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seedofjoseph · 1 year

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with your dirty mouth full of honest lies

Fandom: (Pre-Canon) Far Cry 5

Pairing: John Seed x GN!Reader

Rating: M (mature)

Words: 1200

John Duncan has every alarm set at 6:00 AM and that includes holidays, weekends, and the morning after.

All of them went off the morning after he carried you to bed a crying mess and put you to sleep in a wet heap. And every one of them was turned off the morning after you confessed your love for him and he punished you for it with tormenting pleasure.

"I smell bacon sizzling," John yawned, shaking his head of all the sleep he got in "And plastic burning?"

"That'd be the brand new frying pan," you point to the plastic wrapping on the counter. "I'm christening the stove."

"And stocking my pantry for the winter," he rubbed his eyes over to the bags of groceries next to the wrappings. "Have I ever been caught walking into the office with a lunch box, my dear?" Grabbing a Red Delicious apple, he wiped it on his royal blue robe before taking a bite.

"Oh, I see how it is," you try on a teasing tone, turning towards him to show off the pan. "His Highness can't digest peasant food like breakfast skillets." You empty the contents evenly into the two plates you set on the table, proud to have turned his empty, stainless kitchen into a messy, lived-in space.

The homeowner wasn't as comfortable inside of it as you were, however. And while the smell of your cooking had gotten him out of bed, this domestic display had made him a stranger in his own kitchen.

"Already ate," he showed off the shiny apple he had yet to finish, following you back to the sink. "I'll stop for coffee on our way back to your place," he looked over your shoulder at the monstrosity espresso machine you hadn't dared touch.

"I was a server, not a barista," you try your best to not sound as bitter as the hundreds of Americanos rich college boys like John Duncan had ordered. "I never learned to use the damn things."

"Shh," he slithered his hand under the collar of his shirt and reached the back of your neck. "It's alright. Shh. I never asked for coffee. Or breakfast. Or groceries." Then, he tangled his fingers into the small hairs there and threatened to pull. "All I asked is that you say 'yes'."

The night before, he asked you to stay. He asked you to stay when you took the emergency staircase when you closed the elevator doors in front of him. He asked you to stay when he caught up to you in the lobby. And you answered 'yes' when he asked if you were falling in love with him.

'Yes,' you answered him. Yes, you were falling in love with him. Between the bacchanals you abstained from attending and he drowned himself in, between the courtroom and back alley deals, and between all the men and women he swam through, you found someone as terrified of leaving room for his thoughts as you.

The morning after, between the blue curtains and white sheets, you let your thoughts wander. You let them lead you to places you knew you had no permission to be in. And you let them settle in your stomach where your hunger for the heavens in his eyes digested faster than your disgust for his silver tongue.

The morning after, between a breakfast that will never touch his lips and the shit-eating grin on his unshaven face, you swallowed the lump in your throat.

"And I did," you remind him of the ugly truths he choked out of you, all the while calling you beautiful. "I said 'yes'. To you. To us."

"Then leave these to soak and meet me in the shower," he whispered, drawing your head back and a whimper out of your throat.

You dropped the pan and the spatula but still you didn't surrender. "No."

"What was that?"

"I said no," you grunt painfully as you pull yourself out of his tightening grip. Then, as he blinks at the hairs still tangled between his fingers, you finally swallow the lump and speak clearly: "I didn't say 'yes' to Mr. Duncan, I said 'yes' to John. The real John."

"To me," he twirls your hair in his hand.

"No."

You pushed past him and whatever lie he had lined up died on his lips. And, as you pull his button-up off of your shoulders, you start your shameful walk toward the exit.

The night before, you only had your tears to hide. The morning after, you had purple bruises and red teeth marks to cover up. So you push down your pride as you pull at the knob.

"We're not doing this again," John came up from behind, bracketing you between his biceps and slamming both palms against the door surface. "I haven't even had my coffee yet."

"No, we're not," you snap at him, spinning around in the small space between his torso and the door.

