#mental health crisis mention

[heartnosekid]

hello friends, i feel it necessary to update y’all on my condition and to explain my general absence.

over this past week and some change, i have been having a severe mental health crisis. i won’t go into details too heavily, but i’m still a little “in it”, though it has calmed down pretty significantly. to explain the severity, i was at a 12 out of 10, and now i’m at a 7 and occasionally a 6, if that makes sense. i am still debating going inpatient for the time being, just to get my meds figured out, but my mental and physical health teams are still kind of divided on the matter.

however, i feel it necessary to say, i am and have not been a danger to myself during this crisis. i had just been having a significant and precipitous physical and mental decline that was mostly anxiety and panic related, but i believe i am now on the mend, albeit going slow. medication is still an ongoing issue but hopefully within the next few days, my team and i can get that resolved and squared away.

i have received some kind messages asking if i am okay and sending well wishes, and i appreciate you all so incredibly much. you have made this more bearable for me, and i am endlessly thankful for all of you.

that said, i’m not sure when consistent posting will resume. i feel like i could begin working on requests again, but i don’t want to say it will be consistent or push myself too hard right now. especially if i do decide to go inpatient! however, the queue will not stop posting regardless of what happens because i am queued up till september lol but i will post another update if hospitalization is what i decide to do.

i love you all so very much!!! thank you for your support and love and kind words during this incredibly difficult time in my life. i will be back, hopefully soon in full swing and with amazing vigor! ☺️ i will talk to y’all soon, ilysm 💕

- ish 💕

#ish talks #updates #not stim #mental health mention #mental health crisis mention #physical health mention #hospitalization mention #anxiety mention #medicine mention

[reasonsforhope]

I can't take the state of the world anymore, every day things constantly get worse and there's literally nothing we can do. Every time things get better they're immediately undone by forces more powerful than us. I just want things to go back to the way they were before when it felt like there was hope, now it feels like humanity is doomed and will never, ever get better. I just want to die so I can finally know peace from this evil.

Hey. I'm really, really sorry you're having such a hard time. That sounds like an incredibly painful headspace to be in.

Please find someone you can talk to and who can help you - whether that's a peer counselor or a good friend or a trained mental health professional. Especially a trained mental health professional, if you can. You can find a really thorough list of crisis hotlines listed by country here.

Also, I realllllly recommend getting off any websites or social media that are contributing to you feeling like this, or at least block all the people/tags posting things that are making you feel like this. Negativity bias is real - the news/internet doesn't accurately reflect the world and neither does the way your brain perceives it

In the meantime, a few quick words/facts of comfort. I hope they can give you at least some reassurance or solace.

We literally have more reason to hope we can solve climate change than ever before x

Starting about six months ago, major international energy reports have come out for the first time showing that we have a visible, concrete path to staying under 1.5 degrees celsius x

Twenty, even ten years ago, scientists talked about whether we could possibly manage to limit global warming to 4 or 5 degrees Celsius. Now, those numbers aren't even on the map - we're talking 1.5 or 2 degrees Celsius. We've cut expected warming in half in under a decade x

Renewable energy is growing so exponentially it's now "unstoppable" x

Two hundred years ago, in 1800, there wasn't a single "liberal democracy" - a democracy that gives all citizens the right to vote - on the planet. Just over one hundred years ago, in 1900, there were five of them. Today, roughly half the countries (aka roughly 100) on the planet fall into this category. International politics is so often two steps forward, one step back, but this is actually an astonishing pace of progress in the grand scheme of things x

For all of human history, until just over 200 years ago, roughly half of all children died. Across times, across cultures. Half of all children died by the age of 15. Half of them. Today, globally, that same child mortality rate is only 4%. We did that. We changed what was previously an eternal, inescapable, and horrific condition of human existence, and we are going to keep making that rate go down x

Two steps forward, one step back, is still moving forward. There are so, so, so many reasons that we are not already doomed. There are so many reasons to think the future is going to be bright

To anyone struggling with thoughts like this: please, please give yourself the chance to see it

#Anonymous #ask #me #I am so so not a trained mental health professional or qualified to help people with this stuff #please talk to people who are qualified to help with stuff like this instead! #climate change #climate anxiety #climate hope #child mortality #humanity #good news #hope #cw sui ideation #cw sui mention #depression #climate grief #climate crisis #climate news #hope posting

