#i might be overreacting or misinterpreting

[idkwhatimdoingbutslay]

… I can’t imagine that we actually watched the same show. Like I REALLY AISNSOSNWKMEJDND

hold on I’m gonna need to calm down.

Let me just make a list of why I disagree and at least organize my anger. Long post incoming.

Vander was friends and had a deal with Grayson. The sheriff. Idk what else to even add to that

Caitlyn is more than a cop and Arcane isn’t copaganda. Genuinely don’t know what kind of progress some of these people are looking for. Real allies are a necessity for real progress.

SILCO IS A CLASS TRAITOR. HE FUNNELLED DRUGS INTO THE UNDERCITY AND PUT POOR KIDS IN FACTORIES FOR THAT DRUG FOR PROFIT!!! HE PAID THE ENFORCERS TO LET HIM DO IT WITHOUT CONSEQUENCE

Vi is not as much as an activist as you would like to believe

WHY IS EKKO NEVER EVER BROUGHT UP IN THESE CONVERSATIONS????

Silco was not good for the Undercity

Silco was not a great guy. Ekko had to build an entire separate hidden community for the people he hurt and stepped on for his own benefit

Caitlyn is ignorant and naive. That’s ok. That’s what character development is for.

Loving imperfect characters like Silco and Jinx then hating characters like Vi and Caitlyn is peak media illiteracy to me

FOR THE LAST TIME: VI DIDNT ABANDON POWDER!!!!! Silco literally wanted Vi DEAD for trying to stop him from killing Vander??? How could you possibly say silco was there for jinx when Vi refused to be???? SHE WAS IN PRISON BECAUSE OF HIM???

Silco’s manipulation is working wonders on y’all

Embracing all the outrage without at all looking out for the people harmed by bigotry is not activism

SILCO IS A CLASS TRAITOR x929282929394

Caitlyn was the first person in years to show Vi kindness and care. She listened and stuck by her and took care of her after Vi was locked up for years and beat up by cops (i wonder what led her to be thrown in there?). Cait being a cop stopped being a point of contention once Vi recognized her naivety and genuineness.

NUANCE NUANCE NUANCE. ITS NEVER EVER BLACK AND WHITE

The only way I can see Vi touching ‘class traitor’ in season one was the shimmer raid. Guess who the hell put those kids in there in the first place.

Just hanging out with Caitlyn isn’t being a class traitor if Vander’s allowed to be friends with Grayson.

Critical thinking is very necessary for watching shows like Arcane

What the hell did Silco really do for the Undercity???? What changed over the 7(ish) years he was basically in power of the place? All I’ve heard was he made the air cleaner, which would be great except for, you know, shimmer and the child factory workers

Jinx is unwell and feeding into it like this in a fully serious manor would not help Arcane as a show at all

What do you want Arcane’s message as a full show to be? ‘Screw cops’? That’s a little boring and unproductive isn’t it?

CAN WE TALK ABOUT EKKO AND HIS IMPACT PLEASE???? x9382728283

Caitlyn is trying to make Piltover and Zaun a better place. Is that not allowed? Am I missing something?

Caitlyn and Vi’s arcs have only just started. Season one is basically fully set up except for characters like silco and Jinx. This is far from the end.

Genuinely think Vander would appreciate Vi for being friends (using this term loosely because they are in love) with Caitlyn considering he was the one who was opposed to war and Vi wasn’t.

Silco should NOT be your idea of Undercity independence and respect. He oppressed the Undercity the same way the Council and the Enforcers did. He helped no one but himself, his team (barely) and Jinx.

You’re allowed to like and dislike any character you want but pretending like Silco is better for the Undercity than others is just so ridiculous to me. Everyone is of course completely allowed to like Silco, but we can’t pretend like he’s this stand up guy. If you have to pretend like he was, maybe you don’t like him as much as you think.

“Because Cait’s pretty” is also incredibly incorrect. Go check point #14.

Vi never stopped loving and caring for Powder. Powder’s mental health issues were amplified and utilized by Silco because he couldn’t even heal himself.

If all of your opinions of Caitlyn and Vi start and end with “cops suck” and “class traitor” then you genuinely don’t respect Arcane as a show enough to show you nuance.

The misinterpretation of characters is just so … it’s like you go out of your way to love and/or hate characters no matter how much they show you who you are.

Your closed mindedness is clouding your judgement and making you out to seem like you don’t actually want the Undercity’s triumph, you want Silco and Jinx’s, even if it means ruining the Undercity. And that would be fine because father/daughter evil duo but trying to say you’re all for this duo because you want what’s better for the Undercity when they continue to hurt it is simply not correct and very harmful (to fictional characters in a fictional universe 😭)

Only being able to understand how Silco and Jinx were oppressed and therefore should be able to not just destroy Piltover but also Zaun is not the eat you think it is

Why is Viktor never called a class traitor? I think he's great (I also think Silco and Jinx are wonderfully written) but we hardly saw him in the Undercity/ interact with people from the Undercity plus he killed someone (Sky) from there (accidentally)

EDIT TO ADD ANOTHER POINT: Caitlyn has shown little to NO malicious intent and has no real negative impacts other than Jinx’s attachment issues and insecurities being amplified by her mere existence. Again, this is her story and development. Throughout the season she is exposed to reality and recognizes her and her peers/ families wrongs. I have no idea what you want from this character. Should Piltover just be gotten rid of in the story? Then what? Should Caitlyn have just never gotten involved and continued to embrace her privilege? Should she have left Vi in prison and stay ignorant?

