#i wrote this for my partner actually

[my-chemical-aromance]

i’d say that i’m an artist and you are my muse, but no work of art could ever compare to you

words neither, as i could write thousands of letters, sonnets, and poems but that would barely be a toe-dip into the vast pool, the endless ocean of everything

that is you

if i could i would rip my heart out, and give it to you full of sugar

i would drain every drop from my veins to paint the perfect portrait of you

if i could pour my heart, soul, sweat, and blood

maybe i could capture a drop if the beauty that eeps from your every fiber

i would puke up all my guts just to eat you whole

or fall into little pieces

to fulfill your every meal

i would kiss you

over a strawberry milkshake

so i could taste the most sweetest things

wrapped in two

every breath i breathe, is a silent whisper of “I love you”

#this is one of my favorite poems i’ve ever written #its only a part of it #the actual poem is longer but #idk #i dont want to post the whole thing #i wrote this for my partner actually #its my favourite thing #i love my partner #poetry #poem #short poetry #short poem #writing #writer #love poem #love writing #arolovic #qpr #queer platonic #love #yearning #original poem #my poem #my writing #my work #original work #art

[willowser]

will!! I’ve been watching mha catching up on season 6 and bakugou’s voice is soooo!!😭😍 i always forget how raspy it is even when he’s not yelling and it just made me think of how he is with us and he talks and it’s just heart eyes cos his voice is always so deep and croaky and idk why ppl don’t talk about it more - maybe i don’t see it but his voice is just the whole part of his charm and package!! anyway how are u doing willow how’s your day going bff😇😇

OMGGGGG no i agree with you !!!! i remember when i heard his voice the few times he's not been yelling LOL and it's so 🥺 soft ??? while also being so deep and raspy 🥺🥺🥺 and it kills me, it does 🥺🥺🥺 that's how he talks to you 🥺 all soft and calm i would die i would just die SWOOON it IS part of his charm he can tell me anything akfudjsiakla

my day has been good !!! my partner surprised me with flowers and a yummy croissant today 🥺 and we went shopping around a lil bit, and now we're about to eat dinner !!! i hope your day has been good my dear friend 🥺 tell me about it !!!!

#he's so swoon #you know. i usually look at a collection of dabi lines when writing him but i've never thought to do the same for bakugou.... #maybe i should start doing that 🤔🤔🤔 #i wrote some of the fuck-or-die thing today !!! #my partner was actually supposed to go out of town for work starting today but actually wont have to leave until tomorrow #so that was a good surprise also 😌 #you're so sweet i hope your day has been as well !!!! #but you're so right we should talk about his voice more #✿ ask willow

[dystopiagnome]

idk about anyone else but I would love to see any and all anaroceit content you are okay with posting <3

signed,

the roceit anon from a little while ago

:0 roceit anon, my beloved.

Anyways permission from one is permission to post!

#anaroceit #anxceit #roceit #tss janus #tss Roman #tss Virgil #every time an anon becomes reoccurring I imagine the guest star cheering happens #like woah!!!!! You come back to the show!!!!! #Holy fuck!!!! #🥳🎊🎉🎊🎉 #also also also quick explanations! #actually I tried to explain and got embarrassed #BTW THE NOTES GET EMBARRASSING I FORGOT I ACTUALLY LOVE THEM WHEN I STARTED WRITING AND WROTE TOO MUCH deleted more for my dignity #I love my partners and I think they’re cute and I love them and they do these cute little things they make wanna die #Dear beloved Roman kinnie hyperfixates and he’s gone never to be seen again but he goes at it with such passion that he tricks you into #two days straight of only ninja turtles but it’s okay because he’s super into it and living for it #the way that man can love one thing so hard for so long #it’s impressive #so that’s what that last one is #the middle one is less emotional but like you know how in cartoons a character kisses another in passing and the one #who got kissed turns bright red with a dopey smile and hearts leak out of them as they just passively start to follow the other #looney tunes type shit #kinda that except I’m not very keen on PDA so it caught me off guard and this bitch really just let me melt in front of our friends #anyways I’m absolutely enamored by them but apple pie I got an image #I’d like to get used to that if possible but don’t read into that #I’m a little more hesitant to discus that one since I know they read my tags #can’t show weakness to their face they’ll know how to take me down </3 #first one is just we lose custody on weekends and forget until we miss him (very quickly embarrassingly fast)

