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icanseethefuture333 · 5 months
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Random ass question, but what do you think is the best way for a 4/10 girl to become at least a 7 out of 10? I’m aware that “beauty is subjective” but I’m literally below average, 4/10 is being lenient for me lol
How to have confidence in your physical appearance 🎀
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First of all sweetie,
let's not rate ourselves on a scale about how pretty we are! It's really degrading and I feel like you deserve so much better than that. Living in a generation where filters are oversaturated, people using AI to edit their photos, and incels with porn addictions and have never felt the touch of a woman, will call the most beautiful girl "mid". It's so understandable why one's self esteem can feel low at times. You need to change the way you talk about yourself (especially me). Beauty always start from within - as redundant as that sounds. You can't feel pretty if you're not focusing on the reason why you feel this way. A pretty soul (and self concept!) makes a prettier face. Moving on, let's get into the actual tips of a glow up 💖
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Let's address the elephant in the room 🐘: you're not ugly, just acting pitiful
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Have you ever wondered why you have seen those people who are considered "unattractive" or "unconventionallly pretty" by others be in successful relationships or popular with their peers? It's because they have confidence. Have you ever been attracted to someone that may not necessarily fit the beauty standards or be considered a jaw dropping model, but you thought they were cute anyways because of their personality or charm? That's exactly what I mean. You can be a pretty face or have a nice body, but have terrible self esteem. Living in California my whole life I come across this everyday. There is plenty of beautiful people here, but there is also a lot of people with no sense of humor and no offense, but have no personalities. In other words, you can be attractive, but superficial and boring.
To feel beautiful or more like a "10" even on your worst day is mainly having a good self concept. You need to think with the mindset of "I am the baddest bitch even on my worse days and nobody can make me feel different about that, not even me." Our concept can be changed, reshaped, rebuilt, morphed, etc, into any way we want it to be. Our self concept and dominant thoughts are created by our previous past experiences and what people have told us what we are. For example, if you were bullied in your youth and somebody picked on you for your features. Why would you give a fuck about what a bully thinks??? A person who humiliated and traumatized someone at a weak point in their life does not matter. Their opinion, their actions, their thoughts - doesn't matter. You can change yourself anytime you want, we are animals, we are literally mean to be apart of this cycle called life and our habits, attitudes, opinions, etc, can change at any moment. We are meant to grow and adapt. You get to decide who you are, what you feel, and how you wish people to perceive you. Nobody else. So when you repeatedly say things to people like "I'm not beautiful", they're gonna get tired of it honestly and be like "Yk what damn bitch I guess you are ugly!" because it gets tiring to hear someone complain about the same thing even when they just reassured them (again, I'm guilty of this too). So when you depend on someone to make you feel good about yourself, that's just codependency. You are also giving them the power to manipulate you. Don't do that. Be free and be independent, love yourself. It's your self esteem and you cannot be dependent on anybody else to fill that void you have within yourself.
As Katt Williams said, "It's the esteem of your motherfucking self!"
Why it's not your fault you don't 'feel" pretty
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Like I said above, you are most likely a product of your surroundings. Most people are not raised by their parents to have good self esteem or to teach them how to be confident or emotionally secure. There are many environmental factors to insecurity and that it is okay if you are never 100% feeling confident about yourself. People in the media construct this ego to seem "cool" and act conceited as a way to avoid being seen as weak to society. You can be confident and also have insecurities. Confidence is just about being secure with the essence of who you are and setting boundaries when necessary with other people when it comes to that. A confident person doesn't tolerate disrespect.
"Conceited" or confident?: how to avoid confusing the two
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I think the most irritating thing to me that is normalized these days is narcissism and conceited people. People will literally act boastful and cocky then say "I'm just confident". Behaving like a narcissist or saying that you are one is not cute and never will be because it's literally a personality disorder, a mental health condition. Everytime I hear this it makes me want to roll my eyes so far back into my head. Try to avoid being this person with a "God complex" because there's a difference between a person who is being loud and fake with "confidence". A real confident person makes moves in silence and is genuine with themselves. If you have to brag or put another person down to feel like hot shit, then you're not a confident person, period.
Tips to enhance your beauty
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As I said before anon you are already a 10 in my eyes, but I understand how it feels to not feel pretty at times and we all have our days when we are looking "rough". Here are some self care tips I do that helps me feel pretty and pampered physically ✨️
Get some beauty sleep! This is not just a saying. When your body has time to rest it gives you time to reset & have more energy for the next day. Getting plenty of sleep helps prevent dark circles & puffy eyes as well. If you struggle with falling asleep spray lavender pillow spray, drink tea, or play asmr/soothing sounds.
Skincare & hygiene, this is such a crucial step that everyone should practice in their daily lives. All of us have different skin textures and when we neglect our skin it causes a dry, oily, or bumpy surfaces. Now skin texture is totally normal but if you notice the days where you are not washing your face frequently enough, your skin either looks dull, dirty, or you experience more pimples / acne breakouts. Not to mention how dirty we feel when our body is projecting a certain odor. You don't need to have an extravagant routine, but at least try to have about 4 hygienic products (soap, deodorant, lotion, & body spray/prrfume) and 4 skincare products (facial cleanser (I recommend double cleansing!), serum, SPF/Sunscreen, & face lotion).
Mirror work, saying affirmations in the mirror has proven to be helpful for people's self esteem & feeling more confident with their physical appearance.
Change your wardrobe! Start dressing for your body type & how your ideal self would. It might feel uncomfortable at first but you will feel so much more beautiful! You could try finding videos on tiktok of people with your body type to help (for example, if you are plus sized, you could search your desired aesthetic & find people with the same shape as you).
Detox from social media 📱, learn when it is time to take a break from your phone & engage with the real world. Scrolling for hours on your phone can be really harmful especially if you're reading negative comments or watching videos that are self depreciating.
Follow people who uplift you, not tear you down. If you are following people who obviously are negative or affect your self esteem somehow, then you do not need to be supporting them.
Make appointments! Whether that is a doctor appointment or lash, nail, or hair appointments. Take care of your mind, health, and body. You could ask your doctor what vitamins you should take or also seek a counselor/therapist to find the root of your insecurities in a safe place. Also sometimes just getting my hair or nails done makes me feel more confident!
Learn to treat yourself. Buy yourself flowers or a gift you always wanted but never received. This could be anything, it doesn't necessarily mean to spend money. For example, cooking your favorite food, having a lazy day, etc. Remember that you deserve to be happy!
Lastly, beauty spells, glamour magick, and manifestation are popular methods for people who wish to enhance their physical appearance. I do all of these myself and I always feel so hot afterwards!
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I hope you found these tips helpful beautiful ♡!
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astrologged · 1 year
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Physical appearance of the signs
Sun | Ascendant | Midheaven
Aries: Are often associated with a lean and athletic build, with a prominent forehead, high cheekbones and a broad neck. They may also have sharp and angular facial features, with a strong jawline and expressive eyes. They often have a confident and bold demeanor, which can be reflected in their physical appearance.
Taurus: Are often associated with a sturdy and robust build and may have a rounder and fuller face, with soft features such as full cheeks, sensual lips and a rounded nosetip and deep, penetrating eyes. They have a calm, grounded and soft demeanor, which can be reflected in their physical appearance. The Venusian energy can manifest in the person's physical appearance, making them appear beautiful to others.
Gemini: Have a more slender and athletic build, with long limbs and a youthful appearance. They may also have a more expressive and angular face, with a prominent nose and sharp features. They tend to have a bigger, more prominent upper lip and are very expressive with their hands. They have a curious and talkative demeanor, which can be reflected in their physical appearance.
Cancer: have a softer and rounder appearance, with a tendency to gain weight in the hips and thighs. They may also have a fuller, rounder face with gentle features, and large and expressive, sometimes watery eyes. They’re known for their nurturing and empathetic personalities, which can be reflected in their physical appearance. 
Leo: Tend to have a strong and confident appearance, with a more prominent and dramatic bone structure and big and/or full hair, they are prone to gaining weight on the lower side of the face. Males with a Leo ascendant might suffer from loss of hair early on. Overall Leo has a charismatic and outgoing demeanor, which can also be reflected in their physical appearance.
Virgo: Tend to have a more refined and delicate appearance, with a slender and angular bone structure, with a lean and toned build. They may have a more angular and symmetrical face, with a high forehead and a straight nose, and are very expressive with their hands. They ave a reserved and analytical demeanor, which can also be reflected in their physical appearance. They tend to look younger than their actual age.
Libra: Tend to have a balanced and symmetrical appearance, with a more refined and attractive bone structure. Their bodies are balanced and proportionate. They have a charming and diplomatic demeanor, which can be reflected in their physical appearance. The Venusian energy can manifest in the person's physical appearance, making them appear beautiful to others.
Scorpio: Tend to have an intense and magnetic appearance, with a more angular and defined bone structure and a sharp, sometimes angular nose with deep and penetrating eyes. They have a mysterious and passionate demeanor, which can be reflected in their physical appearance.
Sagittarius: Tend to have a more athletic and adventurous appearance, with a more elongated and lean bone structure. They often have a more expressive and animated face, with a prominent forehead and bright, friendly eyes. They have a playful, outgoing and independent demeanor, which is reflected in their physical appearance.
