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i need to stop forcing myself to like things that give me mental breakdowns
what the fuck, me
(this is like, mostly a joke. I like torturing my characters as long as they deserve it/me or my character gets to beat the shit out of/ kill their whumper after :])
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bobtheacorn · 1 day
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For the drabble challenge: #96 + Raph?? :3c
100 Drabble Challenge: Whump Edition: write a hundred drabbles, exactly 100 words each, for a hundred brief prompts!
96. Forced to Watch (+Raph)
The rush of ninpo keeps Raph grounded.
Fighting alongside his brothers… it's different than the hivemind of the Kraang. Raph isn't suffocating, the unwilling extension of a single entity burrowing and hungering into his bones; but an individual amidst a warm, unyielding flow of intention, understanding, trust, love. It doesn't burn away the fear. It does burn away the doubt. Together, they can do anything. Raph knows it. Until he shatters apart on Staten Island with only two brothers in his arms.
Until Leo's voice shatters over the comms.
Until the sky shatters brilliantly in the violent hues of victory.
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blackrosesandwhump · 1 year
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#24 Bedridden
From @whumpster-dumpster's 100 Drabble Challenge.
CW: illness whump, implied strangling
A shaft of light pierces the gloom of hero’s bedroom. The curtains slide apart; a silhouette stands out dark against the onslaught of sunlight. Villain steps down from the sill into the silence and glances around, at the medicine bottles perched on the side table and the motionless form of hero on his back under the covers.
Hero’s eyes flicker open as villain approaches.
“Come to…beat me…when I’m already down?” he gasps, squinting.
Villain laughs gently. “Actually, no.  I’m here to express my condolences at your illness.” He bends over; his fingers close around hero’s clammy throat. “Get well soon.”
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pauein · 2 years
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Not to ramble on main (Just kidding i will not be stopped) but. Anyone else ever get the Fear irt branching off into making more Mature:tm: content? Like... OK maybe its just the crumbling state of media analysis on the internet right now (....+ The fact that most of the followers on my art account are from. Uh. Teh kirby fandom DHDBDJDHDBF NO OFFENSE TO KIRBY FANS its just. Very different target audience) but i always just get very worried about people completely misreading my intent in darker works or being frustrated and considering it Bad writing if things.. Dont work out well for the characters
DONT THINK THIS POST WILL GAIN TRACTION BUT JIC IT DOES THIS IS NOT FOR PR/SH/PPERS. FUCK OFF
#Kernel Panic#Writing#I mean. Maybe im just not giving people enough credit here but#1. Fandomization of everything is a curse#2. I kind of used to think liek this.#Like. When i was leaving mmy 'YESS ANGST AND WHUMP MUHAHAHA PHASE'#I just kinda ended up going in the opposite direction for a bit? Soet of?#Like i was still writing and consuming technically Dark work#With lotsa gore and mental illness stuff and all that#But everything still had this sort of... YA Good guys have to always be right and win#And bad guys have to always be wrong and lose#Mentality going on in my brain.#Honestly like. Dont get me wrong i love mob psycho 100 but the 2018 state of the fandom ruined my analysis abilities for a while#Not the shows fault or anything. Its more that Everyone was desperately trying to avoid being A Bre/ch of Trust#Without realizing what the actual Issues with that fic and its derivatives were#Like. Yeah it was a darkfic. Sure. But everyone acted like that was the be-all end-all of its issues#When the main thing was that its entire SETUP was plothole in itself#+ The gay stereotypes + infantilization of a very autistic coded character#And a lot more honestly. Lol side psa ab/t by ph/ntomrose69 sux#But. I havent touched the fic in years so maybe like. It Had a happy ending or something#I mean. That was always the implication tbh#But things can HAVE happy endings and still just feel... Very gross and pointless#Thats something i wish people (including past me) realized more tbh. Just because it ends with everyone being happy found family#Does not mean the whump and angst was well written or well handled.#Ok done for now sorry @ people who read tags#EDIT REGARDING ABOT: Oh my god how could i have nearly forgotten the ritsu thing </3#That is a fine example of being Pointlessly Weird. Like i GET it was going for a blood sacrifice thing or whatever i Guess.#but Why Like That.#Like did it ACTUALLY have a reason to be like that or did OP just think the ''''aesthetics'''' of it would be CoOl and SCAARY
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obstinaterixatrix · 17 days
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Do u know any good mob psycho 100 fanfics?? Or authors??
well obviously my sister but I’m guessing you’re the same anon so 1) you already know her fics 2) you want different recs from what’s on her list (some of them being fics I rec’d to her lol). recs will skew heavily seri/rei and I’m just going through my bookmarks so it’s gonna be most recently read to oldest read. also seconding sister’s recs of bobmoss and crookedturtle. but I’ll add a fic from each anyway because I already wrote something for one while I was drafting this (oops)
Recollection by CowardlyBean
This is the journal of missing 31 year old Reigen Arataka, distributed with permission from friends and family. The version presented in this document has been kindly edited with added commentary by a loyal customer of his. -Editor’s Note
gen, experimental and in progress at 14k so definitely deserves more love than it’s getting. inspired by house of leaves; as the summary says, it’s some rando writing annotations about reigen’s journal, but Something Weird Is Going On. the 4th chapter updated so I actually need to catch up. also, sister rec’d this fic to me
Like Acid Reflux, or Love by partingxshot
Dating Reigen is like dating a single dad—only with more children, weirder scruples, and an extreme ruthlessness vis-à-vis group takoyaki discounts. He's not hot enough for this.
OR: "Me, You and Steve" by Garfunkel and Oates but with fifteen million teenagers.
OR: Outsider POV exploring Reigen’s dedication to his gaggle of bizarre children through an ill-fated dating attempt.
OR: Serizawa gets bruxism.
gen(/pre-relationship seri/rei), oneshot, 7k. oc/reigen breakup lmao. extremely funny concept, extremely good execution
Dream Dial by Alakazamboni
For the better part of nine years, Arataka has proudly worked in customer service at a behemoth of a company. At least, that's what he remembers, but a strange illness and a mysterious caller keeps trying to convince him otherwise. It doesn't help that this caller has the power to distort reality.
seri/rei, in progress, 16k. great uncanny atmosphere, and also reigen is trapped in time prison as a miserable office worker. hasn’t been updated for a while but read it anyway, the stoping point is fine
What We Make by crookedturtle
Reigen and Tome are kidnapped from the Spirits and Such office to be used as leverage against Mob. They have two goals: to contact the outside world, and keep each other safe. In doing so they engage in a dangerous game of lies and manipulation with their captors—a game with potentially deadly consequences.
gen (bg seri/rei), complete, 36k. Good for whump and high stakes interpersonal maneuvering & drama. I liked how the story extends beyond rescue and goes into how everyone navigates the fallout
Man's Best Friend by bobmoss
A cursed dog gets left at Spirits and Such. Anyone who pets it is doomed to die a horrible death.
