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simplepotatofarmer · 1 year
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i'll never forgive the people who shit on techno's rp style, calling it tone deaf or saying it didn't suit the situations. the sheer disrespect and lack of understanding!
not only did techno know how to keep things from being too overwhelming emotionally but it completely fit with his character! his character would have those sorts of fourth wall breaking insights!
i'm sorry, the whole thing was genius.
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dilatorywriting · 1 year
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A concept- a brainrot, if you will- I wish to present to you on a silver platter, respectfully, as your Monster Mayhem series (and D&D talk eeeee) has inspired me:
Jack Howl as both the "huntsman" and the "wolf" in a Little Red Ridinghood scenario. The forest is very dangerous, but the dangers are unseen- think spells that delude the victim into hallucinations, guiding them into acid pits and other dangers. The forest wasn't always like this, which is why people don't take the warnings seriously and wander in. Humans always so foolishly challenge fate, after all.
So Jack decides to give these people a "seen" danger to be wary of- the big bad wolf stalking the outskirts. They live afraid, but they live safe. And the town's warden (sheriff? Something of the kind?)- Jack himself, in human form- assures them that he's leading an investigation and kindly stops people who want to attempt entry.
This is a pain in the ass for you- a young adventurer who is very aware that the forest has "gone evil" because your warlock grandmother is getting too old to tend to her patron's shrine, which kept the sleeping evil of the ancient forest (which is definitely either the grave of a dead diety or the bed of a great sleeping evil) locked away. You know it is a dangerous trip, but you aren't completely helpless, having some magic under your belt yourself.
If only this damn town warden would let you peacefully wander into this absolute nightmare forest. If only a large, snow-white wolf didn't keep blocking your path- oh, sorry, didn't keep "trying to kill you," though you're pretty sure he isn't, as he always stops just short of harm.
Bonus points if:
- The thing keeping your grandma from doing her shrine maiden very suspicious, definitely spooky warlock duties is something silly, but realistic as an old people problem (like 'i can't reach that high anymore, my back hurts too much' or 'the arthritis is getting to me and I can't draw the sigils')
- Literally any "Into the Woods" reference... "into the woods and down the del, the path is straight I know it well~" *five minutes later* "fuck, this ain't my forest anymore, why didn't grandma send me a letter sooner??? By the great gods I TOLD her to get a familiar to help out around here-"
- Jack personally knows your granny and panics when you, finally, tell him (in wolf form) that you're trying to get to her. (Jack helped clear her name in a "witch hunt," which is a little ironic considering the circumstances)
-You are very done with stumbling into another life-or-death evil forest situation after the 15th time. You grew up here! You took care of the forest with grandma! Could these damn human-eating trees be any less grateful?! (To be fair, they didn't have a taste for humans when you were little.)
-Rook appears. Yes, there are two huntsman now. Of COURSE Rook is enamored by the thrill of ancient evil and a mysterious wolf. Now Jack has to keep an eye out for his own hide, too...
-Smh, the idea of rook being involved just made me think of Vil as the "ancient evil" sleeping. A little drama queen who is angry that his ritual has not been performed to preserve his 10,000-year beauty sleep. Yeah, I've decided that "sleeping evil" is actually "sleeping eVil." The horrifying forest is a result of his anger from seeing ONE (1) adorable forest boy that was prettier than himself. The stress gave him a wrinkle. The wrinkle has caused this immense horror nightmare. Vil has decided to take an angry beauty-coma until the wrinkle has faded away. This is some petty god shit.
Lord I meant for this to be more Jack-focused but then I brainrotted really hard. He's just so.... nice? Stable? Sane? It's a lot more fun to brainrot over the absolute chaotic mess that is our boys with big egos and issues with pettiness.
Anyways, I will bow and make my exit! I'm a huge fan of dark fantasy genre stuff and, as a result, adore your interpretation of the Twst cast and the environments/scenarios you create for your stories! So I wanted to offer a dose of my inspired rambles, flavored by the sheer excitement reading your fics and posts has given me. Just in case it isn't clear this isn't a request I'm just HYPE rn.
*me intently scribbling all of this down as fast as possible and having an aneurism over the awesome and AHHHHH*
But holy fuck YES, I LOVE this idea. And then the Vil shit at the end, especially seeing that he and Jack are friends in canon! So like! More overlap! But also just! All of it!! AHHHH!!! My brain is on fire.
But holy shit I am just so in love with this idea. It's giving me so much fire-in-the-brain inspiration, and I do like Jack a lot, but I don't Love love him normally (I have my two undying favs, and they can never be displaced), but goddamn now you've got me wanting to write this so badly!!!!
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decisiontostay · 18 days
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Thoughts on your experience at the Inspire Arena for the Metamorph concert?
Hmm. tldr version is, I'm not a fan of the venue especially in the current concert climate.
You can fully expect that they will block out some of the best seats in the arena for the livestreaming rig - you can see the empty void in front of the stage in the pics posted by the official shinee acc. This was even more depressing in person. Honestly, a huge issue with Taemin's latest concert in general was the prioritisation of Beyond Live over the in-person attendees, i.e. ridiculously long gaps between each song (like up to a minute at times!) and just performance things that looked cool on video but were really meh irl. Personally, I think the decision to stream every single day was the worst they could have made (and don't get me started on the prices they were asking for it, and will ask again), there's always been a difference in the way they behave on a stream vs just during a non-livestreamed show and now they all have scripted ments that don't even result in good subs for the shawols watching at home.
In terms of getting to the arena, it's pretty much at the end of the world comparing to the Olympic Gymnastics Arena - which is relatively close to the city center, well connected via multiple transportation routes, lots of restaurants/cafes around and the grounds are honestly huge. Inspire Arena is secluded and I know a lot there was a lot of issues with getting there for people (as it's connected to the Incheon Airport via shuttle, I was attending with a global package ticket and it took approx 2h for us to get there on the coach SM provided). Then it's a very long corridor and a tiny waiting space with three billboards you can take pics at, and after the show they kick you out on the other side of the building straight into coaches so there isn't a lot of opportunity to take the last few pics/just have that moment of the fizzling out concert hype. Kshawols were organising buses that'd take them from the city center to the venue in groups because it was both freezing and a nightmare to get to. Like idk, I do love the pre-concert mingling and exchanging little gifts like photocards or fans, this was almost impossible during metamorph. In comparison, one of my fondest memories of SWC6 in the summer is shawols braiding each other's hair before the concert, not something that's easy for me to imagine happening at the Inspire Arena tbh. Though I might be proved wrong in May.
Finally, while Yes24 isn't wonderful it still let international fans buy normal tickets for the concerts, Inspire Arena is linked to Melon ❤️Payments are a nightmare, there is no paypall for example (and Korea loves to reject foreign cards even if they say they accept them). The site itself is wonky as hell and will throw you out of the queue for nothing. Metamorph is the only time I had to buy global package for a shinee concert because it was genuinely impossible to get it via normal ways. And sincerely, global package isn't worth its price these days (the little lego keyring was cool but not that cool).
Ah also, this is my very personal, petty thing but I didn't love the acoustics there, we had a pretty good seats and too many songs sounded primarily like noise. I can't tell you if that's a venue thing or just a setup thing in this case, unfortunately. Metamorph was probably my worst shinee concert experience and I've been to a good few. Honestly I dislike the space so much I might just skip on the May concerts because of it, I don't have that much motivation for going left in me even with the promise of Jinki. Eh.