[dallonwrites]

okay actually looked at the lover boy wip intro again and this has me crazy because the grief in this was meant to all be about bobby but "remember that his favourite fruit was peaches and try not to cry over it" got me because felix's favourite fruit being peaches is like. a recent but definitive part of his character. and i can't remember if i just used peaches as a placeholder for bobby's favourite fruit (he does not give peach to me) and if i first wrote this before or after i decided peaches were felix's BUT now i'm like. what if this passage is him grieving bobby but it spirals around his grief for his relationship with felix??? find a lover the way you found felix and don't lose him this time but also find a lover because you're trying to find a connection as deep as the one you had with your best friend even though you know it can never be replicated. you can never find a lover that will love you like bobby (platonic, to be clear) loved you. find a lover in the fact you are alive even though it makes you nauseous because it just reminds you that your best friend isn't. how do you grieve someone who's still alive whilst simultaneously grieve someone who isnt? trying to grieve two people in two different ways and you feel guilty at the way they blend and blur because it feels like you lose your separate grips on both of them and you don't feel like you have space in you to accommodate all this ache. and like what if i edited all this to make that parallel more clear?? that his primary grief is bobby because he's the one who's dead but he's also grieving felix and probably doesn't even realise it?? and then the two become blurred?? and if he realised this he would actually feel fucking awful about it and like a bad friend?? haha just kidding unless??

#especially the fact that a component of his “find a lover to try and mask the grief” is trying to find a lover in the literal sense. #its near 1am you guys are getting the i dont know if this is coherent infodumping #i wrote an essay in the tags but its gone and i have no idea if tumblr ate it or i somehow put it on a different post but im like oh okay #guess i will just save that analysis for the writing update!! #my lover boy writing updates are gonna be so obnoxious btw theyre gonna be essays theyre gonna be me putting the degree to use #now i can say i actually have one #i wrote a DISSERATION on the exact type of fiction that lover boy is....... #anyway it was about queerness and loss and what loss means thematically in queer narratives #so that whilst the loss of bobby is absolutely monumentally bigger than losing felix as a partner #it is actually not a surprise if beau somewhat blurs his grief for the two #that being said whilst i dont believe in ranking different types of love/relationships #i love the idea of platonic lover and this platonic connection being just as if not more powerful than the romantic one #could essay about that but tumblr might eat it! so!

[altruistic-meme]

............ i want to come out.

#its so hard but also im so tired of this ya know??? #my parents will be back in may #and..... idk. theyll only be here for a month before theyre on the road again for another god knows how long #it was like 10 months this time that theyll have been gone #and i just....... i want to tell them #maybe this is a result of me reading heattstopper lmao #i got to the part about charlie telling his parents about his ed again and just started tearing up #but also I've BEEN wanting to come out i just think i might actually be to the point where i just. do it. #I'm still half tempted to just send the email i wrote lol #i may print it and hand it to my mom just cus i can never actually say things out loud #but also i need to talk to my sister first cus i think I'll need that back up #sigh #idk. i want to so bad. i want to try. #im so. ugh. #its like a block in my chest and i hate it #my sisters partner sent me a photo earlier of some item in bg3 bc it has my legal name #and i kniw she was sending it as a funny joke thing but just... yeah. #anyway #im just ranting as per usual lol #fuck #shh ac

[cerealmonster15]

truly part of why most things i show or whatever r sketchy doodles i did in one sitting is that it is always a race against the clock when im doing something before The Evil takes over and eats me. i get stressed about if i try to actually make something pretty bc i know i cant lol, and if i take too long [staring nervously at the google docs i keep opening and closing] on a fic it's harder to finish bc i start Thinking about it too much and if it's any good or if it's cringe or What Ever

#a battle against myself truly lol .................. #ive been making slow progress on the kalim/silver and jamil/azul story but. but. #im stuck and afraid lol #the heartslabyul thing i started writing a month ago i am like. at the end ? it's a short little simple thing but #ive frozen in like 'oh this is lame and bad and boring and cringe actually' and cant bring myself to finish #i have a cater/trey thing where i wrote up the idea/concept notes when the idea came to me #bc it's both a ship fic and also a character/relationship study #but then thats one where im extra afraid to write it bc it's likeohhh i want it to be good and handled well and i want my #point to come across and i dont want to fuck it up #grrr grrr grrr the downside of perception is thinking too much of. the perception of others JKLFDSJKFLJS #i want to be FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE #also i just have. personal issues. self love issues LOL but im not getting into that rn. #i also have had nasty allergies all week girl help it's raining pollen and my throats fucked up #i took a covid test today just in case and it was negative #and my partner hasnt gotten sick from kissing me so im more sure its allergies lol but OUGHGHGHGHH feels ick #ok anyway. fics and fanart or w/e. it all comes back to the root problem of I Have Low Self Esteem GOODBYE!!!! #🤧🤧🤧!!!!!!!!!!!

