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tellywoodtrash · 3 years

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ok speed-watched the 3rd nov ep and here are the highlights:

mummy and kabir ka freakout about ragini being alive.

someone in a mask (siya??????) knocking already paralysed riddhima out with chloroform when she tries to make a call to kabir.

kabir sneaking into the mansion and riddhima passing on a message to him in the form of a conversation with vansh, during which she challenges V that she'll steal ragini away from him.

kabir looking 👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽 hey boy are you a family pack of haldiram's aloo bhujia coz you AN ABSOLUTE SNACCCC. (i think there was a convo between him and mummy ki she has to help riddhima so that riddhima can get him to ragini. but i was too busy staring at his neck/chest coz......... tharak. 😜😜😜)

vansh digging a grave in his backyard at midnight like the fucking weirdo he is, and riddhima being like smh really, i got horny for THIS dude???????

some cocky talk by vansh next morning about how his mission for revenge is finally gonna come to a head today and how riddhima should be happy coz this means that they can start their new lives together. followed by some truly savage dahi-cheeni eating that grossed me tf out. this show really doing The Most to make this hot dude absolutely repulsive to me.

vansh instructing ishani to keep an eye on riddhima to make sure she doesn't leave the house today.

ok now that you're caught up, onwardsssssssssss!

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*pink panther theme music playing*

mummy distracting ishani from noticing riddhima in the most Boomer way possible; phone mein app download nahi ho raha, mere liye kardo plssssssss.

“teen saal pehle jo kaam humara fail ho gaya tha woh waapas aa raha hai.” 0.0% surprising revelation that they the ones who tried to murder ragini.

mask person has knocked riddhima out YET AGAIN. THE SECOND TIME IN LIKE, 12 HOURS. DUDE. THIS CAN'T BE GOOD FOR HER HEALTH. Y'ALL FUCKING CRAZY.

oh thank god, dadi is finally back. not that inki kuch khaas chalti hai, but at least these three raisinghania hellions will stop constantly giving riddhima mini-comas every 6 hours, on the dot. yes, i'm fully including siya in it, i'm absolutely sure that she's the mask person now. idk why, but i am.

mummy is like oufff isko nikalna tha aur behosh ho gayi aur ab yahaan baithi juice pee rahi hai manhoos.

riddhima like yup, there's definitely another person here other than ishani who's helping vansh. YEAH IT SIYA YOU DUMBASSSSSSSS.

riddhima doing bukhaar waali acting and i'm sure has hacked the thermometer hum hain raahi pyaar ke style to show temp of 103.

a doctor has been called and kabir has been informed ki riddhima is awwal number ki nikkami jisne saara plan fail kiya hua hai.

but behen is super duper determined and convinced that she will beat vansh no matter what. yeah sis. beat him. beat him over the head with a danda.

lmaoooooooooooooo look at these two smirking at each other over their shady shenanigans. the real love story of this show.

“aise important mauke waste karna hi uska talent hai.” i truly live for mummy's verbal evisceration of riddhima.

kabir sure ki this is part of riddhima's plan. get you a man like kabir who has fulllllll confidence in you. not one like vansh who constantly underestimates you. oh, and paralyses you.

ishani is truly Forever Mood.

gaadi ruk gayi. smirky boys not smirking anymore.

snort. someone’s been watching a little too much ipk on hotstar.

riddhima has picked up a trick from the raisinghanias. aur do issko ideas.

“i'm so proud of you riddhima!!!!!!!!”

i love his snarky asssssss so much.

SHE WAS RUSHING AROUND SAYING TIME NAHI HAI TIME NAHI HAI HAR EK MINUTE KEEMTI HAI RAGINI KO BACHAANE KE LIYE, BUT NOW SHE HAS TIME TO STAND AROUND AND IMAGINE HER TWO BOYTOYS DEBATING ABOUT PYAAR AND FARZ. GODDDDDDDDDDDDD

waise bhi, do hotties ko saath mein imagine karr hi rahi ho toh bhi yeh lameass debate? wouldn't be me. my imagination would have them shirtless and wrestling for my hand in marriage.

BITCH EVERY MAN IS A UNIQUE NIGHTMARE IN HIS OWN WAY; STOP WASTING TIME OVER CHOOSING ONE OF THEM AND JUST GET YOUR ASS MOVINGGGGGGGG

rrahul's angry acting is unbearable.

doctor has to be a dumbass not to ask her why it took her HALF AN HOUR to just give one injection. and what's with the drastic change in eye makeup situation?!?!!?!?! the patient gave you a makeover?????

ishani yeh ghatiya blue lenses hatao toh tumhe dikhe jo mummy ko dikha.

idhar they've literally been standing around doing jack for one hour. in this time, literally 40 autos have passed him and he didn't think to hail even one of them.

EVEN NOW HE'S SCREAMING AT THE CARS TO STOP AND NOT THE EMPTYASSSSSSS AUTOS. ARE YOU ALLOWED TO BE A MAFIA LEADER OR WHATEVER THE FUCK HE IS THAT MADE HIM SO GODDAMN RICH IF YOU'RE THIS FUCKING STOOOOOPID????????

pachchis minute to reach aaaaaaaaaaaaaand...........

yup. this is the choice he makes. wonderful.

riddhima’s new gig as an uber driver has commenced with an auspicious customer.

RACE SAANSON KI.

RACE CHAAHAT KI.

RACE DHADKAN KI.

MY HEART IS RACING ON!!!!!!!!! (because i am very very unfit and have severe anxiety.)

watch out milind soman, you got competition in the hot-dude-running-for-absolutely-no-good-reason department.

ishani knows bhaabi sus as hell and damn near breaking the door down.

but dadi came and took her away. but not before they peeked in and saw SOMEONE in bed and assumed it's riddhima. raisinghanias really got shit for brains.

meanwhile..........

yeah, this looks like it's going as well as i expected.

he just hurt his leg and then when he stood up the pant leg still spotless white.

if kabir wasn't a murderous psycho who wanted to murder ragini himself his righteous anger seeing her haalat would totally turn me on rn.

LMAO WHAT, YOU WANT HER TO TAKE RAGINI OUT WHILE YOU HANDLE THE NURSE?!?!?! HOW DOES THAT MAKE SENSE HOW IS TINY BIRD LIKE RIDDHIMA SUPPOSED TO SMUGGLE AN UNCONSCIOUS WOMAN HER SIZE OUT???? LET *HER* HANDLE THE NURSE AND YOU CARRY RAGINI OUT, YOU FUCKING DUMBASS.

“usse harm mat karna.”

kabir nods yes AND THEN PROMPTLY GOES ON TO SUFFOCATE THE NURSE. MAN, YOU PPL IN THIS SHOW REALLY TAKE UNCONSCIOUSNESS VERYYYYYYYYYYYYY LIGHTLY.

how is ragini's hair so shiny and conditioned and still in the braid after being bedridden for 3 years, when my hair is a fucking chidiya ka ghosla after a half hour nap????

lo, yeh mahashay finally pohunch gaye.

OH SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

oh thank god. idk why i'm so invested in kameena kabir getting away with his shit, but i am. i just like him better.

he knows someone is here and made the nurse unconscious. THEN WHY THE FUCK IS HE YELLLLLLLLLLLING AND LETTING WHOEVER IS TRYING TO GET RAGINI KNOW THAT HE’S HERE AND COMING INTO THE ROOM?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?

pls god can this show free rrahul??? he needs to be in a softboy romantic role where he can flash his puppy eyes and sassy smile. this role is just notttttttt a good fit for him. THIS IS LIKE WHEN THEY MADE OMKARA A CRAZYASS JUNGLEEEEEE IN DBO ALLLLLL OVER AGAIN. IT JUST DOESN’T FIT THE ACTOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LMAO ISKI KHUSHIIIIIIIII TOH DEKHO. truly, nothing makes me happier than a woman who has fucked a man over and made him miserable. and this one toh particularly deserved it also. i know it’s all gonna turn to shit later coz she’ll have ruined some mission that had a “noble” reason behind it, but for now, i’m happy she managed to get at least a small badla for the paralysis thing.

#ishq mein marjawan 2 #immj2 #immj2 lbs #episode liveblogs

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spectrophobias · 5 years

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typed some thalia hcs up for a server, so i’m dropping them here!

- tiny gal. 5’0 and less than 100 lbs. will still kick ur ass!

- takes after zeus more in the looks department, olive skin n dark hair, heavy freckles. her blue eyes are really the only thing she shares w her mom and brother? otherwise, it’s pretty hard to tell they’re related w/o really looking.

- the bitch can't read! seriously! she is functionally illiterate in english due to a combo of learning disabilities + a mom who just didn’t care + leaving home before the age of 10!

- beryl was... not involved in her schoolwork or anything. she was never formally diagnosed w adhd or dyslexia, she never made it past the first grade in school. once jason was born, she pretty much dropped out in favor of making sure he was safe and taken care of

- was definitely in a lot of tabloids as a kid. don't take her fucking picture without warning her. these are some of the only pictures of her from her childhood, so . . . let's not unpack that one tonight!

- super motherly to anyone and everyone who needs a big sister! she's used to stepping up to take that role and she definitely holds herself to a certain standard as far as taking care of other people goes. she feels her best when she's able to feel useful like that tbh

- so on that note she's surprisingly great with kids!!!

- surprise surprise, this is part of why she’s so good as first lieutenant ! she’s like the cool big sister, like she’s unquestionably in charge but she still respects and loves all of her girls and treats them as equals. she’s open to criticism from them, at least and patient in explaining things, and she’s got the energy to keep up with all of them!

- she keeps expanding the hunt, and no, she will not stop. the hunt has tripled since she took over, because she’s here for girls protecting girls!!! she knows there are a lot of kids out there growing up in similarly neglectful/abusive environments to her, and she frequently has girls bounce around to help locate and recruit them! she doesn’t care if they end up with a thousand girls, she can and will adopt them all!

- she will also run herself into the ground for the people she loves. it can be hard to win her over, but once you have her friendship, she'll never doubt you, and she'll goddamn die for you. don't betray that trust. please. i'm begging u. she can't take it anymore.

- she will not, however, sacrifice her well being for people she doesn’t care about. she learned early on that you can’t save everyone and she doesn’t necessarily try to, she gives her energy to those she deems worthy because she recognizes that that’s all she has. and her family always takes priority.

- never used her surname before she realized that jason was still alive for two reasons: one, it reminded her of how bad she fucked up. jason disappearing was a personal failure to her, and she'll never forgive herself for taking her eye off of him that day or for not looking harder. it hurt to even think about. two, she wants no tie to her mother. fuck being beryl grace's daughter! that wasn't going to be her legacy! but...... it's not about her legacy anymore, or her name. it's their name. her and her brother. and they are goddamn cool as fuck, and she's going to reclaim that shit!!

- legally her middle name is beryl but she really will slit your throat if you ever pull that one out. not that she's ever told anyone, but still !

- super duper proud of what a GREAT KID JASON IS but also a little sad that she didnt get to see it

- still thinks of annabeth as her baby sister and loves her more than life itself

- ambrosia tastes like slightly charred marshmallows and reminds her of annabeth n luke ……

- takes bianca di angelo’s death EXTREMELY PERSONALLY. that shit should have never happened, and she feels a little responsible despite not being a part of the hunt at the time? it definitely serves as a reminder to properly train her girls, make sure they’re confident in their abilities and knowledgeable about their expectations, because seeing a kid lose his big sister fucked her up in a real personal way ,,,

- so on that note she’d probably actually die for nico, even if she rarely talks to him

- don’t touch her when she’s upset. she won’t mean to, but u will get shocked.

- ultra respect for percy jackson but please dont tell him

- piercing fiend ! she's got one of her eyebrows done, an industrial bar that's usually got a lil arrow in & a triple helix on the other side, 3 piercings in each lobe, the works ! she's gonna keep goin too lol

- and also tattoos. lil tattoos. none of them are big extravagant pieces, it's more like a lil figure of zoe's constellation on her forearm, a lighting bolt behind her ear, lil tributes to people she's lost and things that make her her scattered all around ! they're all stick n poke, she's either done it herself or had her girls help, and you're gonna see a fair amount of tattooed nine years olds when the hunt comes to visit !

- on that note, she doesn't treat her huntresses (or most demigod kids for that matter) like kids. she doesn't throw the weight of the world on their shoulders like some people out there (LOOKIN AT U, GODS!) but she acknowledges that lil demigods have all dealt with their fair amount of shit and isn't going to baby them or talk down to them. her girls especially, there are """nine year olds""" that are technically older than her, and she thinks it would be disrespectful to treat them as kids. so she's very much in the habit of speaking to kids as adults tbh!