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ruthlesslistener · 9 months
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For the chose violence ask games 1 for Elden Ring, 3 for Hollow Knight and 7 for Bloodborne.
the character everyone gets wrong
-You probably already saw this coming, but Mohg. I understand why people's kneejerk reaction is disgust with him, but people also seem to forget that he is quite literally clinically insane and was also dumped in a sewer as a child to die, with the only 'person' to give any sort of affection to him being the eldritch horror that is the Formless Mother. One of Okina's item descriptions talks about how he stabbed Mohg and Mohg was like 'excellent! we're friends now :)' which gives a lot of insight into just how screwed up his worldview is. That's not to say he's entirely without blame, dude is literally The Devil, but I feel like most people also don't realize that Mohg just straight-up is not right in the head and thus isn't acting out of malice
3. screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr
-I don't have a screenshot of the argument nor do I want to dig it up bc I've blocked the person and I'm one of those petty assholes who retains grudges, but sunlight-moth's argument that the White Lady was an abuse victim who did nothing wrong and that PK was her abuser and a colonizer and that this was canon because he's literally white (ignoring the fact that WL's moniker is much more memed on for obvious reasons) rotted my fucking brain. I wasn't the only one either because many others vagueposted about it in the tags, but I think I was the only one who argued directly with them and the entire thread was a fucking disaster
7. what character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because how how the fandom acts about them?
-Alfred!! I admittedly don't hang out with the bloodborne fandom that much bc my fixation on that game isn't fully fandom-y, but WHY the FUCK is he so popular?? I get that he's one of the few people who's nice to your character in the entire game, but underneath it all he's actually a fucked-up zealot whose only motivation is religious genocide, and in my brushes with the fandom there seemed to be a lot of people who ignored that aspect of him. He's not a teddy bear my guy, he's a crusader! And that's not a good thing!!
choose violence ask game
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kimseokjinn · 4 months
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hi. genuinely how do you deal with this fandom? i am reaching burnt out levels of exhaustion dealing with its whining, witch hunting underdog complex. i get things have been rough but some of them really act out like children. worse, like headless chicken who can't be trusted in society. the level of pettiness infantilization and almost cult like behavior that some parts of it are exhibiting is honestly worrying. and that's without mentioning the feeling of entitlement to the members private moments. i just. so goddamn tired of it all. i have tired but i dont think i can keep interact with it as closely as I've been doing
and i cant speak for them, but I fear the members are also getting sick of it
I simply curate my fandom experience that benefits my level of well-being.
In the beginning, I will admit that I engaged in ridiculous fandom arguments over the idea that Jungkook was essentially carrying BTS on his back. This was back when people loved to make comments about wanting to see Jin enlisting and not being a part of the band because he was a "terrible singer and dancer". Or, that Joon was ugly. After a few months, I decided to step back and realize that these fandom wars were doing nothing but ruining my enjoyment of being an Army.
I decided to limit my time on Twitter because that was a continuous cesspool of nasty armchairs that had no problem putting a lil 7 in their display names while bashing any member that wasn't their bias. Twitter was also being overrun by the deluded shippers who thought that taekook or jikook were in this ill-fated secret relationship. I had to step back and stop before I ended up leaving the fandom altogether
(I will admit that when taemins album was dropping, I went and argued with people who were losing their shit over a song name and album cover💀😅. )
I decided that Tumblr was going to be the only platform where I interacted with the fandom, and while I have been out of the loop, I've still maintained the same love and enjoyment I had when I first joined the fandom.
I don't know what it's been like on other platforms in terms of the things you listed, but I can only imagine it's escalated in the 7 years I've been in this fandom. So many new and ignorant people enter the fandom to incite problems, so it's better to block and move on.
Frankly, it wouldn't be that much of an assumption to assume that they are annoyed with. I mean, it's been 10 years of nonsense. How many times has Jungkook had to change his phone number? How many times has Taehyung straight up said that he doesn't like the "fans" screaming in their faces at the airport? How many lives have we seen people asking Jungkook invasive questions? This man avoided the internet for a long time, and when he decides to give us multiple lives, some people act like self entitled brats and think they deserve an all-access pass into his life. The infantilization of jungkook alone probably upset him more than we know. I mean, one of their last fan signs had JK receiving baby-related things. He was in his early 20s for crying out loud. Talk about insulting.
Sorry for my novel, but I simply recommend cutting out the stressful things and focusing on maintaining your love for BTS and the fandom in a capacity that is healthy for you even if that means removing certain aspects.
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Personal, fandom related, schadenfreude, being petty I'm not going to deny it.
Have to say, even if I am a very killjoy self-proclaimed book elitist who rarely ventures into divergent works myself and refuses to engage with anything show related, there is something mildly therapeutic about seeing so many (in my opinion) completely canon-divorced takes about the squid prince.
Because whenever I see them, I just try to ignore them or I block the user if I realise we are incompatible, but when I do that I remember a few particular characters of the 2016 squid prince corner who would not have the maturity to do that themselves, so they'd write long extensive texts countering against lighthearted posts that simply stated stuff like "[REDACTED] is trans" or "[REDACTED] is autistic" or "I don't like how they made [REDACTED] white" or "[REDACTED] is bi!" or "[REDACTED] and person I ship with [REDACTED] would have cried together while watching titanic", most of the time adding some colourful insults, or bringing up personal trauma in a very weaponised way, or accusing you of belonging to the woke agenda and other types of controversial movements/s.
And those people would not survive today's fandom.
And I'm very happy about that because I don't think they behaved correctly. That behaviour simply isn't accepted anymore. They would get called out if they randomly jumped into a post where he is described as dark skinned and bisexual to list all the women he has slept with and how he is 100% straight! Men can have threesomes with other men and still be straight! And you only say he is bisexual because he is sometimes more feminine and he is not dark skinned either, even if he was described as "dark" when we first met him OMG, DIDN'T YOU IDIOTS THINK THEY MEANT HIS HAIR?! DON'T YOU KNOW HE IS SUPPOSED TO BE HOT?!
There is still wank, drama, vague posts and all that, but if someone did that in today's fandom I'm pretty sure they would either turn into laughing stock and/or get blocked, and I don't feel bad about it.
And I know I am being petty, I'm very aware I'm being petty, but I've been petty for a majority of my life, I became valedictorian purely motivated by pettiness, and I'm not going to start caring about being petty now. I was called "wetback" and told to "go back to the plantation" because of a statement like those I quoted at the beginning that wasn't even tagged. So yeah, even if I often get frustrated at certain popular interpretations of the squid prince and the situations and characters surrounding him, I do feel that this development is still for the better.
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bodycountgame · 2 years
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Hi, Nell! I'm unsure your current pov re: advice columns, but I figured I could give it a shot and ask you for an unbiased opinion. If I ever make you uncomfortable, I'm so sorry!!!