"Then stop saying that," he snorted, but there was no humor in it. And there was nothing of the John you said 'yes' to last night in his eyes. Under the dark hair that fell into his face, his frown clouded the clear blue skies. "And get your pretty little ass in the shower."

"I'll stop saying 'no' when you stop lying," you spit. "You fucking liar."

"Stop calling me that," his nostrils flared.

"Only when you stop fucking lying to yourself, John Seed."

"Stop calling me that," he snarled, slamming his fists against the door surface.

"Yes, Mr. Duncan," your voice shook as you tried switching to the secretary one. "Right away, Mr. Duncan."

"Stop it," he shook all over. "I never lied to you. When I said I wanted you to take the day off, I meant it. When I said I needed you to stay the night, I meant it." Dipping his head, he suffocated himself with your smell, sighing into the side of your neck. "And when I said I can't let you run home crying, I meant I wanted your tears to soak up my sheets."

This John you recognized. You recognized the lust, the gluttony, and - most of all - you recognized the wrath. He wasn't flexing his cheek muscles, or eating bullshit, or dusting off his pain with white powder lines. No, not this John. This John snarled, bared his teeth, and bore his blown-out eyes into you.

If you were at your most alluring while in agony, then he was at his most handsome while uncoifed, unmedicated and unraveled.

"Then get that silver spoon out of your throat and have breakfast with me," you brought your hands to his face, combing back his bangs. "I'll even learn to work that fucking machine if you want me to."

"I won't lie to you," he wrapped his hands around your wrists.

"You better not," your thumbs brushed his unshaven cheeks.

"I don't know how that thing works either," he smiled a small smile. A sincere smile. "And I sure as shit don't know how to make you and I work."

"We're supposed to figure it out together, John," you smile in turn, tracing his trembling jaw. "You already know my answer, but what about yours?"

"My answer," he latches onto your fingers with his lips, kissing the tips, "is yes."

#john seed #far cry 5 #john seed x reader #john seed x you #john ducan #I'm not like other girls #I write john duncan (nee seed) fanfiction and don't even make it a lemon #yeah I said 'lemon' because I am old #the title is a lyric from a lady gaga song #because I am indeed old #fanfic

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randomkposts · 9 months

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In your opinion, would fem mello be a 'not-like-other-girls'

E:- Mello might be like that unironically.

K:- expand?

E:- Mello breaks the conformity of what is seen to be as socially acceptable in femininity

K:- and masculinity

E:-Mello as abrasive as she is, I can't genuinely add her with the misogyny attitude of 'I'm not like other girls' that is a sub branch of 'pick me' girls. Both are taken with the goal of putting down other women in order to elevate themselves.

K:- you make a good point.

E:- Especially with our Mello. Thank you!

I detest that sort of attitude since it's seen as a part of "feminism", but breaks it instead of strengthening it.

Besides that, Mello is Mello, she does her own rules and likes what she likes. She might've been coming off that, however she isn't going to make it her personality.

K:-"I'm not like other girls" is putting other girls down in an attempt to differentiate yourself from them, at their expense. .. and yours. Have some solidarity.

E:-Lmao. When i read that last part I can imagine Mello walking away but turn around and jabs a finger at whoever is acting like this

"Have some fucking solidarity."

K:-"I l'm not like other girls, I'm not obsessed with makeup".

"Ok then, I'm sure you have your own weird obsessions that other people roll their eyes at you over, but you don't see me bringing it up as a topic of conversation with you."

E:-Also it does point out that yes most of our fem versions of L Near Mello and Matt aren't the usual form of "general" social acceptance however none of them are going to tear down other women who do follow feminine traits.

K:-I don't do makeup really, but if someone has put the time into it to develop skill at it, then good on them.

E:-Especially ones like Takada, Naomi and yes even Misa can be added.

Yes! That too! I love light and bright soft colors and dresses. I can't always wear them due to weather and work.

While yes if we wanna continue the ye old inner misogyny self hatred maybe Mello did have this stemming from other outer interactions outside of Whammy.

K:-As foil to Mello, Light would do that unironically in the opposite way.

Light hates everyone in this, and will dunk on boys and girls.

