#like.. yea ok i guess i fucking did? but I'm angry at myself for getting into that shir

[g8d]

i feel like if that one guy ever dare make eye contact with me he will die on the spot that's how much i hate his pathetic coward hypocrite guts.

#hateposting #vent cw #maybe he will die a bit later like radiation poisoning style #i knew in my gut from the moment i learned of him that i hated him and somehow i was blocked from this knowledge #like looking back 100% i knew this #i felt it reading his blog name years ago and learning more about him when he would post stuff like immediately #i was like this guy has a disgusting vibe. which apparently in my brain connects/connected to “i must learn more” #like.. yea ok i guess i fucking did? but I'm angry at myself for getting into that shir #shit. but also guess the fuck what: he presented himself as a support when I was at my most vulnerable having just been hurt by my ex #so like :) #how am i to interpret all this. put my walls up more more more more more? listen to every flickering feeling of “this person fucking sucks” #which i get with.. most people? #am supposed to just move on? just breathe and move on? I've never felt like this. or at least not in decades. #its kind of morbidly fascinating #feel like if i just breathe and calm down im leaving myself exposed? i guess this is what the fight reaction is like. #i was always more fawn/flight/freeze till now #never had so many visions of absolutely decimating Some Guy. like jeez. #im sure it will all work out. im in charge of myself #or whatever

[amber-michaelson]

My Two Big Boys

Steve Rogers x hurt reader x Bucky Barnes

Summary: sometimes your boyfriends have a hard time at work and bring it home making it worse for you

Read at own risk

Warning: reader gets hurt

You knew something was up when they didn't arrive in the same car or the one just grunting when you ask about the other you knew you were gonna be in for it when they didn't even look at eachother.

Yn pov

I sighed the the only thing that anyone could here was the knifes and forks scraping against the plates as we ate dinner, i rolled my eyes 'next time I should just get the paper plates' "so how was work" i asked but only got a one word answer 'good' and 'ok' and tensed and Steve just got up and left to eat in the lounge "what-" I was interrupted by bucky standing up and left to go eat in the den, my heart started to ach as I just wanted a nice dinner with my partners but sometimes that's just to much to ask I decided I wasn't hungry anymore and put my food in the microwave and slowly made my way up to the bedroom but paused on the stairs "goodnight" I called out but no response "wow never knew you were angry at me" I muttered to myself walking into the bedroom and changed into my pj's and brushed my teeth before getting into bed I stayed a wake a little longer wanting at least one of them to come to bed but they never did 'good night I guess' I shut my eyes and drifted into a restless sleep

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I woke up to the sounds of shouting coming from down stairs and I jumped out of bed and running to see what was going on only to find Steve and bucky arguing over something stupid but it got serious when bucky picked up a pan and threw it against the wall "what the hell" I yelled but was blantly ignored "yea I can do that to bucky" Steve yelled picking up my glass vase and threw it near me shattering against the wall and a few of the shards hitting me and cutting me in the process, I yelled in pain which finally court their attention "yn shit fuck I'm sorry" Steve panicked rushing to me pleading for my forgiveness as bucky rushed to get the first aid "fuck" I said pulling a small shard out my cheek "baby I'm so sorry" he said leading me to sit down "I'm fine steve" I whinced he carefully wiped some of the blood off my face "no it's not fine I could've really hurt you" he growled to himself sitting down next to you "i got the first aid" bucky said walking back into the room and settled the first aid kit beside me the tension filled the room thickly as bucky started cleaning my wounds "Steve can you please get me some water" I asked glancing at him "sure babe" he said giving me a sad smile and left the room "you know it's not his fault" I murmured to bucky who growled out in frustration "it could've hit you yn" he muttered "it wouldn't have happened if I wasn't there I should've left you guys alone" I said staring into his eyes "once I heard the shout I sprung into action like I always do but look where that got me" I giggled, I was always the one trying to sort out people's fights it was just a natural thing I learned to do "but it shows you, you have a big heart" bucky said giving me a one-sided smile "but my big heart can be a fool sometimes" I said and turned my gaze to Steve who was leaning against the door frame "but it's your big heart that makes us love you so much" Steve smiled walking over and handing me the glass "done patching you up doll" he sighed and looked at Steve "I'm sorry" "I'm sorry too" I smiled "my two big boys back together".

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[twilightofthe]

okay i put all my cranky thoughts into a separate post that's now drafted and it made me feel better so i'll be able to watch this episode now lol but if it gets me worked up again i'm posting the rant i'm sorry i cannot be helped or changed or saved <3

ANYWAY AHSOKA EP 2

also i forgot to say so last episode but kevin kiner my ABSOLUTE BELOVED the return of the king is real so happy to have you here my dude the ending and full theme was absolutely gorgeous

anywayyyyyy so i am guessing sabine did not make like satine and survived her shish kabobing

well there's ahsoka

oh yeah there's bean she's fine she'll be fine xD

damn filoni really gave more handwaving to having a character survive a major impalement vs me twisting myself into fucking knots writing anakin getting run through lmao

ahsoka sorry but actually i'm gonna blame u for this you still kinda seem like a mess and i don't think you were a very good teacher to sabine and now ur dropping back in on her when she's convenient to you?

well at least we know why she's so adamant against training baby yoda lol

ope here's goth girl and the fuuuuck is his NAME again i keep calling him fucking bryan

i like the fancy sithy-looking sundial tho

pfff second ep is "toil and trouble" guess we're getting witchy!

OH YEAH WAS SABINE'S KITTY OKAY

THEY BETTER BE OKAY

I SWEAR TO GOD

yea ahsoka what happened to showing up in the nick of time and saving kanan and ezra from inquisitors in rebels u were slowwww girlie

OK GOOD THE CAT IS OKAY

that's all that matters

ope one more droid hanging around ezra's place

GIRL UR SITTING UP ALREADY?!