Okay, here's my dilemma: I've had this major crush on this guy between ages 11-18, which is my literal entire adolescence (I'm 25 now). It was so intense, I literally made it my mission to let everyone know, thinking in some roundabout way the butterfly effect would result in him proposing to me during our high school graduation (it didn't happen). So, fast forward to two days ago, I download Tinder for the first time because FOMO and a good laugh, but I live in a relatively small town, so I figured I might get traumatized seeing someone I grew up asking to fuck (YUCK). So, you can imagine I nearly shitted myself when I'm on the chopping block swiping left like I'm getting paid for it and see my old crush's older fucking brother - and I only recognized this guy because he had his profile as a group pic with my crush in it. So, I'm gagging, pissing, howling because it was an absolute blast to the past since I totally remember his brother being, like, THE guy on campus and all of my friends gushed over him, but I was too gaga for my crush to really see any appeal (and I still don't now tbh he's just not my type). My question is: I think it's a major win, and a petty part of me wants to match to slam dunk that trauma on my crush, because, honestly, he was an absolute ass to me. Of course, it's not great ethics because I'm basically using his older brother, who probably didn't even know I existed before Tinder. My sister, who's a textbook Gemini, thinks I should, and while Gemini isn't my sun, I have four houses in it, so I'm on her wavelength. My mom thinks it's too coincidental, and thinks it's a trap??? My friend thought it was a hoot, and it really should be just that. I just can't shake this feeling of wanting to match (yes I paid for Gold ugh), so what should I do? Match or not? I think it's straight up incest, but it's been a constant war these past two days. Like, imagine the chances out of all the people that live in my town it just HAD to be this guy! So, is this a sign from the universe or a test? Idk!
okay i am not gonna make a habit of answering these but i feel like i have a social responsibility in this case
anon, please hear me on every level: no
it feels v bold to even assume that this guy will match you back (edit: oh okay i reread and assume gold means you can see he matched you?) or that your crush would even care? this is written like you're the main character in these peoples lives and it seems like you're setting yourself up for a big disappointment when you discover that you aren't.
also, don't deliberately use people! don't set out to play with the feelings of others! its a v bad look
i strongly recommend you take a deep breath, pretend you didn't see this guy on tinder and try to genuinely move on with your life
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ace-nlis · 3 years
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How they met you & fell in love
a/n: This is the first time I decided to actually write something with the intention of posting it. I hope that whoever reads this enjoys it. I'm sorry if I've misspelled anything, English isn't my first language. I hope I did well for my first writing post >.<
WARNINGS: none apart from slight violence. Female reader. Cussing.
Otherwise; fluffy content.
(Y/n) - Your name
(L/n) - Last name
Like or repost if you enjoy <3
Akaashi:
When you first met him, you thought he was a pretty boy with a resting bitch face. He is an extremely straight forward 'say it how it is' type of person and you respected him for that because it isn’t always easy to just speak your mind upfront in this day and age. He didn’t really look all that friendly or approachable, but since you were friends with Bokuto you just had to suck it up and stick around. It was pretty awkward talking to him or even just being around him at first, until you realized that his exterior was an act and he’s a total softy when he isn’t trying to call Bo out on his bullshit. You found him to be an intriguing person, but also rather intimidating. He was peaceful, he didn’t talk all that much and kept to himself like a true introvert. You were the opposite, more of an ambivert type. You tried your best to befriend him, but little did you know that friendship would spiral into something else along the line.
After a while of being friends, Akaashi got red in the ears in your presence. He was easily flustered around you, and the both of you often tended to flirt and bicker as if it was second nature. The two of you in a room together never got boring. Everyone around you could tell the two of you were head over heels for each other. You thought the opposite though, you felt that the friendship was never going to progress into anything more and that your crush was meaningless because nothing would come of it. After being friends for several months, nearly reaching the 1 year milestone, you eventually started to distance yourself.
You always thought the way Akaashi acted around you was purely just because the two of you had a close bond as friends, nothing more, nothing less. Akaashi on the other hand was devastated when he noticed the drastic changes in the close bond you both shared. He noticed that whenever he walked into a room, you’d disappear. Whenever he tried to call you, you wouldn’t answer the phone and make up some excuse that you were busy. The poor guy felt like his sanity was hanging on a thread and all he wanted was to speak to you, figure out what he did wrong and at least go back to how things once were. One day, he cornered you in an empty classroom. His eyes seemed frantic and he made sure to trap you between his arms and leave no room for you to escape so he could get answers. “(Y/n), are you okay? Why have you been avoiding me? Did I do something wrong?”
It seemed like the questions that were wracking his brain kept tumbling out, and in an overwhelmed panic she stopped him. The next thing the both of them knew was that her lips were pressed to his. At first his eyes were wide and body was stiff with shock. He didn’t know how to respond, and he firmly believed that this was a dream. In her mind, she thought she had just made the biggest mistake of her life because he wasn’t responding to it, he was just standing there and embarrassment slowly started to flood her. Before she could pull away from him, his arms slackened and his hands slid down the wall beside her, eventually placing them on her hips and pulling her body flush against his while kissing her back feverishly. When the two pulled away, they were out of breath and their eyes had a dazed look in them as they locked eyes. He leaned his head against hers and sighed in relief, his arms wrapped tightly around her waist as he kept his eyes locked on hers. I think that’s when you both knew that there was no way in hell you’d let go of each other at any point in time because it really felt like you were meant to be together.
Oikawa:
You knew of Oikawa Tooru but you never actually wanted to be acquainted with him. To you he sounded like a total sleazebag, a player that loved breaking female students’ hearts left and right. Unfortunately for you, you just so happened to bump into him on Valentines day after having to reject a poor freshman. When you bumped into Oikawa, he thought that you were another girl ready to confess to him due to the box of chocolates in your hands and a smirk instantly made its way onto his face as he reached over to take the box. Your immediate response was to slap his hand away. If looks could kill, he sure as hell would be more than 6 feet under because you were not up for anyone's bullshit. Oikawa gasped in shock and retracted his hand immediately with a pout. “Hey! I know you. You’re (L/n), hmm. Aren’t you a friend of Iwa? You know, you don’t have to be embarrassed about trying to confess to me. I always appreciate a new follower.”
A mix between a scoff and a laugh of disbelief made its way out of you as you immediately shoved the box of chocolates into your bag. “Wow, I knew you were vain but I guess I underestimated just how much. If you think I have any interest in an asshole like you then you must be smoking something. I have no interest in being one of your petty little toys that you hold on a string. I refuse to be one of your little puppets that follow you around to show my undying admiration for someone as shitty as you. No wonder he calls you Shittykawa. You truly are a self centered douche.”
Oikawa’s face was burning red with embarrassment as she pushed past him and continued going to her class. He was astonished, shocked beyond any words imaginary as he stood there and tried to process what had just happened. Eventually he was brought back to his senses when Iwaizumi smacked him over the head and told him to stop staring like a dumbass and get to practice. “Iwa, How do you know (L/n)?” He asked suddenly after they walked in silence for several minutes, which was very unlike Oikawa. “I’m in the majority of her classes and she lives a block away from me. Why?”
“She’s weird. I thought she was gonna confess and then she slapped my hand and called me a douche.” Oikawa said, his tone was completely flat for once and Iwaizumi raised an eyebrow at his friend. “Yeah, well what do you expect? She has better things to do than fawn over you, Shittykawa.”
*Insert offended Oikawa noises here*
Needless to say, his first encounter with you was not exactly what he would’ve liked it to be. Slowly though he tried to fish more information out on you, he wanted to understand why you weren’t like the other girls who practically fell in love with him at first sight and why you were the way that you were in general. That meant that any time Iwaizumi would meet up with you at a park to study together or whenever you guys would spend any type of time together that Tooru would tag along. Teachers thought that you were having a blooming friendship with him though and much to your dismay you ended up getting partnered with him on a school project. You felt sick to the pit of your stomach because you truly didn’t want him to come to your home, but he kept insisting and you knew that there would be no point in trying to convince him otherwise so you gave in to his stubbornness.
You felt ashamed the moment he stepped through the front door, your parents were never home and you had to take care of your younger twin siblings. The house was a mess, and that was when he understood why you had such a cold persona around others. You wanted to distance yourself from people and push them away as much as possible in order for you to not have to go through the embarrassment of looking like a train wreck to everyone else in the circumstances that you were in as opposed to your usual well put together attitude. To your surprise though, he was patient. He jumped in on helping you clean, he even helped the twins with any homework questions they had in between working on your project together and showed no judgement. In fact, he gave you a look of understanding.
