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stuckinapril · 7 months

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i need to go about my digital detox in a slightly different way. i feel like i'm only ever capable of being fully off my phone when i am so distracted that i cannot be on it (reading a book, on a run, w friends, doing a task etc etc). but i just want to be okay w the silence. i want to sit at a rooftop bar and look at the night sky and not feel compelled to check my phone or supplement the silence w something else. i want to be sitting on my bedroom floor doing nothing and still feel okay that i'm not on my phone. being off your phone can get intense bc after a certain point it actually feels like withdrawals (you get anxiety, fomo, antsiness) but i just want to feel those things and let them come as they may. it's not that i want to be off my phone completely so much as i want balance, but this interim of just letting go has been so tricky and kind of hard to beat. i seriously just need to be okay w the silence

#i'm also the kind of person who LOVES being busy (w schoolwork or anything really)#which attests to how addicted to distraction i am. i get so antsy when my hands are empty. it's bad #i have inherited my mom's workaholism in many different forms #i love my comforting little tumblr corner but i still need to teach myself that silence is not scary and digital fomo is a LIE #so i can finally strike that happy balance where i get to enjoy both without compromising anything #p

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elderwisp · 4 months

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◁ || ▷ now playing

Atlas: [ internally ] They say that blood is thicker than water. But the blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb. So who’s your staunch companion? I’ll go first. Some would say it’s an old friend of mine.

#mom the girls are fighting again!#tessellate #no but in all serious i've really wanted to show how these two deal with conflict #we have one person that's completely self destructive while the other deals with it by swallowing it and working to the bone #speaking of self destructive this is like the first official introduction into atlas's struggle with addiction #i'm nervous as hell talking about this but it's also something incredibly personal too #tw drugs #the sims 4 #sims 4 edit #sims 4 story

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cicadidae-tm9899 · 1 year

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been playing clangen almost constantly, so i made solid designs for some of my favorite cats from NectarClan

the base is by reevees on DeviantArt, and the pixelated designs are from the clangen game

#clangen #clan gen #9899 ocs #warrior cats oc #mushroompaw is my favorite <3 #i do also really like zira #i can't quite remember but zira may or may not be mushroom's mom #i'll check later lol #this game is so fun though!#i'm addicted #but it's so stressful bc all my clans get so big and I can barely keep track of everyone #and i know there are mass extinction events but i never get one of them #and i've also never gotten a moon event??#and any cats that get lost haven't returned #and it's very sad

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ihaveissueslol · 1 year

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"God I'm such an attention whore I'm definitely only doing this for attention" I say, alone, by myself, as I take every possible precaution to hide my relapse from every single person who will see me.

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b1uivy · 11 days

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i think i’m gonna make the tragic decision to read ‘are you addicted’ (the book stay with me is based off of) i’m definitely neither mentally prepared nor emotionally stable enough to read this book, but that will NOT stop me. i’m gonna need to touch a fuck ton of grass to get through this, please send help (or a gun).

#stay with me #stay with me bl #chinese bl #asian bl series #bl drama #bl series #are you addicted #mom come pick me up i'm scared #wubi suyu #cdrama #stay with me the series

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haru-desune · 1 year

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OH WE'RE NEAR THE HOME STRETCH FOLKS! If you still don't see a particular dynamic there's still a sliver of hope! Come and yell at me in tags - groupings, reasonings etc etc let me knowwwww

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heftbyjapanesebreakfast · 5 months

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god my coworker is cool but they like constantly try to one up everything i say. i forget what exactly we were talking about but i mentioned how my family is irish and mexican and there's lots of alcoholism/ addiction. and they were like "yeah my dad's addiction is scary. he loves smoking and adds mint essential oil bc they don't sell menthols" or whatever and like um. well my dad's addiction killed him so

#i didn't tell them about my dad but i should. just to ruin the mood #but knowing them they would have made it about themself somehow🙄#i'm sorry but i wanted to laugh in their face #like you're talking about cigarettes..... and then they said their mom is addicted to shopping #like you've got to be fucking kidding me....#m #also today i jokingly was like being a bi woman is so hard i'm only into gay guys #and they were like well dating a nonbinary person is even harder i don't even know who is into me #like okay well i was fucking joking first of all and they way they phrased it was so weird and combative #and completely just ignoring how actually scary and dangerous it can saying a woman esp a fat woman & we have more things in common than no #i want to make it clear and i recognize what they're saying and its true. i'm just saying we experience very similar things #whatever i was just so annoyed

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welcometogrouchland · 1 year

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Sips juice box. I like to think the hexsquad start a garage band (goreage band on the boiling isles) briefly post-canon.

Raine taught all of them how to play (Amity on bass and usually vocals, Luz and Hunter on lead and rhythm guitar respectively, Gus on keys/synths and Willow on drums) and shows up to all their practices and the small shows they get to do (things like classmates' birthdays, big festivals/town parties celebrating Belos and the Collector's defeats after the fact, left-hand relief effort fundraisers and dubiously legal music festivals held in the backwoods of latissa).