#arcane #arcane league of legends #arcane netflix #point number 32 sums it all up I think #i blocked most of the people who added and made the post so they wont see this lol #i might be overreacting or misinterpreting #maybe i didnt watch the show right #or maybe i did and some of these people are bad at this #some points are most definitely redundant #and im open to people disagreeing.... respectively lol maybe dont wish death on a character and ill hear you out #again i wouldnt dislike silco as much if he wasnt put on a pedestal by people who swear theyre all for the undercity #i wrote this kind of in anger so like sorry about that lol #anti silco #<- for tagging purposes if this is too silco critical for the people who like him #to slay or not to slay #caitvi #this is the second repost because the first two didn’t show up in the tags cuz I messed with my settings 😭😭😭

[unganseylike]

my anxiety has been ridiculous the last two days for a stupid reason, and i just rewatched the trolley problem episode of the good place and why do its vibes feel just like my anxiety. u are put into incredibly stressful situation. some people are moderately bothered by this, but no where as much as you. someone is telling you its just a simulation, so why are you so upset? you have blood all over your face. also, someone adds, its just a simulation, but the pain is real to give it stakes, btw. you already knew there were stakes. you are a fundamentally bad person.

#misinterpreting a sitcom and doing great👍🏼 #its literally something so stupid but i think just hit me at wrong time so now im overreacting #and then it crossected with my existing indecision over planning something career related so now im catastrophizing about that #meanwhile my sister texted me 20 times to basically tell me im an ungrateful bitch #im coping well by ignoring people and taking my remaining rationed medication that was not prescribed for anxiety but works for me sometimes #ik objectively therapy wld be better choice. But like. ok i believe in therapy for people just not me. #my sister is trying to be a therapist. and shes the one telling me im an ungrateful bitch so yknow. might be arrogant but i know myself #better than people like that. would be down for some real prescription meds tho #in conclusion. chidi and declan my anxiety stomachache comrades forever

[toastsnaffler]

okay can we have a new rule that if you're my friend and know I struggle with rsd from adhd + you're planning on hanging out with mutual friends but specifically aren't inviting me for whatever reason. Maybe Don't Tell Me About It

#id just rather not know man. even if I cant go or dont particularly want to im going to get stung by it and it rly sucks #its a TON of extra effort i have to put in to emotionally navigate that information without overreacting and making it an issue #wait actually maybe i do need to sit down with her and explain this more explicitly. bc she probably doesnt rly know abt it #even tho ive mentioned it shes rly terrible at reading ppl and i probably dont let on much abt it anyway bc im used to dealing w it #ugh. but also its rly embarrassing to talk abt and ill have to tread so carefully to make sure it doesnt get misinterpreted. hmm #but itd be worth it if she stopped so. ill give it some thought #it makes me feel so unreal sometimes bc i cant always tell if im justifiably upset or if im 'just overreacting' so i assume the latter- #most of the time to give myself space to work thru the emotion and minimise the damage i might cause if i AM just overreacting #but then sometimes later on i realise that it was justified but its too late to bring it back up and anyway ive worked through it #and idk. theres smth self disrespectful abt it all im tired of making space all the time and never taking any up myself #im not THAT upset rn like this is a v minor thing but still. might be time to start nipping this stuff in the bud #aaanyway #im procrastinating eating bc i cooked a nice meal but now im not in the mood to eat it 😭😭 but i gotta fuel up..... #ill find smth to watch hopefully thatll do the trick #yawns so loud bye for now #.diaries

[painted-bees]

Thinking about the depictions of Magritte's neurospiciness vs Raf's and

Magritte's struggles are a lot more easy to depict in small little vignettes. Her impulsive, disorganised, scattered nature erode her relationships and hinder her obligations, all which are long term consequences, but the behaviours themselves are spontaneous and can be often adequately captured with in a single scene.

Raf's however…I  cannot fit so neatly into the same kind of 'single moment' vignettes. I can depict an instance of his overthinking and layered thoughts, and give a quick taste of how it colors his mood and outlook for a flash. Like--his ptsd and general anxiety symptoms, I can capture and depict in this way. But the real insidiousness of his personality disorder in particular is that it's always on, and it heats up slowly over days…weeks…months before it hits a boiling point. And if he's not attentive, it can make him mean--cruel, even. The same intelligence and quickness of mind that lends to his timely, insightful, nurturing sentiments and clever, kindly gentle observations are the very same traits he will wield as a violent weapon when he becomes like a fearful animal backed into a corner. He'll say the meanest fucking shit in the fewest amout of words. A snipey comment that'll cut straight to the core, and even if he, in his right mind, didn't mean it, it doesn't matter because it wouldn't be in his mouth if it hadn't been pulled from a thread of truth. No amount of "sorry" can heal that without a leaving behind a nasty scar.

But I can't just illustrate him aggressively shooting off this kind of commentary in a short comic without including the weeks of small, seemingly unrelated occurrences that built up to it. It would just be a comic of him being brutally mean over something seemingly benign, and then feeling bad about it…which I suppose is true to how it would look from the perspective of most people in his life, but it's not accurate to his experience and it doesn't actually say what needs to be said.

It would take more panels than I can afford–to illustrate the numerous tiny, benign comments and gestures made to and around him that get folded into the slowly-growing malignant mass of misinterpretations, uncertain observations, suspicions, and worries. He's gotten so good at identifying them, dismissing them as irrational, and pushing them to the back of his mind. The idea of overreacting to a 'non-issue' or an imagined slight is mortifying to him and doesn't align with the kind of person he wants to be. But--these things sit hot in his brain regardless of how he reacts to them--and often times, he will hold them there whether he means to or not. The temperature builds up with each new situation, thought, concern…and he may fail to notice when his brain has reached a boiling point--he'll meltdown. 