GIRL HOW CAN U BREATHE

we do love the mechanic girl of my heart

sabine does love her explosions

no huyang hera just likes explosions

sabine works best under explosive pressure we LOVE HER

ope back to corellia i guess? we can reuse the old solo sets?

sabine

you were just

impaled

"but she's not the one who needs to hear it right now" ahhh there's the sabine and hera dialogue. ugh but i'm still not used to natasha and mary i can just hear tiya and vanessa doing it instead :(

WHY DO Y'ALL KEEP MAKING SABINE AND AHSOKA ANGRY EXES TF

"ancient ppl from a distant galaxy" waaaaaaait are they bringing in those eu dudes

no wait i think i remember something about these guys that was mention as the big bad in the canceled animated rebels sequel

or it could just be the chiss lmao

that could be it too, makes sense why they'd want thrawn

ok that is some real cool galactic map visuals i am an absolute sucker for a good starmap

ok but wait how the fuck did y'all get a map to thrawn anyway did the space whales write it

also sorry morgan but i don't personally think thrawn would go for u nothing personal you are hot but you don't quite seem his type

waaaait is fucking thrawn gonna have force sensitivity now THAT would be absolutely hilarious and he'd hate it so much

who's marrok i have no memory

y'all you can't just make thrawn work for you didn't he only work with the empire cuz he had to because it would advantage his people somehow (has read zero thrawn novels and only seen rebels)

please tell me sabine is in the fucking vents of ahsoka's ship

THERE'S THE GHOST WHERE IS CHOPPER

I AM NO LONGER FUCKING ASKING

okay so i think my issue with Mary is she doesn't have any of the same authority and purpose Hera's meant to hav

CHOPPER

CHOPPER

MY MURDERBOT

MY SON

MY ANGEL MY EVERYTHING

Anyway

yeah

oh yeah harping in that the new republic is a total fustercluck

ew a capitalist

bro you know hera used to steal from people like you for the rebellion

sdlkfjsdk omg sabine's mom needs to talk to the teacher to keep her from getting expelled

but also y'all sabine is like 25-30 right now she's not a kid

@ ahsoka bitch you have no fuckin clue what you're doing doooon't talk about readiness

y'know maybe the imperial era just advanced medicine so later impalements don't kill people

oh oh so it IS ezra's!

sabine go find luke he'd love to have you

STOP WITH THE GAY DIALOGUE

ok so yeah she likely doesn't have force sensitvity

goddammit huyang neverMIND

so sabine IS force sensitive :) and kanan and ezra just never brought it up :) great :)

hera my beautiful ship nerd ily

bitch do NOT fuck with hera she has more presence than anyone ever

hera my dude you know better than anyone that if a ship wants to take off you gotta go try and stop it in person

ah i have been waiting like 5 long years to watch hera best pilot there was kick aerial ass

we STAN

chopperrrrrrrrr

oh yeah ahsoka's fighting an inquisitor too lmao

CHOPPER GET THEIR ASS

CHOPPER ADD TO YOUR KILL COUNT

ok this hera and chopper banter is perfect i do love it

VICTORY FOR MY GHOSTS

oh and good job ahsoka lol

aghhh sabine and her therapy cat i'm ;_;

theeeeere's sabine's mando armor

SABINE AND KANAN'S FUCKIN KNIFE I'M GONNA EVEN IGNORE THE BAD MULAN HACKJOB ATTEMPT

okay it seems like mary's kinda on and off for hera so far, she has her moments but she can't hold them

rosario keeps losing me i'm sorryyyyyyyy

natasha is doing GREAT

aaaaaand we redoing the end of the rebels epilogue!

god this makes me miss zeb

and kanan obvs but i've come to accept his death

zeb's still hanging around where is he!!!!!

ah all is right

sabine has her gay haircut back

here we go gay roadtrip to find ezra time

alright so i'm still not really vibing with jedi!sabine at All but i have concluded that this show is watchable but honestly not that good, writing-wise, sorry dave, so i think i'll be able to watch it with my brain turned off

goddammit first i thought the holograms visiting morgan were nightsister witch ghosts xD

RIGHT RIGHT HIS NAME IS BAYLAN NOT BRYAN

morgan stop simping for thrawn i guaranTEE he's not your type

oKAY

we are through with the two episodes! it is very late for me so i'm gonna sit and think on what i've seen so far and shitpost a little. i did really like seeing my rebels blorbos again even if the live action actors don't quite have their groove yet. obviously very excited to retrieve ezra <3 so yeah that was that and i'll be back for more next week!

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[awesometeen]

PJM x reader smut |

~Soulmate of the celebrity ~ part 1

Today was the day you would find your soulmate . The name of your soulmate would show up on your wrist when you lock eyes with him . There were a few letters of his name on your wrist but not enough to figure out what the name was. Your mother used to tell you that when the complete name shows up on your wrist it will painfully sting for a second and you'll realise you found him . You were thinking all of this when your bestie barged in your room jumping up and down with excitement . " God misa ! You scared me ! Why are you here anyways ? " You said. She gave you a angry and disappointed look. " Don't tell me you forgot about the BTS concert because you are too worried about your soulmate." She said angrily . And the it hit me . I forgot about THE BTS FREAKING CONCERT !!!!!!!!!! . " No I remember " I lied but she bought it . I quickly wore an seductive dress for the concert that didn't reveal too much 👇

" GURLL U LOOK HOT !!!!" misa said looking at me. "This is for your soulmate finding isn't it " " yea...but it's suitable for the concert and the fan meet as well " I replied . " Hmm you're not wrong " she said giggling .

We were enjoying the concert when it hit me . I still had to find my soulmate . I needed to look for him . But all I could see was a crowd of girls surrounding me and fangirling over the boys on the stage . " I guess I'll need to find him later " I said to myself .

We headed over to the fan meet and I tried to find him anywhere I could see . But no one's eyes locked with me . Misa dragged me to the stage where the boys were sitting . "Misa I need to find him!" "Find him later it's our turn !!!" Misa said to me whilst dragging me to the stage . I also wanted to meet my idols as badly as I wanted to find my soulmate so I didn't argue any further. My bias was Jimin . I had been to a lot of fan meets so he knew who I was so did all the others they recognised me when I went to their fan meet for the third time . They all knew me . But back then I was 18 . Will the recognise me now I'm now 24 and I'm grown up enough to find my soulmate .

I walked over to RM who immediately recognised me . " Oh you're Y/N , you came to a lot of our fan meets , how come I didn't see you in a while ?" He said . " I got busy with my job and also it's a honour that you remember me " I said while he was signing the album I brought .

All the boys recognized me easily only Yoongi had trouble figuring out who I was .

I went over to the last boy there . Jimin .