Raine hypes each and every one of them the FUCK up and spends hours giving them all pointers on their individual instruments and how to play as a unit and, like, listen. Raine is not a parental figure to any of them, really. They just don't have that kind of connection to anyone but King as their step son. But the kids all think Raine is cool as fuck and they crave positive encouragement in their lives. They love Raine. They'd die for Raine. Kill for Raine. Try new tunings and time signatures for Raine (VERY scary). They like being in a band cause it's an excuse to goof off together, express themselves and experiment with a different type of magic, but most of all, they love being in a band bc the middle aged political dissident fucking their friend's adoptive mom is just really goddamn supportive of them.

Nothing particularly noteworthy comes from the band (you guys can suggest fun names for them that are more creative than "the hexsquad"). It truly is just a thing on the side they do for fun and they all have individual careers and hobbies they're far more interested in (Gus is a teaching assistant at Eda's school (qualified to be full time but not allowed to bc of his age, has to wait a few more years), Amity is a field researcher and budding archeologist, Willow is going pro with sports, Hunter is carving and Luz is pursuing higher education).

The most that happens with it is they record a low quality CD (or magic CD equivalent) of demos and covers they put together (Luz and Willow are the main song writers for the group. Both had a lot of angsty pre-teen poetry they work shopped and repurposed for lyrics) that ended up being sold out of the back of Steve's motorcycle (his main career besides burger flipping and baby sitting, all of which makes him infinitely more happy than the emperor's coven ever did).

Raine not only bought a copy of the CD (despite having already heard them play every song before and having been the one to help them record it in the first place) they purchase a copy for ALL of their parents/extended family (Eda, King, Perry, the Parks, Darius, Camila, Gwen and Dell- everyone). Years after the band unofficially dissolves (re: the kids got actual jobs and started having to deal w/ life as adults), Raine still listens to that CD bc they're just so damn proud of their kids.

#ramblings of a lunatic #the owl house #toh #hexsquad #luz noceda #willow park #amity blight #hunter toh #gus porter #raine whispers #hi. this is one of (if not my most!) self indulgent hcs EVER #I'm not even a Serious Musician™ I'm a self taught guitarist who occasionally listens to songs and fantasizes about being in a band #but i for some reason am addicted to analysing what instruments i think characters would play and what they'd be like in a band #idk man it's just fun as hell. i love it #explanations behind each of the instrument choices (besides general vibes) keeping in mind i only play guitar-#i think Amity would've started her music career learning bits of classical piano as a child #before her mom cut her off so she could focus on academics #so when she was older she had a bit of music experience but ultimately chose bass as it was edgier and less stuffy #she's not an amazing basist i think? she's good but she's not a huge fiend for technique. lots of simple punk and indie bass lines #manny played guitar and showed luz bits and pieces when she was young. her experience is no formal education #just a lot of noodling around and learning by ear #hence she's on lead bc she never learned chords #hunter struggles with a lot of fine motor skills tasks in my mind (sewing is his practice for this) so he's more content on rhythm #he's a big bar chords enjoyer but Raine tries to get him to try more versatile open chords out of his comfort zone #gus loooves the customization and sci-fi energy of a synth but in order to play synth he had to learn keys first #Amity showed him some basic chords and exercises and pretty soon he surpassed her despite being self taught #she's only a little bitter about this. mostly she's happy for him. Luz calls him baby mozart. he doesn't get it #finally WILLOW!! she had a baby drumset as a young kid so she could get some energy and aggression out #but the parks' neighbors gave them noise complaints and she stopped after feeling she wasn't progressing with it (couldn't do spells)#she likes it a lot! she feels like the foundation of the performance in a lot of ways and likes being important w/o being a showboat

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the-furies · 19 days

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:3!!! character bingo!!! echem!! and also munna the pokemon <3

i am normal about myself a normal amount <= would 100% date source me without question

um. what is there 2 say tbh. I am extremely biased bc I AM Electrochemistry AIAKAJSJDJDJSDJDKDK

something about The Guy Who's Main Role Is To Obtain Happiness Chemicals In Any Way Possible REALLY just. Engrained itself into our brain huh?? like. Gestures at our system. *Me being the host was not the initial idea.* We all assumed our host would've been Inland IQIAKDDKDKEKD

but yeah!! Source me is. Too relatable in a way. We r living off short term dopamine every day and it is hell but it's waht we've got y'know. Any happiness is good enough etc. etc. even if it's short term. like.