[sefirots]

crescents

#ffvii #lucrecia crescent #sephiroth #final fantasy 7 #sefirot art #GUYS CAN I BE INSANE FOR A SEC. headcanon brainblast. #i think sephiroth shares lots of small personality traits lucrecia had like. #he could yap for hours about the things that interest him. tends to over explain himself. people tune out exactly 5 minutes into his speech #both very self assured and determined to prove everyone's preconceived notions wrong #also! hyperfocus leading to the decline of their mental and physical health! they're so self destructive its scary!!! #some shinra guy offhandedly mentions sephiroth having the mind of a scientist and hojo is there in the corner like..hah. you don't say. #anyway im crazy shinra manor gang makes me crazy i miss you lucrecia #first soldier #ever crisis #dirge of cerberus

[phoenixcatch7]

In love with the idea of captain marvel being Billy's imaginary friend. Like, it'd be so easy. Early depictions had them as almost fully separate people sometimes, like one soul with two minds, rather than just two filters like we mostly see now.

But imagine a Billy down on his luck, hurt and hiding from police and criminals alike, daydreaming the hours away as children do, taking inspiration from all the superheroes rising to fame, making little stories to play out his dreams of saving the world with a generic action doll he found while dumpster diving once. Most of the paint's rubbed off.

Red's his favourite colour, his comfiest jumper is a bright ruby even after all the grime and washes. Gold, too, it's shiny and warmer than silver! A hero cape is a must, big and eye catching! And he can fly, of course, like superman, and in his daydreams, when he's sore and frustrated after a long day's grind, his superhero is smart enough and knows all the right words to get the bullies to stop without resorting to fighting.

His superhero fantasy is one he spends a lot of time on, the first one he goes for when struggling to sleep at night, and he can picture it so clearly. Captain marvel is big and bright and kind, strong enough to lift the boxes for the old lady up the road who's moving all by himself, fast enough to catch Jamie who fell out of the tree on Saturday and broke his leg and couldn't come to class for weeks. He appears at the entrance to alleys when Billy is cornered, he steps up behind to cover for him when he gets caught shoplifting, he sits at the bus stop with him when it's pouring rain and the right bus doesn't seem to be coming.

And then the wizard comes, or rather whisks him away, and like a magician from a fairytale breathes life into his imaginary friend until Billy feels thrice his size and a million times more invincible.

From then on, captain marvel is a real hero, just like Billy is a real boy, and as one they save the whole city, and then the whole world, and get cats down from trees and help Mrs Victoria move the last of her boxes and she gives them a pinch in the cheek and cookies for the road and sometimes it hurts but it's so much better than he imagined.

#dc comics #captain marvel #dc captain marvel #shazam #billy batson #imaginary friend #imaginary friend au #Billy's great because you can give him the most buck wild adventures with the most self indulgent plots and it makes perfect sense #Batman and superman are out here having mental health crisis no.528 and marvels away having dance offs with gnomes #Billy would fit perfectly into gravity falls he really would #Anyway imaginary friend au is near and dear because it encapsulates that sort of safe fantasy for change and companion ship #And a protective imaginary friend brought to life is going to be just a fascinating character no matter what #And it's the perfect cover for non imaginary cap anyway. Why does he prioritise this kid over everything despite having never mentioned him #Imaginary friends always have to care for their creator! But you can't expect an imaginary friend to do your taxes! #Why is cap so eternally kind and bubbly and a bit childish? That's because his creator is a kid! Duh! #This particular imaginary friend just so happens to have encountered magic and is now real enough to play basketball with asteroids. #He's strong enough to match superman but it's fine he's got a child's heart and an unending protectiveness for humanity. #Just don't try anything with the kid or you're toast. #I love the jl needing to save/help Billy in some way and cap; who's practically the jls puppy mascot at this point #Is just shamelessly and unrepentantly possessive of Billy while being openly wrapped around his finger. Number one fan #Like 'he's the specialist boy and if you don't clap for him I'm going to blow this whole building up' type #Have you read Split on ao3 it's like that. Cap is the most unaffiliated person on the team and then bam Billy is number 1 priority 100% #Go read split if you haven't 10/10 #Like it never crosses caps mind to hinder or harm Billy he is Devoted. Platonic God/worshipper except the deity in question is an 11yo #And the worshipper is the closest thing to a deity without being one you can get in dc. #But like a healthy relationship lmao. #It's a soul deep claim with total freedom on both sides and they teach each other love and they're the same person #AUGH