"Hi, Jimin" I said " Hi how are you ?" He asked without looking up while signing the album "I'm fine , do you remeber me" I asked . It caught his attention and he looked up at me . And our eyes locked . I got lost in his beautiful brown eyes . Suddenly both of us winced from the sting in our wrists . "Ow!"both of you said it unison loud enough for Hoseok and Jin to hear us . "Are you ok ?" "What happened?"jin and Hoseok asked both of us in surprise but neither of us paid attention . I brought my wrist up to Jimin and his eyes immediately turned to it . I looked at my wrist along with him and my eyes widened in shock . "Park Jimin" I said while staring into his eyes . He put his wrist up to me and said "Y/N L/N" while looking at it . The other boys got curious on what was happening and came up to his seat only to find his name in my wrist and mine on his . Their jaws dropped looking at us. " Um Y/N, can you please back stage" Jin said with a concerned expression. I nodded and went backstage without hesitation . Later a guard came to me with my bestie and left leaving me and her alone. " Y/N WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED !?!!?" She started. "Did you slap Park Jimin or something " "no I didn't" I replied still half emerged in my trance . "Then what happened " her angry expression turned into a concerned one . I show her my wrist which is red due to the sting but with jimin's name engraved on it. Her eyes widened and she pretended like she was struggling to breathe . "Your SOULMATE IS FREAKING PARK JIMIN !?!!??" She whisper shouted at me . I nodded . "Miss we have to go now your friend will have to go with the boys " said a bodyguard from behind us . She didn't protest but looked at me and said "stay safe " .

Soon after, the boys came up to you . "I'm sorry to say this but you have to come and live with us right now "RM said clearly understanding that it was hard for both me and Jimin . " What!?, I can't live with you my mom will kill me !" I said . "Your mom has been informed " Jimin said giving me a reassuring smile and put a hand on my shoulder. " And she agreed ?" I asked nervously. "She did since she said she could do nothing about the soulmate topic and said it was fate " Jimin said and the boys nodded. I didn't argue since I now knew that she was okay with it .

I got into the car with the boys I sat next to Jimin since it was a small traveller bus for the seven boys with tinted glasses and there were only two seats in each row

Jimin intertwined his hand yours grabbing your attention . You look up at him and he gives you a 'its ok I'm gonna be here with you' look . I smile back at him . The rest of the ride was quite. We reached there extremely large mansion and they took me to the living room . We all sat down in the biggest fucking living room I've ever seen on a big ass couch . " Listen Y/N we have to tell you something and you have do what we say for your and jimin's safety so please co-operate" RM said. I nodded knowing it's useless to argue and that what he was saying was true . " So the thing is that you will have to live with all of us for the time being and your mother has agreed as we told you earlier , but the thing is you cannot tell anyone about this um.. incident except you best friend Misa who is already aware of this and she has agreed to keep it a secret . You and Jimin can be in a relationship if you want to, we have no problem with that since you and Jimin know each other enough through the many fan meets . So is that okay with you? " I nodded . " But if I move in with you guys here where will I sleep since I've been told that there are only 7 rooms, one for each of you but then, where do I go?" Jin looked me with a shy look on his face after I said that . RM sighed and answered " with Jimin . You will be living with him in his room" . My eyes grew wide and I looked at Jimin he just looked at the floor . He was scared like me ." Your stuff has been brought here so you can go to bed if you want . Goodnight everyone . " RM said as went up to his room and so did the others only me and Jimin were left there . " Come on " he said and I followed .

We both sat on his bed as we chat. We already knew a lot about each other as we realised ." What do you like about me the most " I asked . "Your eyes . And what bout you ?" He asked ." I love all of you ." I said with a smile . Suddenly I felt a soft a soft pair of lips on mine . Jimin kissed me. He moved away and looked me in the eye as if asking for permission to steal another kiss. I put my hands around his neck and pulled him into another passionate kiss . He licked my bottom lips causing me to gasp and he took the chance to slide his tongue in my mouth exploring it giving me a sensation I've never felt before . I was getting wetter by the second . He took off his white shirt he was wearing and threw it somewhere in the room He started leaving wet kisses from my collarbone to my neck . He stopped and pulled off my seductive black dress only to find me in a lacy black bra and panties . He licked his lips in the most sexiest way possible . By now I was dripping . He crawled over me making me lie flat on my back . The way his eyes looked into mine had been sending chills down my spine. He tucked some stray hairs on my face behind my ears and said " have I ever told you beautiful?" I shook my head . He smiled and kissed me again . His hands reached down to my panties pulling them down and throwing it across the room wher ethe other pieces of clothing were . He pushed two fingers into me without a warning causing me to moan . He smirked as he stared at my eyes that were looking back at him . He started thrusting his fingers at a slow pace while rubbing circles on my clit with his thumb . "F-faster j-jim-i-n" he obeyed and sped up. After a few thrust I came and as I got down from my high went to him to return the pleasure but he stopped me " today was about you y/n " he laid me down and we both went to sleep in each other's arms .

A/N: tell me how it was and also part two coming soon 😜💜

#jimin smut #celebrities #bts #jimin ff #jimin x reader #bts smut

[tsukkis7th-hoesblog]

It was a misunderstanding.

Warning : nothing to bad , swearing

Tsukkishima ×reader , kuroo x reader ,akaashi x reader ,bokuto x reader .

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The boys were still all practising even though the coaches had called it a night. And you just finished cleaning the gym with kiyoko and were heading to the kitchen to prepare dinner .

As you were walking past the gyms a ball flys out and hits your head . You fall back from the impact ,which leaves ur butt on the concrete . You look up to see kiyoko. She has a worried look on her face . Then from the corner of your eye u see a tall white figure rushing towards you , it was tsukki .

He bent down towards you , you were about to tell him that u were alright but he just grabs the ball and stand back up . He just looks at kiyoko once "is she ok?" You nod and he just turns around and started walking toward the entrance of gym 3 .

"Hey! Tsukki who the hell do you think u are ?" You scream as u quickly get on your feet and move towards him . He swiftly turns around and you hit your face in his chest . "What?" He says wiping his shirt . "Your not even going to apologise to me " you say putting my hand on my hip . "You said you were fine so nothing even happend , stop over-reacting " with that he just turns around and walk into the gym .

You were used to his bitchy side , but u wanted to piss him off the way he always does to you . So like a dumbass you walk into the gym forgetting that other people are also practising ."tsukki !!! You son of a bitch , I'm gonna shove that ball up ur big white a-" you stop ,seeing kuroo with the ball in his hands . He just looks up with a disgusted look on his face "wait , this ball ?" And throws it to bokuto .

You quickly palm ur face and grab the ball from bokuto and hit a serve towards the tall blonde head that belonged to tsukki . His back was facing you so saw his glasses hit the floor . But by Akaashi's reaction you realized you might have over-reacted a little .

He slowly turns around , his glasses still on the floor. He just grabs the ball and walks towards me . You were terrified , u put ur hands behind ur back and looked at ur feet . Now he was right in front if you , towering over u . You try to say something but is cut off by tsukki putting a finger below ur chin ,making you look into his eyes. And for a few seconds u were speechless . You have never actually seen him without glasses , and he actually looked hot when he was so angry like this .

"I didnt throw the ball out of the gym so I didnt think I needed to say sorry to you , but either way I dont think u needed to throw that ball at me ?" He says with a raspy voice . He just puts the ball in my hands . I look at him confused "wait , u arnt gonna scold me ?" You say confused .