#m; thalia #headcanons #long post #hc; thalia grace

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mijihun · 5 years

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hello hello everyone, it’s me, dat bitch, charlie, back at it again with torturing muses (oops). if you were around during the pre-hiatus times, you may remember me as jinhongmi (among others). was almost tempted to bring him back, but then decided i messed the kid up too much and i am letting him lie. instead, i now bring you heo hyunjoon! the hc1 canon and the worst soldier hydrus has ever seen. there will, of course, be more information under the cut if you would like to read that, otherwise, you can also read his about and background pages. i am going to be messaging literally everyone so you can like this if you want, but it doesn’t matter because you will hear from me. or you can also reach me on twitter (@ppalliwow) (please follow me i have no friends). super duper stoked to be back.

(TW: Child abuse)

heo hyunjoon, 19, younger brother to he hc2 canon, alias of cobra. a solider for hydrus by night and a diligent student at the local uni studying bioengineering by day.

the disappointment and has never done anything to make his parents proud of him. not that he really cares anymore

is useless at his job as a soldier, always messing something up or getting something wrong. he knows he’s at the end of his rope and he’s not going to get many more chances

never wanted this life. was forced into it by his parents. he would much rather be at SNU away from all this bullshit

did actually try and run away to seoul for university, but was caught by his parents and beaten within an inch of his life. was forced into fully joining hydrus the very next day. so he knows there’s no escape or they’ll most likely hunt him down and kill him.

he was forced to kill his first person when he was only fourteen and the event still scars him to this day. it was also the day he found out his parents don’t care about him as his father threatened to kill him instead if he didn’t pull the trigger. and meant every word as he held a gun to the back of hyunjoon’s head.

basically had a really shit upbringing, was aggressively trained to be the perfect killing machine, but it never really stuck.

school was something he was actually good at, however. really has the brain for schoolwork and is a pretty smart dude. graduated high school near the top of his class.

because of the training as a kid he knows how to be a perfect soldier. knows all the pressure points on the human body, how to hurt someone without leaving a mark, how to prolonge torture without killing someone. not that he ever shows it. or enjoys the fact he knows these things.

despite his bookish tendencies, he also took to athletics. he took up parkour and free running in his spare time during his late teens and it’s something he’s become rather good at. he new favorite spot to study is on the roof where no one else can bother him.

not the most sociable person while around gang members, while he can talk and hold a conversation, he usually prefers to keep to himself. he’s the complete opposite at university.

absolutely terrified of the mpd. scared shitless that he’ll get caught and arrested.

though he hates hurting people and tries to get around harming another human at any given opportunity, he won’t hesitate to defend himself if attacked. though he’s never lethal, always missing his shots and instead aims for the legs or arms, something which will make an attacker go down without killing them.

he’s basically a good kid who was forced into this life and doesn’t know how to get out of it again. and is scared every day of his parents, the people he has to surround himself with and the police force.

starter ideas/plots!

it’s late, you are walking along minding your own business when suddenly cobra literally falls from the fire escape you were walking under, almost landing on top of you. he’s in a panic, panting hard, bleeding from a gunshot wound to his side with the sound of screeching tires in the distance getting closer. up to you what you do next

you’re a uni student as well and you’ve seen hyunjoon around the place. it’s a break and you’re walking back to your dorm when suddenly you see said other student climbing up a drainpipe at the side of the building to get to the roof. curious as you are, decide to try and follow him. if you can, anyway.

you made a joke aimed towards hyunjoon in the past about there was no chance he was in a gang because he’s too much of a nerd. however, hyunjoon’s first reaction was to panic, until he realized it was a joke and tried to play it off. but since then, you’ve been suspicious of him and are determined to find out the truth

a while back, you were unfortunately in the bank when hydrus decided to come and rob it. you, of course, were terrified, but luckily for you, one of the masked soliders was rather nice to you. almost reassuring you that nothing was going to happen to you. move to present day and you bump into hyunjoon, but wait??? don’t you recognize his voice from somewhere??

not so lucky for you, you’ve been sent on a mission for hydrus and poor cobra has been made to come along for extra support. with him being the bad solider he is, you’re not too pleased about this. why couldn’t you get teamed up with his brother instead?

you both frequent the same gym and turned into gym buddies

uni friends / study buddies

people who have known him since he was a kid / grown up together

#mi:intro

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idratherstayslytherin · 6 years

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My Drarry Fics Rec (Bc Why Not)

So I though I share with you (all my lovely followers) my favourite Drarry fics/fics that I really enjoyed. Gosh, I’d love to record a podfic of one of those, but like idk. Also, I might make another one of this kind of post. ENJOY.

Lost Children by gracie137

Summary: There's a lot of things Harry doesn't expect to happen after the War but Narcissa Malfoy invoking his life debt to her and asking him to save her son is top of the list.

My review: OMG! This fic has become literally one of my favourites since I finished reading it few days ago. There is everything you need even if you never knew you needed it. There is broken Draco, who is still the Draco we know from the end of the war. He is not at his best as he is almost a dead man. There is Harry who is SO WELL WRITTEN (as is everybody else), He is so cold toward Narcissas’ demand , but then he softens a little while spending time with Draco. Yet he still stays true to his book character, he doesn’t just forgive Draco, he doesn’t try to pretend like things Draco did were okay, and his cowardness doesn’t excuse what he did. The falling in love part is so beautiful, YOU WILL CRY. There is a lot of Lucius hate which I love, Narcissa is also not as nice as people sometimes paint her in her fics. She’s slightly better than Lucius, but still kind of bitch. It’s bc she loves Draco though. AND GET THIS, there is also Blaise and Pansy which are so fucking supportive, sassy, and geniuely good friends. I totally love tchem here. There is also amazing Ron and Hermione. NO GINNY BASHING and beautiful Linny . Draco and muggle things, Draco being responsible for his dark past. THERE IS GORG DRACOS’ REDEMPTION. READ IT.

YOU WILL CRY. DON’T DENY IT. GET A LOT OF TISSUES.

The Sleeping Beauty Curse by who_la_hoop

Summary: When Draco Malfoy falls into a cursed sleep and can only be woken – at least, according to the Daily Prophet, that impeccable source of truth – by ‘true love’s kiss’, Harry Potter knows there’s no way on earth he’s the answer to this particular riddle. Is he . . .?

My review: FUUUUUUCK! If you’re into fake/pretend relationship, a lot of angst, jealousy, humor, redemption and whole lot of wanking then this is fic for you. Harry truly hates Draco at the beggining of this fic and gives no fucks about the Malfoys. CHARACTERS ARE SO FUCKING WELL WRITTEN I CAN”T EVEN.

Draco has a huge heart, but is also a fucking idiot and definitely not a saint. He knows what are his mistakes and he tries to be better. His road to become decent human being and change his views on muggle borns, pure bloods, half-bloods. He pays for his mistakes. He struggles a lot, okay? He just wants to be loved and give love. He is sweet without being sweet, if you know what I mean. He just loves Harry so much and Harry is oblivious af. Harry is pinning really hard, at some point your heart breaks for both of tchem bc there is so much pinning, so many emotions flowing. SO MUCH “COMFORTING” and whole lot of not so phisical comforting. Their relationship is beautiful.This fic destroyed me in a good way. I don’t want to say more bc it ruins all the suprises.

YOU WILL CRY.

No Shadow Taller Than Our Souls by khasael

HEY LOOK THERE IS ALSO A PODFIC OF THAT AND I’M TOTAL SLUT FOR IT BC I LOVE PODFICS AND I LISTENED TO THIS ONE. JUST DONT FORGET TO LEEAVE KUDOS ON THE PODFIC AND WRITTER FIC.

Summary: Auror Potter and Unspeakable Malfoy team up to investigate a series of missing persons, and it soon becomes apparent that Dementors are involved. Despite their initial misgivings, Harry and Draco find that they need each other's help, in more ways than one.

My review: This also may be one of my favourite fics! It’s so gorg I can’t ven describe it. I love Unspeakable Draco and Auror Harry teaming up and working on a case together while they talk about their past and try to understand one another . I LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS DYNAMIC SO MUCH. I don’t want to spoil anything , but I’ll just say that the case is pretty interesting and Drarry’s relationship development will make you cry and you’ll feel this h=fic Warming your heart.

All Life is Yours to Miss by Saras_Girl.

PODFIC

Summary: Professor Malfoy's world is contained, controlled, and as solitary as he can make it, but when an act of petty revenge goes horribly awry, he and his trusty six-legged friend are thrown into Hogwarts life at the deep end and must learn to live, love and let go.

My review: IF YOU DON”T ALREADY KNOW WHO IS Saras_Girl THEN ARE YOU EVEN A DRARRY SHIPPER?! I’M A HUGE SLUT FOR ALL OF HER WORKS. This one gave me so many feels I don’t know if I can process it.

This fic will forever stay in my heart. It starts off by usual Draco/Harry kind of childish rivalry, but when Harry is rushed into the hospital bc of SOMETHING THAT HAPPENS., Draco is there by his side. He feelsso much guilt, but also so much hate, but then something that isn’t hate at all. I love how sweet yet still Dracoish Draco is. He has grown up and you can definitely see that. There is still old Draco inside him. Harry is so in love it hurts, Draco’ s heart might explode from loving Harry. You can feel all the feels. I LOVE DRARRY TALKS IN HERE AND DRACO’S PET. I just love everything about this fic. GO READ or LISTEN TO IT NOW.

House Proud by astolat.

PODFIC BC YES I’M STILL A SLUT FOR THEM

Summary: His house liked Draco Malfoy more than him.

My review: Let’s keep it short. Harry is confused, angry, sassy, annoyed, Draco is annoyed, sassy, kind of a tosser and definitely super duper into scarhead. He doesn’t want to help Harry, but he is forced to, right? That’s why he stays with him for so long. I love their dynamic here.

And an Owl Named Romeo by Rickey

GUESS WHAT? PODFIC

Summary: Draco breeds owls, Harry's an Auror, and an owl named Romeo is going to bring them together.

My review: Um. I totally love “cold” and “totally not interested and annoyed Draco” and Harry who just “wants to know more about breading owls”. I’ll let you figure out why I love this fic so much. ( a little help: PINNING, LATE NIGHT TALKS, FORGIVNESS)

Stately Homes of Wiltshire by waspabi

well… YOU KNOW WHAT

Summary: Malfoy Manor has mould, dry rot and an infestation of unusually historical poltergeists. Harry Potter is on the case.

My review: Sooooooo, I read that a while ago, but I remember crying and my heart breaking. There is so much humor in here as well if I remember well. So it’s a good fic!

Reparatio by astolat

A little AUDIO as you of course need it

Summary: Draco snorted. “I’m not reduced to penury. I want something considerably beyond money, and I rather think you’re the only one can give it to me.”“You want the Invisibility Cloak,” Harry said, flatly. He’d half expected as much; it was the only thing he had that Draco could want—“Don’t be stupid, Potter,” Draco said. “I want my reputation back.”

My review: Draco is really a little shit here. He is so arogant and he is using Harry for his publicity after the war (well kind of himself too) has taken that away from him. You won’t like him here instantly, but you’ll grow to love him, I promise you. The end is just PERFECT.

Landslide by Libby Drew

by this point you should know what is HERE

Summary: Harry Potter disappears, taking a sick Teddy Lupin with him. While everyone searches for their missing hero, Draco's life continues as it always has. Rumors of curses and kidnapping don't interest him. As Hogwarts' guardian, he has only one concern: the strange, miraculous events occurring on the cliffs outside the castle walls.

My review: I’ll just say that Drarry with Teddy is my weakness and I cried through that fic a lot. So just, BE READY TO FEEL YOUR HEART BREAK AT ANY TIME. It’s such a sweet, sad and healing fic. You really should listen to the recording, (BUT LEAVE KUDOS UNDER THE WRITTEN VERSION TOO).

What We Pretend We Can't See by gyzym

for HEADPHONERS (it’s like 12-13 hours, so make some tea, draw, and listen)

Summary: Set 7 years after the Battle of Hogwarts: Auror Potter is summoned to a break-in at a rather eccentric little museum in the house he used to own

My review: THIS IS MY ABSOLUTE FAVOURITE FIC (well one of tchem, but you get me). evrything is so fucking well written, you feel all the emotions, characters stay true to their bookselves. You will: smile a lot, cry a lot and possibly experience heartbreak, but hey! It’s all fun and games, right?

