#mental health mention

[zippyzstuff]

#mental health memes #mental health #mental health matters #mental health awareness #mental health mention #self care #self care reminder #pressure #society #be yourself #be you

[prettybillycore]

You Are Not a Burden, Billy Hargrove || Billy Hargrove x GN!Reader

Pairing(s): Billy Hargrove x GN!Reader

Universe: Stranger Things

Summary: After moving in with you, Billy has good days and bad days with his mental health. You were there for him in one of his darkest moments.

Rating: Teen

Word Count: 1.3k

Warnings: Neil Hargrove is his own warning, Billy's Anger issues, Mental Health Breakdown (Billy's), swearing, Police

Read it on ao3 (or on this Tumblr post below the cut)

Part of your deal with Billy was that he had to work on bettering himself. You told him from the beginning of your blossoming relationship– be nice to me and the kids and Steve or our relationship can’t continue. I know you’re still learning and I can see that you are trying, but respect is one of the most important things in relationships like this. 

Billy had never been in a relationship; this fact surprised you at first, but the more you thought about it, the more it made sense. It broke your heart a little inside knowing that he had never been shown gentle kindness and love. You were willing to give him the safe space he needed to heal and he knew that too. You said as long as he was trying to get better you would be there to support him and that was more than anyone else had ever done for him. I’ll do my best, Doll. I promise. I know I’ll have bad days, but I’m gonna do everything I can to get the anger out in better ways.

You brushed your hand across his cheek and smiled up at him. He had never seen someone look at him with so much pure adoration. It made him feel fragile. All I ask for is that you’re trying. I love you, Billy Hargrove. 

He set his hands lightly on your hips. I love you too. 

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Billy had more good days than bad this summer and you were so thankful for that. You loved him dearly– he was protective of you, always brought you flowers on date night, and wouldn’t let you open or close your own car door. He essentially worshipped the ground you walked on most days and you felt so loved. The party and your friends were all starting to accept that Billy was treating you like a god(dess). They didn’t always love that he was hanging around, but they respected your relationship. It was enough for you to feel comfortable. Billy was making progress on being generally nicer to the soon-to-be freshman and he treated Steve was respect every time he saw him. It made your heart swell.

There were still bad times, though. Mostly now they consisted of panic more than rage. Billy was staying at your house all the time and Max stayed in your guestroom whenever she felt like she needed to get out of the Hargrove-Mayfield household. Billy would receive angry and threatening calls from his father sometimes. He would scream into the phone until you gently placed your hand on his shoulder and he hung up the phone. You two would curl up on his bed and you would let him sob into the crook of your neck. He held onto you like nothing you had ever experienced before; like if he let you go, you would evaporate. You would hum simple songs and play with his hair until you both fell asleep. 

This bad day wasn’t like those bad days, unfortunately. You walked into the house after dropping the Party off at the Wheelers’ place, and Billy was fuming. Much like Steve’s parents, your parents weren’t around much. Billy was just alone, just pacing around and mumbling to himself. You could see how angry he was in his body language. You closed the door behind you, “Billy, Love, are you alright?”

His nostrils flared, but he didn’t stop pacing. “Do I look fucking alright to you, y/n?”

You kept your temperament even and you were so glad that Max was off at the mall with the Party right now. “What happened?”

“Fucking Neil! Ugly bastard called the cops on me.”

“What? Did the cops come here?” You had only been gone for like an hour; you picked up all the members of the Party and drove them to Starcourt. 

“Just Hopper, thank fuck. He said he recognized your name from when Neil called the station. He came to check on everything and told me he would handle Neil, but fuck! Why can’t he just leave me alone? I’m completely fucking moved out at this point. I live here with you and I’m not a fuckin’ burden to him anymore,” he seethed. His teeth were clenched together so tightly you were worried they would break. 

“I’m so sorry, Billy. You handled it well; let’s get you a drink and sit down for a minute. I’m worried about you,” you said. You started to reach your hand out toward him, but he pulled back and glared at you.

“Don’t treat me like a child. I know I’m a burden to you too. You don’t have to pretend to care about me.”