"It was a misunderstanding, beside I dont have the time " he says with a straight face , then turns around to walk towards the benches and drink some water . You were still in shock and only now realized that three of the gym 3 squad were staring at u and tsukki. Kuroo was wearing tsukki's glasses and bokuto had his elbow rested on kuroo's shoulder . Even akaashi stood close to them not saying a thing but just watching the commotion.

"What are u idiots looking at ? " you say as you ran to kuroo and grab tsukki's glasses off of him . "Hey! I look hot with those on " he whines as I clean the lens with my shirt .

Y/n pov .

"Damn y/n , that jump serve was really good . Who would have known you become a pro when u get angry " bokuto says as he towers behind me . "Oh shush, "

"can I have my glasses back ?" Tsukki asks with his hand extended .

I hand it to him and he simply just walks away . I felt a little sad and move towards akaashi and softly said "that's too bad , he actually looked really hot without those glasses" akaashi looks a little surprised but then smirks and leaves me to go practise . And I couldn't help to think of tsukki in that way , he usually just annoys me and I annoy him . It's how it's always been , but I find his rudeness kind of amusing .

Idk what pov this is :

you thanked ur bad taste in men and began cleaning up the gym . You only then realized that kiyoko had left and u were left to clean the entire gym .

You were wearing a sweatshirt but you were getting kinda sweaty after cleaning around and decided to take it off. You only had a light purple crop top with short white shorts . You didnt really think much if it and tied ur hair and began doing the heavy lifting .

Third pov .

Bokuto was just about to hit a strike but the ball stopped a few meters in front of him . He froze in confusion to why the ball was too short, he turns to akaashi .

To see ,akaashi standing still and was staring at y/n . Her hair was tied up and she was practically wearing nothing . Now all the boys realized .

Bokuto felt his heart drop as he saw how short ur shorts were, and they were practically invisible because they were so tight .

Akaashi wanted to grab ur waist and slide his hands up ur shirt .

kuroo wanted to grab ur hair and rip ur shirt off and take you right there in the gym , he then felt his shorts get a little tighter .

If u think these boys were starstruck , tsukki had a much different idea in his head .

He didnt even realized anything until he saw the players attention elsewhere. He noticed how u look when u tied your hair , as u almost never had ur hair in a high ponytail. And he knew he'd already seen you wear that shirt before, but with those shorts he felt like he had seen u for the first time .

You were still oblivious to the situation the boys were in ,until you realized that they were too quite for too long. You turned ur head to see all eyes on you . "What" you say with a bench in your hand .

The boys looked around all shy until kuroo came rushing towards u " you shouldn't be doing all this by yourself, here let me help " he said as he took the weight of the bench . Now you were even more shocked ,"its my job but thanks " you say as you smile at yourself like a idiot .

"What are you smiling about?" Tsukki says as he grabs the empty water bottles that were laying on the floor . You turn around to see bokuto grabbing the towels from akaashi's bunch . You were really confused now . But you let it be , after the boys where done with ur job they just stood in front of u with their hands behind their backs .

"Ok you guys are acting really weird ,what happened?" No one said anything. So you quickly thought of something .

"Ok if you guys are done I'm going to hang out with daichi and asahi, he was calling me a while a- "

"NO !" All the boys scream and stretch their hands out .

"Why are u guys acting so weird? Bokuto tell me now !" I say knowing bokuto too well .

He gives me puppy eyes and takes one look at akaashi , who was giving bokuto a death glare . "Sorry y/n "

" You just look so hot in those clothes today " kuroo blurted.

"What " I say , my eyes almost popping out of my head by the change in character and situation . The other boys groan in annoyance and tsukki just tskk.

You raise ur eyebrow at the boys " ok thanks for the ego boost I was feeling a bit insecure today but like what the fuck , u guys are so weird " I say laughing. "Why are you guys making such a big deal out of this ? " akaashi was the colour of a tomato , and his eyes not daring to look you in the eyes .

"We just couldn't focus on the game with you doing.. well the things you were doing .We are only men can u blame us ." Bokuto says with smirk on him face .

" you are still boys but you guys are the real ones to talk " I say bending down to grab my sweatshirt as akaashi and tsukki sit down on the ground. "Whats that suppose to mean ?" Tsukki asks drinking from his bottle .

"Are you guys that dumb ?" I say as they all give me confused looks. "You guys are 6 feet something boys wearing booty shorts and tight shirts while jumping, screaming and sliding on the floor . Theres a reason I became manager without even knowing it was a volleyball club. To be honest you guys are probably the hottest boys I've ever seen "you said too much . As if these boys weren't cocky before , you knew u had actually killed them . "I mean only when u guys play in a proper match "

"That's why you used to come to every practise first and then leave the last " tsukki said .

"No I'm a just the best manager in the world "I try to defend myself.

"I always knew u had a thing for me y/n " kuroo says as he grabs his bag ,

"no thats not what I said , I said u guys are hotter when you play , and I dont like you guys in that way " you were obviously lying but you had to keep cool .

"Whatver u say y/n , but just know I'm only one floor away . If you need more help with any matter just call me anytime u like " he said with a wink .

"Shut up , besides I gotta go now to make you guys dinner , please dont be late to dinner again . There wont be any more food left " you say as you blush at bokuto remark . "Ur lucky I like being bossed around from time to time " kuroo said pushing a stand of my hair behind my ear and then I practically run out of the gym .

Third pov .

"Damn shes hot when she's shy " kuroo says . "Yea too bad she is into me more " bokuto says in kuroos face .

"What!! she never said that ? Did she ?"

"I actually thinks she likes tsukki " this was the first time akaashi opened his mouth about this topic . "What!?!? " the boys said at the same time .

"A few minutes ago she said that tsukki looked good without his glasses , so I'm guessing she likes tsukki more "

tsukki gets all shy and defensive and says . " she doesn't like me , today she told me how much she loves your hands , and some weird shit "

"What " akaashi says as he looks down at his hands . "Yea she told me that too , I think she has a hand fetish " kuroo said .

"Well whatever she told me she loves bokuto's cake , I didnt even know you baked cake " akaashi asks bokuto. "I dont bake cake , and I haven't even seen her eat cake . "

Kuroo starts laughing " you know cake mean ass, right ?"

Bokuto in shock now " she said I have a good ass , omg she does like me "

"What about kuroo? What did she tell you guys about him ?" Tsukki asks a little too eager . But the boys just look at each other .

"Relax , whatever she likes about me she has already told me face to face , she even called me her captain once "

"What , that's not fair ,I'm a captain too!!" bokuto sulked as kuroo stuck his tongue out .