[adamofingolstadt]

KEEP COPS OUT OF MENTAL HEALTH EMERGENCIES

This past week I was in crisis (again) and texted the 988 suicide hotline. I told them how many pills I took and they advised me to stay put while they send someone over.

I begged them not to send cops. I've had cops called on me for mental health emergencies before and every time I panic and bolt. They promised not to send any police, just paramedics.

They lied.

When the cops forced their way into my house I ran. They used 4 cars, each containing 2 heavily armed officers, to chase me 16 blocks (barefoot) before tackling and cuffing me. I was unarmed and wearing pyjamas.

I am so lucky that I am white. I am so so lucky because I honest to god don't think I would have survived the encounter if I wasn't... Later that day, as they near my bed in the hospital, I heard them bragging about beating up a black disabled man and breaking his wheelchair.

Cops are pigs. They should NEVER be sent during a mental health emergency

#acab #all cops are bastards #oink oink #long post #mental health #suicide mention #crisis line #fuck the police #disabled person #actually bpd #vent (?)

[jennifersbod]

so tired of birth control (medicine) shaming. Like yes it’s a band aid fix in some cases but we do very much USE band aids?

#like do you want to bleed out while waiting years for surgery? no? ok #do you want to have a mental health crisis from hormone imbalance? no? #has no one heard of harm reduction in their lives #not even MENTIONING how it’s helped equality #medical stuff tw #birth control #personal

[lovemeanslife]

see i genuinely love taylor swift's works but ohmygod how can you be an advocate of feminism and yet you dont talk about the struggles of the Palestine crisis and the assault of Palestinian and Arab women?

Your feminism has to be too whitewashed to be literally so oblivious to the sufferings of people after having such a HUGE fanbase and still not uttering a single word about the ongoing genocide.

and people who say that she has a choice to not speak about it and that i am no one to decide what a global popstar does, that's exactly where privilege plays a role.

we have the PRIVILEGE to NOT speak. we have the CHOICE to NOT speak. Palestinians don't even have that choice. They HAVE to resist to exist. and that is why it is necessary for the people who have the privilege of having a choice, to choose to speak up for the ones who don't have the same privilege.

and it's not just her, but several other people who have the privilege to speak up and create awareness. like please. use your privilege wisely at least.

#i really like taylor but this is just so hypocritical of her to call herself a feminist and not talk about the crisis of Palestinian women #like just a mention of 'ceasefire' would literally influence so many people and create awareness #and no im not going to tolerate the argument of mental health like the selena gomez one because again we have the CHOICE to shut off #from these issues but Palestinians dont have either the choice or privilege #i dont care who you are if you have the privilege use your privilege wisely #palestine #free palestine #to be free. #vaseline°

[citricacidprince]

Why is being a person so finicky and weird

I literally threw myself into an existential panic over my inevitable death but decided to counteract that by writing shitty poetry about it and then I immediately felt better, fuck my gay ass mental health why did that work so easily?

#this isn’t a vent btw; I just find the human brain facinating and dumb why is it like that lol #mental health #tw existential dread #tw existential crisis #tw death mention #prince rambles in this chilies tonight

[hikeyzz]

cried for an hour straight in therapy about how much i don't wanna be alive and didn't earn myself a grippy sock vacation so that's a win boyz

#the trick is you can't mention anything about a plan #and if your feelings can be attributed to a physical health crisis they cannot deem it as a mental health crisis as well #so i am free and clear 😎😎 #talks from ur local sexy psycho <3 #hikey

[acheemient]