Reigen, of course, pets it.
seri/rei, oneshot, 4k. funny and cute and sweet :) there’s a very charming tentative & tender vibe
heart line by ruthwrites
It doesn’t really matter, he reminds himself. He’s making a change, just like all of Reigen’s clients. What’s on his hands isn’t set in stone. He just has to make sure Reigen doesn’t see it— even if it might feel nice to have that steady attention, Reigen’s hands that are so much nicer than Serizawa’s folding around his.
(or: Reigen starts offering palm readings as a service, leading to Serizawa having to confront his feelings for his boss.)
seri/rei, oneshot, 6k. getting together fluff, a fun light read that also highlights serizawa’s insecurities—the internal narration has good character voice
If you won't believe me when I say it, believe me when I don't by deathdefied
Two years after Reigen invited Serizawa to work for him, he still can't quite categorize his feelings for his coworker. Instead of actually dealing with those feelings like an adult and talking to his friend, he decided to get really paranoid and overthink everything Serizawa does.
seri/rei, complete, 26k. reigen drives himself nuts lmao
Obvious by skeilig
Tome’s perspective on Reigen and Serizawa’s developing relationship.
gen (but about seri/rei), oneshot, 3k. I like outsider perspective getting together fics, especially when the perspective character is like ‘I’m actually not invested in this except when it affects me directly’
Cover Me by flecksofpoppy
Reigen’s shadow seems longer as the days move forward, more solitary. The cuts on his face heal and the ache in his bones go away, but a new sting replaces it. It’s loneliness, the thing he had managed to avoid ever since a primary school-aged kid who could make cups float stumbled into his office so many years ago.
seri/rei, oneshot, 3k. getting together fic that shows off a little of reigen’s gloomier side, it’s cute
loved you just a little too much by shcherbatskayas
You learn how to let go.
(It doesn't come naturally.)
gen(ish), oneshot, 2k. 2nd person character study of serizawa’s relationship with touichiro, I liked the ambivalence; effectively captures development over time with a relatively short wordcount.
offering genuine help with genuine results by suitablyskippy
“The curse was pretty clear on me not telling lies,” concedes Reigen. “It was pretty clear on me telling the truth. But,” as he lifts one finger, already sliding into the same educational tone he generally uses for imparting wisdom to Mob about life and love and the overall holistic benefits of making sure he’s always available for unexpected overtime work on weekends, “telling the truth isn’t necessarily the same as being honest, is it?”
“You’re the professional liar,” says Dimple. “You tell me.”
(Being cursed to only tell the truth and being cursed with Dimple as an employee are pretty much equally bad, as far as Reigen's stress levels are concerned.)
gen, oneshot, 2k. the tags include friends with no benefits whatsoever, which is very apt. Very funny to have reigen and dimple be petty and shady
a slightly more miraculous miracle by suitablyskippy
“Rumour has it that something impossible’s happened. Something that could never have happened. That shouldn’t have been able to happen.” In a single slick move Mezato produces a tiny voice recorder from an inside pocket, flips it open and active, and holds it up before Mob’s mouth to ask him, in a tone of devastating intensity: “Do you know anything about… a miracle, Mob-kun?”
Mob doesn’t hesitate. “We had maths homework to hand in,” he says. “But now we don’t have to. We don’t even have to go to the lesson.”
(The sun is shining, the birds are singing, Salt Middle School has been closed by an unexplained miracle, and the only thing wrong in Spice City is the fact that nothing is even slightly wrong at all.)
teru/mob, incomplete, 55k. for the most part I haven’t been repeating authors on this list, but listen. listen to me. I need you to listen. it is extremely unlikely for this fic to ever be completed. but hark, lest this sad probability turn you away and leave you dispassionately scrolling to the next fic, I need you (you specifically) to know that if I were in the same room as you, I would be wrestling the phone/mouse/trackpad/touchscreen/etc from your hands and furiously clicking the link. when I bookmarked this fic in 2017 I described it as having “some breathtakingly sensical prose and the funniest misunderstandings I’ve ever read”. trust me from seven years ago. open your heart.
skylight by inexhaustible
unconnected snapshots in what might, in some worlds, be something a little like recovery.
seri/rei, oneshot, 2k. character study that nails the tension of an escalating romantic atmosphere.
come on, come on, come over (take it off your shoulder) by mortarsmayfall
Reigen's free hand cradles Serizawa's head, curled under his ear just so to turn it for a better angle. He feels his pulse pound under Reigen's fingers, shivers just the slightest bit. If Reigen notices, he doesn't say anything about it.
seri/rei, oneshot, 2k. when I first read this I saved it as a private bookmark because I was so embarrassed by the sheer intimacy of haircuts with severely unresolved sexual tension. I’m guessing this was written after studio bones gave us reigen cutting serizawa’s hair. crumbs no more; for once we had a feast to enjoy. short & sweet getting together fic
Off-White by reigreitz
Some habits are tells.
seri/rei, oneshot, 1k. snapshots of pre-relationship and established relationship scenes, I’m quite fond of it. on my first reading I’m pretty sure I remember not paying attention to the habit piece at all (even with it being right in the summary) so at the last scene I was hit by the double whammy of ‘oh so that was what serizawa was reacting to’ and ‘AW… THAT’S SWEET…’; I think the fic does a great job of hiding/not acknowledging certain things the perspective character knows and is reacting to, which makes it fun to reread and pinpoint what exactly serizawa’s previously more opaque train of thought was. like, it’s the same stuff, but you get to read into more nuance.
the seven stages of falling in love by reigen arataka by matsunoble
You suppose one of the weirdest times to realize you've fallen deeply and irrevocably in love is when it's fuck o'clock in the morning and you're blearily checking your fridge for leftover curry.
seri/rei, oneshot, 3k. I was quite taken by the mundane (and sometimes unappealing) descriptions of love, and I like when serizawa has the upper hand
Mr. Psychic by beefstatic
Looks like trouble in Spice City...
seri/rei, oneshot, 4k. Serizawa Acts Like An Intimidating Bodyguard During Tense/Shady Situations. fun emphasis on that potential aspect of his character, I like how it’s done.