In fairness, his episodes usually see him shutting down and isolating for a few days…a few weeks…a month.

However, should anyone reach out during that time, it is most certainly because "they can't just leave me alone, people are always, always gonna bother me for shit they want from me. They just can't fuckin' help themselves, they can't let me be." And any attempts to converse with him will be stilted at best, unpleasant more often than not, and relationship-shattering at worst. Again, if he feels backed into a corner, if he can't get far enough away, left alone, given his "space"--he'll say the meanest shit. He'll make you go away.

Unfortunately, ghosting people; cutting them off and going completely awol for weeks at a time can be just as cruel and destructive to a relationship as a sharply pointed, brutally wielded comment or accusation might be. 

He has so many friendly acquaintances, but genuinely no friends. No one who will text him after work or ask to hang out with him on the weekends. Partially, he does not want this kind of relationship, and actively discourages them (as he once had done with Magritte). Largely, he still has not figured out how to maintain or enjoy them. They feel unsafe.

After all, not everyone is as patient, understanding, forgiving, communicative, and accommodating as Magritte has chosen to be. But even Magritte finds herself in the splash zone of his negative, paranoid moods and behaviours. She is quick to point out that, save for one time, Raf has never been mean to her. But the eggshells she has to walk on sometimes are there because she hates to see him upset and hurting--and it can be so difficult to know what will make him clam up or become defensively grumpy. That, and she can't help but feel personally responsible for his worst moods, even though he himself would rather hammer nails into his own palms than accuse her, in earnest, of being a source of misery in his life.

Raf works so hard at keeping a lid on his cruellest personality traits. It's exhausting, but "paranoid, mean, and unreasonable" is so far away from who he wants to be. He hates that it's who he is in his weakest moments. And--especially after reading online about the experiences of other people who've been in relationships or had parents with his particular disorder–the fear of exhausting Magritte's patience and becoming a "traumatic past experience" in her life is an ever present anxiety. 

But at least he can talk about it with her.

And trust her with it.

#ramble bramble #Hi-Note #magritte #rafael

[freedom-barricades-bighero16]

Collaboration needed!

Hi guys, Alex here!

So I've been thinking about creating a Big Heroverse Massively Multiplayer Online RPG/Visual novel (based on the 2014 film, the TV Series and it's IDW comics, the Baymax! miniseries) for quite a while now, but I need people that I can collaborate with.

I will be able to do the story writing, concept art and basic graphic designs.

In addition to myself, I'll need:

Additional writers

Artists (characters + someone who can create the environment and backgrounds)

Animators

Musicians / composers

Programmers

For now I'm probably going to look for one or two people in each category I've just listed. I think the final game I'm picturing would end up being fairly big (something like a MMORPG with a gacha game model... For lack of a better/shorter way to describe), but I think it might be better to start small first and don't be too ambitious to begin with.

And if you're interested but can't contact me immediately, that's alright! I still have my graduation exams to worry about, and if you don't know, I'm also quite overwhelmed myself with adulting and mental health. So if there are days where I had to cancel last minute or overreact to / misinterpret things, allow me to apologise in advance and please forgive me.

(Oh and about copyright issues. I am hoping to make this into an official game in the future but we don't need to talk about copyright for now. We can worry about that later)

Lastly thank you again for taking your time to read this and potential interest in bringing this dream of mine to life! Peace!

#big hero 6 the series #big hero 6 #bh6 the series #bh6 #baymax! #signal boost #game development

[adleryoung]

I moved Zandar from the Folly where she had been compelled by necessity to give birth, and placed her in a comfortable bed in the Palace. I set up my stew cauldron and began cooking, so she would be awakened by pleasant and appetizing aromas.

"Ah, you're awake," I said, as she began to stir. "I made stew. Have some. It will restore your strength."

All she said in response was "Where's Wulfrida?" referring, of course, to the princess.

"She's safe," I said, after sipping the stew to make sure it was up to my usual standard. "You really should try the stew. It's delicious."

"What have you done with my daughter?" Zandar reiterated, with a note of belligerence.

"She's safe with a lowfolk family," I explained. "I traded our child for theirs. I believe you are familiar with this practice."

"But why?" she said, rather foolishly since the answer was obvious. Fine, if I was going to have to spell it out for her …

"It's traditional for elves to leave the rearing of our young to someone else," I stated, keeping it as simple as possible so she could not fail to understand. "Besides .. the thought of you with an infant is frankly appalling. I don't want you anywhere near her. Your stew is getting cold," I added, holding out the bowl to help ease the mood since I could see my remarks displeased her.

"Okay," she grumbled, actually more reasonably than I expected. "So what did you do with the lowfolk baby?"

Zandar didn't need to be burdened with the details about the O'Dors' dead child - and I admit I was starting to feel embarrassed about having made, in a moment of foolish soft-heartedness, such an uneven trade with some lowfolk who had not actually done anything to deserve it other than being descended from someone I liked. So I evaded the question by reminding her of the delicious distraction I had prepared for her.

"I made stew," I declared simply.

That's when she went berserk.

In retrospect I can see how, in that context, my words could have been misinterpreted. But only a completely twisted Unseelie mind would ever leap to such a horrid conclusion!

Zandar attacked me and called me all manner of nasty names. I fended off her blows with ease, thanks to Adoyret Sam's training (though alas, I dropped the bowl of stew) and wound up with her in an inescapable Gnostermonger hold.

"I'll kill you!" she snarled.

"That's inadvisable," I said, thinking of the Vulpitanians, Lana, the Shrub Army, Estvan, and the Boy Dukes. "Beings more powerful than you have tried and failed. You're overreacting, my dear. This is all standard elvish practice. I realize it is new and strange to you after living so long among lowfolk, but in time you'll relax and accept it."

