!”

“But mother I-“

“This is why you never should’ve left! This romance you think is not real. It proves you’re too naive for this world. You think he likes you? Look at you! He’s not even impressed.” She stood a few feet away, arms out as if she was expecting you to hug her. “Don’t be a dummy, come with mummy. Mother knows bes-“

“No!”

She stares at you bewildered. “No? I see what this is now. Oh Y/N knows best! She’s so mature now! If you really believe he likes you, go ahead and give him this!” She pulls out the bag that had the crown in it.

Your eyes widened. “How did you even-?”

She holds the crown out, cutting you off. “This is why he’s here! Don’t let him deceive you, give the crown to him then you’ll see.”

“I will.”

“Trust me, dear.” She did a quick snap. “That’s how fast he’ll leave you. I won’t say I told you so, because apparently Y/N knows best! So if he’s such a dream boat, put him too the test.”

“Mother, wait-“

“If he’s lying, don’t come crying. Your mother always knows best.” And in an instant, she’s disappeared into the night fog, and you can only stare in shock.

You overhear Kazuha coming back and you quickly hide the crown in the bag and then hide the bag behind a nearby tree

“Are you all right?” Kazuha asks, looking at your back as you were turned away from him.

You out on a fake smile, instantly turning. “Yep! Just lost in thought.”

He doesn’t suspect anhtning and nods, going on about whatever topic, and you constantly find yourself glancing back at the tree

-you both go to sleep later and he’s such a gentlemen he gets you smth comfy to put your head on and he takes a rock.

-such a gentleman ugh

-however

-when he wakes up

-there’s a gigantic castle tanuki guard growling right above him and he realizes he’s fucked

-you wake up to screaming and somehow this TANUKI is DRAGGING Kazuha across the ground since his boot was in its foot

-you went to grab Kazuha’s hand, pulling on it and you obv win but the tanuki ends up taking Kazuha’s boot

-you tell the tanuki to sit and then call her a good girl and her baby tail starts wagging as if it’s an actual dog and Kazuha can only be like what the fuck

“You must be so tired from chasing this bad guy for days!” You say in a baby voice, scratching the Tanuki’s head and she nods.

“She’s a bad tanuki! Bad!”

“She’s just a big sweetheart!” You look at the dollar, smiling at the name. “Aren’t you Sayu?”

She, despite being a tanuki who shouldn’t understand anything, is currently nodding her head.

“Look, today is the biggest day of my life- it’s my birthday. And you can’t take Kazuha because he’s taking me to see the lights and it’s all I ever wanted to see! So, can you please not drag him to the castle and get him arrested?”

The tanuki somehow scoffed

“Just for 24 hours then you can chase each other to your hearts contents, okay?” You ask, watching as the animal and the full on adult glare at each other.

Kazuha scoffs along with the Tanuki huffing. “Fine.” He puts his hand out and Sayu hesitantly SOMEHOW shakes it, but makes no move to let go.

You walk away when you hear the kingdom bells, signalling the festival is gonna start, and when you walk away you don’t even realize or see the Tanuki punch Kazuha in the chest.

-so you’re both finally in the kingdom and of course you’re both hiding but now he feels like he kinda needs to make sure you’re okay because he was just gonna leave you there but you kinda saved him when running away from the guards

-also the tanuki is now glaring at him and watching his every move so he can’t leave you

-you also saved him when the scary men in the tavern tried to kill them but then you hit one of with your famous pan and karaoke starts

-he did originally plan to do that but after last night he lowk started liking you and realized you were too sweet and he wanted to make your special day happy

-each time you two- well three now- walk by a poster with his drawn out face, he grabs it and crumples it. Only so no one knows it’s him and because they made his nose look HIDEOUS on it

-when he crumples it he hears the tanuki/ sayu/ yell and he just throws it at her.

-then she throws it back

-you had to yell at them to stop

-so the only concern is your hair as a bunch of people step on it and it’s a VERY crowded kingdom

-he grabs handfuls of it so no one steps on it and no one gets suspicious

-town square though there’s 4 little girls who literally LIGHT UP at the sight of your hair and they braid pieces of it then braid it again so it stays short

-short is down to your feet btw

-when Kazuha looks he has to admit your really fucking pretty

-like he can stop staring and he’s finally out of it when the tanuki is SMIRKING at him and laughing her ass off

-he grabs a nearby flower and puts it right above your ear

-he’s a thief so he steals SOME snacks for you guys and he might buy a gift

-he even buys you a cloth of the kingdom symbol- a sun.

-^ keep that in mind guys

-he realizes he lowkey likes you despite knowing u for one day??

-but you’re so interesting and beautiful and he won’t say it’s love but there’s def smth he has for you

-when he’s abt to buy you guys some stuff you notice on the wall surrounding the castle there is an old painting

-it’s the queen and king and they’re holding a baby

-and it lowkey looks like you?

“It’s for the lost princess.” A little girl said, putting a flower down beside the wall and you realized there were multiple flowers everywhere.

-the eyes, the hair…everything

-she looks just like you!

-but you hear a band go by and you start following them and after Kazuha bought your shit he turns around and he’s like “where the fuck is she”

-he sees you dancing with a little boy and then you start to gather in more people to dance

-you encourage him to come dance and he says no but then Sayu pushes him

-sadly he can’t dance with you as multiple people take his arm and twirl around with him :(

-he really liked seeing you dance though

-not ballroom dancing but more of that jumpey old time dancing

-he wants to do whatever YOU want to do but you guys do have to hide a few times when guards walk by but your always giggling your asses off

-the man takes you to the public library and shows you books you’ve never read before after constantly rereading books in your tower

-HES SO SWEETBRO WJNDJEJF

-the two of you end up dancing again for hours like all the way until sunset and he FINALLY gets the chance to dance with you

-he’s jumping and twirling with you and then you’re pushed together by the locals and you’re really close and he’s holding onto you and ughwkfnwkndns

-but before anything can happen someone yells “to the boats!” and you realize the sun is starting to come down, MEANING THE LANTERNS ARE COMING!!

-he literally grabbed your hand and ran you over to a boat before everyone could score one

-while he’s pushing the boat away from the dock, Sayu is on it glaring at him, as if telling him not to do anything and he only smiles

-he ends up throwing a bag of apples and she stares hesitantly at them then him

“I bought them!” He yelled, and Sayu instantly started eating the apples.

“Most of them.” He chuckled, and Sayu glared again at him again.

“Where are we going?” You asked

“It’s the best day of your life. I figured you should have the best view for the best day.” He smiled.

-he takes you all the way to a spot on the ocean near the castle that was on the edge of the cliff

-it wasn’t too near that all you could see was that but the shape was for sure visible

-he noticed you’re off again and when he asks if your okay, you admit your terrified

-you explain that you’ve been looking forward to these lights for so many years after seeing them from your tower, dreaming about what it might feel like when those lights rise in the sky, but what if it’s not everything you dreamed to be?

-he can only stare at you, reassure you that it will be amazing

”but what if it is amazing? Then what will I do?”

“You find a new dream.” He shrugs. “That’s the good part, I guess.”

-little do you know in the castle your dad is crying because he can’t see his baby and he’s so sad because he genuinely thinks your dead

-his first daughter is gone :(

-acc ur about to make out with a thief on a boat but wtv

-the king and queen are always the first to let their lanterns float, and once everyone sees the lanterns they let their own go

-you always thought it was a festival, which it was, but in reality it was a tribute to the dead princess AKA YOU but your not even dead you just don’t know

-ur a lil dumb cuz how do you think it’s normal every year on your birthday there’s these lanterns and then you see the LOST ORINCESS BABY painting which looks JUST LIKE YOU

-also keep in mind on every lantern there is a sun symbol on it

-the sun symbol is a necklace your dad also has

-I’m sorry I love the dad sm when he started crying in the movie I wanted to cry

-back to you

-you notice the light reflection in the water and when you look up, all the lanterns start to fly up all across the kingdom and far into the water

-when you saw the light you started SCRAMBLING on the boat and you almost tipped the whole boat over and were prob gonna drown again but wtv

-now comes in that song if you wanna go listen to it it’s called “I see the light” or some shit go listen to it with the video it’s so good ugh

-^ onky if you’ve never watched it or just feel like watching it again

-Kazuha looks at you, illuminated by the lanterns and how you look up at them

-you turn to look at him and he’s holding two lanterns, one for you and one for him

-he claims he got it as a gift for you and you sit back down in front of him

-you pull the bag out of NOWHERE don’t ask it’s some magic type shit, saying you should’ve given it to him before blah blah

“I should’ve given it to you before but I was just…” You paused, letting out a sigh. “I was just scared. And the thing is, I’m not scared anymore. Do you get what I mean?”

He smiles, putting his hand in the bag, but not to grab it, and instead pushes it down into your lap, showing he doesn’t want it anymore. “‘Im starting to.”

-HE AND FLYNN RIDER ARE SO FINE UGH WIFNJEJFJSJDJSJF

-IN REWAYCHING THE MOVIE RN AND WHEN HE SAYS THAT JUST UGH

-LITWRAL BUTTERFLIES

-all those days he’s chased down daydreams or living in a blur- all that time he never truly saw things the way they were

-but now you’re here, just watching the lanterns with the most beautiful eyes

-now you’re here and suddenly he knows

-if you’re here, it’s crystal clear, he’s where he’s meant to go.

-he like holds onto your hand

-it’s warm, real and bright, and everything with you is like the world has somehow shifted

-all at once, everything is different, now that the both of you see each other clearly.

-he puts a loose strand of hair behind your ear and he cups your cheek but then smth happens

-he’s about to kiss you but on the main land he notices the two men he stole the crown with

-he looks back at the bag and he takes you back to the mainland, he leaves you on the boat with the bag and claims he has something to take care of

-you just nod, believing him because you’re literally in love

-he feels so bad for lying but he just doesn’t want you to get hurt :(

-he keeps claiming he’ll be back as he walks away, and you tell yourself it’s alright

-so away from your sight he meets up with the two men and they’re GLARING at him while one is sharpening a dagger

-we’ll call him dumbo 1

-he throws the bag to them and he’s about to leave but then he doesn’t notice dumbo 2 is right behind him and he bumps into him

“Leaving again huh? Kaedehara?” Dumbo 1 chuckled, standing up from the rock he was sitting on.

He turned back to look at him. “What?”

“We heard you found something more valuable than a crown.” He said, walking towards him until they wereface to face.

“We want her instead.”

-WELL FUCK

-okay back to you

-you’re starting to get worried because he’s been gone for a while

-but then you notice the shape of a man in the fog and you’re happy!’

“I was starting to think you ran off with the crown and left me!”

-however behind the one man instead came a second, and you realized that was NOT Kazuha

-panic started to settle In you

“He did.” One of the men said.

“What? No- he wouldn’t!”

“See for yourself.” The other smirked, and he pointed to the sea.

You stared confused but walked closer to the water, only to see Kazuha leaving on a boat with the bag.

“Kazuha!” You yelled, but he didn’t look back.

One of the men circled you, touching your braid. “A fair trade. A crown for the girl with the magic hair.”

You gasped

“How much do you think someone would pay to stay young and healthy forever. That’s what your hair does, correct?” The other said.

“No, no!” You started to back away, pleading the men after one of them pulled a dagger out with those large backs people usually…bag you with.

You started running, losing sight of the two, but your braid gets caught onto a branch and you struggle to let it go.

However, you hear sounds of grunts and struggles and you hear you mothers voice. “Y/N!?”

“Mother?” You ran back to the spot once your braid was free, to see the two men passed out on the ground and your mother standing beneath them.

-she starts to claim she was so worried, literally on the verge of tears

-you start crying and run into her arms and when you ask how she knew where you were she said she followed you

-she tells you to leave but you find yourself looking back at the boat Kazuha was on, trying not to cry

-you turn back ti see your mom staring at you with her arms out, and you can’t help but run into her arms and cry, claiming she was right the whole time

-however little did you know it was all fake.

-your mother originally payed the men if they could act like they were actually going to take you so she could bring you back home so she could live

-idk if I mentioned but your hair keeps her alive wtv

-Kazuha was on the boat, but he was actually tied and the two men pushed the boat to make sure it would go to the docks of the kingdom

-he wakes up when the boats hit the docks and he’s yelling out your name and doesn’t realize the current predicament

-the crown is tied to his hand

-the 2 ken wanted their revenge so they decided to put him in and the mother paid em for it

-while he’s being arrested, sayu could only watch with concern

-even while hes being arrested HES still yelling your name

-sayu looks back at the island you were both previously on and now she’s worried as fuck

-so the next day he’s in the dungeon blah blah and then the guards take him to get executed

-that same day for you, you’re back in the tower and your mom let the braids out and all the flowers too

-even the one Kazuha put in your hair

-but you don’t say anything, frowning the whole time

-the girl kinda guilt trips you, saying she tried to warn you and you’re just too naive for this selfish world and then she leaves you in your room alone

-you look at the cloth Kazuha gave you which was crumpled up in your hands and you just stare at the sun symbol on it

-you lay down onto your bed, looking at the ceiling

-but then you realize that all these years trapped in a tower, you’ve painted and drawn on every wall and ceiling of the tower

-you’ve drawn stuff you’ve never seen before but was always in the back of your head

-such as the kingdoms sun symbol

-you look back at the cliff then back at the ceiling anf sit up, trying to get a better look at it

-you have this like hallucination where every sun symbol starts to glow on the ceiling

-and then you get this vision back to the painting on the wall and realize

-your the lost princess

-okay back to Kazuha

-while the guards are walking him through the dungeons he noticed the SAME TWO MEN

-he runs from the guards and grips onto the collar of one of them, yelling and asking where the hell are you

-the one that was grabbed claimed he didn’t know and that some old lady arrested them and shit

-before he could ask the guards grab him again

-OKAY BACK TO YOU

-you walk out the room and ask your mom if uour thé lost princess

-she tells you don’t be ridiculous but your not having it

-but you know the truth and yell “I’m the lost princess!”

-she only stared at you with large eyes before she glared

“Everything I did was to protect you.”

You pushed her, walking down the stairs away from her. Your pushed caused her to fall into a mirror, all the pieces shattering underneath her. “For the last two decades I’ve been forced to hide away from the world, but I should’ve been hiding from you!”

“And where would you even go?!” She scoffed. “He won’t be there for you. That criminal is to be hanged for his crimes.”

Your eyes widened with a gasp, and she tries to comfort you but you grab her wrist tightly. “No. You were wrong about the world. Wrong about me! And I will NEVER let you use my hair AGAIN!”

“You want me to be the bad guy? Fine. I’ll be the bad guy.”

-BAXK TO MAZUHA

-right when they’re about to take Kazuha into the room where he’s gonna get hanged

-all the doors suddenly close around them

-the main guard just scoffed, banging on the door. “What’s the meaning of this!”

-the little shuttle piece on the door opened with a slide, and Kazuha’s eyes widened to see one of the men from the tavern where you sang karaoke with them

-“what’s the password?”

-“What?!”

-“that’s not it!”

-“OPEN THIS DOOR!”

-“not even close!”

-“you have three seconds!”

-when he starts counting down he doesn’t even realize all the doors that were previously locked suddenly opened at the rest of the men from the tavern grabbed the guards holding Kazuha

-the men from the tavern are the crux ppl btw

-the main guard looks back and he’s like wtf but then BEIDOU THE OWNER IF THE TAVERN AKA BEST LADY smacks him with a frying pan and sends him to the ground unconscious

-who knew frying pans were such an efficient way to make someone go unconscious?

-more guards come running in and Beidou grabs Kazuha’s hand, rushing him out while the others distracted the guards

-once out, a horde of guards are running towards him and he’s like oh shit

-Beidou picks him up and placed him onto something, telling him instructions

“Head down, arms in, knees apart.”