[ashfae]

Wake the Snake smut, get yer Wake the Snake smut here *bangs on a frying pan*

No angst or season two plot just good old fashioned shameless post-lockdown sexual tension that gets resolved, plus a first-class tasting menu.

...honestly the whole time @mostlyjustgoose and I were writing this I kept thinking of Neil's "You are invited to a seduction. Please come to dinner on Friday Night. Wear the kind of clothes you would like to be seduced in.” Heh.

#good omens #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale #good omens lockdown #awake the snake #wake the snake #good omens fanfic #my fic #my writing #fanfic #have I mentioned lately how much I love writing with Goose #seriously dear you are the best writing partner #we actually wrote this a year ago and then got distracted #whoops #yes we're still working on Unusual Strings #and other things

[izzyizumi]

Digimon Ghost Game ~ Hiro & Gammamon + {Tanabata}! (Japanese cultural holiday taking place on July 7th!)

#digimon ghost game #digimon: ghost game #hiro amanokawa #amanokawa hiro #hiro and gammamon #izzyizumi posts #(OK so Fun Story Time) #(Way back in 2k13 during Tanabata of that year I was very actively involved in a big 'pan-fandom' wide r.p. {role-play} game) #(This wasn't on Tumblr but it was elsewhere and Anyway so I wasn't playing from DigiAdvs at time though I did have my Koushiro he was just) #(Getting Started with my Koushiro Voice Testing & at time I was testing out other charas too & one is like Japan EmbodiedTM) #(Im Not Saying Who They Were {I had a few Similar} but anyway 2k13 was the year immediately after Grandpa on my not-Jew end passed) #(and I was close to Grandpa on that end & Grandparents in general too & Grandpas passing at time hit me *super* hard too) #(At same time. Multiple people were dropping from the rp game {it was still pretty active but} it had been slowing a bit as a result) #(So I got the idea to have my chara hold a Tanabata event post and it actually got like 1200+ comments total) #(of course half of those were replies during threads but anyway it was a surprisingly big success for me to have made that event work) #(At the time my charas 'wish' had simply been 'I hope for the remainder of the following year to be Good') #(What my Chara meant was 'I do not Need a Wish but if I have one I hope everyone elses Wishes can come true for them') #(and also 'if I must make a Wish I would Wish to not {be the only one left here} by the end of That Time') #(and my rp partner who threaded with me had their chara be like 'I'll wish for your wish to come true' & wrote it in charas 5 languages) #(They didnt Know I also meant re the rp games stability but like anyhow that event post was one of my most fun rp experiences ever) #(Fam deaths hit me super hard & I was in a very dark place at time but being able to experience that event really helped me that year) #(I probably wouldn't have kept this blog running on queue for as long if it hadn't been for things like That really helping in between) #(in general I'm really grateful cultural holidays like Tanabata still exist for Japanese people especially as I am {myself} a Jew) #(& we have our own cultural holidays & they may clash at times with Concepts but at the same time I *do* believe we can have solidarity) #(anyway im super Super Happy that if not Koushiro. *Hiro* could get a Tanabata piece because I feel it fits Hiro+Gammamon a TON too) #(Hiro would definitely be the type to be like 'I wish for the remainder of the year to be Good {for Everyone}' & Koushiro Would Too) #(but it does kind of Hit in a Certain way for Hiro+Gammamons storyline in itself Too & I'm just super grateful Hiro could get July theme) #(because if it really couldnt be Koushiro. & I wanted Koushiro for either Tanabata or Aug 1st in itself if not rainy season {June}) #(Hiro was Next Best Choice & anyway This is also what I mean when I say I think cultural themes with this series should be Acknowledged) #(When They Happen in Various Official Arts or even eps INVOLVING the Chosen themselves because these are *cultural specific holidays*)

[hecksupremechips]