After that, you were able to tolerate him more and you allowed him to visit the twins more often while even bringing along his nephew for all of them to play together. He taught them how to play volleyball while also helping you in the kitchen when you needed it. He didn’t want to admit it, but he honestly fell in love with you because of how genuine you were. You guys flirted, but it was suffocating to him like all the other girls who flirted with him on a daily basis. He only had interest in you, and you bet your ass Iwa teased the shit out of him for it. Your project got an incredible score of 100% and the two of you celebrated together by playing some volleyball even though you were complete shit at it. He didn’t care though and had fun. You found yourselves hanging a lot more often, being around each other almost 24/7 and you even met his family at some point. They absolutely loved you, and so did he.
He tried to figure out how he’d confess to you, he wanted it to be special. He wanted it to be a moment the both of you would remember because he quite honestly couldn’t see him spending any of his time with any other girl apart from you. Of course he was extremely nervous and skeptical on how to approach it, it was a 50/50 chance of you liking him back. The thoughts left his mind when he heard your voice outside a local supermarket, asking someone to leave you alone and that immediately flipped a switch in his brain. He quickly tried to look for you and found you trying to tell some tipsy guy that you didn’t want anything to do with him to which he immediately went over with his hands tucked in his pocket.
“Hey (Y/n), everything okay?” he asked as he coldly stared at the man that had been harassing you. A quiet “Oh thank god” was whispered underneath your breath as you managed to force your way closer to Tooru. He immediately wrapped one arm around your waist and kept his eyes locked on the other older gentleman that had been bothering you. The guy smirked, “Oh nothing man, I was trying to have a chat with her and she got all bitchy. That’s all.” (Y/n) could feel his body language immediately became a lot more tense, but you quickly pulled at him and tried to evade the situation. “It’s not worth it, Tooru. Let’s just go, okay? We can get some milk bread and watch movies or something.”
“I don’t appreciate the way you talk about my (Y/n)-chan. In fact, I’d advise you to leave her alone before I make you regret even breathing the same air as her. Got that?” He spoke calmly as he gently nudged you out of the alleyway next to the store. “Hey, who the hell do you think you are? Huh? Can’t just take my woman like that, dude.” This is when you truly saw how angry Oikawa could get as all he did was throw a punch and the guy was down. You could only stare in shock at what had just unfolded in front of you. “If you ever talk about her like that again I swear I’ll make you regret you ever existed.” At that he tugged you along and when the two of you were a few blocks away you grabbed hold of his hand and inspected it. “You seriously didn’t have to go that far. I don’t care what a low life has to say about me, at least I don’t live in the streets and I’ve got a roof over my head.” He remained silent for a moment before latching his hand onto your wrist and pulling you into his chest. “I’d never let anyone do or say anything to hurt you. Remember that. I’m just sorry you had to witness me get like that. I’ll make it up to you though.”
“Oh? I think a date would be a pretty nice way to make it up to me since you insisted on calling me your (Y/n)-chan” you said, giving him a cheeky smile to which he could only reply with a teasing smirk. “Hm, seems only fair after I saved you as heroically as I did.”
“Whatever you say, douche”
*insert baffled Oikawa noises here*
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animeyanderelover · 3 years
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Omg it's been so long since I've gotten here in time when requests are open but here I am anyway I hope your doing ok and things went well with your visit with friends &Grandparents anyways I feel weird asking it but after reading your intepretation you caught my intrigue I'd like to request yandere Ging hc of him with a s/o who always tries to move b/c he annoys her but he keeps coming back !!! Feel free to make it soft 😊
It's been a while indeed since I've seen you so I'm happy you made it. Sorry that it took so long, but school enables me to only write one post per day😞. Buuut...I have only one week left before holidays and the last week we won't do much anything so I hope that by tomorrow I'll be able to write more again!
Tw: Yandere themes, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship, obsessiveness, stalking, Ging annoying the s/o, meltdown of the s/o
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🍎I feel you, darling. It has to be exhausting to never know when exactly this man comes back or not, the times he just pops up in front of your house or has already somehow broken in and acting like he is at home. Ging simply can't help making bad impressions on his darling due to his constant absence and the indifference he seems to possess whenever they're pissed and want to scold him for his behavior. As someone who would like avoiding such arguments, he either disappears yet again or at least tries to calm you down in a way that doesn't help in most cases.
🍎You think moving away will work, hmm? Sorry to tell you, but it won't. Despite the impression that Ging doesn't look like he cares much and is a rather messy person, he is a respected Hunter. Connections, the possibilities he has with the status of being a Hunter and his very own skills are nothing to be forgotten and so he will have the new location of his darling found out the moment he finds out that they've moved. It's not like he pushes you into a corner for it the next time he just appears in front of the darling's door, ignoring their flabbergasted impression and going inside.
🍎The Hunter has already figured out from the very first incident why exactly you wanted to move, you were happy in your old home with the only thing annoying you being him. Ging is aware of his behavior and that it often has you feel like you want to rip your hair out yet he never really considered it too deeply. That is the kind of guy Ging is and it makes him a horrible person in more than just one pair of eyes. It just feels like he is not taking his darling seriously and ridicules them and that hurts, not to mention that he is so often away.
🍎So maybe now is the time to start recalling his actions and that he's made you go livid to the point where you do not want to be with him anymore. It becomes more and more visible every time you move away, slam the door shut as soon as he knocks on it or just refuses to open it at all. Something he would call "overreacting" at first seems to only turn more and more turbulent until the very first time his darling has a complete meltdown in front of him whilst he was telling them to chill out. Hysterical screaming and yelling whilst starting to burst out in tears before pushing him with violence out, slamming the door shut behind him.
🍎That was the first time Ging shut up when witnessing all of this, freezing and not knowing what to do. Even after he has been kicked down he doesn't know how to act, only the cries inside the house accompanying his thoughts for a while until you seem to calm down a bit. Overwhelmed would be the word to use for him, the feeling of helplessness and confusion, the feeling of having no idea what exactly to do now. It is the very first time his darling has given him such a emotional reaction, a highly negative one. The turning point where Ging has to ask himself if things can really stay the way they are or if he has to do something.
🍎Obviously he acts like a horrible person, but maybe he just happened to hit the wrong nerve after pocking for so long at you, maybe you just had enough. And as much as he hates troubles like those, even he is not too dumb or lazy to think that he can just act like he always did. Not this time, you clearly despise him by now. And that is not the kind of relationship he wishes to have when with the s/o. But the biggest problem for him now is what he is even suppose to do. He's no expert and will never be. How does someone apologize to their loved one without ruining things even more?
🍎The sudden disappearance from this man is something you're used to and wish for and that is what happens after. But not exactly for the reason you think. Ging believes that what you need now most is time to calm down, visiting you right after your outburst is not a wise option. Additionally he himself needs time to think now on what he should do, how he can make things right again. Well, as right as possible at least. It's written all over his face that something is bothering him and some people actually speak to him because of it. And Ging...well, after some time he tells them in vague details what is on his mind.
🍎Such talks are what turns out to be a big help because some people are surprisingly helpful. Especially all those married people who somewhat sympathize with the Hunter tell him in return their stories and what they did to make up with their partners and lovers. Lots of different advices and stories and yet Ging finds himself still having troubles. He's never done anything like this before so he is more nervous than he would like to admit after he has been away for a bit, tracking down the new home of yours again. Something really has to change.
