#like i want to cry because of this?? why does my brain do that funky thing??

[ethans-stars]

i want to eat my hands

#spooky month #kevin x streber #streber x kevin #candybats #sweetfangs #art #SOMEONE GET ME OUT OF HERE IM GOING INSANE #I KEEP PRONOUNCING STREBER AS STREHBUR STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT ITS STREEBUR #the worst part is that IM LITERALLY GERMAN 😭 HIS NAME IS FUCKING GERMAN HELP ME #i have this problem where if i pronounce things wrong for a little bit it STICKS IN MY HEAD FOREVER. #i cant stop pronouncing FUCKING DOMINICAN AS DOEMASHION???? HOW???? #like i want to cry because of this?? why does my brain do that funky thing?? #i think i may have adhdtism but idk i dont rlly wanna self diagnose #but i show a lot of symptoms AND NO ONE IS LETTING ME GET A DIAGNOSE #sorry im rambling

[servin-up-surveys]

survey #195

Do you know anyone who has divorced and remarried the same person? What do you/would you think of someone who does that? I don't think so? I wouldn't think anything of someone who did this; their relationships and the details of them are not my business.

Do you say goodnight to anybody before you go to bed? If so, does it feel weird if you go to bed without saying it to them? Not regularly. If Girt spends the night though I think I normally do when it's clear we're going to sleep. I sometimes say goodnight to my snake as I pass her terrarium.

Do you have a favourite role of Johnny Depp's? If you don't like him, what is your favourite role of an actor you like? I love his portrayal of Willy Wonka.

Why did you/your parents choose to live where you do now? Would you move right now if you were able to? Why/why not? If so, where would you like to go? We had no other choice. The lady who lived here before us, it was her dying wish for Tobey (mutual family friend) to have the house and let Mom and I live in it; Mom was deep into cancer treatment and our former house was a health hazard due to mold problems, and the water was funky. Of course we appreciate having a home at all, but Tobey is not the greatest landlord and by now, Mom can barely stand her, as can I. We want out so, so bad but can't afford anything. We WANT to go back to the middle of nowhere, preferably in the woods again.

If someone broke into your house and robbed you, what could they take that would piss you off or upset you the most? To what lengths would you go to get it back? Has something like this already happened to you before? My dog's ashes. I would do A LOT to get those back home to me. Thankfully this kind of situation hasn't happened to me.

Was there something you were afraid of as a child that just seems silly to you now? I was TERRIFIED of King Ramses from Courage the Cowardly Dog. Like, I had nightmares.

Do you like coffee? I hate the taste of it, but it's one of my favorite smells.

When did you last make up a baby’s bottle? Never.

Do you eat your dinner at a dining table, coffee table or just off your lap? Usually on the couch with a folding table.

Did you go to high school with your current best friend? I did, but only as a freshman, as that's the year he graduated.

Do you take part in paying the bills for your household? No, because I don't have any form of income. I absolutely will be helping whenever I DO get a job...

How many cars can fit in your driveway? Barely two.

Have you ever slapped someone in the face? No, I'd like to keep it that way.

Last person you took a nap with? Girt.

Does seeing your mother cry automatically make you feel sad as well? Absolutely yes, and I get equally mad at whatever's caused her to.

Have you ever given up on someone, but then went back to them later? I've done this multiple times with Sara and Colleen both. Never again am I wasting my time and energy like that.

Is your last ex currently in a relationship? I don't know or care.

Do you think the last person you kissed has feelings for you? I know he does.

Have you ever been punched in the face? No, and I'd even MORE like to not change that, haha.

Are you the type of person who seeks out revenge? Nah, not worth it.

Have you ever been asked out by someone you didn’t want to be with? Yes, there was this kid in 4th grade named Nick who asked me A LOT and I always said no. I was also harassed in pre-k by a pair of boys that were always trying to kiss me, but I don't actually remember if they ever asked me out. We were literally in pre-k, I don't think we even knew "asking out" was a thing.

Who is the last person to call you gorgeous? Idk.

Do you think a lot before you fall asleep? Absofuckinglutely, my brain does NOT know how to shut the hell off and I think it's the prime reason I have so much trouble falling asleep.

Would you rather have your parents catch you having sex or smoking weed? jesus christ smoking hella weed

Do you like it when people call you babe? I don't mind other girls calling me that, I actually think it's sweet and friendly, and Girt's allowed to, but it's not my favorite so I'm glad it's not a regular from him. I would absolutely not appreciate another man calling me this, especially one that seems creepy.

Would you ever get your nipples pierced? Unlikely.

Does it bother you to get shots in the mouth? Does it hurt? I hate it. My worst experience with a needle ever was getting numbing injections deep through the roof of my mouth during a dental procedure.

Ever ride in a limo? When did you last do so? I haven't, but always wanted to just for the experience.

Do you have a lot of self-discipline? Honestly, no, and this is something I very badly want to get better about. It's a topic I want to touch on in therapy.

Have you ever been to another country’s capital city? I've never been to another country, period.

What’s something that has upset you lately? Weight gain. Following some blood tests, it seems to be because my thyroid levels are extremely high, despite being on a daily med for it... We recently upped the dose of it so hopefully that helps.

What’s something you don’t think people take seriously enough? Environmental issues. A lot of things.

Have you ever dated someone who had a child from a previous relationship? No.

What’s your favorite kind of soup? I'm not really a soup person.

Have you ever been 4-wheeling? When I was younger with my neighbors, yeah.

Will you be attending any weddings in the near future? None planned right now, no.

Do you have any important anniversaries you celebrate? Mine and Girt's.

What will be the next concert you attend? I don't know, but I'm praying with every bone in my body that Rammstein adds an American leg of their 2024 tour and I can go to that.

Have you ever seen a horseshoe crab? They’re scary, right?! I've only seen pictures/videos. I don't think they're... scary, just strange-looking. Their underside makes me feel sorta squirmy and gross, it's just so odd.

When was the last time you had a hangover? Never.

Do you own many pairs of shorts? I own literally zero. I don't wear shorts, I'm too self-conscious of my legs.

Who was the last person you texted? My dad. He's ill so I didn't get to see him on Christmas.

When was the last time you felt like letting it all out and having a cry? Christmas Eve, Shelia (boyfriend's mom) got me this fucking adorable blanket with an extremely beautiful message from a mother-in-law to her daughter-in-law, and it just brought to mind how once upon a time, I never, ever, thought I would have this sort of bond with a partner's family ever again, after Jason. I was remembering the Christmas Eves I'd spent with him and his family, and now I have that again, when I once was so fucking certain I never would get another chance. I did actually cry some, but I didn't let myself like, bawl.

When was the last time someone made you feel like an idiot? Recently. My mom has this certain way she answers some of my questions like I'm an absolute moron, and it's extremely hurtful and I want to bring it up to her, but I'm not looking for an argument because she can't accept she never does hurtful things.

Would you allow your children to date prior to 16? If I ever have kids, yes.

What was the last restaurant you made a reservation at? The Cheesecake Factory, I think.

Would you rather read a book, or listen to the audiobook? Read, I have no interest in audiobooks, or virtual book formats at all. I'm very weird in that I want to physically hold the book and read it in my own head.

What is your favorite book? Johnny Got His Gun by Dalton Trumbo and The Outsiders by S.E. Hinton. I need to re-read the latter, I read it in middle school and barely remember the plot, I just know I adored the book.

What is something you're insecure about? My weight, among five billion other things.

What do you consider your biggest accomplishment? Healing from my breakup with Jason. It sounds like such a little thing when I type it, but when you really know where my head was throughout the aftermath and all the conscious effort it took to change my perspective and let my wounds close and fade, it was a titanic achievement and no one will take that shit from me.

Who knows you the best? My mom.

Will anyone be visiting your house any time soon? I mean I see Girt normally at least once a week, but we don't have a hangout day planned yet. Other people, I'm not sure.

Scroll through your camera roll quickly without looking, then stop it with your finger. What's the first picture your eye lands on? Me making a silly face at Roman, my cat.

Have you ever been chased by a dog? Not by a dog with the intent to bite/harm me, only in playful situations.

What's your favourite kind of soda? Mountain Dew Voltage, which is a blue raspberry flavor.

Do you have a drink with you right now? What is it? Yeah, water.

What was the last app you opened on your phone? It was DragonVale, I got a new phone for Christmas and it's superior to my old one in all ways imaginable and I've been enjoying the greater memory capabilities of it. No more One Single Game on my phone, lol.

Is your voice high, low, or somewhere in the middle? It's low for your average cisgender adult woman.

Are you wearing any rings right now? Yes, I keep one on my right middle finger; it wraps around twice in a spiral with an arrow pointed forward, "keep" being on one end of the spiral and "going" on the opposite end. On the interior of the ring, in the middle, "fucking" is carved so it's meant to read as "keep fucking going." Mom got it for me, and I got a kick outta it 'cuz she sure does know my tendency to use "fuck."

How many beds are in your home? Two.

What is the last thing you ate? I had Special K cereal for dinner.

Who is your favorite person to spend time with? Girt, of course.

Are you considered a "clingy girlfriend"? According to Girt, for him anyway, I'm the perfect balance of clingy but also respectful of his space. He knows I worry about being annoyingly clingy, so he reminds me a lot of this that how I act makes him feel loved but also respected when he wants "him" time. We work really well in that sense, we both need personal time regularly and can be entirely honest if we need it without the fear of hurting one another.

Are you good at multitasking? God no, I just straight-up can't. I HAVE to focus on a single thing at a time.

When's the last time you went to a nightclub? Literally never.

#survey #surveys #random questions #personal questions #questionnaire

[ycseniarivera]

PICKING UP FROM HERE • @stellylee

And I love you for that! It does count, yes. I mean, no one really wants to go through the entire winter with skin peeling from their lips. At least not me! Honestly? I can totally see myself putting one in the freezer. I do keep my jade roller in here, so why not chap stick? Unless it messes up the properties or whatever. Wait, have you ever have them do the thing where they flip it upside down? Because it’s supposed to stay in the cup? I’ve witnessed it before and the entire thing fell out, which was really funny. But not really because the little girl started crying because her blizzard was ruined. Definitely less dangerous! Unless you give yourself a mega brain-freeze or something. Exactly! Hopefully more snow! I haven’t checked The Times this week, though, so I’m not too sure. I hope there’s at least some more for the sleepover. Hairnets can look really funky. I had to wear one once when someone in school caught lice, and I looked awful. Listen, if I was bald, I would wear one to just to keep up with morale. And I wouldn’t want to feel like I was the odd one out. Exactly, plus I’d feel really bad if I wasted a whole meal just because of one measly hair. God, that’d be like on America’s Funniest Home Videos or something! What’s a little public humiliation if it’s in good fun? Did it traumatize you as a kid? I feel like if I watched it when I was younger, I would never look at the parade the same way I do now. Definitely something to think about, for sure! They’re pretty kind for the most part, but like any animal they can get annoyed with humans. I think my favorite part is feeding them.

#stelly. #conversations • i heard there's a few different people you're talking to. #queued.

[mirtifero]

So my brain decided to go full IMSCARED again and oh boy. I had forgotten how much this game gets me.

Not in the sense of “the game tricks you”, more in the sense of “this game hits somewhere that makes me want to cry”. Maybe it’s the music, the notes, the atmosphere, the dialogue, the environment… I don’t know. But, personally speaking, I actually find myself relating to White Face a lot, and I can’t seem to be able to point out exactly why.