Persona romance routes are all pretty bad but damn they really hit rock bottom with p3p femc route like the misogyny is very blatant and it’s almost hilarious like look at the Shinjiro romance. When you do his social link he’s like very clearly respectful of Kotone as a leader and explicitly says stuff like "oh yeah you’re clearly the best fighter we have, I don’t really know much about fighting like you do, I hope I’m not dragging you down, you’re doing a good job as leader just remember to take care of yourself, everyone looks up to you I know you can rely on them" etc. like he has faith in her leading abilities. But then when you romance him he’s like got dialogue like "bwah bluh i gotta look after you because you’re a GIRL and you need to stick by me, a big strong MAN so you don’t get hurt" and "don’t wear that revealing outfit in front of other guys 👺" and it’s like. Does he respect her or not and also like it doesn’t make sense for him to look down on her for being a girl cuz he literally has never not been led by a girl leader during his time in sees and Mitsuru in particular really has her shit together when it comes to being responsible and a good fighter and she’s always known the most about Tartarus

It’s also like. Idk maybe its just me I’m not a girl so FUCK IF I KNOW but to me the appeal of romancing Shinji is the fact that he’s sweet and sensitive and gentle and has respect for you despite the fact that he acts all scary. That’s like, what made me like this character in the first place. But the writers seem to think what women want is for a BIG STRONG MAN to protect them because they are just DELICATE WOMEN who are inferior in every way it’s like. Shut upppp thanks

#persona #persona 3 #shinjiro aragaki #this is soooooooo obviously not the only romance route that sucks in this game yall know which one im referring to 🤨 #and i actually tend to think of the shinji romance as the best one in the series cuz at least his confession scene is the only unique one #that really highlights who he is as a character and goes with the story #but ughh just idk its so annoying how the writers cant decide if hes sexist or not its really weird and its like #really shows how poorly the writers think of women playing their game its like all the romance options are trash and then your boyfriend is #sexist to you and its so clearly done in a way thats supposed to be romantic which is. ew #like idk if my partner was like talking about how i need to stay close to them because im a weak girl and they are strong man #especially when im literally the leader of the team and have been doing perfectly fine thus far and am clearly the strongest here #id simply run him over with a bulldozer #and its like this will all the guys in this game its like girl shut up and eat glass #meanwhile when youre a male protagonist your gf will kiss your ass to the point its infuriating #and their character arcs can never be too grand cuz then they might not wanna fuck you if they realize they have worth #uh sorry my brain is all over the place basically i hate persona romances lol and i hate how they wrote shinji in his #like dammit i dont want him cuz hes gonna protect me like a man i want him cuz he isnt great at fighting and prefers cooking and puppy dogs #and has respect for me and trusts my judgement and asks me to talk about my life and interests and smiles sweetly #but god forbid a woman in this series be respected i guess

[blinday]

Not gonna sue or press charges, but I want to make it clear that Chat Noir is actually MY property, since I invented the boi back in 2009 with his ACTUAL partner Supersonica. His name was actually Simon and his dad was also the supervillain.

#he was a blonde with an asshole for a father and a partner for whom he simped #but she was too business driven to give him a shot even though there was no one she trusted more #he got an arc where he got more powerful but in turn became way more cat like. no not like a furry #he was inspired in nightcrawler. totally different vibe. #he also had a tendency to die for her. like one of his powers is literally that he had 9 lives and 7 of them went through the window #for her yes. ironically her name was Kate at the time (yes the ultimate white girl name but I was like 8 gimme a break) #and it was a pun bc he was the cat but everyone called her Kitty #anyways #give me my credits Astruc. #ml #ml shitpost #miraculous ladybug #11 year old me actually wrote a letter to get my rights over the property but I gave up once I liked the show #like hmm yea they are making good use of him I'll let them keep goin for a while #chat noir #ladybug and chat noir #adrien agreste

[trashbaget]