🍎Blocking the door with his foot as you try to slam it shut right in front of his nose again is within his expectations as well as the yelling and he endures it with the same angering calmness as he always does. It's all the same in his darling's opinion. Until the very moment where he actually pulls out a bouquet of flowers from behind his back, handing them in a somewhat shy manner over. The man is highly embarrassed about it, not able to look his darling straight into their confused face as he stutters out an apology he has practiced beforehand. The practice was useless though, in front of the s/o this is a completely different thing.
🍎Instant forgiveness is not what you give him nor does he expect this. He did go too far about this time and he knows that he should stay to fix this. And he does. Somewhere else of course but it is the very first time he stays for a really long time since the grudge you have against him is not easy. During this time he comes to realize something uite importantt himself, how much of your life he actually missed whilst being constantly away. There are new hobbies and new friends you didn't know you had before and some of those friends are people he doesn't like. Because they're too close and you ignore him for them.
🍎It's rather silly since they're the only ones who kept you company whilst he was always away and he deserves this, but karma is a bitter bitch as he experiences himself. The relationship you two once had is in your eyes probably no more, increasing the danger of you falling in love with someone else, someone who will actually stay with you. Maybe that is why Ging turns unusually petty, following his darling around and biting his tongue when he catches them with one of those people he has officially recognized as love rivals. What a nasty feeling jealousy is and how frustrating your grin is when you caught him jealous for the very first time in a long while. Seems like the roles have reversed, haven't they?
🍎Using his connections is an option, but by now Ging is far too much provoked to do this himself. Not like he was planning before to use it, another drama with you is the last thing on his list he wants. His darling is letting him dance around here for quite a bit to the point where he accuses them mentally for being a sadist since he is pushed to do so many things he never did before and for that feels extremely awkward. Yet he goes through everything with embarrassment burning his skin, the desire to want the relationship far greater.
🍎The s/o comes to realize that he is serious as well, though doubting it at first. But the constant small gifts and the fact that he apologizes whenever he sees themplus tehe valuable fact that he stays around for a very long time convince them after some time. But forgiving him sweetly right after isn't what you would want after all the emotional roller coaster. You'll get back at him for everything before you shall grant him the relationship back. It takes a very long time and by the end of it Ging has probably the most frustrating months of his entire life behind him so it's safe to assume that now he knows how you must feel. Believe me, he has learned his lesson of a lifetime to treat his darling better from now on.
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harvest2036 · 2 years
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again finding it funny that my ex friends who were teenagers stopped liking me once I turned 21 and started prioritizing myself like 👍 good to know our friendship was a commodity to you and I didn't meet your selfish + child like standards for a relationship. Adults don't get to hang out with friends all the time let alone get caught up in petty drama about how long its been and what you were doing instead. When they enter their 20s they'll finally get a life and realize it's not only harder to make friends but also it's easy to feel like an imposter because you are trying to change who you've been. You can start a new relationship right now and never make another mistake again but you are an awful person. I will always remember all the bs they put me through. I know some of the choices I've made were only mistakes but I don't think I'm better just because I changed. The victims were hurt and that person was 100% me. But yeah abandoning me over that defeats the purpose of any effort I've made to deal with whatever they put me through (and so they are just being straight up hypocritical and insecure, acting like they are innocent angels -_-) and because I've only talked about my side of the situation on this tumblr and everyone blocked me, they just get free reign to make up whatever story they want to tell themselves and everyone else. the real life true things I can say about half these people would actually blow your mind. So they better watch out what kind of lies they want to keep spreading about me.
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winnies-headcannons · 4 years
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Kyoya x reader
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Summery: kyoya just knew he liked you from the way you walked to the way you care for others. You were a family friend of kyoya so he had known you since birth, he had secretly liked you for awhile but family buisnness got in the way. You guys havent talked in a while but when you joined the host club his heart stopped.
Trigger warnings: Drinking, arguing, fluff, slapping
A/N: I hope you like this, I've been having writers block lately but this idea inspired me!! Anyway enjoy!
Koya's eyes widened, his heart racing like horses on a race track. Out of everyone in the school, Tamaki had to choose you to be the new host, a girl he had known since birth, a female he had liked for forever but too stubborn to tell you. You meant everything to him but he let his work get in the way. He had pushed you away to focus on the family business as he tried to impress his father.
After the host introduced themselves you smiled, you couldn't help but stare at the black-haired glasses-wearing guy, he looked more mature than he did when you guys were little. His chest was buffer, his facial expression more serious. It was kinda...hot.
"Hi, my name is l/n y/n, second-year student!" You exclaimed introducing yourself to the hosts, you were honestly excited to get started. You were the first female to be in the club that will be working with guys (besides Haruhi at times). One thing you didnt except was that your childhood best friend/crush would be the manager of this type of club. I mean come on the Kyoya ootori a host? Kinda hard to believe, he wasn't the 'host' type.
"Well well well, got ourselves a cute little kitten~" the ginger-haired makes spoke in sync, your face became a light shade of pink "you're gonna be fun~," the one named Hikaru said resting his arm around your shoulders. Kyoya got pissed, he didn't want anyone to touch you but he didn't want anyone to know so he just watched from behind the black book he always writes in. "Wow Tamaki was right you two do look just alike!" You smiled, you can't believe the resemblance they had, identical twins!
It was a few hours before the club opens and you were just starting it up with the club. They told you how they wanted something more for the club, they wanted it to surpass high school, you found it quite amazing how hard they work just to please girls. "Oh that reminds me, you didn't get to meet kyoya when we introduced ourselves!" Tamaki exclaimed "no need me and y/n have known each other for years" kyoya interrupted, "she's a family friend" his voice monotone, never looking up from his book. The club mentally facepalmed, they knew there was a reason why you didn't talk to him. "Yup, but we kinds fell off in middle school..so we haven't really talked since then" your heart pulled at you're chest, it hurt you've loved him for so long yet he just pushes you away.
"I didnt seem you to be the host type kyoya" you exclaimed turning around to look at him, he smirked from behind the big black book "nor did I, tamki talked me into it" turning toward tamaki he was doing his little kingly pose "yes all my idea!" God he was full of it. "We must not delay the ladies and gentlemen-" he looked towards you "are going to be here soon! We must get the club ready" everyone nodded got to their designed spot but kyoya didnt move just sat there so you decided to sit with him at the back of the room. "So..how have you been" you shyly said, you noticed how he didnt even look up from his book not once. "If your attempting to small talk me its not gonna work, Y/N I'm a very busy man and I dont have time for silly small talk" this made your heart hurt, you knew he wouldnt really wanna see you but figured it's been so long since you've last seen each other, Guess you were wrong.
"O-okay" you put on a fake smile and walked to your designated spot fighting back tears. In the back of your head thinking maybe, just maybe he would be different. Hours have gone by and it was honestly a good first day, flirting with guys and them flirting back, even got a few numbers. Your population was growing quickly, I mean it should everyone knew at this point that your family was close to the ootori family so they wanted to get on your good side. School had ended at this point and you were waiting by the front gate for your ride, but thanks to the buisnness of your father and his driver he couldnt make it. You had gotten the text on your phone a few minutes ago that he couldnt make it, you only sighed not surprised but disappointed.
Sitting on the front gate fountain you sighed, how were you gonna get home? It was too far to walk and you didn't really know anyone well enough to get a ride with someone except..no, no you couldn't, he didn't wanna even talk to you let alone give you a ride home.
"Your father not coming?" A voice appeared out of nowhere. Looking up from the phone you see the devil himself, Kyoya. "Ah, no he's busy" a fake smiled crept on your face, he was the last person you wanted to see at the moment.