Late by hamlingo
For the first few days after hiring Serizawa, Reigen couldn’t help but be alarmed when the door opened at eight o’clock sharp in the mornings. He got used to it eventually, and in a month’s time he was more surprised when the door didn’t creak open right on time.
This was one of those mornings.
seri/rei, oneshot, 2k. this is actually among the first seri/rei fics I bookmarked so I can say with relative certainty that on may 20th 2017 I decided that maybe seri/rei was not just a joke of me indulging my own spurious unreasonable whims. fun character study and has that enjoyable tension of pleasant pre-relationship uncertainty.
Quiet Talks by krypkaktus
At some point, Reigen cutting his hair twice a month had turned into a mutual habit.
seri/rei, oneshot, 600 words. another charming snapshot of pre-relationship uncertainty, pleasantly embarrassing unresolved romantic tension.
walk in by ruthwrites
It was then he realized that the reason Reigen and Serizawa were standing so close was because they were kissing.
Mob was not really sure what to do with that information.
(or: mob leaves something at the office, comes back, and walks into something he wasn't supposed to)
seri/rei, oneshot, 3k. an extremely popular fic for extremely valid reasons, this is a shining example of the outsider POV shipfic where the perspective character is like. I’m 14 and did not want to see you guys kissing. and the couple is like. we also did not want you to see us kissing, this is excruciatingly awkward.
tomorrow isn't always another day by suitablyskippy
It’s like Reigen’s been waiting for the question. He stops dead on the pavement, grips Mob by the shoulders, and stares down into his eyes with an expression as haunted as though every ghost the pair of them has ever exorcised has taken up residence behind it. “Mob,” he says. “Mob,” he says again. “Tell me, Mob. Look at me and tell me. Tell me truthfully. Do I look cursed to you?”
Mob looks at him, and tells him truthfully. “No.”
“Well, you didn’t look very long,” says Reigen. “Let’s just stand here for a moment, like so, and you can have another look, a nice long look, and really think about it...”
(There's nothing strange about being called back to exorcise the same haunted photocopier six days in a row. It must just be a very haunted photocopier.)
gen, oneshot, 18k. I didn’t mean to rec the same author three (3) times but this is also one of my top faves. extremely funny time prison where nobody is on the same page ever.
space voyage by Anonymous
Tome Kurata is slightly famous—or notorious, more like—for being... a weirdo, to put it simply. She's definitely a person of interest. Just not exactly in a newsworthy way, which is obviously the only way that matters.
mezato/tome, oneshot, 1k. charming pre-relationship contention, they’re the same type of self-absorbed and tunnel vision (affectionate)
I was thinking of not writing up recs for sister’s fics but since one author got three (3) fics on the list I’m gonna also put 3 of my fave fics of sister’s
Reigen's Comprehensive Fool-Proof Guide on How Not To Be Next Door Neighbors With Your Employee (because that'd just be creepy) by MalkyTop
Reigen hires Serizawa and they somehow end up as roommates.
seri/rei, complete, 17k. a fic sister wrote for ✨ME✨ that shows off reigen’s neuroticism and his decidedly not-normal attempts to come across as Extremely Normal, The Most Normal Man Alive. there are so many comedic setups and payoffs. there are so many shenanigans. reigen gets frog-boiled into romance. actually, I drop that term a lot but I’m not sure it’s a common enough to intuitively understand. it refers to the boiling frog metaphor
If At First You Don't Succeed, Find a Loophole by MalkyTop
Reigen keeps dying; Serizawa keeps trying to save him.
seri/rei, complete, 18k. sister was insane for this because she trapped all of her readers AND herself in time prison by releasing one chapter a day. it was really funny to witness because I was the only person not in time prison by virtue of editing privilege. while we were watching mondays: see you next week (an office time loop movie), sister was saying she was impressed at how effective/efficient the movie was at picking which scenes to repeat. this is to say, as someone who notices these details, sister was very intentional about when things changed and how things changed from the perspective of a character completely unaware of time prison. also, the emotional momentum is extremely good, I loved reading serizawa’s increasing desperation from reigen’s context-less perspective.
in absentia* by MalkyTop
After what was supposed to be a routine exorcism, Reigen wakes up in the wrong body.
serirei, complete, 26k. slowburn bodyswap with mystery and intrigue. a solid casefic! I can be biased and right. there are metanarrative elements that I find fun and that, in my opinion, highlights how sister did in fact get a degree in philosophy. there’s also some fun subtle and messy characterization notes, like when serizawa asks reigen not to cook for him. it’s hard to talk about what I like about this fic without giving away a lot of specifics, so go read it.
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shion-yu · 2 months
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I Still Think Of You
Whatever proceeded or followed this moment was worth it, if only just to hear Elliot's voice one more time. Cliff and Elliot reconnect nearly three years after their breakup. A complete rewrite of an older story that I wasn't content with and deleted. Also my fill for my @badthingshappenbingo space "I Will Only Slow You Down." 2,351 words, original writing, no TWs, CW depression, chronic illness whump.
The song hit Cliff like a stray bolt of lightning. He was sitting in the outpatient infusion center getting his monthly infliximab when it came on the regional variety station.
Sometimes I'm driving 
Down ninety-five in your car
I imagine it still smells like you
But that was so long ago
And you're gone
Like dust in the wind
Like the tide pulled you in
Like you're never coming back
To me again
To whisper in my ear
"You're my whole life"
And I'm yours
I'm still yours
It was Elliot. The voice was unmistakably Elliot's because nobody else's voice sounded like that: that perfect mix of confident yet wavering and gentle. Cliff knew it immediately because it was the voice that he fell in love with. He also realized quite quickly that the song was about him. All those other love songs that Elliot had written could be excused away as generic, the classic ballad about a faceless lover. Maybe a few coincidences, but never anything like this one that pulled so directly from the time that he and Elliot spent together. 
Cliff had told Elliot so many times: "You're my whole life." At first it seemed romantic. Later it seemed possessive. "I can't be your whole life, not all of it," Elliot had told him the day they broke up. "You need to keep some for you, too."