"The only way I'll relax is if I'm dead," she protested over-dramatically.

"But Zandar, my sweet," I whispered, "I can't kill you." Which was true; the geas that had been placed on her made her impossible to kill … but more importantly I wouldn't have WANTED to. Once again she decided to interpret my statement in the worst possible way, because she was the worst possible person.

She stared at me coldly for a few seconds, then hissed "I'm leaving. Show me the way out of here."

"Through there," I said, pointing toward the Gateway arch. "But if you leave this realm, you may never return."

"Fine," she growled, clearly not thinking this through.

"Our daughter is protected from you," I called, hoping she might reconsider. "You'll never find her."

The dreadful prospect of never seeing her own child again did not deter her from walking through the Gate and sealing the ban that would prevent her from ever returning.

I pooked to the scrying chamber so I could see what happened next.

Zandar was standing, dumbfounded, in the stone circle - and wearing the outlandish costume she'd had on when she arrived, and which the Gate had removed when she crossed over into Faerie! I had not expected all of that stuff to be returned when she crossed in the other direction, but now that I had seen it, it made sense.

She wrestled with the constricting garments, and was able to remove the shoes and gloves - but Venatrix had made the dress to my exacting specifications, and Zandar could not remove it herself.

After failing to take off the clothes, Zandar cried for a while, collecting the tears in her little magick bottle. I couldn't blame her for having an emotional outburst at such a low point. I had done it myself often enough.

When she had wept enough, she yelled impotent curses at me, then got up and began trudging away - straight toward Bunkirk! Those insane rabbits might do anything if they saw a well-dressed skunkess come walking out of the "haunted" woods! And the collar of her dress was magicked to prevent her talking to strangers! This could be disastrous!

#furry #adventure #elves #story #plot #cartoon #skunk #tboay

[mrgaretcarter]

Weekly Ted Lasso bummer post, this one is gonna be about Rebecca. I’m turning off reblogs because I don’t really need a second opinion, I just wanted to organize my thoughts and put them somewhere. I’ve already spoken to a lot of people about it, if you’re one of them, this won’t have anything new. Again, I reserve my right to be completely wrong later, these are just my right now feelings. Anyway-

The way they handled Rupert and Rebecca’s relationship in the latest episode bothered me.

Don’t get me wrong, I liked the window into their past, I don’t mind Rupert coming across as a human being, I enjoyed getting a better sense of why they were in love once and I’m glad Rebecca has allowed herself to move on but something about it, I can’t quite put my finger on what, feels like it undermined the fact that Rupert is an abuser.

The way it was handled, in my opinion, belonged to a marriage that ended in resentment because Rupert lied and cheated. Period.

In fact, it felt so detached from their history of abuse that I found myself thinking that what they shared in this episode was, in essence, something I would’ve liked to have seen from Ted and Michelle, except the circumstances of those relationships could not be more different, so why did this feel interchangeable?

Afterwards I even started to question if we were ever supposed to see Rupert as an abuser, if the writers would categorize him that way. Yes, “Wear this, eat that” is on the show, but Hannah added that line, and Hannah has been the person who’s predominantly spoken out about this facet of Rupert and Rebecca’s relationship, so I wonder if the creators know what they were launching by committing to that piece of dialogue.

To be fair, I maybe shouldn’t be surprised, they never really addressed the abuse past the line that revealed it and have played up the cheating aspect a lot more. I thought it would finally come up as we saw Rupert repeat those patterns with Nate, and it did a little, but ultimately it fell flat (to me), especially since they once again made infidelity the breaking point (possibly to parallel Rebecca some more).

It would be sad to find out I grossly misinterpreted this key aspect of the show because it’s a cornerstone of Rebecca’s character and makes her motivations much more interesting. If their relationship was never as nefarious as I previously envisioned it I really need to change my entire outlook on season one.

However, if the writers are aware of the fact that Rupert is an abuser, and see him that way, I find the whole thing even more confusing and stressful, because then does that mean they don’t think of emotional abuse as that serious or traumatizing? Because if Rupert had physically abused Rebecca I am confident this episode would have never played out this way.

Anyway, that’s my big qualm, the whole thing just doesn’t feel like it matches up to what they’d previously established and it sent me on a spiral. I might be overreacting, I don’t know, but I’ve rewatched it twice and I’ve talked to people who disagree and still, this is where I’m at.

#ted lasso #rebecca welton #I need a tag for my rants about this show #tl ramblings

[aroaceconfessions]

I'm not sure if what I want to confess is more about a-spectrum or neurodivergent maybe but it's about feeling things in a different way than the rest of your surroundings - so maybe some other Aro and Aces would relate?

My memories of reacting "different than normal" begin early:

- as a preschool kid when I was told that I "look pretty" - my reaction was: cry. Maybe I was just a bashfull child not knowing how to deal with a compliment but my mom always thought it was unusual.

- in my primaly school whenever I've been called "brave" after having a shot, vaccine or blood sample taken - my reaction was: feeling confused and kind of humiliated. It got to be clear: the feeling was not caused by having injection itself - but by those words that were meant to be a compliment. Why? At that time I was one of the very few children never crying of fear before vaccination but I thought that everyone else was reacting stupidly (what was the point of crying? they could not avoid the vaccine anyway!). But in my head it was them who were weird, I was normal, obviously: a mature and reasonable little person among those unrationally behaving kids. And now adults talking down to me and making a fuss over my "bravery" when I was just being normal - felt like rejecting my rationality and maturity! By them I was assumed to be just another unreasonable child who only exceptionally behaved the right way. Also if I was told "it won't hurt at all" before injection - it felt wrong as well: I took really a lot of shots (treating my otitis as 3 yo) and I've been perfectly aware of that it DOES hurt but in bearable way - so why must you lie to me?! Just do what you have to and let me go, don't treat me like an idiot!