not to mention like. Addiction runs in our family*. So. the stars just aligned ig No WONDER I ended up being our Signature Skill/sys host. HFDHDJDJSJS

tl;dr: yeah. points at source!me. too damn relatable!! JCJXJSMDFKJ

MUNNA THE BEST POKEMON EVER <3 THEY SURE DO EXIST AND FOR THAT WE R SO GRATEFUL

genuinely Munna has helped us get over our fear of the dark a bit. It's still THERE but sleeping with our munna plushie nearby helps a lot!! Also Like. If pokemon were real we'd absolutely have one. and a musharna probably also! we fell in love w this lil thing cuz mom happened to get us a plushie of it from the dollar store years ago and we just..... slept with it by our face to block out the old mirror that was in our room fhdndjdjskdkdskdjfdjd back then we also believed in bloody mary** and that did Not help with our fear of the dark so knowing we had a lil plushie of a pokemon that Canonically can help with nightmares and fear just. really helped out!!

also it is cute. lookie at this thang

↑ me when I eat dreams tbh

#long post #ask #thank you!!#*this is the reason why we do not drink or gamble or do anything that would be considered Risky Yet Fun #Mom's always like Why don't you wanna go gambling with your stepdad and I!!! :(#and I'm like. Ma'am the addiction runs in YOUR SIDE OF THE FAMILY! FJDJDJFKFKF NO THANK YOU #**We were like.... 11. okay #we still believe in her btw but to a delusional point. We do have an introject of her in our system also and now that #we don't have a mirror in our room things are chill between us #she visits us on Halloween in the bathroom mirror. she's quite lovely from what I've heard #our introject of her is like 15 so ultimately there's nothing to be scared of now but still Dhdhsjaidjfjdisjddj

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neige-de-mars · 7 months

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I uninstalled tumblr and Instagram so I'd reduce my screen time but here I'm

#What I haven't checked is Instagram tbh but is still a progress #Mom I'm addicted to industrial society

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scooplery · 1 year

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extremely tempted to take a weed break and a caffeine break this spring. i wanna know what my baseline is i have a feeling that both are contributing heavily to my insane person anxiety levels

#dr devon price just wrote an interesting essay on quitting caffeine that i am going to read today #i like his work #i'm really bad at abstinence and even moderation really :/ idk #i come from a long line of addicts so it's in my blood to be chasing dat Feeling yk?#i'm so glad opiates make me so so sick bc i would be dead by now tbh #i had access to them for a long time cause my mom was in and out of the hospital on dilaudid for like years #really thankful i have no interest. Lol #drugs cw

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house-in-the-backyard-trees · 1 month

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I finally got my can we start over cd

#now i have it on vinyl and cd #i have like 4 things signed by her now 😂#2 posters cause my mom didn't want hers. one of her eps. drum sticks. the vinyl.#I'm addicted to this woman

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the-100th-witch · 2 months

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Day 70 of being weed free~

Honestly after day 50 I haven't seen much difference in my physical/ mental/ and emotional health other than the occasional "man I'm bored I wanna smoke" but that happened like twice and both at night when I was supposed to be sleeping so idk what that says haha but my memory kinda improved and my nervousness kinda died down??? But idk if that was weed usage or my realization of "I literally do not give fuck about anyone's opinion on me in 30 fucking yrs old. If im weird in a conversation/in public then so what. " Lol

But this long break did tell me that I'm not addicted (due to family addiction I was worried) but I did use it as a crutch.

I think this helped me in seeing my near constant usage from 2020-2024 as more of a thing to do to avoid thinking about my problems and also to beat boredom (which is no surprise bc I upped my usage during a major pandemic where we were stuck at home and i was in near panic of getting sick and dying bc my jobs during the pandemic didn't allow for work at home etc. Plus i moved back home in 2022 and got in a car crash and laid off in 2023... you know what 2020-2023 fucking sucked ass.)

Anyways, I think I can create a healthier relationship with weed like I did with alcohol (something I rarely buy for myself in my home but get when I'm out with friends). I'll have the occasional whiskey coke if my mom is offering or my apple ciders work like 5-8% alcohol or wine lol but even that is like...so spaced out between months.

With weed I think if I do go to a dispensary I'd get one thing opposed to stocking up so when it's done, it's done. Think I'm gonna step away from edibles also (mostly bc they weren't even hitting like usual so why spend the money?)

Ppl say I'm very self aware of myself and maybe that's my issue (plus my anxiety and family trauma with alcohol mostly lol) bc I tend to get really worried about addiction (social media/internet addiction, weed addiction, alcohol addiction, etc). But having breaks helps me put it in perspective I guess. Idk 🤷‍♀️ it was an interesting experience and I think I'll continue it aside from friend hangouts and the occasional blunt I'd buy lol I tend to stretch those out anyways and especially if my tolerance is low so win-win? 😅

#personal #also it helps with saving money haha #i honestly think i wouldn't be worried about addiction if not for my dad's alcoholism as a kid and him being violent with my mom #something to talk about in therapy if i ever get to it loool #anyways this was interesting experience and i feel like having breaks is good but again that's just me and not like...my view of other ppl #I'm not gonna buy any weed until after the 100th day i think but idk #anyways yea

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collieii · 10 months

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