Capricorn: Tend to have a more serious and mature appearance, with a more prominent and structured bone structure with a square jawline and more serious looking eyes. They’re usually of average size, quite proportionate. They have a disciplined and ambitious demeanor, which is also reflected in their physical appearance.
Aquarius: Are often associated with a more unique appearance, with a tendency towards a lean and angular build. They have a striking and expressive face, with high cheekbones and piercing eyes. They prefer to look authentic and often decide to wear unconventional clothes. They have an independent and innovative demeanor, which can also be reflected in their physical appearance.
Pisces: Tend to have a more dreamy and ethereal appearance, with a softer and more delicate bone structure and oftentimes a pale skin. They may have a more gentle and sensitive face, with large and expressive watery eyes. They have a compassionate and artistic demeanor, which is often reflected in their physical appearance.
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kathlanadian · 7 days
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Taurus Sun — Physical Appearance
Taurus Sun/Rising: These natives have sweet faces with full features. The shape of the face is oval or square, and broad regardless. Button nose, enlarged nostrils, full lips, dark eyes. Fair complexion with thick, dark, shiny hair, which can be wavy. Whilst these individuals have an appearance of softness to them, they also look sturdy and well-proportioned. Thick necks are common, as are long necks. Well defined calves. These natives give off a strong sense of calm and stability. They possess a heavy step. Their style is classic and stylish, choosing long-lasting clothes. Earthy colors are often worn.
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black-suns-rim · 7 months
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The Loreirrans - regional appearance and subspecies
it is time that i finally make a big post about my original alien species, the Loreirrans! keep in mind that i have been world-building about them for about 5 years now, so i have so much information about them that i'll need to post in sections. This post will focus on the diverse appearances the Loreirrans take and a couple of the subspecies that exist.
General Physical Appearance
Appearance of the Loreirrans
The Loreirrans are a captivating and ancient species, distinguished by their unique physical characteristics. These highly intelligent, bipedal humanoids possess a striking appearance, and their attributes vary depending on their age, environment, and reproductive state.
Height and Physique: Loreirrans exhibit a remarkable range in height, typically standing between 8 to 12 feet tall. In rare instances, some Loreirrans can grow even taller, reaching heights of 15 feet or more. Their body types, from slender to robust, are influenced by the environmental conditions of their habitat, and their fur varies from short peach fuzz to long and lush, offering insulation and camouflage.
Coloration: The coloration of Loreirrans is predominantly dark, serving as effective natural camouflage. However, their bodies are adorned with vibrant neon patches that appear on their joints, backs, and the undersides of their feet and hands. These bright accents contrast beautifully with their dark base color and are influenced by their specific environment.
Limbs and Digits: Loreirrans possess five fingers on each hand and two toes on each foot, except for those residing in the swamp and jungle regions, who boast a unique third toe, functioning like a dew claw. Their hands and feet are highly dexterous, facilitating complex tasks.
Sensory Adaptations: Intriguingly, Loreirrans lack visible ears and noses. Instead, they rely on sensory input from small openings located behind their jawlines for auditory perception. They have sharp front teeth reminiscent of canines, and their back teeth are adapted for grinding. A retractable tongue, capable of extending up to 3 feet, aids in various tasks.
Sensory Organs: Loreirrans possess unique sensory adaptations. They lack conventional eyes but perceive the world through infrared and electromagnetic fields, providing them with a distinct and comprehensive view of their surroundings. Adults boast sensory organs on their backs and shoulders, visible as neon-colored patches, which enhance their perception further.
Metamorphosis and Reproduction: Loreirrans undergo a metamorphosis-like transition from youth to adulthood. Prepubescent and young Loreirrans lack certain adult traits, including the neon patches, extra arms, antennae, and a spiny ridge extending from head to tail, lacking a tail as well. Young Loreirrans have a more humanoid appearance with four antennae. Upon completing this transformation, Loreirrans are considered adults, achieving sexual maturity and the potential to produce offspring. Most Loreirrans are hermaphrodites, capable of both male and female reproduction, although exceptions exist with distinct male or female sexes.
Regional Appearances
Appearance of Tundra Regional Loreirrans (Tundrans)
Fur and Palms: Tundra regional Loreirrans, affectionately known as Tundrans, exhibit distinctive physical traits uniquely adapted to their frigid environment. Their fur is notably thick, covering their entire body in a pristine white coat. While their body fur is plush and soft, their palms boast a shorter but denser fur, providing extra insulation against the cold. This specialized fur texture ensures warmth and comfort in the harsh tundra conditions.
Antennae: The Tundrans' antennae are shorter than those of Loreirrans from other regions, and they share the same fur texture as their palms. These shorter antennae are perfectly suited to their environment and contribute to their streamlined appearance.
Size: Tundrans are comparatively smaller in stature, standing at an average height of 7 to 8 feet tall. This smaller size allows them to navigate their icy surroundings with agility and efficiency.
Color Variations: While Tundrans predominantly sport a pristine white fur coat, some individuals may exhibit patches of alternative colors, such as browns or grays. However, it's important to note that Tundrans never possess bright neon colors on their fur. Instead, their dark and neon colorations are concealed beneath their fur, remaining unseen unless a Tundran undergoes shaving.
Appearance of Water Regional Loreirrans (Watorrians)
Skin and Gills: Watorrians are uniquely adapted to their aquatic habitat, featuring smooth, water-resistant skin that allows for effortless gliding through the water. Distinctively, they possess three rows of gills situated beneath their jawline. These gills play a crucial role in respiration and appear to connect to their infrared sensing organs, granting them unparalleled underwater perception.
Webbed Adaptations: Watorrians are streamlined swimmers, thanks to their extensive webbing. This webbing extends across various parts of their bodies, facilitating swift and graceful movement in the aquatic realm. Notably, their fingers, toes, antennae base, and tail base are adorned with webbed structures, optimizing their hydrodynamic efficiency.
Spiny Ridge and Sensory Fins: The spiny ridge of Watorrians is elongated and exceptionally smooth, contributing to their streamlined form. Along the bottom of their tail and stomach, they possess small sensory fins that serve as sensitive detectors, allowing them to perceive even the slightest changes in water conditions, such as sudden movements or currents.
Colorations: Watorrians exhibit a color palette that leans toward shades of blues and greens, mirroring the hues of their underwater world. However, some individuals may display variations in color, including purples and reds. These colorations add to their visual diversity and blend harmoniously with their aquatic surroundings.
Size: Standing at a height of 8 to 9 feet when on land, Watorrians are equally formidable underwater, where their total length, from head to tail, spans an impressive 18 to 20 feet. These dimensions are finely tuned for their adept navigation and survival in the water.
Appearance of Desert Regional Loreirrans (Desertorrians)
Plentiful Representatives: Among all regional Loreirrans, Desertorrians are the most abundant and serve as the primary physical representation of the Loreirran species.
Fur and Coverage: Desertorrians possess a distinct covering of thin peach fuzz that envelops their entire body, with notable exceptions. This fine fur provides insulation and protection from the desert environment. Notably, their spiny ridge, the soles of their feet, and the palms of their hands remain devoid of fur.
Cranial Features: One distinguishing feature of Desertorrians is the slight elongation of the back of their heads compared to Loreirrans from other regions. This subtle cranial adaptation is a hallmark of their regional identity.
Size and Stature: Desertorrians stand as the largest of all Loreirrans, with heights ranging from an impressive 10 to 12 feet. Their imposing stature reflects their adaptability and resilience in the challenging desert landscape.
Coloration Variations: The coloration of Desertorrians typically leans towards darker shades, aligning with the arid, sun-soaked environment they call home. However, rare instances reveal Desertorrians adorned in warm pastel hues or even completely black, showcasing the intriguing diversity within their regional population.
Appearance of Forest Regional Loreirrans (Forestorrians)
Size and Stature: Forestorrians, as inhabitants of the lush forest region, are slightly smaller in stature compared to the Desertorrians. They typically stand at heights ranging from 10 to 11 feet, making them imposing yet agile within the forest canopy.
Coloration Palette: One of the most distinctive features of Forestorrians is their neon coloration, which leans heavily towards earthy and natural tones. These hues include varying shades of greens, browns, and blues, perfectly suited for blending into their forest environment.
Prehensile Tails: Unlike Loreirrans from other regions, Forestorrians boast prehensile tails that are notably thinner at the base. This unique adaptation allows them to grasp and manipulate objects with precision, aiding in their arboreal lifestyle.
Limbs and Digits: Forestorrians' limbs and digits are characterized by their slightly greater length and slenderness. These features enhance their agility in navigating the dense foliage and intricate terrain of the forest region.
Spiny Ridges and Claws/Talons: In contrast to their Desert counterparts, Forestorrians exhibit shorter spiny ridges along their backs. Additionally, their claws or talons are notably thicker, providing them with superior grip and dexterity when climbing trees and navigating the forest environment.
Additional Notes:
Forestorrians' neon coloration, while vibrant, remains subtle and harmonious with the forest surroundings.
Their adaptability to the forest ecosystem makes them exceptional climbers and agile explorers of their habitat.
Appearance of Jungle/Swamp Regional Loreirrans (Surglans)
Distinct Regional Similarities: Surglans, the inhabitants of both the Swamp and Jungle regions, share a strikingly similar appearance. They stand out as the least abundant among all regional Loreirrans.
