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chocolatespyro · 5 months

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Uh I still think Cabby is cool. Im just tired i think

#the negative stuff is in the tags btw #wriggling around like a little worm thinking of all the cool things they couldve done with her arc and turn the mirrors around to reflect #the shows issues and the problems with bare-minimum tolerance and the hypocrisy of the rest of the contestants essentially shunning her or #making her feel unwelcome while Bot seems to get everything also on a surface level but there are injustices with them too and how they are #just being used as a silly marketing ploy and a friendly face to go #See? we're progressive! We love our fans! BUY THE PRODUCT #BUY THE PRODUCT BUY THE PRODUCT BUY THE PRODUCT BUY THE PRODUCT BUY THE PRODUCT BUY THE PRODUCT BUY THE PRODUCT BUY THE PR-#But then they take this whole thing and do nothing ignoring all the glaring ethical issues. god man im so sad #Bot n Cabby coulda had a real discussion about how they were treated and had a real close bond. IM SO SADDD #IM SO SAD!!! THEY HAD SOMETHING!!! THEY COULDVE FIXED IT!!#ii negativity #repetition #cant remember if i talked abt this before sorry if i have #i mightve hinted at it at some point in another persons post

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bibleofficial · 5 months

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i’ve been up for 36 hrs ALSKLASKLAKSLASLASKLAK

#literally i’m sooo numb #like my body is just numb #but it may be due to alcohol #i was drunk and became sober then got drunk again & ive yet sleep #i think it’s just fun at this point #how miserable can i become #how insane #how unhinged #anyway #i’m a very profane person #AKSKALSKALKDLAKSLAJSLAJSLAJS #this dumbass idiot bitch in my group project ahmed fuckin #scream #literally so he’s just … making up shit bc he’s insane & he’s reporting me bc i told the file owner of the group to block him out of the #fuckin ppt at 6.25AM MIND U THIS WAS ON 3HRS SLEEP - WHICH IM STILL RUNNING ON -#& then he got ul 7.30 pissed bc now he CANT FUCK UP EGERYRBING THAT WEVE BEEN PAINSTAKINGLY fixing & now he’s mad bc like #he’s an idiot lol like i submitted it deadass he was told if u want to talk abt the presentation meet at 10am at the centre & by 10.45 he #still wasn’t there i submitted it & fuckin left like 😭😭😭#HE SHOWED UP AT 11.30 LIKE LUCKY U BAING ABLE TO SLEEP AFTER NOT DOING SHIT BUT CAUSE PROBLEMS BUT FUCK U & I DONT GIVE A FUCK DIE #& so now he’s saying i called him the n word but it’s so funny bc he literally … texted this threat …. & said literally ‘the voice note i #made’ like ok so #ur literally admitting to faking evidence to get me kicked out of uni #bc ur a toddler throwing a tantrum bc im not letting u FUCK UP OUR GRADES w ur 0 BRAINCELL ASS EDITS #so anyway #i went to the prof & was like deadass sis .. i ain’t doin this i don’t give a fuck i’m an adult & she was like ‘oh yea lmao i saw his email #& i didn’t read it’ ALSKLASKLAKSLAKLAKSLASLAM #like yea #bc i’ll just #export the whatsapp group chat & just show the evidence #like i don’t use that word im sorry ur just pathetic & think this will work i don’t care

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skyteglad · 9 months

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the latest aita is making me sad. the teeth one. because like... when i was a kid, i was told to have braces! and that i'd need an eventual surgery! and because i didn't want to, my parents didn't make me.

that surgery would've changed my life. i'm not fucking kidding. i'm pretty sure 75% of my physical disabilities stem from not getting that surgery. and by the time i was able to bring up trying to have corrective work again, i was two years from losing my insurance, and my parents procrastinated. now it seems like a pipe dream it'll ever happen.

i get being resentful of your parents forcing you to do things you don't want to do, but god damn, if mine had actually really pushed me into getting braces, my life would be so much different and so much better.