He repeated her words with every motion, but then looked at her confused “knees apart?”

Beidou only smirks and he doesn’t even realize he’s on some sort of catapult until one of the larger crux members jumps down onto the other side and Kazuha goes FLYING

The guards only stare

-he ends up landing on SAYU

-somehow she can carry him?

-he literally thanked Sayu for bringing the guards and then Sayu JUMOS OFF THR DUNGEON WALLS and there’s this whole scene of a TANUKI running like a horse thays jumping off of roof tops and then Sayu brings him to your tower

-don’t ask how she knows where it is idk

-he starts calling you, yelling your name. “Y/N! Let down your hair!”

-yes they use your hair to get into the tower don’t ask

-when you don’t respond he starts climbing the walls and then he hears the window open and he’s like oh my god!!

-ur hair comes out he climbs it yeah yeah and goes I to the tower

-“Y/N! I thought I’d never see you again!” However, his words are cut short when he sees you tied up, tape over your mouth and your trying to yell something

-he stares shocked and then he feels this horrible pain and your mom STABBED HIM FROM BEHIND and he falls to the ground bleeding out yeah yeah

-you try to go towards him but your ‘mom’ is holding onto a chain forcing you to her

-yes a chain.

-don’t ask.

-she wants to take you far away so no one ever finds you again

-the tape falls off your mouth and you yell. “No! I won’t stop, and I will never stop trying to get away from you!” You panted. “But I will go with you if you let me heal him. Please?”

His eyes widened, all while groaning and trying to stop the blood. “Y/N! No!”

-she ends up agreeing and unchains you, but then chains Kazuha do he doesn’t get any ideas of following you

-you immediately ran to him, eyes widening at the blood

-I’m realizing out of all the Disney scenes I’ve wrote this is the only fight scene I’m actualky writing

“Y/N. You can’t do this.” He panted. “I can’t let you die with her.

“But if you do, then you will die.” You whispered with a frown, cupping his cheek. “Hey. It’s gonna be alright.”

“Y/N.” He whispered, his chained hand coming to cup your cheek as he leaned closer, but what you didn’t realize is that he had grabbed a broken shard from the mirror you pushed your mother into, and he reached behind and immediately cut your hair

Your mom screamed and your eyes widened, your hair colour going a tad bit darker than it used to be. The now cut hair did the same thing.

The mother was screaming and she realized that all the affects your magic had on her was starting to ware off/ she was becoming old. Her hands went pale and slender, as if she was a zombie.

And then she faded into dust.

You couldn’t care less.

“Kazuha!” You yell, shaking him as his eyes started to close. You brought his hand to your hair, reciting the lullaby but nothing happened.

“Hey.” He whispered. “You were my new dream.” He said weakly.

You chuckled sadly. “And you were mine.”

With that, he smiled, and let out a final exhale as he went limp in your arms.

-you started BALLING your eyes out right there and then; reciting the lullaby over and over again for anything , but there was never anything and he stayed dead.

-you were sobbing over him, a tear falling into his cheek.

-however

-the tear started to glow and then his wound started to glow and he was STARTING TO HEAL?!

-the glow slowly faded and with it going away, HE CANE BACK TO LIFR WITH A LARHE ASS GASP

-ofc after dying the first thing he said is your name

“Have I ever told you I got a think for H/C?” He asked, looking at the darker colour of your previous hair shade.

You chuckled and immediately wrapped your arms around him, now sitting on his thigh.

He hugged you tight and before he knows it, your smashing your lips against his.

-okay I’m gonna be quick with this now

-so he takes you back to the castle and then guard runs into your real parents room, claiming you were found

-they instantly start RUNNING to a balcony and see you with Kazuha

-anyway there’s a reunion, hugs tears blah blah whatever would happen after 2 decades of not seeing each other.

-Kazuha onky smiled over the whole thing and then YOUR MOM PULLED HIM INTO THE HUG

-the kingdom rejoiced for their lost princess had returned and the party lasted for a week

-Kazuha hardly remmebered anything that happened

-the crux members eventually had their dreams come true and got jobs in the kingdom

-thanks to Sayu, crime disappeared overnight ad bf so did most of the apples

-at last you were home and finally had a real family and you were a princess worth waiting for

-everh now and then whenever your out Kazuha woullf take the crown off your head and hide it but you always knew and he’d place it back on your head with a giggle

-a few years later he finally placed a ring on that finger and you lived happily ever after

-he also had all charges dropped against him too so he was no longer a thief!

-off topic fun fact; Originally instead of Kazuha it was gonna be Kaeya but then I acc thought of Kaeya as thé prince from the Swan Princess so I’ll have him in another post

Alhaitham; Frozen

-so we all know frozen is focused on Elsa but for the love story we’re focusing on just you

-so for this you will choose who you want your older sister to be

-whoever has a Cryo vision or a lady u wanna choose and make them have ice powers but wtv

-so basically the story starts out with 8 year old you waking up your sister 10 year old sister

-and your bored

-she tells you to go back to sleep but then you ask if she wants to build a snowman.

-sister has ice powers yayaya she can also make snow

-one day while your jumping shes making snow pillars but you go to fast and she slips on ice and accidentally uses her ice powers and hits your head

-you pass out and she’s crying calling your parents

-they take you to a small area away from the kingdom and.

-it’s mushrooms.

-you know nahida’s mushroom besties or the ones we see around sumeru thay pop up and disappear

-yeah those r the trolls from frozen

-nahida is human but she lives with them

-she tells ur dad that you need to forget your sister if you wanna live because if she hits you again you can die

-she replaces all memories of sister creating snow or ice and replaced them with natural snow and ice and the two of you together so the fun stays

-no one can know of her magic so all do the staff was reduced in the castle, the gates and windows were always closed, and Elsa has NEVER been outside since

-so basically for the next decade your sister doesn’t talk to you, and your always outside your door asking her if she wants to go in the snow and build a snowman but she tells you to go away

-however during this decade her powers got stronger

-it’s not until your 18 when your parents leave for a trip over seas

-sadly their ship goes down and they die

-your sisyer doesn’t even show up to the funeral

-so three years later your sister is finally of age to become queen and it’s coronation day!

-all the gates open and you’re finally outside

-what if you meet your future lover at the coronation?

-well one thing for sure you met someone you liked but not at coronation…

-you almost fall into a boat but someone catches you however he falls on top of you

-your both apologizing and then he finally introduced himself

“I’m prince Childe of Snezhnaya!”

-of course you bump into a prince

-even though ur a princess but wtv

-you end up running cuz you gots go to the coronation and you see him later though

-this is the first time you’ve ever actually seen your sister in the last decade and also the first time you’ve talked to her

-it’s vv awkward but you start bonding over chocolate

-eventually some random asks you to dance and he’s so bad at dancing that your sister is cackling while watching

-eventually sm1 else takes your hand and it’s Childe!! he twirls you around and shit yk the usual ballroom dancing

-okay fast forward somehow you two fell in love don’t ask

-like you do tell each other everything and he reveals he has 10 siblings and he’s the youngest

-4 sisters and 6 brothers

-he asks if you’ll marry him despite knowing each other for 5 hours and your like oh my god yes!!!!

-when you ask your sister for permission she’s like no cuz SHES SMART

-you get mad and cause a scene and you grab your hand and you pull her glove off accidentally

-she loses control and ice magic goes woosh

-fast forward she runs away

-I’m acc so tired and wanna get this post done with I’m sorry if this is rushed but it’s short cuz the main focus isn’t even supposed to be you

-your sister runs away and with her magic she causes an eternal winter IN THE MIDDLE OF SUMMER.

-you chase after her into the woods and little do you know after her whole “let it go” episode she created a whole castle out of ICE.

-I still wonder what she slept on.

-uhm so you leave prince Childe in charge of the king on of sumeru while you find your sister

-your horse runs away from you cuz bro knows he don’t want this bs rn

-your literally in a dress which makes this sm worse because now it’s like Snezhnaya and there’s sm it goes up to your knees

-you do find a shop though in the middle of nowhere at night and ask if they have any winter shit

-the owner points you to their collection and there’s just the stuff you need so yay!

-just when your about to buy it, someone walks in covered in snow and good lord he’s tall.

-he walks up to you and mumbled something but you can hardly hear with the mask over his face

“Huh?” You asked.

He leaned in closer, “behind you.”

You looked behind you to see carrots on the table where the owner was and quickly apologized, moving for him.

He grabbed the carrots then moved to grab a rope and pick axe.

“Where’s all this snow coming from?” The worker, Cyno, asked, looking at the man covered in snow.

“The North mountain.” He responded, placing down the stuff on the table.

“North mountain.” You whispered to yourself.

“That’ll be 40.” Cyno said.

The man scoffed. “40? No 10.”

“Apologies, but 10 is a big problem.”

“You wanna talk about problems? I sell ice for a living.” He pointed to a window and you saw a large sled with a bunch of ice on it.

You winced. “Not the best job.”

He glared at you and you shut your mouth, but only for a second until you started asking questions about the mountain and what he saw. “Did it seem magical?”

His glare stayed but he removed his mask to speak clearer. “Yes. Now back up while I deal with this crook here.”

“Crook?” Cyno repeated, standing up, and the man realized he was fucked- especially when he was thrown out of the shop.

-you ended up buying his stuff for him, and when he asked why, you told him to bring you up the North mountain

-and because you were kind enough ti buy his stuff after being thrown out, he decided to take you

-he owns a pet moose named tighnari.

-it’s funny how all the pet side kicks are named Tighnari in this post

-so while you’re on the sled thingy or whatever, he’s asking you what made the queen go all crazy

“So uh tell me. What made the queen go all ice crazy?” He asked, letting Tighnari guide the sled mobile.

You chuckled yet grimaced. “Uh..it was all my fault. I got engaged but she’d only just freak out because I met him that same day. And she said she wouldn’t bless the marriage and-“

“Wait,” he cut you off, blinking before continuing. “You got engaged to someone you just met on that day?”

“Yeah! Anyway I got mad and then she got mad and then-“

He turned his body to look at you, still confused. “Hang on! You mean to tell me you got engaged to someone you JUST met THAT DAY?”

“Yes! Pay attention. But the thing is she ALWAYS had the gloves on and I thought it was a thing about dirt!”

“Didn’t your parents ever warn you about strangers?!”

You blinked, before slowly letting out a “Yes” as you scooted away from him.

He just trolled his eyes

“But Childe is not a stranger!”

“Childe?!” He burst out laughing. “That’s an Incredulous name. If he’s not a stranger, what’s his last name?”

“….of Snezhnaya.”

He scoffed. “Favourite food?”

“….Raw fish.”

“Good lord- you’re marrying a man who eats raw fish as his favourite food? How in the world are you a princess!?”

“Hey!”

“Best friends name?”

“HAH I KNOW THIS ONE! Scaramouche!”

“Snezhnaya’a got some weird names.” He chuckled with a shake of his head. “Eye colour?”

“Dreamy.”

“Foot size?”

“Foot size doesn’t matter!”

“Have you had a meal with him yet? What if you hate the way he eats? What if you hate the way he picks his nose?”

“Picks his nose?!” You repeated, bewildered.

“And eats it.”

“Excuse me sir he is a prince!”

The man only smirked before looking away with a shrug. “All men do it.”

“Ew! Look it doesn’t matter! It’s true love.”

“Doesn’t sound like true love.” The shit eating grin on his face never left.

“What are You some sort of love expert?” You scoffed.

“No, but I have friends who are.”

“You havé friends who are love experts? I’m not buying it.” You didn’t notice the way the sled came to a stop and Tighnari was looking around frantically along with the man.

“Stop talking.”

“Nonono I’d like to meet-“ you were cut off with his hand over your mouth.

“Shh.” He stood up, holding a lantern up to get a better look around. He turned, squinting into a certain area of the woods and then wolves started to show.

“Shit.” He breathed out before immediately yelling at Tighnari to move.

“What is it?” You asked, fear speaking in you.

“Wolves.” He spoke while lighting a torch.

“What do i do?”

“Nothing.” He threw the now lit up torch at the wolves. “Just don’t get eaten.”

“But I wanna help!”

“No!”

“Why not?”

“Because I don’t trust your judgement.”

You let out the most exaggerated gasp. “Excuse me?”

He pushed you back a bit to kick a wolf that caught up. “Who marries a man they just met?!”

“It’s called true love!” You yelled, grabbing a random ukulele from the back of the sled and swinging it over his head to hit a wolf that jumped up.

“Woah!” He smirked, before a wolf bit onto his boot and dragged him off the sled but he quickly grabbed a rope that was tied to it.

“If i die my name is Alhaitham for my funeral!” He yelled.

You grabbed a wooden stick to light up, turning it into a torch before you lit up something random at the back of the sled. “Al, duck!”

“It’s ALHAITHAM!” He yelled, but did as you said when he saw you throw whatever the hell was in your hands that was on fire

He started to climb the rope back onto the sled. “You almost killed me!”

“But I didn’t!”

His eyes widened and you turned to see a cliff coming up.

“Jump Tighnari!”

“You don’t tell him what to do, I do!” He spoke while grabbing you, practically man handling you as he threw you onto Tighnari. Just as the cliff came up, he cut the rope connecting his moose firmed to the sled, prioritizing your safety over his as he jumped off the sled and PRAYED he would make it.

-he gripped onto the edge of the cliff, looking down to see his sweet sled on fire.

-he just bought that!

-he started to slip but you grabbed his hand and pulled him back up

-you promised you’d buy him a new one later

-you also told him you understand if he doesn’t wanna help you anymore and you started to leave

-in full honestly Alhaitham coukd care less if you died in the woods

-but you promised a new sled and if you die he won’t get it so he does follow after you

- anyway you spend the whole night tryna get through the woods and the whole time you just hoped your sister would be able to remove this eternal winter

-in the morning you start to realize how beautiful the snow and the hanging ice looks

“Who knew winter could be so beautiful?”

“Yeah!”

You and Alhaitham both looked at each other confused when you heard a new voice, and for a second then both of you thought it was Tighnari talking.

“It’s so fun! There should be some colour! Like crimson or yellow- actually yellow is just bad.” The voice became louder with each word and suddenly standing between the two of you was a talking snowman.

You screamed, immediately kicking it and it’s head flew off and landed in Alhaitham’s arms. “You’re creepy.” He said, throwing it back to you but then you threw it back to him and the continuation of it.

The body started walking towards you and you threw the head at it, sending it into the snow.

He stood up, his head upside down. “What am I looking at? Why are you hanging like bats?”

You inched your way closer to it, fixing it’s head.

“Oh thank you! Now I’m perfect.”

“Almost,” You chuckled, realizing this was a harmless snowman. You looked through Alhaitham’s bag before grabbing a carrot, making its nose.

“Okay, let’s start this thing over, hi everyone, I’m Kaveh!”

“You creep me out.” Alhaitham chuckled, kneeling down to his level.

You blinked. “Kaveh?”

“Hi.”

“That’s right! Kaveh!”

“And you are…?”

“Y/N!”

“Who’s the funky looking donkey over there?” He turned to Tighnari and Alhaitham standing beside each other- well moose tighnari.

“That’s Tighnari!”

“And who’s the moose?”

Alhaitham glared and you burst out into laughter. “…Tighnari.”

“Got it!” He screamed when Tighnari tried to eat his carrot nose.

“Kaveh.” You called and he turned to you.

“Did S/N build you?”

“Yeah, Why?” He asked, not caring that Alhaitham pulled out his stick arm, analyzing it.

“Do you know where she is?”

“Yeah, Why?”

“Can you take us to her?”

“Yeah, Why!”

“We need her to bring back summer.” Alhaitham spoke for you, putting the arm back into Kaveh’s snow body.