It’s very hard to give a story to the game, but if I were to follow what my mind was trying to give me during gameplay: maybe this is about abuse. Although this view kinda fucks up why Ivan was ever mentioned in the puzzles, I think this is about White Face and Her. I think White Face was probably this very playful and clingy person, but that he probably went through some sort of [neglect?] that made him from clingy to obsessive. Her could be anyone, really, let’s say she was his friend. Maybe White Face got so attached to Her that he just couldn’t take anything without seeing it as some sort of betrayal or abandonment, making him somewhat obsessed [and maybe overly emotional but that’s projecting] and creating a very, very uncomfortable relationship between them. <- Kinda 80% of that was pure guessing so maybe I’m wrong… but I think White Face ended up killing Her [and possibly other people, because of… well, the maze being full of dead bodies, mostly of women] and killing himself after that. Perhaps Ivan found a way of transforming entity into data and tested this with both of them, trapping them in this endless nightmare of their lives, but lonely, and as sharp as a computer file. Again, speculation. But I dislike that this leaves too many questions, like, who’s Her? Because I don’t think this analysis does her justice. I think she was also very emotional but more aggressively (or maybe she turned that way after being fucking murdered and transformed into data), and maybe she did also cause harm to White Face. Maybe it was one of those mutually destructive abusive relationships, not sure. I do think Her is more “rational” though, but I think the phrase I made to explain this is kinda nonsensical so sorry that’s up to your interpretation. Dude, you could even BE Her at some points of the game, and White Face in others… Her part being more organized in file funky stuff and White Face’s part being more… misleading. Maybe it could represent how their own memories and rationality were transferred into data… Maybe that’s why there are so many bodies that look so much like Her on the labyrinth, maybe the game messes with White Face and Her kinda fighting because both their datas see stuff in different ways that cause mayhem to the logic of the environments. Like, imagine two completely different people stuck in the same MIND, not body, but MIND. That’s kinda what it looks like, I think. Dude, Her could even be White Face’s mother if you want to guess more. Idk if I am making sense here.

I think Ivan is kinda just there (like, he transformed them into data and the identities are aware of his existence), White Face and Her are kinda stuck in this empty hell of grief because of their deaths and inability to control their own relationship, because of their internal mess ‘n shit.

However, maybe the story also contains a player, on which White Face ends up getting attached to, and Her… I don’t know? She seems kinda indifferent about the player, maybe helping, maybe not… she seems to actually “know what she is doing” and not really care about the player’s presence since what matters is what is stuck THERE in the game yk? I do think they kinda use the player, but White Face also does seem to get attached to them.

Anyways this involves a lot of self projecting so yeah maybe it’s a mess and makes 0 sense but in my mind it WORKS so yeah. Fucking love this game. Makes me cry every time.

#IMSCARED represents how my brain looks and feels like #Maybe Yume Nikki too but IMSCARED kinda beats it sorry

[robotsafari]

66, 6, 87, 1, 45

prepare for snothing but guilty gear: 66 - Make Oneself (Guilty Gear XX)

not surprised since like any other xx track, well, i listened to it alot. i like this song a lot !! make oneself is a song i can only describe as a very "axl" theme. idk how to communicate why i feel this way but i can just say this song fits him like a glove. i prefer the xx version over the x version personally. idk, the x version just gets too noisy for me. too much of a cacophony most of the time. sorry x version lovers. burn me at the stake or smthing.

6 - Doubt (Guilty Gear Xrd)

WHY. why is this so fucking high .. this song isnt even that good. its just a funny story mode track that plays in some assassins scenes. i guess because i kept making a joke where i played like the ffirst few seconds of this song??? whatever. its fine. press x to doubt or whatever.

87 - Drumhead Pulsation (Guilty Gear Isuka)

YEAAAAAAHH NOW WE'RE TALKINNNNN!!!!!!!!!! this song fucking rules and its honestly a crime i havent listened to it more often. this is like. roadtrip music material to me idk why. i could blast this shit in a car or something and go nuts. so awesome. im so lame.

1 - i think i hauve autism

yeah. its the xx version of a solitude that asks nothing in return. i love venom. you know i love venom. you know the entire guild does insane things to my brain. you know the solemn vibe of the track makes me shake and cry for 500 hours. you know that violin part gets me every time. you know the fact that venom's theme changes so drastically between x & xx breaks my soul into an unfathomable number of pieces. its a modern fucking masterpiece except that this song is probably a decade old at this point. hey. did you know that in the violin part, the bassline has a motif from the old version of that part? yeah. just wanted to let you know that.

45 - The Original (not the original version for some reason)

wait why the xx version i like the x version better--

jokes aside. yeha i like faust's theme in this game its very good. i guess the xx version is so high because i found out the x version exists and is good too late. sad. well the xx version isnt that bad its just well.. its missing the saxophone, the funky synths, the whimsy, the heart, the soul.. sorry. its inferior but its still a bop.

so if you wanna send me an ask of this please do a batch like this its very fun and i dont have a lot of followers or ppl who pay attention to what i say.

#robo ramble #spoti-ky #<- wrapped ask tag

[vxidpxnk]

animated characters i fucking despise i dont really know why i just dont like them when i look at them i feel viscerally horrible

first: this fucker. i watched the goddamn frozen movie with my family at a cinema and i had low fucking expectations but this bitch with his dumbass fucking design fucking surpassed even that. why is he shaped like this hes too fucking smooth his head is shaped in the worst possible way why does he have one (1) singular tooth and the fucking sticks in his head????? hope they stab him in his fucking brain oh my god i hate this bitch so much i wish he melted hes just so bad

second, this ABSOLUTE ABOMINATION. look i know hes meant to be an imaginary friend or whatever the fuck but he is literally so fucking annoying i hate his design and i cannot explain why hes just so bad shaped i watched it in a cinema with my school and i was fucking HAPPY when he died because oh my gods he is so fucking awful why is he fuzzy in some spots and smooth in others why does he look like hes partly made of fairy floss why does he have a dumb fucking song that gets stuck in your head like its fucking rotting your brain why is his mouth like that if hes sposed to be an elepjant i hate it im goign to cry

this is going to be controversioal but i cannto stand these bitches. yes the movie is good and i enjoyed watching it as a kid but i could never fully get over tye animation style and how uncomfy it made me. literally dont know why just something about them is Wrong and Bad

,,,,, confession ive never seen this movie bc it will literally kill me . why are they so smooth. people dont look like that why are they all smooth why thats not how a human being looks it makes me so uncomfortable they look like playdough that gained horrible sentience im so uncomfortable i literally i just why are they s m o o t h

wall e my beloved <3 i love this movie so much i love the funky lil nonbinary robots i love them but howeer it fails in the same aspect as the previous characters. the PEOPLE are fucking UNNATURALLY SMOOTH. why??? WHY?????? i get it theyre meant to be like,,, portrayal of laziness or whatever the fuck but they just,, i hate it. theyre too smooth its not natural why cant pixar make people look not terrifying oh my gods i just want this movie but only robots please i love the robots theyre my best friends no more smooth people only robots 2022 please

AGAIN. WHY IS THIS FUCKSIGR TOO FUCKSJNGGD SMOOTH. HE IS A FUCKISNG C R A B WHY. THATS NOT HOW CRABS R MEANT TO BE!!!!! HE HAS TEXTURE ON HIS CLAWS WHY DIDNT THEY TEXTURE HIS FACE-SKIN?????? DID THEY WANT HIM TO LOOK HUMAN?????? BECAUSE IF SO THATS EVEN WORSE

okay look. i know theyre toys. i know plastic is shiny and smooth. and honestly this one isnt even that bad. but their faces move with the exact same animation and range of expressions as humans animated and that makes the smooth Bad i am so sorry toy story enjoyers i just cannot it unlocks a visceral thing in my brain and i do not know if it is rage or fear but i want to scream

. WHY THE FUCK SO THEY LOOK LIKE THIS THEY COULD HAVE DONE ANY. OTHER. DESIGN. I FUCKSJFJGBDBDBF AGAGSGSFSHXBCBBX SGFAGSGDHSJDFGSGAFAGAGA GETRRRRRRRRRR BARK WOOF GRRRRRR AGAHDGGSSVDBDBSBFBFJFBDBDVS

#crambles #animation #pixar #i hate it #uhh #caps lock warning #please dont hate me these r just my opinions #inside out #frozen #toy story #incredibles #madagascar #moana

[cometcaper]

I thought I'd share my playlist for the anniversary of the boathouse kiss. :)

Song translations, MANY thoughts, and timeline under the break.

Noise warning for song 19, Hinahanap-Hanap Kita. 4:23 to the end. Loud high pitched beeps.

YouTube music version to be made soon.

Translations for foreign songs:

Ewan [Dunno] — Apo Hiking Society — Filipino/Tagalog

Amour plastique [Plastic love] — Videoclub — French

Panalangin [Prayer] — Apo Hiking Society/Moonstar88 — Filipino/Tagalog

Hinahanap-Hanap Kita [I'm Looking For You] — Rivermaya — Filipino/Tagalog

This is a collaborative playlist made with my friend.

Thought Good Old-Fashioned Lover Boy would be a good starter song. Something about the music. Represents a good start of Alec persuing Maurice, like, hey, I can be yours... Whatcha doin'?

I added Puppy Princess because of the chorus but I know some people don't like that song so... You can skip if you'd like. KISS MEEEEE KIISS ME WITH YIIR EYESSS CLOSED . ALL I WANT IS YOU YEAH YOU. TELL ME I'M NOT FUNNY TELL ME I'M LEGIIIIT

Ewan. OH MY GOD this song is so them. Alec cares for Maurice, and doesn't like not being taken seriously or being treated badly and brushed off.

"I don't know why you're like that, you're difficult to talk to and you're a snob" COME ON IS THAT NOT THEM — Just a smile from you, and I'll be in heaven. Please give me a response, anything but "No idea"... What a perfect representation of Alec's continuous persuit of Maurice, always talking, always trying...

I could go on with every lyric.

Edit: I just realised this song fits so well for Alec's letters and meeting at the museum. Must resist the urge to add the same exact track twice.

So about Touch Me... Some of the lyrics apply better in other versions. Spotify just has this version tho. Touch me, just like that.

All I've Ever Known. Maurice discovered so much that night about touch and sharing and being with someone. He wants to be with Alec. "All I've ever known is how to hold my own, but now I want to hold you too. [Hold you close, I don't wanna ever have to let you go. Hold you tight, I don't wanna to back to the lonely life.]" Alec opened up his eyes and he'll never be the same.

Can't Help Falling in Love With You. 'Did you ever dream you'd a friend, Alec? ... Someone to last your whole life...' 'Alec, you're a dear fellow and we've been very happy.'

I'd Like To Walk Around In Your Mind was added from Maurice's perspective. Perhaps it fits Alec too...

I think Love At First Sight has the double meaning of the literal title, as well as "wouldn't you like to kiss her" perhaps being... Something Maurice would hear.

I Don't Dance. Based on this post/edit. Please watch this video oh my God.

Pink in the Night. Alec yearns for Maurice in the boathouse. He hasn't come. He hears his heart breaking tonight.

Every lyric is perhaps pulled straight from Alec's brain, to be honest. I remember seeing a post with this song in other contexts with them too. So yes, a few meanings.

Amour plastique. Alec reminiscences on the night in the Russet room. Why hasn't he come?

In my mind, everything goes wild. I lose myself in your eyes. I drown myself in the vagueness of your loving gaze.

And at night I cry tears that stream down my cheeks. I think of you only when the days ends, only when my sad demons descend upon my mind, into the bottomless abyss.

Waiting in the boathouse at night, when the day ends.

I ring out in kisses all down your chest. Lost in the avalanche of my heart astray. Who are you? Where are you?

The moments of then repeat in his mind. Where is Maurice?

I suppose Hopelessly Devoted To You and I'm A Fool To Want You are self explanatory. Maurice should really come... Alec really toughed it out, 2 days he spent in the boathouse, really wanted to see Maurice, really knew they had something, and doesn't want to be treated like a dog. Generally, his 1st letter.

Moon Song. My friend said they added it as a general love song. — Why do you treat me like this? Why didn't you come to the boathouse? — Alec's 2nd letter as a whole. Plus bits of 1st.

And you pushed me in, and now my feet can't touch the bottom of you. ... So I will wait for the next time you want me, like a dog with a bird at your door.

Ewan would fit here tbh.

Panalangin. My only prayer in this lifetime: to be beside you, to be together with you, that's my prayer.

"I since cricket match do long to ... place both arms round you and share with you, the above now seems sweeter than words can say."

And this heart won't allow if you will be away from me, my love, please listen.

It also fits the end of museum.

I Want You. Maurice, can you come to the boathouse already? Alec has no power to teleport you there. I hold one card that I can't use.

I found you. I found the door, but when I stepped through, there was no floor. He found Maurice, bit he's not being here for Alec.

You're coming back And it's the end of the world We're starting over And I love you, darling And I am done, dear

Alec wishes this would happen. Also, he does come back later and they love again over, and "it is finished".