Spiny Ridges and Antennae: One of the defining features of Surglans is their elongated spiny ridges, which extend along their backs, providing them with a unique and striking appearance. Additionally, Surglans have longer antennae compared to other regional Loreirrans, enhancing their sensory perception in their lush and vibrant environments.
Coloration Spectrum: Surglans exhibit an impressive array of colorations that mirror the vibrant hues of the swamp and jungle ecosystems. These colors include varying shades of reds, oranges, yellows, greens, and on occasion, blues. This diverse palette helps them blend seamlessly into their surroundings and offers a stunning display of regional diversity.
Claws/Talons and Third Toe: Surglans possess longer and thicker claws or talons, granting them superior dexterity when navigating the dense undergrowth and moist terrain of their regions. What sets them apart further is the presence of a third toe, which resembles a dew claw. This additional appendage enhances their agility and grip, making Surglans adept climbers and hunters in their challenging environments.
Size and Stature: Surglans typically range from 9 to 10 feet in height, reflecting their adaptability to the dynamic and intricate landscapes of the Swamp and Jungle regions.
Additional Notes:
Surglans' longer spiny ridges and antennae serve both aesthetic and practical purposes, aiding in sensory perception and maintaining balance in their lush habitats.
Their vibrant colorations are a testament to the rich biodiversity and unique flora and fauna of their regions.
Loreirran Subspecies
Off-planet Loreirrans
Physical Characteristics: Off-planet Loreirrans display a set of distinct physical traits that set them apart from their counterparts on Icera-5. These differences are primarily adaptations to their environment in outer space.
Stature and Size: Off-planet Loreirrans are notably shorter in height, typically ranging from 5 to 6 feet tall. This diminutive stature is a result of their adaptation to living in environments with weaker gravity compared to their home-world.
Coloration: Their coloration differs significantly from their terrestrial counterparts. Off-planet Loreirrans are lighter in color, reflecting the muted tones of their artificial habitats in space.
Antennae: In contrast to the longer antennae seen in Loreirrans on Icera-5, Off-planet Loreirrans have shorter antennae. This adaptation likely aids in maneuvering within the confines of their space stations and artificial planets.
Body Patterns: The body patterns of Off-planet Loreirrans are limited to complex stripes and spots. These patterns may serve as a form of camouflage within the artificial structures of their space habitats.
Environment and Lifestyle: Off-planet Loreirrans call space stations and artificial planets their home. They inhabit environments with weaker gravity compared to Icera-5. This unique habitat has led to specific adaptations that enable them to thrive in space.
Life Span and Development: Despite their adaptations, Off-planet Loreirrans tend to have shorter life spans compared to their counterparts on Icera-5. Their bodies are adapted for faster development during childhood, likely as an advantage in the confined and resource-limited space environments they inhabit.
Mixed ancestory
Compatibility and Rarity: It is exceptionally rare for any species to be compatible with Loreirrans, and this subspecies represents a fascinating exception. They share a unique ancestral connection with a species that has been extinct for centuries, leaving behind only mixed Loreirrans and a rich cultural legacy.
Distinct Characteristics: These unique Loreirrans do not undergo the customary second metamorphosis that other Loreirrans experience. As a result, their physical characteristics are distinct and reflective of their ancestral lineage.
Stature and Size: Loreirrans with extinct ancestry typically stand at heights ranging from 7 to 8 feet. This falls within the range of their Loreirran counterparts, allowing them to somewhat blend within Loreirran communities.
Feathered Appearance: One of the most striking features of this subspecies is their feathered appearance. They are covered in small feathers that adorn their entire body. These feathers give them a unique and childlike appearance, setting them apart from typical Loreirrans.
Tail Feathers: These unique Loreirrans possess tail feathers, although they are functionally useless. These feathers are a vestige of their ancestral heritage and contribute to their distinctive appearance.
Non-Shape Shifting: Unlike some Loreirrans, this subspecies does not possess the ability to shape-shift. Their physical form remains consistent throughout their lives.
Ancient Loreirrans
Distinctive Characteristics: The first Loreirrans, in ancient times, bore a striking contrast to their modern counterparts. Their physical attributes were distinct and set them apart in Loreirran history.
Physical Features:
Eyes: Unlike the contemporary Loreirrans who lack visible eyes, the ancient Loreirrans possessed eyes, allowing them to perceive the world visually.
Limbs: They had two arms, which was different from the current Loreirrans with four arms.
Fur Resembling Hair: Their heads were adorned with fur that closely resembled the appearance of hair, another departure from the modern Loreirrans.
Nose Similar to Earth Bunnies: Their noses bore a striking resemblance to the noses of Earth bunnies, providing a unique feature in their appearance.
Antennae: While they retained the characteristic antennae of Loreirrans, they had only two antennae on their heads.
Sensory Perception: It remains a mystery what spectrum of light the ancient Loreirrans saw in. However, archaeological evidence suggests that their vision might have been akin to that of humans, as evidenced by colored art found in deep caverns.
Unique Markings and Appearance: Art depictions of the ancient Loreirrans reveal a distinctive appearance characterized by:
Dark skin or fur, setting them apart from the neon complexion of modern Loreirrans.
Intricate and unique markings covering their bodies, akin to the patterns seen on tigers or leopards.
Extinction: Unfortunately, the subspecies of ancient Loreirrans is now extinct. Their unique physical characteristics and visual perceptions have been lost to history, with only remnants of their existence preserved in ancient art and records.
i'll share some art of each regional loreirran and their repected subspecies sometime soon.
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cypriathus · 5 months
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Main protagonist of As The Weaving Fate Beckons
POTENTIAL TRIGGER WARNING: Mental health issues and a brief mention of self-harm, alcohol, and discrimination.
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Hirmenogaldus Zuntaheldi L’Patenozudi-Gilebozrath is a 31-year-old vigorous, often serious-minded woman and is the last known holy knight from Rioghachd a’ Choin Neamhaidh (“Kingdom of the Heavenly Dog” in Scottish Gaelic). She’s referred to as the Knight of Beasts due to being known as Europe’s most famous and recognizable slayer and tamer of animalistic creatures. She originally worked with the Praying House of Älkechirnobus, but later abandoned them and their cause after a few unfortunate incidents. She upholds the many characteristics associated with chivalry such as honesty, loyalty, courage, respect, prowess, and a readiness to help the weak. She’s well-versed on a multitude of subjects such as philosophy, theology, history, military strategies, and even occultism. Despite being stoically aloof and wise, her tangible thirst for knowledge and maintaining healthy relationships lends her to being inquisitive and compassionate. However, there are those occasional moments where Hirmenogaldus can be quite clumsy, gullible, and/or naive. She has desirable leadership skills with the right dose of determination, knowing when to continue or retreat, and extrudes a sense of captivating charisma. She has strong motherly instincts and it’s always an honour for her to protect those she deems worthy of help. She isn’t afraid to properly utilise her emotional intelligence in order to ensure someone’s welfare and build a meaningful connection with them. She will even deliberately put herself in harm’s way when her loved ones, friends, and/or the weak are being threatened. She has a palpable sense of justice and despises those who mistreat others for their own personal gain.
She can be quite vindictive and will even go as far to mercilessly kill the perpetrator who either harmed her, her friends, her family, and/or the weak. When slaying certain beasts or beings that are considered to be a threat, she has no qualms of violently slaughtering them, not showing any compassion, mercy, and/or remorse during the process. Despite being sociable, Hirmenogaldus sometimes intentionally isolates herself from other people because of her trust issues. Her stoic nature results in pushing away people, not showing her true emotions, and not properly dealing with and addressing the issues that’s plaguing her mind. She has horrible self-esteem issues and believes that she has to make up for that by protecting the weak, ensuring the welfare of her friends and family, and enacting justice when necessary. Whenever she fails to do so or it becomes too much for her, she gaslights and guilt trips herself, sowing more seeds of doubt into her. Hirmenogaldus is also afraid of being abandoned and forgotten by those she deeply cares about without being warned of their absence. She often engages in contemplative thought, trying to sort out her sorrows and find an ounce of true peace, hope, and happiness.
She’s prone to sudden emotional outbursts, panic attacks, mood swings, and even mental breakdowns as a result of her depression, PTSD, anorexia nervosa, and generalised anxiety disorder. The inconsiderable amount of expectations placed on her due to being a holy knight also contributes to this. She has inconsistent suicidal thoughts and desperately tries to suppress them by harming herself. She usually wants to disappear into nothingness, not having to worry about recurrent, unwanted memories and being afraid of making the wrong decision. She has a tendency to overthink various plans and solutions to all possible worse outcomes in order to avoid making the wrong decision. There are instances where she loses a lot of interest and pleasure in most of her normal activities, making her feel bored and weirdly uneasy. She feels a certain detachedness from those close to her and her mind struggles to concentrate on what’s happening. She often has a pessimistic view on the future as she’s partially fixated on past failures and reliving traumatic events. Hirmenogaldus has a tendency to place heavy restrictions on her eating patterns, having an intense fear of gaining weight. She frequently checks in reflective surfaces for perceived flaws as she’s somewhat relentlessly pursuing thinness. Her perceived body weight negatively influences her self-esteem, and she occasionally complains about being fat. She usually makes excuses for not eating as she doesn’t want to ruin her already distorted body image. There are instances where she perceives certain harmless situations and events as potential threats. She has difficulty handling uncertainty and letting go of her most troubling worries. As a result of all these issues, she tends to feel a sense of looming hopelessness, overwhelming guilt, restlessness, and agitation.