Kaveh let out a squeak. “I love summer! The sun, and how hot it is!”

“Really?” Alhaitham grinned. “I guess you don’t have much experience with heat.”

“Nope! But sometimes I like to close my eyes and imagine.

Suddenly, he started singing and dancing and you and Alhaitham just stared.

“My snow up against the gorgeous sand probably getting a good old tan in SUMMERRR~~”

Alhaitham crossed his arms over his chest, smirking. “I’m gonna tell him.”

You gasped, hitting him. “Don’t you dare!”

“Somebody’s gotta tell him!”

-so he’s supposed to melt in summer and ofc Alhaitham wants to ruin his dream of summer

-back in sumeru kingdom Childe finds your horse running back but your not on it and he thinks you’re in danger

-so he sets out with his guards to find you

-anyway back to you

-Alhaitham is asking you what your gonna say to your sister and you reveal you had no idea

-kaveh goes on about how sweet your sister is and he doesn’t even realize he’s walking right into an icicle

-“oh look, I’ve been Impaled.”

-your all faced with a cliff and you try climbing it but Alhaitham Is telling you that your gonna kill yourself

-like anywhere you put your foot down he’ll say “I wouldn’t put it there!” And HE IS ALWAYS RIGHT

-then kaveh finds an ice staircase and you jump off, Alhaitham catching you in his hands

-he could only smile as you ran off

-“holy shit.” The two of you breathed out, looking at the castle

-“now THAT is ice. I think I might cry.”

-sadly Tighnari cannot climb the stairs because of his hooves

-at the door if the castle your hesitant and kaveh kept telling you to knock but your scared and he’s like “does she not know how to knock?”

-but the door opened automatically so wtv

“You probably shouldn’t come in.” You told him and he whined.

“What? Why not! It’s a palace of ice!”

“Last time I brought a guy she caused an eternal winter.”

“Good point.”

“You too, Kaveh.”

“NOOOOOOO”

-making your way into the castle your like holy shir begause it’s all ICE but it’s so beautiful

-your lwokey slipping a lot too

-your sister comes out and is like why tf r u here

-and your just complimenting the ice castle and you apologize for everything that happened

-she tells you it’s alright and you should leave because you belong in Suneru

“Actually about that…” you trailed off, but then you heard Kaveh running in.

“Kaveh?” Your sisters eyes widened.

“We built him when we were kids, remember?” You asked.

“Yeah, I do…”

“We were so close, S/N. We can be like that again if you come back to Sumeru.”

“I’m sorry, but I can’t.” She shook her head; remembering the last time you were close. “You need to leave.”

-she tells you to go enjoy the summer of sumeru while you chase after her

-plus without her the gates are open and she’s free

-HIWEVER WHOUT ALL THAY

-you tell her Sumeru is in deep, deep, deep, deep snow

-“yeah you set off an eternal winter.”

“Everywhere?!”

-“I’m sure you can remove it!”

-NO TF SHE CANT?!

-with all the stress on her she shoots her ice and it HITS YOU

-Alhaitham overheard everything and he comes running in

-he encourages you to leave and when your like no your sister creates a whole ICE MONSTER and it grabs the two of you and sends you flying down the stairs

“It is not nice to throw people!” You yelled, forming a snowball in your hands.

“Woah woah woah!” He grabbed you. “Calm down and relax Icy pants. Leave the snow man be.”

“Alright.” You sighed and he let you go, but the moment he did you immediately threw the snowball at the large snow and ice man.

-oh no

-oh no

-oh nononono

-it’s the smallest impact but he GROWLS and starts chasing after you two

-you both end up sliding away but once your far and hes still chasing, a 200foot drop cliff pops up

-he gets rope out of now where and wraps it around your waist before tying the other side to the pickaxe and sticking it into the snow and you both jump off

-you both forgot about Kaveh but he ends up jumping off the cliff and he’s fine

-HOWEVER THE LARHE ICE KAN AND IS SMART AND HE PULLS ON THE ROPE

-“DONT COME BACK.” IT growled and threw you guys down

-thankfully there’s like metres of snow so it was lke landing on a pillow

-Alhaitham put his hands under our arms and pulled you out of the snow and you thanked him, both of you smiling

-you asked him how his head was and he said he had a thick skull

“I don’t have a skull.” Kaveh said.

-then he asked how your hair was

-YOUR HAIR WAS TURNING WHITE

-he realized it was because you were struck with your sisters magic and then you asked if it looked bad

-“…No’”

“You hesitated.” Kaveh spoke.

“No! Y/N you need help. I’ll bring you to my friends.”

“The love experts?”

-so he acc brings you to the mushrooms you went to as a kid but you don’t know since you don’t remember

“Meet my family!” Alhaitham chuckled, walking in a field of mushrooms.

You blinked.

“He’s crazy.” Kaveh whispered, looking at how Alhaitham talked to mushrooms in the ground. “I’ll distract him while you run.”

He walks up to a mushroom and pets it. “It’s nice to meet you!” He turned and whispered ahain. “Because I love you Y/N, you NEED to run. WHY ARENT YOU RUNNING?!”

“I’m gonna go.” You said.

Alhaitham groaned. “Wait!”

However, the ground started to shake and before you know it the mushrooms are coming out the ground and becoming slightly larger and they start TALKING.

“ALHAITHAM IS HOME!” They all screamed.

-he’s asking where sm1 named nahida is while all the mushrooms start talking to him

-you just laughed, and it caught attention of all of them as they turned and blinked

-“he brought a girl!” One of them yelled before everyone repeated “A GIRL!”

-they all leaned down and someone pushed you as you rolled over all of them and they threw you into his arms

-he told you to just roll with it

-get it

-one of them is literally analyzing you and says “she’s perfect for our Alhaitham!”

-you both realized they thought you were together and the both of you start explaining that’s not how it is

-one asks you what the issue is with him

-is it the clumpy way he walks

-or the grumpy way he talks

-or the weirdly shaped boots he had?

-but you’ll never meet a fella who’s as sensitive and sweet!

-he’s a bit of a fixer upper, a bunch of flaws, and his best friends with a moose

-they tell you that you can fix him with love!

-is it the way that he runs scared?

-or how he’s socially impaired?

-or that half the time he tinkles in the wood?

-you did not need to know that.

-your only laughing while they list a bunch of reasons

-he tells them you’re engaged to some else and they don’t believe it

-one of them says “SHE HAS NO RING!”

-one of the other mushrooms are just giving you advice on love and it’s so weird but you love it

-SUDDENLY THEY DRESS YOU UP IN A CLOAK AND CROWN??

-he turns around and he literally says “woah”

-it’s not until one of the mushrooms starts to speak when you both realize what’s happening

-“do you, Y/N, take Alhaitham to be your truthfully wedded-“

“Wait what?”

“Your getting married.”

-suddenly you let out a wince and fall, your body turning as cold as ice as another strand of hair turns white

-when you fall he’s holding you in his ice and the commotion sends nahida running over

-she checks over you and says your life is in danger because there is ice in your heart

-if not removed, you’ll turn into ice.

-when Alhaitham asks if she can remove it she says no and that only an act of true love can solve it

-Alhaitham dattes crying you and he holds you while Tighnari takes him to Sumeru, saying you need to kiss Childe

-little did you know Childe is currently hunting down your sister

-she almost kills him but wtv

-someone tried to shoot her and somehow she went unconscious idk how to explain it but she wakes up back in Sumeru but she’s chained up

-like there’s protective shit over her hands so she can’t use her magic

-she’s in a dungeon in sumeru

-okay back to you guys

-omg he’s holding you while your both on tighnari who’s jumping his way to the kingdom and when Alhaitham hears you shiver he takes his hat off and puts it on you and it’s so cute

-he carries you into the castle and when your asking if he’s okay he tells you “not to worry about him”

-once the gates to the castle open he tells the workers who take you to get prince Childe and then Alhaitham walks away sad because literally did you know he was kinda sad cuz he liked you

-but your engaged so he can’t do anything

-your taken into a room with Childe and your like “kiss me”

-and he’s like “what?!”

-you explain the whole thing to him and how your sister struck you and shit and you’ll die if there is no act of true love towards you

-he carries you over to a couch by the fireplace, tryna warm you up

-“only an act of true love can save me.”

Childe’s eyes lit up. “True love’s kiss!” His hand slowly caressed your cheek then moved down to your chicken to grab it, leaning towards you.

He went in slowly, almost torturing you.

However,

“Oh Y/N.” He smirked, “if only if there was someone out there who actually loved you.”

- he explains he’s 11th in line for the thrown of his kingdom and he wants to be king

-so he thought marrying you would make him king here

-but now that your about to die and your sister refuses to be queen

-he can now lie and say you put him in charge and he’ll be king

-The betrayal-

-HE NEBER LOVED YOU

-he starts to take out all the fire in the room, all while degrading you and saying how pathetic it was to wanna marry him after one day

-he grabs water and takes out the fire in the room, making you go cold

-he says he’s gonna kill Elsa yeah yeah wtv

-he locks you in the room and your hair has fully turned white now and your close to dying

-Childe walks into a room, faking his sadness and saying your DEAD.

-Now that he’s in charge he says your sister committed treason and his sentence is death

-meanwhile Alhaitham is waking away but a sudden ice storm surrounds the kingdom and he’s SPRINTING BACK

-your sister managed to escape before the guards came to grab her so now it’s a whole new problem

-meanwhile KAVEJ COMES TO YOUR RESCUE!

-he unlocks the door and lights the fireplace and your yelling at him to get away because he’s MELTING

-he helps you over to the fireplace to keep you warm all while you tell him what happened

-kaveh said he won’t leave until you find another act of love

“Love is putting someone else’s needs in front of theirs instead of their own. Like how Alhaitham brought you back to Childe and left.”

-and you realized that ALHAITHAM DID DO THAY

-BABY HE IS IN LOVE

-“your so dumb.” Kaveh said.

-suddenly a window bursts open and he goes to look outside when he closes it

-HE YELLS THAY ALHAOTHAM IS COMING BACK!!

-“man I guess Alhaitham doesn’t love you enough to leave you behind.”

-you make Kaveh help you up even though your dying

-you said you love Alhaitham and you NEED HIM TO LIVE

-so he’s pushing you all the way outside but the storm is causing the whole castle to freeze and ice isn’t good for you because then you’ll die

-meanwhile your sister is out running but the blizzard is so strong she can’t see anything

-thankfully you and Kaveh end up escaping and your running to find Alhaitham and yelling his name

-your sister runs into Childe and he lies and says your dead and she breaks down crying because she knows it’s her fault

-during all of this your hands are starting to turn into literal ice

-like it was actual ice.

-your hair is full on ice now but Alhaitham hears you and is running

-during your sisters break down the blizzard immediately ends and it’s easier for Alhaitham to find you

-he’s running all the way towards you but then you turn to see Childe with a sword about to hit your sister

-and you run in front of her right when he’s about to slash her BUT YOU TURN INTO ICE

-YOUR LOTERAL ICE JOW

-your dead now btw

-ice = dead

-your sister is holding you crying her eyes out

-however

-nahida said ACT OF LOVE

-she never said true loves kiss

-because your sister loves you so much HER LOVE FOR YOU UNFREEZES YOU AND BEVAUSE YOU LOVE HER SO MICH YOU SACRIFICEDBYOURSELF

-love will thaw the ice and because of this the winter starts to go away like SUMMER IS BACK IN SUMERU WOOO!!

-somehow you guys end up on a boat when the winter goes away

-BUT KAVEH STARTS MELTING

“This has gotta be the best day of my life…and probably my last.”

-Sister gives him a little snow cloud above him so he never melts so we good

-Childe is on the boat and he’s like oh fuck

-Alhaitham MARCHES his way over but you stop him and YOU PUNCH CHILDE OFF THE BOAT WOOO

-all the ambassadors cheer you on!

-Childe gets arrested thankfully woo!!!!

-all the kings and ambassadors are leaving a few days later

-and also a few days later your running around with Alhaitham and you have a blindfold around him

-you said it was a gift

-when you removed the blindfold it’s a NEW SLED

-you did promise him a new one

-AND ITS THE LATEST MODEL

“Do you like it?” You ask, fidgeting with your fingers, nervous he’d hate it.

“Like it?” He repeated with a scoff, before placing his hands on your waist and picking you up, spinning you around. “I love it! I could kiss you!”

He freezes when he realizes what he said and places you down. “I mean I’d like too, I uh- can I- can you- can we-?”

You cut him off with a kiss on the cheek and smile. “We may.” You say before he wraps his arms around you again and pressed his lips against yours, you wrapping your arms around his neck.

-HAPPY ENDING WOO!

-no you don’t marry Alhaitham you prob will like in the next few years

-I’m too fuckinf lazy to write the second movie

-anyways hope you guys liked this!!! Next post idk who I’ll have but I did plan on having Kaeya and Ayato so

-but yeah you all live happily ever after!

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Pull the Trigger IV (Modern!Ivar/Reader)

A/N: Hello♥️ I’m so happy you guys are liking this, I swear! I know its very slow, but I’ll try to make it worth it! Thank you a thousand times for reading🫶🏼 This one is a bit shorter, but we’re slowly getting to the interesting part👀

Warnings: mentions of sex, another attempt of an argument, mentions of sexism.

Words: 2331

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When Thora picked you up after a very stressful day at university and a job interview that was an absolute fail. You only felt like crying and snuggling inside your bed with your favourite teddy bear and listening to depressing songs, but Thora wasn't having it.

She assured you that she had two tickets to watch that new film you were so excited about and that she would drag you to the cinema and distract you. As you realised it had been a while since you had some alone time with your friend, you accepted.

But when you stopped in front of the Lothbrok's house, from where you could see all of Kattegat, you felt complete and utterly betrayed.

“I just need to pick something up" she reassured you “Something I forgot here yesterday, and then we'll be on our way"

“You could have picked me up afterwards" you muttered, crossing your arms and looking around. The house was built imitating the old Viking Halls, and even if it was very fitting and aesthetic, you always said you found it pretentious.

“It's raining, Y/N" Thora smiled softly “Come on, it will be just a couple of minutes, and Ivar shouldn't be home"

“Why do you think I care if that dick is here or not?" you scoffed “He can be in fucking Canada, for all I care"

Your friend smirked, but didn't say anything. She was probably thinking about all those times during the past few weeks in which you had seen Ivar, which usually had ended with you fuming and ranting about how much you hated him. In class you managed to keep calm and ignore him even when he was being a pain in the ass, but he had come to your flat a couple of times, and kept annoying you until you exploded.

When Hvitserk opened the door, a gentle smile on his lips and his green eyes shining playfully, you entered the Lothbroks house for the first time. Of course, it was big, full of wooden furniture that was probably more expensive than your entire flat. It had huge windows, and it smelled surprisingly nice. There was a burning fireplace in the living room, and the soft crackling of the fire, the dim lights and the cosy couch full of blankets made you bite your lip and clench your jaw in envy. It wasn't fair that they had that and didn't spend every single second of the day on that couch.

Thora and Hvitserk excused themselves and left you alone before you could react. Sighing and a bit relieved to know you were alone, you explored the house a bit more, not daring to go upstairs but walking around the living room, the kitchen and looking out the window to appreciate the big garden they had.

Back in the living room your eyes went to the big shelves full of books. You knew some of the titles, others were in different languages. Your eyes caught a framed picture of the five Lothbrok brothers then, and you raised an eyebrow when you spotted Ivar, smiling, relaxed and with his arm around Hvitserk's shoulders. All of them seemed to be laughing, happy and enjoying themselves. For a moment you felt a strange warmth spreading on your chest, and had the urge to smile while seeing Ivar smile.