"Well seeing as we live close to each other it would only make sense you ride with me" his dace black his stare harsh, you didn't want to but yet you did. Only wanting to know why he pushed you away so much. "A-alright" you agreed, walking with him to his limo. "We're taking miss L/N home first" kyoya exclaimed to the drive, he only nodded and drive off. It was silent half of the way there till you got the guts to speak "Kyoya..why did you push me away" oh God why did you ask that your anxiety oh the frights now. He looked up at you and was silent for a quick second "Y/N you should know the answer. We are both very important people and we can't let a friendship get in the way of things" he huffed out "but we've known each other all this time why now" he was starting to piss you off, you just wanted your friend back, you wanted to see if y'all could be more. "Because my father's business is much more important than our petty friendship" tears were on the verge of your eyes, clenching your fist on your dress "why do you care so much" looking down and tears falling down your face "because I love you.." He eyes widened and his heart racing, did you really mean it? All this time he thought you were just playing him. "y/N I-" suddenly he was cut off by the sudden stop of the limo. "Don't bother kyoya like you said, your work is way more important than me" you got out of the limo leaving him speechless.
The last thing you remember about that night was running to your room and crying your eyes out, you even snuck into your dads room and stole some alcohol and chugged it, throwing it up instantly as your body wasn't use to it. Even though you kept puking you just kept drinking till eventually you were drunk off your ass making you fall asleep.
The next day the worst hangover hit you, school was the last thing on your mind but had no choice, after spending to much time in the bed past your alarm you got up and got ready for school. Arriving at school you went straight to the host club knowing everyone would be in there, rubbing your temple as you opened the door. "Wow Y/N you look like shit" one of the twins said you only grunted at their statement and sat down on the couch next to haruhi "jesus Y/N you smell like alcohol" the female dressed as a male (still valid) covered their nose. "Sorry didnt have time to shower, but damn I have a hangover like no tomorrow" rubbing your temple Mori handed you a water with a simple 'here'then walked away. The hosts was crowded around you wanting to know why you drank so much last night. "Listen guys I dont wanna talk about it." Kyoya was getting mad, a simple argument made you drink so much last nigh? He slammed his book closed causing everyone to be quiet, he stood up quickly and walked to you grabbing you by the hand causing you to stand "are you stupid? Drinking at your age, ruining your system" he stared you straight in the eyes "why do you care, why not just go write in your little book if yours." You harshly said making his jump back a little "if you weren't such a DICK maybe you would have more friends, maybe someone would love you MAYBE-" you were cut off by a pair if warm soft lips, it was kyoya, his hands on both side of your face. You never kissed back only stared at him in shock. Soon he let go of your alcohol tasting lips, "I do love you" you heart skipped a beat, beating as fast as it could go, tears formed at the edge of your eyes.
Slap
Your hand met his soft pale face as hot tears streamed down your face. "I love you more" you smiled then hugged him, guess this is a perfect life.
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rpmemesbyarat · 3 years
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RP Meme Lines from "AHS: Coven" Episode 13: "The Seven Wonders"
I've chosen caviar from the Caspian Sea served on blinis along with champagne as fitting stand-ins as we partake of our own last supper.
When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I understood like a child, I thought like a child. But when I became a woman, I put aside childish things.
Put aside fears, reservations and petty things.
Kick ass tomorrow.
What if I can't do it?
Almost sounds like you want it.
Commonly only known to the public as mind control. It's a tricky little craft. When properly exercised, can bend the strongest of wills to your desire.
Nobody controls my mind but me.
Knock it off!
Ow! Ow, ow, ow, ow, ow, ow, ow!
Well done.
I'm not done.
Now, lick it.
That's enough. Let's move on.
Having fun yet?
If your soul hasn't returned to your body by sunup, you'll die.
You're the first to return.
It was horrible. I was stuck on a network musical. It was a live version of The Sound of Music. I wasn't even the lead.
I'm right here, it's okay.
Freak. You're a freak.
No, I don't wanna kill a living thing.
No, you can't make me kill a living thing.
We have to help her.
There's nothing we can do.
Follow my voice.
You're a stone-cold bitch.
When you play with fire, you get burned.
Tag, you're it.
Gotcha. No tag-backs.
Can't we just have a little fun?
Suck it. Ha-ha-ha!
Nothing's happening.
What's "deserve" got to do with any of this?
So either crown me or kiss my ass.
I can feel all their eyes on me.
Maybe we deserve to die out.
Why did you leave me? You said you'd never leave me
My mother was always right.
How true is it that a prophet is never recognized in his own country?
Well, I guess it's different when it's your own family.
You have royal blood in your veins.
I was a fool not to have realized it earlier, seeking all this time in the dust for that which may have been right before us all along.
You must let it out.
I'd stake your life on it.
I'm not stupid.
Are you ready?
What did you see?
This thing started as a competition. I say we end it like one.
Divination. Let's rock.
This is stupid. I'm not doing it.
Let me show you real power.
Divination first.
We're doing this by the book.
I'm sick of your book.
I have so many powers, I could tear this room apart until there's nothing left but your little trinkets, but, no, I have to do this bullshit.
There's something in the thing.
Because the game is rigged, [NAME]. Wake up.
You would accuse us of chicanery?
I didn't even wanna come here.
I'm going back to Hollywood where people are normal.
I suggest you change the locks, because when I tell TMZ everything it won't be long before torches, pitchforks, and Molotov cocktails become a real big part of your day.
Peace out!
What do you want, dumb-ass?
You let her die.
Why did you let her die?
You know that dark place! We've both been there!
I did it for us.
You're not that good an actress.
No one will wonder where the body went once we bury her.
Since your extraordinary public statement last month there has been quite a bit of fanfare.
We are not a cult. We don't proselytize. We have no agenda. We're not recruiting.
Women who identify as witches are born as such and their abilities, which we call powers are part of who they are, part of their DNA, if you will.
So in fact, you're saying that it's not a choice, being a witch.
There are so many young witches who have resisted their calling because they're afraid of how they may be perceived, or what's expected of them.
But you know, when you hide in the shadows, you are less visible, you have less protection.
We'll always be targets for the ignorant. It is what it is.
There is a home and a family waiting for you.
I'm so proud of you.
Start by telling them that being an authority figure requires you to make hard, unpopular decisions for the greater good.
Your tasteful modesty is out of fashion, so knock it off.
Thanks to you, we're entering a new era.
You've planted the seeds but in order to reap their harvest, you have to clear the rot of the past.
I love your metaphors, but I have no idea what you're talking about.
I'm not suggesting. I'm insisting.
You want to be burned at the stake?
At the start of your glorious reign the last thing you need is an ABSCAM or Watergate.
I killed and I must pay for it.
I didn't hear this.
I've made many painful mistakes in my life. I want my death to have some meaning.
Stiff upper lip, my dear.
You cannot be a hypocrite. I won't stand for it.
Any last words?
Balenciaga!
I'm excited. I wanna get in there and show what I can do.
You gotta check this shit out. Line's around the block.
We'll buy more houses if we have to.
I got your back.
Should we open the doors now?
There's just one more thing I need to deal with.
I saw you die.
You men, with your fragile egos.
We still have a deal, babe.
I'm going to Paris for just a couple days.
Why? Why would she decide to do that?
I mean, it won't be pleasant for you. But if you do it right, I promise you the world.
I'm gonna put something inside you.
What happens when I wake up from this vision?
If you're gonna offer me your spit, I'll take it straight from the spigot.
I ruined a perfectly good pair of Jimmy Chaos.
I knew you'd get rid of him for me, once he served his purpose.
Whose blood was it?
I never killed anybody. Not yet.
That was the plan. Let you do the dirty work.
You didn't come here to kill me.
You were hoping I'd put you out of your misery, but I don't need to. You're close. I doubt you'll make it through the night.