Compared to most medieval folk, Hirmenogaldus is considered to be a giant due to her impressive stature, clocking in at about 6’ 5” (195.5 cm). She has a pear-shaped mesomorphic body type with slightly broad shoulders, a fairly defined waist, and prominent thighs. Her face and neck are adorned with a myriad of reddish-brown freckles, and she has silvery stretch marks on her upper arms, belly, and hips. Her eyes are almost parallel to the stunning sky-blue bill of a male ruddy duck during breeding season. Her skin is a creamy white and she has hair that is an absolutely beautiful golden copper blonde. She has messy, bowl-cut style bangs with the rest of her curly hair being tied into a thick ponytail. She has four recognizable moles: one on the right side of her upper lip; one directly above the left side of her collarbone; the second is located on her belly; and the last mole is on her right mid-thigh. A blatant scar pierces the left side of her forehead, snaking down and over her nose bridge to the middle of her right cheek. Underneath her usual attire, she has a couple of other scars: one from her left trapezius to her right deltoid; and one near her left kidney. Her breasts have been cut off, there are five healed stab wounds on the backside of her right upper arm, and she carved four Nordic runes onto her belly: ᛊ (sun), ᚨ (god), ᛉ (elk), and ᚱ (ride/journey). The underside of her forearms are covered in healed and fresh lacerations. Her back hides her most brutal scars, seeming to be a mixture of cuts, puncture wounds, and burns.
Hirmenogaldus is commonly seen wearing a full suit of plate armour and her cursed, gilt-brass helmet is shaped similarly to the head of a Western dragon. She has two differently designed golden pauldrons: on the left, it has an engraved blazing sun with a humanoid face; and on the right, it’s shaped like the head of a tarasque without the lower jaw. Her vambraces and greaves were masterfully crafted to mimic the scales of a serpent and the fingers of her armoured gloves are sharp. Her cuirass is decorated with the golden depiction of the Ellén Trechend, which is a three-headed, draconic vulture that can breathe fire. Its main head is in the centre, two heads looking in their designated direction, their legs and wings are spread out on each side, and a partially wavy, serpentine tail. There are other pieces that make up her armour in order to minimise potential life-threatening harm. Hirmenogaldus has a gilt-brass gorget surrounding her neck, two couters for her elbows, and tassets hanging from her cuirass. She has a pair of sabatons with four draconic claws that cover her feet and cuisses surrounding her thighs. She also has two circular besagews that are part of the harness of her plate armour and help to protect her armpits. Her armour is slightly battle-worn, but its vibrancy has surprisingly remained untouched for years. The colour of her plate armour is a reddish-black with a blue-green sheen. Underneath her armour, she wears a quilted green tunic, padded brown legs, white braies, and a wide belt of leather.
Whenever Hirmenogaldus isn’t donning her iconic armour, she’s wearing a full-length ball gown made from fine silk and a tight-fitted, paprika bodice. For both her noblewoman and armoured outfits, she occasionally dons a royal mantle of faded jade with white fur trim that has black leopard spots. Her blackberry silk gown appears to be voluminous due to an ample skirt underneath. Her silk gown covers half of her shoulders and flows down into a fancy, modest semi-sweetheart neckline with a bow of cosmic purple. Around her neck is a velvet choker of cosmic purple with a cardinal pink ruffled top. She has Juliet sleeves and the wrists have turned back cardinal pink cuffs, and the ball gown is decorated with rich golden embroidery. Underneath her gown is a linen chemise and hose that’s held with a garter just below her knee. For jewellery, she’s adorned with a gold and enamel brooch in the form of a dragon’s head, a dark golden pearl necklace, a gilt bronze sapphire ring on the right index finger, and a table cut ruby ring on the left middle finger. She carries a two engrailed top shield that depicts a one-horned dragon with a jousting lance piercing its heart. Hirmenogaldus wields a blood-letting dagger in a serpentine shape made from polished brass. She also wields a 7 ft (213.36 cm) battle-strong claymore forged from an unknowable metal akin to black steel. Its most noticeable feature is that of three raised, eye-like markings right above the cross-guard in a vertical row. When she activates the sword with her own blood, those markings open to reveal fully functional purple jasper eyes and the blade is consumed by blue holy flames. She possesses a traveller’s backpack, one where she stores her collected souvenirs, camping equipment, basic medicinal items, and books that contain a variety of knowledge as well as a cittern that Odeschuna gave her.
Like all holy knights trained under the Praying House of Älkechirnobus, she’s considered to be a psychic. Hirmenogaldus isn’t entirely familiar with her psychic abilities because she doesn’t heavily rely on them like the other holy knights before her. Without her knowing, she has precognition, but it’s in the form of cryptic dreams that vaguely predict future events. She can perceive and read the auras of other individuals, being able to clearly understand their emotions and moral alignment. She can also detect the emotions of those she mentally focuses on, but this can result in blood seeping out of her eyes, ears, and/or mouth (e.g. she’ll cry blood if she senses someone’s melancholy). As a result of dermo-optical perception, she can perceive unusual sensory stimuli such as colour and varying brightnesses through her own skin. She is fully capable of surviving without any water or food intake, and not having to worry about starvation and dehydration. Hirmenogaldus has telekinetic abilities, being able to move and manipulate matter at a distance without physical interaction. She can perfectly mimic the sounds of animalistic beasts as well as talk to them and understand their unique interactions. She’s able to tap into a feral mind, allowing her to perform extraordinary feats of strength and agility that’s beyond normal for her. She’s a master at taming animals by reading, understanding, and staying in tune to their body language. She’s also able to solve many of their behavioural problems and possess unique insight into their psychology. Lastly, Hirmenogaldus has enhanced strength and stamina, being able to engage in physically strenuous activity as well as lift and/or strike objects that are tens of thousands more than her body weight. Due to her draconic helmet being cursed, it seems to intensify her negative emotions and strengthen her psychic abilities. This is one of the reasons why she tries not to heavily rely on her abilities because she’s afraid that she’ll become an irredeemable monster.
FAMILY:
Broghalenius L’Patenozudi-Gilebozrath (father)
Lobaszewinth (mother)
Unnamed older sister
Two unnamed older brothers
Dersabhol Echtagloprinus-Pimbezurta (ex-lover)
Ungelohram Shakjelovi (ex-boyfriend)
Sedulomaith (daughter)
Chaidozluben (son)
Ayrmezhonius Brejzuktophina (adoptive daughter)
ALIASES/NICKNAMES:
Dame Hirmenogaldus
The Accursed Daughter of Duke Broghalenius (by those aware of her psychic abilities)
Knight of Beasts
Fish-catcher
Bread-stealer
Trophy-bearer
Lady of Speedy Visitation
Saint of the Billowing Crusade and Dragon’s Ferocity
Mommy (by her children)
Mother (by her children)
Doll-face (by Mutseloniah)
Zarabaaneh ghalbam (“my heartbeat” in Persian) (by Mutseloniah)
Nafasam (“my breath” in Persian) (by Mutseloniah)
Duvshanit (“honey” in Hebrew) (by Mutseloniah)
Capara (“my blessing” in Hebrew) (by Mutseloniah)
Otzar shely (“my treasure” in Hebrew) (by Mutseloniah)
Vile devourer of mages (by Ikarondelus)
Lying bitch (by Ikarondelus)
Foul whore of barbarity (by Ikarondelus)
Bastard with a devil’s silver tongue (by Ikarondelus)
Fucking idiotic drunkard (by Ikarondelus)
Elskan mín (“my darling” in Norse) (by Raskovulde)
Ástvinur (“love friend” in Norse) (by Raskovulde)
Haustmyrkr (“autumn dusk” in Norse) (by Raskovulde)
She Who Dared To Cross Bifröst (by Raskovulde)
Executioner of the World Serpent (by Raskovulde)
The Burning Gladiolus (by Odeschuna)
The Enraged Wyvern (by Odeschuna)
Destroyer of Tainted Pride (by Odeschuna)
A bhuanchara (“my eternal friend” in Irish) (by Nikmuvolefja)
My greatest rival (by Pelmazodius)
Gladiatorial beast (by Pelmazodius)
Vögelchen (“little bird” in German) (by Regnazoldus)
Herzensbrecher (“heartbreaker” in German) (by Regnazoldus)
The Scorching Blade of Älkechirnobus (By Uhteszoga)
Slayer of Cold Hearts (by Uhteszoga)
Liberator of Anguish (by Uhteszoga)
The Draconic Maiden (by L’Ayncezosud)
Mistress With The Coppery Locks (by L’Ayncezosud)
My scarred mademoiselle (by L’Ayncezosud)
Ma tigresse (“my tiger” in French) (by L’Ayncezosud)
Mon ciel étoilé (“my starry sky” in French) (by L’Ayncezosud)
Mon rayon de soleil (“my ray of sunshine” in French) (by L’Ayncezosud)
Hirmageld (by Perszufoval)
Hirmena (by Bheszawulf)
Sunteholda (by Hulcekrando)
Hellebore of Rosy Blackness (by Hulcekrando)
Soft hyacinth (by Hulcekrando)
Creeping baby’s breath (by Hulcekrando)
Chrysanthemum of a Thousand Winters (by Hulcekrando)
Autumn crocus (by Hulcekrando)
My delicate edelweiss (by Hulcekrando)
Slithering pansy (by Hulcekrando)
FUN FACTS/EXTRA INFORMATION: 
She was originally a closeted lesbian, but later became bisexual.