After a moment of weakness, you mentally slapped yourself, immediately blinking a couple of times and shaking your head. Those boys were probably criminals. Spoiled, rich kids that acted like princes because they never had to worry about the money. And Ivar was a prick.

“Did you find anything interesting?"

His voice startled you. You had to cover your mouth to avoid letting out a shriek. Turning around, you found Ivar approaching you slowly, with only one crutch and dressed with sweatpants and a hoodie.

“What the fuck?" you scoffed, with your hand pressed against your chest “What are you doing here? How long have you been standing there watching me? You're creepy as fuck"

Ivar rolled his eyes, visibly amused as he glanced at the picture you had been looking at.

“I should ask you that question because you're at my house" he raised an eyebrow “And I don't remember inviting you even though you didn't hesitate to enter and start examining the entire place"

“Hvitserk invited me" you rolled your eyes, even if it wasn't actually true.

“I could withdraw that invitation and kick you out" he shrugged, amused “As you insist on being rude towards me... Apart from touching things that aren't yours"

“You and who else?" you scoffed, shaking your head “Are you going to call your bodyguard? Your dad?"

His smile faded softly when you mentioned his dad, but it was so quickly you weren't sure whether you had imagined it.

“I don't need anyone to kick you out, love"

“Then why don't you?"

“Because my mother didn't raise a savage, even if you believe otherwise, and I wouldn't leave a woman out in the rain"

“It's because you can't"

Ivar took a deep breath, visibly bothered by your exchange, and sat down on the couch with his eyes still fixed on you.

“I will if you keep being so annoying"

Rolling your eyes again, you turned around to keep examining the bookshelf. You could feel his gaze on you, and it didn't let you focus on the titles. His mere presence was enough to make you nervous and clumsy.

“So how many of these books have you read?" you asked with a fake smile plastered on your face. Ivar raised an eyebrow at you.

“Many" he shrugged “The ones that didn't bore me to death"

“Sure" you rolled your eyes “When you're not watching The Godfather you're probably reading The Great Gatsby"

That actually amused Ivar, who just shrugged and shook his head.

“I wish I had that much time, love"

You rolled your eyes again, turning around to keep looking at the books. He stayed silent, his eyes fixed on you until the sound of steps down the stairs made him look. Hvitserk and Thora entered the living room, Thora's apologetic smile faded when she saw Ivar sitting on the couch.

For some reason, she was always wary around Ivar, which you couldn't understand. He was exactly the same as his brother, the one she was hooking up with, a dog that barks too much but never bites.

“Ivar, we didn't know you were here" Hvitserk ruffled his baby brother's hair, who frowned bothered when he ruined his bun and braids “We would have come sooner"

“Can we leave now?" you asked with a sigh, pouting at Thora. She widened her eyes at you, like an adult scolding a child when they say something rude.

“Why such a rush? You were quite entertained with my brother here, weren't you?" Hvitserk chuckled "Don't mind him, he likes to get on the nerves of people"

“We have tickets for the cinema" you raised an eyebrow “And we're going to be late"

“You could stay and we could watch The Godfather" Ivar raised an eyebrow.

“No thank you, I've seen it quite a few times already" you shot him a fake smile before approaching Thora and grabbing her arm “We're leaving, say goodbye to your boyfriend"

On your way out, you'd swear you heard Ivar's chuckle.

______________________________________

“Just to be clear" Thora took a bite of her burger, not even looking at you “Hvitserk is not my boyfriend"

You rolled your eyes while you swallowed some of your food, resting your back against the chair of the restaurant in front of the cinema to which you always went after the movie.

“Of course he isn't, he's never been anyone's boyfriend"

“We're just... Getting to know each other and seeing how things go"

“You have a very strange way of saying he's using you for sex until he gets tired"

This time it was Thora's turn to roll her eyes.

“Y/N, if you gave him a chance..."

“I can't give any more chances to that family, they're all worse than I thought, annoying and..." you looked for another adjective while gripping your glass with frustration “I don't even understand why you hang out with them"

“They're nice, okay? They're quite relaxed and fun, Ubbe is really sweet, and Sigurd..."

“Ivar is everything but nice"

“I didn't mention Ivar" she sighed “Look, I don't fully trust Ivar either, he's... Different, but his brothers are okay if you give them a chance"

“He's everywhere, Thora" you groaned “I can't trust Hvitserk either, it's his brother! They were raised in the same household with the same people, they're the same! And you're starting to get attached, he's going to break your heart"

“Hvitserk is one of the best guys I've ever met" she scoffed, stealing one of your fries “He never promised me anything, he just... He's honest with me, he treats me well, and he's really good in bed... Like very good"

“I don't need to know the details" you scrunched your nose “I just know what I see, and those people are fucking weird, they're rich, I don't trust rich people"

“Hvitserk told me he would love to invite you to one of his parties... He also said Ivar was..."

“That would be a no for me" you said, shrugging.

“How are they worse than Erik?"

You gasped in disbelief.

“What's wrong with Erik?" you asked, raising an eyebrow “You were the one inviting him to that club so we'd hook up"

“Yes, but that was before I had a full conversation with him and I realised he's an idiot" Thora giggled “Honestly, I don't even know why you're hooking up with him"

You rolled your eyes, suddenly everyone in your life hated Erik for some reason.

“Ivar is arrogant, cruel, rude, full of himself and annoying, Erik is just immature and a bit of an idiot sometimes, but he's sweet to me"

“You don't even know Ivar that well to make those assumptions about him" Thora raised an eyebrow “And... I didn't mention Ivar, you are the one that is constantly bringing him up"

You opened your mouth but no words came out of it as your friend laughed, shaking her head again.

“I thought you didn't like Ivar either" you narrowed your eyes “Have you given up to his charms too?"

“No, I haven't, but Hvitserk has talked to me about Ivar and he's not as bad as we think"

“You just said you don't trust him!"

“I don't fully trust him, Y/N" she sighed “He has quite the reputation, but so does Erik, and I don't think it's fair that you judge the Lothbroks so harshly and not Erik"

“What reputation does Erik have?" you frowned “He's a fuckboy? Yes, but I don't want a relationship with him"

“People say Erik takes advantage of women, Y/N, and that he's not very nice to them, he's a misogynist and has really disgusting comments towards girls, at least Ivar does not have that reputation"

“He's never made any comment in front of me" you muttered, biting your lip.

“Because if he ever did you wouldn't hook up with him anymore, he knows it" Thora scoffed “Anyway, I think you're wasting your time with him because he's a fucking idiot, and you deserve someone way better"

You finished your food in silence. It was always the same thing ‘you deserve someone better’, but who was better? How would you know who was the one?.

“You're overthinking now, aren't you?"

Groaning, you rubbed your eyes.

“I really don’t want to talk about it”

She sighed, letting her fork on her plate before looking at you.

“We’re just worried about you, I feel like you’re trying to run away from something by being with Erik, and I’m scared you’ll end up hurt, that’s all”

“Who’s we?” you raised an eyebrow.

“Your friends” Thora reached to grab your hand “You know, Alfred, Ingrid, Astrid, me…”

You looked away. Yes, you appreciated their concern and support,  but they all had a partner or something similar… Except for Ingrid, but she was very happy fooling around with anyone she wanted.

“I know that, I just… Don’t understand why you guys are so worried about Erik and don’t see the Lothbroks as worse”

She groaned and threw her head back on an exaggerated, desperate sigh. It almost made you laugh.

“Just be careful, Y/N” she smiled softly, practically giving up “I am careful myself, too”

That night she rewarded you for accompanying her to the Lothbroks’ house by staying up with you until midnight, watching a couple of episodes of your favourite tv series and not bringing up any of the men that were making you lose sleep in one way or another. In fact, she turned her phone off, which helped because there was nothing more annoying than seeing Hvitserk’s name on her screen constantly. Of course Ivar wasn’t brought up at any moment, but you still thought about the pictures you had seen of him.

One of them, with the brothers as little boys in their enormous backyard enjoying the snow, had grabbed your attention. Ivar wasn’t difficult to spot. You had been surprised to see his hair was way lighter than it was now. He was in a small wheelchair, barely smiling as his brothers gathered around him, smiling widely at the camera. Their half-brother Björn had been with them, younger and not looking as serious and intimidating as he was now. And then his picture smiling with Hvitserk… He actually didn’t look as intimidating and tough as he tried to look, he almost looked like a normal guy having a picture with his brothers.

Eventually, you fell asleep. It was almost three in the morning when you finally were able to close your eyes without seeing two blue orbs staring right back at you.

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Tags:  @istorkyou @barnes-lothbrok @naaladareia @youbloodymadgenius @southernbe @yummycastiel @nothingtolosebutweight @noway4u @cdauni @heavenly1927​ @ivarhoegh​ @biancathecool​ @helleiaiwritting​ @marvelsangels​ @ironynoticony​

#ivar imagine #ivar the boneless #ivar x reader #modern ivar #vikings #vikings imagine #modern vikings

[ohyoufool]

Writing Patterns

Rules: List the first line of your last 10 (posted) fics and see if there’s a pattern!

Tagged by: @doggernaut and @montrealmadison my besties!!! I am so touched!!!!! and aren't we lucky that I just hit 10 posted fics?? And because I can't stop yapping, I put a little note about each of them.

austin (check, please!, bitty/jack)

"Jack comes to Georgia like a summer thunderstorm."

(this one is alternately titled 'I went through a lot of breakups last year and got into country line dancing and it shows')

call of the champions (check, please!, lardo/camilla)

"It’s Lardo and her board."

(THE FUCKING FIC. I AM SO PROUD OF HER. and also I bought a sick salt late city 2002 olympics leather jacket because of it and it's basically my whole personality)

creation myth (check, please!, bitty/jack)

"It goes like this."

(this is me and @montrealmadison's magnum opus, and I learned how to bind books just to immortalize it)

sloshed with gold (check, please!, bitty/jack)

"Jack’s phone starts ringing halfway through his Tuesday morning jog."

(if you like nhl!bitty and photographer!jack, she's your jam. not sure if I will ever like the way I wrote this one but eyyyyyy it exists)

rocket man (voltron, keith/lance)

"The fireflies were flickering above Keith’s dark hair to light the path. He stood on the porch as Lance looked out from the doorway. There was a moment of silence. “You will help me keep him here this time, won’t you?” he asked."

(I won't apologize for voltron. I am too far past the shame. i wrote a paper on voltron queerbaiting and it got me into college. I owe her everything.)

season of the witch (check, please!, bitty/jack)

"Sometimes, Bitty gets carried away with baking."

(um fun fact there's apparently been a typo in the first line of this one for the last THREE YEARS ?????? its fixed now but dear god. I would delete this if it didn't have the second most hits of any check please fic i've written. I cant reread it it makes me want to die.)

don't waste another mile or minute (not kissing me) (voltron, keith/lance)

"Light. An unusual amount of light. Keith throws his elbow over his face as he peels his eyes open, wincing as the sun blasts through an open window."

(an OLD banger that I wrote at my first internship because it was so boring. some clever lines but my writing has improved tenfold since 2018)

and all I can taste is this moment (voltron, adam/shiro)

"There is absolutely nothing like flying, Takashi Shirogane, sixteen, almost-professional pilot, assumes. He assumes because he hasn’t been allowed to fly (yet), but if the simulator gives him any idea of what flight is like, Shiro is going to be hungry for it for the rest of his life."

(my magnum opus before creation myth, and the longest thing I've ever written (48k). yall ever yolo on a rarepair and write a biblically accurate cold war fic? no? just me? ok.)

last sunrise in the wasteland (voltron, keith/lance)

"The first time that Keith kisses Lance, the sky is the color of cotton candy. "

(this is my fic with the most hits which is great except there's a softcore porn scene in it I forgot about and subsequently subjected my grandpa to when he was reading it and making edits for me. so now it makes me want to die a little thinking about that. no he never brought it up.)

In my veins (carry on, baz/simon)

"On the worst day, Baz wakes up in Simon’s arms, the cursed tattoo glaring at him in the morning sunshine. Simon is still passed out, body curled into Baz, chestnut curls bouncing with each heady breath. The mark bitten onto his neck from the night before flashing like a highway sign on his neck."

(once someone bookmarked this with the tag 'out of character' and it has haunted me every single fucking day since I read that. WHY DID THEY BOOKMARK IT IF THEY DIDN'T LIKE IT. sorry it drives me crazy. I DONT UNDERSTAND.)

Tagging (no pressure, and anyone else can also jump in!): @justlookfrightened @bittysthesis @chaoskiro @zimbits-my-love @parseisflat @a-very-gay-disaster @dessertwaffles

#omgcp #i speak #omg check please #this was wonderful thank you

[awoken-artist]

{Finished in March 7th 2023}

🌈✧{Please Do Not Steal, Trace, use my Art in AI and NFTs and Repost/Resubmit my Works. Thank You.}✧🌈

So its been a long while last I drew these two and I drew this a couple months ago I think and forgot to share here [but i am gonna be more active on here to post since twitter is going downhill, rip] 

So I got very inspired by an artist, marycrispies, who was doing modern highschool AU of the FMA characters and I really loved the fitting idea Ed would love punk rock and/or metal cause- lets be real.... considering what Edward is into and his sense of style, it screams that to a degree.

I thought about revisiting a old story being Alchemy high [and I miss the group and it had potential. idk why i deleted the deviantart group years ago but i had it back up now some time ago for fun and also like- have it exist. i do miss the fma peeps that joined very much..I do hope all of them are doing well in all honesty. I still keep the really old arts of it. i love it all. miss you guys very much &lt;3 ]

I want to go back to Alchemy High story but considering the Alchemy High is - like how with the twilight and harry potter books where each books has its title. like example twilight having - eclipse and breaking dawn. harry potter having the chamber of secrets and deathly hollows. something like it with the story but for the story it would be Alchemy High focusing, obviously with the Highschool aspects...and then the collage Au focusing on what happens after highschool and deal with the collage parts of it. [though mostly focusing on the slice of life part of it mostly with the dorms and everything.]

its a work in progress and plan to do more arts of them tbh. ;w; just need to figure out some ideas is all ^v^

🌈✧{Credits}✧🌈

✧ Artwork and FMA OC Emmy Rosenthal © by: @awoken-artist

✧  Fullmetal Alchemist and Character Edward Elric owned by:

Hiromu Arakawa

​✧ Programs Used: Clip Studio Paint EX

#art #artwork #artworks #fullmetal alchemist #fullmetal alchemist art #edwardxemmy #edward elric #emmy rosenthal #anime oc #fma oc #fullmetal alchemist oc #artist #digital artist #clip studio paint #clip studio paint ex #digital art #digital artwork #ocxcanon #ocxcanon art #fullmetal alchemist ocxcanon #fma ocxcanon #fma art #collage AU #AU #alternate universe

[jiangwanyinscatmom]

So I was reading this manhwa 'who made me a princess', idk if you know about it so brief description of it is a modern girl transmigrated into a book after her death, and its a princess who is disliked by her emperor/king? (forgot title) father and was eventually executed, anyway what i was trying to get at is that to show how terrible the father was there was entire scene where he killed all the concubines in cold blood after his wife's death (in webcomic there is no reason or readdressing of this fact afterwards, idk about the novel) so some of the fans were discussing that to show he changed as the comic was trying to portray, how powerful it would have been if he bowed down in front of those he killed, if he at least tried to make up for it. And idk looking at that discussion made me think if an attempt at post canon jiang cheng redemption (idk man maybe jiang yanlis ghost came to haunt him or some other reason where he tries i guess, maybe an older jin ling who is now stable in his position as the jin leader is the one who breakdowns and yells how much of a murderer/blood jiang cheng has of innocents on his hands after being approached by some poor family member of someone jiang cheng killed, the person is an old grandmother who asks 'my grandson was taken by sect leader jiang as a disciple he hasnt been back since, i hope he is well' and poor woman doesnt know the kids been tortured and killed and so jin ling says unless you apologize to them, unless you at least try to face your actions, dont call me your nephew again/i wont call you my uncle) jin ling (and just to be safe he tells wei wuxian all about the dates when they are going in case something goes wrong cause he trusts wei wuxian to help if things go south with jiang cheng) goes with him to prevent jiang cheng from lashing out if the families dont want to do shit with him, and to make sure he tells the truth of it and maybe its a finally wake up call for jiang cheng, because any time he even thinks of blaming wei wuxian he remembers how much of a clown he is ALA the temple scene and has no other choice but to face his actions if he wants to keep a relationship with jin ling. What are your thoughts on it?

