#im so narcissistic

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[willows-woes]

something i've realised is bpd is almost seen as a "victim disorder" and npd is seen as an "abusive disorder." the fucking ableism in that oh my lord. they're both cluster b personality disorders, and both have extremely high correlation with childhood trauma. they're BOTH ""victims."" people treating pwNPD like horrible people for just Existing and then turning around and treating pwBPD like Poor, Hurt Souls needs to fucking stop.

#bpd #npd #cluster b #hi. im not diagnosed with either of these. but i know from research i have a few traits of them both. #so this is just commentary on stigma from a teenage psychology nerd. i just like researching this shit #childhood trauma #stigma #bpd safe #npd safe #i know i didnt mention aspd but that DOESN'T mean i hate pwASPD either. they're fine. #no pd deserves the stigma associated with them ngl #like yeah SOMETIMES you'll see bpd stigma about how they're manipulative shits. and it's awful because they aren't #but GENERALLY if you just search up npd what do you see?? how to TORTURE a narcissist. how to GET AWAY from a narcissist. #things about how everyone with npd is evil and im fucking tired of it

[hotdogstandz]

Getting out of the house might help…

#drawing #comics #undertale au #undertale #utmv #utmv fanart #bad sanses #dust sans #dusttale #horror sans #horrortale #killer sans #lust sans #lusttale #pixel art #context: #teehee #nightmare shares a duplex with the bad sans gang #think…regular show vibes honestly #this duplex is in lusttale. bc I said so #bipolar killer #butcher horror #schizophrenic recluse dust #nightmare their narcissist boss next door #drag queen/aromantic/club owner lust #LOL im fr just rewriting characters that I found stupid when I was 13 #you can be the worst of the worst and somebody will love you. plz remember that

[antis-hell]

"But you don't look like a narcissist"

Oh mb *sharpies my eyes black*

#npd #shitpost #actually narcissistic #narcissistic abuse #cluster b #im so funny ajdhdjvdnfhfjf #narcissistic personality disorder

[happyhoneyhands]

Narcissist Cookbook and Bug Hunter announced on the NC discord that there is an upcoming US tour in the works for this year. You can sign up for an email notification when tickets go on sale!

#bug hunter #narcissist cookbook #the narcissist cookbook #music #artists on tumblr #im so hyped #the last show was incredible. i didnt think we would get another this year!

[faeriecap]

mcu releasing cacw like: “sorry mackie ur character who is actually a crucial part of the cap storyline historically can’t get any significant screentime in cap 3 yeah we know it’s the final movie sorry we had to have an endless fucking montage of maria stark trauma porn bc it actually wasn’t already clear tony was emotionally unstable and had mommy and daddy issues followed by the wandavision cooking special for,,,,,, reasons,,,,,,,,,,,, and oh yeah did we forget to mention this is actually another avengers movie and the first spiderman??? best we can do is a scene where sam’s mean to bucky lol …… what about steve rogers??? wait whos that uhhhh is he even in this script?”

(it’s bc they didn’t care about developing sam at all until he was their “only” option for cap and could safely not be shipped with steve if they ever actually interacted wait what huh who said that)

#IM JUST SO UPSET #i loved their relationship so much and we should have REALLY gotten to see it #cap 3 should have been ALL about steves friendships with sam and bucky in the wake of hydras return #it should have been about samsteve relationship and dynamic ESP if they had always planned for sam not bucky to take up the mantle first #ESP IF THEY STILL WANTED TO DO THE DUMBASS CIVIL WAR PLOTLINE LIKE SAM AND BUCKY AND NAT ARE STEVES REAL FRIENDS #IN COMPARISON TO TONY WHO PROVED WHERE HIS REAL NARCISSISTIC MOTIVES LIE #sam SHOULD HAVE become cap at the end of the movie #STEVE SHOULD HAVE PASSED THE TORCH THEN AND THERE #but noooooo we needed chris evans to market the final avengers 🙄 #steeb #sammich #samsteve #stevebucky #marvel #i speak #anti mcu #mcu #marvel cinematic universe #cacw #captain america civil war #captain america #anti tony stark #steve rogers #sam wilson #anthony mackie

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

Npd culture is joining a server for pwcluster b disorders, talking about the more ‘undesirable’ symptoms and getting chewed out for being a bad person 💀. Like- it’s a disorder- almost like it’s gonna have ugly parts.