#wrote a fucking poem #because a bitch is fucking feeling things #cue venting in the tags because this is where i'm feeling comfortable to do it right now #a while back i caught the love bug for a friend and tbFCKNh it was the very second time i'd ever actually fallen In Love with someone and.. #the first time it didn't end well. long story short: i asked him out and he turned me down but we stayed friends and it actually made us.. #grow closer regardless. a little while later i'd realized my feelings were Different and it just came out one night when we were having a.. #really deep conversation. and i'm glad i told him because it helped me get over him and we got better and things weren't weird at all. we.. #stayed really good fucking friends. now i didn't get to see him for a summer and i definitely don't have feelings for him anymore and i'm.. #sincerely happy for him and his now partner. i consider him (and always have) my best friend. (among others but he's definitely Up There.. #like no. 2 probably) but way too soon after Talking was summer and we were both farthest from everybody and are both the kind of ppl who.. #pretty much don't text anyone except like 2 ppl and we are not one of each's 2. today i got to see him and a bunch of our friends for the.. #first time since fucking april and god have i missed them all. but seeing him again kinda fucked me up a second. threw me for a massive loop #i got Weird (neg) and i was NERVOUS as HELL at the start and for a few minutes i couldn't figure out what it even WAS because i hadn't felt. #that way in a long time. and i am not about to catch those feelings for him again because No. i chilled out after like 3 minutes bc i got.. #reacclimated to being around ppl My Damn Age again and things weren't Weird (neg) anymore. we talked we joked we sincerely said our I Miss.. #Yous and we hung out. with everyone and alone for a bit because ppl had gone out and come back and it was FINE it was NORMAL () and we.. #were GOOD. we ARE good. and i don't love him in that way anymore. i love him as a friend. and that love is definitely more intense than with #other friends because we have a deeper bond and yes because i Loved him. but the fact is i don't and it's ANNOYING to react like i still do. #and getting nervous like i still do. and i kept worrying that something i'd do might make it seem like i do and i don't and just UGH having. #feelings is annoying. i've never been able to stay friends with someone after having feelings for them at all let alone INTENSE IN LOVE FEEL #INGS!! like wtf!!! and this is sincerely one of the best friendships i've ever had and i don't want to and Won't. lose him especially for.. #this but god DAMN am i not having it right now. and my head's been spinning like a fucking tornado in the 5min ride home and i accidentally. #wrote it out in a poem because the words wouldn't go anywhere when i just tried to brain dump about it because Of Course They Did. because i #can't think about this man in anyway except poetically and i can't write a poem unless it's about love in some degree and just UGH love is #and i'm gonna leave it there because i'm running risk of repeatin myself. #if you read all this i positively adore you and also you need to touch some grass bc reading the vents of internet dwellers is for suckers #i am just kidding i really do sincerely appreciate you and love you very very much thank you for caring #please ignore the following organizational tags: #writing #poetry

[pyrriax]

HI TUMBLR late footnote posting before i go to bed (i took a nap today........ ate up most of my time)

not a lot to talk about with footnotes today since i was Busy and my brain wasnt working pfndkmlfd i blame seven hours of modded oneblock

#haunted ecosystem #haunted bookshelf #i might make a tag for these footnote posts? i think its a fun way to document what ive written about without sharing All of it #also yes thats a random crack au that i've have in the back of my head for a bit what about it #i dont think its canon in the slightest its just a funny little thing in my head for writing random bs #honestly i might start trying to work on more wtds stuff. this is kind of a perfect excuse #also! i think how i might work this is that if i work on a larger project during the day then i'll just do the daily prompt #since its a good exercise and an excuse to keep some kind of writing streak going #i actually asked one of my partners for a prompt since i was struggling to find an interesting one #ended up with 'last man standing' for spoke... very fitting tbh #i might write a more canon take for that. the concept i wrote down was much more set in an au than anything since i was also thinking #about asomatous zam at the same time so i kind of just incorparated both of them into it with it being paracosm-era #OH did i ever mention that i have a general title plan for the other parts of that kind of. world #its very set in stone that if i do write more it'll be two more parts #metamorphosis (5 part) and paracosm (1 part with multiple scenes. functionally 3 part maybe?) #asomatous goes in the middle of that. i need to kind of plan all of them out better and see how it wants to flow #metamorphosis was started as a concept because i had a few bad things happen bingo prompts i wanted to be used for asomatous #but didnt end up using. so metamorphosis is my excuse for that. paracosm is just a Concept thats been really plaguing me basically since i #originally wrote asomatous... i should probably come up with a temporary series title. i think something about shattering skies? #its a reoccurring theme and symbol throughout all of them....... i just think its neat #ANYWAYS goodnight to you especially if you actually read through all my tags :)