You were dumbfounded. “What? Billy, you are not a burden to me. You never have been and never will be. Your brain is just saying that because you’re raging. You’ll be okay, I promise you’re safe here.” It was the first time those words had ever come out of his mouth. You couldn’t bare the thought of him considering himself a burden to you. “Honey Love, you are the most important person in my life. Your mental health doesn’t make you a burden, it makes you human.”

Normally, when you said things like that, he would go soft. He would fall into your arms and you will hold him until he was ready to talk about what was going on in his brain. Again, today was different than usual. He had really gotten into his own head while you were gone. “Stop lying to me, you fucking bitch! You don’t care about me! No one–”

“God I hate you sometimes. I hate your brain sometimes, fuck!” You cut him off with your cursing. His near-constant pacing stopped as you put your hands over your eyes. “I wish I could take away your pain. I wish I could take your trauma and lock it away and throw the key into the fucking ocean, but I can’t! I don’t know how to help you when your rage transfers to me. I know you aren’t really mad at me, but fuck it hurts…” Your hands were becoming damp with your own tears. 

“Baby…” Billy mumbled. His raging monster inside had been shut up with those sentences. The guilt was crawling up his spine and made him feel like he was going to be sick. He wanted to talk to you about feeling burdensome, but not like this. This broke everything in him. His one promise to himself was to not hurt you; he never wanted to hurt you. You told him that was unrealistic because he’s human and we are all capable of hurting people, but he still told himself not to hurt you. He couldn’t believe that he had let those words come out of his mouth. “I’m… I’m sorry. I’m pissed at Neil, not you. I didn’t mean to make you cry.”

You pulled your hands away from your face and he was standing still a little ways away from you. He looked absolutely horrified and you were sure that he was thinking all kinds of self-hating thoughts right now. You wiped your eyes and walked over to him with open arms. He hugged you back quickly and tightly. “I know, Love. You’re still going through things with Neil and there are still going to be bad days.”

“I never want to make you upset though… Fuck…” His face was hidden in your hair. You could feel him trembling. “I don’t want you to leave me, but I understand if you want to.”

You squeezed him tighter. “Absolutely fucking not. Even when things happen and we fight or you slip up, I know you’re trying to get through your pain. You’re starting to heal and I’m not going anywhere. You are not a burden, Billy Hargrove; not to me or anyone else. You are a human who’s got some growing to do... And I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said what I did either.”

“It's alright... I love you… so fuckin’ much,” he whispered.

“I love you too, Billy.”

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[kitten-forward]

#mental health #mental illness #mental wellbeing #positive mental attitude #mental wellness #adhd #positivity #self healing #therapy #body positive #beautiful body #positive thoughts #positive quotes #coping #mental health stuff #mental health memes #mental health mention #tw disordered eating #disordered eating thoughts #physically disabled #disability #tw eating issues

[mossy-headstones]

Enough socializing, time to rot in my bedroom

#mental ill meme #mental health memes #mental health mention #text post #mental illness #my post #actually bpd #bpd tag #bpd meme #self deprecating tw #tw depressing stuff #depressing memes #depression memes

[theethlezprincez]

im reading my book about psychiatry and DO THEY REALLY SEE US THAT WAY? FUCKING HELL

#mentally tired #sick and tired #ana is my friend #ana miaa #tw mia #i'm so fucking tired #actually mentally ill #tw m14 #actually psychotic #m14 #psychiatry #books and reading #mental health #mh #mental health matters #mental health mention #mental illness is not cool #mental illness

[zuzsenpai]

personal post. tw for mental illness and medication mentions

About four months ago I started having bad anxiety almost completely out of nowhere. I've had depression for about 13 years, but never a whole lot of anxiety until recently. I was also extremely restless, legs constantly shaking, irritable, and unable to focus. My psychiatrist seemed to think that one of my depression meds (I'm on two) that I've been on for three years was suddenly causing these symptoms-- maybe not the anxiety, but probably the restlessness. So I started tapering off of that med. I was extremely worried about taking common "as needed" anxiety medicines because they can be addictive and sedative. So while I was tapering off of the depression med, she prescribed a non-addictive daily anxiety med. Once I was completely tapered off of the one depression med (and my restlessness actually did stop!), she upped the dose of the anxiety med.