- years later, in my early 20's - when I noticed my peers getting excited about hot stuff and sex topic I felt the same as with injections: I am that rare reasonable, grown up and seriously behaving person surrounded by overreacting immature youth. I got interested in sexual stuff myself too,  but unlike others - I felt like it's nothing to joke at and like nothing I ever wanted to talk about with anyone. My interest in sex gradually became some kind of passion - but it was strictly theoretical and never attached to any particular person around me. Now I already studied scientific stuff about it as well as movies and pictures for years - and whenever I hear anyone using a word "virgin" or insinuations that someone who never had sex therefore is naive and unexperienced - I get that feeling of being humilated: like rejecting my knowledge and maturity all over again! Just because I never done it myself doesn't mean others know more about it than me!

- I know I'm aro-ace cause I never enjoyed anyone touching me in the sexual way or using too much diminutives when talking to me. Just thinking about it makes me feel confused again - as if I was mistaken for somebody else. Sorry, I am independent adult person, not to be used as a sex toy nor be treated like a child - talk to me, treat my body serious, don't underestimate me!

- I feel less uncomfortable thinking about pain. Like when I use electric depilator to remove my legs hairs - it feels satisfying and almost pleasurous. When I went to the spa once with my friend - I could not force myself to take a massage (I hate being tickled so much I might reflexively hit someone in defence). Yet I enjoyed having a body peeling very much. I guess I'd rather like to be scratched than caressed. I sometimes wonder if maybe I would potentially enjoy BDSM instead of sex?

Is anyone else of you Aro and Ace people feeling so confused about others misinterpreting your attitude? Like about diminishing your actions as exeptional and not treating you, your words and your knowledge seriously enough?

Submitted May 3, 2023

#aromantic #asexual #aroace #aspec #aro #ace #arospec #acespec #arose #neurodivergent #sensory issues #overstimulation #impostor syndrome

[tandytoaster]

Very negative :-(

I feel hollow and empty maybe its the time of year maybe its my period maybe its because my stepfather has been trying to talk to me. I think that has been very bad for me. There is nothing I can say to anyone because no one cares. I don't want to stop visiting my mother's but I should because this isn't good for me and its making me scared again. I'll never feel like an adult and I've accepted that and am fine with that but I don't like feeling like I'm in the worst months of being 15

I'm embarrassed and ashamed to talk about my fear because so much time has passed and my family expects me to have moved on by now. It makes me feel like i'm overreacting and I don't realize the weight the words hold and that I've said something very serious about something I misinterpreted but there is nothing to misinterpret. I think something similar could happen again because he's being friendly. I'm no longer scared of a man who is mad at me but I am now scared of a man who thinks he's my friend and I think that might be worse

#noop nooping #negative -

[decafbat]

I assume you get tired of having to act polite and nice to tactless jerks online but dont want to deal with the almost certain overreaction to you actually expressing urself like a person with real emotions and limits

damn this ones loaded. some parts yeah some parts nah? for one, i dont exactly know what my actual full self expression would entail, but it is something i fear when considering doing nsfw art particularly. its something id like to be doing more of, but i would definitely be hesitant, less due to a fear of an overreaction but more an unintended reaction. im sure for some, my characters fill a fetish niche, and thats not something i can control, but id like to do my best to discourage that kind of perception. the "tactless jerks" part i can link to people in my comments who have decided to make their fetishes my problem. people get weird about leica sometimes, and cath too but to a lesser extent. i dont want to get into a discussion about fatfurs, all ill say is that i sort of wish they wouldnt assume everyone drawing a fat character was doing it with fetishistic intent. leica's fat because i'm fat and i enjoy drawing characters that match up with my body type. i rarely feel motivated to establish boundaries, because i honestly appreciate that people find my characters attractive, even if theyre being weird about it. ive been plenty weird about fictional characters before. ill be honest though, and i think this is the most important takeaway here, these types of comments are vanishingly rare. much more rare then i might have let on in past posts about my experience on twitter. in reality, the fear of a mob of people out to misinterpret and degrade your art is usually more detrimental then any reality that idea is based upon. i felt pretty afraid of my audience on twitter, but im thinking lately that it was at least 80% in my head. so to answer the first question at the end of my long rambly paragraph, its not that im tired of tactless jerks, its that im tired of feeling afraid of nothing.

[mechazushi]

Story Idea

Due to a combination of watching Unwanted Undead Adventurer, an influx of period drama webcomics (My In-laws Are Obsessed With Me, Remarried Empress, The Duke Changes Every Night), and some reoccurring tropes I have yet to see subverted, a cluster of errant brain cells decided to have this sit in the back of my head recently, so I'm posting this here before it has a chance to collect dust.

To begin, this idea takes place in a high fantasy setting, similar level to fantasy Iseki. It starts in a newly established town in a recently acquired territory. It has a Mayor, but the general populace agrees that they're just a bureaucratic figurehead for the real rulers of this large and busy backwater territory. A very rich and somewhat powerful family that technically own the land and have Feudal Lord Status (I don't want to make them immediately a Dukedom for reasons explained in a min). The Mayor runs the infrastructure and the family brings in the money to support the town, sponsoring businesses, owners, and buildings alike. One in question is the Adventurer's Guild.