[arthur-r]

lyrics: i love you loyal like a dog / to breathe your air is quite enough / i follow brightly at your whim / my eyes are wide, i keep a grin / “good boy!” do i deserve a treat? / begging for love, i’m sickly sweet / it’s hard to love a broken dog / better to take advantage of / i’m whining, kicking up the dirt / it’s no secret this doesn’t work / i’m barking, cannot lay to rest / i’m not a lover, i’m just your pest / sincerity is nothing when it’s mangled in my growls and whimpers!! / ferociously in love just means i’m rolling helpless in the dirt!! / if blind obsession’s what you want, i’m burrowed in you like a splinter!! / but if you’re looking for an equal minded partner this is going to hurt!! / cause going through devotion doesnt mean that this is going to work!!

this is a song i wrote almost a week before my partner broke up with me when i thought that i was the problem and that i just don’t know how to be in a healthy relationship. turns out the relationship was not healthy but hey the message of the song still stands shdhdf i get overly attached and embarrass myself and here i wrote a song about it.

#recording this in the dorm on valentines day is so embarrassing people can hear me through the walls #i also did a very weird job of breath control but it’s FINE it’s cause my relationship was strained it’s a METAPHOR actually #anyways i just wanted to share this with my friends how i tend to #songwriting: the sneakiest vent imaginable #(i’m actually being really normal about the breakup though it helps to know that i wrote this song BEFORE he broke up with me. #like yeah it makes sense that the relationship ended. i might be happier now. i’ll be okay shdhdf) #(its also funny to me that i wrote this song when the most embarrassing thing i’d done in the relationship was asking him to HUG me too muc #but that a week later now i’ve ACTUALLY done the fucked up thing the song was about. but like why were you singing this last week arthur #i had not done anything wrong yet. i was being so normal. i was being a good partner. didn’t fuck it up until later shdhdf) #anyways i hope everyone is doing okay. and let me know if you need anything!! #me. my post. mine. #delete later (probably) #music

[liminalweirdo]

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#actually looking back through my ao3 my real dissatisfaction with my writing really only started in 2021 #after a couple of years of almost exclusively co-writing #i always attributed the decline in quality to 2018 when i was so burnt out i lost significant ability to perform IADLs #but it was definitely c. late 2021 and early 2022 #when i could sense the decline in my writing skill and enjoyment and so took multiple breaks from co-writing to write solo again #it's weird i co-wrote (and did written roleplays) SO MUCH as a teenager and in my early 20s #and never developed this massive block when i wrote solo back then #maybe it was partially the pandemic #i know my inability to go out in the world has significantly impacted my connection to like... reality and The Real World and Society #i don't talk to people anymore -- everyone's schedules got so messed up that even my friends who i spoke to regularly #when Work Hours were a thing for me all faded a lot #like we're still friends but i don't speak to anyone but my partner regularly #it's so lonely? #anyway i think i made the right choice when i started exclusively writing solo again but i sure miss the excitement and drive of co-writing #idk maybe i just need a boost #mutuals who want to co-write a SDT fic with me hit me up #seriously #disability #liminal scrawlings

[parsleymusic]

waiting for someone to deliver a critique they promised to deliver in september is agony

#lady is busy and i get that but she said she would prioritize it in the coming weeks in october #and part of me is wondering if it's just Bad lmao #like I've really been struggling to get people to actually read this book #i think that's probably just due to my stage in life etc #but the last “critique partner” I sent my book to asked me halfway if she could stop reading it lmao #and her critique was ultimately useless because she wanted something completely different out of my premise than the book i wrote #which is just a mismatch of expectations ig but #:P #(her book was not good btw) #annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyywwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy #one of my friends wouldn't read it because she doesn't like the third person present tense #which is imo an awful reason not to read a book but like whatever #I would like to edit my book one more time with this critique in mind before i start querying again #but maybe i'm just telling myself that to get out of the absolute agony i feel when querying #querying feels like being skinned alive #anyway #i think that'll be my new personal post tag lmao

[highdensityrabbitsituation]

sertraline day 941: at work today I sat and wrote about five pages longhand thinking about self-regard and relationships. After turning things over for a couple hours I had the thought of "huh. this is basically the same way I thought about myself when I was a teenager, isn't it." I started medication for anxiety and made a lot of other material life changes, but I haven't really updated the way I think about myself in years. I think it's due for an update! I don't really know how to make the update, but it seems worth exploring.

#psych adventures #sort of looked at everything I wrote and realized that if I followed my logic through what I wanted was a partner who hated me #that's not good. I don't want that actually #I've changed my opinions on a lot of things in the last decade #it stands to reason I should reexamine my feelings about myself