#riot.txt #personal #vent #sorry i'm just. really emotional and maybe a lil triggered #bc SO MUCH of my physical and mental health problems can be stemmed to my jaw #and my teeth.#bc i didn't get that surgery i can't swallow easily. i can't take medication i severely need. my back and neck are bent in ways i can't und #due to lack of breathing. i can't sit up straight bc i can't breathe and that's caused so much damage to me!#if they'd have pushed me into caring for my teeth and my body it would've saved me SO much heartache and pain. i'll have no way of knowing #how different life would be #but i know for a FACT i wouldn't have certain issues i have now... i'd be on mental health medication i wouldn't have chronic pain i'd be #able to function in society without feeling like a burden who'll never be able to get on social security #idk im jst... PLEASE iff you have the chance to have orthopedic work done - DO IT.#if your PARENTS are going to be footing the bill and have good insurance i PROMISE thats a fucking blessing #bc i can't work anymore and the surgery i need that might fix a lot of my life is in the tens of thousands without insurance that i cant bu #anyways sorry to ramble n trauma dump but its my blog and if ANYONE sees this and it helps them or convinces them to get work done while #they can then. idk. feels worth it to be vulnerable :'3 #EDIT: also like... if they'd forced me sure i'd be resentful #but ykw i am rn? even more resentful for the intense medical neglect that stemmed from 'well he doesn't want to so lets not make him'#most kids don't want to go to the doctor. maybe if they'd taken me regularily to a fucking doctor i'd have more answers for what's wrong wm #like... god i'd have hated braces then bc ofc i would i was a kid #but i hate even more now knowing just how fucking NEGLECTED i was as a kid bc they let me make my own choices by going the hands off approa #iunno. anyways. nah on that aita. you're allowed to be upset and resent him for it but GOD he is not an asshole for caring about you #'your body your choice' does not apply here at all. i'm so sorry to tell u this. fdkgfdhgkjdgd #EDIT 2: didn't even MENTION the fact i have dehibilitating chronic migraines and headache that i suspect are directly tied to my poor denta #health!! LIKE. AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK FOR THE ENTIRE DAY #SOMETIMES (OFTEN) MUTLIPLE TIMES A WEEK.#i only JST NOW got access to medicatio to help w it and i CAN'T. SWALLOW. THE MEDICATION THAT PREVENTS THE MIGRAINE FROM GETTING WORSE #I CAN ONLY SWALLOW THE DAILY MED... BC ITS _SO FUCKING TINY_.#aahghghfgdfhgdfjd -puts face in hands-

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arcaneyouth · 10 months

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oh my ass should not be awake rn

#vent post #negative #the doom spiral........ it hit.....#thinking about what i want to talk to my therapist about this week #jobs have been on my mind lately. for a variety of reasons #and thats. a mess. that i cannot solve. and i know she cant help me solve. and no one can help me solve #the more you pick apart the mess and trace back ways to get through or fix it the more problems it reveals #so yeah. been picking it apart in my brain. and now its 5 am #might just. watch some youtube n stay up a while #i think this might be mainly a result of. despite trying to fill my dash with hope and positivity #the bad shit still comes through regularly #and im very tired.#my boundless optimism does know some bounds and it sure is getting close again 😔

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lonelyplanetfag · 1 year

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why am i so bad at Fixing things and Comforting people what the fuck

#maybe. maybe i am taking on more than i can handle #sorry i just. i don't even have the energy to cry but i'm sitting here trying my best 2 fix everything 4 everybody n it's making shit worse #and i feel so so so sos bad #cuz i cant just say 'hey bro i'm actively ******* ** *** ******** can we reschedule?' when shit gets life or death yk #idk it's selfish but i'd like 2 be on the receiving end sometime #i would like 2 be the one getting taken care of pls #only problem is i'd feel rly guilty abt it n apologize 2 an annoying extent #it's wtvr i don't rly have time 2 deal w my own shit anyway #cuz of college n sleep n school n my parents #im Trying but im not trying good enough n it feels like it's me & the bathroom floor against the world