Credit for suggesting the next two songs goes to @beatle-capaldi!!! He also wrote was in quotations!

English Summer Rain

The Most Radical Thing To Do

Hinahanap-Hanap Kita. 1st letter, he's looking for Maurice. Thinking about them together.

In my thoughts and dreams, in every turn of destiny, I look for you. Also applies to that hotel/post-hotel feeling. I look for you, even if I try to forget you, saying goodbye, looking back...

Wildest Dreams. They think a lot of each other. They share once more. But they must say goodbye. Alec saw this coming. Maurice hopes that Alec will remember him like this.

I Hear a Symphony. Alec truly opened up Maurice's eyes. Maurice was meant to be with him. He helped Maurice, changed his life. But now Alec is leaving on ship... Or is he? The symphony leads into...

An orchestral sountrack. The Boathouse. Unfortunately the Maurice soundtrack is not on spotify. It's on my personal YouTube music version. I added it because it just captures the boathouse the only way the sountrack itself can.

The Word of Your Body (Reprise). MLM people have moment of romantic tension, which culminates in confessions of love. Just had to add it. "Haven't you heard the word of your body?" perfectly describes Alec gifting and showing Maurice the wonder of truest physical affection and love. He lets Maurice be okay with himself, and again, changes everything. Every lyric is perfect.

Also, sorry JBW, I like other versions more... Too bad Spotify is mean.

I See The Light. Yeah. Every lyric. Maurice is Rapunzel. Movie Blond too. Both the morning at Russet room and the museum. And the world has somehow shifted. All at once everything is different, now that I see you. "By now they were in love with each other consciously."...

Suddenly Seymour. Suddenly see more, yeah? Clive = ass and someone gives him affection for once, wow! Sidenote, I want to sing this with them and their accents... Suddenly SCUDDER...

Helpless. Musical theatre songs seem to be good retellings of their love story. It's why they belong in post boathouse. Summaries and retellings. They're also good at conveying love they'd feel for each other in general, all times ever. Like loving men, retelling a story.

I'll Cover You. Cute love song feat. gays. I like to imagine them dancing around, declaring their love and devotion for each other. Walking and dancing around like in the original scene, sometime post canon. In my own imagination, I thought of Alec as Angel and Maurice (Christopher) as Collins.

Video Games. They must love spending time together. I thought this to be Maurice POV. Only worth living if somebody is loving you I mean, come on.

It's you, it's you, it's all for you. Everything I do. I tell you all the time, heaven is a place on Earth with you.

Un sospiro. I headcanon that Maurice picks up the piano and plays for Alec. Perhaps he picked it up bc of/after Clive, but now can play it for someone who gives a shit.

Something about the melody reminds me of them. And then it gets more intense... A bit like the passions of love, showing up in sharing and touch and more, too.

Liebestraum. I mean, it means love dream/dream of love. I just had to. Also I just like Liszt.

Take Me Up With You, Dearie. This song is just so sweet... So soft... Edwardian to boot... I love how quintessentially 1909 it is. Discovered it in a YT video. The thought of them getting married makes me cry. This song in general makes me want to cry, it's so romantic, tender, and exudes my favourite era...

Let us float, float, float through the clouds, and just have a lot of fun. We'll go up, up, up as two and then come down as one.

Put Your Head on My Shoulder. We Belong Together. I always imagine Maurice and Alec slowdancing to songs that come on the radio together, when the 1950s hits... Alec probably rests his head on his shoulder as this plays and they dance...

I'm using a lot of ellipses, am I secretly Rupert Graves?

Welcome to the 70s and 80s. They love dancing together and being with each other. Now, Panalangin can be a happy song. My only prayer for this lifetime ... To be together with you. And this heart won't allow if you will be away from me.

Just the Two of Us. What a nice, vibey song. Great title, great scenario of them dancing to this...

Tiny Dancer. Your Song. MLM people in the 70s + Radio, being happy and in love with each other. — I just thought I should add some Elton. A different friend, and I, like him. Maurice sings to Alec, "And you can tell everybody this is your song." That I put down in words how wonderful life is with you in the world.

Electric Love. Fun fact: this song got me to share the playlist. Got me thinking about them and their anniversary again. The funky busy instrumental describes well their passionate love. The highs of electric LOOOOOOVE describe the intensity of them.

Alt text continued: themselves together under and the love. And the love. The song has its own tension and it perfectly pictures their own tension. So yeah, this is THEIR song quite literally.

Sorry if my music taste is perhaps basic. I just made it for when I hear songs that are Them.

Falling for Ya. Alec falls for Maurice. "I saw you when you first drove up, Mr Hall..." Something about Maurice, right? Plus really nice vintage vibes with the music. The bit about Into your arms and it's a secure sure sounds like Maurice. Awh, they're falling for *each other*...

Rainbow Connections. Gay and bi people. Marriage. Everything that Maurice and Alec went through to get here, where they were meant to be. Clive. Working for Clive. Leading up to now.

All the things that had to go right, all the things that had to go wrong, that lead us to the place where we were going all along.

On the YT version there's a soft/jazzy cover of Panalangin here. Because they're old and spending time together and being happy. What a throwback, a defined meaning in their lives over time.

Still Into You. After all these decades... Old and grown, together... True soulmates... Two men can defy the world... Maurice and Alec still roam the greenwood. Imagine Maurice meeting Alec's mom in this context. If only.

Postmodern Jukebox cover, because they are a quintessentially 20th century couple. They exude vintage.

Some piano playing for Alec. Soft, tender, romantic, emotional, true. Feels like nighttime. Feels like Maurice and Alec. And a throwback to the pre 1914 world as well. Claire de Lune feels like... A credits of life piece. Time spent in the early 1980s. Nocturne feels like that too, but more romantic. Smidge less nighttime. Ah yes, Gymnopédies. The truest credits feel of them all. None of these actually are credits for Maurice and Alec, but I struggle to find the word for this feeling. But yeah. These all have Them vibes to me. Piano of the time just does I suppose. Glad to be reminded of them at any time.

What a long playlist. Like going through almost their whole lives together. 1:52 hrs. Almost like a movie. Imagine that. A full movie of THEIR lives... But leaving to the imagination was a good thing. Led to this such action. Thank you E.M. Forster.

Timeline:

1. Pendersleigh

4. & 5. Russet Room. Night, then Morning

9. Cricket

10. Boathouse Nights

18. The Museum

20. The Hotel

21. After

23. The Boathouse

24. They Still Roam the Greenwood

I just like to imagine them dancing to songs on the radio, for decades to come...

#maurice 1987 #maurice 1914 #maurice #maurice hall #alec scudder #Spotify

[irltechnoblade]

Otherkin isn't Reincarnation

You know what I wish was more common? People in mcytkin spaces discussing different otherkin belief systems.

There's a lot of people who don't know that otherkin isn't reincarnation.

As far as I can tell, all my own kintypes are caused by past lives but it's really frustrating to see that given as the definition of 'kin, because, well, it actively isn't, and to say it is does everyone a disservice. So why do I care that this is the way we discuss it?

Because not all my past lives are kintypes! (Quite a lot of them aren't, in fact)

The message that past lives are kintypes, whether said outright or implied, makes this a lot harder to figure out. It took me years to understand that past lives and kintypes are separate overlapping categories.

Just because something is a kintype doesn't mean it's a past life! If we look at metaphysical/spiritual reasons alone you have all sorts of possible reasons for kintypes!

You aren't the original inhabitant of this body.

You're running two lives concurrently

You're going to be your kintype in a future life

Any other spiritual reason you can think of.

And that alone is frustrating that it's never discussed. These are interesting experiences that make our community richer and understanding that past lives are just one possible explanation of why something is a kintype opens the doors to a whole wealth of possible experiences.

And that's not even considering psychological kintypes! I like to explain this category as "funky brain reasons". I think it's a crying shame that these possibilities aren't talked about more, because while I am wholly in the spiritual side of things myself, I think funky brain reasons are interesting! I want to know more about the experience! I wanna know more of the possible reasons! I wanna be able to recognize if I ever do have a psychological kintype cuz at the moment I wouldn't know it if I was hit in the face with it!

You know when you're exposed to something as a kid like an animal or a show and it's a big part of your identity? Like you imprint on it unconsciously? Yeah, that can cause kintypes.

Delusions! Can cause kintypes! Please for the love of god stop telling people with delusions they aren't kin that's up to them (like, delusions can be kintypes. They can be not kintypes. That's up to the person to figure out.)

Imprinting on something except it's a more recent interest.

Course you can just say "brain did a funky thing and now I'm my kintype." And leave it as that.

If nothing else, the fact that you can have different explanations for different kintypes is woefully overlooked. Like just because one kintypes is a past life, or you're a walk in, doesn't mean another kintype can't be a parallel life.

Finally, a reason that has nothing to do with spirituality or brains being weird, because it's okay to be indecisive or uncertain or just not be bothered about the why and how, and the questioning process never really ends:

You just are your kintype and it doesn't matter why.

#last few times I wrote smthn big like this I had a few people read it first #but I've had it sitting for a few weeks now and I wanted it out

[monkeydlesbian]

at this point,,,i’m begging u,,fukunaga hcs😔 i love that funky little man sm i think it’s a problem

# FUKUNAGA HEADCANONS.

a/n: homie oh my dear GOD you just opened up the floodgates and i hope u know how to swim <3 with that being said, THANK YOU for giving me the opportunity to talk about the absolute love of my life!!! i am writing this author's note BEFORE i write these hc’s so there is absolutely no telling how long it will get. as always, i hope you enjoy and i hope you have a wonderful day! i am insane!

warnings: none!

GENERAL HEADCANONS:

where to start with this funnyman dear God.

fukunaga shouhei is a joy to be around, even if he doesn’t talk much and even if he laughs at his own jokes and even if it looks like he never blinks (perceptive king).

his company is really the best, like when you facetime a friend and you’re just doing your own things with each other there.

i wouldn't say he's necessarily an introvert, but he can be awkward in social settings at times which i’d say is normal for the average human being.

for some reason i feel like fukunaga is the person that’s always breaking that uncomfortable silence in a room full of people at the beginning of the night, but he never really gets the credit for it and just stays silent the rest of the time if that makes sense???

idk but i am obsessed with him.

anyways.

fukunaga strikes me as the type of person who just loves laughter.

he loves hearing laughter, being the cause of it, laughing himself.

it is my personal belief that fukunaga never EVER looks jokes up, he’s always just thinking funny things in that brain of his and i really love him for that oh my god.

the first time someone actually indulges him in one of his funny thoughts, he will immediately perk up and he might blush a little bit, depending on who it is.

another thought of mine is that post-timeskip he becomes WAY more confident in his interactions with people, like he's always sure that what comes out of his mouth is going to make you laugh.

“funny guys are dangerous. they make you laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh then BOOM. you’re naked.”

yeah that's fukunaga.

when fukunaga does happen to talk, it’s so easy to flow into a conversation and he's honestly just a really soothing person to be around.

he always listens when you’re talking and his attention is on you the whole time.

he’s the type of person that is nodding along with what you're saying and responding to you even if you get talked over :((( (so precious i'm gonna cry).

another random thought but i feel like fukunaga giggles?? i don't know but i feel like he barely ever lets out loud laughter and instead just giggles PLEASE i love him.

this got so long but TLDR; fukunaga is a funny, considerate, and sweet person to talk to and be around and everyone should love him. thank you.

RELATIONSHIP HEADCANONS:

SCREAMS at this part because fukunaga is all i could ever want in a partner.

he can cook, he’s funny, he’s a little weird, and dear GOD i know his paycheck is FAT post-timeskip. comedian and part-time chef KING!

not to mention he is actually very handsome and cute as all hell. if you think fukunaga is ugly then i am so sorry for you.

to be honest, i don't think fukunaga will be like wound up or rowdy or anything in your relationship, like a secret sort of thing.

he’s still gonna be fukunaga, the slightly awkward and cheeky and funny guy that you came to love in the first place.

he’s not much for grand gestures in a relationship, but he’s showing you how much he loves you by cooking for you, giving you company, doing your laundry for you; basically anything that would make your life easier, he's doing it.

fukunaga isn't really touch starved or anything, but that doesn’t mean he won't absolutely relish the times the two of you do get to be physically close.