Cliff wished he had understood what Elliot meant by that back then. Maybe if he had, things would have turned out different. Maybe Cliff would have been more honest, braver. But they were victims of the age old cliche: you can't love another person until you love yourself. It hadn't just been Cliff though. Neither of them had loved themselves, they'd only loved each other. They'd relied on each other too much before the other was ready to carry the burden of another.
That was almost three years ago. A lot had changed since then. Cliff was diagnosed with sarcoidosis. He started law school and then made the difficult decision not to return after the first year. He dated Phoenix, who broke up with him when he dropped out. He never loved Phoenix though. Cliff wasn’t even sure if he ever even really liked him. It was just another poor attempt at hoping that if he pretended to be someone he wasn't, he'd stop being the real, pathetic version of himself that actually existed.
Cliff had been trying to ignore Elliot's steep rise to fame for a while now for his own self-preservation, but after I Still Think Of You hit the billboard 100 it became impossible. Elliot was everywhere: on talk shows and TV performances and magazine covers. The other half of his act, some guy named Alex, always hovered behind him providing bass and backup vocals. Cliff thought he looked like a little kid. He rarely smiled, as opposed to Elliot who couldn’t stop except for when he was crooning so passionately into the microphone that it gave Cliff chills to see. Everyone seemed to think Elliot's permanant smile when speaking was adorable, but Cliff knew it was just a nervous habit.
He watched Elliot sing his heart out on a YouTube clip of Good Morning America. Elliot was always incredibly talented, but his voice had gotten much better with age and confidence. He owned every word and his presence was immense. The announcer described him as a prodigy, but Cliff disagreed. He knew Elliot worked his ass off to get to that point, it didn't just come naturally. But Elliot laughed and thanked everybody profusely. It sounded like the audience was mostly girls based on the squealing every time Elliot said something sweet. Elliot had never denied his sexuality in interviews, but it seemed that didn’t matter.
Cliff didn’t know why he did it. Maybe because he thought there was no way Elliot wouldn't have changed his number by now and even if he hadn’t, he wouldn’t answer Cliff right? Maybe it was because he was lonely and figured he didn't have anything to lose. Or maybe it was because he thought he might die before he ever had a chance to address his single most burning regret in life. Nobody said he was dying, but Cliff wasn't sure. He didn’t leave the house anymore, too sick to have the energy and too self-conscious about his inability to control himself to try. He couldn’t get farther than the length of his apartment without his crutches and he couldn’t skip the oxygen if he wanted to walk further than a single block without his lips turning blue. It felt pitiful, and he spent many nights thinking that if someone offered him a magic pill that would let him never wake up again, he'd take it. 
The text was tapped out, deleted, then rewritten and sent before Cliff could change his mind again.
'I still think of you too.'
He told himself not to wait for a response. Even if Elliot did receive the text, he might not respond. It had been three years since they'd talked after all. Three very long years in which both of them had undergone a tremendous amount of change. Elliot was now successful and brilliant, shining for the world to see like Cliff always knew he would. And Cliff… He was the opposite. He was dull and empty. He had nothing left but a broken body and the bones of all the things he'd ruined over the years. Elliot shouldn't talk to him anyways, Cliff thought to himself - he’d only bring Elliot down. 
Cliff nearly dropped his phone when it rang almost immediately after he pushed send. It was Elliot. Cliff answered in shock. "Hello?"
"Cliff!"
And that was it. Whatever proceeded or followed this moment was worth it, if only just to hear Elliot's voice one more time. 
"Yeah, it's me."
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Cliff was sitting in Barney's waiting for Elliot to show up. It was their old stomping grounds, the café that they used to visit during late night study sessions when they went to NYU. Elliot asked him to sit in the back, presumably so he could avoid being recognized by any fans while he met with Cliff. Cliff thought maybe if Elliot knew what he looked like now, he wouldn't have even taken that chance.
Cliff tried to clean up nicely, but he was so pale now from a mix of illness and never leaving the house. He wore his oxygen to get here, but he arrived early so he’d have time to catch his breath and hopefully get away with stashing it in his bag while they talked. His crutches weren't something he could hide though, and neither was how thin and brittle his hair was from the methotrexate (although at least it hadn’t fallen out). He was starting to decide this was a terrible idea, that he ought to just go home before Elliot ever had the chance to arrive, but then suddenly Elliot was standing right there in front of the table - in front of Cliff - and it was too late to turn back.
Elliot looked older. More mature. His dark curls were shorter and tamer than they ever were when they dated. “Hi Cliff,” Elliot said with a nervous smile. 
Cliff thought he looked incredible. He wondered if he should stand and give Elliot a hug, Elliot always was a hugger. But instead he just smiled back and motioned for Elliot to sit. “Hello Elliot,” he replied, equally as nervous. Elliot took off his black leather jacket that fit him astonishingly well and hung it on the back of his chair before sitting.
“So,” Elliot said. “It’s been… what, two years?” Almost three, Cliff thought to himself as he nodded in agreement. Surely Elliot had to know it'd almost been three years since Cliff messed what they had up so immeasurably. "Wow."
"Wow," Cliff repeated. "You look great, by the way."
Elliot's flustered face made Cliff worry he'd already messed up. But Elliot just said, "Thanks. You don't look so bad yourself." Cliff was sure that was a lie. "How have you been? I heard you got diagnosed with an autoimmune disease."
Cliff wondered where the hell Elliot possibly heard that. Then again, they had still gone to the same school for their final year of undergrad even if they hadn't been dating anymore. Their majors had no crossover at all though, and any friends they'd shared had obviously ended up staying friends with Elliot, not Cliff. 
"Yeah," Cliff confirmed uncomfortably. "Sarcoidosis." So awkward.
"I'm sorry," Elliot said.
"Sorry for what?" Cliff said.
Elliot rubbed his hands together, glancing down. "Well, I never called after I heard you got sick. That wasn't very nice of me. I wanted to, but we were... You know."
"Yeah. I know," Cliff said. This is so not how he'd hoped this meeting would go, although he had tried not to have any expectations at all about it. "It's okay. Don't worry about it. Tell me about you."
"Me?" Elliot asked with such innocence that Cliff had to laugh. He barely ever laughed this days, but he couldn't help it.
"Yes you," Cliff said. "Like you're not totally famous now."
Elliot blushed and looked flustered. "Stop, I'm not that famous," he said quickly. "I mean I've been so lucky and so fortunate but, famous is a little..."
"Sure," Cliff smiled. "Okay. Successful. You're so successful now. You really earned it."