Her birthday is August 26th (Virgo)
Her blood type is B-
She’s allergic to cats, shellfish, egg white, and balsam of Peru.
In regards to her ethnicity, she’s 37.5% Scottish, 25% British, 12.5% French, 12.5% German, and 12.5% Spanish.
Her father believed that her psychic abilities are a result of a “family curse” that reigned from his bloodline. It usually affects every third generation of females, but that’s more of an estimate than actual biological fact.
She originally had an older sister, but Broghalenius killed her after she turned 2-years-old in fear of her possessing the “family curse”.
She calls her draconic helmet the wyvern’s cursed helm.
Her claymore is called Kigamozertus, which means “stiffness of death” in the Æylphitus language. It's named that due to causing swift decay to a living being once slain. It's believed that the sword absorbs the soul of those truly sinful blood touches it.
It's believed that her claymore belonged to a destroyer angel. Only people who have a suitable mind and a full paranormal psyche can handle such a blade. When a regular being tries to wield it, the claymore transfers its desire to kill sinful and absolutely vile creatures to them. It’ll put them into a bloodthirsty and destructive frenzy until they stop using it.
She likes cute and exotic animals, seal fur, cleanliness, young children, the sound of string instruments, drinking booze with her friends and comrades, daybreak, swampy environments, burning embers, and intricate tapestry.
She dislikes singing, physical and psychological torture, being touched without permission, the feeling of “shallow accomplishment”, muddy puddles, dissatisfaction, impenetrable darkness, treading through snow, pestilence, and famine.
Her hobbies consist of jousting, horseback riding, making flower crowns, slaying monsters, reading, cloud- and star-gazing, and playing her cittern. She also enjoys collecting porcelain ceramics, tea flavours and spices from around the world, rare swords, souvenirs from her travels, and exotic animal skins.
Out of all tea flavours and spices, she likes black tea and asafoetida.
She finds all animals quite fascinating in regards to their behaviours and biology. If she had to choose a favourite, it would either be the western capercaillie, great spotted woodpecker, garden tiger moth, red deer, great tit, or Atlantic puffin.
Her favourite flowers are the bluebell, peony, cowslip, dog-rose, and early-purple orchid.
Her favourite comfort foods are tayberries, cranachan, rumbledethumps, cullen skink, Forfar bridie, tattie scone, and Flies’ graveyard.
Her favourite colours are the blue dye that woad leaves produce and the orange-yellow petals of a pot marigold.
Her biggest pet peeves consist of people who purposely ignore boundaries, rudeness in general, bad personal hygiene, losing things, loud noises, and one-uppers.
She used to have an actual curly bowl cut before she decided to let her hair grow out as a way for her to separate herself from her traumatic past.
For a short period of her life, she was quite racist and discriminatory against mages due to her religious and white supremacist upbringing. However, that drastically changed after experiencing a fair share of abuse, gaining a better understanding of their struggles. She deeply regrets the verbal and physical harm she was tasked and socially expected to do against minorities and mages.
Hirmenogaldus always carries around bandages with her at all times because she’s weary that she’ll get attacked out of nowhere.
She’s obsessed with her own personal hygiene
She has a tendency to judge other people too quickly
She is always looking for new adventures
Hirmenogaldus can be somewhat forgetful and doesn’t like to be reminded of things from her past.
She bites her lower lip and the inside of her left cheek a lot.
She has fairly quick reflexes
She has an unusually high tolerance for physical pain
Hirmenogaldus’ guilty pleasure is daydreaming about sinking her bare feet in white sand and looking out to the clear blue ocean, what it would be like to become one with a full-blooded titan, and bathing in a sacred waterfall.
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soulinkpoetry · 3 months
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You best believe it that when you lose something in life , you end up gaining something else to take its place that could be equally valuable.
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# when looks are gone what are you left with?
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sona-verse01 · 1 month
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As it's decided that I will be posting a Future Spouse's Physical Appearance PAC
Now tell me the pics I should use for the PAC?
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askcarlislecullen · 7 months
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does your hair grow or are you eternally stuck with the same hair length?
It stays exactly as it is. This is a question I've answered before but it has been years so I'll comment upon it again—I've always felt lucky to have been turned with my hair the length that it is. I suspect it was growing out from the short style of men who supported the Protectorate (as my father did) toward the longer styles which were the fashion of the day. It has always served me well for that reason; it has always been short enough not to make me seem counter-cultural in times when men's long hair has been classified so, but also has never been too out of place in other times when longer hair has been the sign of educatedness.
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asktheheirofslytherin · 3 months
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when i first saw Delphi in the cursed child, she had silver hair and blue tips, i didn't know if that was dyed or she's albino, since you and bella have black hair, i thought blonde was delphi's natural hair, is your daughter albino?
Delphini looks extremely similar to Bella and I. She has naturally dark, curly hair and her mother's eyes.
I imagine the Delphini in this fictional account of her life had altered her appearance so that the familial resemblance would not be too obvious to those who were familiar with her mother's face.
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fugamalefica · 1 year
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It always throws me off whenever I read about Bellatrix having thin lips. I swear I'm not influenced by the movies lmao but thin lips just don't fit the vibe. I feel like Bellatrix should have full or medium lips.
I agree, anon!
I also don't think she actually has thin lips canonically. She is described as having a thin mouth, not thin lips. And Rowling isn't necessarily describing her features here but perhaps her expressions based on emotional states.
'She did not move; she merely stared at him, the tip of her tongue moistening her thin mouth.'
'She glared up at him through heavily lidded eyes, an arrogant, disdainful smile playing around her thin mouth.'
I personally love Helena's lips for her because they're full but not exaggeratedly fleshy, so I can see her described as having a thin mouth especially with pursed lips. They have a very haughty, disdainful look that seems like she is sneering at everyone haha, and they also convey Bella's aggressive and calculating expressions perfectly. They fit Bella's overall aura much more than either thin lips or super full lips would. Thin lips can look too expressionless which wouldn't suit Bella.
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feynavaley · 1 year
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Just a bit of rambling about England’s looks.
Personally, I’ve never seen him as ugly or even simply plain. Of course, he isn’t as traditionally handsome as some other personifications such as, for example, France; he doesn’t have those inhumanly perfect, chiselled facial features. Not to mention, he also always has a bit of a haggard look on him: faint (or not so faint) shadows under his eyes, hollow cheeks...
England's body isn’t what would be called traditionally attractive either. He’s on the short side of average, a skinny that borders on scrawny instead of delicate, all prominent bones and angles and pointy elbows and knees and yet, his hands are broad and rough. There is some lack of harmony if one starts focusing on every detail.
Even so, England does look handsome overall. He may not look like a Greek statue, but all his traits are combined in a way that makes them attractive. There’s an intensity to his eyes that the peculiar features of his face enhance, giving a glimpse of his fierce personality. His looks suit him -- and flatter him as well. England's brand of beauty is unique, and the overall effect isn't less striking than a more traditional one. Actually, some people even prefer that to more generic, 'traditionally handsome' features.
England is, of course, fully unaware of that.
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crosstheveil · 1 year
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Temperaments: Physical Appearance (AI-Generated)
Choleric (Fire)
Thin and angular body
Reddish or yellowish complexion
Piercing, intense eyes
Thin and dry lips
Pointed, angular features
Thin, wiry hair
Tendency to sweat profusely
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Sanguine (Air)
Robust and muscular body
Ruddy complexion
Large, expressive eyes
Red and full lips
Rounded, fleshy face
Thick, curly hair
Tendency to perspire easily
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Phlegmatic (Water)
Plump and round body
Pale, moist complexion
Large, soft eyes
Thick and flabby lips
Rounded features
Thick, wavy hair
Tendency towards oily skin and hair
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Melancholic (Earth)
Thin and bony body
Pale complexion
Deep-set, serious eyes
Thin and compressed lips
High forehead
Thin, straight hair
Tendency towards dry skin and hair
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mbti-notes · 1 year
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Anon wrote: Hi! First of all i want to thank to you for being a real and honest people. Nowadays, like all areas psychology has some popular social media personas which doesn't feel sincere and most importantly real. But your approach is admirable.
I'm an intj, 24, female. I'm not even sure asking such questions to you would be a good idea. But i thought "why not" so please excuse me if i'm wasting your time. It's a classical childhood trauma which it doesn't heal. I got bullied about my physical appearance several times when i was a child. I called ugly mostly and even a girl from my class told me that i should've work twice cause i'm ugly. Now it's all passed but the feeling it's still there.
Actually my real problem's about what's gonna happen if i have a relationship because no matter what i don't feel beautiful. Sometimes some of my friends or a guy who is trying to hit me calls me beautiful and thinks like that. But i feel like if i would accept that everyone would laugh at me. Everyone's lying cause i am ugly. That's the truth. Of course this isn't a healthy though i know but i can't get rid of that feeling no matter what i did. If i would turn into a super model nothing would change inside me so this proves that my thought's aren't healthy and something's wrong.