Two weeks ago I started feeling constantly lightheaded, extremely fatigued and exhausted, zero concentration, and had frequent mild aphasia (in which I couldn't form proper sentences while speaking without a lot of effort). I thought they were pre-migraine symptoms since I have had those in the past and the weather has been a little weird recently. These symptoms had honestly been scaring the shit out of me. I haven't been able to enjoy things I wanted to. I haven't been able to get work done at work. This past weekend I had guests over and I was sick pretty much the whole fucking time.

SO.... I had COMPLETELY forgotten that I started the higher dose of the new anxiety med exactly two weeks ago. Lo and behold, I looked up the side effects for that med yesterday and ALL of my recent symptoms line up with those side effects. I'm relieved that it can be something potentially fixable if I taper off of this particular med. But..... my anxiety is literally gone now, most likely because of this med. So.... what the fuck am I supposed to do now? Do I wait another week to see if the symptoms subside? If they don't, do I ask my psychiatrist to take me off of the med? What will I do if the anxiety comes back?

I was talking to my mom about this (bad bad bad idea and yet somehow I did it anyway) and she got very mad that I'm not trying "exercise, meditation, and prayer" as a cure for the anxiety. I don't think she realizes that my depression is so shitty and debilitating that I can barely do anything outside of take meds (which mostly don't work regardless of which depression med I take).

I've been extremely stressed as my projects at work pile up and my hobbies have been pushed to the side. I have no idea what to do. I guess I need to fucking exercise.

#zuzu note; #personal post #personal post for ts #mental health mention #mental illness mention

[gallium-spoon]

I'm about 100 pages into Rhythm of War and Kaladin has such clear and obvious clinical depression I am climbing the walls about it

And he doesn't know! He doesn't know that's what's wrong because Roshar hasn't invented depression diagnosis yet! He's just walking around like why am I sad all the time? Why do I feel disconnected from my friends and like nothing I do matters or is good enough? Boy you are capital D Depressed!!!

I need the ardents to get on inventing antidepressants and get my boy a Prozac prescription stat!

#rhythm of war spoilers #rhythm of war #the stormlight archive spoilers #the stormlight archive #really only minor spoilers i mean kal has been depressed this whole time #its just really obvious right now #depression mention #mental health mention

[lilymaidofgallifrey]

I have read a lot more books than last year, partly because I was going through it with my mental health at the beginning of the year and couldn't watch TV, but I'm happy I seem to have gotten back into reading. My mental health is in a good place how but I'm still finding time to read which is great. I also gave myself permission to not give books ratings on Goodreads because assigning a star value to books was majorly stressing me out for some reason.

Anyway I hope I'll be more active on here with book content again. I would love some book recommendations from the best books you read this year, or just something fun or good you think I should read!

#books #booklr #book recommendations #reading #mental health mention

[arorabbit]

nier automata is so crazy imagine having two characters with entire boss fights dedicated to their shit coping mechanisims

#nier automata #nier eve #eve nier #nier 9s #9s nier #9s #yorha 9s #mental health mention #mental health tw

[scenicphoenix]

Getting a pet really benefits the mental health for some people, because I am doing things for this little guy that lives on my floor that I never really did for myself until I got him

Depression brain: no cleaning today

But what about our cat

Depression brain: I'll make an exception

#mental health mention #mental health #pets #pets are the best

[angstyaches]

Just saw your latest tags. I know it’s easier said than done, but please try not to put too much pressure on yourself, Flick. Your writing is always great, and even if it wasn’t as good as the standards you set yourself, I’m so attached to the StW boys that I’d happily read a 5000 word fic about Elliott baking a cake at this point - and I’d enjoy it, because it was written by a writer I love about characters I adore!

Nobody will mind if things take a little longer. Just try and have faith in yourself and take care <3

(Being brave and coming off anon for the first time to post this!!)

My dear, thank you so much for this beautiful ask. I appreciate that coming off anon means a lot so please know I'm so, so grateful. You're already a precious human to me, and seeing you in my notes always brightens my day immensely. (Honestly, Elliott would happily be caught in a 5,000 word cake-baking situation.)