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noxtivagus · 1 year

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zzz gna nap ><

#🌙.rambles #mostly ive just been posting here n then of random stuff irl havent i #gna fix that sometime but for now ill dump n just ramble #im so sleepyyyy #going on twt a bit just now n bb alphy he's just so adorable isnt he #laying beside apollo rn n they rlly love being mean to me but in a rlly cute way somehow #actually so sleepy #seeing my friends earlier in school n all was nice #we got assigned to our secret santas too n the one i'm assigned to is just rlly easy #i cant think of anymore #im rlly so sleepy #BYE ILL NAP 🥹#edit/ bcs i dont want to make a new post #realizing most of my irls do indeed barely know anything abt me 😭😭#as in not like. hmmm. idk this is all /nm #but i realize i.. unintentionally have a lot of secrets.#i hate to be inauthentic but w my most buried secrets sometimes my actions irl n the way i interact w others #end up being painfully restrained or i may. purposely be misleading but not with any harmful intent just so that i can 'hide' in a way #not too deep it's just i have secrets that. me having these wtvr r very likely unwarranted so ill hide so it wldnt create any problems #maybe.. maybe i'm too selfless sometimes i find myself sacrificing aspects of myself for the sake of others #but at the same time idk i feel st times that reaching out or asking for wtvr i want is selfish.#i know better but goddamn this is one reason why i relate to alphinaud ffxiv maybe now after all that im still a bit afraid of my real self #i shld stop that but. there really are some things that. i can't reach out first for myself #this is ambiguous this goes for several things rn #i'll delete these tags sometime bcs i dont want to give this the wrong impression nah #nvm i will delete some tags asap n ill delete the rest later

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agayconcept · 2 years

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#ive been on nonstop phone calls this week and yet theyve all made me jump thru so many hoops i feel like ive made no progress at all #(drs office - several extensive phone calls = on a callback list. we all know that means i aint getting a call)#(vet - many phone calls = insisting i come up with $ for my dogs surgery capital N Now & wont discuss anything else)#(food bank - multiple calls/messages = straight up ghosting me)#(food program i has hoped to get into - several voicemails - no response whatsoever so i guess thats not a thing)#(bank - two phone calls = keep trying to make me pay more and i hung up in a panic bc they keep getting rude with me)#just...how have i spent like 4 days doing nonstop communication & yet out of like 6 or 7 Problem Things only 1 of them has been resolved #i am exhausted and would like to sleep for about a fortnight thanks #except i cANT #cause nothing has been sOLVED #so i gotta make more fucking pHONE CALLS #someone hit me over the head w a shovel #(also theres a typo in this it was *had but im too lazy to fix it. come on tumblr wheres the editable tags update hurry up)

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29121996 · 4 months

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#have been trying tocdoc.y hair since . 9pm . im not do e #i gotta put another coat of dye over it #bc it is so patchy n i forgot how colour works so i need a darker tone for the top of my head #bc i decide to fuck around and find out w lightening cream .#anyway loved the green hated everything else #so will b colour stripping Again in a few weeks so i can . go green :3 #it was a pretty shade but . idk what the fuck to do abt the mess that is . my hair bc i rlly #cant do shit for s wgile #or ay all #its stuck being patchy n shitty for a while but i can make it less Awful n more . put tgth #bc like i may fuck shit up to begin with but im quite good at fixing things #worse case #i send my sister into woolies or smth to get me . like black box dye n i hust do That tmr after work #whuch will 100% turn iut splendid #or i do have dark blue here whicb . i can also do and will cover uo Everything ive fucked up #anyway thatll b a problem for me tmr #i have to wake up at like 10am to fo this n id rather die actyally #i nean i start work at 10 but . this shit takes an gour everytume so if the purple doesnt take the blue will #anyway bleach is a bitch . i shouldve taken my time n had a plan of some kind other than #slapping lightener and calling it a day !#good thing is im not sensitive to this kinda sgit bc it is fixable 😭 like i can jus . go to a salon #n it is Just Hair . ive had worse dye jobs n hair cuts . its just .#idk hos to epxlain ti bc my sister said it looked fine . n while i dont trhst her #sje also does tell nd to my face if i look lile sgit so