(the following bullet point is courtesy of seal anon, love u bae <3)

while fukunaga won’t drown you in a hug the minute he sees you or loom over your shoulders constantly, he does like to hold onto you in small and more subtle ways.

he likes to play with your fingers a lot, give you small kisses on your temple as he passes by, maybe even a little pat on the booty if he’s feeling bolder than usual.

one of his favorite things is to see you wrapping your arms around one of his, your cheek squished on his shoulder as you watch him cook dinner.

then he's teasing you about being clingy, about how you can get enough of him, but deep down he really couldn't ask for anything less.

being domestic with you is also another thing that stirs up the love he has for you inside his heart.

at the beginning of your relationship, the first time you spent the night at his apartment, you had forgotten to pack your sleep shirt, so he just let you use an old t-shirt of his.

he had to pinch himself the moment you walked out of the bathroom in his shirt, your own sweatpants hung low on your hips.

even now, you still tease him about the literal hearts in his eyes but he can’t find it in himself to bite back when he sees you smile and giggle at the memory.

another thing about fukunaga is that he loves you without shame!!

even if he is a little more on the quieter side, everyone around the two of you knows just how much fukunaga loves you in the way he listens to you and the way he cares about the things you care about.

kids love this mf so much it’s ridiculous. your little cousins are always climbing on his legs and begging him to tell knock-knock joke after knock-knock joke.

and it’s like he never ever gets tired of them either, probably tens of thousands of knock-knock jokes in his arsenal to entertain them with.

your aunt is so damn embarrassing with the way she tells him he would be such an amazing father, sending you looks, if you’re picking up what i'm putting down.

one very self-indulgent thought of mine is that he LOVES to tease you.

whether he’s tickling you, picking fun at you, or whispering something a little less than innocent in your ear,,, he’s always trying to tease the living hell out of you.

like i said before, i hc fukunaga as someone who got way more confident post-timeskip, so some of the things he says will catch you SO off guard it’s not even funny.

that could have gone into nsfw territory but i had to physically restrain myself.

TLDR; fukunaga as a partner is someone who isn’t going to be necessarily doting or clingy, but he will cherish you with everything he has and does everything he can for you to make your life as joyful as possible! he loves you so much and will show you every day!

BONUS SCENARIO (i’m insane):

You close your book fairly quickly when you hear the sizzling of the skillet come from inside of the kitchen. Jumping up from the couch, you slide on the wooden floor as you make your way to your boyfriend who somehow managed to sneak by you without a sound. You smile when you see Fukunaga standing there, in front of the stove and in his element, his shoulders shifting from the movement of his arms as he slides the chopped up carrot into the skillet along with the other vegetables.

“Hate to break it to ya, but you’re not as sneaky as you think,” he says, adding a pinch of salt to the ingredients in the skillet before he sends you a wink over his shoulder.

“Definitely not as sneaky as you,” you quip back, sliding your sock clad feet across the floor as you make your way over to him. You wrap your arms around his torso from behind and bury your head in the middle of his back. He giggles, resting his free hand over one of your own and rubbing his thumb across the back of it.

“You’re clingy, angel,” he comments, lighthearted and airy, showing you that he doesn’t really mean it. Either that or he doesn’t mind it.

“Can’t help it,” you shrug with a sigh, “you’re sexy when you cook.”

He chuckles, “Oh? You don’t think I’m sexy all the time?”

“Now, I didn’t say that,” you huff, your cheeks heating up when you feel him shake with silent laughter.

The sizzling tones down a little bit now that he has all of the ingredients in the skillet and has been stirring for a while, and luckily for you, Fukunaga decides it to be the optimum time to turn around and wrap you in his arms. He kisses the top of your head and you smile, burying your face further into his chest.

“You’re makin’ my favorite,” you muse after a while, tilting your head so that your chin rests against his chest as you look up at him.

“That I am, sweetpea,” he confirms simply, quite enjoying the way you instantly beam up at him from your place in his chest.

“Any particular reason why?”

“Well, I thought that maybe if I made your favorite, you’d think I was extra sexy,” he jokes, though he sounds completely serious. He giggles when your smile drops and you roll your eyes, choosing to bury your face back into his chest with groan.

“You’re annoyin’, Shou,” you say as you squeeze him tighter.

“You love it.”

“That I do.”

#fyfa answers #THIS WAS PURE WORD VOMIT. I HOPE U ENJOY #this is so long OH MY GODDDDD #this will get exactly 2 notes. but it’s ok #the brainrot is terminal #genuinely #fukunaga x reader #fukunaga shouhei #fukunaga imagine #fukunaga shouhei x reader #shouhei fukunaga #shouhei fukunaga x reader #nekoma x reader #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu fluff #fukunaga fluff #kuroo x reader #yaku x reader #haikyuu imagine

[jazsplaylist]

JANUARY FAVORITES

A little overdue, like most of my habits are, but here’s a little collection of my favorite music from January!

FAVORITE SINGLES (in no particular order)

1. Head On Fire - Sigrid & Griff

Even though I haven’t listened much to Griff before, I can recognize that this is a strong pop collab that had the potential to be extraordinary and was. “Head On Fire” is a harmonious mix between Sigrid’s and Griff’s signature sounds, and it manages to capture both something that sounds new yet timeless, as if it was released decades ago. It successfully caters to both their strengths, and made me want to listen to Griff more than I have before. 

2. Payback (feat. Knucks) - Kojey Radical

I’ve never listened to either of these guys before I came across this on a New Music Friday. The new music playlists that Friday was extremely hip-hop heavy, and most of what I went through felt extremely uninspired to me, so I was ready to give up when this started playing halfway through the list. As someone who has only really listened to hip-hop semi-actively for five years, I’m more drawn to catchy hooks and beats with something unique and something “extra”. While most mainstream hip-hop does have that to some extent, a lot can end up being very uniform and repetitive, which is why I really appreciate it when something catches my ear in a way that other songs don’t. This song is funky, catchy and it was nice to hear a new, different voice. I definitely will be checking out both Kojey and Knucks more after this.

3. all my ghosts - Lizzy McAlpine

I’m surprised that this is a song I deem worth mentioning, because it balances on the line of being too indie for my taste. It’s not like I don’t like indie music, I just often find it wildly uninteresting, and I am after all, more of a pop girl. I do, however, really enjoy both the production and the melody of this song. It’s repetitive enough that it sticks to my brain, and the way the song is built up makes it interesting enough to keep my attention. Lizzy also has an amazing, soothing voice.

4. How Long - Tove Lo

Charlie Puth outsold. Tove Lo rarely ever misses, and this hits just the spot. The BLUE LIPS (2017) sound fits the vibe of Euphoria so well, so it feels just right that she delved into that era to make this song for the show. I also have a weak spot for sad, emotional songs with an upbeat production. You know, the whole crying on the dance floor vibe? The lyrics fit a prominent storyline of the season well, the melody is so deeply melancholic and addicting, but you also just have to vibe to it because of the production? Perfection from Tove Lo, once again.

5. I’ll Never Not Love You - Michael Bublé

Is this as good of as a song as the others I’ve mentioned? No. Is it one of Michael Bublé’s better songs? Hm, maybe. Maybe not. Will I still mention it just because it’s Michael Bublé? Yes. It’s cheesy and it follows a pretty simple formula. But slap his voice on anything and I will worship it. I’m a simple girl - I see Michael Bublé, I like.

Honorable mentions: Next To Normal - Lucius (for fans of Jessie Ware, Tame Impala) / Night Call - Years & Years / Fallen Angel - Bernhoft / Tusen Tårer RifMix - Arif

FAVORITE ALBUMS: (in no particular order)

1. Dawn FM - The Weeknd

I, along with the rest of the world, have been obsessed with the sound that he brought with After Hours (2020) and honestly? I think he did it better this time around. After following the internet’s opinion on it, it seems like liking Dawn FM more than After Hours is an unpopular opinion, but I stand by it. The latter didn’t particularly stick with me, and while I highly appreciate the singles that came out of it, I didn’t care for the deep cuts, and therefore didn’t care much for the album. I have yet to revisit it since Dawn FM, and I realize that I probably have to, because I’m almost sure I’ll end up liking it a lot more because of this. Anyway. I love the transitions in this album, I love the entire run from the first track all the way to “Best Friends”, I love the radio theme and I love that it dives into that 80s and early 90s sound. I find the second half of the album a lot weaker, although “Less Than Zero” is a solid track and worthy of a single status. I have a feeling this is an album that will be hard to beat for the Album of the Year title.

Favorite tracks: How Do I Make You Love Me, Take My Breath, Sacrifice, Best Friends, Gasoline, Out of Time

2. Are We Gonna Be Alright? - Fickle Friends

I only knew of one of their songs before I listened to this album, but I was glad to find out that the rest of the songs had a similar vibe. The song I’m talking about is “Pretty Great”, a song I think was on my Discover Weekly sometime in 2020. I didn’t realize that it took them two whole years to make an album and still put this song on it, but I’m glad they did. If you like energetic, electric indie pop with a lot of electric guitar, then this is a treat for you. It has something for fans of dance-y, disco-y tracks, rock-oriented songs and indie vibe-y songs. I’m sorry that my vocabulary is so lacking that I have to add a -y to every word, but that’s just how it is. 

Favorite tracks: Glow, Pretty Great, Love You To Death, Write Me A Song

3. Fix Yourself, Not The World - The Wombats

I went into this album not expecting to really like it, mostly because I had never listened to a Wombats album before in my life. But the energetic kicker of an opening song, “Flip Me Upside Down”, hit me so hard that I became very excited going into this. Was only slightly disappointed when the rest of the album wasn’t as good as that song, but it made for a new, exciting addition to my music library. It’s not the kind of music I normally would go for, but there’s something about their energy that made this album the exception. Unfortunately, I can’t compare it to their other music as I’m not familiar with it, but if their discography is as fun as this one, I think I can call myself a fan.

Favorite tracks: Flip Me Upside Down, If You Ever Leave, I’m Coming With You, Method To The Madness, Wildfire

Honorable mention: 25 - D’Sound, a total vibe for funky soul lovers with a lot of exciting features like Macy Gray and Shontelle! The lyricism is a weak point on this album, though.

FAVORITE DISCOVERIES: (in no particular order)

Also known as: I’m stupid enough to have slept on these or was just a little too late finding out about these.

1. In The Meantime - Alessia Cara

I didn’t know Alessia Cara released an album in 2021. And I also just realized I still have her previous album in my “to-listen” list, and that came out in 2018... I was surprised how solid this album was, and I was kind of upset that I didn’t know about it until last month! Underrated artist, underrated album.

Favorite tracks: Bluebird, Lie To Me, Somebody Else

2. Raketter - TØFL

This could actually qualify to be under “favorite singles” because it was released the last week of December, so it’s not like I could include it on a December list even if I tried. Still. I don’t have a lot of success paying attention or even liking Norwegian bands, but TØFL easily became my favorite Norwegian band/group the moment I heard them. It’s even better that they’re from the same area as me, therefore sharing my dialect, which means I can sing along to their songs exactly how I talk. If you speak a language with widely different dialects, you’ll understand what a struggle this can be. Their music is so funny (yes, funny), energetic and just feel-good. It’s silly, but not goofy in a way that makes it parodic. This song is no exception of this description. They also manage to be so silly with their lyrics, yet they’re always so honest and authentic. While this particular song isn’t silly, the vibe of the production is so playful that you don’t realize that the song isn’t particularly positive at all. A few of their songs are like that, actually. 

3. Stand Up - Tierra Whack

Another December track that was completely off my radar until recently. It’s so simple and effective, and I love her flow and energy in this. Tierra Whack has been on my radar for quite a while - I keep seeing her name, and I keep thinking that I’ll check her out but somehow I never do. This song finally catching my attention is just what I need to keep my eyes and ears open.

4. MUST BE - Lou Phelps

I’m always looking for funky and groovy tracks, and I came across this when I randomly decided to listen to my Spotify-curated “Funk Mix”. I actually added this to my playlist just because I thought he said “Oslo” in this song, although in hindsight it made no sense for the song overall. Luckily, I ended up listening to this song a lot anyway, so it was worth it!