"Really? Thanks, Cliff," Elliot said, smiling back. "It means a lot to hear you say that."
It was Cliff's turn to be surprised. He wasn't sure why Elliot would value his opinion much. He cleared his throat, coughing a little. "Well, yeah, of course."
They were silent for several awkward beats until Cliff interrupted it by coughing again. Was sitting at a table in a coffee shop seriously too much for him, he thought in annoyance? But it was also the first time he'd left the house for anything but a doctor's appointment in... Weeks? Surely not months. 
"Do you have a cold?" Elliot asked worriedly. 
Shit, five minutes reunited and Cliff was already making Elliot worry again? Cliff had to get the situation under control. He shook his head, pulling a napkin from the dispenser on the table and covering his mouth with it while he continued to cough. He could feel his lungs twitching, protesting in annoyance that they weren't being treated like the main attraction as usual. Cliff closed his eyes and tried to pretend Elliot wasn't right across from him for a second while he weighed his options. He ultimately decided it was less embarassing to wear oxygen than have a full on asthma attack right in front of everyone. "Sorry," Cliff said hoarsely. "Don't think that... I just don't want you to worry."
Elliot looked confused until Cliff pulled his oxygen tubing from the bag slung across the back of his chair and looped it over his ears. "Oh," Elliot said softly. Cliff couldn't read his expression. Pity? Disappointment? "Cliff, you didn't have to not wear that for my sake. I know it's... Things are different now." 
Cliff took several deep breaths through his nose, trying to control his cough. He could feel his head getting a little clearer. "I'm not saying you should care," Cliff said when he caught his breath. "I'm not saying I deserve you to. But I don't want you to think I'm not trying. I am."
Elliot nodded as if he understood. His face was so tender, so gentle and delicate... Cliff pushed away the desire to reach out and brush Elliot's cheek with his fingers. "Like I said. Things are different." 
Cliff relaxed a little, his shoulders falling from their tense position. He rested his chin in his hands and said, "Thank you."
The long minute of silence that followed was still awkward, but not as awkward as the first one. Elliot shifted in his chair and said, "Why did you text me?"
"What?" Cliff asked, startled. 
"You must have had something in mind. After all this time. Why'd you text me?" 
Cliff had asked himself that a million times in the week since he'd sent that message. At first he really didn't know, but now he realized two things. One, his life without Elliot had never been as happy as when Elliot was in it. And two, if he wanted Elliot back in his life, he had to be honest, not like the first time. So, he was honest. "I just missed you." 
"Oh," Elliot said. Cliff half expected him to run away, slap a hand on the table and say he knew Cliff hadn't changed. But instead he smiled shyly and said, "I missed you too."
Now they both looked surprised and a little embarrassed. Cliff had wondered for years what it would be like if he ever saw Elliot in person again. He'd at times wanted to apologize, beg for their relationship back, to convince Elliot he'd changed. But as time went on, he'd gotten more tired. He was still that anxious, guilty person he was before, but he'd had the time to think about what had gone wrong and learned to appreciate what had gone right. Elliot had agreed to meet him, and this was his chance to do things right this time. Even if it was never the same and Elliot wasn't his, Cliff's main desire was to make it up to him now. 
"I was wondering if I could text you sometimes," Cliff said. "I know you're really busy. Just, talk to you every once and a while."
"You mean like friends?" Elliot asked.
Cliff nodded. "Yeah. Like friends." 
He waited for the answer feeling like this was judgement day. There was no other question he was dying to know the answer to more. He only had to wait a second.
"Okay," Elliot said. "I'd like that. Friends." God, that nervous smile, Cliff thought to himself as he melted in relief. No wonder all those teen girls fell in love so quickly.
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Thank you! :D
2. Do you prefer illness whump or injury whump?: Injury 100%. Sick whump just doesn’t do it for me ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
5. Who is your favorite whumpee?: (other than him) but my beloved blorbo— :((((( I’ll go second favorite then and that would be Sam Winchester. This poor man *spoilers from Supernatural season 5 finale onwards* was imprisoned in hell with the literal devil and was canonically tortured by Lucifer for (estimated) 200 years (possibly longer depending on how hell time works). He came out of the experience completely traumatized then the show repeatedly makes him work with and see Lucifer after the fact (there were A LOT of problems with how the show handled that for the record). All of this makes him an excellent whumpee. And Lucifer is horrible which makes him a good whumper. *spoilers over*
But quick shoutout to Hiccup Haddock because he’s number 3 and just so freaking whumpable it’s not even funny
7. What are the traits of your ideal whumper?: Hmm. Creepy/intimate for sure, so many whumperflies… smart; knows what they’re doing and if whumpee escapes it’s all controlled and/or part of the plan. Does their own dirty work, doesn’t use henchmen or whatever to do the whumping.
I’m not super picky with my whumper tbh, I can work with pretty much anything.
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tropefic · 3 months
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Fever is a classic trope, but many people aren’t aware of how to accurately write it in detail. So, here’s some temperature and treatment reference info for all your fever whump needs:
Temperature ranges (degrees F)
(Note that symptoms stack as fever progresses, so anything in the lowest tier will be potentially applicable through the highest tier; I’m not gonna re-type all symptoms for every level if it’s been stated before)
(a) 97 - 98.9 degrees—Normal temperature;
Someone who has a normal temperature but is beginning to develop a fever (temperature increasing) may experience mild symptoms, including body aches, irritability, sensitivity to sensory input (sound, light, touch), fatigue, etc.
(b) 99 - 99.9 degrees—Mild / “low grade” fever
Usually accompanied by mild symptoms (see above). May also start to feel hot/cold, prickly skin, general malaise, or slightly worsened versions of symptoms listed above. Likely to have decreased appetite, possible nausea.
If this is the start of their illness, symptoms may develop for the first time that are not strictly fever related (sore throat, cough, nausea, etc).
Treat with rest and over the counter (OTC) medication. Cold/flu medicine, tylenol, ibuprofen, etc all work.
(c) 100 - 101.9 degrees—A classic Fever(TM)
This is your stereotypical fever. It’s clinically significant (in medical diagnostics) but should be treatable at home/not severe enough to require immediate intervention by a doctor.
Symptoms include feeling generally shitty (all of above symptoms), paleness in the face, dark circles, chills and/or sweats, fatigue, shaking, muscle and joint pain, headaches, nausea and vomiting, weakness, lightheadedness, dizziness, ringing ears, etc. At the higher end of this temperature range, fever dreams may be experienced (though more common at higher temps).