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epicdogymoment · 8 months

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duuuude. having a brain that doesnt work properly is so fun

#leologisms #feel so. not even feeling. having stupid bad bad bad thoughts cant even vent about the thoughts because YES it does concern someone here. N #i cant say who and NO i cant tell them directly because its a ME problem that I need to fix for myself. literally nobody elses fault by my #own that im unable to control my feelings and how i react to other people doing completely normal things #and i feel AWFUL for saying this too because 'oh wow look at you wowww you must think youre soooo soooooo selfless for dealing with it by #yourself and trying not to bother other people about it' but also like 'wow asshole you really think other people would actually say that #maybe YOURE the problem for conceptualising of OTHER PEOPLE as these awful mean monsters. you must be projecting. YOURE probably #the fucking asshole here and thats why you think other people actually think like that' and like. i have bigger other actually IMPORTANT #things to be worrying about. that actually affect my life. but no im fucking sitting here thinking about how. how. how. ugh. i still cant #fucking say it <- idiot idiot idiotttttt fucking stupid. btw.#anyway. none of my problems are real theyre literally all in my head. i have a dedicated kitchen in my brain for cooking up new problems to #worry about. always

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apparentlytheproblem · 4 months

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e n e m i e s t o l o v e r s t r o p e - p r o m p t l i s t

these are prompt lists which im so excited to do and share in the future and i hope my list only grows :)

-ˏˋ. dialogue ˊˎ-

"As if you would ever cross my fucking mind."

"fuck you" "when"

“He so likes her.”

“I don’t mind wasting time on you.”

“I feel the opposite of hate…towards you.”

“I feel things…”

"I hate you, I hate you, I hate you"

“I might need more.”

“I’m not…used to feeling this way, okay?”

“Oh - don’t fucking do that.”

"shut up and kiss me"

"such a pretty liar mhmm"

“Took you long enough.”

“We might have been wrong.”

"what did you do"

“What the fuck is your problem?

"where the hell is he?"

"you want me?" "you know i do"

"stop crying"

"stop acting as if you're royalty, join reality."

"this is so wrong-"

-ˏˋ. scenarios ˊˎ-

both of them are in forced proximity because of a crowd rush

internal conflict of being enemies with benefits

fake dating to get someone of their back

enemies but they are shivering and the other offers their hoodie

they make fun of eachother just to keep their attention

they have to work together and they hit a realization on how its not too bad

injured and goes to them to fix up their wounds as they have no where else to go

cant stand that they're ignoring them

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coolcarabiner · 1 year

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i stopped drinking soda for lent and so far it’s been fine but lately things have just been. a lot. and right now i think i might fight god w my bare hands for some Bubbles

#like it's stupid it wouldn't fix my problems but it Would give me a little dopamine #maybe lessen the Weight of Everything. like i don't feel well im so sore all over n tomorrow-sun is going to be. a lot #and im just not prepared all of my feelings are shoved into a little catholic box rn and they're gonna come out like mentos #in the fucking coke i cant have #i know i Could have it and i struggled w even doing anything restrictive bc i have crazy brain but i've been doing ok riiiight up til now #now i am consumed by how Bad things are and i just wanna throw a fit over some fuckin bubbles :(#catholic posting

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nicodaws · 1 year

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. hi irls dont read this pls thanks . honestly no1 read this is so incoherent i just wanna put it somewhere bc im too in my head .