Is that why you were always so awful to me? Because you knew I was going to take your power some day?
A woman becomes a mother, she can't help but see her mortality in that cherubic little face.
Every time I looked at you, I saw my own death.
You were a constant reminder of my worst fears.
Oh, and all this time, I thought you just didn't like me.
It was nothing personal, darling.
I loved you plenty, though. Just my own way. Which, I'll admit, had its limitations.
I can feel the power vibrating off of you.
It feels good, doesn't it?
I have to die for you to truly live.
I'm not crying over you. I'm crying for me.
You were the monster in every one of my closets.
A lifetime spent either trying to prove myself to you, get close to you, or get away from you.
God knows you'll do a better job of it than I ever did though you won't look half as good doing it.
For God's sake, have mercy on me. Put me out of my misery. I hurt everywhere.
You're scared, maybe for the first time in your life.
You have to do this alone. And the only way out is through. So feel the fear and the pain. Let it all in and then let it all go.
I don't think we ever hugged.
You're up. I hope you're hungry.
Oh, get those goddamn things out of my face.
Why you always gotta be like this?
I'm tired of fighting.
How long have we been here?
If you want a stiff one, come over here.
Don't be vulgar.
Maybe you ought to lay off the sauce for a while.
Drink in the fresh air.
I can't spend eternity here.
This place it reeks of fish and cat piss.
I'm in heaven.
All right, let's open the doors.
We survived. Up until now, that's all we've done.
I know together we can do more than survive. It's our time to thrive.
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A post from one of our reddit subbies:
Confronting negging!
MINDSET SHIFT
So, I'd always been an extreme pickme, then I discovered FDS from all the bad posts about it on reddit, how bad, extreme, equivalent to incels it was, ya know all that bullshit?
But I've really been following this sub and I am grateful, I also have tried to implement strategies which I found hard at first due to always wanting to be a people pleaser.
I always would put myself out or down so that others (particularly male exs) would do/feel better. 👌🤡
Anyway, I was talking to some guy, and usually with negging I would just laugh it off, and this was the first time I addressed it. I was anxious to, I was so used to accepting it and didn't wanna hurt his pwecious feewings - but I said screw it - and let me tell you if any of you have doubts about calling out people who neg you - DON'T.
It's SO satisfying it had me laughing at my phone. Seeing them backtrack. If a man insults you backhandedly, ask him to explain, or insult him back in the same way and block.
The guy negged me by implying where I was from in my country meant I was 'rough' or like a criminal. Where I live there's a slight 'divide' between parts of the country, so it's stereotyped that people from his part are better and people in my area are scum of the earth.
So yeah we said where we were from and he implied that I would be a ruder person than him due to where we were from! E.g. 'Oh, that's such a your area thing 😂' when talking about rude or bad things people do.
Usually I'd ignore it or laugh it off but not this time, I straight up asked him 'was that an insult?' And implied that he was ruder due to his area (a bit petty but trying to neg him back a bit and show him what it's like).
He did a full 180°, went back on it, insisted it 'wasn't an insult' and sent loads of messages, explained that anything said was a joke with no meaning, etc. And you know what, it was so satisfying. I will no longer fear confronting negging.
Most of the time they will realise they fucked up, that you don't tolerate any shit from people, and will desperately try and claw their way back for your respect.
Never fear confronting someone who negs! They know what they're doing, don't think you have to put yourself down for men to like you - I genuinely used to think like this... But a true respectable man would not 'joke' about how you're less than him, men who do are usually projecting cause he does feel he's better than you (and most likely all women).
So thank you FDS, this sub is everything I needed and helped me through an extremely abusive relationship (not mentioned in the post) I only wish I'd found it sooner.
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born-to-lose · 4 years
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Sorry I have to bring the topic up again, I thought I was done with it, but I'm not going to let him portray me as the toxic bitch. I can't do much about his followers' opinions on me, but I just want to set things straight for you guys.
First off, I am sure his followers already would have known it's about me only from the way he talked about me in one of the latest asks asking what happened to us, so this was needless to say.
As for the "we were never really friends" part, well... I considered him my friend - my best friend even - and I have always supported him in everything he did. I helped him through a lot of things and it's just rude that he doesn't appreciate that in the slightest now. Believe me, our convos would have had been very different if he hadn't thought of us as friends in the first place.
Saying we just wanted a relationship is nonsense. He was in a relationship or two when we started talking and I was in love with a different guy for about the first half year. I didn't even consider dating him at that time. Besides, it wasn't me who asked him to be my boyfriend, but him.
I agree that it wasn't a healthy one, but not everything was my fault. I never showed any abusive or toxic behavior, so I honestly don't know what my contribution to that was. I must admit I've felt uncomfortable on various occasions because of how jealous he could be when there was literally no reason to be; he knew I would never cheat on him. He took many things too seriously and I don't like that in a relationship. If it had really been that terrible with me all the time, he could have left much sooner.
And yes, I personally think this behaviour is kind of petty. I have been through a similar thing already and I hadn't expected to experience a round two only two years later again. Especially asking boys to hit him up after ranting about his ex girlfriend because he's available again is completely out of place.
For the record, I am not stirring shit and accusing him of things he hasn't done. What I've said is nothing but the truth and my personal feelings. I am free to post what I want and so is he. When he dumped me, we agreed that we'd be friends and I don't talk shit about my friends, so why would I spread rumors? I get that it wasn't that much of a problem for him, but it was for me and I think it's only natural that at least one person feels bad after a breakup. He also didn't have to be rude to me when I said it hurts.
When I said I'm writing songs about how I feel, I wasn't stirring up shit either if that's what he means. For me songwriting is a way to cope and I won't let him forbid me to do that. It's not like I'll release the songs and credit him with his name as "the asshole who made me write this song" or something like that. These things are what inspire me to write and not intended to talk shit about people. This is what you call artistic freedom.
I am "not about that life" either. I'm through with this topic and him. There is nothing left to be said anymore. He tells his friends his perspective on things and I tell my friends my perspective. I don't want any drama and I sure as hell am not going to discuss this shit.
Just so you know, I blocked him too, so it's not a masterstroke. And honestly, it really does feel liberating.
Hereby the case is closed and I won't publicly talk about it anymore. If you want details, send me a DM.
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Does Confidence = Consequence?
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Just last Tuesday, I was asking myself the same question when some geezer opened the door for me on my way into the dollar store. His comment was "Nice horns", sad enough it didn't end there. I had almost finished my shopping when he stepped in the same aisle as me making every petty, fake excuse to inch his way closer to me. He even used lines like "Whoops, passed the socks." and "Do I know you from some dating site?" Even in line, he kept trying to harass me, and then our idea popped into my mind. I looked him dead in the eye and said with a smile; "You do know I'm gay right?" I may receive a lot of hate for this escape routine, but it did manage to fend him off for a spell, that is until the lady in front of me said "Good job, I'll use that one!" He spun his head around and kept trying to make a move on me. Thankfully lady and her boyfriend in line behind me were generous enough to help. He stood blocking the aisle to ensure the man didn't lay a finger on me. I thanked them after we exited the store and hurried to my car. I know it's a bit of a topic to bring on an argument, but when your brain is in panic mode the craziest things slide into your brain and out of your mouth. I am enrolled in Aikido for self-defense purposes, but only one month of the class doesn't qualify me for defending myself just yet. Sensei says I'm too tense, but with time that'll fade. Honestly, I could've defended myself had it come down to it, but I indeed froze, and explaining that to him was a bit of a pill. He did however encourage me to work harder and remember how scared. He says that way I'll perform better in class and in real life. I guess I didn't help the situation any with my dress being short. I, like many, am not completely confident in my whole figure. I feel that my torso could use some work but the rest of me is great particularly my legs. This dress did show a lot of legs and made me feel confident until that point in the day where grandpa showed up. It covered my torso, and butt pretty well, but my legs looked especially good in it with a pair of low heels. I'm positively certain that hetero women like myself struggle with this issue, but I wonder if my people from all genders feel this way. Did you also use a really bad escape in a fight or flight incident?