Lots of water and clear fluids are needed to stay hydrated. Unlikely to want food, so soups are a good option for nutrition. Plain crackers can calm nausea. Requires treatment with OTC medications to prevent fever from becoming worse. A cool damp cloth on the forehead may help keep the fever from progressing and can provide comfort if feeling overheated.
If they’re feeling cold, provide multiple light and breathable layers of sheets/blankets. Avoid any materials that trap moisture and replace damp or sweaty clothes when possible. May need help standing or walking to use the washroom.
It is possible to try to care for yourself at this point, but dangerous if no one knows to check on them as it can get worse quickly and with little warning.
(d) 102 - 103 degrees—High fever
This is the upper limit of a “safe” fever and should be treated immediately and monitored carefully. Higher than 103 becomes dangerous (more on that below) and shouldn’t be treated at home.
Significant symptoms. All previously listed are possible and more likely (and occur with greater intensity)—feels colder, shaking more, sweating more, you get the idea.
At this point they will be sleeping more than not. Any periods of awareness will be hazy and very unpleasant. Brain is not processing normally, and may become delirious. May have fever dreams and/or hallucinations (auditory, visual, etc). Periods of awareness/awakeness are more likely to be only half conscious, and memory may be affected.
It is not possible to care for yourself independently at this level—a caretaker is required. Fluids are essential to prevent dehydration, which is one of the biggest dangers. An IV may be necessary if they can’t drink water. The other major goal is to control the temperature and, at minimum, prevent temperature from rising (if not to get it to go down). OTC medications can still be used, but should be combined with use of a cool cloth, ice packs (wrapped in a light towel to prevent frost burn), and other methods of manual cooling.
Keeping the head cool is the most important (to prevent brain damage), but cooling the abdomen (vital organs) is also important. Cool cloths and ice packs can be placed under the armpits, over the stomach, on the hips/groin, and on the neck in addition to the standard forehead placement.
If the fever is still rising and cannot be controlled, then it’s time to go to the hospital. Waiting until it hits the next level will mean an ambulance trip, so better to take them in for treatment now (unless you want them to suffer more hehe).
(e) 103.1 - 104 degrees—Danger Zone
This should no longer be managed at home. A doctor is required for the best outcomes. An IV for hydration is likely required to replace fluids lost from sweating (especially if sweating a lot or throwing up).
Symptoms become more severe. Consciousness is limited and awareness is impaired. Almost guaranteed to be delirious and disoriented, if conscious at all.
At this point, there are a number of dangers: dehydration (can be deadly), unconsciousness (distinct from sleep, may lead to a coma), difficulty breathing, uncontrolled swelling that may impede breathing or blood flow to organs, seizures, abnormal heart rhythm, heart attack, etc.
(f) 104.1 - 105 degrees—Life Threatening with possible brain damage
Fevers this severe are life threatening and almost always indicate an underlying issue that has been missed or has gotten out of control. Some causes include internal bleeding, severe infection (infection of an organ, wound, surgical site, etc), severe heat stroke, extreme physical exhaustion, and similar.
This requires hospitalization. If not already at a hospital, an ambulance should be called immediately. Past 104 degrees, brain damage becomes a distinct possibility, and at 105 degrees some brain damage will absolutely occur. The more severe the fever, and the longer it goes on, the worse the damage and the more likely it is to be permanent.
(g) 105.1+ degrees—Severely life threatening to certain death
The average human can tolerate an internal temperature of up to 107 degrees F at an absolute maximum before significant brain damage, seizures, and death occur.
Note that maximum survivable temperature varies person to person. Most people can survive 105 degrees F, but this is still considered life threatening/potentially deadly.
106 - 107 may be survivable, but it depends heavily on the person and circumstances. This range can easily kill someone. 108 degrees is almost guaranteed to cause death, usually from related complications (usually from brain damage). Fevers of 108-112 are very rarely survived. There have been only a handful of reported survivors who experienced a maximum temperature of 115 degrees F. For 99.9% of people, a temperature of over 107 degrees means death.
People who survive fevers that exceeded 105 degrees F will have a much more difficult recovery and usually some degree of brain damage. The higher the temperature and longer the duration at that level, the worse the damage will be. It is possible to recover from brain damage to a degree, but it is rare to impossible to make a 100% full recovery after brain damage occurs.
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ninja-go-to-therapy · 8 months
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I just read a few of your Cole whump fics, and I have a genuine question, it’s not meant to be offensive at all- how come you like that sort of stuff? Like, do you enjoy the general suffering of the mc, or the recovery journey, or what? And does it come from a mental illness? Again- no hate, I’m genuinely curious- and a little concerned. All I know is I’ll sleep better at night if ik why you like it. Thanks.
I suggest looking into the studies behind the therapeutic aspects of dark fiction
Personally, for me it’s sometimes therapeutic, but also it’s just… fun to write/read. I 100% don’t endorse any of that shit irl (nor do most whump enjoyers) but it’s just Something We Like.
Why do people like action movies? Why do people like the color green? Why do people like anything? Who knows! It’s just one of those things that some people enjoy and others don’t
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whumpster-dumpster · 1 year
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sometimes i feel like smth isnt "really" whump or that im trying to make smth that isnt whump into whump and im not 100% sure why it happens but it can be a real pain in the ass? like, im doing (very late) whumptober prompts, and it just keeps fuckin happening. it might be, like... i don't know if i'm writing it "whumpy" enough, or i don't know if my concepts are sound, or whatever the fuck, but its a big pain in the ass esp when it comes to ao3 tags. its just like... can i count a fic where a character gets yelled at by his sister for his shit decisions while hes in the hospital for a broken leg as whump? fuck if i know! there's no comfort here and i dont know how to quantify this stuff so ill just dump it in the bin anyways since its a whumptober prompt
Just in my personal opinion (everybody's views differ and that's totally fine, don't take my word as law) whump typically has a physical/mental damage element. If it's solely emotional, I consider it angst rather than whump.
So I'd call the scenario you suggested both angst and whump. Angst because his sister is angry and upset (emotional) and whump because he's in the hospital with a broken leg (physical).
That's how I quantify it. I hope your prompts work out!
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Intro & List
Hello hello! I’m TheSunshineDragon on Ao3! I also occasionally write non-kpop works under WoodElfJedi and post High & Low fics under YukensHairtie. 