I only ask because I'm afraid if i would love someone in the future i couldn't have a healthy relationship. This really bothers me. Thanks for even my question was useless to ask to you and stole your precious time.
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1) I think you've made a great point about social media personas. The self-help business is big business because it speaks to people's deepest suffering. Unfortunately, it is easier to manipulate and exploit vulnerable people, so there are lots of charlatans out there looking to take advantage. That's why I avoid social media and always prefer to learn from the recognized experts in a field.
Nowadays, we are all flooded with so much information, so it's more important than ever to be careful about who you listen to and whether you're getting the right information, especially when it's about your psychological health and well-being. An important part of nurturing a healthy spirit is feeding it a healthy "diet" that promotes personal growth, which means avoiding people who would feed you false or biased information.
2) Bullying is defined as forceful behavior that serves the purpose of dominating or intimidating people. The experience of repetitive bullying is a recognized form of psychological trauma because it damages your sense of dignity, making you believe your existence is insignificant. A bully's greatest success is when you learn to bully yourself with their words. They don't even have to be present anymore because you're doing all their work for them through voluntarily putting yourself down and punching out your own spirit.
When you experience trauma as a child, you don't have the intellectual capacity to make sense of it, so it's as though your mind gets stuck in that period of time. As a result of not being able to move forward in psychological development, childhood victims of bullying are much more likely to suffer mental health issues like depression, anxiety, and low self-esteem as adults. They don't know how to escape the perspective of victim, often feeling fearful, helpless, powerless, or hopeless.
Children have the wonderful qualities of being open, sincere, and trusting because they need to learn about the world quickly. Thus, they easily believe everything they are told. But every coin has two sides. Being trusting makes them more susceptible to manipulation by irresponsible actors. You're 24 and still believe what you were told about your physical attractiveness as a child. As an adult, you should now have the intellectual capacity to think more critically about your beliefs and values. And you should be able to develop the independence of mind to choose beliefs and values that are more aligned with the truth.
You now see there is something wrong in your thinking because you've realized it didn't originate from you. Good. Are you capable of changing your thinking? INTJs tend to be intellectual creatures, so perhaps you should start by doing a careful examination and analysis of the concept of beauty, to counter the beliefs your bullies instilled in you. E.g. What is beauty and how is it defined? What is the true purpose of labeling things "beautiful" or "ugly"? Who gets to define what is beautiful, and why? What are your beliefs about beauty and where did they come from? Do you need to change your beliefs to be better aligned with the truth? How would changing your beliefs also change your attitude and behavior?
3) Changing your ideas about beauty can help you be more rational in your judgments about it. However, this doesn't erase your memories of the past. Memories plague us because of their painful emotional content. When the emotional trauma is too intense, it is advisable to work in a safe environment with a therapist to guide you.
You shouldn't want to get rid of your memories because those experiences are necessary for your personal identity and psychological growth. You can learn to look upon past experiences differently, from a bigger perspective. Big picture thinking should come naturally to Ni doms. By making better sense of what happened and putting those experiences in the right perspective, you can eventually come to weaken or neutralize the negative emotions.
Imagine that you were walking down the street and you saw someone yelling at a small child, calling them "ugly" and all sorts of vulgar names. The child is crying quietly but cannot get away. Would your first instinct be to join the bully in berating the child? Or would you feel a strong desire to protect the child from harm? If you have any humanity, you would not hesitate to conclude that treating the child this way is morally wrong and should be stopped as soon as possible. If you had the capacity to stop the bully and speak to the child, what would you say to them? How would you help them?
Now, imagine that the child is you. Do you believe that you deserved the bullying? Do you believe that your bully cared about you and was telling the truth about you, or were they just trying to destroy your dignity and dominate you for their own purposes?
To put traumatic childhood experiences in the right perspective, you have to be able to transcend the perspective of the innocent child and adopt the vantage point of a wiser adult. Instead of looking upon the situation through the eyes of the helpless victim you were then, you can now look upon it as someone with the power to help and stop the victimization. Look upon that child with empathy and compassion, and you may start to see how beautiful the child actually is and how much they deserve to be loved after what they've been through.
Being granted the strengths of Te-Fi, healthy TJs are generally fearless and formidable people. They don't fear making mistakes, because they are confident in their ability to recover and learn from them. They don't succumb to control, because they form their own beliefs and do what they want. They don't need to be told what is right, because they follow their own moral code. They don't wait around for a hero, because they know how to be their own hero. This power already lies within you, but you have to change your perspective on yourself in order to release it.
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gennsoup · 2 months
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"You know spirit is as important to beauty as physical appearance, don't you? There's a difference between a leaf on a tree and one that's dead, isn't there?"
André Alexis, Days by Moonlight
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cypriathus · 4 months
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Main protagonist of Catacombs of Whispering
POTENTIAL TRIGGER WARNING: I talk about how mental health issues and drugs affect the character. There are also a couple of brief mentions of alcoholism and coitus-related things.
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Tighezorvanus Biruteslov-Ljudevoti Grostalphen is a 37-year-old happy-go-lucky and strong-willed father of two. Besides his PTSD and dyscalculia, he has dissociative identity disorder (DID) and his two identities consist of Velabhort Smekzurnova and Mulavozje Ralstenov. His DID often leaves him to be self-puzzled, out of touch with reality, separated from himself and his emotions, and depressed. He also has suicidal thoughts, noticeable memory gaps, times of confused wandering, and is stressed out by the subjective sense of having “not-him” experiences. He often has a positive outlook on the future and isn’t afraid about overcoming the hurdles that life throws at him. Due to his confidence, he puts a decent amount of trust on himself, his capabilities, and the near future. He’s got a great sense of humour and enjoys cheering people up with his jokes. He’s eager to have fun by embarrassing and playing harmless tricks on people. Tighezorvanus is fairly honest about his emotions and thoughts, but he can be quite blunt at times and ends up offending the people he’s conversing with. He’s quite friendly and energetic, which makes it easy and enjoyable for him to engage with others. As a father and a member of society, he sees it as his duty to encourage the goodness of people and help them through their misfortunes. He’s able to understand the struggles of others and tries to base his support on finding a resolution to those issues. Tighezorvanus tries his absolute best to make morally right decisions that he understands he’s fully accountable for. As per his nature, he’s not easily annoyed, worried or upset by a lot of things. He’s usually willing to give money and food as well as offer help to those in need. He also shows a palpable desire to keep those he deeply cares about safe from unexpected danger.
He’s sometimes frivolous and ends up behaving in an inappropriately light-hearted way in certain situations or not taking his responsibilities seriously. There are instances where Tighezorvanus can be quite gullible and naive. This means that he’s prone to being easily deceived by others without him realising it and doesn’t have the greatest judgement or information surrounding certain situations. He has a tendency to move or handle specific things in a careless and awkward way. This often results in him breaking items, knocking stuff over, hitting his toe on hard furniture or the corner of a door, and bumping into walls, other people or a doorframe. As a talkative individual, he finds enjoyment in conversing with others, even if it begins to genuinely annoy them. For example, he might gush about his favourite piece of media or how shitty his day was during a movie, which can understandably provoke someone’s annoyance. Sometimes he acts on a whim with little forethought, reflection or consideration of the consequences that surround his actions. Tighezorvanus is afraid of being abandoned, alone, and forgotten by those he's close with. As a result of his PTSD, he’s prone to angry outbursts and negative thoughts about himself. He’s also easily startled and has a tendency to feel emotionally numb.
Velabhort Smekzurnova is a 40-year-old serial killer and organ harvester with substance abuse issues and an insatiable bloodlust, being Tighezorvanus’ aggressive, cunning, perverted, and loud identity. He’s a lot more knowledgeable compared to Tighezorvanus, but uses that intelligence to achieve things he desires through deception. He has antisocial personality disorder, bipolar affective disorder (BPAD), and mild scopophobia (the fear of being watched). During his manic episodes, he’s abnormally upbeat and very talkative. He also has an exaggerated sense of well-being and self-confidence, and possesses poor decision-making skills. During major depressive episodes, he has inconsistent suicidal thoughts, feelings of inappropriate guilt, and the decreased ability to concentrate. Velabhort also feels empty, hopeless, and restless, and he’s uninterested in almost all of his activities. He has a strong sense of superiority and is extremely opinionated. Due to his antisocial and psychopathic nature, he’s unwilling to associate with people in a friendly way and enjoys inflicting harm on others. He’s not afraid to use physical force and dangerous weapons to hurt, injure, or kill people in order to quench his bloodlust and make him feel euphoria. As a nihilist, he rejects all known religious and moral principles, only believing that life has no meaningful purpose and every proposed value is baseless. Velabhort has no true loyalty to anyone and views that his purpose is nothing but an impulse to destroy and gain instant gratification. He shows no apparent sympathetic concern or compassion for the feelings of other people. He’s quite the boisterous paraphiliac who possesses a disturbing obsession with sex, but he sometimes tries to hide it.