5. run away - MIXIE

A cute little bop that seems to be growing - it had 10k streams when I first found it and is at 76k right now. As this appeared on my Discover Weekly, and this is the only song by this artist on Spotify, I have absolutely no idea who they are and what the story is. But judging by this song, they have a lot of potential, and I hope there’ll be more releases soon!

#the weeknd #alessia cara #sigrid #griff #tierra whack #the wombats #fickle friends #tove lo #michael buble #lizzy mcalpine #kojey radical #music #monthly favorites

[mimsylovesloki]

Episode 6-Play by Play Reactions (Spoilers)

I’m so nervous and excited. Disclaimer: I have spoiled a few minor things for myself for this episode because I’m a self sabotaging dummy who does this whenever I get anxious about a form of media I am watching.

I’m so friggin nervous ahhhhhhhhh

Please tom Hiddleston, don’t do me dirty

Screw you renslayer

Istg if anyone betrays anyone I’m going to riot

Man I miss Classic!Loki already

Isn’t this the music that played when Steve?

OH MY GOSH IM GOING TO CRY WITH ALL OF THE AUDIO REFERENCES

Lol the peter quill lines are perfect because I legit just watched GotG

Nelson Mandela?

Vision???

Lmao Sylvie saying “open your eyes!” Gave me legend of Zelda breath of the wild flashbacks

My heart is rattling against my rib cage with excitement and anxiety

Spoopy castle

Aha another scene or at least location from the trailers!

Oof they’re both anxious too

Pretty gold veins

You were pruned before he even existed? What? No you weren’t? You were kidnapped but not pruned. You were only just pruned lmao.

If kang isn’t the baddy I’m gonna look like such an idiot

AGHH!

Good God that stopped my heart.

He who remains?

KANG?

I don’t trust you Miss Minutes

Man I wanna kill Thanos

Miss minutes I don’t trust you, TEMPTRESS!

If he could make it work, then why couldn’t he allow the timeline to break free normally then huh?

“We write our own destiny now.” Bite me Miss Minutes

Ren Slayer I hope you get chucked into space

How self aware is miss minutes exactly?

I’m actually surprised that Renslayer doesn’t know who it is

Miss minutes is so creepy what the freak

The music is so damn good

“Are we sure he’s even still alive?” Judging by the opening of the door, I’m assuming that yes.

Uhhh hi?

Is this kang?

Or Ryuk lmao

I’m hoping he’s more serious than this jokey seemingly unserious dude. I need some angst.

Is this Kang?

Cmon

So much for easy to kill I guess

Where’s doctor strange when you need him?

I bet classic!loki could kill him easily…

I miss alligator Loki and kid Loki…

Doctor strange sanctum vibes

Hey heart, can you stop beating in my chest? You’re gonna kill me

HAHAHAHAHA YESSSS MOBIUS

Kill her please. I won’t be sad. Do it.

You’re not sorry. Shut up.

HAHAHAHA YEA BOIIIIIII

Ohio? Oh gosh is this a school?

RENSLAYER???

Hahaha she’s just a principal

HAHAHA BREAK THEIR MINDS

Don’t you dare insult my Loki. Love you Sylvie, but she’s nothing compared to Loki in my mind and never will be.

This music is gonna give me a heart attack

Help

Oh so this has happened before?

Wannabe God…

My BPM has got to be like 100

Paved the road? Soooo are you a Loki or???

Who are you? Please be kang or else I’m gonna friggin have to eat a rock like I promised.

This dude is literally a Fan Fiction writer oml

Sylvie? Please trust Loki. Don’t betray him.

Yea yea Renslayer I know that it’s crazy your whole life is a lie but you’re an idiot.

You’re a variant too you dumb dumb.

Yea you betrayed him. You betrayed the timeline.

Where the hell are you going?

PRUNE HER

DO IT

OH COME ON

PRUNE HER FOR CRIPES SAKE

Ughhhhhhh cmon Mobius…

In search of free will? What? Then WHY NOT TAKE MOBIUS WITH YOU

Dang that was disappointing Mobius got knocked down that easily…

Oh my gosh Tom Hiddleston’s voice is rumbling in my headphones good God

Kang?

Kang?

KANG THE CONQUEROR?

PLEASE

GIVE ME AFFIRMATION

Oof even he has variants

Dude loves Apples more than Ryuk

But he also sat on the chair like L

Is he like a celestial? Related to one?

Hush you wannabe Saint

Alioth?

Okay but HOW did you harness its power. What’s your technology then? You can’t just say that and not explain how.

Is he drunk?

Okay L

He’s like L, Light Yagami, and Ryuk all in one.

Your variants? Then who are you?

GAMBIT LIKE FROM THE X MEN UNIVERSE? I’m kidding… sigh…

Okay mandalorian

My heart is still beating fast why

If I don’t make another appearance again, know I died of a heart attack

Why would he give up control huh?

Is he a Loki?

“I’m older.” Dude you look like you’re 30 tops. What’s your secret? How are you immortal if you’re only man? Or are you not a midgardian?

Both sitting with swords.

Multiversal war heh? DOCTOR STRANGEEEEE THEYRE AT IT AGAIN

He’s kinda calling her out a lil lmao

Both of them

HEART CAN YOU CALM DOWN?? I TOOK MY PILLS! WHY YOU TRYING TO GIVE ME A PANIC ATTACK.

Hello? Something happening you didn’t expect?

Threshold?

Of what?

This dude is a good actor. He’s playing the demented, crazed, power man well.

What’s the third option? There can’t only be two.

My heart is friggin dumb. Can you not??? I’m legitimately annoyed by how hard and fast it’s beating.

What’s that in your hand buddy?

Bud?

What, is it an honesty detector or something?

You can really tell this guy is tired of life and everything

Aaaaand they’re fighting

Girls girls, you’re both pretty. Can I go home now?

Oh no…

Sylvie, no, stop it.

SYLVIE!!! Trust Loki!

Cmon there has to be a third option

Sylvie DAMMIT

TRUST HIM

Protagonists fight before the climax cliche *ding!*

GET OUT OF MY HEAD CINEMASINS

Dammit now she knows magic too

HE DOESN’T WANT THE THRONE YOU DUMB DUMB

“I don’t want to hurt you. I don’t want a throne. I just want… I just want you to be okay.”

OH?

OH?

HELLO?

It’s the onceler fandom all over again

Kiss and betrayal

COME ON MAN

Loki can’t catch a break. He just gets betrayed again and again.

How did she know how to use that.

Oop. Rip.

“See you soon.”

Sylvie, you messed up.

Now what?

Poor doctor strange. Dudes gonna have his hands full lmao.

Tom Hiddleston BETTER be in Dr. Strange Multiverse of Madness

My chest is actually moving from how hard my heart is beating what the heck

Poor Loki

All he knows is pain and hurt. And whenever he thinks he’s getting love, love, like a dagger, hurts him.

CMON TOM DONT MAKE ME CRY WITH YOUR STELLAR ACTING

How is this going to end????

WHAT

WHAT

WHAT

Mobius???

WHY DID MOBIUS FORGET HIM

NEW STATUE? IS IT TOO LATE?

WHAT

THATS THE END????

WHAT?

BUT

BUT

BUT

WHAT???

WHAT

WHAT

WHAT

WHAT

WHAT

HOW

WHY

WHAT THE HELL?

WHAT DO YOU MEAN CREDITS??????????

Funky music but…

WHAT

WHAT IS HAPPENING

WHY DID MOBIUS FORGET LOKI

WHY DID THE TIME KEEPERS STATUE GET REPLACED?

END CREDIT SCENE?

SEASON 2 CONFIRMED OKAY SO

AGHHHHHHHHHH!

I—WHAT?

BUT

BUT

WHEN IS SEASON 2???

HOW LONG WILL I HAVE TO WAIT?

WAS THAT KANG OR DO I HAVE TO EAT A ROCK?

WILL SEASON TWO FOLLOW DIRECTLY AFTER SEASON ONE OR IS THIS LEADING UP TO THE DR STRANGE MULTIVERSE OF MADNESS AND WILL SEASON TWO FOLLOW THAT?

AGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

MY HEART

SYLVIE WHY

YOU TRAITOR

BUT AT LEAST IT WASN’T A BETRAYAL IN THE WAY I FEARED IT WOULD BE

BUT STILL

I AM LOOKING AT THE CREDITS IN THE OTHER LANGUAGES TO SEE IF THEY REFER TO HE WHO REMAINS AS KANG

I DON’T WANT TO EAT A ROCK

MY BRAIN IS MELTING

MY HEART IS… AGHHHHHHHHHHH

#loki #loki laufeyson #loki odinson #marvel #marvel cinematic universe #mcu #disney #avengers #loki on disney+ #loki series #marvel studios #loki spoilers #loki episodes #Loki ep 6 #Loki episode six #Loki episode 6 #loki finale #loki season 1 #loki season finale #loki reaction #sylvie laufeydottir #mobius m mobius #mobius #ravonna renslayer #judge renslayer #Renslayer #hunter b 15 #kang #kang the conqueror

[luca-moreno]

Look. Marie is probably gonna have my balls for this but listen. I'm going to say the thing everyone else is thinking but doesn't have the guts to say. Think of it as 'tough love' if that helps at all. Okay. Here we go.

Kiss him. Or shut the fuck up.

-sincerely the Berlin collective

(helpimsosorry) (thisisahotmess) (justlikeLuca) (alsolong) (sorry) -- Thurman and Braun eye Luca, currently wrapped up like a burrito on the floor of the observation lounge. Thurman nudges him gently with his boot. “You alright in there, Moreno?”

“Lemme alone,” comes the muffled response. “I’m dying.”

They look over at Harris and Davis, perched together on the couch while the stars swirl outside. They wear matching raised eyebrows but it’s Braun that asks in a lowered tone, “What’s wrong with him?”

Harris doesn’t bother to look up from the datapad she holds in her hand or the obnoxiously loud Blasto game she’s playing. Davis leans over her shoulder, offering advice that Harris steadfastly ignores. 

“He’s freaking out about the thing again,” she shrugs.

“The thing?”

“The thing.” 

“Oh.” Braun nods sagely then exchanges a confused glance with Thurman.

“What’s the thing?”

Harris pauses the game to look up and Davis snatches the pad out of her hands. “Wait. So you guys haven’t heard?”

“Heard what? The commander’s had us running drills for the past twelve hours. Where the fuck were you two on it, by the way?” 

“Oh my god,” Davis grabs Harris’s arm then cackles before returning to the game. “They don’t know.”

“Nope.”

Thurman rubs the back of his neck and squints, suddenly uneasy. “Not the…”

“No! Not the… other thing. This is the phoenix thing.”

“Oh.” Thurman walks away, immediately bored. 

Braun, however, leans his big frame closer. Blue eyes sparkle curiously. “What phoenix thing?”

The Blasto game starts up again and Harris snarls in exasperation, then half clambers over Davis to reach it. “Will you shut that thing off?”

“I’m dying,” comes another muffled moan from the floor that everyone ignores. “In case anyone cares.”

Braun reaches down to pluck the datapad from between the two squabbling girls and lifts it out of their reach. Harris snarls. “Hey!”

“Braun, give it back!”

“Someone tell me what’s going on. Why does Luca think he’s dying?”

“Hurricane planted one on him then ghosted,” Davis informs him helpfully. “He’s been lying on the floor crying about it for two days.”

“Boo fucking hoo,” Harris bitches, crossing her arms tight across her chest and pouts dramatically. “’A phoenix kissed me.’ We should all be so lucky.”

“Or not,” Thurman mutters from the doorway. 

Braun slowly lowers his arm, but Harris isn’t satisfied with that and half climbs up him to reach the datapad he’s holding hostage instead. “Ah. That thing.”

“Yeah. That thing.”

There’s another moan from the floor.

-- 

Isaac knows it’s going to be bad when Davis shows up on the doorstep to his quarters and deposits Luca into his care with an eye roll and not a single word.

He leads Luca, burrito blanket and all, towards the couch.

“Luca,” Eva sits up quickly, tucking her book away. “Are you sick?”

“I’m dying,” Luca mumbles as Isaac plants a hand on one shoulder and guides him down onto the couch. He tries to catch Eva’s eye as Luca flops face first down onto the cushions.