#tw whatever idk #tag later #or delete later idk #anyway hahahahha im feeling so fuckin . suicidal . again .#but like #at least im lowkey scared of it this tiem #idk ive been doin way mor drugs recently and ots kinda freaking me out when im sober bc i dont wanna be that person?#qnd i just feel like im being a person i dont fucking like #like im being mean when im high n tryna fix it sober and also being mean sober n tryna fix it and tryna not make my friend group fall apart #but also kinda the split btween ppl doin drugs n not doin em is half the reason its fallin apart #and my closest friends dont do a lot and im still closest w them but ik theres this split and #i just feel like im causin sm problems and #comedowns keep makin me miserable #oml tanent but had The Worst comedown from ket . and i had a homeless friend crashin w me(theyrehoused now nw) but they were there #and i was having the worst sensory overload misery . and was just sobbing and tellun them 2 fuck off #and it was SO HORRIBLE and i cant BELIEVE i put my friend through that like what the fuck was i thinking #and idk #im just rambling but im scared of addiction and i dont think im there yet but #i wanna be high coz i spenf all my time sober upset w myself #and its all makin my depression so bad and im broke as shit and im just #idk #sorry if u read this #dont worry abt me or anything ill be fine #cant fuck up too bad my mum n sibs will notice and im spending a lot of time worrying about what they would think of me rn #im just really really upset w myself rn i know i did bad on some coursework ik i couldve done well on #and ik im messing things up and ik im worrying my bf and my friends and i #just . idk. im just upset #anyway . yeah . sorry abt this rant

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pizzapizzadickz · 1 year

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I rly want to like. Go sit down and eat and read. But I cannot. Bc I want to stay under my weighted blankets and these are the ones for my bed. So I cannot move them. So I'm not leaving my bed.

#if i leave my bed imma die #i could move n chill infront of the tv and play games #diary #personal #trust me trying to explain my brain process to anyone is litteral hell tbh.#ik the phrase is thought process but i dont wanna go and fix that.#idk im just really. tired and overstimulated i think #so that mean i just cant. idk. like. ik if i do too much today itll wind up with me turninh into an utter wreak.#so like. ill try to prevent that but idk man. i may have a brain n shit but i cant argue with it all that well lmao #i have to keep being like: okay. how about we do this. how about we eat this. etc.#and my brain just be like: no! cannot! its not the exact thing i want. that i also cannot remember/we dont have #seriously send help. bc at this rate i think its turning into a type day.#ugh. i just wanna stay in the dark. with my headphones. n under weighted blankets.#but seriously though. im like and my brain says no bc too much work #and i wanna read. but im not in the perfect mood for what i wanna read and theres nothing short to transition with #I HAVE SO MANY RULES AND ROUTINES N SHIT AND IT CAUSES ENDLESS PROBLEMS NOW BC I JUST DONT DO SHIT NOW #WHY. SERIOUSLY. WHY. JUST. LET. ME. DO. THE. THING.#well. ill probably eat when i figure out the pefect thing to eat. and if its not there thatll probably end me today yknow?#seriously if 1 thing goes wrong today ill probably have a meltdown #LET ME REPHRASE THAT. i am probably one step away from a meltdown as is so like. i am utterly incapable of anything today #seriously. usually i just do nothing on these days. but i need to take care of the bunny later. so wish me luck ig #also. im stimming A LOT lately. and thats pretty much my main indicator that im getting to like a breaking point lmao #haaah. well oh well. wish me luck i suppose.