Burning Day: A Tale Of Rebirth by tealeaf523 (ConstantComment)

You guessed it - PODFIC

Summary: Looking for a bit of solitude over his winter holiday, Harry Potter rents a home in Scotland, only to end up in the middle of adventure amongst the snow-blanketed hills. There is a local in Castle Valley who looks uncannily like his Hogwarts school rival, but he has no memory of meeting Harry in the past. However, Harry is determined to find out what happened to Draco Malfoy between his disappearance and finding his new identity as a charming unicorn trainer at the Scotland Unicorn Reservation for Lost Youths.

My review: SO MANY EMOTIONS. A LOT OF FLUFF, BUT THEN ANGST, AND HEARTBREAK, SO MUCH LOVE YOU’LL DIE. Harry is so in love and you’d be like ewejgihwebfhdijwerufyugfuiwrejflkwejrf2q3fuhjefiofc. Draco is pinning hard as well. Harry is confused af here.

Seeing Draco Malfoy by khalulu

If you’d rather listen THEn THERE YOU GO , podfic sluts unite

Summary: It's a few years after the war, Harry is an Auror, Ginny's broken up with him, and Draco runs a "Magical Repairs and Reparations" service. And then there’s Ignatius – devastatingly good-looking, temperamental, and addicted to gingernut biscuits. When Harry loses his glasses in a fight and learns that they’ve landed in Draco’s hands, he’s suspicious. But soon after that, life starts looking up.

My review: Honestly this fic is just Harry finding excuses to visit Draco again and again and I’m in love. I love this Draco so SO MUCH. Give it a read, or a listen if you are AMAZING.

The Moon Looks Lovely Tonight by Omi_Ohmy

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Summary: When Harry moves into the damp and empty Black house, it doesn’t quite feel like home. And then the first owl moves in. After that, it’s a steep slope leading to bed-sharing, more owls, assorted housemates, strange potions experiments, and terrible cooking. And a bit of waltzing, too.

My review: It was one of the first Drarry fics I read (listened, but shhhh) and it holds special place in my heart. I love their road to falling in love. Harry is so sweet I cry everytime I remember how awkward/pinning/caring/sweet he is. Draco is a little shit, but he loves Harry so much. There is Ron and Hermione, Luna and Goyle and they all live at Grimmauld Place with Harry. Honestly, by the end you’ll be sobbing and you’ll feel all the feels, bc our two idiots in love are so in love.

Because Potter Is Allergic to Poppies by Lomonaaeren

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Summary: Auror Harry Potter is in hospital being treated for a curse when someone tries to kill him. Obviously it is up to bored, trapped Apprentice Healer Draco, who was only admitted to the Healer Program in the first place to do the menial work, to find out who did it. Because then they will promote him. No, it’s for no other reason, thanks.

My review: MY HEART CLENCHES EVERYDAMN TIME THEY ARE PROTECTIVE OF EACH OTHER AND DON’T TAKE ANYONE’S BULLSHIT. THEY ARE SO IN LOVE - YOU MIGHT DIE FROM THE FEELINGS. THE CASE ITSELF IS SO INTERESTING YOU WON’T WANT TO PUT THIS FIC AWAY.

Redemption by khasael

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Summary: When Draco runs into Harry Potter in Muggle London, he has no idea how much the chance encounter will change his way of life. How much is he willing to learn about forgiveness?

My review: I listened that a looooooooong time ago, but I loved it and I know that bc hello I made few sketches of our boys just bc I was listening to it. It inspired me to start my art.

The Owl Who Came for Christmas by dracogotgame

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Summary: Draco has a debt to pay off, no matter what Potter thinks. And he has a Very Good Idea to go along with it. Things don't go as planned.

My review: MY TOP FAV!! It’s so fluffy and so funny. Their relationship development is truly a gift to this world. Its such a good ’Eight Year Fic. Definitely fel good fic.

Liar by jad

Summary: Harry Potter and Draco Malfoy always preferred the worst of each other; unfortunately, they had better halves.

My review: THIS HURTS LIKE A BUTT CHEEK ON THE STICK . YOU’LL SOB. ((Infidelity - H/G D/A))

Right Hand Red by lq_traintracks (lumosed_quill)

HOW IS THERE NOT PODFIC OF THAT?!?!?!!??!!?

Summary: Harry felt Malfoy's breath on his lips as they came together over the bottle, hands firmly planted on the floor as though they each needed their familiar soil, refusing to cross into enemy territory. Except that Malfoy no longer felt like his enemy. Malfoy felt inevitable.

My review: GOSH. It’s such a hot, but also fluffy, angsty and feel good fic, if you like party games then you’ll love it!

One Night at the Leaky by birdsofshore

Summary: Harry should have known better than to accept a drunken dare. Especially when Malfoy was sitting right there, looking like that and wearing those bloody tight trousers.

My review: SO MUCH PASSION, SO MUCH ATTRACTION, SO MUCH WANT. Harry might just have a little crush. Seamus is a wanker. All of Harry’s friends know he really has it bad when it comes to Draco Malfoy.

Good Company by Greenflares

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Summary: With Hermione and Ron always together, Harry's return to Hogwarts to complete his education isn't exactly fun. Somehow, it's his unlikely friendship with Malfoy that keeps him sane.

My review: long time no read, but I remember it being fluffy, feel good fic, with a bit of an angst, maybe. I liked it.

Moments Like These by charmed310

Summary: For years Draco and Harry have met twice a month in posh Muggle hotels to engage in a little extra-marital fun, no strings attached. Things take a turn when Draco admits his true feelings for Harry.

My review: OH GOD. YOU WILL BE SO ANGRY. YOU WILL FEEL SO FLUSTRATED, SO SAD. Maybe a little satified. Honestly I don’t remember if this ends well :))))))

(INFIDELITY H/G)

Where Your Treasure Lies by Queenie_Mab

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Summary: Harry and Draco meet again through a journal created by the Department of Mysteries. They face many trials in life together and eventually discover that a love like they have is a force not even death can break.

My review: It’s really healing my heart a little. Okay, maybe a LOT.

Collect Your Courage by mervab

Summary: Potter needs control; Draco needs forgiveness. They shag; Lavender gives advice; they yell; Seamus makes muffins; they fight; and everyone else drinks far too much coffee for their own wellbeing.

My review: LOVELOVELOVETHISSOMUCH. Seamus is such an amazing character here, just like Lavender. They are great friends to Draco. Everything is complicated and they are both oblivious idiots.

#drarry #drarry squad #harry potter #hpdm #ao3 #fanfic #fic rec #fic recommendation #olas's fic recommendation #drarry fic rec #draco malfoy

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fallen-in-a-forest-project-blog · 6 years

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For the tell a story thing. When I was in elementary school I had a small group of friends. It wasn't as much tight knit as it was 'the popular kids don't like us and the other kids don't either so we're stuck in the same place'. I became close friends with three of them. Then, one year two of my friends turned against the other one. They would tease her at first about her crush on a guy in our grade and then for everything and for seemingly no reason. (part 1) -K

I knew from the start it was bullying. There was no doubt about it but still, I couldn’t help myself. I was torn between my friends all of which I wanted to like me. I made a shit ton of mistakes. Sometimes I would support the girl being bullied and other times I would turn around and bully her myself. I felt my own sense of confidence falling away because how could I say I was a good person when I wasn’t? How could I say I had morals when I never acted on them.

I figured out pretty soon that I didn’t like to be terrible. Not because I wanted to be nice but because I couldn’t stand thinking that I was a bad guy. I was and I was but I didn’t want to accept it. I promised my friend who was bullied that I would never leave her and that I would stay by her side. I switched schools without warning the year after. Throughout the years since then I’ve had a habit of waking up in the middle of the night and searching her name.

I was so scared and I still am scared that she killed herself. It’s a weird sort of fear because I haven’t talked to her or seen her for years but she was in a bad state and I feel completely guilty. I was a total backstabber and rumor is she still gets bullied by them. I’ve worked myself into full panic attacks over her but I know I don’t deserve it. That sounds really weird but I don’t feel like I deserve to become a victim when what I did was so bad.

I have this habit of thinking that I don’t deserve to have a panic attack because I’m overreacting or thinking that panic attacks are a good thing. I know in the past I’ve never stopped myself because it seems like a weird way of getting attention even though it’s out of my control. It feels awful and I always feel awful about it but a weird part of me still thinks of it as forcing people to pay attention to me. Anyways, I switched schools. This was my chance to start fresh.

Boy oh boy did I start fresh. Complete makeover. Not physically but personality wise. I was going to be loud and I was going to be energetic and positive and everything that i wasn’t. I was going to be so happy it would annoy everyone. Maybe then people would like me. Some did. I didn’t consciously know it at the time but of course it was all a fake sort of mask. That year I set myself up for years upon years of mental problems.

That year instead of deciding to recognize that I disliked myself and that I didn’t like who I became, I decided to hide everything bad from not only others but also from myself. It feels weird treating the incident in elementary school like a trauma because I was the abuser, not the abused. I feel guilty more than anything else. But it still applies to me. I often wonder how much I hurt her if this hurt me that much but I try not to because I feel guilty. I shouldn’t be hurt

I shouldn’t be hurt by everything but all in all I hurt myself. In fact, I made it even worse. The more time I spent with my new personality, the less it was there. It sorta faded all through middle school until by 8th grade it was obvious. I was completely apathetic. It was hard for me to feel emotions or understand emotions or anything of that sort. The running gag was that I couldn’t feel at all and that I would hurt people because I never felt bad.��

My friends would get mad at me for not caring enough about them. Really, I didn’t care much about anything. I didn’t care about my friends’ wellbeing and I was a bad friend. I didn’t care about teachers. I only cared about grades because it’s the one thing I can do. If I focus hard enough on schoolwork, nobody will worry about me. If I have good grades I must be fine. I buried myself in homework and research and school.

Then I had a big fight with one of my closer friends. He called me a monster. Said I was an apathetic bitch. A robot. Nothing. Inhuman. That’s the first time anything ever really reached me. I had brushed everything off but that. That struck me. I locked myself in my bathroom and cried in the bath tub for hours. Then I decided I needed to change. I just didn’t know how. There’s no help for people who have hurt others. I thought I didn’t deserve help. All I do is hurt people.

That year I got involved into musicals. This is going to sound super duper stupid but that’s what really got me out of this jam. Through my musicals, I found internet friends. A group of 7. Some of the best people I’ve ever met. I also realized some things regarding the musical. The character I connected most with was a main character but a blatantly bad person. He makes mistakes and does bad things but in the end he is forgiven. People like him. It gave me hope.

Around this time, I actually started to remember the events in elementary school. The same part of me that pushed away my emotions also pushed away the events and as soon as I excepted some of the feelings I got the memories. They were completely repressed and it was weird to experience them again. That summer I had more breakdowns than I have ever had in such a small period of time. But, coming out of it, I was a better person. I was nicer. I cared. I felt.

Of course it can’t just end there. That was the summer before 9th grade. I would now be going to a school with new people and new things. I didn’t really consider it before but being suddenly vulnerable wasn’t the best idea. Sure I felt great at the end of summer but by fall I kept getting let down. Sure, highschoolers aren’t the best of people. In the past I always found it easy to make friends, here I had none. I felt almost abandoned.

My crush, who was one of my only sorta-friends and another of my almost-friends started dating. They left me and I felt even more alone than before. I was crushed and fell into my first real bought of depression. I didn’t recognize it at the time but I knew something was very wrong. It was like my long history of apathy but in addition to apathy I also felt wrong and bad. I didn’t only feel nothing but I felt empty. I hated the feelings. That’s when I met my ex.

My ex was nice. He was a friend to me and it was good to know someone was by my side. He helped me get out of my depression rut, at least for a while. I asked him out because I knew he liked me. I didn’t actually like him but I felt bad and I knew our friendship would be over either way. He said yes. We dated for a month and I tried and tried to convince myself I loved him but the fact was I didn’t I just didn’t, and there was nothing I could do. I was depressed again.

I broke up with him after a lot of tossing and turning. It was so bad I couldn’t study for exams. I was crushed. That’s when another of my friends came in. He told me that what I was feeling was depression. He encouraged me to seek help. He was the best of friends and we got so close but I started developing feelings for him. I thought it would ruin things but he had liked me for a long time. We started dating. Let’s just say I’m not very good at this dating thing.

It was amazing for months. We lasted all the way until the end of the school year. However, in the place of depression I developed anxiety. It started as little things but soon I was thrown into nausea by only a text and panic by the lack of one. We communicated and things were working. Until he stopped texting. Or calling. Or picking up my calls or reading me texts and I never saw him in person. He basically disappeared but only to me, not mutual friends.

Before he ghosted me things were breaking down. I got untrustworthy and he lied to me a few times. He blamed my anxiety for making me paranoia. I blamed myself for ruining things. Then he left and for the whole month I blamed myself. It was my fault he didn’t want to talk to me I was just too much work. I was miserable. My friends advised me to break up with him. I waited but he never came back. I finally broke up with him. It was like a weight off my shoulders.