List of Works:
Stray Kids
Series:
Domestic Doses (Perpetually Incomplete, Platonic Fluff, Slice of Life, General Shenanigans)
The Wind Under Your Wings (Complete, Danceracha with Wings, Platonic, Wingfics, Sickfics, Hurt/Comfort)
I’ve Got An AU For That (Incomplete, AUs, Platonic Relationships, Little Bit of Everything)
Tell The Wolves I’m Home (Complete, Werewolf/Wolves AU, Platonic Pack Dynamics, Wolf!Minho, Angst, Sickfic, Hurt/Comfort)
Ash & Oak & Thorn (Incomplete, Magic AU, Platonic Relationships, Angst, Hurt/Comfort)
Let Be What Is, And Be What Isn’t (Incomplete, AUs, Platonic HyunLix)
Yours & Mine (Incomplete, Platonic Soulmate AU, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Introspection)
Chan the Zookeeper (Incomplete, Shifter AU, Humour/Crack, Hurt/Comfort, Wholesome Vibes Coming Your Way)
The Saga of Chan & His Dragon Menaces (Incomplete, Dragons, Humour/Crack, Magic, Fluff)
The Heart of a Summer Child Born in Spring (Complete, MCD, Terminal Illnesses, Magic AU, Hyunjin-centric, Two versions)
Non-seried Fics:
Threads (One-shot, Based on the I’ll Be Your Man Kingdom Stage, Heavy Angst, Grief/Mourning, Magic, Brotherhood)
Let’s All Die Naturally In A Healthy Way (One-shot, MinChan Fic Fest, Platonic Relationships, Androids, Post-Apocalyptic, Hurt/Comfort)
Broken Glass, Pieced Back (One-shot, Rated M, Platonic MinSung, Vampires, Heavy Angst, It Gets Worse Before It Gets Better, Whump)
The Itsy-Bitsy Spider (Incomplete, Spiderverse AU, Hurt/Comfort, Angst)
Summer Breeze Makes Me Feel Fine (One-shot, Jisung-centric, Sea Monsters, Burn Out, Introspection)
You’re Not A Bet I Care To Take (But I’m Going To Anyways) (One-shot, Platonic ChanLix, Assassins & Hitmen AU, Angst, Found Family)
Attachments Have Consequences (One-shot, Spies & Secret Agents, Inspired by District Nine MV, Light Angst, Found Family)
Stabby Stabby (One-shot, Angst, Jeongin Being an Idiot, Hurt/Comfort) 
Ficlet Collection (2023) (Incomplete)
You May Be Idiots, But You’re My Idiots (Complete, Sickfic, Assassins & Hitmen AU, Minho is a Good Hyung)
The 100-Point Children (Complete, Based on a Tumblr Post, Adoption, Found Family, Hyung-line as Single Parents, Fluff, Hurt/Comfort)
An Objective Reply To A Subjective Question (One-shot, Minho & Seungmin-centric, Canon Compliant, Platonic Relationships, Character Study, Hurt/Comfort, Fluff)
I’ll Stand Until I Can’t (One-shot, Gang AU, Minho-centric, Miscommunications, Bang Chan Being an Idiot, Heavy Angst)
Into The Thick Of It (One-shot, Magic AU, Toddler!Jilix, Witch Minho, Fluff, Slight Crack)
Blooming Death In These Lungs (One-shot, Platonic Hanahaki, Angst, Minho-centric, Angst With A Happy Ending)
Drowning Without Water (Deadpool AU, MinChan, Platonic Relationships, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, PTSD)
SKZITZY
The Ferryman (One-shot, Vague Allegory for Death, AU, Grim Reapers, Kid Fic, Angst, Magic, Non-Linear Narrative)
To The Wind I Go (Incomplete, Magic AU, Wendigos, Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Found Family, Winter VibesTM)
Money Can’t Buy Class (One-shot, Hyunjin/Yeji, College/University AU, Complicated Relationships, Ambiguous/Open Ending) 
NCT
Affectionate (One-shot, Doyoung & Taeyong are Best Friends, College/University AU, Emotional Support Best Friends)
Lord of the Rings
Tiny Legolas Causing Chaos ft. Thranduil The Tired Single Dad (Incomplete series, Family Fluff, Kid!Legolas)
Another Pillow Fight (One-shot, Slight Crack, Aragorn and Legolas being idiots)
The 68 Rules of Middle-earth (List-fic, Crack Treated Seriously)
Quit Snoring Already (Slight crack, Dwarves Causing Sleep Problems)
Transformers: Prime
Transformers Prime: Communications (Complete, Crack, slight OOC-ness)
The Field Medic & The Doctor (Complete, Grief/Mourning, PTSD)
Star Wars: Rebels
The Rebels Prank War (Incomplete, Prank Wars, Slight Crack, Humour)
Merlin
A Nice Thing To Have (One-shot, Fluff, Merlin Gets A Hug)
HTTYD
Cotton Candy Spun Clouds (One-shot, PTSD, Light Angst)
High & Low
We’re All A Little Fragile (One-shot, PTSD, Fluff, Light Angst)
Fireworks (One-shot, Fluff, Injuries, Light Angst)
Crashing Down (One-shot, Fluff, Hurt/Comfort)
Brother Bear (Little Bear Cub) (One-shot, Modern AU, Angst, Accidental Baby Acquisition) 
Crossovers
Don’t Shoot The Messenger [SVT x High & Low] (Gang AU, Child Abandonment, Mild Hurt/Comfort)
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zensations35 · 1 year
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On the marvel thought train:
Natasha?! The poor girls spent her life in the redroom, the whole ‘show no weakness’ being constantly drilled into her mindset. She hasnt ever had somebody there to take care of her and she’s never allowed herself to just rest, constantly fighting through any illness.
But could you imagine that one day, long after the redroom, Nat wakes up feeling awful. Her nose is just constantly running and she’s beyond exhausted, sneezing her head off constantly. It’s obvious she has a horrible cold. Just the thought of the other Avengers stepping in, forcing her to rest and making sure she’s being looked after properly.
Okay. SO. I am writing this Lo/ki fic and. I have been so fking indulgent bc I somehow decided ALL THE AVENGERS GET SICK IN IT?? And there is some heavy caretaking in it.
I also couldn't help adding some badass Nat scenes and this tbh made me glad of the scenes I'm writing. I absolutely agree, Nat would 100% be one of those "I can't rest I got shit to do" sickies. And I'm going to play with that.