“Do I need to call Dr Lyons?” he asks carefully.

Luca’s is reply is muffled and pathetic. “No.” A pause, then. “Two doors.”

Eva’s lips twitch as Isaac visibly relaxes and he sighs inwardly, thinking of the quiet evening he was hoping to have and the shower still calling his name after a long, dragging shift in the CIC. But he’ll always make time for Luca.

“Do you want to talk about it, son?”

There’s another heavy sigh from the blanket. “No.”

Isaac waits a beat for Luca to say more but when it’s clear he’s not going to, he clears his throat lightly. He’d put credits down that this has something to do with Phoenix Roosevelt and Luca’s very obvious, and possibly unrequited crush. Where did this fall in the handbook? He wonders briefly to himself if he’s not above getting Miller to handle it. 

And he would, if it wasn’t Luca.

Eva touches his hand and motions her head towards the shower. I’ve got this, she mouths. He doesn’t take his eyes off her.

“Are you sure you don’t want to talk about it, Luc?” he tries one more time. 

A pathetic moan is the only response he gets and Eva hides her silent laugh behind her hand. “Go,” she says softly. “I’ll talk to him.”

Isaac glances between the prone shape beside her and his private, glorious bathroom and decides since there’s no immediate danger, he’s within his rights to take Eva up on her offer.  

Plus, Eva will get more out of him anyway.

“Alright,” he nods gratefully then offers Luca a conciliatory pat on the shoulder as he slips away.

--

Eva brushes a hand over Luca’s curls and mentally counts to ten, except that she only gets to three before Luca is rolling over and suddenly pulling himself upright. 

The blanket pools around him and his hair sticks up in wild disarray around his face. 

“Okay. I lied. I’m not dying and I do want to talk about it.”

Eva nods. “Alright.” ”Uh. So you know that thing… that I told you about… that happened?”

“The thing?”

“Yes,” Luca half glares at her, wondering if she’s teasing him. She is, just a little, but only because Luca’s angst over a simple meeting of mouths was a delightful distraction from her own worries. ”The thing.”

“Ah,” Eva says knowingly, her lips twitching. “The thing being the kiss. With a capital K… With Ben.” 

Luca’s mouth works silently for a moment before he groans and slumps backwards. 

“The Kiss. Yes. Well, I mean… I think it was a kiss. There was a definite-“ Luca closes his eyes and puckers his lips dramatically before moving on, “-but I don’t know. I mean… We were working out, he was trying to teach me stuff but then we fell and I thought... well, maybe I was dreaming, like maybe I had slapped myself with the staff and I didn’t realise it? Or maybe I hit him too hard and I rattled his brain and he didn’t really know what he was doing... Or, maybe it was just an accident-“ 

“You think he might have accidently kissed you?”

“Why not? It happens!” He eyes her shrewdly then. “Right?” 

“I wouldn’t know,” she says carefully and Luca pauses to snort ungracefully before continuing. 

“The point is,” he goes on, getting really warmed up now. “It must have been bad, right? The kiss? I mean, he charged away. Like… an actual charge, Eva. Biotics and all, he was that keen to get away from me. Just. Poof. Gone. I’m surprised my eyebrows didn’t get singed-“ 

Eva laughs. “You know it doesn’t work like that, Luca.” 

“Shh, not important,” he waves that pesky fact away dismissively but then he falters and gives her a mock growl. “– and stop. I’m trying to have a moment here, and you’re ruining my dramatical meltdown.”

That causes her to muffle her laughter into a cushion she’s forced to snatch up from the couch. One of the pretty sparkly ones she had eyed off on Asteria and Isaac had bought behind her back to surprise her.

“I’m sorry,” she says formally as she schools her face into something suitably serious and lowers the cushion to her lap. “– please, Luca. Continue.”

He huffs. “Well. No. Now I’ve lost my place. Thanks a lot, I was really working up to something there.”

“The kiss?” she prompts, trying not to laugh again.

“OH SWEET KHALAHIRA, THE KISS.” 

He spins, then flops dramatically down beside her. “Eva,” he whines her name like a toddler begging for a treat. It’s enough to make her sigh. “What do I do?”

“Maybe you could... Hmm. I don't know... No. It’s too crazy. You wouldn’t want to know about it.”

“What? What is it? Is it another one of your funky breathing techniques? Some asari thing? Can it read minds?!”

“Well, it’s very complicated. But it just might help you.”

“What?! Tell me. Eva!”

“.... you could try talking to him.”

Luca is aghast and horrified all at once. “NO?? Why would I do that?”

“It has to be better than…” she waves a hand and eyes him critically. “Whatever this is.”

“A crisis, Eva. This is a crisis. Of epic proportions. On a scale of one to reapers this is.. I dunno, what's worse than reapers trying to wipe out the entirety of galactic civilization?” 

Eva doesn't want to think about that last part. “Well, I think it’s sort of sweet if you ask me," she says instead. "Ben’s nice. He’s not at all what I expected. And he obviously cares about you. Why else would he be trying to hit you with a stick to make you better in combat?”

Luca makes a strangled sound halfway between a snort and a cackle. “He just doesn’t want to have to carry me back to the LZ over his shoulder when a dragoon gets me. I bet he could too.”

Eva has to bite the inside of her cheek not to laugh at Luca’s dreamy expression. “I’m sure he wouldn’t even break a sweat.”

Luca seems tremendously interested in that mental image for a few seconds before he falls back into his funk. He tucks himself in against her and she can sense he’s working up to something entirely new. 

“What did you do?” he asks after a minute, quiet and subdued. “You know, with the captain?” 

Eva smiles at the memory in spite of herself. “Well, hmm. For starters… I guess I kissed him back.”

Luca scrambles up and gathers up a cushion to hug it to himself as he slides her a sideways glance. 

“Yeah? And did you teleport out of the room immediately afterwards?”

Eva can’t help it, she dissolves into giggles and Luca whacks her gently with the pillow.

“No…”

“SEE!” 

He picks up his faithful blanket and hauls it over his head until the only thing that she can see is his curls. 

“This is so stupid. I’m so stupid. I’m just gonna pretend it never happened.”

“Luca. I’m sure it’s fine. It’s just a kiss. It’s a good thing. I don’t understand. I thought this was what you wanted?”

His head peaks up, eyes dark pools over the blanket’s trim. “I don’t know. I mean… yes? But also… no? Yes. Um. Definitely yes? No… Oh, no.”

“Now you’re confusing me. What is it that you actually want, Luc?”

He grows very quiet for a moment and Eva allows him to sit with his thoughts. He was getting better with his focus. The meditations he’s been doing with her in the quiet off hours are definitely helping.. at least she hopes.

“It is… I think. I just… I don’t want to mess it up, Eva,” he says, his voice small. “I really like him. He’s my friend, so it’s not just… well, you know-“

He does something with his eyebrows that has her wanting to laugh again, but she stifles that urge in case he whacks her with the cushion again, “-but he’s just… He makes me feel… I don’t know. Like I’m capable of important things even though I’m not special like him... or you…”

“Because you are, Luc. Don’t sell yourself short.” 

“I know that and I’m not. I mean. Not really. I’m just… How can you want something so badly but be so scared to reach for it? It doesn’t make sense... but then what if you do… and then everything gets all messed up and then you don’t even have a friend anymore and things get all weird and awkward and plus I know he's still missing them and I can’t-“ 

Eva feels the ache inside her as she reaches for him and tugs him into a hug, effectively cutting him off before he spirals once again. He leans into her miserably, his soft hair tickling the side of her jaw. 

“Luca,” she says it on a sigh, because this… this hits too close to home and how can she encourage him to give himself over to something that might be so beautiful… but has the potential to hurt so much too?

He snuffles lightly into her chest. “I need someone to send me a sign,” he mutters. “Something from the universe to tell me what to do.”

He’s barely finished saying the words when his omnitool beeps with an incoming message. He pulls away to read it and she lets him go. 

“Huh? What the… Why is Ajax mess- ohfuck-“ 

“Well,” Eva laughs at his horrified expression as she reads the scrolling text over his shoulder. “I guess that’s your sign, Luc.”

--

Ben opens the door to his quarters and the first thing Luca does is grab his shirt and pull him close. Except, that’s not actually what happens because Ben is more solid than he looks and Luca ends up losing his balance and falling into his chest with a small grunt instead.

Ben catches him with a confused look. “Luca?”

“Um. Look,” Luca starts, hands still tangled in Ben’s shirt, close enough to breathe him in and see the way the vanguard’s eyes glow in the low light of the hallway. “So... there’s a million things I want to say and all of them are probably stupid, but… you kissed me and I don’t know what that means and I can only hope it means what I want it to mean, but if it doesn’t mean what I want it to mean then that’s okay too and I hope this doesn’t change anything because I really like being your friend but just once, just once, I want... to.. do.. this...” Luca traps Ben’s face gently between his palms... and kisses him. 

#this is the worst thing i've ever written #eva novakov #isaac cerrillo #scooter roosevelt #scquad shenanigans #luca moreno #pls just go ahead and blame this on the cold and flu meds ok #this is a hot mess #just like luca

[vaguely-concerned]

The Mandalorian Chapter 13 reactions

Well, that was... well. in short I quite enjoyed some of what happened while din was there and I didn’t really care about what happened while he wasn’t there lol. I think it’s becoming increasingly clear that I just don’t care for the episodes dave filoni writes for this show, which is simply a matter of taste I guess. 

(if you loved this episode wholeheartedly -- probably look away now, I’m going to be a bit of a downer about it and I don’t want to shit on your joy haha)

- let’s just get this out of the way first: there’s a lot of stuff around rosaria dawson and transphobia in real life and yeah, of course that affects how I watch the show. I don’t even want to talk that much about ahsoka in this because of it. she was not that good in the role, after seeing how it played out I don’t think the character needed to be in this show at all, and she should never have gotten the role in the first place and that’s about it for what I’ve got to say. 

- dave filoni consistently does things with din’s characterization that feels off and weird to me, subtly out of place with what we see in other episodes (he’s... ruder? more short tempered/cocky/actively or aggressively interpersonal? more prone to express himself directly than he is usually? idk how to describe it but filoni!din always feels one step to the left of what he should be and I’m so hyper-attuned to this character that when something’s a bit iffy with him it throws everything else off haha. it feels like a shallower, more convenient read on him and I don’t like it)  

I also think filoni is almost too familiar with and in love with the source material sometimes? “A Mandalorian and a Jedi? They’ll never see it coming” is undeniably a great line that echoes in decades of deep lore and so on, but dave my good man din had no real idea what a jedi even is until literally this morning. we, the audience, know about this long and storied history, but unless ahsoka spent the afternoon explaining it to him din still only knows the faint outlines of it, he has no personal experience of or attachment to it. it’s not bad, as such, it just rings false to the character based tone of the show for me personally 

- positivity break: baby sitting perched on the dashboard to be close to papa while they’re in hyperspace........sd sdfskdjhfdsakjksdhfkasjd  

also this is some full on madonna and child in the manger shit and I am LIVING for it (odds he’s crying quietly behind the helmet here? pretty damn good if you ask me). the mundanity of what’s essentially the shitty spartan bathroom of the razor crest on one side contrasted with the light and tenderness and love on the other? amazing, a perfect microcosm of what this show does with combining the grittier everyday down to earth stuff in the star wars universe with myth and wonder and magic and through it elevating both

 - the idea of having an iconique samurai/sword duel standoff and a western standoff going on simultaneously is genuinely inspired, but in action it didn’t really work for me. (the sword duel stuff needs these moments of stillness with sudden outbursts of violence and then stillness again, the western standoff needs mounting tension until it’s nearly unbearable, and cutting between them the way they did you sort of didn’t get either to its full potential. again it’s a cool idea, though, I hope someone picks it up and does it better at some point)

- seeing a jedi and a mandalorian wander together through a burned out wasteland left desolate by greed and warfare should have hit me harder than it did but for some reason it didn’t, idk. thematically sound, though, I like it a lot on the metaphor level

- I LOVE that pure beskar makes a specific sound, and that it’s an almost ethereal noise like the high clear chime of a distant bell. also now din has something to fight light sabers with that isn’t the dark saber which makes me so happy because you guys I do not want him to be the mand’alor. keep that funky laser sword away from my dad, apart from killing him at the end that is literally the most boring way to end his arc pls do NOt 

- wow they really went in hard on the samurai stuff in this one huh! there is a part of my mchanzo-loving heart that thrives on seeing a space cowboy and a space samurai team up, *wild otp-fuelled whisper* they’re twin genres inextricably entwined okay they belong together if you see this spreadsheet I’ve made over here -- 

- even knowing it was just a trick I felt such intense distress seeing the signet pauldron away from din. like the attachment I have to these pieces of metal because That Armour Means Dad... wild  

- they really chose the dumbest name possible for the baby huh fsajdfhsaj I agree with din his name is ‘kid’ now (eh just give me a while to get used to it probably I’ll come around)

also... you know what I’ve said before about shrinking the big unknowable galaxy ‘the mandalorian’ has been setting up? wow did they do that big time in this one, and it makes me feel decidedly :/. why does the baby have to come from the jedi temple, is there truly no other tradition of force users in the entire galaxy he could be from? WHY do you have to pull thrawn into this when most people watching this show won’t even know why he’s such a big deal? is this a stealth tease for a rebels sequel? if so why spend an entire episode of this show that only gets eight precious episodes a season on it??   