The Guild is run by a woman (Lets label her as FL for now). She's half? Quarter? Dwarf and was an adventurer for many years thanks to her mixed lineage (basically older than she looks while being well preserved) After a harrowing experience and recovered from a non-fatal injury, FL decided to slow things down and work at a Guild. After rising from desk clerk to Management, she gained employment at a newly constructed Guild in a distant land. Most of her days are spent shuffling paper and discussing policies with important people, occasionally broken up with quality inspection checks and introducing adventurers with each other.

Eventually rumors are being spread about a bill that might be passed soon that, to the common folk it sounds good, but could spell disaster for her adventuring friends and colleagues in the long run. FL attempts to quash peoples fears while also lightly and indirectly insults the ruling family. This discussion gets maliciously twisted and sent up the grapevine to the Feudal Family's ears, causing them to respond with a letter stating that FL is to remove herself from her position soon or she will be removed forcefully. Seeing this as an overreaction, she books a meeting with the ruling family to smooth matters over.

She gets there and they make her wait for almost two hours, stating that they are waiting for all family members to arrive before they can discuss things. To make matters worse, in walks the male love interest (ML for now and, I don't know why, but I picture him entering through a second floor balcony for reasons I guess) Agitated and appalled at this behavior, assuming that someone that crazy couldn't be apart of the royal family, FL practically rips into her eventual love interest and tells him how stupid and ridiculous this family is, not knowing he is really the prince, heir to the title of the land. The butler comes in and upon seeing the prince, announces that he has found everyone and the meeting can begin.

FL, in the beginning, can't focus on the meeting to save her life, let alone her career, especially with the prince sitting within line of sight and giving the most intensely neutral expression. Eventually, she gets her act together, saves her job and convinces the family to talk to the Mayor about the bill while proposing some minor changes to its wording. After everyone leaves, the prince walks behind everyone so he can have a private conversation with FL. ML asks if having that meetings' resolution go her way did anything to change her mind about how she see the Lordship and his family. Misinterpreting mirth for veiled venom, Ml responds dramatically with,

"No, I said what I said. Yes, they did eventually listen to reason, but don't forget that this all started by and overreaction to a silly rumor that could of been avoided had someone sent a representative to talk about things. If this response displeases you so greatly as to causes you to talk your family through with their previous threat and dethrone me then you are only proving me right. And as you attempt to drown my words of supposed insolence and rebellion with crates of fine wine and expensive furs, then I pray that this conversation still reaches your ears on occasion and remind you that, statistically, I'm not the only one in this town to feel opposed to this family's existence, but I maybe the first to not recant my opinion under threat." FL leaves him behind as ML only looks at her walking away, smiling suspiciously.

This kick-starts a series of events that unintentionally cause these two to fall in love with each other, exponentially gain power and status slowly through various circumstances , and in the process, realize that their love language is being petty with each other.

Personally, I like to imagine that it starts with ML hiring professional transcribers to write out a hundred letters a day, all saying MARRY ME in fancy lettering and delivers them to the Guilds main office in batches. Only for FL to gather them all, take them to the emergency watchtower (that can be seen from everywhere) and use them as fuel for a large signal fire and uses it to spell NO in smoke signal. This only causes ML to come down to the Guild and register as an adventurer. To make matters worse, he's naturally gifted with a sword and has a confirmed high mana count and powerful spellcasting abilities, which technically make him a high priority adventurer. Irritated but not one to back down from a challenge, FL decides that if he wants to be an adventurer so badly, then he should get private lessons from a once prominent veteran explorer. Her Druid like spellcasting may be considered low tier and basic, but she can (and will) use them to make his informative ventures a living hell. Obviously this caused them to bond, something comes up in a diplomatic sense that he needs a wife like figure for. She gets bribed into taking the role...badda bing, badda boom, they're married for real, have three kids and are king and queen of their own country.

Really, my brain set out to make this to subvert two tropes? that I've noticed.

Guild Masters in media tend to be male

2. Most, if not all, of female lead protagonists in period drama translated from korean/chinese/other are all tall-ish, thin women with long, light hair or black.

No brown hair, no short women, definitely no plus sized. Also minimal permanent glasses wearers. Which I find to be disappointing not because I want to inject diversity, but because short, chunky brunette glasses wearers are an underrated and untapped variety of waifu and that should be fixed. Also how many MAIN characters can you name that are Guild Masters. Untapped job description that could easily add political drama. And owned by a woman? Triple S tier rare my friend.

So yeah. I have other things I'm working on and I don't know if I'll ever be dedicated enough or be a good enough of a writer to make a fantasy political romance thriller. Romance I can do, its the politics I would have a problem with. That and I have NO idea how one would go about asking an artist if they would like to collab with a no experience writer who is kinda flaky on publishing times and personal motivation. So, yeah. If you or someone you know would like this idea and thinks they could really make some magic, show them this. Fanart, short story, actual publication, doesn't matter. I promise I'm not going to show up three years later and be like " Um ACTUALLY YOU STOLE THIS IDEA FROM ME AND I WOULD LIKE COMPENSATION!!!" Seriously, scouts honor, I verify as NOT an asshole. Do something with this or not, don't care.

Really... I'll just be happy to see people talking to me and adding on cute scenarios onto this and we all just share having a collective interest in this silly, long winded idea that I put out here for others creative liberties.

#romance #writeblr #writing #webcomic #idea #original story #optional group participation

[multiplicity-positivity]

HI i'm so sorry if this ask is a mess but um! I recently discovered I might be a subsystem host (ON TOP of being the regular system host which I'm fine with I found that out like almost two years ago and I'm basically cool with that now), and I've been kind of freaking out about it since okay! Okay! There's a layer of complexity basically right underneath my nose! How am I supposed to handle this?