Alexis: "I used a period excuse to get out of a bad date. Does that count?"
Michael: "A guy kept following me as I went shopping and I told him my boyfriend was waiting outside for me and pointed at a random guy. I'm asexual."
Jessie: "Sometimes, faking you have to go to the bathroom works. Just make sure it's one with people in it."
Kesley: "At bars, I get harassed a lot, I always order an 'angel shot'. That's a secret code that tips off the bartender and lets them know someone is bothering you."
Travis: "I've been harassed by girls before and it wasn't fun. She's a coworker of mine that doesn't take 'no' lightly. I told her I already had a date."
How sad is it that the things that make us feel confident can instantly turn into a bitter situation with the wrong people? All I showed were my legs, and that situation made me want to burn that dress to ash. Does being confident really come at a cost? Tuesday did show me that in some cases, it definitely does. The woman in front of me, who blew my cover, was a senior citizen. Her praising comment didn't aid me in any way but brought to my attention that people of her generation still get the same kind of treatment, which I'm sure is no different for younger generations either. On various social media platforms besides this one, I've noticed a challenge where someone says; "What would you do if all the men went away?" I've noticed lots of people classifying as female said similar things like going for a walk alone, wearing whatever they wanted, eating as much as they wanted without judgment, etc. They make many men sound like animals, and I'm starting to think they're not half wrong. This whole week I've noticed wandering eyes from various places outside the dollar store. The grocery store, restaurants, church, the pharmacy, the mall, even just strolling through the park. It feels like people are undressing me with their eyes. Nowhere is safe! Men are the carnivorous beasts and we are the main course. Just when I was starting to feel unsafe everywhere, I remembered the sole man aside from my father that didn't look at me that way, my best friend.
Now I know what you're thinking, having a male best friend means he's gay, or he secretly likes me. The answer is no. Most teen dramas or movies want you to think that a man and woman who are best friends are the two answers above or friends with benefits. We do go back since junior year of high school, where everyone called him gay and I was the sad emo chic. He asked me out to see the homecoming game since he was late to too many band practices, at the time no one wanted to date me and my older brother put him up to it. He did kind of like me at the time, I didn't know him aside from drama, so I gave him a chance. We had fun but decided we didn't see each other that way and have been friends since. All the other people we knew from school sort of left the two of us and since then we've grown protective of one another and have been in separate relationships when we can find them. In public, I call him my brother in front of pretty girls, so no one thinks we're a couple. In all my years I'd never imagined my best friend being a straight man. We take good care of the other and encourage them to get out and do things. Most of the time, he drags me on terrifying rollercoasters and I try to get him to eat new foods. What is it with men and eating nothing but meat and soda? We're out of town working a convention this weekend. Perhaps I should've slipped broccoli in his lunch so he'd never know.
That doesn't bother me nearly as much as seeing how lonely he is. He's never done anything to me and we have the movie marathons to prove it. But his last relationship went up in smoke when his girlfriend broke it off saying she didn't love him as much as she thought. She wanted to take a break from dating or something but started dating this other guy right away. After a few months, they were engaged and the wedding has been on hold since the fiasco of 2020. They're still friends and they hang out in a group nearly once a month, but every time he goes home he looks distraught. Why is it that the sweetest of people are given the least amount of love when the earlier mentioned jerks are getting all the action? In our case, we both decided we didn't see each other that way, but unless men are a bit of an asshole women don't want them. I don't know about you, but I'd like a man to open a door for me out of courtesy without comments like "Nice horns". Looking at my friend day-to-day reminded me that not all men are bad, but perhaps the hetero women aren't the best either. Maybe they're just as big of jerks as men are at times. It makes me wonder if men get uncomfortable with any comments from women? If confidence equals consequence on both sides, then everyone loses. If that was the case, perhaps we're all a little sheepish making us no different from anybody else, and that's pretty crazy. Much Love Your Way Darlings!
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papirouge · 4 years
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Where the hell do you get off, using the lords name in vain while condeming others, rejecting eternal security, open a bible and stop spewing blasphemy out of your mouth. Youve damaged a friend with your self righteousness unblock shutterthedeer and we will have a chat
I'm still waiting for evidence as of where I'm using God's name in vain. Acting like I don't read the Bible just because I'm saying stuff you don't agree with doesn't prove anything. I'm really unfazed by all the cussing and names that have been thrown at me lately ("legalist", mentally sick, death threats, etc).
I felt compelled to exhort about this issue since MONTHS. I've had signs and dreams. IDC if none of you believe me, I know God is on my side and that's all that matters. If I hadn't, I would've stopped a while ago - the Tumblr Christian community is so fake & performative, either scoffing at you or jumping at your throat if you have the slightest dissenting outlook about what being a Christian is & encompasses, and I want none of it. Glory to God for uplifting me when I couldn't count on anyone else.
If you're talking about my darling dear (as your "friend" - I'm 90% positive she's the one who sent me the anon ask) just know that I have a godly love for her. It's hard to explain but I feel like the Holy Spirit is drawing me towards her. God cares for her and He wants to Save her. He wants her to want Him back and Him only - not the world.
I've been praying for her. Her spiritual struggles concern me. Out of all the Christians on Tumblr she's the one that truly stands out as having a genuine longing for God and be Saved. She's straightforward in her flaws (I admire her humility), trying to be a better person, always repenting... She's in pain because she actually cares about pleasing God, and this makes her stand out of a bunch of self professed Christians™ out there. Paul said tribulations and trials were part of the Christian path. We're called to suffer to level up in Spiritual maturity. I'm glad my reply managed to convey a change in her heart, hopefully causing the scale on her eyes to fall off. It's between her and God now. Let her deal with her own -spiritual- battle. Stop babying her.  You're not helping. This "love"/support/instinctive protection of your friend is touching, but not Godly. You're like Peter trying to stop Jesus from surrendering to his janitors - what's bound to happen has to happen...for the better, God willing.
She reacted in a very willing manner to my post, unlike the Christian squad who proceeded to call me names, “legalist” and all the same boring anathemas... This eternal security doctrine some of you believe in is one of the reasons a bunch of you are so arrogant. It drives a bunch of you into thinking you can routinely act like fools (blaspheming against the Holy Spirit which is an UNFORGIVABLE sin, regardless you’re Saved or not), do the bare minimum spiritually, refusing to properly crucify your flesh, cuss out authentic servants of Christ....and somehow think you’ll eventually have the gate of heaven everlastingly open to you. Spiritual rebellion/disobedience DOES hinder your salvation/Godly anointment - go tell that to King Saul or Samson. God will NEVER give up on us, but WE can willingly give up on Him (through unrepenting disobedience) and we’ll eventually have to face the consequence of this rebellion. This is ultimately what my exhortations are all about - nothing else.
God's orders are not debatable. I am not here to "have words" with people. I block to protect my posts from undesirable interference, provocation, if not straight out blasphemy (plus I have better stuff to do than arguing on petty back & forth on tumblr dot com, I'm too old for this.. lol).
I already have the confirmation the people who were supposed to hear this message already did - and those who've yet to do will eventually come up to it. I'm secure in the Lord.
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