They were laughing as akaashi's phone rang . He answered the call " ok ok we are coming , relax y/n !" He said as he quickly cut the line .

"You have y/n's number !?!?that's not fair , she said she would give it to me but she forgot . " bokuto said grabbing his shoes .

And the boys then made their way to their rooms to get ready for dinner .

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Idk what this is but I might add more to this .

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[timeaftertime-chriscornellfanfic]

Chapter 35 - What Have You Done My Little Spark?

Seattle Washington, July 12 1990

(Chris is 25, Andi is 20)

CHRIS: I wake up in the middle of the night, my eyes quickly flicking open, feeling my heart pounding. It's been a while since I've had a dream that woke me up like this and the crazy thing is, I can't even remember what the dream was about.

I sit myself up and glance over to see Andi sleeping so sweetly, the sheet pulled up to her ribs with her side exposed, her curls all around her with some strewn across her face. She looks completely at peace, her bare chest gently rising and falling with  the perfect view of her nipples that make me want to wake her up and make love to her again.

Instead I decide to get out of bed, grab my boxers from the floor, pull them on, and quietly make my way out of the bedroom.

"Fuck, it's so damn hot in this house," I say quietly to myself.

We're right in the middle of a heatwave and of course we don't have air conditioning - not that we would be able to afford it right now anyways. I mean we're not broke but the European leg of the tour really took a lot of money out of us so we have to resort back to that beat up old van for the next round of tour dates. I was beginning to like having a bus for a little while but hey, at least when I get bored on the road, I'm usually the one to drive us. I just feel bad for Andi cause now she has to share a van with 4 guys. Not that she would mind, she seems to love it out on the road and I absolutely love having her with me. She's the one who keeps me sane.

I head into the kitchen, grab my pack of cigarettes off the counter and light one up, then open up the fridge and grab a bottle of water, and decide to head downstairs into the little studio that I set up in the basement. It's not exactly high tech or anything, just our guitars and amps and I was able to pick up an old reel to reel tape machine from London Bridge Studios - where we recorded Louder Than Love. It was one of their old machines that they just didn't use anymore and so I just bought it real cheap.

I take a seat in one of the large reading chairs we have down here, place the cigarette between my lips and pick up one of my acoustic guitars. I grab one of the journals that I have off the desk and start to flip through the pages of ideas and lyrics that I've written down. Usually when I have a hard time sleeping, I'll try and see if I can get some words and ideas down.

As I quint my eyes from the rising smoke, I flip though the journal I suddenly realize it's Andi's which makes me smile at some of her ideas. She really can come up with some great stuff so I grab a pen and start writing in some of the margins.

"I'm your disappearing one, vanish when you play your song. But I will come again and you will let me in, and you'll see I never disappear for long... Huh... shit, baby that's good..." I say to myself as I rest the cigarette on the ashtray and write something just above it.

'Falling apart, You tell yourself you are, but I am here and you're not far...’

I smirk to myself and continue on turning pages when I reach a page towards the back that had been stuffed inside the cover. Intrigued, I pull out the folded paper and open it to see a letter from Andy, dated January 25 1990

"I don't have any Idea why I'm even writing this down but you were always the one to tell me that I should. You know me though, I like to just fly by the top of my head I guess. Fuck there's so much that I want to say to you, it's just how do I even say it? I know I shouldn't. I should keep it to myself. 'I wanna tell her that I love her but does it really matter?' Yea, I know... it sounds much better in Crown of Thorns don't you think?

All I know is that night in the park by The Moore... that was the most amazing kiss I've ever had in my life. I mean, I knew I was feeling something. You, the birthday girl in all your sadness. I just wanted to take that away for just a few moments like you always did for me.

I know, I know... it's not exactly the best timing for this is it? If only I was the one who could time slip, maybe things would be different. But you were meant for Cornell and I know in my deepest of hearts that he was meant for you. I mean just watching how he is with you... you woke up something inside him that I didn't think anyone would see. But of course he's loved you since he was what - 15? You are for Chris as what I wish Xana was for me. You know I love Xana, I always will, but I just think we aren't right for each other anymore.

Really what I'm trying to say here is that I love you Andrea, more than just a friend. I always have. But I know you are meant to be with Chris and that's ok. Like I said, you two are really meant for each other. I know you two are gonna get married and have lots and lots of beautiful blue eyed babies and I just want you to know that I'm here if you need me. 'Cause I know I sure need you."

As I finish reading the last line, a rush of different feelings all seemed to flood in me at once. Anger, pain, confusion among others. What the hell did he mean about 'that night in the park'?

"Hey baby," I hear Andi's sleepy voice behind me and I turn to see her in one of my button up shirts, her dark curls all around her as she rubs her eye from sleep.

"Hey," I say flatly as I pick up the cigarette burning in the ashtray and take a drag.

"Can't sleep?" She asks and I shrug as I take another drag.

"If you come back to bed, I can help with that," She says sweetly as she comes up behind me and wraps her arms around me, her hands moving over my chest as she places a few kisses on my shoulder. I take one last drag of my cigarette, then butt in out in the ashtray but still say nothing

"What's wrong? Why are you so quiet?" She asks.

"I thought maybe you would want to explain this," I say without much emotion again as I show her the letter I found. She glances at the paper and slowly takes it from my hand while I move out of the chair. She looks it over, pushing her curls behind her ear.

"Where'd you find this?" She asks, furrowing her brow as she still reads the letter.

"Stuffed in the back of your journal," I say coldly as I set the guitar back down on it's stand. I turn back to face her as I see her still reading the letter and wait for an explanation.

"I don't know what you want me to explain, it's just a letter that Andy wrote - "

"What does he mean about 'that night in the park'? What park? When?" I cut her off. She hesitates for a moment and looks back down at the letter.

"Chris... it wasn't anything, It was when I time slipped when we were in Germany. After that fight we had remember?"

"Yea I remember. But what the fuck happened? Did you fuck him?" I say angered and hurt, feeling my heart pounding in my chest again.

"No! No, fuck no - "

"Then what does he mean?" I cut her off again. She glances back at the letter and then looks up at me, her brow furrowing as she tries to find the words.

"I just - "

"You just what?" I cut her off again my voice now louder than before.

"-Ok! I'm trying to tell you alright?" She raises her voice back at me. We then look at each other in silence for a few moments and then she begins to explain.