I do think, in regards to Jin Ling and Jiang Cheng's relationship, his love for his nephew is to show that it isn't too late to show in actions, his own dedication to someone. Admittedly, I do not think Jin Ling has the heart to disown or think his uncle is a monster, as many do reasonably view him as readers. As he had said with his narration:

Somehow, there didn’t seem to be anyone he could blame or anyone he could hate. Wei Wuxian, Jin Guangyao, Wen Ning—he should hold every one of them responsible for his parents’ deaths. He had good reason to loathe each of them. But they all seemed like they’d had their reasons, and it left him unable to hate them.

But if he didn’t hate them, who could he hate? Had he deserved to lose both parents at such a young age? Was this how he would be forced to live—unable to seek revenge on his enemies, but also unable to loathe them without qualms?

He couldn’t take this lying down. He couldn’t help but feel aggrieved. How he yearned to perish with them and be done with it!

For many I don't think they see as Jiang Cheng being served enough of his own retribution. But not all of it is always putting someone in the worst possible situations to be reaped. The world of "demonic cultivation" is the realm of Xue Yang, not of Wei Wuxian, and is something that has been in underground existence even before Wei Wuxian. But don't know if Jin Ling would technically by these stories, as everyone has their reasons. It's about the healing over anything else that he eventually tries to grow with and become less ignorant through. This is already seen as he chooses night hunts with Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji mentoring with no mention of Jiang Cheng kicking up a fuss. It is a very small thing, but small things are all that can be used to achieve a better world and life. Jin Ling, I feel at least, does not want anything to do with further condemnation that will only cycle a hate that will not be satisfied unless you as a person decide to move on from it.

Jin Ling does know what his uncle is like, horribleness and all, but, love is also trying to stay with them and having the fortitude to stay with that person to hope they can be for the better. Jiang Cheng, will never be kind or fully capable of initiating remorse, but his actions are enough for Jin Ling to comfortably and finally be allowed to flourish, without the weight of self-doubt. Support, in that, is really what Jin Ling needs over wanting further condemnations for those that he loves and cares for.

A lesson ironically learned from Wei Wuxian a man he stated to hate so much, yet learned to love.

#mdzs #mo dao zu shi #jin ling #the end of the book is meant for healing and care #a turn of what made the characters that grew up in condemnation and rumors dealt with #the younger generation has the chance to choose to let that go #forgiveness and support is always harder to offer than retributions

[theflyingkipper]

WOAH!!!!!! THATS A NICE BOOK KIPS, MAY I SEE WHATS INSIDE!!!

I meant to answer this last night but I fell asleep LMAO Here is the Thomas book I picked up on my birthday.

You can still see the yellow Goodwill sticker on the spine since I forgot to take it off.

Despite this book now being ~20 years old (copyright says 2000. I am also not a big fan of the passage of time), Its very clean, unwrinkled, and no one has written their name in this book.

There's three stories in the book, all from season 5 with images right out of the episodes. The test says "freight cars", so they used a US adapted script.

I remember reading book adapted versions of thomas episodes as a kid. Kind of ironic how they come back to the storybook medium back from the screen XD to a degree, I think it detracts from the experience a bit- but at this time we couldnt go watch an HD remaster of an episode on youtube whenever we wanted- and you couldnt take a giant clunky VHS and CRT television anywhere. But a paperback book of your favorite episode can go with you wherever your little self goes.

There's a few more books in this collection of adaptations including Edward's Exploit and something titled "Diesel 10 means trouble", which I can assume would have images right from the TATMR movie

This is definitely outside the usual scope of things I post. Although its very fun to hunt for old Thomas media and toys, I don't think my newly opened bank account would agree x_x

#me talking #kips photos #ttte #thomas the tank engine #thrift store #thrift finds #ttte thomas #ttte percy #ttte cranky #ttte sir topham hatt #ttte lady hatt

[konnorhasapen]

WIP Wednesday :D

I almost forgot-

If anybody remembers that snippet I posted about—the one I did not remember writing at all—I kinda kept it going and built around it and now we have a brand new wip :)

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Chaotic Even in Literary Preferences

   The house was quiet and undisturbed as Sam came through their front door. Their front door. Every time he thought about those little changes he and Darlin' would make in their words as they spoke about their home, Sam could feel his heart flutter in his chest. Toeing off his boots, he took a look around as he always did now that Darlin' lived here.  He never seemed to miss the minuscule trinkets littered about as minimalistic decor; soaked in everything from stray, lone sock that would remain on the floor when the Shifter would mumble something of their feet feeling trapped in prisons of fabric until they'd realize they were missing one from their laundry and search around for it, to the rubber duck that had apparently taken its respectful post inside the fridge.

   Sam still wasn't certain of the story behind it, but thought from time to time about whether or not he should ask. Only to get very slightly distracted by deciding on a name. He'd been pondering on "Bill" for a while, a name that was both simple and strong, but also showed a little more of that playful side of himself that only so many people had the pleasure of seeing.

   He had shrugged off his jacket and hung it on the coat rack to his left, catching a glimpse at the coffee table in the livingroom. A curious crease found its way between dark brows as his gaze meandered across the array of books scattered across the tabletop. From Moore's 'Bark' to Tolkien's 'The Fellowship of The Ring,' Jones's 'Howl's Moving Castle' to Christie's 'And Then There Were None.' There was quite the collection strewn about before him—including an extremely well-loved copy of 'The Last Wish,' the first book in Andrzej Sapkowski's book series 'The Witcher.' One of Darlin's favorites, Sam recalled, barely needing the visual proof given the insight he'd received from Asher.  He smiled at the chaos, admiring for a little bit longer just how it wound up there, before he made his way to the kitchen to check the mail.

   Just as always, he plucked an obnoxiously bright colored envelope from the small pile and didn't even need to strain his eyes to find the sender's name, already knowing full well that it was from Angel. Even though he was in the mates group chat, Angel had declared to "spare his old fingies" and send him memes and screenshots from the group chat he was in, by mail. He had to give them credit: it's been months since Angel had taken this task upon themself. It seemed this whole Shaw pack was filled with members whose names could easily be synonyms of the word 'dedication.'

   Had he not been a vampire, Sam never would have heard the near-silent footsteps growing nearer from their bedroom. He'd fully expected to be met with the classic "Howdy, Cowboy," or a "How'd the meetin' at 'Wonder-Ranch' fare today?" What he didn't expect and, frankly, wasn't prepared for, was to watch his Darlin' wander out into the kitchen, grab a quick snack of pretzels, and pivot towards the livingroom to have a seat on their bloodstain-free couch—all with their nose and attention buried between the pages of a book.  For a few minutes, Sam said nothing as he only watched them curl up in their corner with their small bowl of pretzels and those gorgeous eyes completely lost in each word.

   He caught brief sight of the cover wondering if he'd recognize a familiar title or design. He didn't.

   "What'cha got there?" Sam asked softly with a gentle smile tugging at his lips. He chuckled and apologized when he saw them start at his sudden words, like he hadn't been here since they migrated.

   "'Ts a book," they replied, pressing a pretzel to their smirking lips as they waited for his estimated response:

   "Obviously, you wise-ass," Sam smiled a little wider and rolled his red-flecked silver eyes, making his way to join them. "I mean what type of book?"  They exhaled through their nose, peering mischievously over the top of their novel.

   "A hardcover," already knowing the outcome they had instigated, Darlin' preemptively slid their bookmark between the pages and snapped it shut as they used it as a shield from the pillow their mate had grabbed and thrown at them.  They laughed at his reaction—something that still felt a bit foreign to them, but they were starting to get used to feeling so happy they'd let it show.  They readjusted the pillow to use it as a table nestled between their crisscrossed legs, pulling the book away from their face and idly brushing a callused thumb over the lightly textured cover.

   "It's 'I Am The Messenger' by Markus Zusak," Darlin' finally shared. "I wanted to finish reading at least one of the books I forgot I owned before moving in." Sam leaned forward with a chuckle and began straightening up the mess of books, putting them into small stacks.

   "It was nice of David to swing them by," he said. Darlin' had expected their hardass Alpha would come around to check up on them at some point, but with an old box full of books they'd had before everything in their life turned into a shitstorm that hit the fan in a single night? If they had a penny for every time they guessed David would deliver to them a piece of who they were when things were okay, they would have a penny.

   "Yeah..," they trailed off, their mind still humming with memories of Gabe taking them to the book store when they had gotten suspended for defending themself. A bittersweet smile settled on their lips. That was a good day.

   They could just barely still hear his voice saying "go wild, kiddo! You won't find out what genre you like best just standing around,"

   Almost, they could see the image of his goofy grin. The one he gave when he saw a flicker of a sparkle dance through their young eyes. Sam hummed, grasping Darlin's attention once more:

   "Never heard of it," they were thankful he spoke before their thoughts could sour. With a smirk, they replied:

   "Prob'ly 'cause yer too busy readin' li'l diddies like'Heartland'," Darlin mocked, not missing that smile and the eye roll that wasn't far behind as he shook his head.

   "Okay, I'll give it to you," Sam chuckled, "that was a good one." His mate made a motion of tipping their imaginary hat and quirked their brow.

   "Much obliged,"

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And that's all I've got so far! I hope whoever reads this enjoyed my mess<3 And if you'd like to be put in a tags list for writing and art wips—or just one or the other—let me know^^

I'm not certain if you'd like to be tagged, but I know you seemed to like the original little spat I posted a couple days ago and had said you looked forward to a continuation so uh- @sealriously-sealrious I apologize profusely if you wish to not be tagged ajebfkcbks-

#redacted audio #redacted asmr #redactedverse #redacted darlin #redacted sam #redacted fanfiction #redacted fanfic #just a bit of domestic bliss and banter #also all of those books i mentioned are actual books and you should give them a crack #i have yet to read lotr or the hobbit but i trust they're just as amazing as ive heard they are

[after-witch]

Bright Lights (Small Spaces Quartet Sequel) (Chapter 1)

Title: Bright Lights (Chapter 1) A03 LINK

Synopsis: When her school plans a class field trip to a new circus coming into town, Samantha Adler decides that she's going to go regardless of her mother's rules. After all, it's just a circus--what could possibly go wrong? Sequel fic to the 'Small Spaces Quartet' by Katherine Arden.

Word count: appx 1500

notes: I won't really be putting notes on this one like my regular fics; there isn't anything to really warn for outside of what you might find in a middle-grade or maybe YA horror book.

The brilliant blood-red and orange leaves came by mid-September in sporadic patches, lining the neighborhood with mismatched trees in varying shades of summer green and autumn colors. In October, the older leaf-peepers that arrived on tour buses and clogged up local bed-and-breakfasts would complain that some of the trees had already gone through their good colors and they never used to be gone by then, but in Samantha Adler’s view, it was their own fault for waiting. 

Samantha--Sam, unless she was feeling fancy or was in trouble--liked the way the trees looked as she walked to school this time of year. She often admired the way the patches of red and orange contrasted against the green, and the way the sunlight sometimes shone through them if she ran out the door a few minutes early and caught the sun rising at a certain angle. 

This morning was, unfortunately, not one of the mornings where she got out the door early. She forgot to unpair her headphones from her phone before going to bed, so she didn’t hear her early alarm. It wasn’t until her mom rapped on the door and stuck her head inside, saying her name way too loud and way too frantically, that she’d realized she overslept. 

Her alarm had been set early because she would’ve liked to take a shower and spend a little more time on her outfit and maybe put on some makeup. And because she had something really important to ask her mom, and she wanted to think a little more about how she would approach it. It was hard to convince her mom of anything, especially since they moved back to Evansburg. 

She really wished she had remembered to unpair the headphones, because the thought of showing the permission slip to her mom without at least twenty minutes of preparation made her feel like she might just vomit up last night’s bedtime snack all over the carpet.

Well, if wishes were fishes, I’d have an aquarium, she thought to herself. There was nothing to do but speed-run her morning routine and hope for the best. 

She only had just enough time to throw on clean clothes (or mostly clean; they passed the sniff test, anyway) and tie her curly brown hair into a ponytail before heading downstairs. She took a curious sniff before she made it all the way downstairs; it didn’t smell like anything, which meant that her grandpa was either having a bad day or he was still sleeping. 

Sam lived in a colorful house with faded paint that had seen better days. It was the house that her mom had grown up in. Inside and out, it was varying colors of a faded Easter Egg that desperately needed a fresh coat of paint. The neighbors--and everyone else--called it “the Egg.”

There was a time when she didn’t live at the Egg with her mom and grandpa Roger. When she was very young, she, her mom and dad all lived together in an apartment in Burlington. Eventually, her parents had moved into a rental house with a patch of grass big enough for Sam to run around in. That had been Sam’s home until she was 12 years old, or about three years ago. 

That was before the divorce and… everything else. 

Sam hopped off the last stair and grabbed her backpack from its spot leaning against the staircase. It was a terrible place to leave her backpack, her mom routinely reminded her, which is exactly why she often left it there. Rebellion had to be taken wherever it could in the Adler household. 

“Grab some breakfast,” her mom said as Sam crossed the threshold into the kitchen. She already had her laptop out on the kitchen counter and from the way her fingers were flying over the keyboard, was knee-deep in work emails. Aside from her mom, the kitchen was empty, which was a small relief. 

Olivia Adler worked at the Evansburg History Museum, which was a small local museum that wasn’t even open to the public most days, except during leaf-peeping season when it drew in a modest amount of tourists. It was a noted step down from her previous job in Burlington, Sam knew, but her mom took it because it was mostly work-from-home. 

Sam eyed the bowl of pre-poured cereal, plate of leftover muffins and orange juice that her mom had set on the counter. Definitely not her grandpa’s doing. If her grandpa Roger was having a good day and woke up early enough, the kitchen would have smelled like freshly baked bread or cinnamon french toast or homemade apple cider. Her mom cooked, too, but not as often as she used to; and nothing she made was ever as delicious as grandpa’s food. 

Sam sighed and sat down on one of the stools shoved up against the table. She picked up one of the leftover muffins that her grandpa had made the day before and began to chew. It still tasted great, though she would have to hurry up and eat breakfast or she’d be late for school. 

That was okay, she thought, because it meant she didn’t have time to agonize over what she was supposed to ask her mom this morning. She would just have to get it over with and ask and that was that. 

As if on cue, a notification popped up on her phone. It was her group chat with Elisa and Owen, her best friends. Elisa’s text was in all-caps on the top of her screen: “DID YOU ASK YET??” Sam quickly shoved her phone back into her pocket and hoped her mom didn’t see it. But her mom still had her eyes glued to her laptop. 

Just ask her, Samantha Adler, and stop being such a scaredy-cat.

Sam hated the way her stomach did flips when she was nervous. She took a drink of orange juice to wash down her muffin and then cleared her throat, glancing at her mom to see if she noticed.

Her mom looked up and paused in her typing. She grabbed a muffin of her own and took a small bite.

“What’s up, kiddo?”

Sam fought the urge to roll her eyes. She wished her mom didn’t call her things like kiddo or honey-bun anymore. They were such childish nicknames, and she was 15 going on 16. She wasn’t a little kid anymore. It seemed like her mom had started using them again more frequently in the last few years instead of less. 