I was uncertain. I was not only anxious and a little depressed but now I had trust issues and a lot more self hate than I started with. Since then the anxiety hasn’t gone away and neither have the trust issues and sometimes I still lie awake freaking out about how nobody will ever love me and how I’ll never be good enough or pretty enough. I still dissociate. Through the whole time I’ve also had issues with apathy. If I got too anxious I shut down completely.

I do hate it sometimes. It’s hard to know that one look in the mirror can make me dissociate and that I can’t go back in time and fix my mistakes. But hopefully things will get better. I have hope that things will get better. Maybe I won’t ever get over what i’ve done but people can change. I can change. I can be better. So thank you. Thanks for letting me share my story and for giving me hope.

-K

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(hope its okay i put it all together as one long message)

Its crazy how one thing in middle school can go on and snowball bigger and bigger. Same thing happened to me, where i would hang out with a couple of toxic friends and now it has developed me being super insecure about everything i do.

Im happy and proud that you are getting hopefull and better! I really hope that continues. Thank you so much for sharing this and have a good day!

Sincerly, mod Sana

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nymph-net · 7 years

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Ok I’m bored so ima tell y’all a wild ass story that happened to me first semester of my college experience; the story of when I got laced by a wild thot with some CRACK. Let’s get into the tea gorls

So I went to art school for communications design. I dont go there no more because it was hella racist, but a different story for a different day. The campus I went to was way up north, in Utica. Never heard of it? Didn’t think you would. Just imagine if the worst neighborhood in Detroit was an entire town with like no people and cows. I don’t know about y’all but at my school we had this thing called late night where we get snacks and shit in the cafeteria after dinner. I was one of 6 black boys in my entire school so it was always dry. So this particular late night I had got a pink wig and started fucking around and giving these crackers some life to entertain myself. My extra ass being who I was did stand-up for the entire night. Since it was early in the school year tho I aint really have no solid friends, so the people who I was gonna go smoke with finished their food and left me like some fucking snakes. When I was done I was deep in my feelings lol because bitch.....you gon spark up.....without me???

I was like “y’know what idgaf, I don’t need you niggas” because I’m likable, right? I could talk to anyone I wanted and make friends. That’s what my dumb ass thought even though I knew damn well these all were some back woods ass white people from Cousin Fucker Nowhere. So I’m standing in front of the dorms like “ok, if I was a white person who loved giving free weed to negroes, what would I look like?” and as though Satan himself heard me, this girl wearing dem Jerusalem B.Cs (you know what I’m talmbout) and a bright jacket that had to be from the thrift store because it smelled like pickled dick and horse radish extract walked past. I was like DING DING DING, gotcha Becky!! So I was like “omg hi sis, I always see you in class and I think your style is so cool blah blah” and all that fake shit. Naturally Linda felt gassed af and immediately offered to let me smoke with her. Yeah, yah boi got it like that.

But mama ain’t raise no fool and I seent Get Out so I don’t go nowhere with a white person without at least one other poc with me. So this couple I’m good friends with now was walking out of the dorms, we just gon call them Peanut & Jelly. They were quiet and both shy people so they didnt hang out much yet. They were also native and latino which was good enough for me so my loud ass was like “Aye, y’all smoke??” it’s 2017 so of course they smoke and I invite them to come smoke some of Margret's weed. Consider it reparations. Since they ain’t have no friends they were happy to come join us. Smh y’all if you see this I’m so sorry I got y’all into this lmao. Anyway Trisha was like “Super duper the more the merrier, let’s go :))” with her wild ass. But I remembered I still had some of my own weed left so we ran to my room and got it, but I ain’t have no bag to carry it in. So Ingrid said “Oh, I have a bag you can put it in” and pulled out this ashy ass ziploc bag. RED FLAG NUMBER ONE. But my clueless ass thought she just had some plaster or some shit in there before since we went to an art school. Smdh.

Shortly before we depart Peanut and I are getting everything together and making sure there’s no smell. While this is happening Jelly watches Rebecca spread some “dust” on her gums. RED FLAG NUMBER TWO. This nigga thought it was candy dust or something. No one in this equation is particularly bright. But anywhore, we started making moves to this parking lot/roof that we usually hung out at. I was hoping my friends fake asses would be there so I could ditch Jill’s ass. Peanut & Jelly I ain’t mind because they were cool once you got them to talk. I could tell they weren’t feelin Harriet tho lol and tbh neither was I but would your ass turn down a completely free spark up??? Didn’t think so. We get to the roof finally and I start checking my jacket to find I forgot my mini bong in my room. So Elizabeth is like “Oooh awesome we can smoke out of my pipe!” and I’m like lol you bougie ass bitch just call it a bowl. But my fake ass just said “Litty gorl, load that shit up!” thats exactly what I get. She starts loading her “pipe” up and I notice both my weed and hers lookin a lil ashy. AND THATS RED FLAG NUMBER THREE

It’s like 11 at night tho and we only had street lights so I didn’t wanna call Susan out and end up lookin a fool if it was nothing. So I just let her do her thing and pull out my lighter so we can make it do what it do ya feel? So we smokin and I’m having a pretty good time. I feel proud of myself and shit for scamming little Mary Ellen and getting a full spark up after my niggas rolled out on me. I’m like “haha bitch you did that and you high as fuck”. Me being the funny nigga I am in my head, I make myself laugh. Then I realize for someone who smokes pretty regularly and only had two hits, I was already shmizzed for some reason. I look over at Peanut & Jelly and both them niggas lookin like

“Already??? Huh, that’s weird”, young nigga Kam thought to himself. But once again it was free weed so I shut my Nancy Drew ass up and let it go. Debra passes the “pipe” to me and I hit it harder this time because I ain’t pay for it so ima get mines. Because I hit it so hard I kinda taste it and bitch, that shit tasted like Mary J. Bliges leather boots and plastic. So I’m like “yo Amanda, what’s good with your bowl the weed taste weird?” And it ain’t like weed has a particularly good taste but I know it damn sure don’t taste like that. Emily proceeds to say “I don’t think anything’s wrong with the weed, might be the other stuff tho” As soon as she said that shady shit Peanut and I’s heads snapped to look at her like “Bitch....what other stuff??”

Jelly at this point is checked the fuck out, like this nigga is walking through space or some shit. That might just be him tho cause that nigga always acts weird when he high smh. That ain’t the point tho. This raggedy Ann ass hoe starts giggling and laughing like someone said something fuckin funny. I’m sitting there confused and high as shit still got the fucking pink wig on, Peanut got her ass riled up and with good reason because we both know we just asked ole girl a question. So Peanut says one more gain “Did you put some shit in the fucking weed?”. By now I think Amber realizes the joke is nay and she’s close to getting stomped out. Here comes the climax of the story y’all. This bitch gon roll her eyes like we being extra and say “lol it’s fine, we just smoked out of my crack pipe and I haven’t cleaned it yet” When I tell you the entire world went silent, I heard SZA wheezing into her microphone miles away. My ass, Peanut ass, and even Jelly incapacitated ass was all like

“...wut?”

Jelly just started laughing like he just heard the funniest thing ever in his whole life. Peanut was staring at Tina like she was preparing her alibi for the police when they find that lil girl’s body. And me, you ask? I was just thinkin bout my girl Whitney. Like sis, is this how it started for you? I was looking at Rachel all hurt. Et tu Becky? All a nigga wanted was some weed and now my ass sitting on a roof high off crack. Suddenly time returns to normal and the only thing my faded ass can muster is a “Pardon me???” Helen continues to chuckle like she Tiffany Haddish up in this bitch and tells us that she smokes crack and weed out of that bowl sometimes, and that we had placed the collective weed in her coke bag. Jelly stupid ass still in the corner laughing to keep from crying because I knew that baby voiced nigga was scared. I’m so astounded at this point that I can’t even drag this wild ass bitch. Peanut however, is not me. Lort I never seen anyone but my momma yolk somebody up so fast! She smooth slid across that asphalt like

Grabbed Ellie, and said “BITCH HAVE YOU LOST YOUR FUCKING MIND?? ARE YOU SERIOUS??” and started shaking that bitch like she was tryna give her shaken baby syndrome. Jelly managed to get himself together enough to try and keep his girl from going to jail. What was I doing? Well I knew I had a choice, I could help Peanut throw Taylor off the roof, or I could help Jelly keep our good sis from catchin a charge. So I chose the smartest option. MY ASS STARTED TO HIT FOOT.

That shit wasn’t none of my business no more!! Bitch the link up is over! The deck is DONE. I could already hear my momma belt whoopin my crack head ass in my mind, no thank you ma’am! My black ass was done for the night. As I’m running back towards campus I hear footsteps behind me. I turn around to find Jelly running behind me, dragging Peanut along by the hand. Chloe however, is nowhere to be found. I ain’t stop running tho. Was it fear, was it anger, was it the adrenaline pushing me to run? Nah I was on crack so it was prolly that lol. We run until we’re two blocks away from campus and I’m finally too tired to run, which surprised me because I always assumed crackheads were just like the enegizer bunny. So we’re catching our breath and I’m tryna keep from falling over because I feel hella whoozy, but I manage to ask “What happened to Bobby?” Peanut proceeds to tell me she took one good fist, and dropped Katy like a bad habit. I was proud of sis too because she’s twig thin and I thought she was meek af. We start walking back to the dorms and all 3 of us are just silent. Ain’t nobody got shit to say bitch we on crack. Peanut and I lived 2 doors down from each other so they go in her room and I go in mine after we say our good nights. I go in my room and my roommate is there with his boyfriend. Immediately my roommate is like “lol you’re high af” and my overly trusting ass gon tell him “This girl laced the weed with crack”. This cracker ass bitch gon look at me and say “oh really.....are you ok?” like I just got into a small argument. Like nigga....I GOT LACED WITH CRACK DO I LOOK OK???

So I sit down and start watching videos on my laptop to try and distract myself from my anxiety because a nigga was SHOOKT to the core. My roommate and his boyfriend were just watching me like I was a good ass episode of something. I don’t blame ‘em tho, I looked wild af. I was twitching, teetering, and sweating like shit even though it was late September in upstate New York. Now this fake ass bitch gon take a snapchat video of my crackhead ass trippin and put it on his story for everyone to see. Needless to say after that day ain’t nobody fuck with Molly ever again. One good thing did come out of it tho, Peanut, Jelly, and I became real tight after that. And what became of Becky you ask? She made sure to steer clear of all 3 of us and my friends lol because they threatened to cut that hoe. Moral of the story children? Don’t trust white people.

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Belle Rose Beauton -- Character Sheet

and the heart is hard to translate / it has a language of it's own / it talks in tongues and quiet sighs / and prayers and proclamations in the grand days / of great men and the smallest of gestures / in short shallow gasps

but with all my education / i can't seem to commend it / and the words are all escaping me / and coming back all damaged / and I would put them back in poetry if i only knew how, i can't seem to understand it

Archetype — The Caregiver Birthday — May 6, 1993 Zodiac Sign — Taurus MBTI — ISFJ Enneagram — 5, the Investigator Temperament — Phlegmatic Hogwarts House — Ravenpuff Moral Alignment — Neutral Good Primary Vice — Envy Primary Virtue — Kindness Element — Earth

Overview:

Mother — Charisse Beauton (nee Dubois) Father — Maurice Beauton Mother’s Occupation — famous ballet dancer Father’s Occupation — inventor/clock worker Family Finances — lower middle class, verging on poor Birth Order — only child Brothers — none Sisters — none Other Close Family — none Best Friend — Persephone Acheron (deceased), Hades Acheron Other Friends — Haku (deceased), Howl Pendragon Enemies — Yubaba Ono (deceased), Gaston La Beau Pets — Philippe, palomino percheron, 16 birthday present. He is 10 (b-day 2007). Vincent, black kitten, almost two. Baskerville, Black Shuck, and Bearer of Death, hellhounds. Home Life During Childhood — Happy, until her mother died. Her father fell heavily into depression, so Belle pretty much raised herself. Town or City Name(s) — Swynlake, England What Did His or Her Bedroom Look Like — The same as it does now, for the most part. Floral wallpaper (white with light blue flowers), blue bedsheets, lots and lots of books. She has a window seat that looks out over her back garden and the forest beyond. Any Sports or Clubs — Nope. Favorite Toy or Game — Books, always. Though, she loves puzzles and taught herself to play chess (she used to play against herself to learn, isn’t that sad?) Schooling — Secondary education only. Favorite Subject — ??? All of them?? Maybe literature or history. Popular or Loner — Loner. She was popular with the boys, but it made her uncomfortable. Important Experiences or Events — Her mother’s death, her father leaving her. Health Problems — None. Culture — Smalltown English, Magick-friendly upbringing, French (but not much.) Nationality — French (mother) and English (father); born in France but raised in England. Religion and beliefs — She didn’t grow up religious, but she does believe things happen for a reason, that there is some Greater Purpose.