Even worse is the intrusive thoughts of "I want to lock this stuff away and NOT deal with this" but I know that's like. Really bad and not conducive to recovery as well as being extremely unfair since the people in the subsystem have the right to exist and live life.

And like. I know that once I just accept this and learn how to communicate with the possible people in the subsystem, it'll be relatively okay I think. The problems are just: How do I communicate with people in the subsystem or know who's in it and how do I get rid of the thoughts of wanting to run away as fast as I can because I KNOW those thoughts are unfair but it feels like instinct to want to run or repress even though I would never act on that.

I think the first step might be to at least make the folder on our SimplyPlural for the possible subsystem. But even just that feels so overwhelming, especially with the fear that I'm wrong and overreacting or misinterpreting the situation.

Anyways! Sorry this ask was a mess, and thank you for even just reading my messy thoughts; advice is appreciated, but you don't need to reply if you don't feel comfortable.

hey, we’re sorry to hear you’re having trouble making sense of this complicated situation. we also have a subsystem, and for the subsystem host (main fronter?) it’s been a bit of a messy, confusing, sometimes frustrating journey.

as per usual, if you’re not in therapy and are still quite distressed by this, finding a therapist could be a great way to get an expert opinion and generally just talk things through/vent about your feelings in a safe space. therapy has been super helpful for our whole system, including our subsystem. they still have a long ways to go in terms of lowering barriers between each other/building communication, but therapy has helped them achieve the progress they’ve made so far. we know not everyone wants/can access therapy, but we feel it’s worth suggesting.

outside of that, to us it sounds like you’re on the right track. good things can come from fighting those knee-jerk reactions of “i’ve gotta bury this/push this down/ignore this” and taking baby steps to get to know your subsystem. making simplyplural entries for your subsystem’s members (or potential members) sounds like a great idea.

when it comes to how to fight those thoughts of wanting to hide/flee from this… we’d recommend allowing yourself to think your thoughts, to feel the emotions that come with them fully, and just sit with it a while, without acting. it can be hard to control or change emotions and thought patterns; we’ve found that for us, instead of attempting to control our thoughts, trying to control our reactions to those thoughts can be much more productive.

you don’t have to (and honestly shouldn’t!) push yourself here. when you’re feeling lost, scared, and overwhelmed, it’s okay to take a step back or avoid thinking about your subsystem-mates for a while. slow and steady wins the race, and the more you prioritize your own health and safety, the better things could turn out for your whole system and subsystem. when you’re feeling up to it, our post on establishing contact with headmates might help you reach out to the members of your subsystem.

if it turns out you’re wrong, overreacting, or misinterpreting something… that’s okay too. you’re not doing anything harmful to yourself by trying to explore this aspect of yourself and your system. if you find out you’re not actually a subsystem, we promise that’s okay. the work you’ve done to try and get to know yourself is still important, and you’re still valued and important as you are. people are wrong about aspects of their own identities all the time - it’s part of learning, growing, and discovering ourselves.

we hope this response can (at least somewhat) put your mind at ease and help you come to a bit more of an understanding about yourself and your subsystem. if not, we’re sorry we couldn’t have been of more assistance. we’re wishing you hope, understanding, and inner peace as you walk this path. thanks for reaching out, and best of luck to you!

#subsystem #internal communication #long post

[lilqu33rboi]

I had my first (sort of) interaction with an ableist in public today. It may have been an honest misinterpretation on my part due to my overthinking of social cues and whatnot, so I just wanted to know what people think. (It's a pretty long post, so I'm just gonna seperate it here in case you don't care enough to read it and want to scroll past /nm)

My mom, my sister and I were at a dress sale to buy a dress for my sister for homecoming, and there weren't many people there so I felt comfortable enough to unmask. I was just quietly stimming while my sister picked out dresses, minding my own business, when I accidentally made eye contact with someone else who was looking at dresses near us. And instead of giving a polite smile or whatever, or even looking away like I was about to, she gave me this, like, sympathetic look. Like she pitied me for being visibly autistic. It just made it seem like she thought I was miserable or something, which pissed me off because that couldn't be further from the truth. I was *really* comfortable! The lighting was low and it was relatively quiet, so I was just tapping on a hanger and swaying back and forth on the balls of my feet to prevent understimulation. It was actually quite nice, until this stranger felt like they knew me well enough that they could make the *very accurate assumption* (/s) that just because I was stimming, I was automatically uncomfortable.

Like I said, I might have just misinterpreted this whole thing, and chances are I'm overreacting; I just wanted to make sure that my reaction at least makes a bit of sense.

#actually autistic #autism #asd #autism spectrum disorder #autistic teen #autistic community #undiagnosed autism #self diagnosed autism #autistic problems #undiagnosed autistic #low support needs #stimming #stim #tw abelism #ableism #cw ableism #ableist bullshit #fuck ableists #disability #mentally disabled #understimulated #disabled #mental disability #visibly autistic #visibly disabled #unmasking autism #autistic unmasking #unmasking #masking #autism masking

[subtle-edge-of-rot]

I HAD A THOUGHT

THOUGHTS EVEN

ok sooooo

Sinclair (and Mikey?)'s reactions to your pictures online

Vincent probably either took them or helped, and would obviously like them - just difficult to say when, he's got his art to do. I feel like he'd either write something referring to some detail others might miss (he's spend longer looking at it then he'd like to admit), or he'd only talk to you in person.

Lester would be the one to like the fastest cause if there is an option to get notifications, he'll have that turned on. aside from that, he's checking your profile(s) regularly whenever he's not with you, he misses you a lot (Lester is like a freaking puppy in my mind). always happy to see them, but unsure what to comment, or if he should at all.