"... there wasn't anyway that I could tell him what was going to happen. As much as I wanted to, I just couldn't. You and I just had that fight and I was so upset, and seeing him just made me miss him so much. Being able to talk to him and laugh like nothing had happened... it hurts. I was just so sad because he was right there in front of me and I couldn't bring you with me to see him alive again. Like nothing had ever happened and... I don't know it just happened. He kissed me. It was innocent... nothing else happened I swear,"

I could see the tears that she held at bay, explaining to me how she actually was able to go back and see Andy again. I wasn't exactly sure how to feel about it.

"He says he's in love with you in that letter... were you in love with him too?" I ask not sure if I want to hear the answer. She drops the letter on the chair and walks over to me, looking up into my eyes.

"No Chris. My heart is yours. I swear I could never love anyone else as much as I love you," She says and I reach out to cup her face in my palm. Sometimes I forget just how hard it is on her to travel back in time and see the people who have long gone in her life - our life - and to come back and know that they are no longer here.

I lean down and touch my forehead to hers as she moves her hands up over my abs and to my chest.

"Why didn't you just tell me?" I ask calmly.

"I didn't want to make you upset. I didn't want you angry with him... or me," She says.

"I'm not angry, I'm just... I don't know," I say.

I wanted to stay angry. I wanted to stay hurt but she always has a way of making me want her, even when I'm pissed off at her. I suddenly find my lips on hers, my hands on her hips pulling her closer to me, moving around and feeling her ass cheeks through the bottom of my black button up shirt she threw on.

"You should've told me," I repeat softly when I break away from her lips.

"I know," She says sweetly and presses her lips back to mine, her fingers finding their way through my curls, pulling me into her. My hands move up under her shirt, feeling the softness of her pale skin, skipping across her back as she sighs against my lips.

Holy fuck I want her so fucking bad.

"If you come back to bed... I promise... I'll make it up to you," She says in between her kisses. I moan against her lips as she moves her hand down to the front of my boxers, palming me through the thin fabric which almost instantly sprang me to life. She pulls away and bites her bottom lip, raising her eyebrow at me and turns to make her way towards the stairs and as I watch her walk away, admiring that cute ass of hers, she looks back at me stopping at the first step.

"You coming?"

"I will be," I raise my eyebrow back at her and run towards her. She squeals with laughter as I chase her up the stairs, catching her, and carrying her the rest of the way.

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[tk-productions]

Mystic Sisters- Ch.4 You & I

Yua’s pov

Every. Single. Day. I saw Haru at school, or at the train or at Mystic cafe. Wherever I went it seemed he was there too. It was hell running into him everywhere. I swear he’s stalking me at this point.  I tried avoiding him but he always popped up unexpectedly looking into my eyes the same way he used to. Weeks went by without either of us saying a word, we just stared at each other not knowing who would make the first move. Today was another day of us not talking to each other. I sat in the corner at Mystic cafe sipping on a iced tea waiting for my sister to finish 

her shift. After Haru ordered his food he made small talk with my sister. He said something to make her laugh and I rolled my eyes and turned my attention back to my tea. 

“I’ll be back in 10 minutes” he told Hikari then walked out of the cafe still laughing at whatever they were talking about.

“ Haru!” I called out as I followed him out of the cafe.

He stopped and turned around to face me but stayed completely silent.

“Oh so you're not gonna say anything?” I said getting irritated.

“What do you want me to say?” He said like he did nothing wrong.

“I just want an explanation on why you left.”

“I don’t need to give an explanation.”

“Why do you always do this? You run away when things get tough. You've been back for weeks but haven't said one word to me.” I yelled out of frustration.

Haru said nothing, he just looked at his watch, went back to the cafe and grabbed his food and walked past me like nothing.

“You're such a jerk and I hate you Haru. I fucking hate your guts!” I cried out looking at his back. It was like I was talking to a brick wall. Haru stopped walking for a second then just continued without looking back.

 I stormed back into the cafe with mixed emotions. Should I feel angry, sad, or relieved that I dodged a bullet?  I was so angry I wanted to rip his throat out.  OMG why am i thinking like this? Ripping his throat out? Come on Yua. Suddenly I felt really thirsty so I grabbed my iced tea and chugged it.

“Yua-chan are you okay?” Hikari asked, sitting across from me placing another iced tea in front of me. 

“No, I'm over here imagining ripping Haru’s throat out .” I said suddenly feeling stressed.

“No that’s completely normal.” she joked. “But seriously what’s wrong.”

“I just want to talk to Haru but he keeps pushing me away. How can he tell me he loves me, leave and show back up like nothing happened.” I sighed in frustration.

“Hey don’t beat yourself up over this. It’s his fault. He’s the one that left not you. You just have to find a way to talk to him and not rip out his throat.” I nodded, taking another sip of tea. She may be younger than me but she’s always right.

“Your shift is almost over right? Let’s go to the bookstore on our way home.”

“Yay!” she yelled excitedly, drawing attention towards her from the other customers.  

“Sorry.” she said quickly heading back behind the counter. Only Hikari would get excited over books I laughed to myself.   

I really didn't know why I was so hung up on Haru. Maybe it’s because he’s the only guy I loved. Or maybe it because he left without giving me an explanation. My mind kept drifting off thinking about him as I tried to do my chemistry homework that's due tomorrow. My eyes grew heavier as I tried to focus. “Maybe I should take a break.” I yawned resting my head on the desk. 

“Just a quick nap.” I yawned again before drifting off to sleep. 

Haru and I were cuddling under a tree and I felt so relaxed and happy. I looked at him and smiled. But he didn’t smile back.

“Is something wrong?” I asked reaching out towards him.

“I don’t wanna be with you anymore Yua.” He told me pushing  away.

“What? We just got back together the other day. What could have changed?”  sitting up  turning to face him. “Why do you keep hurting me like this? Did you ever even really love me?

“I gotta go. I’m sorry Yua,” Haru replied to me getting up walking away leaving me like he always did. 

“Haru come back here!” I called after him “Haru!” but he didn’t answer, he just kept walking.

I opened my eyes and all I could feel was anger.  I was so angry but I couldn’t let a dream drive me crazy. I took a deep breath and grabbed my phone to check the time. 

“4am? Ugh! I didn’t finish my homework!” I said frustrated.

Ring! 

Finally the bell rang signaling it was time for lunch. I didn't know if I could sit through another minute of balancing equations. I sat my books out for the next class before heading to the library to meet hikari and Hisako. I found the girls sitting at a table in the back of the library laughing quietly to themselves.  

“What’s so funny? I could use a laugh.”  I said as I joined them at the table.

“Hisako fell out of her chair in class today then slipped on her chair getting up.” Hikari said laughing so hard she had tears in the corner of her eyes.

I laughed a little before looking at Hisako. “Are you ok?” I asked.

“Yea I’m fine. Thanks for asking Yua. I'm never visiting Hikari before her class again though” Hisako replied to me with a smile.