The orange juice tasted too sweet for her nervous stomach, but Sam took another sip before she spoke up again. Her hands were starting to sweat a little as she pulled up her backpack and unzipped it, then pulled out a crinkly piece of paper that had been weighing her down like a brick for the past few days.

Olivia Adler raised her eyebrows.

“Did you get detention?” The question was said in jest. Samantha Adler never got detention. “Or expelled?” Her mom smiled a little, which made Sam feel a bit less horrified by what she was about to ask.

But only a bit less horrified.

“No. It’s um,” Sam said, feeling like her throat was both too dry and too sticky at the same time. Just get the words out, she thought. Maybe she won’t say no this time. “It’s a permission slip. For a field trip.”

She quickly set the paper on the counter and shoved it towards her mom with slightly shaking fingers. “It’s also extra credit for Humanities.” She took a too-big bite of her muffin, chewing through her words as if that would somehow lessen the blow of a possible rejection. “It doesn’t cost any money unless you want to send me souvenir money, but I don’t want to buy anything there, it’d just be fun to go for once.” The last words came out quick and hurried and, she hated to admit it, hopeful.

Olivia’s eyes scanned the page and Sam felt like she could practically read her mom’s thoughts as the text went from generic permission slip form to a detailed description of where they’d be going. Because that’s when her mom’s face went from coolly neutral to frowning, her lip quirked down in a thin way that Sam knew meant she was biting the inside of her cheek. It was a habit she’d seen her mom do a lot lately. 

Olivia sighed and set the paper down. She tapped her fingers on the counter. It was like the words floated in the air before they left her mouth, filling the empty kitchen with a heavy tension. 

“Sam, I’m sorry, but…” She began, but Sam snatched the paper from her mom’s hand, shoved it in her backpack, and made for the front door. 

Tears pricked at the edges of her eyes and she was glad her grandpa was sleeping, because if he was awake, he’d probably make her stop and talk it out with her mom. 

She didn’t want to talk it out. She was tired of her mom always gently saying “Sorry, but…” She was even tired of the way that her mom always looked genuinely sorry about it; looked like she had something she wanted to say to Sam to explain away her refusals, but never did. 

“Sorry” wasn’t going to get her on the bus to the field trip with her friends, was it? 

Ignoring her mom softly saying her name, Sam shoved her feet into her shoes before she hoisted her backpack around her shoulder and left the house. 

Grandpa Roger was sleeping, so she didn’t slam the front door.

But she really wished she could have slammed it hard enough to shake the house. 

#bright lights #small spaces #small spaces quartet #fanfiction #afterwitch writes #gonna tag all the chapters for this series with 'bright lights' #also uploaded to ao3!

[bthearst]

Book Review

WHAT MOVES THE DEAD by T. Kingfisher

Genre: Gothic Horror, Fantasy, Classic Retelling, LGBT

Rating: 5/5 mushrooms

It was my inability to remember names that led me to discover T. Kingfisher’s What Moves the Dead, while looking up ‘who wrote Mexican Gothic’ back in September. The cover art caught my attention on the “Users Also Search For” segment of the webpage—a beautifully haunting illustration of a hare embraced by a series of mushrooms. I made note of it, promptly forgot about it, only to come across it once again when looking up yet another Gothic title. This time, I logged into my local library’s portal and placed a hold on the novella the moment I saw they had a copy on hand.

Going into What Moves the Dead, I knew nothing of it other than it was a Gothic Horror involving mushrooms. Two months after coming off reading Silvia Moreno-Garcias’ Mexican Gothic, a book that very quickly became an all-time favorite thanks to my love for the genre and the delightful inclusion of Hispanic representation, I was intrigued by this wave of fungi-based nightmares. Part of me worried that it would be too similar, that because I had already read something with multiple tropes and themes in common that I would be impervious to the frights in store.

I am bone-deep pleased to say that I was wrong.

A reimagining of Edgar Allan Poe’s The Fall of the House of Usher, What Moves the Dead tells the story of Alex Easton, an ex-soldier who receives a letter from their old friend Madeline Usher. In the letter, Madeline begs Easton to come visit as her twin brother believes that she is dying from a mysterious illness. Easton, having been Roderick Usher’s commanding officer during the war, feels obligated to do so. The first chapter not only introduces us to Lieutenant Easton and their very sassy horse Hob, it also provides a bleak introduction to the ominous Usher Mansion, and the tarn that haunts it.

Skipping ahead, I read the author’s acknowledgments at the end of the book where she explains that the inspiration for this novella came from her revisiting Poe’s story and wishing there had been more to it. This worried me since the whole deal with Gothic Horror is the deliberate avoidance of giving away too much. I wholly understand that this is a personal preference, but I prefer it when my horrors are vague. The imagination will always be more powerful than the words on a page or the images on a screen, which is why fear truly manifests itself once the book or movie is over and we’re alone, in the dark, in our beds.

Not only was that worry unnecessary, but I was served a masterclass in storytelling in just 158 pages.

I will not give away too much but the “culprit”, to give it a name, becomes apparent pretty early on, and Kingfisher does a hare-raising good job at using that knowledge against the reader. The knowing makes for a visceral experience, makes the realization slowly sink in and stick beneath the layers of one’s own skin to the point that the reader is forced to become aware of their own lungs. The reader knows what can happen, and then it does happen, and then it gets pushed so beyond the boundary of one’s expectations that putting down the book for a couple of moments becomes an absolute must.

And that, my friends, is some good fucking horror.

Now, this masterclass did not end there. As I previously mentioned, What Moves the Dead is a novella. It’s short, sweet, to the point, and while I desired with my whole soul for this to have been an epic, I’m glad that it wasn’t. Because of its length, none of the characters overstay their welcome, and Alex Easton will stay with me for a very, very long time. Because, while Mexican Gothic delivered on that sweet Latine rep, What Moves the Dead delivered the most unexpected of representation for a piece set in 1890:

[…] Denton likely thought that a sworn soldier would be a seven-foot-tall Amazon with one breast cut off and a harem of cowed men under kan heel. […] He was likely not expecting a short, stout person in a dusty greatcoat and a military haircut. I no longer bother to bind my breasts, but I never had a great deal to worry about in that direction, my batman sees that my clothing is cut in proper military style. – What Moves the Dead, pg. 17

This is the part where I stopped, re-read the passage, picked up my phone, and yelled at everyone who would listen. Our protagonist is nonbinary, and the surge of euphoric delight that short-circuited my brain has kept me going for the past three days. 

Gallacia, much like Ruritania, is a fictional country with its own language and cultural rules. Here, people who are not career soldiers can become sworn soldiers: soldiers who could not enlist by traditional means and are sworn in by personal choice. The Gallacian language has multiple sets of pronouns outside of he/she and el/ella, including pronoun sets specifically used for “children, rocks, and even God”. Soldiers have a single set of pronouns as there is no binary within the Gallacian military, but once the war ends, soldiers go back to using whichever pronouns were theirs before. Easton explains in the utmost sensible fashion that once the war was said and done, they simply did not feel the desire to shed the genderless set of pronouns they had taken on.

Not only are they nonbinary, they go by neopronouns. I cannot stress enough how well this was handled within the context of the narrative, where an American character with no prior exposure to sworn soldiers is deftly introduced to them, and takes it in stride with the grace of a medical professional. While it’s not all picturesque fields and easy walks, with instances of characters mistaking Easton for a man, which they then explain that it is somewhat easier to accept than being taken for a woman (complicated gender feels, I get it), the entire idea is succinctly and masterfully incorporated in a way that does not come off as jarring for the reader.

In short, What Moves the Dead is a book I will return to time and again. It is evidence that genre mixing works, that diversity works, that laying a clear path of well situated foreshadowing works. It’s gorgeous, it’s witty, it’s modern despite its setting, it’s accessible, and it elicits genuine feelings of horror and compassion. 

I recommend getting comfortable once the sun has set, wearing a fuzzy pair of socks and a hot drink one of these cold winter nights, and losing yourself to the sharp prose and phantasmagorical imagery that Kingfisher has exquisitely delivered.

Trigger warnings for What Moves the Dead include: animal death and mutilation.

#what moves the dead #t. kingfisher #book review #gothic horror #horror #fantasy #lgbt books #queer reads #nonbinary characters #trans characters #t: mitch reviews

[kraefishh]

nintento direct thoughts

yeah so hi i deliberately stayed up until 7am on a work night in order to watch this and do not regret a thing.

-> splat3 dlc looks cool!! will i play it? no. does it look cool as hell? yeah!!! I personally don't like splat3's actual single player campaign so unless im able to access the dlc without finishing the main campaign then... im not playing it lmao. it looks cool as fuck though!! i like whatever the hell they had going on with the glitchy taz hunger looking goop that produced skeleton fish. pearl + marina lore is also a win in my book -> i dont actually have all that many thoughts about the smrpg showcase but MAN it looks cool as hell. at first i didnt like the revamped graphics but now theyre growing on me.... plus the trio attacks??? HELL YEA! i hope the remake will make me actually finish the game this time around instead of start it twice in the past three years and then quit within the first few areas (<- i say as if this isnt a normal problem i have regardless. thanks, its the adhd)

-> SaGa Emerald Beyond actually looks interesting?? like I know nothing about that game series but the character designs look very cool and i like the concept of a multiple outcome story based entirely on which character you play. do i think i'd actually play this game? no, probably not. looks cool tho

-> despite me being The pokemon nerd i have nothing to say about the new detective pikachu game. i dont like the voice they gave pikachu imo. i think thats just cause im spoiled on movie detective pikachu being ryan reynolds... i joke i kid. kinda. also i never like. actually played any detective pikachu games so i got nothing

-> WAS NOT EXPECTING A TROMBONE CHAMP PORT, TO BE QUITE HONEST

-> cool that were getting a new wario-ware!! not sure how i feel about like the.... forms? is that what theyre called?? w/e regardless im not sure how i feel about em. but its a wario-ware game so its bound to be weird but like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

-> FUNKY KONG DIDDY KONG PAULINE RELEASE FOR MARIO KART WAS NOT ON MY LIST. SO SO HAPPY THOUGH. peachette is whatever. no idea where she came from

-> gotta say i completely forgot among us was on switch so seeing the crewmates i was like "are they making a fucking spin-off game for switch?" no. i just forgot. the fungle is a funny name though i appreciate it

AND THEN

THE LAST THING I WAS EXPECTING

A PAPER MARIO THOUSAND YEAR DOOR REMASTER.

I was laying there in bed at 7:40am and was like. oh cool one last thing before its over. its probably gonna be just another title release of something or a sneak peek on some dlc.

and then i hear the music.

THAT NOSTALGIC MUSIC THAT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE IM SEVEN YEARS OLD AGAIN

-> yeah anyway so i screamed "WHAT!?" at the (metaphorical) top of my lungs (because it was 7:40am and people were sleeping). ttyd getting a remaster is so so cool. and now that i know its possibly getting a re translation that makes me even more happy. give us trans vivian....... i also just think its very funny that ive been playing ttyd on twitch for the past. year now? (ive taken a shit ton of breaks) and theyre making a remaster?? now? not complaining im having a blast playing it with my cohost but HHADGHGAKDFJ

-> i'm mostly just excited for the remaster cause it'll hopefully bring traction back to the paper mario series. idk about like the general consensus of the fandom but like. the paper mario series has been needing a pick me up for a HOT MINUTE.

-> no i am not going to play the remaster of ttyd for stream. maybe on my own time. we'll see. i dont see the point of finishing the og only to then, like a year later, play the remaster. especially when i have a TON of games backlogged on my list since i only stream once a week. more often than not, not even that. i am planning on doing rpg tho

#krae rambles #nintendo direct #ttyd #stream things #also yes im staying up now to write this on a work night at 5am what of it #this is normal #have a good day

[birdofdawning]

The Woman From the Sea

6. Orderliness

The beginning is here; the previous part is here.

Jane has been wearing gloves since the Woman From the Sea met her. They are black woollen fingerless gloves, and she wore them while she ate and then while she washed the dishes. She’s wearing a sweater too, but this doesn’t seem as odd. Her hands seem to be stiff or sore too, judging by how she moves them. Cutlery was just a little bit tricky for her, and she gritted her teeth several times as she manoeuvred the plates with her fingertips while she washed them. An injury? But in both hands? The Woman From the Sea is curious, but she is also shy; she knows Jane is angry with her.

“Okay, you can have this room. I changed the sheets this afternoon. Aired it out in case you were staying.” Jane opens a door off the hall and the Woman From the Sea steps into a small, white room with an iron-framed bed taking up most of the space. The window faces east, and she can see a rotary washing line in the twilight. “Yeah, it’s pretty basic,” Janes says, looking around. “But at least you didn’t turn up here in winter. These side rooms get icy. I usually sleep in the common room through January and February. Stay by the fire.”

“It’s very nice,” says the Woman From the Sea politely. “Um, I guess I could sleep in this?” she gestures down at her borrowed clothes.

“Oh! You probably want a shower! And a change of clothes too, hang-on.” Jane darts out of the room and is back a minute later, carrying some more t-shirts and pants. “Sorry, not used to guests (obviously). Uh, I have fresh underwear but nothing, uh new new — would boxers be… Oh, hey, maybe don’t look in there…"

But it is too late. Exploring the room, the Woman From the Sea has opened the trunk at the foot of the bed and is staring, eyebrows raised. “Oh!”

“Not mine!” Jane hastens to assure her, cheeks red. “As you probably guessed, it’s been all male crews before me. So when I took over I had a big tidy up and…” she gestures at the trunk and cringes. “I didn’t want to… I don’t know, burn it all or whatever; I mean, I’m not always gonna be the keeper…”

The Woman From the Sea reaches in and examines the contents. “What an exceptionally large collection of pornographic magazines,” she says.

“Yeah. Well. You know. Guys,” says Jane. “I actually forgot it was in here.”

“There is material here from the Seventies!” The Woman From the Sea has started making piles on the floor, only half-listening to Jane who has started explaining about the shower, and tank water, and possibly there are some warnings about brevity and economy. But she is content for the first time in many, many days, sorting out the various periodicals of explicit pornography. First chronologically — year, month, issue — then by title. Perhaps she pauses over the older covers, just for a moment, admiring some of the sleeker women of the Sixties and Seventies. She takes note of two issues she will examine more closely later. When she is finished she carefully stacks the periodicals back into the trunk, keeping them in order.

“So you’re easy to entertain,” says Jane, making her jump. She looks up and realises that Jane has been watching bemusedly from the doorway this whole time. Or perhaps not: she has a towel now too.

“I like to organise things,” explains the Woman From the Sea, rising.

Jane hands over the towel and the pile of clothes. “Well, don’t touch my books. Or dvds. I know where everything is. Or at least,” she adds, “ask me first. Or take one at a time?”

The Woman From the Sea hugs the clean clothes. “Thank you, Jane,” she says, smiling shyly.

“Yeah, well.” Jane looks away. The sharp angles of her face catch the light in a way that pleases the eye. “I’m gonna guess you need me to explain about the shower again?”

“Yes, please.” And the Woman From the Sea follows her down into the laundry house.

She decides that Jane striding forward in a shapeless woollen sweater and work slacks is currently more interesting than the old trunk and its salacious contents.

#I'm so sorry I don't know what this is #I do not understand pornography so please excuse my bloodlessness #rizzoli and isles #maura isles #jane rizzoli #jane and maura #canon divergence #the woman from the sea #Jane is a lighthouse keeper

[dorothea-wieck]

Christa Winsloe's gift to Hertha Thiele

Re: previous post from the same day.