Hey y'all, this angst has been great and all, but some of us have depression 😆

#good omens #depression #mental health #ineffable husbands #good omens fanart #honestly this is sort of a joke but the holidays are a really really rough time of year for a lot of people including me #not to mention I'm going thru something of a crisis at the moment #and i really do love all of the art and stories #but this is my Comfort Thing at the moment #and i really just want my angel and demon to snuggle and fuck till they have no fluids left #i want love confessions and minor minor misunderstandings that get ironed out in the next few paragraphs #i want them being nervous to hold hands but not being able to stop themselves #i want teasing and flirting and laughing #i want rot your teeth sweet #and melt your brain sexy #let them be happy and gay for the holidays #like #can we do a smut battle next? #this could be about any fandom probably

[jonghyuns-husband]

(CW // Dec 18th, suicide, victims of harassment, violence, mental health talk)

Since I want to spread this hashtag more, I would like to talk about the Shawols that I lost over the years and bring their voices up.

Clem was a friend I met on Wattpad back in 2015 when I was 11 and she was 14. She was one of the closest and the first online friend I’ve ever had. She loved to make SHINee stories for fun and she also helped me to write better. She was an amazing writer who took great passion for her work as well as her being a big advocate for the LGBTQ+ community according to her sister who came out as lesbian a year before we met.

Unfortunately, Clem was bullied at her college and her workplace, including on her online accounts. This would occur about 1-2 month after the death has been announced. On the 15th of December 2018, 3 days after Jonghyun’s first anniversary, she couldn’t take it anymore and took her own life. She was 17.

Sam was a girl in the secondary school who was 2 years older than me. I remembered talking to her once and that was it. She also really loved Jonghyun and Onew and was a BIG fan of the group.

One day, she stopped coming to class. There was a rumour going around saying that Sam took her own life after being hate bombed for posting about Jonghyun positively to cope with the pain. The last time she was in class, a guy mentioned his passing without warning which triggered the girl to stand up and leave. Ever since then, she was never seen again. The guy thought that it was his fault, but it turned out that she was going through a lot recently and couldn’t take it anymore. If it was true, then she died on the 9th of January 2018 aged 16 years old.

Ayami was a close friend of mine since Year 1. Interesting fact, she was actually born in Japan and then came to the UK when she was only 4. That summer, she enrolled in my school where we met on the first day. She didn’t speak much English, but luckily I knew a bit of Japanese so we were able to have a connection together. She was a sweet girl that would look out of anyone who looked like that needed help. She even loved to cook and wanted to start her own sweet shop one day where she would make sweet treats such as cakes, cupcakes, brownies, cookies, etc. Fun fact, my blog @yutassweetshop is actually based on her childhood dream and yes NCT bias was also Yuta! It’s a sweet (no pun intended) tribute to the one I called noona, and yes I’ll never stop calling her that until the day I die. Never mind, she’ll still be my noona anyways.

Although yes she had been harassed around his passing when we went to school together, there were other stuff in her life that really pulled the trigger on her head. I could make a separate post talking about Ayami and what she had went through so you would know, but to keep it simple, her father did some horrible things to her as a kid that when she found out, she took her own life out of fear. She was 14.

The reason why I mentioned her was the fact that Jonghyun’s passing was one of the chain of events she had to go through in her life, and you never truly know what someone has gone through already. Even though she didn’t die over it, that still doesn’t make it ok regardless. It’s still an awful thing to do to someone who is grieving by acting like they are complete strangers and treating them like they had never once seen the man before.

Those 3 girls didn’t took their lives because they were obsessive fans, they died because they were HARASSED to suicide. I know a friend’s friend who was also a blinger that took her own life and her family thought it was because she was sad over the passing of Jonghyun. That wasn’t what happened. She was beaten up at school and was told to kill herself ever since she came back from the Christmas holidays. She ended up doing so in her room and she was so close to celebrating her 16th birthday. It was the same as Jonghyun’s. She took her own life 2 days before at age 15.

There were some people in my cousins’ lives that killed themselves too, but I don’t know them very much, but all of them will be missed. Any Shawols that I’ve missed, please leave their names below and tell me one thing you loved about them. You can even talk about their favourite song or albums.

This tormenting K-Pop fans thing needs to stop. I don’t care if you think teenage girls screaming about their BTS biases are cringe, this needs to end. It’s not funny anymore and it’s claiming lives. I could of lost my friend that I met last year just because of the dumb messages of them saying that he was disrespecting a “deadman.” It just seems so tone deaf that really, they’re actually doing the disrespecting and not him.