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afternines · 1 year

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#i mentioned this on twitter circle but i need to repeat myself here just cause i can #i am forever stuck in the befriending someone > getting obsessed with them > getting sick n tired of the obsession > ghosting them n ruining #our friendship cycle #like tell me why im on twitter friend 184726 and ive gone through the exact same process with each n every one of them #currently ghosting my latest friend and it makes me SO MADDSD cause i spent the last few months having brzakdowns in her dms abt how im #terrified shell get tired of me and well stop being friend and ill end uo alone again #and she kept comforting me saying that wont happen!!! shell stick with me forever!!!!! and here i am doing the ol switcheroo ghosting her #I AM AWARE that im so very in the wrong with this because she didnt do anything wrong its just like a switch in my brain clicked and i cant #even look at her username without getting nauseous n it makes me wanna kms bc i wanna dm her so bad but i physically cannot get myself to #do it #which is so stupid like. just fucking click the dm and type some words goddamn #i alr know im gonna lose her over this caus ethats how i lost everyone else too and it sucks so bad bc the problem is MEEEE yet i cant get #myself to fucking fix it #i genuinely dont know what to do #im so desperate to have good relationships with other people but every time i do i just end up sabotaging myself #and im so fucking self aware about it but i cant do anything about its like. staring at a zoo animal from behind the glass except the zoo #animal is also me and its jusr staring back at me with eyes full of anger because im also the person who got me captive behind the glass in #the first place #if that makes sense #n uhhh this is a conversation for another time but im gonna be forever craving and never getting a genuine romantic n intimate relationship #because of how i keep sabotaging shit #sev mentioned this at some point and i was like :(. like i was genuinely upset for them but just now it hit me in the same situation #like i fully understand sev im sorry it took me so long to realise #jesus fuck man. not having a normal brain really sucks

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moonlit-imagines · 1 month

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Headcanons for being the forgetful Avenger

Avengers x reader

warnings:

a/n: it not too long i so sorry

prompt: @glitchy-bean: “Hi!!! I hope you're doing good!!! Could I request smth with a really forgetful reader + the avengers gang? More like found family than anything romantic at all with a teen reader if that's okay!!!”

“well sorry” -you, consistently “i cant remember everything”

“you can’t remember anything” -nat

“yeah, y/n, were you dropped on the head as a baby or something?” -tony

“cut it out, guys. it’s not their fault they forgot thor’s birthday. besides, hes had a couple thousand” -steve

“are you calling me old, captain?” -thor

“at least im not the only one” -steve

it wasn’t just birthdays you forgot

much much more serious than that

rendezvous points, mission details, plans of attack, perp descriptions, where you put your keys, where you put your gun

you name it you forgot it

i mean—not always, but enough for it to be the running joke

“keep your comms on, y/n. not having a disaster like last time when you couldn’t remember whether to cut the red wire or green wire” -tony

“you wish i cut the wrong one” -you

“uh, no, that’s very harsh. i moreso wished you didn’t scare us half to death by nearly digging your grave” -tony

“oh ok i forgot” -you

“who left their macaroni and cheese in the microwave?” -vision

“damn! its cold. and crusted a little. how long did i leave this in here?” -you, poking your tray with a fork “and why are you using the microwave? you dont eat”

“this is a shared space, is it not?” -vision

“he’s got you there” -steve

“you’re just ganging up on me because you’re all miserable and you want me to be miserable too. i’m going to drive one of tony’s expensive cars now, you can’t stop me” -you, storming out

you walked right back in

“what’d you forget?” -steve

“wallet, phone, keys” -you

tony noticed

“where is y/n going with my car?” -tony

“not sure, just out” -steve

“probably gonna forget their turn signal and crash into someone’s car” -tony

as far as missions went, though, you were a bit of a powerhouse so you didn’t really need to be looked after on that front…just had to make sure not to blow anyone else’s cover

“hey, what’s the codeword again?” -you

“check your wrist, kid” -nat

“oh, right…okay thanks” -you

“*gasp* was i supposed to give the signal? i just kinda went in” -you

“ok, who told y/n they could give the signal. speak up now” -tony

*clint loudly snickering over comms*

kinda forgetting what you’re talking about in the middle of sentences sometimes but like, just glitching out

“something smells like it’s burning” -you “my cookies…”

you forgot to set a timer

and forgot you were making cookies

the avengers honestly did find it endearing

just a hyper kid who cant get their thoughts in a solid line

but they’d continue making jabs at you constantly

“maybe wanda can fix your memory problems” -tony

“i will not” -wanda

“oh well nevermind then” -tony

honestly with all your forgetfulness, you worried as you dusted away if anyone would forget about you

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