For the rest of the asks relating to this topic, I'm going to pop them under a cut because I don't want to take up too much of people's dashboard space, but I adore and appreciate you all 🖤

🍄: You're an absolute star, which I hope you already know by now. Thank you for always being such an amazing human.

🐆: Thank you my dear!

And last anon, this legitimately made me choke up when I got it so thank you as well 🖤🖤🖤

#ask #anon #vibriovibrato #you are all so amazing and i don't feel like i deserve you #but i'm working on it #mental health mention #Flickposting

[rumoredtoexist]

being medicated for adhd is amazing until you start mourning the loss of all you could’ve been doing all that time when you were begging your parents to get you therapy and to get you checked for adhd

atp idek if i have depression i think it was just horrendously bad executive dysfunction?? or at the very least depression that isn’t as bad as i had originally thought. it’s just frustrating and kind of awful to think about sometimes because i had so much h potential and everyone saw it too they just thought i wasn’t applying myself ir was being lazy in purpose

#this is definitely a vent post #it’s just something i’ve been thinking about since i’ve recently gotten in adhd meds #like i’m SO grateful for it i truly an #but it doesn’t come without mourning #adhd #mental health #living with adhd #adhd brain #mental health mention

[thebestorworstofit]

quite honestly i’ve been in a very low place recently, like worse than its been in a long time. fairweather friendships have been heavy lately and it’s been fucking with me more than i typically let it - which has also involved shutting myself off from some people, as well as new interactions just out of fear of letting people see the tragic mope of a person i can be sometimes - i mean, who enjoys being vulnerable? 

that being said i do miss being here and indulging in this side of my creativity so i am trying to dig in my heels and find a balance again, however i will not be indulging in friendships that only hold value to others when they need me or when it’s something convenient to them; no plot or fc is worth feeling that small.

huge thank you to everyone for their patience, i’m going to try to get back to everyone’s messages as soon as i can. <3

#ooc #mental health mention

[telekinesis-mind-control-comics]

#sociopath #aspd #sociopathic #socioeconomic #mental health #mental illness #actually mentally ill #positive mental attitude #mentally fucked #mental health support #mental health matters #mental health care #mental health posting #mental health stuff #mental health services #mental health shit #mental health struggles #mental health mention #mental health problems #mental health professionals #mental health positivity #mental health education #mental health empowerment #mental health awareness #mental health advocate #mental health advice #mental health advantages #mental health lifestyle #mental health symptoms #mental health sickness

[mossy-headstones]

Me: I seriously am going to end my shit right here I can’t keep doing this

Me five minutes later: watching tik tok in a silly goofy mood

#tw sui ideation #tw death #tw shooting #bpd tag #bpd meme #mental health mention #mental health memes #mental illness memes #mentally ill

[cypriathus]

Here's my version of Zerachiel!

POTENTIAL TRIGGER WARNING: I briefly mention pedophilia and talk about OCD.

Zurachoniel Absevomuthi is a self-confident, honest, and patient charismatic fallen hybrid between an archangel and a choir angel with a strong fondness for young children. He’s exceptionally compassionate and wise, and often behaves in an enthusiastic and cheerful way, trying to inspire positivity within others. However, he can come off as frustratingly boisterous, gullible, naive, and even mischievous at times. Despite the betrayal of his kind and his persistent loneliness, he tries to maintain an optimistic outlook on life. He’s a workaholic with intense loyalty in his relationships and materialistic desires. Due to his pragmatic nature, he’s concerned more with matters of fact than with what could or should be. He’s tenacious and stubborn when it comes to his responsibilities and love of music, but can make brash and clumsy decisions. Whenever he feels extremely stressed out or mentally exhausted, he tries to remain calm, bubbly, and stoic. He has obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), possessing an irrational fear of contamination and misplacing items. He has a need for things to be orderly and balanced, and a difficult time dealing with uncertainty. He experiences unwanted, aggressive, and horrific thoughts about sexual objects, losing control, and harming himself and others. Zurachoniel tries to think of more pleasant thoughts, follows a strict cleaning and organising routine, and often demands reassurance.