Similar to Tighezorvanus, he also has a sense of humour, but it centres around making fun of ordinarily taboo subjects. He can be quite sarcastic, going out of his way to mock or insult people through irony. As a psychopath, he possesses an “empathetic switch” and usually prefers to ignore it. Velabhort primarily uses it for selfish means, but is capable of sincerely utilising his empathy to understand certain people. He tries to hide the fact that he’s addicted to ketamine, mephedrone, wine, rum, vodka, and rye whiskey. Ketamine makes him feel detached from reality, relaxed, and a sense of happiness, but it can also cause him to be easily agitated and depressed. It also alters his perception of time and space, and stop feeling physical pain. Mephedrone makes him feel chatty, very affectionate towards other people, confident, full of energy, and keen to dance. He’s also weirdly sensitive to touch and it arouses him, noticeably on edge, dizzy, and feverishly hot. Velabhort is quite familiar with Tighezorvanus and Mulavozje, but tries to ignore them because he’s in denial that they all share the same body.
Mulavozje Ralstenov is a 46-year-old moral philosopher and former psychology and biology professor with a love of books, being Tighezorvanus’ skittish, cautious, melancholic, and quiet identity. Like Velabhort, he too is quite intelligent, but he uses it for what he deems as righteous such as helping those in need. He has seasonal depression, generalised anxiety disorder, and mild claustrophobia (the fear of confined spaces) and hemophobia (the fear of blood). Due to his anxiety, he’s usually plagued with an uneasiness of the mind and a brooding fear of some possible misfortune. He overthinks the worst possible outcomes of his situations and his mind often “goes blank”, making concentration difficult. He doesn’t fully trust the goodness of humanity, only believing that people are self-centred and interested in their own capabilities. When each season has begun, Mulavozje feels as though everything is hopeless and his self-esteem is almost absent. He feels worthless and possibly uninterested in a good majority of his normal activities.
He’s a taciturn individual, mostly spending his time in places that are free from disturbances and indulging in his hobbies. He usually prefers to keep his various thoughts and ideas to himself, only speaking of them when he views it as necessary. He’s a surprisingly good listener, being able to concentrate on what others say and engage with their ideas in a thoughtful, comprehensive way. He’s prudently watchful and unwilling to take risks in order to avoid problems. He possesses a strict sense of morality, ensuring that his ego is under control and he’s following the path of righteousness. Mulavozje has a tendency to weigh up the well-being of other people in his decision-making, which helps to minimise any negative consequences. However, there are instances where he isn’t fully concerned with the consequences of his actions, which can lead to atrocious outcomes. Mulavozje is quite familiar with Velabhort, but is unaware about the existence of Tighezorvanus.
Tighezorvanus is of impressive stature than most men he’s met throughout his life, clocking in at about 6 ft (182.88 cm). He has a mesomorphic, trapezoidal body with a fairly muscular and strong build, broad shoulders, and rose beige skin. When his eyes aren’t covered by orange-tinted glasses, they’re a luscious amber with a strong yellowish and coppery tint. He has medium length surfer hair with sideburns and a soul patch goatee that’s the hue of golden copper brown. He also has acuminate abdominal hair and pecto-sternal hair that’s also a shade of golden copper brown. He has a mole on the left side of his neck, on his right cheek, and on the left side corner of his lip. Tighezorvanus has five scars located on different parts of his body. The first scar he ever received was the result of surgically removing his right kidney. The second scar is a diagonal slash that reaches from the right trapezius to the top of the left pectoralis major. He has a stab wound on the left deltoid and a long scar on the right outer thigh. Lastly, he has a very noticeable burn scar that’s covering his left forearm and hand. He has two tattoos: a watery Eastern dragon on his back; and a raven skull is engulfed in blue flames on his right upper arm. As a 49-year-old, his golden copper brown has shown signs of greying and wrinkles appear on the forehead and eyes. He has crow’s feet and his frown lines have gotten deeper and more accentuated, which indicate wrinkling.
Tighezorvanus is often seen wearing a pair of army green cargo pants that reach to his knees in spring and summer. During autumn and winter, he prefers to wear standard overalls made from navy blue denim or grey sweatpants. He dons an unbuttoned, moonstone Aloha shirt with a floral pattern of sunray and mystic maroon hibiscus flowers. Underneath his favourite Aloha shirt, he either is wearing a solid black or bone white T-shirt. There are instances where he’s wearing a China ivory Aloha shirt that has bright sun and cardinal pink hibiscus flowers. Underneath his second favourite Aloha shirt is a Persian rose T-shirt with a yellow sea, blaze orange, and electric violet sun, and cyan mountains. Depending on the season and where he’s attending, his footwear consists of hiking sandals with or without white ankle socks and traditional low-cut tangerine sneakers. He wears a hololith bracelet that’s carved from jadeite dyed a light bluish green. Hanging around his neck is a special heirloom given to him by his father, which is a silver pendant necklace with a Celtic cross. He often dons a pair of orange-tinted sunglasses, but there are instances where he wears reading glasses. He’s usually seen wearing a fanny pack that holds his reading glasses, his phone, an epinephrine autoinjector, and a lucky rabbit’s foot. Velabhort is primarily seen wearing a buccaneer red trench coat that reaches to the middle of his calves. He also wears stiletto red fingerless gloves, weathered denim jeans, a dusty grey T-shirt, and a pair of black combat boots. Like Tighezorvanus, he often dons a pair of orange-tinted sunglasses, but he never wears reading glasses and carries around an epinephrine autoinjector. He secretly carries around brass knuckles, a butterfly knife, and a pump action rifle that he bought from the black market. He also wields a gold-plated pistol with a built-in suppressor that’s similar to the Beretta 92 called the 19th Blistering Dream. Mulavozje prefers to wear a shadow green turtleneck sweater and a pair of brown loafers. He also dons eerie black 5-pocket jeans and prefers to wear a pair of reading glasses and carry around an epinephrine autoinjector. He is commonly seen carrying books, his sketchbook with various art supplies, and a pack of cigarettes. All three of them have smoky topaz stud earrings, a gold watch on the right wrist, and three expensive rings. They have an amethyst solitaire ring on the right index finger, a band ring on the right ring finger, and a spinel cocktail ring on the left index finger.
After the sudden disembowelment of his mother, his partially dormant psychic abilities kicked in. Despite possessing psychic abilities, he has some trouble controlling his powers. He has psychokinesis, allowing him to utilise his mental effort in order to manipulate various forms of energy and matter. He possesses enhanced strength and is capable of lifting cars, trucks, buses, moderate to large sized rocks, trains, and massive trees. However, when he uses his enhanced strength and psychokinesis after a few hours, he feels quite exhausted due to the significant strenuous activity. Due to his psychometry, Tighezorvanus is able to obtain specific pieces of information about the past of a person or object by making physical contact. When dreaming, he can enter this bleak corridor filled with multiple coloured doors and it goes on for what feels like an eternity. Within this corridor, he is able to telepathically communicate with other people or supernatural beings. He is also capable of effortlessly traversing through his dreams and gaining insight into future events. His dermo-optical perception allows him to perceive colours and differences in brightness through his own skin. Velabhort is only capable of utilising psychokinesis, enhanced strength, and psychometry, but can’t perceive colours and varying brightnesses. Mulavozje can also utilise psychokinesis and psychometry, but possesses dermo-optical perception and can’t use enhanced strength. Velabhort and Mulavozje are both unable to access the dream corridor, meaning they can’t utilise dream telepathy and precognition.
FAMILY:
Unnamed fraternal grandfather
Unnamed fraternal grandmother
Unnamed foster grandfather
Unnamed foster grandmother
Nelachodimus Oghilevan Grostalphen (father)
Unnamed older half-sister
Menszaroch Grostalphen (older half-brother)
Fiachtelon Grostalphen (older half-brother)
Zdruveloka Knelazovic (mother)
Ksenzrija Grostalphen (younger sister)
Mukenodria Eyndakhotius (niece)
Sinjuzola Eyndakhotius (niece)
Demaphorkus Eyndakhotius (nephew)
Azerkhombius Grostalphen (younger brother)
Emalonius Suratophine Hopkalen (fiancée)
Ymoghelanus Vjekuslowa-Bisevozurka Grostalphen (daughter)
Cimabozulen Kruneslov-Domagujilte Grostalphen (son)
ALIASES/NICKNAMES: 
Tighezo (by most people and self-proclaimed)
Tighezorna (by a few people)
Kiddo (by Nelachodimus)
Bubica (“little bug” in Croatian) (by Zdruveloka)
Bratty attention-seeker (by Menszaroch)
Daddy’s favourite (by Menszaroch)
My caramel almond (by Emalonius)
Honey pie (by Emalonius)
Lovebug (by Emalonius)
Dad (by his children)
Sensitive whore (to Velabhort) (by Elphazotius)
Cuate (“buddy” in Spanish) (by Climakho)
Mister Tighezorna (by the Whinzraste family)
Mo fhíorghrá (“my true love” in Irish) (by Idonszela)
Luchik (“sunray” in Russian) (by Oktabhrenius)
Prince Charming (to Velabhort) (by Uylshopated)
Knight In White Armour (to Mulavozje) (by Uylshopated)
Popular newcomer (by Merszalot)
Tirhejolusza (by Yndzrajet)
Tighezorsa (by Wadoszige)
Snot-nosed retard (to Velabhort) (by Zebastodi)
Wily dipshit (to Velabhort) (by Droghexusia)
Mulavoz (to Mulavozje) (by Vongazritche)
The man with golden copper hair and orange sunglasses (by Milatogrus)
My handsome candytuft (by Uyrsezola)
Clumsy ox (by Kriemogunda)
Benign hound (by Wibavoplehus)
Moronic playboy (to Velabhort) (by Lutszemoba)
Psychotic nuisance (to Velabhort) (by Lutszemoba)
Mister Grostalphen (by Poschielubzak, Gleichowaszut, and Chuslebomina)
FUN FACTS/EXTRA INFORMATION:
Tighezorvanus is heteroflexible, Velabhort is heterosexual, and Mulavozje is demiromantic asexual.