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#what the actual fuck nonny im so sorry💀💀 #npd culture is #npd #actually narcissistic #actually npd #narcissistic personality disorder #cluster b

[pretty-little-martyr]

i feel like shit owuld be so much better if people swapped "narcissist"/"narcissistic" as insults to "self-absorbed." cause usually when theyre referring to things like 'narcissistic abuse' or 'a narcissist' they're just referring to a self-absorbed asshole, not someone with NPD. just a teeny tiny shift of language would really do wonders for people Not misunderstanding an already-stigmatized disorder.

#NPD people feel free to add on or correct me or w/e im not NPD #but as a bipolar having to see My illness used as an insult sucks and thats Less widespread than 'narc' as an insult so i cant even imagine #i listen to a lot of reddit stories and MAN people are so quick to throw that word around #someone will describe your garden variety emotional abuser and the comments will all be like NARCISSISTIC ABUSE GO TO R/RAISEDBYNARCISSISTS #its fucking wild like dude do you even know what that is though

[narcatsisst]

i survived a narcissist. Myself

#cluster b safe #actually cluster b #npd safe #actually npd #actually narcissistic #npd #if someone made a post like this already im so so sorry

[thecatspasta]

Im just going to start headcanoning that empaths hate narcissists bc they can use their epic empath powers to sense the mix of our extreme self hatred and our superiority complexes and they got so intimidated by the sheer power that is this weird emotional cocktail any bone that supports mental health became magnetically attracted to the narcissist and then flew out of their body and attached itself to us

#i have no clue what this post is but ive been thinking abt how empaths refuse to empathize with narcissists #so now its what if they do but bc of theyre terrified of what we have to deal on a daily basis also emotions are now magnets #i actually have no idea where this went #im bored as hell #npd #npd memes #npd shitpost #shitpost #actually npd #actually narcissistic #actually cluster b #npd safe #narcissistic personality disorder

[justseraph]

Guys! I want Narcissist cookbook fan friends!! I want to talk to people who like my weird ass music taste and love the crackhead that is Narcy.

#help!!! #im new to tumblr #the narcissist cookbook #who else is absolutely obsessed with this artist who I have memorized the lyrics to most of their songs #i see these funny really long tags and laugh so

[h1ggsbury]

still laughing at the guy who said "you poor thing :(" when i mentioned having friends w npd. like sucks to suck buster my friends have objectively correct opinions on fictional characters (npd headcanons) and i enjoy their worldview. supporting them brings me joy and delight. plus "anti-narcissists" are way more draining/assholing than anyone w npd -_-. like shut upppppp

#this is just bc ive been seein friends rb npd stuff and this interaction is in my brain #like. dude. #im hyperempathetic too so weirdos will be like 'omg ur an empath.... u must defeat narcissists' no actually we are watching moveys :)

[deuces-stone-cold-style]

If I haven't been around here it's because I found out the Ghoul Archive had the PC version of New Ghoul in School just a few clicks away and tbh I'm bad at parkour so I'm only on like the third mission

#monster high #should I make this a video? #im funny enough and definitely a little narcissistic so it could work

[nebulabrainmatter]

i don’t understand the mentality online of “anyone who says they have a rare disability/disorder/etc is faking” because like. even if it’s rare, there still has to be people who have it??

#madpunk #cripple punk #cluster a #cluster b #cluster c #dissociative disorder #<- im sure many hanging out in these tags can relate here #i think its an unspoken ableist notion that us with rare disorders must be unable to use the internet #or something #this is about #dissociative identity disorder #and #narcissistic personality disorder #for me specifically #but could apply to many things #r/fakedisordercringe users and the like are the worst kind of people and are always so confident while being so wrong

[autismon]

"narc abuse" this "narc tactics" that what if i NARC punch you in the face

#river ! #npd #anti narc abuse #actually narcissistic #narc #narcissist #narc posting #actually npd #narc abuse doesn't exist #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #personality disorder #cluster b personality disorder #cluster b #mental health awareness #im not overtagging this for attention #just so maybe if an ableist sees this i can piss them off #so yea for attention

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

npd culture is ppl not believing you when you come forward abt an abusive experience bc they think you were the one who manipulated your abuser or that you're trying to manipulate them. why even bother? they rly think pwnpd can't be victims, that just bc i have npd it must always start with me somehow, that i have all the agency, bc in their mind having npd automatically gives someone a higher level of social awareness than average

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#im so sorry people dont believe you nonny #for what its worth i believe you and i wish you peace #npd culture is #npd #actually narcissistic #actually npd #narcissistic personality disorder #cluster b #abuse tw #ableism tw