I'M GONNA WHUMP EVERYONE UNFFF
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ao3feed-esperboys · 1 year
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What the Carver Left Behind
what the carver left behind by hilplusterrors
“After what he thinks must be a few weeks, he starts wishing he wouldn't wake up. He always devours his food, but it's always disgusting. And now the sight of his hands makes him feel ill. He awakens automatically at the sound of the door opening, tense and worried that one of the people will have red hair. He cries as soon as he's alone. If they're going to kill him . . . At this point, he wishes they would just kill him.”
Shigeo is kidnapped and tortured by Claw. Even after being rescued, he's not doing great.
An exploration of pain and trauma with my new favorite boy.
Words: 6877, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English
Fandoms: モブサイコ100 | Mob Psycho 100
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence
Categories: Gen
Characters: Kageyama "Mob" Shigeo, Reigen Arataka, Suzuki Touichirou, Gouda Musashi, Kageyama Siblings' Mother, Kageyama Ritsu
Relationships: Kageyama "Mob" Shigeo & Reigen Arataka
Additional Tags: Whump, Whumptober 2022, Blood, Panic Attacks, Hugs, because why traumatize child if not to give him hugs after?, yeah that's the real reason i wrote this, so i could write hugs, ritsu musashi and mom are only there for one scene each, out-of-order storytelling, the violence isn't actually that graphic but. it's there. it's whump, 7th Division | Claw Arc, not really more like a different take on all that, don't ask me how they get him out or anything i don't know, i just wanted to beat the shit out of my boy, Autistic Kageyama "Mob" Shigeo, not explicitly said bc he's not diagnosed but he is bc i say so, Knives, Torture, Hurt Kageyama “Mob” Shigeo, Hurt/Comfort, Kageyama "Mob" Shigeo Needs A Hug
Read Here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/42799962
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angstyaches · 2 years
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For the 100 drabble challenge could you do Ache and Whimper for Shayne? (love your writing btw <3)
Ahh, absolutely! Those are two of my favourite words, good thinking combining them 🖤 (P.S. if you actually meant for me to do two separate drabbles, send me another ask! I'm always up for whumping Shayne some more)
CW: illness (chest infection), insomniac caretaker
100 Word Prompts
Charlie heard a soft whimper that made his heart clench. He pulled Shayne's head a little tighter to his chest and tucked his leg even further around Shayne's.
He frantically wondered whether Shayne was having a nightmare, or if the ache in his chest was bad enough to bother him even as he slept.
Charlie wasn't the most comfortable himself, but it wasn't often that Shayne asked to be held a certain way, and honestly, Charlie hadn't been sleeping much the past few days anyway. At least tonight, he'd be lying awake with the purpose of comforting his sick boyfriend.
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theashemarie · 1 year
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for the writer ask meme: 14, 26, and 37 (you don't have to do all of these but i tried to pick interesting ones)
[questions for fic writers]
14. Are there any tropes you would only read if written by a trusted friend or writer?
Well Benjamin, anything at all to do with mental health or mental illness or differing neurotypes. I've seen way too man hamfisted or generally misinformed (if I'm being generous) fics out there to trust like that. Looking forward to what you have cooking though. ;)
I also just have a terrible dislike of whump or egregious angst and violence, but if one of my beloved friends wrote it, I supposed I'd read it. And then be like hey what da heck.
26. Would you rather write a fic that had no dialogue or one that was only dialogue?
No dialogue 100%. You can do a lot with summary and descriptions and I feel like my style is pretty poetic so I love to write scenes where characters don't talk but communicate in other ways.
37. Promote one of your own “deep cut” fics (an underrated one, or one that never got as much traction as you think it deserves!). What do you like about it?
Oh boy okay. I've been moving away from writing shippy stuff, but honestly I used to write a kinda rarepair and I miss those days. People were so chill about it. So if I wanted to promote one of those, I'd say Breaking Point, which is a sonuckles fic that takes place during Sonic Forces. I go back and read it sometimes and I'm amazed at how cracked I was. The story itself is so poetic and heart wrenching (in the best way) and I honestly don't know what happened to that version of me. I want to recapture that energy and I'm kinda sad that really no one read it haha.
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captshipper · 4 months
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I'll talk about self-harm, suicidal thoughts and undiagnosed mental health issues, and I'll also mention SA and such, beware
something I find stupid is the whole discourse people have about "don't write about this, it's my trauma/triggers me". I can 100% understand not wanting to read about your trauma or something that triggers you, I often don't read stuff because it bothers me (or even triggers sometimes). you're valid for not wanting to read certain stuff. it's admittedly hard to find good angst and whump because it can be bad for me.
you're an absolute piece of shit if that's your reasoning to call people toxic, evil and blah blah blah.
don't get me wrong, I do think not everyone should write certain stuff. extremely touch subjects should be avoided if you're not going to write it "right". that deserves a whole other post, but, for example, SA used for shock value. I'm not looking at stuff like hydra trash party, the ones I've read are very clear in the "this is a terrible thing", I'm not talking about "normal" dead dove, I'm talking about straight up "this is violent porn" (not that SA is porn). I'm talking about the ones that put it there just to make you feel something.
I, for example, struggle a fuck ton with self-harm, I'm suicidal half of the time, and everyone knows I'm mentally ill but we don't know what that is. if I was a shitty person, dude, so many people would get all my hate comments and hate asks because most people write self-harm in the worst way possible.
do you know how many times I read cutting as nothing but begging for attention? (nevermind every single person I've met that had this issue did everything to hide it)
do you know how many times I read that MC getting romance automatically stopped her? (nevermind that getting a partner is not a miracle cure)
do you know how many times I read a MC stopping wanting to die in the moment she got a kiss? (nevermind I met people that were still occasionally suicidal even when getting professional help)
it's fucking ridiculous.
I have personal experience with it, I struggle with it. I'm a 26-year-old grown ass man that literally keeps razor blades, tissues, alcohol and bandaids on his bedside table because he needs a few little cuts almost in a daily basis. I could go screaming that you, who writes terrible self-harm and suicidal characters to stop it, to go kill yourself.
but I don't.
because I'm, mostly, a normal person. I avoid what bothers me and such because people can write whatever they want. even when I think they shouldn't write this and that.
just shut the fuck up about what people can or cannot write. your experience doesn't fucking matter when I'm writing my shit. I don't care. block tag, filter tags, leave the fandom altogether.
just shut the fuck up.
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