Physical Appearance:

Face Claim — Emilia Clarke Complexion — perfect porcelain. She’s that bitch in high school who never had breakouts, but also wouldn’t care if she HAD basically she does not deserve her perfect skin. Hair Colour — Brown Eye Colour — Blue (with a golden ring around the pupils) Height — 5’2 Build — Belle is smol, kind of plump--definitely not skinny by any means, curvy. Tattoos — none but not particularly opposed Piercings — ear piercings Common Hairstyle — ponytail, belle almost always has her hair up, it is much more rare to see it down, though she usually has a couple strands that hang around her face because she wears the same ponytail for like two days straight sometimes and it just is a mess. Clothing Style — conservative, belle always wears her blouses buttoned up and doesn’t wear sheer clothing often. She usually wears skirts/dresses unless she’s riding or just having finished riding. Mannerisms — she plays with her hair a lot, tucks pieces behind her ears. She also folds her hands in front of her and fiddles with them if she is feeling especially nervous, but when she’s focused she can become super duper still to almost an uncanny level. Also, she bites her lips a lot. Usual Expression —

Health:

Overall (do they get sick easily)? — Nope! She’ll get the occasional sniffly cold, but that’s about it. And she absolutely loathes being sick. Physical Ailments — None. Neurological Conditions — Anxiety, but it’s pretty manageable since she’s generally a rational person. She can logic her way out of a lot of her triggers. Allergies — none Grooming Habits — Belle doesn’t necessarily have bad grooming habits, but she definitely isn’t particularly concerned with being clean all the time. After she goes riding she’ll hang around in her dirty clothes and it doesn’t bother her. Sometimes she skips a day showering, eh whatever. She’ll wear the same sweater like two weeks straight and not even notice. Sleeping Habits — Belle is a light sleeper but it is easy for her to fall asleep, as long as she’s comfortable. In strange places it could take her a while because she’s not used to it. She sleeps curled up in a little ball on her side usually. Eating Habits — Belle loves fruit, especially apples. She’ll normally have an apple for breakfast that she eats as she walks to work, makes herself salad or a sandwich for lunch (sometimes spoils herself with Hatter’s). And always cooks dinner. She’s a by-proxy vegetarian. She’ll eat meat but since Hades is a vegetarian she’s kind of phased it out of her diet. Exercise Habits — Goes horse riding almost every afternoon without fail (fight me this is 100% exercise) and she walks to and from work 6 days a week. Emotional Stability — 7 out of 10. Belle has her moments and she’s not entirely secure, but on the day to day she’s very good at taking things as they come and going with the flow, even if it upsets her later. There are very few things that trigger an extreme emotional response from her. Sociability — Belle can be quite friendly! The only times she really withdraws are if people are awkward/mean/standoffish. Then she has to analyze everything she says. It’s less shyness than a worry of saying something wrong, which is why when she’s comfortable with someone she will definitely chat their ear off. Body Temperature — Always cold. It’s a good thing she’s got a furnace for a boyfriend. Addictions — none Drug Use — never has, probably never will Alcohol Use — very occasionally; she’s only been truly drunk like 2 or 3 times in her life

Your Character’s Character:

Bad Habits — not thinking she’s good enough, also bites at her nails sometimes, also is kind of absent-minded, she leaves dirty dishes in the sink. Good Habits — very caring, always looking after everyone. Best Characteristic — compassion Worst Characteristic — letting people walk all over her in order to be nice Worst Memory — oh gosh there are so many lmao uhh probably when Persephone died (the first time) Best Memory — the beach with Hades Proud of — her shoppe, her riding skills, her intelligence Embarrassed by — oh gosh lots of things but nothing like super concrete? Everything depends on the situation Driving Style — doesn’t drive, would like to learn though Strong Points — her compassion, her tenderness, her somewhat uncompromising nature Temperament — generally mild tempered, unless you rile her up and then watch out Attitude — she can be a little snobbish, but not on purpose Weakness — easily taken advantage of due to her trusting nature Fears — people leaving her, being useless; otherwise she’s pretty brave in the face of things Phobias — doesn’t have any, really. Secrets — uhhh her boyfriend is lord of the dead? Uhhh Belle doesn’t really have concrete secrets, but she doesn’t share her life with many people. Regrets — Letting Persephone die, not going with Hades when he exorcised Cassandra, not getting to say goodbye to her father. Feels Vulnerable When — she is alone Pet Peeves — people telling her what to do Motivation — to prove to people that she’s not useless Short Term Goals and Hopes — to be fuckin’ happy Long Term Goals and Hopes — she does want to travel eventually, and go back to school Sexuality — Belle is probably on the grey-ace scale, she’s not entirely interested in sex, though she does enjoy it when she has it. She’s definitely demisexual, and straight like 95% Day or Night Person — Day, but she’s become more of a night person Introvert or Extrovert — Introverted, unless you know her well, and then she’ll talk your ear off Optimist or Pessimist — Oh, definitely an optimist, it’s very hard to get her to feel defeated

Likes and Styles:

Music — Belle likes classical stuff, she doesn’t listen to a lot of music, but she’d probably like acoustic stuff more than anything else Books — lol im not even gonna start Magazines — pfft magazines, you mean fake books? Kidding, she likes things like the Times and National Geographic. Things that keep her plugged into the world. She has no use of tabloids Foods — Apples! Those are her favorites, but she loves fruits in general, and vegetables--she eats a good deal of salads. Drinks — Belle likes hot water with a little bit of lemon and honey, or tea, or water with a bit of lemon, she’s not a fan of sugary drinks, though she takes her tea with a bit of cream and one spoonful of sugar Animals — her favorite are horses, but Belle likes all animals Sports — Horse riding! Honestly, I think she’d have fun kicking a football around or going swimming Social Issues — Belle is extremely liberal, her motto is “as long as you’re not hurting anyone you can do whatever the hell you bloody feel like and no one should be able to tell you no.” Favorite Saying — “Don’t judge a book by its cover”, cliche, but so true for Belle Color — Blue! Jewelry — She has her mother’s costume jewelry that she wears to parties, otherwise she wears simple pearl earrings on the day to day and maybe a necklace (she has a lovely cameo necklace that she wears with relative frequency). Games — Loves chess and crosswords and things like that Websites — Pfft, she’s not a big internet person TV Shows — Doesn’t watch TV Movies — Doesn’t watch movies either Greatest Want — to be needed Greatest Need — to become confident

Where and How Does Your Character Live Now:

Home — the house that her father left her; it’s a three bedroom cottage in the southwest side of Swynlake. She’s got a few acres of land too on which she has a little stable and a field for Phillipe. There is a lovely, overgrown garden in the backyard Household furnishings — Old, but not entirely outdated, she’s just never updated them. The floor is warped and the chairs in the dining room are rickety, but it’s cozy, even if everything is mismatched. There are clocks everywhere--clocks that tell time forwards and backwards and only move every hour and move way too fast. (Only one works properly, it’s in the kitchen, above the sink.) Favorite Possession — Her books. Most Cherished Possession — Pictures of her mother Neighborhood — She doesn’t have any neighbors near enough to see from her house because everyone has plenty of land. Town or City Name — Swynlake, Wiltshire County Details of Town or City — around 6,000 in population; university town; farmlands; magic friendly Married Before — nope! Significant Other Before — nope! Children — Opal Acheron, daughter (FC: Gravity Blue Smith/Mackenzie Foy), born: February 15, 2019 Relationship with Family — estranged from her father, who is her only family Car — none, does philippe count? jk Career — bookshoppe owner Dream Career — something that involves excitement and travel Dream Life — traveling the world and doing good in some capacity Love Life — dating Hades, though she hates the term “dating”; they’re very in love, even if it isn’t always happy or easy Talents or Skills — excellent horse rider, extremely fast reader, super smart, super analytical, a pretty good nurse, tbh Intelligence Level — very intelligent, almost to the point of accidental snobbishness Finances — she’s got like 5,000 to her name, make of that what you will.

Your Character’s Life Before Your Story:

Past Careers — none Past Lovers — none, though many people tried Biggest Mistakes — not speaking out more Biggest Achievements — she says none lol

#character sheet #about #inspiration #these keep getting longer #bc i keep ADDING CATEGORIES #i need to chill #also i scREAM about my fc on the daily #ugh my lil honey #i love my belle y'all

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Meant for a Life With You

Chapter 3: How Far Will She Take It?

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Seth’s point of view:

The bag of ice was now completely melted but my face still hurt. It was about 4:00 am and I was dozing in and out of sleep. I decide it’s time to go get coffee from the little kiosk they had, but before I can make my way over to the cart, a doctor I hadn’t seen yet walks up to me. He's an older gentleman in his 60’s, with completely gray hair. He had to be at least 6’5” because he towered over me. His lab coat says ‘Dr. Jeremy Thompson M.D.’ over his pocket.

I look at him hoping for some kind of an update, some good news, anything “Are you the man that hit the woman with his car?”

My face falls, this can’t be good. “Yes” I reply with a small voice.

“Don’t look glum son, miss Harris is awake and in very good condition.” He smiles.

My knees almost give out I'm so glad to hear the news, I almost don’t believe him. “Really? She's going to be ok? That's amazing! Thank you for tell me, you're the first to update me since I got here!” I smile and hold my composure while trying to hug the man. A weight is off my shoulders. I didn't end her life.

“She is also asking for you.” He says raising an eyebrow.

And my heart drops. “I would love to see her. I'll be saying sorry to her for the rest of my life.” I run my hands through my hair because of the nerves. He walks me to her room.

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Nikki’s point of view:

Dr. Thompson, comes in and tells me that, “There is someone here to see you Ms. Harris.” I hear him warn Seth that I just woke up so the drugs are still in my system and strong.

He walks in. There he is. I’m furious. I’m so ready to scream at the top of my lungs at this moment but I know that I can’t.

“Look who it is, Nikki.” Aurora says from her chair next to my bed. She is sitting to my left.

He makes his way over to my bedside on my right slowly, unsure of what will happen next he says to me sheeply, “Uh, hi there.” he pauses. “I just wanted to say how very sorry I am for what happened. And I hope you'll let me pay for all of the hospital bills.”

“Well hello to you too handsome.” I smile as if I were highly intoxicated and grab his hand. I think to myself ‘Fuck, fuck, fuck, I'm holding his hand. The very hands that I worship and think naughty things about. Also he smells good as hell.’

“Look you guys… it’s my very yummy husband.” I say putting extra emphasis on the yummy. This statement causes Seth’s eyes to turn bigger than his entire face. He looks back to doctor Thompson, then back to me. His mouth hanging wide open. He tries to produce words but he’s in such shock.

“Tell him what you just told me Nicole.” the doctor asks of me while standing by the door and smirking.

I slur my words to be extra convincing. I fakely giggle. “OH baby, I was just telling my new friend Dr. T. here about how you just surprised me by buying a house for us.” I put my pointer finger up in the air and smile with my eyes barely open “And also I was bragging to him about… um….” I pause and blink slowly, “ oh yes, that we just got off our honeymoon in… uh wh--where was it?”

Lisa answers for me from the foot of the bed “Paris remember?”.

I raise my eyebrows in realization and giggle again, “Oh yes thank you Elle,” I smile. I take a long pause again, “You sir spoil me you know that. Taking me to Paris.” I reach out for Seth’s hand again. “And oh my god I can’t forget the best part! Damn was the sex great.” This causes Aurora to choke on the water she was drinking . She starts coughing uncontrollably. I look at the Lisa, “This man, I tell you,” I poke Seth in the chest while still holding his hand, “is great in the sack. ”. I throw my good arm up in the air, “I’m sooooooo lucky to have him for the rest of my life.” I extend the ‘so’ out for just to be a little extra. I close my eyes and grab his arm again pulling him closer, hugging it like a pillow. Keeping my face rested on his arm “Baby?” I tug on his arm like a child. “When can we go? You know how much I hate hospitals…” I release his arm and scratch my nose, “You wouldn’t believe me when I tell you how uncomfortable this bed is compared to that new one we just bought.” I pause. “No offense Doctor!” I say unnecessarily loud

“It’s fine hun, don’t worry not my choice.” Doctor Thompson replies.