He’s a 5’ 3” (160.02 cm) ectomorph with an inverted triangular figure, sloping shoulders, a square chest, and a mediocre musculature. He has pallid skin with cut marks on his thighs and greyish-brown freckles on his face, neck, hands, and feet. He has inverted T transgender mastectomy scars and a silvery birthmark that’s shaped like a long-haired comet on his lower right abdominopelvic quadrant. Zurachoniel’s side-swept hair is a silvery-green with messy surfer vibes, and he has sunburst soft maroon-salmon pink eyes with blue tapetum lucidum. He used to have two wings that mimic the natural hues of a purple sterling, but changed into a glossy black with pink sheen after his fall. He has two tattoos: a fiery gyrfalcon emerging from an old-fashioned furnace and a blue serpent coiling around a golden trumpet on his right arm.

During his time in heaven, he wore a linen alb of shimmering blue-green with slight ripples and it reached above his mid-calves. Over his alb is a golden dalmatic that had embroidered designs of hibiscus flowers, rivers, shooting comets, turtle doves, and circles of fire. He wears a cashmere red-violet skirt with white ermine trim at the bottom and gilt-brass anklets. Around his waist was a metallic purple girdle of bluish-yellow bells, red grapes, and poet’s daffodils. He originally had a simple golden halo that gleamed with bright light, but that would turn into a smoky black with sharp spikes. After Zurachoniel’s fall from grace, he wears a tight broadcloth shirt of mine shaft and a viola bowtie with diagonal marigold stripes. He dons a fuzzy wuzzy brown tuxedo and dusty grey trousers with copper rust and pirate’s gold polka dots. He also has an acapulco formal V-neck vest and gypsum rose lace-ups with metallic blue bottoms. He carries around an acoustic guitar made from Hawaiian koa wood and a golden carnyx that has a bell styled in an open-mouthed dragon’s head. His gryphon-adorned thurible is tied to his black leather belt and his carnyx has a thin, yet sturdy shoulder strap.

Zurachoniel can manipulate holy music, fragrance, bitterness, and angels, and use omni-telepathy, meta-teleportation, and psychokinesis. His omniscience is nearly perfect, but various details and topics are mentally blocked. However, he possesses absolute knowledge on moons, the musical arts, and the apocalypse of each universe. He’s a master of singing and musical instruments, using his voice to purify negativity in those who are willing to listen. His physical strength and emotional intelligence is enhanced by prayers, and he can sense the coming of death and act of dying. He can create a violent firestorm and falling comets that poison rivers and water springs. He’s able to freeze the movement of the stars, moons, and the Sun, diminishing light and causing complete darkness during day and night. He has the ability to summon crowned locusts, earthquakes, hailstorms, lightning, and thunder. He can heal people of their physical and mental scars, and damage the souls of parents for their incompetence to protect and educate their children. Zurachoniel has dominion over the earth and purifying light, and can absorb addictions, night terrors, and memory problems.

FAMILY:

Unknown

ALIASES/NICKNAMES:

Zerachiel

Acrid Wyrm

Angel of Bitterness, Fractured Childhood, and Slow Healing

FUN FACTS/EXTRA INFORMATION:

He’s questioning and transgender

As an Æylphitus, the different parts of his name have special meanings: Zurachoniel means “god has remembered” and Absevomuthi means “woodworm”.

He views door handles, empty sinks, and public toilets as sources of contamination.

He silently repeats a series of words in gibberish nonsense while doing unrelated tasks

When organising his clothing, antique items, books, and musical instruments, he always counts backwards and avoids the number 7.

During his time in Eylvhraszokjumni, he was a babysitter, an educator, and the leader of the choir angels.

He questioned the divine council on the unjust rules they impose on sinners and how some people were unfairly judged. The divine council weren’t impressed, so they orchestrated a plan to turn most of the angels against him by proclaiming that he’s a pedophile. They used fabricated evidence to strengthen their claim, so they can “justify” why he was kicked out of heaven.

His penis was surgically removed and his vagina mutilated with a ceremonial dagger, basilisk venom, and medicinal alcohol.

He dislikes to admit that he’s a fallen angel

He’s the vocalist and acoustic guitarist of Amara Lignum (“Bitter Wood” in Latin), a funky jazz band he founded.

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