"You've never played a video game?"

"What am I a boy? Why would I waste my time on that."

"You've never had a spa day?"

"I'm not like other girls, I don't waste my time on that" except not outloud, just inner monologue for both.

E:-As looking at Whammy.....they genuinely don't seem to give a shit about normalcy.

They should invest in Social Public cues as a class mandatory seeing all their geniuses are inept.

K:-"That kid can be a autistic as they want, all that matters here is that they can solve murders."

E:-Agreed. "As far as I am concerned, I take my studies seriously. Enjoy your spa, your nails seem to be neglected."

Mello can also toss that attitude with the best arm shot she can cause she has seen all types of geniuses at Whammy's so fuck that type of thinking.

K:- A Class social ,as other people see it.

"I know half of you dont care to interact with other people in real life, but its important to learn how they think, to understand possible motives behind murders, if nothing else. So as stupid as it sounds, being possessive of another person under the guise of love, is plenty of reason to commit murder. Apparently. We will now cover that angle in detail."

E:-"Today we learn why humans tend to act aggressively to commit murder when they aren't receiving intercourse. And decide to blame women for their woes."

Hey, Funny thoughts like unrelated to this, DN needs you to accurately write names and correct face right. Imagine someone getting a face tattoo only to cover it with make up lmak. Lmaooo.

K:-I think enough of a facial Tattoo might count as enough to mess with the Shinigami eyes, but I think something permanent like a tattoo would eventually count as a part of your face, in contrast to something temporary like a scarf.

E:-Yeah but like is anyone gonna check if you cover it with makeup consistently.

K:-It never came up in death note, because its set in Japan. It should have been a problem when Light had to interact with Amarica. I think it depends on the makeup.

Like maybe if it was massive clown makeup or something.

E:-I mean lets be real someone gonna have to done that at some point never update anyone kept it private. You seen makeup gurus right. Freaking magic with contours.

K:-I don't know, Tattoos are not always something you can get in one session.

E:-Small. Get a mini bee tattoo.

K:-And they need time to heal. Would be hard to keep a secret.

E:-Put a bandage and go "I got my ass handed to me."

K:-Several times in the same place?

E:-No, since tattoo's generally depend on how long it takes. Some can be done in a couple hours and can be small.

Shit K I can tattoo a mini soup character and cover it up

K:-We are forgetting about fake tattoos! Which are temporary, and so changeable.

E:-AHAHAHA! I was gonna bring that up but went meme later.

K:- wait. Let me look up the rules.

"A side view of a person's face is enough to be able to see their name and lifespan. A person's eyes must be visible in order for it to work, but if they are wearing sunglasses while their entire face is visible, it will work. It will also work If half a person's face is seen vertically.

Circumstances where the Shinigami Eyes will not work to see a person's name and lifespan include seeing the back of a person's head, seeing the lower half of their face (i.e. eyes are not visible), and seeing their body but not their face.

A photograph of a person is also acceptable, and follows the same rules as listed above. The only exception to this is when the person in the picture is deceased, in which case their name and lifespan will not be visible. "

Or formally. -

"In order to see the names and life spans of humans by using the eye power of the god of death, the owner must look at more than half of that person's face. When looking from top to bottom, he must look at least from the head to the nose. If he looks at only the eyes and under, he will not be able to see the person's name and life span. Also, even though some parts of the face, for example the eyes, nose or mouth are hidden, if he can basically see the whole face, he will be able to see the person's name and life span. It is still not clear how much exposure is needed to tell a person's name and lifespan, as this needs to be verified."

E:-Mmmm

K:-Tattoos might not work

E:-If half is covered then they can't see it.No no wait

K:-But masking and wearing sunglasses would

E:-We aren't taking in people or ex convicts who do try to cover up half their tattoos.

Who says a convicted man can't use foundation?!Society?!

*slaps hand on podium* NAY I SAY MAKEUP IS ARMOR!

K:-Nothing against foundation. But I think its getting at face shape being important.

So the question is, would wigs, hoodies, or religious coverings be any protection?