- on a more fun positive note: baby’s clothes are clean again, so it’s confirmed that din does wash them (and I guess that he does have some means of washing clothes aboard the razor crest!). I loved... most of the dad and baby stuff in this one, but then don’t I always I’m easy to please that way haha (the ‘playing catch’ sequence felt a bit off to me but I don’t know why. din being like ‘he’s so stubborn’ wasn’t... eh. didn’t land right. “that would be a first” was fun tho lol) 

- having ahsoka state the baby’s feelings out loud like that felt... weird? and also kind of unnecessary in parts, like yeah he’s a baby who’s been passed along to different groups of strangers and experimented on by empire scientists, you don’t need to spell it out for me that he’s been scared and lonely, or at least spell it out more interestingly? it’s such blunt force storytelling where it didn’t need to be? there are more elegant ways to get the same things across, I am absolutely convinced 

- ...wow while I was watching the episode I was mostly like ‘okay this is Fine I can go along with it’ but seeing what I’m thinking about in hindsight... yeah probably my least favourite episode of this show full stop haha, it took the spot from chapter 5 which was also a filoni ep

- I did 100% genuinely adore the whole part of din approaching the town and meeting the magistrate. consistently hiding the baby behind his cape and his arm? being deliberately, teeth-grindingly dispassionate with everyone, just giving them nothing? getting to see a bit of professional bounty hunter din again? wonderful in every way, I love this man  

- lots of meaningful shots of baby in the middle with a mando on one side and a jedi on the other, it’s almost like they’re setting up some Themes here lol 

- ...do you think din told ahsoka about either the rhino-levitating or the force choking. because girl I don’t think not training him is going to make this just go away haha, he just won’t know what he’s doing  

- it makes me so sad that baby connects his force powers with being abused :( (also a heartbreaking sign of just how much he cared about din from the very beginning, since he used it on the mudhorn to save him anyway ;________; was that like. literally the first time he sensed kindness and affection in anyone in like twenty five years or... ) 

- I understand why ahsoka would feel this way because of her past and specific traumas, but tbh attachment in a baby? probably a good thing, he doesn’t really have the higher brain functions to cultivate non-attachment yet and needs a safe figure because again. he is a baby. 

good on her for realizing it’s not a task she can take on both for the baby’s sake and her own, and also that din is that baby’s Dad though. the way she smiled at the end watching them leave seemed vaguely hopeful/had a little bit of wonder in it, like maybe she felt the potential for something good there, something she couldn’t conceptualize from her background but could sense the tentative outlines of anyway?  

(also so much pressure on a lil bb to decide his path... his dilemmas should be limited to what colour socks he wants to wear today not the course of his entire life :( I know he’s a magic baby but.......) 

- idk maybe I’ll find more affection of this episode through rewatches, you never know

#star wars #the mandalorian #the mandalorian spoilers #the mandalorian meta

[simpbur]

hello! i would like ur 40 song wiblur playlist

anon thank you so much for asking <333 while it would’ve been easier to just drop the link i have so many thoughts about everything so i explained why every single song has its spot on this list which was IMMENSELY fun for me

(also: if anyone does want the link i can provide both apple music and spotify but if u would like the apple music link i’d rather it be through dms or an ask off anon that i can make private!)

another also: i bolded all the songs for ease of perusing if you don’t want the director’s commentary and bolded + italicized the ones that i think fit Very Well

another another also: wrote the second bit of this on my laptop and the keyboard is p funky so if there are any typos or things that do not make sense i will try to fix them asap haha

saint bernard by lincoln: this is one of those like. Dream SMP Songs that i added because it fits into so many different relationships and plot lines and arcs but i think there’s some connection to c!wlbur somewhere out there. idk i asked my friend and he said to add it so this one goes out to him

amnesia was her name by lemon demon: ghostbur song ghostbur song! mostly comes from this lovely animatic

o valencia! by the decemberists: okay this is one of those songs that only really has one lyric that fits but is an absolutely banger so it’s here anyway. you’ll also notice a trend of quasi love songs that i relate to c!wilbur’s perception of l’manburg and i think this song shows this in a really cool way, esp with the chorus (‘and i swear to the stars i’ll burn this whole city down’ is The Line)

achilles come down by gang of youths: another one of those Dream SMP Songs. i think this fits better with c!tommy but i like it too much to remove it. this is a somewhat common trend with the earlier songs on this playlist (i’ve been building this thing since january, for reference)

brave as a noun by ajj: another Dream SMP Song. i think certain verses fit better than others when it comes to wilbur’s character but that ones that work really work

harness your hopes by pavement: a song that is one here for vibes alone. i have no idea what these lyrics mean. all i know is that i heard it, thought of c!wilbur, and put it on the playlist. thank you all for being here

evelyn evelyn by evelyn evelyn: sad-ist made this a tommy and tubbo song (as she should) so it’s validity on this playlist is questionable but folks used to compare it to wilbur and tommy’s relationship during the pogtopia arc and i think some points were made there

the execution of all things by rilo kiley: i’m so excited to get here because this was the first song i put on the playlist that i think really works and i thumb nailed an animatic for the last verse and november 16th so! i think it’s a good l’manburg song and the last verse has some good ghostbur lines (‘and lately you’re all alone with nothing left but sleep/but sleep never comes to you, it’s the guilt and forever wakefulness of the weak’)

i’m just your problem from adventure time: this ones a bit tricky since at is my favorite show of all time and i cannot detach this song from its in-show context very well but there is a very cool animatic with this song that landed it a spot on the playlist

man burning by josh ritter: almost became an animatic but the audio i wanted to use (which i recorded at a josh ritter concert and it’s just him and his guitar and there’s echo and it’s very haunting and pretty) has my stepbrother singing in the background and i could not edit it out so. that will probably not happen. but anyways the only hole i would pick in this song is that it’s mostly about self sabotage which isn’t really applicable but i think the imagery is cool

mamma mia by abba: here me out. here me out. this is another song that fits so well and i have spent so many hours thinking about this and somewhere there is a note on my phone explaining how every single line relates to c!wilbur’s entire arc from founding l’manburg to the resurrection (made when we thought gbur was going to get resurrected in january) and just. the metaphorical ‘you’ is l’manburg does this make any sense (another almost animatic except now that wilbur’s actually back it might become an actual animatic)

the other side of paradise by glass animals: no idea why this is here other than being a Dream SMP Song. it’s good tho

infinitesimal by mother mother: they saaaaay it stared with a big bang but they saaaaaaaay it came out of a small thing latelyyyyy i’ve been feeling like a big bang You Know

curses by the crane wives: had a thing drawn out for this song showing the comparisons between c!wilbur and c!niki because of the chorus and i think the last two lyrics of said chorus are the best thing about this one

lonely eyes by the front bottoms: gotta admit that i have no idea how this song got on here but i’ve come to associate it with ghostbur based on vibes alone. it’s a friendly song he’s a friendly ghost it works. the other tfb song coming up fits a bit better methinks

king of new orleans by better than ezra: not to put better than ezra on my c!wilbur playlist but like. something about the whole ‘tasing something up to let it fall’ motif makes me think

get me away from here, i’m dying by belle and sebastian: another almost animatic song (there’s a trend here). not only does the story told in this song work i like the lines ‘play me a song to set me free/nobody writes them like they used to so it may as well be me’ in relation to my l’manburg

montgomery forever by the front bottoms: certain bits and pieces of this song fit so well, specifically the chorus and those bits in the last two choruses Yeah (’montgomery forever and ever and ever and now they’re blowing it up/(x2)/as you started laughing and crying and trying to explain how all you want to do is leave’)

don’t look back in anger by oasis: out of all my almost animatic songs, this one got the furthest. the animatic, which I got pretty far in thumbnailing, was about wilbur and tommy and kind of drawing comparisons between their characters, also about the revolution in general. maybe i’ll finish that animatic one day idk 

snow by ricky montgomery: i wish i had a link for this so bad but!! saw art on twitter!! with the lyric ‘bury me six feet in snow’!! and went ahfsdjfk!!

burning pile by mother mother: a Dream SMP Song. also a jam there’s no real specific connection for this one but i think it could fit in a couple of ways

rounds by the oh hellos: in the same position as snow except it was on tumblr..... @ whoever made this comic i saw these lyrics in your brain is massive and your art is incredible

lovely by mt. eddy: on here for vibes alone. there’s something in the lyrical content too, but my thoughts in that regard are not very fleshed out

adventures in solitude by the new pornographers: ah yes..... the song that prompted this all...... this is a beautiful and incredibly well written song and if you’re going to listen to any song off of this playlist i’d encourage you to listen to this one. it’s place of here is mostly cause of the chorus but the imagery in the verses could all represent a part of c!wilbur and i’d love to explore that more

caught in the middle by paramore: obligatory paramore song. i think it got on here because limbo = ‘middle’ but i’m not quite sure. on the verge of being deleted if i can find a better pmore song

delicate by damien rice: one of the oddest songs on this list and i am well aware that it sticks out like a sore thumb. a song that’s on here pretty much because of one lyric, which is ‘and why’d you sing hallelujah/if it means nothing to you’ which i related to both eret’s betrayal and how my l’manburg is hallelujah yknow

bang! by ajr: almost animatic song. i think we all know what the bang is here

somewhere only we know by lily allen: ik i said don’t look back in anger has the most potential to get made into an animatic but this song might actually take it place. on par with adventures in solitude in terms of how pretty of a song it is, and probably even moreso. it’s kind of turned into a ghostbur song in my head, and makes me cry like an infant child every time i hear it

a pearl by mitski: i cannot defend this song’s place on here past the line ‘it’s just that i fell in love with a war and nobody told me it ended’

eight by sleeping at last: the official c!wilbur song needs a spot on here <3 if i can dig up the clip of cc!wilbur talking about this song in relation to his character i’ll add it but until then yeah <3

always by rilo kiley: no idea why this is on here but it fits well!! could not tell you why!! banger!!

celebration guns by stars: it’s a hauntingly beautiful song about war, and kind of one of those that necessarily isn’t about wilbur but moreso his place in the story? idk how to explain it but yes

passerine by the oh hellos: it’s. it’s from the . the fic. yeah h

oh, you are the roots that sleep beneath my feet and hold the earth in place by bright eyes: added this after the real resurrection and i think it’s because fo the imagery? also the last verse

we are beautiful, we are doomed by los campesinos!: all i have to say is ‘i cannot emphasize enough that my body/is a badly designed, poorly put together vessel/harboring these diminishing, so called vital organs/i hope my heart goes first, i hope my heart goes first!’ has always made me think of pogtopia era wilbur :(

dead weight by jack stauber: no real connection other than eret played this song during a break during the ghostbur’s january ‘resurrection’ and i heard it and went :0

point me at lost lands by tired pony: gives me season on l’manburg vibes..... i love how free and passionate it sounds and that's p much the only reason it’s on this list haha

ghosting by mother mother: added this five seconds ago because i could not BELIEVE it was not on here. ghostbur song. mans sang it on that one stream with the reverb and everything. the lyrics ‘i will be kind and i’ll be sweet/if you stop staring straight through me’ hit particularly hard back when everyone thought that ghostbur was actually wilbur in disguise 

#oh man. oh man #this was so fun ty anon #i'll do some spell checking after i write my english paper but for now take this #wooo boy #also if i interpreted canon wrong i do apologize i am here to have fun and think about fictional character #anon #ask

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Top 5 Favourite Anime/Manga and Top 5 Favourite songs of all time.