PRE-STORY

Less than a day ago, (probably in relation to #Sylvia und Sybille) the post's poster had remembered that Christa Winsloe gave Hertha Thiele a book with an inscription. It was shared by Thiele in her 1981 interview.

The wrong idea was that it was one of Chris' published books. The post's poster thought that the translated version of the interview vanished as its page was empty (had an error or something) some time last year (or even durning several attempts to access it.)

The thought that didn't turn into actions was to just look for all Chris' books to try to understand which one it could be.

Finally, the idea was to try to open English translated version of the interview. It is there :D :D :D

THE INTERVIEW (English): http://tlweb.latrobe.edu. au/humanities/screeningthepast/reruns/thiele.html   (DELETE SPACE)

After short time, the idea was to save the interview. Screenshots or to copy and paste somewhere weren't very appealing, so . . . Wayback Machine (also known as Internet Archives, i.e. cached copies of pages of websites as they looked at the time of saving there.) And . . . it IS there since 2015. The post's poster did it, but forgot completely.

https://web.archive. org/web/20151004000000*/http://tlweb.latrobe.edu.au:80/humanities/screeningthepast/reruns/thiele.html    (DELETE SPACE)

To access, find a date with a blue circle (there are three, 2015) or click at either the beginning or end date above the calendar.

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SEARCH RESULT INSIDE OF THE INTERVIEW (THE BOOK'S TITLE.)

"I still have a book, The ten year old's love (Die Liebe der Zehnjährigen) bearing a personal dedication from Christa Winsloe, which she gave to me after the theatre premiere." (NOTE: As it is about Berlin, it's 1932 stage version with not only Thiele, but at least also with Hedwig Schlichter as Fräulein von Kesten. (See THIS post for Frl. von Kesten on stage https://dorothea-wieck.tumblr.com/post/656343966970757120)

Results via Google related to the book had nothing interesting, as well as somewhere where the book might be accessed for downloading. Nearly the same Google search didn't give even a short summary. (No matter with the author's full name or without, in German or English (the title), with the word buch or without etc.) HOWEVER, THE BOOK CAN BE BOUGHT :)

BUT it had already turned into a quick research and then . . . a site with the reason why the search was impossible apart from the book's title on various websites.

(English text is thanks to Google Chrome automatic translation.)

Source of the information (if the reader of the post wants to check): https://www.berlin. de/berlin-im-ueberblick/geschichte/berlin-im-nationalsozialismus/verbannte-buecher/suche/index.php/detail/5033    (DELETE SPACE)

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WHY THIS EXACT BOOK AS THE GIFT.

The book Die Liebe der Zehnjährigen (The Ten Year Old's Love (maybe The Ten-Years-Old's Love as it is grammatically correct) was banned by the fascist party. Why? Undoubtedly (even judging only by the gender-neutral title no, it's a masculine word*, thanks to https://www.online-translator. com/conjugation%20and%20declination/german/j%C3%A4hrig  (DELETE SPACE)) it's about same-sex love (two boys or a boy and a lad/man.)

* The explanation is that the word "järigen" is second declension(al?) form, which means possession. In English, it's shown by "of" or " 's " (The Love of Ten-Year-Old or The Ten-Year-Old's Love.)

 As the gift, the book has meaning. It's Chris' one more attempt to convey her feelings to Hertha into something less obvious than a note about a lot of kisses that weren't accepted by Thiele. A ten-year-old doesn't have any adult feelings, they're pure in every meaning of the word. They're definitely not about bed-sharing with all what can follow. The title is the hint about Chris' romantic personality, not the adult part of the feelings. (One-sided huge love is sooo sad, poor Chris.) At least, HT kept the book even nearly 5 decades later (since 1932? to 1981.) 

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SOMETHING ABOUT THE BOOK.

If look at one of results, AbeBooks (the site from where the book can be bought) . . .

LINK https://www.abebooks. com/first-edition/Liebe-Zehnj%C3%A4hrigen-Roman-Milde-Hedwig-S/31084242219/bd   (DELETE SPACE)

Somehow, here it has 234 pages, which is far from 96.

In description about the book (its conditions etc.) there's so called excerpt, "Und wir umarmten uns und küssten uns wie toll." (ENDE des Romans)" ("And we hugged and kissed like mad." (END of novel.))

Therefore, unless, it's about +/- the same aged people, 10-years-old is only in the beginning (no matter which amount of the novel it occupies), and then the child grows up to older age (unknown which) and kisses follow, but still, it's only like Chris' note about a lot of kisses that keeps the feelings PG-13. Unlike the note, there are pages upon pages to show Chris' love.

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Based on the link about the word's forms, feminine version for year-old's is jähriger. Time: 1932. Who: Chris (a 43 year-old woman.) Therefore, the version would be Die Liebe die Dreiundvierzigjähriger.

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A. *A talented, very romantic, beautiful woman is courting a woman, but no success* B. The woman's fan(s) who is (are) woman (women) too: To be in such a situation, nearly exact situation (better situation in the World, please and thank you) ♡♡♡

(It turned out to be a mini article, sorry.)

#Christa Winsloe #Hertha Thiele #1930's #1930s #interview #gift #long post

[weebliss]

At the Moment

I'm lying on my stomach typing this just trying to recover from a book hangover. I finished Haruki Murakami's "South of the Border, West of the Sun" tonight and I do not know what to do with myself. I want somebody to talk to, that's for sure but I ran out of data so I'll just have to suit myself by writing my thoughts about the author right now and posting this entry tomorrow.

Murakami was the face of a sponsored ad on Facebook before so I tried reading his "Kafka on the Shore" because I thought it was about Franz Kafka (not that I read his "Metamorphosis", no I haven't haha I'm not ready for it). So on I went reading what I found was a weird story then. Ugh. I swore to never read his works because I am scared of how he can make me believe that it is reasonable for a cat to talk, an old man to be inhabited by a tangible spirit, and to acquit a protagonist from his mistakes because I can relate to him-- somehow. That book was my first taste of magic realism and it was an odd experience considering that I started reading novels when I was 18 and my tbr list was filled with YA novels. I was 20.

But I reconsidered reading his works when a colleague recommended him to me. Said he's great blah blah blah. I thought I missed out something from him so I read "Norwegian Wood" and what a terrible year it was (is, it's still 2018) to read that book. The book speaks volumes and resonates a collective yearning of something I cannot put into words but warning for younger readers that this is not for the faint of heart. Better read his works in your 20s or when you think you have a stronger sense of self and reality that you can defy or discriminate his facts from his fantasies. Anyway, I read "South of the Border, West of the Sun" next because it has a simple plot structure just like NW. Turned out, I was just intimidated with his style that's all. I cannot keep up with his imagination good thing he has these books I consider "normal". So yes, I'm done with them and I want more. Maybe I can handle some of his complicated works this time haha. I want to read his "Dance Dance Dance" or the one with a sheep in its title hehe.

I do not have hard copies of his books. Been reading e-books for four years, just imagine how thick my lenses are now - - not that thick haha but the progress is alarming. I want to buy a real book this time. The question is when. I do not want to go out of the house in this holiday rush. The books just have to wait.

Yes, I'm done blabbing about Murakami hehe. I forgot I also read his memoir on running. I have so much respect for this very private man. I wish him to live until I finish reading all his works.

That is all :) I kind of transitioning from YA to more complicated books. Not the classics. I do not have enough patience for them hehehehehe although, I force myself to read Shakespeare, Austen, and Hemingway for a start. I usually read textbooks since I was 5 not only for requirement but also for leisure just imagine how boring I am. Nothing has changed though. I am now in the 4th chapter of an old literature book my favourite teacher gave to me. Hehehe I know I need to get a life but you don't understand. I also understand life like this.

#31

[xjxaxi]

COLLEEN HOOVER SUPREMACY

I just recently discover Colleen while browsing Pinterest but before that I’ve been seeing It Ends with Us from different social media platform. I just saved it just in case i forgot the title and just in time, my d-day i went to Fullybooked to check what’s new. Btw im not gonna call myself a book wormer. Oh its that even a word? Lol. But i read a lot of books but i bought a lot of books more than i read books. So while browsing in the bookstore i finally saw IEWU and without hesitation i bought it. I just told myself that this is one of my bday gift to myself. It took 3 days or a week to start reading it. But after few pages and story became interesting i finished it today. My friend told me that this book was a bit hype only and its not worth to read. But me, i feel Colleen, i feel Lily and i feel Ryle. Every scenarios, every situations where Lily had to protect his mom to his abusive dad there’s me crying behind the book. Thinking about how i saw same situation since i was a grade school up until college. It was a miserable life, it was hard. Coz all you have to do is to tell them to stop. That you just grew up waiting for them to start fighting then you start screaming and stop them again and again. Nothing to spoil here but its just that this book is very timely. That i had to write in here, my safe space, my diary and my outlet. Very timely to the point i was asking myself why people can’t easily forgive other people. Been there and still there. The trauma i had when i was a kid - it’s hard as f*ck now that im thinking about it. I thought i forgave everyone but this time its different. Especially that im a bit old and matured now. But Lily’s story make me realize that the effect of what happened to you when you were a child is what have you become in the future. The fearfulness of getting touch by a person you don’t know. The reason why you got scar in your head because your dad and mom was fighting then when he throw the stainless glass to your mom it exactly fled to your forehead. The exact word told by your boss that having physical pain can possible be related to your childhood, kind of trauma. And stories related to domestic abuse triggers you even more. IT SVCKS. That i overcome everything while growing up. I don’t wanna add those here but it hurts me like hell whenever i hear my mom cry and what’s even worse is to feel this pain again after my mom leave us. I already forgave my dad. I gave him a chance to become a better dad to us. I guess that’s the main reason why my mom left as last year because he wants my dad to become a good father as he never did before. I just hope that one day i can also forget all those days that whenever i cant control the chaos in our house i smashed my head in the wall, hurt myself by blades and crying every night. I hope mama knows how i protect her before i hope at that point she knows that i love her and i hate her seeing her with those bruises. I love you mom thank you for being a good mom to us and for helping us to forgive papa. I know that you love him so much to the point that you have to endure all the pain for 27yrs. We love you. Again, I WANT TO BE YOU WHEN I GROW UP. BRAVE AND BOLD. Lovelots, jai

#colleenhoover

[the-letter-horror-lover]

One Last Time by Senyaloveschoco

Anime » Boruto: Naruto Next Generations Rated: T, English, Angst & Mystery, Boruto U., Naruto U., Sarada U., Sasuke U., Words: 31k+, Favs: 7, Follows: 2, Published: Jul 30, 2021

1Chapter 1: Uzumaki Boruto

Before starting with the fic, I wanted to let you guys know that I've uploaded the whole thing on wattpad as well.

The user name and title is the same. So if anyone wants to read it there then you're welcomed :)

Uzumaki Boruto.

My son...

...died.

It feels like yesterday. I still remember it very clearly.

The day he was born.

I was away on an important mission. Though the moment I got the news I booked it back in full speed.

I had to make rounds of the whole god damn village.

I was so happy I forgot where the hospital exactly was.

I was the last person to arrive at the time of his birth. Its funny how mad everyone was.

That was a heavy day, we were all worried.

Almost all my childhood friends, and elders were present.

They didn't even let me utter a single word, Tsunade and Shizune didn't even budge without giving me an hour lecture.

Shikamaru was trying to hold me, though he could only do little to stop me from barging through the operation door where Sakura was operating Hinata.

I could hear her painful cries, but since I was so late. I wasn't allowed to enter in the middle of it.

They said it was my punishment . How dare they. They were all my worst enemies that day.

Finally Shikamaru had to use his shadow possession jutsu to freeze me at one place.

I was so mad, and Sai was only making it worst.

I was so confused, scared, excited and .. So happy that I just couldn't act sane.

And the moment I was about to activate my kurama mode and destroy the whole wall containing that damn door.

I heard it.

Sounds of crying.

Voice of a baby crying.

My baby.

"Uzumaki... Uzumaki Boruto." Was the first thing that came to my mind.

Words couldn't describe what I was feeling at that moment.

The minute I entered the hospital room.

I saw his face. It looked like I was looking at a little shadow clone of my own.

Crying in Hinata's arm... Was a bundle of blonde happiness , tugged in a warm towel.

My hands were shivering. Hinata's smile made my heart at ease, but I still had doubts.

Was this for real?

I wasn't dreaming?.

This precious thing... This new little life.

It came from me?

This was.. My child..My son.

My little Boruto.

I couldn't control myself . Maybe that was the first time I cried so genuinely after so many years in my life.

The feeling of being a father.

The feeling of knowing how ready I was to end my whole damn life.

For this one person whom I just met. I didn't cared about anything else.

I was scared.

Scared that my rough hands might hurt him.

That I might scare this fragile little life.

That I'll make him cry.

What will I do if something happens to him?

I didn't even wanted to imagine that.

I'll just die.

That's what I always thought.

Yet here I am today...

Standing shamelessly at my Son's funeral.

Why was he the one who has to die?

Why?

"Hokage sama... I'm really sorry for your loss. Maybe you should consider taking rest for a few days. "

Says the daimyo.

Hokage? Yeah.

Everyone calls me the hokage. The strongest ninja of the whole world.

The one who could conquer any difficulty. Who can make the impossible possible. Huh?

Strongest Ninja my ass.

One who couldn't even protect his own child.

He died... He was murdered.

...Few hours later...

Just leave me alone. Damn it.

"Though I'm glad that your other child is safe. Things could've gotten worse. "

Says the village elder.

If this isn't the worst then what else do you expect?

My son died trying to save his sister.

The one whom I should've been protecting.

Both of them .

But he had to die protecting her instead.

Why..?

Why.. am I.. always... so useless?

A useless husband. Even worse of a father.

... Few days later...

Stupid old hag.

"I came to know how you dealt with those rogues...You're a public figure Naruto, you should keep that in mind–."

The rouges yeah. They killed him.

He was just 11 he could do little.

Yet he went and did so much.

They kept stabbing him brutally and he... He endured.

He didn't even scream. He didn't uttered a word.

My son was more brave than those bastards could ever imagine.

He was the son of the Hokage.

Even more brave than me.

Yet I never noticed.

Never acknowledged him.

He kept chasing after me and I kept ignoring him.

And now... I lost him. Forever.

"–You can't just stab someone bare handed!That too infront of so many people?! Just what were you thinking?! "

Shut up... You old hag.

But she was right... Just what was I thinking?

I was too soft on them.

I shouldn't have killed them so easily.

That too infront of so many people. I was naive.

I dissapointed them.

Hinata.

Himawari.

Sarada.. Shikadai.. Inojin.. Shikamaru.. Sakura.

And the list goes on.

I dissapointed them all.

But I just couldn't think sanely. And those pests died so easily.

I wasn't satisfied. And I know they weren't either.

They wanted my judgement to be brutal.

Just like how those bastards did it with my son.

My son would never return.

They took him away.

Who would bicker about me being busy with Hokage duties?

That I never come home to my family?

Who'll call me stupid old man?

And smack me in the stomach if I dared to fool my family with a shadow clone.

Jumping on my stomach to wake me up in the morning.

Everything he gave me.

They took it all away.

They took him away from me.

And I'll never get it back. I'll never feel his warmth again.

I could never hug him again.

That irritated face he makes, no matter how happy he was whenever I hug him.

He will never try to copy my ninjutsu moves.

And turn red in embarrassment whenever I caught him doing it.

He would never share secrets with his mom.

Never chuckle seeing me getting annoyed because they left me out of it.

He'll never come back. He left me all alone.

Yet I wish...

I wish he was punishing me for ignoring him all this time.

That it's all just a prank .

That he'll come jumping at me the moment I opened the door back home.

I'll scold him but we'll laugh once again, just like the times before. I'll cuddle him tightly in my arms.