Hikari started talking about buying more clothes at the mall, I smiled nodding as if I was listening before zoning out watching the rain fall from the window. The rain reminded me of something Haru did before we broke up.

Haru and I were at our favorite spot during lunch and I couldn't stop talking about our anniversary that was just around the corner. 

“I planned the whole day out first we're gonna go eat breakfast together---” I rambled on and on about our date but Haru didn’t even look like he was paying attention.

“Are you listening to me?” I asked, crossing my arms over my chest. 

“Huh.” he said caught off guard. “Yea I’m listening.” he replied.

I gave him an unsure look. “Ok then what did I say?”

Haru laughed before looking at me with his beautiful eyes and sexy smirk that I absolutely loved. Completely changing the subject Haru told me. “Close your eyes and turn around for me.”

“What? You're changing the subject.” I called him out.

“Just do it please.” He asked. I squinted my eyes curiously at him before turning around and closing my eyes  just as he said. I slightly jumped as I felt something cold touch my neck.

“Ok you can open now.” He told me and I can tell he was smiling.

Opening my eyes I looked down to see a beautiful necklace. I turned around and faced him, smiling like an idiot. “The two hearts are us right.” I asked, holding onto the pendant.

“Yea and I also had our names carved into it.” He replied.

My smile grew bigger. “I love it.” I told him.

“Good. Don’t ever take it off no matter what happens between us ok.” He said seriously.

“I won’t.” I smiled as I leaned in for a kiss.

 I smiled at the memory “Those were truly the good times.” I said messing around with the necklace still around my neck. I know I said I wouldn’t take it off. But new Haru makes me want to.

“What are you talking about.” Hikari said looking at me before smirking “It's Haru isn’t it?”

“I am not but nice guess.” I said sarcastically. 

“Yua just get back together with him and stop torturing yourself.” Hisako said stealing some of Hikari’s grapes.

“Nah he belong to the streets.” I joked.

“But so do you.” Hikari sassed.

My smile disappeared as I looked at Hikari in shock. “I do not. I am a proper lady thank you.”

“Keep telling yourself that.” Hikari said sarcastically while laughing. I rolled my eyes at her. “I swear sometimes you act just like Haru.” I mumbled before getting up.

“Where are you going?” Hisako asked.

“I have to go to class early.” I told the girls goodbye and left. Okay so maybe I didn't actually need to go to class early. I needed to talk to Haru and work things out between us. I wondered mindlessly through the school hallways looking for Haru. Somehow I ended up in our spot. The spot where we spent most of our time together. Not much had changed. There was a new mural done by the art club that made the space brighter. I walked over to the window staring at the rain heavily falling down. I played with the necklace again still thinking about that day. Just as the bell rang I felt a gust of air go by. I turned around watching the older boy walk up the stairs not even acknowledging me.

“Haru!” I called out but he just kept walking leaving me like he always did. 

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[rami-writes-blog]

Highschool Sweethearts - Chapter 2 (Reader x Rami Malek)

I'm so glad I have a half an hour lunch break. The flush on my cheeks is still present because of my earlier encounter with Rami. I push it away, I can't be feeling like this. I mean I have a boyfriend.

I slowly walk across the courtyard when I finally find a place where it's quiet, farthest away from the big crowd. While eating a banana, my finger's softly ticking along to the beat of the music I'm listening, on my knee. Suddenly someone plops down next to me from behind and scares the fuck out of me. ''What the fuck dude'' I growl and put on my angry face.

When I see it's Rami my angry face immediately melts. ''I'm -.. sorry. I didn't mean to scare you'' he immediately apologizes. ''No please- I'm the one who should be apologizing. I'm easily startled'' I explain. ''Bad conscious huh?'' he asks playfully. ''No- lost in thoughts I guess'' I say with a pink flush over my face.

When he has his full attention on the pizza that he had just boughts, it's only now I stare at him for the first time. I mean I had looked at him multiple times. But now.. I couldn't stop staring.

He has these tiny black curls, deep blue/green eyes, light toned skin and a really sharp jawline. When he smiles, he makes my knees tremble. He smells really nice. I can't really identify it but – it smells comforting. I've never been good with guys so every single one of them makes me nervous, but him even more so. When I got together with Ty.. I don't know, we were both drunk and he took the first step so it was way different I guess. Plus he was really self-assured, so it kinda came all from his side.

''you want a slice?'' he offers me as he holds it in front of my nose, holding it with both hands. ''Its dubble cheese and salami'' he adds. I nod gratefully. ''Sure, why not? Thanks!'' I say giving him a big smile. After I take my first bite, it's really hot and all the cheese is falling off. I have to make some really weird faces to slurp the cheese slings. From the corner of my eyes I can see him looking at me. He starts laughing at the sight of me struggling with the pizza.

''What are you laughing a1bout?'' I ask with some innocence. ''Come here'' he says as he wipes away the stains of sauce underneath my mouth. ''Oh'' I say flushed. ''Thank you''. I'm too ashamed to look at him so I just stare at my pizza in stead. ''Here''  he says while handing me a napkin.

I wipe my mouth one last time after finishing my slice and after some moments of silence I'm the first one to talk again. ''I'm sorry but- is there any particular reason why you decided to join me for lunch?'' I ask him nervously. ''Well you looked like you might needed some company so-'' he looks at me expectantly. Like I'm about to shoo him away any second.

''HEY BABY'' I hear coming from behind me. It's Tyler. I ashamed say hi to him too. From the corner of my eye I can see Rami's confused look. Probably taking in that another man just called me 'baby'. Ty sits down next to me and as he comes closer to give me a kiss, I can smell the alcohol on his breath. I immediately shake him off ''have you been drinking already?'' I ask him with an astonished look. ''It's only 11.30 am in the morning Ty. What the fuck''.

I know I probably shouldn't take such a tone to him, but with Rami by my side I feel kind of.. More secure. ''Ah baby come on don't be like that'' he tries reasoning with me, grabbing my arm. I try shaking it off but he gets really handsy. Trying to kiss me on my neck, pushing his body up against me.. he even tries grabbing my boob.  I angrily push him off of me the best I can, given the fact that he's much stronger and bigger than me.

I look at him both angrily and disappointing ''Be like what? You're the one that's drunk when it's not even noon. You know how I feel about that''. I get up and take my backpack, tears fill my eyes. He always gets so different when he had some alcohol. He jumps up immediately and grabs a hold of my arm. My anxiety kicks in. ''Ty stop. You're hurting me'' I beg him. The grip tightens even more after that and I'm pretty sure this will leave a bruise. ''And you should watch your fucking tone. Loren'' he growls at me. He intimidatingly bends over me, trying to show me who the boss is, when his eyes suddenly fall on Rami, who now too was on his feet and took a step closer.