I turn to Seth and tug on his arm. “Plus I want to go see the new house. I haven't seen it yet. We were on our way there ya know.” I look to Aurora now that she's stopped coughing. “But then some idiot decided to hit me with his car.” I huff and blow upward causing my baby hairs to out of my eyes.

“Um…. uh I uh…. I don’t know.... I uh, I have to talk to the… uh doctor first. ” he releases from my grip and stumbles backwards. “I’ll just be one second.” He grabs Dr. Thompson by the lab coat and pulls him out in the hallway. All I can hear is muffle voices after one of them closes the door. I lay back and smirk as everything was going so well so far.

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Seth’s point of view:

I pull the doctor by the collar of his lab coat out to the hallway, “What the hell is going on here?” I basically whisper scream at this man.

“Well, Nicole has suffered memory loss from the amnesia she came down with because of the blow to the head. This was most likely when her head hit the ground. ” the doctor says to me. He continues, “And I believe her brain, in shock from the blow, was trying to process remembering everything the amnesia made her forget. And her mind must have made up fake memories to replace the real ones lost from the trauma.”

“What does this mean? She’s not even my wife. She’s a total stranger! What are we-- what am I--- supposed to do?” I ask extremely panicked.

The doctor sighs. “Well right now her brain is very sensitive, we don’t want to confuse her or stress her out. This can have detrimental affects on her mind long term, so it’s critical that we just go along with whatever she says.” He starts reading his clip board.

I can barely process his words. “So… you’re telling me… that I now have to pretend that a complete stranger is my wife until her memories comes back?”

He nods “That’s it.” He looks back up at me from the clipboard and smiles. “It could be worse. She seems like a lovely girl who really enjoys your company.” He smirks and raises and an eyebrow. He pats me on the shoulder while chuckling and walks back into her room.

I squeeze my fists and shake them at the sky and groan. After composing myself, I walk back into the room with a fake smile, I try to prepare for what is about to happen next.

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Nikki’s point of view: After the two men leave the room.

Aurora finally recovered completely from her coughing episode “Damn bitch and the Academy Award goes to…”.

Lisa follows up with “You’re pure evil you know that? I’m having such a proud mom moment for sure.” she fakes wiping away tears, causing me to roll my eyes.

“Thank you ladies, all those acting classes I had to take for ballet finally came into good use.” I smile extra evil.

“Now the real question is, what are you going to do? How long do you plan on keeping this up?” Aurora asks.

“I’m not sure yet. I don’t want to be too mean, it was an accident after all, and he does seem genuinely sorry.” I start to really think about it. “So I’ll just try to get at least one overpriced meal out of it.”

“There ya go baby,” they both chuckle, “Thinking economically, good job.” Lisa jokes and gives me a thumbs up and winks.

Just then Dr.Thompson walks in, he gives me a nod just as we planned to do when he convinced Seth what was happening was a real medical condition. This made me chuckle lightly. Seth follows behind him and comes into the room smiling. “Theres my handsome husband,” I hold my hand out indicating for his. He seemed slightly hesitant, but gave in.

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Seth’s point of view:

I take her hand after pulling up a chair to her bedside. This was it, after hours of waiting in agony to know if she was alright, I finally get to talk to her. “How are you feeling?”, I finally get a chance to look her into the eyes.

“I...uh feel super sore, and uh there’s a super duper bad pain on this side when I move,” She points with her hand still in mine, “it feels like I’m getting stabbed a gagillion times by little baby knives or something. It kinda sucks.” I sound like a drunk child at this point

“Is there anything I can do to make you feel better?” he asks. His eyes show all of his regret.

I look around the room like I’m checking to see if the coast is clear. I wave for him to come towards me and whisper, “Come closer.” he leans in, and I ask quietly, “Can you get me some more of these drugs? They’re pretty damn great.” I smile and chuckle as we both pull away.

“ Ms. Harris I already told you...” the doctor starts.

“I already used my allotted amount for the hour. Yes, yes I know.” I look back at Seth “There’s way too many rules in this place.” I roll my eyes.

“How about something to eat or read? I can go raid the gift shop for whatever you’re in the mood for.” He smiles while looking at me in the eyes and my heart drops into my toes.

“Uh-- um “ I stumble with my words because of how gorgeous he is, “I’m craving uh lemonade. No, no, no, baby…” I brace his arm, “strawberry lemonade,” I smile still slurring some words. “And I would love for you to surprise me with ever cookies they have baby.”

He looks at me and smiles at me with that smile. That one that melts my goddamn heart. He stands up and says, “Ok, I will see what I can find.” he releases my hand and walks out of the room.

Dr. T turns to me “I’ll be back in a few hours to check up on you my dear. Get some sleep ladies.” he winks at me and heads out.

“You two should go home and get some sleep. My prince charming will take care of me.” I smirk. I look back and forth between the two of them. Their faces were full of worry. “I will be fine, the apartment is like three seconds from here, it will be ok. I’ll text you if there’s any news or change. I promise.”

“Child...”, Lisa slowly shakes her head and continues, “you don’t really expect me to just go home and leave you like this.” She crosses her arms being stubborn like always.

“Lisa… She’s right, ” Aurora starts, “We should get some sleep and come back tomorrow so we’re not exhausted. It will just be better if we go home, this room is too small for all us, plus the nurses and doctors.”

“Fine. But I will be here the second the visiting hours start.” she says sternly while standing up. Aurora follows her lead and we say our goodbyes.

The second they leave, I close my eyes and try to fall asleep. Within minutes I pass out.

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Seth’s point of view:

After I leave Nikki’s room, I search for her food. After about thirty minutes I finally find her strawberry lemonade and cookies. I buy something’s to keep myself busy in the room while I wait for either her memory to come back, or her recovery to be stable enough to come home. As I’m leaving the gift shop I see Nikki’s friends walking toward the exit. I smile and awkwardly wave as we past. The smaller girl with long black hair turns around and I hear her say, “Hey!” I bite my lip hoping she’s not about to yell at me, but I brace for whatever is about to happen and turn to face her . “She really likes those trashy celebrity magazines, they’re her kryptonite.” she point to the rack in the gift shop.

“Wow uh, thanks, I appreciate the tip.” I look at her and smile sincerely and realize something, “I didn’t get your name.”

“I’m Aurora, Mike Tyson over there is Lisa or Elle,” she points to the one responsible for my aching jaw. She's standing about ten feet away from us with her arms crossed. “But it’s whatever you prefer.” She smiles “We’re going to head to our place, we’ll be back during visiting hours in the morning with some of her stuff. We’ll try to make the room look more homey when she comes out of all those drugs.” She smiles again

“Ok, I’ll see you guys then.” I wave again.

“Oh and Seth...”

“Yeah?” I raise and eyebrow.

“Carnations are her favorite flowers.” before I can reply she turns around and is out the door.

I walk back into the shop and buy everything Aurora told me to. As I walk back into the room I see that Nikki is asleep, I sigh in relief. I walk up to her bed and lay everything out for her just in case she wakes up. I aggressively slump down in the recliner chair on the side of her bed. I push the button and it lays almost completely flat. My face ends up right next to hers, I yawn while I admire her face like the work of art it is. I can’t help but to stare. My breath calms and I mutter, “God damn.” just completely taken aback by her beauty. At least my new ‘wife’ is the most gorgeous women I’ve ever seen. I can’t wait to meet her not on all those pain killers and other drugs.

And with that thought I fall deep into sleep finally giving my body what it wants.

#seth macfarlane #seth macfarlane fanfiction

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insugarush · 7 years

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Prelude Part II: Wings Tour in Seoul 18th & 19th February 2017---The Process

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Prelude Part I

Prelude Part II: Wings Tour in Seoul 18th & 19th February 2017

Part 2: The Process: Bias, Accommodation, Permission, Tickets, Visa, Letters—In that order!

Now that I was an established and a very public Army (my family couldn't fathom my obsession—they still don't—but it was no secret) like everybody else, I was devouring the endless content BTS and BigHit keep us happy with, constantly. 24/7. They would make my day brighter. Bring a smile to my face. Make me laugh out loud. Make me tear up. All in front of my laptop. YouTube was my new best friend and I carried around electronics wherever I went because come on—it becomes an addiction and you start getting withdrawal symptoms when you go even a day without them! I am not the fan-girling type, but boy oh boy, did BTS convert me and convert me hard! They have this special gift of making each and every one feel so up close and personal with them. I’m sure I’m not alone in thinking this..they brought out this protectiveness in me that I only reserve for my closest and bestest friends. I wished the best for them, wished to protect them, wished to do things to help them.

I was so upset when I came across that video of RapMon and Yoongi being dissed by Bfree or whoever the hell he was.

Lets not even talk about Flower Boy Crew or whatever, one look at Kookie’s face on an article that spoke about his mistreatment and I refused to watch it.

It still makes my blood boil. Sometimes, I stay up thinking of ways to exact revenge on those assholes, excuse my French. Ugh. Anyway. Moving on.

What I’m trying to say is, the connection was real and intense and unbreakable right from the get go.

Lets take a moment to talk about biases because it's a rite of passage isn’t it? One has a bias. One loves all 7 babies equally, but one always, always, always has a bias that makes one’s knees weak. It may come as a surprise to you (my name is insugarush after all), but my chosen bias within the first few weeks of being a newborn Army was Jungkook.

He was cute and his moves mesmerized me and there were endless videos about how adorable he is and also contradictingly manly and oh-so-talented and he likes Noonas (yayy small victory there) The Golden Maknae had caught my attention and I was pretty sure that would be it. I remember being annoyed at Suga while watched Summer Package thinking “Why is he so lazy” “why is he so sleepy and grumpy” “Jungkook is so cool” “He hardly even has footage”

This was before, of course, I knew about how hard he worked and all his issues. All older Armys will remember Suga used to get little footage earlier even in variety shows as compared to the rest of the boys, probably because in the pre AgustD era he used to be more reserved and just generally more quiet and not this funny, spontaneous, carefree, fun person we see today (touch wood) (may God always keep him this happy and give him more and more reasons to be with every passing day)

But this is what I tell people. I didn't choose Yoongi, Yoongi chose me. Much like life and fate and other small, inexplicable things that ultimately come together to form the bigger picture. I don't know how it happened, during which show or concert or bomb, but way before the BST comeback, suddenly, my radar picked up on Yoongi. I couldn't look past Yoongi. Everyone else faded into the background and it was just Yoongi Yoongi Yoongi for me. All his charms came to the forefront and suddenly the same videos I watched and got annoyed at earlier now became super-duper cute and I just entered this black hole and just…you get the point. He destroyed me. Ruined me for life. It was 2 weeks of Jungkook and then Yoongi was like “bitch look at me” and I was a goner. He STOLE my heart people. STOLE it. And now its his forever. <sigh>

Sliding into my bias list like.

Anyway. I had made up my mind. BTS was true love. I had to see it till the end. The moment even just the rumours started circulating about their world tour, I promised myself I would attend one of their concerts. I promised myself I would make it work somehow! Do what it takes. Go wherever it’s easiest to get permission. I think that was still around their comeback sometime in October, because there was no official announcement yet.

Once it was announced the easiest target for me was LA. I had family there and visa, and also a fellow Army cousin sister, so it was literally just about booking the flight and getting the concert tickets, everything else would be taken care of, and my parents would be satisfied. This happened on 19th November. As expected it was easy to get permission from my family, and I got super-duper excited because I really thought this is gonna happen! What I didn’t expect was issues cropping from my family there..it seemed they wouldn't be around at that time etc etc…my heart was broken people. Into a million tiny pieces. Its one thing knowing you can never go, but another getting so close to going, seeing literally everything work out, and then having to cut out that dream and throw it away again. My family tried to make me feel better saying there would be a next time and there are so many concerts to come but I was sad. For exactly 2 days. Lol.

Like I said, I don’t give up. For a moment, I considered trying for Newark. Same country, different coast, but I had friends so it might work. Worth a shot! I was desperate. I just didn’t want to give up. The next day I got talking to another cousin whose in Dubai and we decided amongst ourselves that it was now or never. Forget anywhere else, we MUST go to Seoul for this. There would be more concerts, true, but this in particular was a special one! This one had all the boys’ solos and it was a next step, the end of one era and the beginning of a new one and the first concert was in Seoul. We must go. And it HAS to be Seoul because we have noticed the level of interaction the boys have with KArmys (obviously because of no language barrier—though int Armys get their own perks in their concerts)

21st November I booked accommodation online on my credit card. I didn't tell a soul, just me and my cousin, without permission, without tickets, flight OR concert—just pure faith that I need to make this work. The only thing on my mind was---people will flood the city and even if we get permission and tickets and visa, maybe there would be no room for us in Seoul because everything would be sold out! Lol. The mind is funny when it panics. Of course the whole city wouldn't have been sold out! It was a BTS Concert, not Olympics! But in my mind it was just as big, if not bigger.