The arms meant to protect him. Meant to make him feel warm.

And he'll promise me. That he'll never go away from me ever again.

Never again.

But it won't happen.

Because my son... is dead.

2: I'll do it for him

I couldn't save him.

He'll never forgive me.

He'll hate me.

He'll hate me forever.

These thoughts always scare me at night.

Nightmares always ruining my entire sleep. I'm afraid of even entering my bedroom.

Whenever I close my eyes... I see his face.

He smiles at me.. He plays with me.

He asks me questions.

Questions I have no answer to.

He asks me why he couldn't meet his mother?

Why is he kept away from everyone?

He asks me why can't he see his sister.

He asks me where are his friends.

He asks me to tell him my story.

If nothing else. Atleast teach him a new justu.

And I just stand infront of him like a fool.

A complete ignorant fool who can't do anything he asks for.

Who can't answer anything.

He takes me to play with him everynight.

Something I couldn't give him when he was alive.

I just observe him from a distance.

He speaks. He speaks a lot.

And I just listen. I chuckle and he pouts.

When he's with me. He's always scoffing yet smiling.

Just like how it was before.

Don't take me wrong. I'm not that stupid.

I knew this wasn't him.

That it was just my brain playing games with me.

Playing with my emotions.

I wanted to forget it. To forget him.

But the moment he smiles at me. The moment our eyes meet...

I couldn't say it.

I couldn't shove him away. My lips would freeze , my hands automatically moving to embrace him.

And damn he disappears before I could even touch him.

I couldn't touch my own son.

All I could do was see him breaking in front of me.

My heart breaks everytime he asks me if I hate him.

That why don't I ever answer him?

I don't say anything.

And now.. He just smiles at my silence.

A smile that speaks his mind. That he has finally began to understand.

What I couldn't say.

Though sometimes he breaks. Unable to take it anymore.

I could see the tears forming in his blue eyes.

The eyes I adored with my heart. The eyes that reflects my own self in them.

And those eyes...that were once bright and full of light were now dull.

I knew it hurts.

It hurts a lot.

But I can't even touch a single hair of his head.

It was like a punishment.

My punishment.

I couldn't endure it anymore.

I needed forget him. Forget his existence.

Anyway, anyhow.

Just keep him out of my mind.

Hence , I forbid it.

The very mention of his name in the village .

Everyone says I've gone crazy.

They're the one who's crazy.

They don't know anything.. They don't understand. Everytime someone mentions his name my blood boils.

Don't you dare speak of my son as someone pitiful.

He didn't sacrificed himself to be looked down upon.

And I was right.

Slowly but surely... everyone started forgetting.

Forgetting about him.

Everyone... But me.

But why...why do I still feel angry?

How he used to roam all around the village.

Painting the Hokage mountains. Causing trouble for everyone.

Calling me names.

Iruka Sensei would always complain about his slang language.

Others would wonder where he the heck he learned that sexy jutsu of his.

And I had to hear it from Hinata..because ofcourse, he got both of them from me.

And I would scold him once again to end the day. Everyday.

Funny that he would go to his room scoffing, only to start all over again the next day.

There wasn't one person in the village who hadn't been a victim of his pranks.

He and his little group.

Though no matter whoever was involved. I always scolded him.

And he wouldn't budge. He would scoff like a child and try to act like an adult.

They say he was just like me but he would never believe that.

The father in me always wanted to tell him.. how true that was.

To teach him how to improve with his little tricks.

But the Hokage in me would say otherwise.

And now he would never know.

At first... I was afraid of seeing this fake figure always appearing before me.

I wanted to get rid of such hallucinations.

Such nightmares.

'Dad...? '

Just go away.. Please.

'Why..? Why don't they talk to me? Do they.. hate me that much? '

Just let me live. I don't know anything.

'Old man.. You..You don't hate me right?'

And just when I started to show improvements.

"I... "

He would always draw me towards him.

"I could never hate you son.. I love you. "

Things didn't change untill one day–

–I saw another dream.

This one totally different from the ones so far.

I called out to him while he struggled in cold shackles. I asked him to come with me.

We'll start over, we'll do it again. And this time.. I won't disappoint him.

But he didn't listened. As if I woke him up from a deep slumber. He looked at me in disbelief.

Before he smiled... My eyes widened.

And just like that...he disappeared.

Once again.

He didn't show up again. For almost a week.

And I... was going crazy.

I was ready to give anything..

Any damn thing just to see him once more.

Just one more time.

But I didn't knew how.

How? How do I reach him?!

The thought of never seeing him smile at me again.

Not calling me his 'old man' again made me cry.

I would wait for night time. Hoping that he would come.

Only to fall asleep in the middle.

Now I hated these peaceful nights. I despised sleeping at all.

And just when I was about to reach my breaking point...

It happened.

He came. He came back to me.

Disturbing my sleep.

Appearing in front of me during the day.

And I cried my heart out that day. Because I was happy.

That day I realized.. It was actually the opposite.

I didn't wanted the hallucinations to stop.

If this was a disease. I didn't wanted to get rid of it.

Since that day, a new fear engulfed me.

What if he stops playing with me? Stop asking me questions?

What if... Just like that time.

What if he disappeared for real one day?

Forever?

No.. No I couldn't.

Call me a coward.. I don't care.

I just couldn't live through that.

Hence, I decided.

The only goal of my life.

And I'm not backing away. No matter what. No matter how.

And thus I began working on the new quest of my life.

Even if no one forgives me for what I was about to do.

Because I'll do it.

I'll do it for him.

3: Uchiha Sarada

...5 years later...

The night finally reaching its mid point.

The weather cold and dark.

Though no matter whatever the condition of the atmosphere were like.

It won't stop her from coming.

No matter the day, no matter the time.

When she's sad, when she's happy .

Whenever she feels frustrated or whenever she feels angry.

Whenever she's broken.

And nothing else can repair her.

She would come to this place.

And she would find peace. Forgetting everything bothering her.

Like a warm hug enveloping her whenever the wind passes by.

And she would hug back with the same softness.

With the same warmth.

She would remember a familiar smile.

Her journey began with no friends whatsoever.

Her father never being home with his family.

Her mother always being busy with work.

All she could experience was sadness.

Though no matter how frustrated she was.

She would still feel at ease to know there was someone who shared the same pain with her.

Funny that he was an exact opposite of her character.

'Cheer up four eyes.'

And she would get angrier.

'Everything will be alright dattebasa! '

Only to smile the next moment.

And that mere memory would make her laugh out all her worries.

Laying out all her emotions.

She would cry yet she would smile.

She would recall her happy moments.

Though she wasn't alone, others would visit too (secretly). She always knew.

But she never showed it on her face.

Her friends would always pick her up when she's down.

Whether it was Chocho or shikadai.

Mitsuki or Inojin.

They would always be by her side. Never making her feel alone.

They'll eat together, they'll laugh together.

They'll catch fishes like the times when he was around.

They'll do every other thing they did back in their academy days.

Iwabe would pick up a fight with the locals everytime.

And then they had to resolve it together.

Growing up all these years, her friends were all busy with their own lives and occupations.

Though they always had time for each other.

Always looking over each other.

They would never let the friendship die.

Whether it was saving the class rep.

Or changing Denki's perception of life.

Wether it was saving Mitsuki. Or making him realize his own free will.

They won't ever break the bonds he worked so hard to maintain.

Their bond was a strong one.

She knew. She knew it absolutely well.

But that wasn't the only reason.

Majority of it was love indeed.

But the rest—

— was regret.

Like a thread that kept all the stacks of papers together. A thread that bounded them.

A sun that shined with brightness and cheeriness.

Passing on his light wherever he went.

A hotheaded, idiot who would never listen to anyone.

Who would never tolerate anyone's wrong doings.

It was hard to believe how a mere kid somehow had an influence in the lives of each one of them.

She would never admit it. But deep down she knew how true that was.

How her own life was so dependent on him. She never realized.

And these weren't mere words.

Cause the girl saw it in front of her own eyes.

How the papers scattered when the thread was taken away.

But she worked hard.. They worked hard to get the pieces together.

It was a dark time.

Though Time heals every wound.

Years passed by and the pain subsided. The feeling of remorse faded.

Now everything was finally back on track.

Or... Was it?

"There you are!."

The young shinobi huffed , deep breaths going in and out his small chest while he slowly climbed up to the end of the cliff.

"I've been searching for you all over you know? Shikadai-san suggested me to find you here. "

She made a slight irritating face.

Damn that Shikadai.

"Well. Congrats? You found me. What now?"

Turns out, the sudden interruption in her 'seldom' peaceful time managed to make her tone darker than she intended to.

Though Tento didn't mind. Instead his focus shifted to the vast view in front of him.

"Woaaah.. I never knew we had such an amazing view of the village from here. "

He remarked. And she smiled.

Shining under the dark yet twinkling blanket of the sky, embedded with thousands and thousands of stars.

Was the Fire country's strongest military village.

The starry sky itself had no comparison to the astonishing brightness, the place was decorated with.

Make no mistake, it wasn't due to an ongoing festival or any special event.

The Village Hidden in the Leaf were mostly if not always a centre of attraction for its pronounced power and influence.

Something the hidden leaf shinobis were proud of.

And that included Uchiha Sarada herself.

"That's right. You can say its one of the best places for sight seeing. " she responded in her calm voice.

Her eyes sparkling with the reflection of the well lit village.

Her long hair dancing with the wind.

Though what sparkled more than her eyes was the small metal chain hung around her neck.

"If I'd known you come here in your leisure time. I wouldn't have searched for you all over the village everytime. " he sighed in annoyance.

"Yeah. Unfortunately you've found my secret hideout." She tried to joke but it didn't earned the response she wanted.

"Hey! You're my sensei! Shouldn't you be happier that I take my training so seriously? " he asked in a defeated tone.

The Uchiha only gave him a 'seriously' look and giggled ever so slightly.

Though Tento was never a very keen observer.

But something seemed to have drew his attention ever so much that he couldn't help but ask.

"That chain... You don't usually wear it do you? "

He shifted closer for a better look. His curiosity getting the better of him.

"This is the first time I've seen you wearing that—"

Only for the Uchiha to immediately turn to the opposite side.

The moment turned so awkward, neither of them said a word.

Tento's eyes never left the sight of the silver neck piece. It was familiar... though he didn't knew where he last saw it.

After a short span of silence the Uchiha spoke again.

"I... only wear it when I'm visiting here. "

Her voice was slow and her face hidden.

If anything the boy knew he might've asked a very wrong question.

And that required him to immediately change the topic

"Yeah.. I mean. Shikadai-san is so selfish! He only told me about this place because he needed me to inform you something. " He began scratching the back of his head.

That caught the Uchiha's attention.

"Inform me? What is it? " She asked taking the time to immediately unwore the chain and hide it in her pocket.

Tento noticed though the genin pretended not to see.

"He wants you to be present in tomorrow's meet."

He replied already turning towards the way he came from.

"Tomorrow's meet... Sure I'll be present. " The uchiha responded after a while,thinking deeply.

"Sure. I'll see you tomorrow! "

The genin smiled and walked back a few steps.

Before he haulted.

"Ah yes.. I heard Sasuke-san is coming back to the village. " he winked and drifted back.

A smile crept up the girl's features.

'Papa... '

Though it faded the very next moment.

"Why is he coming back now after all this time..? "

Could it be related to the recent mysterious happenings?

Leaders all over the five great nations had yet to discuss over the matter.

It was still a classified piece of information, only known to very few people outside the council.

And Sarada Uchiha being the member of one of the special anbu units , was one of them.

Though it wasn't yet a matter, serious enough for someone like her father to intervene.

"I wonder if he found some kind of clue. "

Though no matter how much she ignored it. Something inside her was screaming that things weren't as simple as they seem to be.

...Meanwhile at the scientific Ninja tools headquarters...

"Is everything ready yet?! " Katasuke huffed, screaming from the past 20 minutes the scientist was now super tired.

A large circular machine in front of him, covering almost the entirety of the big round room.

"Unit 1 ready doctor! " The person on the left answered.

"Unit 2 also ready sir! " the person on from replied.

"Unit 3 ready doctor! " The person on the back exclaimed.

And at last, the wide man shifted his smiling gazed towards his right.

"Unit 4 also ready doctor! " The main gave a big thumbs up and Katasuke could hardly suppress his proudfull grin.

"Kyaaa! I can't believe this is happening! We're finally beginning with our grand success! " Akita exclaimed followed by laughter and cheers from the co-workers.

"Silence folks! " Katasuke responded. His tone deep yet happy.

"We're now beginning with one of our biggest experiments! I thank all of you for all your hard work all this time. " The doctor gave a hearty speech.

Tears escaped the corner of his assistant's eyes.

"Doctor... " they said dramatically.

"NOW THEN! " he pointed towards the centre, all gazes set on the small red button his fingers hovered over.

"And—" He puffed in some air, increasing the force on his fingers.

"—BEGIN!"

*Click*

The Nara's eyes suddenly met the dark ceiling of his room.

It was still 3 AM.

His gaze shifted from the ceiling to the closed door.

Then around the whole area of his 'home office room'.

No one.

His eyes were still sleepy. He didn't knew when he fell asleep while last night.

'A hallucination? '

Though he wasn't sure exactly what woke him up.

He did knew it wasn't anything pleasant.

A feeling crawling up his spine. The Nara sighed in frustration.

"How troublesome... Why do I feek like something very wrong is going on somewhere.?"

He waited for a while before his eyes went heavy again.

Maybe it was just a wierd dream.

He needed to be ready for the morning ,hence the man drifted back to sleep again—

—only to wake up on a shocking news from the scientific ninja tools headquarters.

4: What the future entails

People say life goes on.

And it certainly does.

But not for everyone.

Since often if not always, the Uchiha finds himself in the same old circumstances.

Trying to stay away from unwanted attention.

Be it too much love and affection.

Or hateful gazes reminding him the past.

He just prefers keeping himself away from the tiresome stuff.

Hence whenever he visits back home (Which he rarely does) ,he always finds himself near the river.

Alone.

He can't help it.

How many days pass everytime he doesn't show his sorry face to his family?

He'd lost the count.

To his wife waiting for his arrival.

To his daughter that hardly sees him.

Though everytime he manages to somehow make it up to them.

Afterall they were his only family.

The only people he looks up to meet at the village back home anyway.

Excluding Naruto of course.

The few times he does return though, he does so with a commitment.

A commitment that he won't run into any more trouble than he already was in.

And he was succeeding everytime.

His daughter turned 10.

Luckily, he had attended the birthday party this time.

Yet even though being at home, he never felt like it.

He knew it was stupid. He just couldn't help it.

Just few more days left before he leaves again, for god knows how long.

He made his way to the Naruto's home.

Handing in the scroll he found at Kaguya's hideout.

He had planned to have some dinner with his family afterwards.

He rung the doorbell.

No answer.

Reaching out with his only hand to knock at the door, Sasuke frowned.

Naruto's chakra. He didn't noticed at first.

Apparently the blonde wasn't home.

About to turn back he heard footsteps running downstairs straight towards his direction.

Though before he could comprehend anything—

—a small fist came flying straight to his face.

As expected ,he catched it with ease.

Blonde hair, blue eyes and whiskered cheeks.

Naruto...?

No.

Not possible.

"You.. You're Naruto's son?"

And the tiny blonde had nodded in agreement.

"What's your name? "

Again. Why did he even bother asking? Its not like he cared anyway.

All he cared for was handing the scroll and getting done for the day.

No more trouble so far. Good.

Just hand it in. And back to his family he'll go.

He was successful yet again—

"Uzumaki Boruto. "

—or perhaps, he spoke too soon.

That was probably the first mistake Uchiha Sasuke had made.

Though he made sure it'll be the last.

#boruto fanfiction