Thanks for the ask friend! (from this post here)

You make me make hard decisions, friend. Hard decisions.

Alright, let's get started (I'm assuming you want a logic behind the ranking too so this may get a little wordy, lol)

Top 5 Favourite Anime/Manga:

5. Michiko and Hatchin: This is up here in the top 5. It really is a good show. I love the relationship between Michiko and Hana (Hatchin), how even though they are totally different they grow to care about each other so much. I love how although it looks like the show is going to be mostly about Michiko's romantic love for Hiroshi and Hana's need to feel accepted and protected by a father, it actually ends up focusing more on the bond between them...they really have a parent-child relationship; a Found Family. :D (To anyone who may want to try this show, warning for: gore, blood, violence, gang violence, suggestive themes, gang wars, police violence, abuse, child abuse, bullying, murder)

4. Death Note: Because why? Because yes. I love this series a lot, love the idea of power corrupting, how different people view justice, the way the masses are easily swayed with fear and admiration, the way it delves into characters and analyzing them, knowing what they're going to do next, the idea of 'does the end really justify the means', all of that makes me so so so happy. Why, then, is it only at 4 on my list? Because after a certain episode, in which we lost a certain character, I actually stopped watching and didn't even look at the show or anything related to it for about three months. Because that was my favourite character. Is that a biased reason? Yes, yes indeed. But this is my list, so anyone who thinks that's a silly reason can deal with it :D

3. Bleach: Does this surprise anyone? Anyone at all? No? Good. I love Bleach. I really enjoy all the different characters, the different abilities, the different relationships...there is just so much to love. Is the plot a bit repetitive in certain arcs? Particularly the filler ones? Yeah, a little. But that doesn't mean we don't get some quality character interactions out of it. Also. Kenpachi. Enough said.

2. Madoka Magicka: This may surprise some people as my #2 fave, because I don't mention it a lot. At least, not to many people. I absolutely love the way it turns tropes upside down and inside out. I really like the realistic emotions the characters portray, and I always cry at some point when I watch it. Another reason this one is up here on the list is because I actually have watched the original show multiple times. (I haven't looked at the latest addition yet though, and I know I'm behind but I've just been so busy :/)

1. Blue Exorcist: Not sure if this would shock anyone or not as my current number one. I've been in the fandom for a few years now, and I thoroughly enjoy the series. I like where it's going with character development, and the art is very pretty to me. I love the aesthetic of the blue fire, and Rin as a character is so precious to me. He tries so hard to be 'good' and make friends, and part of me can feel that desperation because I did not always have the easiest time making friends growing up. In a way, I identify with him a lot.

Alright, now it's time for Top 5 Favourite Songs of All Time:

5. Rebel Love Song by Black Veil Brides: This one is my ring-tone :D

4. Forest Fires by Lauren Aquilina: This is just a really heart-wrenching song to me. It's pretty, the words are meaningful, it's a ballad that I can just lose myself in...and try not to tear up when she sings "Who would wanna be around me?" because that is such a vulnerable line, one that can tug at the heartstrings of anyone who has ever questioned if the people they love really love them back. It just really speaks to my soul.

3. I'm Not a Vampire (Revamped) by Falling in Reverse: Ok, so this one has a pun in the title, which ~yesssss~. Plus, I love the original version, it's fun, funky, makes me giggle to sing along to. And then they came out with this version. And. I. Lost. My. Mind. Slowed down, more drama, orchestra????? in the background????? CHORAL SINGING AND CHANTING IN THE BACKGROUND????!!!!! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. Ok, I think I made my point :)

2. His Work and Nothing More from Jekyll and Hyde, particularly the one sung by Anthony Warlow, Carolee Carmello, Philip Hoffman, And John Raitt: I like the drama~ Also, the way they sing against each other? *chef's kiss* phenomenal. Fantastic. Absolute perfection. like really, the part where he goes "Have I become my work and nothing more?" and I just AHHHHHHHHHHH because my brain does the happy electric slide. Then when Lisa is all like 'Don't be unkind, the problem's all in your mind!' and I just a;sljdf;ljdhgj hi yes hello let me sing all the parts please give me all the parts I wanna sing the entire song by myself while simultaneously singing against myself, do you see my issue because I am full of issues but do you see this Specific One????? Ok. I'm done ranting about this one, I have to move on or I'll write you an entire encyclopedia on why I love it. Lol.

1. The Sound of Silence cover by Disturbed: I don't even know if I could explain it. It just makes my brain so satisfied. I can listen to it over and over without getting sick of it. I can listen to it when I'm happy, sad, angry, hungry, melancholy, excited, nervous, doesn't seem to matter what I feel, I will always be able to listen to this song.

There you go friend! Hope you enjoyed these answers. I put some pretty colours in there because I felt like it, lol :)

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im just so sad about this funky crow ninja

Listen

Listen

Itachi is just

Such a tragic character and it makes me so sad

Like he's a pacifist at heart but he was forced to be the literal opposite at such a young age and I'm just so sAD ABOUT IT

(Under cut cause it’s long and it’s about the uchiha massacre if yall would rather not read bout that But it also has some soft ideas down at the way bottom if yall wanna just speed scroll to the bottom)

How he came to the choice he made regarding the Uchiha massacre totally makes sense to me. It wasn't a good decision, it wasn't a decision best suited for the situation, but it made sense. And it gets worse once you realize that he was 13. Thirteen. No wonder he couldn't find/use a third option. He's still a child, even in this world of child soldiers. He bloodied his hands and wore a mask so that the home he loved and the brother he adored could be safe.

I wish his story could've been written... better, for a lack of proper words. Maybe that is the right word. But I want to see him do more for Konoha. He became a missing nin for Konoha to spy on Akatsuki/Madara but we don't see the results of that. What information does Konoha get from him? Because we know that he's still loyal to Konoha after all this time. Did he do anything to slow Akatsuki down? Did he do things to benefit Konoha or stop something from badly impacting it? What did he do?

And then he dIES AND HE JUST DOESNT GET A BREAK AND IM HHHHH :((((((

And he was sick and going blind too!!!! I swear he was the universe's punching bag (though one of many cause the naruto universe just Be Like That)

Fuck ok I came on here to ramble about Itachi in my au but then got sad sO AU TIME NOW

For one I want to make him.... more sympathetic? A redemption works best when its shown from the start that there is more than meets the eye. Like Zuko, for example. He was a jerk, but there are moments where it's clear that he's not as much of a jerk as he could have been. And I wanted to do something similar with Itachi (and a couple other villains tbh but it's also a matter of "Should you survive" coughObitocough I love you but idk if you survive in this au or not but I have ideas nonetheless but that is for a later time)

Anyways, morally grey but more clearly Itachi

Honestly I've got more ideas for his ending than the beginning. Which is... very annoying. This is unfortunately the case for many... many of my ideas....

An idea I've been juggling with is Itachi not killing everyone. He definitely kills everyone who's activated their sharingan and anyone who is/was a shinobi. So everyone who's not a civilian. So,,, the survivors are very very little and are civilian mothers and civilian children too young to even attend the academy and like the occasional shop owners. The massacre was to stop the coup and prevent it from ever happening, so those who have the power to set forward this coup are any shinobi. And unfortunately, the Uchiha clan is an old shinobi clan.

Itachi is not a blank mask and does cry when he kills his parents and they leave their parting words. He's 13, forced to commit a crime that goes against his every wish, moral, and beliefs. Plus I believe the Uchiha are naturally every emotional- or at least feels it more intensely than others. Their whole defining ability has to do with emotions. They feel Very Strongly.

And thus by "cry" I mean he cries a lot. He almost has a breakdown right then and there when little baby Sasuke crashes in and see his crying older brother holding a bloody blade over his two very dead parents. 

For someone willing(ish) to murder a(lmost) a whole clan for the sake of his little brother, Itachi sure does directly hurt Sasuke a lot. Like genjutsu torture? Placing responsibility of avenging a whole clan on his tiny, angry shoulders? Oof, Itachi, bad ideas. 

So Itachi wants Sasuke to be safe. To be happy to the best of his ability. So instead, he uses a milder form of Tsukuyomi to place a suggestion in his baby mind that Itachi was in fact a cold hearted murderer. But the human mind is a strange thing that is difficult to understand, so for years Sasuke has nightmares of that night with his perception of Itachi varying wildly between a stone cold face and a tear-stained one. 

Itachi doesn’t do the whole “hate me and kill me for vengeance” because, again, he wants Sasuke to be safe and happy. Considering that he lives in a shinobi village and just had a highly traumatic experience, both are hard to come by, but the least Itachi can do is not have Sasuke’s whole life be overcome by hatred. Curse of Hatred is a very real thing, Itachi. I know you want Sasuke to have a goal to drive him forward and not waste away but bad idea Itachi. Maybe he says something else. Maybe he tells Sasuke to get stronger (but not in a “so you can get revenge” kind of way). I don’t know. But he doesn’t quite plant the idea of vengeance in his mind, so Sasuke’s motivation and drive ends up differently. Butterfly effects oho Also since Sasuke unlocked his sharingan during the massacre... is it possible to activate mangekyo as well? Cause he loves Itachi most, yes, but he also loved his parents, his mom especially. Would that be enough? Wiki says “death of someone close to the user”, so it’s possible, I think.

So many ideas about the massacre holy shit

Like Shisui. I’d totally love to make him live but frankly, I’ve got no idea how. :”D sorry Shisui, you’ll have to stay dead until I can find a solid reasoning as to how you survived and why

As for Madara/Tobi, well in anime he went after the Police headquarters while Itachi went after everyone else so there’s that, not much to change there

Then there’s a whole bunch of aftermath hijinks

Itachi is said to have aided Konoha within Akatsuki, but it’s not very clearly shown. Considering how we aren’t shown what exactly he passed on, that will be uh.... perhaps expanded on later. 

Sasuke and Itachi interactions before Shippuden would be different due to Sasuke’s own differences, but those differences haven’t be set yet so that will be explained later.

Ok, now the whole Itachi dying and being reincarnated shebang. Fourth War sure is wild as fuck. “Let’s mass reincarnate people!” what.

I don’t want Itachi to die. I want to let him rest. But not in death. 

So the general idea I have for the “end” of the story is:

He becomes legally blind. Not completely blind, but very close. His chakra coils are fucked and his sharingan are stuck in a way that he can kinda see chakra but very vaguely. 

His illness isn’t completely healed, but it’s much better than before; Sakura and Tsunade are legendary at what they do

He returns home to Konoha. Not sure how he will be accepted into the village but I was thinking the village makes a half-lie half-truth story pinning the blame on Danzo (Cause when in doubt, blame Danzo. Or Zetsu. But Zetsu isn’t blamable here)

He may not be imprisoned, but he isn’t free to roam. He’s monitored and has a (temporary?) seal placed on him limiting his use of chakra.

Itachi is surprisingly ok with all of this. He gets to retire from a shinobi life and he’s unraveled the story to Sasuke and was gifted a form of forgiveness. Life’s chill.

He works at the Yamanaka flower shop. It’s calming, peaceful, and it’s run by Yamanaka, powerful shinobi and also knowledgeable on psychology.

His crows are now seeing eye crows. They sit on either his shoulders or head and squawk whenever Itachi is too close to bumping into something. Sasuke very much enjoys when the crows are on Itachi’s head because when he tosses little treats at the birds, sometimes they land in Itachi’s hair.

It’s very hard for the shinobi to fear this honestly tiny man (because Itachi is small, fight me) who’s humming while watering plants with a bird on top of his head while the various heroes of Konoha take turns tossing treats at the bird like it’s a dog. 

“Nii-san. Nii-san stop squishing my cheeks.” “But Sasuke I want to see your face.” “Nii-san-”

oh my god so much brain power used on the massacre just so i could make itachi have a very domestic ending

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