I made sure I booked rooms that can be paid at a later date, took a wild guess at the dates (we had the tour dates I just booked 2 days before to 2 after) and it came down to $1000 for 2 rooms, max 5 people. Not a bad deal if you do the math!

Permission. Now this was a whole other ordeal. If most of you reading this are from India, like me, then you know this is not normal yet. Letting your daughter travel all the way to another part of the world just for a concert, to watch 7 boys you don’t know of, just doesn’t happen! All I can say is, I worked hard people. I concentrated on not making my parents angry. Doing whatever they wanted. Missed out on things I wanted to do so that I do what they want of me. When I was in sufficiently good books, broke the news to them that this was the goal I was working towards. I’m not the type to ask my parents for things, they could see how badly I wanted this. “No way” my dad had said. “I am not sending you to another country alone just with another cousin sister.” He did get convinced finally when I added desperately that my cousin’s mom might be joining us too (she had no plans but it sort of became a conditional permission) I promised him I would pay for my accommodation, concert tickets and any expenses on my own. All I need from him is permission and air tickets. Lol. This is how we compromise people! I didn’t dare breathe a word about how I had gone ahead and booked accommodation without his knowledge. What he doesn't know won’t hurt him! :P

Concert Tickets. This made me cry. I am not kidding. This was the most stressful part of this entire ordeal. I kept reminding myself how much I love BTS and how this will all be worth it in the end. I give 100% credit to my cousin sister, who btw, hadn't even taken permission from her own folks yet, but worked with everything she’s got to secure tickets.

First we tried the normal way. The date and time were out, the website was in Korean, but still accessible. I got one of my best friends who also happens to be a Korean to help me out. She lives in New York but she agreed to wake up at 4am to book our tickets for us..I filled her in (“BTS? Now who are they? Are you over Kim Hyun Joong? Park Bo Gum too? Good Lord you are not faithful”) We did a trial run before the actual day of booking. We navigated the page, downloaded the app, etc etc. We decided the 3 of us would try and book together from India, Dubai and New York, and whoever gets through, great! I had heard horror stories about tickets being sold out in minutes and didn’t want to risk it. I was fully aware that I would cancel all my plans if I didn’t get tickets.

On the day of the tickets opening up for sale to the general public, I was traveling. In the middle of nowhere. Somewhere around Mysore Palace to be exact. Everyone reading this from India knows we are not that lucky with internet, specially on the highways atop mountains, but I was carrying my stuff. We were out with another family and everyone was very hyped about this. One of the boys had asked me, “Who ARE these people that you’re going all the way to Korea to see?” I am proud to say I made an Army fanboy right there once I made him listen to Fire and then Dope. I prefer making people listen to the songs first so they don’t judge on the basis of appearances.

My throat was dry and my heart was pounding, I had everything ready—laptop, net, credit card. My friend from NY on the other phone with me, we’re all waiting for the sale to open. The minute it happened, all 3 of us on 3 laptops in 3 different corners of the world started frantically trying to buy tickets. We wanted the stands, BTS only. We all made it as far as seat selection page, but after that it just. wont. budge. For all of us! We tried and tried. I thought maybe it's the internet. I did everything I could! But the seats just wouldn't get selected. I saw the seats dwindle IN FRONT OF MY EYES. It went from 300 seats available to 150 available to 50 available to 10 available to finally---sold out. I called up New York and Dubai hoping and praying they have something—nope. Same story everywhere. I wanted to cry. I was just broken. I mean..I had done everything possible, but it just didn't happen. It dint work for all of us! At the same time! What does this even mean?!

I was so sad. Like so sad. I remember everyone trying to cheer me up, and me just reigning in my tears because we were traveling with another family. I couldn't even grieve properly. I just left that to it but refused to cancel my hotel yet. I could cancel in Feb without being charged so I just..left it. Mostly because it would break my heart to do it.

Unable to make the selection after coming this far--^

The next day we got information that some tickets are going on re-sale on the same website at midnight. AGAIN we sat. Again we got stuck at the same place. Again we saw the numbers dwindle and dwindle till they got sold out. Again. Now I was beyond frustrated. How can this happen 2 times in a row?! How have the others got their tickets?! What are we doing wrong?!

I realised too late it was probably a website thing, we should have tried the app the second day. Just didn't strike me till the tickets got sold out again right in front of my eyes! That helplessness and frustration is something I can never forget. And I felt worse when I realized the solution, just 5 minutes too late. Should have used the bloody App.

This time instead of being sad, I was filled with anger and determination. I’m gonna do this somehow, I vowed to myself. This was mid December already. My cousin sister and I started working on finding re-sellers on Twitter and on the Korean re-sale sites. We tried KoreanBuddy, koreanshoppingservice..dude I don’t even remember! I just remember a lot of Korean websites, Google Translate and Stress, that's all. We did our research, checked up blogs on how buy re-sale tickets, what to look for to find out if it's a fraud etc etc. We found a legit site called TicketBay and a bunch of people selling at insane prices ($400 for a $100 ticket) and finally decided on one seller and bought 2 tickets. This is January 10th already..the concert is a month away, and we’re still buying tickets. No one at home knows about this yet. My cousin did all the leg work..many people backed out, many people asked for payments in advance. We got lucky that the only girl we paid in advance turned out to be true, we were desperate at that point and only wanted to score tickets. I had decided even if it's a loss, it would be a secret I would take to my grave. Once we secured that, we became more relaxed. The girl was to meet us 1 day before the concert and hand over tickets, she seemed honest and sent loads and loads of proof before we took that leap of faith! I would strongly advise better decision making abilities people. We got lucky. We sent her money on PayPal, she could have turned out to be a fraud and run away with it and couldn't have been able to do jack..but again, we got lucky.

Just so you guys get a modicum of an idea about how messy this thing was:

Kind of proof to expect:

Trying our luck everywhere:

Being suspicious little bitches because come on--money!

Just an idea of how frustrating it all was:

Then we started actively working on Air Tickets and packing. Now my cousin decided to START getting permission, lol. It was much more stressful for her, she’s younger and it was a long and drawn out process, but she managed finally. Her mom and sister wanted to come along too, so that worked out for all of us! I’m glad I hadn’t cancelled my 5 seater accommodation in December! But Air ticket prices had shot up, and I ended up paying $1200 for my tickets instead of $600, which I could have if I had booked earlier. But I was waiting for at least concert tickets and my cousin to sort out her permission issues!

An idea of my packing list:

All of January was very, very stressful. Trying to find re-sellers is a pain, and trying to figure out if they are legit is even worse. Everyone had their own demands. Some we could and some we couldn't meet. Someway down the line we decided that now that we’re going all the way to Seoul to actually watch the boys, it would be a shame to just go one day. And hence the whole process of looking for more tickets re-started! Ugh. Ugly! But now that at least 1 pair was secured, we were okay with people wanting upfront payments on the day of the concerts and meeting us outside etc etc…worse comes to worst, they would ditch, but at least we would still have our money with us! One girl did ditch us btw. She suddenly stopped replying on 19th morning, on the DAY of the second concert, but thankfully my cousin had another back up contact lined up. Seriously, kudos to her! She managed the tickets on her own.

In total I ended up paying $600 for 2 tickets for both days as late as late as January 16th, that was just me. My cousin paid additional for her 2 tickets! The first pair of tickets we got delivered to my cousin’s friend in Korea, even that BigHit sent out the physical tickets so damn late (10th or 11th February I think?) that our hearts found no rest till the tickets were in our friend’s hands! We picked those for 18th up on 17th night, and additional 2 tickets with upfront payment for the 19th also the same night. Another extra ticket 19th morning, just before we entered the arena for the second day.

A picture of the delivered ticket that finally put us at ease!

It was sticky and messy and oh-so-stressful, I just remember being constantly stressed right from December to February when I actually left. Of course worth it in the end when we got to see the boys, but I strongly recommend downloading the app and using it every damn day if you have to, just get familiar with it (Interpark) so when the time comes you are prepared about how to buy your own BTS tickets at stock price!

I’m glad I got to see the boys but I could have easily saved $1000---which would have meant that much more merchandise or maybe even an additional concert in the nearer countries if I was feeling a little too ambitious with my parents and permission! :P

We hardly had a week to go before leaving for Seoul now, and that was mostly spent in trying out outfits to pack, making itineraries (I have done extensive research guys, please ask me what you want to know, I can probably become a guide in Seoul if I want by now). I listed down things I wanted to do/places I wanted to visit/food I wanted to try, area wise in my diary. Which mode of transportation to take, which card to buy that would work on Subways---etc etc. I sort of tried taking responsibility for this because my cousin had managed all the ticketing mess more or less on her own.

So my last week was spent in that, and the fan project I randomly decided to start. Things actually fell into place so late, that by the time I initiated the fan project there was already too less time to spread the word or go about it in a more organized manner. But thanks to all the lovely, lovely Indian Armys who helped me out so much by spreading the word, sending in their letters and artwork, and even cover page for me, it worked out! I spent the last 2 days in India editing and compiling the book to BTS, I wanted it to look nice and I really, really wanted to take all your lovely words to them. Some of those letters were so touching that I remember feeling like I was intruding by even reading them. Even after I reached Seoul airport, I was working on the book, marking up the letters etc. The final result turned out really nice, actually! I will write a whole other update for that, because the sort of drama that happened there deserves a post lol.

For now, just glimpses you’ve already seen on my Twitter @insugarush:

The pages on which I printed the letters:

An array of things while compiling <omg you guys are SO talented>

The actual book..!

Soo for anyone who wants to know..this entire thing took me about 3 months of insane stress and planning and about $3000 in total, which included escalated Air Fare and Concert Tickets, Hotel Tariff, Visa and even expenses in Seoul. It's an inflated figure and I’m sure you can manage with waaay less if you are smart about your bookings!

A lot of people emailed me when they heard about me going to Seoul for the concert saying how lucky I was. Yes, maybe 1% of it was luck but trust me guys---I worked freakin hard to make this happen. Against all sorts of odds. I could have given up long ago, at the first sign of it not working out, but I kept pushing. What I want to say is…please don't feel its something that will never happen for you. Its just about charting out a way and trying your best. At least give it your best shot! Don’t give up in your head, before you even try, just because it seems impossible. If it really doesn't happen after that, no worries…at least you tried! Even I couldn't have imagined all this would work out. I think about how I was so close to going to LA or Newark---but I’m so glad I pushed for Seoul. It was the culmination of a whole lot of efforts, not just luck..

Me, finally on my way to see my boys!^

Sorry for the long post, and once again, thank you so much for your patience. I know I’m taking my own time, but I want to update properly and in detail! Sorry if this post was too long or boring, send me feedback on Twitter @insugarush and I would be happy to inculcate it in my next posts ^_^

Stay tuned!

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Episode #1: "I'm ready to punch a bitch." - Timmy

I swear to god... If y'all cast any of my enemies I'm gonna DIE. I need a chance to STRIVE AND NOT DIE.

Omg getting in the game feels soo amazing, like I have said I have not played in sooo long so i feel this will be the ultimate test for my capabilities, the good thig is that not many people know each other so that’s good. My idea for the first day is just to talk to everyone see where they are if they know anyone etc etc. This is just veery exciting!

Feeling good about my tribe, most people have actually talked which is a big plus. Getting good vibes from Shea, and Miguel, and Federico a bit. If Alyssa is the Alyssa I know she’ll be fun to work with too. Still though, early days on the Kato beach. First challenge is kind of annoying though as some of the items are ??? But I’ve done some videos and I’ll try and do more.

WOOO the game has started!! I'm excited for the most part except.... THERES TOO MANY TUMBLR FACES HERE. I wanted an entirely new slate and a whole new cast for me but I guess that's a rip! I know Alyssa, StephenW, Zach, Timmy, Jess, and TJ!

I think that the idol system is definitely cute!! And I want to get an idol so yeah!

I think I'm hitting it off pretty well with Zach (He's probably good with peeps tbh), and Liam (Even though I confused his intro with Daniel's)

The challenge is a scavenger hunt aka my least favorite challenge so thanks, I hate it!!