It's like I'm nailed to the ground but because he points his his attention to Rami, I manage to free myself from his grip. Tears blur my vision but it doesn't matter. With tears swirling down my face I walk away. ''wh- Loren. Are you ok?'' Rami comes running after me, trying to make sure I'm ok. ''Yea I'm just a bit sick. Imma head home'' I lie to him. Not even looking at him. I don't want him to see me. I don't want him to stop me from leaving.

I'm actually planning on going to my favorite spot. It's in the park, in between all those trees, right at the water. Tears stream down my face as I roll up my sleeve to look at my arm. It already has some huge bruises on it and the finger prints from just moments ago start to show too. I zip open my backpack and take a joint out of some side-pocket. Fuck. Where's my lighter?

As I take my backpack and rumble aroung in it to find my lighter, I can see it looking at me.. I didn't know I had it in there. Or maybe I just forgot. I gently took it out of my backpack. I lit my joint and took a deep swig and slowly let the effect hit me. I look at the discovery from my backpack admiringly. I roll up my shirt a bit to expose a bit of my stomach. I promised myself I'd never do this anymore..

Now feeling nothing but.. Anger? Impotence? Sadness? All together. What it was, I couldn't cry anymore. I take another deep hit of my joint, the blade still between my fingers. Not sure what my next move will be, but my automatic pilot takes over and I put the blade at my skin.

''You mind if I join you?'' a deep voice behind me asks me. I recognize it. I could recognize it out of a thousand voices. It both startles me but also I kind of expected him to come after me. I should've run. I hide the blade underneath my leg, avoiding him from seeing it. He looks at me with a caring look in your eyes. I shake my head as a reaction to his question, tapping next to me suggesting him to sit down.

''You know... You can take off your 'I'm ok mask' now... It's just me''. He exclaims while tugging his knees up . He's probably hoping I'll talk. It's a really sweet gesture and I really appreciate it. But I don't know him. Why should I talk to him?

''So. How do you like school up until now?'' I ask him to distract the attention from this shit. He just shrugs his shoulders, ''Fine I guess'' he answers after doing some thinking.

Still sitting with his knees up, he’s staring over the water. He seems kind of distracted, lost in a day dream. I take full advantage of that moment and take in all the little details of this gorgeous man. Putting them somewhere in my mind where I can rewatch them anytime I want.

His small ears.. His stubble of probably not shaving for a couple of days. His mouth slightly opened. The little frowns he makes. His hair that is kind of messy but not in an unkempt way. How rough it looks but also really soft. The way he fiddles with his fingers. His smell. The small wrinkles around the corner of his lips and eyes. The way his eyes are so mesmerizing.

He turns his head towards me and gives me a sweet and nervous smile. He caught me checking him out and he finds it amusing. I again feel like a little kid that has been caught with its hand in a cookie jar. I quickly look away to hide the flush on my cheeks.

God.. That smile. That fucking smile.

''Well. Something interesting did happen today'' he suddenly says while rubbing his chin in a thoughtful way. ''O?'' I’m generously curious to what that might be. ''I met a really cool girl today'' he says while looking in another direction again. I can tell he's nervous. It's actually kind of sweet.

Tagged: @sleep-all-day-and-all-night​

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[sweet-xoxo-thatcares]

I just cried till I felt lavender all around me and I was back at grandma's house, sleeping on her couch and hearing CSI and law and order play.

I was screaming because of how painful this is.

My dad isn't the same father I grew up with, I know.

He and mom did the exact same thing to me around New years back when I was leaving to go to college soon in 2016, but I had been depressed since school started or maybe b4 that in 2015.

and they were both judging me, both ranting and wouldn't let me leave to go upstairs crying and I had to sit there and just listen to them both talk about how I should be grateful, and mom saying maybe if I would just made more friends and stop being so anti social then maybe I wouldn't be so depressed.

It was fucked up, and they didn't help me feel any better. It made me feel worse, like why the fuck did I even tell yall and why are you judging me for something I had experienced by myself, all alone for the very 1st time and all you guys are doing is just sitting here judging me for even being depressed 😔 and it was something my high school self couldn't even imagine my parents would do to me for feeling sad and wanting to be alone all the time in my room.

Their words felt like whoopens and it was a crime to be sad or angry in this house. While mom and dad get to argue and yell at me while I'm already snot nosed crying, tears streaming out of my puffy eyes, and when they finally told me off, finished.

Told me to go to my room. And just finish crying and then come back downstairs for new years celebration.

It wasn't safe there. And my sister, who came back up to check on me saw how much pain I was in.

I didn't even want her to see my face.

Why do they always assume that we are the ones who should be happy not getting what we asked for, not trusting anyone to tell how we feel about being alone to ourselves or to our parents because they think it's our faults that we're suicidal, stress eating and depressing....and me substance abuse.

They don't see that they're the ones who helped create the toxic environment we fail to runaway because they are the ones who gsve birth to us.

The Bible says honor your mother and your father.

But what does it say about mental health and mental abuse?

I've never heard a preacher say it's ok to runaway from your mother and father when they hurt you more than a stranger on the corner looking to steal or kill somebody.

We get lashes on out backs, the shoulders, the pops on the hand, the nail flicks to the head, and their words feels like those very same lashes.

We have emotional ptsd from them.

And this is finally the end.

I'm leaving my star wars troupe commander and allowing him to be the robot soldier father he's tryna be for his wife and kids.

But he'll never be the dad I thought he was.

He's just an overbearing father figure, who doesn't want his kids to see him unhappy and yea cosigns his mom/gf/wife to force her kids to be happy even if it means choosing to overcriticize them so they don't make their own mistakes or wear whatever they want to school, tell them they're not allowed to be upset or catch an attitude at them for making us do something that we don't want to do or need to. Choosing to hit us or aggressively threaten us by getting in our faces and bucking up at us if we says no to anything she asks.

She's basically bullying us to be people pleasing. And dad supports her because we're the kids, who have no right to say anything against them.

Including now. And I'm about to be 25 on Tuesday.

How horrible could you say I feel? I'm ready to go watch a Star Wars marathon in order to remind me that my father loves and cares about me even when he gaslights my emotions and tells me they're not real.

So I guess if he sees a slit on my wrist, we'll just make it a joke and say that it's a tattoo alright? 👍

Better not say anything gay, cause pocahontas sounds good too and anything that's reminds him or me of grandma is gonna make him pop off apparently.

Yup, my mouth shut like they taught me. Feeding myself baby food and applesauce. Locking my door.

Throw away the key.