Bo is probably checking your profile regularly too, and he will not only like but also comment. depending on the picture, the platform it's posted in, and who can see the comments, it might just be a somewhat possessive statement/compliment, or suggestive and lewd. he's gotta make sure everyone knows you're taken, while also showing that he's happy to have you.

I... don't know if Michael would use social media of any type? regardless, I think he wouldn't like you posting too revealing pictures and strongly dislike any suggestive or flirty comments - though he might be prone to overreacting and misinterpreting innocent compliments. if there is an option to check who liked the picture, he would look them up.

- 🔪

Vincent: he regularly takes photos of you—he’s into photography and videography as well. In fact, y’all even have a spicy account where you post lewds, nudes, and videos (your face is never shown—only he gets to see your face when you orgasm). He knows you’re beautiful, so he knows others think so too but he’s not the jealous type unless someone gets close to you. He looks at your Instagram a lot, and often likes your posts, and comments that you’re so beautiful 🖤

Lester: he is an absolute puppy! He’s got notifications on for like…all of your accounts because he loves you and seeing you makes him happy, and because he misses you while he’s out working. He’s usually the first to heart react every picture and comment things like 🥰😘😍🥵

Bo: he doesn’t have notifications on, but he will check your profiles throughout the day. He’s the type to like and comment. It’s fairly innocent most of the time, but sexier pictures have him commenting some suggestive things. If someone comments something a little too thirsty he’ll swoop in and tell them you’re taken. He’s a little possessive.

Michael: doesn’t have any social media accounts. He strictly uses YouTube, tiktok, and reddit, and that’s for the best. He’s easily jealous, so seeing anyone comment on your pictures about how pretty/gorgeous/sexy you are would send him into an emotional tailspin that isn’t easy to come out of. Just send him all the pictures you take of yourself and he’ll be happy…but if it’s too suggestive of a picture he won’t allow you to post it. Some things are for his eyes only.

#payton’s asks #michael myers #bo sinclair #vincent sinclair #lester sinclair #🔪 anon

[katyon2020]

Am I the only one who thinks c!Drean genuinley gives off mentally stunted vibes?

•As other people have pointed out, he at times acts less like a manipulative chessmaster and more like a middle school bully.

•I've mentioned in a previous post, but Dream could have genuinley thought that his and Tommy's ''''friendship'''' during Exile was what friendship actually is or at least what ideally works for him. Which you can absolutely link to some form of anti-social personality disorder but you can also link to his worldview being so self-centered that he doesn't even consider the fact while he's perfectly content with their dynamic, Tommy is just straight up not having a good time to put it lightly, like a kid who doesn't at all understand the consequences of their actions.

•Stretching this one but I can't help but notice that he obviously sees Tommy as a toy and was making sure no one else got their hands on him during Exile, in other words

he doesn't like sharing his toys.

•He has a very simple outlook on the concept of ''Nobody dying EVER'' to the point it's so obviously childish.

•Just.........the way he says how he just wanted friends in the finale.......idk just rreeeeally gives the vibe of a kid who has no idea wtf he actually wants either that or cc!Dream had no clue wtf his motivations were.(*checks off ''obligatory cc!Dream slander so people know that yes, I don't like him at all''*)

•He seems to overreact to minor offenses *cough*Tommy*cough* a lot.

This could 100% be me overthinking things or misinterpreting them as I was a pretty sheltered kid with badly developed social skills so please PLEASE let me know if you think something else is going on but all these oddoties make me can't help but think he might be even somehow more mentally immature than c!Tommy.

And just to be clear, I am not at all using these as a way to somehow justify all the horrible, terrible shit he has done. The green cunt has tortured bitches people, ''I have the emotinal maturity of 7yo'' is not a good excuse. I just really like character analyses.

#dsmp #dream smp #dream smp analysis #character analysis #dsmp analysis

[taylorswiftstylequestions]

Oh wow. That felt so harsh I’m in tears. I wasn’t trying to do that at all. I misinterpreted the BAFS thing I’m sorry. That’s so unlike you I hope everything is ok and I know you deal with a lot of snarky comments. I didn’t mean to be one of them. I don’t know why Carolina is a nothing for me it just doesn’t make me feel anything and I wish it did because it’s really pretty. Anyway sorry to start your day with a bad or annoying ask. I scrolled back and now I see the original BAFTS thing. Oops.

And now that I understand the BAFS premise I realize I don’t have one. I might not particularly care for a song but I don’t hate one so much in that manner. I’m not anticipating a response and I’m probably overreacting to your tagged comments but it was just wow. Like my friend yelled at me or something. Sand she misunderstood me so I want to explain. Why am I crying over this?? You don’t even know me why do I care? Because I feel like I know you and I’ve always had positive experience here. 😢

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Hi! I'm really sorry that my comment drove you to tears - that's obviously not the experience I want people to have here. I recognize now how much harsher that came across than intended - but lack of intent by no means diminishes your feelings. So for that I am sorry and I want to affirm that there was no yelling nor anger on my end. I appreciate your contribution to the discussion and your message was certainly not bad or annoying - I don't want you to feel like it was at all.

To clarify, I think what I meant is more just a general comment that the fandom is so anxious and thirsty and desperate for content and we finally get a new song so to have it met with an instant feeling of, "Meh whatever I never have to listen to it again" felt like quite the downer (which I'm also sure is not what you were trying to convey - which is on me!).

But again I noted that this is fine for you to feel - you don't have to like the song. But it wasn't - as you understand now as you were among a few other people who I (and another TSSer) also playfully reminded - the point of the "BAFTS" concept.