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I can already tell that this is going to be an interesting season just based on the people that I already know coming into the game. I'm happy that on my tribe I already know Tim, Jess, and Zach so that should be good for me for at least the first few rounds. I don't really want to stick with the people I already know though because that's boring. I'm happy Alyssa is on the other tribe and not my tribe right now because I have no intention on working with her because people love doing whatever she says in orgs and I'm not here for it. If we get onto a tribe together or both make it to merge, she is my target and I won't be quiet about it. Might as well focus on my own tribe for now though. Besides the 3 mentioned before, I have only spoken to Karthik who seems alright so that's good. Only issue is that he's like 10.5 hours ahead timewise so that's going to be interesting. I still need to talk to the others but all in good time.

hie girlies this is my first confessional of the SEASON! as always, i'll just give a typical analysis of each person on my tribe, how i vibe with them, etc. i'll also throw in some random pieces of info i guess woo. this is finna be long btw.

jess - she's a likeable queen but she has a big tendency to leave me on read. i think this is either her thinking i'm boring but i'm not sure. ik in TS guyana she was criticized at FTC for being lacklustre in responding so i'm hoping it's just that opposed to something on my behalf. she's really cool tho!! karthik - karthik is short in response sometimes but never leaves our convo on read, which i respect. he seems to know that i won embb9 + am 'really liked' in the community.. he rlly is delusional huh? jk ASKGDS he's great tho. i know my friends like him and he can be a great player so i'm anticipating working with him hopefully. stephen - stephen is a king too. he's someone that probably would know some of my game ig but... who knows. he's relevant in EM. our conversations have been fun and i'm really hoping to get close to him because he seems chill. timmy - i know timmy from tumblr. currently he's not that great socially but i do like him and we have a long ass snapchat streak. there are a few tumblrs in this game but afaik i don't have any bad blood with him so i'm def planning on roping him in. the most recent thing is he backdoored my mom's duo in his last org AKSGLDSG so... stan list. daniel - daniel knows me from a past org that i put no effort into, which i think is fine because i really only made it far since my duo/partner dragged me. i'mma play up a perception with him, but he is really cool as of now. i am SOOO worried that i did something bad or mean in that game and he's going 2 haunt me LOL. tim - tim is the person i've connected with most. he's really chill, actively messages me back, and is just fun and flirty. we've already talked about him and his potential boy, our favourite cereals and overall eating. i know him from tumblr too, but vaguely, but i was apart of the 'evil friendgroup' whereas he was on the other, 'nice friendgroup', but i'm hoping that has minimal impact if any. liam - liam is fine. i know him from FB but we've never interacted. he knows i played egypt so... if that's his perception of me.. i'm FLYING. he's really nice though + is a fellow canadian, so i'm hoping to get close to him. woo!! ally - saving the best for last. ally is really nice and i do like her a lot. she is sweet and like... we're great pals ?? ASGKDSG jk idk. we played a game together where i immunity ran final 6 onwards and voted her out twice (f4/3) and it left a bitterish taste in her mouth (but rightfully so for how i handled it). we are friends but i'm scared that she aint finna let me far. idk. i want her out soon bc she could do damage but i'd also be 10000% down to work with her again this game. WOOO idk. love u ally.

so that's the cast assessment. as for other stuff... well... the games fun. i hope some peoples lack of activity is just my paranoia rather than them hating me, because i don't want to come off as aggressive or anything, and in fact, i want to tone it down slightly this game AKSGDSGL. some dynamics/(matt please forgive me)meta this game include: alyssa / jess - a loyal duo in TS guyana. tim / stephen /// timmy - all tumblr girlies. not sure how close they are. i think stephen/tim were part of the 'nice friendgroup' on tumblr iirc. ally / fede - obvious friends, they literally FLIRT in the public VL (jokingly i imagine). they're both nice tho so maybe i make it a trio?? daniel / tj - rlly good friends i think. they're both zwooper kiddos and i think i played with both in that one zwooper game i played, not sure tho. will do research. miguel / liam / shea - idk how close they are but they are all FB-ish people so... i imagine they may have some thing. ally / karthik - i think

there's prob more but that's it for now. i'm not going to focus my game on that meta ^ whatsoever. i just need 2 keep in mind who's with who and who has some friends from before. idk. just a good mental note type thing. every game is a new slate tho so i'm not holding any preconceived notions abt them.

i really love everyone on my tribe thus far. can't wait till i become a bitch tho... i hope dat dont happen AKGLDSG

So, I'm really happy to be here. This is my 3rd or 4th time applying so I feel ready and excited to play! I was super happy to see Alyssa on my tribe as we get along super duper well. I like my tribe overall.

This first challenge has me a bit nervous. I started my new job today and they didn't give me a very long break for the hours I worked and my ankle and knee are really acting up (I broke my ankle in like 2014 and my knee in 2016 and they still hurt a lot sometimes). I'm worried because I'm not sure if I'm going to be physically able to like dance around and do crazy stuff like that. It sucks that the first challenge is something I can't physically.

I'm just hoping even if I don't do the best in the challenge that I can kind of make some strong social ties so I'm not the first one out if we lose. I feel really good about Alyssa, Luke, and Jake right now. My strategy is always just to be in everyones good graces. If nobody wants me out, I won't leave, that's the goal.

I was finally able to get part of my submissions from my challenge submitted and I plan on doing more tomorrow. I have been speaking with most of my tribe mates and I'm liking them a lot. I did get a bit of a late start so I'm worried some alliances might have formed but, it's all part of the game. I have good relations with Shea and Jake and I hope to further relations with Miguel and Federico so I have some solid foundations to work with and so I can hopefully have some numbers in case we go to tribal. I'm also proud of myself for going on camera multiple times for the video portion of the challenge as it was something I would have never considered doing in past orgs I have played.

I'm not the best with confessionals, but I'll try my best! I'm quite enjoying these people so far, and I've really connected well with Zach, Jess, Ally, Karthik and Tim. That being said, I don't wanna really worry about allies just yet, winning is the first priority.

So me and the tribe are getting along pretty well! The challenge is going ok so far but I still want to try and win! It seems as if we lose its Karthik.. but who knows!! Its time for fun pals and gals.

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Talking with Luke about not wanting to go to tribal first but I’m low key channeling Aubrey and would love to solidify an alliance as early as possible, which tribals help with.

I'm sad that we lost although I expected to lose and I'm actually quite glad that Karthik got sent to the basement. This means they are safe without me having to campaign for them. The person with the 2nd lowest score, Timmy, should be on the chopping block to my knowledge. I'm lowkey ok with this bc he doesnt contribute much to convos…

Ahh this game has been amazing for me so far! We won the immunity challenge so I won’t have to vote anyone out! I have made genuine connections with many people in the tribe and I got kind of separate deals with, Stephen, Federico, Shea and Luke so I think they have my back. I have also talked a lot with TJ and Jake but no deal or alliance have been made with them. But as a group I don’t have like a group of allies yet just 1 on 1 alliances. In case we lose I would try to vote out either Isaac or Alyssa.

First day is over, and I can't be more relieved. I love the fact that I cannot be the first voted out, and even more, I love that I feel as if I've made some good connections so far. I really think Alyssa and I will be able to work well together. Yes, we have some stuff to work out from before, but I want it to work out such that we can work together throughout this game. I really like Federico and LH, and I'm hoping things stay this way for the time being. I'd like to keep winning, but when that time comes that we lose, I need to be ready.

Okay. Buckle up bitches. It's story time

Just kidding..

So far I'm trying to connect with every single person individually.

Being put on a tribe with the guy who I literally got out in another game less than a month ago is a mood.... I'm working EXTRA HARD on making sure Tim likes me and trusts me. I'm going to use the fact that I'm a loyal a$$ bitch here and hope he thinks I would ride to him to the end (Honestly I probably would. I LOVE TIM).

Other than Tim the other people I'm vibing with so far are my two Canadian QUEENS: Zach and Aly. Aly seems like she can pop-off at any second but so far she seems like someone I can work with going forward. Zach on the other hand needs to STOP BRINGING UP GUYANA. For some reason he's praising me which NORMALLY I'D LOVE because I don't think the words: Jess, Praise, and Guyana have ever been said....but he's putting a target on my back.

Other than my Canucks... I really like Stephen but he's intro SCARES ME. He seems like he's going to cause some chaos down the line...

Everyone else has spoken maybe about 30 words total to me? so yikes.

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Well we just lost the challenge ;( I’m hinestlg not feeling too safe at the moment. I was one of the lower scoring players on the tribe, and the lowest was sent to the basement. Right now I feel like a sitting duck. But on the bright side, I think I made a decent connection with Zach and Timmy. So I’m just gonna talk around find out a vote. If it’s not me yay! If it is, then I’ll just have to somehow fight my way through it :p

Woooo first confessional!! I'm liking the start of this game, and I've decided to take it a bit lighter than past games. I'm here to have fun. This doesn't mean I'm not ready to strategize, but maybe the lighter tone will help me not fall under the same mistakes I always make.

I'm getting closer to Miguel and Shea, which is bad if you consider they were the lowest scores in the challenge... They better start getting more involved in this!!!

The fireplace is on. The tea is warm. I'm getting cozy, and I'm not gonna move any time soon…

So I've gotten a chance to talk with most of the people on my tribe. Right now, my closest ally is probably Karth. We have an established history of working well together, and right now, were searching for the idol together. I'm also pretty close with Ally and Zach, and trying to get closer with Jess, though I can't tell if she thinks I'm too gamebotty or not. Ally, Zach, and Jess also seem to have some kind of relationship with each other. Idk if it's an alliance but it's something. In light of this, I'm going to be trying to get closer with Tim, Dan and Liam. I think Tim and Liam know Jess though so that might be a hurdle I need to deal with. Someone I've left out of this discussion is Timmy. I've talked with every voter so far except Dan, and they all seem okay with letting him go. There's always paranoia that they're all just playing me, but I really doubt it is gonna be the case here. My biggest worry now is what position I'll end up in if we keep losing challenges.

HELLO. Okay so we won the Selfie Scavenger Hunt which is GOOD. Someone I don’t know got sent to isolation for the other tribe but that’s fine. TJ and I were kind of on the same page of sending Jess to keep her safe which is good that we are!! She’ll be fine though because she did the best in the selfie scavenger hunt, unsurprisingly. Haven’t really talked game with anyone besides TJ because there’s hasn’t yet been a need to, but I’ve been having personal conversations with most of my tribe! Isaac just messaged me today which I think is the last one. But yeah! Things are going okay! Woo!

So me and Jess are officially aligned! I shared my idol grid with her and we talked about our tribemates. I really haven't connected with everyone but I have at least talked to them. It appears as if the vote will be Timmy unless someone magically pulls out the idol and plays it on him or the vote somehow flips on to someone else. The scary part is that Timmy is being quiet asf.... and I have no idea what is up his sleeve. The basement twist is gonna be really scary next round if we lose and someone can be sent back to the basement twice in a row…

omg hii.. i love my tribe so far tbh!!! i feel close to zach, karth, stephen, jess, and liam. i feel like i’m in an okay spot. i feel a lil weird about playing with a couple of these ppl again - zach and i played in ts and he killed me in 3rd and won the game, and i played with stephen in embb4 and as, i got him out in embb4 and he got me out in all stars lol.... i’m hoping no past game beef comes into play but we’ll see! i’m voting timmy out this tribal, he hasn’t said a word to me so... Shrug Emoji. hopefully everything goes according 2 plan ! i’m glad karth was “exiled” cuz i think he would’ve been a target and i don’t want that. i’ll do a more in depth and full cast analysis l8r~

Oh Timmy.. I want to keep you safe but I also want to take out any possible people Alyssa can work with in the future... you made the mistake of telling me you brought her into the ORG world jkjk. Sorry <3

ON THE REAL THOUGH.... I can't stick my neck out for someone on DAY 3. If the tribe wants Timmy's neck I gotta help deliver it. I just wish he was more SOCIAL because he would def be someone I would like to work with <3

I came into this game, saw Shea, and had an absolute fucking breakdown djdhdjdj. Like who am I? I need to get it together and push in the challenges because I didn’t help with the first one at all because seeing Shea just did something to me? Like? I’m going to try to put more effort in moving forward but right now I feel like Aubry in Kaoh Rong when she had that attack, hopefully I can recover as well as she did.

Why is Daniel trying so hard to save Timmy akdjsjs. Just... let him go in peace plz... also I'm Timmy starting to talk to people for the 1st time since the day of the vote..

I'm ready to punch a bitch. I have no idea what is happening with this tribal and I just hope it's not me. I keep hearing about the "majority" and people want to vote with the "majority" but nobody is saying who it is and what it is just that they don't want to be the one to say a name. So I'm being forced to say Liam because that's easier than Stephen even though Stephen was the one saying my name, but honestly it is what it is, I haven't spoken to Liam so I don't care that much. I just don't get why people play if they're just going to hide behind someone else because that's so stupid, like just play for you. I'm not just saying that because they're going against me, but like where has Liam been and also Stephen is the most vocal right now and he is going to be a problem later on, I can already tell.

Timmy is voted out 6-2.

#episode #escapenow

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