I mean, a Burqa deff would be more then enough protection.

E:-Oh totes. Man Covid fucks up Kira's day didn't it.

K:-Yes. But just a mask might not be enough. So sunglasses to be safe. Mellos burn scar did not protect him from kira murder. Makeup would protect someone from Light, but not Misa, Is what I guess I'm saying. Or Mikami.

Sunglasses that would protect one from the shinigami Eyes, Eclipse!

E:-Damn hack eyes. Oh well guess its back to the traditional misspelling foreign names or wrong kanji. we gotta give those sunglasses to L.

K:-Maybe If Misora had worn a wig, and makeup, Light would have ignored her. But she had no reason to go to that length of deception to the public at that point in time, as they still didn't know the how.

Look, If I could have a way to keep it without being killed by the shinigami fov being boring, I would be hard tempted by the Shinigami eyes. They get visual acuity of 3.6, or 72/20 vision, regardless of OG eyesight.

Whether that is worth half of my lifespan is a hard question to answer, but the temptation would be real.

But like, Lights a killer who has his list, goes through it, and moves on.

In contrast, Misa is more personally motivated, and Mikimai is more detail obsessed.They can just check the TV for pictures. Because Kira being able to kill through photograph sounds batshit to the average Joe, and people still need to know what the school shooters and ect look like, and maybe its easier if they are dead. And then enough of the public was on Kira's side that it never really died out.

E:-True bur this is Japan. Who has no issues hiding child killers. And still maintains hiding killers faces even post trial. Or the issues with the European system as well doing the same.

K:-Canon Light goes for the surface crime.

E:-LMAO! He just skims Justice.

K:-He kills people who have commited crime and have their name and face available. He doesn't dig. Like, he digs enough to hack, but hes relying on the public a lot more then he would ever consciously admit.

E:-If he needs details he has Mikami.

K:-Thats not until part 2.

E:-True true.Ugh God imagine he used the power of 2chan. Japanese 4chan

K:-Like I mean, maybe by part 2 he has gotten better at looking past surface crime and for underlying issues, but If anything, I think the prominence of the cult and stuff means he might have gotten lazier.

E:-Light learning management

K:-I mean, Mello is out there running the mafia (in a vacancy that may be kira related), but that the Mafia still exists after years of Kira indicates that Kira is not as effective as he hopes it to be.Thd Mafia still being around and capable of abducting his sister, indicates that overall crime is not receding as he thought it might.

E:-Oh no its full on rampant. He is dealing with surface crime. Not the actual big guys.

Or corrupt politicians outside of Japan like the Philippines or Latin America or South East Asia.

K:-Yah. The thing about both Light and L as figures of justice, is that they are holding up the current system they live in, not challenging or exposing it.

E:-While I can't blame them for not digging in more it does add to the fact its not as deep as it could've done as it centers around justice and ego of man.

K:-They are Justice, so they uphold the justice system as they see it. Light plays it by the socially conventional rules, where L goes off the socially (and often ethically) acceptable path to get the end result, which will be criminal caught. L cares about the journey, where Light cares about the destination.l, it's the same place, but different roads. They don't care why crime happens, just that they stop it. I guess I would say Justice is a core theme, but not the point in the story.

In contrast, PDN is about Persona 5 and Death Note, so will explore Justice in a lot more detail.

E:-That crossover is gonna take so much brain cells.

K:- I know

E:-I am a monkey with a keyboard ,K

K:-Hey, Imagine if Death note had Nickajack

"Mello is running the Mafia from America".

"Actually Sir it's worse. He's running the Mafia in Nickajack"

E:-I mean shit yeah that can happen they never had 9/11

Lmao lets make it real. Gotta commit to the DN crazy ass world logic. I snorted my coffee out with that Mello bit. I hope you're proud of yourself.

K:- I am

#female mello #always a diffrent gender #a conversation with my friend #death note #death note mello #random k #female light #light yamagi #gender #i'm not like other girls #discussed #feminism #tattoos #makeup #justice #DN Shinigami Eyes #death note worldbuilding #plot bunnies #PDN

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