This is already a difficult month for all of us and I just beg, PLEASE DO NOT HARASS ANY SHAWOLS. Not just in this month where it’s his anniversary, but WHOLE FUCKING YEAR. Please treat us like human beings and stop making us change for someone who barely even knows about the guy until the news broke and now you want to be the fucking hero when you’re not.

Why don’t you do all of us a favour and just fuck off. I’m sure most of us would want that now. This is why some Shawols like me haven’t yet stopped grieving because of how badly people treated us over the years. It has been 5 years, instead of telling us to “let him rest in peace��, how about you let us “grief in peace.”

It’s like what they say, “don’t give his family condolences if you aren’t going to respect his fans.”

Never mind, I did.

Rest in peace to Clem, Sam, Ayami and everyone else who took their lives due to these kinds of people either in real life or online. Rest in peace to the main guy himself, Kim Jonghyun. Thank you so much for taking care of those lost souls for us. Trust me, this was never your fault. Don’t ever blame yourself for any of this. Disgusting pricks like them (the people who harasses Shawols) has always existed since the beginning of time.

Please don’t cry because of the Shawols that went your route but be happy since you made their dreams come true. 

#serious post #ourdeathisnotyourproperty #cw // vent #cw // dec 18th #cw // death #cw // suicide mention #kpop #shinee #5hinee #shinee is five #shawol #shawols #depression #mental health #mental health crisis #suicide awareness #online harassment #bullying #workplace harassment #school bullying #vent #trolls #online trolls #serious #harassers dni #online trolls dni

[public-trans-it]

I detest the 'lol gas leak' meme so fucking much for a variety of reasons, and a lot of those reasons are important issues with puritanical values and adversity to anything outside the norm.

But honestly the BIGGEST reason is just... this image is the source of the meme:

And God damnit SHE WAS RIGHT. Gas leak or no, I have seen SO MANY FUCKING TRANS PEOPLE (MYSELF INCLUDED) FLIRT EXACTLY LIKE THAT. That line would ABSOLUTELY work on me.

#not to mention the amount of attention on her during a very difficult moment in her life was... kinda shitty #imagine if you were suffering a mental health crisis and in the middle of it thousands of eyes turned to stare at you and monitor every move #to the point to where now when anyone does something even slightly outside the societal norm they get compared to you #no fucking thanks #BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY #SHE WAS FUCKING RIGHT #POST MADE PERFECT SENSE

[mental-mona]

Don't forget calling 988!

#crisis line #suicide prevention #suicide hotline #tw: suicide mention #mental health resources #mental health support #mental health awareness month #mental health #mental illness

[briarpatch-kids]

The difference between being diagnosed and undiagnosed is still making me extra insane. When my GI problems started, I lost 80 lbs to illness in like 3 or 4 months. Shit was SCARY, I only lived because I had a buffer of weight to lose before it got deadly. Nobody really gave a shit though?

Now, despite having figured things out, I'm maintaining my weight, even gained a bit, the dietician was just casually like "oh yeah, if it ever becomes a Problem and you can't keep up on the oral liquid diet we can give you a feeding tube."

What??? Like, where was this when it WAS too hard? Oh, right. It was available, just not to people without a name for their disease.

#also i had to call a mental health crisis line before i got real physical care but thats a story for another day #the indignity of that is still pretty fucking fresh #weight mention #(medical context)

[katarafirelady]

well good news everyone, i have decided not to kill myself tonight on account of the neopets.com advent calendar is giving out seasonal attack peas

#neopets #neotag #tw suicide mention #seriously i was in mental health crisis earlier today but now im like #SAP??!!??! 🤠

[gayforcarstairsgirls]

I like to start early, make sure my professors know from term one that I am a flailing mess, set their expectations nice and low before I wow them with my inability to turn in work

#me liveblogging my essay crisis 👍 #guess who has not written the essay and has sent her professor an email saying she has not written it and mentioning her anxiety 👍 #i am so professional and calm and very very good at emails i never mention aspects of my failing mental health #ffs #emails are literally excruciating who invented this