His birthday is June 19th (Gemini)
His blood type is AB-
He’s allergic to local anesthetics, insect stings, chromium, and mould.
He knows a little bit of Croatian and French.
He had a cavity on the first molar of his lower jaw, which has been replaced with a metal filling.
He has two Siberian huskies, a Cornish Rex, a ball python, and five leopard geckos. His five leopard geckos are different morphs and these are Enigma, Super Hypo, Bell Albino, Blazing Blizzard, and Raining Red Stripe. His first husky is an agouti male named Uvalonche and the second one is an orange copper female who goes by Mishvanok. His ball python is named Kiobla and his five leopard geckos go by Yamokreti (Enigma), Visjemochka (Super Hypo), Bleszafod (Bell Albino), Eprakholtus (Blazing Blizzard), and Knevazorsich (Raining Red Stripe).
His Cornish Rex, Lapemokusi, used to belong to his fiancée.
In regards to his ethnicity, he’s 25% Scottish, 25% American, 25% Russian, and 25% Croatian.
Velabhort Smekzurnova has slight feelings for Avelonthius Demilozusa Falevogur-Komtezula.
He was originally an early childhood educator, but since he moved from his home country and is looking for a new job relating to early childhood, he’s currently working at a pawn shop.
Tighezorvanus likes parties, wood sculptures, the sensation of heavy bass, natural landscapes, lunar eclipses, his vinyl record and birdhouse collections, most of his family, working in early childhood educational settings, rare and underrated video games, and hot air balloons. Velabhort likes going on killing sprees, pornography magazines, human anatomy, rare animal pelts, anime merchandise, laying on carpeted floors, crescent moons, going to underground nightclubs, oceanic views, and fish taxidermy. Mulavozje likes sleeping in, smoking, ancient human civilizations, sitting in front of a fireplace, his model car collection, keeping old tickets and bookmarks, snow globes, knitted sweaters, early fall, and overcast weather.
Tighezorvanus dislikes nosy people, horrible and janky video games, the smell of boiled eggs and fish, illegal drugs, alcohol in general, skunks, storm-chasing, mid-morning, competition, and blisters. Velabhort dislikes being watched, phlegm, bobbleheads, hand-holding, simplicity, weird kinks, hardwood floors, the rising sun, gossip, and mannequins. Mulavozje dislikes waking up early, crowded places, blood, erotica art and stories, fanfiction, frozen lakes, late winter, leeches, being touched on the chest, and baggy clothing.
Tighezorvanus’ hobbies consist of woodworking, mediation, camping, volunteering, collage making, balloon twisting, collecting vinyl records and birdhouses, and playing video games. Velabhort's hobbies consist of cruising, recreational fishing, wine tasting, watching anime, playing billiards, and collecting antique art and travel brochures. Mulavozje’s hobbies consist of sketching, knitting, baking, completing jigsaw puzzles, collecting model cars, and recording his most vivid dreams.
Tighezorvanus knows how to play the bango, but he gave it to his daughter after he lost interest.
Tighezorvanus’ favourite animals are the pine marten, bottlenose dolphin, Eurasian bittern, Gila monster, and straw-coloured fruit bat. Velabhort's favourite animals are the golden eagle, Virginia opossum, hellbender, black-footed ferret, and common snapping turtle. Mulavozje’s favourite animals are the black giant squirrel, horseshoe crab, mountain hare, Eurasian otter, and red wolf.
Tighezorvanus’ favourite flowers are the scarlet pimpernel, burnt candytuft, Rocky Mountain Columbine, oak-leaf hydrangea, and star of Bethlehem. Velabhort's favourite flowers are the hellebore, bee orchid, California poppy, coast rhododendron, and broad-leaved anemone. Mulavozje’s favourite flowers are the grape hyacinth, mountain laurel, Indian paintbrush, Spanish broom, and early purple orchid.
Tighezorvanus’ favourite comfort foods are one-pot paneer curry pie, deep-fried Mars bars, cock-a-leekie soup, pita with hummus, jalapeno poppers, and salami. Velabhort's favourite comfort foods are rollmops, hladetina, caramel shortbread, hunter’s stew, pepperoni bites, and braised short ribs. Mulavozje’s favourite comfort foods are creamy spinach and artichoke chicken skillet, carrots with garlic mayonnaise, honeycomb toffee, crème brûlée, zagorski štrukli, and clapshot.
Tighezorvanus’ favourite colours are thunderbird, sea nymph, and the hues of the hibiscus flowers on his Aloha shirt. Velabhort's favourite colours are cornflower, orange peel, granny smith apple, and the hue of his trench coat. Mulavozje’s favourite colours are rose bud cherry, shadow green, affair, and glacier.
Tighezorvanus’ biggest pet peeves are slow drivers, passive-aggressiveness, nails on a chalkboard, those who cut him in line, individuals who don’t pick up after their dogs, people giving him the silent treatment, and pet hair all over clothes, floor or furniture. Velabhort's biggest pet peeves are tapping, papercuts, slurping loudly, gum chewing, slow Internet, bumper stickers, unwanted staring and attention, sidewalk hogs, and unnecessarily crowded places. Mulavozje’s biggest pet peeves are double dipping, chewing nails, misspelling, crumbs in the butter, not resetting the microwave, and askew pictures.
Tighezorvanus took on a wide range of odd jobs in order to fund a good chunk of his college education. These odd jobs consist of being a babysitter, grocery deliverer, dog-walker, groundskeeper, bingo manager at an old age retirement home, customer service representative, tutor, and voiceover artist.
Tighezorvanus owns a 2017 Honda Civic Type R, but Mulavozje prefers to ride a bike as he’s worried about environmental sustainability.
Whenever Tighezorvanus and his alter egos listen to classical music, they fondly reminisce on their father’s love for it.
During the time Tighezorvanus and his fiancée were dating, he randomly asked her if she wanted to see him jerk off. He's still embarrassed by that and he believes that Velabhort was trying to break through at that moment.
Tighezorvanus likes to pop his back
He’s secretly a good ventriloquist
He usually prefers to prop his feet up on furniture
Tighezorvanus often takes huge bites of food
Tighezorvanus moves a fair amount when talking because he doesn’t like to simply stand there and do nothing.
He doesn’t like to admit that he has nearsightedness
He drinks a lot of soda and smoothies
He secretly likes to paint his and other people’s nails
Velabhort likes to one-up people
He’s quite suspicious of other people
He’s a functioning alcoholic
Velabhort is a control freak
Velabhort never admits when he’s wrong and gets aggressive when people confront him about his behaviour.
He likes to sit facing away from the door
He has a loud, distinctive laugh
Mulavozje likes to sit at the very end of a row (e.g. couch)
He taps his chin or strokes his nose when thinking
Mulavozje rolls his eyes a lot
Mulavozje is great at debates
He prefers home-cooked food
He frequently adjusts his sleeves or black jeans
He bobs his left foot when sitting cross-legged
He occasionally monologues, but it's often interrupted by someone near him.
Tighezorvanus’ guilty pleasure is watching or listening to anything that has cheesy elements such as motivational videos, movies, and music playlists. He only does this because it brightens up his day and makes them feel less boring. Velabhort's guilty pleasure is masturbating in the closet or shower, so he can feel “alive” and “not empty inside”. Mulavozje’s guilty pleasure is observing strangers and imagining their stories.
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I went on the “Am I Ugly?” subreddit earlier today and honestly? I was stunned at the people posting pictures on there! They would say they had been called ugly before, or list insecurities about their nose/mouth/etc, but every single one of those people was either drop dead gorgeous or super cute! There was no other option, I was honestly baffled they were even asking about that.
As a person who constantly worries about my own looks and whether or not I’m perceived as ugly, it kinda hit hard to look at all of these other people and realize that, although they might not be conventionally attractive, they’re not ugly. It made me realize that no human is ugly. Just because society doesn’t accept your looks as “attractive” does not mean you are ugly, it just means that modern culture doesn’t find your particular look appealing. Which is wrong, because why should society set the standard for how attractive somebody is? Just because they have a big nose, or body, or small eyes, or large ears, doesn’t make them ugly. Everyone has something beautiful about them! Yes, everyone! Even the “unattractive” features aren’t bad. They’re just not conventional, like society wants them to be, so people who have them are labeled as ugly.
But really, nobody is ugly. There is truly no one you can look at without finding at least one good thing about them. And you try hard enough, you’ll realize it’s not difficult to find many good physical qualities in people. Because we’re all people, we are all the same, and no one should ever be called ugly.
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